#yes I am writing post ftf fic

[thursdayinspace]

You know what really kills me about the hallway scene? That it's not them consciously and intentionally making the choice to act on this pull between them, but that it's their defences crumbling away. Their hearts have beaten themselves sore with longing and suppressed all-consuming love. And now she is trying to leave, but it hurts to even just stretch that bond between them. And he's confessing his feelings because she needs to know that his world makes no sense without her.

When she steps into that hug and closes her eyes, she's powerless against everything she feels for him. When she looks into his eyes, she's not offering him her heart, she's admitting that it's already his.

The look in his eyes, asking her if she really doesn't know? His soul is wide open, there is not a single protective wall in place. He doesn't have the strength. He's pleading, hurting, and completely and utterly hers.

They're powerless, helpless; weak and bruised and aching from keeping this secret straining against the confines of their hearts for so long. There's only one way forward that won't break them. And regardless of what happens next, they admit they want to take that step, enough to keep them from shattering.

It's the absolute anguish in the moments before they start leaning in for the kiss that makes it so overwhelming. They try so hard not to for years. But when it comes to walking away, their bodies and souls rebel so hard they can no longer pretend.

[monikafilefan]

20 Questions for Fanfic Writers

Tagged by @slippinmickeys <3

1. How many works do you have on A03?

75 (maybe one day I’ll reach 100?)

2. What’s your total A03 word count?

589,435

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Basically just txf fandom but I have dabbled in GoT, The Fall, and Sex Ed.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Five Years and a Lifetime

Only One Choice

All Eyes Lead to the Truth co-written

Together

Language of Love: Prompts of Angst and Romance

5. Do you respond to comments?

I absolutely do, just not every one of them. Unfortunately A03 counts author responses as comments and that bugs me, but I wholly appreciate any and all feedback!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Oh damn. Probably a chapter in my prompts collection called That Night in 2014 when Scully left, and one called Bone Deep set post Tithonus are angsty enough. I love writing angst, but prefer to leave my fic on less of a dreary note.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Ha it turns out I write a lot of fic with happier endings, but I guess Brother Bill ended very happily considering it was during the cancer arc. There’s plenty more I could’ve chosen though.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not that I know of.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what?

Yes, I mix it up. Lots of soft, sensual sex, but also some downright dirty smut too. Depends on the tone of the story.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I wrote one where Mulder and Scully go see Jean Milburn from Sex Education and have a therapy session. Coming Undone. It’s ridiculous and funny and was way too fun to write haha!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of but I hope not.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes but I can’t remember which one 🫣

13. Have you ever co-written before?

YES many times and I love it. I’ve written with several amazing writers @cultureisdarkbeer @admiralty-xfd @fridaysat9 @gaycrouton @slippinmickeys one several different fics.

14. What’s your all time fave ship?

MSR ofc! I do also love Jamie/Claire and Stella/Reed.

15. What WIP you want to finish?

I have this Unruhe fic that isn’t even that long but I cannot seem to fucking finish it for the life of me. I will eventually though.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Details? Creating a scene and capturing the characters as close to THEM as I possibly can comes easier to me than other things.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Probably dialogue and writing longer novel length fics.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I want to dive into the Outlander fandom very badly but I’m too scared to try Gaelic/accents and be happy with the outcome. Maybe one day.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

X-Files! I was just a wee 15yr old on my dialup desktop trying to write a post FTF fic on the original XF storyboards. I never did finish it past the second chapter.

20. Fave fics you’ve written?

I have a few I really love, but I am kind of hard on myself as a writer. I enjoy writing but can’t seem to reread my own stuff and come away beaming about it. The ones off the top of my head I’m proud and have not mentioned above of are A Life to Remember - an AU were Mulder and Scully are doctors and meet under interesting circumstances. Lots of UST, angst and family fluff as they flashback to their past on how they met.The Things They Say in the Dark is another one I love. It has angst, lots of hurt/comfort (not to mention Scully washing Mulder’s hair post Amor Fati) and serious yearning! Honestly love these two so feel free to check them out if you haven’t, I’d be blessed if you loved them too!

Tagging @today-in-fic and anyone else who wants to join in. This was fun!

[jordie-gvf]

i don’t know if you’re still looking for questions but i have a bunch for you.

why did you decide to start posting your writing?

what’s the best thing to come from this account?

how often do you daydream fic ideas?

what writing is your favorite and least favorite post here?

who’s lane are you in now? who’s lane were you in when you became a fan?

what other blogs inspire your writing? blog recommendations for other great fics?

do you feel like your ideas just come together as you write? for me i tend to start writing with one idea in mind and it always spirals into more.

rank all 3 albums and give us your favorite song from each of them?

thoughts on always there?

are you a fan of the jullet? thoughts on jake’s new haircut? THOUGHTS ON DANNY DYING HIS HIGHLIGHTS AWAY?

-🐛

p.s i’m sorry if my last ask was uncalled for or came off wrong. i woke up with the worst hangover before i realized what i did, i’m actually embarrassed now that i’ve read what i said. i ate a whole edible for the first time and it went ….. it went.. yeah.

thank you for the questions! sorry i didnt answer sooner, family dinner!

at least once every week i would sent my friend a very detailed fic and they kept telling me to post full fics, so i did.

2. the love. this is such a warm community and i do feel very accepted here. i love my nonnies like they are my children, even if they are older than me.

3. at least once every day. i think about things that i like, i had an idea for a carnival date this week, i just dont know which boy!

4. my favorite is kodak camera by me! my least favorite is innocence, also by me. to me, it felt very rushed. i did not like the way it came out at all.

5. i am a danny girl! my first lane was jake!

6. my favorite fanfic blogs are @gretavanlace @mywaykiszka @streamingcolors-gvf @daisyful-gvf @pennylanefics @jakekiszkasleftnutsack @sparrowofthedawnsworld and thats just a few!

7. yes! the way i start writing a full blown fic, i have the idea in my head and i try to base my writing off of how i think each boy would handle the situation.

8. okay, ftf is first, then tbagg, then aotpa. flower power and a change is gonna come are my favorites from ftf. tears of rain, light my love, and the barbarians are my favorite from tbagg. age of man, anthem, and the new day are my favorite from aotpa.

9. always there is a song i play whenever i feel like crying in the shower.

10. i LOVE the jullet. jakes new hair reminds me of lord farquaad but im sure ill grow to love it. danny is a giant bitch for getting rid of the highlights.