#yearofposivibes2024

[nakedanddismayed]

i don’t want to go to work, but my expectations are ground level. $0. i’ll play my games.

but it’s fun. the bartender performs a fake concert on stage to Akon’s Lonely. I watch the march madness games with the dj and bouncer. i order chilis to go. and then a group comes in- and their leader is obsessed w me. i make more on stage than i ever have in history. i sell one room just for fun. and am in bed at 1:30 for a full day of my other job tomorrow.

[nakedanddismayed]

feeling overwhelmed and full. had my performance review and my boss who pushes me told me how well i was doing and she passed onto our big boss that i deserve a promotion, raise, and bonus as big as they can get it. i’ve completely abandoned my degree field and am trying my hardest at something new and it’s scary and i don’t always know what im doing but i do work hard and im glad people are noticing UGH.

[nakedanddismayed]

my dog’s grooming app was moved up, and I had a lot of work to do. i found the coffee shop next door had secure wifi. the sky was gloomy and I got a pumpkin spice latte and a breakfast sammy. I was able to work on my invoices while listening to the baristas ask a baby how he wanted his coffee. the bit went on too long but i laughed the whole time. as soon as my last email was sent, I get the call my girl was done. sometimes the 5 star days are sleepers.

[nakedanddismayed]

i’m just so sure i’m exactly where i’m meant to be.

in this space, my job, my relationships with my friends and my partner. i’m getting off birth control to feel more connected to my body. im going to the gym in the mornings again. i’m consistently beating my goals at the club.

it’s all so thrilling.

and in one year i hope it will be even better.

[nakedanddismayed]

a 5 star day even though it feels undeserved.

i make myself an incredibly healthy breakfast, i do great work at my job, my boss tells me im amazing, i let my dog lead the way on a very long noon walk where i fully disconnect, i squeeze in a nap on the clock, i go to a new nail girl and laugh harder than i have in weeks, i pick up chick-fil-a, S & I talk about our days, and watch 3 episodes of my favorite show. my night dog walk is quiet and 65 degrees. something feels right.