#would tag poem posting but this isnt a poem this is ABOUT a poem so ?

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oh i wrote a poem today

[prettiestboyreid]

fics that have altered my brain chemistry (eddies/joe qs version)

okay so ive been in an adhd brain rot?? where im just fucking HORRIBLE at reblogging fics that i enjoy and honestly it was my whole reasoning behind making this blog FOR GIVING WRITERS THE LOVE THEY DESERVE i just wanted to give a shoutout to these writers (and stories) they’ve made that just fucking messed with my brain (and in a good way okay??) over these last few months. please check them out and give them all the fucking love they deserve

like a poem (FINISHED series, but sometimes if you ask nice enough she will throw a blurb in there) - im so very fucking biased because i love her to the moon and back, but she writes the best fucking stories of joe that will keep you up all night having you rethinking all of your life choices. IT WAS VERY HARD FOR ME to pick out a story that i wanted to highlight in this post, but the whole reason i fell in love with her writing was because of bookstore!joe and he will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart. love you boo

plot: “Joe finds solace in a quaint bookstore, your bookstore, from a hectic situation in the streets. But, you’re closed. But then also, it’s Joseph Quinn.“ from the authors page

echoes (FINISHED, series) - again im so very fucking biased because she is the sweetest person you will have the pleasure of knowing BUT THATS BESIDE THE POINT - she writes so fucking beautifully she will literally have you CRY and this will forever and always be my favourite fic of hers. she deserves all the love she gets, and then even more so read it!!!! (she will make you cry its not on me tho)

plot: “When she laid her emotions out for her best friend, the last thing she expected was for him to turn around, walk away and never speak to her again. Years after, they meet again - different people, different feelings. Or are they?” from the authors page

the hideout (FINISHED, oneshot)- this was one of the first fics i read and fell in love with. it was in that timeperiod where all i could do 24/7 was read eddie munson fanfics and this was one of those fics where i went “holy SHIT??” and honestly i dont think there will ever be a time where this isnt just some % on my mind??

plot: “Eddie Munson made it big. Now, when he returns to Hawkins for a hometown concert with his band, he is reminded of the girl he’s been in love with for the past 6 years when Steve Harrington calls.” from the authors page

vintage reeboks (FINISHED) - this is one of those fics where you’re like???? holy shit i wish i’d come up with that?? i remember reading all of this in one day (summertime, sweating very fucking much) and its just?? holy shit its perfect?? the way eddie is in this??? and its something i could never think of would be this perfect?? i swear i think of this fic at least once a day??

plot: “The gate at the bottom of Lover’s Lake was meant to spit the quartet out in the Upside Down. Steve, Nancy, and Robin were meant to be there. He wasn’t meant to be alone. But when Eddie comes to on the shoreline, you’re there. It’s not the Upside Down. It’s not Lover’s Lake. It’s not 1986.” from the authors page

twenty four hours (STILL GOING) - the way this has me in a chokehold?? im a fucking sucker for when fics have a nice layout??? and this is just so pretty to look at?? like whenever i see its been updated my whole body is SHAKING?? i dont even know what to say?? this is just so amazing and the whole?? will they wont they?? i love them?? i want them both to fight with me all night long??? i CANNOT wait to see where this ends

plot: “in which eddie munson and you absolutely hate each other's guts. what happens when your friends make a bet that you can't spend more than twenty four hours consecutively together?” from the authors page

to know you’re mine (FINISHED) - i saw someone talk about this in the “eddie munson x reader” tag, and DEVOURED the chapters that were up in one whole day?? the way eddie is so fucking soft and nice and the best fucking gentleman in this?? and also?? the relationship to steve in this is amazing??? but THE RELATIONSHIP TO EDDIE IS EVEN MORE AMAZING?? such a fucking fantastic author please go EAT all the chapters right now

plot: “You know the rules. You'd been there when your boyfriend, Steve Harrington, discussed them with the others. There are only two.Number one: Only play when everyone's together. Number two: No finishing inside each other's girls.You'd agreed to these rules, same as Chrissy. Same as Eddie.But then there's rule number three, and though it remains unspoken, it's by far the most important. And you have that feeling again, like when you propped yourself up against the barstool, straining to see him on that stage, craning for a glimpse as his husky voice reached inside you. Now, his dark eyes are doing the same thing: pulling at something buried deep, tugging it into the light where it can't be hidden. And, sure, of course, you didn't intend this. But what are intentions in the face of such things? Needless to say, every rule gets broken.” from the authors page

the customer’s always right (STILL GOING) - hehhehe im a hoe for cutie virgin eddie??? but they way she always manages to capture eddie in her fics?? fucking amazing??? and her writing??? yes PLEASE so do yourself a favor on this fine friday AND READ THIS AMAZING FUCKING SERIES because eddie will make you fall in love in this???

plot: “eddie munson is a virgin and doesn’t want anyone to know (because being an adult who’s never fucked anyone is a total reputation ruiner). but you, his favorite customer, are more than willing to change that.” from the authors page

sincerely yours... (STILL GOING) - like i’ve told her before - her eddie is fucking amazing and so very much to the point!! im so excited for this one and cannot WAIT to see where eddies teasing will make him end up!! the last fucking part of this??? amazing

plot: "Untouchable, is what he called you. Dating Jason, the captain of the basketball tea, most would call you the same. Living your holier than thour life, something else he said, you can’t seem to swallow the need to prove him wrong” from the authors page

burn one (FINISHED) - this is just the perfect fucking combination of smutty and sweet??? like this is just how i imagine eddie and this is so fucking sweet and perfect?? had me thinking about this for WEEKS UGH

plot: "When you move to Hawkins to start over, your new unexpected friendship with your weed dealer next door is your saving grace. It was never your intention to fall in love with him though.” from the authors page

Disjointed (STILL GOING) - this fic has me feeling ALL the feels in all the chapters?? makes me GIGGLE, makes me CRY!!!, i’m in love with all the chapters and i CANNOT WAIT to see them live happily every after

also now that i’ve finished, i’ve just realised this is a lovepoem to my favourite authors on this app heheheh im sorry but i DO love you guys. please do go and read their stories, and send them all the fucking love in the world!! they do have so many amazing stories on their masterlist you will not be able to sleep tonight!!!

authors mentioned in this post THAT YOU NEED TO CHECK OUT!!: @icallhimjoey @ghostinthebackofyourhead​ @inknopewetrust @storiesbyrhi​ @ghost-proofbaby​ @blue-mossbird @lovebugism​ @plumxwrites​ @loveshotzz​ @boomhauer

[dykeyote]

I want to thank you and your account for helping me understand better how to respect bigender people 💙 even if it's hard to say what you really want to without getting into discourse parameters, the things you have said has really helped me a lot with understanding my friend's and community

awww this is so sweet thank you so much!! i really appreciate that, im glad its helpful to you (: yeah its tricky because its hard to phrase things that will make sense without using discourse buzzwords like i kind of fell into doing a little in that post which i think muddled my messaging but genuinely like . i hope you dont mind me taking this opportunity to talk a little bit, hopefully its also illuminating for how to engage with people haha? but i think restructuring your understanding of gender to encompass the fact that some people are men And Something Else (same for women/nonbinary ppl of course but honestly that seems to be way less of a problem? which i have a lot of thoughts on and im writing a poem abt it but my analysis of manhood in queer communities isnt relevant here lol) goes a huge way in being able to like . interact w multigender people in a more nuanced fashion . and like not just Acknowledging that thats a thing that is true but really thinking about what the implications of simply the idea that a man can also be a woman might have on other ways you behave or other beliefs you hold goes a really long way . because so much of our society even (and sometimes especially) in queer communities tends to pit "man" and "woman" as complete opposites of each other that do not overlap - you can even see this in perfectly well intentioned progressive illustrations of the gender spectrum that intend to illustrate the breadth of nonbinary experiences, where they'll still set man and woman as two opposite points of said spectrum that do not overlap . and i genuinely just think like . i think a lot of people Intellectually understand that bigender people and pangender people and genderfluid people and all a manner of other multigender people who can be both men and women, often at the same time, do in fact exist - but they kind of like . dont really take that understanding and reflect it onto other beliefs that they hold and on other understandings of labels and definitions and what have u (tbh i dont think the queer community should Have universal definitions anyway and implementing this would delete like 60% of discourse from the community as a whole and 80% of lesbian discourse specifically but i digress) to see if they contradict and how u might wanna reorganize ur thinking to be more inclusive and whether that thinking is really useful in a real world context anyway . which is why i think ive seen a lot of people in the tags be like yeah okay this is really eye opening im going to consider this which i appreciate (: idk this turned into rambling but i think thats the crux of what i was trying to convey in that post

[clarythericebot]

I posted 1,047 times in 2022

144 posts created (14%)

903 posts reblogged (86%)

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I tagged 384 of my posts in 2022

#clary scribbles - 151 posts

#bookmark - 122 posts

#aesthetic - 27 posts

#poetry - 19 posts

#poem - 17 posts

#resources - 8 posts

#the hunger games - 7 posts

#soma x megumi - 6 posts

#soumegu - 6 posts

#meta - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 136 characters

#and the problem isnt him but the fact that he can't give up his power if he doesn't want his kingdom ruled by someone deliberately cruel

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

NO THEY GAVE HIM THE SOFT EYES

26 notes - Posted April 3, 2022

#4

this is how that scene went right

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51 notes - Posted July 13, 2022

#3

SouMegu, the Shinomiya Arc, and what if it wasn't love?

Gosh I will write metas about these two for anything.

Anyway.

Because I ship them together, I'm tempted (and hey, I do) read into the first Shinomiya arc of the series, wherein Soma decides to throw his goals and education and reputation at risk in order to help Megumi win her position in Totsuki back. This is very important because he never does this ever again with anyone in the series. (Yes, he takes up challenges that helps others, but never again for the sake of another person, really; it is always to do with some form of ideology in cooking.)

In this one, singular act in the first season, he decides to bet it all for the specific, articulated purpose of helping his best friend (and if his outright saying it wasn't enough, he flashbacks to everything he'd gone through with her right before he gets angry and makes that challenge to Shinomiya). And he loses.

Here is how that episode ends: Him slamming his fist against the wall, muttering "I lost, I lost" over and over again. He genuinely expected to win. Even though Doujima's commentary makes the audience see this positively - what all of us need is the gall of daring to hope we can succeed - this crushing disappointment also bespeaks that he never actually thought he'd have to give everything up for this one person. If he did, would he have been willing to make that sacrifice?

My shipping heart would like to think yes. Megumi was his best friend. Of course he would, and the fact that he was willing to do this for her shows that she's special.

But the fact that he extricates himself from the solely personal problems of others from here on out tells a slightly different story.

I think Soma is genuinely a selfless and kind character (look how sweet he was to Hisako when he encouraged her to go back to Erina), but the Shinomiya arc finally slapped him with the stakes of what he's undertaken. He's willing to fail miserably and succeed gloriously for the sake of advancing his cooking - he's always known that - but is he willing to lose everything just for potentially helping another person? The answer, it looks like, is no.

So his way of getting around that is justifying every potentially selfless match as something to do with cooking--whether it's about ideology (Mimasaka) or finally defeating them and getting them to admit that his cooking is delicious (Hayama and Erina). In fact, when Erina's grandfather asks Soma to save Erina, he tells him flippantly, "It has nothing to do with me." He only promises to continue on his quest to make Erina admit his cooking delicious.

What does this all mean? Well, this argument--Soma never actually gets to the crux of the show, even as he professes it. The secret to good cooking is to do it for someone that you love. Devote everything you have to one person. He does this so early on in the series with the Shinomiya arc, but he didn't really grasp the totality of what it meant until its end and everything might've been taken away from him. So, interestingly, what his take-away from all this is a subtle form of ruthlessness; not nearly as cruel as any of the characters we face, but it is more damaging than one might expect.

The ending of Season 5, I think, is proof enough of that. If he was doing this ultimately for Erina, he would've been happy that she got what she wanted--her mom to approve of cooking, to find the joy of it again. That s the ultimate goal.

But no--he is the same as he was at the end of that battle in season one, only fixating to onto his failure to the point that it's unhealthy. Second Place in Blue doesn't matter to him, and neither does helping one of his friends reconcile with her family. Joichiro, his father, tells Soma he approves of his ability and that he will allow him to take over the restaurant and it doesn't matter to him. He literally cuts himself off from his friends without warning and travels abroad so he can hone the skills he things are desperately inadequate. It's played for comedy, but it's not funny. And it's the farthest thing from triumphant.

I like Soma's growth mind set--his belief that anyone can improve and get better and do the impossible, with enough work and creativity. But the shadow to that is if I didn't win, it's not good enough, and if it's not good enough, I need to work even harder, even harder than I had before, even if I have to leave a place that I've grown to love, even if I have to sacrifice it all in the altar of cooking. I honestly have to wonder where the line is for Soma between it's not good enough and I'm not good enough. That's never explored, though, and I think that's a pity, considering that a recurrent criticism I've seen of season 5 is his lack of internal development.

But here's the thing--such a mindset would require him to care about someone so deeply he is willing to lose the battle to win the war. He doesn't really have that in the series, and problematically the series seems to want to keep him as an (ironically) static idol of self-improvement.

Wouldn't such a development have been fascinating and foreshadowed, though? In that first arc, we meet a chef that is burned out. That's tired. That's why Megumi's dish touched Shinomiya so much--even though it was imperfect, he still felt the care she put into this dish, and that assessment is literally against what Totsuki stands for. Perfection is what a make dish good. Seeing the face of the chef, and all that. How does love make anything better?

But it does. And it snaps Shinomiya out of his rut.

Would that mean, then, that Megumi is the secret to getting Soma out of his? Imagine a Soma that was allowed to circle back--to realize in the end what he instinctively did at the beginning; that he is willing to put everything on the line for a person that he loves, not just to impress or defeat them, but to help them, to give them joy. Imagine a Soma that is willing to enjoy both his victories and his losses, knowing that throughout both he is loved all the same.

59 notes - Posted February 15, 2022

#2

The Guardian

As heartbreaking as this fact may be, they cannot do this for all the sick children.

The child must be the perfect mixture of sleepy and awake; innocent enough to still believe in wondrous things and lucid enough to know they are not dreaming, that they are being trusted with a precious secret they must keep for however long they have left. Delilah only has three days.

That night, the guardian – the title they have come to know themself over the years – bundles Delilah’s frail body in the wheelchair and whisks her out into the hall.

“Is it another surgery?” the ten-year-old mumbles. Two years ago, the girl threw screaming fits at the thought of going under the knife, and her parents made a point of reassuring her and promising her treats and rewards weeks well in advance. These past few months, that ritual had been thrown out into the wind. There had been far too many emergency operations, and by now, Delilah was used to it.

“No, child,” they say. “You’re far past need of that now.”

Delilah doesn’t hear their voice catch. “Good,” she sighs as she sinks into the metal seat. It can’t be the most comfortable space, but the guardian understands that at this point, almost nowhere feels comfortable. The place they are taking her is perhaps the final one, in this life, that pain cannot completely follow. Delilah tugs at their sleeve. “Can I take a nap?”

“In a while. I have something to show you.” They point to the end of the low-lit corridor. “Do you see that door?”

“The door to the exit?” Delilah blinks and sits up. “No, wait, that’s different. That’s…” She frowns. “I’ve never seen it before.”

“I should hope not. I only put it there a minute ago.”

“You can’t just put doors-“

“I can.”

The guardian says it with so much authority that Delilah twists to look at them. Her lips form a small oh. “I’ve never seen you before, either,” she says.

“You haven’t.”

“But I thought you were my favorite nurse.”

“Why?”

“You sound just like her. No—you feel just like her. And my parents, too. You feel like whenever they give me a hug.”

“Is ‘safe’ the word you are a looking for?” they offer.

“Yes.”

“I am safe. Even though I’m not your nurse, I am your friend.” That hadn’t always been the case, of course. There was a time long ago when they were far from a friend of any human. But that no longer matters. “I want to show you something through that door. It’s the world that I came from.”

“You’re not from around here?”

“No.”

“I guess I should’ve figured. What are you waiting for?”

“Your permission, Delilah.” For the second time in five minutes, the girl’s mouth rounds in surprise. “Will you allow me to take you through the door? The decision is entirely up to you.”

It will probably be the last decision entirely up to her. They want to give Delilah that.

“Yes,” the young girl says. Then, belatedly: “Please.”

_ _ _

On the other side, the world is made of light.

When they first brought children here – Adrian, the first one, had been shaking with tremors even when his eyes were wide saucers of excitement – they were afraid that the shift between worlds would destroy the children’s already precarious health immediately. It is so different from their universe made of mud and blood and soil; here, essence is stripped bare and free to float along. Galaxies can be experienced with a single touch; so can oceans of anger, clouds of love, flights of whimsy. A lifetime’s worth of marvels—that’s what they wanted to give.

Why they had been willing to risk it.

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92 notes - Posted October 21, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

THIS MOMENT WAS JUST SO SOFT kajs;dlfjkaldsfk

"You okay?"

139 notes - Posted January 22, 2022

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[8lah8lah]

was thinking about writing and if i want to Write and my consensus was no, but i'd like to do the words version of doodling when i get the urge to, and i reread the few things i Did write post-2018 and [FURBY ON FIRE AT LAPTOP IMAGE TO INDICATE BIG EMOTIONS] but also rereading those.... it's so fucking clear at points im like "actual poem writers use big fancy metaphors i have to really wrack my brain to get an idea of what they mean, and those people are famous, so if i try to do something like that it'll make this poem (idk if theyd actually be classified as that, thats just what i called them) better, right?" but that makes them confusing or reaching when i could just be more plain and honest with what im talking about or make No Fucking Sense Outright, like i'll say kissing or tasting something and its like................ not only do i hate reading this, we havent even kissed anyone so this is based in straight up literally fucking nothing other than "i see it used in fancy quotes sometimes so it makes it Deep if i say it right" my favorite metaphors i used in them were like. you know when you're venting abt smth and you... say smth non-literally to make it clearer how you're Feeling instead of just going "i'm sad" or whatever? like going "it feels like i'm freezing" when you could just be going 'i am getting bitterly desensitized to the shitty circumstances around me' IT'S FUNNER AND SOMETIMES MORE DESCRIPTIVE LOL. and my favorite parts of the things i wrote were when i was being As Literal As Fucking Possible without literally just plainly stating what happened outright so my consensus is yes i do think i want to write but i don't really plan to be a Writer, i don't like writing big fancy things to share with the world and i don't like writing extremely fucking verbose and hard to understand poetry either. that's the post :3 also i like the things i wrote post-2018 they hurt me emotionally

[iameuba]

Project 25913

Ok firstly i want to thank @ladyofthenoodle for helping me with the @project-25913 account, I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH, and thank you for already queueing up posts u are the best

Ok so onto Project 25913, a few weeks ago i posted about wanting to write a one shot for every single one of aspiks 25913 time resets in desperada, but i figured out that it would take me um...far too long. hehe. But when i posted it people suggested that we could turn it into a project and if enough people joined in, MAYBE as a group we could actually get 25913 one shots, so...here we are!

There arent really many rules, its just a fun project, as long as you don't write anything nsfw/sexual (remember this takes part within the desperada episode so that isn't appropriate for the context). It isnt at all required that you WRITE the scenario, if you'd like to make a poem, or a comic, or a song, anything, go ahead :) as long as it illustrates a specific time reset then it works.

If you're writing a one shot and you're posting it on ao3, please add it to the project 25913 collection ! and if you're posting any submissions for the project on tumblr, please tag it with #project25913 and/or tag @project-25913 so we can queue up a reblog of your post over on that account, as that is where we will keep track of every single time reset. (I'll be going through and tagging each post with a number starting with #1 so you can easily tell how many scenarios we have so far).

And for ao3 submissions that haven't been posted to tumblr, i'll also queue up a post linking to each one so that we can keep track of them too :D

FINALLY, if you want to submit something anonymously to the project (or you dont have an ao3 or a tumblr) , submissions are open on the @project-25913 account! if its written, ladyofthenoodle will post it to their ao3 too, but if not then we'll just post it on the tumblr account :D

I think thats it? Definitely go check out all of the one shots so far, they're so gooood ;w; And anyone who wants to join us in this silly lil egg boy project, be my guest, maybe one day we'll get to 25913 ! (THANK YOU AGAIN @ladyofthenoodle BTW U ARE THE BEST)

[the-gayest-tree-you-ever-did-see]

ALRIGHTY BOYS im not actually that energetic i just wanted to get your attention. pride is coming up and i want to celebrate!!! my goal is to write something pride-related/queer for every day of pride, so thirty pieces. these will be fairly short, just micro fics and one shots, one for each day. unfortunately, i will not actually be active enough in june pride to do it on each day, so im going to start now and schedule them for pride. (more info under cut, check it out!)

what you can do!

send in requests! these can be pairings, a certain sexuality or gender, a random word, anything you think of. i dont have enough creativity to think of thirty original ideas please help me. EVERY SINGLE REQUEST WILL BE FULFILLED. all of them. i will use thirty of them specifically for each day of pride, but every request sent in will be answered either before or after that month.

these dont have to be fics. i have two poems im going to post on two of those days (so i only need 28 requests really). they can be poems you want me to write, a pretty essay about a certain topic, etc. im expecting fic requests to be more popular, but these would be great too!

rules!

no angst. i will not be writing angst for pride. no exceptions. pride is going to be happy and soft and fluffy and There Is Nothing You Can Do About It.

smut will be allowed, however, you have to specifically request it. if you say you want two characters sleeping naked in a bed and there are condoms in their bedside drawer, thats... exactly what you're gonna get. theyre gonna sleep. theyre gonna be naked. there will happen to be condoms in a drawer. nothing will happen. HOWEVER if you request exactly that and add '(smut)' then i will write the smut. there may be references to smut/smutty moments in my fics, but im not gonna write out the sex unless you ask specifically.

no real people. i wrote one dnp fic but im not writing any more for real people because im not comfortable with it. thanks!

those are pretty much all the rules! its gonna be pretty open and fun, and i do have a goal, but i want to enjoy this. this is my first pride being out to myself and comfortable with it. lets have some fun!

these pieces will be tagged with my usual writing tag "the tree tries to write" as well as "pride pieces" so if you want to block them because you only come to me for my stupidity or you want to check them all out at once afterwards, you can do that! i'll probably also make a masterlist in july of all of them.

you can send in specific requests like "they must be sitting by a fireplace, one reading Stepsister on a kindle and the other listening to The Script while studying science on a physical textbook and then they're gonna-" etc., etc., or it can be one word, like "gale." be as vague or as direct as you want - it's entirely up to you!

thats all the info i can think of at the moment, but i'll update this if something comes up. please send in requests, i would really appreciate it! pride will be weird this year for obvious reasons, but i refuse to let that ruin it for me, so lets enjoy ourselves!

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edit: btw if you want to get a general gist of my writing style, check this out! no this isnt spon what it's evolved a lot since then, but if you want to see a vague idea of what it is, check it out!

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another edit: friendly reminder that queer fics dont just mean queer in an obvious way. you can have a relationship of one girl and one boy but one or both are bi or pan or some other sexuality, or one or both are trans or enby but they use gendered pronouns, etc., etc. it doesnt have to specifically be two people of the same sex in a relationship. going off of this, it doesnt HAVE to be a relationship! they can be ace or aro or just single and not ready to mingle. it could also be someone in a relationship but the significant other isnt mentioned at all, or someone coming to terms with their orientation, or someone getting ready for pride... the possibilities are endless. dont box yourself in, there arent any limits to this!!!

[jupio]

Fic Writer Interview

Tagged by: @kaijuscientists

Name: Escher

Fandoms: Mandalorian, but I’m still sitting on some good superbat wips!

Two-shot: Technically an eye for significance is a two shot? i mostly write one-shots (because I have absolutely no attention span) and its definitely owed a third chapter

Most popular multi-chapter: the ONLY other multichapter i have - Take Your Protein Pills. Some gen sick fic! It was the first fic I liked enough to post but again, i never finished it

Actual worst part of writing: Editing. SO much of my stuff gets stuck in editing hell because i HATE how dry and boring it is to go through. My best stuff is written in a fit of adhd inspiration with minimal proof reading

How you choose your titles: I google “[key detail of fic] poetry”, then go on images and read poems until i find a good quote. For example, an eye for significance is titled from  Euripides Cave by Elizabeth Seydel Morgan

Do you outline: Either i completely outline EVERYTHING down to specific dialogue and actions, or i dont at all. there is absolutely no middle ground

Ideas i probably wont get around to but wouldnt it be nice: many many dincobb AUs, uhh a really long and pretentious dincobb insomnia fic that i can only work on when im having insomnia. self indulgent trans!din fic. bobadin “we both have  complicated relationships w our armour” fic based on this post  

Callouts @ me: things can be written just for yourself, not JUST with the aim of being posted. motivation that isnt comments/validation would be good

Best writing traits: my action scenes are pretty good!! sometimes i really get in the zone and things flow really well

Spicy tangential opinion: really dont think this is a controversial opinion but creators should be able to re-do characters with identities they see in them. like, me writing din as trans, or HCing cara as a lesbian. same goes for examples like nibeuls anakin with race. write the representation you want to see. and dont leave shitty comments (like the ones ive gotten about trans characters) when it really doesnt affect you. 

No pressure tagging: @captainkappa @nicad13 @intricatecakes 

[autistic-shaiapouf]

AIGHT I'd already posted this but 1) it didn't show up in tags bc of my blog settings and 2) not every song would play BUT I've made some adjustments so it's now officially Time For Pouf

Also including a link to, of all things, a youtube version of the playlist bc it looks like 8tracks just will not let me have this in one piece with every song playing, but it'd mean a lot to me if yall still threw a like at the 8tracks one 🥺 [EDIT: completely forgot that liking playlists is the literal one thing you need an account for so I'm revising my previous statement and gently requesting you slap the play button if you can]: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL1HwBug2tU6Q-vO-HXjV8C0O4z_ZJj96e

You - Tally Hall // Salut d'Amour - (composed by) Edward Elgar // Fairytale - Alexander Rybak // In The Palace ~ Lamentoso - Yoshihisa Hirano // Lovefool - The Cardigans // Liebestraum No. 3 - (composed by) Franz Lizst, (performed by) Rousseau // Colors - Beck // Obsession - InnerPartySystem // In The Palace ~ Agitato - Yoshihisa Hirano // Love Love Nightmare - Kiichi feat. Hatsune Miku // Dangerous - Big Data feat. Joywave // What Do They Know? - Mindless Self Indulgence // Choke - I Don't Know How But They Found Me // Death by Blonde - DeVotchKa // No Rest for the Wicked - Lykke Li // Ständchen/Serenade - (composed by) Franz Schubert // Acceptance (You Died) - Ridiculon // Ghost - Blue Foundation

Song notes under the cut!

Salut d'Amour -> written in 1888, the title usually translates to "love's greeting"; Edward Elgar wrote the song for his wife

Fairytale -> just pretend it is isnt a straight song i am literally begging you to pretend its not straight

Liebestraum -> literally translates to "love dream" and it's one of the most popular songs Lizst wrote, though it's not the only one titled "Liebestraum"

Love Love Nightmare -> dug around and can't find translator credit which kills me but the English lyrics that seem most correct: "Once upon a time, in a dream/The whole world had sunken away/Me and you, you and me/Jumped bravely into the situation" "For someone who looks only for me/A person for whom no one else exists/Which of us is the bad one?/Do you understand me?"

Ständchen -> Based on a poem by Ludwig Rellstab (many of Schubert's works were based on poems!); it's essentially about someone desperately trying to call their lover back to them one last time

[ravenowlsworth]

i wanted to answer all of these question form this post https://slavicafire.tumblr.com/post/170115759113/hi-im-not-from-the-us-ask-set

and like i said, if followers of mine decide to fill this out as well, please tag me so i can read :D

1. favourite place in your country? idk any place where i can feel happy

2. do you prefer spending your holidays in your country or travel abroad? im not a travel person

3. does your country have access to sea? noth- and baltic sea

4. favourite dish specific for your country? potato dumplings and red cabbage  METTBRÖTCHEN (i make it vegan though) potato salad (with apples) German Meatballs like Klopse, but also Bouletten (vegan version) berliner donuts, oh and schupfnudeln and BREAD !!! .. wait those are not dishes ^^

5. favourite song in your native language? not into many german music, i guess stuff from die ärtze and die toten hosen, most of their songs are in german

6. most hated song in your native language? /

7. three words from your native language that you like the most? suddenly i dont know any german words anymore ... Pusteblume Machete (the german pronunciation)  its past midnight i cant think anymore lol

8. do you get confused with other nationalities? if so, which ones and by whom? no

9. which of your neighbouring countries would you like to visit most/know best? out of the 9 we have i think the netherlands

10. most enjoyable swear word in your native language? meine fresse!, beschissen, kacke

11. favourite native writer/poet? i used to read a lot of sebastian fitzek

12. what do you think about English translations of your favourite native prose/poem? i dont think ive ever read something in english thats originally german but like the other way around i would find it weird because of little untranslatable details and translation errors (just more noticeable when you know both languages)

13. does your country (or family) have any specific superstitions or traditions that might seem strange to outsiders? i feel like i am not cultured enough to make a comparison :/

14. do you enjoy your country’s cinema and/or TV? no

15. a saying, joke, or hermetic meme that only people from your country will get? it urged me to watch a stefan raab nippel mix on youtube and now i don’t know anymore

in addition to no. 10: https://youtu.be/LG2hvf9k_jE

16. which stereotype about your country you hate the most and which one you somewhat agree with? hate: everybody is nazi and wears lederhosen agree: sauerkraut and beer

17. are you interested in your country’s history? nothing in particular right now

18. do you speak with a dialect of your native language? east german/berlin dialect

19. do you like your country’s flag and/or emblem? what about the national anthem? ...brüh im lichte dieses glückes

20. which sport is The Sport in your country? ... fo, i mean soccer

21. if you could send two things from your country into space, what would they be? tbh i am not sure about the purpose of sending something into space

22. what makes you proud about your country? what makes you ashamed? proud: accounting for the past, when i was in school it was part of the curriculum. ashamed: despite that we have so many racists, holocaust deniers and political alt right party.

23. which alcoholic beverage is the favoured one in your country? ... beer

24. what other nation is joked about most often in your country? it depends which part of germany you are, since we have so many neighbors. i guess where i come from its poland and turkey, but its borderline xenophobic so ehh

25. would you like to come from another place, be born in another country? im indifferent

26. does your nationality get portrayed in Hollywood/American media? what do you think about the portrayal? oh its either all nazi, or bavaria (south germany), gives me a headache

27. favourite national celebrity? i googled “german celebrites” but i dont really like any of them

28. does your country have a lot of lakes, mountains, rivers? do you have favourites? i would say average on all of these, i like the harz mountains (where the blocksberg is) just because its the only place i visited more than twice

29. does your region/city have a beef with another place in your country? yeah, with like the entire rest of germany lol

30. do you have people of different nationalities in your family? not that i know of, my family isnt that big anyway

[mspainttaz]

if merle had a tumblr it would be all inspirational quotes and nature and at first you’d be scrolling through like “oh this is nice :)”

 but as you went deeper you’d feel a growing sense of subtle unease over how... well lit... these photos of vines are....how there’s just a ridiculous number of posts about onions... how some of these poems are just Kenny Chesney quotes??... which isnt so strange... you suppose... 

theres several posts about how he like his coffee with a “little something xtra ;)” and you would THINK merle is talking about a shot of booze but when you check the tags he’s actually talking about putting straight up dirt in his mug. blatantly tagging about how he craves those minerals. getting in touch with mother earth through his taste-buds, you know.  okay this post is over now you can be free

[curlytemple]

niche interests list 

okay sure yes this is fun! i havent posted a thing like this in such a long time. thank you new gal pal @scottspack for tagging me! 

pigs????

alright first lets throw it back to preschool! my fav childhood toys were my baby doll (snookums) and a plush pig that my grandma got me that i just called ‘pig’ ...i watched the babe movies countless times, and piglet? that anxious little guy GETS ME bro. when my preschool did a nativity play and my class got to choose an animal to be in baby jesus’ manger, my mother recalls me saying that i would be a pig because jewish people (jesus christ) wouldnt eat me. she has no idea how or when i learned about kosher foods. ironically despite my namesake i was too afraid of the movie charlotte’s web to watch it more than once because the scary farmer tries to kill wilbur for being small and the pretty spider dies. 

sugar creek gang 

OKAY this is a book series from the 40s-70s about a group of christian little boys in indiana who went on adventures in the woods and helped people. my dad read a LOT of chapter books to me as bedtime stories when i was little (see also the mandie series, nancy drew and the hardy boys, little house on the prairie) but sugar creek gang is one that really hit. i read all 36 books with dad and at least once again on my own. there was a series of 4 or 5 movies in the early 2000s when i was the Perfect age to have a crush on most if not all of them. this might be too much detail but i have to tell you about these boys. we WILL not be revisiting the heavy religious themes. 

 the narrator is bill who is Good and Kind and wants to be a doctor when he grows up. his best friend is a chubby boy nicknamed poetry because he memorizes and quotes poems, he is the Detective of the group. BIG JIM is the leader of the group who is supposed to be like, 14, which was very cool and hot, to me. and yes there is a little jim, who is the baby of the group. then there is CIRCUS who is known for his climbing and acrobatics, and his FIVE SISTERS AND BEAUTIFUL SINGING VOICE. dreamboy. i’m almost done listing boys, i promise. a boy called dragonfly who is allergic to everything and hella superstitious. later in the series a new boy named tom moves to town and tom has an older brother bob who is NOT A CHRISTIAN (bully) 

tangentially, the buttercream gang, a movie from 1992 that was almost definitely made by some christians who grew up reading the sugar creek gang series which i’m guessing on vibes alone. will spare you Good Boy details but scott is in love with his best friend pete who moves to chicago and falls in with a bad crowd and scott just refuses to stop LOVING HIM. very gay christian film in retrospect. 

peter pan

so i know liking disney’s peter pan isnt niche, but it was the way i liked it. tinker bell stan from day one, i watched all of those disney fairies movies, even the ones that came out after i was definitely not intended audience. there was an online pixie hollow game where you could design your own fairies and play mini games where you gathered dew drops or something. had a HUGE CRUSH on jeremy sumpter in peter pan (2003) then i got really darkly obsessed with the idea of growing up when i was 12 or 13, and everything peter pan was deeply My Shit for my entire adolescence. i read the original book and every other twisted version of the story i could find and seriously freaked myself out about wasting my youth. 

shug

you’ve probably heard of jenny han now, or at least the netflix adaptations for to all the boys i’ve loved before and the sequel ps i still love you (always and forever, lara jean, coming soon?) but before she wrote THOSE, she wrote my first ever Favorite Book, about annemarie “shug” wilcox, a girl in the summer before starting middle school. it is SO engraved on my heart i cannot explain. i felt so incredibly understood and cant even tell you how many times i read it. thinking about all of the ways it made me feel SEEN is actually making me very tender so i’m gonna go on.  

the summer series

on the subject of jenny han, since she was now my Favorite author, when she came out with the summer i turned pretty in 2009, i was ALL IN. it’s not summer without you, and we’ll always have summer were published the next two years. a coming of age series about a girl isabel “belly” conklin who stays at her mother’s best friend's house at the beach in the summers. i really could talk about it forever yall. i actually dont know how to be succinct about it. i will try. her mom’s friend has TWO BOYS. one brother, jeremiah, is the golden boy and her best friend who is in love with her! the older one CONRAD is her childhood crush who's just sort of around while belly is firmly getting over her childish feelings and going out and experiencing teen beach life with jeremiah for the first time and figuring out who she is and wants to be! by the end of the summer he admits he feels differently about her (hence belly internalizing this as The Summer I Turned Pretty) and they get together. this is already too much so i will just say that the next two books deal with a PROFOUND LOSS and the selfishness of grief and the SELFLESSNESS OF CONRAD and i will absolutely lose my shit if netflix picks it up for a second jenny han series adaptation. 

pappyland

this was a kids show in the 90′s that features a character named Pappy Drew-It, an artist dressed like a 49er who lives in a magic cabin in pappyland. there’s tons of characters and music and life lessons but the meat of every episode is a detailed drawing how-to (pappy is actually a cartoonist, michael cariglio) and i have a hard back cover sketch book from my grandpa that i FILLED with drawings that pappy and DOODLEBUG taught me to do. there is a running gag that pappy always breaks his crayons.  

boy meets world

i KNOW this is beloved by many but i’m counting it because i’m simply too young to have such an obsession with it! the show ran from 1992-2000. i was born in 1996, but reruns on the disney channel and abc family cemented it as one of my favorite shows. cory and shawn, closer than brothers, shameless homoromantics, shawn is cory’s first wife!!!!! truly showed me what a best friend can and should be!!!!!! the great love of your life!!!!! TOPANGA, the og weird feminist girl who said stop shaving your legs and start speaking your mind, ladies! the characters are so richly developed that they are real people to my heart. YES every character on this show is in their late 30s-early 40s and YES i feel like we grew up together. in season one they’re in the 6th grade and we follow them all the way to COLLEGE. countless poignant life lessons, often literally dictated by the wise and hilarious MR. FEENY, cory’s next door neighbor and somehow one of his teachers for YEARS. my love was only solidified by the 2014 girl meets world reboot, centered on cory and topanga’s daughter and her best friend. (which was literally cancelled because disney didn’t want to transition from a kids show to a teen show, something essential to the original. also because that teen show would have had CANON LESBIANS. extremely shameful move in 2017!) boy meets world lives rent free in my heart and i will never evict it!!!!!!!

i consulted my mother when i got stumped for more and she reminded me that i had obsessions with the impressionist art period and babies and ANYTHING fairies or pixies, and i was way too young when my love of the canadian teen after school special degrassi began. she also said bob ross, which i was hesitant to include because he’s been super ~trendy in recent years, but to be fair (To Be Faaairrr) she’s right! i don’t think people really watched the joy of painting as much as i have throughout my life. best sick day show of all time.

lastly i could honestly list anna herself as a niche interest, my mom actually metioned that ive always hyperfixated on my girl friends (gay) but i’ll just note that YES friday night lights, YES barry lyga novels. love to share so many things with you, niche or not, they’re niche in Our Mind.

[nightingalewritings]

fic titles meme

@jate-kara tagged me. Lol. Thank you dearie! I needed this fun meme!

20 most recent Fics by Title.

(All of these are Clone Wars and post war by 20 years Era Star Wars. I'm counting my discord fics as well just cause otherwise I havent written over like 2 stories in over 10 years. Lol)

Call my Name and Light a Candle

A Moon of Ice and Fury

Panakin

A Night of Love and War

The Mummy and Mwitu

Navy vs Army

What's My Line.

The Grand House of the Zesposs

Fetts and Fires

Darkness and Perilous Paths

A Twin Suprise in Decanting

Sunshine bring me your warmth

Girls Night Out

Dances, Dates, and Intergalactic Rebellions

Night of Fire and Tears of Blood

Stray Come in from the Storm

Standing without Help in my Father's Armour

Lullabies and Tear Stains in the Dark of Night

Concussions and Blankets

If you get there before I do

A Single thread woven strong and true

1. How many are you happy with?

I'm typically happy with like 95% of my titles. Lol. They're supposed to be fun and quirky and have hidden gems in them and you really gotta keep an eye out for those Easter eggs in the summary and throughout the story. I think its fun to have readers catch them and then proceed to fill at me. Lol.

2. How many are.... not great?

I feel like I cant get my puns and my actual meaning across if they arent long phrases. So that tends to be a kicker for me. Lol. I also tend to rely on the rule of 3 a lot too.

3. How many did you scramble for at the last minute?

Concussions and Blankets for sure. I also had a major issue with A single Thread Woven and True as well as Standing Without Help in my Father's Armour. I actually went back and rewrote the title for ASTWT from being originally the Littest General.

4. 4. How many did you know before you started writing/creating, or near the beginning?

Night of Fire and Tears of Blood. The entire story was supposed to be sad and dark and heavy. We see the aftermath of Coruscant burning for 10 days and it's got big heavy sad feelings. I knew before writing this that there was burning, there was crying, there is a huge focus on the aftermath of basically what I call Space London Blitz and somehow it evolved to NIGHT OF FIRE AND TEARS OF BLOOD.

5. How many are quotes from songs or poems?

The ones I use for my Leia Alor'ika stories tend to be Mulan song heavy just cause that's what I picture for her.

I also used Swing Low Sweet Chariot for my Shmi/Jango fic along with several spoofs of Slave songs for Shmi. Because of how she ends up being the harriet Tubman of the galaxy in my writing. So stories that focus on her, tend to be more bluegrass folklore feel to them.

6. How many are other quotes?

The other quotes are What's my Line, which was actually based on the TV show. It's something fun and goofy and I like that.

As well as the Mummy and Mwitu. It gives the reader a sense of adventure and daring hero saves the girl feel and that's what I was going for, like an Indiana Jones Space story. Lol.

7. Which best reflects the plot of the story/content of the fanwork?

That I think I've actually achieved with most of them. Because I use different styles and different language tricks throughout my titles to really emphasize the type of story it is.

8. Which best reflects the theme of the story?

My favorite one however is Lullabies. It's a story of a parent accepting a new child into their heart and their home, while at the same time really feeling the loss of their older child that was taken from them. So the biggest scene in that is actually mama Shmi singing a lullaby to baby Boba and Jango catching that sight of it. But as he comes home from a bounty hunt, he really notices that Anakin isnt there and he mourns that fact.

9. Which best reflects the character voice of the story/pov of the fanwork?

My favorite one I would have to say is Standing in my Father's Armour. Because we see a teenage Leia who was raised by Rex, Jesse, and Kix. And we see her start to fit into a new mold of being grownup. She is fully a Skywalker without an doubt, but she is also a young adult who hasnt figure things out and the armour or more correctly the shows her father had left behind and that legacy of General Skywalker is hers to accept and fill out properly. And I love that about that title. It sums up her entire character arc perfectly.

10. Which is your favourite title?

My favorite one is probably Dances, Dates, and Intergalactic Rebellions. Hahaha. We dont actually see what date night for Jango and Shmi is. But we get the feel of it from outside PoVs and their reactions. It's a fun light hearted comedic piece that's just very fun. And I absolutely love how the title has a comedic feel to it with the trope I used there.

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[meginoi]

37, 31, 1, 44, princiety, bonus if the other two are not there and are worried about them killing each other and it’s just a whole fest with candles and Christmas chocolate etc.

This got really, really long because it inspired me so have a New Years fic. I hope it’s okay. For those who don’t know, Auld Lang Syne is a poem that is sung on New Year’s Eve around the world. Happy New Years Eve, everyone!

1 - “It’s almost midnight!”31 -  “So, we’re kind of snowed in.”37 - “You didn’t think I’d let you spend Christmas alone, did you?”44 - “You’ve never had a New Year’s kiss?”

Pairing: Prinxiety

Warnings: self-depreciating thoughts

Words: 2508

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TheChristmas lights glowed softly in the dying light of the day. Their cheerfulatmosphere  quickly waning with each daythat passed. The New Year was rapidly approaching, bringing with it theoverwhelming prospect of New Years resolutions, returning to work and anotherNew Year’s Eve that he’d be spending alone.

Virgil sighed and shifted inhis seat, careful not to spill his hot chocolate in the process. This Christmashad been one of the better ones, one in a long line of many that had beenslowly getting better since he’d met Patton, Logan and Roman. He’d spent theday with his friends, laughing and opening presents.

But, of course, it couldnever last. He had trudged back home as the day slowly darkened and gave way tothe night. The following days had flown by in a blur of Christmas movies andfood. What better way to spend those days between Christmas and New Years?

And so Virgil sat, curled upon the corner of the sofa, that he’d dragged around so it faced the bay window,watching as the snow slowly fell from the dull, grey sky and landed on thestreet below. It would have been nice to not spend New Years alone but who washe to complain? They were probably sick of him, Christmas Day was more thanenough for them to get sick of his presence-

A knock at the door flung himback into reality. Who would be knocking at his door on Christmas Eve? Everyonehe knew was either planning to spend New Years with their loved ones or getdrunk out of their minds. The former he didn’t have and the latter didn’tappeal to him.

He stood and quickly made hisway down the narrow staircase and hallway to the door, steeling himself to seeeither an odd salesman who worked on New Year’s Eve or a neighbour who had ranout of something and was counting on him to be hospitable enough to save a NewYears party he hadn’t even been invited to.

 Never did he expect to seeRoman standing on his doorstep, cold and covered in snow but joyfulnonetheless.

 “Roman?” He started, “whatare you doing here?”

“You didn’t think I’d let you spend Christmasalone, did you?” Roman exclaimed.

“But…it’s New Year’s Eve. Christmasis over.”

“Nonsense! We still haveanother…” he pulled his sleeve back and glanced down at his watch, “4 hoursuntil Christmas is over!”

Virgil sighed and glanceddown at his feet before looking back up to face the man in front of him again.“I suppose you better come in before you freeze to death, then.”

Roman beamed that smile ofhis that made butterflies erupt in Virgil’s stomach and stepped inside,stamping the snow off his boots in the hallway. He shedded his coat and hung iton a hook next to Virgil’s own, a sight that made a blush rise of Virgil’scheeks…he could easily blame that reaction on the cold.

“I thought you had planstonight?” Virgil called from the kitchen as he poured hot water into two mugs,the sweet smell of the hot chocolate quickly filling the small kitchen. The guyhad trekked through the snow to see him, the least he could do was try and makesome casual conversation. 

“I did, but they cancelled,” Romansighed, settling into the end of the sofa opposite to the one he knew Virgilalways sat in. 

“And that’s why you trekkedthrough this blizzard to see me?” Virgil countered. Roman could have easilyjust stayed at home, where it was warm and safe. So what possessed him to walkacross town to see him? Virgil couldn’t understand it.

“Good question, my friend!You see, Patton and Logan have their own plans and I couldn’t let you spend therun up to New Years alone if I was available could I? That would be absolutelyheinous of me! I may have also not wanted to spend New Years alone,” Romanexplained, his voice dropping to a low mumble at the end.  

Virgil chuckled dryly as hecarried the two mugs into the front room, handing one to Roman before sittingdown with his own. The snow was still falling heavily, the wind whipping it upinto a frenzy before letting it settle on the ground. “I guess I should thankyou then, for your selfless actions,” Virgil quipped.

“No, no thanks is necessary,”Roman smiled, letting the drink quickly thaw his cold hands. They idly chattedfor the next hour, talking about everything from Christmas to Roman’s next bigaudition he had been preparing for months for.

“Yes, the play is simplyamazing! It’s about-“ his sentence died in his throat as the first fireworksstarted to light up the sky. Every colour imaginable exploded and flew throughthe air, like paint splatters on a black background. The snow had stoppedfalling but had left a thick blanket of white that covered everything, makingit hard to differentiate the road from the pedestrian path. 

Roman leaned forward andchecked his watch with wide eyes. An hour until midnight. He turned to faceVirgil and cleared his throat. “I better get going. I should get home beforemidnight if I want to avoid the New Years crowds.” 

‘He could always stay here.’ Virgil’s brain supplied. He stood and turned to facethe window in a panic filled attempt to hide his rapidly rising blush.“R-right. I’ll see you out.” 

Roman shrugged his coatbefore pulling on his gloves and wrapping his scarf around his neck. “Thank youfor your company tonight, Virgil. Have a good new year.”

“Thanks, Ro. You too,” Virgillet a slight smile slip onto his face. But as soon as Roman turned to leave, hefelt his stomach drop. He really didn’t want Roman to go.

But as soon as he opened thefont door and cold air swept into the hallway, he stopped, staring at somethingthat went unseen by Virgil.

Then, much to Virgil’s shockand confusion, Roman shut the door and turned back to face him. “I’m afraid wemay have each other’s company for a while longer. It seems we’re snowed in.”

Virgil stepped around Roman,who was taking his coat off again, and opened the door. Roman was right, thesnow came up to Virgil’s knee, the product of a weeks worth of steadily fallingsnow. Virgil sighed and slammed the door shut.

“Won’t Patton and Logan beable to help. Can’t they come dig us out of something,” Virgil asked, his voiceraising in annoyance, no matter what he felt for Roman he couldn’t let hispersona slip. He may have looked annoyed but on the inside the butterflies hadreturned, and they were jumping for joy. 

Roman shook his head. I don’teven think they’d answer. They’re probably making out or something by now.” 

Virgil felt his blush darkenat the image Roman’s words bought but he quickly pushed the thought aside,choosing to focus on the situation at hand. “I guess you’ll have to stay the nightthen,” Virgil stated, leaning against the doorframe and crossing his arms. 

“If it’s not too muchtrouble,” Roman smiled, handing reach up to awkwardly rub at the back of hisneck. 

“Well I can’t throw yououtside to freeze to death can I?” Virgil quipped, walking back into the livingroom and falling back into the seat that had been his for the past few hours.

They watched the earlyfireworks with a mix of excitement and nostalgia, recalling Christmases and NewYears of years past. Looking upon the first one they had all spent togetherwith an extra sense of warmth the memory bought.

“Ah, I remember that year itwas-“ Roman’s sentence died in his throat as they were plunged into darkness,the only light coming from the harsh light of the streetlights outside. Virgilstood before grabbing his phone and letting the built-in torch light up theroom.  

“It’s just a power cut,” Virgilsighed after checking the electrics. “It must be the snow.” 

“Oh, what a fiend! Trying toruin the New Years cele-“ Roman exclaimed but was abruptly cut off as Virgilraised a hand to silence him. Virgil disappeared into the kitchen, reappearinga few moments later with a box of chocolates and some candles that were stackedprecariously on top. 

“These should do until thepower comes back on,” Virgil mumbled as he lit three candles and placed them onthe ledge that jutted out of the window in front of them. He flitted to thefire that sat below the wall mounted tv, and lit it. Within a few minutes, itwas crackling merrily behind them, casting a soft, flickering glow as thewarmth seeped into their bones.

“And what’s the chocolatefor?” Roman asked, grabbing the blanket that was draped over the back of the sofa,wrapping it around himself.

“Can’t watch a show withoutsome treats can you?” Virgil smirked, popping open the lid of the box ofcelebrations and unwrapping a malteaser. Roman grinned and did the same,leaving the galaxy wrapper on the ledge. He glanced down at his watch andgrinned, eyes that were sparkling with excitement rising to meet Virgil’s.

“Fifteen minutes,” Romanbeamed. Virgil smiled at the other’s excitement, shifting in his seat to faceRoman.

“Y’know, I never understood what’sso great about a New Years kiss. It’s just another kiss, right?” Virgilrambled, his mouth running faster than his mouth. As his thoughts caught up, heslapped a hand over his mouth eyes widening as he realised what he said.

Roman’s expression morphedfrom relaxed to one of shock. “How can you not understand?” He asked.

“I don’t know, I just don’tunderstand,” Virgil replied, hesitantly dropping his hand from his mouth. 

“It’s about the build-up. Theway the new year is welcomed in with an act of love with one of the mostimportant people in your life. It’s magical!” Roman gushed, caught up in hisown fantasies. As his words died in the air, his expression of happiness fadedinto one of concern.

Virgil looked anything buthappy. His eyes had become cold, his mouth pulled into a thin line thatradiated discomfort (or was it loneliness?)

“Virgil,” Roman started,“have you ever had a New Years kiss?”

There was silence for amoment before Virgil whispered ‘no’. It was barely loud enough to be heard butboth of them felt like it filled the room.

And Roman, in the soft glowof the fire, knew exactly what to do. He became serious, sitting up in his seatas he toyed with the edge of one of the sleeves of his sweater. “I suppose Ishould get my New Years resolution over and done with. Best to start early,” hechuckled to himself before it quickly died and silence overtook them again.

Virgil was staring at him, aquestioning look in his eyes. “What’s your New Years resolution?”

Roman sighed and steeledhimself, opening his mouth to say the words he’d been mentally planning allnight long. “I had planned to call you but this amazing twist of fate bought mehere instead, so I guess I’ll just tell you. It’s to tell you how I feel. Totell you how my heart starts to beat faster every time you walk in the room. Totell you about how your smile sets off butterflies in my stomach and makes mefeel lighter. How I can’t stop grinning when I think about you. How I can’t getyou off my mind even when you’re not there. To tell you about how I’ve beenthinking about how to say this all night and how I walked here to do it inperson when I had the opportunity. To tell you how much I like you and how I maybe in love with you before I lose my chance. Please don’t feel like you need tosay anything. I just needed to tell y-“ 

On the first chime ofmidnight, Virgil leaned forward and kissed Roman. Fireworks exploded behindthem, the colours shooting across the sky went unnoticed by both of them.Virgil’s hand rested on either side of Roman’s face, gently caressing the skinthere with his thumb, while Roman’s hands found their way to Virgil’s waist.

Virgil was the first to pullaway, high on the euphoria running through his veins from both Roman’sconfession and the kiss. 

“I take it you feel the sameway?” Roman asked, slightly breathless.

“Maybe just a little,” Virgiljoked, standing to sit closer to Roman. He curled his leg up under himself andrested his head on Roman’s chest. “Is this okay?” He asked, ready to flinghimself back to the other end of the sofa at a moment’s notice.

“It’s more than okay,” Romanreplied, wrapping an arm around him and planting a kiss on the top of Virgil’shead.  The chimes were still sounding,the deep vibrations carrying easily through the walls. Roman looked out at theview, softly starting to sing the same song he did every year on New Year’sEve.

Should old acquaintance be forgot,

and never brought to mind?

Should old acquaintance be forgot,

and auld lang syne?

For auld lang syne, my dear,

for auld lang syne,

we’ll take a cup of kindness yet,

for auld lang syne.

Virgil smiled as herecognised the familiar tune, burrowing deeper against Roman. He softly joinedin, his own, quieter voice mixing with Roman’s now louder, more confident one.

And surely you'll buy your pint cup!

and surely I'll buy mine!

And we’ll take a cup o’ kindness yet,

for auld lang syne.

 We two have runabout the slopes,

and picked the daisies fine;

But we’ve wandered many a weary foot,

since auld lang syne.

 We two have paddled in the stream,

from morning sun till dine;

But seas between us broad have roared

since auld lang syne.

Virgil let his voice fadeinto silence as Roman finished the song, his voice a mix of joy, nostalgia forthe year gone and excitement for the year to come. As the last verse started todrift through the air, he gently took hold of Virgil’s hand, intertwining theirfingers.

And there’s a hand my trusty friend!

And give me a hand o’ thine!

And we'll take aright good-will draught,

for auld lang syne.

As the last line fadedinto silence, so did the chimes of the clock in the town square. The fireworkswere still sounding, loud bangs and high pitched twirls that could sometimesonly be heard, not seen, they would be sounding for a few more hours yet.

“Happy New Year,” Romansmiled, looking down at Virgil.

“Happy New Year,” Virgilreplied, glancing up at Roman before surging upwards and kissing him again.

Yeah, twenty-eighteen wasgoing to be a great year.

[im-fire-and-flood]

Lesbian ask game 5 (for ur crush/gf) 1-50 (good luck dude)

1: what color is her hair?currently a light blue2: what color are her eyes?darkish brown with flecks of green3: how old is she?174: how did you meet? tumblr...technically we met 3 times, first time me sending her an ask asking if she needed to talk to anyone, (i think i said i could act like a lovinggrandma??? i have game as you can see, and the last time, what led to us talking a lot and then dating was me offering to draw her (which then became apainting)5: is she ticklish?pretty sure they'll will kill me if i ever try to find out6: what's her favorite song / band?i am not currently sure.7: what's her favorite movie?all the harry potters, nightmare before christmas, and possibly highschool musical8: what's her favorite book?harry potter 100% (im not sure which one is the best though)9: what's her favorite tv show?it changes regularly but currently boy meets world and andi mack10: who is her celebrity crush?girls......girls (i went into the "*whispers* im so gay" tag and i have no clue currently)11: does she have any pets? Are there any pets she wants?currently...6 cats? im gonna die if that numbers wrong12: what's a song that reminds you of her?currently "taking you there" by the broods13: does she play any sports?she does figure skating (and shes very good and im very gay but she hasnt gotten to do it in a long time)14: what are your favorite things about her (physically) ?*gay shrieking* her lips, her eyes, she has really nice shoulders???, the freckles, her voice, her legs could crush my head like a watermellon 15: what are your favorite things about her (personality wise) ?she is very passionate, and funny, and argumentative, and very empathetic and caring16: how does she dress?pastel femme lesbian17: what was your first date or ideal first dateideal first date would either be her teaching me how to ice skate, or star gazing, or star gazing after im too broken to move from all the falling18: what's a tiny detail about her that she doesn't realize you've noticed?im not really sure becuase i usually point things out when i notice...she is very observant and i notice that she will sometimes what you if she thinksyou arent looking, not in a weird way just like...interest? like you know shes thinking about something19: what are her talents?id say art and writing, and she makes really good poetry no one else is allowed to read 20: write a tiny poem about heri wrote this awhile back but i was too chicken to post it.

-i want to write you a book of poetrytake my beating heart from my chest present it to you in a golden chalice for you to take

i want to run to you across foreign land and pull the moon from the sky so you will always have light even in the darkest shadows -

21: Does she have a tumblr?@neptuneisgay22: what type of things make her laugh?its kinda hard for me to gauge sometimes, it sorta varies, dry humor, dark jokes, science puns can sometimes do it but they have to be good.23: what's her star sign? Are you compatible according to astrology?cancer and we are 80% compatible, our moons signs are sorta assholes to eachother though haha24: what's some place she's always wanted to travel?new york, hawaii, england, and many many more25: what's something she's super interested in?SCIENCE!! ART, ASTROLOGY.26: when did you realize you loved her?the first time i realized it i think it was when i told her i liked her and she started laughing so hard she fell over27: what's her favorite food?she doesnt have lots of food love but probably chicken28: what's a food she hates?....what isnt honestly29: what's her hogwarts house?ravenclaw30: is she more Earth, water, air, or fire?water31: what's something that makes her angry?lieing, injustice, when someone undermines her feelings, when someones untruthful, apparently tickling, she never really gets angry though, more annoyed or disapointed32: is she taller or shorter than you?taller >.>34: what's her namehaley35: what's her aesthetic?summertime, gardens, big sweaters, books, thunder storms36: what's the first present you bought her/ plan on buying for herTale of the Dueling Neurosurgeons, The: the History of the Human Brain As Revealed by True Stories of Trauma, Madness, and Recovery37: is she an early bird or a night owl?night owl who loves sleep 38: what about her do you brag the most about?....literally everything my parents should know by now that im so fucking gay39: is there any accessories she always wears/ brings with her?her cross necklace40: is she a vegetarian?she would be if she could be 41: what's her favorite subject in school?SCIENCE and ART 42: what highschool cliche does she fit best (think that scene in mean girls) ?the one who adopts all the outcasts43: how long have you been dating/ crushing7 months and 1 day 44: describe her laughi dont know how to describe the sound but the feeling is like when you first fall for someone and you cant breath all the time, and its uncomfortable but in the best way, and i just want to make her laugh all the time, becuase its great45: does she wear makeup?sometimes but not all the time46: what's her favorite art medium?markers and acrylic currently47: does she play any instruments?no but she wants to learn violin48: what animal does she identify most with?probably a cat, or an adorable otter49: does she like camping (or the outdoors in general)yes she loves hiking and the mountains and shes going to teach me how to camp 50: post her picture if you have her permission

[glisteria]

all of the nsfw asks pls ?

(lowkey doin it bc u asked even tho i wanna do it anyways)

1. Are looks important in a relationship?•In my personal opinion? No. If you focus truly on the outside you may never find someone you connect with that is pretty too yknow? If that makes sense??

2. Are relationships ever worth it?• Of course

3. Are you a virgin?•No

4. Are you in a relationship?•God i wish i was

5. Are you in love?•Wouldnt classify it as love? but maybe

6. Are you single this year?• Uhhh for the most part

7. Can you commit to one person?• Yes

8. Describe your crush•Well you see im weird and like boy a guy AND a girl so ill give u 2 description? The guy is loud and stupidly funny and is a dweeb. The girl is cute asf and very smart and talented plus i keep circling back to acting like a school girl over her so 👀

9. Describe your perfect mate• Someone i can talk with. Make jokes and be comfortable around. Someone who understands my weird mood shifts or try’s to understand

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?• Maybe

11. Do you ever want to get married?•Depends ask me in 10 or so years

12. Do you forgive betrayal?•Depends on how bad it was

13. Do you get jealous easily?•Honestly situational but sometimes yes

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?•Ya yeet

15. Do you have any piercings?•Oh dude ya i have 3 per ear and would like more

16. Do you have any tattoos?•Cat on my inner right ankle (want more tho)

17. Do you like kissing in public?•Yes

20. Do you shower every day?•Try to but #depression

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?•Haha i thought so but then he decided he didnt wanna be around me :)

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?•Hope so. maybe not im a dISASTER

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?• Yes

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?• 🤷🏻‍♀️

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?• Plz

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?• Yes

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?• No but i for them

28. Have you ever been cheated on?• No

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?•No but i was ‘the other girl once’ and i regret

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?•Idk smth about my stomach? Breast reduction

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?•Oh yea all the time

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?• HA yes

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?•Yes

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?•Not technically

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?• 👀 yes

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?• Oh yes the cliché friends to lovers trope. Yes ive fallen for friends

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?• OH YES

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?• 👀 Sophomore year looking @ u

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?• Do idols count

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?• Ya

41. Have you had sex so far this year?• HA in a dream yea

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?• Depends on the persons preferences

43. How long was your longest relationship?•6 months

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?• I dunno 6?

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?• Considering i was 13/14 from what i can remember not many

46. How many times did you have sex last year?• 0

47. How old are you?• 18

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?•Id support them because the heart wants what it wants

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?• Physically probably their eyes and hands

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?•No absolutely not

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?•Yes multiple

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?• Yes and because i cared too much and he cared not at all

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?• I have friends who dont like my other friends if that counts

54. Is there someone you will never forget?• Of couese

55. Share a relationship story.• Haha i dunno. Most are bad

56. State 8 facts about your body• I have a tattoo. I have horrible acne. My right ankle cracks if i bend it. I have a random hard spot on my right leg. I have a large belly. I have a freckle on the outside of my right hand. 3 holes in each ear. I have large brown eyes

57. Things you want to say to an ex• Please stop toying with my even though you are out of my life

58. What are five ways to win your heart?• Be kind to me. Dont pressure me into anything and let me be the way i am. Plz dont make fun of my obsession with kpop or certain games. Food? Literally just like me. Bam you got me

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)• HNNNNN ill send (the asker) a selfie

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?• 2 years

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?• Personality wise probably sense of humor and physically eyes and hands bc dont talk to me i love em

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?• Like me?

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?• Situational imo

64. What is your definition of cheating?• Romantic/Sexual advances or actions with someone that isnt your partner without exolicit permission

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?• Idk kiss me and let’s figure it out

66. What is your favourite roleplay?• Not gonna out myself

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?• Listen to music and talk

68. What is your sexual orientation?• Idk? I like someone for who they are not what they are

69. What turns you off?• I dunno honestly been too long

70. What turns you on?• haha not gonna out myself too much but uhh anything on my neck/behind my ears. Praise like fuck

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?• Never had a wet dream :)

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?• My name honestly

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?• Idk. Write something about me on their page? Tag me in smth nice? hug me? come to ohio and socialize with me? (come see the nutcracker and phantom of the opera with me this month plz plz)

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?• Idk

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?• I honestly dont know?

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?• I dunno. Wrote a song to make them feel better? Sent them a whole care package when they were depressed? idk

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?• As long as its legal idc

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?• O boyo if you wanna know you gotta dm me

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?• Literally any time my friends do something without me or with a new friend

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?• Other than friendly and parents probably about a month? i just masked it as friendly?

81. Who are five people you find attractive?•The Person who asked this 👀•Literally all my kpop boys• uhh

82. Who is the last person you hugged?•My dad

83. Who was your first kiss with?• His name was John

84. Why did your last relationship fail?• He decided his ex who was manipulative was better than me

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?• Yes. I actually have