#writing requires much brain

[tenspontaneite]

will you put out any more of your Assembly fic ? i remember seeing you had some more chapters planned after 7 and it's my favourite rain world fanfic

Yes, I will. I have simply been Having A Time lately and writing basically fuck all 👌👌

Been doing more art than anything else honestly. On a related note, I recommend anyone who doesn't want to see art for unpublished assembly or post assembly stuff filter the tag 'assembly spoilers'. It'll be relevant. Honestly it's already relevant, I should probably tag a few things.

[that-faerie-in-the-corner]

hector is troy and achilles is the trojan war. hector who bore the crushing weight of the future of his nation, a duty he did not ask for but did his best to embrace, a duty that chipped away at his health and stole all his time, hector who knew his city would be damned to fall when he did. achilles who let his entire existence be swallowed by a war fought for a cause that he had nothing to do with, achilles who the gods did not want to let go back on his Choice of fate, achilles who had to die before the war could finally end. is this anything

[sergeantjessi]

There were times when I managed to write 2 or more seminars papers within the semester break, writing a total of 20-40 pages total.... And right now I'm struggling with writing a single seminar paper that's only 10 pages long.

It's so frustrating. I know that I can write seminar papers, I've written more than enough already. Why can't I write one right now?

[giddlygoat]

being adhd is crazy ill spend all day worrying that i’ve forgotten something, triple checking my calendar and my messages to make sure i haven’t missed an appointment or left someone hanging, and it still happens anyway. incredible

[queer-omens-in-the-archives]

Can we have a second Tuesday this week because we spent most of this one basically unable to talk or text (barely capable of making any words) or do any hobbies (combination of: information/processing overload & wording incapability) and I want a refund.

[catsafarithewriter]

Guess who ended up writing 8K words this week for a fic I promised I absolutely was just going to post the old version and not do any big editing! It me!

Anyway, for folks who remember Do Creations Dream of Clockwork Sheep, here's a totally new chapter, written under duress from the muse!

Do Creations Dream of Clockwork Sheep: Chapter 3

[drownedinlavender]

Girl...we both know I won't stop till u finish this fic NOW COME ON WE NEED TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED AFTER 16TH CHAPTERRRR😔😭

Aksnskskks I knoooowww, Anon, I'm so sorry!! 😭🤣🤣

I have not abandoned the fic! >:D I just haven't updated cause this semester is BRUUUTAL. It's known as the semester that weeds out anyone who shouldn't be in STEM (Science, technology, engineering, and mathematics). The last undergrad semester before you're considered an upergrad.

So I don't have enough time right now to do much of anything that isn't school related 😭 I'm just tryina not get weeded out aksjksksksls I'll be back when I finally catch a gosh darn break!! Haha

[satocidal]

while i do have some fic ideas in drafts and on going pieces and pedning reqs(smut), i would like to say 👉👈does anyone have any requests for headcanons? fluff preferably

[rapidhighway]

i should make a drawing. that would be so dope man

[storiesoflilies]

ngl i was a little bit defeated today dash :(

i only wrote 1k words…

oh well, next week i’ll completely edit what i have written so far n then that’s done!!

anyways, goodnight dash!!! i love you all and hope you’re doing well n taking care of yourselves <33

[dollxhime]

BSD Rarepair Week: day 2, 3 & 6

💐 // Pining

Lucy wasn't into girls. Or at least she thought so.

It's not like she had time to think about romance before when her life revolved around needing to be useful or else she'd be thrown away like a rag doll that had no value.

Ever since Lucy had started working at the Uzumaki, she would get up early, get ready, do the dishes downstairs and prepare fresh coffee just before opening hour. She could have a share of it too; the owners were very nice to her and she was grateful for that.

Her usual routine had become something so average, so normal, it slowly began giving her time to think about other things instead of obsessing over usefulness. And that's where she comes in.

'I'll have something that helps pick me up', she would usually say. And just as asked, Lucy would bring it to her and go back to her usual chores behind the counter. And then one of those days went differently.

"Hey, waitress. Lucy, was it?"

She looked up from the soapy dishes in her hands to look at the doctor. "Yeah, what do you want?"

"I have some shopping to do today. Want to come with?" she said nonchalantly.

Huh???

"Come with you??? Why?" was all she could blurt out.

"Do you ever do anything else with your time other than working at the cafe? Every woman could use some 'ladies time out' now and then."

Lucy didn't even have time to ask where she was getting at; when she realized, she was already being dragged out the door. Though she protested and flailed her arms in the first moment, she had no choice but to eventually surrender to the doctor's will.

And when she realized again, she was actually having fun.

She had never had friends so she had never done the kind of stuff friends do together like the pointless talks while roaming around doing window shopping, trying out dresses and makeup, stopping at someplace to have tea and snacks.

"No one ever wants to come along," Yosano casually complained. "So thank you for coming with me. It's much less boring with company."

"It's not like I had a choice anyway..." Lucy pouted, making the doctor smile at her.

"But you had fun, didn't you?"

Yosano arched her brows, the shameless smile of someone who knew a little too much plastered on her face when Lucy looked away angrily and flushed.

"Well-"

"If you'd like, we could do this more times. I had fun too," she asked without waiting for Lucy to voice out her fake complaints.

And after that, Lucy started looking forward to it every weekend without even realizing it. She couldn't see the smile that appeared on her face whenever the time came to hang her apron and leave with the doctor in tow, but everyone noticed.

Lucy could try denying it all she wanted but she came to enjoy the company. Her heart beat fast and her face flushed when the doctor complimented her appearance when an outfit looked good on her, for once she'd feel beautiful. And when they exchanged words about their interests, she would feel compelled to want to know more even when the things they liked were so mismatched it was almost like they lived in different worlds.

She wanted to listen and see more. What was the perfume she used? It had a really good fragrance. She had very pretty nails too, she once noticed when they were sharing nail polish tips. And was it too weird if she wondered if the lipstick she wore had a peachy taste like she imagined? Better leave that thought well-kept, it is weird.

And then one night as she was getting ready to go to bed, it hit her.

Wait a minute.

Could she possibly...? be crushing on the doctor???

She wasn't into women, was she? The first time she had ever felt that kind of longing toward someone, it had been that stupid tabby cat but he was so dense he couldn't pick up a hint to save his sorry life, much so she figured it would be easier to just bottle it up and give up on it. Thing is, he was a guy. What was with this new development???

No, that couldn't be. She was just overreacting... right? It was the first time she had gotten direct and constant attention and affection from someone else, a very pretty woman whom she wanted to become friends with at that... So she was just thrown off balance like that because it was something so new she didn't know how to process it.

That must be it.

The next time she saw Yosano after all that self-questioning was the time that put the last nail in the coffin and diagnosed Lucy with terminal gay and she could no longer deny it.

"Mornin', Lucy!" she greeted spiritedly. "Ready to go?"

The simple mention of her name made her heart race so fast it felt like she needed to gulp very hard to send it back to her chest. Lucy glared at the doctor with a bewildered look while her face went through all the shades from pink to red one could find in a paint catalog before rushing out the door.

"SORRY! SOMETHING CAME UP TODAY!!!"

Yosano stared at the cafe's door flipping on its hinges, confused.

🌹 // Lucy

Okay, I thought to myself.

You can't keep avoiding her forever, it's been weeks. Just keep it together and act normally. If I end up losing her because of this streak of screw-ups, I'll be very upset with myself. If possible, I wanted to keep being friends at the very least.

Yeah. I did it once, I can do it again.

The bell on the cafe's door rings once it's flung open and my heart skips a beat as soon as I see her. Our eyes meet and I feel myself steering back and before she approaches the counter, I flee into the kitchen's backroom.

I can't do it at all!

Grunting in frustration, I force my brain. Think, Lucy, think. You have to do something, you can't keep just running away forever.

My eyes notice the notepad we use to account for inventory and an idea comes to me: if I get too nervous to even say anything, I could write down a note and give it to her.

I pat onto my apron's pockets in search of the pen I keep there, and once it's found, I begin writing. I'm not sure any of this sounds impressive or fancy, it kinda feels more like a diary page of a girl going off about her school's crush if anything but it'll have to do. Nothing ventured, nothing gained, right?

Leaving the backroom, I return to an empty cafe save for the master working on his coffee as usual. He notices me and the frown on my face, asking if everything's alright.

"I'm fine, don't worry. Where did she go? The doctor."

"Oh, she just left. Said she had come for you but since it looked like you were busy, she went on her way."

There was still time to catch up; good thing the agency was literally next door.

"Thanks! I'll, uh... Just excuse me for a moment, okay? I'll be back soon!"

Before I could even reach the staircase, I felt something latch onto my wrist and tug at me to pull me into a corner. My face immediately flushed when I noticed who was in front of me.

"I figured you'd come looking for me soon enough," Yosano said. She looked into my eyes, a serious look on her face.

I swallowed and tried to still my nerves. "Y-yeah. Yeah, I was looking for you."

"You've been avoiding me, haven't you? I noticed."

Man, detectives are scary. But being subtle wasn't my forte so even a moron would be able to tell anyway.

"Is something wrong?" she asked, now looking concerned. "Did I force my whims on you too much? I know I may come off as forceful sometimes, so if that's the case-"

"No... That's... not it," I feebly mumbled, unable to keep eye contact.

"What's up then? Is everything alright with you?"

"Yeah... I mean, uh..."

Maybe not? Maybe yes, I don't know anymore. This feels too different and I've never felt my heart beat this fast.

"There's something I gotta tell you. Something personal, so..."

"Yes? I'm listening."

"I, uh..."

"Don't worry, no one will hear you down here. The office's door upstairs is pretty thick."

I inhale deeply. This would be the best moment to hand her the hurried note I wrote but I completely forget about the damn thing until it's too late.

"I think... I like you. Would you... Would you go out with me?" I mumble nearly incoherently.

Yosano's brows knit together. "What? Sorry, I couldn't quite catch what you just said-"

I explode before I lose all my courage. "WOULD YOU GO OUT WITH ME ON A DATE???"

🪻 // Yosano

I blinked.

"I think I have a crush on you!" Lucy blurts, face as red as a tomato. "That's why I've been avoiding you! I'msorry!"

"Oh my," is all I muster to say at first. She continues, talking so fast her accent starts making words hard to understand.

"Lucy," I call.

"AndwhenIrealizedIwassodownbadandI'venevergonethroughthissoIhaven'tthefaintestideaofwhattodo-"

"Lucy!" I call louder while I bring my hands to her shoulders and gently shake her. "Calm down. It's okay. I'm glad you finally told me."

The maiden looks completely puzzled for a second. "Y-you knew?!"

"Girl, I'm a detective," I smiled, letting go of her. I could tell she could use some personal space to still her nerves. "And a woman. We're keen observers."

"Y-you could've told me earlier! Gosh, I feel so stupid now!"

"Sorry, I just didn't want to intrude. Sometimes we need time to process our feelings, it's something that only us can do."

"You sound oddly okay with it..." Lucy points out, suspicious. Her face suddenly lights up, "D-does that mean...?!"

"Oh, dear," I said with an apologetic tone. "It's unfortunate, but I can't reciprocate your feelings. I'm sorry."

Lucy deflated like a popped balloon as a heavy sigh left her but recovered very fast. "Well, at least now I know. Should have figured you weren't into girls... That'd be too good to be true."

I blinked at her again. "I never said that."

"Huh???" she sounded truly puzzled.

"I swing both ways, cutie pie," I explained with a sly smirk. "But even if I didn't, I wouldn't treat you any differently because of it. It's completely okay."

"Wait, so..." Lucy frowned as if creasing her forehead would give her brain an additional help to make 2+2. Realization then hit her. "Oh! Ooooh."

"Yeah, I'm already... You know," I chuckle.

"I'd never be able to tell."

"You never asked! We're pretty reserved about it for reasons," I shrug, doing my best not to laugh at the irony that it had been specifically Lucy to crush on me. Apparently, I'm a redhead magnet. "Regardless, it's still a big flattery to be someone's gay awakening," I winked playfully at her. Lucy's face flared up in red again.

"You can tell even that?!"

"Been there, done that," a wry smile escapes me. "So, how do you feel right now?"

"Much lighter, actually," the maiden sighed in relief. "At least now I know, just need some time to let it go. I, um... Would like to keep things as they are between us though. If that's okay with you...?"

She still sounded a little unsure of herself, so I made sure to smile as sweetly as I could at her. "Yes, of course! I wouldn't mind that at all."

"Okay... Okay, cool," the way she repeated it sounded like she was still trying to convince herself, so I took the wheel instead.

"Would you mind if I hugged you? It helps ease the nerves and you Westerners are much more open to this kind of thing between friends."

"Woah, hold up there, that's maybe a little too soon," Lucy complains, hands on her hips. "I've just been rejected by you, I need time to process that, you know!"

I couldn't help but laugh. "Fair enough."

"Actually," she quickly backtracks. "You know what? Forget that, I will accept that hug."

I carefully pull her into my arms, taking care not to smother her but still feel warm and comforting enough to do its intended job. "You're an amazing and beautiful woman, Lucy. You'll find the right person for you one day," I say, gently patting her shoulder. "And I'll be there to give you dating tips, of course!"

Much to my surprise and relief, she's smiling when we pull apart. "Thanks," she says, wiping a tear from the corner of her eye before it dared to drop. "I'll remember that."

"So, now that this has been settled, what are your plans for tomorrow? It's been a while we don't do shopping together but it's perfectly alright if you don't want to come along."

"You bet I do! I've missed doing it."

With a lighter heart, I smile at her. "Then same time as usual. And make sure to wear comfortable shoes, we have a lot of catching up to do!"

Credits: ♡ English revisions & co-author: @shiroganeryo ♡ Edits & graphics: me! °ʚ(´꒳`)ɞ° ♡ Image sources: Bungou Stray Dogs manga, drawn by Harukawa35; Bungou Stray Dogs Official Anthology, Vol.1 Ch.3 - As You Wear It drawn by Hirahara Akira; free stock resources from Pngtree

[bright-and-burning]

book update:

got a quarter of the way through the davinci code back in march before dying on it (i’m waiting for angels and demons or whatever the first one is called to come off hold, and then i’ll try again) which led to a lengthy lull in reading before i switched to ebooks and found my groove again BUT

read the entirety of the (currently published) thursday murder club series. loved it. cried through a large chunk of the last devil alive. laughed through the entirety of the series. kind of perfectly up my alley honestly, funny irreverent oddball mystery without grimdark shit but also not without stakes or depth. desperately need it to be september already so i can read the next one

read the library of the unwritten and the archive of the forgotten (a.j. hackworth). also loved it. love a funny fantasy set in a library. cried with one of these as well! incredible concept (what if there was a library in hell for all the stories yet to be or never to be written), prickly flawed loveable characters unwillingly becoming attached to each other, magic and politics and betrayal, the whole nine yards. for some reason the third book isn’t available as an ebook at any of the three massive library systems i have cards for?? so i’m gonna have to go in person and check out the physical book i suppose

realistically i should start going through and reading the LARGE backlog of books i own that i haven’t read. but i just checked out the art forger by b.a. shapiro bc one of my parents had a physical copy from the library (i think my dad checked out after i took him to the museum at the center of the story) and it was kind of intriguing from the summary + the boston of it all. i’ve made it through the first chapter and im not clicking terribly easy with it. first person for a whole book just isn’t my thing (though i love a weird first person interlude in certain circumstances. when done well), so idk if ill stick with it. especially since i should really be devoting every bit of spare time i have to embroidering so i can finish this shirt before silverstone lol

[kindahoping4forever]

is there any hope in praying for a new kh4f writing piece? or are you officially retired 😓 i beg i plead i weep i NEED a fresh ashton one-shot like my life depends on it 🙏

Definitely not retired! I truly never meant to go this long without publishing a fic - last year was just a very weird, unbelievably difficult blur for me, the hiatus just happened and to be honest, I regret it every day.

But! Although my posting stopped, I never really stopped writing (I think my longest streak of not so much as opening a doc was about 3 months.) I've been writing much more infrequently than I'd like and with much more effort and hesitance than I'm used to (turns out going from practicing a skill every day for years to just... not doesn't do much for that skill or one's confidence 😬) but I have still been writing! Unfortunately, finishing stories hasn't been my strong suit recently and that's primarily why I haven't posted in so long. And why my WIP folder has been this stacked for the past year lol:

Some docs are just a few paragraphs long while some only need a few paragraphs to be done. I'm kind of at this weird crossroads right now where I definitely want to finish some of these fics (why let all that effort go to waste) but also I want to jump on ideas that are newer and have less baggage in my brain (it's been extremely frustrating trying to get back to where I was!). So I'm trying to navigate that while also trying to get back into the writing mindset and routine again, learning to trust my instincts again, find a way for my brain to be a comfy and fun place to hang out in again. I am determined to get there, and sooner than later this time. I feel closer than ever! And when I do, Tumblr will be the first to know. Promise. 💙

[lamortwrites]

>:(

[carnivorousyandeere]

anybody have Valentine’s questions about any of the yans~?

[queerlycarter]

im finally in a place where i have a real & consistent urge to make my life Better. more tolerable. enjoyable

im not just enduring anymore, i want to inhabit my life & my body

there are innumerable factors building up over years that led to this point, but i think a big one is my body's sudden & steep decline. it's led me to seeking relief & having to pay close attention to what my body is doing and how it's feeling, and make conscious choices to make myself more comfortable.

anyways which led to me FINALLY actually deciding that yes. i do want to start hrt. i'm done ignoring my body and im ready to start making it a place i'm happy living in