#yay trauma response

[redbullgivesyouwingedkuriboh]

aaaaaaaand cue the 11 pm rambling.

the thing that fucks me up about seto kaiba is how he just. takes what he thinks he deserves. and how he looks down on those who don’t.

like here’s the similarities between me and kaiba:

- very protective of anyone that we view as needing it

- adopted

- make the best out of our situations

the difference on that last one is how we do it. i do it through ruthless optimism and pushing myself to be better every day. kaiba does it by climbing over people that he perceives to be in his way and using them as metaphorical rungs in the ladder of life.

also: r.e. joey: the reason kaiba hates joey so much is what I said above— joey doesn’t take selfish opportunities and basically does everything he does for the comfort and satisfaction of other people. kaiba was willing to gain what was probably pennies to him in duelist kingdom just to prove his title and the whole reason joey was fighting was for his sister. of course kaiba hates joey— he doesn’t understand why joey is still so low in society with the amount of dueling talent joey has.

kaiba looks at joey and sees what he could have been had he not gotten gozaburu to adopt him and then taken over kaiba corp. i’m not saying he’s right for how he treats joey, but I think it’s a little justified in a fucked up way. like, had kaiba not seized every opportunity, he would still have been in the orphanage when the show started. (idk how orphanages work in japan bear with me) he thinks that joey is too selfless and it’s hurting him. in some ways, that makes joey and kaiba perfect foils: joey, too selfless, and kaiba, too selfish.

so I don’t blame kaiba for not liking joey. I think his treatment of him is unfair and I think it’s kaiba taking his anger and trauma out on the closest available emotional punching bag, but I understand it. (i used to do that a lot to my adoptive parents because i think I saw them as the cause of my situation, even though they never did anything to intentionally hurt me.)

he needs SO MUCH therapy, though. #getkaibatherapy2023 (i do, too, but I acknowledge that and I’m working on my issues.)

I also think Kaiba had to grow up way too fast, which is actually pretty common in adopted kids. we either 1. strike out against our adoptive parents because we’re angry at losing our family or 2. conform so neatly to our new family that we fail to realize that we are separate entities from our parents. obviously those are the two extremes. kaiba is one of those cases that sits at both ends. he systematically destroys his adoptive father while also becoming so much like him that even kaiba doesn’t notice what he’s become.

…

…

I know we make fun of kaiba every time he smiles “oh no, kittens are dying” but there’s nuance to that.

…

…

does kaiba treat smiles as a reward?

I know I used to.

…

…

and if kaiba is anything like me

(which he is)

(I see a lot of myself in him, which scares the hell out of me while simultaneously comforting me because maybe I have a chance, right?)

then the love of his little brother is a privilege that he will never take for granted. in fact, he’s so scared of losing it that mokuba is his one weakness. if someone threatens my family, I come out swinging.

…

anyway, thanks kazuki takahashi for giving this little adoptee someone other than Annie to look up to.

goodnight.

[hazbinsponsoredbyvee]

Hey I’m back!

My 1st question is for Charlie:

Do you and your dad ever do any bonding rituals now that he’s actively in your life again?

For Lucifer:

Care to explain why you fucked off outta Charlie’s life for so long? 🫵🏻 🎤

"Oh, sure! He participates in hotel activities sometimes, which are always a great bonding experience!"

"I didn't... mean to 'fuck out' of her life. I just... got caught up in my own head, I guess. All I could see were all the ways that I wasn't enough, and it hurt to look at, so I hid. I'd never intended to fade out of her life - I'd never wanted that! But as the gap between us became larger, it became more difficult to bridge, and... I just found it easier to focus on the things that were in front of me. Figured that if she wanted to see me, she would reach out. And I know that sounds terrible, and believe me, I hate myself for it, but I didn't even realize how much time had passed until it was too late."

[etheluu]

going through some gender identity crisis

[mxscorpio]

i have a meeting with one of my teachers in half an hour to discuss disability accommodations and i'm going to explode from anxiety. she's so nice and we're going to talk about ways to keep me studying, why do i feel like i'm in high school again in a bad way??

[silkysoftie]

𝐛𝐨𝐫𝐧 𝐭𝐨 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞, 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐚𝐤𝐞

laito sakamaki x female reader

summary: in which laito explores his cruel behavior, questioning why he treats you as mere prey. perhaps you’re more than that…

↳ warnings: 18+, nsfw, pleasure dom x sub themes, tears, pet names, unprotected sex, light degradation, sa & trauma mentioned (aged up characters)

a/n: i definitely spent way too much time trying to perfect this…but anyways, yay! first fic!

Desire blurs the edges of Laito’s vision as he watches you squirm and pant beneath him, obsessed with each twitch of your thighs and furrow of your brow. Weakly, your trembling hands reach out for him, seeking his comfort as you ride out the rolling waves of pleasure he provides.

He knows he should punish you for it, but, for some reason, he’s feeling rather generous tonight, taking your delicate hands into his own.

In the past he might’ve humiliated you, but the watery tears welling up in your glossy, unfocused eyes make him think twice.

Actually, as of late, he’s grown rather tired of degrading someone so sweet and undeserving like he’s been taught to, his heartless facade slowly melting away thanks to your unwavering devotion.

How can he go on treating you as though you were merely his prey, created for nothing more than his own pleasure? Though it makes him uneasy, his heart tells him you’ve become much more than that.

Laito gazes down at you longingly, that bright, pink blush he so loves decorating your cheeks as you whimper and cry for him.

How can he so mercilessly continue to take from you, when he himself endured the very same theft in his youth? Forced to give his innocence to another over and over until he’d turned into the very monster he once feared. Perhaps he deserved it, wretched creature of the night that he is.

But you… you are too precious, too soft, too important.

Names like “bitch” and “slut” used to fall so easily from his lips, but not tonight. Tonight you’re his baby and he wants you to know it.

His hips begin rolling into you at a torturously slow pace, your breath stuttering as frustrated tears finally spill out over your lash line and down your flushed cheeks.

It’s with a coo of endearment that the words “My poor little girl,” slip from between Laito’s lips.

The needy whine you let out in response elicits a groan of pure desire from him.

“More.. p-please…” you mumble shyly, hiccuping through broken sobs.

If his heart could beat it would be thundering.

Feeling uncharacteristically flustered, Laito rakes a hand through his tousled hair before leaning down to kiss you tenderly.

“Whatever you want, Sweetheart.”

He’s tired of taking from you, this time he’s going to give.

For the rest of the night, Laito focuses on nothing but your pleasure, determined to draw every possible sound from you.

Honoring your request, he sets a brutal pace, his hips snapping into you with bruising force as he fills you to the brim. Maneuvering you so that your knees are bent against your chest allows him to bury his cock as deep inside of you as possible, pulling appreciative mewls from your throat.

Before long, you’re a whining, drooling mess, pitiful little moans leaving you with each thrust of his cock into your sopping core. Obscene sounds echo off the walls, the air growing heavier as the heady smell of sex invades your nose.

Sensing your impending climax, Laito reaches a hand between your legs and, with deft fingers, begins circling your clit, trying his best not to get too distracted by the view of your messy pussy swallowing him so eagerly. The sight alone is enough to finish him off, but he holds back. This is about you.

Grounding himself, he leans down to drag his mouth along your exposed neck, fangs teasing your heated skin as his breath leaves goosebumps in its wake. It’s not long before his skillful fingers, working in tandem with his powerful thrusts, are too much for you to bear. You can do nothing but cling to him desperately, tears blurring your vision, as you reach an overwhelming orgasm.

But this time Laito talks you through it, holding you close as he whispers praises into your ear. His hips slow to a stop as he cradles your shivering body, careful to wipe your cheeks clean and brush your mussed hair out of your face. He finds it surprising how naturally this comes to him, having repressed his instincts for so long in favor of cruelty. Maybe he isn’t such a monster after all.

After a while, you come back down to earth and Laito gently lowers your legs before sliding his cock out of your abused cunt, sticky strands of slick still connecting you to him. As though he were born to, he continues to dote on you, hands gently massaging your sweaty thighs as you regain your senses, blinking owlishly up at him.

Breathless you whisper, “But what about y-”

He cuts you off with a kiss.

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[kirbmey]

— teacher!jayce headcanons ( • ̀ω•́ )✧

synopsis: where jayce becomes a teacher after the arcane exploded and you play around with his head <3

tw: not canon, jayce (and viktor obviously) live after the arcane explosion, he’s 32 and reader is 20, inspired by lana del rey idk if that makes sense, suggestive, power abuse if you squint, trauma mentions, etc.

teacher!jayce who you met in your first class of rune knowledge, finding his broad shoulders and tall frame attractive since minute one.

teacher!jayce who never bothered to cut his hair or even shave after the incident, too busy studying ways to understand what happened that day.

teacher!jayce who happens to be very messy when it comes to anything. his desk is covered in exams and projects ready to correct, coffee stains on the table.

teacher!jayce who gives you back your hextech project with one of said stains, giving you an apologetic look, almost resembling a stray puppy.

⠀ ⠀ 　　　“that’s okay, professor, don’t you worry.” you reassured the man with a manicured hand covering his shoulder, giving him a little squeeze that he ended up noticing.

⠀ ⠀ 　　　“you did an excellent job with this one, i’m proud of you.” he answered with a tender voice, smiling wide enough to see the gap between his teeth.

teacher!jayce who you’ve heard never been the same ever since the incident. he used to be always excited, bright as the sun itself, lighting up every room he stepped in. the man of progress, the golden boy.

teacher!jayce who’s a lot more mature now, more muted but still a warm presence. people attach this to some traumas he might’ve developed in the past.

teacher!jayce who’s not oblivious on how you manage to wear the stoic academy uniform in the cutest way possible, having it sewed so the skirt is way shorter and the shirt way tighter.

teacher!jayce who’s just a man, at the end of the day.

teacher!jayce who gives you an special treatment; you’re his favorite, teacher’s pet, and he’s not really good at hiding it.

⠀ ⠀ 　　　“but it’s pouring outside! can’t you just make an exception, professor?” a classmate yelled from the back of the room, you rolled your eyes at his tone.

⠀ ⠀ 　　　“i am really sorry, but the council made clear that the classrooms must be empty during breaks.” he stated, brushing his long hair back while siting on the edge of his desk. “you may leave now, you should get going to the cafeteria.” he ended with a tender smile as he pointed the big exit.

everyone left the classroom annoyed by the teacher’s orders, and you were no different. while packing your things and making your way to the big wooden doors he stopped you by holding your hand, still sat down.

⠀ ⠀ 　　　“I didn’t say anything about you, did I?” he inquires, gaining a small chuckle in response from you. he pulled your hand so you stood closer to him, almost feeling his breath fanning against your forehead.

you locked gazes with him, starring at his honey-like eyes before pulling away. he smirked at your actions, bending around to grab the back of his seat and pulling it close to you.

you took note on how his biceps flexed at the force he made and how his thighs became bigger against the wood, siting down when he looked at you again.

during brake, you would be siting on his chair while munching on your breakfast as he looked at you sipping on his coffee, rubbing momentarily his leg against your arm as you both talked about banal things.

teacher!jayce who doesn’t deny you anything, not a good grade, he doesn’t deny when you ask to do the group project alone or when you request his help after class.

a/n: first arcane writing yay! ( ੭ ･ᴗ･ )੭ I’ve been a victim of the jayvik brainroot since s2, I can’t get them out of my head lawrd.

— masterlist.

[torglives]

this is in no way an official (tm) analysis post, but a ramble of my thoughts… i saw someone awhile ago say that the corruption can be a metaphor for some sort of dissociative disorder as a trauma response and i really. am just trapped in that house right now.

like pangi is the most recent and most peculiar case because he didn’t go through any full reset. and yet he experienced all of the symptoms. he did not “start over,” or go onto a second life, or become a new person, but his symptoms happened to him as he was, with all of his personal lived experiences. does what i’m trying to say make sense? and his memory loss wasn’t gradual, either. that’s something really interesting that we don’t really talk about. he more or less knew when he was going to lose his memories, but it was completely sudden. after the death of pedro, if we want to get really specific with it. it was a sudden blockage in his brain, and the memories were almost……. compartmentalized.???

they were not eaten completely, because he gained them back the other day, but just kind of… blocked from his consciousness.

the personality changes. the heightened aggression, the extreme paranoia, “regressing” to who he was “before.” does anyone understand me. acting out, unsure sense of self — in a personal case: not wanting to seem weak or vulnerable. the lingering effects of this on post-corruption pangi, who’s every version of himself he’s ever been. who’s been hit with all of these memories at once.

he had nightmares about the corruption. when he was balancing his options, cure or no cure, he was having actual, violent nightmares. he told aimsey he was scared, and it’s clear that he wasn’t only scared of the corruption but also the cure!!!!!!

one of his main hold-ups about being cured was regaining his previous memories too. can we talk about that also. the corruption was protecting him from his painful, heavy, memories. and he was scared of getting those bad ones back, even if they came with the good ones. he wasn’t sure if he wanted those memories, but knew that the people he cared about wanted him to have them. which is fair to them, because pre-corruption pangi did think that the bad and good memories were in equal parts important.

to go on a tangent: im sure everyone here already knows all of this. but i saw a lot of people be really strange about his behaviour after he was cured and it confused me, because he obviously can’t immediately go back to who he was before. not theories, but just like… frustration that he wasn’t what they wanted him to be. tr/ls pangi didn’t up and dissapear, it’s him who regained all of those memories at once. i’ve seen a couple of people say that he was a dick to lukey for heading off and speaking with pili soon after, but genuinely like. is pili not the only person who gave him a genuine option. despite having his own motives, he did not let them entirely dictate his conversations with pangi. he didn’t approach him with a “it’s what you would’ve wanted,” and i don’t think it’s crazy at all for him to really appreciate that kindness. pangi gets hit with all of these memories at once, and everyone is like "yay, you’re back to normal now!", but "normal" is months of traumatic memories that you were scared to get back. is it not okay to have a complicated relationship with that? or what?

[jamespotterismydaddy]

Lord Husband (Chapter 7)

cregan x reader

A/N: yay more lord husband! (does a little dance) we're getting closer to the wedding and i can promise more trauma :)

series masterlist

word count: 1,182 words

You don’t find joy in Winterfell. You find a small sense of peace in its beauty but you are far too stubborn to be happy in the castle. There have been attempts at friendship. Sara Snow had likely been encouraged by her brother for her to try as many times as she did. You do like her but you also do not want to give anyone the idea that you may be settling in. This isn’t where you belong and everyone knows it. The servants talk just like the noblewomen that have begun to arrive for the wedding. They seem to enjoy the irony of your position, the fire princess whose heart is cold like ice. Perhaps the North was where you were meant to be after all. That is, if your life was a poem in a book. The servants also like to say that the fire in your hearth is always blazing so you can burn out your demons when you aren’t drowning your sorrows in the bathtub. The rumours always swirl around you. Perception is a fickle thing but you can’t bring yourself to care all too much, not when you know that talking about you is the most amusement they’ve had in all of their dull lives. Just a chance to look at your dragon would forge a story they would pass down for generations. You ride a dragon and all it takes for them is a glance.

Your family arrives today for the festivities. How kind it is of your mother to entrust her throne to your grandfather so she may attend her only daughter’s wedding. What a joyous occasion it is. You hear the murmurs as you stand next to Cregan in the welcoming party. You look tense and he notices it. You feel a large hand incase yours; you glare at him.

“It would be rude to let go.” He says softly as he looks ahead. You pull your hand from his grasp anyhow and he just huffs.

The carriages roll up. Your mother and Daemon step out first, a pleasing smile gracing the Queen’s face. It’s strange how proprietary causes you not to greet each other until the whole family is present. You just kind of look at one another awkwardly until your siblings walk up as well. Though, you find that little Aegon doesn’t seem to care much for proprietary. As soon as your little brother lays eyes on you, he’s running right over. He calls out your name before launching himself into your arms and you hold him close.

“I missed you so much! Joffrey has been such a bother since you’ve left.”

You laugh. “Oh, has he now?” It seems that the formal greetings have been forgotten as Joffrey comes over as well.

“I have not been a bother.” He defends and he lets you pull him in for a side hug. You didn’t know you could still smile like this.

Cregan knows he shouldn’t be surprised by the affection. It is common knowledge that your family was happy even in the isolation of Dragonstone, but to see you act so tender, it shocks him. He’s never seen you behave in a way other than cold and yet, your little brother is in your arms and looking at you like you’re about to give him the world on a platter. It makes his heart soften.

~~~

After settling in, Rhaenyra visits your new chambers with Baela, Rhaena and a servant in tow.

“Your rooms appear to be comfortable.” Your mother comments.

“They are.” You say in response. Conversation used to flow freely between the two of you but now small talk is all you can seem to accomplish.

“Your dress is finally ready. We were almost worried that the seamstress’ wouldn’t complete it in time.” Rhaena says, gesturing to the servant to bring over the gown.

“It will definitely live up to your vision.” Baela comments. 

You wanted something different, something new. You admire your mother’s style greatly but you wanted to have your own in your new home. That’s why the skirts of your dress are fuller and the sleeves more puffed. You will wear black and red to show where you came from but the style of the gown shows how you’re your own person. The gown still holds much of the King’s Landing structure so you can make the change in style gradual and it holds hints of how northern women dress so it’s more likely for them to copy you, even if there’s no reason for them to not copy the Lady of Winterfell. Well, you perhaps shouldn’t say that. There is still one reason. You are not one of their own and bringing in elements of how they decorate themselves will never change that.

“It’s perfect.” You say in a pleased tone.

“It’s more than perfect.” Baela cuts in. “I’ll be getting married to Jace soon. How am I ever supposed to top that?”

“You simply will not.” You say in a cheeky tone and she slaps your arm.

“The both of you will be more than beautiful on your wedding days, just in very different ways because you are very different.” Rhaenyra muses before she grabs your hand. “How are you?” She asks you and you know how much your mother cares about the answer.

“Cold.” You say. You aren’t quite sure what she wanted to hear.

“Well the warm months will come soon. Have you settled in nicely?”

What do you even say to that? Does she want the truth or the assurance that she hasn’t done something to ruin your life?

“I’m not too sure of that answer yet. It truly doesn’t feel like I have been here for long.” Perhaps you will ruin her day tomorrow instead.

“Things will likely fall into place after the wedding. Once you take up your new status, you will see how these things are for the best, my sweet girl.” Her words don’t feel like assurance as much as a command. Calling you her sweet girl barely softens it.

“Of course.” You confirm but don’t hide a single emotion. The irritation you feel is clear on your features.

Not wishing for an argument to come forth, Rhaena speaks up. “Winterfell is so beautiful and i’m quite antsy from the travel if you would be so kind as to give me a tour, sister?”

“Oh yes!” Baela chirps in. “You ought to take us to the gardens. I want to see if Weirwood trees truly have the faces of the old gods trapped in them.”

“Is trapped the right word?” Rhaena asks as you all stand.

“Will you accompany us, my Queen?” You ask Rhaenyra formally.

“I’m very tired. I think I will rest in my chambers.” 

You just think that talking to you pains her more than she wants to put up with. You try not to care as you take each of your sister’s arms but you won’t play nice to fix a relationship she ruined. You miss your mother but your stubbornness won’t allow it.

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[theophagie]

Re: The Millie Thing

Yeah yeah there's a chance that her panic has to do with her economic situation, or with whatever bad experience she may have had with Chaz and trauma be Like That even though she rationally knows that Moxxie is completely different from him, and they're eventually going to find a way to make it work out because kumbaya love wins blah blah blah

'Cause I'm (not) sorry, I hope fetus jakey gets aborted lol. 1) Because of the "Ugh, a woman who's not thrilled about her pregnancy embraces motherhood in the end? Totally unique, completely not ever been done before 🙄" factor. 2) Because I think that it'd be way more compelling if they kept building up Millie in contrast to her family

The show wants you to know that she loves her family, she loves her family so damn much, but at the same time it's shown over and over again that everything she's gone on to achieve and build for herself in life clashes with that part of her, with a previous part of her life

It's not an unbridgeable gap

But I think that it's interesting how it always goes back to that with Millie. Her chosen career, her chose lifestyle

And part of it has to do with the class angle of hell: her inner struggle against the notion of being "just a wrathian", muscle with little to no prospects. And. Yeah, her parents' attitude is a glaring indication that this shit is pretty ingrained and transmitted from generation to generation, and not just something that's pushed onto imps from above

Sallie May shares this outlook as well. Why should her cool older sister who left the country behind and found herself a fancy job in the city bother with her (just a wrathian, muscle who's never left the farm)? Which counts as consistency points from me: similarities between two people who grew up in the same environment, yay

But the thing with Millie's family, her parents specifically, is. It's not just her career that they disapprove of

And again, it's not an unbridgeable gap, but I find it really interesting that the other thing that the show (s2) really hammers in about Millie is that she's deeply insecure, and I don't think that it's just because she's an imp. Her parents' disapproval of Moxxie is mostly framed as "haha, delicate little theatre fan ain't Man™ enough to win over the rugged in-laws", but the thing is... by stonewalling Moxxie they're indirectly rejecting Millie herself. And it kind of sucks that s1ep5 doesn't give her any space to react to her parents invalidating her life choices, a lot, but I can imagine that part of the vulnerability she displays in s2 finds its origin in that, in similar stances taken by Lin and Joe throughout her life

And to tie this all back to the pregnancy. It's never been directly addressed, but little things here and there tell us (or at least imply) that she was held responsible for many things back home, and I'd like it a lot if that experience was another brick in the "Millie loves her family but fuuuck if she's outta there (literally and metaphorically)" wall. Because she has her career that she loves, her husband that she loves, her friends that she loves, and she finds happiness and fulfilment in what she's carved for herself

[whysoblue2]

Honestly, I'm just excited to see the Kallamar and Shamura co-dependant toxic sibling relationship they've got going on, I gotta know just how nasty it got at its different stages and how it likely ended up affecting how they raised their other siblings. I love platonic toxic stuff like this, I would ponder if it could count as Shamura being a bit yandere at some point during it but idk if you're comfortable with that sort of comparison and I don't know much about their relationship besides what you have told. I need the DETAILS, the DRAMA

OOOH yeah, their relationship is juicy and hella toxic in my HC. I'm not going to lie, it's bad, but I wouldn't go so far as being yandere. Travis is 100% yandere. Let's see if I can explain. Long post on my silly headcanon ahead! You have been warned!

Young Shamura god of war, ruthless and merciless. An extremist that has the mission to reshape the Pantheon as they see in their vision, over the blood and bones of other gods. This lil squidling god still didn't unlock the power of his crown and that's perfect because, to Shamura, that is a white canvas, something they can shape the way they want, also the lil shit can heal? A big plus! So they bring said lil shit on the battlefield and train him the way they think is right, following their doctrines and ofc it's really bad. I mean Young Shamura displayed the same empathy of a floor tile, only Kall's influence changed that as I mentioned in a previous post I think. Imagine the Trade meme with Shamura: I receive: The ability to love and care You receive: Trauma and life-long fear But as the squid grows up they realise he does have a personality, he is not a blank slate and he wants to do his own thing, he loves art, music, dancing, and all those meaningless things that won't matter in a war. Also, he wants to go and slay gods (and slay in general💅🏻) his own way! AND THAT'S BAD! Because after so many years fighting together, Kallamar is not just a brother-in-arms but the only family they have! The realisation struck: he was their beloved little brother! Shock ensues. But Shamura doesn't know how to deal with it outside tactics, strategies and warfare so to protect his little brother, they treat him like a war asset with everything that it entails. (I let your imagination run wild here.) Things will happen that will finally make Kall snap and unlock the power of the blue crown, turning him from health to pestilence. From there things will go smoother. Shamura will accept that he has his own personality/cult/followers, but that doesn't mean they like it. They most definitely won't like it when Kall starts dating disciples and mortals. Good luck with that one, Shamura, it's gonna be fun! Of course, this is in the span of centuries while the god slaying and war rages on, not exactly the easiest of times. How will that affect the way they raise the siblings?

As Narinder enters the game, Shamura will find the cat easier to deal with and they focus on raising him, trying not to repeat the same mistakes they made with Kallamar. When Narinder joined, Kallamar would always follow them in their training, terrified that Shamura would use the same extreme methods on the kitten. He is pleasantly surprised to see that while being hard on the kid, they are not nasty and they show care! Yay! (in the meanwhile, it will dawn on him - not true ofc - that he doesn't matter to Shamura anymore and that Narinder has replaced him. The fact he had to endure the bad Shamura for so long and when finally they were good Shamura, they didn't give a damn about him anymore hurts a lot.) Then Kall is responsible for raising both Heket and Leshy singlehandedly. Shamura had very little part in training Heket (she arrived as the war was ending) and none at all in Leshy (who had never seen war at all in his life), so the joys of being a big brother/dad are all on him. But that meant he would do everything possible to not be like Shamura! He could do better, right? Wrong! The backlash of this is that he is way too soft and understanding, to the extent that the young ones don't take him seriously at all, so they grow up basically bullying the shit out of him.

I CANNOT GIVE YOU MORE DETAILS! Cause I'm gonna write them in the fic 😈 Drama&Angst guaranteed. I hope that's a good enough answer!💙 Thank you!

[thenightshadowqueen]

Death for a Dollar watchthrough thoughts

Holy shit, this was unhinged. I loved it so much. (That’s too many italics, but I don’t care.) I’m kind of speechless; the number of times I actually covered my mouth in shock (usually because of Sam, but Tom was insane in this one, too) was staggering. I adore this play.

Anyway, I’m going to get into my actual thoughts instead of just rambling.

Just to start, ‘Death for a Dollar’ is a great title, so kudos to whoever came up with that

Oh my god, Hank and Gareth 2.0!!!!

“You don’t know what he did for this place.” “That—Tell me!” This is off to a strong start

“Where was your showmanship?” I love it when they work mini games of Change into the plays

Mr. Twilliger is an incredible name

“This is me being the bartender, getting the stories out of the customers, so they reveal things, and then they want to drink more because they’re reliving their trauma.” I mean, it’s a valid tactic to get more money; yay, capitalism! (sarcasm)

AJ forcing Tom to be musical… Caesar and Juliet, anyone?

I love that Luke knows off the top of his head how many keys a piano has (I’m honestly not surprised)

Is Sam’s hair a little longer than normal? Because it looks really good

“I got three keys, three teeth, three toes. I’ve been through a lot.” I love Tony the piano player (who was also referred to as Bill once)

“My mind can take an awful lot; there’s not a lot in there” I love him, actually

“You ain’t trying to seduce him!” “But I get bigger tips when I do!” Sam

Can I just thank whoever edited this for giving us that little shot of Tom laughing? Because I love it when we get to see him actually laugh.

I love Mrs. Prostitute (and I love Tom for including positive representation of sex work)

“This is what feminism looks like” West End Big Boys flashbacks

“My mum is crazy” SAM

Also I think my favourite thing about the microphones is that we can hear them laughing so much more clearly (brought to you by Luke, on this occasion)

I adore Sam’s weird little harmonica thing he does in western-genre pieces

Ooh, younger versions of characters being played by different actors; I don’t think we’ve seen that before

I love Sam being confused and Tom’s response being to start clapping

I love Sam being annoyed and retaliating at AJ with a bald joke

“I told my daddy that I was real fast with a pistol, and that maybe I could go and work in law enforcement, but he wouldn’t have it.” “No! No son is going to go work for the government!” AJ trying to paint his father as the villain and Sam trying his very best to make the audience like him… This is gorgeous

“Telling a man if he’s allowed to own people or not” okay, never mind, I take that back

I don’t know why Sam picked the Watson-clown voice, but I’m glad he did (also I love that the voice made Luke break)

“Many Fingers Pussy” Jesus Christ, Tom

“They thought I had the devil in me” god damn it, now I feel bad for Bill

Sam is so good at playing wide-eyed innocent characters

“God, I wish they had that law in America in the modern day” I wish I had enough faith in people’s judgement to wish that

“I didn’t know you could do magic” I love it when Sam causes trouble

I can never see a reference to a one-man band like that and not think of Mary Poppins

“I can’t wait to hear those four white boys do those accents” oh dear

Luke speaking Spanish!!!

You know what, that vaguely Mexican accent could have been a hell of a lot worse, so well done, Sam

“So you can work on a farm, or you can jerk people off” oh my god, Sam

“He offered me a job” and then AJ realising what it sounded like and walking it way back

Tom entering the scene and waiting for a moment to join in and then Sam just throwing him in without warning is amazing

“I work here jerking people off” Tom

“She said she helps people el secrete-o” SAM

“Hand stuff Jesus is okay with” Sam

I don’t know why the fact that Tom knows little bits of Spanish brings me so much joy, but it does

Holy shit, Luke speaking Spanish with an American accent might be my new favourite thing

I love Maria, the bank robber/prostitute

You know what, I get Bill; the little, slightly mosquitoy “yeah”s are alluring

Half-kiss!!!

“A beautiful flower turns to a crooked leaf” I fucking adore AJ’s weird little sayings

“It’s a well-known expression” and then the advert with the merch saying ‘more well-known expressions’

“Something went worse than wrong. It went really wrong.” Gorgeous.

Sam’s slip oh my god

I know I already said Sam’s hair looks good, but Sam’s hair looks really good

I already said it but I will never be over Luke’s Spanish-in-an-American-accent. Never.

“I’ll keep my hands moist for you” it seems like Tom like using the word moist (the moisturiser fairy comes to mind)

I love audience participation

I’m sorry, as someone who struggles with mental math, that quick multiplication from Luke was impressive

“Got a lot of spunk in you, have you?” I love Tom using his English degree to make dirty jokes (obviously this doesn’t require an English degree; I just mean that it’s a wordplay joke)

I love Sam making sure to bring the story full-circle, with Tony losing his teeth and toes

Jesus, Tom

“Have we invented the electric chair yet?” I looked it up, and it looks like it was invented in the 1880’s, so not quite, but it wasn’t nearly so far off as I thought it might be

“I’ma travelling electric chair salesman” … honestly, I’m not even surprised at this point

Tom is right; this is really dark

I don’t think Sam knows how electric chairs work (affectionate)

Okay who the fuck let Sam wink like that

“Well, I guess that’s the end of the Shoot from the Hip show” I love when they get meta

“What could go wrong with giving a southern American teenager a pair of guns? I’ve got school tomorrow!” Holy fucking shit; may I present Sam Russell, the king of risky jokes

“…when we faked my death…” I love Tom so much

“I think this is the first time we’ve used the principle of the unreliable narrator” I actually love this so much; this is such a cool concept, especially for an improv show

Tom is unhinged in this one and I love it

I love this so much

I already made as post saying this, but it bears repeating: this is BUS levels of insane

[couldeatthatgirlforlunch]

YAY I can bother you again! \:D/ /jk

Anyways I consider asking my favorite writers stuff as my therapy, so here I go. (Sorry if this is sudden or traumatizing)

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I feel so bad for saying this but I'm most attracted to any batfam member (adult obvi) when they are at their worst, Bruce and his pathetic angsty ass literally all the time? Let's make a Robin.

Angry Dick with a cheerful facade trying to just be Bruce's equal? Bra is unclipped.

Post pit Jason so angry and mercilless feeling betrayed (any iteration but mostly Arkahm knight) and vengful? Baby I'm yours.

Fanon Tim who is sleep deprived and stalkerish? I'll strip in front of any security camara in Gotham.

Stephanie feeling she needs to prove herself? Please let me top you.

Insecure about his powers Duke? Sudenly I'm a physical meta expert, please show me those abs.

Cassandra thinking she is only capable of damaging? Honey put your hands on me, I assure you it will be anything but unpleasant.

Damian after "accidentally" killing Dick? Hello my name is beloved!

Don't feel bad about it!! I'm just the same and there's nothing wrong with us!!!!!!!!!!

I mean, pathetic wet cats who would just curl in my lap and rant or cry while I indulge them and they become dependent on me and only me??

Battinson is my favorite Batman from the movies bc hello???? I mean I get it why people liked Bale but like???? A guy who's been traumatized for 20 years and got to the point of making an armour to fight against criminals unrelated to the ones that took his parents bc he got so sad that he reflected enough that he came to the conclusion that no one should ever feel like he did, and he would use his entire life to stop crime because people deserved better, even the worst criminals shouldn't die bc they can change or other people might be miserable if they miss him?? And he's ready to die for that!! He doesn't care!! And then he becomes a parent but he sucks at parenting bc he loves them but he never learned how to love?? BABY I CAN TEACH YOU

Jason at under the red hood or as Arkham Knight??? YOU CAN KEEP KILLING PEOPLE IF THAT'LL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER BABE, especially if you keep me around bc we dated before you died/got tortured for months/years, kidnap me, love me, make me yours, I don't think killing your pops is gonna help you feel better, but no nagging will come from me I SWEAR

Fanom Tim being so neglected by his parents that he doesn't think his physical and psychological suffering is important, the fact that he obsessed over his childhood heroes, putting himself in danger, practically deciding that he was going to help them, not bc "I wanna be a hero and I can so I should be" but bc "I don't have much to lose, we all need you, and I want to help you, bc you're all I have!!!" and caring so much that he tries to clone his bff when he dies, and almost dies just to bring his dad and hero back, bc he cares about others more than he cares about himself??? Baby I'm right here!!!!

ANY Damian angst, Damian sad over Dick, over Bruce, over Talia, all while pretending he's just angry, I love him!! Damian that just wants to make them proud!! Damian that wants to be good!! To be on their level!! To be powerful!! To be good enough!! I love love love him!!! I'm with you no matter if you're a hero, a villain, or an antihero!! Damian Wayne, you will always be famous.

Dick swallowing his traumas, his emotions, breaking down at any opportunity, feeling responsible for everyone and destroying himself bc of it!! His relationship with Bruce never being quite the same after he became Nightwing, but they still know, deep inside, that they would come running if the other asked for help, but they never do. And Dick sometimes doesn't even know if Bruce sees him as his son!! And he's sad bc of it, but he can't show it bc how do you tell someone that?!?!?!

Steph thinking she's never gonna be enough, that she needs to prove herself, when this feeling never goes away, bc it's more about you than others? YES YES YES

Cassie!! Don't feel guilty about your past babygirl!!! It wasn't your fault!! You're just a victim!! They even took your voice from you!! Come spoon me and you'll feel better!!!

You're perfect Duke!! You're amazing and cool and handsome and there's nothing wrong with you!! You have the most awsesome powers ever!! Now come here let me look into those brown eyes and lets make out.

Seeing characters that are just so unreal but we can relato to, watch them suffer, feel joy in it!! I'm just like you and you're just like me! Be mine!!

This is about DC, but I'm an invincible, the boys and Marvel fan too. I'm drooling seeing Invincible and Rex Splode at their most toxic or weak moments! I love seeing homelander, soldier boy and the deep being so pathetic that they HAVE TO make it everyone's problem!! On my Winter Soldier brain rot I was constantly going over and over again on the same scenes watching this man be sad and miserable and covered in blood and not having autonomy of his own body and being alone!! Of course I got sad, but we can be sad together!!

Anyway, I love receiving fun and easy asks like that (I'm unreasonably happy that you called me one of your favs), I closed the asks bc I was just feeling I little overwhelmed with anxiety, college, future and the amount of requests I was receiving even if I knew I didn't have to write every fanfic idea people sent me and can just write what inspires me in the moment, be it something people asked, or some inspiration that came for me from another place

[random-person10]

Warfare

I don't think I will ever watch this movie. I've seen reviews, trailers, interviews, and the whole song and dance.

As a Iraqi girl who's parents suffered the events, aftermath, and consequences that Iraq was left with during and after the war, and who's visited Iraq multiple times including within the past 2 years. This movie is as tone-deaf as it gets.

I respect American soldiers for one reason and one reason only, and it's because they were just a bunch of unassuming Americans who were chosen in their youth to go and risk any sort of future they might've had for a country who lied and chose to use them as pawns for things deemed as more valuable than their souls and the people they were fighting. These people's lives are forever ruined and there isn't even a justification for any of the sacrifices they made, they left the country worse than they entered it, and it's something they have to live with for the rest of their lives.

American soldiers hold more guilt than any of the actual people responsible for this war ever will.

That said, I cannot express this well enough through a keyboard, but I am fucking sick of watching Iraq and it's war be exploited for the 6th millionth time ever.

Go and fucking search a movie about the goddamn Iraq war and bring me one fucking movie that isn't about the American perspective. None. And that's pretty fucking rich knowing there is well over 20+ movies made about it. THE WAR IS BARELY 20 YEARS OLD.

The only stuff talking about the Iraqi perspective are documentaries, ones that no one's heard of or watched. And to be fucking frank, who's gonna pick a goddamn documentary about a sad country they know nothing about, when there's a movie about guns and shit with Bradley Cooper as the main character.

I've heard the American side and I truly grieve for what they've seen, but what about the children, mothers, fathers, futures, landmarks, houses, businesses, hospitals, and stories of the goddamn civilians in the country where said war happened? Destroyed with no one left in the world to listen to them or make amends.

This war has affected the Iraqi population so deeply that people are still trying to fix the damage themselves without any help from the US. While American soldiers got to go back to safety, Iraqis still had to deal with the dismantled government and destroyed land that the USA left in it's cool cinema-worthy tank tracks.

Warfare wasn't even filmed in Iraq for fucks sake.

Why is it that whenever we are told the Iraqi perspective it's incoherent and foreign? Why is it not simply just human?

If English is the issue then there are English-speaking Iraqis, there are translators, there are a million ways to get it fucking across. Chernobyl (Ukrainain) was acted in fucking English, I'm sure we can give the Iraqi characters clear and intelligible screen time.

And on top of it all, warfare also gets a spectacular cast pick. Ugh like what the fuck is the point anymore? Is the US running low on soldiers again?

How many times do I have to see the catastrophes that my country went through get acted out like it's some play by white men who usually get paid to play house on camera.

I understand the movie is trying to show you how bad and horrendous war is, and in some expensive and weird way it's Ray Mendoza's attempt at expressing his trauma to warn others off of war. But, I wished he expressed a trickle of political and emotional empathy. Instead, it's nothing new. It's just another Iraq war movie. Yay.

There are a million Iraqis who will gladly tell you about their lives during the war. They'll tell you every detail, every traumatic moment, every loss they experienced.

You can make a movie about that. You can go ahead and show Iraqis as more than dirty barefooted children who scream and play in one scene only to get bombed in the next.

[tiniestkitty]

⋆｡‧˚ʚ how to start an age regression / inner child healing journal ɞ˚‧｡

🌷 content warning: very brief, un-descriptive mentions of having trauma 🌷

1. find a notebook you'd like to use ! this can look different for everyone. I picked a journal at the craft store with a pretty design on the front, but you could also use a simple composition book, a notepad or you could even keep a digital journal ! I personally prefer to have two diaries, one is for everyday boring "big-kid" stuff, and the other one is my agere journal ! ૮꒰˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶꒱ა if you'd like, you can combine them, but i personaly find keeping my trauma-processing stuff off to the side is helpful to me. 💛

2. brainstorm what things you'd like to accomplish with your therapy journal ( if any ! ) and what you'd like to write in it. you could set light hearted goals to reconnect with your childhood, process scary things that happened / everyday stressors , or to just keep it for fun ! remember that you don't need to know everything right away, though ! 🧸

for me, my goals are to understand trauma and learn how to grow from it, but I also like to draw pictures, write about the tinier parts of my day, do some affirmations , and follow simple prompts I find online. I will also use it as a tool to track triggers , trauma responses and anxieties to help myself better understand why I felt that way and know how to ground myself better during those scary moments . I also use it to write down thoughts or things I'd like to bring up with my therapist. ( my parents finally got me set up to see a therapist !! yay ! I am a minor so she is a pediatric therapist so she's extra gentle which is so nice hehe )

3. If you'd like, you can decorate the inside pages and the cover with all sorts of fun craft materials ! I like to use stickers and wash tape, but if you don't have those, you can print some pictures out and glue or tape them in ! If you don't have access to a printer, you could use one for free at a local library or at your school. you can also use markers, crayons, colored pencils, or whatever else you'd like to decorate the inside with fun drawings or to make some little worksheets for yourself to paste inside . maybe if you have someone to look after you or a little friend, you can ask them to come up with some for you to do ! 🩷 I like to make notes for my best little friend, wimsy, through dms hehe ! ૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ ` ꒱ྀིა

4. you could make lists of things, too ! I like to list my favorite songs, all of my toys names, what I wanna do when it gets warmer outside, anything !

5. I find it helpful to make charts for stuff that can be challenging when having an icky day or feeling mentally unwell, like brushing my teeth or making sure that my pet chores are all taken care of. ( don't worry !! if I forget to give my kitty treats she will ask my mom hehe ! /lh ) I like to use a reward system, like if I brush my teeth two times every day for a whole week, I can have two breaks during homeschool. 🖍️

okie dokie ! that's all I have for now. hope I gave you some good ideas and tips ! this is all very new to me but I hope this was at least a little informative or helpful hehe . 💕🐰

[beifong-brainrot]

The tragedy of Avatar's "Funny Guys"

So... Sokka and Bolin are both "the funny guy" of their respective group, we can all agree on this. Now comic relief characters aren't rare in media and often they exist purely to be said comic relief, with little nuance or storyline of their own.

But Avatar strays from this rule by giving their comedic relief characters a lot of depth.

Both Sokka and Bolin have been through some awful stuff. They've dealt with loss and plenty of adversity.

Sokka lost his mother as a child. After that, his father left for a war, basically leaving Sokka to care for his sister and village. And, to his credit, Sokka took his duties very seriously. You can see how protective he is of Katara and the members of his tribe, trying to defend them even when he's clearly outnumbered and outmatched. This also bled through into his role within the Gaang, where he acts as provider, strategist and organiser.

As for Bolin, he was orphaned as a small child, forced to live at least 10 years homeless. His horrific childhood trauma leads to him lacking a lot in social skills and confidence. And throughout the show he is manipulated, used and, quite frankly, abused multiple times.

But we already knew that, right?

We've seen them in their respective shows and we've heard their backstories explained to us. They share most of their backgrounds with their siblings, so it's not a leap in logic to say that they most likely have similar trauma.

So, why is that their "angst" isn't taken as seriously as, say, Katara's and Mako's?

I'd the main reason really is the fact that they are meant to lighten the mood.

This is unlike Katara and Mako, whose roles allow them to express their grief and pain more freely, the creators going so far as to incorporate symbols of their trauma into their designs.

Katara and Mako's actions are often more easily related to their trauma. Because their characters are more obviously tied to their trauma.

We, for example can understand Katara stealing a waterbending scroll and relate it to her need to connect with her almost completely destroyed culture. We can see Mako have difficulties connecting with people and recognise that this is most likely due to his troubled past.

Sokka and Bolin are more... tricky. We don't always think about the in world reasoning of their characters. Often, we just assume that they're doing something to be funny.

We see Sokka insisting to be the leader as: haha, funny bossy guy. Instead of: damn, this kid has been conditioned to take so much responsibility for the safety and well-being of others.

We see Bolin bending over backwards to please Eska as: oh, that Bolin, such a silly guy. Instead of: oh, shit this teenager spent his entire life as a dependent to his brother so his decisionmaking skills and backbone are probably extremely stunted.

This isn't helped by the fact that these character's pain, distress, grief and sadness are often played for laughs. And yeah, often the scene is funny. But that doesn't negate the character's in-world suffering.

I think this is what occasionally can be quite upsetting to me when people don't take this character seriously because they're "only meant to be there for the comedy". Maybe with a more straightforward show, I'd take that answer, but Avatar leaves us these pretty obvious breadcrumbs.

Avatar is a pretty well crafted show, in the end and most of the main cast have their nuances and storylines that raise them above the tropes they're meant to represent.

PS: This is not to say that Sokka and Katara have the same trauma, nor that Mako and Bolin have the same trauma. Both pairs of siblings took up different roles in their respective dynamics.

For example, Sokka visibly takes up the role as defender, provider and planner, wheras Katara deals with the more domestic tasks (yay sexism). This shows in how their trauma manifests in dufferent ways. Sokka's need to prove himself vs Katara's frustration at her percieved "role" in society.

Mako and Bolin's past is more nebulous, but I would argue Bolin still played an important role in his and Mako's lives. Bolin is cheerful and bubbly, almost by design. It wouldn't be a leap in logic to assume that a bit of that cheer may be fabricated in order to keep going. Bolin's lack of personal growth due to being Mako's dependent is also a symptom of his trauma.

It also bears to mention that these character's competence is also often downplayed due to the humorous ways in which they fail. Sokka planned an invasion on an entire nation that would've succeeded had it not been for Azula gaining insider information. He invented submarines. While Bolin is one of the most efficient and powerful earthbenders combatwise (I'm tired of pretending he's a mid bender the only thing stopping my man from commiting mass murder is his heart of gold). They are not just haha funny idiots. Put some respect on their names.

Ok I'm done stating the obvious now.

[pseudosaprophyte]

now that we’re 5 years out from the inception of the dsmp and a couple years? from its ending? i guess? (it well never end to me but im insane) i really want to talk about the audience’s response to tommy’s character and how it reflects both in-canon views of him and a phenomenon i’ve noticed at large.

this is prob gonna be long asf

a big reason i latched onto ctommy so early on was him not being the “ideal victim”, something people have talked about in the past ofc, but i wanted to talk about the specifics of that. there are characters who go through trauma and come out worse off, who lash out, who brood or are mean or flawed, and tommy had that as well, but i think the biggest thing both in universe and out, was that ctommy was ANNOYING. from the beginning he was loud and disruptive and rude. he would grief and steal and fight and just be a pain in the ass

and to many, being annoying is a far greater crime than being “flawed” in any other way. people like a brooding mean man who’s cruel because of his dark traumatizing backstory, you literally can’t escape those kinds of characters, but a character who’s just genuinely fucking annoying? people want those guys dead.

there was a popular tumblr post i still remember that was something along the lines of “a character can be a murderer but they can’t be annoying” and i never vibed with that but i do get where the sentiment comes from. from a purely entertainment perspective, it’s way more enjoyable to watch a villain than a character who you just want to shut up, i get that.

but what’s so interesting to me is the people who watched the dsmp and didn’t like ctommy because he was annoying were reacting the same way characters in universe reacted to ctommy.

i always go back to his death, or rather the characters’ reactions to learning he was dead. post prison-death, people celebrated, people cheered, and they had never done that before when a character had died.

(take this with a grain of salt because im not gonna rewatch hundreds of hours of minecraft livestreams to verify this, just take my dsmp-obsessed word for it)

when schlatt died, kinda the original and archetypal villain of the dsmp that all others would either emulate or at least reference, there was that moment where quackity was glad he was dead and ate his heart, but i don’t remember a wide spread cheering-in-the-streets kind of response, at least beside that initial “omg yay we won the war”

when wilbur died, he was much more complex than schlatt as a villain, but he very much terrorized people during his descent in pogtopia, and blew up the country they just fought a war for. yet there was no cheering at his death either.

but tommy, the annoying ass kid who griefed people’s homes and started little fights and was loud and rude, when he died? MULTIPLE people celebrated

and this isn’t a condemnation of that, i think we’re far enough out from the dsmp to not have to moralize these characters all over again, i just find it fascinating

because that’s a response i’ve seen many times before, to many different medias, and in real life as well. being annoying or cringey is a far greater crime than being cruel or violent

during the height of the dsmp, there was a very large group of viewers who HATED ctommy, and i’m sure there are still a few but i (luckily) never see them. and this wasn’t just one group, it was fans of all different characters who watched all different povs, and still so many people hated his character. and i think that’s an interesting reflection of the in-universe viewpoint of many characters. characters who had either bad faith or incomplete views on him who just saw a nuisance and a problem that was finally gone when he died, instead of an incredibly complex, loving, and hopeful character, subjected to abuse at the hands of multiple adults, charged with his safety

ctommy is a loud, annoying, at times painfully unfunny teenager, which to me makes his story hit so much harder. he’s not a sweet cherubic boy who never did nothin to nobody and was whumped by the narrative, he was a realistic teenager who was subjected to abuse and trauma, and not once did he deserve it

(no matter what those cdream apologists used to say back in the day)

the crime of being annoying is an interesting one, and one every single person is certainly guilty of