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mars-ipan · 3 years ago

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OK SIDENOTE i fucking hate when therapists notice how self aware you are and think you’re actually doing really good. no dipshit i study psychology as a hobby and if i didn’t approach this with objectivity i would not be able to function as a human being due to high stress

#marzivents #like obvi they can’t read my mind. BUT I AM DETAILING MY EXACT PROBLEMS TO YOU IN PRECISE LANGUAGE #THAT IS NOT MENTALLY HEALTHY BEHAVIOR. NOT WHEN IT’S ANYTHING WORSE THAN ‘i’m worried i’m not doing well in life :(‘#this is especially applicable when i have said MULTIPLE TIMES that i’ve tried just abt every well-known thing and none of it has stuck #don’t mind me. just remembering this one therapist i tried who literally tried to give me hw day one #which wouldn’t have been so bad if the hw weren’t literally ‘just go drive. don’t think about it’#LIKE GIRL. I AM NOT DRIVING BECAUSE I AM INCAPABLE OF NOT OVERTHINKING IT RN. WHAT.#I CAME HERE TO GET OVER MY MENTAL BLOCKS AND UR OUT HERE LIKE ‘just go. duh’ WHAT #anyways that woman pissed me off. she’s close to my house but i don’t like her #like i’ve been mildly uncomfy with a therapist before but i just genuinely didn’t think she would be helpfil #she felt kinda condescending too. and she talked abt her life as a teacher with kids???#like. we’re here for me not you. not to be selfish but i’m literally paying to talk about me how am i meant to relate to your experience #worst part is she brought up being a teacher DIRECTLY AFTER i started complaining abt a teacher i dislike.#like girl i do not trust you anymore!!! that’s fucking bias right there!!#she just gave me. school counselor vibes #like ma’am. i hear all this shit you say EVERY DAY in school. you are as helpful as our mental illness program (not.)#LIKE. I TOLD HER ABT GETTING A 5 ON AP PSYCH. I MENTIONED MY INTEREST IN LEARNING ABOUT MENTAL ILLNESS/DISORDERS. I KNOW SOME SHIT #PLEASE as a trained professional give me something new!! ffs #i miss my old therapist man. she was great i loved her. she fucking got me dude #had to stop seeing her bc she went back to illinois after graduating i think #like. girl come back wtf #now i gotta find a new one if i wanna continue therapy. that means practice trials with ppl i don’t trust yet. wtf #bring back the woman who saw me too tired to finish a sentence and led me thru a meditation session before telling me to go home and sleep #bro i miss her so bad. she would actually learn how i communicated and gave me advice specifically catered to me #the attention to detail. loved her so much #like she knew i think in analogies. so whenever i didn’t get something she compared it to something else. and then it was obvious!!!#also once i was like ‘i don’t get it i’m eating i’m drinking i’m taking care of my hygiene why do i still feel like shit 24/7m #‘*#and she just went ‘how much sleep are you getting.’ and i responded ‘OHHHHHH that makes sense’#i want her back. whitney when will u return from the war (the midwest)

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