#wow. feeling supported in fandom shit by ppl not in the fandom.

[prozac-shaped-urn]

If I could somehow make a group chat on here I 100% would but I can’t so here’s the next best thing.

@droughtofapathy and @voltives I wanna thank you both for not telling me to shut up about Hacks even tho neither of you really give a shit about the show. I know all of us fangirls (gender neutral) have our thing we get excited about That No One Cares About But Us, so I know it’s a universal thing and shouldn’t feel like you’re doing something nice, but it does. I’ve spent a collective 20 years of my life entrenched in fandom and my experience has been largely positive, but it’s fandom. Weird shit happens daily. Nasty toxic shit happens hourly. I’m no stranger to the drama and bullshit that comes along with squeeing on a public platform.

It’s nice to be able to fangirl my heart out without fear of being judged or ridiculed for a particular stance on something. I learned I don’t need to be in a fandom in order to experience being a fan, and in fact I like it better this way — by myself, alone, on my own blog, collecting shit I like, not worrying if me saying I don’t ship Avorah is gonna come back to bite me in the end!

It was a hard break from the cycle of paranoia and defensiveness I lived in for 20 years, but it’s been very beneficial for my mental health. Fandom is a fantastic and enriching experience I hope most people are able to have at some point in their lives, and there’s nothing quite like it, but I’m not the kind of person who can casually engage with others about my favorite things. And the mercurial nature of fandom does not mix well with my hyper-vigilance and need to constantly prove I’m right about everything. I get far too invested in things that don’t matter. It turns my life into a constant state of preparedness. I hate who I become when I’m in that state. It’s not good for me. And that’s a shame because I miss it! I miss talking with people and sharing things and growing friendships. I miss the community of fandom. It’s really hard to be a lone wolf, but it’s less stressful knowing that I don’t have to censor myself or provide receipts or constantly defend the writers’ choices. Will any of it matter in a year? NO. So why get upset about it? Because it’s how my brain works; that’s why!

Thank you both for just letting me say my thing and not pushing me away. I know you get it! I know you do. But yeah. It feels nice. Supportive. Like of course you’d both do the same thing and expect me to behave the same way, but idk. Just feels good. Unexpected but in a positive way.

Did any of that make sense?? I’m gonna assume it did unless you tell me differently lmao

[thebestusernamepossible]

Literally going insane, might have to write fanfic for the first time in 2 years because the people™️ do not get my favorite female characters like I do and I feel the insurmountable urge to write her. I’m going to bite drywall why don’t ppl see her complexities. PLEASE STOP WRITING HER ETHIER AS DOMICILE MOM OR BITCH (or just for shipping) she is so so cool please guys please.

Also while I’m here, fandoms tendency to shove women in the ‘pure powerful goddess who can do no wrong’ box and then proceed to never give them an actual narrative role other than like ‘supportive’ or ‘took out a few background guys’. Like why DOES this incredibly badass and complex female character just get shunted into doinging some cool flips, getting praised about it (she’s the strongest fighter, so feminist wow) then never getting actnowleged as a 2 dimensional character.

I saw this a lot when I was in the Batman fandom, particularly with Cassandra Cain. She is a highly complex and interesting character, but in fandom she’s kind of shunted to ‘Badass therapy dog who takes care of the men’. Because even on the slight chance her backstory is brought up it’s always never delved into and mostly used to make her etheir more tragic and in need of support on a surface level or to let her be compassionate with the men characters who get their actual problems foucused on. It’s a unqiue kind of frustrating because it’s like almost letting the cool female character be cool, but it’s more like the idea of a badass women is shoved in your face, maybe joked about (or if we’re lucky she gets to beat up a few bad-guys), but ultimately treated like a cardboard cutout. Interestingly this actually isn’t entirely a female character thing, it’s also common with like old grandfather/grandmother characters and the elderly in general. But it’s usually badass women from what I see. :/ Why can’t fandom explore their stories (people do but why is it so much less), why can’t they be the prtags of cool AUs or time-travel fix-its, or crossover events

Idk I think I’m just frustrated, and I typed out more than I thought I would. Also Ive seen what happens to some other posts complaining about fandom misogyny, so please know if you’re a TERF, fuck off you have no place in this discussion. We will never agree, and frankly all of these points apply to canon Trans Women characters. Don’t say shit ill fucking end you.

[tiffanytoms]

i wanted to apologise. i know its been a while but i accidentally started enemy within not realising it was that story that everyone hated. not only did i finish cuz really liked it but im realising that it didnt have any of the stuff we accused you of. i never sent you any hate but i thought you deserved it and now i feel bad. i guess im sorry i jumped on a bandwagon? im embarrassed

Hey. Wow. I didn’t see this ever coming, to be honest? Thank you?? This actually means a lot. You don’t know how much I appreciate it. (And I don’t want you to be embarrassed — I know you’re telling the truth, bc if you had sent me hate, you’d be one of the dozens I’ve had to block 😅)

All of that was really fucked up, so thank you for acknowledging my story didn’t have or promote those fucked up themes. I knew it, I knew my story could speak to that (which is why I left it up!!) but I swear I started going a little crazy there for a moment with all the chatter and cyber-bullying. I’m glad it’s become clear to you that the fight was never actually about that (and that you even liked the story!!!) 💜

Looking back at the whole mess now is so surreal. In the beginning, I truly thought it was some big misunderstanding that I, or ppl who had actually read my story, could clear up real quick. But it just got messier and messier.

Alas. It was very big of you to come back and tell me this (did I say thank you enough? 😉) and I applaud you for not sending any of the hate yourself. Honestly, I don’t even blame you for assuming the worst, bc like you said, you hadn’t even read it, so how could you know the truth? But I do hope that going forth you stand up to any person who sends hate over fanfiction — even when you don’t like the story, or characters, content, ship, WHATEVER. As long as the story is correctly labeled and has proper warnings, let that shit go. This is fandom! We’re all adults who are allowed to consume and create whatever content we want! It’s supposed to be fun!

Thank you for supporting others instead of trying to ostracize and tear them down✌️

Cheers, love ❤️ (Sorry you got a monologue out of me 😘)

[tigerbears]

THANK YOU SM FOR THE TRANS UTDR VIDEO ESP THE SEAM MENTION BC IM SEAMS NUMBER ONE FIGHTER FOR MISGENDERING THEYRE MY FAVE DR CHARACTER I always feel like that one meme of the knight shielding the princess whenever I correct ppl on their pronouns and get to show off the clip of Mr Fox himself saying it lol, also speaking of tysm for pointing out the issue of him not addressing things— bc man I love the guy but sir Please start actually saying stuff bc this fanbase is too illiterate for you to just smile and wave when it comes to the characters identities,,, esp due to it being such a huge topic of discourse, buuuuut I also don’t blame him for the being overwhelmed part, like I said I agree with like every point you made you were so eloquent through out the whole video thank you sm just aaaaugh punches wall and jumps up and down <3

Completely off topic but I wanna rant abt something for a moment (hence why I’m now sending this w anon and not my blog) but the video reminded me of something that happened to my friend in which she made a post on her UTDR related ask blog which was really simple just a “hey don’t misgender Kris/frisk/chara on my blog” and that was basically it. That was the post. BUT. She had vaguely mentioned the glitchtale and Xtale aus in the tags just bc those came to mind first as big fandom things that misgendered the kids, and SPECIFICALLY she wrote she didn’t know as much abt xtale though and that it was just as I said from the top of her head. And wouldn’t you know! The creator of xtale saw the post and took it to fucking HEART. Like made this whole personal long ass rant in a rb over this simple “hey don’t be transphobic on my own personal blog” post. And then, and I’m not joking, EVERY SINGLE comment, tag, RB, you name it, was ALL harassing her or siding w Xtales creator, the only people defending her were her mutuals, and this was a small blog to boot— this wasn’t some big huge blog going after xtale specifically— it was a small blog making a post aimed at the follower circle just offhandedly mentioning it IN THE TAGS. so this explosion just took a massive toll on her and us. Thus any time I see that au or the creator i just get the most sour feeling like Man I Hate They’re Still So Popular Despite That Shit :(((( so the fact a similar situation happened (at least based on what you described in the vid) just made me remember that was all, just like a feeling of “wow we really haven’t changed at all in like two years have we. :/“

sorry I rambled for so long lol I just got reminded of that situation and wanted an excuse to get it off my chest, again as I said I absolutely loved the video and all the points made and I love the inclusion of swatch as someone who was there for the whole they/them to he/him event :3 and again as I said as a huge seam fan ty for including them bc they’re always overlooked in the NB conversation and I just love any mention of them lol,, my favorite elderly wizard kitty plush <33333

Glad people are enjoying the pronouns essay! I worked really hard with it and I'm glad to see it's at least correcting the narrative.

Though with the X-Tale thing, that's something I'll have to look in to and fact check because I prefer not to spread rumors without evidence. (Not saying it didn't happen; just with the whole "Legends of Localization" misinformation fiasco this fandom has a habit of making s--t up, and thus I want evidence, and while I appropriate your support a little annoyed that it has some X-Tale drama attached that I'm probably to tired to factcheck. Sucks if it's true though; Apologies for any snappiness I just woke up to the success of the pronouns essay and I'm about to go look at all the YT comments.)

I don't like drama and there's a reason the pronouns essay avoided throwing any stones directly at those "guilty."

[yuukei-yikes]

do you have any headcanons about harutaka's cat(s)?

i think they have 1 spoiled as hell cat and my only supporting reason for it is haruka falling in the fountain. listen if ur gonna introduce a character thru "he fell in the fountain bc he was so determined to pet a cat" i am GONNA give him a cat.

i think harukas dreams in life are 1. not die 2. have cat and when she's settled in with takane post str hes like moaning and sobbing about how much he loves cats and takanes like then lets get one lol we can afford it and harukas brain rewires like Holy shit i am an adult with my own place I CAN GET A CAT???? and its Awesome

i think. cat is subject to his paintings for a long time. i think their place has paintings of the cat bc haruka keeps painting it. i think thatd be funny. i also think hiyori visits a lot to see the cat and also bc she and haruka have a sibling thing going on (both feel responsible for konoha being gone sry i got so many feelings abt this)

as for takane i thought maybe she'd be like Dads and the pet they said they didnt want but no wayyyyy like shes ene... they fucking love that thang. takane and cat having same personality and harukas like Wow when one hisses at me i can just go cuddle with the other this is awesome

i also think kano has like 5 cats though and the number keeps growing. i love kano just being a cat lady. seto is always fostering dogs plus is always hanging out with animals. mary has a service dog. shintaro has his bunny and continues raising bunnies. what i am trying to say the pics of the dan gc are awesome.

hibiya complains about all the cat pictures 1 time and gets hated so bad he has to beg on his knees to be added back to the gc 💔 as for kidomomo i think kido would want a cat but momo is into small ugly dogs and they fight abt it. thoughts??? wait this was a harutaka ask.

um They have a cat idk man i think they treat it like an actual kid. id say haruka and takane never have kids bc Have you seen them but also ratio + konoha reborn as their kid BEST headcanon the fandom ever came up with like OUGGHHKONOHA GETTING AN ACTUAL CHANCE AT A NORMAL LIFE OUGGHH srry the way its always compared to a kid gets me man... and konoha as an actual silly kid... sniff sniff also i think older dan spmehow finding out its konoha irl for reals is so hilarious to me. like how did you even DO that. shintaro kinda knowing bc of past timelines rubbing his hands together like The reveal never gets old. a lotta ppl have designed kid konoha but i wanna make my own too and give it so much nonbinary epicness (holds head) wait why am i talking abt this. oh yeah i had a point harutaka projecting all their insecurities of omg we will never have kids lol!!!! *put cat in crib* anyway spoiled as hell cat.

sorry i kinda talked about 1 million things but whatever haruka and takane have a spoiled cat and its awesome

[pedropascalunofficial]

@thesweetestdecline

I'm guessing if that's your defence then you don't have support around you. I'm sorry you're only finding out now what your friends are like.

Ms Peacock used some of us too. Pretending that she was a friend so we'd share info we'd found for fun with her. She seemed so cool and would share info with us so we wanted to gather more for her. Then we realised Ms Peacock was just using us to build her gossip blog. She was trading our info between us to keep us motivated. Using us. Encouraging us to go further and further into rabbit holes so she could share tiny bits of tea and get noticed by acquaintances of Pedro's who might give her something credible and news worthy. (We have major regrets, so we decided to do something positive instead.)

She has zero real friends in this fandom. R*sa is just for access to real estate resources and coz shes in Sebastianos dms too. Col Mustard is used for his access to and distribution of unlicenced pics and his access to 4k software. W*key S**l is just because she's good at searching for info. Hol C*rm*n is just because she used to live near him, and they share friends.

Look around. Everyone has a role to play. You're just a commodity to her until you aren't and then you're out on your arse with a poor defense.

So let's discuss who is dishonest here.

Is it me, the person who has provided evidence for each point made in a call out post? Who has held on to evidence which has been provided by multiple people who for years have been victims to you guys' bullshit, harassment and bullying.

I've owned up to crossing many lines in trying to find info on my fav, but I owned it and changed my ways. I used the info to help people. It doesn't make me a good person or absolve me from it. I'm a terrible person, but I'm honest about it and tried to make amends and protect people.

Or is it you who is dishonest?

With your piss poor defense of some really dark shit?

With your copycat IG account (of an account that just got deleted🤔) that causes you so much frustration you attack people for not liking it?

With your yo-yo follower counts? These were all taken yesterday.

8:50 am - 69.8k

2:10 pm - 70.2k. This is a gain of 4000 in 5 hours and 20 minutes. Wow. That has to be a record.

11:25 pm - 69.4k

Those bots just keep getting wiped huh? That's tough coz they're expensive. It's worth it is you can reign supreme though right?! Maybe if you're at the top with no competition that'll make all this shit worth it.

Buying followers to ensure your fake “supremacy.” Your engagement is less than 5% of your “followers,” when it should be double that for genuine organic followers. Just sayin

Your repost the other day was a fuck up on my part. You ever wonder why people have pulled their stories of your stuff early. Yeah, sorry but no one wants to be seen near you when they're reminded you were the one who was blocked and why. (Btw, It’s just a button love. He pressed a button and unblocked you. Doesn't clear you of shit. Some ppl just don't like the bad energy blocks bring.) Coco was informed how bad the fandom is. She was appalled. She muted her messages a while later so when she shared we couldn't get through the same channel on time. Then Pedro shared it and it was too late. Shit happens. (These posts will save me so much work in future.) It's not about keeping you down btw. It's about warning ppl they're being used and tracked. That's not a nice feeling. Maybe you guys could stop now you see ppls responses to hearing and seeing this.

It was just a fuck up. Like the pic Col Mustard got shared. (Don’t think I've forgotten about you👋) Everybody makes mistakes sometimes. 🤷‍♀️

By the way, I'm well aware I sound full on insane with these posts. I don't give a fuck coz it's all worth it to let ppl know you've been a fucking nightmare for years.

No need to worry about my family btw. They're doing really well all things considered 💜 I'm not the one spending my life making Pedro Pascal my whole personality, wasting time at work on my fandom stuff or using my kids' issues as a defense for my bullshit.

Your phone looks great btw. Totally normal for a woman in their forties.

Oh and just a note. It's illegal to post pics from dms but since you've done it to me I'd like to take this opportunity to share this with you. Great timing on your part😁

At no time did I mention your name or indicate who you were in the storytime post. You outed yourself.

Links to the full Story Time series

STORY TIME - Clue

Why has Pedro Pascal's fandom turned to shit?

Ms Green, Ms Peacock and Col Mustard killed it with questionable actions in the chatroom.

(*Please note other characters, actions and locations were also involved but I'm too tired to compile it all rn coz you know ive got real life responsibilities✌️)

Let's begin at the start of the list.

1.01 Stalked him

• Ms Peacock asks

• Ms Green responds by lying to the OP flight attendant

1.02 Used It For Clout in order to gather more information

• Ms Peacock Posts

"so long-time mutual I talk to very occasionally DM'd me to say their cousin who works/lives at a certain Lake Louise hotel messaged that P checked in yesterday afternoon"

2.01 Tracked his and his friends activity

• Ms Peacock asks

• Ms Green answers

"I used an app to identify the red berries. They are highbush cranberries and the evergreen he posted on Sunday is of the juniper tree family. Jesus sometimes I question my sanity🤣"

Using a plant app to identify berries? You should question your sanity. That’s creepy and stalkerish.

2.02 The person got blocked and used the news for clout

They did not go through your tags....

Notes

Just to correct some info here. Your version is not the real story, this is....

• You commented on Artedepascals pic of Sebastianos dog. That isn't related to you being blocked by Sebastiano, but it does make things interesting for the readers at home who now wonder why you thought artedepascal's post might be relevant to that situation. Freudian slip, perhaps? She's done fuck all but block you. She blocked your IG account because she used to get bullied for displaying neurodivergent traits and you run a whole account doing just that. That pissed you off so you blamed Arte for the hate you were getting from a specific IP.

• You then went after Pascalisfrenchpunk when she reduced her interactions with your account yet continued to share artedepascal and others.

• Before I get to the real story, we need to talk about "the unhinged person", the one who sent you so much hate. You have said you have received multiple hateful and vicious anons from an account in a specific state. You blamed Arte for this in dms. I've explained your anons weren't Arte, and it's probably the "licence plate lady". You told me what state they originated from on your tracker. I've explained that Arte uses an VPN because she's cautious about trackers and Internet safety. I explained that Licence plate Lady lives in the same state and has been caught red handed sending hate filled asks to many people in the fandom. Licence Plate Lady has previously forgotten to put her asks anonymous and has abused others in the fandom. You refused to even consider the possibility of anyone else could be sending you hate and you focused on Arte. What's that about?

• The screenshots, account links, bios, were required to inform your supposed fav about your fucking bullshit that was intruding on his life. It's really quiet since, huh?! Yeah, your bullshit crossed a line.

Before you even try, don’t play the victim! You lot have been off the charts insane with the level of bullshit you've done, and Pedro and his friends have a right to protect themselves. They are not your playthings!

• You had interacted with Sebastiano using your personal account in dms and comments. Doing so made it easier for you to go unnoticed as a Pedro fan. He was trusting and interacted with you as he believed you were showing a genuine interest in him. Neither your account name nor content offended him enough to block you.

• Sebastiano blocked you after you sent him a New Yorker cartoon using your personal IG account. This allowed you to view his Instagram activity tracker, which shows a green dot when the account holder is online. You then cross-referenced this with Pedros instagram posts and likes which you noticed were unusually timed considering their possible locations. From this, you determined they were interacting privately. You told people what you were doing. Well, they contacted him to warn him. The reason he blocked your fan IG and not your personal IG which you used to track him is that he had deleted the dms and had no evidence except your admissions through tumblr which account had wronged him. Didn't you notice that his activity tracker was deactivated?

Clue - you guys killed it

Two questions

When it's written down in black and white, can you see this is all insane or are you just creating your defence?

Can you leave Artedepascal and Pascalisfrenchpunk2.0 alone now since they haven't done anything to you?

I would just like to add that I'm not happy about sharing any of this publicly, however this psychotic bullshit has to stop. It's taking a lot of effort to compile everything as there is so much work on so I'm sorry I'm slow. Thank you to everyone who has helped get peoples voices heard.

Storytime - Why did Pedro Pascal go quiet on socials?

Storytime - Deuxmoi

Storytime - Canada

[honeyfreckled]

oof

[kiisaes]

HOLY SHIT

MY MAN

WHEN I WAS JUST GETTING INTO THE FANDOM MY FRIEND SENT ME YOUR MANIAC BKDK ANIMATIC AND EVEN THOUGH I WASNT INTO BNHA I LEFT A COMMENT CAUSE I THOUGHT IT WAS AWESOME (and subscribed!!)

and almost TWO MONTHS LATER I got into it and saw a repost of your art on pintrest and which I followed to your tumblr and subsequently followed you there too and have fawned over your art ever since

So one year ago me and 10 months ago me both discovered your art totally independent of each other! I have rewatched that animatic so many times without even realizing one of my favorite tumblr creators and the person behind a beloved animatic of mine are indeed the same amazing artist!

and. I just think that’s really cool. Have a good day _(:з」∠)_

[my og comment below]

OH WOW HAHAHA that's crazy!!! i remember receiving ur comment and feeling so honored :') it was definitely one of the first comments on my videos that made me feel very warm inside! i don't normally make animatics so i don't really know what the protocol is for a good animatic, so it was nice to hear any encouraging words <:) insane to think that u are the same person who made that kind comment! i always wondered how that individual was nowadays since clearly they were into mha now. but it's u!!! so i hope u're enjoying ur time in this series LOL

kinda sucks that ppl are reposting my art on pinterest but i suppose there's nothing i can do there ^^' at least it brought u to my blog! thank u for supporting me for so long, even through 2 "different" avenues!!! <333

[autumn-foxfire]

The whole thing about Toorus cover has already been frustrating enough but whats even worse is the amount of ppl that had come out of woodwork to yell 'its not even the first time he sexualized a minor!!!' or 'this is shonen what did you expect??? Other mangaka do it too'

Like you understand that first is just worse and second is no excuse. Like yeah Hori probs wont see any of the outrage and that cover will sell like hotcakes but these are still important conversations to have in fandom about the standards of the way women are treated in manga. Like why no try to build a mood in fandom where mangaka are held to higher expectations instead of just giving up cuz 'its shonen standard'. Drawing cute girls for teen boys to swoon over is one thing, putting an almost completely naked minor on the cover of ur very popular (and publicly sold like i cant imagine how this will look on BOOKSTORE SHELVES) is another. I also see many ppl bitch about like 'oh ppl who complain the most are those who write explicit bakudeku smut' which like, wild conclusion to some to and probably not true but also i think ppl have to understand that influence of a random fic writer in a fandom (even if a popular one) is Very different from influence of a popular mangaka whos work influences the fandom culture anyway. Like there will be ppl who write freaky shit in every fandom but the mangaka very much sets up the bar there i feel.

Like, Witch Hat Atelier is extremly non sexual manga (aside from Qifrey whos sad and wet) and the only sexual content ive encountered for it was between the two adults in it. There IS a creator there that draws minor x adult explicit stuff (as i said freaks in every fandom) but the only reason i know of them is cuz there were warnings from other users like 'hey this person is posting yxz art tagged under the main manga tag, it can be p upseting so make sure to block them!' its a whole different climate for real.

Uhhhh long story short like ppl are allowed to discuss weird stuff a mangaka pulls, thats good for the fandom, why is everyone on twitter so damn ready for this to be their hill to die on lmao all ppl are saying is 'wow pretty gross for Hori to put a naked teenager on the cover' hows that controversial

....long time no rant at foxy i hope i made sense

I completely agree with you, Lucy and I'm mad that the attitude in fandom a lot of the time is "well there's nothing you can do about it so why complain?"

Why aren't we allowed to hold Mangaka, grown men, accountable for the shit they draw and sell to a wide audience. Why can't I be upset that yet again a female body is being exploited by a grown man for sales.

Yes, she's fictional but that's not the issue! It's an issue that it's okay just because she's female and this has been normalized! Imagine the outrage in public that would have caused if it was Deku in such a pose?! It probably wouldn't be allowed to be printed, let alone on the cover of such a popular magazine that is sold to young boys.

It's because people brush it off that it's everywhere that NOTHING WILL CHANGE. Yes, my voice will probably go unheard regardless but at least I'm saying something about it, at least I'm supporting people who are also upset that their bodies are used like this. It's better than ignoring it and the people hurt by Hori's choice (which you'll notice are mostly females).

And the argument that fandom creates content just as bad is null. Firstly, a fandom creator who barely gets over 100 views most of the time will NEVER carry the same influence that a man who draws in over 10s of 1000s. Not to mention, it's deflecting the issue. We're not talking about the creation of porn, we're talking about how Hori has exploited the female body, using a character of his that is a minor, for profit as representation for his work.

My question is WHAT DOES THIS COVER DO. It doesn't represent Hagakure as a character nor it doesn't represent his story of heroism. It exists just for people to, frankly, jerk off over. As a fan of BNHA, I don't want what was once one of my favourite stories represented in such a way! I don't want a character to be reduced to this!

If Hori wanted to draw sexy females for young males, he should have created an ecchi manga, not a shonen one. At least then I wouldn't have to see this bullshit with my own eyes and have it supposed to represent something I used to love.

I'm upset as a female because I'm tired of shonen artists getting away with using girls like this, especially teenage girls.

[kesoo]

I know you've probably been getting a lot of asks like this but I just wanted to say that I was absolutely and completely blown away by your last animation. Just. Wow, oh my god. That was real art. Chills up and down my spine and all over my arms.

I've been in the LU fandom for some time now and that animation hands down the most emotionally evocative piece of fanwork I've ever seen for it. Just incredible!!! Kudos kudos kudos!!!! You should link/make a kofi so I can show my appreciation in a more tangible way (/hj)...

O man o man o man ….. idk what to say its an honour hearing that from u !! ;; its really just something i threw together in one evening but im happy ppl find it touching and i rlly just wanted to animate how i feel about the current arc in lu which is….a lot of sadness and anxiety and hopelessness even though im certain Twi’ll be fine .….…. as for making a kofi, first off- thank u sm holy shit i didn’t think ppl were willing to pay/financially support my work ?? Ily. Second- i asked my dad and he allowed me to make one + open commissions so that will hopefully be happening soon when i feel ready ^_^

[avenger-hawk]

Hey hawk, was just wondering if you see yourself moving on from the N@ruto series/Sasuke eventually? For my case, everytime I thought I've moved on (eg: found other media to invest my free time with), I'd always end back up with Sasuke in my thoughts, exploring more about Sasuke's dynamic with other characters etc.

Yeah for me it's more or less the same. I might be more interested in something else for a while, but I never leave Sasuke completely. My fandom passions last a very long time tbh.

I say Sasuke because I kinda moved on from the series, I mean, when I stumble on manga panels or anime moments I have pleasant feelings, because I really liked the story and many characters others than Sas, and interactions, ofc mostly Sasuke’s interactions with others cause it’s all about him for me. But mostly I’m negative because no matter how cool it was the plot and the characters and interactions it still ended the way it ended. For me the dislike for new shit and for kishi is stronger than my interest so I kinda get pissed off every time I see new official art and bullshit even. I'm so pissed off at it that even if I reblog when I see new stuff I like because it's objectively cute, I hate it deep inside and I am pissed off at ppl who are enthusiastically about it (which I know it's stupid and I would never attack someone for liking them, it's just to show how I feel, cause like I said I reblog some of these).

I'd like the series to just end, no more official art, no more merchandise, no more stuff that is created only to keep fans attention high and not because the author/staff has something new and interesting to show.

Also the fandom kinda ruined some characters and dynamics for me, first of all for the moralistic hypocrite bullshit that pairings and dynamics must be always ‘healthy’ and ‘unproblematic’ when some of them are canonically unhealthy and problematic and it’s what makes them interesting, but some idiots decided that defending the rights of fictional characters who don’t exist is more important than defending the rights of real people so wow. Not funny. On the other hand there’s the different fan view on many characters and dynamics, that it’s just different from mine, so when I see some Itasasu related stuff, which used to me my favourite thing, even if it’s not anti it, I’m either meh or just cringing (especially cause there’s so much of the reverse dynamic everywhere, or Shi-ita-sas which is a no for me), same for N*rusasu which is too positive while I see it darker, and others that I like very much but others just see them in a too different way, so it’s just uninteresting for me, which takes away the fun of sharing what I like. Again, not criticizing anyone, I’m just talking about my own taste and distaste and the reason why I might have headcanons or ideas or smth but don’t feel like sharing, since I don’t feel like I belong in the fandom (and when I shared my last fics they didn’t get appreciation anyway lol).

Lastly right now it’s a shitty period, I’m not able to enjoy most things because of the war in Ukraine that even if it doesn’t affect me directly, it affects me a lot anyway because 1) I’m overwhelmed by the amount of denial and bullshit I hear and by understanding how deep russian propaganda arrived in europe, so much that some of it it’s tailored to different countries and ppl just repeat bullshit without realizing they’re supporting the aggressors 2)my gf is half Ukrainian, from Moldova which is kinda the next target 3)I’m really full of sadness and anger and a lot of different feelings about it. I won’t complain about my feelings in this context because I don’t matter, what matters is only the suffering of Ukrainians. I only mentioned this to explain why atm I’m not exactly interested right now in something that in social media brings ‘discourse’ about genocide and ppl get so worked up on justice for fictional characters when a genocide is happening for real.

[flying-elliska]

I was so immersed in skam fandom, one of the first that I actually got into completely, that I forget that like other fandoms exist? Basically, I witnessed a lot of buffoonery in the skam fandom. It was nice with all the fanfics and meta but like it got wild and it’s one of the reasons I bowed out cause the anxiety was real man. But I’ve kind of entered into 911? But really it’s mostly just the fanfic because I go into the tag sometimes when an episode comes out but honestly ppl are WILD. Like Oliver stark had to deactivate because ppl won’t stop. And I’m over here like whaaat? I know ppl can freak out online and it’s one thing to make posts about it but like actors are real ppl and I really don’t understand the disconnect ppl have when they say shit to the actors. Like they don’t care or take into account that ppl are real and they are not their characters. It’s such a bummer and probably why I’ll stay in the land buddie fan fic lol

Wow this is so real like skamiverse fandom can def be a fucking circus sometimes and it's tempting to blame skam specific stuff like the live format etc

But yeah in fact each fandom unfortunately has its share of people who are either seriously deranged, too young to be online unsupervised, lacking any sort of decency, or at the very least have seriously lost touch with reality that they think it's okay to treat real people like this over made up shit.

It's so wack to me that people have invested so much of their identity and feelings in these stories that they fly off the handle like this. And this has a tendency unfortunately to get worse w queer pairings often bc media representation has come to be seen as a substitute for actual political activism so they see it as: not giving me the queer pairing I want = you must hate gay people = you deserve death threats (or something).

It's honestly such a shame bc it ruins the fandom for the rest of us. Like I read this and half of my enthusiasm for next ep was already gone, like this is so cringe I dont want to be associated with this. It would have been fun to see Oliver Stark liveblog the finale but I guess we can't have nice things.

And I mean I definitely think this is partly bc social media is specifically made to turn every possible human interaction into hot garbage for the algorithm but some people also really need to take a good look in the mirror.

I don't get the whole "haha bullying celebrities online is fun" thing ; sure they're rich and famous (and I mean in this case he's just a moderately well known TV actor so like...) but when it comes to it they're still one person facing a mass of people throwing insults their way which is not fun for anybody. And I know a lot of people doing that shit like to pretend that the power dynamics are in their favor because they're younger or not famous or whatever and the people they attack should "get over it" but it's like...just a bad faith excuse for being a piece of garbage. The way some people act like their faves somehow belong to them now bc of their support and they can do or say whatever and attack them for not giving them everything they want is so dehumanizing and gross.

[eohachu]

Post pictures of your first ever (fictional/celeb) crush to the latest one and tag five others to continue the game.

Ali tagged me, thanks. I guess 😘 @lanzhansmiles​

A’ight so I’m simply taking this as an opportunity to show off my frankly impeccable taste 😌 *coughs into the crook of my elbow with my mask on and from a safe distance* More under the cut, godspeed!

I’m tagging uhh I really don’t want to expose anyone but uh. @morifinwes​ @ttaechwita​ @sunshine304​ @treemaidengeek​ @flamingwell​ no pressure tho!!

Since 2006

Janina Fautz: Die Wilden Kerle, anyone?? Tbh i had a crush on quite a lot of the characters/actors but in hindsight Janina was and is the most influential one. Also probably my first ever girl crush (again, in hindsight bc it took me until 3 years ago to finally find out i’m queer lol)

Eva-Maria May: Yeah well I’m not gonna talk about where I know her from let’s say it was an incredibly bad soap opera my mom used to watch. She was one of the reasons why I went Yeah I Have Always Been Into Girls. I was pretty obsessed with her to the point where mini me secretly printed out a photo of her to look at lmaooo the signs have always been there and it’s truly amazing how I had been missing them for years

Amy Adams: Her as Amelia Earhart in Night at the Museum was also definitely a huge Thing to young me. Again, I had been completely oblivious about this crush for years

David Luiz: HAH! This is the point where we do NOT get into my football/soccer crushes bc this list would get WAYYY too long hahaha. I had to cut loads of people from my list for this post bc I develop a new celebrity crush every 5 minutes basically but yeah. David Luiz was definitely my biggest football/soccer crush out of..... everyone else

M*rvel

I don’t have a lot to say about any of them since I’m not into m*rvel anymore TFATWS makes me want to stick the tip of my toe back into m*rvel waters but otherwise NO THANKS

Sebastian Stan was, if my judgement of my archive is right, the longest highkey celebrity crush I’ve ever had. Mostly because I love Bucky a lot and he was so amazing in Captain America: The Winter Soldier. I must’ve had a crush on him for as long as I had been in the m*rvel fandom

Recent Past

some celeb crushes from last year that were all more or less short-lived tbh

Ester Expósito: As it often goes I didn’t find her spectacular in the beginning but as Élite went on I started to develop a huge crush on her. I still find her pretty hot but I’m not invested in Élite so yeah..... I have no object permanence

Mina El Hammani: Got to know her through Élite, too. She’s so incredibly beautiful. Had a hard time choosing a photo of her bc I’d stare at every single one for ages. Wow.

Danger Days!Gerard Way: Hah! The ones of you who’ve been following me for longer might remember my posts about wanting to dye my hair neon red. Well, him’s the reason and also clinical depression. Ended up with natural red/ginger bc my hair is too thin for bleaching lel. ANYWAY

Maxence Danet Fauvel: Pretty short-lived crush from my Skam days

Ramy Moharam Fouad: So Ramy has a brother, Tamino-Amir Moharam Fouad, who makes INCREDIBLE music. Ramy made some of his music videos (directed them? not sure), that’s how he came to my attention. Idk man he’s just so incredibly beautiful.... gives me a hint of genvy, too......

Janelle Monáe: Became a fan when Make Me Feel came out, listened to the entire album for days and eventually inevitably crushed on her

Lera Abova: Saw her in ANИА and fell in love. I screamed to my friends for weeks about how she was the most beautiful human being I’d ever seen etc etc. Eventually my crush went away mostly, but I still think she’s stunning

Keiynan Lonsdale: Keiynan said FUCK gender and I said 😍😍😍 and that’s all you need to know.

Current

*deep breath* alright let’s gooo

Bright (Wachirawit Chivaaree): Crushed on him for as long as I watched 2gether/Still 2gether lmao. I still like him a lot and sometimes lose my mind over him but I’m not exceptionally Thirsty™

Tul (Pakorn Thanasrivanitchai) and Max (Nattapol Diloknawarit): If you search either of them on tumblr you will have to scroll for a long, long time to find seperate photos of them. However, I’m not patient enough so here we are. Re: Tul, actually I want to copy/paste what Ali said bc DAMN a man who is confident about his masculinity and sexuality really is kinda hot. Same goes for Max tbh. Also Max’ lips look so soft I [redacted]

Lukas von Horbatschewsky: Also known as Lukas Alexander. He did an amazing job in Druck and he’s just a person I admire in general. As one of the few out trans actors in Germany, he had a main role as a trans boy in Druck and also co-wrote Druck’s seasons 5 and 6. He’s just a huge role model to me and, apart from that, Big Crush Material (h i s  e y e s)

Li Wei: Someone suggested him as Hua Cheng for the TGCF live action and my life hasn’t been the same since. While I’m open for whoever will get that role in the end, I could look at his face for hours and not get bored. Major Genvy, too.

Li BoWen and Liu HaiKuan: I will have to deal with these two in one paragraph bc LanLan bc they have the exact same effect on me which is. that they’re not 100% my type but I WILL go absolutely feral about them at regular intervals, if you know what I mean

Song JiYang: ohh honey. oh honey.......... hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I have a natural affinity for aquarius ppl and this one lives in my heart rent free. I’d even make him soup if he’d ask.

Wang YiBo: WELL HOLY SHIT. listen. LISTEN! the hype around him is 100% justified imo he really is That Bitch and I love him so so much for it. Fucking ICON

Honorary Mentions: Gender Envy

Here’s to the People I Thought I Had A Crush On But Not Quite until I learned the word Gender Envy:

Zhu YiLong: Man, this is the person who’s mainly responsible for me finding out AT ALL about not being entirely cis. The POWER he holds!!! His performance as Ye Zun in Guardian was like a breakthrough point for me which. certain people witnessed in real time hahaha oh I love this fandom!!

Zhu ZanJin: HIM. AAAH!! He’s literally so beautiful and whenever I see him I just go ZANZAN!! in my head and in the tags bc. well. hIM.

Xiao Zhan With Long Hair: Look, Xiao Zhan is always amazing but BLESS the person who made these manips. I can finally rest.

Wang YiBo: uhh what’s he doing here again?? Tbh YiBo is one of the few, if not the only person that gives me Major Gender Envy that I would also [redacted] if they asked. Do I want to be him or be with him? The answer is Yes.

I skipped the fictional characters bc I tend not to crush on them 👉👈 Instead I will just directly crush on the actors/actresses lol!

Thank you for bearing with me. As a prize, you can choose between a ladder supported forehead kiss, or a bowl of homemade soup. ❤

[jaynovz]

1, 18

Darling Anon--

1: Is writing cathartic or stressful for you?

Ohohoooo that's a question huh?

Depending on the story, the night, the point in the draft, my mood, IRL stuff, it can really be either. Sometimes I just get a huge burst of motivation and all the words come pouring out almost like magic. I know exactly what needs to happen and how. Sometimes that persists for the whole draft, but usually I hit a sticky and difficult part mid-process. Then it's stressful to make myself sit down and just put some words down for better or for worse.

But in general, I am so happy to have written so much in the last couple of months. This is a new thing for me, being so prolific. Having Brinn as a writing partner is def the main reason. The collabing has encouraged me to try out all sorts of crazy things with concepts/drafts. I haven't written this much in literal years. THANK YOU HEAD ENABLER <3

Also, all the support from the Black Sails fandom is wonderful. Like, ppl care about and are excited for our projects! Like, wow! That's fucking amazing.

So yes in general it's cathartic, very good for my mental health. And even if it puts pressure on me at times, at the end of the day I feel better after writing. It's hard, but it's worthwhile. C:

18: Do you feel like your work gets enough recognition? What kind of feedback do you like to receive?

Dude like, imma be real with you. I'm fucking floored that it's gotten this much attention. I'm over the moon, thank y'all SO MUCH for giving a shit.

The best type of comments are the huge live-read ones imo, where ppl quote lines out that they loved and react. But that's a lot of work! So, the feedback I like to receive the most is like, in general what was effective/resonant? What's working, y'know.

But hey, a keysmash, shitton of emojis, or just an "OMG AMAZING" also make me feel very warm and fuzzy. I'm a slut for validation of all types :P

Thank you for the ask!!

[usertoxicyaoi]

FAIZA I'M SCREAMING THEY HAVE THE BOOKS!!

- BIS! BRIGHTS STORY OMG HOW R U FEELING!? IM SCREAMING

- THE BOOK!

- FANBOOK BRIGHT IG OMGMGGJNGJGJAAJSAKDJSKF!!!!!!

- Faiza! Please check Bright's latest ig story!!

- FAIZA! BRIGHT POSTED ON HIS STORY! I collapsed seeing ur book on his story, u really did that queeen 💅🏽

- JAJSJDHFGH OMG FAIZA THEY GOT THE BOOKS

- Holy shit faiza! Check Instagram ASAP! Bright got the book. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

- FAIZA IM SCREAMIND I JUST SAW BRIGHTS IG STORY AND DJSNSKSNS

- Fcfykjwwejbfrh QUEEN! check Bright story

- FAIZA! BRIGHT POSTED THE BOOK!

- Hiiiii bright just posted a picture of the book you made!!!

- AHHHHHH FAIZA I JUST SAW BRIGHT’S INSTA STORY!! He got the bookkkkkkk❤️❤️(I hope I’m correct that it is the book)!! I’m so happy for you all and thank you for all the hard work you and everyone else put on this project!! Bright and win deserve all the love

- FAIZA BRIGHT JUST POSTED THE BOOK ON HIS STORY THEY GOT THE THINGS

- OMG! Faiza! Bright got the fanbook! I didn't even contribute to it yet it made me so glad to see that he received it! So happy for you and every one who put a bit of their heart into that book.

- FAIZA !!!! THE BOOKS !!! I saw Bright’s story and camr running!!!! Is this what you were being cryptic about tho 👀 ONG IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!

- FAIZAAAAA!!!! go check Bright's instagram stories RIGHT NOW!!!!!!! 😭

- IM SURE YOU'LL GET A MILLION MESSAGES FOR THIS BUT BRIGHT POSTED A STORY WITH THE FANBOOK 😭😭♥️

- BRIGHT HAS THE BOOK! WIN PROBABLY DOES TOO! THEY RECEIVED THE LOVE 🥺

- Faiza I don't know if you've seen yet but I think Bright got the fanbook! He put something in his Insa stories about an hour ago.

- omg the book is in his ig story! 🤍

- it looks like brightwin got your books! they look lovely, thank you and best wishes to u!

- Hi faiza did u happen to see bright’s latest insta story👀👀👀 because I think u should!!

- omg it happened

- FAIZA, THEY GOT YOUR BOOKS!!!!

- FAIZA THEY GOT THE BOOKS !!!!

- MISS FAIZA THEY GOT THE BOOKS -1ovebound

- OMG FAIZAAAAAA!!! THEY GOT THE BOOKS!! BRIGHT POSTED ON HIS INSTA STORY OMGGGGGG

- Faiza they got the book look bright igs

- faiza!!!! faiza!!!!!!!!! FAIZA!!!!!!!!

- good morning my dear, i know it's 6am there and you probably have thousands of messages in your inbox but i want to reiterate: thank you so much for organising this. you have put your life and soul and heart into this and being able to see it in their hands is overwhelming enough for the rest of us, but even more tremendous for you. i just wanted to make my appreciation and love for you known again, this was such an amazing and kind undertaking and i know we all appreciate it. thank you, ily!

- so busy these days... BUT NEVER NOT PROUD OMGG SO PROUD, FAIZAAAA! LOOK AT BRIGHT'S INSTA OMGG YOU DESERVE IT SM! ILY ❤️

- FAIZAAA!!! OMG THANK FOR DOING THIS PROJECT I AM SURE BRIGHT AND WIN HAVE THE BIGGEST SMILES ON THEIR FACES RIGHT NOW I AM ACTUALLY CRYING *SOBS*

- im on the verge of tears on your behalf seeing bright's story.... i am so happy for you :(((( also i know this is gonna blow up on twitter you're a celebrity now

- The law of equivalent exchange. Brightwin get the books however you get twitter people coming into your anons

- let them link u Faiza! U deserve the praise 🥳💕

- I didn't write anything for the book cuz I'm really bad at writing this kind of things (I never know what to write even if I have so much to say, and writing this is causing me stress) but I'm really happy that they received something so special, done entirely because you and many people love them. Anyways, thanks for coming with this project to make them know how much they're loved❤️ you're such a good person.

- FAIZA!! i saw brights ig story and immediately rushed here! so happy for them and for you, i know they will love it so much

- I see the tweets about u in my timeline!! I feel like a proud friend even though I’m just an anon! I’m like “I KNOW HER! I LIKE HER CONTENT ALL THE TIME!” 🤣

- Seeing ppl not know about the fan project is kinda hilarious and strange lol, the tumblr community feels so tight knit so it’s like unexpected! You and Rahul are like our leaders 🤍

- I'm really happy for you!!! ❤❤❤ you did such a good job and the books got there safely *throws all the hearts*

- SO HAPPY FOR YOU❤️

- Hi, Faiza! Tysm for putting together the project idk if I actually got my letter on time but regardless seeing in bright's ig made me feel like floating, he has the words of people who love him and his work on his hands, and he gets to cherish that forever. 👌🏽💕 Tysm

- faiza u really r the beating heart of this fandom. i love u so much thank u for existing

- Hi Faiza!! i just saw bright’s ig story and seeing him hold the book is making me so emotional i can’t even form words right now but i just wanted to tell u THANK U. this wouldn’t have happened without u. ur so .. ur such a .. AAAAAAAAA I DONT HAVE A GOOD ENOUGH WORD TO DESCRIBE U !!! JUST !!! pls know my love, respect and gratitude for u is endless !!!! thank u so much for everything that u do !!! ❤️❤️

- The way that I got like super emotional when I saw Bright’s post with the book and then my first though was I wonder how Faiza feels rn. I can’t stop smiling, I’m so happy that I participated on the books! Thank you again 💕

HELLOOOOO EVERYONE!!!!

oh wow thats. yeah. yall really are the absolute GREATEST people. i was up until 1am last night thinking and stressing out over when the boys would get the books. and amidst that stress, i fell asleep???

and i woke up at 6am to go watch wyel but i thought ill come on here first .... and i got FLOODED with messages!!! so to answer that one anon, yes, THIS is what i was being cryptic about!!

and i still cant bring myself to go and physically see brights ig story yet. im too too nervous to do that hsjhd but yall have sent me screenshots, so thank you sm sm sm for it!!!!

i hope win can post something soon too, so i know he's got his aswell and put my mind at ease!!

but urm. yeah. its been a Wild 2 months making this. thank you EVERYONE for contributing and providing so much support and motivation. it truly goes to show the power we can have as people when we come together for a good cause! and they have a piece of you now! to cherish and hold!!! and read and gain strength from! as i said, we sowed the seeds, and here are the fruits of our labour!! and im so happy i could be a messenger in some way to carry all those words of affection yall have and your own personal stories and experiences and hand them over to them. thank you all for trusting me to do so. i was so scared bc i didnt wanna let you guys down!

i love you all SO SO much!!! yall are truly the greatest friends!! 🧡🧡🧡

[hamsterrivals]

ok, so.

I made a youtube video, of me narrating Ashita no Joe episode 4.

I was wondering for awhile if it would be ok to upload a video that’s just directly an anime episode of Ashita no Joe.

I thought partly, maybe it would be ok, since that anime came out like before 1970 or something so maybe it’s free domain,

but nah. It is blocked. I can’t find the video at all.

but, that isn’t going to stop me..

I will do the impossible, (even though I am depressed, about someone I know. irl)

and narrate Ashita no Joe episode 4.

I made a whole video of me narrating it with my voice. but it’s blocked aaaa. I refuse to let it go, though.

giga..drill...breakeriswhat I’d say but I am too depressed about someone I know irl.

Ok so anyways, this was gonna be a YouTube video, especially cuz-- [had to delete the explanation] anyways here:

[deleted stuff.....] ...

anyways here:

oh shizzat its 4am I’m fluffin’ tired. so I’m just gonna skim the episode and post screenshots argh my foot is pulsating as I type that as if my entire body is thinking “wow I know you re-watched Ashita no Joe episodes again yesterday but you should watch the whole episode again its godly” I’m sorry ewotjwte its just almost 4am and I had to wake up at 10am yesterday.

the opening plays. and then:

that one guy that is like my dad reads about my stuff

Jebus freakin’ RICE I’m tired. But I need to do something productive today cuz after I woke up at 10am for my social worker I was tired and drained all day from hearing the voices of the people upstairs and the noise in the wall.

my dad I mean Danpai keeps reading the newspaper (like how in -- gah nevermind [deleted cuz I’m paranoid about what [NEVERMIND deleted the explanation]] and

my freakin’ dad I mean Danpai gets mad at Joe just like

I DELETED [can’t say] like 8 years ago cuz of that time when I [=/ Can’t say the details]

GOSH DARN IT this is just like something irl and I can’t even say what it is because I’m too paranoid about people [deleted explanation here]

ok so basically Joe is super successful and doing good things in this world but no one believes him cuz his stupid azz danpai adopted dad figure is a dumb bummie, and then

and then I wanna explain 99 lines but we’re not even 2 minutes into the episode, so I guess I have to skip some parts; I mean it is 4am after all

and then

ok so there’s this snobby lady (at the time ? perhaps she changes at the very very very very end but I won’t give any spoilers about how the very final episode goes itjewiot btw I literally watched this anime starting from the very last episode cuz someone said this series has best ending in anime/manga of all time, and then I started back at early episodes after that, when I first watched this however years ago,)

and then

yes we printed this article cuz .. you’re trustworthy and popular but Joe is just an unpopular guy who helps out orphans and gives his money away to help out orphans

ya know how when I watched the first 11 episode with [won’t say but the guy that begins with Sau and ends with ce that I was friends with for 15 years and he kept making fun of it multiple times in the chat saying “More like a shit a joe.”] well these guys are like wow Joe is a delinquent cuz he is helping out orphans

wow Yabuki Joe used an alt account or some shiz and made a complete lie to try to help society for the better like making a peaceful game and then I mean boxing I mean waterver and then

no one believes ni the main character Joe who is LITERALLY helping out local orphans; and they’re basically like just jealous of him and twisting the truth to make him look bad is what these snobby popular people are doing t hat actually have friends unlike the wondering loner Joe Yabuki,

this very popular snobby lady who actually has friends unlike ab- Yabuki Joe doesn’t care that Joe is actually being helpful and wants to make projects that will bring peace to this world, she will not give him a chance because she cares more about appearances and keeping up her reputation.

....She takes on the full pressure and responsibilty. But can she handle it?

they’re basically like “uhhh do you have [deleted in case it comes off as offensive, since I know some others that make fun of that stuff >=\ which I don’t like either cuz I get made fun of [the deleted thing] too . It shouldn’t even have to be deleted >=\ but I was in a [DELETED] and they made fun of [the deleted thing] so I guess it has to be [deleted] which is so sad for this world ??] and so

the really cool person who *doesn’t reveal spoilers of the end of the series aa* says please leave Train- Yabuki Joe to me !!

i have faith in him he totally will not somehow break this faith that I vaguely have in him and am kinda too shy to publicly admit..

I wonder what Joe is feeling like right now and doing:

s o anyways Joe keeps laughing 99 times in this episode, and, cuz he knows he’s right and just helping out orphans and people that aren’t popular and too afraid to join the b- never mind.

some of his followers don’t respond to his long rants and are like maybe he is going too far and should back down fro mthe very popular snobby lady

Yabuki Joe laughs again

he says What’s the matter with you!? Stop siding with the very popular lady that actually has friends and a good reputation who is a stuck up and like do what is right instead of what . will make people think better of you even if you know in your hear that maybe it might be wrong.

The snobby lady posted on Twit- I mean irl the anime known as Ashita no Joe the they posted a screenshot of me saying “I have family.....” and they mocked him saying “Um.... I have family too....?” as her followers mocked Yabuki Joe on twitter in the 1970s anime or something,

but family isn’t what matters, everyone has family,

what matters is that you all still have a poor reputation because you have no friends which I think is 100% ok but the stuck-up lady who hates Joe for some reason atm just cares about how they’re rich in [deleted snarky remarks] reputation.

stop caring about the dislikes and haters and appreciate the supporters that you do have;;.

yabuki Joe says F THE HATERS THIS IS Just the beginning of [would say but I wanna here but X_X; [deleted the reason why I won’t] because of [deleted] because of [deleted]]

,y gpa; s 1 million followers cuz then they at least know what is right

in this world.

and then joe is like

and then;

then he’s like yea in my heart I know its good to have that many followers cuz I know the true true truth about Yabuki Joe the anime and manga character from Ashita no Joe, he just wants that many followers to program an indie game about- I mean anyways

they say

[OK WHAT THEH ECK I SERIOUSLY DID RECORD A VIDEO OF ME JUST NARRATING THIS ENTIRE EPISODE AND I uploaded it yesterday on a video sharing site but it is blocked cuz of copyrighted content aaa even though this was from before  1970 aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa now I gotta explain in text instead of voice like I already did last night AAAAAAAAAAaa]

they say But what would you do with that much power, that many internet I mean irl followers in 197o in Ashita no Joe the anime/manga series?

and then Yabuki Joe says teh

then he’s like What the gosh darn shiz in yoshville mans,

and then

and they’re like Look Yabuki Joe lives in a Terrible place with Terrible living conditions wher e brick dust keeps falling down and then

and like Joe has no problems like getting kawaii innocent ppl to follow him, but the others are a bit suspicious.. of Joe and his behavior..

Joe is like i’m gonna build a huge online hamster game soon.

and then someone tells Abu in tumblr messages I mean they tell

Someone tells Yabuki Joe as you can see if you flippin’ watch the episode yourself (I don’t blame you. I hope someone will check this series out, though. It’s my favorite anime series, to be honest.) anyways and then someone from his fandom of - anyways someone says

He’s so full of himself.

I guess you suffer from delusions of grandeur?

the bully who is even in the same exact fandom as ab- Yabuki Joe of being an orphan says that, and because they’re so big inside, people blindly listen to them.

the true actual innocent follower that knows trainerab- Yabuki Joe is actually honest and truthful is like, wow shut the fak up brah, and then:

Then the “Are you sure you don’t suffer from delusions of grandeur?” doubtful follower who is keeping an eye on Ab-Yabuki Joe I mean and watching over him to try to keep the orphanage safe falsely then says “This is a clown. See this clown? Abu is hiring th I mean Yabuki Joe had this younger person defend him” Wow and then

one of the only innocent ppl in this show besides Yabuki Joe and a bunch of later characters in this series in later episodes that happen soon, know Joe really is telling the truth and that he really is honest and she’s pizzed awf at that hater troll person trying to Provoke joe and such on [deleted] anime & manga series Ashita no Joe the anime/manga series, and then

then they’re like, uh oh maybe Joe does have some loyal followers who know the real truth and we should hold our distance and see what he does and what he is truly like, first, and then

so, then

so then Yabuki Joe shows them their steam profile and the gam I mean the BY- I mean

Joe is like ok I played retro games my whole life and watched cool cartoons like the Rugrats and I play cool games and twisted trolls like the snobby girl try to make it look like I “change my interests to appease others” but come into my YouTube channel office and c the truth that I really DID play a lot of SNES games and then

I mean Yabuki Joe says this is my office and this is where I live,

I live in a factory that rains brick dust,

and then,

AND THEN I WANNA NARRATE THIS ENTIRE EPISODE BUT IT IS FREAKIN’ 4:35am and I gotta get up soon

I mean I flippin’ already narrated this entire episode and commented on it etc. and made a cool video of it but YouTube blocked it AAAAAAAA even tho it was an anime made in

1970 I thought it would be free domain by now and o.k. to upload a video of it to YouTube with audio commentary GOSH AAAaaaa GOSH I WANNA NARRATE THE WHOLE EPISODE

AS I SAID IN THE youtube video that is blocked on YouTube I think it is a requirement cuz like it really pejeroyjoirjyorejijioe

ok have a nice night.