#xiao meihua

[shiweimigi]

Originally released for UTAU on June 3, 2016, today is Xiao Meihua's 8th Anniversary! It's been a really long time already!

This year's illustration is by @reishichi , who drew Meihua and Meiye celebrating the big day together~!

Happy 8th Anniversary, Meihua!

[siyi-draws]

s7 but they smol

[patheticpeoplesupreme]

TW// Panic Attack// Derealisation /Derealization //

Multiple names used interchangeably// ambiguous ending

read the side notes at the end!//

Sometimes, this world feels fake. Sometimes, he doesn’t feel like he lives in it.

When he was Houhua, he tries wave the fog away and picks up his brush and does his duties. He makes way too many mistakes in those days but no one pays any mind to him. No one pays any mind to his bruises anyway.

No one would care to find out. Why would they?

He was just a pathetic, puny little mouse, scurrying to survive. Canon fodder destined to die and return to the earth below for his sins.

This was his world. His story brought to life.

When the sun glimmers through his window, he wonders if the glow is artificial, like the failing bulbs he used to change when he was falling behind in his rent.

He opens his eyes, trying to blink away the fog, trying to bring back clarity , but to no avail, time slips by again. It’s warmer now, so he forces his limbs to move.

Stumbling into the bathroom, he takes a deep breath and reaches out for a hair tie before locking eyes with himself in the mirror.

Distantly he thinks, ‘this isn’t who I am.’

The colour of his hair was as bright as a chestnut, different from what it should be, shorter dark curls floating in the wind instead of being in a bun. His eyes glaze over— his bright amber compared to the hazelnut shade— scanning himself in the mirror.

His height—the body’s height was shorter by a few inches. He tries to breathe. It only serves to tighten the space in his chest. Finally, with his clumsy fingers, he wrangles his messy, unbrushed hair into a low bun, having no energy to do his usual high bun.

He wished he could cut it.

His hand lifts up to touch the body’s face . Shang Qinghua’s face. Shang… Houhua…?

He tries to think about true name.

He remembers projecting himself into his story, the story that he loved so much, even if it devolved into horrible cliché plots that never went anywhere. Even if the stories were left buried under, he still loved this world.

洛梅花

Luò Méihuā

A plum blossom. Blooming in the midst of winter.

Haa…

He feels like he’s wilting. He steps outside of his room, dizzily fumbling with his accessories, the buttons, the sashes messily wrapped around him

He thinks he smells smoke, a Pringly feeling rubbing against his fingers. He remembers the day he dies, the currents and volts electrocuting him. The sound of thunder never used to scare him.

Now he trembles at the sight of a storm. The percentage of getting hit by lighting is low, but it still terrifies him. To die. To feel that excruciating pain, to feel that excruciating loneliness at the same time, it was unbearable.

~~

Feiji blinks, suddenly standing right infront of his office door, a disciple of his holding the side of his shoulder. He remembers watching her stumble around as a young student, her name being on the tip of his tongue. He didn’t write her, he knew this, yet he couldn’t stop the wave of unease.

“Shizun?” She frowned in concern. He tries to smile and pat her head. Her frown doesn’t disappear, but she does scatter out the front gate.

Feiji wonders if Gua-xiong (Cucumber bro) feels like this sometimes. Like the world is floating away against his will.

“Shang-shidi?” He blinks again. A different person steadying the body— he didn’t even know the body was swaying.

Hm… Yue Qingyuan should be pretty and likeable… but no one likes a one-dimensional character. Though, they really don’t care as long as the protag gets their wives huh… hm…

Maybe I can scrap the Xiao Jiu storyline? The sect leader is gonna die anyway… it’ll be super bittersweet.



Yue Qingyuan’s brow was furrowed as he stared at the body. Shang—Hua flinched, remembering the descriptions that he’d thought of to make the pair suffer even more.

“All you do is apologise, and for what!? You left me behind!” Meihua laughed slightly as he wrote Xiao Jiu’s lines, thinking to himself, this will surely satisfy the readers angsty desires!

Meihua grinned with the artist he had commissioned to make official art of the peak lords, “this is exactly what i think they look like in my head, thanks!”

Shang Qinghua opens his mouth—

and chokes on a sob, “S—“

he gasps as his knees buckle beneath him, “Sorry.”

Fortunately, Yue Qingyuan jumps in quickly and reaches out to steady him, lowering him slowly instead of plunging to the ground. “Shang-shidi? What’s wrong? Your disciple ran into me and told me that you were acting weird—“

His eyes go wide though he’s not quite sure why and his hearing suddenly shuts down, muffling everything the worried man is saying.

Feiji is sorry, Yue Qingyuan— he’s sorry—he’s so incredibly sorry—!

—

“Are you sure there’s nothing that could’ve possibly sent him into such a severe qi deviation?” Mu Qifang questioned once more, desperate to get any answers on how to help his patient.

Yue Qingyuan shakes his head, grimacing, “No, the disciple I saw told me that he’s been that quiet since the start of the day.”

He paused thinking for a little longer before sighing, “She did not mention if Lord Mobei had visited either… there was nothing that could have triggered it. And nothing is calming him down.”

Mu Qingfang gazed over to the sobbing man boy, “I wish I knew how to help him.”

“Perhaps we should ask Shen-shidi for assistance. He…”

Yue Qingyuan’s expression closed as he thinks about it, “The two of them has been quite close in the recent years.” He reminds himself to calm down.

Shang Qinghua to him, is like having a younger brother, he could feel totally at ease with the oddly anxious peak lord. Despite that, it’s hard to let go of one’s protective instincts. One day, he hopes his instincts will protect the younger as well.

—

“Hey,” a familiar voice called out from the darkness, “Bro?”

Feiji opens his eyes—he didn’t even know he had closed them— and sees the Scum Villain he had created. His breath hitched, thoughts running at a million miles per hour.

The—The backstory that he had scrapped in order to chase the trends and feed into popular tropes—

“Sh—Shen—“ Feiji stuttered out. Shen Qingqiu softened (!???) his expression, before holding his hand out.

“Hey, it’s okay, it’s just me, Shang Qinghua. Mu-shixiong told me that you were—“

shangshidishangshidishangshidi

In a burst of weird emotions, He swats his hand away from him, his voice almost going to a shrieking level, shocking everyone in the room.

“STOP—! That’s not my name—! Please! Shen—Shen—shixiong.”

The two names were fluttering in his mind.

Yuan. Jiu.

He didn’t know what to do anymore. He didn’t understand what was happening anymore.

“Yu—Yuan—xiong please—! That’s— that’s not my name!” He pleaded, “N—Not Shang Qinghua, not Houhua! That’s not me!”

He remembers vaguely the destiny of the body he’s residing in. “He’s not me—“

The two peak lords behind him blink in shock and panic, both frozen, not knowing what to do or say. ‘Yuan…?’

“Okay, I’m sorry, I know you’re not, you’re not him,” Shen Qingqiu nodded comfortingly, “It’s okay, Feiji—ge Gua—xiong is here.”

Feiji shudders at the nickname, one that would usually make him feel safe when it’s Shen Yuan uttering it, yet— all the name does is remind him that he had written all of these characters, all of their suffering, caused by him.

He shakes his head desperately.

Luckily, the man understands. “Alright, this master won’t call you by that name, it’s okay. Can you tell me what you want me to call you?”

It takes a very long time for his mind to catch on, for his mind to send signals on how to respond, he shivers, bowing his head, he grasps at the strings, pulling the cord that would finally make his voice work.

“Meihua— L—Luo Meihua! That’s—“ He sobbed, cutting himself off and desperately clinging to the one person he knew was real. “Gua—Xiong.”

Despite not being good with physical touch, Shen Qingqiu allows the mousy man to grab on as a crutch, he nods along to his mumbles, gesturing Mu Qingfang to help put the panicked and stressed man to rest. “Okay, thank you for telling me Luo Meihua, This one won’t leave you.”

—

“Please. We will explain it all, but please just trust us.” Shen Yuan whispers as the author in his arms falls quiet with his breathing at ease.

—

Blue =Airplane(Feiji)/Meihua(my Airplane’s original name) / & Shen Yuan / Gua-Xiong (cucumber bro)

Green=Shang Qinghua /Shang Houhua( Sqh’s original name?)’s body and original self (or what he perceives to be the original)

also, green refers to SVSSS characters in general and differentiates from real people

It’s honestly super cool I can do this on tumblr

Also side note:

PIDW to Shen yuan feels like Miraculous Ladybug to a lot of fans

it’s so funny

In general, a lot of mlb fans absolutely hate the way Chat and Ladybug is written and I just can’t help but think of Shen Yuan. But at least here, Airplane is likeable haha

[yaniidme]

ʚɞ

finally, something fun that didn't involve being a stupid idol in any way. she hardly had to keep her head down, aside from the camera coordinator settled in the corner of the room. she finally was able to accompany mei on her volunteering and she was relishing in it. the pups were everywhere and happy to see her, leaving a boost of dopamine that brightened how she felt.

hearing mei's voice yumi turned around, coming face to face with a pretty, black lab that simply tilted it's head in response. "oi, you think he's a telepath or something?" she asked her with a laugh, sinking down to the dogs level, playing at it's ears. "are you reading my mind friend. what am i thinking huh? what am i thinking?" umeko continued to pet and scratch at it's face before looking at her. "i literally never want to leave here thank you for bringing me."

❥. for ; @whatumeko

one of the things mei’s missed while being on tour had been volunteering at the nearby dog shelter, not even having much time on breaks to visit because of how tired she was — she didn’t count sneaking off to the dance studio after the firm suggestion to rest though, she had to alright? she was excited to see all the familiar dogs, even the new ones she’d also grow to love just as much.

she’d promised umeko she’d bring her but with all the busy schedules between the two, wasn’t the easiest task. but now the tour had ended and things were just slowing down slowly but surely. she was excited to finally bring her though, to have her experience something she loved doing outside of dancing. “looks like you have a shadow.” she giggled, nodding in the direction behind where yumi was as she placed down a few water bowls. “nabi made a new friend.” she cooed at the black lab that seemed to never leave the rapper alone.

[transformativeworksandcultures]

TWC 41: Chinese Fandoms [Special Issue]

Editorial

Zhen Troy Chen and Celia Lam, Special issue on Chinese fandoms: Prosumers, communities, and identities

Article

Yidong Wang and Yilan Wang, Dangai fandoms under crossfire: The making of queer love in a permeable and convergent media ecology

Kexin Sun, The politicization of Chinese celebrity fandoms: A case study of discursive practices in the 227 Movement

Agata Ewa Wrochna, Best TV show you have never seen: Maintaining collective identity among the Twitter fandom of Chinese dangai drama Immortality

Dania Shaikh, Reimagining queer Asias: Performativity, censorship and queer kinship in the fandoms of Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation and The Untamed

Tingting Hu, Chenchen Zou, Erika Ningxin Wang, A male idol becoming a girl? Nisu fans' sexual fantasy about male stars

Yijia Du, Doing feminism through Chinese online fiction fandom

Meihua Lu, From Cinderella to i-woman: Web novels, fandom, and feminist politics in China

Yuhang Sheng and Qing Xiao, "Play with me!" Zhan jie as productive fans in the Chinese idol industry

Leiyuan Tian and Fan Liang, Cultural porters and banyun in Chinese fandoms on Bilibili

Symposium

Qing Xiao, Yuhang Zheng, “Are we friends or opponents?” Chinese idol fans’ relationship changes from online to off-line

Zhuwen Zhang, Crossing swords and cutting sleeves: The cross-cultural impact of Chinese fandom fan fiction on Asian American youths

Roland Wang and Peilin Li, Warhammer fandom in China: A brief introduction

Dongni Huang, "Treat male idols as toys": A case study of Chinese self-centered shipper communities

Book review

Kelsey Morgan Entrikin, "Dubcon: Fanfiction, power, and sexual consent," by Milena Popova

[utau-bowl]

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Longest Tag: 88 characters

#also thanks to hattie for the request :pleading emoji: you have no clue how honored i am

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

A cover of Kira’s “4blood” with Teto English, with a fully animated and original video.

29 notes - Posted January 16, 2022

#4

Today is Celebrate Bisexuality Day check out these Bisexual UTAUs made by (mostly) LGBT+ creators or I’m stealing something out of your house!!!

Aino Erufu

Blake Howell

CopperCross

Crystal

Haru Torres

LEONA

Mario Fuwa

Megumi Kokkeisha

Niji Kobayashi

Peiton

POTG

Rodney Osbourne

Ryata Maxum

Shizuruu

Yumeilia

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#3

Demo for Namine Ritsu AI, now avilable for ACE Virtual Singer and ACE Studio.

[ Download ]

36 notes - Posted October 13, 2022

#2

Pink UTAU edit!

UTAUs used: Lani, Xiao Meihua, Macne Coco Shiro and Kuro, Haruka Nana, Deofairy NOL, Tadano Onnanoko, Honoka Elie , Kubishiki, Koharune  Ami, Bixibite, Kizune Usa, Jinza, Momo Momone, Shione Lt, Peiton, Machi Sukio, Kane Tomo

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My #1 post of 2022

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[para-psychopathology]

song i finished all the way back in 2021 and just never posted

i never gave it an actual name either lol. i called it "pigg" bc of the distortion effect i'd used on the piano, a plugin called "piggy" or something like that. idk i've always sucked at naming things

[meerkatp]

Meihua doodle

[ryllen]

Commission for @YuezhengMigi

Belphegor from Obey Me & UTAU, Xiao Meihua

[faynatical]

Xiao Meihua chibi commission for keychain set (3/4). ( for JAE Project )

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 - HERE

https://jaevocalproject.storenvy.com/products/30905983-jae-acrylic-keychains-by-melody

[shiweimigi]

7 years ago, on June 3, 2016, Xiao Meihua was released on UTAU!

Here's an illustration by flamingo-sama of Meihua placing a flower crown on her male derivative, Xiao Meiye's, head! A lovely time together~!

As seen you can see, similar to Xiao Shancha and Xiao Naidong in February, Xiao Meihua and Xiao Meiye are wearing new official outfits! These were designed by @fiorrie and they are free to use in songs if you'd like (please credit fiorrie if you use them)! Fanart is also okay! We hope you like them! Enjoy!

Happy 7th Anniversary, Xiao Meihua~! ❤️❤️❤️

[siyi-draws]

More AU shenanigans

[shiweimigi]

Completed video is here:

Commission for @mysterious-eevee-of-the-mist! It is their UTAU OC, Meihua and the image is for a cover of the Vocaloid song Sweet Devil.

[totsugekiloveheart]

I’m still not over how cute the new merch is 😭🥺 I want to hold the thirteen so bad!!

[kukuandkookie]

I finally binge-watched this show and now I have Scissor Seven brainrot! I’m a bit busy lately so please accept these doodles as my first contribution to the fandom otl. 🙏

Bonus: my favourite of the bunch:

[utau-bowl]

Pink UTAU edit!

UTAUs used: Lani, Xiao Meihua, Macne Coco Shiro and Kuro, Haruka Nana, Deofairy NOL, Tadano Onnanoko, Honoka Elie , Kubishiki, Koharune  Ami, Bixibite, Kizune Usa, Jinza, Momo Momone, Shione Lt, Peiton, Machi Sukio, Kane Tomo