#writeblrina

[devinetheory-2]

POETRY ISNT ALWAYS PRETTY

I didn't call because

I didnt want you to hear

the sadness in my tone

I can't let you see the madness

In my mind

As I try

to accept

the fact that

I

Am

Alone

But I won't go back

to a

bro

ke

n ho

me

I can't come over because

I cant let you smell

the bar and the cologne

All on my clothes.

The women I had with me

the night before

When you had supposedly

broken Your phone

But still

I had to hear your voice

You made your choice

But I cant move on

As try to allign myself

With the idea

That this is real.

Smoke, drink and fk the pain away

Until the memory of her face

Fades from my horizon

And my mind

is completely thrown

And made insane this way

forgets the lies and

My body is paralyzed

With your level of toxicity

Admittedly

I am not very good

with this grief

Or these memories

Searching desperately for symmetry

Trying hard not

to remember our stars

Lest the sadness within

Cripple me

Like how we would always

be together

Like a pair of dice

Or you were my puzzle

And I was your missing piece

Forever searching for paradice

A paradox behind a pair of eyes

And you've likely ended my life

When you took yours

And I'm not sure I can compare a time

Where I didnt swear Im fine

I am an unspoken paradigm

Praying that prayer of mine

Hoping that that theres a sign

A direction I can take

With someone that can relate

To elevate my mental state

To a place I can repair my mind

Always threatened

to do more

Would it be you

Wondering what did I ever

fuck with you for

Stealing food from grocery stores

To provide you more

Of what you couldnt afford

Honesty on a severe decline

And always so rare to find

Pushing through the storm

Anything to keep you warm

Remove the sheath from my sword

As I sleep in that 2 door ford

You want more

You gotta do more for it

Feeling like Hugh Jackman

In that movie swordfish

And I've been letting someone live

rent free in my mind

that can't really afford the mortgage

And I'm trying to evict

But since buying the lies

I really don't have any

money left this time

to take you to court or go to war with

Holding you accountable

just resorts to more shit

and your so called friends

can't seem to see you transform

Until you go to war or forfeit

And these whores support it

Meanwhile I'm Confused

as his muse ignores him

And I choose to light that fuse

And use to get more lit

And I take over

the natural order of things

And try to force shit

As a result my views are morbid

And I see death as the only thing

that soothes the war

But the warrior inside

Refuses to lose

I avoid the noose

Take another sip

from my bottle

of poisoned and poor choices

I let destroy him

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

How could it be anything else?

Loving you was the only time I felt

Like I had done anything well...

A smile that could light up the night

Wrapped up tight

And I would've died in your arms

But you kept giving me life

Without you been feeling like

I've been living in hell...

And I know my limits

The anti me is relentless

And its heightened my senses

I wanna go dumb and be numb

Untill Im senseless

Let the phoenix flames burn me down

And remake me in the image

of God cry blood lust

Envious murderous vengeance

Until it swallows me

And I'm in a coffin 'sleep

a classic love story

A tragic loss for me

that would rival even those

Well known from Greek mythology

I wanted you to live and be free

but grief is all I see

Questioning my ability

Faith shaken

I gave her all of me

Maybe I should've not let her

get involved at all with me

As heaven comes down

And the stars look run down

And those holes punched in

Our starlit canopy start

To go dark and time breaks

In my mind space

And it all starts to fall asleep

I used to feel limitless

Within our poetic friendship

Lost words between heart beats

Its still a dark world

where my scars meet

Now I dont feel

for fear

It will end my existence

Devine Theory

- Devine Theory

[leftiswhatgodmademe]

Tea for Wolves (iii)

"And in exile, i sink in your own." - @writeblrina

Lifelines and whimpering wishes.

Hand-drawn painting, finger paints, and hand-written affairs.

Reframing refrains and coupling couplets.

We are exiles in extreme circumstances.

The wander and the lust.

The rats and the sinking ship.

[devinetheory-2]

I know you can't save everyone.

But could you just save me?

If we crossed paths

Would you just pass me by?

Knowing I want to live...

But on a path to die

If you KNEW you had the remedy

To my poison...

Toxic traits and poor choices

Giving power to the wrong voices

and your words could steer me safe...

Would you take the time

To help me

Or see me as a waste?

I AM somebody.

Who are YOU?

It's what and who you are...

Not what you do.

Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

Masterpiece For 2

Not trying to ignore you

But Ive been having trouble

expressing in words

How much I adore you

So, should you ever get

the chance to visit

To...

break away from the mundane

To take me away from this life

This...

constant compromise...

This...

never ending sacrifice

And all these lies I've been living...

I would ask God to pardon me

the pain of this sentence

And even though

God and I may remain unforgiven

For you,

I will work with him

Carefully constructing the lines

With half shells

Persephones paint brushes

Aphrodites pastels

along the shoreline

of my subconscious Vision

Even if just along the walls

Of this mental prison,

Risen from regret

From all the words I kept

That I should've said...

The times I should've left

When love was met

With disrespect

And I could no longer be strong

And I felt I had to lean on

the same things

that have never let me down....

But fucked up my head

and I will use every ounce of creativity

I have

One last time

To paint one more

sherbet champaign supernova...

....Just for you.

A sunset with words...

A shoreline masterpiece

For 2.

- DT

[devinetheory-2]

No one knows what it is like

to love like I do

To hurt like I do

Burnt down

by the pheonix flames

And thru the smoke and mirrors

My eyes can't seem to find you

I mean who really

goes thru what I do

Liable to slide through

Unexpected

To tame the reckless

To bring a smile

If only for a few seconds

To bring calm to the storm

To take your breath away

We were supposed to make it

Not make it seperate

When The past chases fast

with that machete

and jason mask

And it seems like theres no safe direction

Please remember that life is precious

And proportionate directly

To our efforts

Its ok. I still imagine me holding you

Regardless of what my soul been through

Its the hardest trying to pull through

When everyone only sees you as the old you...

And the rest wont be satisfied

Until they control you

Have you dig your own grave

And could save you but

Would rather console you

Without you I am blind

Lost in my own mind

Lines down my wrist

From missed attempts

But Im fine

And Ive convinced you

this time of this

She would die for me

but would she survive

And why am I in front

And shes seems to be

behind the 5th

I lost her...

And finally realized

she was never mine

and I screamed so loud

I thought the sky had ripped

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

Tonight

I am walking on the moon

Until I reach the light

of the southern sun

Accompanied by her ghost

Until naturally I've become one

With whatever this is

that we've become...

connect to keep from

becoming undone

Love has to be something

we run to

Not run from....

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

I am familiar with loss

and the empty places

it leaves inside of us...

Of being hurt and lied to

when you finally decide to trust

it seems sometimes

Love is blind

And life is tough

And I can't seem to find myself

having to constantly remind myself

that I'm enough

Getting trapped inside

my own mind

Thinking I'd backslide

try and find some drugs

But honestly the voice in my mind

Is too loud

I can't unsee what I've seen

And I'd probably die because

There's never too much

And I couldn't get high enough.

So I sit in suspended animation

Because I can't stand the debating

3rd eye, like a camera waiting

Attempting to incorporate

A positive Inner dialog

And Im having trouble

seeing what's ahead of me

Like I'm driving through

some kind of fog

I try to fight it off

Write along the lines

on my notepad

Around these

tear

drops

of mine

That fall

As I struggle inside

With how to write my wrongs

Like I'm not just

some worthless life

And they're still

trying to write it off

Or some puzzle

That they might could solve

As their attacks

slowly weaken my resolve

Just trying to get by

And I've

done so many drugs

Wondering why can't I evolve

Or get high at all

And I'd jump

but that's never been my style

And I've never been to high to fall

I just thought that maybe

you might have called

It's been a while

Since my goal

was to be circled inside

Some chaulkline

Or felt like I belonged

Cold days and long nights

Wondering why I'm even alive at all

Trying to remember a time

When I've loved my life

But I'm trying y'all.

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

I hope you dont mind Miss Jenny...😉

...and I love the way

The sunrays caress your face

When you stare off into space

How heaven itself

would open its gates

To illumine you

in that golden array

Giving you the appearance

of an angel today...

But here I am broken

and mangeled in ways

Broken dreams of a fallen king

Piled amongst the waste...

Telling myself its ok to be strange

I seem to have been taken

by this awakening.

Realizing its you

Like the morning sun rising

Amongst the ocean waves

Marking the dawn of a new day....

Uncomforatble and undone

in the wake of my past

My present spent

breaking these chains

that have kept me enslaved

And I know I should stay away

But love doesnt turn off

The heart wants what it wants

...and I havent seen too many

If any

that have been cut

From her cloth

- Devine Theory

Day 98 of Writing Something Everyday

(365 Day Challenge)

I'm jealous of your phone,

And how it gets held, how it sees your face first thing every morning.

I'm jealous of your bed, how it holds your body - the sheets that entangle you.

I'm jealous of your dog and how he gets to cuddle you.

I'm jealous of your toilet seat as it gets more action.

I'm jealous of your toothbrush, and all the things you do with it.

I'm jealous of the water that washes over your bare skin in the shower and the soap that lathers upon you.

I'm jealous of every doorknob you touch as it gets to hold your hand.

I'm jealous of the mug you use and how the rim gets to touch your lips, how the side gets licked when a drip gets away from you.

I'm jealous of your floor and walls, oh how I wish to be fly.

I'm jealous of the buttons you press and the edge of your kitchen counter.

I'm jealous of the cashier that tells you to have a nice day, as they get to hear your voice.

I'm jealous of your car because you're inside of it and not me.

I'm jealous of the food you consume, how I long to be your mouthful.

I'm jealous of the sweaters you choose as they get to hug you.

I'm jealous...

I'm jealous...

I'm jealous for I long to trade places with these things - just to be near you.

I'm jealous...

I'm jealous...

~Jenni

[devinetheory-2]

Staring at you down the bridge of my nose...

Through lenses that seem to magnify your raw beauty....

Breakfast is

Hot french vanilla and newspapers

I see you struggle within your chains

Held captive between the confines

of your own prose...

Forehead crinkled in deep concentration

A breath escapes your lips...

Mild envious frustration....

For me everything just flows

Theories of our divination

She radiates Mount Olympus energy

Mild mental callisthenics

For her heaven is a fresh brewed pot

A new book

A twisted plot

A revelation.

For me, heaven is right here

In this spot

Watching you be you

My Heart races

In simplistic thought

I couldn't move if I wanted to

I'm simply caught.

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

In this place

I can close my eyes 

and still see her face...

In a daze as I attempt 

to conceal this pain.

Because honestly nobody

Deserves to feel this way.

 I tried to love all of her still 

and it was still in vain

Don't want to let go

But you probably already know

That It's so hard 

to heal this way.

And I hate how I can feel it all

And how they'll swear 

That they're here....

...and I can see them and hear them

But they're not real at all.

Now Im a mess tho

Because I refused to let go

Whispers echo

Down smoke & mirrored halls...

But I can still feel them

Cupid shot an arrow

And it killed him

Nothing left of the well

I pull tears from

There can be no love 

When fears involved...

How bitter sweet 

The nostalgia is appealing

But All of these memories

lead me to loss...

Dumbed down and numb now

And I can feel it all

In this dark place

My memory holds the heartbreak

In glass jars

Runnin from my past hard

Prevents any attempt 

For me to heal at all....

Savage lack of compassion

And a tragic falls...

Wouldn't break the habit

She had to have it all....

Couldn't bring the passion back

So now the magics gone

And its the saddest song...

Stuck in the past

attempted to drag

all her past wrongs

From past wars

and never took her mask off...

and I've got the worst luck with love

They're all in love with the feeling

So I feel like I've already lost...

I should know best

Nothing is real

And you can't steal 

what has a cost....

In order to grow

I had to fall...

You never knew the me

That had it all

You and me

could have had it all...

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

I warned you....

It's a storm coming

Tears running

Like the rain

From the pain

Thats pouring thru

Life constantly

testing the formula

For my fortitude

It's almost like the people in my life

Are cool

Until they're through

And can see through you

all the way to the disorders

and then it's almost like

they sort of orphan you

Without you

I really don't have

Much more to lose

And I've never

loved anyone more than you

And we really can't

Afford to ignore the truth

Or let bad fortune

Continue to torture you

You have always been

my whole world

My Florida moon

Used get high

hop in my spaceship

And make it

orbit you

Used to want to get old

And watch life go forward

On a wraparound porch

While temperatures reach a scorching 104

on the 4th of June

Unusual but beautiful

Like an Orchid bloom

So much more

So adored

Came a long way

From the street

sleeping in that 4 door

ford with you

stealing from Stores

cause we couldn't afford food

Needing more

But somehow finding

Comfort in just

being there for you

-DT

[tailoroffates]

From The Garden that Burned. Not book one or two, the entire series.

Apocalypse

Tagging @lexiklecksi @writeblrina @wordsnstuff @write-it-motherfuckers @talesofsorrowandofruin for some non obligatory participation.

WRITERS

If you see this, spoil your WIP's biggest plot twist using ONLY ONE WORD

Here's mine!

Dying

[devinetheory-2]

My words are lost

In her beautiful simplicity

Unusual symphony

Convinced she was

Sent to me

Perfect in all imperfections

is not something

One could simply pretend to be

She is the missing piece

And I can tell when she kisses me

She fits purposefully within me...

As if we were meant to be

Religeously filling the void

within the landscape

of my subconscience rendering

awakening

what was once thought destroyed

By lovers turned enemies

as she closes

the now-empty

coffin doors quickly

Waltzing from thought to thought

Tirelessly and endlessly

with flawless chemistry,

God-like technique

and lawless energy....

Feeling like I made her

from a computer

in a dream

when I watch her

in her sleep

Her lips touch mine

And it moves everything within me...

I love her beyond the moon

to infinity

...and I can't help but fear...

That she just might just be

the end of me...

- Devine Theory

[devinetheory-2]

A kiss on the corner of the eye

To remind you

that you are worth all of the stars in the sky

That you are my reason why...

I kiss the pain away

From the years of trying

to see them through their, disguises

Beautiful lies

And all the times someone made you cry.

I kiss the outside corner of your eye

because noone else ever thought to...

I leave my lips there for a brief moment

between heartbeats

To remind you that I got you.

-DT

#Inspired

[devinetheory-2]

Life and all its woes

lately been feeling....

So Broke though

So Provoked by the lies

That seem to so easily

glide seemlesly

From your throat

Soul so sore

Fell...and Im so close to hell

Both Bare knees

on the Cold floor

I refuse to lose myself

So I choose you No more

Confused...?

I thought we were supposed

to die together

But I know.....

Ive been to your show

I watched you perform

And had all the chaotic storm

That I can weather.

We fell together

we tried to rise together

But because of the lies

Secrets between the heartbeats

The stars keep

Between sleepless nights

Inside I'm dying trying to justify

How to say bye forever...

Because of what I allowed

I been getting higher

Than anything

in the sky could measure

Miles of extra

Heavens design

I confess i tried to profess

My undying love

Thought I could be enough

If I could get ya.

Under all kinds of pressure

Because you say you want to love me

But with the things you've been thru

And the things you would get into

I guess your untreated mind won't let ya

And im not trying lecture

Im simply giving up

because I just don't give a fuck anymore

Thinking if I can get high enough

Maybe my mind

can try and forget ya

But it will be tough

Love bombed

and Trauma bonded

Branded never enough

Until the time my state of mind

Finds that Im in a stretcher

And you're kinda special

I just wish it coulda been different

And I didn't have to convince myself

it's not a lie i been living in

Lines down my wrist

From all the missed attempts

A silent knight

An epidemic amongst men

That have lived through

This kind of plight

And noone bothered to find out

If I was alright

So it would seem

I survived my life

Just so I Could go die In prison

Nightmare's are nightly

And kind of vivid

I wish I could give a f*** but

But Im kinda behind

And really need

to mind my business

Plus I got no time to give it

and I wish I could say at some point

in this life of mine

that I've been living

just trying to survive

If I could only shed this weight and fly

Maybe thrivefor a minute

if only for a time

Trying to stay alive with it

and I wish I could vibe with ya

Because honestly

Sometimes

I kind of miss it

Dying inside

While being hurt and lied to

while I'm trying to make

the right decision

And I was never trying to dismiss ya

But you want a feeling

And I want something real

And that's how I define the issue

So much pain inside

And I'm sorry I don't have the patience

or the time to divide it with you

And I am battle scarred from trying

to fight the source of the lies

That lie within you

- Devine Theory