#xxlosttrinityxx

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Gosh, sorry duderinos and dudettes!

I...

I seriously cannot stop thinking about my identity and how it flexibly changes depending who I'm around. I thought I'd be a permanent void boy (mix of transmasc of nonbinary) for the rest of my life. But-!

But then two men come along and solidify a new fact for me: that I'm genderfluid, not completely transmasc or nonbinary. So THAT alone has me running my wheels on the exact details of my relationships and what gender my partners pull out of me.

Allow me to go through them and try to explain (on the left are my partners, on the right are the changes made to me when I'm around them):

My wife - Transfaun Demisexual (my default)

-Most times, this is the identity I default to. It's like my comfort zone but for gender!

My German boyfriend - Transmasc Gay-Demisexual (MLM)

-He's often busy but even so, when I get to talk to him, I always feel like a giddy lil boy flirting with him. He even inspired me to try and learn German so I can try to understand him better!

My Aussie boyfriend - Female Straight???

-I'm still not 100% if that's the actual label for what I become in this one. But as my smooth man put it last night, he doesn't care what I am so long as we genuinely love each other. And we do! So much so that we chat everyday and it doesn't feel weird to be feminine for once!

Even laying it out, I still feel confused! Gay, straight, bi or pan, or even ace! But I know I'm not totally straight, just queer and weird~

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This is an Art trade for my best friend @xxlosttrinityxx He was really fun to draw, and I had so much fun drawing his static too! This is also an AU Me and Lost made, so to really see it come to life slowly is sooooo great! I can't wait to draw more art trade in the future! It is however @xxlosttrinityxx Oc and not mine!

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Just finished up Whirlie (my sister's OC) tonight and I'm more than happy with how he turned out.

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I was wanting to practice painting backgrounds so I wanted to try doing good ol' Nevada from Madness Combat. To one side we got dark mountains, to the other a city, and a whole bunch of wasteland between em. X3

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Drew this tonight and it's an older version of Hopsy! I love drawing this clown~

Don't be scared - Hopsy is friendly! X3

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Guess who got a tablet for Christmas? Me!!!

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Man, I spent a LONG time on this one but now that I'm done, I finally get my dopamine fix~

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Decided to clean up that doodle too because I love Doc so much~ <3

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My sis wanted me to draw Ruv and Whitty (or rather my version of a prison au) so I had fun~

Below was a rough of what I wanted to do.

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I forgot if I mentioned this here but I got my first commission from one of my two boyfriends. He was so kind and patient with me (forever grateful for that!) to the point I wished he didn't have to pay me $30 for this digital painting of mine.

At least we both got what we wanted! 🧡

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Here's my Hopsy boy like I promised! I love him so much that I thought to put the OG sketch I did in the background. <3

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Happy late birthday, @grimdemon1995! I love you sis and I hope you enjoy having Reaps all finished! <3

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Guess who finished sketching out Jarvis? I did!

I'll digitize him another time as my sister's birthday is tomorrow and I want to focus on making a gift for her.

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Remember when I said I was working on something non-Madness related in the background? This is that! My lil Inkit~!

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Got motivated to clean up that messy doodle~ Clean gunt is happy gunt~ <3

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I finished Reaps! She's so bubbly and sweet that I just HAD to do Hopsy's sister! Yw sis, @grimdemon1995!