#yea i should rlly sleep

[send-up-my-heart-to-you]

i’ve been awake for 36 hours wtf

[superbellsubways]

thought about it for a while i think i really like the idea of genderfluid flavio actually. guy can be masc or fem whatever+whenever he wants .ican do a lil projection as a treat 👍

[starheirxero]

Yo ur awake!!!!

HDKSHDJ ITS ONLY MIDNIGHT YEA LOL

[ubike-official]

as i said b4, cant wait til I'm 30 to experience my own yuri cherry maho. its gonna be great

[csoisoi]

i was typing down an analysis of wicked phases a while ago and i got distracted by a friend and then i remembered i have a lecture to write down and then i got distracted by my own daydreaming for my ocs and then i got distra

[35gofbeansprouts]

💭.

[urbestestwindgod]

tw for discussion of rape and all and a hot take i guess

ok i dont rlly like to get serious or anything on this blog but i just wanted to mention that even if it was left up for interpretation if calypso raped odysseus or not, the stuff she still does isnt okay. like she still holds him captive, she still harasses and tries to coerce him after knowing that he is married and doesnt want her. she holds him captive KNOWING IT MAKES HIM SUICIDAL. thats not haha girly things that called being an abuser. yes, holding someone captive and trying to manipulate them out of suicide (as opposed to support them) is abusive.

i know she has a pretty voice but like, did you think jorge would cast a random untrained smoker from an opium den to play her so we know that this isnt a good character? and also you can compliment people’s designs of calypso without being ok with rape, because its just a design, but when its “shes my wifey” and “ii love her” its suddenly not like any other epic villain simping because the thing is she isnt a god sinking his ships or lighting bolting his crew to death; shes sexually abusing him (i am also not going to debate if sexual harassment is different from sexual abuse because its not. even if she never raped him she was still trying to coerce him and harassed him; which is abusive)

if there’s anything i dont fuck with its sexual misconduct. rape, harassment, abuse, all of it. dont give me that shit. the only thing that irritates me more than “haha id dropkick that child in self defense” is any victim blaming or pro rape statement that i displeasurably have to hear. like back to “her voice is so pretty” or just “shes so pretty” hey yea thats what most male rape victims are told. that she was so hot though, so he must have liked it. shes not “just a girl” shes an abuser.

now i know people where a little peeved that jorge removed rape from the circe saga; but i think its reasonable why he did. the epic community is very connected and always has memes for the situations odysseus is in. which, when its haha his friend was killed by a cyclops, or his crew was killed by an angry father, or his men where turned to pigs, or haha hes sad at whatever fantastical situation hes put in; we can laugh at it. because not only is it not real because its a story, but also no one has ever been through that. no ones ever faced off a cyclops in a cave before.

but people have been raped. men have been raped and heard the whole “shes so pretty and sweet thoo”. thats real. and with the circe saga jay knew that putting in rape, so early in too, that it wouldn’t be a plotpoint that fit in because that isnt an epic misfortune they face! thats a real situation; not the men to pigs and sea witch stuff, but being pressured and coerced into sleeping with someone? that is a real situation that real people are put in.

and i know male sexual assaults are iffy to people somehow. so lets say that a woman was in odysseus’ place and circe/calypso were men. does that make it worse? because both are bad. i dont fuck with rape towards ANYONE. regardless of gender, i dont think in 2024 we still should be debating is men can be raped

but back to jorge; i think he was brave for making love in paradise go how it did. i think even implying rape was a brave choice for the musical; especially with a very unserious and jokey fandom (not saying its not also serious but still) but even if you interpret that calypso never touched him. in the odyssey she did, and how tf do you LIKE a character who in the source material was a rapist? shes not “allowed to do bad” shes not “just a girl” shes a predator, and idn something about seeing her get support despite that reminds me of people like my uncle, my brother, my friend’s stepdad, a classmate or two. my uncle being able to have a restaurant, my brother having “a bright future” a certain classmate who got a girl pregnant and then went on to go to prep school. while she carried a child from a random guy in another state. you can support and joke about poseidon from epic and all, but when you start talking about calypso the same way you aren’t invalidating odysseus because hes not real. but you are invalidating countless real life victims.

and these are bold words from someone who isnt even mad about zeus of all people, because i know the culture he was from and i know that he was a metaphor/symbol to said culture. but the odyssey was a story with characters who survived by virtue of extending past that cultural bias. i can pull away from the odyssey as a piece of its time and understand that calypso wasnt probably seen as a rapist back then because the term didnt apply, but as a character i hate her like i hate theseus

and i know calypso was technically a goddess but that didnt mean much for her except immortality and being able to sexually abuse better. she wasnt worshipped (to my knowledge?) or exactly metaphorical. and epic is a modern retelling; so modern standards apply; shes a predator. i wont be taking any counter points because like i said dont do me with that shit

tl;dr your support for fictional rapists extends to what real victims have gone through, and check your lust because backing up every pretty voice/face is a rape culture classic

also im not saying that if you like calypso youre a pro rape asshole, dont think that. but i am saying youre not helping anyone and more hurting than anything by treating a character who is a sexual abuser like just another fantasy villain

[imobsessedwiththeatre]

Lets analyze dont lose your head song!! (Historical accuracy)

Grew up in the French Court- kinda?? She was at austrian court too i think. She was lady in waiting. NO SHE WASNT FRENCH just she spended most of her teenagw years here

Oui, oui, bonjour

Life was a chore so (she set sail)- exactly!! Her life in france was a chore!!

1522 came straight to the UK

All the British dudes, lame-the song made it seem she just moved to england, but she did not guys she was borned here :"). And she almost married a guy named William Carey, so its not rlly accurate

Epic fail

Ooh, I wanna dance and sing- yes! There was a show called "Chateu verte" or something i dont remember. And it was exactly in 1522 so its alr+

Politics, not my thing- i cant say if its accurate or not. I think she was quite interested in politics

Ooh, but then I met the King

And soon my daddy said, "You should try and get ahead"- YES

He wanted me, huh, obviously

Messaging me like everyday- it was like a stalk. He even sent her doctors when she got sick, without asking for it!!

Couldn't be better, then he sent me a letter and who am I kidding

I was prêt-à-manger-????

Ooh, sent a reply

Ooh, just saying hi

Ooh, you're a nice guy

I'll think about it maybe, xo baby- UHH?? HENRY STARTED ALL OF THIS FLIRTING?? SHE TRIED TO AVOID HIM??

Here we go

(You sent him kisses)

I didn't know I would move in with his misses- she in fact knew about his wife ane child.

(What?)

Get a life

You're living with his wife?- in 1530 henry wanted anne to movw into the palace, while trying to get catherine out

Like, what was I meant to do?

Sorry, not sorry 'bout what I said

I'm just tryna have some fun

Don't worry, don't worry, don't lose your head

I didn't mean to hurt anyone

LOL, say oh well

Or go to hell

I'm sorry, not sorry 'bout what I said

Don't lose your head

Three in the bed and the little one said- NO

If you wanna be wed, make up your mind

Her or me, chum

Don't wanna be some

Girl in a threesome- there wasnt any threesome?..

Are you blind?

Ooh, don't be bitter

Ooh, 'cause I'm fitter

Ooh, why hasn't it hit her?

He doesn't want to bang you

Somebody hang you- idrk if she would say it. I dont really know anything bout their relationship

Here we go

Your comic went viral

I didn't really mean it but rumours spiral- Yeah, they accused her of witch craft

Wow Anne, way to make the country hate you- FR. they loved catherine sooo...

Mate, what was I meant to do?

Sorry, not sorry 'bout what I said

I'm just tryna have some fun

Don't worry, don't worry, don't lose your head

I didn't mean to hurt anyone

LOL, say oh well

Or go to hell

I'm sorry, not sorry 'bout what I said

Don't lose your head

Tried to elope

But the pope said nope

Our only hope was Henry

He got a promotion

Caused a commotion

Set in motion the C of E

The rules were so outdated

Us two wanted to get x-rated- they already got 'x-rated'..

Soon, ex-communicated-yeah they made small secrwt wedding

Everybody chill, its totes God's will

Henry's out every night on the town-MHM

Just sleeping around, like what the hell?-YEA

If that's how it's gonna be

Maybe I'll flirt with a guy or three- NO. But they accused her of affair with her brother george, some violinist and other guy

Just to make him jell

Henry finds out and he goes mental- YEAH

He screams and shouts- wait he was rather calm i think?..yk he was abt to marry jane

Like so judgemental

You damned witch-Yeah...

Mate, just shut up

I wouldn't be such a b-

If you could get it up- UMMM...

Here we go

(Is that what you said?)- she didnt really argued tho..

And now he's going 'round like off with her head- it was like guards got her and her so called lovers on a talk

(No)

Yeah, I'm pretty sure he means it

(Seems it)

What was I meant to do?

(What was she meant to do?)

Like what was I meant to do?

(What was she meant to do?)

No, but what was I meant to do?

Sorry, not sorry 'bout what I said

I'm just tryna have some fun

Don't worry, don't worry, don't lose your head

I didn't mean to hurt anyone

LOL, say oh well

Or go to hell (she's going to hell)

Sorry, not sorry 'bout what I said

Sorry, not sorry 'bout what she said

Sorry, not sorry 'bout what I said

Don't lose your head

AND FOR THE REST?? ID SAY SHE WAS RATHER CONFIDENT THROUGH THE EXECUTION

[saturnsturns]

Girlfriend?

okay so this took me FOREVER but I literally could not come up with a title for the life of me so just ignore it tbh.

WARNINGS: smut, p in v, unprotected sex! (Pretend ur on the pill), creampie, getting caught, mastrubaiting, and so much other stuff I’m just tired😖

ALSO THERES FLUFF AT THE END! I rlly hope u like this!

it was any other Sunday morning, I woke up ate breakfast studied and now I was laying in bed scrolling through stories. I landed on “Chrissturniolo” my best friends account, once I saw his story the heat flooded to my legs and I knew instantly. I had always found Chris attractive but I had never told him, I always had dirty thoughts in the back of my mind but it was normal right? Everyone gets horny. As soon as I saw the photo of Chris holding his phone just above his head with his earrings and stubble showing I uh got a text. It’s like he was reading my mind or something. “Hey wanna come over and hangout with me and Matt” 

Yeah sure but where nick? I replied 

“Oh he’s still in Australia, your Uber will be there in ten”

Chris I told you to stop paying for my rides I have my own money.

“Yeah yeah whatever, see you soon”

I got up and brushed my hair and put on some comfy clothes, I knew I would probably be there late so I wanted to be comfortable. As I waited the heat between my legs died down but I was still thinking about Chris and what he would do to me and how good he would be in bed. as I was going through scenarios in my head Chris texted that my Uber was waiting. I got up and headed to the car, once I was seated comfortably I felt guilty. I shouldn’t be thinking of my best friend like that, I knew it was normal to feel like that but it felt weird being about Chris, I just decided to push it to the back of my mind and focus on having fun with my best friends.

about fifteen minutes of driving we finally ended up at the house, I gave the Uber a “thank you” and hopped out of the car and walked yo the front door. When I walked in I saw Chris and Matt laying on the floor playing some sort of card game, hey guys I’m here! Chris jumped up and gave me a tight hug. “I missed you so much” he said. Chris had never hugged me like that. Maybe he had, maybe it’s just me overthinking. “Cmon guys let’s play Roblox” Matt said and we all sat down and played some dumb kids games. Before I knew it it was three in the morning. I checked the time and sighed. I should probably get going it’s pretty late. “No you can just spend the night, I don’t want you taking an Uber home at this time and plus you always sleep over” Chris said. “Yeah and nicks room is free he won’t mind, he loves you” Matt adds on. Okay sure since I think I already have some stuff, but I’m pretty tired so I think I’m going to go to bed now ( I lied ) “okay then sleep good we can hangout more in the morning” they both exclamed.

 I walked upstairs to nicks room and plopped down on the bed, and opened TikTok. After a few minutes of scrolling I came across an edit of Chris, the heat forming in between my legs became so intense this time I needed to do something about it. I knew that the boys were downstairs and I shouldn’t be doing this but they would never know right? And yea Chris is my best friend but he’s never gonna find out and it’s just a one time thing so it’s okay. I searched up more edits of Chris and slowly slid my fingers down past the waist band of my thin shorts, then past my lacy panties and finally felt a little relief once I began rubbing circles on my clit, After a few seconds I softly pushed one finger through my folds and let out a small sigh and kept scrolling through the edits with my free hand as I did so. I finally felt the knot in my stomach tighten but I wasn’t there just yet, I pushed one more finger in and started moving faster and once I was just about to reach my peak the door burst open. 

I shut off my phone and stopped what I was doing as fast as I could but he had already noticed what was going on. Chris uh i- before I could finish my sentence he interrupted “what’s on your phone ma” I looked over and noticed I didn’t turn it off like I thought I did Chris I’m sorry I know it’s weird he leaned over me and picked up the phone and started to scroll through the videos “so you play with yourself to edits of me huh?” I snatched the phone no no it’s not what it looks like “yeah then why are u so wet ma?” He said as he quickly slid his hand towards my dripping pussy and Cuped me over my thin shorts I’m sorry I- “don’t be sorry, can I help you out” as he moved his fingers toward the waistline of my shorts and slid his fingers toward my panties. Chris we shouldn’t do this your my best friend “oh so you getting off to me was okay tho?” Chris it honestly was the first time “be honest ma” he said as he slid two didgets through my aching folds “Chris please I-“ I was cut off by him plunging his didgets in my dripping hole hitting my spot quickly.  “Feel better then your own fingers?” I couldn’t form any words once he started to go faster mmph Chris please I felt the knot in my stomach coming back “please what ma? This not enough?” He stopped just as I was about to snap no Chris why did u stop im so close! “Because I wanna feel your tight pussy cum all over my cock” he slid off the bed and took of his gray sweats and boxers in one fast movement.  My mouth watered at the sight of his dick springing out and hitting his stomach, he was huge. Chris i- “what’s wrong mamas?” 

Chris I want to so bad like more then anything but I don’t want this to ruin our friendship “baby I promise it won’t” him calling me baby sent ripples through my stomach, okay- but I’ve never done this before, I mean like I’ve been fingered and everything else but never this far… his expression softened a little, it surprised me how he could go from being so dominant to so sweet. “That’s okay we don’t have to.” No Chris I want to but I’m a little scared “I can go slow” I nodded and slid off my shorts and lacy white panties. “Okay please tell me if it’s too much” okay please hurry I need you “okay just know it might hurt a little is that okay?” He said as he moved me so I was at the end of the bed with my legs open, he stood at the edge of the bed and wrapped my legs around his waist. Yes it’s okay I say as he lined him self up and slowly pushed the tip in “your doing so good, are you ready?” Yes please I moaned out as he slid more of his length in slowly until he bottomed out. You can keep going chris “okay ma” he pulled halfway out and slammed back in as i Moaned out “your doing so good for me” Chris please faster, feels so good “okay are you sure?” I nodded as he picked up his pace and slammed into me without mercy hitting my spot every single time. Fuck fuck Chris I’m gonna- I screamed out as I felt like I was about burst “baby be quiet Matt’s gonna hear you” he said as he placed his free hand over my mouth. I’m c- close please as I felt  my orgasam coming to it’s peak “it’s okay baby let go I’m almost there” mm fuck- I mumbled out as I felt sweet relief wash over me “gonna fill you up is that okay baby?” I nodded as I felt his dick twitch inside of me painting my gummy walls white with stripes of cum, he slowly pulled out and plopped down next me “are you okay?” Yes more then okay I responded as I moved towards him and rested my head on his chest. “Okay let’s clean you up” he said as he slowly moved from under me and stood up, he put his sweats and boxers back on and picked me up and carried me toward the door. 

Where are we going Chris I’m literally naked “we’re going to my room to clean you up and get u some clothes” oh my god I can’t imagine how mad Nick would be if he knew I just fucked his brother in his room I thought to myself, we reached Chris’s room and he laid me on his bed and walked out of his room again. Moments later he came back with a towel and the clothes we left on nicks floor “okay baby this might feel weird for a second, can you sit up and open your legs?” I did as he said and he wiped my folds softly with the towel, one he was done he threw the towel in his laundry basket and went to his closet and came back with a pair of boxers and a white fresh love hoodie. He stood me up and helped me step into the boxers and slid them up my legs then sat me back down and pulled the hoodie over my head and arms “haha your drowning in that hoodie” yeah it’s kinda big I giggled, but it’s comfortable. “I’m glad your comfortable, wanna lay down?” Yes please I said as he laid on his bed and opened his arms, I moved up towards him and layed my head on his chest and threw my leg over his waist. “How do you feel? Are u sore?” Yea a little but that’s normal right? “Yea it’s normal, but can we talk?” The words I was terrified to hear came out of his mouth so softly but I was still scared for what the outcome would be. 

Yea what’s up? “Well I just don’t want this to ruin our friendship because I really like you.” His words sent shivers down my spine and a huge smile formed on my face as I looked up at him. Chris I like you too, more then just a friend. “Well good because I don’t wanna just be your friend”

I giggled and tilted my head. So what do you wanna be then I said a smirk forming on my face “well will you be my girlfriend? I know it’s kind of fast but I’ve liked you since we were little.” My smile grew as I placed a soft kiss on his lips. Of course I’d love to be your girlfriend Chris! “Really?” Yes really, I love you. “I love you too kid” I giggled softly and kissed him once more. Can we go get food I’m kinda hungry? “Yeah of course let’s go downstairs” he said as he stood up and threw me over his shoulders. Chris put me down I laughed and kicked my feet as we walked downstairs. “Bro what the hell happened up there” Matt said from the couch as chris put me down. Uh what do you mean? “Did you guys just fuck?” He laughed as he looked at us with a smirk on his face. “Well yea obviously I’m gonna fuck my girlfriend” Chris said as he placed a kiss on my cheek and walked towards the pantry to get snacks. “GIRLFRIEND?” Matt respond in a shocked tone. Me and Chris looked at each other and burst out in laughter.

:A/N! Okay so this one was kinda long but it took me three days to finish this one so please please be nice! I love you guys so much!

with love, mads.

[burntgender]

aight yea probably should do a lil intro post to pin woooo

current tag key:

- dommy/subby hadley: should be self explanitory, may be replaced with owner/puppy sometimes

- mine: original posts written by ✨me✨

- ye shall receive: responses to asks

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this blog is 18+ only!!!

my name is Hadley!!!

i'm from the UK, i'm autistic, probably a bit adhd, a freshly baked enby (non-binary), a bit of a stoner and like real fucken horny lol. oh and im non-monogamous and bi :) (or pan/whatever means you have no preference and will fuck anything that moves i just like the bi colours lol)

not on any hormones yet but i'm on the waiting list to be seen ^^

this blog is basically gonna be exclusively nsft so if you don't have your age in your bio or pinned post, or that age is under 18, please do NOT interact w/ me

given the inordinately horny nature of this blog i don't wanna be too specific with details about me, but here's a few of the things i'm interested in!:

music production!

writing!

d&d!

dice!

gaming!

sleeping!

cuddles!

frogs!

my really cool queer friends!

cars/driving!

doing unspeakable things to subs!

and as for the kinky stuff i rlly like, that's just below here ;3

cumplay, oral, breeding, freeuse, dom/sub, overstim and edging are my favessss ;3

runners up include cockwarming, hypno, brat taming, giving praise or degredation, marking, choking, spanking, collars, petplay, sexual worship, corruption, dumbification

voice kink (dear fucking god i adore making silly subs whimper)

putting large things in my butt, though my body makes me unable to do that often

Penis Haver™, but i would 100% have both if i could and may medically pursue that some day

i'm a switch and can exist on complete opposite ends of the scale at the same time and it gets very confusing sometimes but god it's fun

i'm ~6'3" and WILL bully you for being smaller than me ;3333

that's everything i can think of rn but i'll inevitably think of something later and update this post ^^

(no blood/ws/unsanitary pls)

[ghost-luvs]

jtk x reader.. the squeekle (chapter 1)

yall this is a part 2 to a rlly shitty (on purpose) fanfic i made on wattpad earlier this year.. this is honestly pure crack and shouldn't be read

As Jeff and (Y/n) got done doing whatever at (Y/n)’s now dead mothers house they decided to just walk back to the mansion. The pair walked back in a comfortable silence, but in that silence (Y/n) was thinking about everything, about how her life is totally different now. Instead of living with her bitch of a mother she would be living at the mansion with Jeff and the others. Occupied with all her thinking (Y/n) didn't even realize how quickly they had gotten to the mansion, before going inside she asked Jeff something. “Are there any rules that you should probably tell me about before we go inside?” (Y/n) asked, not wanting to accidentally anger anyone in her new home. “There's only really one, and it’s just a mandatory at least one shower a day rule that Slender had to make” Jeff said. (Y/n) accepted the rule, it does make sense after all, then grabbed Jeff's hand before walking in.

When they walked into the mansion it was surprisingly peaceful, until they were greeted by Ben. “The chick actually killed someone?” Ben asked, motioning towards (Y/n). “Yea, and it was a good kill too.” Jeff responded. “Well now that you're done training her and shit and she's allowed to stay here, wanna hang out. You've been hanging out with her hella long. Plus it could give her time to hang out with the other girls.” Ben said, clearly bored out of his mind cause no one else wants to hang out with him. “W-WHAT?!?! I'm not like other girls, you can't expect me to hang out with them.” (Y/n) screeched, clearly insulted that he even had that idea. “Why not though, you’re all chicks can't you guys talk about your periods or something?” Ben said, clearly not seeing the problem. “Ben we can hang out after i take her to the Slenders office, he probably has to go over some things with her anyway.” Jeff said, not wanting his precious (Y/n) to get into a fight with Ben. Jeff had walked (Y/n) to Slenders office. “You may be in here for a while since you are new here.” Jeff told (Y/n) in a reassuring tone, then he walked away to go find Ben. (Y/n) walked into Slenders office, to see him drinking from a mug that had ‘Worlds Best Dad’ printed on it in an impact font, Slender then threw the mug into the wall as no one in the mansion was meant to see it. “(Y/n), i've been waiting for you to come to my office, just sit down and i'll tell you everything you need to know,” Slender said telepathically. As (Y/n) sat down Slender got another mug, this time it was just a plain white mug, (Y/n) thought about asking about the first mug but decided against it. “If you havent found out already the mansion is a living sentient being named Emo Hooty. It usually makes rooms for new members, however it has decided to not make you a room for undisclosed reasons. While you’re staying here you must take at least one shower a day or else you will be thrown into the fourth level of the basement for at least 6 hours. There are multiple forms of punishment, but as long as you aren't too annoying you should be fine. I will tell you more but I have to pack for my vacation.” Slender explained to (Y/n), who only somewhat paid attention as she was still thinking about the first mug. By the time (Y/n) had gotten out of Slenders office it was late, and she was tired as she had not slept since before she had killed her mother the night before. Instead of socializing or going and finding Jeff (Y/n) had decided to go straight to her shared room. When (Y/n) had gotten to the room she had hoped to find Jeff in there but it was empty. ‘He must still be with Ben’ (Y/n) thought as she was trying to find something comfortable to sleep in. She settled on one of Jeffs sweaters and a pair of shorts. After changing (Y/n) had gotten into the bed and passed out instantly. A few hours later Jeff had come back to the room to see (Y/n) asleep. So Jeff had gotten ready for bed as quietly as possible and cuddled up next to (Y/n) and fell asleep.

[borom1r]

2, 3, 7, 8, 9, 12, 14, 18, 20, 22 for lotr from the violence ask meme 😈

OK i have answered 2 already but lets do this thing fuck yea (thank uuuuuuuuuu!!!!!)

3) screenshot or description of the worst take you’ve seen on tumblr

look its not really a "take" but the amount of people who just post variations of "I don't like Boromir, he's the worst" IN THE BOROMIR TAG is genuinely insane to me. like have ur (incorrect) opinion but keep it out of the tag worstie

7) what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

uhhhh no one thank the gods. ive always disliked Denethor Because of canon. but i will say stumbling across the file index of an old LotR fansite + clicking on files w/ no preview only to find graphics thirsting over Denethor did cause massive psychic damage lmao

8) common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

idk 😭 i dont interact w/ the broader fandom really. i do find the way ppl reduce Pippin to Just a joke character in fanon insufferable tho

9) worst part of canon

BOOK!FARAMIR + HIS MIDDLEMEN SHTICK MY WORSTIE.

also ngl i do find the Aragorn/Arwen romance....... Weird. like I'm far from averse to "love at first sight" so long as it comes with the recognition that it's really more infatuation + true love takes work. and there's the fact Aragorn fell head over heels for an image of Lúthien, and Arwen's heart did not turn towards him until Galadriel dressed him up in elven finery. not to mention she was "not yet weary of her days" when Aragorn dies + has to die "whether I will or I nill" like she. wastes away? slowly alone in Lothlórien.

like idk [Aragorn kinnie voice] that's my sister, man but all that aside I do think.. Arwen deserved better? I like that the movies made her more active + I do wish she'd actually been there at Helm's Deep bc it would've been fun to see her and Éowyn bond but yeah. the vibes were off with that whole situation imho

12) the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

huh. does Théodred count? i feel like he's kind of a blank slate so fandom can just kinda run wild with him but i do genuinely enjoy writing him + find that there are solid implications for at least a friendship between him + Boromir (if not more). i mean, Boromir got a Rohirric shield from someone

14) that one thing you see in fics all the time

ok th implication here bein its sth that bothers me which thankfully i pretty much only read Aramir or Faramir/Éomer fics soooo theres not much??

i think the only things that RLLY get to me + they aren't THAT popular trope-wise (or ive been rlly good at avoiding them lmao) are fics that 1) make Boromir overly aggressive or 2) completely woobify Faramir

+ tbh the Faramir one bothers me more actually. that is a grown ass man and captain of the rangers of Ithilien.....................

18) it’s absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on…

HRM. again idk :3 <- blissfully not interacting w the broader fandom + only interacting w/ ppl w correct takes on Boromir + Rohan

(tentatively i need to start following more ppl i see some of yall in my notes + i shld follow. sorry im like a nervous dog u need to coax out from under the porch lol)

20) part of canon you found tedious or boring

side-eyeing my copies of the Histories. i need to finish those. eventually.............

22) your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

ignores?????? nothing i think (thankfully lmao) but i will say there is SO much detail in the films that it makes me INSANE. ik we literally just talked abt this in DMs lmao but i could sit n talk abt LotR costuming for fucking HOURS the films were SO stunning and the clothing alone reveals sooooooo much abt the characters i think its a super underrated vehicle for character analysis :3

[cuntyko]

alll righty on to the met gala looks that did the job... and did it correctly in no particular order ofc cause I don't have time to do rankings or anything... plus I would add zendayas look but I feel like everyone has seen both of them everywhere but yea she did the damn thing.

Taylor russell for Loewe

this is like renaissance art... Loewe? more like Louvre. like absolutely sickening

Erykah Badu for Comme Des Garçons

duh... ok at first I didn't like it with the theme.. but then I thought about it and like sure its not giving fairytale princess but that's not Badu so her wearing something from rei a more avant grade designer is like her way of fitting with the theme so I appreciate that... plus I really like the look

Teyana Taylor for The Blonds

YES! YES! YES!!! like her cavaliers benchwarmer ex husband had to admit she looked drop dead gorgoussss no other words. im not familiar designer but it doesn't matter in fact kudos to her that's dope.

Chloe sevigny for Dilara Findikoglu

she ate the theme down that's all I gotta say... this is what I expected to see more of like STANDARD

Sienna miller for Chloe

I love this I feel like it gives woodland fairy it totally encompasses her boho vibe its not that out there which is why I kinda struggled to where I liked it for like any red carpet atmosphere or if it actually fit the theme but again I do feel like its true to Sienna miller's style so ill give it to her.

precious lee for Bad Binch TongTong

again not familiar with this designer but come on do you see those wings the crystal details WOW just wow

Mona Patel for Iris van Herpan

gagged... fav look of the night period... idc idc and the arm pieces moved... STOP just stop

Dove Cameron for Diesel

yes... I saw how she her and her team came to putting this look together on vogue and I just loved how she described it I couldn't have said it better so im not gonna try. but this is again one of those looks where I was like yes read the invite and followed it to a T

Harris Reed for Harris Reed

again renaissance art... sculptural gorgeous both of these looks by Harris reed actually

Demi Moore for Cartier and Harris Reed

giving queen of hearts... yes I love the silhouette

Queen Latifah and Eboni Nichols for Thom Browne

I really don't have much to say about this one I just rlly like it its just soooooo Queen Latifah so yesss auntie you betta work

Eliza Gonzalez rivera for Del Core and Cartier

this dress literally looks like a flower petal and its just sooooo pretty.. I couldn't not say anything

Amelia Gray for Undercover and Messika

I really really like this look... I like how out there it is ... I think its like wicked step sister in a Tim Burton movie I think its really cute idk

Laufey for Atelier Prabal Gurung

pretty sure the theme was like sleeping beauty something something and this dress is deadass giving aurora slay....

Ivy Getty for Conner Ives

in love with this look and I don't have much to say besides that... miss girl nailed it

Jodie Turner-Smith for Burberry and Chopard

absolutely gorgeous and I love the all white with the dark eye makeup and dark blue accents absolutely stunning

Nicki Minaj for Marni

this is so onika and I love it she's like the kitchy fairy godmother like this is how I imagine her in the beginning of my beautiful dark twisted fantasy

Barry Keoghan for Burberry

ok victorian slayyyy and I love the brown velvet and the silver details yess.

Jessica Biel for Ralph and Cartier

again... aurora slay its really about the color and the hair with this look for me... do I digggg the feathers? no but idk it works for the theme

Lana Del Rey for Alexander McQueen

YESSSSSS motherrrrr y'all should know by now I loveee me some Alexander McQueen baby and the lil rose touch... yes a lot of people where just throwing flowers on their looks just to "be on theme" but you can tell this is intentional it works here and she deadass is giving woodland storybook princess

lil nas x for Luar

I really like this look and the draping and the silhouette I think it looks very posh like a wedding cake topper... honestly one of my favorite looks from him... ever

Nelly korda for Oscar del la Renta

at first I thought maybe this dress was too busy and it made it look like a grandma dress HOWEVER I do kinda like how cooky and kitchy this looks maybe I would put the hair up but other than that I kinda diggg this look

Elle Fanning for Balmain and Cartier

Gorgeous regal wow and the shoulders they look like birds pulling cinderella dress up as she was getting ready or whatever... and I love how theres no necklace cause it totally wouldve distracted from this beautiful dress.

Aurora James for Ana Khouri

I diggg the drapery like Taylor Russell and the wood bodice and the wooden jewelry such a nice touch but this definitely is giving renaissance art

[synthetic-sonata]

i just consumed so much sparklecare content and made an au of my oc pink . say hi to razzle (b) dazzle(d)! he is now everyone elses problem.

more info under da cut

he's very similar to uni in some ways, and that isn't intentional i've had pink for a WHILE. they would b good friends tho. i gave him mega-sads instead of ultra mega-sads ( normalest sentence ) just to differentiate. Bc i do not want ppl to call him a clone of uni they are very much diff people just with the same sort of outward flavor.

speaking of which he probably has more afflictions i just didnt know how to sparklecare-ify having ADHD and probable BPD. nor did i rlly want to make terms for it. likely has a physical affliction as well before coming to the hospital i just didn't know what to give him

he has two prosthetics! one prosthetic arm, one leg. yes, this obviously means those two limbs were removed from him somehow. most people assume and theorize the staff at sparklecare did this during a surgery, but... pink gets very dodgy about this topic and never answers it in a clear way.

due to him being very sociable and easy to get along with he's friends with most patients . sort of like a Hospital Celebrity. he's known and he's cool and he's chill so ppl like him.

also i'm not sure if it matters but the bro and scatterbrained art is pulled from the official website, which is prob obvious

his favorite holidays are palentines day and kissmas and its obvious. loves anything associated with love and that whole aesthetic.

either has the default rainbow armband or the ITP band ( he's usually pretty compliant .. mostly out of fear. he does and will join or help escape attempts sometimes tho )

sleeps a lot. possibly narcolepsy possibly just not that ( like. napping a lot or depression naps or naps bc hes dissociating and or understimulated. )

more traits that fit him that i couldn't fit in da sheet:

creative

he's often found doodling idly or singing and making music in his spare time. he's expressed a desire to become an idol or an actor in his future. ( referencing how canon pink/razz is an idol robot lol )

sleazy/flirtatious

honestly this one is a give or take but it's a trait he eventually has. he definitely flirts with people often and casually. whether or not he actually sleeps around is a give or take though because i can see it either way, but, probably. he has an Allure to him. and he's. hypersexual so i mean yea.

egotistical/self-absorbed

this one isn't super bad, but he hypes himself up a lot and compliments himself casually. it's mostly to make him feel better about himself... but he does sometimes put other people down in order to put him up. it's always jokingly, at least... mostly, but it can become a problem later down the line. it doesn't feel good to be called lesser to someone!

tech-savvy

he's probably edited videos and audio a lot. and is or wanted to be a streamer/youtuber.

outgoing/extroverted

outgoing and affectionate are sort of hand in hand for pink. although, he has a very high social battery.... somehow, and is always around people or talking to him. he's also pretty impulsive.

affectionate

sometimes overly so. he'll even be affectionate or call people nicknames who he really should be at odds with - this includes staff. he's incredibly chill with most of the staff, or at least seems to be... giving them all nicknames and talking with them as if they were casual friends ( they aren't ). or it's to annoy them. it's not really clear with razz, ever.

presumably, this is a bad way of coping with how shitty people treat him by acting as if they're his friends - or something.

sensitive ( if you told razzy you hated him or smth he'd take it super personally but he'd come off as not offended but he'd think about it way too much. surprisingly he doesn't do this with like threats. he's numb to threats almost entirely )

conflict avoidant ( mostly explained in chill but they prob should be separate things there just wasnt enough space lol )

soda/sweets junkie

juvenile

he casually swears a lot and says a lot of sex jokes or things like that. Very casually, once again.

dissociative

his response to anything traumatic is usually just being really zoned out and dissociative after - due to this people think he doesn't really have a proper response to trauma. he does! people just don't think the zoning out counts as one! he has others, but he tries to hide any other trauma response for when he's alone.

fear of hospitals/medical stuff/etc

surprisingly, this didn't happen after being admitted to sparklecare, but it very much didn't help. goes hand in hand with claustrophobia and a lot of other fears he won't admit to. he's gotten numb over time. it still messes with him badly, but that mostly shows in the form of him dissociating... or in rare cases, having a panic attack. he only really shows emotion when he's in very very bad mental health or alone. at the very least he has people to talk to - if he didn't, he'd likely have completely broken by now.

thats a lot of things and i could probably find more to describe him but yea. He should prob also be more saturated n simplified but ehhhhhh. My oc my funny my silly he gets to slightly bend rules cuz he isnt in the comic its fiiine.

( plus its kinda symbolic of how many people in universe would see pink as surprisingly mentally well-adjusted and fine considering the situation he's in, which reflects in him not being 100% saturated. but he is. it just doesn't show outwardly )

[juhaknyeonies]

soft tofu stew | choi chanhee (new)

summary: chanhee had been working nonstop and hasn’t eaten so you take it upon yourself to force chanhee to eat with you and take a break!!

genre: fluff

wc: 0.5k (509)

c. ch | masterlist

“Are you tired?” I asked watching him work on a new song. All week Chanhee had been working on it. “Don’t you wanna sleep by now?”

“Yea but,” He paused his work but something started glitching and he began to panic a little bit hearing aggressive clicked from his mouse. “I have to keep working.”

“You don’t always have to work. You can take a short break for a while.” I told him sitting on his bed while watching him fix what was glitching from across the room. He was very busy working at his desk.

“Chanhee you need a break!” I got up and moved his chair over to his bed while he tried to move it toward his desk but I blocked the way of the wheels pushing it towards his bed. “Just cuddle with me for a little bit your always working and I care for you.”

“You’ve been working nonstop when was the last time you ate?” I asked. He didn’t answer.

“Last night..?” He hesitated to answer. It was already 6pm. Instead of your original plan to cuddle with him in bed you grabbed him and took him to the kitchen.

“We’re gonna cook together!” I suggested already grabbing out the chopping board and pot. “Come on, it will be fun!”

“Well what do you wanna make?” He asked. I thought about it for a second. “Let’s make soondubu jjigae!” I answered. Grabbing out soft tofu and the other ingredients. (soondubu jjigae - soft tofu stew (its rlly good u guys should try it i love soft tofu))

Chanhee had cut up the mushroom and scallions that went into the soup while I prepared the soup base. Adding in the chili paste, oyster sauce and other ingredients I stirred it together while Chanhee put in the cut up ingredients.

“Do you wanna put the tofu in?” He asked, “Yes! I love this part.” I scooped the tofu into the stew. It smelled so good. I was practically watering at the mouth at how good it looked. Chanhee had prepared rice bowls for the both of us and placed it on the table. When the stew was done I grabbed it and placed it on the table.

“It tastes so good,” I put a spoon in my mouth. “Yea it’s really good” He agreed. “It’s nice getting up and not being on your computer for the entire day right?” I asked. “Yeah, this was really fun.” He said

“Thank you,” A blush appeared on my face when he said that. “Anyways Chanhee you can’t just have one meal per day! Its not good for you,” I expressed my concern for him. “Don’t worry I promise to eat next time.” He said

I extended my pinky out to him, “Pinky promise,” I said. Our pinkies interlinked. “Well now you can’t break it otherwise your tongue will get cut off!”

“How will I be able to sing? You won’t be able to hear my angel like voice?” He questioned it. “Well, you’ll just have to keep that promise to prevent that,” I answered giggling a bit.

[icedmetaltea]

Making some progress this week!

Was able to begin doing little 5 min toning vids this week, might not seem like much but considering how out of shape and out of practice with exercise I am it's a lot.

I have felt like NAPPING multiple times this week, which is I haven't felt compelled to do since Fall- I assumed it was cause of the cool weather but now I think it's the exercise. Maybe I'll be able to drink green tea again! EVENTUALLY!!!

Want to work up to doing 30 mins of cardio like I could in highschool and considering 5 mins is enough to get me out of breath and I've specifically been doing strength stuff since it gets your heart rate up a bit but not nearly as much as cardio to ease myself back into things, it's going to be a long way from now. But honestly any kind of exercise should be very very good for the anxiety.

Did 20 mins of walking the past WEEK which again is rlly great, couldn't walk for 5 mins without getting out of breath and anxious just a couple weeks ago (guessing it was the PMDD but still) and by gods it does help with my mood and I think sleep too since I haven't been having as hard of a time... but I am due to PMS soon so maybe I'm getting my hopes up too high and too fast.

Also been 3 weeks straight that I've brushed my teeth and TMI but for like a year I'd brush them once or twice a week cause it just didn't seem worth it to take care of my body.

Still not able to fully walk around the courtyard cause last time I thought I'd have to run back to the apartment but instead I've been walking in different directions (only a couple feet mind you) so I can begin increasing the "safe" range hopefully. I assume that's progress?? It's definitely nice weather, we got some rain this past week so the grass is finally green again. ALSO been getting out every single day, even for 1 min, the past 2 weeks straight I think. Which is AMAZING considering even like 2-3 months ago I straight up couldn't go outside.

I've also had a couple of nightmares this week after not having any (that I can remember) for literal years, which might sound like a bad thing, but I think it may be therapy is beginning to dig up stuff that's been dormant. Religious trauma mainly most likely.

Been just cooking a lot and singing a bit here and there, and that's generally an indicator I'm doing better.

Know that I know I have adhd, but figuring out small ways to accommodate myself (chopping up veggies and freezing them, both cause I have time blindness and forget about basically veggies till they're rotten and cause if I have them pre-chopped I'm more likely to reach for them, walking in chunks of 5 mins at a time since it doesn't feel nearly as awful as a nonstop 20 min + doing something like cooking/cleaning while I walk, etc)

ALSO idk if I mentioned it but realized I've officially dropped 20 pounds since this time last year!! I still have about 40 to go but it's a big step for me. I gave up on my diet since like december since my mental health was going to such shite, but I realized I've been losing weight without even meaning to just by eating healthier and walking more. I literally thought I was dying + had cancer but um. You can just lose weight unintentionally by eating things that are lower calorie and moving more. You don't have to count every calorie. You don't have to do cardio. It's actually quite a natural process.

So yea just progress report!