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hii!! I just read cold spots and it was AMAZING!!! Im not sure if you wanted to continue the fic, but if you donât mind could you continue with Veres part? I donât know what you would write about but I just feel like that fic has so much potential to be a little 3 part series or something đ
<- Cold Spots TYSM ANON!! I put the Vere End at the beginning for ease of reading. For the sake of folks who would like to read this as a stand-alone... I think u can? With the knowledge that the premise of Cold Spots is that Mhin and MC/Sparrow went ghost hunting. Vere is said to have been responsible for a handful of local ghost stories, soâŚof course he makes some mischief.đŚ Also MC needs some Winter wear, stat. A very light Possessive Vere warning in this btw, though perhaps in a roundabout way. Plausible deniability is so important to him.
You putter around in your room at the Wet Wick as you go about your nightly routine. The occasional cheer or thud from below only accentuates your nervous energy, punctuating your reluctance to settle down and get into bed. You smooth the covers with your bandaged hands and fluff the pillow before extinguishing the lamplight. You tug the bedding up above your shoulders, fighting to get comfortable. As your eyelids finally start to droop, the flicker of a shadow catches your attention.  It dances and sways and bends and grows until suddenly it is right in front of you. On top of you. Silken, blood red drips down onto your face, a knife gleam smile too close for comfort. You breathe in a gasp, wondering if you should scream. âVere, whatââ âShhh,â he coos, pressing a finger lightly to your lips. His breath is hot against your skin. âI only came to keep you warm, pet.â
Heat Signature
âPoor thing.â Vere purrs. âYour lips are so cold.â He leans ever closer, his mouth hot over yoursâhovering. His other hand reaches for your face as well, nails trailing against your cheek in a teasing caress.
You feel even the thought of being cold leave your body, replaced instead by the unusual thrill he commands, that strange enthralling sway.
That heat youâve come to associate with Vere; sweet tendrils of want that nestle in your bloodstream.
You squirm a little, though you canât move much with him looming over you.
(You should probably do more to protest his intrusion into your room, you think to yourself, though, the majority of you isâcurious, daresay even far too eager toâ)
âWhatever trouble did you get up to that left you in such a state?â
At this you scoff, tilting your head back into the pillow and effectively knocking Vereâs finger from your lips. Â
âAs if you donât know,â you accuse.
Vere looks entirely unperturbed by you shaking him off, his lithe fingers traveling freely along the newly displayed skin of your throat, making your pulse jump.
Vere chuckles at that, dark and silky.
âBeing tight lipped about your adventures, hm?â He angles your face just so, ensuring you meet his sharp eyes, his nose brushing up against yours. âNot that it matters. It so happens I do know what youâve been up to. Trespassing in places that donât belong to you.â
â...It was an abandoned building. I donât think it really belonged to anyone.â
âAnd thatâs where youâd be wrong,â Vere says, âeverything in this city belongs to someone, darling. You just donât know what belongs to who yet.â He peers down at you with laughter in his expression, though there's a distinct edge to it that you can't quite place.
âSo, you're here because that building belongs to you...?â
âHmm, amongst other things. However shall I make you apologize to me for this most egregious offense?â He asks airily, shifting until heâs beside you rather than perched over you, resting his cheek in his hand and letting his eyes slip closed. He's the absolute picture of unbothered leisure. Â
(Youâre not fooledâheâs simply waiting for you to let your guard down before he pounces.)
You open your mouth to deny any debts on your part (though, if your ghost hunting spot was indeed Vereâs hideout, you really do feel guilty) but Vere cuts you off before you can speak.
âAlas, I suppose itâs not mine anymore. Within a week it will reek of wet dogs and cheap booze. It's a lost cause now that those drooling reprobates know it's inhabitable. A pity. By Eridia's standards it really was divine in its heyday. Good wine, music, dancing. There was this portrait artist who would paint the performancesâŚâ
His tone remains light as he reminisces. But the look he pins you with is dangerous: his eyes gleaming bright, his canines bared in an irreverent grin.
âI had such hopes and dreams of reviving the place myself. Some of the dances were very scandalous. You never did share with me your stance on dancing, did you?â
You stumble out an approximate answer. ItâsâŚharmless information to give, isnât it?
Though, judging by how pleased Vere looks, you wonder if you should have refused to say. He looks positively wicked as he ponders your answer aloud. âOh, Iâm sure youâve got plenty of talents to share. In another life, perhaps I'd have put you on stage. Though, I admit. I find myself partial to a private show.â
Andâas expectedâthe moment you let your guard down, he's in your space again, crowding you. Heat and proximity and the softest brush of his lips against yours, light enough to send a thrill down your spine, curiosity and a want so deep it surprises you.
âWell?â He purrs. âCare to audition?â
You can't hide behind the excuse of supernatural sway or charm or the thrall of hypnotic sunglo eyes. It's not Vere's power that controls you. It's your own gnawing desire; starvation and longing that draws you to him despite all sense.
Kissing Vere is heady. Dizzying. Â
Kissing Vere is like being in conversation with Vereâa constant of giving and taking, being chased after and running to keep up. Itâs enticing and alluring and decadent and never quite enough, over too soon even as you feel yourself losing air, the rush of blood and sensation threatening to overwhelm you.
He gives a parting nip to your bottom lip as he pulls away.
Then another one, playful, to your jaw.
When he presses his face into the side of your neck, you expect him to bite again.
What you donât expect is for him to nuzzle into you, inhaling deeply before heaving a great sigh, his tail flopping lazily to land across you with a thump.
Heâs officious as he rearranges the covers, ensuring your arms are tucked carefully away from him before heâs willing to fully settle into the bedding, pulling the blankets up around the both of you like a den. He hums something low in his chest as he tucks himself up alongside you, long tail curled around your waist.Â
Itâs rhythmicâ
purring.
And itâsâŚsoothing, actually.
The weight of him, the warmth. The incessant lamplight of the Amaryllis District, shining ever present through your window, is dimâtolerable, even, courtesy of Vere's magnificent shadow manipulations and the blankets sheltering you.Â
The constant noise seems to fade away as well, obscured by the sound of purring. âFalling asleep when you have me in your bed, pet? You really do try your luckâŚâ
#Foxes purr btw!#i await more purring Vere fics I hold out my sickly little claws for them (a prompt from me for other fic writers)#You and I get to know that Vere was touching on Sparrowâs face sm bc he caught a peek at Mhin doing it in Cold Spots#and he got territorial#I decided that the narrative pointing it out was laying it on too heavy. but you and i know.#Hopefully this fits the bill ok of what u described anon! A liiittle spice but mostly wholesome??#iâm ngl I was going for more spice but ...Deicide!Flavored Vere... he took all of it#AAA SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG THO ANON AAAAuuughghhh#also ur so right anon u gotta have a sequel (since I was talking about horror tropes lol)#the thought of Vere & Mhin being down bad for the same person is sooo funny to me btw. i think of it often.#vere x reader#touchstarved x reader#toxintouch writing#touchstarved game fanfic#no pillow fight i'm osrry#this fic. fought me. this fic stole my wallet in the denny's parking lot#toxintouch: {pick} prompt {your poison}#wtf tumblr why did u do this to my image i thought i got my dimensions right the file can't be that big...#i have 2 ways of choosing titles btw on the nose and âyou'll have to google this/have me explainâ
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#did my allergies just randomly fucking kick in wtf#my throat is itchy and my nose is all stuffy and itchy#like wtf man#also so weird. i have seasonal allergies and itâs been like allergy season for like a month now#and i hadnât had any symptoms at all. like zero sneezing around flowers and pollen and shit#like wtf? but now iâm having allergy symptoms rn#idk what the deal is#i am also crazy scared that iâm sick#even tho this feels like allergiesâŚ. i think.#i really really really do not wanna be sick#itâll stress me out so bad
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Clarissexfem!Reader where a reader's ex-girlfriend arrives at the Camp and Clarisse becomes jealous, and tries to keep the reader away from her ex at all costs
- tough love -
Parings - Clarisse La Rue x Fem! Reader
Synopsis - Clarisse doesnât like when new people try to threaten her relationship.
An - do lesbians only exist online bc wtf đđ
âWhat do You mean my girlfriend is being hit onâ Clarisse looked back at her brother who nervously rocked on his feet.
âThereâs uh a new girl shââ before he could finish his sentence clarisse was already shoving past him, not only did a new kid think they had the audacity to flirt with her girl but this kid also hadnât officially met her yet.
You sat awkwardly inside the dining pavilion. Across from you was some brunette new girl who clearly didnât realize that this was a summer camp not a weekend trip to Beverly hills.
âHey babe.â Clarisse sat down beside you, adding extra force on her words as she leaned over to kiss you. You couldnât even get a hi out before clarisse started talking to the new girl. âWho are Youâ
âHi! So your clarisseâ she smiled with a misleading tone. âIâm Sunday but most people just call me sunnyâ holding out her hand clarisse looked down at it before looking back at sunny unamused.
âWhy the hell are you flirting with my girlfriendâ not waisting anytime she straight or got to the point.
âI wasnât flirting silly Iâm her ex, I was just catching up I didnât know that was a problemâ sunny hummed tilting her head to the side. âI didnât realize you liked such obsessed toxic womenâ her targeting joke clearly not being appericated by you or clarisse.
Clarisse stood up quickly and helped you out of the chair. âStay the fuck away from my girl and we wonât have a problemâ she threatened before walking away with a jealous grip on your hip.
âââ
That was the only warning sunny got.
Sitting inside the infirmary you stood over Clarisse who was sitting with her head held low, ashamed that she was currently having to face your wrath. At the other end of the infirmary was sunny who had an Apollo Kid help trying to keep blood from gushing out of her nose since it was broken.
âIâm my defense she shouldnât of touched youâ clarisse tried to pleas her case, looking up for only a moment.
âYouâre hopelessâ You rubbed your eyes wondering what the hell you were gonna do with her.
I didnt know exactly what to write Iâm sorry pookie I hope this is good tho âšď¸đđđ
#lesbian#wlw#clarisse la rue#clarisse pjo#clarisse x reader#percy jackson fanfiction#clarisse larue#clarisse my beloved#percy jackson show#pjo fandom#clarisse x female reader#clarisse la rue x reader#clarisse x you
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So y/n goes to this game like always everyone knows sheâs barzal wife or girlfriend when the fight happens something snaps and sheâs like yelling acting like there gonna hear her saying âHEY THATS MY MAN DONT TOUCH HIM LIKE THATâ people are recording her or she lands on the jumbo screen and the guys saying thereâs go barzal gf or wife love to see this. They both end up going viral on Twitter mat was over the fight but y/n still was mad and going on and on saying wtf I would of squashed him if I was right there because no one grabs my man like that đ¤ mat finds it entertaining because heâs never seen her this worked up and heâs kinda turned on by it knowing she would fight for him LOL even tho he wouldnât allow it but he ends up kissing her by how in love he is with her maybe gets alittle smutty
now that fight last night was quite something and god Mathew I want you to do it again! but not too often, I need you to keep looking pretty.
wc: 820
cw: alludes to sex, but not really smut (sorry Iâm working on other smut rn haha and didnât have much time to write today)
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You turned around from the conversation you were having with a friend to see Mat finally come out of the locker room area. When he was close enough, you could see there was a big red bruise coating his nose and part of his cheek from the fight he was in earlier. âAw, baby, are you ok?â
âPerfectly fine.â His smile was sweet and crooked as he wrapped his arms around you. Your lips brushed gently against his bruised skin then finally landed on his lips.
Once you were sure he was fine, you pulled apart and playfully punched him in the chest. âWhat the hell were you thinking? Fighting? Maty! You know my rule, no teeth, no wedding.â
He laughed. âI know your absolutely ridiculously absurd rule. Donât worry, Iâll have all of my teeth for the big day.â He kissed the top of your head, still getting excited at the mention of your wedding even after months of being engaged and it being pretty much all planned already. âAnd he attacked me. I wasnât about the back down. Iâm not scared of a little fight.â
A rush of heat flowed through you, seeing him get worked up again. And you had to admit, as much as you hated the fighting aspect of hockey, it was kind of hot seeing Mat defend himself and get into a little brawl.
âAnd it looks like youâre not as mad as youâre pretending to be.â He totally picked up on your vibes.
âAlright, so maybe it was a little hot to watch,â you admitted. âBut donât make it a regular thing.â
âSure about that?â His eyebrows raised and a little mischievous grin appeared as he pulled you closer to him by your hips.
âAt least not until after the wedding. I need you looking pretty for the pictures.â
âAlright, no more fights until the wedding.â
âââ
âOk, so maybe I will keep up the fights if youâre going to be this turned on afterwards,â Mat mumbled out of breath when you rolled off him, back onto the mattress.
âYou made a promise,â you responded, yelping when his lips were back on your skin in seconds. His teeth graded your neck, down your naked chest.
âItâs very hard to resist.â He came back up to kiss you passionately. You had lost count of the amount of times you had sex within the last few hours of coming home from the game, sleeping, and waking up to more sex.
âAlright, get off me Iâm starving.â He fell back into the pillows with a laugh, but instead of getting up to go to the kitchen, you grabbed your phone for your daily morning phone time. Mat did the same.
To your surprise, there were a ton of notifications. Texts, instagram, twitter, etc. And also from people you didnât even know. A quick investigation told you that you were in fact the reason for all the fuss.
âYou seen this?â Mat had the same expression on his face, as he was looking through the exact same type of notifications. People sending a video of you from the game last night, yelling during Matâs fight. The person who filmed it was too far away to pick up audio, but based on reading your lips, people could tell you were yelling something the lines of âHEY THATS MY MAN DONT TOUCH HIM LIKE THATâ.
You looked to Mat for his reaction, but he was just laying there, naked, watching the video over and over again, his jaw slowly dropping. You watched him nervously, internally cringing that a video of you like that was currently trending. Mat finally faced you.
âMy girl.â He laughed and was back on top of you in seconds. âMy feisty girl. And here I thought you were upset I was fighting, but you would have easily stepped in.â
âI was just trying to protect your pretty face.â He smiled wide and started attacking you with kisses, sucking and biting your skin.
âI had no idea you could get so worked up.â
âIâve been hanging around you for too long.â He chuckled and kissed you deeply. You could never get enough of him.
âProtecting me. Iâm supposed to be the one protecting you.â
âYou clearly need it.â You loved teasing him, especially since his kisses got more intense the longer it went on.
âIâm pretty sure I won that fight last night, so I can protect myself.â He got on his knees and his lips wandered down your body. One of his hands grabbed your breast, massaging it, while his lips started assaulting the other. He licked around your nipple, sucking and biting it playfully. âBut my job is to take care of you.â
He moved further down the mattress, getting ahold of your thighs and roughly pulling them apart. âNow be a good girl and let me do my job.â
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*slams my head on the sink* 100 questions for aidlyn.
I'm dead serious btw. This is long
1. Who fell first? Who fell harder?
Aiden fell first and Ash fell harder. But they are both horrendously down bad for each other đŤ
2. Who is the one who fusses the most? Does their partner mind very much?
They're both kinda fussy in different ways, but Aiden is the one getting hurt more often so Ash is fussing the most. Not that Aiden minds he eats that shit up.
3. What is their love language?
I think I mentioned Ash's is quality time and for Aiden it's physical touch :>
4. Has either ever gotten a hickey off the other? What was their reaction?
I've gotten a hickey from somebody biting me (IN A PLAYFUL WAY get your minds outta the gutter đ¤Ą) so I feel like Ash would get one in the same way?? Like. Aiden just bit her cheek or smth. Cuz he's bitey. And it left a mark. She was really pissed about it đ like "Ow wtf man-!"
5. What is something they like to do together?
Oh, they're not picky...Aiden likes doing everything with Ash so he lets her pick. Ash likes doing something calm because she likes seeing him more low energy and relaxed like binging a show or doing a puzzle. If he leans on her she's done. She gone fr.
6. Who would ask the "would you love me if I were a worm?" question? How would the other answer?
Aiden would but just for fun and to not repeat myself lets imagine Ash asking 𤥠lowkey would be embarrassed and ask in the tiniest voice ever. Aiden ofc think this is adorable and tells her in great detail how he would get her a huge terrarium with the finest dirt and lots of food and Ash is just staring at him wondering why he put so much thought into it.
7. Who likes forehead kisses? Who likes hand kisses? Who likes neck kisses?
Forehead: Both :) Aiden likes her reaction and Ash kinda implodes whenever Aiden pushes her bangs back to give her a lil forehead smooch
Hands: Ashlyn, somehow it's easier than kissing him on the face or mouth but still conveys the intimacy she feels
Neck: probably Aiden, but it tickles Ash way too much for them to do it properly. He surprised kissed her nape once and she freaked out, so she threw her head back and broke his nose đ¤Ą
8. Who is the big spoon? Little spoon?
Neither I STAND BY THIS. They sleep facing each other let me have this.
9. If there wasnt enough seats, how would they sit? One on the other's lap? One on the armrest? One on the floor in front of them?
Aiden steals the seat, makes a joke about how Ash can sit on his lap, Ash says she would literally rather sit on the floor, Aiden gives up the seat all pouty, then his restless ass spends the rest of the time finding a comfy spot before sitting on the armrest.
10. Who plays with whose hair?
Aiden 1000000% because he's obsessed with it. In the beginning Ash would pinch him whenever he did it, but after he started braiding her hair it didn't bother her as much. Likes fiddling with the tips or whipping the braid around like some weird ass stim toy lol đ¤Ą
11. Who is clingy?
I think they both are in different ways...Aiden more tho, and he's more obvious about it đ
12. What is something the other does that makes them flustered?
They're both idiots so they get flustered whenever they're soft with each other đŤ for Ash, the aforementioned forehead kiss + Aiden praising her, and for Aiden it's whenever Ash touches his face really softly or initiates snuggling.
13. What is something they find attractive about each other?
Guessing this means physically?
Aiden: Her freckles. Or her hair. Or her eyes. Don't make him pick đ¤Ą
Ashlyn: she's hard pressed to admit it but she does like his face- also likes his hands and looking at the scars.
14. What is something they argue about constantly? Is it a deep-seated issue or something small?
Aiden isn't big on fighting in gen, he doesn't have the motivation for it. Ash usually just scolds him for his piss poor self preservation skills and he'll sulk about it. Not above picking a fight about smth stupid if it gets her attention tho
15. How do they comfort one another when the other is upset?
Depends what is bothering them. Aiden usually goes for a hug if she allows it and tries to talk to her. Aiden usually prefers being alone if he feels like he's gonna get upset so it's a little hard for Ashlyn to help him, but normally tries to reassure him that she's not leaving, or holds his hands or face to help ground him. She's a very logical person so she tries to think of ways to solve a person's problem if they're upset, but most of aidens problems are internal/emotional.
16. Who is the better caretaker? Does their partner like being taken care of?
Aiden is better with physical injuries because...he's had them all before multiple times and he knows what to do haha. Ash appreciates the help but I wouldn't say she enjoys it. Ash is better with illnesses, which is great because Aiden acts like he's literally dying whenever he gets a cold (forcing him to spend all day In bed?? Just give him a death sentence while you're at it), so yeah he's a little baby that likes being taken care of.
17. Who steals whose clothes? Does their partner mind?
Most of Ash's clothes don't really fit Aiden...Ash steals his jackets/hoodies on accident because Aiden will give them to her (she gets cold easy) and she forgets to give them back (she's also a little weird about it and sleeps with them). He lowkey gets kinda smug when he sees her wearing them lol
18. They've had a major blowout. How do they handle it?
Like...the care tire blew out? Ash would probably change it (her parents taught her) and while she's at it she'd show Aiden how to do it too (he's never learned)
19. How good are they are communication?
.... C+ Probably rely on the gang a little too much to solve their issues. They're working on it, alr?
20. Who handles the spiders? Who screams directions in the background?
Neither of them are afraid of bugs BUT Ash does not like insects partly because she doesn't know how they'll react to smth. Logically tho she knows spiders are useful so she asks Aiden to get a cup and throw them outside.
21. Who typically tends to initiate intimacy first (this can be a conversation, action or anything)?
Depends on the kind, Aiden definitely seeks out Ash's attention more often (like asking her if she wanted to do the puzzle), but he's a little nervous about physical affection, so in the beginning of the relationship that was Ash. Now that he knows it's usually okay he is more touchy, but now Ash looks for his company more often so she will start conversations.
22. What is something - either character - doesn't like about the other?
Ashlyn: above all, his own self apathy. She is...really not cool with him hurting himself all the time. She also thinks he's way too impulsive and irresponsible sometimes
Aiden: don't ask him! But sometimes he thinks she's very...cold. and it hurts his feelings.
23. Who said "I love you" first?
Aiden, they were already together so he thought he should let her know :P
24. Who kissed who first?
Ash told him she wanted to first and he initiated it (since Ash didnt know what to do)
25. Do they have any pet names for one another?
Ash doesn't really like them, she feels stupid saying them 𤥠the closest is Mr. Durable if he's being an idiot. All her "idiot, dumbass, stupid" are affectionate. Aiden has like a lot of batshit crazy weird pet names for her that Ash doesn't understand at all. Partially to annoy her.
26. Who gets jealous most often? How does the other deal with that?
Pffffff. Aiden definitely. Ash usually doesn't really notice ("he's acting weird...well, he's always weird") unless somebody points it out. She's very pragmatic about it, she just bluntly tells him he's being stupid and that she's not interested in anybody else.
27. Who tends to drive on long journeys? Who navigates?
Ash is designated driver because Aiden is an absolute maniac on the road (even tho he says he's a fine driver) and they have a GPS because Aiden gets to distracted to navigate đ
28. Do they trust one another? Are comfortable discussing their fears with one another?
I think in canon, and even in this theoretical relationship, they're a bit away from being totally open with each other. But they do trust each other.
29. What's an insecurity they hold about their relationship?
Aiden's BPD, even after everything, will flare up and he thinks Ash will leave him, especially cuz he's so "annoying and pushy", etc etc. This kinda bleeds into Ash's issue, which is the fact that she's putting so much into this relationship and she still feels like Aiden doesn't really trust her.
30. Describe how one would cheer the other up after a hard day.
Ashlyn: she says Aiden is like a kid, because to cheer him up she just has to hold him. A long cuddle session is in order, and some kisses for good measure :> Then she'll offer to go out tomorrow to do smth fun.
Aiden: she's probably overstimulted and exhausted, so he basically preps her/their room so she can relax to the fullest and does all the chores so she won't need to do anything. Orders takeout/goes to the drive-through so she doesn't need to socialize.
31. How would they describe one another?
Ashlyn: weirdo adrenaline junkie who doesn't know when to quit...and an idiot. He's still HER idiot tho.
Aiden: his guardian angel, bless her, because he must give her a heart attack per day at least.
32. Can they communicate private thoughts whilst in company? If so, how?
Not really haha. They're both difficult people to read, and they're not exceptions to each other.
33. Which one of them gives "that look" when they other is acting like a fool?
...Come on 𤥠You guys know. You know it's Ash.
34. How do they address a problem in their relationship?
...they'll probably ignore it for a while đ When somebody brings it up it'll be Ash. She is genuinely very invested in the relationship so like, she doesn't want it to blow up in her face haha, so she will look on the internet for a solution (or ask Taylor)
35. How does each significant other view any exes and former relationships?
Ash doesn't have any exes which is great because Aiden would probably be jealous of that too đŤ Aiden doesn't have any like, real proper exes either. I guess she would be a little curious about his past relationships tho, just because he doesn't talk about them.
36. What is something that would break their hearts?
For Aiden, if she couldnt take him anymore...and for Ash, it kinda breaks her heart everyday that Aiden still thinks she'd leave him behind :")
37. Who is more likely to avenge their S/O if they were hurt or killed?
More likely??? I mean lowkey Aiden but they would both try- don't underestimate Ash's anger lol
38. What would be their ideal evening in?
I feel like they would binge watch a reality TV dance competition show or smth along those lines. Order a bunch of junk food, top it off with ice cream...Ash would probably fall asleep on him at like 1am and Aiden would fall asleep a little bit later because he sleeps easier with her next to him :)
39. Do they dance? If so, who's better?
They both dance!!! Ash is, ofc, an excellent ballerina and she knows some ballroom dancing. Aiden is better at freestyle and stuff like that, but Ash is better on a technical level.
40. What is a song that reminds you of the relationship?
Bro I suck at picking songs đ LOWKEY LOWKEY Acting My Age by The Academics đ Or No Time To Explain??? By Good Kid?? GODDDD I SUCK AT THIS SO HARD- Vampire Empire, Big Thief?? I'm gonna cry đ
41. Who sings to the other? Are they any good?
Aiden tries to serenade Ash all the time lmao 𤥠he's not a really good singer or anything, but he's not terrible...
42. Who teases who? What about?
Aiden teases her more, but she'll drag him if it's necessary. He definitely type of guy to say "Omg you had a crush on me?? That's so embarrassing" when they've been dating for 6 months...
43. Who gets up early? Who stays in bed late?
Aiden can't sleep, so he gets up really early. Ash actually likes sleeping so if she can she's gonna sleep in đ
44. Who's more likely to bring the other coffee or breakfast in bed?
One of the things Aiden can do in the kitchen is use the coffee machine!!! So he will bring her coffee in bed! No breakfast because...he doesn't know how to make breakfast... and he doesn't wanna cause her trouble by burning the pan or smth stupid like that đ
45. What's the worst thing the other can say to one?
Ash: for him to leave her alone and to not talk to her again.
Aiden: telling her to leave like everybody else does in his life (he pushes people away)
They actually make me mentally ill /pos
46. If they were ever in a life or death situation, who risks their life?
HA. They both do, no questions asked.
47. If it ever came down to it, who is turning to the darkside to save the other?
Mm. I think they would both do it, but Aidens morals are pretty loose when it comes to Ash lol. If you asked him to kill somebody to protect her he wouldn't feel that bad about it.
48. If they ever had less that 5 mins to tell their partner something before never seeing them again, what would they say?
Ash: To not be scared, because she wants him to know she's going to do whatever she can to find him again.
Aiden: absolute mess, telling her how much he loves her and that she made his life so much better and worth living (Aiden, buddy-)
49. Is there a word or gesture that makes either of them melt?
Ashlyn: I'm serious, the forehead kiss, she literally stops functioning đ
Aiden: When she looks him in the eyes, he knows she doesn't like that very much so he feels really special. Bonus points if she's holding his hands or cheeks.
50. Who's the romantic?
Aww, definitely Aiden. He's so silly about it all. Doodling their initials together, daydreaming about her, getting her gifts.
51. Are there any characters who ship them?
Taylor and Logan lowkey.
52. Who cooks? Who does the dishes?
Ash definitely cooks, Aiden can barely make Ramen. Aiden usually does the dishes to be fair between them, but Ash needs to supervise because he's prone to leaving grease or not cleaning the utensils properly (he wants to finish quickly)
53. Who eats healthier? Who's got the sweet-tooth?
Aiden is like a human garbage disposal, he eats the worse trash food humanely possible (and somehow is still not sick); his diet is basically fast food joints, convenience store snacks, and soda đ So Ash eats healthier... BUT Ash is the one with a sweet tooth. She really likes stuff like cookies, cakes, and chocolate. Aiden prefers salty and savory snacks (tho he does like candy, ex. gummy worms or lollipops, stuff like that)
54. What's something that they don't really care for but tolerate because the other has an interest?
Ashlyn: Video games. In general she finds them kinda stressful and loud, but she watches him play for fun (especially horror games)
Aiden: ballet shows. He ADORES watching her dance but like if she's not on stage he's not gonna be into it...
55. Who spoils who? Does their partner tolerate it? Do they secretly enjoy it?
Aiden absolutely spoils Ash, he has cash to burn, so why not on things she wants? :) lowkey Ash finds this a little weird, especially if he gets something really expensive (like this espresso machine he got her one Christmas) but she doesn't really have the heart to complain besides a "You don't need to spend so much on me..."
56. Who tends to be the level-headed one? Who is feral?
Ha đ Ash genuinely does her best to be level-headed...but deep down they're both feral.
57. Who reminds the other to wear a coat when it's cold out?
Ash. Aiden is one of those guys who goes out into snow In like jeans and a t-shirt to buy ice cream, so she crams him into a jacket...he lets her, cuz she zips it up for him and he gets a little goofy over that.
58. Do they hold hands?
..yeah :)
59. Is there a spot they tend to kiss or caress habitually?
Aiden brushes her hair back, so he touches the area around her temple/back of her ear a lot. Also kisses the palm of her hand whenever she holds his face. Ash kisses his cheek a lot, near the corner of his mouth.
60. Are they willing to show PDA? If not, is there a reason?
Well, Aiden doesn't really have a problem with it, but Ash is a little reluctant because it tends to draw unnecessary attention to herself and she does not like. Being perceived.
61. How would they describe their S/O in one word?
Ashlyn: "...interesting" (on a generous day, otherwise shes gonna say idiot đ¤Ą)
Aiden: "incredible!!!"
62. How would outside characters describe their relationship?
Tyler calls it "barely functioning" which annoys Aiden to no end. Taylor thinks it's sweet how dedicated Aiden is to Ash...even though she's a little worried about him. In general everybody is kinda...pleasantly surprised the relationship hasn't exploded yet.
63. How would they describe one another while sleeping in the same bed?
Aiden normally kicks while sleeping so the first time Ash woke up with her shins really sore and bruised đ¤Ąđđ˝ She's also not a fan of him snoring lmao. Aiden thinks she's a blanket hogger but, well, he won't complain about that. She also tends to curl up into a ball which he finds cute.
64. Would they ever answer the above question if it was asked to their face? How would they react?
Maybe when they were older and already living together, otherwise she needs to explain why they fell asleep on the same bed at the same time...lol
She'd be a little embarrassed that he finds her cute when she's sleeping haha. Aiden on the other hand would feel terrible about the kicking thing, AND the snoring (since she doesn't sleep with her earbuds in) đ
65. Who tends to take the lead with intimacy?
Well, for kissing, Aiden tends to initiate it more, because he has a better idea of what you're supposed to do. But Ash sets the pace, if she doesn't want to do smth or stop, she tells him.
66. Have they ever been caught kissing? What would be their reaction if they were?
I dont think a peck is embarrassing...I guess this is like an open mouth kiss, but if they were doing that, I feel like they would only do it at Aidens house whenever it was empty because Ash is kind of paranoid about that stuff. If she got caught she would like. Die. Girl would be redder than her hair 𤥠Aiden would be a lil bit flustered depending on who caught them, but mostly annoyed at being interrupted.
67. Have they ever kissed anywhere questionable?
....In the phantom dimension lowkey
68. Who is more vocal? Who is the better kisser?
Aiden is just a loud person in general. He sighs a lot (he's lovesick fr), and sometimes he starts mumbling about how pretty she is and how in love he is with her.
They're both pretty bad kissers lol đŤ Aiden loses his breath very quickly and Ash is super stiff.
69. If they were to go shopping, who holds the bags? Who decides where they go?
Ash doesn't really like shopping...? Lowkey stressful and she doesn't like getting new things. Aiden goes shopping because he has the money for it (he likes buying clothes) but he wouldn't make Ash carry his own bags lol
70. If they went out to dinner, who is paying? Would there even be a discussion?
Aiden. Ash usually tries to pay for herself but Aiden is pretty insistent about it, and he's SO rich that she has a hard time feeling bad about it.
71. If someone were to insult their partner, how would the other handle it?
Ashlyn: would snap back with something equally rude, but she's not super worried about Aiden, he has a thick skin and she knows that.
Aiden: will kill them with his bare hands. If Ash lets him.
72. If someone flirted with or showed an interest in their partner, how would the other react?
Ashlyn: probably surprised, she forgets not everybody knows about his massive baggage lmao. Teeniest tiniest bit jealous...
Aiden: absolutely the type of guy to swoop in, put his arm around her, and call her babe in front of the person. Will probably pull her away from the situation and then death glare at the person from over his shoulder :>
73. Who knows the other better? Why is this?
I think they both know each other pretty well, but Aiden knows all this useless trivia about Ash because he's obsessed with her /hj
74. Who's more likely to bail who out of jail? Would they give the other one shit for it?
Ash absolutely đ (it's with his own money too). She definitely gets on his ass for getting arrested over smth stupid like vandalism or "being a public disturbance" (and when he's older for stuff like driving under the influence or smth)
75. Which - if any - other famous ship's vibes do they emulate?
Man idk any famous ships :0 Like, what, an unhinged guy x girl clinging so hard onto those hinges? Guys let me know if you know any!
76. Are they soulmates? Do they believe in that?
I dont think they believe in spiritual stuff like that haha. They just know they love each other ^_^
77. What is something they would never forgive the other one for doing/saying?
Hhhhhh there's definitely a timeline where Aiden kills a person for Ash and I don't think she would ever really get over that, even if she still stayed with him. For Aiden...is hard, because it would be stuff that's not in character for her...maybe if he wasn't getting better and she left him. He would feel betrayed that she "abandoned" him when he was at his weakest. But even then...idk if she apologize for it I think maybe he would take her back...idk idk, they're complicated đ¤Ł
78. Who has memorised the other's medical history?
...Aiden
79. Also, are they each other's first contact in an accident?
Technically its their parents but they would call each other right away, and when they're older Aiden would definitely change it to Ash. Doesn't help that they tend to get into accidents together tho đ
80. What tropes could be applied to this relationship?
Grumpy x Sunshine, A Couple with Emotional Wounds, Battle Couple, Cannot Spit it Out (because fuck me that's why), Devoted to You (Aiden to Ash), Fire-Forged Friends...I'm this close to putting Heroes Want Redheads but...I'll control myself-
81. Did they have a meet cute? Or was it a train wreck?
More like a bus wreck, she literally ran away from him đ
82. Make their relationship into a list of A03 tags.
Hm...Idiots in Love, Biting, Mutual Pining, Obsessive Behavior, Complicated Relationships, Blood, Hurt/Comfort, Bruises.
(All of this list is fluffy shit so let me think about the darkness for a second)
83. Who gets frustrated more easily? How does the other calm them down?
Ashlyn lowkey, she gets irritated when she feels like she's not being understood or smth isn't going to plan. Most of the time Aiden will try and talk to her, which has a 50/50 chance of working lol
84. Have they ever almost lost one another? How does it effect their relationship?
LMAO yeah đ they HAVE lost each other and they both blame themselves hard for it, it makes Aiden even clingier and more overprotective than he normally would be, and Ash is hard on herself because she feels like she can't protect him when it's her job.
85. Their partner is tipsy. How do they handle it?
Ash: semi-regular thing she deals with as an adult. He is usually a reckless drunk person so she tends to redirect his attention towards herself (so he will shift into flirty drunk mode lol) and hopes he'll fall asleep soon :p
Aiden: he'd get upset because Ash would never willingly drink enough to get tipsy- lowkey his first thought is that somebody drugged her 𤥠(Ash probably just didn't notice her own limits) she's a pretty quiet drunk tho so she won't cause him too much trouble. She's also more affectionate which he guiltily enjoys
86. Who gives the best gifts? Who gives the more thoughtful? Who goes for expensive?
Okay, so...like...it's not like Aiden goes for expensive gifts just cuz they're expensive, it's just like. Sometimes he just so happens to get something that is expensive for her! And he knows her pretty well, so he knows what she likes. Ash is always kinda nervous about gift shopping because she feels a little...apprehensive about buying people stuff...but she's not bad at it, it just takes her a while.
87. If they ever lost one another in a public place, how do they find the other?
Ashlyn: She just calls him on her phone lol, if she doesn't have it on her she will just walk around looking for him because...he's kind of hard to miss-
Aiden: Definitely starts yelling her name really loudly and bothering all the other people in the area asking if theyve seen herđ
88. What's the darkest secret they have ever told one another?
I feel like for Aiden it would be telling her about his past and stuff :p Ash doesn't exactly have a dark past or anything, I think at that point it would just be saying some dark thoughts she's had.
89. Would they ever consider marriage?
They don't really have strong feelings about it, Ash just asked him for the tax benefits.
90. Would they ever consider starting a family?
...I think Aiden is more into that idea than Ash is.
91. Who likes kids more? Who can't stand them?
Man okay neither of them dislike kids- Ash is just awkward around them and doesnt know how to take care of them đ Aiden has a lot of fun playing with kids but he's not exactly a responsible babysitter either lol.
92. There's a puddle in one's way. What does their partner do?
Ashlyn: ...??? Lmao she's not gonna do anything, maybe try and jump over if they really can't go around it đ
Aiden: he's gonna jump in the puddle. It's for his enrichment. If Ash doesn't wanna get wet tho, he'll probably try and pick her up and put her on the other side lol
93. One has hurt their leg on a hike. How does their partner carry them?
Aiden is stubborn about that stuff and he's hurt his leg A LOT so he's only gonna lean on her for support. If Ash hurt her leg he'd carry her on his back.
94. Their pet has caused destruction. Who puts the pet in jail? Who defends the pet?
Ash is the disciplinarian, she's putting the dog in pet jail đ Aiden is probably going with the dog, he definitely contributed to the disaster...
95. Who gives flowers to their partner? What sort of flowers do they like?
Idk I feel like they're not big on flowers. Ash doesn't want smth that's gonna die in a few weeks- I feel like the only time they'd give each other flowers is if they were chilling in a meadow or smth. I think Aiden puts daisies in her braids.
96. Who reads the newspaper? Who wants to see the cartoons?
Aiden isn't big on reading- Not that Ash is either, but she'll skim the paper and give Aiden the funny strips.
97. How do they wake their partner up? Is it difficult to rouse them?
Aiden is a very light sleeper, so she just needs to call for him or touch him to wake him up. Ash is like....mid level, so Aiden will do annoying stuff to wake her up, like touching her foot with his (it's cold as balls), or tickling her nose with her blanket. 20% he'll start singing too.
98. Who would burn the world down for who?
It's easy to say Aiden, but I think they both would :>
99. Who gives off "they said no pickles" energy?
I guess this is an unpopular opinion but like i just don't think Ash would care enough to go to the register, even if they got his order wrong đ So imo Aiden-
100. Make a meme of this ship.
Another one...? Alr
If you made it here... *gives you a cookie* :)
#sbg#school bus graveyard#school bus graveyard webtoon#sbg (webtoon)#aiden clark#ashlyn banner#aidlyn#aiden x ashlyn#ashden#jfc
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I'm just fucking ashamed to be French, though I always was more proud to be European and identified as citizen of the world (well European proud now is questionable tho..) And I never felt like I was born in the right place, something always felt off. And fuck, tonight.. I feel so kxndkdkdokdjxf.
I love many things in France. But.. I think I hate more things that I love some.. I've always felt attracted to foreigners, talk to them, speak with them and exchange point of views.
I'm glad I was born here bc yeah, we have social security, we can vote, woman can proceed abortion, we are Free (well, les and less since Macaron đĽ˛, I know, we like to call him this way)..... And fuck things were bad before he arrived at the ElysĂŠe but since 2017......... It's H.E.L.L.
ALSO
My fellows foreign friends who would like to come to the Olympics in Paris PLEASE DO NOT COME !! It's going to be a shit show (I'm looking forward to seeing that shit happen tho so it will shut the fucking bureaucrats' nuts head).
Reasons not to come :
- They forced students to move out from they student lodging !! Like... Some are on the streets now ?? They encouraged renters to move their tenants so they could rent their apartment at crazy rates to tourists. (All of this in Paris.)
- They forced to move, like literally took them in buses, homeless refugees out of Paris and Ile-de-France (Paris region) to farer regions (invluding where I live), they left them there, without any care or home, the gov b just like... "Let's just move the "problem" but we don't make anything to help them" đ¤ So where I live now there's countless men, hanging in the streets, helpless, homeless, drunk and cracked, and I'm scared, even walking during daytime. I have all the sympathy of the world regarding to their situation + how they were treated by the governement, but the lack of help makes them, in a righful title, more aggressive and defensive. (And this is how the gov keeps the vicious circle going, no help, defensiveness, aggressiveness, more police etc etc..)
- The metro tickets will go from 2âŹ50 (WHICH IS EXTREMELY EXPENSIVE ALREADY WTF) to 4⏠YALL do not come and waist your money to the metro company please !!!
- The government/senate passed a law for "exceptional" video surveillance with AI for the Olympics, which Amnesty Internation did condemn bc it flirts with violation of Human Rights... Well Macaron activated it... A fucking year ago, yes in April 2023 and will last WAAAAY after the Olympics. And on top of it they didn't confirm that AI facial recognition will be totally prohibited. They didn't fucking confirm it's an absolute no, they reserved themselves the possibility to use it "just in case". They let the fog settle so they can sell and use citizens' private data. Bros are going to transform France into China, extra militarized and super aggressive police... For the universe's sake, I can't stand those jerks.
So the Olympics are clearly used as pretexts to pass laws and things that are NOT OKAY at all. I mentioned the main things of course but all of the organization is outraging for us here. And I pray the Universe Macaron will caught a cold when the atrocity of this will hit his nose in a great wave of cruel ice just as cruel and degrading he is.
Period.
#paris 2024#olympics#paris olympics#european elections#shit show ongoing#france#french not proud to be so#text post#important
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dating tenya iida headcanons - part four
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warnings: not proofread!!!! also afab reader?? period mentions
a/n: GUYS...DID YOU MISS ME...𤪠should totally be studying rn BUT HERE WE GOOO(i think im gonna fail my test)
taglist: @yumejoshihimejoshi
where were we OH YEAH OKAY so basically, when you guys come home from the break, he literally carries in all your things wowww what a gentleman
ok back to general hcs bc i get too carried away with storylines
everyone writes iida as like someone who doesnt have access to technology but he sure as hell does
i feel like he would barely understand brainrot or he knows what they all mean bc he gets curious and goes on a deep dive
nontheless when you hear him skibidi in such a serious voice you literally choke on your spit im SERIOUS đ
if you wanted to do a silly little tiktok trend he would do it with you but obv not the ones that are like "sending my man a spicy picture and posting his reaction" BC THATS LITWRALLT SMTH PRIVATE AND PEOPLE SHOULDNT POST THAT???(sorry guys im a bit passionate about this)
he tries to dance but hes so...stiff....
but its okay!!! he makes it up by spoiling you
idk if i wrote it before but hes such a good HUGGER
obv at first he's stiff, but HES SO BEEFY
my logic is muscle = beef = pillow
god its so...omg im drooling...like he's so soft when he relaxes...his hugs are so tight...i love them...
hes also so warm wtf like in winter youre literally clinging onto him
prolly bc he has to keep moving so his engines dont stall when its too cold outside
this boy is a workaholic someone save him
you physically have to drag him away from his work and give him some tea or snacks
he gets all grumpy when you do but hes eternally grateful bc he'd spiral and probably pull all nighters like in a row
i think i alr wrote about this but when iidas sleepy, HE GETS CLINGYYYY
god its so cute like when you guys are cuddling before bed and hes all sleepy, hes like a big baby i wanna hold him and kiss all over his face AHHHH
hes a snorer. im sorry. have you guys seen how hard he works like he is knocked out and SNORING
hes not that loud of a snorer but its not completely quiet
youre able to fall asleep tho
guys i literally was bedridden with an unknown illness like last month and i still have a stuffy nose
when youre sick, iida would do his best and TRY to nurse you to health
he's used to taking care of himself when he's sick, so how hard could it be to take care of you?
it was hard. especially if your fever kept fluctuating and medicine didnt work
he would stay up late and constantly wipe your forehead with a cold rag
ive been DYING to read and write headcanons of iida when reader is on their period
if you have BAD bad cramps(like mine where you're unable to move and you end up dry heaving), he'll be your human heat warmer
he hates to see you in pain so he tries to accomodate to your every need and request
you want snacks? hes buying them, you want cuddles? youre in his arms. you need pads or tampons? he'll buy them for you he is NOT ashamed
ok back to regular headcanons(lowk this is just shit id want to do with him)
on lazy days, you guys would do movie dates in each others rooms
he gets a little distracted sometimes and just stares at your face
youre just so pretty while youre watching so intently, hes stunned
the light from your laptop shining on your face makes you look unreal to him
so down bad that he doesnt realize he's getting closer and closer, and when you turn your head you guys accidentally smooches
that...that kinda turns into a makeout sesh..
ok listen hear me out. messy makeout sessions with nerds where they end up with their hair all messy, glasses crooked, face flushed and lips swollen and eyes heavy
MMMMMMMMMM IM SO FERALLLL I LOVE NERDSSSSS I LOVE MY SMARTY PANTS
hes so awooga
valentines day is soon!!!! your first valentines!!!!
hes so excited but also scared because he doesnt know if youll like his gift
he made you a little gift basket with your favourite snacks, things youve been talking about, etc etc and a little card
inside the card was him talking about how happy you make him and what he would do to be with you always :(( such a cutie pie i love him
am i delusional? yeah lets ignore that LOL!!!!
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hi guys!!! its been a while, how r yall doing?? sorry for being inactive, selfcare is TIME consuming(also school but im so burnt out đ) i hope you all like this chapter!!! see you all next time âĄ
#miruac#tenya iida#iida fluff#iida x reader#tenya iida x reader#tenya iida headcanons#iida headcanons#iida#tenya#tenya iida fluff
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So I watched âLike Mindsâ (Iâm super unwell about gay people)
this one is like 3x longer than the tenet one
spoilers for a movie that came out 20 years ago ig
alex is clearly rly smart but heâs a right prick about it
nigel sure does like to stare đ¤¨đ¤¨
oh so heâs a little freak. broâs got a taxidermy cat in his luggage
ARE THEY MAKING BOMBS??
well. def explosives
DOES HE TAXIDERMY THE ANIMALS HIMSELF
he rly likes dead stuffâŚ
not the gay little obsession
GIRL RECORK YOUR WINE BOTTLE
NIGEL WHY ARE YOU DISSECTING BIRDS IN YOUR BEDROOM
heâs so pretty tho fr mfer has gorgeous eyes
bro fuck this cop frfr
he did not seriously just punch this kid
oooh alex is fucked in the head too. inch resting
alex is one of those rich boys ._.
âobligationsâ hmmm i Do Not like the sound of that
WAIT THAT WAS HIS DAD??? that explains that ig
wait why is alex on the villains wiki. WHY IS ONE OF HIS CRIMES NECROPHILIA
interesting that alex is so aggressively anti-church (as an establishment, i mean)
ooooh nigel is Looking at him
not him fighting with his teacher
taking detailed notes about the people around himâŚnigel colbie autism
nooo leave him alone :((
alex is so mean to him omg. let him be a little freak in peace
HOLY SHIT HE JUST KILLED THAT KID
OHHH SALLY ROWE IS FUCKIN. JONI THROMBEY
wtf ym you âcanât findâ the colbies..
omg staring across a casket at each other..
tom sturridge is so fucking beautiful iâm unwell
âi almost missed himâ đ¤¨đ¤¨
38 minutes in and i think this is the longest weâve heard nigel speak
THE FUCK BOOK IS HE READING FOR THIS CLASS
idk i need nigel and alex to kiss
WOAH NIGEL JUST GOT REALLY CLOSE
âiâm really sorry about your friendâ baby donât lie no the fuck youâre not
smth abt the way nigel said âbut you donât have to worryâ reminds me of the scene at the end of batman where joker is telling the riddler he did a good job.
THE GLARE AT THIS POOR GIRL nigel looks jealous as fuck
nigel baby giving the boy you like a hand is not the way to his heart
âit looks like you need a hand.â BABE. NO. TOO ON THE NOSE
heâs so cute in his lil jumper
SITTING ON HIS BED??? LEANING OVER HIM WHILE HE SLEEPS???? nah this is. gay behaviour
âalex, wake up. iâve got a night planned đĽşâ aww theyâre gonna go on a date
oh theyâre super close. NOW KISS
ooh hanging the essay over his head
the big smile⌠âare you having fun?â the little giggle. the smirk. he hates his ass. he is so in love with him. WHAT IS GOING ON
hmm i do not trust this
THE PUPPYY
âiâve never brought anybody here beforeâ INTERESTING (âiâm being vulnerable plz donât be a dick abt thisâ)
iâve still got an hour left of this movie good god
my mom is watching gbbo rly loudly and i just got super confused as to why the music Did Not Match the scene
âdo you like it đĽşđĽşâ NIGEL. BABY. heâs so proud of his weird little lab itâs so cute
these little history nerdsâŚ
i rly thought nigel was gonna cuddle into him for a second
HELLO NIGEL IS STARING AT HIS LIPS????
âdo you know what a pike is?â batting his eyes, looking as coquettish as possible. oh my god. oh my god.
CALLING HIM JACK. iâm so unwell this is so gay.
âweâve been brought together for a reasonâ oh my god he thinks theyâre murder soulmates
HIS SMILLLLEE
âfor eternity.â gnawing on the bars of my enclosure
not him asking her out, nigelâs gonna be PISSED
the sword to his neck đ¤ OMG THE RUNNING IT DOWN HIS SPINE WHAT THE FUCK
the way he says âjackâ iâm gonna pass out
âmy name is alex. stay away from me.â NOOO itâs ok nigel iâll be your jack
taking the gay goggles off for a second nigel clearly is in desperate need of a friend and is trying so hard to make alex his friend and itâs making me super sad bc he doesnât seem to quite understand why itâs not working :(((
but also nigel baby stop breaking into his room
itâs giving yandere tbh
âwhatâs with the knifeâ *biggest most innocent doe eyes* âi donât know what you mean, jackâ
HOLY SHIT NIGEL. I FIGURED HE WAS GONNA KILL HER BUT WHAT THE FUCK.
i feel bad for her fr tho she didnât do nothin wrong. not her fault alex is oblivious to his psychopath boyfriend
lol alex looking around for nigel when he finds out sheâs dead. heâs not stupid, iâll give him that
HE TOOK THE KNIFE
nigelâs very bad at acting innocent
âi sense some hostilityâ NO REALLY
they look like theyâre abt to kiss
âno jack, you did it.â babe.
âfeels good to vent oneâs anger doesnât it jackââi donât want any part of thisâ âtoo late for thatâ
oh heâs CRAZY
he so sure that alex is just as nuts as he is.
OHH MCKENZIE IS IN THE CLUB TOO?? INTERESTING
wtf happened to nigelâs parents
babe being cryptic is not helping your situation
OOOH ARE THEY GONNA FIND NIGELâS LITTLE ROOM OF CREEPY SHIT
i bet his parents are dead
hehe the jack <3
his jars of dead shit are so weird
was that a drawing of the dead kid?
nigel has rly nice handwriting omg
idk if the knowledge that itâs purely for scientific interest makes the pictures of the sleeping girl better or worse
HE TAXIDERMIZED HIS PARENTS???
he calls them helen and john???
love him introducing alex like heâs his boyfriend
THE EYE CONTACT HELLO??
nigel looks so dead inside omg
âstop it, nigel :((â
OH HE MADE THE BIBLE??? i thought it was a book he had not smth he created thatâs actually pretty cool
âour unionâ đ¤¨đ¤¨ its giving marriage
ânigel was right about thisâ hmmm boyfriend behaviour
omg mckenzie SUCKS like heâs just kind of an asshole
âi knew you couldnât resist a secret rendezvous <3â
âyou didnât know nigelâ
DID HE FUCK HER CORPSE
âmy dearest jackâ
IS HE SLEEPING WITH HIS MOTHER
THE PICTURES WERE OF HIS MOTHER????
his lack of reaction to her getting shotâŚ
SO MUCH JUST HAPPENED IN A SPAN OF 30 SECONDS
heâs so clinical about the cleanupâŚ
heâs so prettyâŚ
HES SO FUCKED IN THE HEAD
omg does he want jack to be his maraclea is that why he got the gun (ik his mom was his maraclea let me be delulu)
he rly thinks this is completely justified
HOLF SHIT HE PULLED THE TRIGGER
iâm so sad heâs dead :(( gimme my babygirl back
holy fuck alex got released
AND HE KEPT THE BOOK
âmy beloved susanâ WHAT DOES THAT MEAN
ânigel got what he wantedâŚeternityâ
OH MY FUCKING GOD J CANT BELEJEV HE DID THAT⌠continuing nigelâs work⌠oh my fucking god
âyou like history.â BITCH WHAT
Edit: I forgot to give the movie a rating .-. 500/10 i fucking loved it, iâm already making a forbie playlist
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Can't blame Danielle when it's wymack we talk about.
Au vise do you think David ever was in situation where he had to explain someone why relationship with him is not in realm of possibility ? Do you think he would see a need for such conversation as his failure of setting boundaries in the first place ? Would he ask bee or Abby for advice if he needed one ?
Would Dan be happy when those feelings are addressed in therapy and she can apreciate platonic relationship with coach for what it is
I like digging into concepts
now that it seems the heat has died on that subject matter... i'll gladly and gratefully answer u my friend <3 thank you for getting it.
AU wise, i DEFINITELY 100% think Wymack has had to establish boundaries in his career as PSU Coach. oh how i would looooove to write the first time it happened. add it to the pile of wips.
i think... the overall sentiment of surprise he's slapped with when he has to face such a situation for the first time, is divided into many levels.
a) at some point, when you're collecting kids with parental issues coming out of their noses and asses, you gotta be ready for when some misplaced attachments occur. Wymack is def not ready, which is very very dumb of him. Abby saw it coming. Bee saw it coming. how did he not? big big oversight of him. now he's gotta deal with things wayyyy above his paygrade for that mistake. surprise mf! the care and tough love you provided your team has been misinterpreted by an unadjusted athlete! what did you expect david. really.
b) not to borrow too much from dbh's Hank Anderson, but i like to believe Wymack is partly surprised that one of his athletes is infatuated with him, because it's him we're talking about. he is not the same man who won over Kayleigh Day, is not as in shape and confident in his body, and despite the scarce hook-ups here and there over the years since her, Kayleigh herself was not much more than a fwb situationship herself. Wymack can't see past his family history and all his scars (mental and physical) when it comes to romantic relationships. so for a young thing to confess to him? good ol' Coach? gotta be a joke. he's not flattered at all, he's baffled. he is also very much concerned about his athlete beyond this unprofessional and inappropriate infatuation. like, wtf are your standards? let's address that. if it'd been, like, Abby, of course he'd get it. but him? yikes, man. (Bee screams into her pillow about this self-deprecating bs Wymack refuses to consult about. somebody worship this man, please! not you Greenberg tho. you get therapy for your daddy issues. it's never gonna happen.)
c) it worries Wymack very much that he did not see this developing, and it plants doubt in his ability to manage his team, his players, and provide them with what they need. it's not about setting boundaries and closing that door, because he didn't even know there was a door to close to begin with. it's about knowing that door exists and noticing it open. it really destabilizes him, to the point he's not sure he even knows his players anymore, if he's even capable of seeing through their bs, to the point where he doubts if he even should be Coach of such a complex and precarious team. surely someone out there is more qualified. surely someone out there is more well-adjusted and observant. i don't know which OG Foxes gets through to him, but i know it takes one of them, or more, to tell him that it's not about being qualified and parrying every issue before they even arise, but about wanting to be there, for them, wanting the best for them, and wanting to give them chances. surely you can give yourself that chance too, Coach? talks w/ Bee and Abby are def had, but ultimately it's the Palmetto Nines that get him though it.
about Dan now. bc i based myself on my own issues for her misplaced infatuation with Wymack, i'll once again base myself on lil 'ole me for how she copes with it: she is taking that one to the grave. she's able to fly under the radar of Bee's built-in bs detector. she's just glad she's not the only one to get those yucky feelings, that yes she does have issues but it's also normal, and well, by the time a newer Fox infatuates themself with Wymack, she is well over it and the case is closed. she even teases Wymack about the number of recruits who thirst over him over the years (once Wymack is able to treat as a joke too, like, years down the line and he hears other coaches having the same problem and the Foxes having a betting pool on who the next poor fool is. once Nicky overtly makes his objective appreciation known, and there are polls online. etc.)
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i just had a idea for Macaque's Successor BEAR WITH ME
Macaque who damn well heard them fucking in the alleyway, doesn't matter if he's in the dojo or somewhere else far far away he WOULD have heard them doing the nasty, so when he sees the reader he starts giving them the silent treatment for a few days or weeks, depends on how nasty we were my man is just traumatized with the image of his unofficial successor fucking his ex (husband) friend's successor in a dirty alleyway in tuktuk NONETHELESS and we're not that bothered since we got together with MK now yayđ but of course mah boy has to keep this secret so his pookie doesn't get targettedđ and yeah that's basically it, Macaque giving us the stink eye and going protective monkey mood once his disgust and shock wears off and us eventually going to MK's apartment for a lil date⨠if it's fluffy or not is up to you
Goddamn I went crazy heređŚ
Given how things went down I don't see Macaque and Successor interacting for a WHILE until s2 (theatre episode) but I'd like to imagine he was recuperating at his dojo and accidentally got an earful of MK DICKING DOWN HIS NOT-OFFICIAL SUCCESSOR?? AND HE'S HORRIFIED?? CAUSE THIS KID WAS A VIRGIN WASN'T HE?? WTF??
Anyways MK knew very well Macaque was around at the term and he purposely fucked Successor so hard because he KNEW the six eared lying fuck would hear >:) what better way to avenge yourself than to fuck your enemy's...kid? Or whatever y'all wanna assume the relationship is hshwhwudje
What I have planned for the au though is that Macaque and Successor don't really talk for a long time. Each interaction they have is Macaque giving them a genuinely hard time, and while Successor does tolerate him s4 for Mk's sake, they don't really interact much. Macaque's still scarred so he's incapable of looking Successor in the eye, but he does try to apologize post s5.
It's just a shame Successor isn't forgive or forget type. Macaque's response to that apology is a broken nose for both terrorizing Successor and giving MK shit because yes, Successor had a grudge watching her bf get beaten up by her supposed mentor :D
I do like your idea tho, so maybe in an au thing yeah, this could happen, but in the actual story, nah, I can't see it. I plan to write Macaque canonically to his portrayal in the show, which is manipulative and very much selfish until the incident with the Samadhi fire, and even then he's a prick still. Successor isn't someone who forgives easily, and while she did once like Macaque as her fave, she doesn't really care that much after personally dealing with Macaque. And I have a few ideas for some more angst too :))
I also really wish for Macaque to earn his redemption with the reader, rather than just apologizing or helping and thinking that's gonna fix everything. Their dynamic is NOTHING like Sun Wukong's and Mk's, and Successor ISN'T MK. She's not forgiving him anytime soon, even if he did help save the world
I want more petty bitch readers and if I cannot find them I'll write em myself :3
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how did that prom ended:
I felt lazy to make a comic of it so I just made a short video (also I'm kinda having trouble in life a little that I barely getting time or energy-)
But here's what happened:
So apparently the three make it to the prom, it were good lim had a good dance one with Albert and one with jett and they even record it lol, and even after lim asked if they could dance together so he can record that too but ofc there two didn't want it, but luckily the song changes before they even answer so the excuse the song so lim let it slide (smooth technique~â¨), and some hours later the music stops and everyone look at that place where they announce the prom king and qquee and they saw kanya there, ofc lim were not want to see her but then kanya make an announcement like "hello everyone, thank you all for coming, I would like to make an important announcement, for an old friend.." Then she pointed at lim and they were shocked, friend?? Is this girl drunk or something? They she keep her talk with "I done..so so wrong to him both in past and current and...i wanted to make an apology in front of everyone as a made up for everything I were done" everyone were applauded, even jett and Albert (they didn't know lol) but lim were confuse and didn't trust this, but thought maybe finally he will got the apology he needed from her so he goes there, kanya reached her hand to lim and lim slowly reached his hand to him, but before everything a loud flush heard along with nail clingings, everyone were gasped and screamed in terror, kanya were planned to shame lim in front of everyone by flashing a blood bucket with nails on him, terrible prank am I right? Kanya laughed loud, Albert and jett run to lim who were crying just standing there all bloody and nails pinned around his head and body, along with Albert and jett, everyone were cursing at kanya because wtf, but kanya didn't take a word just smirking at lim, before she ever say anything jett punched her at the nose and she fell down then they took lim and walk out from there.
Well by the video you can see someone called the cops because there's a attempt of murder there, lim could've died there..well he didn't tho-
It didn't end well, they end up going to a local dryer (that one public place were people go to wash their clothes like on that Mr beans episode) and got lim washed, and just stop at a diner and just hang there, well in all that lim didn't say a word or stop crying, didn't even eat anything or wanted to do anything, Albert and jett tried to talk to him but all lim said was "i wanna go home." So they just drive him home
@weirdsillycreature we need to kill kanya mate, for our little crow(lim)..WE NEED TO END HER-
#incredibox#orin ayo#breakthrough#tragibox#incredibox breakthrough#incredibox e.v.a.c.u.a.t.e#incredibox orin ayo#incredibox fanart#incredibox oc#wekiddy
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And oooon we go!
Dawww the hope and relief in Arin when he sees Lloyd (kinda low key he was a tad more excited but that's a nitpick and I'm used to ninjago characters under reacting to situations)
Damnnn Lloyd thinking there was another ninja doing Spinjitzu, idk but the way he said it was interesting, def gonna overthink it
Awwwww no Arin downplaying himself nooo
"I kinda get your ninja fandom now" nooooo Sora calling us out! Also it just hit me Arin's the stand in perspective for returning fans and Sora is the fresh perspective of new people coming in that's genius!
Haha love that Lloyd caught onto their plan of them hacking onto that guy to chop their handcuffs the attention to detail is immaculate so far
"You can wash them?" Lolz mood
Also not Lloyd letting Arin keep his old mask boooo
Master Lloyd! Damn that's giving me whiplash as an Og fan from 2011
Oooh Rapton that's his name, also loving him so far again
Lolz Lloyd low key not believing Arin that he was the one who did Spinjitzu until he did
"Spinjitzu is the single most important ninja technique it took me years to learn to learn it with an incredible tracher" my dude the og ninja learned in a matter of weeks/months at most it's not that big of a deal
Wwwoooh! My girl Sora showing off! Hardcore Nya energy from her
Jeez Lloyd is being a real ass ngl
*New opening rocks but they cut it short nooooo*
Love Lloyd being protective of the kiddos and the dragons tho
Oooh Sora's metal arm might be a reference to Jay ZXs armour!
Nawwww Riyu best boy!
Yes! Sora being sassy with her powers to Lloyd!
"Hey Lloyd! I think I made a bomb!" That got me ngl
"It was a weird version but still" jeeez when did Lloyd get so judgy
"Maybe tech power?" Little on the nose again for me
OMG RAZ IS A TIGER CHIMA CONNECTION CONFIRMED?
Damnnn the Monastery looks so snazy with this new animation
New Destiny's Bounty let's go!
Lolz writers calling out how inconsistent the elemental powers are
Love Sora being Nya 2.0 ngl
Whoop Lloyd and Arin bonding
"Keeping the world from destorying itself" lolz really funny ngl
Ooh I love the detail of Sensei Wu having the symbols from all the ninja on his back *I think*
IT'S CANNON, WU IS A 1000 YEARS, YES WE HAVE A CONICAL TIMELINE YES
Wish we had a tad more pre merge post crystalized ninja dialogue ngl
Oh gods other dragons, again! Low key made me groan *just use the ones we have already damn it*
"What the heck Lloyd!" Low key made me cackle
Nawww sibling hug
Also you can tell the main ninja are aging and it really moves me honestly
Merge quakes are really interesting and cool ngl
Should of said this sooner this season's ost slaps
Awwww I love Arin and Lloyd talk so much, big siblings vibe
"You need Wu but he's gone" low key slashes into me ngl
Omg so cute Riyu playing with a set of Jay's nunckes I presume
"And I do not mind fixing it again" lolz I relate Sora, damn she's so cool!
Idk how I feel about the dragon not believing them feels a tad cliche and unnecessary
Rapton being the goat as always
How fucking strong are those wires to keep a source dragon down wtf
Whow super syan Lloyd! Plus reference to Tornado of creation I think
Oof the animation on the Spinjitzu is a tad low res tho
Damn Lord Raz be cold
Gods Lloyd's speeches are always so ironically cheesy
Kinda funny how ninjago's doing dragons better than WoW did dragons in it's last expansion lolz
That episode slapped another 8/10
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Episode 2:
Bro I was thinking this all through episode one as well but I love sokkas nose
Sokka you are a fOol and incapable of flirting and I love you
Yes sokka, cover your tiddies. Iâm glad he found that as awkward as I did lmao
BOOMERANG
Sokka ur getting wrecked honey
Sokka you look like youâre doing ballet
BATTLE COUPLE BATTLE COUPLE
Sokka hates momo as much as me (I normally love momo I promise itâs just the animation)
Are sokka and katara gonna wear this the whole time? Theyâve gotta be so warm
Hmmm not sure about the kyoshi warrior makeup
Oh good katara changed into warmer weather hear and I like this outfit too
MOMO NOISES
Oh bro he is scAry
Heâs like out of some kidâs animation
Dude have they mentioned why the southern tribe water benders were targeted? Like, I know why, but have they actually said?
Okay the writing and acting of some lines is off but the vibes are right
Wait wait wait did they CGI a tear shine into Aangâs eye??? If so WHY and if not why it so shiny
Wait suki has a mum? I mean obv she has a mum but also never occurred to me she had a mum
Kissing a kyoshi warrior would get you so much facepaint on you
Dude your makeup would not come off that easily
Also why actually did you take it off
Suki is cute tho
I need to make Sukiâs armour
Aangâs smile is so adorable
YES aang being a silly little kid, good yay
Eyy the airball. Iâll just ignore the bad animation
âI have to figure this out myself?!â Bro same
Dude Iâm not complaining at seeing kyoshi but also wtf I swear this wasnât in the original.
#atla#avatar#avatar the last airbender#avatar Netflix#avatar live action#atla live action#sokka#zuko#katara#aang#suki
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*rubs hands together* okay it's wakasa braindump time!!
i will get to the thirsts in a sec but let me just say (1) hard agree on mangakas showing the characters room i eat that shit up. second and third year rooms when!! (2) u saying that ur reading more about wakasa to understand his character is so cool of u. i feel like this sounds sarcastic BUT NO I ACTUALLY THINKS ITS COOL!!
ok anyways.
i have been mentally stuck on lazy sex + somno with wakasa FOREVER.
on the former: i feel like there's a good chance that you and wakasa spend half of your sundays in bed just drifting in and out of sleep, pressed up against each other and feeling each other up. only 20% of the time is spent actually fucking. wakasa uses you and then gets tired and just curls against you and falls asleep with his nose buried against your neck. or vice versa, you grind yourself down against him while he holds your hips so you can get better purchase, but by the time you're cumming his grip has gone slack from drowsiness and you're very soon to join him in dreamland. i also think mans is the type to not mind the sweat that comes from what the two of you are doing or your tangled limbs and that said sweat in fact gets him going. there have definitely been times where he's licked the sweat off the back of your neck while he has you in doggy.
on the latter: i feel like the "you use him" scenario above kinda lands in this bucket. to elaborate tho i think wakasa is into somno both ways but actually prefers /you/ using /him/ while he's asleep. i feel like the first time you did that was when you were both half-awake but he was exhausted, and you asked if you should leave off and continue later and thats when he told you that "no, i want you to keep going. even if i fall asleep. can you do that for me, baby? i think its hot." you should've figured because it's right up wakasa's other alley of "just use me, baby. wanna just watch you move." i also hc wakasa as being very sensitive so its a treat for you to just leave featherlight touches on his body â brushing your fingertips over or lightly pinching his thighs, rubbing the pads of your thumb over his nipples, leaving barely-there touches on his hips â and seeing how (quickly) he gets hard, even though he's still asleep.
when i said braindump above i was semi-joking but that actually ended up being the case whoops! thank you for bearing with me. if you have any thoughts about the above or about wakasa in general please do share
NONNIE. nonnie you match me. these r the long asks i need to fuel my incessant babbling. i love you for letting me read this <3 lemme add a read more right off the bat:
second and third years when INDEED. and where is SUOâS .
you are so sweet 𼚠i need to spend a longgg time on a lot of these characters bc there is a lot to take in!!
godddd spending the day drifting in & out of sleep w waka ? thatâs so hot fuck đ licking the sweat in doggy? the fact that he wouldnât mind the sweat / being all tangled in each other. the entire idea of like grinding against each half asleep, falling asleep, fucking⌠asleep again⌠thatâs gotta be a full drabble idc i have to write that or itâll never get out of my brain nonnie. iâve never physically reacted this hard to a thirst but wtf ⌠nonnie
âcan you do that for me, baby?â FUUUCK. WHAT THE FUCK NONNIE. him being so sensitive that you can get him hard that easily in his sleep. i wish you could see my face rn after reading that holy shit.
well fuck. how am i gonna sleep knowing this information đ oh my god nonnie iâm actually speechless LALSKMSM u got me to shut up for once ???! đđ umm yea yea ok so this is definitely turning into a drabble at the minimum and a fic at the max !! this was crazy im actually gonna go on my knees rn and thank you for sharing this with the class
#well iâm actually gonna add this to my favorites tag đđ i never specified that the faves tag is strictly for fics and stuff so âŚ#âď¸ â zevieâs library !#đŚ˘â mail !#if my eyes werenât shutting rn i would write it this very second#i canât do u justice in my current state nonnie#i need to lock in for this one
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The first of my Genshin Impact redesigns:
Amber!
The first one is a redesign of her normal skin, then the second is a redesign of her skin!
And for a refrence of her body type I drew this as well
I have a lot of notes about changes Iâve made, so feel free do read these if youâre interested!
- I made her more muscular, particularly in her back & arms due to her being an archer (I may have gone overboard by giving her abs tho haha)
- I put her long hair in a ponytail so her hair wouldnât get in the way of her work, but kept it super long jut cuz it suits her
- I made her nose closer to the shape of a rabbit due to the whole rabbit motif she has
- I gave her tan skin due to her always being outside
- I gave her longer legs also because of the rabbit motif (and long legs tend to mean ur a better jumper I think. And rabbits jump. Get it.)
- I gave her a proper jacket and shirt mostly because I do NOT understand how her canon outfits work. Like how does she put those on and wtf do they look like when sheâs not wearing them
- I gave her a tooth gap because I gave most rabbit characters a tooth gap. I donât know how or why that started but I needed to honor the tradition
- I gave her freckles cuz theyâre cute :3 and also some of them are shaped like her constellation so tell me if you find them ;)
- I gave her a bandana because itâs cuteee and it suits her. And I needed something around her neck to bring it together so
- I gave her some burn scars on her hands and some burned/ashy clothes because you canât convince me she hasnât accidentally set her clothes on fire at LEAST once
- So my approach to the skin design was to base it off of what the description of it in game was. And it was described as a more formal version of her normal outrider outfit. So I did exactly that and made a more formal version of her normal outfit
- Also I swapped the symbol to the other Knights of Favonius symbol/logo considering the one on her original design is ONLY on uniforms and is wayyyyy to complex for a logo
- I painted her nails Collei colors :) even tho you canât see them in her normal design with the gloves :(
- I got rid of a lot of details in the og design bc I was too lazy to draw them LMAOOO
She was honestly a blast to design!! I plan on redesigning every character eventually so keep an eye out ;) Next up is my lesbian icon Lisa
#genshin impact#amber genshin impact#genshin impact amber#genshin impact redesign#I love Amber am honestly she deserves more love#also Iâve been drawing this version of her nonstop since I designed her itâs so fun lmao#Amber
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Anyone want to burn down my school for me? /hj. School is hell and is fucking killing me. It will be my death. All the strees every single teacher puts on me. All the strees my parents put on me to fo well and mad at me for never having any extracurriculars. All of the thoughts destroying me from the inside out. The world falling apart and I donât have the skills personal money to escape this hellhole. I sm scared snd streesed out 24/7. No wonder my physical gealth is starting to fail. I donât have the wnergy to take care of myself snd i hate it. I donât have anything in the real world. It is all pointless to me. Also i hate all the jokes my parents have made about judt plugging me and my brother into the matrix because we are addicted to the internet(as tho it isnât their fault) and because we have no lives(as tho that also isnât their fault and our bio momâs given we have both definitely gotten secersl of our mental issues from her). Parents once made a âjokeâ about taking us out back and just killing us because we donât want to live in the real world. Totslly what you say to your heavily depressed kids who at least one of them is suicidal(me) and would absolutely adore that. My parents suck. Also I donât feel safe at school. Yet another three people i know for certain i canât trudt and are evil given they were talking about have gender affriming care should be illegal(surprised they used the correct term given what they were saying) i was just sitting there like wtf. I am scared. Also two of those three girls sit at the same table as me in marketing do yet another reason to hate and fear that class. I fucking hate that class. It causes me to completely freeze and break down because of the assignments revealing some of my weaknesses which no one can be allowed to know especially given how many people are openly evil and i am a easy target. I widh i could drop the class but i missed the absolute deadline(the fucking literal 3rd day of school. I didnât wven know the syllabuses for any of my classes but one by then) to drop classes because i was sick. I am dying because of school. I also have no energy to actually do anything outside of school besides bed rot and hide in my room and sleep most of the day because of everything. Thanks parents for fucking emotionally neglecting me for do long that you didnât notice that i had so many fucking issues that could have been prevented or treated like 5 or 6 or 7 or maybe 8 years ago. Suvh as putting me on anxiety meds since like first grade. I should have been on them since then because it was do bad then and has only gotten worse since. Or maybe antidepressants since like 7th or 8th grade because it was there then but didnât get extremely bad until 9th grade and 10th grade where it completely nose dived into the ground and has been boring through the ground even farther down since. I am broken because of them ignoring me and my problems pr even making them worse. Like that one time in i think was it 2nd grade where carter(my brother) had been harassing snd bullying me since we woke up and the whole day until i finally snapped at him in the evening and completely blew up and threw several chess pieces at him and missed and hit the window and cabinet glass behind him and shattered them. I got my ass beat for that with a belt multiple times. And wasnât allowed to go to the fair that night and got several of my plushies taken from me. Carterâs only punishment was not going to the fair for litwrslly bullying me all day. I learned to completely hide everything from my parents. Also the fact carter wouldnât get in trouble for even like for example getting one of his close friends to kick a soccer ball straight at my head and breaking my nose.(just one of the many many many things Carter did. I just remember it so clearly unlike most of elementary) Carter didl got receive any punishment. And you know whst my parents epuld tell me every time when he would bully me? They would tell me to just ignore him because he will stop if i do that.
I donât know if they never deslth with bullies or not but that is notvhow you get a bully to stop. That only makes them worse because they will instead of doing badic stuff to get you to completely explode the will do more and more extreme stuff until you do. Also no wonder i have anger issues and barely donât explode at anyone for the slightest thing. I was suffering from several mental issues snd was constantly without stop made fun of and harassed and the people who i was supposed to protect me did nothing and actually made it worse. Some things carter would do all the time are make fun of my speech impediment, the way i walk, the way i move my arms, the way my face looks, everything about the way i look, call me things like fag or tranny and all the slurs under the sun he knew even if they made no since like calling me the n word(i am the palest you can probably get do it made no sense), sexually harassing me, and raping me a few times as kids, and so much fucking more. I need him to have a fate worse than death Maybe lock in sydrome without the ability to close his eyes andhave everyone think he is in a coma, or maybe to get tons of brain damage that omly affects his physical ability to fo stuff do he finally fucking know what it is like to be fucking disabled. I fucking hate his guys and want him to feel pain for everything he has done to not just me but all his gfs and his current bf. He is a monster. I hope he gets his karma soon.
I hate how i canât trust anyone especially authority figures for already mentioned reasons and many other ones such as for example my 2nd grade teacher would pretend i didnât exist when i was literally talking to her or her not stopping bullies when i was being bullied right in front of her, or my third and fourth grade typing class teachers for getting so fucking mad at me for not using both hands to type(as tho i could because i canât use my right hand or things like that) and literally coming over and forcibly correcting me, the fact that the best of my teachers in elementary(being my 5th grade teacher) was still very weird and purposely made me stick out from all my other students by literally changing her whole curriculum that year just because of me or like when we read âwonderâ as a class she would basically say hiw i am simplar to august(the protagonist of that book) who is in fact disabled but in such s fucking different way that it just make me feel worse and internalize self hate about how i am not disabled enough to be treated as equals to everyone but too disabled to be like everyone else. So many people basically treated me like a baby that year i hated it. Another example from that year was when we read âfresk the mightyâ(good book) why did she have to constantly point out how i was disabled. Also one more thing she did was on my birthday she literally have a massive party about august from âwonderâ I donât even share a birthday with him do it was so fucking creepy and i was do called out. There is so much more from judt my fifth grade class but at least wasnât bullied that year tho was mostly ignored and isolated from my peers but at least no bullying like 2nd, third, and fourth grade there was do much that happened in those three years. Also i hate how much of 6th grade i missed because i had surgery on my right foot to find a lot of issues caused by it. Unfortunately the surgical site didnât heal and almost got infected and that caused recovery from taking a like 2 maybe 3 months at most to around 6 or 7 months and only went back from like the last 3 months with taking a lot of time off because of recovery. That isolated me a lot more from everyone. Then i had seventh grade where nothing really happened besides isolated more. Then there was 8th grade where the pandemic started that march so was completely shut off from the world without being able to talk to literally anyone and was so alone and my grades started to slip and depression started to nose dive. But 9th grade was worse for do many reasons including me getting covid(still canât taste or smell that well but the taste is slowly coming back now) and everyobe having changed including the few friends i had either them literally becoming fucking evil like one called me for having cp(not cerebral paldy) whwn i explained i had cerebral palsy and he knew i didnât have the other thing but wanted to get me in trouble all because i was different and not like him. He was like the nicest person in 8th grade so who knows what happened but he became insanely ablest and sexist. Also i then hung out with a group of misfits(with two of them being trans and one being bi but somehow didnât realize i was trans yet) but lose contact with all three of them over the summer. Then in 10th grade i made a friend. He was the nicest person to me ever and i also got a phone that year so i got his number and actually talked yo him outside school. He was so nice to me. But for some reason as soon as school ended he completely abandoned me and definitely blocked my number. No idea why. There was no reason why he completely abandoned me. Probably one of his other friends told him to. I mean he was friends with one of carterâs exes(she luckily broke up with carter after like 2 or 3 weeks once she realized how evil carter is). Also realized i was trans that year and he was the first person i came out to(wasnât the reason he abandoned me given that was months and months before he did)
Then last year was completely alone and had nothing but at least could listen to music almost day and ignore the world as best i could. I have finally broken completely and have no way to ignore it like canât even listen to music at school even during individual working time. I am so done
I am just so exhausted and done with life but unfortunately canât kill myself to end it
#mental illness#mental health#tw selfhate#tw sui ideation#transgender#transfem#high school is killing me. literally.#parents are emotionally neglectful#my brother is evil#tw vent#tw rant#life is miserable#no idea what else to tag this#also sorry for it being so long#and sorry for the formatting being chaos was writing as i was thinking
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