#ym@6 fanfic

[mayoiayasep]

atp if my brain isnt going to let me do any school work i might as well just try drawing and writing. like if im not getting shit done anyway i might as well have fun

[your-averagewriter]

"Smile for me, darlin'"

Summary: After a relationship announcement, (y/n) receives endless hate from fans for no reason. She locks herself up in an empty dressing room before Josh goes to find her and help her.

Word count: 1.2K

Warnings: kissing, bullying, mention of death threats and suicide baiting but actual threats etc are not mentioned, panic attacks.

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Here I am. Sat on the floor, my knees to my chest and head in hands. I've pushed myself up against the wall in the corner of this plain room. It's a spare dressing room because one of the support acts had to pull out but we had already booked it. It's similar to the other ones, it's four brick walls painted white without any windows and a lone table stands weak at the side of the room. 

I feel the tears keep flowing as I scroll through the comments sections. The relationship announcement posts made by Josh on his various different social media: Twitter, Instagram and Tiktok. We made the posts and he didn't post anything until I was 100% happy with the posts. I was happy with them, I thought the posts were sweet and we were happy to announce it to the fans after our hidden relationship of over a year. The announcement had been a long time coming but I still had that little voice in the back of my head. What if the fans don't like me? What if they hate me? I was so concerned about the possible backlash but I kept pushing it aside. I wanted people to know, I didn't want to have to keep sneaking around and I wanted the fans to be happy for us but that didn't happen.

I scroll through the comments to see fans making fun of my appearance, my voice, and anything they could really. I open my Instagram DMs and Twitter messages to see endless streams of hate and bullying. It's overwhelming and I can't bear to look at it anymore but I torture myself anyway.

"Why does he even like her? What does he see in her?"

"He's too good for her."

"She's so ugly though-"

"She needs to leave Josh alone!"

"Why does she sound like that lmao."

They're seemingly endless and just keep coming, I refresh and there's more and more and more.

Eventually, I muster up the strength to throw my phone away from me. I look at the discarded technology with a sour face as another wave of emotion bombards me. A whole new train of thought.

What if Josh breaks up with me because the fans hate me? What if he finally sees that he's too good for me? What if he thinks I'm ugly and breaks up with me? These thoughts become more upsetting than the original comments. I wipe my eyes with the palm of my hand and I can feel the trails of mascara left behind on my tear-stained face. I run a stressed hand through my hair, moving it away from my face and over my head.

I push myself up against the wall as I feel myself slipping and tuck my knees into my chest and bury my face in them. My breathing is erratic and I feel my heart beating out of my chest. It was just a picture of me reading a book with my cat with a sweet caption from Josh. Why do I deserve to be hated? My mind spirals whilst my heart races until I hear a soft knock at the door.

I attempt silence, holding my breath and biting my lip to prevent any sounds from leaving my lips.

"(y/n)?" I hear Josh's voice from the other side accompanied by another knock. There's a pause before he speaks again. "Darling, I know you're in there…" I stay silent hoping he gives up and leaves. I love him but I can't face him right now. "(y/n), I'm coming in okay?" He pauses again waiting for resistance. "I’m coming in." He opens the door slowly and I finally blink, releasing my tears from the prison they call my eyes. "(y/n)?" He asks softly, my figure now being revealed.

He quickly moves to sit down next to me, against the wall.

"(y/n), what's wrong?" He asks worriedly and I look up to face him. My face shows the paths the trails of tears took to flee from my eyes and the shakiness of my hands portrays my nervousness. I try to explain, but all that comes out of my mouth is rushed breathing and bad attempts at words. "(y/n), breathe. Breathe, love." He says, holding my hands and simulating breathing, urging me to imitate his breathing pattern. I try and blink away the tears as I steady my breathing. "Okay, let's try again." He suggests and I nod, biting my lip to stop the tears.

"Can you…" I clear my throat. "Pass me my phone?" I ask quietly worried that if I speak louder, the tears will start again. He nods, passing me my discarded phone.

I unlock it and open Instagram first. I open the comments section on the post and pass him my phone so that he can see some of the comments. He looks at them in horror and my eyes assure him that that's not even the full extent. I take the phone back and open my DMs to reveal a whole new layer of hate. I missed them the first time but mixed in we're a few death threats and suicide-baiting messages. I look upwards, blinking away the tears as I watch his eyes start to water too.

"Are you gonna break up with me?" I ask timidly and he just looks at me shocked.

"No! Why would you think that?" He asks, desperately grabbing onto my hands. 

"Your fans hate me." I point out, voice wavering. "They've made that obvious." I sneer.

"Why would I base my opinion of you, my girlfriend of over a year, on some messages from people who I have never met?" He asks like it's obvious.

"Do you think I'm ugly?" I ask miserably looking into his eyes for the first time.

"Don't listen to those fucking idiots!" He exclaims and the volume of his voice shocks me. "Sorry, but seriously. Do not listen to their bullshit! You are the most beautiful person I have ever met and you are the most beautiful person I will ever meet." He assures me, placing kisses on my hands to punctuate his sentences.

"You don't hate me?"

"Darling, I love you more than I have loved anything in my entire life. I'm sorry but you're stuck with me. It's gonna take more than those dickheads to break us up." He says, making me chuckle quietly.

"Come here." He beckons me and pulls me closer to him, into his lap.  He sits on the floor cross-legged and sits me on top of him, straddling him. "Don't listen to them, they're a bunch of dicks." He reassures wrapping his arms around my waist as I snake mine around his neck.  "I'll make a post afterwards addressing the situation making sure that they know that what happened is entirely inappropriate and disgusting. I'm so sorry." He says as I rest my head on his chest as he places a soft kiss on top of it.

"It's not your fault," I say still sniffling as he presses a kiss to my lips before wiping the remnants of tears from my eyes.

“Come on, smile.” He says and flashes his handsome smile making it a lot harder not to smile. “Smile for me, darlin’.” He smirks and I give in, showing him a small smile. “There’s that beautiful smile I love so much.”

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AN: Why are there no Josh Franceschi fics on here?

I saw You Me At Six the other day so I've returned to my Josh Franceschi phase haha.

[estel-of-the-eyrie]

Not me, in this year 2021 crying over the fact that @determamfidd updated  Sansûkh 😭

[ruindunburnit]

NoHoper Chapter 19 writing album:

Cavalier Youth - You Me At Six

--Ruin Dun Burnit

[gemvictorfromtheponyverse]

30 questions

Tagged by @superkazwin

Rules: answer 30 questions then take 20 blogs you would like to know better

Well here I go lol

Nickname: none. My dad call me proncess and when I'm sick ym parents call me shrimp, bv thats what they called me when my mom was pregnant.

Gender: Genderfae/Chaotigirl/NB/Trans/whydoyouaskgah

Star sign: Virgo

Height: 5ft8, 175cm

Time: night

Birthday: 20th of september

Favourite Band(s): too many. All country. Particularily little big town, florida georgia line and lady antebellum

Favourite Solo artist(s): Luke Bryan, Reba McEntire, RaeLynne, Shania Twain, Ashley Monroe, Jewel, Dolly Parton, Kacey Musgrave, a million more

Song stuck in my head: 5 6 7 8 by steps (i think??)

Last movie watched: We need to talk abput Kevin (DONT WATCH IT PLEASE IF YIU CAN NOT HANDLE PSYCHOPATHS AND DISTURBING SCENES IN ABUNDANCE ITS HORRID)

Last show watched: Kitchen Nightmares

When did I create my blog: 2017? 2016?

What do I post: Fanfics, fan art, edits, memes, doctor who

Last thing I googled: Steven Taylor

Do you have any other blogs: @bleepbloplizardhopfanclub @hiimbiroace @sardonyxismybaby

Do you get asks: sometimes

Why did you choose your URL: it was 3 am and i like thos fandoms

Followers: ???

Following: ???

Favourite Colour(s): purple and red

Average hours of sleep: Sleep? Uhhh that’s a funny concept

Lucky number: 5

Instruments: NONE

What am I wearing: red pyjama shirt and blue socks

How many blankets I sleep with: 1

Dream job: speech theraapist

Dream trip: Nashville Tenesse 😍

Favourite food: Blinier. Its thick, hole grain pancakes with chopped egg, caviar, spurcream and hot butter.

Nationality: half Swedish, half swedish speaking finish

Favourite song now: The Ghost of Elizabeth Shaw by The Sacred Miracle Cave (god I sound so peetencious!)

I tag…

No onne! Its voluntary!

[sinnedpunk]

i did this on ym other blog recent;ly so im doing it on this one instead lol

tagged by @vanillatumbleweedscoffee ily m8 <333333 ヾ(｡･ω･)ｼ

Rules: Answer 30 questions, tag 20 blogs.

Nicknames: vinny / vini / vinnie (acceptable n loved forever ones)

Gender: assigned female but honestly does not care

Sign: scorpio

Height: 155cm

Time: 2:04pm

Birthday: 25th oct

Favourite Bands: uuuuugggh the beatles ; queen ; travelling wilburys and then also sum 41 and fall out boy,,, boys will never leave me soul idk what year is it,,,

Favourite Solo Artists: george harrison ; tom petty ; snail house(,,,are they,,even an artist,,) ; rob scallon ; stevieT/steve terreberry ; idk there probably more but i cant think,,,,,,,,,

Song Stuck In My Head: im listening to Ricky Martin - Livin' La Vida Loca  but monika no.5 is stuck in my head hm, , ,,

Last Movie I Saw: Help! (with that person who tagged me ft her friends and m  o t h e r)

Last Show I Watched: my friends from far away or sth. its a singaporeon show lmao

When Did I Create My Blog: late 2013 or early 2014 i dont know

What Do I Post: a lot of shit post ; shit anime ; shit games ; shit bands(,,,,,) and idk s H I T

Last Thing I Googled: google history caus ei want to know too. before that is lion vs eagles 2013 snow game (jesus christ that post- thats a good video i laughed)

Do I Have Any Other Blogs: way too many blogs; a bunch of saved and old urls ; a few aesthetic blogs ; that one classic rock blog ; a horror/truecrime blog ; blog to keep nsfw beatle things ; hhh theres too much to list,,

Do I Get Asks: spam bots love askin me to check their page out

Why Did I Choose My URL: soul punk and me, an actual satan myself that sins 24/8 . and no not over yaoi gay ships x3333 gdsfhsdj nO . but also to allow myself to be less of a fob focused blog.

Following: 300 sth

Followed By: 700 sth?

Average Hours Of Sleep: i slept for around 8 hours yesetrday. so healthy. but on other days it could be less.

Lucky Number: 8 or 6 probably. idk i just like those numbers.

Instruments : guitar ; a lil bit of piano cause i took lessons when im young so it counts okay ; and a sooner or later violin that i want to pick up soon hhhhh

Dream Job: thats something ill think about later.

Favourite Food: spaghetti n’ sushi + cha soba

Nationality: malaysian

Favourite Song: the breakdown(by tom petty) cover by stevieT is fucking bomb ; wilbury twist by travelling wilburys is always a jam also ; and i guess bon appetit(blend s opening) is real addicting i love it ugh how dare you make me choose a favourite song thats harD

Last Book I Read: rest in piece whens the last time i read something thats not fanfic , ,(ofc last fanfic was a mclennon smut ugh) but um real book okay um ,, , ,honestly i cant rmmeber when was the last time i picked up a book lol,,,,

Top 3 Fictional Universes I Want To Join: animal crossing and im n o f u rry ; the sims (3) cause i want to motherlode myself ; universe where im actually productive, talented, no mental illness filled, peace and love everybody <3

tagging ummmmm

@lucymydear @nerdybaellamy @enraged-dolphin @justinezombeanie @underbree @arcayde @anyone who wants to do it ifdk

[monstabaebae]

Get To Know Me Pt. 2

Tagged by my good friend, @sapphirebluemt. I will do my best to answer this and not seem like a total nerd xD

RULES: ANSWER 30 QUESTIONS THEN TAG 20 BLOGS

1. NICKNAMES: Fuff (I’m okay with ym real name but this one always brings me joy)

2. GENDER: Female

3. STAR SIGN: Aries

4. HEIGHT: 5′0 (152.40 cm)

5. TIME: 11:09 am GMT -4

6. BIRTHDAY: April 16th

7. FAVORITE BANDS/GROUPS:  Monsta X, TVXQ, EXO, Lovelyz and Highlight ; for Bands I’d say PTV, ATL, PVRIS, One Ok Rock and Paramore. (aka way to many bands and artists to name)

8. FAVORITE SOLO ARTISTS: Crush, Jessi, Kyuhyun and Ailee

9. SONG STUCK IN MY HEAD: Swim by Bobby 

10. LAST MOVIE I WATCHED: West Side Story with my Mom, it’s our favorite musical to watch and sing along to :)

11. LAST SHOW I WATCHED: School 2015 (I will finish it someday...!)

12. WHEN DID I CREATE MY BLOG: ? July... or August 2017

13. WHAT DO I POST: Everything Monsta X, cause that Monbebe life, along with a few asthetic photos here and there. (Maybe some spazzing about Changkyun too.) I also write fanfics of MX as well~

14. LAST THING GOOGLED: The album tracklist of Highlight’s newest album.

15. DO YOU HAVE OTHER BLOGS: Yes! This account is my sideblog, my main blog is just pretty photos and memes~

16. DO YOU GET ASKS: Sometimes, but I would love to have a few! I love talking to people and taking requests~

17. WHY DID YOU CHOSE YOUR URL: Because I wanted to mix ‘Monsta X’ and ‘Monbebe’ but with a twist. Hence, Monstabaebae

18. FOLLOWING: I lost track, since my main blog overlaps this blog. Maybe 175-200 blogs?

19. FOLLOWERS: I have a very nice amount and I’m very happy with my followers. I hope to be more active on here and make more friends. :D

20. FAVORITE COLORS: Depends on my mood, but blue is my favorite color for sure.

21. AVERAGE HOURS OF SLEEP: 6-8 hours, depending on the shift I worked. I never sleep enough =.=

22. LUCKY NUMBER: Hmm, 24 and sometimes 11. Idk why but I like those numbers!

23. INSTRUMENTS: I played violin for 8 years, electric bass back in high school, and piano when I was 5. I come from a music-loving family, so everyone either sings or plays instruments. I love music so much!

24. WHAT AM I WEARING: A large black hoodie with a white stripe that I wear as a sleep gown, and my glasses~

25. HOW MANY BLANKETS I SLEEP WITH: Usually 1, but it’s getting cold so I’m gonna bring out the large blue banket in the closet! (Winter ftw!) 

26. DREAM JOB: A professional gamer/Twitch Streamer, or a Backup Dancer/Choreographer for a famous singer.

27. DREAM TRIP: Visiting Japan, South Korea and Europe on a cruise. (Flying is not my thing lol)

28. FAVORITE FOOD: EVERYTHING. Except squid, not a big fan.

29. NATIONALITY: Puerto-Rican! <3

30. FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW: Toooooo many. I’d say it’s tied with Cigarette by ToppDogg, We Young by NCT Dream and Blind by Monsta X.

I don’t have 20 blogs/friends that I follow, so Imma tag my friends @vickyxmelonlove , @oursparklinghearts and @michabrielle. No pressure, just for fun :)

[crsinclair]

Do me fellow fanfic readers ever wish there was an option to open up a chat while you’re reading a fic, just for the sake of jotting down the ridiculous comments you think or say when you read certain lines/get to a certain plot point?  Like instead of having to remember everything for when you’re done the author gets all the crazy as it’s happening.

Chapter 6 paragraph 23:  DudedudedudedudedUDE WHAT THE FCK JUST AHPPENED

Chapter 6 paragraph 30:  Oh...Okay...everything is fine now.  I think

Chapter 3 paragraph 7:  *soft gasp* oh ym gooOoOoOod i feel like my soul is being hugged by new born puppies

Chapter 16 paragraph 36:  brb gotta flail

Chapter 16 paragraph 36:  okay back done flailing

Chapter 16 paragraph 37:  nope gotta go flail again *flails some more*

Chapter 5 paragraph 7:  i can’t breathe where’s my inhaler you heathen you made me laugh too hard what the ffff

Chapter 5 paragraph 7:  found my inhaler, all is well, must continue laughing now

Chapter 6 paragraph 13:  JUST KISS ALREADY!!