#yes this is long but I tried my best ㅠㅠ

[binniesbooks]

• REWINDING TO TOMORROW

SB 000 .F23 2024

wc 7.1k

pairings ex-boyfriend!Soobin x fem!reader (a little bit of bff!Taehyun x you)

warnings angst, a lot of crying, comfort, blowjob (m receiving), swallowing, unprotected sex (usage of condom at first tho), creampie (+ if I missed anything)

faye's note GUYS! THIS IS MY BIRTHDAY SPECIAL! 🥳 ㅋㅋ And since it's my birthday, I made something about Soobin, my lifeline! 🫡 Hope you like this one too! I'm stepping closer to the quarter life, I'm officially 21! Cheers to more years of supporting TOMORROW X TOGETHER! Btw, fuck Tumblr for being so glitchy, I had a hard time posting this because it kept on messing and realigning the pictures, wtf. 😒 The end felt rushed, please don't judge, for I, accidentally, fell asleep early last night! ㅠㅠ

You and Soobin have been dating for a while now. The relationship that bloomed from your friendship was the reason why your relationship was going well. You both also share a close-knit circle of friends who often hang out together making your bond feel even stronger.

So of all people, why are you and Soobin suffering from the heartache you were not supposed to feel in the first place?

"Y/n, are you going with us this weekend?" Chae was the one to wake you up from your thoughts. You are currently in the library for a group study for the upcoming examinations and your friends are planning to go out this weekend for dinner as a celebration.

You meekly answered a quiet yes, throwing a glance at Soobin, who is sitting six seats away from you, too focused on writing down his notes. "How about you?" Taehyun asked him as he slightly nudged him with his elbow. "I don't know. I might not be able to go." Soobin fixed his glasses without sparing a single look at the group and took a sip at the grape ade he had grown accustomed to when you two were still dating.

Despite the fact that you two broke up, your friends still tried to mediate between the two of you. Always trying to make the environment light whenever you two were present. But the hurt runs deep to the point that you both struggled to navigate your feelings in the presence of each other. Feeling the long lost love and the absence of trust you two once shared.

"I'm not going to eat if anyone from this circle is not going." Kai, the youngest, pouted. Only to receive soft chuckles and light laughs from the others.

"I'd rather hit the gym then. Besides, I've been skipping a lot nowadays." Taehyun sighed.

"Should I just play for a diamond this time?" Beomgyu muttered, pondering on whether to go or just play his favorite game at home.

"Then I should go shopping then, it's the weekend anyway," Ari exclaimed.

"Goodness! I'll pay this time! Just... just go with us, Soob." Yeonjun whined as he lightly slammed his card on the table. His action got your friends exclaiming "Oh, I'm going!" Yeonjun threw a tantrum, knowing his card was at stake. A laugh was once shared again in your circle. However, you weren't dumb, you knew that they were just trying to make the atmosphere lighter. They are trying to break the awkward tension that settled between the two of you.

"Let's wrap up and ace our exams! I'm prepared for Yeonjun Hyung to go broke." Kai cackled at the thought, receiving a neck slice from the older. While the others walked ahead with Soobin, Taehyun stayed behind for a bit to talk to you.

"I seriously don't know what happened between the two of you. You used to be sweet with each other, not like this," he helped you pack your things, your moves coming to a halt.

"Have you not heard about the rumor?" you inquired.

"Rumor? What rumor?" his brows furrowed.

"That he and..." you paused, trying your best not to break down, " He and Yunhee are back together. They've been screwing behind my back."

"Have you talked to him about that?" Taehyun's brow furrowed. You shook your head. "I did not. The moment I heard about it, I distanced myself from him."

"I suppose those are baseless rumors, y/n. I'm not siding with him but I will talk to him about that." His voice hinted with irritation about what he had just heard.

"Please don't, Tyun. I can't afford to destroy their relationship. Yunhee is Soobin's first love." Your eyes welled up with tears as you held both his hands, pleading. Scared about the thought that it might embarrass you more.

"How could I not? Am I supposed to stay put while the girl I-- no, this friend of mine is hurt?" He gently cupped your face rubbing his thumbs on your cheeks. You were not able to catch a few of the words he uttered, as you looked at him with watery eyes.

Taehyun sighed once again and pulled you closer to hug you. The tall guy let you sob on his chest. "I'm not used to this y/n. I can't see you like this." He breathed words drowning with your silent sobs.

One day before the exam, you weren't able to spot Soobin in the classroom, or the wide field of the campus. You can't help but get bothered. Soobin never skipped classes especially when it was exam week. He can't afford to miss out on important lectures. As a concerned friend- no, probably just a mere classmate at this point, you jot down important notes from the lectures that day. Planning to at least give him a copy of the lectures.

It was your exam day, only two subjects were scheduled for today, excluding the subjects Soobin missed. You brought the written notes with you, praying that Soobin would be going to school and at least take his exams.

The moment you stepped inside the classroom, you saw the familiar figure sitting near the window with a sprout in his hair. You weighed whether to give the notes to him now or later. A few of your classmates, one who happened to be his seatmate, passed by near you, and was talking about Soobin.

"He said he caught a cold yesterday, so he wasn't able to come to class." You were quietly listening to them.

"He was asking me if I have some extra notes but I wasn't able to take down notes yesterday." The guy scratched his head. You smiled a bit, you wanted to check on him knowing that he caught a cold. You told yourself to meet him after the exam today to give him the notes you wrote.

"One subject is done." You muttered, stretching your arms above your head. You glanced at Soobin sitting in the front row. You were able to catch a glimpse of his face as he looked outside the window. His pointy nose was a hue of red, he kept on sneezing. His eyelashes fanning beautifully. Eyes with a glint of sadness, you can't tell why. He fixed his earphones as he closed his eyes, chin laying peacefully on his palm, feeling the cool breeze of the wind from the open window.

Your exams for today are done. You clutched the notebook where you compiled the notes you were supposed to give him. As you got up from your seat you saw Soobin down the other end. You stiffened, pondering whether you had the courage to talk to him and check on him after his absence. You wanted to ask if he totally recovered from the cold he caught, an obvious question, you heard him sneeze many times. When he passed by in front of you, you wanted to give him the notes, "Soob-", you were cut from what you were supposed to say.

"Thanks for the notes, I'll give it back tomorrow." He said. To your dismay, it wasn't you who he was talking to, it was the other guy behind you.

You smiled bitterly as you crumpled the notes. Of course, he won't pay attention to you, he's dating Yun Hee now, wasn't he? Besides, what business does he have to do with you anymore? You walked outside the classroom with heavy footsteps The extra notes were long discarded in the bin near the door.

You felt arms wrapping around your neck, causing you to almost fall. "How's the exam?" It was Beomgyu. "Move your hand. She almost fell." Taehyun spoke with an annoyed tone.

"You are so stingy, even these past few days." Beomgyu rolled his eyes, referring to Taehyun. Taehyun took your bag over your slumped shoulders, carrying it instead.

"Math is hard." you only exclaimed, mouthing a quiet 'thank you' and a smile to Taehyun, to which he responded by ruffling your hair.

"I know you still did well." Beomgyu gently pinched your cheeks.

The two males walked with you side by side to the bus stop. They kept on spitting jokes, bickering with each other, and teasing you. But neither of the two spoke about you and Soobin. They know it themselves how it got awkward whenever the topic is all about you and your past relationship.

You and Taehyun got inside the bus waving goodbye to Beomgyu who was currently making faces outside. Beomgyu lives near the school while Taehyun and you, along with Soobin were neighbors, 4 stops away from the campus. It was time-consuming traveling back and forth, but you were used to it now. You were just thankful that Soobin takes another route, a longer one when he goes to school and when he goes home, leaving you and Taehyun to travel by yourselves. Maybe Yunhee told Soobin to do so, or maybe he walked Yunhee home first. It doesn't matter, besides, you two are already over.

"Tyun." You call out to your friend as you scoot over the side of the seat giving him space to sit down on. He gladly sat down, placing both of your bags in his lap.

"Did you two talk already?" He inquired, glancing at his phone to check the time. You just shook your head. "You?" You simply replied. He places his hand above yours on your lap as he closes his eyes while leaning his crown on the headrest of the bus seat. "I don't want to hurt you. You asked me not to talk to him about it, so I did not." He bit the inside of his cheek, words coming out unintentionally. He wants to be careful with his words but they keep on slipping out as if betraying him. He wants to come clean. He does not want to be selfish, he thinks to himself. But Taehyun has been the most caring friend ever. His tender touches whenever you cry when you were kids are so special to you. Maybe you are dumb, but Taehyun has always been your shoulder to cry on. Your best of best friends. The most sympathetic person you ever met.

"I... I tried to talk to him earlier though." You stare at his hands on yours. "But I was ignored, he was talking to one of our classmates." You added.

"Do you want to drop by our ice cream shop?" He asked changing the subject as he let go of your hand, your stop being announced on the bus speaker. "Your treat?" You giddily asked. "It's on the house." He smiled back at you.

Taehyun's big sister owns an ice cream store down the street where you live. Your favorite spot with the two of them, Soobin and Taehyun, is the ice cream shop. And when you three just wanted a breath of fresh air, you often hung out at the mini park mid-way. Just in the middle of your house and the shop.

You got off the bus, with Taehyun still holding your backpack. You are used to it anyway, whoever was with you does it without a second thought. It may be your ex-boyfriend, Soobin, your childhood friend, Taehyun, your seniors, Beomgyu and Yeonjun, or your junior slash smaller brother-like, Heuningkai. Nevertheless, they also do this to Chae and Ari.

As you two were enjoying your ice creams while having some chit-chat about your exams, Taehyun suddenly stopped talking, staring out the glass window pane. "Is something wrong?" Your brows furrowed as you looked at the window behind you, and met with nothing but kids running. "Nothing." His sharky smile comes back as he looks at you again. "What were you saying again?" He added. You continued talking again as he glanced one more at the window, looking at Soobin who was currently talking to a girl. Her waist-length hair flowed with the air, it was Yunhee, at the very corner of the street just behind the big tree. Maybe the rumors were true.

Two more days passed and exam week was done. Students are gathered in different restaurants to celebrate, for their graduating seniors, for their top 1 classmate, their aced exams, or for just barely surviving the exam. One of the restaurants has their reservation, named after one of your seniors, Choi Yeonjun. Your circle comes one by one, choosing their desired seats. Leaving two seats beside Taehyun.

Soobin came up a bit late, the shoulder and hood of his jacket wet with the drizzling rain outside. You wanted to trade seats with Taehyun because you were afraid and nervous about the thought that Soobin was sitting beside you. But Taehyun was preoccupied with Beomgyu's non-stop talking. His sharky teeth show as he laughs. You end up sitting between the two males.

A few rounds of drinks and some of you are flushed red. Some are barely able to open their eyes. A few more students joined your table as the atmosphere became louder and rowdy. Final exams were done anyway, being wasted shouldn't be their problem right now. You flinched at the scraping sound of the chair beside you. Soobin excused himself saying he wanted to get some fresh air. He still can hold his liquor, you mumbled to yourself. It wasn't that long before the crowd got bigger so you excused yourself too. And maybe it was also just your alibi to look for Soobin.

You looked for him outside, and even the dark alley on the side. You were stunned at what you saw right in front of your eyes. The tall shadow of a big man, most likely kissing a waist-length-haired woman, according to the silhouettes. It was all too familiar. You don't need more shreds of evidence. The rumors aren't baseless at all. You covered your mouth until you felt a hand cover your eyes as well. You were pulled back to the bright corner of the alley as you felt big and warm hands wrap around you.

It was Taehyun. It was him again. It was he who accepted you in his warm embrace. The guy who lets you sob on his chest for as long as you want. He gently rubbed your back as you wept on his chest, hushing you. "Please don't cry. it's hurting me." The latter words were inaudible. He cups your face as he looks at you with pity. He tried to dry your tears with his thumbs only to be wet again as your tears flowed down.

"I-it wasn't b-baseless a-at all, Tyun." You sniffled. "It's all true. I-it's all fucking true!" Taehyun did not want to believe it. He did not want to think about Soobin like that, but what you both saw gave him everything he needed to know.

"I'm taking you home." He declared. "Wait for me at the entrance, I'll just grab our things." He held your hand as you walked with him by the entrance. "Give me a minute, don't go anywhere." Taehyun took you home that night, giving you the comfort you needed the most. "I'll crash at your place." He uttered as he engulfed you once again with the warmest embrace he loves to give.

Soobin stared at the two empty seats beside his when he got back inside. "Where are they?" he asked Chae, referring to the two people who were sitting beside him. "They've gone home, I think." the girl answered.

The session ended after a few moments, the two girls carrying Kai on their shoulders. "We're taking this baby with us" the two girls referred to the tipsy and all-smiling junior.

Classes can be skipped after finals. Making you the most grateful person to the heavens above as you chose not to go to school. Taehyun stayed beside you, always checking on you, going home sometimes only to go back again to your place because he couldn't stay put at all. Knowing how you bawled out your eyes that night last week until you fell asleep.

As you are in the comfort of your own house, you can't help but pity your friend who's currently cooking for you. "Am I giving you too much headache? I feel like a burden to you," you whispered as you lay your chin on the kitchen island, arms splayed out, as you stared at him. He walked closer to you and ruffled your hair. "You never did and you are not. If anything, I'm more than glad to do this for you," Taehyun explained.

One week. Taehyun has been taking care of you for a week now. Today was supposed to be you and Soobin's 3rd anniversary, but here you are with Taehyun, out in the streets, drinking your hearts out on some street carts. He's silent, unlike you who kept on blabbering and kept on drinking. He's taking little to no shots, he can't afford to get wasted when he still has the responsibility to take you home and take care of you.

"Y/n, that's enough now, you've drunk enough," he said as he stopped your hand from taking another shot. You clicked your tongue and glared at him, "Don't tell me to stop when you don't know what I'm feeling." No, Taehyun did. Taehyun knows. He knows more than anyone else. How can he not? "We're going home." Taehyun paid your drinks without paying attention to your whines and complaints.

You crashed at his house since it was a bit closer than yours. Plus he is already tired and tipsy, it's not a joke to carry around a wasted woman out from the street, no? However, you haven't stopped complaining, not even a little bit, even when your words are already slurred. He slumped you on the couch, arms sore for keeping you in balance. "I'll grab some towels and fresh clothes to clean you up."

You closed your eyes, feeling the sleepiness take over you. You jolted awake when you felt a cold towel touching your face and neck. "S-soob, what a-are you d-doing here?" You forced yourself to sit up, your eyes looming to burst into tears. "Hey--" you grabbed his face and kissed him. "I m-missed you, I missed you s-so much," you sobbed. You held his face once again, pressing the kiss you longed for.

"We.. we shouldn't..." he whispered, as he held your face and pinned you on the couch. Maybe it was revenge for what Soobin did, or maybe it was the liquor, but Taehyun did not care at all, he wanted to give in. He's slowly giving in.

"Hng-" Your small whines and whimpers drive him up the wall. The kiss gets deeper, hungrier, sloppier. Taehyun's mind is nowhere in the room anymore. He's going nuts, he can no longer control himself. With the pent-up frustration of watching you being tormented, he cannot wrap his head around this matter anymore. The longing feeling he wanted to show, the tender touch he wants to make you feel. He pulled away for a bit, causing you to pull him towards your neck. Who was he to decline, even if you mistook him for someone, it wouldn't hurt, right? He planted delicate kisses on your neck down to your collarbone. You moaned at his action. He snapped back to reality as he pulled away again, panting, lips swollen from the occasional biting. You looked up at his big and trembling figure.

"Y-you should sleep... Please..." he stutters as he covers your eyes with his hand planting a soft kiss on your tender lips one last time. "Good night," he whispered once more.

You drifted to sleep, nothing registering in your mind. He quickly stands up to his feet and scurries away to the bathroom, flushing his face with cold water. He sets down both of his palms on the sink, staring at his blown eyes. Hands coming up, caressing his lips. "Fuck you," he whispered. "Fuck you Taehyun!" He screamed at his reflection as he punched the mirror. "You've gone overboard, that's not something you should do. Fuck you, you idiot..." he scolded himself, teardrops escaping from his eyes.

The next morning, you woke up from the smell of the toast and the sound of a sizzling pan. You grunted as you tried to walk to the kitchen, still in a groggy state. "Taehyun?" you roamed your eyes around the house once, no Soobin to be seen in the room, nor his presence to be felt. You were about to ask Taehyun but we're distracted by the doorbell.

Three people came crashing into Taehyun's house, Kai, Beomgyu and Yeonjun. All of them carrying plastic bags with, what you think, is full of chips and different snacks. "Movie day!" Kai screamed who got a neck slice from the oldest. "You're quite noisy in the morning," he grunted, Kai then faked cries, emitting a laugh from all of you.

"I called them over," Taehyun announced as he placed the plates on the table. "But just the three of them came, the others are busy I guess," he added. "What happened to your hand?" You asked as you pulled a chair, the other three sitting on the other side of the table. Taehyun sat beside you, "I knocked a cup earlier," he simply replied.

The day rolled over like nothing with the five of you busying yourselves with watching movies, bickering with each other, eating and of course playing.

The following week, you were all called to the school campus for the preparation of the graduating students. You need to fix and clean up the whole campus so your attendance is a must.

You groaned while dragging two trash bags full of garbage. You sighed as you came to a stop, stomping at why no one was helping you with this. You were just a corner away from the garbage school pit when you hear voices from the other side. You peeked from the bushes. You saw how Soobin shoved Yunhee's shoulder.

"Hey! You shouldn't be treating your girlfriend like that!" you shouted, brows furrowed. You don't like Yunhee and her guts but this is not something Soobin should do to a girl especially if he's dating her.

"This is what I'm talking about!" Soobin raised his voice over Yunhee as you walked over between them. "What are you saying? Are you nuts?! How can you stomach the fact that you are hurting your girlfriend right now?! Physically, at that!" you retorted.

"Move, y/n," he said with a firm voice.

"I'm not moving! Unless you stop shoving her! You are hurting your girlfriend, you dumbass!"

"Shut up! She's not my girlfriend!" It was the first time. The first time Soobin raised his voice over you. "Now move."

"W-what are you talking about?"

"Did you not hear me well? I said she's not my girlfriend."

You turn to Yunhee, she looks down on her feet, fidgeting with his fingers.

"She was just spreading baseless rumors. Rumors that made you break up with me, isn't that it? That you didn't even let me explain myself to you. You just left me. You left me without hearing my side, y/n," his pouring anger is making him frustrated, huffing, chest thumping loudly.

You looked at Yunhee once more and she slowly backed down, running away.

"Baseless rumors you say?" you scoffed. He looked at you with a confused look. "Baseless, I see..." You pushed your hair back, you were also about to burst. "Baseless when I saw you screwing her that night after the exam in the dark alley."

His mouth hung open, "What are you saying?" he couldn't believe what he just heard. "I was talking to my mother that night when I got out of the restaurant. And I am sure, I wasn't even at the alley."

"W-what?"

"What do you mean what? How am I supposed to do something like that when you occupy my mind all the damn time!"

"H-how... How is that possible? I literally saw your tall figure, and I was sure about Yunhee's hair length." You mumbled.

"Ah, right!" As if there was a light bulb that sparked above his head, "It was Kai."

"Kai?"

"Yes, Kai."

You were equally confused by what he said, what does he mean Kai?

"What you saw was Kai, not me." He started. "Can't you remember? That night, we were both wearing the campus jacket. People often mistook the both of us for each other, especially with our height."

"Y-you mean, it wasn't really y-you?"

"I fucking swear y/n, it wasn't me!"

You slumped your shoulders as you leaned on the wall, dumbfounded by the newfound information. Truthfully, all you just saw were mere silhouettes, not their face. How did you even come up with the idea that it was Soobin?

"Kai told me himself. He and Yunhee's younger sister was a thing," he said as he ran his hand on his face. "Yunhee was my girlfriend. Knowing about Kai and her younger sister, she came up with the idea of spreading rumors saying we're back together." He explained one again.

"S-soob, I didn't know."

"Because you did not let me explain my s-side," his voice cracked. "You just cut me off, and blocked me." His voice is low and tears are about to fall from his eyes.

"So many times, I wanted to approach you," you saw the hurt inside his eyes. "But I always see you with the guys, especially Taehyun. Knowing the two of you grew up together, I know you told him about us." he wipes his tears, you can't bring yourself to wipe them.

"I was so scared... Scared that what if he took you from me? What if we won't be back together?" You felt the pang in your chest and the twist in your stomach. "That's why I distanced myself. From our friends, from Taehyun... From you, y/n," his tears are freely flowing from his cheeks. You quickly wiped them away as you cupped his face staring at his eyes with guilt.

"I even saw you..." he paused, choking on words, "with Taehyun. At the ice cream shop down our street. The time when I tried to talk to Yunhee about this issue." He closed his eyes as he felt the pain in his heavy heart. "I know Taehyun saw me, our gaze met."

"Soobin.." you pulled him in for a hug, as he buried his face in the crook of your neck.

"I was s-so scared. I can't talk to you because I w-was so scared. I'm not s-supposed to ignore you. B-but I can't bring m-myself to t-talk to you." He explained between sobs and hiccups. Guilt ate at you that very moment, how can you just ignore him and believe all the rumors without talking to him and hearing him?

You cupped his face am you pulled him in for an apologetic kiss. "I'm sorry... I'm sorry for not letting you explain. For shutting you out." He pressed his forehead to yours as he mumbled a soft sorry. "Sorry, for being a coward. Sorry for not cleaning this mess up as early as possible." He hugged you tighter.

That afternoon, your group of friends felt the easy atmosphere while having the snack at the cafeteria. They don't know what's up this time but everything just feels light and good. No one dared to talk about the atmosphere but everyone was relieved to their core.

"We'll go first, senior's duty. See you later again." Yeonjun announced.

"We'll go with you." The two girls chimed.

"I'll get going, still have something to do." Soobin excused himself as well. "Hyung wait up, I'll tag along!" The youngest trotted away, leaving the three of you in the cafeteria.

"What should we do now?" You asked the two as you tapped your fingers on the table. "I want to sleep, let's go to the infirmary." You and Taehyun followed Beomgyu to the school infirmary.

Taehyun sat at the window, hands inside his pocket. "What's gotten into you?" You asked him. He glanced at Beomgyu fast asleep before he looked down at his shoes. "Have you two made up? I mean, Soobin." He looked up at you, voice tinged with disappointment that an oblivious heart wouldn't notice. You nodded. "Everything was a simple miscommunication." You replied to him as you fidget with your fingers. "Oh, I see." "Yunhee was the one responsible for spreading the rumors, and that night... It wasn't Soobin. It was Kai." He almost scoffed at what you've said.

"Can you remember anything that happened after that night? He asked, hoping for a specific answer. " Nothing. Just you, taking care of me and being my shoulder to cry on." He faked a smile, "I'll just stay at the rooftop for a while."

"Is there something wrong?" You asked him, standing up from the bed you are seated on.

"None. Just want to clear my mind, I'm tired." He said as he walked out of the room.

Down the hallway, he saw Soobin carrying some boxes along with his classmates. He purposely bumped into his careful. "You should be careful. Hyung." He talked without looking back at Soobin, emphasizing every word. The latter merely confused with questions like 'What's his problem' thrown to him by his classmates.

Taehyun's words have a deeper meaning supposedly. He doesn't know how to act right. He's not like this. He used to be a calm and collected guy. He slumped down with his back on the rooftop door, whispering curses as tears flowed down his cheeks once again.

In the following days, you didn't see Taehyun anywhere. He's not home either whenever you went to visit him, or so you thought. He got distant from you. However, you did not pay it much mind. You think, maybe he was just busy.

You opened your door at the knock, welcoming Soobin inside. "You ready?" His smile is back once again, the bunny-like smile you loved seeing. His smile shined brighter than the sun outside. You intertwined your hands with him. You two were supposed to be on your first date, as a couple that got back together.

Soobin is always careful when planning for dates. Making sure to do and follow things according to plan. He makes sure that everything is aligned with what should be done at that certain time. From playing in the arcade to buying groceries, eating lunch, watching movies, going shopping and watching the sunset by the bay. He knows you love these types of dates. In order to earn back your trust, he made sure everything was alright.

"I enjoyed today. Thank you Soobin." You said as you opened the front door.

"I'm glad you did because I did too. Especially when you almost fell skating." He chuckled.

"Hey, that's not funny!" You frowned, plopping the grocery and shopping bags on your coffee table.

"Come here." Soobin motioned you to sit beside him after piling up the bags he was carrying along with yours.

"I'm really sorry, Soobin, I should've at least listened to you. It was my fault." He pulled you into a hug, gently caressing the back of your head with his huge hand. "Don't sweat it anymore, y/n. Besides, we're good now, aren't we?" He cupped your face. "I just hope miscommunication never happens again." He added. "Promise?" You showed your pinky finger, "Promise," he answered with a smile as he intertwined it with his.

He held your face once again as he pressed the softest kiss. Things escalated quickly, you can't deny that. Because your dress that you carefully picked this morning, was being taken off of you. The searing kiss you're sharing is making the both of you go nuts.

He pulled you on his lap, sliding the straps of your dress down your smooth shoulder.

"Fuck, love," the pet name he used even before rolled off his tongue casually, but hearing it again just now gives you goosebumps. He controls your waist as he lets you grind above him while you are straddling him. "Please, y/n keep going," he looks at you with pleading eyes.

You halt, earning a groan from him, bulge twitching beneath you. "Let's go to my room," eyes filled with love and longing. He carried you to your room, placing you down on the edge of the bed as he touched your lower lip. You looked up at his tall figure towering over you. You reached out your arms above you to his chest, unbuttoning his dress shirt, uncovering the hidden defined abs of your boyfriend. You slowly unbuckled his belt, pants pooling down to his feet. His mind flew somewhere, head reeling.

"W-what are you trying to do?" you chuckled at his obvious question. "Making amends," you shrugged.

He has nothing to hold on to aside from your shoulder as you palm him in his boxers. The soft gasps and groans he tried to muffle, came out hotter than you thought. You hooked your finger on the waistband of his boxers, his breathing hitched at the hot puffs to his exposed length that came from your mouth. He brushed your lips with his thumb once more, biting his own lip.

You give him a few kitten licks as you look up, practically making him hold his breath in with the sight in front of him. Your tiny hand wrapped around his hot and girthy cock, stroking him and prodding your tongue on his slit. Soobin hissed through his teeth as he closed his eyes at the sensation. This is not a normal way of apologizing but he is loving this.

You swirled your tongue on the head of his shaft resulting in him thrusting his hips forward. He muttered half-assed sorry with his mind flying around. You pressed your thumb on his tip, emitting a guttural moan from Soobin. It takes everything for him to keep himself steady.

"Y/n, love, please, n-no teasing," his voice hinted with urgency, "I-i thought you were s-supposed to m-make amends, n-not to t-torture me," he added.

"Okay then, whatever you say," you chimed.

"As much as I l-love the w-way you ap..apologize, I can't s-s-fuck!" you caught him off guard when you hollowed your cheek to suck his cock, the tip kissing your throat.

He was trembling, and his legs felt like jelly at the sensation, he wanted to pull back but his body was betraying him with how he slowly thrusts in your mouth. Your moans caused shivers to go down his spine and his needy eyes grew stronger.

"Y/n... Y/n.. fuck.. ohh," he was going out of his mind, the knot in his stomach about to burst as you taste the sweet and salty taste of his pre-cum. You once again looked up at him as he gently held your face, thrusting a bit stronger chasing his high. You gripped his legs to ground yourself.

"Mmnn! Fuck!" white spurts of cum painting your hot mouth and tongue, his legs and hips spasming. You showed him your cum-filled tongue before you swallowed it, licking the sides of your lips. "Pretty.. fucking hot," he commented as he swipes his fingers on your lips, checking if you were hurt.

He was about to go down on you when you stopped him, "You don't want me to?" he asked, confusion written on his face. "Do it next time. I-i want you inside me n-now," you shyly whispered, scooting over to the spacious bed. You felt the bed dip when Soobin climbed up as he removed his unbuttoned shirt. He kissed your shoulder, swiftly unzipping your dress with so much ease, throwing it away. "Condoms?" he pulled away, "Drawer, to the left," you replied.

He clumsily pulled the drawers, knocking other bottles as he grabbed the condoms out. "Let me do it," he smiled at your initiative, chuckling at how you fumbled to open the packaging. You wrapped it around his shaft in a slow sensual manner, making him curse from his post-nut sensitivity.

He lays you down carefully, littering your chest with a sloppy kiss, leaving you with splotchy red marks all over your neck and shoulder. "Tell me if it's too much," he strokes your hair, leaving a sweet tender kiss on your forehead, to which you simply nod.

"Should I tease you too?" he smirked at the thought forming in his mind, you pouted and whined a needy no to his face. But he did otherwise, gently tapping his heavy cock on your wet cunt, collecting your slick that's been dripping for a while now.

He started thrusting with only the tip of his cock while his face has a smirk plastered on his plump lips. "It won't fit," he lied. "P-please Soobin, I need y-you," your voice coming out with so much need. "Yeah? Is that right?" he kept on teasing you as you tried to lift your hips and fuck yourself on him. "How am I supposed to handle your oh-so-needy attitude," he chuckled, as you are slowly turning red from embarrassment. But you know he'll give in in no time, "S-soob please, I'm a-aching d-down there," you tried to reach for your clit to give it some friction only for your hands to be pinned by Soobin above your head. "Not so fast, darling, I thought you wanted to apologize?" His eyes speak volumes of lust, though. His eyes tell you he wanted to ruin you at this very moment, to fuck your brains out. "I'm really s--sorry Soobin, l-love, please let me h-hold you," he lets go of your hands to hide on your neck as he slowly entered your wet cunt.

You yelped at the sensation, he was big enough to give you a good stretch, and you clawed his back at how good you felt. You are sure that your scratch marks would last for days, he knows it too when he winced at the pain, but he loves the thought of it. Neither of you cared about it, all you wanted to last is the pleasure you are both feeling.

He stilled inside you, "Think you can do it? Can I move now?" He kissed your teary eyes. "I-i can take y-you," his ears rang at your words, and you felt his cock twitch inside you. "A-are you turned on by that, Soobin?" you wanted to make sure. "Mmm, you're so little compared to me, yet you're saying such a thing," he squeaked out, "What a brave little girl."

He started by thrusting slowly, elbows propped on both sides, hands continuously caressing your cheek as he occasionally pressed lingering kisses on your face.

"Fucking tight," he grinned, "stop c-clenching, I won't last long w-with that," his hips stuttered a few times.

"I-i can't, you f-feel so g-good, Soob, s-so... So b-big," you grab one of his arms to make him feel the bulge on your stomach. "Here. Ahh.. you are reaching h-here, ohh fuck, feels... Agh..." he smiled at how you can't form coherent words, his cock twitching inside, thrusting harder with a goal in his mind, to poke a bigger bulge on your stomach.

You clenched again, for the second time around, about to cream his cock. "I-i'm close," he stopped thrusting and rubbed slow circular motion on your clit, you thrashed around, complaining and wailing. "S-soobin, no, love, please. Ngh! Ahh! I want to c-cum!" A tear dropped from your eyes as Soobin cooed at you, "You wanted it so much, sweetie?" he grinned and you nodded eagerly. He pulled out of you all the way, and you cried at the empty feeling, "Fuck yourself on me then," he ordered as he lays down and let you climb up above him.

You weren't happy at how he was edging you, so you pulled his condoms out, sinking yourself on his cock in one go, Soobin was stunned as he cursed loudly along with your soured face from the stretch, "B-baby, this is w-wrong," he was so nervous at what can happen. "I'll let you p-pull out," you simply replied as he nodded back at you absentmindedly, because how is he supposed to pull out when you are on top of him?

You started fucking yourself on him, as you placed your hands on his hard chest. "Shit, I can feel you so r-raw," he cursed multiple times at the dragging feeling.

The familiar knot in your stomach is about to snap when he angled you hitting the best spot. Soobin saw how your expression was gone from soft to a fucked out one. You did not say anything, afraid that he might edge you again, so you just continued moving until your legs trembled. White ring pooling on the base of his cock as you creamed his shaft. "F-fuck Soob... Ahh." The soft moans seemed like they were coming straight out of porn as he helped you ride your high. And that's when you decided to overstimulate yourself to make him cum again.

"Angel, d-don't.. shit, w-what are you d-doing!" He can no longer grip your waist, his hands felt weak nearing his high. His mouth hung open, head buried back on the pillow with his hand clasped on his mouth.

You felt his hips stutter, along with the spasming of his legs as he gripped at the bed sheet, knuckles white.

You crashed down on his chest and you let him thrust more into you slowly as he hugged you tight. "A-apology.. apology accepted." He muttered lowly. You planted a visible love bite on his neck, emitting a groan from his hoarse voice. "Y/n.. no more..." He's straight out tired, whining, yet loving the feeling of how your tongue dances on his neck. "No more? But you're still thrusting." You popped the bubble above his head, chuckling at how he bit his lip with red cheeks.

He slowly pulled out and you both winced and hissed at the sensation, your mixed cum flowing out of your cunt. Too tired to clean yourself up, Soobin just grabbed his boxers and pants to put them back on and covered you with his dress shirt, you didn't even know when you fell asleep.

You woke up with an arm wrapped around your waist, the steady rhythm of a heartbeat, and the quiet puffs of breath. You squirmed slowly to get off the bed without waking Soobin up as you headed straight to his bathroom, washing your face and cleaning yourself. You rummaged through his cabinet, finding some proper clothes to wear. You pulled on his black t-shirt and put it on without anything beneath, going back to the bed to be engulfed in a warm embrace.

You stared at his peaceful sleeping face as you thought to yourself, "Miscommunication isn't a good thing, we need to work on this, or else we might end up separating completely." You kiss his cheek as you get back to sleep again.

@binniesbooks 2024

[inthediamondsky]

Shinee ask game! Here are several: 02; 08; 12; 17; 18; 26; 32; 36; 42; 49; 61; 76; 77; 80! ❀❀❀ I'm curious! :)

omg thank youuu @greedy-wolf ♡︎♡︎ I’m so long-winded on this blog as is... I’ll try to keep my answers short haha :)

02. first bias ❀

jinki bc I fell in love with his voice ❥ I’ve been OT5 all the way for a long time now though

(tbh I like a lot of individuals in other groups but I’ve never loved a GROUP as much as I love shinee - they really bring meaning to what it means to be a team and to have synergy)

08. favorite b-side ❀

oh NO you cannot ask me to pick just one (ง'̀-'́)ง okay but ask me tmrw and it’ll change: I’m a sucker for romantic

12. song that brings you comfort ❀

answered this in a longer form before but sunny side and 재연 (an encore)

17. song that makes you feel alive ❀

well obviously... alive. hehehe :) but actually the first one that comes to mind is diamond sky! which obv this blog was named after so I love it very much <3

18. song that sends shivers down your spine ❀

the stripped-down, encore version of 누난 너무 예뻐 (replay) with their live vocals. every. single. time.

26. SHINee performance that you could watch endlessly ❀

literally any of them no lie but the one that I’ve definitely watched the most times is the SHINee World V performance of please don’t go with jinki and jjong. OT5, I’d probably say the romeo+juliette perf at SWV or the iconic everybody one from 2015 Tokyo dome.

32. concept you would like to see them try ❀

ooh this ones really tough... they’ve done so many things already. I don’t know if this is a concept per say but I’d love to hear a title song that isn’t at all about romantic love (other than our page, which was a special case of course)

36. favorite inside joke ❀

okay I’m super weird about this but I actually like the jokes that they have amongst themselves better than the jokes they have with us. like on the ringtone when they were talking about certain songs that they didn’t put in this album and whether they would get to put them in a later album... I just love all the inside jokes they have with each other than even we don’t know about. It’s kind of strange but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

42. a memorable moment ❀

a moment? a singular moment? they just seem so much like a natural part of my life for the past (almost) twelve years so it all blurs together.... they’re all memorable moments so none of them seem to stick out lmao

49. something that SHINee did that made you feel soft ❀

oh god literally everything but especially when they talk about their predebut days... just think of BABYnee 🥺🥺 and when they talk about the way they lived back then I get super nostalgic for home bc that’s the Korea I grew up in too :’)

61. member you would trust to catch you during trust fall ❀

minho. well actually, everybody but taemin, because that man is a little shit (in the best possible way ofc)

76. unpopular SHINee opinion ❀

mmm idk if I have any now but since they’ve been in my life for so long there have been times when I get annoyed with one of them for a little bit. I know kpop stans are supposed to like, STAN, their idols and always defend them and everything but sometimes in the past one of them would say something that I didn’t agree with or smth and I’d get annoyed by them for a while, if that makes sense. but I always came back around, esp as they changed and I changed as time passed.

also when I first saw SHINee I thought kibum was the visual haha ♡︎ now they’re all visuals in my eyes

77. popular SHINee opinion ❀

oh only that they are the best live performers in kpop. and also make the best music in kpop. I guess they’re just the straight up best that this country has to offer. I say this with complete seriousness.

80. your favorite lyrics ❀

oh this was a popular ask :)) 늘 그 자리에 (honesty) and jonghyun’s 하루의 끝 (end of a day), obv both written by the one and only Kim Jonghyun.

[eonghwa]

ahh i really would love to read halahala!sh being soft or protective of reader, maybe someone hurts reader and he goes nuts

halahala!sh being soft with reader

requested by 🌷 anon ♡ ty

a/n: i didn’t want this to be too angsty so i apologize for the lack of context also i’m sorry if that’s not what you had in mind ㅠㅠ – i came to the conclusion that i just struggle A LOT writing about him no matter the genre so please let’s just pretend this is not lame. 

halahala!sh profile

cw: gn!reader. slight angst, mention of injuries (reader is clumsy), FLUFF

you had a pretty bad day at work, the argument with one of your friends about some silly stuff not helping at all with your mood and it didn’t help either when you slid on your way home bumping your hand on a sharp edge. hand that was now hurting like crazy. 

so when you get home you just slump on a chair exhausted, letting your mind get the best of you. overthinking and indulging in things that, you know, won’t do you any good. 

halahala sees you deep in thoughts looking down with a sad expression, you don’t hear him entering the room and don’t acknowledge him and this is what concerns him the most since you usually are very attentive. you always greet him no matter his indifference, no matter how many times he ignored you. he hates himself for his lack of sympathy towards you and he hates not being able to be more friendly with you, blaming himself every time he comes off as rude. he sees the hurt in your eyes every single time, even though you try your best to hide it, he knows and he despises himself for it. 

he really wishes he could be more open like the others who have no problem in making you smile or even laugh. you rarely look at him like that and this pains him a lot more than it should. he cares about you but sometimes he fears hatred is truly the only thing he knows and the only thing he’s capable of.

he keeps staring at you from the door in silence trying to muster his courage to approach you. his eyes are trained on you so he notices how you squeeze your eyes shut in pain and when he lowers his gaze he finally notices your wounded hand.

hovering at the door for one last second before his feet move towards you, startling you when he stops right before you but you don’t say anything too dumbfounded to do anything. you just watch him puzzled, your heart speeding up in your chest as he kneels in front of you. he takes a deep breath and hesitantly takes off his gloves. his gaze was always intense and piercing but he never looked at you with such… care?   

you gulp as he moves his hands closer to yours, when he’s just an inch away he wavers. he’s scared and wants to run away from you and from himself, from this fool crouched at your feet, but he’s too caught up in his stupid feelings to back out now. he grabs your palm letting out an almost inaudible exhale and you feel his hands slightly trembling but his grip is firm. 

he checks the injury clearing his throat as he gently rubs the bruised skin “are u okay?” the unfamiliar kindness in his voice startling you again, not used to seeing him this vulnerable. you nod a bit flustered “y-yes.” you mumble suddenly very aware of his probing eyes “i fell and bumped my hand. it’s nothing.” he looks at you skeptical “you were crying.” he states with a cold voice but excuses himself when he realize how harsh he sounded “i mean i saw you... you look sad.“ he says again stuttering, and you have to hide the tiny smile trying to creep up. he’s still gently holding your hand brushing ever so slightly his fingers in soothing motions. 

“i just had a bad day, it’s fine.” your gloomy tone giving away your lie and you both know that but he understands and doesn’t press you any further. he keeps staring at you trying so hard to find something else he can say to lighten up the mood. he curses at himself for being so awkward and helpless. 

he hates hearing his own voice and he’s not much of a talker either but right now he would do anything to be with you and help you so he just stand up and pulls you in, dragging you into the bathroom. 

he rummages through the cabinet looking for something to clean your wound. you tentatively strike up a conversation, saying anything just to break the ice and he catches up after a while, you swear at some point you even heard him laugh at something you said. eventually you end up telling him about your day and getting it out of your chest helps you relieve some stress. he may not be the best at comforting people but you know he’s listening, taking in every word you say, engrossed and eager to learn something more about you, and for you that’s enough.

he bandages your hand and leaves a light kiss on the still exposed skin looking at you with a genuine smile now that he loosened a bit and you blush. “cute” he mutters to himself chuckling, making you blush even harder. but it feels nice to finally see him truly smiling as his eyes light up. 

halahala places a hand on your back and clears his throat “you… wanna lay down with me?” he stutters almost cringing at himself for asking such sappy things, something he never thought he would say, you raise an eyebrow at him teasingly and this time he is the one flustered.

now that you’re in his room and you’re making yourself comfortable on his bed he feels uneasy, suddenly very aware of what is about to happen, how your bodies will be touching, warm and vulnerable next to each other. it’s not like it’s the first time given the many times he had sex with you but this is nothing like that and he’s not sure he can do it. 

eventually he climbs on the bed next to you. he still feels nervous but he wants to at least try. at first it’s awkward, he doesn’t know what he is supposed to do, fidgeting as he tries to find a somewhat comfortable position. everything feels wrong to him. “ah fuck it– i should just go” he burst out as he stands up. 

you look at him with a fond smiles and he can’t help it but return it starting to profusely apologize for his coldness and for being a hopeless fool but you interrupt him. “you know, we don’t have to touch if that makes you feel uncomfortable” you speak searching for his eyes to reassure him but his gaze lowers down avoiding your eyes, disappointed at himself for letting you down. “being next to each other is enough.” you pull him down by his shirt and he lets you, staring at you in awe. 

you end up staying together in bed for a long time, his fingers brushing lightly against yours way too often for it to be accidental. your heart feeling somewhat full just as much as his, being with each other like this for the first time basking in each other’s company. him not quite familiar with this bubbly feeling inside but feeling content nonetheless with your unusual way of cuddling. 

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[minieggukie]

get to know me 🤡

tagged by @kithtaehyung @gimbapchefs @cowboyjinbop thank you cuties!!

tagging: @jkjms @kook-ssi @mintagust @taemaknae @namjoonssweetestthang @minyoongislaysme @euphhorias @taejinnies @kerasines @loversmore @taehyungq @rosebowl @jiminisyourangel @taechnological @blueandtaes + @jiminslight (YES i know you're in vegas but i miss you ㅠㅠ)

when is your birthday? aug 12 (LESS THAN A WEEK AHH but shit always hits the fan around my birthday like god is punishing me for still being alive)

what is your favorite color? light shades of purple and pink

what's your lucky number? 7

do you have any pets? no. :(( i've wanted a cat since forever and now i want a bunny for obvious reasons

how tall are you? the dreaded midget to average height of 5'3

how many pairs of shoes do you own? like 5? and they're all black lol

favorite song? right now every song cover that jk has done is my favorite

favorite movie? i watched black widow like 5 times

what would be your ideal partner? see: jeon jungkook

do you want children? i am children

have you gotten in trouble with the law? nah

what color socks are you wearing? i'm always barefoot at home and i'm always home so...

bath or shower? i miss reading fanfics in baths so, bath

favorite type of music? i guess it's kpop??

how many pillows do you sleep with? 2.. and one cat shaped pillow + cooky and chimmy

which position do you sleep in? an ugly position

what don't you like when you're sleeping? when a random fanfic idea just pops into my head while im dozing off and i need to squint against the blinding light of my phone as i type out notes

what do you have for breakfast? i don't eat breakfast because i'm not a morning person...

have you ever tried archery? nope

favorite fruit? watermelon, cantaloupe, honeydew.. all the melons

favorite swear word? shit

do you have any scars? a tiny one of my finger when i was 11 because my friend and i were literally playing with scissors

are you a good liar? my eyes get super wide as i play the deer in headlights act to seem innocent, but so far nobody's caught on so yes

what's your personality type? petty. also intj.

what's your favorite type of girl? 'girl'

left or right handed? right

favorite food? anything with cheese or dairy. sushi. mala hotpot.

are you clean or messy? organized in my head, messy everywhere else. (my head is definitely not 'clean' tho 🌚)

favorite foreign food? wait wut do i repeat my answer or.. (but i like korean and japanese cuisine)

how long does it take for you to get ready? 15 min if im eh. 45 min if im doing makeup and stuff.

most used phrase? what the f**

are you a good singer? if i don't strain my vocal chords i guess so

do you sing to yourself? doesn't everyone??

biggest fear? ugh i will tell you but i'm censoring it: bts disb**ding

do you like long or short hair? medium? i like it when it's not in the way..

are you into gossips? you mean the 🍵? it sounds better (i don't like the consequences of gossip but i also want to know everything)

extrovert or introvert? introvert..

favorite school subject? art, lunch, english because i'm always the best (definitely bragging)

what makes you nervous? the unknown

who was your first real crush? i honestly told @kithtaehyung it's itachi uchiha but i was a hoe for all the hot anime guys. (but irl it was a random classmate when i was 10...)

how many piercings do you have? i had 7 but 3 closed up...

how fast can you run? a turtle would outrun me

what makes you angry? lots of things. i have a notoriously short temper

do you like your own name? no :(

what are your weaknesses? no patience

what are your strengths? logic

what is the color of your bedspread? right now it's blue

color of your room? a teenage me specifically requested 'aquamarine'. i regret it because it used to be purple..

[besanii]

oh god i just saw the angsty shippy prompts you just reblogged and now i have to brace myself for angst for DAYS ㅠㅠ and because your writing always makes me feel All The Emotions i just know i'm going to feel like i've been punched in the solar plexus each time i see (and read, and re-read) an update and its reblogs... anyway i feel like this would be a fun one "i can't always help when you're in trouble" whichever ship you choose! ^^

He wakes to a dull, rhythmic throbbing in his head. There’s an itch on his nose that is growing more and more irritating by the second, but his body feels like it’s being crushed by a dead weight and his arm won’t move. The most he achieves is a tiny twitch of his right hand; it brushes up against something warm, and then he hears a sharp intake of breath close to his ear.

“Wei-xiansheng,” a familiar voice says. “Wei-xiangsheng, are you awake?”

He groans.

“My nose itches,” he croaks. His lips are dry and his mouth feels like sandpaper. “And my throat hurts.”

“That would be the anaesthetic wearing off,” another voice says. “If you’re not feeling nauseous, we can probably get you something to wet your mouth.”

‘Thanks’ is what he tries to say, but it comes out more like a garbled ‘auuaagh’. Nevertheless, a cool, wet cloth is pressed to his lips and he sighs gratefully at the soothing sensation. He opens his eyes slowly once it’s taken away, wincing at the way his eyes seem to have been caked shut; the first thing he sees is a very handsome, albeit very concerned pair of pretty honey-coloured eyes watching him.

“Hey,” he rasps. “Hey, gorgeous.”

A tiny frown appears in between those perfectly shaped brows.

“Wei-xiansheng,” Gorgeous says. He frowns.

“Don’t call me that,” he complains. “You should call me by my name.”

Gorgeous sighs. Put-Upon is a very nice expression on him.

“Wei-xiansheng,” he says again. “How are you feeling?”

“Mm,” he says coherently. “Better now that you’re here.” A deeper frown, and a pressure around his hand. “Ooh, you’re holding my hand. That’s nice. I like that.” He pouts when the hand is quickly retracted, but is rewarded by the adorable sight of reddened ears instead, so he lets it pass. “Fine. I’m uh—dizzy, kind of. Thirsty. Oh—uh, my shoulder hurts?”

“That would make sense,” the other voice says from somewhere on his other side. “Considering that’s where you were shot.”

A woman with a stethoscope around her neck is poking at the tablet in her hand as she studies his chart. She gives him a Look over the top of her glasses as she details the extent of his injuries.

“You were very lucky this time, Wei Wuxian,” she says sternly. “A couple of millimetres off and it would have nicked a major artery. I’m a world-class surgeon, but I can’t work miracles—not if you insist on putting yourself in unnecessary danger all the time.”

“In my defence, Qing-jie, it was completely necessary this time,” he says cheerfully.

Wen Qing raises the tablet over her head as if to smack him over the head with it. Wei Wuxian pouts and gives her his best puppy dog eyes, but Wen Qing does not buy it. She usually doesn’t, but her features soften anyway and she pats him on his uninjured shoulder before she leaves. 

“Don’t let him get out of bed,” she instructs his companion. “Got it, Lan Wangji?”

Lan Wangji nods. “Thank you, Wen-daifu.”

And then it’s just the two of them, in this too-sterile hospital room, staring at each other. The little crease is still there between Lan Wangji’s brow, and Wei Wuxian’s nose is still itchy, but it feels a little too awkward to be taking care of that particular problem now. He clears his throat and looks away with a wry grin.

“Hey,” he says again. “Thanks for today, Lan Zhan. Really. Don’t know where I’d be without you.”

Lan Wangji says nothing, but the hand resting on the sheets beside his curls into a fist. His face is impassive as always, but there is a twitch in the muscles of his sharp jaw that gives away the extent of his displeasure. Wei Wuxian shifts around, adjusting his position in bed and winces at the discomfort in his shoulder still dulled by the effects of the anaesthetic. Being the subject of Lan Wangji’s disapproval has never been a pleasant experience, but it feels different this time.

He stretches his index finger and taps the knuckles of the fist resting beside him.

“Hey,” he says softly. “Don’t be upset, Lan Zhan. I’m fine. Look!”

Lan Wangji’s frown deepens and the corners of his mouth turn down imperceptibly as he drops his gaze to the bed.

“You should not have done it,” he says stiffly. Unhappily. “You were the target, you should have stayed behind me—”

“Aiya, Lan Zhan,” Wei Wuxian says with a click of his tongue. “I couldn’t stand back and do nothing, could I? You could have been shot!”

“And now you’ve been shot!” The force behind his words startle Wei Wuxian into silence. “Wei-xiansheng. I am your bodyguard. My job is to protect you. Not the other way around.”

Wei Wuxian gnaws on the inside of his cheek and looks up at the ceiling. The tiles are plain and white, as sterile as the rest of the room. It makes his skin crawl.

“I didn’t want you to get hurt,” he says finally. “Not for me.”

“That is my job,” Lan Wangji reminds him. He sighs, frustrated. “Wei-xiansheng, we’ve been over this. Your personal safety should be at the forefront of your concerns.”

“Your brother tells me to leave the worrying to you,” Wei Wuxian says with a wry grin. “That as long as you’re here, I’ll be in safe hands. Or is that not true?”

It is clearly the wrong thing to say, because Lan Wangji’s knuckles turn white and the sheets crumple and twist beneath his fingers. He’s shaking so hard the bed begins to trembling, just slightly, but enough for Wei Wuxian to feel it rattle. He opens his mouth, ready to placate him, but Lan Wangji is faster.

“We cannot protect you if you do not protect yourself first,” he bites out through gritted teeth. “You keep—throwing yourself into dangerous situations without thinking. It was pure luck that you weren’t hurt, or killed any of those times before—”

“Well, not just luck. You’re just really good at your job,” Wei Wuxian interjects. He shrinks under Lan Wangji’s glare, chastened. “Sorry, please continue.”

Lan Wangji exhales and relaxes his grip on the bedsheets.

“I’m doing the best I can to protect you,” he says in a small, defeated tone that weighs heavily on Wei Wuxian’s chest. “But I can’t always be there. I-I can’t always help you when you’re in trouble, Wei Ying.”

Oh. Realisation hits him like a tonne of bricks and he lays there, craning his neck against the terrible pillows, looking at Lan Wangji. His shoulders are slumped, his head bowed; there are dark circles under his eyes and the faint hint of stubble along his jaw, a far cry from his usual crisp, professional demeanour. Wei Wuxian grimaces as a wave of nausea hits him, although he’s not sure if it’s due to the anaesthetic or the guilt churning in his stomach.

Lan Wangji is there immediately, the hurt on his face replaced by concern. 

“Is the wound hurting?” he asks. “I will call Wen-daifu—”

“No, no don’t,” Wei Wuxian says quickly, grabbing onto his hand before he can leave. He feels Lan Wangji’s hand jerk beneath his as if to pull away, and is grateful when he doesn’t. “I’m sorry.”

He chances a look at Lan Wangji and finds his honey-coloured eyes wide and his mouth soft and open with surprise as he stares down at him. It lasts only a second before it disappears behind a mask again, but it’s enough to send his heart tripping over itself and blood rushing to his cheeks. He looks away, chewing on his bottom lip.

“I didn’t mean to worry you,” he continues, staring determinedly at the railing on the other side of the bed. “I just…I didn’t even realise I was moving until I was, you know? I saw the gun pointed at you and my body just…reacted.”

He laughs, blinking back sudden wetness in his eyes.

“I just didn’t want to see you hurt,” he finishes quietly.

He doesn’t dare look at Lan Wangji to gauge his reaction, but he hears the sharp intake of breath and feels the hand in his shift. It turns over and returns his grip, engulfing his hand in a warm, gentle grip.

“Wei Ying,” Lan Wangji breathes. “Wei Ying, look at me?”

His eyes are warm and gentle, tinged with sadness. He lifts Wei Wuxian’s hand and clasps it in both of his, bringing it to his cheek and brushing his lips over the knuckles. The brief contact sends tingles rushing down Wei Wuxian’s arms and his heart does an involuntary little flip. And then Lan Wangji smiles, no more than a tiny little quirk at the corner of his lips, but it is enough to send his heart rate skyrocketing—which is embarrassingly reflected in the sudden spike on the ECG machine still beeping away merrily by his bed.

“Wei Ying,” Lan Wangji says softly, the words ghosting over his fingers. “I don’t want to see you hurt either.”

The matter-of-factness in his tone fills Wei Wuxian with a warm, fuzzy feeling he’s quite sure does not relate to the anaesthetic. He offers him a sheepish little smile and strokes his thumb over the back of Lan Wangji’s hand.

“I’m sorry,” he says in a small voice. “I won’t do it again.”

Lan Wangji huffs.

“Yes you will,” he says with a hint of fondness in his voice. “But thank you.”

Notes:

xiansheng (先生) - Mr

daifu (大夫) - Doctor, nowadays used mostly as a title suffixed to a doctor’s name, rather than referring to a doctor in general (which is yisheng 医生)

This is set in my old Bodyguard AU verse from that prompt list that went around a while back. Uhhh...set somewhere between #2 and #3 probably. But you don’t really have to read them to understand it?

// buy me a ko-fi //

[aka-a-shii]

COFFEE DATES AND YOU

The bustling of people or the silent whispers around you didn't matter. All you could pour your attention to was to the man seated across you. His gunmetal blue eyes fixated on the laptop screen in front of him, the creeping sunlight hitting his face make him dazzle through your e/c ones, the sound of his fingers tapping the keyboard was music to your ears and the strong aroma of coffee engulfing your nostrils relaxed your nerves.

The book in front of you was long forgotten, the ice that were on your caramel macchiato has melted already.

You sighed as you extended your hand to gently tap his busy ones.

Akaashi lifted his gaze onto you.

"What's the matter love?"

"Let's have a break, I'm hungry." You pouted

He smiled and squeezed your hand that was already below his.

"You're right. We lost track of time as you busied yourself staring at me instead of reading your book." He teased emitting a wholesome airy chuckle.

"W-Wha-" You stuttered as you hid your face, cheeks now dusting a pink glow

"You're cute". His hand reaching yours. "C'mon. What do you wanna eat?"

You averted his gaze, cheeks still burning due to his teasing.

"I-I want my regular."

"Alright. Chicken pesto pasta it is then." He kissed your knuckles as he stood up making his way to the counter.

Your eyes followed his figure with a smile plastered all over your face.

How lucky you are to have a significant other like Akaashi Keiji in your life.

This scene is too cliché but yes I tried to do my best ㅠㅠ

[hannie-dul-set]

hello its me again !! yesterday I told you I followed u bc of your love for jaemin and your funny humour but today I want to add something else, and thaTS YOUR AMAZING WRITING SKILLS !!

i just finished reading the masterpiece that is Top of the world and I'm so shaken up by the excellence of the rich vocabulary, the sentence structure and just the way you wrote the various events that happened. I'm such at a lost of words to express what I feel you have no ideas, I will never recover from the high quality of this story. it couldn't have been better than that what you delivered and I'm just so so relieved to have been able to live this amazing experience of reading such an outstanding story. I'm sorry maybe you're thinking im showering you in too much compliments but you deserves to be praised for having written Top of the world.

I will always be amazed with how people who write are able to wrote down their imagination and wow, im still shaking like.. Im so impressed by you you have no ideas 🙈

moving on, this is the first time ever since I'm reading nct fics on tumblr that I came across this characterization of jaemin, and it is a real take of fresh air in the best way possible even tho he's really such an asshole like wow the popularity did go too high in his head I was so scandalized (in a good way lmao it made me amazed) with how an ass he was and like the way he ordered around jisung ???? djjdjffjhf I- I wanted to punch jaemin so hard 😤 I wanted to dive into the story and beat his ass lmaooo im sure you too, like I was rolling around in my bed bc I couldn't stay still and laying down without reacting ㅠㅠ

I dont know at what length of words the ask can tolerate but let me tell you something before I forgot ! I realized that every situations/events you wrote had a purpose, like you didn't wrote basic actions that we would pass over without much attention, and bc of that you held our attention during the 15.6k of words and it was so much overwhelming I couldn't stop reading just to breathe lol, you kept me going for so long and I really liked it im so sad that I lived this experience and I couldn't live it again *sobs* this is so revolting I want to pat your head you did so so well 🥺

alsooooo, when you introduced yn's character in the beginning, I was kinda afraid that he would bully her physically you know, like I couldn't imagining you daring to write him being more than despicable than he was but thanks god that wasn't what I imagined fjdjfj, the way he exercised his 'dominance' towards someone he didn't know just for a seat lmao, wow he got some real balls ?¿ I was scandalized a lot fjjfjffj but I was curious too about jeno's character in the story, he was so chill (I think?) about yn's being involved with jaemin from the start and I was expecting him to be an asshole to her just like jaem, u know ? could we know your motives about jeno's character in the story ? why didn't you wrote him like jaemin?

I will speed up a little fjfjj or else I will write you 6 pages of my thoughts lmao

but yeah !! so, I really liked the contrast between how we perceived yn's outside facade and inside, like when he make her kneels in front of him, you made us look at her from jaemin's view and how she looked not so bothered by his behavior and then you switched the second after into yn's point of view and how she tried to not show her emotions... *mind blowing* 🤯 not gonna lie, I was rotting for her to not let him mess with her head but instead her doing that to him and it kinda worked fjfjfjf and then I knew the moment he was surprised about the non effect he had on her that it was the start of his fall anD I WASN'T A SECOND DISAPPOINTED

I FUCKING LOVED THE BLOSSOMING REALTIONSHIP BETWEEN THE TWO OF THEM anD the slight graduation of jaemin's becoming soft to her oh my god I had hearts in my eyes. I loved every moments of this story (I loved the entire 15.6k words of it, I cherished them), but the pool scene toward the end made me go feral for a lot of minutes like the picture you implanted in my head of him in the water made me post all my thoughts (also blonde jaemin? as in, make a wish jaemin?, god I hope bc fucking damn, he was so so so hot)

I was so emotional at the end, they got together and just, being the witness of jaemin's character development was breathtaking, I couldn't stop thinking about how smooth you made it for his character development during all the story, it wasn't forced or too quick...

It was perfect

omg.... [CLUTCHES HEART]. help oh my god first of all thank you ??? for leaving such a LONG long review omg ???? made my entire day ?? week ??? HQGSBWJ IN SUMMARY THANK U AND I LOVE U FOR THIS AAAA i really appreciate it when people just ramble abt my works it just makes my drive go ⬆⬆⬆ yanno HHHH.

when i was first writing this is was like "oh gosh....is it....okay to turn jaemin this much of a dick?? IS IT??" like i was so SURE people wouldn't like this characterization of him but i literally got the reverse 😭 never expected anyone to jump with me on my asshole richkid jaemin agenda bUT HERE WE ARE....IT BEING MY MOST POPULAR FIC YET HAHSJ. i both hate and love this kind of jaemin and yes i definitely wanted to drag him down from his high horse while writing (at the same time....i will let him drag me around as he pleases too 😳).

i'm very gratified that u think its cohesive and each scene has a purpose because to be honest i didn't fuckin know where to go with this entire fic at first LMAO i was just in a richkid jaem brainrot after talking abt it too much with my friend and this was....the result 🕴.

as for jeno oh mr. jeno lee....HAGSNSK to be honest, as this fic wasn't rlly that deeply planned HAHA, i just wanted a contrast to jaemin's personality LMAO if he had the same personality as jaems....insanely egotistical god complex and all.....i think this would have turned out to be a love triangle AHAHS GM SKW. bUT— but hehe. i have another richkid fic in the dusty corners of my google docs rn. a 00’ line fic in fact HAHA so totw jaemin and jeno will be making a comeback here (ofc this is an entirely different universe but their characterizations are essentially the same HEHEHEHEHEH).

anyway !! thank u so much for sharing ur thoughts on totw ;o; 💞 this rlly made my day no joke HAHA i'm so happy to hear you liked this aaaaa. and yes. maw jaemin was the cause of all of this. something snapped in him during that era and led me to write this very self indulgent fic. thank u HAGHSKA.

[inctlife]

Ur most NCT dream post was so cute 🥺 would you consider doing one for 127?

ahh yes!!!! i loved doing that🥺🥺

taeyong

so you and taeyong were dating for a WHILE and you’d been with him all through his training period and all through nct 127 so you’d been by his side for a while

and then !!! taeyong went on tour as he normally did and some crazed fan managed to grab his face at the airport and kiss him,, however,, while trying to get her off, he grabbed her face and angles made it look as though he was secretly kissing this girl and the rest of nct 127 were trying to cover it up

so taeyong spent the whole of the flight home crying bc he gets really insecure and he’s sure that you’ll leave him at any opportunity and then when the flight lands he goes to get off and is all miserable and pouty and you just run up to him and jump on him and kiss him so much and he’s like

“i’m sorry, y/n, there was nothing, i’m sorry”

and your like “stfu ik bitch did you see that kiss?? dry as shit, this is a kiss”

then the next day the headlines were all about you two and not the other girl and taeyong just felt so much love because he slowly began to realise you did that to distract from the kiss before the flight ㅠㅠ he loves you sm

taeil

so taeil had a hard day of vocal exercises bc he’s been instructed to do this part for the upcoming song but it’s higher than he’s ever sung before so it’s very strenuous on his voice :(

and at sm they made him do vocal warm ups while doing stomach cruches so he’s in dOUBLE PAIN and he kinda believes that he’s getting a cold so overall, just not a nice day

and then he returns home and you’re just singing in the living room, jumping around, you guys’ dog on the sofa, watching you with his wagging tail and taeil nearly bursts into tears bc he’s just so relieved at the happiness and homeliness pouring out from you and he just wants to come home to this every single day of his life :,)

johnny

so johnny was chilling with his morning coffee, sat in the garden looking at the sky and the birds and it was just chill and then he heard a slight singing voice and he was like ‘hello??? wtf was that??’ and upon creeping upstairs he realised it was you singing an early morning song to your twins🥺

and johnny honestly felt tears leave his eyes, he just felt so blessed in that moment to be able to have a family like this and he just knew he wanted to give you his last name because ohmygod he’s never been this in love before !!

yuta

okay so yuta was obviously sososososO happy with everything going on in korea,, but he couldn’t help but feel homesick because he hadn’t been to japan in so long,, but he didn’t want to let anyone know that so he just kept pushing on :(and you watched him get more and more unlike yuta until one day he came home and looked himself in you guys’ room and you could just hear him sobbing down the phone to either his friends or his family back in japan and it broke your heart :(

so!! you contacted him mum that night and asked her to send over a few recipes that she used to cook for yuta and you went off the the j-mart to get everything you needed before coming back home and cooking!!!! for like literally a whole day,, it was very tiresome

but then!! yuta came home from practise and you were like ‘wait!! go and get in your pyjamas!! i’ve got a surprise’ and yuta was like ‘?? but it’s not my birthday??’ but he went anyway cause like,, you were asking him to get into pyjamas? why wouldnt he?

and so he comes back down and comes into the living room where all the dishes are on the coffee table and just starts crying because that’s all the food that remind him from home and his mum and there’s his favourite anime on the tv and he just looked at you and realises what you did and just feels so much love coming from you but the only word he can say is ‘why?’

and ur just like ‘cause you deserve it’ and yuta almost combusts i stg

doyoung

after doyoung saw gongmyung and his fake wife (idk her name,, sorry!!!! lol) on wgm he couldn’t help but lowkey want something like that..but in real life obv lol

but after he met you he didn’t even think about his wishes and the kind of relationship he wanted because he was just so in love with you that everyday was like a whirlwind !!

and then one day he was speaking to gongmyung and his brother was just smiling knowingly and was just like ‘you really like y/n huh’ and doyoung was like ‘i’m talking about food?? wtf does that have to do with anything’ but it’s because you can see it!!!! doyoung’s so fucking in love with you his entire face lights up!!! and gongmyung’s like ‘tell me about her, consciously, think about her and then tell me’

and doyoung’s like ‘??’ but does it anyway bc it’s an opportunity to think about you lol but as soon as he starts he’s just lost for words and he’s just like ‘she’s the love of my life???’ and gongmyung’s like ‘omg doyoung just marry this woman already’ and doyoung’s like ‘that aint a bad idea though’

they go ring shopping the next week

jungwoo

so with jungwoo it was all kinda rushed,, like you’d only be dating for about 10 months-year?? but due to circumstances you’d been living together since before you were a couple,, so you were already very close basically best friends to lovers tbh

and one day he can hear you on the phone to your friend it’s on speaker and your friend is gushing about her new baby and you’re just being like ‘oh congratulations!!’ but jungwoo swears he hears a slight sadness in your voice :(

so when you get off this phonecall you immediately call someone else it’s your bestfriend,, the one of the same gender and you just say ‘is it weird to want a baby’ and your friend kinda laughs and is like ‘who gave you baby fever’ and you just sigh and are like ‘i can’t help but want so much more with jungwoo but i feel awkward talking about it’ and your friend’s like ‘stfu why’ but it’s because it’s all going so fast!!! just over a year ago you didn’t even think of him romantically and now you wanted to marry him and have his babies??!!??

but jungwoo was crying outside your door bc,, he wanted all that as well :,) so as soon as you hung up he walked in your room and cuddled you close and was like ‘i promise we’ll get married and have babies,, that’s what i want too!!’ and you just started crying bc oml your boyfriend is so precious

jaehyun

so you went to the wedding dress shop w/ taeyong’s fiancé so you could watch her try on dresses and also try on bridesmaids dresses🥺🥺 so pwetty

and basically her vision was all of her bridesmaids having also white dresses but with a different colour sash round the middle so you got to try on a load of dresses that were actually wedding dresses but they were more lowkey and after signing this thing you were allowed to take photos so she could look at them afterwards and decide which one was best

so you came home and jaehyun was there and you were like ‘oh jae !! look at me in these dresses’ and jaehyun was like ‘kk’ and came over and looked over at your phone and it just took him a moment bc omg,, you look so beautiful in a wedding dress

and ur like ‘what?? that’s good right???’ and jaehyun’s like ‘yeah.. yes,, that’s......... that’s fucking amazing omg’ and he cant stop smiling and there right then is when he decides that he has to marry you!!

mark

so mark took you to canada to stay with his family over christmas and you’d met his family like a handful of times before?? but you’d never stayed with them for this long but as soon as mark asked you were 100% up for it

and so at this point you’d been there for a couple of days and mark’s brother is talking to him about you as mark dried his hair and literally all he’s saying is how amazing you are and mark’s kinda blushing, kinda smiling,, he’s just so happy!!! and then, when thinking over his brother’s words, he went downstairs and found you in the kitchen with his mum, dancing around as you cooked dinner for everyone and mark could’ve cried tbh

he saw his dad walk over to his mum and pull her into a kiss and mark tried to move but like, literally could not,, but luckily !! you saw him lol and was like ‘come here’ and mark was laughing and walked over, kissing you as he mumbled a quick ‘i love you’ and jesus christ he really did

[creambunnie]

♡ Love You More ♡

WayV Xiaojun X OC (Y/N)

angst fluff . ENJOYYYYY

a/n : it has been a long time since i've written such a long imagine. i hope you guys love it!

you wrapped your finger around your mug of hot chocolate and had a sip as your boyfriend!Xiaojun stared at you lovingly. you placed your mug down and looked at Xiaojun with a nervous look. Xiaojun grabbed your hands and squeezed them gently.

"do you think i will make it?". you asked your boyfriend anxiously.

the both of you just graduated from college. Xiaojun already had a stable job at a big tech company, while you, who graduated with a performing arts degree , were auditioning here and there for dramas and shows to land on your first tv debut. you auditioned for romance, action and even horror! you didn't really care about the genre,you just wanted to experience the real deal and improvise yourself till you become a well-groomed actress.

Xiaojun rubbed your hand with his thumb and nodded his head. "i believe an actress as talented as you could make it! if they don't cast you though, it's alright. it's not you, they are the ones who are at lost.". Xiaojun comforted. you scrunched your nose up at his cheesiness and squeezed his hands.

"are you sure you're not just being nice to your girlfriend?". you asked. Xiaojun laughed and shook his head. "of course not! i really mean it. you are very talented! remember when you acted like you were in pain just to get a kiss from me?" . Xiaojun comforted again but didn't forget to tease you . you pulled your hands away and slapped his hand playfully. "ahh why did you have to remind me!". you whined which made him laugh with adoration at your cuteness.

after the short cafe date, you and Xiaojun went to the audition venue by cab . Xiaojun was your moral support. he had always accompanied you to your auditions and comforted you when you were rejected. he would motivate you to do your best and be better each audition.

you were at the waiting room, anxiously waiting for your turn. Xiaojun was sititing beside you while holding your hand in his to give comfort . you on the other hand, tried rehearsing your lines for the last time. you became more nervous when the staff told that you would be going in in about 2 minutes.

"ahh babe i am so nervous!". you mumbled as you faced your cute boyfriend. Xiaojun gave you a small smile and carresed your hair lovingly. "i believe in you , sweetie. you are going to do your best! i promise to treat you to ice cream later after your turn alright?". Xiaojun pecked your lips one last time before you were called. He gave you a soft goodluck as you followed the staff.

~

you were given quite a good feedback from the judges and they told you they would contact you about the results soon. you went out of the hall to the waiting room earlier with a good feeling. you were about to run and hug your boyfriend but was greeted by his close friend instead.

"oh Hendery! are you here for the audition too? oh and did you see Xiaojun?". you bombarded him with questions.

Hendery chuckled and rubbed his nape. "actually Xiaojun was the one who asked me to come here and walk you home. His mother called him earlier because of something urgent. he really is regretful that he had to leave . ". Hendery tried his best to explain to you as politely as possible. your head dropped as you stared at the floor below you.

"oh.. i understand. family is definitely more important. no worries!". you exclaimed as you looked up to Hendery.

Hendery frowned when he saw your teary eyes. He hated seeing his friend sad so an idea popped into his mind. Hendery grabbed your wrist and pulled you along gently. "times like this call for food! i am starving and i bet you are too! let's go!". you giggled and let Hendery drag you.

Hendery brought you to a small restaurant which was a few stops away from the audition venue. "i always come here with my sister. i'm basically a regular and kind of the owner's favourite,so order anything you want alright. it's on me!". Hendery said and winked. you chuckled at his actions but ordered anyways.

you actually had fun hanging out with Hendery. he was a sweetheart , and a dork too. he would crack jokes randomly which brightened your day up. you always hang out with Xiaojun and his friends but never with any of them individually. it was a refreshing experience eating out with Hendery. after talking and eating, it was finally time for you to go home. Hendery walked you home like how he was asked in the first place. you thanked Hendery for the day and apologised for troubling him. Hendery only responded by shaking his head no and smiled widely. he wished you a goodnight sleep before walking away . you smiled back and went in your apartment.

you lived alone since college years. your parents' house were quite far but you do visit them regularly and they visit you too.

you plopped yourself down on your bed and check your phone. you gasped when you saw text messages from your boyfriend. you were having too much fun you didn't even look at your phone.

♡BaobeiJun♡

hey babe.. i am really sorry but i have to go first. i asked Hendery to accompany you back home. stay safe <3

♡BaobeiJun♡

did you meet Hendery? how was the audition? text me as soon as you see this alright ♡

♡BaobeiJun♡

babe, are you mad? i am really sorry, i am going to make it up to you!

♡BaobeiJun♡

please reply me ㅠㅠ are you home yet? nothing bad happened to you right?

- 10 missed calls from ♡BaobeiJun♡ -

you sighed as you saw the texts. of course you were still upset about earlier. but you didn't want to be the annoying girlfriend and tried your best to pretend that you were okay.

To : ♡BaobeiJun♡

sorry for the late replies babe. i didn't check my phone earlier. yeah i am home, Hendery sent me home like you requested. he also bought me food because we were both starving. i am not mad, don't worry :)

you threw your phone on your bed as you changed into your pyjamas. a few seconds later, you heard your phone chime, indicating that you just received a message.

♡BaobeiJun♡

that is great! i should treat Hendery some time too to thank him. i am glad you are back safe. i was so worried when you didn't reply back :((

you chuckled and rolled your eyes at his text.

To : ♡BaobeiJun♡

i am really sorry hahaha , so you wanna tell me why you had to leave earlier?

Xiaojun then explained to you that his mother called him earlier to ask for his help. Apparently , his childhood friend, named Weiwei, was on a business trip here and Xiaojun's mother asked him to welcome her at the airport. you also got to know that the girl was going to stay at Xiaojun's family's place for a few months because renting an apartment would be bothersome.

you were now feeling more upset actually. he left your side because of another girl? and worse, the girl is staying with him for a while? you were furious, yes. but you were more insecure. you trusted Xiaojun but you just couldn't help yourself from being jealous. i mean, which girlfriend wouldn't? you were tired as you read his explanation and decided to end the conversation with a goodnight.

you switched your phone off and wrapped your whole body with your warm blanket. you tried getting rid of all the bad thoughts and fell asleep in anxiety.

~

you were woken up by the front door bell . you groaned as you sat up and checked the time. 10am. you groaned again and cursed whoever it was who disturbed your sleep as you walked to the front door. you opened the door but was greeted by no one. you groaned again thinking that it was just a prank but was startled when Xiaojun's head suddenly popped up out of nowhere. he leaned down so your eyes were parallel. he chuckled at your shocked expression and gave a peck on your cheek before inviting himself in. "i texted you but the messages weren't delivered so i figured your phone was dead. i came to really make it up for yesterday". Xiaojun explained.

you finally snapped out from your shock and grinned. you felt like your anger towards him yesterday evaporated just like that. you hugged him and buried your face into his chest. "you don't even know how much i wanted to hug you like this yesterday after the audition. i was overwhelmed with my emotions and the only one who could calm me was you. but you weren't there.". you mumbled sadly. Xiaojun felt guilty and carressed your hair.

"i am really sorry. i promised to treat you ice cream right? jajan!!" . Xiaojun pulled away and showed you the tubs of ice cream he bought.

"i was thinking of a movie-cuddling kind of date today.". Xiaojun said cutely as he tapped his chin with his finger. you giggled and pinched his cheeks. "i am up for it! but can you let me go shower first?". Xiaojun nodded and placed the ice cream tubs on the dining table. "sure, i will just prepare the couch alright!".

after a nice shower,you joined Xiaojun who was sitting on the couch with his phone. he put his phone on the table as he saw you approaching him. but you saw that he was texting Weiwei earlier. you decided to just ignore your jealousy and took the ice cream tub Xiaojun handed to you. Xiaojun then pulled you closer so you snuggled into his chest and enjoyed the ice cream. the both of you watched a romance movie and imitated the cheesy lines. you would giggle everytime Xiaojun peck your head when there is a kiss scene.

"you know, i heard that the 2nd movie is released next week!". you said and took a spoonful of your strawberry cheesecake ice cream.

Xiaojun hummed and pecked your head again. "it's a date then!".

you turned to him with a wide smile. "really?". Xiaojun chuckled and nodded his head. you squealed and pecked his lips. "i can't wait ! it's been a long time since we've went to the cinema together.".

Xiaojun carressed your hair lovingly before putting down his finished ice cream tub. "how about i go and take some blankets so we could cuddle here?". Xiaojun suggested. you nodded excitedly as you stood up to give him space.

as Xiaojun went to your room, you saw his phone lighted up . you peeked and saw notifications from Weiwei. you rolled your eyes and turned his phone around so you wouldn't get distracted. you quickly finished your ice cream and cleaned up before lying down beside Xiaojun. Xiaojun wrapped his arm around your shoulders and pulled you closer. you leanee your ear on his chest and sighed in relief as you relaxed ,listening to his heartbeat. "i love you sweetie and i want you to remember that forever.". Xiaojun whispered and pecked your forehead. "i love you too baobeijun,". you whispered back. the two of you cuddled in silence and soon fell asleep .

~

it has been a few days after the cuddle date. you haven't really see Xiaojun after that because he was kind of busy with work. you did texted and called each other but you missed him being with you physically. you sighed and just decided to focus on your work. yeah, you has a part time job at a small bookstore. you still had to make income anyways. so while you practised to be an aspiring actress, you still worked hard in earning your own allowance and not only depend on your parents or boyfriend.

you were keying in some things on the computer when the bell chimed, indicating a customer's entrance.

"welcome!". you greeted as you saw a cute girl entered. you were about to ask if she needed help when the door opened again, revealing your handsome boyfriend. you gasped and smiled widely.

"Baobe--". your words were cut off when the cute girl earlier linked arms with Xiaojun. you frowned deeper when Xiaojun didn't even bother to push her away. you quickly gave a small smile when Xiaojun walked towards you with the girl and waved at you cutely.

"babe, this is Weiwei! and Weiwei, this is my girlfriend, y/n !". Xiaojun introduced. you forced a smile and stretched your hand out for a handshake. but your tired arm was ignored as Weiwei hugged Xiaojun's arm and whined. "when we were little you said we were gonna be together!". Xiaojun only chuckled awkwardly and rubbed his nape. he smiled apologetically to you in which you just shook your head . "Xiaojunjun! let's go eat!". Weiwei saidly in her high-pitched voice which hurt your ears. Xiaojun nodded and looked at you, who was looking at the couple sadly.

"i'll see you soon, okay babe?". Xiaojun said softly as if you were the most fragile thing there. you smiled and nodded. before you could speak, Weiwei pulled and dragged Xiaojun out of the store.

you wanted to just cry out loud but you held yourself back. Xiaojun has been to busy with work and couldn't spend even an hour with you but here he was spending his free time with another girl. you knew she was just a friend and you trusted Xiaojun. you love Xiaojun. but it hurt you how he was being oblivious of your painful heart . you decided to push aside the thoughts and focused on work. you were grateful there weren't many customers on that day . you were not really in the mood to entertain others . half an hour before the store closed, the bell chimed indicating a new customer. you continued packing up books and your things while the customer looked for their desired books. you were packing your bag when the customer placed books on the counter. "hi , i would like to ask if the last volume of this comic is still available?". you quickly turned around at the familiar voice. the customer blinked and chuckled. "i didn't know it was your shift ,". Hendery stated. you gave a small smile and nodded. "yeah i was just covering for my co-worker. ". you said softly. you quickly looked at the comic he was purchasing and keyed in the code in the computer.

"the last volume is sold out . but the new stock is coming tomorrow! you could come by if you like and i could reserve one for you.". you explained.

Hendery grinned and nodded. "sure,i'll purchase these first and come back again tomorrow!". after settling his books, it was finally time for you to lock the bookstore and head home.

you switched off everything and quickly closed the store down. you gasped when Hendery suddenly stood in front of you. Hendery chuckled at your reaction . "i was thinking of dinner. together?". Hendery suggested. you chuckled and shook your head. "i'm actually kind of fu--". your lie was cut off when your stomach growled violently. the two of you stared at each other before laughing. "alright, how about hotpot and some beer? at the same place!". you suggested this time. Hendery smiled widely and nodded. "i'm paying this time so don't worry about what you want to eat alright!". you said again . you tried making yourself happy but your lifeless eyes could never lie Hendery. Hendery decided to just play along with you and waited for you to open up yourself. he hated seeing his friends hurt but he hated forcing people more.

you were on your second bottle of beer, you were not really drunk but drunk enough to cry outloud the feelings you've been hiding since afternoon.

"i know she is just a friend but why is she getting more attention then me? your girlfriend? am i just dumb for crying or are you dumb? why does Xiaojun have to be so kind towards other girls? this is unfair!". you whined and downed another shot .

Hendery kept quiet and let you let out all your feelings. he thought it was finally time for you to cry out everything and feel better .

"Hendery, is it really childish and petty of me to be jealous like this?". you turned to your friend and slurred your words. Hendery only sighed and tucked your hair back behind your ears to have a clearer sight of your red face. "no i understand. you shouldn't feel bad for feeling this way. i can't help you much but i am here for you when you need me.". Hendery comforted. you nodded at his response before falling asleep right after . Hendery quickly stretched his arm out before you could knock your head on the table. Hendery sighed as he combed your hair neatly with his fingers. he understood Xiaojun for taking care of his childhood friend but he was disappointed Xiaojun made you feel like this. Hendery decided to call Xiaojun to pick you up. He felt like it was only right for him as a friend to help his friends out.

A few minutes later,Hendery tried waking you up. you woke up with a groan and clutched your head. "are you sober enough to walk?". Hendery asked as he held your shoulder. you nodded and stood up slowly. Hendery helped you and walked out of the restaurant with you . the moment the two of you stepped out of the restaurant, Xiaojun ran towards you . "babe!". he exclaimed as he took you from Hendery. your head was still spinning but you figured Xiaojun's face. you turned to Hendery as he gave you a small smile. "rest well, alright?". Hendery said before excusing himself.

"why did you drink so much babe?" . Xiaojun asked as he piggybacked you. you leaned your head on his back and sighed. "i was sad. i was angry. i was tired.". you replied word by word. you felt the wind as Xiaojun walked on the empty street, bringing you home.

"do you want to tell me why?". Xiaojun asked softly. your heart broke. of course you were sad and angry because of him. but his sweet and innocent self just couldn't realise that. "i love you Jun... i hope you do too. please stay with me.". you breathed out, holding yourself back from crying. Xiaojun stopped in his tracks for a bit but continued walking right after . "of course i love you too. i am here always, by your side.".

you fell asleep on his comfortable back as you felt assured.

~

you wore Xiaojun's favourite baby blue blouse and styled your hair simply with some light make up. you were excited for your movie date. you were at the cinema , waiting for your boyfriend. he promised to be there half an hour before the movie starts. but coming to 10 minutes before showtime, he was still not there. you tried texting him but the messages were not delivered. maybe his phone battery died, you thought. you tapped your foot nervously as you scanned the place for your boyfriend.

4 mins

3mins

2mins

1mins

showtime.

you sighed and held your head down sadly. *did he forget about our date?* . you were about to exit the cinema when someone called your name. you turned and were greeted by Hendery. he really was like your guardian angel. there whenever you were sad.

"are you here alone? what movie are you watching?". Hendery asked. you smiled sadly and shook your head. "today was supposed to be our movie date but Xiaojun is not here. i tried contacting him but he didn't reply. i think i should just go back.". you explained.

Hendery frowned at his friend's actions. He really was disappointed in Xiaojun.

"how about we watch a movie together? hmm i was thinking, Dora The Explorer?". Hendery suggested, trying to cheer you up. you chuckled at his unique choice of movie and nodded. "that is a great idea! let's go!". you agreed and grabbed his wrist to buy the tickets.

during the movie, Hendery suddenly heard soft sniffings. He turned to look at you and sighed . you were wiping your tears that were flowing down your cheeks non-stop. it was obvious you were crying because of Xiaojun, the movie wasn't even a sad one. Hendery grabbed your hands and squeezed them to comfort you. he then pulled your head to lean on his shoulder. "it's okay sweetie, it's okay. i am always here to comfort you.". Hendery whispered as he carressed your hair. his sweet words calmed you throughout the movie. you were sorry to Hendery for always being stuck in your relationship, but you were also grateful to have him as a good friend.

after the movie, you went to the ladies to freshen up . Hendery waited for you and invited you to dinner. "how about we go to the usual? i kind of like the concept of having our hangout place.". you said as you walked out of the cinema with Hendery. Hendery chuckled but agreed to your suggestion anyway. dinner made your day. you decided to totally ignore your thoughts about Xiaojun and spend quality time with your now new bestfriend. you and Hendery shared a lot of things with each other , from cute childhood stories to epic highschool memories. you also found out that the both of you were big fans of Attack on Titans and Tokyo Ghoul. Hendery promised to lend you his AOT mangas as you promised to recommend him other great animes and mangas. the day eventually ended with Hendery walking you home. "thank you so much for today Hendery. i am very thankful to have you as my friend.". Hendery smiled at your words and patted your head. "i am always here if you are im need of a friend. the restaurant is always open for us to have more fun.". you thanked him again and bid him goodnight as you entered your apartment.

you plopped yourself on the couch and fished out your phone.

♡BaobeiJun♡

omg babe... i didn't realise that my phone was turned off >○<

♡BaobeiJun♡

i overlooked the date for our movie date .. i am really sorryyy

♡BaobeiJun♡

my mom asked me to bring Weiwei around the city. i agreed because i thought our date is tomorrow...

♡BaobeiJun♡

i am really sorry babe,, please reply my messages

♡BaobeiJun♡

babe? i understand that you are mad at me...

♡BaobeiJun♡

are you at least safe back home?

you threw your phone on the couch as you stood up. you decided to just ignore his texts. you were really mad. not just because he ditched you on the most awaited date, but he ditched you as he spent time with another girl. you knew Xiaojun was just being kind but is he really dense to not draw the line? you didn't want your relationship to be ruined by a girl who suddenly appeared in your life. you thought your relationship with Xiaojun was strong , but recent incidents made you doubtful. you washed up and went to bed straight away.

you woke up the next morning feeling a bit better after a goodnight sleep. you were having your light breakfast when you heard a knock from the front door. you groaned as you weren't expecting any guests.

you opened the door only to push it back close as you see his face. but before the door could close fully, Xiaojun held onto it with his leg. "babe please let me in.". he begged. you contemplated for a bit but opened the door anyways. you quickly walked away before he could hug you. Xiaojun followed you to the kitchen as he called out your name softly. Xiaojun wrapped his arms around your shoulders but you harshly pushed him away and faced him.

"Xiaojun. i am tired. please, i am tired of being mad with you and settle my feelings with a hug from you. this is not that simple, Jun. i love you , i really do. but the amount of times you've hurt me in these 2 months is more than the whole 2 years that we've spent together..". you confessed.

Xiaojun tried to pull you into a hug but you rejected. you wiped the tears that were flowing down your cheeks as you continued. "why do you think i was drunk the other night? you think i wanted to feel depressed like that? you think everything was back to normal when you came to pick me up?!". you didn't intend to raise your voice at him but your emotions were unstable.

Xiaojun was startled at your outburst. he looked at you with teary eyes. you sighed as you sat on the floor and pulled your legs before burying your face in between them. your sobs echoed through the silent kitchen. you felt Xiaojun moving closer. he squatted beside you and wrapped his arms around your body before pulling you into his warm chest. "i'm sorry , i'm sorry, sshhh i'm sorry, i love you babe, i really love you . i'm sorry i hurt you, i love you really. i am here now and i promise i won't leave you.". Xiaojun whispered in an attempt to comfort your broken heart. you finally gave in and cried out into his chest.

a few moments later, Xiaojun carried you into your bedroom. he lied down beside you and pulled you closer. you buried your face into the crook of his neck and sniffed in his scent. you relaxed in his arms as you calmed yourself down. "i missed you so much,". he mumbled as he pecked your head. the two of you lied down in silence, enjoying each other's presence and calm breathing. Xiaojun was about to fall asleep when his ringtone startled the both of you. you slowly pulled away from him to give hin space to sit up. Xiaojun rubbed his eyes cutely as he searched for his phone. you couldn't help but giggle at the cute sight and although you were still a bit mad, you didn't hold yourself back from giving him a quick peck on the lips. Xiaojun froze at your sudden action before slowly reaching for his phone. he was used to receiving kisses from you but he was suddenly shy after the fight , his ears turned red . you giggled at his reaction and nudged him to do something about his phone. "i--i'll take this call for a while okay?" he stuttered. you nodded before lying down back on your bed.

after the short call, Xiaojun turned to face you with a guilty expression. "babe.. i really want to spend time with you but this is urgent. Weiwei is having troubles with settling her project and i have to go help. i am really sorry babe.". Xiaojun explained and apologised.

you sighed, just when you thought it was back to normal, everything was about to be ruined again. "it's urgent right? let me walk you to the front door.". you said as you got off the bed. Xiaojun gulped as he sensed your sarcasm. he followed you out of the room like a puppy. "i'm really sorry babe.. how about i take you on a date on Saturday?". Xiaojun tried to persuade you. you gave a small smile and pushed him out off your apartment gently. "i can't. i have plans.". you replied and quickly closed your front door. you heard Xiaojun knocked for a few minutes, begging you to open the door but he then stopped when you ignored him . you figured he finally gave up and went to settle his urgent matters.

♡BaobeiJun♡

babe... what plans do you have that i can't spend time with you?

you rolled your eyes at his message and were tempted to just throw your phone on the ground. he had been ignoring your daily life activities because of his own but had the audacity to suddenly act caring when you finally gave him the cold shoulder. you ignored his message and decided to text Hendery .

To : Huang Guanheng

hey Hendery, i was thinking if you could accompany me this Saturday? i am finally casted for the drama i auditioned for recently and this Saturday is our first shooting. i am quite nervous to go alone...

you waited for a few seconds before Hendery replied.

-Huang Guanheng-

oh sure!! just tell me the time and place ,alright?

you smiled at his response and quickly informed him the details. you were glad he didn't ask about Xiaojun . he really was a friend with good sense.

~

the day finally came. you met up with Hendery early and decided to get some breakfast together. "you can do it , y/n . don't be too nervous or else you wouldn't be able to focus. here drink some hot tea, to calm you down.". you thanked him for his advice and comforting words. after the short breakfast, the both of you went to the shooting venue.

the site for the rehearsed scene was outdoor. the hot weather was not really helping with your nerves. you practised your lines as much as possible as the stylists prepared you before you were called to the site. you were only a side character but your character actually plays quite an important role in the drama. Hendery gave you a supporting pat as your turn came.

you did a good job with your lines but your co-actor kept on making mistakes. because of that the scene you were in had to be filmed for a few times. you tried to be consistent in the quality of your performance but the hot weather made you exhausted. you were sweating like mad that the stylists had to wipe them for you every few minutes.

the director finally gave a break time, asking your co-actor to calm his nerves and practise his line again. you were glad the director was nice enough to be patient with him . if you were the director, you would have screamed at him. you saw Hendery waving at you as you walked towards him . Hendery's smile turned into a frown as he saw your pale face. he quickly caught you as you stumbled. "are you okay?". he asked as he tried supporting you to stand up straight. "i am a bit dizzy," you managed to reply as you clutched your head. just as you spoke, your body felt weak and you fainted. Hendery's eyes widened as he wrapped his arm under your body and carried you. "ambulance! somebody call the ambulance!" .

~

Hendery : Dejun, your girlfriend just fainted . she is admitted to the hospital now.

Xiaojun : what? tell me the hospital address, i am on my way.

Hendery : alright, come here safely .

Hendery ended the call as he sat beside your bed. he carressed your head and sighed. a few minutes later, Xiaojun arrived . Hendery stood up and greeted his friend. Xiaojun gave Hendery a brotherly hug and went to you who were still sleeping. he held your cheek dearly and pecked your forehead. "what happened?". Xiaojun asked Hendery softly. "she was at the shooting site earlier--". Hendery's words were cut off by Xiaojun. "wa-wait, she was casted ?". Hendery frowned and nodded. "didn't she tell you?" . Xiaojun looked at you sadly and hesitated a nod. "kind of...". Hendery nodded before explaining further. "she fainted after her turn. the doctor said she was too stressful and dehydrated . that was why she fainted. but the doctor said to not worry, a rest and lots of water can make her feel better.". Xiaojun sat beside your bed and held your hand. "i see, thank you Guanheng.". Hendery nodded and stood beside Xiaojun. Xiaojun stayed by your side till night. Hendery stayed too. he was worried about both of his friends . "Dejun.. you've been here since afternoon. why not we go take some fresh air and have dinner ? y/n wouldn't want you to fall ill too.". Hendery patted his friend's shoulder. Xiaojun contemplated for a while but agreed to his friend's suggestion . he pecked your hand for the last time before leaving the hospital.

"which restaurant is still open at this hour?". Xiaojun asked as he checked the time. it was late night. Hendery grinned and patted his back. "i know the perfect place.".Hendery sat on his usual spot while Xiaojun sat on yours. the owner greeted them and passed the menus. "Guanheng! you didn't come with your girlfriend today?". Hendery blinked at her question as Xiaojun stared at Hendery. "you have a girlfriend?". Xiaojun asked. Hendery shook his head and tried to reply the owner. "no no auntie, she is not my gi--". his words were cut off when the owner exclaimed. " ah y/n ! she isn't here today.". Xiaojun's expression was unreadable. Hendery gulped and shook his head. "may we just look at the menu and order ,auntie?". the oblivious owner smiled and nodded before going back to the counter.

"this is just a misunderstanding Dejun.". Hendery started as he stared at the menu that he had memorised by heart. Xiaojun was silent for a bit but smiled . "i understand Guanheng. don't worry. why not we just order?i am starving!!". Hendery knew Xiaojun was just pretending to be okay. Xiaojun and you were really soulmates. hiding your real feelings. Hendery nodded and ordered some food.

the meal was silent and calm. both too occupied with their own thoughts. after the meal, Xiaojun paid for the food and thanked Hendery once again. "why not you go home and rest? i will be with y/n.". Xiaojun said in a matter of factly. not really as a suggestion. Hendery nodded and bid his friend goodnight before going back home.

Xiaojun stayed with for the whole night. you woke up to see your boyfriend sleeping, head on the edge of your bed. you carressed his soft brown locks gently as you stared at his calm sleeping face. Xiaojun's eyes opened slowly as he sat up. he grabbed your hand and pecked them before asking. "are you feeling better ?". you only nodded and squeezed his hand. "did Hendery call you?". Xiaojun hummed in response. his other hand balled into a fist as he heard his friend's name. "the doctor said you can discharge after you eat your breakfast. he said to drink lots of water and rest well.". your eyes widened when you realised you were at job when you fainted. you quickly searched for your phone to check for any messages. "missing Hendery already?". Xiaojun asked with gritted teeth. you looked up from your phone and frowned. "what?". Xiaojun smirked and scoffed. "nothing.". you turned back to your phone and read the text from one of the staffs.

-we hope you have a good rest. we are sorry for not considering your condition , we will update you about the next shootings. for now, we just want you to have a good rest- .

you sighed in relief as you finished reading the text. you thought you were going to be replaced by another actress. you placed your phone down and looked at Xiaojun who was staring at you. "have you eaten?". you asked. Xiaojun shook his head and rubbed his face with his hands. "i'll eat later after sending you home. i don't have the appetite to eat.". you frowned at his answer and placed your hand on his cheek as you carressed them gently. "please eat well. i don't want you to fall ill.". you said softly. Xiaojun gave a small smile and nodded.

in the cab on the way to your house, you leaned your head on Xiaojun's shoulder as he rubbed your interwined hands with his thumb. you jumped when you heard your phone ring.

*incoming call from Huang Guanheng*

you looked at Xiaojun as he nodded his head letting you answer the phone.

Hendery : are you home?

You : i'm on my way home in the cab. I am with Xiaojun.

Hendery : that is great . rest well okay? and y/n .. did you not tell him about the drama?

you kept silent at his question. Hendery called your names a few times .

You : i will alright. don't worry .

Hendery : he is your boyfriend,he should know.

you nodded your head as if he was in front of you.

You : okay okay, stop nagging, gosh.

Hendery chuckled at your response and advised you one last time before ending the call.

Xiaojun squeezed your hand right after you kept your phone. you leaned back onto his shoulder before calling his name out softly.

"babe,, i wanted to tell you but i was mad the other day. i actually got casted for the drama that i auditioned for the last time.". Xiaojun was quiet for a while. he carressed your hand and pecked your forehead. "congrats babe. see, i told you you would make it. you are talented.". he whispered. you smiled and pecked his cheek as you thanked him. you decided to just relax in silence as the cab took you back home.

~

you plopped on your couch as you arrived home. Xiaojun locked the front door and joined you on the couch. you switched on the TV and searched for fun shows to watch. "hey would you like some tea?". Xiaojun offered. you smiled and nodded . Xiaojun went to the kitchen to make some tea for the both of you. he thought this gave him some time to gather his courage for the words he was about to say . he hoped the tea would calm the both of you before the storm comes.

he placed both cups on the coffee table. your eyes were still stuck to the TV as you sipped on the hot tea. you turned to Xiaojun when he suddenly lowered down the volume of the TV. Xiaojun gave a small smile as he reached for your hands. he gave them a squeeze before starting his speech.

"y/n. we need to talk. i don't think this is going to work between us..". you frowned at his words and remembered what he said earlier. "is this because of Hendery? Xiaojun. i've been patient for almost three months now when you have to entertain Weiwei but just because of your jealousy towards Hendery , you want to break up? Hendery is just a friend! ". you asked , obviously disappointed with him . Xiaojun shook his head as he pulled his hands away from yours. "it's not just jealousy, okay?!". you were startled when he raised his voice. Xiaojun sighed and ruffled his hair roughly. "it's not jealousy...". his voice was back to his usual soft voice. "it's a realisation. i realised that Hendery can take care of you better than I can . he treats you better than me. you deserve a man better than me.". you frowned at his what you would say nonsensical excuses.

"no... i don't want to break up with you. i love you Xiaojun! don't you love me too? you promised me you are going to be by my side always.". you said as tears trickled down from your eyes. Xiaojun wiped his own tears as he looked into your eyes. "i do.. i love you. i love you so much therefore we can't be together. i love you so much i don't want to see you hurt . i love you so much i want you to know that you deserve better. i love you... but we are not meant to be with each other.".

your palms turned into fists as you hit his chest. "you stupid jerk! that doesn't make any sense! if you love me, stay with me! don't give up on me!". you shouted as you hit him. Xiaojun grabbed your wrists as he pulled you into a hug. "i love you. this is for your best.". he whispered and pecked your forehead for the last time . Xiaojun stood up and went out of your apartment, leaving you crying on the couch.

- Xiao Dejun -

Guanheng, please take care of y/n .

Hendery cursed under his breath as he read the message from his friend. "what did this idiot do this time." Hendery mumbled as he rushed to your apartment.

Hendery arrived at your house a few minutes after Xiaojun left. the door was unlocked. Hendery quickly went in only to be greeted by your sleeping figure on the couch. he locked the front door and went to you. Hendery sighed as he saw you tear-stained face. he wiped your dry tears and carried you to your room. "she was just healing and you decided to break her again.". Hendery mumbled as he placed you on your bed. you stirred in your sleep and woke up slowly. you saw Hendery standing beside your bed with a worried look. he sat on the edge of your bed and held your hands. "he is an idiot. i am going to talk to him later alright? he is going to make this wo--". his words were cut off as you shook your head. "no Hendery. he is not going to turn back anymore. i know him. this is what he wanted. he thinks this is the best choice.". you tried to say but broke down right after. Hendery sighed and pulled your head towards his chest. "i'm here. i'm here. it's okay , just cry it all out. maybe this is for the best afterall. you are precious y/n and i am here to protect you always.". Hendery comforted you.

.

.

.

.

"and the best actress award goes to , Y/N !!".

the crowd cheered as you stood up from your chair, surprised that you had won the award. you bowed to your seniors and juniors as you walked up to the stage. you received the plaque from the announcer and went to the front to give your winning speech.

"first of all i would like to thank my parents for always supporting me . i thank my fans too for loving my works! i will work harder and improve myself better and better. i would like to thank those who i have worked with. without them, i might not even have the chance to be an actress and moreover, win this award. not to forget , i would also like to thank this amazing person, my friend, Hendery. thank you for being by my side all these years especially these past 4 years. he is a really good producer so check out some of his musics alright? lastly, thank you once again!". you felt your legs tremble as you went back to your seat.

♡Huang Guanheng♡

good job sweetie! and thank you for mentioning me, i am happy i could be by your side.

you smiled as you read his text. you looked up to the stage when you heard the MC called a familiar name.

"before we end the show, we would like to invite this show's biggest sponsor, from the company DJX , Mr Xiaojun , to accept our appreciation gift.". you gulped when you saw the handsome man on the stage. his previous brown locks were now blonde. his smile was still the same like before. but his features were more defined as he matured throughout these years. you gave a small smile when he looked at you and quickly looked away . *you've moved on y/n. don't give in to him.* you thought to yourself.

~

you were standing at a corner with a glass of fruitpunch, waiting for your manager to bring you back. you didn't really enjoy after-event parties but attended anyways out of politeness. you were looking around when you saw Xiaojun walked towards you. you looked up and accidentally stared right into his brown orbs. Xiaojun looked away as his ears turn red. it's been 4 years but you were still as beautiful as ever. he missed you. you still made his heart skip a beat. you smiled as he stood in front of you. "it's been a while, Xiaojun.". the way his real name rolled off your tongue hurt him . he nodded and finally looked at you. "so you and Hendery are together now?". he asked. you chuckled and shook your head. "he is just a friend. a brother. i told you before, didn't i?". you replied with a small smile. Xiaojun looked down sadly but looked back up to you. "y/n. i'm really sorry...". you chuckled again and patted his shoulder. "let the past be past ,Xiaojun. i actually wanted to thank you for all the bittersweet memories. they really help me alot in my acting . experience is what makes it easier to stay in character.". your words hurt him. like how his words hurt you 4 years ago. before Xiaojun could say anything, you were called by your manager. "oh looks like i got to go. see you when i see you!". you waved at him before leaving the ballroom.

Xiaojun sighed as he stared at your back walking away from him. he would be lying if he said he didn't regret leaving you. his life has been nothing but miserable after breaking up with you. he focused on work to distract himself but his soul was empty. before he could leave the venue, he heard the DJ introducing a song. "before leaving, the actress y/n had requested this song. she hoped all of you enjoy it.".

Xiaojun decided to stay and listened to the song you love .

I’ll love you more

If you’re gonna do that, don’t come to me

If a person like me is gonna be erased anyway

Our love that was written down on a white piece of paper

Was clear just like my tears

Just stay by my side for one day

Because this awkward break-up still feels like a dream

Love me a little more, don’t push me away

I’ll try to hide it and let out a sigh in this empty time

When your tears that filled my heart dry up a little

I will engrave you in my eyes

And let you go

Words that sounded affectionate like a friend

Words I want to hear several times a day

Words saying you love me

It makes my breath stop and heart race

But only your voice sleeps in my memories

Just stay by my side for one day

Because this awkward break-up still feels like a dream

Love me a little more, don’t push me away

I’ll try to hide it and let out a sigh in this empty time

When your tears that filled my heart dry up a little

I will engrave you in my eyes

Until you come back

You silently stop in place

With eyes, telling me not to forgive you

I guess this really won’t work

Now all there’s left is this crappy break-up

I try to catch you but you get farther away and disappear

Love me a little more, don’t push me away

I’ll try to hide it and let out a sigh in this empty time

When your tears that filled my heart dry up a little

I will engrave you in my eyes

And let you go

{ NU'EST - Love You More }

Xiaojun wiped his tears that flowed down without him even noticing.

♡BaobeiJun♡

i know it's too late... but i love you . i have always been loving you . i should've have loved you more instead of leaving you. i love you .

i hope you guys enjoyed this~ my feelings were overwhelmed when i wrote this hahaha anyways, do like and comment ! i love to hear to your feedbacks ♡♡

[infinitemyungsoo]

200720 Myungsoo had a comment only Vlive "It's 12:01" 

fan: hi 

Myungsoo: hi 

fan: it's Myungsoo. you haven't slept yet? 

Myungsoo: I decided to come here before I sleep 

fan: let's start the day with fulfillment 

Myungsoo: It's raining heavily this week. anyway, fighting

fan: oppa, the room temperature storage chicken breast that you talked about last time, I tried it and it was good but the chicken breast chips......tastes very dry. I can drink 2L of water... 

Myungsoo: Room temperature storage chicken breast?? that one is dry..but the chicken breast chips  is delicious though? the staff really liked it, they bought a whole box

fan: ah, I should try the chicken breast chips. I will be on a diet starting this week!

Myungsoo : also work out...!

fan: oppa, let’s eat sweet potatoes with me 

Myungsoo: ah, this is a different story. well, I ate braised beef ribs today? It had sweet potatoes instead of potatoes. It was sweet and really delicious

fan: what are you having for breakfast tomorrow? 

Myungsoo: Cereal, banana, almond breeze

fan: If you make a wish before you go to bed, myungsoo will reply to your comment. good night! 

Myungsoo: good night

fan: I like to eat sweet potatoes with milk but I think myungsoo will eat them with kimchi ㅋㅋㅋㅋ 

Myungsoo: Hmm I don’t remember what I ate them with... I think I’ll just eat sweet potatoes ㅋㅋ

fan: thanks to oppa who exercising a lot and manage your diet now I'm motivated to excercise as well

Myungsoo: But I’m not really doing any of them these days

fan: thanks to oppa who came to visit us, today will be more meaningful and happier than any other day !!❤thank you❤  

Myungsoo: have a happy day^ㅡ^b

fan: Myungsoo, what have you been doing lately? I miss you so much ㅠㅠ

Myungsoo: I am preparing for various things.. I will do my best so we can meet. corona...sighs ㅋㅋ 

fan: sometimes when you come here like this, I’m so happy that I can’t stop smiling... 😍

Myungsoo: 😍 bbbbbbb

fan: oppa, I miss you. when will we meet again? you said you like eating these days. you emphasize it by putting it at the end of sentences. give me some recommendations.

Myungsoo: That's right, I like eating. yum

fan: do you listen to any music before you sleep? something like a lullaby ㅋㅋ I’m suddenly curious

 Myungsoo: No, I watch videos. I watch videos of bees these days. bees ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

fan: Myungsoo, do you like rainy days or sunny days?

Myungsoo: It depends on the situation, environment, or my mood, but now I like rainy days

fan: did you mean buzzing bees??? something like asmr??

Myungsoo: Yes, buzzing bees. when they collecting honey and stuff. in fact, I watch a lot of videos besides the buzzing bee videos  

fan: I’ve been watching your old dramas these days. I watched Shut Up Flower Boy Band today. I became a fan after watching this drama. It’s been already 8 years ㅋㅋㅋ you’re always cool. thank you for coming to my life. I love you

Myungsoo: Woah Hyunsoo Shut Up Flower Boy Band  ㅋㅋㅋㅋ I had a very tight schedule while filming this drama

fan: do you like rainy days or me?

Myungsoo: ㅋㅋㅋ cute. yeah, I like you

fan: what time are you going to sleep tonight?

Myungsoo: soon..?

fan: I imagine you using your phone and look so cute ㅜㅜ 😭

Myungsoo: huh..? I don’t look cute.. ㅋㅋ

fan: I haven't received a reply from Myungsoo yet but I'm sleepy

Myungsoo: here and now go to sleep

fan: they say it rains a lot at dawn

Myungsoo: the weather forecast said it’s raining this whole week.

fan: Myungsoo-ya, don't use an umbrella when it rains because flowers need water 

Myungsoo: hahahahahah...thank you..

fan: oppa do you have any tips for staying up all night or when you need to sleep less because of your promotions or drama filming??? I had to sleep less so even if I did, I ended up sleeping in on the weekends 

Myungsoo: vitamin red ginseng is the best

fan: red ginseng tastes bad

Myungsoo: usually everything that's good for your health are bitter but I'm sure there are red ginsengs that taste good 

fan: but you know, I love you 

Myungsoo: ah really? me too

fan: red ginsengs are flavorless. It doesn't taste like anything 

Myungsoo: ????? It has some flavors though

fan: I ate chilli crab yesterday. do you miss chilli crab too myungsoo? do you miss singapore? 

Myungsoo: I like chilli crab Yes I like chilli crab Yes I really like it

fan: red ginseng...because I need more stamina so I take it even if I don't want to 

Myungsoo: this person is like me. everyone, let’s take care of our health in advance!

fan: cold vs spicy buckwheat noodles

Myungsoo:  I wanted to eat spicy cold buckwheat noodles yesterday? please eat it for me

fan: I bought a lot of nutritional supplements and not taking them ㅠㅠ I guess it'll past its expiration date

Myungsoo: if you take them now, they won’t pass the expiration date. hurry up and take them

fan: I heard red ginseng and probiotics are the best for immune system.take probiotics too!

Myungsoo: yes and propolis too 

fan: Is there any food you usually eat in summer? something like ginseng chicken soup! 

Myungsoo: it's beating the hot weather by eating something hot. ginseng chicken soup 👍

fan: Myungsoo-ya, there's glucom as one of nutritional supplements and it's good for test-takers to eat it for overcoming fatigue

 Myungsoo: oh really?? 

fan: I like raining but I'm scared of rainstormㅠㅠ

Myungsoo: there was a lot of thunder and lightning not long ago

fan: I love you until now and forever. It won't change even if we can't meet

Myungsoo: we'll meet. definitely

Myungsoo: I heard it'll rain a lot this week so always take your umbrella with you! take care of yourself and I'll come again soon. sweet dreams without nightmares

translations by ifntvisual_ on twitter

[12loona-archived]

[FANCAFE] 190819 - Happy LOONA 1st Anniversary From Heejin: “Hi, Orbits! :) Already it’s the first anniversary for us, LOONA. I think back to the daily routines of being so frazzled while preparing for ‘Hi High’, keke. I’m so thankful that the twelve of us being one is just a normal thing now! And also that we’ve gotten to one year without any incident! In these routines that have now become familiar, sometimes I look back on my day, and on myself, because I know familiarity sometimes makes you forget how to be grateful. I look at how that day went, whether I tried my best on that day’s performance… It’s thanks to Orbits that I can think of these things! Because I know it’s Orbits who will be most sad at some of the careless things I might do. Thank you!! For becoming such great meaning to me, that I couldn’t live without. I’ll pay it back, so that you won’t regret the days you’ve been with us. Thank you for working so hard this past year! Orbits!! Let’s be happy going forward. <3”

From Hyunjin: “Hellomeow~ I bet you will know right away who I ameow. Happy first anniversary of LOONA meow~!!!!!!!! It’s all thanks to Orbits that we’ve gotten to reach our first anniversarymeow~ <3 I love you, meow~ <3 We’re going to work even harder and celebrate our tenth and hundredth too, meow~ <3 >_< <3 Everyone, I love you. <3” From Haseul: “Hi Orbits! I think you know best who I am, Orbits. To hear it’s already a year since we debuted, all kinds of feelings are crossing inside, hehe. I think back to the first broadcast of ‘Hi High’ when I was so nervous that I danced with stiff limbs, hehe. Being able to grow like this for the past year is surely thanks to my BlockBerry family and Orbits, yes? Please keep looking forward to LOONA and loving us. Always, thank you and I love you, Orbits. <3” From Yeojin: “Orbits!!! This is our first anniversary~ I think time is going so fast… I couldn’t even believe it when the twelve of us came together for the first time… and now that it’s the anniversary it’s even harder to believe. ㅠㅅㅠ I think I’m always living joyfully thanks to Orbits who are cheering for us so hard, so that we won’t get tired~ <3 Thank you so much always~ Orbits <3 And as time passes I think we’re becoming even closer~ with Orbits and also with the members. <3 Please stay with us even after ten years and twenty years~ <3 Let’s stay together until the end of this month~ <3 Orbits, I love you. <3 <3” From Vivi: “Hello~ <3 This is LOONA’s Vivi who is just turning one! We made so many memories this past year~ My members, Orbits, BBC family, in our time together I learned so many things. The members’ passion, Orbits’ love, BBC family’s care… all these things are making my life fuller one by one~ Thank you everyone <3 I feel like I don’t express it well… but you all know how I feel right!? I love you~ Let’s make even better memories together. <3 <3 <3” From Kim Lip: “<3 Happy first anniversary. <3 A year’s time has passed already. I waited for the full group debut so long and couldn’t believe when it happened, and now all of this has become so precious and joyful, yet familiar. In all of those moments Orbits were always with us!! I know this probably sounds tired because I say it all the time but: thank you. <3 For always welcoming us, comforting us, asking us how we’re doing… I know it’s not an easy thing to put so much care into somebody, so I’m even more thankful. <3 I’ll be sure to become a 👄 who repays that attention. <3” From Jinsoul: “Hello, Orbitdungs. <3 One year already… time goes so quickly, doesn’t it? I think we’ve made many precious memories in that time too… I get emotional when I think of it hehe. Let’s stay together even going forward, pinky promise. Iloveyou. <3” From Choerry: “Orbits. <3 Members. <3 Family. <3 Hello! Orbits! It’s Choerry~! It’s already been a year since we’ve been together. Congratulations for Orbits and! My members who’ve been with me for a year, thank you so much. I think we were able to do everything in every moment because we became strength for each other. <3 Thinking back to it now, I think I am suu~uuch a fortunate person. ㅜㅅㅜ That I get to be together with this many people. <3 (This was supposed to be anonymous ㅡㅡ I messed up…)” From Yves: “Hi, Orbits <3 Today is such a special day. ㅠㅠ Because today is one year since twelve girls of LOONA have been together. <3 We’re turning one!!! Even though I’m used to practice time with twelve of us, on a day like this I feel reminiscent and my heart is warm. <3 It’s so dreamlike and joyful to think that this Sooyoung, who once auditioned with a trembling heart here in this place, got to meet these precious twelve girls. It’s like destiny how we were able to meet like this, despite being born in different places, with such different personalities. On this anniversary I’m so looking forward to what is in store for us girls going forward. :) Thankful today for everything that strengthened us and influenced us, that helped us to come together, to dream the same dream, to grow up healthy and without problem. <3” From Chuu: “Oh my Lights [or my Bit]! Orbits! Thank you for always being with us. LOONA! Thank you so so much for sticking together with laughter all this time, my people. <3 It’s already been a year… time is so fast. ㅠㅠ I think we’ve grown more than yesterday, and we’ve become stronger because we have each other! If we stay together like this we’ll become even stronger right? That’s why I’m looking forward to the future even more. >_< You will stay with me, right? Thank you and I love you, LOONA and Orbits!” From Go Won: “Orbits! <3 We’ve reached our first anniversary! On both my solo and unit anniversaries I thought, ‘already?’ and the full group anniversary has come so soon too. There were tough times, but there were so many more happy times and I think the time went by fast because of that. I’m happy that I’ve gotten to meet such great people. <3 And happy thanks to Orbits who always think about us first and cheer for us. <3” From Olivia Hye: “So because we weren’t together as twelve for as long as some of the others, there were a lot of things we had to adapt for each other. I know how hard it is to give up some of your own style and work with other people, so I’m thankful to the members for putting in that effort. I love you so much, LOONA. <3 Orbits too. <3” translated by litell_johnn.

[pinksvnt]

pairing: jeonghan x reader

genre: fluff, angst(i dont think it counts tbh lol)

word count: 1,678

sypnosis: other members flirt with you and it gets on jeonghans nerves

[This was a request by an anon and I hope whoever that person is.... that this pleases them ㅠㅠ my stories are never too long which is why i write so quick]

Pledis did not prohibit anyone from dating. But It wasn't encouraged and it sure as hell isn't celebrated when the CEO would find out. Jeonghan could care less about that though. He remembers when he first met you. You were by yourself in a cafe and he caught you staring at him. Being the type of person he was he walked up to you and was trying to quickly figure out something witty to tell you. As he pulled a chair out and plopped down onto he couldn't help but laugh over how frightened you looked.

"You know if you snuck a photo of me from the get go you wouldn't have been caught staring. My name is Jeonghan by the way" He couldn't help but find funny the expression you were making. You seemed very animated.

"You have a dark permanent marker line on your face" He laughed thinking you were joking. But as you pulled out a little mirror and gently touched his face to angle his face, he stopped. There was, in fact, a marker line on his face. "My name is y/n. Take this wipe."

Since that day he started hanging out with you. The way he teased people wasn't always something others liked to deal with but you seemed to handle it well.

He'd make fun of you. Poke your cheeks. Mimic you. Laugh at you. Sometimes though you'd shut him down by reminding him that you're used to dealing with children. It was all fun and games until he started realizing maybe his feelings were so platonic.

There was once where you invited him over to help you pick out a date outfit. He hated every moment of it and didn't even understand why. Whenever you'd get a text he would playfully take it away and get a bit annoyed whenever he saw it was another boy. He usually played things off easily but one day he just snapped.

"Ugh, y/n, I'm sick of you going out on date and not hanging out with me" he tsk at you and felt his blood boiling just thinking about you going on another date.

"Jeonghan, I can't just hang out with you and only you. I want a life you kn-"

"I know but I'm just saying all these dudes never live up to what you deserve!" He was getting frustrated with himself because he wanted to stop but these words just kept flooding out. "You're an idiot y/n" He was getting ready to leave your apartment when you stopped him.

"Jeonghan I thought you were supposed to be supportive now you've gone and called me an idiot. What am I supposed to do then huh? Live alone forever and just be friends with you. I'm sorry but that can't happen!" He turned around and it seemed to have given you a fright so he backtracked.

"Okay listen y/n, I'm sorry. But I just can't stand seeing you going on dates with guys who don't deserve you " You looked confused, if you hadn't figured out by now that he liked you he was just gonna have to go ahead and say it. "The thing is, I think I like you more than a friend and I just don't wanna see you with other guys y/n...." now you looked even more confused than ever.

"Jeonghan I-" honestly he felt like he blacked out but eventually that night lead to you two dating not long after.

-

A few months passed and you two were doing great. You'd visit jeonghan sometimes whenever he'd have practice and eventually that lead to you becoming friends with other members. He wasn't worried too much. They were like family and even though he had yet to tell everyone that you two were dating he didn't really feel the need too. At least not yet, it didn't seem that important.

It was one of those times where he'd have little to no time to see you and although you understood he would still worry. You'd end up coming to the studio to bring Jeonghan and everyone snacks and it was just nice having your presence around. You got along with the other members so when he had to leave to record his parts of a song he thought you were fine.

He was finishing up his part of the song when you screamed outside the studio. Both he and Jihoon turned to look at each other confused before heading out to see what was going on. Although they were only met with an anticlimactic scene of you being helped up by Mingyu who was frantically saying sorry. He was also trying his best not to laugh. Jihoon tsk'd and went back into the studio by himself as Jeonghan just stood there for a moment.

"Mingyu what did you do? Did you push her to the ground or are you just too tall that you didn't

see her and bumped into her?" Jeonghan ended up asking you if you were fine and you ended up bursting into a giggling mess.

"Yeah I'm fine Jeonghan. Mingyu here just tried to show me what it was like being tall. I wanted to know. But then he dropped me!" You gently punched Mingyu's chest as he proceeded to overreact and fall down dramatically himself, making both of you laugh.

"Oh well I'm glad you two are having fun but don't hurt each other. Well, make sure he doesnt hurt you. He's practically a tree" Jeonghan ended up walking back to the studio room and that was that. He didn't worry too much about it at the time. It didn't seem like anything really.

-

Days later you showed up to the dorms this time. You offered to make everyone a nice dinner and it warmed his heart that you cared for not only his but his members this much that you're willing to cook for them. He tried to warn you how much they eat but you kept insisting and insisting so he finally gave in.

You were enjoying your time in the kitchen. You seemed content and happy, he wanted nothing more than to walk up from behind you and kiss you. But no one knew about you too yet and he didn't want it to be tonight. Mostly because he didn't want the members being dramatic and teasing him about it.

He was playing a game with Joshua and Wonwoo when he heard you laughing which instinctively made his head turn towards your directions. Immediately he was a little uncomfortable. Seungcheol had his arms around you while you were trying to wiggle out of his grip. He was thanking you for cooking dinner but in a very Seungcheol-y way.

"Thank you y/n. You're so kind to us. You're obviously an angel!" He poked your cheeks as he smiled at you and this shouldn't be bothering Jeonghan but it was. It was really bothering him in fact. Seungcheol had his arms around you while you tried to wiggle out of his grip and tried to maneuver around the kitchen.

"Oooookay Seungcheol. I get it, you're grateful for the dinner but I can't cook with you attached to me like this now let go" With a sort of rough push he finally let go of you and Jeonghan smiled to himself because he was just glad he was off of you. Although he knew he shouldn't be bothered by Seungcheol’s actions, he just couldn't help it.

-

Jeonghan remembers clearly the day he had enough of the members flirting with you. Whether it was unconsciously or not he didnt wanna deal with it anymore. He was tired that day, the lack of sleep and exhaustion from practicing made him irritable. He was not going to act like the hulk or anything but small things annoyed him more than they should be.

You were sitting on the practice room couch, waiting patiently for him to finish so you and him could have dinner together. You would clap a bit whenever he and the members would finish a dance and you'd even tell everyone how good they were doing. It not only brighten his mood up but it seemed to be doing the same for the others. This is when he figured he was probably just stressed these past few days and that the 'flirting' he saw, was just him over reacting.

"Hey y/n, can you walk with me outside for a second" His head never snapped so fast towards a direction ever. He saw Soonyoung nervously grabbing his neck and shyly smiling at you. You looked at his eyes a bit wide and smiling gently, you were so dense, that's all he could think.

"Oh ye-" You weren't even able to finish your sentence when Jeonghan interrupted the situation.

"Soonyoung, were dating, just so you know!" Jeonghan was smiling at both you and Soonyoung. He didn't feel angry? He just felt annoyed and he didn't mind the stares everyone was giving him. He was admittedly upset that everytime you were around, others would flirt with you though. He stood up and leaned against Soonyoung, nudging him gently before plopping down grabbing your hand in his.

"O- oh, alright" Soonyoung was red in the face but smiling awkwardly and now Jeonghan was feeling bad about it. He embarrassed Soonyoung and he could feel how embarrassed you were too.

"Dramatic much" A pillow hit Jeonghan's face and that was the blow he needed to know that he was being dramatic. The other members were laughing at bit at him and he tried to settle them down by apologizing for being, well a dick in all honesty. At least he did not have to worry anymore about the members flirting with you.

"Jeonghan" Seungcheol pulled him to the side and pulled him close to whisper to him. "I bet twenty bucks that you two were dating and that you'd snap if someone confessed to y/n. Thanks for the win. I'm 100 bucks richer now..."

[happypledis]

“We met on Kakao...” ||Nu’est Ren Scenario

Characters: You x Nu’est’s Ren (sorry I just like the 1st person format, sue me)

Genre: Fluff bc that’s all I do lol

Summary: Your friend went to school with Minki. One day she tasks you with taking care of her phone while she’s gone, and he messages her.

Author’s note: I have little <> around the text conversations because it’s A. Marking the texts as texts and B. reminding you that it’s translated idk lol

So you moved to Korea about a year ago and have been working in a city outside Seoul

you and your coworker Sua are best friends, and you talk about everything together

you know that she used to be a trainee at a small company for a few years, but her contract expired and she never debuted

she’d gone to one of the high schools marketed to those who wanted to be celebrities, and happened to be friends with quite a few idols

 K-pop didn’t really interest you so you used to listen to her stories with a lot of confusion (you really trained that long??? who’s x again? and were they in your year?)

finally one day you come into work telling her about a group you saw after randomly turning on a music show that actually caught your attention

she nods at you

“Yup, Nu’est? Super talented! And sweet. I went to school with Ren, remember?”

you narrow your eyes at her bc you didn’t remember

she shakes her head and laughs

“Well, if you’re gonna look into them, let me know. I’m actually still friends with him! He’s so busy nowadays though...good for him but kinda sad for me”

as time passes you slowly find yourself understanding the K-pop craze

you love all five of these guys and they make you happy

it’s hard to admit to Sua though lol

one day, Sua and you go out for lunch on your break and she tells you she’s going to go order for you both

“if I get any notifications, would you mind answering them for me?? I’m expecting an important message on kakao”

you nod as she dashes off to order

wondering what kind of message she’s waiting on that she’d let you answer, you scoot her phone right next to you so you can answer it easily

the smell of the food distracts you until her phone chirps

you pick it up, and the screen reads:  Choi ㅁㄱ [MK]: <Hi~ it’s been a long time, right? I’m sorry Sua  ㅠㅠ>

you have no idea who that is and the person is speaking informally to her so it doesn’t look like a business thing like you expected???

 but she told you to answer, so you decide to

the chatroom is empty with no earlier chats in it to help you guess who they are, and they don’t have an avatar either

so you just hope for the best 

<Hi! I’m Sua’s friend from work and she told me to answer your message! She’ll be back in just a moment>

the person reads your message immediately but doesn’t respond back right away

Finally a message pops up again

<Oh... I see. I’ll wait for her then.>

shrugging, you type back <alright!>

a few seconds pass and you look up to check Sua’s progress

she’s standing in such a long line...

your stomach rumbles and a new message pops up

<Wait, are you the one in her profile picture?>

you’d forgotten about that photo, but respond back with <Um, yeah, I am.>

<I see> the MK person immediately messages back. <I’m asking because she’s told me about you.>

you stare at the phone. who even is this???

<Who are you? I don’t recognize your name.> you send back

<A friend from school.>

you stare are the phone again. 

what classmates had the family name Choi and the characters M and K in their name?

<Umm, I’m not sure who you’d be still.>

<She told me you know who I am. If it helps, I was a male classmate.>

what exactly is she telling these strangers about me?????? is this dude someone who actually became famous? or is she trying to set us up??

<Are you working in the same line of work as she tried to join?> you say this as discreetly as possible so that only someone who legitimately went to her school would be able to answer

<Yes. Like I said, I know for sure you know who I am...>

you sigh

 obviously it’s a celebrity of some kind, but Choi is literally one of the most common last names in Korea and who could expect you to keep all the Chois apart???

<Stumped, hm?>

<maybe> you admit back

<well then, would this jog your memory?> 

a little bunny emoji pops up on your screen

you stare at it. The only idol you know of that’s called a bunny by his fans is...

choi minki. Choi MK.

aka ren

Nu’est’s Ren

you bite your lip 

because you do not want to do something embarrassing like possibly squeal in this restaurant 

<I...um... are you possibly... that MK??>

he immediately sends back <Possibly. Are there really that many that you would get confused?>

you can’t believe. believe. this situation. 

<Are you really that person who made the shoulder gangster pose?>

<If you can’t tell by now, I think you can’t call yourself a Love.>

you bit your lip again and look up. Sua’s finally ordering. darn, you can’t ask her what to say or do.

I guess I’m in this alone

<Hey, I have a fan club membership that proves you otherwise> you send back.

ooh where did that come from?? you’re proud because your heart is beating kind of fast because you’re nervous

but still! you did well

<Will I see you at the next event, then?>

your lip is hurting now. <of course, if I can get a spot.>

<Maybe you’ll get lucky. I hope to see you there.>

this time a squeal nearly does escape you, but you stop it just in time

<I do too.>

The chat is quiet for another moment and suddenly Sua is back at the table

“Oh, he already messaged? Well, I gotta go to the bathroom, I’ll take over when I’m back. thank you!”

and then she’s gone

sua’s phone chimes again and you look down

<I’ll look for you. Since I’ve already seen you before, I wouldn’t forget your face.>

oh my word

your lip really hurts 

this. is. a. problem.

<Do you have a favorite member among us?>

<Oh. No, I don’t. I love you all equally!>

<That’s a shame, I was hoping it would be me.>

this time you really do let out a squeal 

heat floods your face as the people at the table near you look up, startled

you clamp a hand over your mouth before responding with: <Maybe seeing you guys in person will change my mind.>

<I’ve heard people usually fall for me.>

he sends a little emoticon of an animal sticking out its tongue

you snort. <they do not.>

<Then maybe you’ll start the trend?>

your eyes bug out. you had always known Ren was confident but you didn’t know he was flirty like this????

is this even flirting?? is it narcissistic to think that he’d flirt specially with you?? it’s just cause he’s getting a chance with a fan. any fan.

and since he’s an idol and you’re his fan... he’s expected to do this

but still, right now it’s you, so it feels special

<I guess we’ll have to see. Depends on if I get any fan service. It better be good--you’re competing against four other people...>

<Oh, of course. I’d really want to win you over.>

then he sends another message really quick: <unless I already have.>

you roll your eyes, smiling, and send an emoticon of a bear with a question mark over its head 

<I don’t know why you’d come to that conclusion.>

suddenly Sua is back at the table. “Hey! So, how did you have that long of a conversation with the manager of the department?? I looked back and saw you texting for a while. he’s so quiet. I’m honestly surprised!”

“The department manager?? But--”

suddenly a new chat pops up, and the ID reads “Department Manager Lee”: <Sua, I just got your report.>

you blink 

“I was uh... messaging... Re--uh, Minki. Your friend. You never said who would contact you and he started messaging you so it just... happened.” you avoid saying his stage name out loud because anyone could be listening????

she grabs her phone and her eyes skim through a few of the messages

“Well, looks pretty interesting to me...” she grins at you. 

you don't like the look on her face

“But I gotta message Manager Lee.”

“oh yeah yeah, go ahead!” you say. hopefully ren will understand where you disappeared to

the waiter starts coming your way, so you clear a spot for her to put down a plate while Sua deals with the manager

after a few bites, Sua smiles up at you. “Okay, I finished with that and just started reading your conversation with Minki.”

you swallow

“about that--”

“aHEM! he was flirting with you. did you notice???”

“I mean, I was wonderin--”

“and you were flirting back!”

you ignore that part. “doesn’t he talk that way to everyone??”

“he’s charming, yeah, but not flirty. and that’s different than the way he treats fans. I’m a fan too, of course I notice.”

“uhhh.” you shake your head. “I really don’t think there’s a difference”

“you were flirting too and you just ignored me when I said it. he’s single, by the way--”

“Stop! this is way too premature to think about dating. we just talked. once.”

she sighs. “true. but when I changed my profile picture to you, he messaged me and then asked who you were. so I think he was interested in you ever since then--”

“one. time. we have talked one time. It’s too early. stopppp!”

“fine. okay. I will.”

her phone chirps

“aHA! look!”

she slides it over to you and you see a message from him

<could you give me your ID then? Just so you can tell me if you earn a spot or not, and I’ll know to look for you.>

“Okay. Maybe you’re... right,” you say, while you type in your ID for him

immediately, your own phone chirps

your screen lights up with a little emoticon of a bunny

and you and Sua both squeal, not caring about the table next to you

[deer-tokki]

Cheongdam Keytchen episode 6 with Minho ☆ 181011

t/n: Please read with caution, not everything is translated word to word.

One person is someone who is inseparable from me - my friend, the other is I don't know well, but I heard they are an SM-fan. The guest who is my friend likes Korean food, so he is cooking Korean food (it seems chicken broth/soup). It's Minho's first time at Kibum's agit. Kibum got very excited looking at Minho's presents. He is screaming hahaha. They just showed Kibum's Instagram post where Minho is in a cart and Kibum is pushing him.

Kibum said he is sick of Minho, cause they have been together the whole day (when the shooting for this episode happened).

Minho: Hello, I am the real owner of Cheongdam Keytchen. I am SHINee's Minho. 

Minho said he watched the audition program of the second guest (i didn't catch his name ㅠㅠ). Second guest said he loves SM so much, he likes all the groups. He said he liked SHINee to the extend that he wore Reebok when SHINee was advertising them. They are eating the food right now. Minho said it's delicious.

Kibum said he trains once or twice before cooking. Kibum said at first he failed completely to make the dish, so practiced 2 more times for Minho. Kibum told Park-shi that he is the first person who talks more than himself. Kibum asked he should have entered SM he said he tried but couldn't but now that Mystic is with SM so it must be destiny. Park-shi is making both of them laugh. Minho and Key really likes him. Park-shi has performed together at SMTown in Japan. Minho said when Lee Soo Man told them that their team name was decided

It is SHINee, that moment is unforgettable. Park-shi said the girl he liked liked SM so he was curious why she liked SM so he went and bought album. Park-shi said SM's quality of songs is so different, so good. Park-shi said he doesn't release physical albums, only singles

Minho asked if there is more rice, and Kibum said there is and went to bring rice. Park-shi asked how Kibum manages his skin, also asked how they manage working out during schedule. Minho said his schedule in a day is working out, he works out then eats lunch and goes back to working out.

He started playing golf in the morning too. Park-shi was casted in USA but he lived there only for a year or two so he doesn't know how to speak English, just has the image of gyopo. Park-shi said he looks the best things in people first, but Kibum said he looks for bad things in the people first, and has been hurt a lot, so tries to keep away from people who make him feel not so good. Park-shi said he has many older friends.

Park-shi said he is close with Roy Kim. He was in the same entertainment with Roy Kim when they were in Superstar K. Roy Kim has bought Park-shi food for a year, and Seungri bought him food twice. Park-shi said he didn't dress very well so Seungri asked him why you always dress badly, and started taking care of him and sent him 5 million won and sent him long message telling him he will support him a lot and to keep doing what he is doing with confidence and to buy clothes with the money he sent. So Park-shi sent the money back to him.

Kibum: He (Minho) is always adored by older people, too. He is cute whit older people, but acts like the elder one when he is with same age or younger. I am the type who has to be with the people who match me well or I run away.

Minho: His (Key) friends are all people who match him well when Kibum says Ah they say Oh. I don't say Oh when he says Ah.

Kibum: Our codes match well.

Minho: I heard a rumor that I stole Kibum's peach.

They are showing the part where Kibum talked about that episode.

Minho: Peach is the fruit I like the best, the most, I even once almost fought with my brother. I don't even chew on it. But I brought peaches now even though they are out of season.

Kibum: it's not only about peach but he also ate like this (he showed how) so it really made me want to eat it.

Minho: It’s because I got flustered in front of peach.

Minho brought dinner set toy. Lol he even made Kibum to say he is excited. Minho wanted to bring something expensive but was worried that Key will nag again how it's entertainment show, etc.

Park-shi's favorite song is "Passport" Kibum said all his songs can be turned into movies, they have great scenario. They are listening to the song.

They are even showing the Music Video (it's a first).

Park-shi said he really wanted to sing for Yoon Jungshin's show and he did. Yoon Jungshin thought Park-shi can play guitar very well, but he only knew one song. The only song he knew on guitar was John Mayer's Start the Train.

Park-shi said during the encore stage for Superstar K his prompter was not working and to not show he forgot the lyrics he started crying. He said with the money he produced album, and opened a temple restaurant. Park-shi said he wants to survive, he wants to keep singing and have a comfortable life.

Park-shi: What kind of friends do you think you are, what kind of co-workers?

Kibum: At first I thought I wouldn't be friends with him if I saw him outside. He would have thought so.

Minho: When I first saw him I was so amazed, and we were so different, there was nothing similar with us. we would fight and when I wanted to make the fight better he would say "Why are you trying to make it better? Say what you need to say!" But as time went we became the most similar. So I am annoyed now that we get along.

Park-shi: Things you were mad at each other (sulky)

Minho: He is actually not that expressive. Key can't say thank you or sorry. I even asked him once if saying thank you was that hard? And he said yes.

Kibum: It was hard back then.

Minho: He would step on my feet then just make sound and then go so I thought if he was telling me to fight or something. But it was because he was shy.

Kibum: I felt like reading a script when saying thank you and sorry .

Park-shi: For me favourite songs: 3rd place View, 2nd Love Like Oxygen, 1st Replay

Minho: For me second place is Ring Ding Dong and Lucifer, because at that time everyone knew us for Ring Ding Dong. View was a turning point for us.

Kibum: 3rd Sherlock, 2nd Good Evening, 1st View.

Minho: View was a song like destiny for us. It was the song we all wanted to do and had our opinions reflected the most.

Park-shi: Moments you were thankful to each other.

Minho: For me thank you is a very precious word that I say to close people only. I am thankful that we became members, I am thankful for the members for changing me and making me into a good person. We influenced each other in a good way so I am very thankful.

Kibum: Minho knows me without words, he just looks at my face and knows it's even more awkward if we thank each other, because we are very close.

Park-shi: I am jealous cause you have this team, you guys are close, like a family.

Minho: We are a family, since we meet more with each other than our mom or dad.

Minho: I don't have anything hard right now, but it's a little stressful that the promotions with members are getting shorter. I never felt I was lonely but now I think that this feeling was actually loneliness. Now that I know I am lonely I am scared and don't know what to do when I feel lonely. Should I meet with people? But I can’t make people meet me just because I am lonely so it's hard.

Minho: I hope people will see more of Kibum's charms by seeing him talking with people and doing this show.

Kibum: Minho is someone I am thankful too and who will come always.

Some clarifications.

Kibum said Minho and him are like ping pong, they give and take (words) and get along well now.

Minho said now that the promotions with members are getting shorter and he has to work alone (shootings, etc) he is stressed. He never thought he felt lonely but now he knows all this time he was feeling loneliness. At that time it was okay since he didn’t know what he was feeling, but now that he knows he is lonely it’s scary. He doesn’t know what he has to do when he gets lonely.

Minho said during Ring Ding Dong even grandmas would recognize him saying that he is the boy who sings Ring Ding Dong. So even though Rind Ding Dong is not the sing that shows of SHINee musically or reflects their thoughts about music, it’s the song that made them known to public.

Minho said View was the song they found while they were looking for something that would express SHINee well, when they were searching for their sound and like destiny they found that song. Said they do meetings to decide what music to do.

Minho said he wondered how a person like Kibum exist when they first met, because there was nothing in common with them.

Episode 6

Translation: Enxrima

[xiueryn]

ahh, these questions seem pretty good!!! tagging @powerdragonmoon, @saijspellhart, @cheklmn, and anyone else that wants to do these (ง ื▿ ื)ว

- ̗̀ favourite food? ̖́- mmm, i probably have to say it’s still kimchi ramyeon!! it’s been my favourite for months and still going;;; i love it so so much

- ̗̀ favourite drink? ̖́- i’m really torn between saying white hot chocolate or chai tea with a bit of caramel syrup in it?? the white hot chocolate’s a treat that i barely ever have, but i also never have caramel syrup ㅠㅠ i mean, i can at work but that’s not really something i want??? i’m usually too busy to even have my drink before it’s lukewarm or cold there

- ̗̀ favourite clothing? ̖́- i’ve got this really cute white shirt with lace on the collar and a black ribbon tied onto it so i’ll never lose it by accident!!! i was so happy when i found it but... my breasts are too big so it kind of stretches over my chest? but i just work around that by wearing soemthing on top, like a dress or something ajsdgdh;;; i will not give it up

- ̗̀ favourite product? ̖́- does my phone case count? because i love it. i love that. it’s squishy and cute and the right shade of pink and i’m such a sucker for it. pls tell me it counts.

- ̗̀ favourite month? ̖́- february!!! it has my boyfriend’s birthday, valentine’s, then my birthday without two weeks so we always take it in turns to visit each other!!! my favourite time of the year for sure (*＞ｖ＜)ゞ*゜+

- ̗̀ favourite season? ̖́- winter!!! i always complain that it’s cold but i get the excuse to bundle up and wear an insane amount of layers without looking like a weirdo. also earmuffs. i love them. they are my loves.

- ̗̀ favourite holiday? ̖́- halloween (°◡°♡) the ridiculous movies that always come out? yes. i just really love the holiday and no one else i know irl seems to get excited about it!!!! i was gushing to my co-workers that i was so pumped for it and they all just looked at me weirdly like “what are you even doing” and when i said nothing the looks just got even worse

- ̗̀ favourite place? ̖́- does my bedroom count

- ̗̀ best experience? ̖́- idk i can’t pick between getting a new kitten (but that also made me cry a lot, so maybe not???) or idk. whenever i’m with my long-distance boyfriend??

- ̗̀ best song? ̖́- i’m going to say remember me by oh my girl because that song means so fucking much to me now??? i literally can not listen to it without full on crying or tearing up.

- ̗̀ best movie? ̖́- ahhh i finally watched train to busan this year, so that!!!

- ̗̀ best series? ̖́- idk i hate pretty much everything i watch

- ̗̀ best book? ̖́- haven’t read a book in years???? but there was a really cool time-travel fanfic i read a few months ago, but i can’t hecking find it again. i want it.

- ̗̀ best videogame? ̖́- considering i’ve mostly played sims 4, overwatch, and stardew valley this year, i’m just going to say overwatch??? it’s the one i play most often, i guess

- ̗̀ have you unlearned any bad habits? ̖́- idk??? for a while i kept saying shut up and i really hated that. so that’s gone.

- ̗̀ biggest disappointment? ̖́- ahhh i went to the making of harry potter and idk it was just... really boring?? everything sold was overpriced and horrendous to even get to in the first place;;; i definitely wouldn’t go again

- ̗̀ worst experience? ̖́- my cat, midnight, dying. he was my best friend and i was just... i was so used to doing everything with him?? he woke me up in the mornings, always walked around the house with me, and it was so jarring after he was gone??? and it was so sudden

- ̗̀ any new hobbies?  ̖́- idk i started baking again but it makes me sad so i don’t do it often

- ̗̀ did you achieve your goals for 2018? ̖́- i didn’t even set any goals so no!!!

- ̗̀ have you fulfilled a long-term wish? ̖́- idk i guess opening up ko-fi commissions?? i was actually so nervous when i did that and really didn’t think i’d get any???? and now look at me. still suffering and trying to do them (ง •̀_•́)ง

- ̗̀ have you tried something new this year? ̖́- does telling a waiter that my order’s wrong count because i’ve never done that any other time in my life

- ̗̀ what plans or wishes do you have for next year? ̖́- idk i just want to be happy

- ̗̀ what was the funniest moment? ̖́- reading “sensually touched his kneepit” will never be beaten. that’s it. for the rest of my life.

- ̗̀ what are you thankful for? ̖́- anyone that puts up my shit. thank u all. ur so kind.

[snaggle-chamsae]

Here | Sungwoon

genre: fluff?

member: sungwoon

requested: yess!

summary: you always choose to keep your problems to yourself until you met sungwoon, who changed your world. 

side note: thank you for requesting anon 💓 i’m really so sorry that i took so long to write this ㅠㅠ i don’t know if this is messy but i tried my best writing this so i’m praying hard that this meets your expectations!!

whenever you ask your friends the impression they have of you

“reliable, strong, positive, happy” are usually the answers that you heard 

but deep down in your heart, you know you’re nowhere near how your friends describe you 

in fact, you are the complete opposite

yes, in the past, you’re like what your friends describe 

you’re someone that does everything well 

when it comes to grades, you’re always at the top of the list 

even when it comes to school activities, you’re one of the black horses too 

at some point in time, you even got friends who get envious of you for being able to achieve so much in life 

even your parents

they expected so much from you 

just when everything seems to be happening the way you want life to be

just when you thought things are going well 

after working so hard and putting every blood and sweat into anything you do 

you thought you could finally breathe and say, “i’m doing good” 

but life doesn’t simply let you go like this 

just within a few months, your life changed and crumbled down 

for some reason, you started becoming more careless in your exams 

you could gradually see your rank drop in each term 

even when it comes to school activities, you gave your best but it is still isn’t the best

since you’re class president, you are expected to take care of everyone else well 

but the truth is

when everything started changing for the worse 

you felt so weak

you didn’t know what to do when everything changes 

all of your strengths became your weakness 

even your smiles

you smile not because you’re happy, but because you want to cover up 

cover the fact that you’re scared

you’re afraid of the reality 

you became a coward that didn’t want to face the reality 

when everything started falling into pieces

“things will get better” 

that phrase constantly appeared in your mind

you brought yourself to believe it but you know yourself well

as days pass, who are you lying to?

“things are never getting better” 

no matter how hard you try, you just couldn’t pull your grades up 

when you accepted your fate, you thought you should reach out for help 

maybe people will

but fate seems to enjoy seeing you suffer 

whenever you tried reaching out, no one seemed to be beside you 

it always feels like you are in a room with a glass dividing you and everyone else

“what do i do?” you asked

“everything will be fine, y/n! you’re y/n after all, nothing is impossible for you” your friends laughed

even when you wanted to someone to lean on, no one was there

when you turn to your parents, you know that isn’t a wise choice either

they noticed that your studies and school activities have gotten worse 

and as if it wasn’t enough, they compared you to your siblings 

whenever you hear your parents sing praises about your siblings

that pain in your heart is practically indescribable

it feels as though someone is rubbing salt onto your wounds 

“what about me?” you wondered 

as time pass, you started feeling smaller and less significant 

the pile of worries and problems continue to form in your heart 

that burden on your shoulders gradually got heavier 

while people’s expectations of you continued to rise 

and no matter how many nights you cried your eyes out, you know you still have to do this 

you know you still have to be the person that everyone knows, and not the real you 

with that, you carried on going to school as usual

continued carrying all those responsibilities on your shoulder as usual 

you thought you will never be able to see the light in your life ever again

until you met sungwoon 

sungwoon is one of your classmates 

and also the vice president of the class too 

since you guys work together most of the time, 

the both of you have a very close relationship together 

he is always around helping you with class activities 

even when you guys ended class late, sungwoon would offer you dinner 

and sometimes, to even send you home 

since it’s been such a long time that someone actually cared for you

you couldn’t suppress that fluttering feeling in your heart 

there is no one except sungwoon that would care about your feelings

even during those times where he walked you home, there are countless of things that you guys would talk about 

you enjoy his company

whenever sungwoon is around, you feel comfortable 

just within a few months, you feel like you’re about burst into space when sungwoon told you his real feelings for you

you could still remember the exact words that he said 

“i like you, y/n. can we get together?” sungwoon confessed 

you didn’t bother trying to hide that smile on your face

instead, you hug sungwoon in response 

just like that, you thought you finally could feel happy once again 

but with the reality hitting you, you got troubled all over again 

since midterm is coming soon, everyone started studying hard for their exams

your stress level rise once again, knowing that so many papers are coming up

and now that your grades have dropped, you know you have to study real hard 

besides that, you got reminded of all the expectations that your teachers, your parents have been giving 

instead of heading for dates, sungwoon and you would hang out at the library to study instead 

without wasting time, you buried yourself in your books and notes

on the first day, you got pretty lost

everything just feels so overwhelming

you studied a few chapters of chemistry here and there

you tried memorizing all those equations but only a few managed to get into your mind 

“i got a week to do this so it’s okay” you sighed for the thousandth time

but you are not too sure if you’re doing fine

sungwoon seemed to be studying well 

“i felt productive today, i studied almost 5 chapters today” sungwoon said as he stretches

to be honest, chemistry isn’t your best subject 

and because you’re weak in it, that made you worry more than usual 

you thought of asking sungwoon for help 

but you thought you would be slowing him down 

and drag him with you 

whenever you’re on your way home with him, you always contemplating to ask for help or not 

“to ask or not” you hesitated 

before you could make up your mind, another day is gone

and you’re just another day closer to your exam 

“maybe i should just try studying harder” you shut your eyes at the thought of your chemistry paper

strangely, those thoughts kept you up the whole night 

and even after all those tossing and turning, you’re still not getting sleepy 

you decided to get up and start studying at that ungodly hour even though you still got class the next morning

when you reached class, that’s when the sleepiness kicks in 

you know you got to listen in class but your eyes are not cooperating 

"don’t sleep in my class, y/n” you got embarrassed when your teacher called you out 

“is there anything happening? you seemed like you didn’t get any sleep” sungwoon approached you 

“nah, i’m fine, don’t worry” you gave a faint smile 

shortly after, it is break time and that is the period that you look forward to every day 

but probably because of all the stress, you didn’t want to move and have any food

“are you sure you don’t want to eat? what about drinks?” sungwoon offered

you shake your head and decided to look at your notes again 

“i have to study no matter what” you sighed 

and right after lessons, you continued studying with sungwoon 

after so many hours, you started getting frustrated at yourself for not being able to understand anything quickly 

even when you head home with sungwoon, you carried on looking at your notes

you thought by doing this, you would eventually understand everything 

but days have passed 

and you only managed to get a few lessons into your head 

what’s worse is that

your insomnia at night has gotten a lot worse

during your meals, you didn’t want to have anything 

you didn’t give yourself any breaks as well 

you just wanted to push yourself to the limit 

until a day where sungwoon stopped you 

“y/n, talk to me” he stood in front of you

you ignored sungwoon and continued walking past him 

“y/n, i know there is something going on, please tell me” 

“i’m really worried seeing you like this” this time round, sungwoon hold onto your shoulder and look into your eyes 

for some reason, you could feel tears forming in your eyes after hearing sungwoon

you looked away, blinking quickly, hoping that your tears would dry up 

“n-no, i’m fine, sungwoon” you remove his hands away 

“i have eyes, y/n. i know there’s something bothering you” 

“i’m your boyfriend, y/n. you can tell me anything that is bothering you” 

that is all to make you go soft

you lost it

all those tears that are threatening to fall, starting to pour out 

you crashed into sungwoon’s arms and cried 

“just let it all out, y/n” sungwoon said as you could feel his hand going up and down your back 

you have no idea how heavy your heart feels right now 

you know sungwoon’s shirt is probably wet right now 

but he still patiently waited for you to be okay

sungwoon brought you to a quiet place to calm you down

and he would even initiate hugs in between, knowing that you’re not okay

“i got so worried seeing you in this state, not eating well, not sleeping well and you’re constantly studying” 

“and i feel so terrible because i don’t know what’s happening and i couldn’t make you feel better” sungwoon apologized

“you know i’m always here, y/n”

hearing his words made you happy and sad at the same time

sad because you’re dragging sungwoon into your problems 

while happy because it’s been such a long time 

a long time where you had someone beside you, actually hearing everything you had to say 

“to be honest, everything is wrong. nothing has been going well and no matter how hard i tried, things are only getting worse” you sighed at the thought of everything that you been through

it is so draining 

and all it takes for you to cry again is sungwoon’s hug

from the day that you started dating him, you know he is the one

you know he is someone that you could lean on 

but because everyone else seemed so far away, you have forgotten the feeling of love

or to be exact, the feeling of being loved

looking at sungwoon now made you wonder what did you do to deserve him 

all you did in your life is mistakes and you could meet such a great man here 

“even when everyone else has turned their back against you, i will still be here for you, y/n. regardless, i promise” 

“i don’t care if it is 6 am in the morning, i will listen to each and every one of your problem, y/n.”

“since i’m your boyfriend, i promise to take care and be here with you” sungwoon assured you as he intertwined his fingers with yours