#yeah im sick to my stomach fam

[yuordevil]

headbutts (@sierrasheep oc sivas)

[tiredtboy]

also maybe if i was visibly worse hed stop fucking. yknow what!! rant time.

ok so this mf vented to me almost every second lesson during the class we shared right? and thats fine!! we're friends!! i want to help! yeah, some of this probably needs to be left to yknow. his boyfriend. but still. hes obviously not saying everything. anyway. move on one day we are having a MUTUAL DISCUSSION about transgender shit. so i just sort of drop in like. i dont know if i'll ever transition i doubt i'll ever get to and everything feels kinda hopeless yknow. fucker looks at me, registers, then doesnt acknowledge it and just starts talking about how him and his bf are gonna move in together after he gets away from his fam and theyre going to transition together. so uh. thanks!!! thanks for not acknowledging a word i just said and then say exactly how youre going to solve our mutual issue, in a way that i will never be able to. i dont have a loving boyfriend whos family is supportive. i have no one. that hurt like i havent been able to see him the same way since that, it just felt cruel.

then another time, i guess he just fucking thinks theres nothing wrong in my life. which is where the thing im complaining about came from. hes going on about how this one girl kept like showing of her sh scars to him which was so bad because who just talks about such a triggering topic to people! then immediately starts talking about it to me about how hes in recovery for it and it was soo triggering and like. ok so i get your point but. you are just doing the exact same thing she was. i dont want to hear about this. it makes me want to go cut myself like its genuinely a good thing id stopped bringing razors to school at that point

also he outed me to his transphobic mum without my permission and acted like he'd done me a huge favour <3 because 'oh shes supportive as long as its not me' hoe what. what the fuck do you think i WANTED THAT???? now i have to desperately keep my parents away from ever interacting with his mum, because he got found out recently and i know people whos parents outed other kids as punishment for corrupting their special little girl.

so yeah rant over. apart from that we had a great friendship and his boyfriend is one of my best friends. but yknow. fuck him. some things are just a dealbreaker for me and i dont know why i let the outing thing specifically slide for a whole year. i just felt so sick to the stomach whenever i thought about it. i didnt want that. but ive never mentioned it and i cant fucking criticise him because then i might be responsible for him hurting himself and it might ruin my friendship with his boyfriend. yup.

also i just dont think he has boundaries in general because why are you telling me private things about your boyfriends dysphoria. you should not be telling me that. have you been telling other people anything ive ever mentioned??? it makes me feel sick.

is it shitty that my ex friend triggers me sooooo fucking much disclaimer he doesnt know we arent friends im just fucking mad at him about a few things that for me ruined an otherwise fine friendship that make me feel like a petty cunt

[cryinggameff]

Seventy-Two

Randi

I spent hours tossing and turning that night, and I knew why. I had been apart from Cayden for 3 days now, and i was starting to lose my mind. I got up out of the bed and decided to try and take a shower, hoping it would relax me, then got back in bed. The baby started doing all kinds of flips and tricks and I instinctively reached over to get Cayden’s attention because he loved feeling the baby move, he said it was the only time he got to connect with the baby, I carried it around all day. I sighed. But of course my hand came up empty.

I knew I had made a mistake leaving the house, but I was feeling so many things towards him, it was hard to lay next to him. clearly he hadn't hurt me on purpose but i couldn't get past the betrayal, and honestly insecurities i felt. I thought i was giving Cayden something he didn't have, his first child, something no one could take away. Now i just felt stupid and i wasn't sure i could handle another woman having a child with my husband. What was I supposed to do if Cayden really had another son? Would I leave him over that? Something that happened before I even knew him. That sounded unfair. I threw off the blankets in frustration. Just then the doorbell went off downstairs. I paused. My stomach knotted, i was pretty sure i knew who it was. Only one person came by at such odd times. I got myself off the bed and put my robe on to answer the door.

Cayden stood with his hands in his pockets, wearing a hoodie and sweatpants. I had talked to him on the phone a bit, he was checking on the baby, but i hadn't seen his face and had forgotten just how annoyingly attractive he was.

“What are you doing here? It’s 3 in the morning,” I pulled my robe closed. He stepped inside past me so i closed the door behind  him. He looked down at me.

“Pack yo shit Randi. We going home,” he said simply, looking at me seriously. I looked at him like he had lost his mind.

“Do you think you’re my dad now?”

“No. I’m your husband, and I’m taking you and my kid home one way or another. This is ridiculous. I can’t sleep because I’m worried, I know you not sleeping either, which ain’t good for the baby. Your friends ain’t gonna take care of you the way I do, I know they not about to rub your feet or help you in the mornings,” he said. I hated that he was right. The only reason I was surviving this pregnancy was because of him. I still had really rough mornings and he made me smoothies or juice, something I could stomach since my morning sickness refused to go away even so late into the pregnancy, he ran my baths and often carried me to them. I was spoiled. Plus he gave amazing foot rubs, or on my lower back, which was beyond sore right now.

“You can't just ignore all your problems and act like things are ok Cayden, even if i come home the problem still exists," i pointed out.

“I’m not ignoring it. I’m gonna be a man and sort it out, either way, but I need you by my side. Because I’m...terrified Randi,” he confessed. "This shit is as shocking to me as it is to you, and i have no idea what the fuck to do. Im a grown as man but im scared." My face softened and my heart broke. Cayden so rarely showed vulnerability that it meant a lot when he did.

"well so am i," i mumbled, wanting to cry again. He saw that and cupped my cheek. I closed my eyes. When i opened them his face was hovering over mine. He brushed his lips over mine and my body turned to jello. He kissed me so i kissed him back. His hand moved into my hair and he got a fistfull of it, tilting my head back. He kissed behind my ear and down my neck, stopping just before the spot i loved to have kissed. He pulled away and looked me dead in the eyes, his were dangerous, unpredictable and warning of trouble. That was Cayden, but that was also me. He took my hand in mine and started for the stairs with me in tow.

I wasn't sure what this was gonna help when he was hovering over me, kissing me and positioning himself with my entrance. He hiked my leg up, and pushed into me. I whimpered, at a loss for words as he moved in and out of me with slow, purposeful strokes. I always thought pregnancy would make sex awkward but Cayden always knew what he was doing and so far it hadn't been an issue. He had me on my side now, thrusting his hips from behind me, a really comfortable position for my bump and my back as well. His mouth was by my ear and his hand gripped my hip. He was grunting in my ear which honestly set me off and i felt myself peaking as he did.

He rolled over onto his back and brought me into his side". You gon bring yo ass home now?" he asked in my ear. I nodded like a fool. After that how could i not. He chuckled, bringing his hand to my bump.

"He's been really active today," i said, looking down at his hand on my stretched skin.

"He gets that from me. Gonna be a ball player," he smirked.

"Im gonna have my hands full i already know. I just hope he looks like you,"

That's how he convinced me, and the next morning i found myself in my bed at home, with him laying beside me. I was awake and he was sleeping with his arms around me. I was looking over at him just thinking. We had talked after our little distraction and Cayden had apologized to me for the drama this had caused. He also made it clear he had reached out to Keisha and they would be going to get a DNA test today actually but the results didn't change how he felt about me and our baby. Now i was just trying to make peace with the possible outcomes.

"You okay?" Cay asked, eyes still closed.

"I thought you were sleeping. Yeah im ok. Are you ok?" I asked. He opened his eyes and nodded. He looked at the clock on the bedside table.

"I have to go soon," he said, looking over at me. He was going to the doctor with Keisha to give samples for the paternity test. I nodded. He got up and took his ring off to get in the shower. I wasn't sure if i was supposed to go with him or just stay out of it, i felt awkward because he hadn't asked me to go. He paused. "You coming?" he asked.

"Do you want me there?" I sat up.

"I always want you there," he said. So i got up and went to shower with him. I wasn't sure where we stood or what all i was gonna do, but for now i was gonna stay by his side.

Cayden

I was scared shitless. I didn't know what the fuck was going on and what this meant. One minute i was having a baby with Randi, and the next i might have a 5 year old son. When i had reached out to Keisha i asked her if the kid was mine and she said it was possible. I was beyond pissed. Why would she not tell me that i might have a kid? I would have wanted to know. I would have helped her out and handled my shit.

Even worse than the fear though was the guilt i felt for throwing all this on Randi. She was 7 months pregnant and more vulnerable now than ever, and i wasn't sure she could handle this. She was beyond upset and i was afraid she resented me now. I was the one who wanted the baby and made her all these promises about how our life would be, now this. Last night she had told me it would kill her if someone else had my first child, and i wasn't sure what to do with that. She came home with me anyways but i was pretty sure her staying was dependent on the results. I couldn't help but think about how we had just started moving into the new house, even started working on the nursery.

She sat beside me at the doctor's office, one hand in mine and the other on her belly. I was glad she had agreed to come with me because she kept me calm. Keisha and her son were sitting across from us, waiting as well. The whole thing felt like a twisted maury episode and i was beyond uncomfortable but it was more awkward for Randi. She wouldn't say a word to Keisha or even look in her direction. After a few minutes a nurse came and called our names. I kissed Randi's hand before letting it go. "I'll see you in a lil bit," i said.

"I'll be here," she said with a small smile.

I gave a bunch of samples like blood and saliva, they even look some hair. The nurse said we wouldn't find out for a week, they had to take everything to a lab then they'd call us. So another week of this not knowing.

I had to go talk to Pat so i dropped Randi off at home then drove to the warehouse. Driving up to it i suddenly got a wave of memories from long before i met Randi. When Trey was still alive and i was doing drops or working on corners. In a way life was easier then, i didn't have any responsibilities, i just had to focus on me and my job, not 100 other niggas and what they doing. But it was sldo harder, i saw a lot when i was doing drops or working on corners. I lost a lot of friends, got shot for the first time. I thought i'd be doing this shit forever, and i was ok with it until SHE came into my life.

"So this it? You really out man?" Pat said, passing me the blunt he had lit.

"Me and Sean madea deal, so its done," i shrugged. "Im just getting my shit in order now."

"So what you gon be doing?" He asked.

"Imma get more involved in my legit businesses, be on some CEO shit. Im working with these nerdy niggas on this app right now and shit is pretty cool, and we bout to make soe mad coin to top it off."

"On some legal shit huh. I see you cuh."

"If you ever get sick of this shit i got you man," i shrugged.

"I appreciate that. You a real one. Eh let me know when that kid get here, i wanna see you on some fatherly shit," he laughed. I chuckled.

"Bet," i said.

After seeing Pat i called Ty so see where he was at. I hadn't told him about everything going on even though that was my nigga, this just felt like something i had to figure out privately first. The dude knew me like a brother though and he guessed something was up i guess from the way i was talking.

"You and miss attitude fighting again?" he asked.

"Nah, not that. Just some shit going on," i said,making a turn at the light.

"Yall gon be aight, i know that for a fact. Can't neither one of yall live without the other," he said.

"I hope you right fam," i said. I pulled into the parking lot. I was stopping by the store to pick up flowers and ice cream for Randi. "let me go in this store real quick. Imma catch you later." I hung up and got out the car.

When i got home Randi wasn't downstairs so i went up to the room to look for her. She was sleeping in the bed but she got up when i opened the door.

"My bad," i said, "I didn't know you were sleeping."

"It's ok," she said sitting up.

"I got you these, and ice cream too. Its downstairs," i handed her the flowers.

"They're beautiful" she smelled them.

"You're beautiful," i said, she laughed. "No seriously." I grabbed her chin affectionately. "You still love me right?" She nodded.

"Im always gonna love you Cayden," she said, which gave me hope. "even if we aren't together." That last part was like a knife to the heart.

Cole

Ty had agreed to move in with me after some persuading and well thought out arguments. He realized it was easier for him to commute than me because he didn’t work on a set schedule. I had to be at practice or games at strict times.

We were moving all his boxes in to the apartment. My place was really nice and spacious. It was a big apartment downtown and a few guys from the team lived in the building. Ty was coming in with a box when Devon walked by, in his way to his place down the hall.

“Ah shit! Is this the boyfriend?” He hollered, stopping in the doorway. I chuckled when I saw him and his huge grin.

“Yes. This is him. Ty, this my homie Devon,” i introduced them briefly.

“Cole hasn’t shut up about you moving in man,” Devon said. Ty grinned, feeling himself. I rolled my eyes.

"I said it once," i said, opening a box that was on the floor.

"He's a clingy nigga," Tyga said, "But i like it."

"Whatever," i said, walking to the door to leave and get more stuff. I was the clingy person in our relationship though. Ty was a bit more withdrawn, but it worked.

Devon left after a while and it was just us again. I was opening a box when i started thinking about the fact that i never thought this would work with me and him.

"You know, we never would have gotten back together if you hadn't almost died," i pointed out. He paused for a long time, thinking back to that time. "Sorry, i didn't mean to make you think about all that,"i said quickly, realising.

"It's ok. I guess you right. It took a coma and almost dying for me to fully accept myself and my feelings for you. Guess my mama was right, i am hardheaded." We both laughed. After a few minutes i asked,

"Do you still think about it?" i asked. I meant getting shot.

"Sometimes, randomly. Not like actually getting shot but mostly about being knocked out for so long," He said, unwrapping something.

"What was it like?"

"I don't exactly remember. I just remember wanting to wake up, to get up, and i coudn't. That...was pretty scary. Sometimes i be having dreams about that, wanting to move but i can't," he said quietly. I stopped what i was doing to really look at him. Vulnerable Ty was so rare.

"That sounds scary," i said. "I have bad dreams sometimes to. That you didn't make it. But not so much anymore," i explained. He nodded. We continued packing and that was that. That little conversation was a lot for us though.

After some unpacking we ordered food and ate it like animals. We hadn't eaten since breakfast and it was 5pm now.

"So you staying here tonight?" i asked. I knew he had a lot of work to do because things were busy now. Cayden was getting out and Sean was taking over so people were in a bit of panic. He was helping Cayden sort things out.

"Nah. I gotta go back. Imma be here tomorrow though," he said. I nodded.

"Ok. I guess i can start putting some of your  stuff away, if you don't mind," i offered.

"Awe, how sweet," he teased. I scowled.

"Put away your own shit then," i said, turning to leave. He grabbed my arm.

"Nah but forreal that would be lit, you know im bad at being organized and shit."

"Oh i know, ive slept at your place," i said. He gave me a mug and i howled. "Im playing," i pulled him closer by the arm to kiss him.

"I gotta get going soon," he said. I nodded.

"Do your thing. I have practice in a few hours anyways," i said. I wasn't really phased by his coming and going because i understood that was the job, and we generally weren't attached at the hip. I think it worked because we both had our own thing going. But not gonna lie it was nice to come home to someone at the end of the day and now we'd be doing that more.

"I'll see you tomorrow night," he said. He paused. "I love you," he said. I grinned.

"Bruh you soft," i said. His face dropped and i laughed. "I love you too," i kissed him one last time.

[lunas-treehouse]

listing my medical issues for fun and cause i need to remind myself i’m not invincible and shouldnt be taking every risk i can

 nose bleeds that go on for hours when ive either blowed my nose a lil much or the airs too dry

vomiting and headaches caused by stress that i cant identify. my working theory is its just any hightened emotion or overstimulation

common heacaches and neck pain from no where. they get so bad i cant do anything but lay in bed and cry a little

back pain if i walk for just a lil too long [which sucks cause i love to walk]

i have to constantly crack my knuckles and neck or else i feel bleck

i genuenly cant sleep unless im super tired or im not feeling well

i mean theres the soft fucked up teeth [i have braces rn. thanks  bio dad for the genetics]

periods to heavy with cramps so bad i cannot move and i do a silent scream worthy of a fucking emmy [that could be my ego talking but]

speed round for disorders! : anxiety , ADHD , autism , tics from said anxiety. [these arent rlly BAD things but they arent exactly helping especially with that bleeding. as if sensory issues didnt make periods hell ENOUGH right? and oh my god my anxiety hyperfocusing on my nose being sure i dont nudge it the wrong way holy shit]

i have anemia and had to get a request to get iron infusions [i cant absob iron thru food or meds its really inconvinient tbh]

i have such a sensative stomach i cant have a lot of meat along with heavy red sauce stuff , a lot of spicy food , i have a limit on how much dairy i can have  and so on. i take meds for this

i also take meds for vitimin deficiencies so thats annoying

my fam and i had to get the vaccine as soon as possible along with boosters cause im at high risk. [except for bio dad and the kids he has custudy over. yeah thanks for that , dumbass. hes more fussy about himself being sick for a short while after than for my own saftey cause im at risk.]

okay just as a note this isnt me saing i have it worse than u. i think shit like that is stupid and just screams middle school bullshit.

also i dont want or need sympathy i just have this to remind my dumb self that im not a god and that i am very fucked and need to take this shit more seriously. “they why is it online?” i like to type more than i like to write and if i put this in fuckin word on my computer then i would forget it existed so-

[shiny-the-strange-writes]

the interview

wanna lose a few brain cells??? here you go

unfortunately for @jhaskii @youriko-is-my-jam @minichen123 and @bearsketches

Kanan lay on the fucking ground, moaning like some emo cowboy. “Yeehaaaaaw…”

“Fam what’s up” said You, walking over and pulling her gf off the floor into her toned arms covered in Coppertone™

“I want another gf”

“bitch tf are me and Riko not good enough”

“Y’all are great!! Idk man I just feel like we need a fourth person you know”

“oh mood” said Riko from the other room, pausing her piano cover of All About That Bass and heelie-ing into the room.

Yo-yo shrugged and said “ok that’s fair let’s find another gf” before going on the computer and opening Roblox.

“Dude why are you playing roblox” said Riko, rubbing Yo Momma’s shoulders with more Coppertone™

“I’m catfishing”

“bro everyone on there’s like 12”

“ya but that’s how I found you and Kanan”

“tru but it’s also how you had a bunch of 12-year-olds show up at our house in the meantime”

“tru”

Kanan shook her head. “smh”

“ya well do you have any better ideas” asked Yo-gi Bear

“Watch n learn pardner” said Kanan, pushing her gfs aside and firing up Minecraft. She entered the Roblox Fans on Minecraft server and zeroed in on some thot named diamondminer6969 who clipped through a giant yugioh card to avoid 12 creepers

“wow they are so hot” said Riko, heart going doki doki

“they’ve clipped into my heart” said Yoga

“okokok here I go.” Kanny whispered to diamondminer6969 and said “yo I’m gonna interview you now”

“k”

“do u like girls and aren’t some cis straight white guy”

“hell ya”

“how old r u”

“420”

“boi you’re PERFECT, come fight me irl”

“no u come fight me irl”

“where”

“666 robloxfucker lane”

“it’s a date fam”

~~~~~~~~~

Kanan showed up to 666 robloxfucker lane in her Barbie™ convertible dressed in her yellow crocs and sexy green overalls and Gucchi coat and walked into the wide open door.

“yo diamondminer6969 I’m here show yourself” the room was totally empty save for a bar, a stool, and a giant poster of Shrek lovingly holding a Minion while Michael Cera looked on while eating a Snickles™

Diamondminer6969 backflipped into the room and landed, doing a sick dab but falling on her ass directly afterwards. What a fucking twink. “ouch”

“dude wtf is with your looks”

“I look fine thot, YOU look like you’ve just been shat out of Pennywise’s ass”

“says the one wearing Uggs™ and a tux and a bright pink skirt and fishnets”

“bitch you wanna go??”

“yea thot I came to fight irl so let’s fight irl” Kanan nae nae’d backwards then charged headfirst into diamondminer6969, slamming both into the bar and knocking her out

“bitch” whispered diamondminer6969 just before she passed out

“fuck yeah now I can rob the place”

Kanan turned the entire place up side down but screamed the fuck word when she could only find a broken nendoroid of Kanan Matsuura and a body pillow of Riko Sakurauchi and a Yoda Watanabe bedspread from Love Live! Sunshine!!™

“dude this sucks” she said. She was abt to storm out when she tripped over a laptop covered in Steven Universe and Rick and Morty stickers. She opened it up and immediately closed it when a League of Legends loading screen popped up. “nvm this laptop is trash”

“no ur trash” came a voice from the kitchen

“bitch you wanna go again??”

“nonono I wanna make a truce” said diamondminer6969 “oh btw my real name is Yohane”

“Yohane you just called me trash y u wanna make a truce”

“bc I can. I’ll make you a drink”

“yeah but if you poison it I’ll haunt your ass in the afterlife by making you lose ranked games in LoL while you sleep and then replace it with DOTA 2 files”

“you better fucking not” Yohane grimaced and flopped over the counter and threw a ton of cough syrup and Mystery Juice together and threw a tiny umbrella with the eyes emoji all over it in and slid the drink over

“dude wtf is this”

“pina colada”

“nice” said kanan, drinking it up in one swig

“oh btw there’s alcohol in it”

“alcohol??” kanan’s stomach suddenly hurt like she’d just been dunked on by a skeleton.

“Oh shit it’s Sans Undertale!!”

“no you Fool it’s the underage drinking police”

“yeah well im underage and they haven’t killed me yet”

“dude I thought you said you were 420”

“I lied. I deceived you. I catfished you”

“you’re gross” said kanan, whipping Yohane with her ponytail “blease marry me and my gfs”

“cool fam we can be gremlins and catfish on Minecraft together”

“YEAH”

~~~~~~

“HEY RIKO! YOGURT! WE GOT A NEW GF”

Riko and Yoko Ono stopped making out in front of 12 years olds on Omegle and looked at Yohane like two girls staring at an absolute SNACK and tackled them to the floor and had a 4way makeout sesh

The end

[crvcio]

85 Questions Tag Game

I was tagged by @tedslupin thanks so much! xx 

rules: answer these 85 questions and tag 20 people

tagging: @malfoymaxima @draccomallfoy @malfoyxsx @parselmouthingoff @engorgio @dearlovegood @susanbone @jilyss @unsqeakable @ginniewheezie @gothicmalfoy @horaceslughorn @azkabqn​ @burkesandborgin​ @ptterharrys​ @gryffindvor​ @gryffindorkx​ @1959black​ @bottomkirk (if you’ve already done this, don’t want to, or don’t do tag games, feel free to come to my house and punch me in the face honestly ill be totally fine with it)

THE LAST

1. drink: water 2. phone call: my mom 3. text message: my mom 4. song you listened to: cruel world by active child  5. time you cried: yesterday, really difficult homework assignment had me freaking out. apparently i wasnt the only person in my class to cry over it lol!

HAVE YOU EVER 6. dated someone twice: only if fwb counts? 7. kissed someone and regretted it: yep 8. been cheated on: not as far as i know 9. lost someone special: to death? not really, but in other ways yes 10. been depressed: yep im in a good place but it happens sometimes 11. gotten drunk and thrown up: nah fam im sober

3 FAVOURITE COLOURS 12. black 13. blue 14. purple

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 15. made new friends: yep! lots of the lovely people on here included :) 16. fallen out of love: wasnt in it to begin with! 17. laughed until you cried: yeah not too long ago because of a dumbass inflatable alien haha 18. found out someone was talking about you: yeah, sort of, had some nasty coworkers 19. met someone who changed you: aforementioned nasty coworkers changed how much i trust people, but nothing super significant 20. found out who your friends are: in little ways, but for the most part i was already pretty confident where people fell in my life. 21. kissed someone on your facebook list: haven’t kissed in the last year at all!

GENERAL 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life: the vast majority 23. do you have any pets: cat named moose, dog named crusher 24. do you want to change your name: i already have once legally (my last name), and i use different first names in various places for trans reasons but i dont think ill legally change my first name 25. what did you do for your last birthday: took a trip to DC, got horribly sick, threw up everywhere. good times haha! honestly it was still really nice. 26. what time did you wake up: 8am, i usually get up a bit later but i had a dentist appointment 27. what were you doing at midnight last night: reading fanfiction... whoops 28. name something you can’t wait for: my phone interview to work for disney tomorrow! 29. when was the last time you saw your mom: literally like a minute ago, she’s on my couch rn 31. what are you listening to right now: world princess pt II by grimes 32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: probably but i cant think of anyone i know named tom 33. something that is getting on your nerves: homework  34. most visited website: tumblr, tied with my email probably 35. hair colour: brown 36. long or short hair: really long, i dont cut it. 37. do you have a crush on someone: only celebrity crushes ha 38. what do you like about yourself: my adaptability 39. want any piercings: i might get a fourth on my left ear, but otherwise im happy with the ones i have 40. blood type: o-, universal donor 41. nickname: in a way, j.d. is a nickname 42. relationship status: single af lol 43. zodiac: saggitarius 44. pronouns: he/she/they 45. favourite tv show: person of interest 46. tattoos: nope 47. right or left handed: right 48. surgery: had dental surgery done twice. it’s not so bad. 49. piercing: 1 on right ear, 3 on left ear (all on the lobe) 50. sport: basketball, but i rarely play. im not very sporty 51. vacation: been dying to go to peru someday! 52. pair of trainers: one? 

MORE GENERAL 53. eating: nothing but im hoping i can bug my mom to make cinnamon rolls for us 54. drinking: water 55. i’m about to: finish my paper due thursday... but really im gonna write fanfic cause im trash 56. waiting for: my mom to wake up so i can bug her about the cinnamon rolls ha 57. want: cinnamon rolls. also world peace. 58. get married: ha, it’s gonna be a while before that. but i hope to someday. 59. career: educational psychologist, what im getting my degree in. or musician, if it works out lol.

WHICH IS BETTER 60. hugs or kisses: kisses 61. lips or eyes: eyes? 62. shorter or taller: shorter i guess? im open minded 63. older or younger: considering im 18, im not going to go much younger 64. nice arms or nice stomach: idk stomach? 65. hook up or relationship: relationship  66. troublemaker or hesitant: i guess troublemaker. but there are limits

HAVE YOU EVER II 67. kissed a stranger: no 68. drank hard liquor: yes 69. lost glasses/contact lenses: yes, temporarily 70. turned someone down: yes 71. sex on the first date: technically no 72. broken someone’s heart: yep 73. had your heart broken: yep 74. been arrested: no 75. cried when someone died: yes 76. fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN 77. yourself: yes 78. miracles: small ones, but not like crazy stuff 79. love at first sight: infatuation, sure, but not real love 80. santa claus: no?  81. kiss on the first date: sure idgaf 82. angels: angels are real have you seen tom felton

OTHER 83. current best friend’s name: dont really have a best friend but my closest friend is ezra :) 84. eye colour: green 85. favorite movie: all that jazz

[spin-me-a-tapestry]

85 question game

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag twenty people

tagged by @dasfreefree

the last

drink: water

phone call: a work call lol

text message: (to my friendo kelsey) “aahhhh omg i totally forgot lolol ill do it tonighy”

song you listened to: Do I Wanna Know? by The Arctic Monkeys

time you cried: *katya voice* i havent felt emotion since the accident (jk it was yesterday lolol)

dated someone twice: never lolol

kissed someone and regretted it: back in junior year of high school when i had to kiss someone on stage for the musical lolol

been cheated on: never

lost someone special: i guess when my grandma died which was 3 years ago now

been depressed: right now lololol

gotten drunk and thrown up: back in junior year of college i did a performance art piece for one of my classes where i filmed myself taking a shot of vodka roughly every minute for a half hour (i ended up consuming like 19 shots)

three favourite colours

baby blue

forest green

baby pink

in the last year have you

made new friends: hhmmmm idk??  ive def met new people

fallen out of love: idt ive ever been in love so uuhh no

laughed until you cried: prob this past weekend

found out someone was talking about you: idk im always paranoid about other people talking about me tho

met someone who changed you: not really

found out who your friends are: i guess??

kissed someone on your facebook list: nope

general

how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? basically everyone

do you have any pets? yep! a kitty

do you want to change your name? not really, i cant really picture myself with any other name tbh

what did you do for your last birthday? my friend took me out to brickwall tavern and i had a really good chicken pot pie

what time did you wake up? for work i have to get up at like 6 or 6:30 but when im not working it depends on how late i stayed up the previous night lolol

what were you doing at midnight last night? sleeping

name something you can’t wait for: to move the fuck ooouuutttt and also to have enough money to go on a trip somewhere ive been dying to travel

when was the last time you saw your mum: last night cause uuhhh i live at home still :’)

what are you listening to right now? the sound of my own typing

have you ever talked to a person named tom? yeh!!  i was friends with a guy named tom in college and we had a lot of studio classes together but i havent talked to him in a while

something that is getting on your nerves: work related things

most visited website: its between tumblr youtube and facebook i kinda just check those three on an endless loop all the time

hair colour: blonde but im trying to grow the color out so my natural colors coming through (its like a light brown)

long or short hair: suuuuuuuper long i havent gotten a haircut in like a year

do you have a crush on someone? yeh sort of

what do you like about yourself? im smart and funny and actually have some common sense B) B) B)

piercings: just one on each ear

blood type: omg i used to know this and i forgot but i think im AB something

nickname: ernie B)

zodiac: capricorn

pronouns: she/her

favourite tv show(s): Rupauls Drag Race, Steven Universe, Legion, Chewing Gum, Bob’s Burgers, Louie, Black Mirror, Face Off

tattoos: none but i want one sooo baaaddd

right or left handed: left!

surgery: got my wisdom teeth removed and got a mole excised but thats it

sport: played basketball for 2 weeks in the 1st grade lololol

vacation: last time i went on a legit vacation was last year to Cape Cod with the fam

pair of trainers: sketchers B)

more general

eating: nothing right now but i just had a panera sandwich & chips & a cookie for lunch

drinking: water

i’m about to: avoid doing more work for the next like 10 minutes

waiting for: this day to be over so i can go home and sleep

want: to go to the beach again before summers over but the weathers been so crappy

get married: i honestly dont want to???  like if i settle down with someone and they wanna get married i would but if they didnt id be cool with that too

career: just trying to make money and pay my bills tbh i havent done what i actually enjoy doing (art) in months

which is better?

hugs or kisses: ive never been kissed before but i think id enjoy kisses more tbh

lips or eyes: waahhh this is a hard one!!!  uuhhhh eyes

shorter or taller: taller

older or younger: older or same age

nice arms or nice stomach: both please (but nice arms is always gud)

hookup or relationship: relationship!

troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant but its my secret fantasy to be a troublemaker rebel lil shit who doesnt care about anything and like has millions of piercings and a shaved head and wears leather jackets all the time u feel me

have you ever

kissed a stranger: nope!

drank hard liquor: thats literally all i drink lolol

lose glasses/contact lenses: i lost my glasses multiple times as a child my parents were not happy with me

turned someone down: yeah a few times and i honestly regret it but im such a nervous anxiety-ridden lil shit its a vicious cycle

sex on the first date: prob not i would get nervous just kissing someone on the first date

had your heart broken: oh yeah

been arrested: nope!  just pulled over a couple times

cried when someone died: yes

fallen for a friend: hehehehehehehehehehehehehe

do you believe in

yourself: recently not really but im trying

miracles: not really??  its nice to think that miracles do happen but im not spiritual/religious enough to fully believe in them

love at first sight: hell no its a lie

santa claus: i mean who else gives me sick presents certainly not my parents who eerily have the same exact handwriting as santa claus

kiss on the first date: never been kissed never kissed anyone so no

angels: idk about this one cause i like to think that somehow family members who have died are looking out for me???  but again my atheist ass finds it hard to believe

other

eye colour: green!

favourite movie: u cant ask me this do u know how many movies ive seen i cant even count all my fave movies on both my hands

idfk who else to tag cause all the people i know have already been tagged so if u see this and u follow me DO IT IF U HAVENT ALREADY DONE IT!!!!!!!

[einstienette]

ninety-two questions tag

I was tagged by @obsidianstudy (i saw urs and was interested)

Rules: Answer the 92 questions and tag other people

LAST 01 Drink: Snapple fruit punch

02 Phone call: Mom

03 Text message: ‘yeah’

04 Song you listened to: ’When I Was Your Man’- Bruno Mars

05 Last time you cried: maybe a week ago idk  i’m a very emotional person

HAVE YOU 01 Dated someone twice: no

02 Kissed someone and regretted it: no

03 Been cheated on: no

04 Lost someone special: yes?

05 Been depressed: yes

06 Gotten drunk and gotten sick: no

LIST THREE FAVOURITE COLOURS 01 Peach

02 Gold

03 White

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU 01 Made new friends: Yeah boi

02 Fallen out of love: no

03 Laughed until you cried: YES

04 Found out someone was talking about you: Haha YES

05 Met someone who changed you: Yes

06 Found out who your friends are: yes

07 kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes

GENERAL

01 How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: majority of them lmao some of them just add me to add me even though i talked to them once

02 Do you have any pets: my cat, romelie

03 Do you want to change your name: nah but i used to cuz I have a hyphen and nobody ever got it right :)

04 What did you do for your last birthday: just spent it with my fam

05 What time did you wake up: like 9am? Took a nap and woke up at 11am.

06 What were you doing at midnight: rick and morty marathon

07 Name something you can’t wait for: rick and morty season 3, riverdale season 2, and college

08 When was the last time you saw your mom: two hours ago

09 What is one thing you would change in your life: not have such strict parents lol or maybe gain a sense of direction (i get lost very very easily its sad)

10 What are you listening to right now: the slow, soft hum of my pc

11 Have you ever talked to a person named tom: nope

12 Something that’s getting on your nerves: not seeing my bf

13 Most visited websites: tumblr definitely

INFO ABOUT ME 01 Moles: a few on my arms and legs

02 Childhood dream: a doctor but i get freaked out at organs and blood so imagine lmao

03 Hair color: Black

04 long hair or short hair: my hair is long but i wanna cut it short again (i think it looks cuter??)

05 Do you have a crush on someone: ya my bf lol

06 What do you like about yourself: my big eyes i guess? they so big and brown

07 Piercings: only the standard ear piercing everyone has lol

08 Blood type: O-

09 Nickname: liz/lizzy/lizard/eliza(ham fans know this one)

10 Relationship status: in a relationship

11 Zodiac: gemini

12 Pronouns: she/her

13 Favorite tv show: riverdale!!!

14 Tattoos: none

15 Right handed or left handed: right handed

16 Have you ever had surgery: ya

17 Sport: none? im not athletic ;-; i do like swimming tho

18 Vacation: somewhere with a pool or a beach, its sunny and nice and u can take cool pictures and show ur friends

19 Favorite pair of trainers: idk really, i like Nike tho?

MORE GENERAL 01 Eating: nothing really

02 Drinking: nothing either (i need water rn tho)

03 What i’m about to do: finish this up and get some food

04 Waiting for: college to start

05 Want: college tuition covered, like 200 followers (im at 160 yo), avocado toast with egg and tomato, and some toned thighs

06 Do you want to get married: yessir

07 Career: college student idk

WHICH IS BETTER 01 Hugs or kisses: kisses

02 Lips or eyes: eyes

03 Shorter or taller: taller

04 Older or younger: older

05 Nice arms or nice stomach: i lov people’s tummies, all tummies are nice tummies

06 Sensitive or loud: sensitive

07 hook up or relationship: relationship

08 troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker

HAVE YOU EVER 01 Kissed a stranger: no

02 Drank hard liquor: no

03 Lost glasses/contacts: yes

04 Turned someone down: no

05 Sex on the first date: no

06 Cried when someone died: yes

07 Fallen for a friend: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN 01 Yourself: i want to say yes bc i do cool stuff sometimes lol

02 Miracles: yes

03 Love at first sight: yes/no? i think if u like the person upon first meeting, get to know them a bit more before you start calling them ur bf/gf or something

04 Santa claus: No :/ i stopped when i turned 13 (i found out the sad truth on my sister’s amazon purchases LMAO)

05 Kiss on the first date: yes/no? (depends if i knew the person beforehand for like a few months or a year or something. if it’s the first time meeting then no)

06 Aliens: yes

OTHER 01 Current best friend name: miguel

02 Eye colour: brown as heck

03 Favourite movie: hidden figures, wonder woman, clueless, and heathers

PEOPLE I TAG: @psyduckstudies @alexander-homilton @studyign

and anyone else who wants to do it, just say i tagged u. this was fun!!

[ikkanrana]

So I'm confused, I thought you adopted the cat who hid under your bed a lot, or were you just fostering him for a while?

we were set on adopting him and took him in as planned.

everything was shady from the start as they more or less just dumped the poor cat here and left didnt even come up to the apartment they literally waited by the car and just asked us to return the travel cage before they left… and i was like im not gonna pull him out of there never in my life (my thought was that theyd borrow us the cage to begin with and that we would return it next time we saw the contact person like some vet clinic lets you do but noooppee they wanted it back before they left and it wasnt even the contact person who left him :)) )

so no one did any background check on us or checked out how we lived or nothing i mean we could have been living in a landfill as far as they know but they just dumped him on us and we never got any veterinary journals or ID documents from the shelter who literally ignored our calls for a month begging to get his papers so we could see what his health problems were and what kind of vaccines he’s gotten etc etc

like i was scared of feeding him the acana dry food at first because the add stated that he had bad teeth that were still under treatment (which we kept asking about and CLEARLY stating that we can not sign an insurance with any company yet since dental issues arent covered by all and is EXPENSIVE as shit so we need to know exactly what is up with him to be able to sign anything obviously… but they literally ignored us for a month even tho theyve said that ~if theres everything dont hesitate to call whenever we’re here for u~ like lmao professional etc etc and it went so far i contacted them on the official site and asked for the contact person and the cats papers because we were worried obviously that he was in any sort of pain because of the “oh he’s still under treatment” they left us with

so we were scared to death because obviously we need to know so we dont make anything worse for the cat??? because he’s the one paying for it the the end and we were apparently his second home because the other family couldnt keep him either and i dont trust anything the shelter has told us about the previous fam tbh i think they did the same thing there and just dumped him on them

anyhow as time went by more and more strange things regarding his health popped up while the contact person avoided talking to us and only sent us a passive aggressive text when we asked if he even was castrated and why he was tattooed in the ear and not chipped (which is standard nowadays) and also that he had begin to scratch himself A LOT and pee indoors and that we STILL DIDNT KNOW what was going on with his teeth which is… you know…. sorta super important (i fed him ground beef now and then both for his stomach and for his mouths sake but he did eat the dry feed normally without any spills or half chewed pieces so he didnt seem to be unable to eat but thats just MY observations still have no vet documents or nothing)

and she just texted that she hadnt got the papers from the previous home yet and blah blah blah and he was indeed castrated and vaccinated and blah blah blah she basically got angry cause we doubted her (mind you this is over a month after he arrived and they havent checked up on him or even attempted to contact us back)then she told us some of his teeth had been pulled because he had been ran over (which were news to us) and that the treatment he had been under was for a potential skin disease and we were like??????????????????????? what the fuck do you mean skin disease he’s been here for a month and since day one i was worried because he was scratching himself a lot and very intensely and was losing a lotof fur and now you might have dropped a mange ridden cat on us without saying anything and then she stopped answering for another two weeks and the itching stopped as he got to clean himself more and he looked a lot healthier after starting on the good feed we got him but he was still peeing A LOT and he kept peeing everywhere in the apartment…. we kept asking for papers but nothing showed up still and i was worried something was off with his kidneys or urinary track but we got no answers so here we were with a potentially mange carrying cat with five teeth peeing indoors.

when they finally texted us back (because she told us that she “couldnt answer and prefered texts” because she had been “sick” etc etc and she literally told marina she wouldnt answer if i called cause i had been pestering her for a month asking questions she didnt wanna answer so she was like ~uhm sweaty i wont answer if its a number i dont have in my contacts~) it turned out that it wasnt the cat but the son in the previous family who got some sort of skin disease that was potentially able to spread to cats (???????) and the only two i could find was mange and ringworm which is like????????? what the fuck you just DUMPED him here and didnt say a word and also it turned out he had been peeing everywhere in the last home too and thats one of the reasons they couldnt keep him because they had kids and apparently he was stress-peeing everywhere

so basically nothing in the add or what the contact person had told us beforehand was true and they more or less just abandoned him here without any form of vet documentations or ID and without any research on us or our situation and whent afk and ignored us for almost two months just basically hoping we’d stop calling them and just let them leave the cat here without any repercussions

last week i got home and there was blood everywhere and he had been pooping nothing but water more or less and i immediately called marina who contacted this lina girl from the shelter… long (very long passive aggressive) story short she basically told me i was rude for saying that i didnt feel alright at all sitting at home without any means to travel with a sick cat peeing pools of blood and without anything to do to help him because she insisted he would come back after the vet check-up (which had to wait until HOURS later even tho i explained that he was literally peeing fucking clean blood and he needed immediate help) and that they then would start looking for a new place for him because they didnt have any places over or anyone standing in line to take him in and we were sooo rudeee for assuming and, quote: “no one is really standing in line for a sick cat that pees indoors” and i went NO, WE DIDNT DO THAT EITHER BUT HERE WE ARE and she just switched subject and told me i’d get this “emergency number” to call during the night if something were to happen and someone would come pick him up and i was like lmAoooo as if as fucking if no one will do that shes just trying to make her part of this easier again

and i was like i dont think he even should come back anyhow i think he should stay under vet care at least over night if not more because this is really serious and also if this is stress related we would do him no favour at all coming BACK here then getting put in a car AGAIN and travel back and forth and back and forth but she didnt seem to care tbh she just called us inconsiderate basically and that we couldnt just dump him on them like this in an hour and just expect them to deal with housing him etc…. so basically we were heartless abusers with no consideration for the animals wellbeing 👌👌👌

she didnt even believe that he was peeing blood she was like “oh well as i said you’ll get an emergency number to call if theres anything… which you use if hes SICK and not just, you know, peeing on the floor.” and it just made me angry and i told her that yeah no i think i get that without and explanation thank you im the one cleaning up the blood and she just laughed nervously and told me when they would come get him (which then turned out to be an hour later anyhow :))) )

and he was beyond scared when they arrived to pick him up and for the first time i saw this lina girl in person and she was just…. weird…. i ended up aiding a terrified cat in to the travel cage myself because all they did was scare him to a point where he completely soiled himself all over and peed more blood because they couldnt seem to bribe him in to the cage. and afterwards she just laughed and was like “well that was fast! last time it took 45 mins!!”……. im like????………. whats wrong with you.

and she promised to call me the next day since i was the one at home and my roomie was away at the moment but of course she didnt and LUCKILY for the poor cat the vet hadnt wanted him to go either and kept him over night. and the next day i told my roomie that we just can not take him back again we just cant it would do the cat a disservice and it would start all over again and they would block us or something and just leave him to his destiny here it wouldnt be good for anyone involved except lina who didnt wanna do her part of the work… she tried to guilt trip my roomie in to taking him back in so i took over and just straight up told her that no, we can not so it and it wouldnt serve the cat in a positive way at all to be tossed back and forth over and over ESPECIALLY not since he was diagnosed with stress related FIC and this happened despite living in a calm silent apartment where he got so comfortable he could sleep and relax on the kitchen chair and eat veterinary recommended food and live in a clean nice environment as an only cat…. like he had a really good life here the months he stayed.. and she kept insisting that it was OUR FAULT that he had gotten these symptoms and yet she just wanted him to go back here because she didnt know where else to put him sorta…..

i would never in my fucking life let an animal back in to a home i suspect would abuse or treat it bad like…?????? but yeah she then tried to pitch me and marina against each other (like we didnt talk to each other??? what the fuck did she think) and tried to guilt us in to taking him and despite me seeing screenshots of what marina had written she tried to lie about what had been said and what not so i just told her nope we’re not at home we can not agree to take him back again mostly for the cats best interest it wont do him any good the end and then she started threatening us sorta and i didnt answer anymore and now theyve shared his post four times on fb and still no one wants to take him in (despite them lying and embellishing in the add :)))))) )

So Super Long Story Short kattjouren can suck my ass and being a no-kill shelter doesnt mean you can keep the animals alive at all cost, if you have an old street cat with two teeth left and stress and anxiety related FIC that pees blood and scratches himself raw maybe its not a worthy life for him and maybe its better to let him move on.

but apparently we have no consideration for the animals health and wellbeing and are just terrible animal abusers who asks her to do her job 👌

[taeboos]

baby daddy! taehyung

 okay so like i was gonna work on my prince!taehyung oneshot but i kept thinking about tae being a dad and i just got so emo and here are my ramblings

let me just start off saying that tae would be like the best husband in the entire world like he’d love and care for you with his entire being 

he’d spoon hug you at night time and hold your hand  and whisper how much he loves you in that deep voice by your ear until u fall into a deep sleep while being caressed in his arms 

hes like that kind of guy who would just love to wake you up in the moring tho 

and your like 

tae

no 

its like 7:30 wyd 

and he’s just like the sunshine himself like he shines so bright in the morning and literally he wants to get up early bc he wants to cherish every moment of you being beside him 

jfdklsfjlksdfjls and like!!!!! you’d complain bc like.....ur not the moring type yah know sleep is gr8 and he’d ultimately win bc he has this puppy face and would take ur hands and play with them and swing them to wake you up 

he’s basically a grown child 

okAY and so like why do i not see him being the type to romanticize the whole doing the ‘boom-boom’ 

i feel like he’d be the type to just like rush into it like ‘bAbE I WANT kIDS liKE ASAP’ 

but then again he wouldn’t rush you or pressure you or anything he’d wait for you 

and like one night you did it ok you did the boom-boom alright and like it was great obvs 

ill let u be dirty by yourselves im not going to go into that rn this is a fluff post 

quench ur thirst elsewhere 

anywhoo a few weeks pass and like you are getting that morning sickness yeah? I mean i never been preggers but im going off basic knowledge?? 

so okay like you wake up in the middle of the night like 3 in the morning and like tae wakes up of course and you are like in the bathroom spilling your guts out and at first ur like super confused and tae is worried as hell

but then his eyes just light up out of no where and ur like ??? 

“ARE YOU PREGNANT”??? like the question just busts out of him like a popped balloon ok he’s like half excited and half anxious and worried for you and he starts pacing the bathroom 

and ur like babe??? calm down idk if im pregnant ok i might just be sick?? 

and he looks at you and gets on his knees alright and looks you in the eyes and he just like “im going to walmart” and ur like 

wAIT 

that boy is already out the door with his pajamas still on ok like he gives zero fucks like he needs to know noW 

he slams that pregnancy test on the conveyor belt and he’s legit jumping up and down bc he wants to get back to his wiFE 

and the cashier lady is tired asf and like “whats dis mofo doing here kjdsklgjls” and then she smiles and says “good luck~” 

sO tae gets back home ok and he hands u the thing and ur like alright alrigHT 

and that boy will not leave ur side ok u better know it and ur like tae??? ummmmm can i please pee on this thing in peace thx 

and hes like oh shit sorry 

so u pee on the stick and guess whattttt 

ur preggers 

u kinda just exit the bathroom with a sly smile on your face

and tae has bulging eyes waiting for a response 

“im pregnant” 

you better bet your sweet little ass he’s gonna be all over you he’s gonna be swinging u around and kissing your face and crying 

and seeing him crying makes u cry and next thing you know the next morning your letting the fam know

everyone is just like congrats!!!!!

and now comes the nine months where tae is legit your body gaurd like he is so protective 

he was protective to begin with but now its like he took some super dad power pills and he is always attached to u like everywhere you look tae is there like a leech attached to your back 

like “thATS mY BABY in YOU I GOTTA BE ABLE TO PROTECT TWO AT ONCE NOW” 

hed be feeding you breakfast every morning and go throughout your day eating healthy meals 

gotta make sure that baby is nourished!!!!!!

im crying ok omg breAK 

back ok liSTEN 

you would get that baby bump and he’d rub your belly all the time and he’d jump out of his skin when the baby moves or kicks and he’s just “!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” 

and your lauging and he wants to cry again bc he is so in awe like ?? thats his baby moving around in there 

and he’d want to sing to the baby all the time like 

youd be lying in bed and hed start singing little nursery rhymes and your heart just swells and the baby can detect that sort of thing??? and it starts to move around around and you tell tae that the baby likes his singing and that makes him do it even more often

also not to mention being pregnant is effing painful so he’d always be there to rub your aching back and give you butterfly kisses all the time to ease your pain

okay and then you go and u find out the sex of your baby and like you think its gonna be a boy but tae thinks its gonna be a girl idk why i just feel like tae would want a girl 

so u go and you find out that it’s a girl!!!!!!!!! and tae won’t leave u alone abt how he was right 

and u decide on a name and no doubt its cute ofc 

okay so your whole pregnancy goes like this and so then 

ur water breaks 

oh shit amiright 

tae freaks the fuck out but like not as much as you were 

like your in pain and hoLY FuCK they baby iS coMING nOW 

and yout screaming and tae is trying to be calm but he’s runnning around and trying to get you into the car and he’s freaking out while driving like 

moVE biTCHES mY bABY and WiFE ARE IN THIS CAR 

he’s like speeding down the highway to get to the hospital ok 

this boy has got zero chill 

he half carries you into the hospital and everything happens to fast

hes sitting beside you holding your hand tight as your screaming your lungs out giving birth 

and tae is half-way feeling guilty that you’re going through this pain 

but fAST foRWARD and your healthy baby girl is born!!!! 

and like at first tae was about to bounce on the doctors like he wants his kid now but they had to go clean her up 

and when they finish tae holds her little body in his arms and he’s crying 

“look at her” 

“she’s so beautiful” 

“it’s my baby” 

he looks at you then with tears gleaming in his eyes 

and he brings her over to you and your holding her and you can’t believe you did it 

as ur baby girl grows up like tae is such a protective father 

he’d proababy want to cry if she ever got hurt 

and you notice that as she grew that she had tae’s sparking eyes and gleaming box smile that you always adored you 

she had your cute nose 

and face shape 

Tae would try so hard to make her look so cute like braid her hair and pick out cute clothes and you’d just smile and let him be 

him being happy with your child was enough to make your insides melt 

he’d be that dad who’d volunteer to change the diapers and get up in the morning and your just like babe!!! i got it its fine!!!! im ok i can do it!!!! 

and after seeing you go through that pain for 9 months he wants to repay you back and in turn he also gets to spend time with his kid and he is happy doing it 

youd both play with that baby all the time and be all over the floor with that baby ok and the squeal of joy that erupts from that childs mouth is what fuels tae and you to keep living in this beautiful world

when it comes time for her to go to school hed be so scared like hes letting his baby girl go off alone??? nO 

and ur like tae its alright babe its ok its good for her and he gets that but still??? 

also your daughter would have that same laugh that tae does and every time she does it your stomach gets butterflies 

and whenever she cried tae would be like the first one at the scene 

and whenever she had her temper tantrums he’d be the one to baby her 

and your like tae we cant do that we gotta have disipline 

and hes not having it

that baby is gonna be so spoiled rotten omg 

lord help us all 

but the thing is that baby will have the best parents in the entire universe like nothing can change that fact at all 

that baby is gonna grow up living a happiness filled life ok 

i really hope ya’ll enjoyed it!!!!

[feralmyth]

Tag Meme Thing

rules: you must answer these 85 statements and tag 20

tagged by: @ontaan​ (ur a monster)

I tag: @lovitello @gansieboy​ @lucicatcat​ @king--gay​ @moosiest-moose​ (ik we dont really know each other but,,,) i cant think of anyone else,,,,,,,,,

the last

1. drink: Water,,, boring

2. phone call: @king--gay​ the monster, he called me at 1 am

3. text message: @lovitello​ “Okay me.. Too”

4. song you listened to: Rivers And Roads by The Head & the Heart

5. time you cried: a coupla nights ago?

6. dated someone twice: uh no. I’ve been in 1 relationship, with my lovely boyf @lovitello​

7. kissed someone and regretted it: nahh

8. been cheated on: never

9. lost someone special: uhhhhhh,,,,, my bfs cat Peekaboo,, he was a good boy,,

10. been depressed: always and forever

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: mnnnope never

3 favorite colors

12. Navy Blue

13. Pastel Pink

14. Red

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: Yee i.e. @king--gay​

16. fallen out of love: no, never. I love my boy to the moon and back

17. laughed until you cried: uhhh yes definitely. ask Matt

18. found out someone was talking about you: mmmnooo?? i doubt id ever find out

19. met someone who changed you: mmm not that i know of

20. found out who your friends are: uhh y e s???

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: uh my bf and my bff

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: uh the vast majority of them

23. do you have any pets: a cat named Gizmo! special boy

24. do you want to change your name: Yes from my birth name to Caide.

25. what did you do for your last birthday: had a sleep over in which we had a watergun fight that dyed our shirts and we ate shish kabobs

26. what time did you wake up: yikes uhhh? 11ish?

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: tryna fall asleep but also lookin at insta and tumblr

28. name something you can’t wait for: transitioning and living with matt

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: less than 30 minutes ago

31. what are you listening to right now: Imagine Dragons, Believer

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: uhh yeah my boyfs dick dad

33. something that is getting on your nerves: anti shippers and aphobes atm

34. most visited website: Tumblr definitely

35. hair colour: dark brown

36. long or short hair: shorttt

37. do you have a crush on someone: yes

celebrity? Nope

Fictional? uhhh Takashi Shirogane (the m o s t), Hunk Garrett, Lars Barriga, Shinji Ikari, Todoroki Shouto. So... Yes

Real life? Yes my bf

38. what do you like about yourself: myyy nose and uhh.. nothin else tbh,,,

39. piercings: one in each ear

40. blood type: I... have 0 clue.

41. nickname: my boyfriend calls me dumbass (◡ ‿ ◡ ✿) jk but uh im like team dad and my friends occasionally refer to me as dad/papa/etc. Or Daddy jokingly (Except @king--gay who p much exclusively calls me Daddy)

42. relationship status: In a v committed relationship i love Matt v much

43. zodiac: Leo

44. pronouns: he/him

45. favourite tv show: Voltron: Legendary Defender; Teen Wolf; FMAB; BNHA

46. tattoos: none yet but my dad has prepaid for one for me and my bf designed it a few years ago, so its just a matter of when I go back to my birth town with my dad

47. right or left handed: right

48. surgery: an appendectomy like 3 years ago

50. sport: Nonnee but I wanna get swole so bad yo

51. vacation: Last one was to a cabin in kentucky where we hiked all day for 3 days straight, it was actually p fun

52. pair of trainers: uhhh like. sneakers??? cause i mean ive got some vans but,,,

more general

53. eating: nothin rn but i love food,, pizza, beef stroganoff on rice, potstickers, rice, steak, burgers, panko breaded chicken, strawberry rhubarb pie,,,,,,,,,,,, mmmmm,,,,,,,,,

54. drinking: nada rn.

55. i’m about to: do some art maybe, or watch smthn, or die

56. waiting for: dinner

57. want: my bf to come back over im ssooo needyyyyy

58. get married: yes.

59. career: animator hopefully

which is better

60. hugs or kisses: mmmboth, but i love the way hugs make me feel

61. lips or eyes: mmboth? eyes are,, gud,,,

62. shorter or taller: mmm both again

63. older or younger: older? idk i prefer it

64. nice arms or nice stomach: bothhh,,, buttt i love soffft tums

65. hook up or relationship:  relationship

66. troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker,,

have you ever

67. kissed a stranger: no.

68. drank hard liquor: nope

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: uh sunglasses yes

70. turned someone down: i yeah i guess??

71. sex on the first date: uhhhh thats a no for me

72. broken someone’s heart: possibly? there was a boy who was crushin on me when I was a kid, and he was alot younger than me, and i didnt take him srsly when he told me and I was an ass,,, I still regret being so jerky back then but we r on good terms now? 

73. had your heart broken: mmnooo? not that i remember,,

74. been arrested: mnope

75. cried when someone died: yeah im quick to cry always. When i was like 3 or 4 a fam member I’d never met passed away and we went to her funeral and i bawled my eyes out and my mom asked me “Why are you crying? you didnt know her kiddo” and I said “Because there are people here who loved her and they are sad”.. also I was close to this cousin I had and she was sick and passed away and that was super painful. Annnnd uhhh My stepdads mom passed away a few years ago,,, i didnt go see her before she died cause i was more concerned with myself,,, my mom told me she cried because I didnt see her and that,,, hurts,,,,,,, also anytime an animal dies. I have alot of feelings.

76. fallen for a friend: hhhhahahaha yep definitely my boyf used to be my bff

do you believe in

77. yourself: not really

78. miracles: yeet

79. love at first sight: uhh a little

80. santa claus: nah m8

81. kiss on the first date: if both people want to. 

82. angels: a little? like the basic concept. but not really @ the same time,,,,,

other

84. eye colour: brown

85. favourite movie: uhhhggjlj Spider-man: Homecoming and uhhh Power Rangers 2017 and uhhhhhh The newest Godzilla,,,,

[danielxurbina-blog1]

7/20/2017

Fourth entry to the journal, another great day! Had no sleep today and felt lethargic in the morning. Stomach was killing me and i felt like puking from eating the worst combination of food last night with Jason. But i wake up and eventually get a Facetime call from Camila and i’m already feeling 1000x better. Shared a few laughs, roasted her a little because she looked so adorable i had to. Does that even make sense haha idk. My intentions for today was to practice drums at church but like yesterday things didn’t go my way but it ended up being a great day either way. WHENEVER YOU GET A WYD TEXT FROM YOUR GIRL JUST KNOW IT’S GOOD. But yeah Camila sent that “wyd” text and i already knew she was gonna ask me to come over and i’ve never been so happy with the thought of just spending time with her. So i got ready really fast and got my swimming trunks and left my house as soon as i could. Btw she has a sick pool and i cannon ball a lot in that pool with no shame. Anyways it was like 95 degrees today and i really wanted to take an Uber to her house but Jason would not let me because he didn’t want to walk from her house to his house,which is literally like 2 blocks away, so we ended up walking. Sweat was literally dripping from my face i felt so disgusting i hate being sweaty. Finally made it to Camilas house and i see her and she looks too good mannnnnnnnnnn. Could not stop staring at her she simply looks amazing every day it’s mind boggling. Her sister had a friend over and I’m very polite so i asked her what her name was and she responds “I don’t know you” and i was just like um okay. I was just being nice man these 10 year olds are so mean. Funny thing is i go upstairs and change into my swimming trunks and as i come outside shirtless ready for the pool this little girl smiles at me and stares at me ode hard. Now I’m there like ohhhh so now you want to smile and stare now huh? Never laughed so hard in my life. AND YOU KNOW ME I JUST HAD TO MAKE A HUGE ENTRANCE IN THE POOL, so i did haha. It was great being in the pool once again with Camila laughing and having fun with her sister and her evil friend. After the pool we went inside and her mom woke up and she was not feeling good and i felt bad. But you know Camila is just amazing so wherever she goes she brightens the mood up. Her mom went from having a migraine to laughing so much because Camila was dancing so much to Just Dance haha. Let me just say she’s not so good at dancing as she says she is. She’s always roasting me telling me i can’t dance but idk after today i don’t feel so bad about myself. Watching her dance is so cute though i wish i got it on camera but she would not let me take vidoes! It’s whatever though. Later on the fam ordered pizza and i never felt so sick in my life i ran to the bathroom and felt like i was about to throw up. Forced myself to eat a slice because i need to eat and i can’t do this to myself anymore like i have to try. So after shoving pizza down my throat we went to the living room and laid on Camilas human shelf. Human shelf = Couch in case i read this and forget. Her mom kept roasting me because i never watched dirty dancing or mama mia or grease 2. LIKE IM SORRY I DIDN’T WATCH MOVIES FROM THE 90′S I GREW UP WITH CARTOONS AND COMEDY. But yeah we decided to watch John Wick because me and camila never watched it but her parents did so they knew we’d like it. Just gotta say that the beginning is so messed up man they killed the mans dog and he went ape **** haha. After the movie I went home and now I’m writing this so that’s my day and it was amazing. WELL I’M OUT SEE YA PEEPS.

P.S. didn’t take a pic today :( bummer i know oh well maybe next time

[qwedfas]

nobody helps me. I just suffer alone. I starve myself each and everyday for 12 hours because I have nobody to sit with. I dread recess, lunch and even form where I could just vomit. Each day I wake up with no hope and nothing to look forward to and the day just drags on and on until the end where the agony can stop at 3:10 but then I feel so sick and exhausted, my body is leaden and extremely heavy and only get home at 4:45. Then its shower, dinner (12hours ago was my last meal at 6) and

p2: homework and sleep at 12-1. Repeat. repeat. no motivation to live anymore I constantly wish I did not exist so that the pain could just go away. what did I do to deserve this amount of pain every day. why does everyone else have friends, something that I don’t even know what it feels like or means. nobody understands and everyone loves recess and lunch and form but I dread it. my stomach churns when its near breaktime and im just trapped with no way out. its hard to keep doing this.

p3: instead of looking forward to break and form and feel like it passes too quickly I rejoice when it is over: another hurdle over. dont you guys understand that I want to just stop trying and just disappear or die? its too much I’ve endured since year7. I want it to end. at least then I can be happy and finally have peace.

Hey lovely,

This sounds really awful, and you honestly deserve so much more. Yeah, I understand that you want to stop trying and you want it to end, but it’s not going to be like this forever. I know it’s so tough to believe that, especially since you’ve been dealing with pain since year 7, but there’s still so much time and potential for happiness left in your life. Just think, in some time you could be in a way better place, with amazing friends etc and you’ll be so so glad you pushed yourself through.

In terms of friendships, you just haven’t found your people yet. I know it feels so unfair, and I know it feels like you’ve met so many people and no one really clicks with you/likes you, but in reality, there are so so many other people out there, outside of Mac.Rob, who would love to share a friendship with you. Just wait it out, please

Also - it’s really important for you to eat!! Your body is worthy of food. It probably sounds so generic and predictable, but I’m actually struggling with something similar myself so I know what it feels like. I’d recommend trying to get a little food in your body throughout the day, even if you really don’t feel like it. Start little - eg. with a banana and then build your way up. This has helped me so much.

Plus, please prioritise your sleep over your homework. I’m not saying not to do it, but if you’re exhausted and your eyes are drooping but you’re trying to finish something off - please don’t. I’d recommend going to see Gill to tell her how you’ve been feeling. It feels good to get your thoughts off your chest + she can help you in case of a teacher telling you off for not finishing homework.

If you need someone else to talk to, don’t be afraid to hop on the FAM live chat, inbox any of us on Facebook or shoot us an email.

You’re so strong, and I promise better times are coming ! 

Love,

FAM

[mobdaddykarkat]

you good fam?? :(

Yeah thank you, I think i just caught the little stomach bug my brother had and my family has been passing around something. Unfortunately I ACTUALLY got sick this time :/ I didnt take my usual precautions and im a f OOL... Hopefully it goes away by tomorrow cuz it was just mild but sUPER SUDDEN so i was NOT ready..