#y'all also got a quote you love to use even though nobody knows it?

[lewyym]

Remember when in like 2020-ish Metal Gear Rising was cool again and everyone was talking and memeing about it

And how sometimes popular media quotes just become part of regular vernacular?

It's an absolute SHAME we didn't make "The death of a few soldiers is tragic, but nothing to start a major war over" into a saying

"I might be a little paranoid but it's nothing to start a major war over."

"Sure I have some gray hairs but nothing to start a major war over."

"Yeah it was a bit salty but nothing to start a major war over."

[profounddefendorcrusade-blog]

this song reminds me of uty

idk how many of y'all remember/know of brother bear 2, but "it will be me" reminds me of this entire game. I'll explain why

*** If you hear a voice in the middle of the night Sayin' it'll be alright It will be me

I just imagine that this would be something Clover would say to Ceroba to reassure her, watching a child die and all (plus, add the guilt of what she had done to Kanako and it feels unbearble). I can mentally picture her lying in her bed in her old home at night and thinking of the day of Clover's sacrifice, crying to herself. But then she remembers that Clover wanted this; they wanted her to be happy again and start over, and Ceroba would smile instead

*** If you feel a hand guiding you along When the path seems wrong It will be me

This message would be for Martlet. The lyrics reminded me of this quote of hers:

Even though she willingly left the royal guard and apologized for being scatterbrained, I feel like Marts would still need more time to gain confidence in her own judgement. And whenever she would feel insecure, she would remember to follow her heart (and not superficial benefits like she used to) just like Clover did. It would bring her comfort

*** There is no mountain that I can't climb For you I'd swim through the rivers of time As you go your way and I go mine A light will shine And it will be me

Clover climbing Mt. Ebott, and, post pacifist, finding small ways to reach out to their friends even after their body is gone. As you go your way and I go mine especially hits hard. Basically the others are going to a new life and a bright future (light), while Clover goes towards death (darkness). And the "light" is their soul, "them"

*** If there is a key that goes to your heart A special part It will be me

How special Clover made Star feel (not like a "nobody" but like an actual sheriff), and how he saw them as the child he never had (based on my hc but it feels pretty canon). These lines can also be talking about the impact Clover had on everyone, but I had to include Clover's impact on Starlo, just like I did their impact on every other main character (minus Axis, sorry buddy, not enough stanzas)

*** If you need a friend Call out to the wind To hold you again It will be me

The first line reminded me of Dalv right off the bat. He'd sure as hell miss his first friend, the one who got him out of his comfort zone

*** Oh how the world seems so unfair Creating a love that can not be shared As you go your way and I go mine A light will shine And it will be me

*** Past the ever after there's a place for two In your tears of laughter I'll be there for you

Clover's message to everyone to keep being happy, to smile and laugh and stick together even after their passing, because that's where Clover will be

*** In the sun and the moon In the land and the sea Look all around you It will be me

Once monsters finally reach the surface and Clover's wish is fulfilled. Enough said

*** There is no mountain that I can't climb For you I'd swim through the rivers of time As you go your way and I go mine A light will shine And it will be me It will be me It will be me...

(nothing I didn't explain already in these last lines, but seriously, I'm making myself bawl again)

[axailslink]

Drop him in a heartbeat

Riri Williams x poc FEM reader

Summary: You and Riri are occasionally fucking but what if Riri wants you to be more than that?

Warning: ⚠️I know I write for the girlies and the gays but this character does have a male lover too but y'all ain't gone see much of that Riri and the reader just talk about it.

"Dude told me he was gone put a baby in me!" You and Riri have always had some crazy conversations and this definitely is the craziest one yet. "Hold on hold on so he was hitting it from the back and he said what!?" You laugh as you sit up on her lap shifting your tiny shorts "he said- actually and I quote "baby you feel so good I don't want to pull out" like what? Bitch that means you tryna impregnate me" Riri shakes her head "so I pushed him off me he wasn't about to put no kids in me I told him dick ain't never THAT serious to me I got a girl if I want something in me" Riri cocks her and you nod confirming your last spoken words "you told him about me?" "Fuck yeah he's my boy and all but trust and believe don't nobody come above my girl he the side piece he knows that and you know that." Riri doesn't even try to hide the smile that finds its way to her face "so... If I wanted you to drop him for me would you..?" It's your turn to cock your head but she's quick to back up her question "Hold on let me explain just think about it I'm smarter, finer, and I know your body better." You hum "so what? This your way of saying you want to do more than just fuck?" Riri shrugs "I mean yeah I've been trying to date you for a while now. So would you? Drop him?" You smile down at Riri "if you're willing to commit to dating me and dealing with all my bullshit and my jealousy and my sex drive I'll drop him in a heartbeat for you. No questions asked." Riri can't help but stare at you trying to see some smile or glance that indicates you're just messing around with her and that your words aren't serious but there are no signs.

"Do it" you shrug grab your phone and call him up "we got to stop fucking around" you can hear the many words coming out of his mouth but it doesn't matter because Riri is watching you waiting for you to completely be hers. "Wait nawl it ain't got nothing to do with that even though that whole "I don't want to pull out" shit was weird-" you feel Riri's body vibrate for moment beneath you she's laughing you shush her and return your attention to the call. "Honestly man it's as simple as I'm tired of what you giving I don't just want sex I got someone who's willing to give me more than that and also won't freak me out during sex too that's still mad weird." He asks who and you look at Riri as she's focusing on you "don't worry about that just know it ain't you" you hang up and toss your phone beside Riri's head. "So you all mine now?" You shrug "like I said in a heartbeat but you know what this means right?" Riri sits up holding herself up with one arm while the other stays glued on your ass "what?" "You got to deal with it all you ready for my jealousy? What about my needs? Not just sexually but I love princess treatment too and I'm mad annoying" Riri nods "yeah and that's what I've wanted I know what I signed up for. What you tryna give the run down like you some gangster? Girl you forgot who you were talking to or something?" You laugh and roll your eyes "okay miss Riri Williams you are doing a bit much Riri laughs and leans up to peck your lips.

"I think I'm doing just enough but uhm if ole boy calls you be prepared for my jealousy." You roll your eyes and as if you've summoned him your phone rings and you laugh as Riri grabs it but you're quick to snatch it back she cocks a brow and laughs "don't be trying to hide it I done seen the nudes already I got those before he did." You shake your head as you ignore the call "girl shut up I'm regretting dropping him he wasn't much of a talker you talk too much." Riri rolls her eyes "well guess what? You gotta get used to this cause you are locked in you can't go no where." You smile "I mean am I really? Because if I want to go all I have to do is turn on the fan and your lil ass will be fighting with God it'll blow you away like a leaf." Riri laughs "okay I'll give you that you can have that joke just remember that joke later on when you're upset that I won't let you reach your orgasm." You purse your lips "now it ain't ever that serious" she shrugs "yes it is because why did you have to get personal?" You shrug and shove her shoulder playfully pushing her back on the bed "why'd you have to get all butt hurt?" Riri smiles up at you "damn would you drop me in a heartbeat for someone else?" You blink for a moment but you don't answer her question because how the fuck were you supposed to react to that?

A/n: Riri is always barking up the wrong damn tree but I mean come on it's pretty in character in my mind. She attracts people that are obviously not good for her.

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[thejustmaiden]

So out of nowhere I was tagged and quoted by a SR shipper for a blog of mine posted in August of last year. Talk about throwback but, hey, gotta appreciate that level of snooping. 😉

Back in the day I actually used to encourage discourse amongst Inuyasha fans- both shippers and antis alike- but I've since realized that it's a lost cause. But for you, @feministmetalgreymon , I'll grant this exception. Just 'cause it's been a while so why the hell not. haha

I want to assure you, however, that nothing you say will ever convince me that Sesshomaru and Rin are meant to be together romantically or that the story intended it so. Nor will you find any validation here. You can ship them for all I care, but please for all that is good and holy while I have your attention try- I mean really try- to understand why it is so many of us Inuyasha fans are so against this pairing in the first place (newsflash: it's not about ship wars), and why we believe a romance between the two of them is completely and utterly out of character.

For those of you interested in reading this, the blog of mine in question that the above shipper mentions in their counter-argument is here for reference. It's titled "Jaken = Rin's Dad?" I'm going to try and keep this short, but I'm also making no such promises. After all, I'm not exactly known for my brevity. haha Now let's get crackin'!

Like you, feministmetalgreymon, did for your recent blog here where you took screenshots of mine to address certain parts, I will be doing the same and dissecting yours accordingly.

[Snippet 1]

I worked with kids for many years as a teacher, and many people in my family have too or still do. Two of them happen to be just over 5 feet which is quite short for the average adult woman living here. I've also worked alongside many a women of short stature, and never did I hear any of them complaining of issues with their students having difficulty differentiating them from their own peers just because they were short as well. I'm sorry but that's just ridiculous. Kids are quite smart and pick up on a lot more than you seem to give them credit for. Height is not the only characteristic they look at to determine who's an adult and who's not, and it's foolish to suggest otherwise. So unless you're a babysitter who's still in their teens and/or who has very childlike features or behavior then I'm afraid what you're getting at is total hogwash. This is just another example of how you shippers offer nothing of real substance to your reasoning, it's only ever cherry-picking or strawmanning from you guys. Stop deflecting from the real issues please, because this certainly isn't one and only winds up being a complete waste of time for all parties involved.

[Snippet 2]

Okay, calm down now. I wasn't insinuating that relationships between parents and children can't change over time in terms of how they get along. Of course that's possible, as all families experience their fair share of estrangement and abuse. What I was speaking about was in reference to the overall dynamic between the two. Because a bad mother or father can still be viewed as a parental figure to their child even if say they're not in said child's life anymore. Since Sesshomaru and Rin share a healthy bond- and just a friendly reminder that in my blog I even said that he doesn't have to necessarily be labeled her father but that a romantic relationship later would still be inappropriate- I didn't deem it necessary to address what you brought up. Plus, it kinda, umm, misses the point?? Please, let's stay on topic. And it's not captured in the screenshot, but stop acting like there isn't a small part of them that idolizes their parents at some point during childhood. Just like you mention later on how it's normal for kids to have innocent crushes on adults that they eventually grow out of? Well, guess what, the same concept applies here. Kids eventually learn that their parents are far from perfect and make mistakes too. Rin is so damn young in the OG series though that we never even get to see her reach that maturity level.

[Snippet 3]

LOL! Alright, okay, so the "unbreakable bond" bit you're mentioning was actually me quoting you sessrinners. Did you not catch that? I literally spelled it out. *sigh* The whole point I was making is that shippers like yourself make hypocritical and contradictory statements all.the.goddamn.time. One moment you guys claim that Sesshomaru and Rin were essentially strangers and meant very little to each other, only to say in the same breath a few seconds later that they were destined to be together and their bond is like no other. I agree, their bond is special, but why must that mean they're going to fall in love?

That is the root of the matter here. Too many animes/mangas have romanticized this older adult man & young girl growing up falling in love trope that it's become way too normalized and widely accepted across the world- and yes, in some cultures more than others. Sadly, you lack the awareness to recognize how this all works. You know how we know that? When we see that you shippers are so desensitized to sexualized images of girls in the media that you share posts like this one below which *subtly* imply a future romance although one half of that pairing is still just a child in the pic and then try and pass it off as cute. That's like super fucking problematic and it scares me that you can't see that (or deny you do). 🤢

After all that's said and done, Sesshomaru leaving Rin in the village with Kaede is to me the strongest indicator more than pretty much anything else he's done for Rin that proves he is her adoptive father. It's so funny to me how you somehow see the exact opposite though. 🤔 What I think is happening is that you got yourself on some squeaky clean ass shipper goggles fresh out of your little echo chamber. Because I hate to tell you, but what you're fantasizing is what you want to see and not what's actually there on screen or was written into the story. I'm strictly talking about Inuyasha and the manga of course. [For the TL; DR version skip to the last paragraph.]

Parents looking after their kids is what parents are supposed to do. A good parent will do anything to keep their child safe and ensure they are cared for, so what he did for her by leaving her there was in her best interests clearly. Besides, as a babysitter, you more than most people should understand that parents aren't always able to be there for their kids so sometimes others gotta step in to help. Haven't you heard of the saying, "it takes a village to raise a child?" Which in Rin's case is literally true! 😂 Sometimes kids are even sent off to stay with grandparents and that's who raises them instead. Or maybe they have to temporarily live with an aunt or uncle because their single parent's job requires they work out of town 4-5 days of the week so they're hardly home. But that doesn't mean that the parents care or love their kids any less, and it's foolish to assume that Sesshomaru must have thought very little of Rin simply due to the fact that he made the decision to leave her in the village. Come on, y'all are acting like he abandoned her there!!

It's just given the circumstances Sesshomaru finally came to learn that Rin traveling with him was no longer safe. I also like to think it's because he wished for her to live a more normal life and to learn how to fully trust humans again. Plus, continuing to travel with him as young as she was would have proven dangerous and unwise. Now for you to know all this and still manage to turn his past actions towards her while she was just a child into a romantic gesture is what boggles my mind. Regardless of how you look at it, from my perspective or your own, Sesshomaru is in the wrong. Either he's a father figure who impregnates his daughter at the young age of approximately 14. OR he's this man she used to travel with who maybe isn't a father to her but who nonetheless basically rapes her since kids her age can't consent to sex with an adult. Idk about you but it sounds to me like nobody here wins with either scenario we're given. In other words, you should be just as mad as we are. If only one side didn't choose to forsake their morals they know we both have in common for the sake of a ship. Welp. 🤷‍♀️

I agree, incest is disgusting but that's not the only problem we have with this pairing. A romantic bond forming between Sesshomaru and Rin would also constitute as grooming.

You realize that over the years he visited her in the village that he brought her gifts too and essentially watched her grow up right before his very eyes, right? I mean, I know you do, but I really shouldn't have to explain further why pursuing a romantic/sexual relationship with each other is plain and simple wrong. And before you say it's not because he didn't have any malintent, please understand that considering their history and power dynamic up to then that yes this is still considered grooming even if Rin supposedly "wanted it" or "made the first move." Whether you consider him her father or not, as the adult who took on a role resembling that of a caretaker in her early life- a critical developmental time for a child- Sesshomaru is obligated to turn down any advances by Rin and most definitely should not initiate any himself. As the first close adult figure she's had in her life since her parents died, it's unfathomable to imagine how Sesshomaru could go through with taking advantage of this young girl who was under his care and supervision since they met. To think he could be capable of betraying that trust sickens me to the core.

This. Now THIS is how a parent/guardian or a similar adult caretaker (babysitter, teacher, etc.) talks to a child. And, in turn, this is how some young children talk to adults. You'd be insane and delusional to deny it! We see it in our everyday lives, do we not? From where else do you think our stories draw most of their inspiration? Yes, obviously these fictional universes have aspects of fantasy that don't exist in the real world, but so how then do you suppose we're able to relate to them? The reason for that being is because these stories are written by people for people, so naturally there are going to be real life aspects embedded throughout. Sure, a little escapism doesn't hurt as we don't need to take everything so seriously, but ultimately we all need to recognize that the messages in the stories we tell matter. Most stories possess a combination of both light and dark themes, but when it specifically comes to the latter we gotta be careful with how we tackle this in children's media since kids are far more impressionable.

So if at the center of a story we have two of the main protagonists whose mom is basically their same age and to top it off she knew their dad when she was just a girl and who just so happened to help raise her, wouldn't you say that's beyond fucked up or at the very least so fucking weird? Like why would we think it's even remotely okay for our children to watch this garbage?? Really think about it. Try and be objective for once and think about how it would sound explaining this storyline to an outsider who's never watched IY or HNY. Well, antis have tried this before many times and we always get the same reaction: Ewww!

Like I said earlier, if you wanna ship it then fine, but 1) please stop seeking our approval or trying to change our minds - your ship wish came true didn't it, so why do you need us to validate it? 2) even though it's not canon, respect that we don't support this sequel portraying pedophilia in a positive light. It's harmful af to not only allow but glorify the continuation of sexualized images of young girls everywhere. And I shouldn't have to say this, but just because this trope is popular as you say does not make it right. Lolicon themes in the media have been an issue forever and it needs to stop. Yes, even some people in Japan or "the East" would agree. Shocker!

We're pissed off and rightfully so because Yashahime's TV rating is 14, not to mention it airs at the prime time kids in Japan watch TV after getting home from school. That's Towa and Setsuna's age, true, but if Rin being the mom when she's like only a year older than them (please don't argue w/ me about the math- antis have so far been right every time with it) is straight-up disgusting and not something we should be supporting or endorsing. Rin's a whole ass child!! Please don't start with the "but times were different then so her having kids at 15 is acceptable" argument either, because we've already debunked that and every other single excuse you guys throw at us. Besides, how or why would you expect young viewers to know these historical "facts" anyway, especially if as you suggest fiction doesn't affect reality so what does it matter? Yet here we are, arguing over a fictional show in real life almost a year and a half into the "Sesshomaru fucks?" sequel being announced. My ass, your ass, hell all our asses fiction doesn't affect reality!

Look, I do apologize if the tone of this blog came off as snippy or condescending at times. I do not wish you any ill will, it's just I'm not really sure what you expected to get out of all this besides maybe getting on my nerves perhaps. haha A lot of you shippers have been desperately scrambling to interact with us, lurking in our tags, jumping onto our posts screaming canon and getting so defensive even though you sought us out first. We've been sticking to our tags, so how about you stay in your lane too. By the way since we're on the topic, have you seen Twitter or Reddit?! SR shippers there are the actual worst and many Inuyasha fans (not just antis) have complained of not feeling welcomed to engage in fandom spaces anymore. Shippers swarm them and scare them off simply because fans don't like your ship and refuse to accept it. It's pathetic, really. No one should ever be bullied or harassed just because they don't like something you might. We're all fans of Inuyasha, aren't we? So let's act like it. Yashahime on the other hand, you guys are welcome to that pungent heap of trash. Fans have a right to criticize it too, but if you like it then good for you, so keep on liking it and don't mind us.

I'm almost done, but real quick back to Jaken! Let's not forget about how the official Yashahime website- which came out after my blog, mind you- described Jaken. This translation isn't the best one available but it's the only version a fellow anti friend could track down. They do recall a better one done by a native Japanese speaker who was also an anti, and that member confirmed that Jaken is indeed called Rin's babysitter. So you see, I was right in my interpretation. In the original post I did compare Jaken to a brother, but after talking to others (some comments can be found under said post) I did acknowledge that he's more of a reluctant babysitter who's not related. And if he's not at least a brother to Rin, then he's definitely not her father.

At the end of the day, the creator Rumiko Takahashi has the final word. Which is guess what? Hogosha. 💖 Probably should've just started out with that and saved us all the trouble, huh? Good day/night to you.

Papamaru bids you adieu now. 🤞

[pennylaneforthoughts]

All right the English major in me is coming out to bat, and I can hold it in no longer because my whole darn Honors thesis is on Shakespeare.

So while acknowledging that this is all speculation bc we can't actually know unless Tom and Owen tell us what's up, here's my two cents on the weird Two Gentlemen of Verona thing Tom and Owen evidently have going on.

First of all, y'all should know that it's Hella Weird that this is the play that Owen can quote the first line of. And the reason is that it's Shakespeare's literal worst play. Like not even kidding it's so bad. It's an important play for Shakespeare scholars bc it's his first play, and in it you can see the precursors to his later, much better works like Romeo and Juliet. A sandbox of sorts. But especially in comparison to the rest of his work, it's Really Bad. And because of this, it's not very well known at all, and my Shakespeare professor actively recommended that we not read it for our optional comedy to study.

Let me break it down for y'all.

Basic plot is you've got Valentine and Proteus who have a very homoerotic relationship (if you recall Owen quoting the first line, it's literally Valentine saying "cease to persuade, loving Proteus") but one which is Toxic As Hell, for which Proteus is at fault, stemming from some intense internalized homophobia imo. Valentine leaves Verona, inviting Proteus to come with him, but Proteus is too busy with his fiancée Julia and says no. So off Valentine goes, and he meets the beautiful Silvia and falls in love with her instantly, as you do, but her dad doesn't like it much. Proteus decides he misses his Bro and ditches Julia to go after him. Upon finding Valentine with Silvia, he gets pissed and decides he wants Silvia for himself (tho you could argue this is out of internalized homophobia fueled jealousy) and purposefully gets Silvia's dad to banish Valentine. Sucks to be Proteus tho bc Silvia is Not into him and says as much to a disguised Julia who's followed her deadbeat fiancé and found him with this other girl. Silvia loves Valentine tho so she goes off with Proteus and disguised Julia to go find him where he was banished. Proteus doesn't like this tho and right before they find Valentine, he tries to force himself on her. Thankfully he's stopped by Valentine, but there's a really weird line where Valentine either says "whatever if you want her that bad take her" or "all the love I have for her is yours" depending on how you read it. Either way, it's not great bc it glosses over the whole non-con issue from like 2 minutes ago, Julia also reveals herself and then they go "oh yay we're all here now let's get married" and then Valentine ends up with Silvia and Proteus ends up with Julia.

And like, people have mentioned before that you could technically draw a parallel with Sylvie and Silvia bc their names are similar, and that it's kinda like Loki and Mobius bc Valentine leaves Proteus to go after Silvia, and there's the homoerotic implications for Lokius, but really that's where the similarities stop, and comparing Mobius to Proteus is just an insult to Mobius' character tbh.

If we're gonna draw Shakespeare parallels, we could make a much more compelling argument with Twelfth Night (the m/f twin connection is right there) or even Hamlet or Much Ado About Nothing than with Two Gentlemen, so it doesn't make much sense for Tom and Owen to have this inside joke directly related to the Loki series.

And not only is the play deeply problematic as I've illustrated above, it's also poorly written. It's a bad play y'all. That's why nobody knows it. So there is No Way that of all the Shakespeare plays to want to do, Owen Wilson, who has himself said that he has no real familiarity with the Bard other than a college Shakespeare class, would pick Two Gentlemen as his dream Shakespeare production. It makes exactly zero sense whatsoever. (He'd be much, much more suited for a role like Benedick in Much Ado imo)

We do know, however, that Owen is excellent at improvising and likes joking around and messing with people. So I imagine that rather than being a secret lokius joke, it came into being by way of an interaction along these lines:

Tom: So have you ever played Hamlet?

Owen, shook and kinda laughing: Nah, it's not really my typecast so I've never had the opportunity.

Tom, wanting to be encouraging: Aw I'm sure you'd be great in the role! Though I am curious, if you were to be in any Shakespeare play, what would it be?

Owen, wracking his brain for buried play titles from college like thirty years ago: uhhh Two Gentlemen of Verona, maybe???????

Tom, a Shakespeare nerd who knows the play, suddenly Very concerned but polite: oh,,,, is that so?

Owen, noticing the confusion but deciding it'll be funnier to roll with it: yeah I think it's a really compelling story. One of Shakespeare's finest works if you ask me.

Tom, visibly shaking and in a cold sweat: r-really?,,,??,

Owen, busting up laughing: sskdjskksk no not at all! I know like nothing about Shakespeare, cmon. I was Lightning McQueen! I just vaguely remember reading that play in college.

Tom, sighing in relief: oh thank God I was so worried. That's the worst one!

Owen, amused: is it?

Tom, going into professor mode: well you see--

And so it probably became like a "I'm pretending to be pretentious and cultured" sort of inside joke that played a part in their bonding as coworkers and snuck its way into the documentary bc they thought it'd be funny, and they were right. Tbh the way they talked about it sounded a lot like my and my friends riffing on plays in my Shakespeare class, so I'm inclined to believe that that's what they're doing here.

[soft-foxy-bby]

Being best friends with class 1-a girls (part 1)

part 1 - this includes Mina Ashido, Hagakure Toru and Ochaco Uraraka. !these are hcs! (have a good day/afternoon/evening/night). i dunno man, i tried. (warnings: swear words) it's fluff, you angst cravers.

Gender Neutral Reader

Happy Pride Month, ghost readers! 🌈🏳️‍🌈

MINA ASHIDO

> One thing I can say for sure is that she loves making friends > but she obviously has some expectations for letting someone be her friend > she doesn't like ppl like mineta (nobody does) She wants a friend who'll listen to her! > someone who won't judge her for her appearance, y'know? > and luckily, you got to be her friend. > She's always passionate and the yolo type of person! > Will definitely do crazy things with you, as long as the risk of it isn't big > those sleep overs are really something to look forward to. > (idk much about the facial things y'all do) She will try to give you a makeover if you're fine with it! > spa nights, is that what it's called?? > randomly dances when she's around you, that is, if you both have privacy > she loves to express herself :) > she won't assume what kind of a person you are just because of a silly mistake/misunderstanding. > she's got faith in you > I can honestly see her vibing to Doja Cat and Megan Thee Stallion cuz 'hot girl shit' is her mood playlist. > which also means, she's gonna drag you to dance/sing those songs! > mMmMMm also k-pop :) [espcially blackpink because she heard their songs only because they had 'pink' in their band name]. > Mina is that type of friend who will try her best to cheer your mood up

HAGAKURE TORU

> she really likes the color pink and has her perfect princess ideals > that doesn't stop her from being a badass though. > She's invisible, so what? > she likes to pull your leg a lot > will pop out from nowhere, unexpectedly to give you a jumpscare > her favorite game is tag. she will use her quirk to her advantage in that > she will flash light in your eyes, making you go blind just so she can continue running > about the princess thing, she made her own ideas about it! > not a royalty but wants to be a bit ladylike by acting the part > she expects cheers for her acting though. She's obsessed with disney and plush toys. > She says the most random things and facts she found from the internet ?? > once it did help you > she's the happy-go-lucky person in your life!! :) > will vibe to Grace VandarWaal because her voice- > that's only the happy part of her playlist tho > she plays Ashnikko because, heck yeah, she can be bad when she wants to be while also having the girliness in her. > hear her say the dirtiest joke and watch her serious face. > you share a lot of inside jokes!! > She embraces her personality of being a girly girl and sees nothing wrong with it because she's tired of hearing 'ImNotLikeOtherGirls' bs. > Will speak about her dreamy fantasy wedding at 3 am while squealing at the same time. > She's a supportive friend!! >.<

OCHACO URARAKA > She doesn't deserve the hate she gets :(( > Uraraka really likes talking about her future plans of being a hero > she's more of a listener though > will hear you rant about something even if it's for hours > she has a fair share of her problems that she's willing to tell you > babe trusts you a lot > she doesn't complain but rather speaks what's on her mind > talks get real after midnight > the constant teasing she'll receive for telling her crush's name > she'd end up laughing with you > she's really affectionate (in a friendly way slu-) > a lot of warm hugs > she'll even arrange some study dates? or sessions for y'all > she'll paint your nails, it's kind of her hobby > give this girl some head pat or squish her chubby cheeks- > she's a sucker for that > Uraraka is someone who'll do some embarrassingly funny things > everyone thinks she's a two-goody shoes, but you know better bestie. > Someone who blasts Cardi B in her room when you're around would think it's you doing that > Oh boy, they were wrong > Will say incorrect quotes out loud and expect you to co-operate with her antics. It's cute. > Watch her face heat up when you tease her for anything. She gets all flustered and shy. > But the next minute, she's launching herself onto you for a choke slam(?). > She uses her quirk to float in her room and tries it on you too > Uraraka is the goofy friend

Oh shoot, this was actually lengthy. Gonna make a masterlist soon cuz this keeps on increasing ;-;-; - Part two coming out when I have the energy outbursts to write. Requests are open as usual. (aot, kny, bnha, haikyuu, assassination classroom)

I am once again begging for likes. I will give lots of virtual hugs for them, it's a great deal.

[blushnik]

I love love your works and posts. Always looking forward to more content from you. Anyways my question is that in Punisher season 2 really trashed billy. What do you think about it. Personally I Hate Krista and Madani. Do you think billy and frank would have eventually started a relationship if billy hadn't been outed for betrayal.

*SOBBING HAPPY NOISES* Lemme just- uh, lemme calm down, this was so much praise I didn't expect to see when opening the inbox 😭🙏💙💙💙💙💙💙

Okay, now to your question *breathing exercises initiated*

First, I just wanna say that I kinda pushed the entire season 2 out of my mind, especially THAT part (y'all know what I'm talking about, I ain't gonna say it out loud) cause it just really hurts but xD I think I can handle it for this one occasion.

Season 2 really went ahead and said: Let's just punish Billy Russo for 13 episodes straight, yeah? Cause the show's name is PUNISHER. And he's PUNISHER's nemesis, right? So we PUNISH him, that makes sense, right? *clown mask here* And people will totally cheer when we finally get rid of him cause he's BAD and deserved to be PUNISHED, RIGHT? *clown levels intensify*

Lemme just point out that Billy Russo DID get his punishment when Frank introduced him, quite intimately, to a mirror. He suffered consequences of it during his coma in his dreams and after with memory loss and all conditions that came with it. And that'd be okay to have at the start but NOT FOR THIRTEEN FKING EPISODES.

You can't beat up a character that much, for that long, and then expect us to be cheering when he meets the shittiest end you could possibly think of. Not to even mention the monumental waste of potential in that story.

Remembering what he did and being told what he did are two VERY different things. If he doesn't remember shit then ofc it doesn't make sense to him how could he ever betray Frank like that. For all he knows, everyone just turned against HIM and made up this lie, his best friends and people he cared about going after him for – in Billy's eyes – no reason. Forget Maria and kids and Rawlins, just the fact my best friend, the only person I ever truly felt connected to and trusted and cared about ground my face against a broken mirror would be A LOT to process.

I seriously expected Billy to remember what he's done somewhere in the middle but somehow the writers thought new characters nobody cares about and an overly complex plot is a better way to go? That letting Billy be just a confused screaming crying mess for the entirety of season 2 while ten meaningless subplots get resolved so he can die right after will somehow work?

Look, I get he was supposed to lose everything he had in season 1, that being not only his wealth and company and good looks (he's still hot shut up and those feeble scars, bitch, what was that, Shadow and Bone did a better job at doing accurate scars) but also his self-control, his control over his emotions, composure, his ability to keep his cool, smooth-talking, etc.

But you can't let him be the victim and then expect the audience to not empathize with him or feel sorry for him and to NOT be okay when he dies right after it seems he finally found some peace, happiness, and love (I hate Krista too but shit, he was so happy with those stupid flowers, Ben sure knew what he was doing when he gave those blue flowers to Alina right before everything turned to shit).

Granted, he did shitty things in season 1 and season 2 too but the difference is this;

In season 1, those were his conscious choices. He never was a victim even in his own story. He knew he stepped on other people in order to get himself higher, he decided when it comes down to it, better someone else than him. He decided that after building himself up, no price was too great to pay just to make sure he was never hitting the bottom again and he had no problem with doing it because he's incapable of compassion and 'even though he loves Frank more than anything or anyone, Billy loves himself just a bit more' – Ben Barnes' words, not mine.

But in season 2, he doesn't know about any of that. He does feel like a victim because from his POV, everyone is simply attacking and somebody close to him hurt him for things he can't believe he did because at that point, he believed he would NEVER be capable of doing such things. And when he does something shitty – it's because he feels attacked, he feels like he needs to protect himself and that he's pushed towards it.

Pretty fking hard to see him as a villain, at least for me -.-

It's almost like the writers were too scared to explore that emotional turmoil and impact it would have on him and how it'd change his character if he remembered. Which is SUCH a shame it hurts. Ben Barnes has put so much nuance and depth into Billy's character, he had dimensions and so many layers so just imagine what it would be to have all of that go through some serious angst and explore his relationship with Frank further.

But no.

Instead, we get this imitation of angst where Billy Russo becomes a punching bag and we're supposed to go OOOH HE STILL EVIL BITCH when he darest to punch back.

And don't get me started on the worst character kill-off I've ever seen. Just no. I am not even sharing my opinions on this cause it's too much to think about.

So there you have it, season 2 is trash in my opinion, they really did Billy so dirty while throwing in subplots and characters that were absolutely unnecessary to have. It could totally be just about Frank and Billy trying to come to some closure (violent or not) and maybe Dinah sprinkled in cause she got a lot of beef with Billy too.

Now just to quickly answer the other question, would they have started the relationship eventually if Billy wasn't outed for betrayal?

Marvel and the Mouse are cowards so ofc not in the canon, but in my humble hcs opinion, ofc YES. Frank's the only one Billy feels a connection with and vice versa. And while it's easier for Frank to care for other people than it is for Billy (since, unlike Billy, Frank is capable of compassion), nobody gets him and accepts him the way Billy does. I like to think of that quote from the Darkling for this:

"I've seen what you truly are and I've never turned away."

That's Billy @ Frank. Together with the reasons, I listed in the previous ask where I pointed out how they complement each other ^^

PS: I just wanna say I actually love Dinah but it may be because of my hcs. She was really getting on my nerves at the beginning and then I just made up stuff in my head that made me really fond of her, like Dinah dating Karen Page and being the good bro for Frank and Billy.

Thank you for the reading if you made it this far, THANK YOU for the kind words and keep invading my inbox if you like 🥰💙💙

[nellie-elizabeth]

Supernatural: Inherit the Earth (15x19)

That was somehow simultaneously a crowded mess, and a complete anticlimax. I'm literally just like... super confused and afraid about what the finale is going to be now.

Cons:

Sam's the dog person. That's part of canon. I liked the moment when Dean found the dog, or whatever, but I wish Sam had gotten a moment with the puppy too, before Chuck took it away. A small thing, but one of those typical wrong details in Buckleming episodes, where it just honestly doesn't seem like they know the characters very well.

Lucifer and Michael have a fight in the Bunker and Michael takes Lucifer out really, really easily. So like. Remember when the first five seasons of the show were the buildup to the Apocalypse, and Sam sacrificed himself for an eternity in Lucifer's Cage to stop it from happening? Apparently a fight between the two archangels is just a bit of fisticuffs, nothing to get worked up about. That annoyed me. But I guess consistency has never been something this show has cared much about...

Also just... Lucifer in general, coming back for like five minutes so he can mug at the camera and then be unceremoniously killed? Here's the thing: we had Billie as Death, and she hated them but maybe it would have been interesting to see her and the boys team up to figure out Chuck's ending... but instead, she's gone, Lucifer gets a pointless return, provides us with another Death, who is there for two seconds, says a couple of vaguely funny lines, and then dies... and we still never find out what's in the book.

The fight with Chuck was so badly edited! It was so weird to see him just wail on Sam and Dean, and repeated shots of him hitting them, and them getting up, while he kept saying "okay fellas, enough, please stay down" over and over again. Given that the whole "erasing the people from the world" thing was so much like Infinity War, I kept comparing this fight with God to the climax of Endgame. In that instance, you have a small group of intrepid fighters going up against a big bad evil, and then just at the moment when they're run down and helpless, the whole crowd of friends returns and joins in the fight. Instead of that, it's just Jack showing up and absorbing God's powers, and then they leave him begging on the beach. Not a bad ending for Chuck, which I'll get to in a moment, but the epic-ness was seriously missing from this final showdown.

So, when Jack returned the world to its normal state, did he bring back all of their friends, too? I want to believe this was something that Covid took away from them, where instead of seeing shots of Charlie and her girlfriend, of Donna, Jody, the girls, Bobby, Eileen, they were forced to use stock footage of just random people around the world returning. Would have been cooler to see the epic return... and also super weird that Sam and Dean sit quietly in the bunker talking about free will, and we don't see Sam pull out his phone and call his girlfriend, like... I get not wanting to muddy the ending of the episode with a lot of fallout stuff, and I'm sure we'll get that next week? Like, I hope, anyway? But as it stood for this hour of television, it was super weird to me that the boys didn't immediately want to check on all of their friends to make sure everyone had returned from the dead.

Jack becoming the new God is actually a totally appropriate ending, people were speculating that he'd be the new God or Death or Empty, or some cosmic entity, anyway... and this honestly felt very fitting... BUT, I will say that there are two really, really stupid things about it. One, his "I'm everything and everywhere now" speech was super cheesy... "I'm in the air and the rocks and every drop of rain" or whatever. Such a cliche, I was almost painfully embarrassed listening to him. I honestly would have preferred less is more, here. Like, what if he'd said the stuff about how humans can be their best when they need to be, that was a good line... and then Sam says "what if we want to see you? Grab a beer?" And Jack just says "I'm around" and then vanishes, leaving it vague? I think the idea of a hands-off deity is perfect, of course... makes sense for the "free will wins the day" ending we've got going here, but I didn't think stating it outright was the best move.

The second reason Jack becoming God was rendered kind of comedically awful in the way it happened is... well, elephant in the room, let's talk about how Cas was handled in this episode.

Here's a quote from last week's review:

"I'm worried that Cas dying is gonna get swallowed up with everyone dying and not get its due, thus making the confession completely isolated. Like, here you go, gays, have this one scene, which, in isolation is quite heartfelt from Cas' perspective, but can be carefully boxed up and not touched for the last two hours of the show. If they don't want to touch on how this would affect Dean specifically, they don't have to. He can be generally angsty and sad about Cas, but they could get away with never bringing it up again, and that is some grade-A level bullshit right there, my friends."

And... yeah. Look, I know there are people on Tumblr right now saying that this episode being the "brothers only" ending means that next week we'll get Cas back and Dean will confess his love or whatever... but y'all, it's not going to happen. I'm sorry. I'd love to be wrong. If I'm wrong, I will gladly eat crow and celebrate along with the rest of you, but I just... I've been burned before. I know what's going on here, and it's not what you think it is.

Dean was undeniably devastated in this episode. We see him drinking to excess, falling asleep on the floor, grasping onto tiny moments of joy like with the dog and then being furious and upset when they fall through. But that devastation was not textually about Cas specifically. Sure, there were moments, like him telling God to bring everything back, and then namedropping Cas specifically. Or the way he ran up the stairs when Cas' voice was on the phone. But what I'm saying is? Those are crumbs, there for those of us who care to gobble up, easily ignored and subsumed by the larger losses the boys are suffering. Sam is devastated too, guys. About his girlfriend, about Charlie, about Donna, and Jody, etc. etc. etc. Who's to say their grief is any different from one another, even though they're handling it with different coping mechanisms? The "I love you" wasn't even on the "previously on".

Like. There's a universe where Dean does get a moment of Cas-related catharsis in the finale, even though Misha's not coming back. Maybe he has a private moment to grieve just for him, to contemplate that specific loss. But I'm telling you: I don't care if an openly gay man wrote 15x18, I don't care that Misha found it moving. The bottom line is, Cas confessing his love for Dean was the moment of catharsis the show was willing to offer us. We ain't getting much else.

So going back to Jack, why on earth does nobody suggest that maybe when he's popping the rest of the world back to the way it's supposed to be, he also brings Cas back? This is what I'm talking about with contrived sacrifices. Last week, they could have written a way for Dean to get out of that scrape without Cas dying. And this week, Jack's determination to be a "hands-off" God is not enough to explain why he wouldn't restore his father Castiel from the Empty. Especially since Chuck brought Lucifer back from the Empty, proving that God can do that. Even though that contradicts earlier lore but whatever. The point is, I'm saying it's sloppy. Cas' death, Cas staying dead, does not feel like an earned inevitability to me. I'm prepared to eat my words if they bring him back in the finale, but even if that happens (which it won't), he's not going to be smooching Dean Winchester on the mouth, y'all. He's just not.

So then that ending. "Finally free," says Dean, completely unaware that he's echoing the theme from the end of season five but making it hopeful now for some reason? And that end montage felt like an ending 100%, and I won't say it was bad to see it, see all the memories, the characters... I mean, Charlie dancing in the elevator, getting glimpses of Ellen and Jo, Bobby, Crowley... I'm not going to complain about that, it was honestly quite fun, but it also felt extremely anticlimactic and gave us no sense of where the characters are going to go from here. And yes, I know we have an episode next week, it's just...

Here's the thing I'm scared of, and I'm going to go ahead and put it here in the "cons" section because I don't know where it belongs yet. Despite my complaints about this episode, thematically there was one thing it got right: the answer to defeating Chuck wasn't destined, it wasn't in a book of preordained endings. They had to come up with it by themselves, using the tools at their disposal, and they won, and they get free will now, they get the release from having someone else tell their story. Great. So... what does that leave us next week?

As mentioned above, I really don't think the final 43 minutes is going to be an epic gay love story where Dean fights to get Cas back, I really don't. That leaves us two options: either a tepid re-tread of the themes already established, an epilogue of sorts where we just get to see a life in the day, a new normal for the boys. I wouldn't be furious about this, but I also think it won't really feel like closure for me. They just keep hunting? They keep saving people? That's fine, I guess, but they can't really walk back the fact that God is their son, can they? When they die the next time, do they go to the Empty? Who is Death, now? Are Heaven and Hell okay? Are we meant to be convinced that nothing will ever come back to bite them in the ass, they'll live long lives, and a benevolent afterlife is waiting for them when it's over? I'm not convinced I believe in things being that simple, so it sort of seems like the show would end by saying "okay, and more of the same."

The second possibility is worse, though, that being a total status-quo shift, like the end comes and the Empty is after them and they have to become the new Death and Empty as some speculated, or some wild harebrained plot twist gets thrown in at the last second and undoes the actual good parts of the theme established here. I hope for the first, but I don't know that it'll make me happy, to be quite honest. I really don't want it to feel this way, but Cas being gone is the big elephant in the room, for me. It truly is.

Pros:

I did like the earlier parts of the episode, the eeriness and the helplessness of them being alone. Continuing with the Avengers comparisons, it was very similar to the long, slow opening to Endgame, where we see a lot of grief, a lot of helplessness, an lot of directionless moping. That felt appropriate and it made it all the more invigorating when Michael showed up, giving us a spark of direction in which to move.

While I thought the fight with Chuck was edited really strangely and didn't work for me, I did like this ending for Chuck. Very much like the end of Avatar: The Last Airbender. Chuck doesn't die, which he honestly would have found a satisfying, creative ending for his story. Instead, he gets to live on as a normal human, sans powers, and be forgotten. Brutal and appropriate! It ties back into the free will thing. Chuck can do whatever he wants with his remaining time, but he can't steal other people's choices from them any longer. It's the black and the white, the good and the bad, of being just... human. Which ties in with Sam and Dean being more or less hopeful about their outlook moving forward. (God, I'm so fucking scared they're going to screw up the few things I liked about this episode in next week's finales.)

Like I said, I did find Jack becoming God an appropriate ending for him as a character. It's the right type of bittersweet: he's there, and we can imagine that in the future, he does go visit Sam and Dean for a beer. Or maybe he doesn't, and that's okay too. Knowing he's at peace, knowing he's benevolent, and that he'll do the best he can for the people of the world(s). It's nice, a comforting deity instead of a manipulative overlord. And the fact that his benevolence and kindness and compassion are born out of a human mother, and two human fathers, and an angel who embraced humanity with everything in himself... instead of from Lucifer, who tried to create him in his image? Well, that's a lovely resolution for a character that became a surprising favorite over the years.

As I think I mentioned last week, I'm willing to let this show manipulate my emotions here at the end, when it can manage to do so. So yeah, of course I loved that Cas and Jack's names are added to the table along with SW, DW, and MW. Obviously that's adorable as hell. And as I said, the montage worked for me, it was certainly quite lovely. I just... like I said at the start of this, I'm just frankly terrified of what's coming next week.

I mean, here's the thing, I want an ending that honors Sam and Dean as the protagonists of this show, but I want it where they live in the bunker, and Eileen and returned-from-the-dead-Castiel live with them as their partners. If someone told me I couldn't change a thing about what's happened so far, but I could decide how the last episode went, that's how I'd end it. Showing a network of hunters getting support and able to live more stable, reasonable lives while still doing a dangerous job. Sam embracing his intellectual prowess and running things from the bunker, Dean and Cas going out on the road, Sam and Eileen going out on the road, or any combination therein. Jack watching over them benevolently from above. Jody and Donna and the girls living their best lives. Kaia and Claire as a couple, onscreen. A glimpse of a more stable afterlife, now that Jack is there to run things, the confirmation of a peaceful ending whenever our human protagonists do finally shuffle off this mortal coil. Peace, but change, too.

I just don't believe that's what we're getting. I can't believe it, and that makes me really frightened for what comes next week. I'm prepared to be pissed off. Quite frankly, I'm expecting it.

6/10

[seenashwrite]

Notes From Nash: Season 15 Episode 2

We're back! And by that, I don't mean back for episode #2, I mean we're back in the little town, same little town we were in for the majority of episode #1. And as far as how ep #2 compares with ep #1.... um.....  

The writers ain't in no damn rush to advance the plot or further character development, are they? So this is basically ep #1 all over again with some guest star overload as a substitute for those two very important aspects of storytelling I just mentioned.

[stares at date]

They've got *how* many eps to wrap up the show? 

Hoo-boy.

Spoilers below the cut.

Changing it up from last time (see link at bottom), I thought I'd go in order of the ep this post. All right. Let's roll.

From the mom who gets 86'd in the opening------

And, PS: That's not disemboweled. Don't use the word if you (a) don't know what it means and/or (b) won't let make-up/effects do their job.

-----to the rest of the people, I care nothing. There was no point giving all these extras lines and whatever little backstories, I give no fucks. Mainly because, gee, I don't know, I signed up for a show about two brothers goin' out there and gettin' after it, and thus far we've gone about two inches and gotten nothing.

Are we still in this little town?

More questions, borrowing from the dialogue some here:

"Remember when we did the thing with Amara?"

"God's sister?"

"And the soul bomb? And here's how it worked? Remember? Because you participated? REMEMBER?! I'm not just saying this for the benefit of, oh wait, no one, because the chances of brand new viewers coming into the game this late is virtually nil, so everyone - including us, here, in this scene, our characters - already know this backstory, ergo the only reason for exposition anvils is to benefit those viewers, who - as we've already established - likely don't exist. So let's run through this for the benefit of, I have to assume, the writers who don’t actually, you know, watch the show as evidenced by--- well, we’d be here all day."

Nope. No, no. Those aren't questions I had. Because I've been watching the show for a good while now. This exchange should’ve been something to the effect of - “I was thinking - remember how we did the soul bomb, with Amara? Do you think you could pull off something like that? To trap them?” and then Rowena responds with uncertainty but will give it a try, etc. I mean, the writing in this ep is thus far pedestrian.

There's still no explanation for why these ghosts - especially these super notorious ghosts like Ripper and Lizzie and who-fuck-ever - were lingering so close together that they were able to be trapped by the stupidest ex machina spell in the writing world. And what of the others? The entirety of hell escaped. We've seen, what, maybe 20? Could there maybe have been a throw-a-way line to Belphagor something like “Did you corral the worst douchebags together”, or “Is there a bar in hell where the worst douchebags hang out or something”, or “this is just our luck that the worst douchebags landed here” or WHATEVER, just SOMETHING to acknowledge they (the writers) recognize that Convenient Super Bad Ghosts Are Convenient.

IT'S KETCH, BITCHES!

I love this character. What a breath of fresh air that snarky piece of ass has been. I hope he doesn't get killed. He will. Because we can't have anything good. But there is some good, which is the Ketch-Rowena flirting. Honestly, I'm fine with Rowena getting action from anyone. She's awesome and she's earned it. Ketch is primo catch, though. (I'm not sorry for that sentence. I am, but I'm not.)

The repeated use of Belphagor's name pleases myself and my podcast co-host. Should you wish to know more about that demon, please do check out our podcast. Don't look him up first, trust us. That they have chosen this particular demon's name is just *chef's kiss*, though I do hope it's not a foreshadowing for how the rest of the season is going to go. Okay fine, I'll spoil it: he's a shit demon. He deals in poo. Literally. I'm not lying. Go forth to the podcast @youtotallymadethatup​ - just about every post links you to where you can listen. /shameless self-promo

IT'S AMARA, BITCHES!

Let's hope that wardrobe does her better than that ill-fitting black dress this go 'round, she deserves better.

"You're the darkness, I'm the light."

STOP IT. STOP. FUCK. STOP.

Are we still in this little town?

Blah blah blah Castiel Dean angst repeating essentially what's already been said at the end of 14 and last week blah. "You know what's real? We are." Not if it's an alternate timeline, my love. 

I keep forgetting just how many spaced-out chains you need to have strewn about your standard meat packing plant and/or factory, well played, set dec and props. That.... that was sarcasm.. (Look, I got no beef with the crew, they're just playing the cards they've been dealt, and their hands are garbage, just a pile of same ol' same ol' stereotypical, unimaginative stuff, so bless them. I hope every single one of them has a job lined up next year, truly. They have more than paid their dues and earned it. Lord knows especially since certain parties took the reins, good night nurse. I've digressed. )

IT’S KEVIN BI----

This is dumb. This is actually dumb. In case you didn't see my half-time post, and I quote:

That is *three* in under twenty minutes. Like, it’s episode 2. You’re blowing your wad. Pace yourselves. AND MAYBE SOME STORY ADVANCING, THAT WOULD BE AWESOME

This bullet thing could be hella interesting. It *could* be. I wonder if it will be. 

These ghosts are painfully uninteresting. The guy playing the Ripper is horribly miscast. This needed to be someone who... who.... I dunno, is a good actor. He's not. Sorry, Pops. I mean, even Osric (who is an excellent actor) couldn't elevate that scene.

This episode is painful.

Are we still in this little town?

Ketch got knocked out, left alone with ghost, deffo gonna get possessed. 

Are we still talking to these ghosts? Why? Why is Kevin thinking he can go up against them alone? I'm not exactly sure what threat they are to him, can't he just disappear and whoosh somewhere else? I missed something, I must've missed something. It doesn't matter, none of this matters.

Okay, Belphagor says there's at least a hundred. Still, what would that be, like 1/2500000000th of hell? Why are the Winchesters, of all people, and now Rowena concentrating on this stupid little town----

Are. We. Still. In. This. Little. Town.

---why in the fuck aren't the most renowned hunters of modern time and their angel friend and the powerful witch friend and the friend with immense tactical knowledge regarding weaponry for supernatural shit not at the bunker strategizing and planning and... and... and.... I just.... 

Lookit, I've said this before: especially in fantasy/sci-fi stuff, if you are logical in every possible place you can be, if you nail the simple shit, then the audience is exponentially more likely to buy into the fantastical stuff, and also to be more forgiving (or not notice altogether) when you inevitably whiff, because nobody's perfect, of course. But this show in later years has notoriously screwed the pooch on the easy stuff, and here we are, in some needlessly convoluted mess right out of the gate in the last season ever.

::sighs::

Oh, look. Because of course he's possessed. You left him alone with a ghost. I'm neither a professional writer nor a psychic, I'm just thinking "What is predictable as possible?" and saying that. You try it. It's worked for me so far.

"I tried to heal him it didn't work" - well maybe he's still residually possessed. Or maybe you suck. Sorry Cas, you don't deserve that. It's not you. It's not me, either. It's them. It's the writers. I don't know what this line is about unless they're teeing up Cas to be even more neutered than he already is. I legit don't know, I can't think, I'm so irritated right now. 

"Nothing to hold you anywhere" - what? Really? Seriously? So what are you and Dean? Y'all ain't his family? Let that little badass haunt the bunker. He'd be the most awesome research assistant ever. Now THAT is a good plot point, have ol' Kev be home base, helping coordinate whatever's coming. Oh here we go, swishy swishy hand, magic hole, nobody knows why this demon can do all this shit, and Kevin's gone. Why? WHY. My idea is better. No way Osric would blow your guest star budget, it appears to be shaping up to be immense, especially with all the money you've saved so far on location(s). 

Shoulda kept him rest of season, let him assist, then his final reward is getting into heaven for reals when Cas (they'll probs kill him, tho) or Amara (maybe, seems too obvi a choice tho, and she doesn't give a shit about beng a ruler, we knew that back in whatever season that was) or Jack (because why not, it's the most ridiculous idea, since he's got the mind of a toddler, meaning it's something the writers would think is a great idea) or Billie (wild card guess) is the new God. Or have him brought back to life, fuck, I don't care.

So is the bullet trapping Chuckster on earth, is the question, and if so what kind of all-knowing deity puts a weapon in the hand of a potential enemy that could render him even a *touch* weaker? Where's the long game, there? What could any possible reasoning be? 

Okay, well, the scenes between Emily and Rob have been the best part of the episode, as well as the interaction with Ruthie and DHJ. Everything else fell flat. J2M seemed to be bored and phoning it in, and it's not often that can be said about any of those three.

I swear, if the preview shows that we're still in this little town for episode #3.... wait, is that the crypt from ep #1?.... are.... are we..... 

ARE WE STILL IN THIS LITTLE TOWN

What have we learned? Other than Chuck, no character development. The plot remains that some ghosts-interchangeably-used-with-souls from hell are trapped in a confined area, and it was via a tenuous spell provided by a demon whose motivations are unknown, and there's something up with that bullet wound. We knew those already.

(There's possibly something wrong with either Cas or Ketch -- or else that's something that will be completely forgotten was ever mentioned -- but we don't know either way and we don't know what it is, therefore we didn't learn anything; if this does ultimately turn out to be something, then we'll count it as a learned item for that episode.) 

So, minus learning that Chuck is weakened somehow and that at least for right now Amara’s not exactly in his corner, we're in the exact same place story-wise that we were in last week. 

And looks like we'll be back there again next week. 

See you next week, I guess.

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Past posts, from newest to oldest (and I sometimes do addendums if a response warrants)

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[maandags]

Headcanons for the paladins + Allura and Lotor with a theatre geek s/o

Request: Wow! Your first batch of headcanons so amazing, you have no idea! Would you be willing to write headcanons for the Paladins + Lotor having a theatre geek s/o? Extremely extroverted, affectionate, and eccentric! Thank you if you decide to, but I’d understand if not! I wish you luck! 💞 - A fellow Voltron Imagines Blog

Hello love! Thanks for requesting, sorry I only got to it now. Made them extra long to make up for it! Hope you enjoy!

(I also just noticed I added Allura. oops?)

~Mod Water

Shiro

thinks you're awesome

will just look at you while you jump around reenacting your favourite play all by yourself with this fond smile on his face

will never get tired of your energy

cuddling is a Must

especially when he's had a rough day

you get him to loosen up a bit

will use the sappiest theatre pick up lines because he's a huge nerd (my only dream role is being with you)

he learned them from lance

but can and will always count on you to keep a lighthearted mood

loves to just curl up on the couch and watch your favourite plays and musicals that you guys found in the space mall for 2 bucks

Keith

when u guys first met, Keith was kind of intimidated  by u because wow introvert alert

like he just didn't understand how someone could be so energetic when there was a war going on so he just kinda avoided you

but then he got to know you

and WOW did you blow this mullet man off his feet

like the first time that you guys really started talking of course he asked u what u liked and of course you said theatre

and the smile that lit up your face made Keith die a little on the inside

he doesn't care that much for theatre/musicals himself but he does enjoy them when he watches them with you

helps you take some things a little more seriously and you help him find the fun side of some things

you are very big on PDA and you slowly warm Keith to the idea (from hand holding to hugging to cheek kisses to actual kisses)

but behind closed doors

Cuddle Fest

you guys are goals tbh

Lance 

let's be real, if you are a theatre kid so is lance

when he finds out you are just as, if not more, into theatre as he is he's so pumped 

immediately organises a musical marathon where the two of you just spend 6 hours watching musicals and quoting like half of the lines

you two hit it off right away and literally nobody is surprised when y'all start dating. nobody.

lancey lance is an extrovert too so he thinks it's really cool that you can keep up with his thoughts and conversations

soon the majority of your conversations consist of 75% musical/play quotes. it drives everyone nuts

is also very affectionate and doesn't mind PDA

hugs from behind and resting your head in the crook of his neck make him melt please do that

DO NOT LET THE TWO OF YOU ALONE IN THE KITCHEN. EVER.

it finished badly last time, hunk almost had a stroke

Hunk

thinks you're so pure

you just brighten up a room by being there and quite frankly so does he so you two are perfect for each other

the childlike excitement that lights up your face every time you talk about the theatre just has him grinning like a lovestruck fool

Hunk is pretty extroverted as well but has to calm you down every once in a while because you would get a little annoying honestly 

is the only one who understands your weird rants and is the best listener

is your #1 hype man

gives the best hugs

also doesn't mind PDA

his favourite are cheek kisses

they're just so sweet

also will join you in the reenactment of your favourite plays. he actually loves it

you two have the purest relationship and are too goddamn cute

Pidge

was kind of confused at first when she met you

you were a ball of energy that zipped from one end of the room to the other and never seemed to get tired

like the literal only thought in her head was what the shit 

and then she caught you dancing and singing to one of your favourite musical numbers

Matt used to be a theatre kid as well so she kind of picked it up and secretly loves it

so when she makes a musical reference, your jaw drops and you suddenly get heart eyes

you guys are joined at the hip from then on

will spend hours talking to you about the tech stuff that happens behind the scenes of every play

you're actually really interested (it makes her so happy that she's able to talk tech with you) and the two of you will talk for hours about it

honestly loves listening to you talk before going to sleep, she says it's relaxing but she just loves your voice

PDA is fine with her as long as it's not in serious situations

loves to sit/curl up on your lap

you guys are a weirdly good match

Lotor

okay so Lotor has had a pretty tough childhood

chances are he doesn't even know what theatre is

you are SHOOK

you kind of take it upon yourself to teach him everything you know about theatre

you: okay so I found the book with all the completed Shakespeare plays, sit down bud we've got work to do

Lotor becomes weirdly passionate about it

at first is kind of exasperated by your immense amount of energy

but slowly finds that he really enjoys your company

you are just never boring

even though he doesn't understand half of the stuff that you're talking about

won't do much more than hold your hand or kiss you on the cheek in public

but once you two are alone he becomes the clingiest cuddler

loves you a lot ok

Allura

at first, doesn't quite know how to act around you

is just confused and a lil weirded out

but once you two start talking and you explain human theatre to her she gets so excited

will also teach you about the Altean equivalent of theatre

you love hearing about Altean theatre because you love learning about your girlfriend's culture!! 

when you learn that there isn't an Altean version of a musical you gasp in shock

you immediately organise a marathon

allura ends up absolutely loving them

quoting them the following days to see your face light up

hand holding!!!!

always holds your hand. always.

you two are the most adorable couple

bonus :

*after allura stopped you from charging a galra soldier with nothing but a sword that you don't know how to use*

You: I would have had him, 'lura! 

Allura: fencing in theatre is not the same as sword fighting in battle, y/n

You: *annoyed huff*

[saywhatjessie]

DCBB 2018: “Nobody Puts Baby in a Corner” by JessJesstheBest, art by purzelndeesbaeumchen

“I’m Baby Del Mar and I think y'all are mighty fine. It’s time for ass-whooping. Who’s next in line?”

Baby Del Mar is one of the top faces in the WWE universe. But in real life, Dean Winchester is just a guy who wants to keep his personal and professional lives separate. This turns out to be a problem for several reasons.

Dean was pretty proud of his entrance.

Since he was a kid, he’d thought about what it would be like to be a professional wrestler. Not the wrestling itself – the training, the matches, the moves – but everything that came with it. The costume and drama. The character.

He hadn’t always known it was a character. He hadn’t known the wrestlers didn’t always use their real names, that the fights were scripted and the wrestlers went into a match knowing if they were going to win or lose. But that didn’t matter to him. Even if he was wrestling as Dean Winchester, he’d always known he’d come out in a cowboy hat with “The Immigrant Song” playing him out.

Well, he couldn’t use copyrighted music. But he was definitely wearing a cowboy hat over his sandy brown hair as he made his way to the ring.

And he wasn’t wrestling as Dean Winchester either.

The stage was lit up underneath and above Dean, a rush of blue and pink and purple rushing past him before everything went black except for his name in the Winchester guns font on the back screen. It was a little inside joke between him and himself.

“Baby! Baby! Baby! Baby!”

Dean grinned and threw a wink at the crowd. They chanted his name louder.

Dean was proud of his entrance. He was proud of his name. He was proud of his image.

He could probably be more proud of his wrestling, but fuck it, he was living the dream.

Dean rolled under the ropes, casual as you please, and hopped to his feet, bouncing a little on his toes before turning and shooting finger guns at the crowd. They screamed.

He grabbed a mic from the ref standing ring-side and brought it up to his face. He pressed his lips to the mesh and hummed the four notes that preceded his theme music.

Sammy said it sounded like that salute thing from The Hunger Games but Sammy was a nerd. None of Dean’s fans thought that. They fucking loved it. Because they knew what came next, and they shouted Dean’s lines along with him.

“I’m Baby Del Mar and I think y’all are mighty fine.” Dean played up his southern accent. It was part of the schtick but it also would have sounded ridiculous saying these lines in anything but a southern accent. “It’s time for ass-whooping. Who’s next in line?”

Everyone screamed. Dean leaned back on his heels, smirking. He was the picture of ease.

He’d absolutely refused to wear fringe when they’d asked him about his costume. He wasn’t Macho Man. He wasn’t Ultimate Warrior. No, his outfit was simple. Classic. He wore jeans and a white t-shirt with his cowboy hat. The t-shirt usually came off, and he threw the hat somewhere into the crowd every match (it was a hard sell when he first started, but he was a big enough face now that the network didn’t mind getting him new ones). But that was Baby Del Mar. He was a classic American cowboy. There to kick your ass.

Dean fucking loved his job.

This wasn’t a televised event. Nothing would go down at this match that would be in any way new or exciting. No belts would change hands, no fresh faces would come up or old faces make surprise re-appearances. No, Dean was just there to wrestle. There to flirt with fans and fight with friends. It was one of the easier things he got to do.

Especially when Cas was in the ring.

Cas stood in the ring in the uppity dress pants and waistcoat the network thought would make their GM look professional. The waistcoat came with pocket watch and pocket watch chain. It was a good look, if Dean was honest, but the professional vibe was utterly ruined by the thick mass of dark hair creating anarchy on top of Cas’s head. It turned the look from ‘hard-working professional’ to ‘freshly fucked librarian.’ Which, needless to say, was a look Dean was firmly in favor of.

He turned to Cas, grinning smugly. Cas’s face was neutral, but Dean definitely caught a flash in his eye.

“If I’d’ve known you’d be here, Castiel, I would’ve worn something nice.”

The put-upon accent sanded the g off of something and rounded the ‘haves’ in ‘I’d’ve’ and ‘would’ve’ into open ‘a’s. I’dda. Woulda. Cas rolled his eyes.

“Baby, you knew I’d be here.” His voice was unnaturally smooth. “You got the schedule same as me.”

Dean winked. “Guess that means I already knew I looked good.”

Groans and jeers from the audience before the familiar chant started up behind him.

“Baby’s gonna kiss you. Baby’s gonna kiss you.”

Dean had thought it was hilarious at first. Now he thought it was fucking amazing.

Cas shook his head, theatrically. “You’re kind of interrupting something, Baby.”

“Oh am I?” Dean asked, exposing his teeth but only on the left side. “Something important, I trust? Not just a cash grab at the expense of all of these kind people who came out to see us tonight?”

It was a cheap pop. A way for the audience to feel like Dean was on their side, even though they knew he was fully a part of this system that demanded their money. Wanted them to pay for their network, wanted them to buy merch in the lobby. It was pretty standard for the general manager to come out and promo the network – let the audience know about upcoming pay-per-views and where to go online to buy commemorative t-shirts. It wasn’t really fair for Dean to call Cas out like this, but Dean was glad to have this excuse to banter with Cas in the ring, even if he wasn’t wrestling anymore.

Cas rolled his eyes. “Right, Baby, like you don’t like money.”

Dean struck a pose. It didn’t look like striking a pose, which is how he knew he was good at it. “I just like wrestling. That’s why I’m here.”

The crowd screamed.

Cas shook his head again. “Why don’t we just get on with the match. Can we do that?”

Dean shrugged, moving his shoulders more than he would if he weren’t in front of hundreds of people. He made sure to lift them high enough to expose that sliver of skin above his waistband. “That depends.”

Cas knew his line. “On what?”

Dean waited, letting the audience build a little before he said, “On who’s next in line for an ass-whooping.”

The crowd went nuts, soon doubling its volume when a seagull call sounded through the arena. The crash of waves followed and the entrance stage lit up blue white and green, violins and whistling playing in another wrestler. “The Captain” shone brightly in white on the overhead as he strolled out in a long coat, a captain’s hat, and the title belt.

Anyone who knew anything about wrestling would know as soon as Benny ‘The Captain’ Lafitte walked out into the arena that Dean was about to lose this match. Change titles at a live event? The fan network would riot.

So Dean was about to lose. He knew it. The crowd knew it. But he had a part to play.

Dean waited until Benny ducked into the ring – no rolls, no swagger, full dignity – before he said his line. He stuck his left thumb through a belt loop of his jeans and leaned back on his heels. He still wished he could wear cowboy boots. “Captain! To what do I owe the pleasure.”

Benny just smirked. He brought the microphone up to his face almost lazily, being sure not to let the bristles of his beard interfere. “Oh, Baby, you know what you did.”

Dean bit back a grimace. Being the cowboy was his bit, yes, but there was no faking Benny’s authentic Louisiana drawl.

“I’m sure I don’t know what you mean.”

The fans all started yelling at once. Dean caught snatches of ‘You said he got lucky!’ and ‘You said you could take the belt easy!’

To be fair: Dean had said those things. Or at least Baby had, in one of the backstage interviews with Renee Young.

Listen, if he and Benny were both Faces, they needed to make conflict somehow.

Benny laughed, a low chuckle directly into the microphone. Dean repressed a shiver. That would never not be hot.

“Brother… I know you’re not lying to me.”

A cluster of fans toward the back start singing the Pirates of the Caribbean theme. This kind of thing happened now and then, what with Benny being called “The Captain.” It got them in trouble sometimes when you could hear it on tv. But tonight’s match wasn’t being broadcast so…

He shrugged. “A dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest.” Shouts went up in the crowd from people who recognized the quote. “Honestly. It’s the honest ones you want to watch out for.”

Dean watched as Benny bit back a grin and saw Cas do a full facepalm behind him. Dean was always getting in trouble for changing lines but he was a performer! He saw his chance and he took it.

They got the gist of what his line was supposed to be anyway. Probably. He’d see what Benny said.

“I won this belt honest.” Benny gestured at it, billowing his coat out so you could see the belt over his otherwise bare torso. “And you don’t think I did. Luck? Nah, brother. Honest work. I’m an honest man.” He paused, letting the cheers ramp up before bringing the microphone right to his lips. “And you should watch out for me.”

Damn. But Benny was good. Adding Dean’s quote into his own line? Masterful. And Benny would probably get him back for this. Make Dean work just as hard next match. Double damn.

Dean leaned his head forward, unhooking his thumb from his jeans so he could slowly take off his hat. The screams from the first dozen rows amped up immediately, knowing one of them was about to get Dean’s hat.

Dean only said, “Let’s go then.” before tossing it, no look, to a young-ish kid a couple rows off center. She was holding a sign that said, ‘Hit him, Baby, one more time.’ Dean was only human.

He circled around Benny, casually handing Cas his mic as he did. Benny had also subtly relieved himself of his mic and circled Dean back, sliding the coat from his shoulders.

Dean wasn’t saying it was watching professional wrestling that made him gay. But looking at Benny, in his tight pants, no shirt, muscly and oiled to the gods, Dean couldn’t say it wasn’t watching that made him gay.

The bell rang to mark the start of the match and Dean barrelled in, no holds barred. This was a cocky move, and not totally uncharacteristic for Baby, but it earned him a swift kick in the face and he landed on his back with a hard whap!

Yeah, Dean was losing this match. But he was going to make everyone in that stadium love watching him lose.

He let loose a wail of pain, curling in on himself in an expression of pure agony. Benny took no time in dropping down on Dean in a body slam.

The groaned “Oh!” from the audience was hugely satisfying.

Dean didn’t go down easily, determined to put on a good show. He did a few of his favorite moves – taking Benny down by putting a shoulder right in his solar plexus in a spear, putting him in his signature armbar, “The Deal-Breaker” – and Benny put on a good show of being worn down.

But everyone knew they were just one Cajun Cage-In away from a Captain victory.

Dean hated losing by submission. He wanted to be pinned, dammit! He wanted to show that he’d given everything he could to the match – for the audience to see he was sweating and exhausted and had given his all to this performance. To this fight.

Tapping out was giving up. Dean was raised to never give up.

But there he was, in the middle of the ring, splayed like a figurehead on the prow of a ship – back arched with Benny’s weight pushing his hips down, his arms locked in front of Dean’s face, pulling his head back. It hurt, for sure. He was suspended: his chest hanging from where Benny had him gripped and his face to the lights, blinding him. Dean could feel his pelvis pressing into the stage, his shoulders straining where they were locked in flight behind Benny’s bent knees. His jaw cracked from the tight grip of Benny’s forearms. This was a finisher. Dean had nowhere to go.

He did not want to tap out.

But he was here to lose. So he’d lose.

He tapped at Benny’s calf – the closest solid surface he could reach with his arms suspended as they were – and the bell rang again to signify the end of the match.

The crowd went nuts. Benny released him and he slumped to the floor, defeated. He rolled and sat up to pout, as was tradition. He was Baby – he had to act like a baby when he lost.

Plus he was cute when he pouted.

Cas ducked back into the ring and clapped Benny on the shoulder. “Your winner and remaining your Smackdown champion: The Captain!”

Benny lifted the belt and the crowd went nuts.

Dean crossed his legs pretzel style and rested his elbows on his knees, sinking his pouting face into his right hand. He watched Benny smirk and Castiel roll his eyes again.

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[whateverisbeautiful]

Reveling in Richonne

#52: The Stepping In (7x9)

Alright, so 7B returned with "Rock In The Road" and didn't wait long before giving us more Richonne goodness.

After the teaser with Father G, the show returns with Gregory pacing and rambling and I love that the first person that’s revealed in the room is none other than our homegirl, Michonne. Like I love that she's the first TF member that we see. 👌🏽👸

The camera pans away from Gregory and you see Michonne first and then I love that as it pans out further you see Rick right next to her and Carl behind them. Grimes 2.0 is in the building y'all! 🙌🏾 🏾

This scene, and episode, let me know that Rick and Michonne truly were going to be right by each other's side in everything they did. Like not just figuratively but literally right by each other’s side from here on out.

The reveal of Rick and Michonne in that room just gave off some real power couple vibes. They watch on as Gregory paces and rambles and it's clear everyone in that room is getting fed up with Gregory and his extra self. 

(Sidenote: As sweet as it was to see TF all unite in the mid-season finale, I also remember watching them walk towards that manor and thinking "Y’all know that weasel, Gregory, isn't going to be interested in your newfound will to fight, right?" 😂 So like it was a hopeful end to 7A but I also knew they were about to hit a wall real quick. And here we are, in this 7x9 scene, hitting said wall. 🙈)

It's funny that you can see Rick get more and more agitated as Gregory speaks, but Michonne stays looking cool, calm, and collected, even though she too thinks Gregory is a mess. It makes sense that Rick and Gregory butt heads because, if you think about it, Gregory is literally the antonym of Rick Grimes lol. Like polar opposites. 

So Rick walks up to Gregory and reminds him that they already started this fight. Gregory tries to remove himself from the equation so Rick gets a little more heated when he says “We did”. It’s clear that Rick is so done with Gregory and he feels like ain't nobody got time for this rn.

Rick is trying to keep his cool as he communicates that being under the Saviors is no longer something they should just sit and take. But see that's what ole’ Greg does best; Sit and take. 

It's hilarious that when Gregory calls Maggie “Margaret”, you literally see Rick think, "This fool is an idiot." Like that's a direct quote from Rick’s mind in that moment lol. 😂  

I feel like when Gregory's pompous self sings “Rhetorical” that's kind of the last straw for Rick. Like Gregory has officially tried it to capacity with his extra-ness and theatrics and Rick’s done lol. So Rick aggressively jumps in to ask Gregory if they'd be better off without the Saviors. Yes or no?

This is a yes or no question cuz he is done with Gregory’s blabbing lol. Rick is understandably very irritated with Gregory's nonchalant cowardice and he's letting his irritation get the best of him. Rick seems to be slipping into his "bite yo neck" side but before he goes that route...the wife steps in.

I adore that Michonne steps in and knows when her man needs someone to help him out. Like a true wife, Michonne sees that her husband is starting to let his irritation and frustration takeover so she comes to his rescue and helps try to get his point across in a more gently assertive way. 

I love that you actually visibly see Michonne take note of Rick's heated tone. Like it’s only upon hearing Rick raise his voice that Michonne finally uncrosses her arms, cuz she knows now this situation calls for the other half of Richonne lol. Like Rick tried his approach and not it’s her turn. Cuz I know Michonne knew Rick was this close to mollywhopping this man. 😂  

I love that you see Michonne gently tap Gregory’s desk like she's tagging in for this Richonne tag team.

And she steps in and calmly says "So what will you do to fix the problem?" I love how gentle and diplomatic Michonne can be while still being strong and nothing to play with. 

Like she's trying to help Gregory reflect on how he can contribute and take some action but unfortunately this isn’t an adult she’s talking to, he's just a child with gray hair lol, so of course Gregory doesn't even respond well to the queen's approach either. 

I love the Grimes 2.0 diagonal that's created in the frame when Michonne steps in. 

Like that's one strong family unit right there. 🙌🏾 🏾 And I appreciate that Rick steps back to let Michonne step in. I’m here for it.

Like Rick happily lets her takeover. You can tell he is so appreciative to have someone co-lead with him and you know he's like “Alright, Greg, if you won't hear me out, you have to at least listen to Michonne cuz she's a 👸🏾” Lol. You can see Rick get a much needed opportunity to cool off as she speaks. And, again, their teamwork shines through so organically.

I love that Rick stands behind Michonne to let her do her thing. Like this is Rick when Michonne steps in...

Lol. He is in full support of her taking charge, just like she is in full support of him.

It's funny that you can see Michonne sort of laugh and turn away when Gregory starts doing that petty “I’m pretending you aren't here” thing. Like this moment is frustrating but it's also so ridiculous that Michonne can't help but find it a little amusing lol. And then, before TF walk out, Michonne gives one last stare down to Gregory in order to let him kindly know that he's a full blown mess. 

This scene was significant because it’s proof that Michonne is going to step up and speak her mind for her man. Like she both literally and figuratively stepped up in this moment cuz she’s in tune with her man. 

Sh knew if Rick kept talking he’d only get more frustrated and so she both sort of saves Rick from himself while still fully supporting him and his stance by reiterating their point to Gregory. 

Michonne's basically like, “Regardless of how it's being conveyed rn, my man is still right that there’s a problem and it needs fixing. And we're going to fix this with or without you, Greg.” 

As Greg dismissed them I was thinking, “Bruh, you know you didn’t really shut anything down just now? Cuz if Rick and Michonne are ready to fight then the revolution has already begun...and you’re late.” 😂

I love how this scene is Michonne showing Rick she meant what she said in 7x8. She was not kidding when she told him they'd do this together. Like she's not just leaving it up to him to debate with Gregory, she's gonna walk up, tag in, and drop some knowledge as well. 🙌🏾 

Rick’s willingness to let Michonne step in, reminds us that just cuz Rick stepped up to lead all those seasons ago, doesn't mean he won’t welcome some assistance. 

And it’s clear Rick feels he has the best co-leader a guy could ask for. 👌🏽👸

[dachi-chan25]

Game of Thrones Season 7 Episode 3 Pt. 1

I actually have the time to write this so here I go.

WARNINGS: SPOIIIiLERS; not a D@€nerys fan so y'all know I’ll be actually critical about her actions; JonSa shipper so of course I have a little bias.

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1.- We start at Dragonstone, where Jon Snow and Dadvos are just arriving, the welcome comitee looks pleasant enough (if you don’t mind the Dothrakis and the Unsullied intimidating you that is) Tyrion and Jon immediatly take quips at each other and are buddy-buddy, Missandei says it’s so cool they’re taking so much trouble for Quiin D’s sake (LMAO not everyone is in Love with her like y'all honey, it’s not even for her but whatever helps you both sleep at night) and asks them to leave their weapons.

Right, so I would say she ask them this as a trust act and stuff,and it would be so if they were on a neutral spot and she went unarmed (without Dragons and guards) but it’s NOT really what FUCKING difference does it make if Jon has Longclaw??? He didn’t bring a frigging army and he sure as hell can’t fight them all (specially the magical fire lizards) so why??? Well this is the first of many acts of petty dominance on Dane-ñys part we’ll see this episode.

They even take the motherfucking boat (who is looking threatening now?) and Jon makes this face like he regreats his moronic decision of leaving WF

All those steps tho!!! (Stannis must have been real fit guys) So Dadvos tries to test the waters and asks something about her homeland to Missandei, she is polite but clearly distant and Dadvos whispers to Jon things have surely changed in DS.

Tyrion asks about Sansa (not Lady Sansa or your sister, hmmmm???) Jon says she is well, and that would have been a pretty normal conversation if not for the fact that Tyrion chooses to make a joke asking if Sansa has missed him, and guys believe me I tried to take off my shipper googles for tonight’s episode but holy fuck!! Jon looks like he wants to punch Tyrion, and he gets so nervous and uncomfortable he all but blurts that their marriage was a sham and unconsummated, Jon snaps that he didn’t ask.

I don’t know y'all but if someone talked to me about my big brother’s sex life I would be like ewww and make a cringey face, because I don’t give a damn, but Jon’s reactions are wierd he gets angry, also why talk about a sexual part of Sansa’s life everytime Jon meets her past suitors?? I mean we could argue that Jon meeting Tyrion again was inevitable, as well as seeing Theon next ep (cuz they are both with the D) or even the Hound because he and the Bannerless Brotherhood are heading North to fight with the WW… But what about LF? Jon was about to leave, he had no need to know about LF’s intentions and that threat in Hulk mode was just too innecesary as was Tyrion’s comment, or the Joffrey thing back on 7x01??? I don’t wanna be overly optimistic but things are still looking good for J/S.

Yeah so we have a Danonino is petty again moment by sending her Dragons to scare Jon, and OK I really like Missandei (I Love seeing girls who once were abused be confident and empowered, and I Love lenguages as well and it’s so cool she speaks so many!!) but her pleased holier than thou expression pissed me off, you don’t do that to guests miss! It’s rude and totally uncalled for to do this to someone that has been nothing but accomodating and polite.

Also I have another issue here, Missandei was crucial to Danita’s conquest of Meeren and Astapor because she was her translator, she understood how things moved there (masters and slaves) and she was loyal to D unconditionaly, but why bring her to Westeros??? She doesn’t need a translator anymore and just like Danonino Missandei doesn’t know squat about westerosi politics… Wild idea, but wouldn’t it have been better and a hella lot more meaningful if Missandei had stayed as Lady Regent in Mereen (I mean a girl raised as a slave leading people like her, it makes sense to me) but I guess D needed a cool break up gift for Daario.

2.-Melissandre is watching them from a Cliff, and Varys is like if you say they so great why didn’t you greet them?? She is vague af but basically says she and Team Snow are not so cool with each other because she made a mistake (that’s how we calling sweet Shireen’s awfull murder?? Fuck you red woman) and says she is gonna go to Volantis to chill before the war, and Varys is like good and don’t ever come back you trick ass bih, but Meli is like y'all need me and my destiny is to die in this foreing land… Like you (is it me or does this remind y'all of Danss threat last ep??)

3.-They finally reach the castle, Jon is kind of adorable cuz he is so uncomfortable and fidgety, and Danee is petty again, sitting on yet another fugly throne (Aegon honey I know you were all about conquering but you have a hella lot of obsidian lying around and it would have made an awesome and elegant throne instead of that thing you have there) and Missandei annoys me once again by proudly parroting every goddamn title of Dañy, and she looks ridiculous once Davos humbly introduces Jon (I actually laughed because it’s more aparent than ever to me that all their parallels were to make'em foils of each other).

Jon and Davos say she could take KL very easily and that if she hasn’t done so yet it’s because, and I quote’ “You’re better than Cersei at the very least” I mean you’re not exactly wrong Jon, but like Tyrion was the one to say ‘Hey how about we don’t kill anyone pls’ so there’s that.

Jon proves once again he is a hella lot more polite and grown up than her adressing her as Your Grace and Daññy is a petty toddler calling him Lord Snow, but my Dadvos is having none of that shit and he corrects her which leads to D@€-D@€ to prove her ignorance once again saying the last KitN bent the knee to grand pops Aegon in exchange of his and the rest of the northerns lives (yes honey and you think that was good or fair? Using violence to get your way?) and that it was for everzzzz cuz even though my shitty ancestors bullied everyone to give up their claims to them they became super best friends and had eternal perfect peace (I read World of I&F and her history knowledge is biased or plain shitty, I mean Targaryens were awful and had massive weapons of destruction nobody was going against them for fear not loyalty you entitled brat!!) so kneel!! And he was like LOL no, your crazy dad burned my grandad and my uncle if anything your family broke the alliance, and we have a D is a big fat hypocrite moment when she asks Jon not to condemn her for her father’s sins, Jon is not impressed and retorts that then he can’t be held to his ancestor’s promise (I’m so proud of my son) and LMAO she gets sooooo angry and snaps that why did he came here if not to postrate his unworthy self before her (cuz she believes everything is about her it seems) Jon proceeds to explain the threat of the WW (ily Jon but you need to explain things better) Tyrion and D are reasonably disbelieving (I would have expected them have more of an open mind, I mean they have motherfucking Dragons ffs!! But I can understand an army of the dead sounds pretty crazy to be fair) and we get the summary of Danee’s arc and how she got this far by believing in herself (I’m more inclined to say it was the Dragons and sheer luck in having powerful resourceful advisors coming to you but ok).

Now I know I said I Love girls who empower themselves after being abused, so how come I dislike D@ne so if she is exactly that? Well I didn’t at first, I loved her and was rooting so hard for her 'till she decided that she was better than everyone else and became a conqueror and entitled to a boot, not a breaker of chains. She took the Unsullied for herself because she didn’t want the Dothrakis to pilliage and rape their way through Astapor, good! But why the need to take Astapor and then Mereen? If she were a hero (which I don’t think she is) she would have liberated the slaves without declaring herself ruler, she would have let them decide who they wanted to rule among themselves and would have helped them to come up with a new government, forming a friendly alliance maybe then they even would have helped her in her quest to go back to Westeros, instead of violently taking the power (and no I’m not defending the masters at all, but I do think the mereenese people deserved to have a say in how they wanted to be ruled now that they were free) Since I was little I was taught the spanish took my country with fire and blood, weapons my people couldn’t defend themselves against, they took away their culture, religion and their names. They were forced to work with no pay, murdered, raped (our last tlatoani/leader/king Cuahutemoc got his feet burned when the spanish were interrogating him about aztec gold) and tortured for 300 years, and in my 6yo heart I hated it, of course I don’t hate nor recent the Spanish people for their (and also mine because I have spanish blood as well as aztec and egyptian) ancestor’s deeds, but I hated that people thought they were better than other people, and that they felt entitled to take lands that were not theirs, I hated to imagine the suffering of my people, I hated to know we could never fully understand all the amazing culture and knowledge the mesoamerican cultures had because they decided their way was better and burned or buried most of it, and D@€ny reminds me of all that, and it doesn’t let me enjoy her even as a Villian or Fallen Hero.

(excuse my rant and feel totally free to ignore it)

Dadvos just can’t with her bullshit and he says Jon has done a lot of similar things but without Dragons. Honestly the best way to explain it is with the 'but did you die?’ gif, and supports Jon’s testimony about the WW.

And D@€ny is like yeah but the throne is MINE and if you don’t agree you are against me (lovely way to make more enemies,yup be antagonistic pls) Jon loses it and says she and all the Lords and Ladies of Westeros are FUCKING children fighting for a chair when a real threat is just around the corner and they aren’t going to care who is the rightful anything.

She is so ofended its hillarious xD, she asks Tyrion what she is supposed to do since he refuses to acknowledge her as Qinn of the 7 realms, and he called her a child (well Dañy what did you expect when you have only acted as such?) and Tyrion is like well he said we were ALL children tbh in a very non-commital way.

Jon and Davos are dismissed, and my baby asks if he is her priosioner, 'not yet’ she says, and hold me because Imma knock some sense into her.

———-

Tis too long, I’ll continue in part 2.

[kaedekisaragi]

Kaede Kisaragi Watches The Flash S4E01 - The Flash Reborn

SAY HELLO TO MY FLASHY FRIEND!

"My name is Iris West... And I was supposed to marry the fastest man alive, but six months ago he left."

Welp... Let's open with a heart breaking scene, why not?

"I promised him I'd run, so that's what I've been doing these last six months, running as fast as I can."

Iris, in a new haircut that looks lovely, oversees stuff at the lab, while Vibe, Kid Flash and Joe-on-the-car hunt down Peekaboo. Also, Kid Flash, seriously, people don't say "duck" to refer to an avian unless they add "roast" on it, nowadays. The hunt continues, Kid Flash showing off all he can do as he pursues our meta teleporter. Iris sagely figures out that peekaboo is teleporting to every third rooftop, and the team does an awesome takedown of our little fugitive, with the finishing blow by Joe and the CCPD... Also, Kid Flash, sitting down, hugging his knees and tapping his feet together in amusement. Dunno, just adorable.

Ooh, new logo.

So, anyway, 1 out of 3 metas escape nowadays, the team not having the old catch rate. And Joe West makes his feelings clear to Wally: "Nobody feeling 'team kid flash'". I agree. Team Joe West is more like it, am I right? As it turns out, Iris is no longer a fun person, becoming religiously devoted to protecting the city and even programming training sims for Wally. Cisco says it as it is: we're one man down.

At the West home, cecile is discussing her box-moving to the west house, and steps on a landmine when she asks Joe to get rid of his record collection.

"They'll be buried with me when I die." "Maybe we can bury them now and you join them at a later date!"

Cecile's savage, y'all.

As it turns out, CCPD thinks Barry's on a sabbatical. With Julian's departure (awww :( no more malfoy jokes), they need a new forensic. Iris is positive Barry is not returning and tells as much to Joe, who is not happy with Iris's not coping with her feelings about losing Barry. I'm sensing a pattern here, I mean, I just had to watch Kara Danvers try to be Oliver Queen and Batman all at the same time, and it was painful. Don't make Iris do this too, okay show?

Iris returns to her apartment. We find she's... pretty much in grieve mode 24/7. She sleeps in the couch and has her photo of barry facing down.

AND THEN A BIG BOOMING SOUND AND SOMETHING RUSHES BY THE WINDOW!

THAT TURNS OUT TO BE A FLYING SAMURAI...

...This show takes me to weird turns of phrases sometimes.

Then Kid Flash talks japanese to the guy (because we need to make Cisco have funny reactions) and the samurai makes clear: he wants the Flash, not second-best. Ouch. Vibe mocks him for wanting to fight them with a sword. So he does a massive shockwave by plunging the sword down. Cisco, don't mock the villains, that's how they get the jump on you. Also, please tell me I'm not seeing them reference superfriends with a flying samurai.

So, it's been 6 months, and people wonder where The Flash is. And Cisco says they got no choice, they gotta bring Barry back, but the whole team is against it, since the speed force would go kablooie on the city once more if they do that. Cisco however has an idea he's been working on with pretty much the entire CW-verse collection of geniuses, which might stabilize the prison and free Barry. Iris is fully against it, saying she's positive Barry is dead and refusing to even allow herself a single glimmer of hope.

So Cisco goes drown his sorrows... at the bad guy bar... where CAITLIN is bartending. Didn't take the show long huh? She's still clearly refusing to return home though, even though she can apparently control herself now. She knows Barry is trapped in the speedforce. And as Cisco continues to try and talk to her, a guy with an emo hair and a white eye comes into the fray. Someone who Caitlin seems nervous to be around. She does agree to help her friend... Wow, that was a quick resolution.

Iris comes to the lab, but no one is there. She pinpoints the van's location, where the whole team is united to do the thing and bring Barry back (nervous about Caitlin aside). Joe does hug Caitlin and shows he is willing to forgive her. Cisco's plan? The speedforce bazooka. Which will fire a sphere attuned to Barry's genetic code and trick the speedforce into releasing him. The team fires up the energy... the bazooka fires... and there's a system failure.

Uh... what? Umm... Okay... Guess that's that. Iris arrives just in time to give a disapproving look.

...until a speed force gate opens in the middle of a street... and a golden lightning flies out of it... until it slams against a car... Showing a glowing and very naked Barry. With a beard. Who passes out.

Iris chews out the team for trying to save Barry saying they could've killed the city. Chews out Caitlin for running off. Cisco finally flips at her and says: "It's like you don't even want him back". But they get interrupted when cecile calls... The CCPD received a delivery from outside the city: Barry. Who is doing a wall-of-crazy on the CCPD, writing all sort of symbols on the wall. And who is talking... gibberish. Speaking disconnected phrases. So... it appears he may have gone insane. Speaking phrases from all previous seasons mixed up out of sequence. They put him to sleep and take him to the lab, where Caitlin says he's actually scarily healthy. She has two theories: either he's suffering from schizophasia, assigning wrong definitions to words. Cisco thinks he can translate his weird symbols into a message with the proper algorhythm. The other theory? Barry might've been stuck in there for over 10 millenia and gone demented.

Cisco's idea to wake Barry up with Lady Gaga? Best idea ever or best idea ever? XD But Barry continues to speak nonsense. Iris asks to be left alone with Barry. She breaks down on her own denial to accept his being gone, and now that he's here... He briefly glances over her, interestingly enough. Her urging him to become her Barry again causes him to vibrate and rush off, creating a whirlwind inside the labs, sending everyone flying. Caitlin ends up using Captain Cold's gun to freeze Barry. Just in time for Samurai to return. Wally has a plan though. Dressing up as Flash and using his vibrating to hide his face and skin color? Really? He faces off the Samurai, but the Samurai sees through the ruse, giving Wally another beating and putting him out for the rest of this episode with a pierced fibula.

Cisco still is trying to figure out whether barry is trying to give them the answer to life the universe and everything, but Caitlin doubts Barry wants to tell them 42 (I giggled, seriously). I missed Cisco and Caitlin being a duo. Caitlin says it's all greek to her, which makes Cisco both have an idea and quote two comic companies at the same time: "Great Caesar's Ghost" and "Excelsior". The symbols must be like greek writing, not like your regular alphabet. And the code says...

"This house is bitchin'?"

...

*facepalm*

Cisco is depressed he may have wasted his time building the new flash suit. Caitlin tries to comfort him. He says he didn't do it because he wanted to save the city... He just wants his bro back :(

Joe gently shaving Barry's face inside the pipeline... So sweet and sad. Joe and Iris both sit down, unsure how to proceed. Joe admits he's gone back to going to church on Cecile's suggestion, to help him find his way. One thing he heard in there was perfect for him: "Strength means nothing without faith". Cecile told him to have faith, for his strength alone won't do it. And he believed. Iris just needs to find her little faith. Samurai's 24 hours are up, so Joe leaves Iris alone with Barry.

SO IRIS GOES AND OFFERS HERSELF AS HOSTAGE TO THE SAMURAI, BECAUSE SHE BELIEVES FLASH WILL COME FOR HER. THAT'S BOTH STUPID AND AWESOME. IT'S AWESUPID.

Joe desperately urges Barry to save Iris. It doesn't work, Barry still raving, but when he hears Iris is gonna die, Joe is blasted aside when Barry speeds through the pipeline containment... How much strong is Barry now, if he can do that? The new suit is also gone, mind you. And he's running faster than anyone has ever run. Samurai flies through the wind farm, with Flash chasing him closely. As he runs, we can see this new suit is similar to the one from the future, with gold lightning details and a golden belt. Flash runs up a falling wind tower, jumps from it, lands on samurai, grabs iris, disarms his wings, and leaps off... all in one movement. And the Samurai? A robot.

Iris "Barry, you came back to me." Barry "...Always."

THE FLASH IS BACK! FOR REALS!

Caitlin marvels at Barry's super health, and assumes he must've soaked up speed energy, which explains why he's faster now than ever. And the team has a consensus: we are NOT Team Kid Flash, Wally! But we still got the mystery of the Samuroid (thank you based Cisco!). Barry can't explain how he knew Iris was in trouble, nor he remembers his gibberish moment. But he is very happy to be back. Caitlin says she's back too, to Cisco's glee.

Caitlin goes back to the bar, telling the emo guy from earlier to 'tell Amunet she's out'. When he tries to stop her... She goes full Killer Frost on him, giving him a real brainfreeze, and walks off. But by the time she's out, Caitlin fights back to control of her body... She has no control over it.

At their apartment, Iris says how hard it's been for her. Barry says this maybe was a blessing, saying that he feels like everything that was wrong on his life doesn't hurt him anymore... All gone. All he sees is their future together now. They kiss. Police Sirens. Flash goes off to do his thing.

Stinger. Samuroid assembled by a woman scientist. Her boss and her apparently fully intended to bring Flash back. Her boss, a borg-looking guy in a chair, tells he's still... thinking... their next step.

And we're back folks! And what awaits us for this season? We got a good look at our new villain, The Thinker, and his intentions remain a mystery, but if past seasons proved, Barry will have a big challenge. Thing is, he might not have much problem dealing with these challenges with his new badass speed levels and his carefree new mind. But is he really all that carefree as he says? Is this really the arrival of the truly happy and confident Flash we're all hoping to see?

And what about Caitlin, how many times has she lost control of herself like that? What if she loses it altogether?

And when will we get our new Wells? ^^

All this and much more, this season!

[k-hiphopshit]

We Got Married Ep. 4 (Zico x Reader)

Since y’all have been requestiong a part 4 so much, here it is, btw the meme will make sense. Enjoy!

“Why do we have to drive so early?”

You asked yourself as you put your bags at the back of the car. They decided that it would be best to drive to your honeymoon destination, which was Busan. You liked Busan cause it had a beautiful sea, but now it was January and it was cold, cold was something you hated with a passion. You hadn’t even arrived but you could see your breath, just becasue you walked in the car.

“Good morning”

You said to your “husband” Keeping your big ass sunglasses on. You didn’t wear make up, you just put them on to cover up your bare face from the cameras. The good thing was that the cameras were already tapped in the car, so the camera crew would meet you there.

“Why so grumpy?”

“You are some wack ass husband, letting me put my bags in the car by myself”

You fired back. You could feel he was a bit pulled back, but he brushed it by sligtly laughing at your spiky attitude. You pulled the seat back and got comfortable as you sank in the leather material.

“You’re not a morning person are you?”

“I never was. So don’t try to make any bitchy comments cause I will cut you”

You pretty much mumbled. Being in the studio and also knowing that you would have to travel for 4 hours with a person that was now your “significant other” was kicking your bad.

“This is going to be a four hour drive, so we cannot just sit in silence, we need to give some content"Jiho said as he took a left turn. You reached over to turn on the radio to get some destruction, but had some difficulty at finding the on button, it felt like a spaceship computer or something.

"I know I look really stupid, but where the hell is the on button?”

You questioned him. He reached over and clicked the button, letting the music take over the silence and different melodies fill the empty space of the car.

“Why did they make us get there with a car?”

“They thought it was a good bonding experience. Oh reach over for that card, it’s our mission”

“Already?”

You did like he told you and openned the card. You were not looking forward for missions, it was usually awkward or too sappy and stuff.

“While driving, you have to make two confessions each. You know they did that cause they want some juicy stories, you ain’t fooling nobody"

You commented, as you smilled and Jiho laughed. It wasn’t a lie, they would be extremely happy if they got some interesting stories out of him or you.

“Ladies first”

“I’ve had sex with a famous rapper”

“Wait hold up, what?”

“Yeah, you have met him too”

“So one of the people I know have seen you naked?”

“I’ve seen him too, you know how sex works?”

You were never going to say his name, but you’ve had a brief relationship with a rapper that has made a name for himself. You knew he would be a bit upset for letting it out, but whatever he would be fine

“Damn, you are wild. Please tell a second one”

“I like putting the sounds of fireplace when I sleep”

“That’s all? That is boring comparing to the other confession”

“Before you confess I want to ask a specific confession. When you were a guest at Unpretty Rapstar, why were you acting like a little bitch and didn’t defend yourself when Jessi attacked you?”

“Jesus (y/n) you are blunt”

He said laughing. You started slightly giggling a little bit, you knew he felt a bit out of his comfort zone, well you were there just for that, cause you are blunt and you can offer them some good ass clips to show to the world.

“You think you funny? This a competition. Midget! I keep it classy but I’ll slap a bitch if I have to!”

You quoted Jessi making him laugh even more. You’ve met Jessi before and even though you had a bit of a clash because of your strong personalities, you managed to have a good friendship and keep in touch with her

“First off she is older than me, so normal people like me show respect to elders.

”“Ohhhhh shots fired. You are calling me disrespectfull now?”

“Also, she was scary. I thought that if I said something, she would get up and kill me”

“So you preferred becoming a meme than defending yourself? Cause I got a picture of your face when she talked back on my phone”

“…. Pass. I’m not talking about this anymore, you are too much”

It was your time to laugh at him. You started feeling even more at ease with him. You could know acknowledge the reason they put this mission, by revealing secrets it brings people closer, it’s like letting a guard down

——————

Confession camera. You

“At first I thought the mission was stupid and it would only benefit the show and I revealed something for a shock factor, but as we talked about the secrets we decided to let go, I felt like this could benefit us and bring us closer”

——————

“Second confession and make it a good one”

“One of the real reasons I came here was to prove that i’m not a bad boyfriend. Cause I got so much…. back lash fpr the relationship I had before and how I wasn’t treating her right, that it actually made me question myself.”

You were not expecting that kind of confession from him, but you were happy he opened up to you. Although you didn’t really know how to reply to that or if you should give him some words of encouragment

“When I said ‘make it good’ I meant something naughty, now you became all soft and I don’t know what the fuck to do. Think of the bright side, even if you were not a right boyfriend, she got that boom boom from you, y'all got some boom boom right?”

“Boom boom? really?”

“You don’t like it? fine, you fucking?”

As the time went on, you got in a better mood and you started talking about random stuff, jamming to the music, joking around with each other, you really felt like you had a road trip with a friend

—————-

Confession camera. Zico

“I loved the ride to Busan. I got to see a side of (y/n) that not many people see, she was very relaxed and open, sometimes to open she talked about her sex life… and then tried to get me to talk about mine. She is crazy, but she is good crazy I hope we have a great time in our honeymoon”

[therecoveringcatho-holic]

mannn.. life is just getting so much better!!! i just have to share where i'm at y'all bc ive been pretty excited about who i'm becoming bc i'm actively working on my spirit and who i am thru Christ.

first off - i'm fortunate for past, current and future *pain* bc it's brought me many blessings and will continue to bring me more.. just watch. it's just all about perspective and mines slowly but surely turning around! 💕 pain is a blessing bc without it we wouldn't know joy & we wouldn't be able to help others with similar problems!! i def struggle with my own share of health issues, a lot more at 31 than i ever wanted to have but i gotta be realistic about it: i treated my mind, body and spirit like a trash can off and on for the better part of a decade, i have trauma that i wouldn't dive into - like for real, for real - until 2 years ago or so bc i kept wanting to mask it. all that did was make it fester and then i projected it on others so what should i expect you know?? i used to complain constantly that 'life is not fair' and until very recently, i couldn't turn that around in my head and look at it positively .. like I AM ACTUALLY GLAD it's not bc if it was fair then i should have died yearssss ago.. one way or another esp if you look at it from a scientific standpoint. i may not know what my purpose is in life y'all but it's not my job to figure that out, it's my job to trust The Lord and His plan for me even if it doesn't always make sense to me. He is a God beyond my understanding and letting Him run the show makes life a lot better. we're not meant to have it easy but we weren't designed to make it so hard on ourselves or others either. He provides us the tools, it's just a matter of if we choose to use them or not. we all struggle so let's help each other out but the right thing is usually not the easy one so be proud of yourself when you make good decisions, no matter how small. the small things become big things; choices become habits -- that can be good or bad so make it a good thing 😘

one main problem i've always struggled with is consistency, esp when it comes to obeying The Lord. i am finally aware that my behavior does NOT affect Gods love for me bc He's an unconditional, loving God but my behavior dictates how much easier or harder life becomes for me.. and it's a daily thing y'all but it is for a lot of people, not just me. i just know that when i impulsively react to somebody or something, my

m o u t h is the first to go 😬😏SOOOO now im pretty good at waiting it out and if i think the same thing 2 mins later or so, you bet i'm gonna say it bc i'm blunt like that and i don't care to sugarcoat my thoughts BUT i also don't have to be hateful/disrespectful about it.. so that's been a turn around, for sure! 🙏 most people have a filter and i seem to lack one so i'm trying to develop one.. haha, it's funny but it's not at the same time.. actually it's been quite debilitating, really. my impulsivity and my mouth have burnt a lot of bridges in my life. not everybody or everything deserves a reaction and i don't need to waste my energy on things that arent my business -- and huge surprise here guys -- there is a LOT of stuff that is not my business so i take my nose out of it now 😜. i thrived off the drama and chaos for so long bc i didn't wanna look inward at myself and work on what was actually wrong -- which was me and my spirit. i am blessed for awareness and personal perspective.. it is everything.

ive been going back to AA and someone mentioned that theyve been praying for people that they have issues with, don't like or whatever the case may be and it's been helping them change their reaction/perspective towards that individual. at the end of the day, people are gonna do what they're gonna do but the way i choose to respond to it says everything about me, not them. that's why i love "The Four Agreements" book so much -- seriously life changing bc it's helped me realized that like i had so much displaced anger for so long and made it about everybody else and "what they did to me" , how "i'm not like everybody else", "why do they have a career / family / house and i don't?" WHATEVERRRR blah blah blah 😑 when at the end of the day, it had nothing to do with them. i was unhappy with myself, pissed that i got "cursed" with alcoholism and depression, sleep issues, etc. so instead of looking at it my difficulties as strengths and blessings, i had my own definition of what successful, happy people looked like or what they had and i was straight up mad and jealous of y'all. like how dare y'all have it so easy, right?! 🙄 omg hahaha how delusional is that!!! NOBODY has it easy!!! we all have something man and just because others may not see it doesn't mean it's not there!!!

"be kind.. for we are all fighting a battle others know nothing about." amen!!

my life has turned out to be nothinggggg of what i thought it was gonna be .. and i'm at a place of acceptance about it now and what a blessing it is to feel at peace more often than not. i think the real definition of serenity is when you stop wishing you had a different past and appreciate what God trusted you to go thru bc He knew Y O U could handle it 🥰

my alcoholism has about damn killed me but i'm resilient and ive been able to help others who battle my demon too; my depression has helped me understand deep sadness and how not running away or being scared of somebody bc of that can really change another persons life for the better.. one conversation can literally save somebody's life so don't underestimate what it means when someone disabled from depresssion reaches out to you bc you could be a life changer to them, i know this from experience. sleep issues suck but i've had a lot of deep, thought provoking conversations at 3a, ill tell ya that! but lately i sleep better bc i'm getting the garbage out of my soul and giving myself some grace. i'm blessed to not hold on to people who left me during my darkest hour bc they weren't meant to see me grow and to take part in my joy now.. it's all how you look at it!! i tried holding on to soooo many people for so long and now i just feel free of that negativity .. and i'm sure some people feel the same about me these last few years.. i was very toxic to some people so they were right to let me go as well. there's always two sides to everything y'all -- like be blessed for those who have let you down!! now you have room for people who are loyal and worth your damn time!! but as i just mentioned, i had to look in the mirror though and humble myself bc at one point or another, i was "that person" on more than one occasion that let somebody down and perspective on that is key to moving forward and not hurting somebody like that again. hurt people hurt people and i was the queen of that. when i get what i feel is a proper amount of time under my belt, i have so many amends to make that its quite.. sick, really. in the 5 years i've been in and out of AA, ive only been told to F off and/or burn in hell twice after trying to make an amends so that's better than i deserve lol most have been receptive of my amends but this will be the second round for some of those same people and i don't expect the same forgiveness i got the first time bc i don't deserve it. i'll also be frank with you .. some people i don't want to make amends to bc i don't feel they deserve it so clearly i still have work to do on my heart and hopefully thru the program and in time, i will feel differently but right now that's honestly how i feel.

to sum it all up, here are some things that help me:

-if you have to hide it, don't do it. -chaos always proceeds change.

-people will treat you with as much respect as you show yourself (thank you Lord for helping me with this one!!)

-validation may come from other people but that's just temporary. if you ain't happy in YOUR heart, with who YOU are.. check your morals and standards my dear! it doesn't matter if the entire world thinks you're great -- you need to KNOW & BELIEVE you are and that begins with the belief system you set for yourself!

- the saying "one foot in front of the other" goes a long way.. act blessed and you'll become blessed; no matter how stupid it sounds in your head, talk kindly to yourself until you believe it -- affirmations work, i swear!!! most importantly, show others grace so you'll eventually show yourself some 💕

i am a sinner but i am not my mistakes. my alcoholic demon is strong but God is stronger.. and thru Him, so am i. without my community from TN to NC to GA, my friends, my family of choice, my medical team and The Lord God, id be an empty shell of a person still at the bottom of a bottle at all hours of the day wanting to die every second i was breathing.. yes, it got that bad more times than i can count so THANK YOU to everyone who has given a shit about me and this crazy life i've had!!! once i realized that roughly 10% of my life is whats happened to me and came to accept that 90% of my life were problems that i created myself, was when i was able to become grateful for all the problems i DONT have & blessed that although some bridges are forever burned, there are many that are not!!! if i continue to act right, i have beautiful opportunities to improve myself and my relationships, the most important one being with God.

i know ive got some haters but i don't view them as enemies anymore bc i don't like harboring anger in my heart anymore .. it doesn't feel good and it only speaks to my own personal insecurity when i've talked poorly of somebody in the past. ive never quoted tupac in my life but there's a first time for everything 🤣 "i want you to eat, just not at my table." to the people i don't like and to those that don't like me, let's pray for each other. everybody deserves happiness and to thrive in their own way.. i'm not gonna be apart of some people's lives and BOTH of us are better because of it! God, i loveeee acceptance!!!! 🙌

above all.. do & be YOU, boo boo!

if it matters any, i think you're pretty great! 😋😙

as alwaysss, much love from knox & prayers to friends in mid tenn!! hope everyone is safe!! 🙏

xoxo

kels