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olivianyx · 1 year ago

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OMGG I JUST GOT RESULTS WITHOUT BEATING MYSELF UP WITH ROUTINES 😭 + RANT ✨

HEYY LUVS! I JUST WANNA SHARE MY RESULTS I MANIFESTED WITHIN 2-3 DAYS! THIS YEAR'S GONNA BE MY BEST YEAR Y'ALL ✋AND GUESS WHAT I DID? NOTHING. LITERALLY NOTHING. NUH-UH. PERIODT.

⚠ LONG POST AHEAD, SWEARING ⚠

WHAT I MANIFESTED:

🪄 PASSING MY FRESHMAN YEAR WITH HIGH SCORES

🪄 MY FAMILY BOUGHT A NEW APARTMENT WHICH WERE PREPARING TO MOVE IN 3 WEEKS

🪄 ME GETTING INTO THE VOID STATE 😭 AND MANIFESTED CLEAR SKIN! (DAYUM GETTING INTO THE VOID IS DEFO VERY EASY OMGG)

🪄 GETTING LESS ANXIOUS LATELY!

🪄 MY GASTRITIS AND ULCERITIS GETTING CURED

🪄 GETTING MORE COMPLIMENTS IN MY UNI!

🪄 GETTING TALLER! I WENT FROM 5'3" TO 5'7" IN 2 DAYS 😭😭

🪄 GETTING DREAMS OF ME SHIFTING TO MY WR 🥺 (ACTUALLY RESPAWNING LOL, AS THIS THING IS REALLY CONTROVERSIAL IN HERE, PLEASE DON'T GET ME CANCELLED- I'M DOING DEATHLESS RESPAWNING ✋)

🪄 MY MIND IS SURPRISINGLY CALM 😌 THERE'S STILL INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS THO (THOSE ARE ANNOYING ASS BITCHES) BUT I JUST IGNORE EM LIKE I IGNORE PEOPLE AT SCHOOL 🗿

🪄 GOT MANY CONFESSIONS TOO 😭 AND I REJECTED EM ALL, CUS I JUST WANT TO BE SINGLE FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE ✋🗿 JK

🪄 GETTING COOL CLOTHES THAT MY MOM DENIED A LOTTA TIMES! (ACTUALLY I'VE ORDERED EM BUT STILL HAVEN'T SHIPPED TO MY ADDRESS YET LOL)

🪄 MY CRUSH BECOMING CLOSE TO ME HEHE 🤭 LIKE SHE DOESN'T CARE ABOUT ME MUCH, BUT LATELY SHE'S BEEN TOO CLOSE TO ME AND ALWAYS WANNA BE WITH ME LOL, 3 DAYS BACK SHE AND I WALKED HOME TOGETHER, WHILE WE GRABBED SOME SNACKS, SPOKE ABT EACH OTHER AND ALL (I FELT LIKE BEING IN A SHOUJO MANGA 😩)

🪄 A NEW PHONE! THAT SAMSUNG GALAXY S22 😩

I MANIFESTED EVERYTHING WITHIN 3 DAYS 😭 I REALLY CAN'T BELIEVE MY EYES, JUST. 3. FUCKING. DAYS. GODDAMMIT.

HOW I DID IT:

JUST FULFILLED IT IN MY IMAGINATION

YEP, YOU HEARD THAT RIGHT. I LIVED IN THE 4D REALITY, I NEVER GAVE A SHIT ABOUT THE 3D AT ALL. OK LEMME BREAK IT DOWN FOR Y'ALL SO JUST PAY ATTENTION FROM HERE ONWARDS.

🪄 SUPPOSE SOMETHING UNDESIRABLE OR UNFAVORABLE CIRCUMSTANCES ARE HAPPENING IN YOUR 3D. WHO'S THE CAUSE FOR THAT? YOU. 'BUT I DIDN'T IMAGINE OR THINK OF THESE 😭' BABY, YOU'RE THE SOLE CAUSE, EFFECT, AND THE SOLUTION. THERE'S NO OTHER EXPLANATION TO THIS.

🪄 AS WE ALL KNOW, 3D IS A MIRROR. RIGHT? WHATEVER YOU THINK ABOUT, YOUR ASSUMPTIONS, YOUR THOUGHTS, YOUR FEELINGS, YOUR PERSPECTIVE EVERYTHING WILL BE REFLECTED. SO WHY NOT THINK THE WAY YOU WANT SO YOU CAN EXPERIENCE THE SAME? GET IT.

🪄 IF YOU WANT TO CHANGE THE 3D, CHANGE YOUR 4D FIRST. CHANGE YOUR PERSPECTIVE TO HOW YOUR DESIRED SELF WOULD SEE THE WORLD. KEEP DWELLING IN IT. IF THE 3D SHOWS UNFAVORABLE CIRCUMSTANCES, DON'T FUCKING GET TRIGGERED. GO BACK TO YOUR IMAGINATION AND DENY YOUR SENSES.

🪄 EVERYTIME YOU SEE SOMETHING ELSE IN THE 3D, GO 'BRUHH THIS IS MY OLD STORY, I ALREADY HAVE WHAT I WANT, THIS IS JUST FAKE' AND MOVE ON. DISTRACT YOURSELF. CUS THE 3D WORLD WHICH YOU SEE IS AN ILLUSION, IT'S NOT REAL. IT'S YOUR CREATION, WHY WOULD YOU TRY TO CONTROL WHAT YOU CREATED? IT'S ALREADY IN CONTROL. YOU ONLY GOTTA REALISE YOUR GODSELF. YOU ARE THE CREATOR, NOT THE CREATION. STOP FUCKING VICTIMIZING YOURSELF.

🪄 I GET IT THAT MOST OF THE PEOPLE ARE CONFUSED BETWEEN LAW OF ASSUMPTION AND NON DUALISM. EVEN I WAS, BUT SLOWLY I REALISED THAT WE'RE ALL NOTHING. WE'RE JUST LIVING IN OUR OWN CREATIONS. VICTIMIZING OURSELVES IN OUR OWN CREATIONS. IRONIC RIGHT?

🪄 THOSE THOUGHTS, ANXIETY, FEELINGS, EMOTIONS ARE ALL IN YOUR PHYSICAL REALM. YOUR MIND, YOUR BODY, YOUR EGO EVERYTHING IS NO REAL, WE ASSUME IT TO BE. WE'RE ARE SHAPELESS, FORMLESS, WE'RE NOTHING! AND EVERYTHING AT THE SAME TIME. CUS EVERYTHING COMES DOWN TO ONE THING, I AM.

🪄 K Y'ALL MIGHT BE SUPER CONFUSED, WHAT I'M TRYNA INFUSE IN YOUR BRAINS. SO WHAT YOU DO IS, LIVE IN YOUR 4D.HOW? IMAGINATION. NO MATTER WHAT YOU SEE IN YOUR 3D, GO BACK TO YOUR IMAGINATION, AFFIRM OR VISUALISE. ANYTHING IS FINE BTW. JUST STAY IN THE STATE OF WISH FULFILLED.

🪄 STOP RELYING ON METHODS, FUCK THEM. JUST BE. DON'T TRY TO CHANGE SOMETHING WHEN YOU ALREADY HAVE THEM. JUST STOP, SURRENDER, STOP FIGHTING, STOP TRYING SO HARD WHEN YOUR ALREADY IT. SO GO LIVE IN YOUR IMAGINATION, FULLY SURRENDER. DO THINGS WHICH YOU LIKE. GO LIVE YOUR LIFE. TAKE YOUR POWER BACK.

LIKE AREN'T YOU TIRED? TRAPPED IN YOUR OWN CREATIONS? YOU CREATED THEM, YOU HAVE THE POWER TO CHANGE WHATEVER. TELL ME HOW LONG ARE YOU GONNA LIVE THIS BULLSHIT LIFE? YOU'RE REALLY GETTING COMFORTABLE BEING UNCOMFORTABLE. SO LISTEN UP, DO WHAT YOU LOVE, AFFIRM, VISUALISE, OR DAYDREAM, ZONE OUT, WHATEVER. ALL I DID WAS DO THIS MEDITATION IN THE MORNING, WENT ABOUT MY DAY WATCHING JUJUTSU KAISEN LMAO. THEN RANDOMLY AFFIRM, LIVED IN MY 4D, NEVER PAYED ANY FUCKING ATTENTION TO MY 3D, CUS I'M GOD. I REALLY LOVE VISUALISING, SO I PUT ON A SONG AND START DAYDREAMING IN MY ROOM SMILING LIKE AN IDIOT. ALSO, I DID SATS BEFORE GOING TO BED. THAT'S IT. THAT'S ALL I DID FOR 3 FUCKING DAYS, AND GOT WHAT EVER I WANT. ALSO I MADE A CUSTOM TAPE TOO (IT'S A GENERAL SELF CONCEPT ONE) I LISTENED TO IT FOR 30 MINS AND JUST WENT ABOUT MY DAY THINKING I HAD WHATEVER I FUCKING DESIRE, CUS IT'S ALL MY CREATIONS AND I HAVE IT ALREADY. THERE'S NOTHING TO GET, IT'S ALREADY IN ME.

LUV YOU, BYE 💋

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1moreff-creator · 1 month ago

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I thought your speculation on potential survivors for DRDT was fun, so…thoughts on who will make it out of P:EG?

Hey there! Glad to hear you liked my predictions for Despair Time! I had fun writing that one, so I'm down for a redo for Eden's Garden!

Spoilers for all canon Danganronpa games and P:EG CH1

Preamble

Yeah, I need to do this. See, given how little EG content we have so far, a lot of my arguments for survivors use canon DR as examples of things that may happen in the future. However, the production team has said that they're going to stay away from DR tropes like the double victim in CH3. With that in mind, does it really make sense to use canon DR for reference? Well, it depends.

In my eyes, there's a difference between a "DR trope” and a "trope DR happens to use.” What I mean by the latter is a trope which exists as a result of fundamental storytelling principles, or in other words, something that happens in all DR games just because there's good reasons for it to happen in all the games. And because of that, it's entirely possible in my eyes that said "something” happens in EG too.

For example, take the statement "the sillier characters like Ibuki, Hifumi and Gonta don't make it to CH5.” It's true of all DR games, so is EG going to stay away from it just because of that? Well, not necessarily, because there's a legitimate reason this happens. If you reframe it as "the sillier characters don't make it to Act III", you can see how it's probably a good idea to follow it. The end of any story with the level of tragedy of a killing game is usually pretty serious, so it's natural that you'd want the more serious characters to take the spotlight. And an easy way to make that happen is by killing the sillier characters before you reach the final stretch. Because there's an underlying narrative reason to follow this trope, I think it's fair to use it to argue, for example, that Jett or Cassidy might not be the best survivor guesses.

On the other hand, a "DR trope” is something that happens in all the canon games Just Because. For example, there's no underlying narrative reason for the CH3 killer specifically to have a breakdown at the end of the trial which completely redefines their character, and yet, it's something that happens in all DR games. This is the kind of thing that I don't think is a good way of predicting what may happen in a fangan; if there's no underlying storytelling principle that causes a trope to exist, there's no reason to believe it will happen in all fangans just because it happened in canon.

The separation between "DR trope” and "trope DR uses” is very thin and extremely subjective, so if you disagree with the things I consider one or the other, that's fine. I just wanted to make this preamble to say that if I ever bring up canon DR in this post, it's only to illustrate a point about standard storytelling conventions using stories we're all familiar with, and not because I think fangans have to stick to the things DR does 1:1.

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With that out of the way, let's first establish how many survivors we're even picking. After all, any number of things, such as multi-murders, number of trials, suicides, etc., can really affect the number of survivors. I have no way of knowing, but since the creators have stated they're not doing a third trial double murder, I'm going to pick an optimistic estimate of six survivors. That's two deaths per standard trial, with five standard trials + Prologue Trial + Deathless Final Trial. If the final survivor count is lower, oh well, and if it's higher, I'll be pleasantly surprised.

Let's start with the easy one: I think Damon's surviving. Protag privilege, and all. Sure, being the protag doesn't guarantee survival, but with how much room for growth this particular MC has, I'd be really shocked if he doesn't make it to the end. Hell, even the Pathos/Logos path split mechanic is entirely centered around the fact that the protagonist is the Ultimate Debater, since it's a reference to the rhetorical triangle. If the protag switched, the existence of that mechanic would suddenly make a lot less sense.

Alright, so we got one. I have no other good guesses :v I'm not kidding, I genuinely have no clue what to do with half the people in this fangan. But I have to predict a few people, so…

The only other character who, by themselves, gives me some amount of survivor vibes, is Toshiko. Quite literally a lot of room for growth, given how much of a child she is, there are many arcs she could go on that would make her a compelling survivor. Of course, that can technically be said about all the characters, but y'know.

She's also decently connected to a good amount of the game's main themes (or, what I think are the main themes based on the little we have of the story). Particularly, she embodies both sides of the theme of "modernity/tradition" (seen for example in Ingrid's intro); her general attitude is that of a very traditional person, but she herself is the youngest in the cast, so in a sense she represents the "future".

Please ignore for this analysis that she's only three years younger than the next youngest of the cast, which is really not that big of an age gap :v

Speaking of her age, being an Ultimate at 14 would certainly give her an unique perspective on the topic of "talent", which is definitely looking like the theme of the game. Though the counter-argument here is that everyone and their mother has some kind of connection to talent, so.

Having her in the final trial also has a small benefit in that she can be a "Truth Bullet Target.” Basically, when you're making a dangan style game, you need to create reasons for minigames to exist. So unless there's a bunch of agree points in a given trial, you kinda need people to get things wrong pretty often for Nonstop debates to exist. Thing is, if your surviving cast is competent enough, you might struggle to believably make them get things wrong enough for the player to shoot truth bullets at. Thus, a talkative character with a tendency to get things wrong is a pretty useful thing to have around, to create weak points in Nonstops if nothing else. I don't remember the canon dangans very well, but from what I recall, Hiro and (to a lesser extent) Aoi in THH, as well as Himiko in V3, are good examples of what I mean.

The EG gang is pretty smart all around, but Toshiko stands out as someone who can get a lot wrong on command. She pushes Diana as the culprit in Trial 1 when she's being accused, then switches to defending Eva when suspicion shifts to her. I can see a world where, if the rest of the surviving cast is made up of relatively competent characters, half or so of all Nonstops in the final trial end with you shooting down one of Toshiko's statements.

To be clear, the whole “Truth Bullet Target” thing is just a possibility, and I don't think it's the best way to argue for Toshiko's survival. I'd more go for the things I said before as real arguments, but I did want to include that as well because why not.

Finally, I should probably bring up the matter of masterminds. I currently don't believe Eden's Garden has an in-cast mastermind the way V3 had, as I don't think we've ever been given a reason to believe anything of the sort. However, if someone is involved in the killing game in some deeper way (be it by masterminding it or doing some kind of traitor-y work), then my bet's on Toshiko.

If you've been around the EG theorizing scene, you've probably heard the reasoning. Toshiko's the only character apart from Eva not to talk in the train scene, which is especially odd with how talkative Toshiko usually is. She also sits in the back of the train, near where the bag with the sleeping gas thing is found. Since she always covers her mouth, it's entirely possible she was wearing a gas mask during that scene, later removing it before everyone else woke up. The only other person who could have such a mask was Jett, but we actually see him fall unconscious, unlike with Toshiko. The girl also gets nervous when the topic of the other people in the train gets brought up during the Prologue:

Grace [Prologue]: I passed a bunch of students on my way to the crapper. I didn't talk to them, though. Eva: They have to have heard the commotion in our car. Why didn't they help us? Damon: Maybe they were also knocked out?

Toshiko [Nervous]: I-I doubt it's something we can answer right now. Can I just introduce you to the others already?

Not to mention that she acts weirdly even after everyone wakes up. She runs away from the courtyard, locking most of the cast near the tree with a lock that Damon makes a point to say he didn't even realize was there at first.

Damon [Prologue, thoughts]: [Toshiko] turned to face the door, but instead of pushing it open… …she reached for a lock I hadn't even noticed before.

This is especially notable because Toshiko's actions here are the sole reason everyone stays near the tree while the organizers set up the prologue's faux murder scene. If she hadn't ran into the building and locked the door, the people who woke up outside said building would have probably gone in to explore before Damon's group got out of it. I don't know why the hell the killing game organizers didn't just make everyone wake up near the tree with the door locked in the first place (assuming this isn't a "the Matchmaker wanted the Damon-Eva and Wolfgang-Grace pairs to wake up together and alone" situation), but it's undeniable that Toshiko's little stunt was quite convenient for them. Pretty notable when said stunt is a very strange thing to do, unless you're specifically trying to get everyone away from the building where Cara's dummy has to be set up.

Thing is, though, Toshiko seems to be genuinely perturbed by the killing game. I don't think she actually wanted anyone to die, so I think it's more likely she was tricked/coerced by the real mastermind(s), and thus would probably go on something akin to a redemption arc after this whole thing gets revealed. Since such an arc would require her to still be alive for a while after what seems like a pretty late game revelation, then I find it likely that she would survive if she really did have a hand in setting up the killing game.

Now we're done with Toshiko, so it's time to address something you probably noted as weird while I was talking about her. I said Toshiko gave me the most survivor vibes "by herself.” That's because all the arguments I've given for Toshiko's survival work in isolation from the rest of the cast. However, other characters give me some amount of survivor vibes when we take into account the dynamics currently present in the group.

See, it's common in this type of narrative where a bunch of people die (not just dangan) for characters to "pair up” in small groups, and for these groups to end up having either one or two characters who make it late game, or even some who survive. And I'm not just bringing it up because it could happen; it has happened. Wolfgang-Grace, Ulysses-Wenona, Desmond-Eloise, Mark-Jett, Ingrid-Toshiko, etc.

It happens because it's an easy way to make a death feel meaningful; even if most of the cast can't possibly get deeply attached to every single person who dies, if there's at least one or two people the person who dies is constantly is interacting with, then the reactions of these people can help carry the emotional impact of the tragedy. Now, these pairs don't always have a survivor, but it's relatively common. For dangan, think Aoi-Sakura, Makoto-Sayaka, Fuyuhiko-Peko, Hajime-Chiaki, Sonia-Gundham, Akane-Nekomaru, Shuichi-Kaede, Shuichi-Kaito, Maki-Kaito, Himiko-Tenko, Himiko-Angie, and depending on whether you count K1-B0 as a survivor or not, K1-B0-Miu.

What I've noticed is that the pairings that don't have survivors always have one death relatively early. Think Mondo-Taka, Mahiru-Hiyoko, Kirumi-Korekiyo (though admittedly that one's not a very strong pair). The biggest exception would be Gonta-Kokichi, but that's because Gonta's death is not central to Kokichi's character arc, even if it is an important point in it. There is an underlying reason this happens; if a character's arc is kickstarted by the death of their "pair", and their pair dies early, the character has enough time to complete their arc and then die… you know, unless your name is Hiyoko. I'm still salty over 2-3.

Which gets us to the first pair to discuss: Ulysses-Wenona. The girl with a great sense of smell, and the boy who can't smell. Truly, they complement each other. Both of these characters have a good argument for a late game run, and the pair itself is one that would probably need quite a bit of time to cook before either character can be genuinely impacted by the death of the other. And if both of them make it pretty far, then by the time one of them dies, it might make sense to let the other survive. The question is, then, who's gonna outlive who?

You might think Ulysses has the worst chance, given his potential "victim gimmicks.” Basically, his notebook and his lack of sense of smell could be used as evidence in a trial where he's the victim. Plus, you could argue Wenona's character has more to gain by having someone close to her die. And indeed, these reasons (and a few others) are why I think that if neither of them survive, then Wenona will likely outlive Ulysses.

However, if one of the two survive, I actually think it's more likely for it to be Ulysses. His notebook can be useful in other ways, and his sense of smell is a Checkov's gun that can be fired without killing the guy. For example, he might walk past someone's corpse without noticing, complicating a trial because he couldn't smell the blood and rot. Bonus points if he walks past Wenona's corpse specifically.

On the other hand, while Wenona seems like a good source of conflict and drama (her imitation piece calls her "a foe” for a reason), it might be strange to have her die too far from her thematic rival Cassidy. It can be hard (though not impossible!) to properly function as a character when your primary foil is out of the story, after all. And since I doubt Cassidy can make that late of a run, Wenona might be kinda cooked.

Finally, Ulysses has standalone survivor arguments as well, and I find them stronger than Wenona's. Although both work with the theme of "talent" and "modernity/tradition", Ulysses has more connections with the third main theme I've noticed, which for lack of a better term I'm calling "historical repetition.” Basically, "history repeats", as claimed by the first EG trailer. It's a bit too long to really get into now, but trust me that it comes up quite a bit, such as in the second Tozu Theater. And obviously the Historian would know a thing or two about historical repetition, so he would work great as a final trial participant, and thus survivor.

Oh, uh, fair warning, the quality of the guesses is about to jump off a cliff. I have less of a read on the remaining characters than the ones I've already talked about :v

Next pair to look at is Jett and Mark! Jett's dying. So. Mark!Survivor it is! Listen, I'm running out of genuinely compelling arguments and I'm interested in getting this post out sometime this century, so I gotta cut a few corners.

(Full explanation: I don't see Jett as a survivor in the slightest, but it's clear his death would have some sort of impact on Mark's character, and the arc Mark would go through, regardless of what it looks like, would probably take too long for him not to survive after completing it imo. I doubt we're gonna get a 1:1 repeat of Himiko-Tenko, but I do think there will probably be some similarities there, given Jett and Mark are already giving me those vibes. Additionally, Mark's crocodile motif is one of the only ones where the connection between the animal and the character isn't immediately obvious, so it presumably runs pretty deep and would require quite a bit of setup to work. That implies a late run, increasing Mark's overall chances imo)

Then, I wanna look at Desmond-Eloise. In a vacuum, I could easily see arguments for both of them to survive. Desmond clearly has some kind of trust issues to work through (assuming that his secret saying "he protects the only one he trusts” means he's protecting himself and doesn't trust anyone else, which I think is the implication), while Eloise has a few things going on, such as the Entirety of her FTEs. Both of them could make for interesting killers too, however.

Since I don't have any better way to go about this, I'm gonna have to rely on previous guesses, and invoke gender balance. While it's not necessary, I find it likely that the team behind EG will aim for a cast with a more or less equal number of girls and boys. I've already locked in Damon, Toshiko, Ulysses and Mark, which is three boys and one girl with two slots remaining, so... I guess that means Eloise is gonna be joining her fellow bird girl in my guesses!

Following that line of logic, we're looking for a final girl to close out the prediction. A lot of you are probably expecting me to say Diana here, and I probably would, if I didn’t think she's gonna get killed by Kai in CH2.

Okay, I'm not that confident on that one, but I do have my reasons for saying that. I already brought it up once, but one of the lines in Diana's second FTE makes me think she's not making it past CH2. It's this one:

Damon [Diana's 2nd FTE]: You'll see who your real friends are when you're face to face with a killer.

That line kinda implies Diana's never been face to face with a killer, which becomes obviously untrue as soon as CH1 ends, as she was face to face with Eva when she got sentenced to death for murder (they were roomates even!). Thus, this line only works in the context of CH1, possibly implying Diana won't have any more FTE opportunities, and thus would probably die in CH2.

There are ways around this, mind you. You could do what SDR2 did with Nagito, and lock Diana's FTEs in later chapters unless the player's already done two in CH1. That way you can lock Diana's 2nd FTE to CH1, where it works. Additionally, since this line isn't referenced in the report card, you could potentially change her FTE a little bit in later chapters, so that the main idea of the FTE and the things in the report card remain the same, but without the weird line in the way. You could also just, like, ignore it. Unideal, but it would work.

However, even with those possibilities, Diana having a gigantic role in the CH1 trial and already undergoing a character arc isn't exactly a great indicator of her survivability. Given who the CH1 deaths were, I think it's safe to say EG will try to give all the characters their own moments to shine, which might make the story too crowded to have a character like Diana constantly active in it. In other words, it's very possible Diana already had her 15 minutes in the spotlight, and is soon to give way to other characters, potentially as early as CH2.

Why killed by Kai, then? Because of the "surviving cast” image thing.

Now, this thing could change however the hell the developers want it to change, but for now, the only difference between the Prologue and CH1 versions of this image is that Eva and Wolfgang disappeared. Assuming the same can be said for the rest of the chapters, where characters only disappear and don't change pose otherwise, this image has to be made with the death order in mind to make sure it never looks ultra silly. For example, it'd be odd (though not impossible!) for Ingrid to outlive Toshiko, because then she'd be leaning over nothing (unless you argue she'd end up looking at Damon? Doubtful). However, if Ingrid disappears, then Toshiko would be staring at the sky in a pose very similar to one of her sprites, so it's perfectly possible for Toshiko to outlive Ingrid imo. This isn't super reliable and what exactly “looks silly” is extremely subjective, which is why I didn't bring it up before.

Anyways, Kai. If Kai disappears, then Diana would be staring at Damon, which works. But if Diana disappears, then Kai would appear to be talking to Eloise… while being fifteen miles away from her. In my opinion, it's gonna look silly unless you move Kai closer to Eloise, but we've established the only changes might be characters disappearing. Because of that, we can speculate that Kai might not outlive Diana. And since I think she's dying in CH2, in CH2 he might go. Technically either he or Diana could be the killer with this reasoning, but I trust my girl Diana more than I trust Kai, so.

I want to reiterate, after saying all that, that this reasoning is extremely weak and will most likely be proven wrong. I've already given ways to avoid the FTE line problem, which is the only genuinely solid reason to believe Diana won't make it far. I'm just doing what I can man.

Back to the topic at hand, final girl. I have to pick between Cassidy, Ingrid, and Grace.

Uh. I don't think any of them are gonna live. Am I allowed to reduce the number of survivors I'm guessing? No? I have to pick one? Alright, uh...

… Grace. Sure. We can go with that. Cassidy's my second answer. No actual logic's being used here, vibes only. I don't care if it contradicts stuff I said before on this post or others, that's how I'm feeling right now.

Anyways, that's the final answer. Damon, Toshiko, Ulysses, Mark, Eloise, Grace. To be absolutely clear, the first three are the only ones I would call actual predictions, the other three are near complete guesses. It's very possible all of these people die, I have no idea what I'm doing.

Finally, I did want to offer an alternative guess based on a pretty unhinged theory, because I kinda like the idea. This is gonna sound like a non-sequitur, but you know the modes of persuasion? Those things the whole "Pathos Route” mechanic is founded on? Many believe these things will have a large role in the theming of the story, since they're a pretty important concept for rhetoric and our protag is the Ultimate Debater.

The reason I'm bringing up these things is that you could theorize that the survivors will be chosen in a way that connects to the modes of persuasion. You could have a survivor each for logos (appeal to logic), pathos (appeal to emotion), ethos (appeal to authority), and the secret fourth mode of persuasion, kairos* (appeal to context). Adding in Damon, who as the Ultimate Debater would represent all these things in conjunction, you got yourself five survivors, which is the average amount (keep in mind six was the optimistic assumption). Let's be clear, this is an insane leap in logic and most likely horribly wrong, but I found it fun to think about so I'm sharing it.

(*Kairos is a strange case. See, the other three things are the Aristotelian triad of appeals, so they're more universally recognized as central to rhetoric, being known as the points of the rhetorical triangle. However, more modern takes on rhetoric include the context (Kairos) in what's known as the rhetorical tetrahedron. It shows up in the Wikipedia page of the modes of persuasion so I'm including it too :v

The idea of kairos is that the same statements can be more or less persuasive depending on the context in which it's said, including the historical moment, the audience it's said to, etc. For example, if I described something as "rad” to persuade you to buy it (which by itself is a pathos statement), it would be more persuasive if I said it in the 90s as opposed to now. I think. I wasn't alive in the 90s what were y’all doing)

You can probably guess that I only started thinking about this after I realized that my three actual predictions kinda fit this idea. I already said Damon would be included to represent the tetrahedron itself, but Toshiko and Ulysses are shoe-ins for pathos and kairos respectively. Toshiko is obviously themed around emotions, being the Ultimate Matchmaker and all that, while the Ultimate Historian would obviously be a great representation of the persuasive mode that relies, among other things, on historical context. I could also see Ulysses as logos or ethos in a pinch, but no one else can fit kairos quite as well as him.

Though, admittedly, putting Ulysses as kairos has the slight issue that, now that Wolfgang and Eva are dead, we've kinda run out of logic users. Which is very funny.

I could see the Desmond logos - Wenona ethos argument (Wenona chosen to conserve gender balance), but personally, I think Eloise as logos is more compelling. I'm mainly basing that on a few of her lines during the trial, but primarily this thing she says in her intro:

Eloise [Prologue]: Acting brash may get you the first move, but it's a steady, analytical mind that secures the win.

Yeah sure. The reason one would have to put Eloise down as logos is that now genders are balanced and you can pick anyone for ethos. Wenona still works, but I don't think the duo with Ulysses would last to the end. No, if this thing about the rhetorical tetrahedron is true (which again, is an insane leap in logic and likely wrong), I'd say that Jean might have a chance. What better representation of ethos than a captain, after all? Again ignore what I may or may not have said on other posts I wasn't thinking too hard about this at that point :v

Thus, the “rhetorical tetrahedron survivor cast” I'll go with is Damon, Eloise (logos), Toshiko (pathos), Jean (ethos), and Ulysses (kairos). I'd say that looks decent! No idea how we get down to five survivors instead of six, but y'know.

In any case, thanks for the ask! This was pretty fun to think about, even if my prediction/guesses probably sound insane. See ya'!

#can't wait for all six of my guesses to die in CH2 somehow!#p:eg #project eden's garden #toshiko kayura #ulysses wilhelm #wenona #do we just tag her without clarifying which wenona we're talking about #apparently?#looked up the tag and apparently that's the plan so #mark berskii #diana venicia #kai monteago #they kinda got mentioned?#eloise taulner #desmond hall

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TG: i will be your server TG: and past me will stay as roses server TG: which is to say present me will TG: the one in the black suit GG: ohh… GG: i guess that makes sense TG: he can keep managing her for a while TG: until she sorta checks out soon and becomes totally useless

Rose is already detached from the party, following unseen orders in service of an unseen plan - but according to Dave, she's going to get worse.

This, I assume, is the point at which she becomes obscured from Kanaya's viewport. Rose is going to keep digging this hole, right up until she reaches some critical point on her timeline - and then, if I'm reading correctly between the lines, she's going to fall apart.

Final alchemy session, let's go!

Hey, calm down! Just because it's snowing outside doesn't mean it's Christmas just yet.

We're certainly getting close...

STEP OFF. … You decide he can keep the SORD….. though.

Abandoning your best weapon? A poor tactical decision by the Knight.

TT: Did you do anything on the moon besides rifle through my belongings? TT: Such as remove your shades and turn your gaze Ringward, by any chance? [...] TG: i did TT: What did you see? TG: horrible things [...] TG: when i saw them TG: their voices became clearer TT: What were they saying? TG: i couldnt really focus on anything specific TG: but TG: in totality TG: im pretty sure it was TG: like TT: ? TG: a plea for help

That's a little vague - but then again, they may be so alien to us that they're not able to communicate more clearly. This might be the closest thing to a human-readable message that the Gods can create.

This is probably a good place to put my transcription of the Squiddle song from Jade's nap. Much of it is unintelligible, but the parts we can hear are rather illuminating.

Squiddles are no ordinary friends, they work, and play, and work again. But they have homes, and mommies too; yes, they have mommies just like you.

Firstly, the Squiddles try to explain that they're not completely different from us. They're extraordinary creatures, practically incomprehensible to the Players - and yet, they have a home. They have loved ones. They play.

They repeat this assertion twice, as though they desperately want the Players to understand this.

So let them go to bed right now, so they can rest, and make cute sounds. If they can't rest they won't be strong …and they are really tiny.

They go on to say that they're exhausted. They need to rest, but something is keeping them busy. As a result, they're becoming 'tiny' and weak.

They can't make the 'cute sounds' that they're known for, which I suspect is a metaphor for the advice they normally dispense to Derse Dreamers, but I'm less sure about that.

[Unintelligible] …so let them sleep... …cause they will die if…

At this point, the music begins to fade out - but not before we hear that the Squiddles' lives are in danger. Something out in the depths of space is killing the Noble Circle of Horrorterrors.

Squiddle dee dee, squiddle dee dum. Everyone sing, a Squiddley song. Let's all be friends, And work as a team. Squiddles for you, Squiddles for me.

The final verse is self-explanatory.

It's unclear what, exactly, is happening out in the Furthest Ring, but it's dire enough that the Horrorterrors are reaching out to their neighbors, the Players of Sburb, and asking them to form an alliance.

We're seeing that alliance through Feferi, who has convinced them to blow the Dream Bubbles and link the two sessions. We're also seeing it through Rose, the only human Player willing to listen to the Squiddles' song - but her situation is more murky. I do think I understand her mental state a little better, though.

Rose is acting on Horrorterror advice - which means she's acting on whispers, corrupted images and half-heard fragments of a song. I don't think the Gods are manipulating her so much as they're playing a game of Telephone with her brain. They can't relay direct instructions, so the best they can do is transmit the vibe of what needs to happen, and the Seer has to figure the rest out for herself.

No wonder she's so evasive about her plan - I don't think she understands more than a quarter of it. She isn't nearly as in-control of the situation as she's pretending to be, and if she admits as much to John, she'd probably lose her nerve.

#homestuck liveblog #full liveblog #act 5.2 #s89 #3030

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GQ Japan // December 2024

Interview Translation [Eng]

Q: First of all, please let me say welcome back. I heard you were selected as a 'special warrior' while serving in the military. What kind of things did you feel and learn while belonging to the military organization which is completely different from the entertainment industry?

🐹: First, speaking from a physical standpoint, in terms of fitness, I was in about top 20% amongst many younger people/ones. I'm not at the level of an athlete, but I think it's because I had been continuously training for work. I learnt many things, but for instance, seeing people older than me running 5km every day, their attitude of always striving for improvement inspired me.

Q: After getting discharged, you immediately started your solo activities, including song making and appearance on variety shows. You're very busy, but does your approach to group activities differ from your solo activities?

🐹: In group activities, there's a direction that we're all picturing (together), so adjusting our opinions amongst the members is the most important thing. We can achieve results that exceed our expectations, by having an honest and open discussion. Also more than anything, having members by my side is very reassuring. On the other hand, in solo activities, there's more freedom in what you want to do, but it comes with responsibility and quite a lot of nervousness/tension.

Q: BTS is known for being close. As teamwork is essential, I believe there must be times where maintaining a good atmosphere is hard. Please tell us tips on how you communicate smoothly.

🐹: In our case, I think our leader RM's role is significant. He listens carefully to each of our opinions, then suggests and leads us to the best way/solution. He's reliable and trustworthy. Me and RM, both have things we'd like to do, but we don't assert them strongly in group activities, so instead, we'd like to/we prefer to reflect them in our solo projects.

Q: As an artist, in music and performance, where do you get your inspiration and ideas from?

🐹: In my case, I get inspiration and ideas from unexpected things. For example, when I'm reading comics and I think 'it's a beautiful colour', I immediately dye my hair into that colour (haha). If something interesting comes into my sight while I'm walking, I wonder whether I can do something like a surprise event with it. I get inspired a lot by colours. I especially like blue and when I see that colour, I come up with many bright thoughts. It's my belief to be in a bright and happy mood in life. I want to be laughing/smiling every day.

Q: I guess you might do a solo concerts in the future, but is there a routine that you definitely do before going on stage?

🐹: I take a big deep breath right before going on stage. I hold my breath for about 10 seconds and breathe out. By doing this it makes me feel relaxed. Also, my own special pink sparkling mic. I like it so I carry it around with me all the time (haha).

Q: As part of BTS, you've been on tour overseas, gave speech at the UN, and was the torch bearer in Paris, right after your discharge, transcending barriers of race and language. I have an impression that you always seem confident and yet you're very humble. How do you control your mental state?

🐹: Whether it's a good thing or a bad thing, I try not to take it too seriously. Many things happen in life, but I try to stay calm. If I don't get deeply shaken/upset, I believe I can maintain a steady mental health/have a stable mental state.

Q: There are many people who are encouraged by BTS's music, performances, way of living, and thoughts/philosophy. Based on your experience, is there an advice you can give to those people who feel lost or have lost confidence and don't feel motivated?

🐹: I'd like to say 'you can do it'. I'm/I think of myself as an ordinary person and I don't think I have any special talents. I just have been working extremely hard with the roles I've been given, and fortunately I've been surrounded by very good people which I believe has led to good results. I want to say 'anyone can do it'.

Q: BTS is also the voices of the young people around the world. In the future, what kind of messages do you want to convey?

🐹: I hope you don't lose your sense of calm. Even during busy times, I hope you don't lose yourself and find a way to make yourself happy. This is different from being selfish. At least, I want to do that and I think I am doing that.

Q: Please tell us what you aim for in the future.

🐹: What others around me say/Opinions from others around me aren't that important. My priority goal is for ARMYs to like it and for them to be happy. For that, I can work tirelessly/no matter how exhausted I get. I'll continue to walk together with ARMYs.

Q: If you have the chance to visit Japan now, where would you like to go?

🐹: Hmm, l'd like to walk around in a city with beautiful night views.

Q: That's romantic. So, now that we've finished today's photo shoot, l'd like to ask about your fashion values and anything you pay attention to.

🐹: For me (in fashion), simple is the best. I don't overthink and what I'm wearing right at that moment is my style.

Q: "GQ JAPAN" has a concept called "TOKYO NEW GENTLEMEN" which expresses an image of men with an aesthetic sense free from rules, updating from the conventional image of a gentleman. I think BTS exactly exemplifies this, but what do you think are the elements that are essential for modern gentlemen?

🐹: Well... I think it's wonderful to be free from rules, but I think someone with basic manners (alongside with other qualities) is a gentleman. This not only includes the outward behaviours/actions (that can be seen) but also the inner qualities that can't be seen for example, being considerate of how someone feels/thinks. It's the best for everyone to have a friendly feeling towards each other and live peacefully. In order to do that, I believe I/we need to brush up our inner and outer beauty.

[Jin, who was at the photo shoot, was the Jin we all knew — a lovable person who's friendly, kind and sincere. Something that was different, was the many mature expressions he showed which had fresh maturity and sexiness that we had never see before. Living in this fast paced world, he has definitely cultivated something through his experience. 31 years old, Jin's new chapter has begun.]

~ ~ ~ ~ ~

BTS // Magazines // Jin for "GQ Japan" Magazine // December 2024 // 241108 // 2024

date: 2024-11-08

Translation Cr. 061313purple // Interview Link (japanese)

#bts #bts jin #kim seokjin #jin #bts magazine #bts gq japan #gq japan #gq magazine

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decrepitdeer · 4 months ago

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CSS OC Backstories

I'm going to be concentrating on other stuff and putting these girls on the back burner for a bit, but before I do, I might as well post their backstories here as well!

These are taken directly from my notes, so writing wise these aren't the best, but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless <3

Their introduction post

Content and trigger warnings I guess: death, child death (kinda, it gets reversed almost immediately) brief implication of violence, mention of declining mental health??

Mara Dorsey:

Mara was a result of a fling, so her father didn't really stick around. Her mother cut contact with her own family and moved away after Mara was born.

She grew up having a natural fascination with all things creepy. Her mother adored her quirky habits. They had a very good and loving relationship. She even gave Mara an old family heirloom, a necklace with a green stone. Mara was told that it used to belong to a wicked witch. Mara's mother passed away when she was 7 years old, with her mother's family heirloom starting to glow for the first time at her funeral.

There weren't any relatives who could take her in, so she grew up in foster care. The years were tough on her, and Mara didn't have any of her magical abilities yet, so she developed other more violent means to defend herself and others. She has a very intimidating appearance but is still a good person. Mara would often defend and fight for the kids who couldn't do so themselves.

Her anger came out in other ways as well. She had a habit of sneaking to a wrecking yard to hit things with a baseball bat.

Mara had a near death experience in the said wrecking yard, which led her to meet Amari for the first time. She was very frightened when she first saw Amari, the wicked witch from her mother's stories. The old sounding English that she spoke in didn't help much either. After a while of talking, she found out that Amari was actually her ancestor. She offered her a deal. Amari would teach how to unlock her full potential, and Mara would take her as a "passenger" in her head so that she could see more than just her limbo realm. Mara was granted the ability to come back from the dead. She dies, but only temporarily. The second Mara dies, her body starts to heal itself. The more severe the damage, the longer it takes.

After meeting Amari in limbo, Mara started to see her everywhere, but only by her, no one else knows she's there. She also can possess Mara whenever she pleases.

Kibosh was able to sense something off about her and contacted her personally about joining Scare School.

Briar Lovell

Briars family has a generational curse that causes monstrous transformations for those affected. It skips generations, and it's triggered differently depending on the individual. Unfortunately, there hadn't been a case in years, causing Briars parents to be none the wiser.

Briar had a normal life before her puberty hit at around 12 years old. It was filled with your average staples of childhood, with some eerie elements in the mix. Briar has had very good senses since birth and was good in sports. Brair was also fascinated by the paranormal and loved telling scary stories during her sleepovers. But, as stated before, the changes in her body brought about a staggering transformation, heavily linked to her emotions. She was very scared and stressed out during the early days but tried to live a normal life in spite of it, hiding the change from everyone. Being the excitable girl she is, this eventually led to disaster when her emotions spilled over. The following terror and panic didn't help either. She even harmed one of her friends by accident. Her parents only discovered the truth after Briar showed up in her backyard in complete hysterics. Her other claw had blood on it.

In an attempt to protect Briar, her parents hid her away by moving to a more secluded location and forbid her from interacting with others. They also made sure that the area had a lot of wildlife, so that if anyone would see Briar by accident, they would just assume it's a bear or something similar. Briar continued to bottle up her emotions in an attempt to protect those around her. She didn't want a repeat of the previous situation. This took a huge toll on her mental health, but luckily, she had a supportive family that helped her through all of it. Briar also threw herself in her hobbies and studies, which were now done through homeschooling. Things like photography, scrapbooking, and boy bands kept her afloat during this time.

With the support of her family, she got better over time, but true salvation came when a mysterious letter came from somewhere called "Scare School."

Amari Adesanya

Amari's story has been mostly lost to history, only really living on in myths and ghost stories. She was born into a large family in the 1600s, being the oldest daughter. The village she grew up in was your average small religious community with very little room for individuality. Around 15 years of age, she was accused of witchcraft and was "mercifully" banished into the wilderness. Amari was rescued by an older woman in the forest who turned out to be a witch and took Amari under her wing. They lived in peace within the woods, Amari learning witchcraft along the way.

Everything went wrong after the woman was discovered by the villagers and killed on the spot.

This sent Amari over the edge, and she went on a rampage. She laid waste to any settlement she came across, eventually ending up in her original village. During all of this, Amari imagined the spirit of her teacher echoing in her ears, urging her to continue. Amari held seige to the settlement for an entire week before she was killed in action. In her final breath, she cursed all of mankind for their cruelty.

One of her younger siblings took her necklace off of her body, not knowing that it now included her spirit.

Centuries went by as Amari waited in limbo. Her violent and vengeful death caused her spirit to become stuck. With countless days in her hands, she was able to shape the realm in her image and practice her magic freely. All of the waiting eventually got tiring, so she was very interested when Mara showed up in her realm, becoming practically thrilled after finding out that she was her descendant. Amari offered a deal to Mara so that she could control her newfound powers better and allow Amari access to the outside world for the first time in hundreds of years.

There are a lot of new interesting things for a 1600s woman to observe in the modern day, but one thing is still the same. Her hatered for humankind. She had very little patience for any person that Mara talked to, especially if anyone was even slightly rude.

Amari doesn't admit her involvement in Mara being contacted by Gibosh to join Scare School, but it's more than likely that she did something. She had seen how tough life in the human realm was, so giving Mara a chance to escape from it would be more than expected for Amari.

#casper's scare school #caspers scare school #casper scare school #oc #original character #oc lore #oc backstory #witch oc #shapeshifter oc #ghost oc #oc: amari #oc: briar #oc: mara #writing

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josefavomjaaga · 8 months ago

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The marriage of Louis Bonaparte and Hortense de Beauharnais is usually just labeled some version of "bad" and not many details beyond some basics of it was arranged against both of their wills, during the few years he was King of Holland she preferred Paris to Amsterdam and also she was unfaithful. Just wondering what were specifics on what wasn't working between through the years and why?

Hortense, mostly. Okay, that was highly unfair.

I've gotten two questions related to Louis Bonaparte recently so I'll randomly pick this topic first. Sorry again (as always) for the long wait.

Figuring out who is "at fault" when two human beings turn out to just not be compatible is not easy anyway. But in this case, there's the additional problem of discerning the sources. While one side (Louis) has left some very sober and impersonal memoirs about his time as king of Holland, mostly treating political events, the other (Hortense) spent two decades, one third of her life, writing, editing and publishing all sort of media in her own favour, usually portraying herself as the innocent victim of jealousy and evil propaganda, whose personal enemies envied her all her perfect virtues.

Most people seem to believe her, so my opinion will be highly unpopular. But I keep thinking something was very, very wrong with Hortense.

It starts with the marriage plans. Hortense spends a lot of time on the topic in her memoirs (after having spent a lot of time listing the names of her potential suitors and random incidents of receiving admiration that embarrassed her oh-so-very-much... like a hunter lines up trophies on a wall). She clearly states that her mother pushed her into the marriage because Josephine could not give Bonaparte any children and Hortense's first son would need to become Napoleon's heir - otherwise the Bonaparte family would sooner or later convince Napoleon to divorce. - Except that in the Archives Nationales de France there is a manuscript, written by Hortense herself for tsar Alexander in 1814, in which she clearly states that she only ever heard of the possibility of divorce much later, when Louis refused to give up their first child to the First Consul.

And yet: if it's true that after Napoleon's return from Egypt Josephine and her kids had to spend a night on their knees in front of Napoleon's bedroom door - would the possibility of a divorce not have been around since, like, ever?

It's a small detail but I guess it shows how everybody worked on muddying the waters. Hortense is clearly lying at some point, but is it to Alexander or in her memoirs?

Add to that all the propaganda from all sides (pro-Napoleon, but from the Bonaparte side, often vilifying or ridiculing the Beauharnais side, pro-Bourbon, pro-republic) and the constant clan squabbles resulting in accusations and counter-accusations, and you have one tangled web to catch a lot of stories and very little truth.

There is also the problem of Louis' health issues that must have played a huge role in this marriage. I cannot access Dutch sources which might be the best in Louis Bonaparte's case, so I've mostly stuck to English texts. The nature of Louis' illness seems to be utterly unclear, I've read about anything from gout to syphilis (the latter I'm tempted to rule out due to how long he lived and him not having infected Hortense). I've also seen authors claim that Louis was utterly unable to father children, in which case half of the motivations ascribed to him in Hortense's memoirs do not work. I've seen mentioned that some of the treatments Louis had to undergo were so disgusting that Hortense could not bear them.

Very muddy waters.

So I'll try to make this short from here before I go off on yet another tangent: It seems pretty clear that in the beginning, it is Hortense rejecting Louis, who clearly does not fit her romantic notions of knight in shining armour. In typical Madame-Campan's-bride-school-for-the-rich-and-famous fashion, I might add (see Aglaé Auguié-Ney). Baylac's biography of Hortense cites several letters in which Louis almost begs for a sign of attention from his young wife, while he's away taking the waters.

He will not get them. Instead, Hortense will return to her mother and the court of First Consul Bonaparte and continue to play the role of "First Daughter" of France at the very first occasion, just like she would occasionally return to Madame Campan's school and play teacher's pet again. Hortense seems to have had the constant need to place herself at the center of attention, to outshine every (female) rival. I'm not sure of the underlying reason but the two siblings may have suffered from a similar problem and have chosen diametrically opposed strategies to cope: Eugène basically erasing himself, Hortense making everything about herself.

The closer you (or at least I 😗) look at her memoirs, the more pettiness and superficialty there is in her reasoning and the less I tend to believe in her accusations against Louis.

That being said, I do not think a husband like Louis, morose, suffering from chronical pain and probably highly irritable because of it, with the additional mental baggage of very patriarchal Corsican customs, did help the situation in the least! Hortense had grown up in Revolutionary Paris, around the Talliens, Barras, etc., for her extra-marital affairs surely were nothing to write home about. While Louis may have wanted to give this arranged marriage a true chance, Hortense probably never even planned to. She was giving birth to sons, that was what she had been hired to do. So what? The father mattered little.

Regarding that: There were (possibly unfounded) rumours about who the father of Hortense's first son was. The second generally seems to have been accepted as Louis' (which implies that he must have been able to father children). The third (future Napoleon III) was so obviously not Louis' that people in Paris openly made songs about it, and it caused the final breakup between Louis and Hortense. Modern-day scientists have verified through DNA tests that Napoleon III and Napoleon I were not blood-related (which has then caused a discussion if possibly Louis had not been fathered by Carlos, because surely Letizia was a lot more probable a culprit than Hortense... I digress again).

As usual, I've probably not really said much in my long blabbering post. (Except that I don't like Hortense.) The fairest answer would probably be: I do not know, and I'm not sure anybody has ever really tried to figure it out. Hortense was a highly independent and - in my opinion - extremely self-centered person, and Louis a man suffering from chronical pains and often humiliation by his wife's behaviour. Both might have needed help, physically and mentally

#napoleon's family #louis bonaparte #hortense de beauharnais #asks #thanks for the ask!#sorry for the wait

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idril-la-wiccan · 2 years ago

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Mermay 2023 - 4th Week and last three days

Day 22 - Zodiac

Well, with a prompt like this one, it was a little too easy to go with the Aquarius for Mermay. But... the thing is I have a certain attachement for this astrological sign in particular.

Day 23 - Tradition

And here is "Mahu", the dumbo octopus merfolk from day 21, once more ! I had vaguely alluded to it, but "Mahu" won't be their name, even if this is what I had planned initially. I'll explain why.

You've probably noticed that all of the merfolks I made for Out of the Abyss are strongly inspired by polynesian cultures, the most obvious ones being Hawaiian and Maori. And "Mahu" is in itself a concept of the Hawaiian culture : a third gender of which the name translates litteraly to "in the middle". Mahu people had an important role in Hawaiian society. They taught spiritual and social traditions, which included, among other things, teaching the hula.

And so, for me to have the idea of naming them "Mahu" to begin with, you've probably figured out that it's because this is what they are, traditionally speaking. But as I thought about it, I realised naming them by what they are would be like naming a cat, well, "Cat". It's a bit dumb.

Basically, I want to give them a new name. I'll certainly keep a two syllables name to at least keep things simple.

Hmm... In fact, maybe I could find them a name that has something to do with traditions ?

Day 24 - Zaddy

I made this character on the spot as I wasn't really inspired by the prompt. But I think I managed well with it nonetheless.

Day 25 - Food

No matter his form, Humphrey will always be a big glutton. (Even if, thankfully, he doesn't have the same voracity as when he used to be an actual whale.)

Day 26 - Jewel

"Shiny... For me... ?"

Day 27 - Halle Bailey

Ok, I'm not gonna speak on the matter of the Disney remakes as I believe everybody knows and that everybody roughly agrees about it.

No, here, the subject is Miss Bailey. I think no one can deny it, her voice is magnificent. And no matter the state of the movie, if she took pleasure in playing Ariel's role, then I am gald for her. And I also wish her a good continuation in her career.

Day 28 - Sailor

Alright, I might be cheating a bit with this prompt here. But the idea had been floating in my head for a while now and I finally had an excuse to put it on paper.

I don't know if I was the only one to have this idea, but I saw no one imagine the Captain Caviar ending up with a merman form as a result from being cursed by Black Pearl.

And yet, I saw many people draw him as a merman, so I'm surprised I haven't already seen this idea roam around...

Day 29 - Barbie

I loved the Barbie movies when I was a kid, especially the Fairytopia series. Here, I drew Elina, main character of this movie series, who takes on a mermaid form for a good part of the movie "Mermaidia".

Day 30 - Blue

I had mentionned this on day 21, but I'll have to reiterate it for this prompt. Leviathan is a blue whale merman.

It's in fact for this same reason he's the tallest amongst his peers : blue whales are the biggest mammals known in the world. Even Humphrey, a little humpback whale merman in comparison, is no match.

Well, perhaps that under his original form, Humphrey could have surpassed Leviathan.

Day 31 - Good night

I never would have guessed that I needed to see Dino-sour be a father figure to a half dinosaur baby cookie in my life.

Yes, the previous sentence makes no sense out of context.

I no longer play Ovenbreak ever since... well, ever since even before what happened with Yogurca (the less we talk about it, the better), but I'm still trying to follow the stories on YouTube. And honestly, I think that Pond Dino is the best thing to have happened to the "Rise of the Blue Dragon" update. I get how their design bothers some (it's rather overloaded, let's admit it), but... Just...

Baby... <3

Baby that sleeps like an otter. <3

*****

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hickeygender · 11 months ago

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so, uh... netflix avatar certainly is a show, huh? i just finished episode 1 and i'm gonna ramble on about it below. blacklist "#len watches natla" or "natla spoilers" if you either don't wanna see this shit or you don't want spoilers.

fair warning that i was relatively neutral going into the show, but episode 1 was... hmm. i'm still struggling to formulate words on it. i didn't love it, but it wasn't shyamalan levels of bad by any means. i'm gonna hop right into episode 2 after this post bc i've heard the pilot and the finale are the weakest episodes and i genuinely wanna give it a fair chance before i cast judgment.

so, they open with the air nomad genocide. i knew this going in, but it certainly sets a Tone, a Tone that does NOT feel like avatar. like, i understand they wanted to elevate the level of maturity a bit and make things more serious, but was it rlly necessary to see a shit ton of air nomads get fireballed to death, culminating in gyatso getting burned alive trying to protect a room of children, who also presumably get incinerated?? they didn't show that part, instead doing a hard cut to katara waterbending a century later (resulting in EXTREME whiplash for me), but them violently dying is the only way that ends.

also, minor quibble: the firebending looked normal to me, but the general who killed gyatso said smthn like "you might have beaten me any other day, but today we have the power of the comet!" but their bending doesn't look very different from zuko's bending later? it's a little more flamey ig, but in s3 when ozai gets juiced up the motherfucker is out here destroying whole forests from his airship.

onto the acting. gordon cormier's portrayal felt a little too rehearsed and theatrical rather than natural, but he's a kid and acting is hard so i'm def gonna cut him some slack, and he does seem pretty happy and earnest, even if his delivery is a bit forced. kiawentiio tarbell is pretty good, but her dialogue left a bit to be desired, which isn't on her and i'll complain about later. ian ousley gave the best performance imo, tho ymmv bc ik there's some controversy around his heritage that i don't feel i have the right to get into due to tribal registration being a complex topic, blood quantum being awful, and me being white. gran gran was barely there and just exposited everywhere in a weird callback to the og intro, so i don't really feel like she's that important even tho i liked her casting. uncle iroh... i'm not sure. he wasn't too prevalent, which is understandable this early on. i liked paul sun-hyung lee's warmth, but don't have much to say otherwise yet. and then there's dallas james liu. i think his acting was pretty solid, at least on the level of dev patel's performance (which i swear is a compliment bc he was the only good part of shyamalan's dumpster fire of a film imo). i think the issue i have with the performance is down to the writing, which i guess i'll get into now bc it's my biggest issue with episode 1.

the dialogue flow was mid, and there was a bit of info dumping from gyatso in his scene with aang which i found distracting. speaking of info dumping, gran gran was just kinda there to explain the last hundred yrs to aang and then have zero interactions with her grandchildren before they flew off, which was dumb.

still on the topic of writing: i mentioned the tone set by the opener, and i think that's bad, but it also fucked up the pacing by not starting at the same point the og did. by the end of the episode they shoehorned in the trip to the southern air temple with like 11 mins left (i checked) and so that made aang's grief triggering the avatar state feel rushed. i also thought the flashback to gyatso's earlier dialogue when aang saw his corpse was unnecessary. like bitch, i watched that 30 mins ago, i remember it fine! by the end, aang seemed waaaay more driven than he did in s1 of the original, almost as self-confident as he was in s3. like, he accepted being the avatar real quick. i'm pretty sure he'll display a bit more uncertainty later in the season (at least, i hope he does), but that still felt off to me.

my biggest complaint about the writing is zuko. i KNOW he's a brat, i am well aware of that as a lifelong zuko girlie, but was him trying to kill sokka necessary??? he was literally about to throw a fireball at him when he was lying defeated in the snow before aang stepped in. he also commanded his soldiers to burn the village to the ground at one point. i understand he's a villain and that they're attempting to corner the Prestige TV market here, so they've decided to make him grittier. i don't like it, though. in the cartoon, zuko is driven in his awful quest, but he's also honorable - in the village he nods his head in agreement when aang asks if he'll leave the village alone if aang goes with him. that little moment showed his honor, his true honor, peeking through. also in the cartoon, he's really bad at finding the avatar despite being very skilled in combat. i don't know how they're gonna have him show up very much in this season if he's gonna be more of a ruthless asshole tbh.

overall, i'm left just kinda confused with the tone and character writing of the show. i'm going to watch the whole season because it's only 8 episodes and i genuinely hope it improves somewhat, but i'd give it either a 6 or a 6.5/10, i can't quite decide.

#len speaks #len watches natla #natla spoilers #sidenote: zu.ko's scar isn't NEARLY graphic enough. that lessens the horror of it to me which i'm honestly rlly disappointed with #and final sidenote: HATED the intro especially considering gran gran repeats the og intro nearly verbatim later. the new intro was just bad #anyway. i'm still left kinda 😕 after this episode. i'd really hoped it would be better tho i kept my expectations low

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fallingforel · 2 years ago

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Arabella pt 11-for the hope of it all

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"Matty, hey, how are you?"

"fucking shite, bug, they've got me attached to all these wires, I don't want to be here, I want to be in my bed with you"

"Matty" I sigh knowing the next thing I'm about to say isn't what he wants to hear, but it has to be said before I give him a false sense that he's going home after he's been discharged.

"what? spit it out woman" he says making me chuckle, even when he was lying in a hospital bed he was an impatient 3 year old.

"hey, you may be lying in a hospital bed, but I'm not afraid to kick your arse still." I replied before perking up again "do you know what happened Matty?"

"yeah, took a bunch of shit and blacked out"

"yes but you also, suffered from Alcohol poisioning which resulted in you having your stomach pumped, You also hit your head pretty hard, they weren't sure you were going to wake up. You overdosed too"

"shit really? did I really have to get my stomach pumped?"

"yes. why is that the only thing you pick up from that?"

"SICK! Never had to have that done to me before"

"No! Matty, it's not sick, it's bad if you were left there any longer, you could've died."

"Adams been asking about been asking about you too, said you were okay as well."

"whats up with you, why are you calling Hann by his actual name, and not his last name or Ad's like you usually do? whats gone while I was half dead. You all haven't fallen apart without me have you?"

"HEY! you were not half dead, you were merely taking an extra long sleep."

"okay sure I was taking an extra long sleep, tell me whats gone on now then"

"adam said you were dead, when we weren't sure if you were going to wake up, basically blaming you for everything, wasn't your fault you deal with pain different to us, you get high and drunk when your in so much pain"

"yeah, can't say that, what Adam said didn't hurt. Because that would be a lie."

"he still hasn't apologised by the way, it's been two weeks. Been passing everything along to G and Ross. about your state, Your going to the bahamas or bermuda, haven't decided which one your going to yet."

"what for?"

"for rehab matty, You blacked out, the doctors have been strongly suggesting rehab, more of an order than a suggestion I guess"

"nice, It'll be nice to get away from this shitty weather for a good while" He says trying to lace his voice with meaningfulness, though I know he doesn't want to go, Just hoping it makes me shut up about it. I know him through and through and I knew that he was lying through his teeth.

he sits in silence with me for a while before he scares me blurting out a "shit" from his mouth.

"what?"

"what about the album? How am I going to record if I am going to be going to the bahamas"

"don't you worry your sweet little head about that Stink. I've sorted it" Giving him a grin like the chesire cat.

"why have you got that look on your face?" He asks from his hospital bed giving me a confused taken aback look.

"what look?" I ask dumbfounded pretending I don't understand.

"the cheshire cat look Y/n, The one that tells me that you've done something stupid."

"Matty. I haven't done anything stupid perse, just something you might not approve of."

"what?"

"I'm not telling you. You'll hate me for it."

"Tell me. Couldn't hate you more than I already do for sending me to fucking rehab"

"You know it's for the best Matty."

"spit it out"

"I asked, col to take your place on the album. He sounds just enough like you that nobody would notice, he's not touring for you though."

"ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOT. I AM NOT HAVING THAT SCUMBAG TAKE MY FUCKING PLACE THATS MY FIRST FUCKING ALBUM YOUR TALKING ABOUT. CALL OFF THE REHAB GET ME TO THE STUDIO, RIGHT FUCKING NOW" he says raising his voice.

Col and Matty never got on. Not when me and him were together, not when we all ran in the same friendship circle. and certainly not when we broke up and I found out he cheated on me, and I ran to matty's house in tears and cried on his shoulder and slept on his sofa for a month.

-7 MONTHS EARLIER-

"oh, you have got to be fucking joking me" I say as I walked into my shared apartment in London with my boyfriend of 6 years and my bestfriend and adams girlfriend of 5 years. with his head in between her legs.

"Y/n it's not what it looks like"

"yeah, course it fucking isn't. Get a life. I'm going."

"where?"

"away from you, have a nice life. We're DONE" I say.

and before I know it I'm walking out, away from my life and from him all I have ever known while living in london, the first love I have ever known. grabbing my coat and shutting the apartment door and running through the complex out the lobby door, hailing a taxi to the now only safe haven I knew Matty's house.

"Y/n? what are you doing here?" he asks opening the door to me tears filled my eyes. "he cheated on me, with beth." "that fucker. come in, don't want you getting a cold now do we?" I shake my head no and go to sit on his sofa where I would reside for the next month before getting my life together.

-BACK TO THE PRESENT/ DEC 2012-

"Matty calm down will you, your scaring all the other patients. Just sit down, let's talk it through before you go mental and take three steps back that's not what we're trying to achieve here"

"fine." He slumps back on the pillows turning his body to face the wall away from me.

"Matty, we've gone through all the options. All the people closest to you: Ross, Adam, G, your mum, your dad, my mum and dad, jamie too. And we've all agreed it wasn't a bad idea Adam and I are fine with it. But if you disagree to it here's whats going to happen. Your probably going to miss out on releasing your album, You're going to be put on drug watch with someone at your side all times even when you piss if you decide that you want to record, everyone is going to keep an eye out for you. So it's all up to you, but those are your options. What one do you think is best?"

"I ain't going to rehab."

"yes you are Matty, we've already established this. We've picked a nice place out for you to go. It's in bermuda, you get to do equine therapy play with horses, you get to watch the sea it's all very theraputic. It'll help you out Matty trust me. It's either this or a shitty rehab centre in a shitty town in the U.K where you get no 1 to 1 care either. I've got the card and my laptop here. You can have a look at it." I say pulling my laptop out of the cubby hole next to Mattys bed and the card out of my jacket pocket.

"I ain't going."

"matty, you are. You can either go the nice way, which is you go willingly or you can go the harder way where they pull you out of here themselves and I've seen it happen more than once when i've come to visit you. Matty you need to choose, the doctors aren't letting you out of here until you've chosen the route you want to go down, which is going to be close drug watch with one of us, or all of us and rehab at the end after you've recorded or rehab and let col record. and then hard or easiest way"

"fine."

"so whats it going to be?"

"I don't know yet, let me think it through can you go get me some proper food. I don't want none of this hospital shitty crap."

"yeah, okay what do you want?"

"maccies. Double cheeseburger and coke please"

"okay, I'll go get you some. be back soon" I say before leaving his hospital room with a chaste kiss on his forehead.

the drive thru was rather short getting myself chicken nugget meal and I thought on the way back I should probably tell George what was going on seeing as he was closest to Matty after me of course.

"so whats going on"

"I don't know G, I told him I was sending him to rehab he seemed okay at first, knew it was a lie though I could tell. Then I told him about Col recording the album and he started shouting and denying going to rehab, I gave him his options he ended up saying fine. Don't know whether he's chosen going to rehab first or recording. G I'm scared."

"there's no need to be. It's matty he'll come around eventually you know he will. No need to swea-"

and G is abruptly cut off by someone else ringing me, the hospital. that can't be good

"err G I'm gonna have to go, the hospitals phoning"

"okay okay, enjoy mattys madness" He says ending the call allowing me to pick up the hospitals phone call.

"hello?" I say

"hello. Is this Y/N L/N."

"It is how can I help."

"it's matty."

"what about him?"

"he's disappeared"

"okay. I'm coming I'll be there soon." I say ending the phone before screaming

"FOR FUCKS SAKE"

#alex turner x reader #matty healy #adam hann #alex turner x you #george daniel #matty healy x reader #matty healy x you #alex turner x y/n #ross mcdonald #matty healy x y/n #the 1975 #arctic monkeys #alex turner fic #matty healy fluff #matty healy angst #mattyhealyxbsf!reader #matty healy fic

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yurisorcerer · 25 days ago

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I still have very little idea of what to make of this show despite being 7 whole episodes into it.

Clearly, the reason this got greenlit was Eva, right? Like, weird mecha show. It was kind of in the air at the time, I can imagine Evangelion existing at least prepped the runway for this. Despite that, it's not really *like* Eva, that much? I suppose it is in that there is a similar melange of mecha tropes and psychological stuff, but honestly what this is giving me more than anything is a sort of Earth Maiden Arjuna vibe. We've got a lot of weird science and occult stuff (which blend together at the edges, as they so often do), clearly some concern with the natural state of humanity, although here it seems to be more about pushing humanity forward (?or not doing that. Not clear on if Betterman, the Dual Kinds, etc. are "a good thing" in the show's mind or not yet?) than getting in touch with Mother Earth so to speak.

In its more obscure moments this show is pretty dark, and there's a lot of flashes of disconnected evocative imagery and on, but there's also a huge focus on classic super robot tropes as applied to the rather strange setup of the series. (Even given that Betterman is more of a kaiju, as is the elephant demon thing he battles in this little arc.) Like, the show goes out of its way to give names to Betterman's forms and attacks, providing even an in-universe reason it has those names, and the characters cheer Betterman on at the sidelines like the crowd in a more "typical" super robot show might. Particularly fond of doing this is Dr. Asami Miyoko, who kind of seems like a Betterman fangirl in some sense.

This all feels like it's building up to something but I couldn't rightly tell you *what* just yet. There are a lot of horror tinges so I feel like the other shoe is going to drop at some point, but I'm not sure what that'll look like or what the results will be.

I actually quite like the show, mind you. I'm enjoying trying to figure out what exactly it's doing. Getting in my way are a couple problems; for one thing, the depiction of India in these past two episodes is a little um, questionable? It could be much worse I guess.

Outside the control of the show itself, there just don't seem to be any good prints of Betterman online? This one, which seems to be about the best of them, is still very blown out when a seen is too bright or *especially* when it's too dark. This is a bit of a problem since large chunks of the show take place underground or otherwise in cramped spaces. Also, whenever there's a sign on-screen while someone is talking, the sign will be subtitled but the dialogue will not be. So it's been a bit rough going.

Still, interested what the remaining 20ish episodes add up to.

#yurisorcerer talks about media #Betterman

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gothwives · 2 years ago

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"ha ha." it really hadn't hit him yet just how tragic this all was. at first he was in a state of shock, but little by little reality was sinking in. what resulted was a sort of numbness, with the whirlwind of emotions waging war within him proving too exhausting to fully sort through. he was trying not to dwell on what would inevitably drive him mad, instead appreciating such creature comforts as the the body he so carefully lathered with soap. "i'm sure you can hire someone to take care of things, can't you?" lips pursed, leon pondered her questions, ruminated on how truthful he should be. this was a murderer he was talking to, after all, and he had no idea just how dangerous she truly was. who knew what she was capable of, what might set her off. in the end he kept it simple, giving away as little information as possible and waiting for her to give him more. "i do." and he'd been trying his best not to think about them through all this, but she just had to go and remind him of two of the most important people in his life, who he might never see again. while sienna spoke, he remained quiet, listening intently to her bare her soul. needing something to do with his nervous energy, he poured a bit of shampoo in his hand, reaching for her hip to pull her closer and beginning to work it through her hair. at first it'd seemed like a nice, light topic of conversation, but he could sense it was going in a sinister direction before she'd even got to that part of the story. all he could think about was how he'd feel if it were one of his sisters in sienna's sister's shoes, or his mother, even. leon had witnessed his mother harmed by not one, but two men— not physically, but emotionally and psychologically, which was almost just as insidious. it'd torn him apart inside, but if it had ended up leading to her eventual demise? he couldn't say just what he'd do in retaliation. suddenly sienna's actions started to make a lot more sense to him, and he had a hard time seeing her as the villain she'd made herself out to be. she wasn't just some sick freak who killed for the thrill of it— her whole family had been wronged by this town, and now she was the only one left to do something about it. how could he fully condemn her actions after learning the reasoning behind it? "i'm sorry... i know it doesn't really mean shit coming from me, but— yeah, i dunno. i dunno what to say, other than that your sister shouldn't have had to go through that. your whole family, really. it makes sense, i guess... kinda sounds like the plot of a quentin tarantino movie, actually. i'm wondering who he'd cast to play you... emma stone, maybe?" it hadn't even occurred to him that she could be lying about the sob story to gain his trust, but she spoke with too much sincerity for him to doubt her.

“ i bet you would've killed. ” hollow compliment would only come off as pouring salt into the wound that she ripped an opportunity from him. though, she grew silent as he washed her and started up prying for information. big smile turned small and she rotated when she needed so he could get her back; raising her arms and bouncing a little to try and distract him with her breasts. “ if i leave, who would take care of everythin' here? there's a lot of farm and a lot of farm animals. ” selling was an option, but it was the last option. “ how long do you think i've been killin' folks? ” one brow raising while she shot him a playfully quizzical look. “ you got siblings, leon? ” gently rejecting his hand from washing her further, sienna let the water wash away the suds as she smooth her hand down her body. “ i had a sister. older. she was the debutante type. virginly and prettier, but she was not the favorite. well, she was the town favorite. sweet and helpful and she lit up any room she walked in. ” the brunette spoke softly, in awe rather than having any ill in her tone. “ all the boys and men just wanted a piece of her, y'know? but she was savin' herself and all that.. made her come off prudish to them and they took as she thought she was better than them. ” her head craned slightly, pausing as if she'd seen a ghost or frightening thought had infiltrated her mind. “ one day she comes home late.. her dress was ruined and she had all these marks on her and she was bleeding and.. ” plump lips pursed, sucking her teeth and poking her tongue against her inner cheek. “ well, nobody in my family really recovered after that. everyone in town and the trial that happened broke my sister 'cause nobody believed her.. too much influence from the gang of men that did it to her. all those threats from women, daughters, sons, men.. got to her, so she— ” the brunette doesn't mean to be crude, gesturing rope around her neck and the rest. “ mama drowned herself in alcohol before she actually drowned herself in the bayou and my daddy stuck a rifle in his mouth a year later. ” sticking her head under the water, sienna pushed liquid and hair out her face before she looked at leon again. “ i've got a long list, leon. so, there's a lot tying me down right now. the gas station didn't even put a dent in that list. ”

#{ leon ebert — thread }#{ leon vs. sienna }#luhstories #suicide mention tw #assault mention tw

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simply-hyacinth · 2 years ago

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You write L so wonderfully and so in character. I had a request if they’re still open: Could I request Reader (any gender) giving L his first kiss, teaching him how to kiss in the process, and L discovering that he really enjoys the sensation of kissing? I headcanon L as so mentally devoted to his work that his physical form has kind of taken a backseat, and so something like a kiss or touch from the right person can ignite in him a new understanding of himself. Thanks for reading! 💖

So, I was gonna answer this later because I have a truly astounding amount of homework to get done, but how could I keep you waiting? Anyways, I tried my best to adhere to your request, and I'm so sorry if it's disappointing, I've never really done this before. Please let me know if you want anything else written or rewritten, or literally anything. Your wish is my command. Also, thank you so much for your kind words! I am trying to write him as realistically as possible because I saw too much ooc L, and so I'm doing my best.

“Cake?” You asked, setting it down in front of him gently so as to not disturb his setup.

“Thank you.” He responded. His eyes never left the screen as he picked up the fork and began to eat.

He had arrived at your apartment last night and in typical L fashion, had given you little notice before knocking on your door with a briefcase of files and papers. He had turned your living room into a crime scene, and as far as you knew, hadn’t slept a wink since he had gotten here.

You didn’t want to ask him any questions or bother him, despite how incredibly curious you were, but you did want to be sure he wasn’t wasting away under your watch. If that meant feeding him desserts every hour to ensure that something was being consumed, then so be it.

“Cake for dinner,” You said softly to the air, shaking your head as you served yourself a slice. “I’m living my childhood dreams.”

Taking a seat next to L, you very carefully pulled a blanket up to your lap. You watched him cautiously, worried that your movements might distract him.

“You are not bothering me.” He said abruptly.

You froze “Are you sure? I can just go to my room if - “

“No, I quite enjoy your presence.” He turned to you. “And if anything, I should be the one worried about bothering you. I have completely taken over your living room with my research.”

In furious denial, you responded, “No not at all! I love having papers about - “ You pick up a paper and skim the first sentence. “ - mass murders…on my couch…”

L let out a soft chuckle, to which you gave him a smile in return. “I should be thankful that you have not yet tired of my existence.”

“How could I ever? You’re my best customer.” You gestured to the state of your messy kitchen - a result of all the baking and cooking you had done for him since he had arrived.

He responded with a little laugh, and turned back to his screen. You admired how much he devoted himself to his work, however it worried you nonstop to see how it ate away at him, both mentally and physically.

You didn’t pretend to understand what he did. As far as you could tell, he was a spy or detective of sorts. He never confirmed or denied your guesses, but there were certain aspects of his routine that allowed you to infer what you could.

What you were sure of, however, was that the only time he was ever able to properly relax was when he was around you. Which only made it that much more saddening that he was so immersed in his research at this moment in time.

But you said nothing. It was never your place to interfere or say anything. That was how the two of you worked.

You picked up your book from the table in front of you and began to read. It was nice, being near him and the two of you being allowed to do your respective things. In fact, the book you were reading was one he had suggested for you after you told him it had been a while since you found a good book.

So far, you were quite happy with the recommendation.

After a couple of hours of just being next to each other and occasionally exchanging words, you began to doze off. The book slipped out of your hands and your head dropped onto L’s shoulder.

For the first time in hours, he was completely taken out of his work mindset. The weight of your body slumped against his was so warm. He knew it probably would be best to let you sleep, but how was he meant to get any work done if you were right against him?

Lucky for him, you started to stir, yawning as you awoke from your brief nap. “You’re here?”

“I’ve been here since yesterday.” He replied quietly.

You quickly noticed how much of his personal space you had accidentally invaded and shot straight up. “Shit, I didn’t mean to - “

L reached over and took your hand. It was a bit of an awkward grab, but you understood he meant it to be comforting. “You do not bother me.” His words were firm.

“Right,” You breathed out, unknowingly lacing your fingers with his. “I forgot.”

“You also seemed to forget that I was here,” He noted. “You were surprised.”

Your cheeks heated up at his observation. “I think…I’m not used to you being so present next to me. It was a bit shocking to wake up practically sleeping on you.”

He was silent for a moment, and then, “Elaborate. On the part about me being present.”

“It’s not a matter of you being physically absent, but I mean you’re always so absorbed in your work that it’s like you forget I’m here or even where and who you are. Mentally, you are on another planet almost ninety percent of the time.” You explain, embarrassed.

This seemed to bother him. You noticed the way his grip on your hand loosened and his shoulders deflated even more.

“I never meant to make you feel that way.”

Your heart broke at how defeated he sounded. “Not at all! I just want you to be aware that you’re allowed to relax around me. You’re under no obligations here.”

He nodded. “Then you should also know that I don’t mind you being close to me.” He looked down at where your hands were still intertwined. “I’ve come to enjoy being in contact with you.”

You laughed lightly, relieved. “Thank goodness. I could kiss you right now, you know?”

“You could.” He confirmed quickly. “It would certainly be an experience I’ve never had before.”

To that, your laughter stops. “Never? You’ve never been kissed before?”

“I think I, of all people, would know if I had been.” He said dryly.

“Would you want me to kiss you?” You asked him, your words hushed and curious.

He pondered it for a moment. “I would want you to, of course. I have no expectations on whether or not I will enjoy it, as I have no previous experience to form them from. However, based off of what the vast majority of the population would - “

You decided you had enough of his talking and leaned forward, pressing your lips against his and using your free hand to hold his face gently as you did.

By kissing standards, it was not perfect. It was soft and awkward, but to you it was pure bliss. And as you pulled away and saw the gratified look in his eyes, it was fairly evident he felt similarly.

“How was that?” You asked teasingly.

“I’m not sure,” He replied. “I think you should do it again, for me to provide you with a satisfactory answer.”

You let out a laugh and leaned against him. “To be entirely honest with you, I haven’t kissed many people before.”

“In comparison to them, how did I do?”

“Well, that was just a basic kiss.” You explained. “If you really want to be memorable, you should try a little harder.”

He raised an eyebrow at you. “And how should I do that?”

You gave him a sly smile and moved until his back was pressed against the couch cushions and you were positioned slightly above him, your legs on either side of his lap.

“Just open your mouth…” And like the obedient boyfriend he was, he did. “...lean forward…” Your lips met his again and you pulled him in closer; so close that you could feel his heart pounding against your chest.

The two of you quickly fell into a rhythm, and for someone who claimed to have never been kissed before, he was oddly passionate.

Breathless, you pulled away and beamed at him. “I would say that was pretty good. You?”

“If I wished to rank it, I would have to kiss other people to properly make a comparison.” You met his eyes, a teasing spark illuminated within them.

You scrunched up your nose. “Don’t joke. You are horribly unfunny.”

“Your lies do not concern me.” He placed a small kiss on the tip of your nose, much to your surprise.

“It appears you like being kissed then?”

“If it’s by you, then yes.” He sighed, a mixture of content and sadness. “I apologize for making you feel so unwanted around me while I work. I truly appreciate your presence and your efforts to distract me.”

You nodded acceptingly. “Well, do they at least work?”

L smiled. “They do.”

With a little exhale of relief, you rested your body against his and closed your eyes. “Anyways, you’re pretty good at that whole kissing thing. Maybe we can make it a habit.”

He squeezed your hand lightly. “I would like that.”

Because there was something so satisfying about kissing you, or even touching you, that made him only crave it more. L, whose mind was forever restless, had come to a complete halt the moment your lips had touched his.

It appeared that the only tried and true thing that could ever relax him and bring him out of an overworked state of mind, was being with you.

It was selfish. So incredibly selfish of him. To be with you, knowing the dangers, knowing the consequences, all because it made him feel good.

But he couldn’t help it. Not if it meant the possibility of kissing you again. And so he solidified this resolve in his mind that he wanted you, and only ever you. He knew there could be nothing good to come of this in the long run, but for now, you were both content in each other’s company.

L never stopped thinking about this moment. It might have been one of the only ones where he could truly say he was happy.

#simplyhyacinth #l death note #deathnote #deathnote x reader #deathnote fanfiction #l x reader #lawliet x reader #l lawliet x reader #l lawliet #l lawliet x you #l x you

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hey i just wanted to say i really enjoy your posts. i'm a 30-something who works in reproductive health care in pennsylvania, and while i often feel pretty bad about our government, i still think voting is essential.

i get really frustrated with a lot of the people around me who seem to almost delight in being fatalistic. dems just might be able to secure a majority in our state house which, along with a pro-choice governor, means we could finally secure some protection for abortion access instead of just constantly praying the gop doesn't reach a veto-proof majority. and when i share this with my friends i either get silence or, literal quote, "that would be absolutely incredible and by absolutely incredible i mean in keeping with the barest sliver of hope for the future but i guess it's a low bar" and it's like????? hey fuck you???

anyways, i like how you balance optimism and pragmatism and seem like someone who doesn't just want to smoke week, play mariokart, and talk about how every candidate sucks.

Thanks, this means a lot to me. I have been cavilling in the lonely Tumblr wilderness about elections, voting, the necessity to do it, the toxic and useless "Progressive Online Leftist" culture, why you need to support Democrats, and so forth ever since at least 2016. As you might expect, this has not always gone down well, but I am stubborn.

Also: yes, this election wasn't a blue wave, but yet again, I'm astonished at how fast the goalposts changed, and suddenly the best midterm results for an incumbent president in recent history were Actually Bad. The almost universally-expected Republican red tsunami didn't happen at all, and while they may scrape out the House in a tight race (let's hope not the Senate too), that is hardly the barn-busting result that everyone was crowing about. Their craziest and most dangerous candidates, in the places where they had the chance to do a lot of damage, almost universally lost. Democrats even made pickups in places where they weren't expected. They held their own and made it exponentially more likely that we can stagger into 2024 without going full fascism, and that is important.

I know the nihilist millennial/Gen Z culture tends to make everything as bad as it can be at all times (and don't get me wrong, it is indeed very bad), but just being Edgelord Darko at all times to show how cool and cynical you are... eh, it just doesn't appeal to me, it never has, it never fixes anything, and is as much a self-serving fantasy as the Republicans' Big Lie. In both cases, it conveniently excuses the person from having to do anything to actually help the world and the state of things, if everything is already fucked anyway, and I'm definitely not cool with that.

#krill-joy #ask #politics for ts

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blazehedgehog · 3 years ago

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Yuji Naka allegedly planned on firing a majority of the (non-Japanese) staff of the cancelled Geist Force, and then utilize GF's engine for his own Sonic Team projects. And he stated his plan within earshot of said staff to his advisor, assuming they didn't speak Japanese... but they did, and they subsequently quit en masse in protest hearing this, resulting in GF's cancellation. And this was JUST A FEW YEARS after his (rather ironic) tantrum over the X-Treme staff using his NiGHTS engine.

What I'm saying is that stating Naka was "[not] the nicest, most caring guy" seems like a MASSIVE fucking understatement at this point.

At the same time, a lot of this was a very long time ago. People tend to mellow out when they get older. If you're throwing yourself in to fights a lot, you're going to get tired of fighting eventually.

Regarding yesterday's post, some have pointed out that, in some companies, HR is involved with firings in general. Human resources deals with all employee affairs, not just rudeness complaints. It is entirely possible that no matter what Yuji Naka did or did not do, HR would have always gotten involved as part of his removal process. It's a red flag, but it's not ironclad.

Which is a good way to treat all of this, I think. We have a lot of anecdotal accounts of Yuji Naka allegedly acting a certain way, but only a very small percentage is verifiable, identifiable proof. A lot of it is "My best friend's sister's boyfriend's brother's girlfriend heard from this guy who knows this kid who's going with the girl who saw Yuji Naka pass out at 31 Flavors last night. I guess it's pretty serious."

It's also worth mentioning that if Yuji Naka went so far as to enter a costly legal proceeding about what happened to him, and used that as a platform to talk about this, that suggests judgment might have been in his favor. In other words, he might have actually been unfairly removed from the project according to whatever court heard his case in Japan.

There are many angles to view this situation from and its important not to rush to grabbing pitchforks and torches just yet. It's just weird, that's all. Like I said originally, this could just be Yuji Naka's past catching up with him.

#questions #Anonymous #yuji naka #square-enix #prope #balan wonderworld #arzest #artoon #legal

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dragon-seahorse · 8 months ago

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I,Like Zesty couldn't pick one so I chose

Uno From Nanbaka (Left) And Doppo Kunikida (Right).

I am NOT NORMAL about these two and while they're not my weirdest they're my most I guess you could say Elaborate? I have some weird ones yes but the explanations would be way to short but these two are actually always at the forefront of my headspace and they are like my most consistent companions in my brain. I will also say with my roommates I am their Uno and Kunikida they're my Chuuya and Dazai and Nico and Jyugo(we RP and plan to cosplay these characters).For now though here's the tea on my boys!

Uno:

Silly:

Mom friend like straight up he is cell 13's mom. He's also got a gambling addiction and ironically enough he is the best with money I'm not even joking. Also one of my favorite lines from him is this:

moster/evil doll thing is tugging on Uno's hair cause the group is chatting for plot reasons. After some tugs he just turns amd screams out "HEY! DON'T PULL ON MY HAIR UNLESS WE AGREE ON A FRIGGIN SAFE WORD!!!" And then he sees the evil doll and goes pail as a ghost before the group runs away(this is a "comedy" anime and he is crying as they run away but it's the funny anime crying). Either way I think he's one of the funniest characters in this show.

Angst:

We hardly know anything about his backstory, what we do know is that apparently he hates authority and since this is a prison anime he probably has had enough bad experiences with prison guards he doesn't trust them hell both he and another character Rock are either consciously or unconsciously protective over their younger cell mates Nico and Jyugo that they tend to put themselves infront of Nico and Jyugo a lot even when they sleep Uno and Rock are on the outsides with Nico and Jyugo are inbetween them. I also think he might have a slight case of bad or low self esteem as he is a very pretty character but he is being constantly overshadowed by other pretty boys in the show two (possibly three it's been a while since I've actually watched Nanbaka)of which actively state that they are much better looking than him.

As a result of him being one of my favorites:

I made him an angsty back story,I have made so many AUs for my boy, hell I have a crack/joke ship of Uno and Mothman(Yes,the Cryptid) based on an inside joke with my friends. Hell I am slowly building my collection of Uno merch there's sadly not a lot but maybe someday qwq. He's also got a permanent spot in my brain space that he and Kunikida kinda run it together.

Kunikida:

Silly: God where do I start, I love the way he's animated and I love it when he gets the shark teeth when he's angry and yelling at Dazai. He's also honest just a fun character and I latched onto him quickly hell he's a lot like me in certain aspects and I think that's why he quickly became my faves. I usually cling to the protags and while yes Atsushi is one of my absolute favorite protags,Kunikida is THE FAVORITE. Plus I love how soft he can be and how caring he actually is. He also tends to act like a male wife and he is also the mom friend and Dazai even calls him the agency's mommy (he also calls him that in the light Novel too!!!) And I fuckin love that (I am Sensing a pattern here with me and mom friend characters)

Angst:

The Fandom is sleeping on him for real I am not joking. He calls Dazai every morning and night to make sure he's okay hell I'm sure he makes meals for both Dazai and Katai to make sure they get some decent food instead of takeout all the time. In Beast he doesn't call Akutagawa a monster he tells him flat out that he just doesn't know himself yet and that the ADA will help him figure things out and he's ONE OF THEM NOW!!!. Kunikida sacrifices himself because he doesn't want anyone to die in front of him he's been shown to willingly blow himself up to protect others and when someone does die it breaks him. It breaks him and it tears him up inside but he hardly gives himself the time to grieve. HE EVEN SHEDULES HIS BRAKEDOWNS AND THAT HURTS SO MUCH THAT HE FEELS HE HAS TO DO THAT FOR THE SAKE OF TIME MANAGEMENT!!!! OTL. I swear to God the ADA would crumble so fast without him they could probably live but it will never be the same with out Kunikida there. Kunikida I swear is so important to the series but he's constantly shoved aside and that makes me so so sad.

As a result of him being one of my favorites:

He is very similar to Uno while I don't have a backstory for him I have so many AUs with him,so many ships,I do have more merch of Kunikida than I do of Uno but I love themb both so much. Kunikida also like Uno has basically permanent residency in my head and they're the most prominent. I also plan to cosplay as Kunikida eventually I even has his notebook as well.

Uno and Kunikida mean the world to me and love them so very very much. They are my boys and I am almost always down to talk about them.

Now I'm not gonna tag anyone cause I don't wanna be rude ^^; but if anyone wants to do this feel free

I'm bored so....

show your 'weirdest' to explain favourite character, say the silly & angst reasons why you like them and what you have done as a result of them being your favourite

I'll start:

Qi Rong aka Night Touring Green Lantern from Heaven Official's Blessing

Silly reason I love him: he's deranged and crass which is fun to see in comparison with the other characters and how the fuck did he of all characters become a father?

Angst reason I love him: he's an abandoned child who while yes, has done horrible things and hurt people, he's someone who's needed a hug and someone there for him for him. His name literally means 'face of sorrow' and much like how Mu Qing's name meaning hurts... it hits hard

As a result of him being one of my favourites: I wrote a whole oc who's his best and only true friend because I thought it would be funny but now they're an actually deep and meaningful friendship to the point she is now helping care for his son

Tags: @kitty-thinks-stuff @aurae-rori @kitty-meowskers @winter1234lo

#Ds gets tagged in things #I am so normal about Uno and Kunikida mhm!/lies

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