#yasi rambles

[taeslarityy]

i need him to mount me. i need him to flip me onto my stomach, slightly lift my hips, and fuck into me like a feral touch deprived disgusting old man. i need him to make me sore and bruised and i need to feel his huge cock against my walls. i need to run my tongue up and down his lower tummy veins. i need to gnaw on his skin till my mouth shape is indented into him. i need to personally lick every drop of sweat from his body and be his personal cleaner. i need to bite and nibble at his facial hair and body hair.

i need him.

FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKUHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

edit if from candace.ffx

[yasisworld]

Yasi!!! Tell me more about the series All for the Game pleaseee!! I keep seeing posts about it and I'm really curious ;)

Oh god, are you sure you want to know more about the books that ruined me for any other books? I haven’t been able to read other books since then. I can’t concentrate, and nothing compares to them.

Here goes nothing: First, these books come with a long list of trigger warnings, violence, rape, child abuse, abuse, murder, torture, drug use, drinking (just a few from the top of my head). If these won’t deter you, welcome to hell. The are some subjects that are positive, I think: overcoming fear, standing up to a bully, dealing with past trauma, finding friends and family, opening up to people, finding love (how cliché, but it’s not cutesy love). 

This series has three books and is self-published by Nora Sakavic. Sometimes this shines through while reading but it’s nothing too major for me. She has a tumblr with lots of extra material that will kill you. So..

This is the story of Neil Josten, a young boy, not yet 18 on the run from his mobster father and his henchmen, who are trying to find him and kill him. Years ago, his mum ran away with him and $ 8 million.

The story starts with the last Exy game of the season in Neil’s senior year of high school. Neil’s team lose, but his coach thinks the world of him and has send a CD with his games to a college coach, who has come to see him play. The coach, Wymack, wants to draft Neil for his college team because they’re in need of a player. Wymack makes the journey with his best player Kevin Day and his shadow Andrew Minyard. Once Neil finds out his identity is out there, he wants to leave. Neil can’t meet Kevin, they have a history. But Kevin doesn’t seem to remember Neil (might be because Neil has changed his looks and name) and just wants him on the team because he has potential and Neil’s living circumstances seem to make him the perfect candidate. Neil, who was ready to leave town and leave behind his current name is obsessed with Exy (and Kevin) and having no other ideas or options where to go, agrees to joining the Palmetto State Foxes.

And thus, the story begins. Even though Neil agreed to join the team, he’s reluctant. He doesn’t trust anybody and just wants to play Exy for a while. But he’s also afraid Kevin might remember him, so he’s convinced himself that he’ll leave as soon as things get sticky for him, because he’s learnt that survival comes first.

What Neil finds in Palmetto is a deeply broken team. The team has two fractions and he’s in the middle, not belonging anywhere as the newbie. Neil has been a fan of Exy since his childhood and was trained to be a backliner as a child. But when his mother ran away with him, she forbade him to ever play Exy again. When his mother dies, and Neil is left to his own devices, he decides to play Exy again, but he tries out for the striker position and gets it. But not having started as a striker, Neil’s training at Palmetto State is gruesome. But Neil is determined to make it even if it breaks him.

Before the Exy Season starts officially, the Foxes learn that The Edgar Allen Ravens, Kevin’s former team, has changed districts and will be playing against the Foxes this year. Edgar Allen is the best college Exy team in the US, so this news is terrible for the Foxes. But also, they’re the reason why Kevin is playing for the Palmetto State Foxes, the worst college team of the US.

I can’t get much into detail, because I don’t wanna give away too much, but Neil does something that paints a target on his back and he makes a deal to stay in Palmetto for a whole year. And that’s how his story of finding a family and a place to belong starts.

Now, why do I love this series so much? It’s mainly because of Neil? Neil Josten is a closed off boy who doesn’t interact with anybody. His life on the run has taught him to keep to himself and not to make any friendships because everybody can be used against you if they have information on you. Neil has no idea how to connect with people and he doesn’t want to. He wants to be left alone and just play Exy. His only obsession is Exy and with it Kevin Day, who was part of a famous duo at the Ravens before he came to Palmetto. He speaks several languages (fluent German and French and some Spanish). He’s a clever but also clueless boy. He has still some of the money left that his mother ran away with, but he doesn’t spend it because he knows that he might need it to get away and to get a new identity.

Neil is heartbreaking. Everything about him is tragic and there are some parts of his character that I highly identify with. When I first read the books, he carved a place in my heart and hasn’t left since. I’ve read these books twice in two weeks, then took my time with the third read. After half a year I read them again. And at the beginning of this year I started reading them for the firth time.

The books are gruesome at times. Some parts are difficult to read and there are people who dislike them because they think parts of them are unrealistic. But I don’t read books because they’re realistic. The world of All for the Game in itself works and I just love them? Neil’s journey is so fantastic. It takes him a while, but he slowly starts opening up to the Foxes. The deal that he makes changes his life profoundly.

This got away from me a bit, but give them a read if those trigger warnings don’t frighten you off. It’ll be the best decision you’ll make, and you won’t regret it. Will the books break your heart? Definitely! Will you still love them? Most certainly! 🌺💕✨🌹💖

[taeslarityy]

GUYS WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ?? WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT ?? 😮

NEED HIM TO KNOCK MY FUCKING TEETH OUT SO I CAN FIT THAT AND BOTH HIS BALLS, EASILY.

dear hugh, i can take it. i promise.

[taeslarityy]

you know when your pussy just… aches to be stuffed? 🙂‍↔️

[taeslarityy]

look at him. LOOK AT HIM. he’s really so pretty, isn’t he? majestic. unlike any man i’ve ever had the pleasure of viewing. the greying hair that frames his handsome face. that prickly beard that i need to feel against my soft skin. the dull wrinkles that line his forehead. his little nose scar that i want to kiss over and over and over again. the little scrunch between his brows. those gleaming eyes that have seen so much heartbreak but finally have a chance to live peacefully.

guys..i miss him, tremendously. what i would genuinely do to see him on my screen again or even have one more gameplay with him. joel miller, i love you. badly.

he’s really so so beautiful i’m gonna throw up. i need to sit on his face because his back aches all the time but he just can’t stop devouring me and he spends most of his time worshipping my pussy (myself with his cock too) and he claims he can’t survive a patrol without the sweet scent of me coating his beard and and—

[taeslarityy]

jackson joel and gilf logan fat thick cock n hairy heavy balls

[taeslarityy]

i wanna use joel and logan’s big heavy balls as my beauty blenders 😔

[taeslarityy]

guys, why aren’t there more rimjob joel or logan fics? why? am i the only depraved ass eating slut on this app? it can’t be!!! please pleak i need some, like face pressed into joel’s balls and ass while he calls me his pretty girl- URGurg listen. don’t let me be shunned for this. but i’m eating it during the apocalypse and all!! well yes!!

just might have to let my rimming/ball/cock/tummy worship wip out of the woodwork!!😇😇😇

[taeslarityy]

UNTIL IT TURNS INTO A RAISIN!!!! i will actually suck the skin off of this dick and make his balls shrivel up like your fingers do after being in the water for too long. OOOOO GIMME DAT.

not him wearing my fav blue on a man… just add the glasses and it’s my fav man aka blue pedro!!!

[taeslarityy]

— SHARE 5 SONGS YOU’VE BEEN LISTENING TO

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, tag 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

thank you for the tag, my loves: @sweetpascal @evolnoomym @alltheirdamn <3

no pressure tags: @ovaryacted @mrsmando @guiltyasdave @strang3lov3 @pedropeach @pedgito @beardedjoel @joelsgreys @pinkplusfrank @iluvdeanwinchester @soft4gguk @coquettepascal @cinnamongorll and anyone else i didn’t tag who wants to do this, tag me because i love finding new music!

[taeslarityy]

finally put up my pedro pics my dorm feels complete again ‼️

[taeslarityy]

MY FRIEND JUSTSENT THIS TO ME AND SAID I NEED TO HAVE A LAUGH OFF WITH HUGH AND KAMALA I CANT STOP GIGGLINGWGEGWG. IM SUCH A GIGGLER, DAD JOKES HATE TO SEE ME COMING 😭‼️

[taeslarityy]

aurrr i love this i love this i love this!!!

thank you for the tag, my love @sweetpascal 🫂

no pressure tags!! hehe @evolnoomym @alltheirdamn @zloshy and everyone who sees this because i think this is very very fun <3

[taeslarityy]

going through my follow list and it always hurts seeing my old kpop mutuals whom i bonded so dearly with… and how they haven’t updated in one year, even two. i just hope they’re all ok and happy and loved!!!! 🫂

(am i the only one who gets attached to mutuals/online friends and it feels like a stab in the chest when they go MIA)

[taeslarityy]

if i see anyone speak about joaquin and say they aren’t familiar with his game i will personally pounce on every single one of you.. he’s been my man since i was like 2 and walk the line is my favorite movie ever made so i apologize i don’t play about him….

[taeslarityy]

need to be threatened within the next week so i can get these joel and logan wips out before classes start URBRRRDDDDDDDDDDDD I NEEDDDDDD them to both breed me with twins, one each biologically theirs 🙂‍↔️