#writing takes time

[erinwantstowrite]

this is seemingly out of nowhere but I'm writing my thesis for my Bachelor's degree and I stared at my 5k words that I wrote in two excruciating weeks... and I could think was "Erin writes like 25k words for every chapter"

erin can write 25k for a chapter 'cause it's a lot easier to yap about superheroes. and erin also thinks that you're doing amazing and should be super proud of the progress you've made!! we all have our comes and goings for inspiration and motivation. treat your work like it's your child! meaning: you gotta feed it (research), water it (taking mental breaks), play with it (explore all the ideas possible, even if it's silly), and love it endlessly (be proud, go to it's baseball games, enjoy your progress so far, imagine your future with it).

your dreams and aspirations are mighty!! and you are not weak for having to build up to carrying them

[tagzpite]

Gotta make something nice and clear, the story of Blood in the water is a project that will take time. It’s not being written and published all at once. Just like any fanfiction, there will be more with time.

Please do not harass me or Smitty for more, do not rush us, don’t tell us what to do.

Every time someone does, the updates will in fact be postponed.

[same-name-supremacy]

Will you give the name for your fic when you do post it ? I just got here and I am very interested

Yeah.. just don't know what yet?

Td genderswap?

Genderswapped?

I don't know, but don't worry, the first chapter is almost done

[littlefireball]

Will fatal temptation stay as a one shot?

Um...maybe? Because I haven't figured out how to write a sequel🥲if you have any good ideas, feel free to tell me~ I will be very grateful ╰(*°▽°*)╯

(ah sorry for the late reply (there is no notification TT)

[knickknacksandallthat]

sorry if this is annoying, but when do you think the second part of 12 ways to woo a minyard will come out? I heard it was going to focus on kevaaron and i really love kevaaron, so just wondering when it will be published?

Oof, not annoying at all! I just feel guilty that I can't get it out to y'all sooner. The truth is that previously I had a lot more time to dedicate writing fanfic in my life, and I've had some changes in the past six months that have reduced this time drastically. I'm still writing but simply at a much slower pace.

The other thing holding me back is a barrier of my own making LOL. I just don't prefer to publish fics when they're partially done. I did so with two of my fics this past year (one of them still ongoing) and felt even worse about the long breaks between the updates. So at this point, even though I do have it partially written, it's not complete yet. I usually begin posting when I'm around 98% done with it.

So all of that is to say...it's still coming! I too love Kevaaron and want to make sure I do the pairing justice. In the meantime, though, I so appreciate y'all's patience and your interest in it - I just can't say at this point when it'll be posted. Promise I'll keep you guys in the loop for when it does! (Or at least when I'm closer - then I might be able to estimate a date!)

[nariarts]

Spent a ridiculous amount of time last night obsessively editing my hand written zines in Photoshop to take away any tiny blemishes so they were definitely readable.

Whatever. Understand or don't.

[ekwolfwriter-blog]

Side note, this is very true, in the best loving way. lol

[trekkiesagainstchastity]

It doesn't matter if that fic has been in your drafts for years and is now self-indulgent to the point of parody. If Steven Moffatt is allowed to do it professionally, you are allowed to do it for fun.

[16woodsequ]

[noodles-and-tea]

personally i think the funniest way of explaining anything off about the reported timeframes in your au is to have both stan & ford being absolutely terrible with time

stan being like damn the 50s sucks & little ford going its the 60s???? & ford going ‘nearly 30 years ago’ and fidds being like ford you’re like 30 that doesn’t make sense

I love that so much

[hinamie]

unconditionally

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

[unicornpopcorn14]

So we all know by now that Dazai is comfortable enough around Chuuya to show nervousness/worry.

Enough times for Chuuya to pick up on that pattern. The pattern, may I remind you, that doesn't have evident correlation to either nervousness or worry to most people. One that can even be interpreted as misplaced given the situation.

Which means that Dazai has done this in front of Chuuya so often, that Chuuya at first was hella confused, before he finally made a connection between when and why it happens. And still remembered that connection after four years of separation. Which gets us to my point:

What if this isn't the only emotion Dazai displays weirdly?

What if he has multiple unconventional patterns he displays for sadness, frustration, content, or disgust? The times he really feels them, and they become too strong for him to just deal with normally? What if these are the only times he's actually being genuine with his emotions?

And Chuuya is the only one who is familiar with them all?

Dazai would be jumping rope and Chuuya would be like, "quit sulking, let's get icecream"

Dazai hanging upside down on the couch and Chuuya going, "It's okay, mackerel. You can cry."

Dazai actually crying, full on heart-wrenching sobs, and Chuuya unironically going, "What, good news?"

It's just... comforting, for one person in Dazai's life to read him like a book. Everyone else would look at him like he's crazy, displaying wrong emotions/behaviors at the wrong time, but Chuuya knows that it's just how he processes feeling properly, and thus he's the only one Dazai can count on to put things into context and understand, which makes him display them even more openly.

Because Chuuya never shamed him for his quirks, as much as Dazai never did his.

[paradox-n-bedrock]

me in big fandoms: oh cool, it's so active and there's so many people to vibe with, this is amaz-

*finds my niche angle that appeals to approximately six people*

me: okay, folks, it's you and me now

[angeart]

it’s been two days but i’m going to reblog this again.

please, guys. honestly. even if you just ask when will the fic be updated, it edges that same line. it might be laced with good intentions and exitement, but you know what it feels like? it feels like pressure.

you want to know when i’ll update my fic? i’m happy you care, i do appreciate that you enjoy what i create, i genuinely do. 

but. 

the only answer to that kind of question, ever, always, is I do not know.

i already overthink things as-is and i stress myself out enough about these things. please please please do not add to it. i beg you guys.

you know how you can help the writers/artists who put in time and effort and heart into the work that you can then consume for free whenever you want? you know what could potentially help us update faster?

positive feedback.

don’t ask when. don’t tell us to update. instead, tell us what you liked. what are we doing right? why do you like the fic? what are you looking forward to? what are your thoughts and impressions? what’s making you happy? what’s intriguing? what’s a detail you noticed, a quote that made you pause? what makes you hyped for more?

i always enjoy comments about thoughts and impressions and analyses. it helps me see my writing from an outsider perspective and helps me appreciate it more. it makes me see what i’m doing right and seeing that people like and enjoy what i create helps with motivation to write.

i do not know when the updates are coming.

just believe me when i say i’m doing my best, okay?

please don’t ask. just be patient and send some love if you enjoy the fic <3 

head in hands a small friendly reminder Not just to. ask someone to update their fic ???? if you want someone to update maybe instead of just saying “please update it” try “(insert positive thoughts about the fic), excited to see what comes next!” or literally anything besides straight up asking/telling someone to update their fic.

fic writers are people too. writing is our hobby. and you never know what’s going on in someone’s life. so just — don’t demand. don’t pressure. just say you enjoy the fic and that you’re excited about whatever is coming up

[shitpostingsterek]

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