#yeah bc of the seeding!!!
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that post about people making sexyman polls while not understanding sportball brackets needs to be a tumblr heritage post i do not care if i am the only one who feels this way
#what about the sports animes huh?? did they not teach about seeding levels and brackets??#i... am fairly sure that none of did actually#brackets were by lottery weren't they#NO WAIT#ha!!! the basketball!!! aha the basketball one had seeding!!#so the better high schools advanced and the lower level hugh schools duked it out between themselves BEFORE the highest level high schools#that is the seeding!!#it's so that the high level doesn't just obliterate some low level for three rounds in a row#anyways i am not even good at sportball but i do watch sports anime and i have been thinking about that bracket post sooooo much lately#bc of these bracket polls where the op is like 'nooo my underdog got oblierated by the mega strong contender!!'#yeah bc of the seeding!!!#your underdog didn't stand a chance in this type of bracket i'm sorry what a bad luck lottery draw#All of these polls are going to drive me to create a bracket with seeding#and i don't want to!!#it's too much work!!!#but there needs to be a plan BEFORE you do a sexyman poll#have you planned a wild card spot for the highest ranked losers to face off in a second chance? no? where is your wild card!!!#watch some sportball!!!! wild cards!!!!#sorry for the exclamation points. you don't have to watch sportball. i don't anymore. but the animes! i#this sounds like complaining so actually thank you to everyone making these poll competitions they are so fun#i just am frothing at the mouth wanting MY choices to win#and going 'well WHAT ABOUT the wild card!!!!' when they lose
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Wei Wuxian and Narrative Agency – Part Three
For Xiantober Day Five: Past and Present, in which the author gets very unhinged about what parts of the past are shown and how that’s affected by the present!
(Part One | Part Two | Full version on AO3)
The Power of Agency: Shaping the Narrative
When I've discussed Wei Wuxian's agency previously, I’ve talked about how what’s shown and omitted tells us about a character, and we’ve talked about the character himself. Though this is a niche topic, it’s not necessarily something out of the ordinary to analyse, and we can assume everything up to here has been in some way intentional.
This? Linking structure to a character’s in-universe preferences?
This is where we get unhinged.
Before I start, let’s quickly establish something which will be important later: although Wei Wuxian is the central character, MDZS isn’t strictly from his POV. While omitting events a character doesn’t like to dwell on and concealing things the character wishes to hide is common in books with only one narrator, MDZS has multiple narrators which it switches between relatively quickly. This includes Wei Wuxian, but it also includes nearly every major character that appears in the story, and omniscient narrator as well. As a default, this format doesn’t lead to this deliberate shaping and omission because of one character’s preferences, since we have many other sources of information and events – which is what makes Wei Wuxian’s influence over the narrative and structure so interesting. We could have access to a lot more information, and access to it at different times, than we do (and that’s not an insult, quite the opposite!).
To begin: we’ve established that times such as Wei Wuxian’s time on the streets, his three months in the Burial Mounds and his loss in the Siege aren’t shown because Wei Wuxian has little agency there. But that’s not the only special thing about them. They’re also the three most traumatic times in his life, and so moments Wei Wuxian himself either can’t remember, or doesn’t like to dwell on.
This is why discussing Wei Wuxian’s treatment of tragedy in his life was important. Firstly, it shows he doesn’t focus on the tragedy in his life, so the idea that the narrative not focusing on this tragedy relates to his character has merit; secondly, it affirms that this is not a passive trait, but a choice. Therefore, when the narrative omits events due to this aspect of Wei Wuxian, it’s respecting not only a character detail – which would be cool by itself – but also an active decision. One that shapes the story it’s made in.
In other words, its very structure is respecting Wei Wuxian’s agency!
Now, of course there are flashbacks to other moments of his past he probably wouldn’t like to dwell on, too. But within the structure, they’re only shown when Wei Wuxian is thinking about them (or when he has reason to)!
Wei WuXian hadn’t woken up yet. His eyes were still tightly shut, yet his hand didn’t let go either. He seemed to be dreaming, muttering, “… Don’t… Don’t be angry…” Lan WangJi seemed somewhat surprised. His voice was gentle, “I am not angry.” Wei WuXian, “… Oh.” Hearing this, as though he finally felt assured, his fingers loosened. Lan WangJi sat beside Wei WuXian for a while. Seeing that he was motionless again, he was about to stand up when Wei WuXian grabbed him with his other hand, hugging his arm and refusing to let go. He shouted, “I’ll go with you, quick, take me back to your sect!” Chapter 63, EXR translation
Which, of course, is him dwelling on…
Lan WangJi spoke one word at a time, “Go back to Gusu with me.” Hearing this, both Wei WuXian and Jiang Cheng were surprised. Quickly afterward, Wei WuXian laughed, “Go back to Gusu with you? To the Cloud Recesses? Why go there?” He immediately seemed to realize, “Oh. I forgot. Your uncle Lan QiRen hates crooked people like me. You’re his proudest disciple, so of course you’re the same as him, haha. I refuse.” Chapter 62, EXR translation
…the painful flashback immediately preceding this. The third set of flashbacks (which are also painful) are a similar case. Look at the contex:
He lifted the bottom of his robe, revealing a prosthetic leg made of wood, “This leg of mine was destroyed by you, that night in the Nightless City (…)” (…) “Wei WuXian, I won’t ask you if you remember or not. Both of my parents died by your hands. You owe too many people. You definitely won’t remember them either. But, I, Fang MengChen, will never forget! And never forgive you!” (…) “In the fight at Qiongqi Path, my son was strangled to death by your dog Wen Ning!” “My shixiong died by poison, his entire body festering due to your cruel curse!” Chapter 68 (immediately preceding the flashbacks), EXR translation
And Wei Wuxian’s own thoughts and words:
Wei WuXian looked at the cultivators before the Demon-Slaughtering Cave. Their expressions were the absolute same as those of the cultivators from the night of the pledge conference, pouring their wine on the ground as they took the pledge to scatter the ashes of the Wen Sect’s remnants and him. (…) Wei WuXian, “Now it’s time to ask just whom it is that treasures it so much. It’s like Wen Ning. Back then, some certain sects or so were scared to death of the Ghost General. They said they’d kill him on the surface, but behind their backs they hid him for over ten years. How strange. Who was the one that said his ashes had been scattered back then?” Chapter 79 (immediately succeeding the flashbacks), EXR translation
Once again, Wei Wuxian’s own thoughts relate to the flashbacks we’ve just been shown. And, as I previously mentioned, though all the events which are shown are tragic, they’re also events which Wei Wuxian’s own choices and actions shaped – which he has this to say about:
“The things I did, not only do you remember them, I remember them too. You won’t forget them, and they’ll stay even longer in my mind!” Chapter 82, EXR
Admittedly, this applies more to the third set of flashbacks than the second (which is still fitting as the third set was the most recent), as in the second, although he still had agency within and influence over his circumstances, the majority of the pain was caused by others’ actions (excluding, of course, the Golden Core transfer… which is something we know stays for a long time in his mind, albeit with a caveat we’ll soon discuss). But it’s still important to note – especially considering that otherwise, focusing on this very painful time in his life wouldn’t seem like something very in-character for Wei Wuxian to do.
Of course, this can all just be explained by good writing. It is best to insert flashbacks when they’re relevant to the characters and events in the present day! But it is interesting to compare these to the start of the (not painful) Gusu flashbacks, which open this way:
At a later time, Wei WuXian pondered upon the reason why his relationship with Lan WangJi wasn’t good. Getting to the root of the matter, everything started when he was fifteen, coming to the GusuLan Sect with Jiang Cheng to study for three months. Chapter 13, EXR
Again, considering the circumstances around which these flashbacks take place – returning to the Cloud Recesses for the first time since the lectures, and meeting Lan Wangji once more – it makes complete sense for Wei Wuxian to be thinking about these events*. So it does fit the pattern of Wei Wuxian dwelling on something, thus leading to the narrative dwelling on it, too (and being shaped by his thoughts)… but there’s another layer to this. Importantly, it is the only flashback where Wei Wuxian’s present thoughts don’t lead to this happening, with his thoughts at an unspecified future time leading to it, instead. I like to interpret this as the text saying that, since these events aren’t something Wei Wuxian wouldn’t focus on in normal circumstances, he can dwell on them at any time. Therefore, they’re free to come up in the narrative at any time as well, even if he’s not dwelling on them in the present moment!
So, to summarise: Wei Wuxian’s decision not to focus on the painful times in his life directly influences the narrative to not focus on these times. When painful times are brought up and shown to us, it’s in the context of him thinking about them in the present day, and even then, his most painful moments still aren’t shown to us. His agency in this regard is still respected by the narrative structure.
This is the main way his agency influences the structure of the narrative, but I’d like to talk about the revealing and concealing of information, too. For example, I said I’d talk about the Golden Core transfer – though Wei Wuxian does think about this many times, as evidenced by his internal narration in Chapter 103. But unlike everything we’re shown through the flashbacks, this is something Wei Wuxian is actively trying to hide from others. And the narrative respects this choice (Wei Wuxian’s agency, again), never reveals it even when it would be relevant in the flashbacks, and we find out not through narration, but through a character’s dialogue!
And to clarify – I know these aspects may not be in the book for this exact reason. Showing flashbacks in relevant moments is good writing, concealing an important plot point you want to do a reveal for is necessary writing, and MXTX has said she didn’t want to write about Wei Wuxian’s time in the Burial Mounds, due to not liking to write transformation sequences (and also because it would not be pleasant at all, which likely also applies to Wei Wuxian’s death). That doesn’t prevent it from also being intentional – MXTX’s intelligence is shown in many aspects of this book, and there’s nothing disproving it – but there’s no proof for either option, so I won’t pretend there is. I bring this up because I know this feels like I’m overanalysing, as I feel that way as well.
But, whether it’s intentional or not, it exists in the text, and I adore it – so, regardless, it’s something I’ll explore. Because taking this into account… We aren't just told about Wei Wuxian having agency, we aren’t just shown it in the text, we aren’t even just shown it through which parts of his past are shown and hidden in the structure of the text (as I talked about in Part One). The parts of the past that are shown and hidden also have an in-universe reason for being shown and hidden, this reason being the choices he makes! Agency is the ability of a character to influence the story they’re in, but Wei Wuxian’s agency, as a property of a character who only exists in-universe, shapes the out-of-universe structure as well! That’s how we’re shown its importance! How cool is that?
At The End Of The Road: Summary and Final Thoughts
In this essay, we’ve covered how important Wei Wuxian’s agency is not only to the events of the plot, but to the structure of the narrative as well. The narrative omits periods in which Wei Wuxian has little or no agency, in favour of showing us periods in which he does, even when important events happened in the former. This indicates that who Wei Wuxian is without agency isn’t important enough to be shown to the audience, and therefore that his agency is an integral aspect of his character in MDZS. We’ve discussed how both in-universe and out-of-universe, tragedy does not define him – out-of-universe, the tragic events in Wei Wuxian’s life are used not to build sympathy but rather to show his strength of character and who he still is despite going through them; and in-universe, he chooses not to focus on the negativity and resentment caused by his circumstances or others’ actions, instead staying true to his moral compass and enjoying his life in the present day. Finally, we’ve also explored how this choice is another reason for the omission of certain events from the narrative, resulting in his agency shaping the story in a very literal way – it affects the out-of-universe structure, as well.
It’s quite fitting, for a story whose essence is about defying a conventional narrative – that of righteous clans rising up and defeating a great evil – and about a character who defies many conventional narratives on his own – that of status defining how skilled you could be, that for a golden core being necessary for cultivation and other paths being unavailable, that of a tragic but complete story of someone killed for staying true to their moral code (instead, that character returns to life and has a happy ending) – to have its own narrative play a role in such an important and interesting way.
(Or, if an image would be preferable:)
Thank you for reading!
(Part One | Part Two | Full version on AO3)
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*This strong relation to the present day circumstances is another reason I love the flashback placement so much (and why I think it’s such a loss both screen adaptions altered it so strongly)!
#get ready for tag thoughts because there are a LOT of them#it’s for THIS reason that fanon wwx bothers me so much (didn’t want to get negative on the acual post)#bc so often all the changes are changes that woobify him!#self-sacrificial idiot wwx?? only doing things because… poor him he has so many internal issues and values himself so little-#-so of course he’d sacrifice everything before thinking of another option? woobifying#(whenever he sacrifices something it’s a deliberate choice to act on his morals because he values his morals so much – and he’s also very-#-capable and DOES often find ways for no people to get hurt!)#wasn’t aware that what happened to him at lotus pier was wrong and needs lwj to tell him that for him to have any idea if it?#woobifying (as we see in the lotus seed pod extra he KNOWS it’s unfair)#(he downplays it retroactively in his memory (links into not focusing on the bad things in his life))#(but that’s the actions themselves that are being downplayed not their fairness!)#he chooses to act! he is defined by acting! not tragedy – all the more impressive in the face of the amount of tragedy that’s happened#he could SO EASILY have been a woobie but instead he’s the opposite of one: defined BY his agency instead of the absence of it#that doesn’t mean he’s not impacted by tragedy or trauma – he is! but it’s not the most important aspect of his character (bc he doesn’t le#it’s also something that bothers me about the changes cql made#by making qq path and nightless city the fault of someone else it means he IS someone who’s more a victim of circumstance than anything els#he had no control over the tragedies of his first life at all#apart from ig his death being controlled by him? because he just leaps off the cliff during the nightless city siege?? but in THAT case it’#i watched that part recently (i’m getting through it very slowly) and yeah it reaffirmed my love for this aspect of the book even more#despite. having these exact thoughts for two years already#he also dwells on the past events a lot more than book wwx which adds to that version of him BEING defined more by tragedy rather than who#anyway over 7.3k words total (and 400 more in the tags apparently)... it'll be posted to ao3 in its completion this evening!#mdzs meta#my meta#wei wuxian#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#魔道祖师#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#gdc
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„Ayrenn, Ayrenn, You are a great queen We toast to your health By moon, stars, and green.“
Happy Birthday to the only (afaik) Elder Scrolls character with a canon birthday!!
#5th of second seed = 5th of may so yeah#it's objectively the coolest date bc it happens to be my birthday too lol#tes#tesblr#elder scrolls#the elder scrolls#eso#elder scrolls online#queen ayrenn#ayrenn#tes art#tes fanart#digital art#tiredelart#after posting this i will disappear again see u
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You’re a soldier, you do as you’re told.
#far cry#far cry 5#fc5#Jacob Seed#btw I have a disease called fascinated with guys who eat people. yeah it’s terminal. sorry.#also I hope these aren’t ridiculously dark for anyone bc I forgot my monitor was messed up 😭
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it’s so weird when a post is explicitly chengxian and then people add lwj into the mix.
I blame CQL and the animation for not sticking to the relationship between wwx/jc faithfully and creating that whole extra subplot of jc/wq in cql bc truly, in the novel when it focuses on wwx/jc friendship, it’s silly teens that are just so intimate and knowledgeable about one another while being blurred with the strange history of their parents and the inherent competitiveness they both have and it’s way more than what could be viewed as just romantic ship or whatever
The conviction wwx has that jc will return with help when trapped in the cave, jc believing in wwx’s words that they are twin prides, jc having faith in wwx finding a core solution, wwx seeing jc’s scars and promising to get rid of them — it’s the little things in their interactions as people who grew up and trust and love each other to the point of giving up their lives for each other!!
it’s frustrating to see a good chengxian post and it being reblogged or commented with other characters that a) were never mentioned in the post b) removes chengxian and makes it some other ship
#maybe I’m biased since I read the novel and watched the anime#I’ve yet to see cql just bc a lot of fans left a bitter taste in my mouth#and the manhwa art style deteriorated so I stopped reading it but also they bro-coded them so hard#no hugs no light banter it was really weird#anyways i know cql is what got many people into the mdzs fandom which is why folks have a skewed idea of chengxian#but I really wish jc and wwx relationship wasn’t so demonized or watered down in the adaptations#like it’s complex and complicated but they were also teens and young#mistakes are made bc of the passion and trust and faith in one another#they literally gave their lives up for each other and I hate when folks are like well wwx would do it for anyone#bc no he wouldn’t!! he never had anyone as close to him as jc#I promise I’m not ignoring jyl bc their relationship is different in that there was no deep seeded conflict or complexities between them#but pls stop adding lwj to chengxian posts if he was never mentioned#unless it’s to give nuance and not just hehe wwx has two hands#yeah he does and in my explicitly chengxian post it’s so he can both hold jc hand while holding the bed as he gets railed#liztalks
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so, like, although blamore and one of my other characters are VERY different ofc ( and this other character in particular would be barton ) ... there is one thing that they have in common + that is that they believe in the fact that no one should be killing kids. though there is an important distinction between blamore and him whenever it comes to this and this is that, it IS willing to try to scare younger vigilantes like robin for example into thinking that it would hurt them with threats and stuff. which isn't right either OFC but blamore, in his mind, thinks that it's far better than the alternative. so he would do thing's like point the sharp end of his tail towards a vital point of theirs and threaten them if they were a vigilante / hero, but he wouldn't dare actually pierce their skin and is ALWAYS going to aim for incapacitating them rather than doing any serious harm to them.
( think of like handcuffing them to something with a bone or just with their hands + feet restrained with one because there ain't no WAY that he's taking the risk of leaving them being able to move their feet JSJSJ or, if he has to and since he does carry them around with it, just kind of... using the powder form of anaesthetic herbs to disable them through skin contact and/or inhalation 🫠 because no matter what way you look at it, even though there are some chokes used in martial arts that are viewed as 'safe,' they could go wrong somehow and cause someone grievous harm to blamore. thus, even though it's still arguably pretty morally questionable at the very least to force someone to be dazed and/or in a sleep-like state, he isn't going to do CHOKES on a dang kid. )
and whenever i say 'kids,' it also considers anyone that is 21 and under to be one because of it's background in psychology + the fact that your brain isn't fully developed until you're about 25 comes into play here too. so blamore's nature as an herbalist also does come into play during fights sometimes. but yeah, so he would go ' WTF ' if someone tried to seriously hurt or kill a kid in front of him because even blamore has lines that he is not willing to cross despite seemingly being this ruthless person who wants to restart EVERYTHING. and he will falter whenever it comes to some things. and it would tell them to get behind it if someone was trying to hurt them and actually isn't a bad caretaker if one were to somehow get stuck with it for a time, because blamore is VERY capable of being like a guard dog guys, ngl ☠️ LOL
#IT WAS PROBABLY NOTHING BUT IT FELT LIKE THE WORLD: musings.#ALL DARK ALL BLOODY MY HEART: character study.#yeahhh. so i think it's safe to say that Blamore only gives his seeds to those he considers 'adults' and although he has a complicated-#view on children as it does try to portray itself as this being that finds them annoying he may or may not reluctantly like them at times-#and it's possible that he may even have a 'soft-spot' for them though not nearly as much as barton has. His soft-spot for kids is still-#there however and so although it is willing to associate itself with people like the joker I think that it does disagree with their methods#but sees the joker as someone who especially can't be helped by ANYONE so trying to convince them to chill and not hurt them bc it is just-#NOT funky fresh at all would be a useless venture and so it just tends to try to worry about itself basically though Blamore sometimes does#feel guilt that he doesn't say anything over it but in his mind... as i said they are beyond helping SO he's just going to avoid talking-#about it with joker bc then he might actually be liable to exploding on them 🫠 so yeah. Blamore takes a very different approach to it's-#dynamic with joker specifically BUT this doesn't mean that it would just turn a blind eye to them trying to seriously hurt a child if they-#were with them and would likely save the poor kid bc WTFFF dude
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Nothing wrong with me
#behold: the sowed seeds of my upped vitamin d dose#just would like to say that part of this is sponsored by a couple of very kind inboxers who reached out and said that they DID want to know#more about lady terror and which really helped reinvigor my motivations#and I WILL be answering those asks soon enough#(harder to do until I have my laptop back. like I’m sorry y’all I literally wish I knew what I was on in 2019 when I was writing all my#joker headcanon fics on my phone but I cannot replicate that and I dare not even try#)… but regardless it will happen#but also yeah so this is a 6 page chapter summary for the fic and I’ve just started on chapter 2 and this will help a lot when#I get my computer back I think I’ve cleared my head a lot about this fic while not having it#but anyway#yeah uh…#egg’s wip’s#moral of the story is telling people you wanna hear about their oc’s that they’ve been working on for a whole year works#also went down a classical music rabbit hole about it today if that’s of interest to anyone but… me#bc one of my students did a presentation on poe’s impact on music theory and danse macabre which incited me to get familliar with composers#and pieces that would have actively been known in the 1840’s and have wanted to do since that bit about schubert on crozier’s hand organ#got dropped in the scripts#I think they’re going to feud on classical music tastes#average beethoven and chopin stan vs schubert enjoyer FIGHT#(except the serenade. that song was actually written about lady terror I’ve decided)#also thinking about lady terror and poe bc he’s said himself music is the highest art. they are concert buddies for sure#I bet that mf liked beethoven. poe is a big bass guy if I’ve ever seen one#it’s the drama you see
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Tagged by @marivenah & @inafieldofdaisies to do the cutest picrew!
Tagging @socially-awkward-skeleton @direwombat @the-silver-chronicles @nonfunctioning-queer @g0dspeeed @clicheantagonist @jillvalentinesday and anyone else who wants to do it! (No pressure though, obviously!)
Willa, spending one of many birthdays in the bunker || Sunny, hanging out with Willa's kiddos in New Eden & having a blast
Sidra, hanging out with Shadow || Sel & their pet snake, causing chaos probably
#willa had to fight one of the seeds for that cake (either john or jacob. maybe both... thats HER mf cake)#sunny doesnt really care for joseph (or john or jacob. faiths okay tho) but she loves willa's kiddos cause theyre so adorable#& they made her those bracelets :') also pretend she has a mullet T-T if anyones wondering who her wife is btw its thomas rush obvi <33#flowers in her hair are also from the kiddos#btw sidra's wearing knee high boots.. but yeah shes chillin; horns out & everything#sid & sel have matching hair streaks <3 & sel is just really unhappy bc Sid is probs gone or smth. caused a scene about it (hence the blood#oc: willa rook#oc: sunny garcia#oc: sidra navros#oc: sel blackmore#jumped on this one immediately. havent made a picrew for sunny in soooo long i miss them so muchhh my little chaos demon#& i almost forgot what sel looked like... im bad oc mom
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Just had the most baffling interaction
#shay speaks#i was talking abt archeology to some visitors cuz they asked like oh was this fort around in the 60s#and i was like yeah they started doing archaeology in 1959 and have been out here ever since#and she asked what they found and i started going through things like food remains seed beads etc#and she goes. have they found any giants#and i had to take a second to process that. i went like giant structures or artifacts?#and she goes no like giant people. theres bones of 12ft tall people all around the country#and i go no there isnt thats a bit of a stretch to say#bc as much as ik we arent supposed to like. make our visitors feel dumb for having assumptions#this one i know is just a big conspiracy like no there are not 12ft tall people all around the country#she did like the stretch joke though so i dont think she took it too personally#but still. very strange.
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realised that I never wrote canon verse iwaoi because there are so many wonderful fics out there that I don’t want to write any. literally so lucky to be able to read what I want to see?? so I’ve got no desire to write another one….
#whereas like… I wanted to see fantasy iwaoi outside of fhq so..#and same with bag of nails I wanted to see kryk in that setting#and yet.#that’s why writing canon is difficult bc I don’t want to poach ideas unconsciously I’m terrified of that#I am! and I’m asking myself what do I bring… what new angle? and for kryk canon? not much#so why retrace the same ground ? the ground has been planted already. and it’s beautiful#like I’m here with my seeds and the plants I have are already in the garden#does that make sense?#I want to contribute something new.#I am sort of aware that that goes against fandom like sir. girl. people come here to read the same two characters fall in love over and ove#and over again. this is the We Come For This store.#I suppose. hm. it’s like why write my fic when someone else has done it better?#and I’ve got differing characterisation and style yeah but.. I don’t think they’re strong enough to make it worthwhile.#but I will offer my own take!! as well as I can..#plus I’ve been fucking possessed I don’t have a choice anymore
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i really love kick scooters i've been using one to get around instead of walking whenever possible since i was like 10 and i'd like to say i'm fairly good at it but sometimes when i'm hurtling downhill at landscape blurring speeds it does occur to me that i'm gambling my life on 2 metal pipes and 2 wheels small enough to be tripped up by a pebble
#I've only fallen like 3 times i think which imo is pretty impressive with how often i use it. BUT one of#the times was coz i didnt notice a PEACH SEED on the sidewalk and the wheel couldn't get over it and i ate shit#it made me way more cautious about avoiding junk on the road like what the fuck man...#post inspired bc i was going downhill on a sidewalk and had to cross a road so i lifted the#front wheel as per usual when the terrain switches (so the wheel doesn't get caught and trip me) but#somehow i managed to shift my gravity just the right way that I glided across the road just on#the back wheel and the front only touched down once i reached the opposite sidewalk#now I'm sure this is smtg one could do on purpose and I'm also sure it looked cool as hell but DAMN. felt really weird#and im deathly afraid of tripping plus i dont have a trick scooter i always get the#ones w the slightly bigger wheels and wider deck coz i use them to get around not for tricks#i do take them to the skatepark dgmw but im not meant to. no wonder im on like the 4th one by now#it's still like lightweight enough for tricks it's the perfect balance of light enough to jump with but#big enough to be comfortable for long term shit so it's ideal... but like oh my god if this#tiny ass machine snaps im a smear on the pavement#not even machine it's powered by pure leg. device? wikipedia says human powered street vehicle. sure yeah that#barking
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I shall be evil now
#hablaty#forgive the image quality#and yeah that is medve passed out after playing with a sunflower seed#zokni stealing a pair of shoes#and raptor just stealing my laptop#no i will not let you opt out of the choice bc i aim to be evil
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Finally started hacking away at the overgrown rose bushes and I'm so fucking exhausted and in pain 😭 bitch....
#i wasnt even doing a lot which is what makes me mad bc like i could see if i was doing the bushes yeah id be so tired but man#i wasnt even doing that much 😭 i did fill three lawn bags of clippings though and i hacked away the limbs that grab at the#sidewalk and the sides that grip onto you when you go to get the trash bins but theres still more i could do#i didnt wanna do TOO much but i wanted to make the petite rose bush less tall (its invasive to the area :( didn't learn that til this year#but if we hack away at it every year or so it's fine?? i mean its not like they throw seeds the same way say a maple tree would or like#poison ivy so it's not SPREADING out new plants it's just a monster sgdgdgd) anyway i wanted that to stop being so tall and#make it stop shading the flower boxes but i DID leave the now vacant birds nest covered so maybe another birdy will like it ... next year#sgdgdgdg since i think the major egg laying season is ending/over and most adult birds dont stay in a nest iirc like they find somewhere to#stay but the purpose of a nest is to keep babies in and safe but idk i could be wrong wgdgdggd#ANYWAYS i left that. the plant itself has burrs or whatever like these growths which you cannot completely#remove without just getting rid of the plant and starting over so we just leave it (doesnt seem to be hurting the 7ft spindly giant any)#i should hack away at the top of the 5 petal rose bush (also invasive iirc :( explains it's size sdgdgdgdg) so my garden can have more sun#but we'll see... 👀✂️#i feel like shit though agdgdgdg im tired of feeling like shit man
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very pleased with today's food choices
#been eating kind of shit the last week#which was making it hard to think clearly#brain fog.. made me think about what ppl in gaza are facing not having enough to eat daily for several months#when i cook eggplant or okra it makes me think of palestine somehow... actually most things i cook remind me of it#bc the prepation method is similiar#but yeah i had a chicken stew type thing#with okra eddo potato and tomato#i made two batches of different flavors & used a bunch of whole spices like coriander and cumin seeds black pepper bay leaves cinnamon stic#cloves etc.. and a bunch of whole green chillies#to add flavor.. but it wasn't spicy so i also added red chili powder#which made it perfect.. right amount of salt spice fat and vegetables#10/10 and i bought a big bowl today which made eating easy peasy#anyways i got sad for a bit too thinking about how easy food is to access for me bc i can get 5 leg+thigh for 6 bucks#and there was a post once about how this woman was pregnant and her husband had to pay like i think 20 bucks for a handful of meat#🧃#but bro i bought sumac and then completely forgot about it and was racking my brain to think what my second flavor palette should be#i used soy sauce/oyster/fish/black vinegar along with the whole spices and also some lemonade for citrus.. bc i didnt have lemons#and pouring juice is easier than squeezing oranges#it was surprisingly good like a nice flavor it came together well#i am gonna use the sumac next bc i want to make some version of musakhan
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a song that i associate with my muse meme!
AHH, hey, ramone!! thank you for sending in this prompt :D since you sent in three of the mic's, i shall now be treating you to three songs that make me think of blamore when i hear them / that i associate with it. an explanation of why i chose them will be in the tags <3
hozier - who we are.
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icehouse - crazy.
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depeche mode - personal jesus.
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#IT WAS PROBABLY NOTHING BUT IT FELT LIKE THE WORLD: musings.#asks - answered.#ooc post.#okay but ESPECIALLY heavy on the last one because it literally all about the idea of someone that people can turn to in hard times-#like a god or a prophet who will listen to your plights and help you + who you should believe in. and i say this because one major theme-#to blamore's character is the concept of being a false prophet and someone who essentially unfortunately takes advantage of people's-#longing for things to get better in gotham. bc i feel like a lot of people there have either been failed by the system by other's or-#possibly both and this is so that blamore can get people to voluntarily want to consume the 'seeds' it distributes in order to uhh...#well purge gotham of its undesirables basically as terrible as that sounds. but yeah that depeche mode song? it's such a good one for-#him and definitely has helped me before to write things related to him since blamore does sometimes believe in its own hubris.#but as for the second one by icehouse that one i associate with it because although it doesn't exactly consider itself to fully identify-#with the label of being a 'man' i feel as if blamore will still talk about itself that way sometimes. its relationship with its gender-#is honestly a little bit complicated NGL because him using it/its pronouns as well is something blamore adopted recently even-#though he'd always sort of felt like disconnected and/or like it didn't really align with how he saw himself completely. BUT yeahhh#i honestly could start a whole discussion about that but i shall do that another time perhaps ahah. anyhow though besides that-#elephant in the room ever since it has transformed into this half-human half-plant monster being... although it does love any partners-#it has very much (trust me) i feel like it does wonder why they chose to be with him more often than he'd like to admit.#so that's where the whole 'crazy' part comes in and as for the hozier song that song is about how you kind of have to carve through-#this 'darkness' to rediscover ourselves and who we want to be as a result of going through a rough time or just something tough in-#general and that is SO freaking fitting in my opinion for blamore because it definitely had to completely reframe the way it thought-#about itself when it transformed. and he also had to figure out what he believed in / what his values were now which can be suchhh-#a messy process TBH but this isn't the first time that blamore's had to rediscover itself as life is honestly kind of this ongoing-#process of losing yourself and trying to find yourself again you know? but yeah. i hope you enjoyed my explanation here tehe <3#and also that you enjoy the tunes!!
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just looked more into your blog after throwing Olruggio...you have such impeccable taste
FINALLY SOMEONE SAYS WHAT WE'RE ALL THINKING- THANK YOU. MY TASTE IS ABSOLUTELY IMPECCABLE 🔥🔥🔥
#/joking and /playful#but also not bc my tastes are perfect#sona#doodle#me at the things i like: to me 👉🥺 you are perfect 🥺😭💖#writing this as i listen to babs seed and yeah. i stand by what i said here#fuck oyu that song slaps#no but fr thank you 🥰 appreciate it lots n lots <333#AND YOU SEEM LIKE YOU RULE TOO SO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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