#worse bc i’ve had much harder classes i am just shutting down. not over nothing but it feels like over nothing

[bravevolunteer]

i feel like i’m going to explode into a million pieces

[khunsetare]

ODIUM

CHAPTERS PRIOR : 1 , 2 , 3 , 4

 TAGS : @kenzieam , @jaihardy , @pathybo , @elaacreditava , @tigpooh67 , @beltz2016 , @lostinthebeans 

I KEEP SAYING THANK YOU BUT THANK YOU AGAIN FOR READING MY WORK. This does contain mature theme, and will eventually only increase with the more chapters I post. If you find mature themes, and triggers to be overwhelming, I would not recommend continuing to read this story. I love feedback, and would love to hear your thoughts. 

I DID HOWEVER ADD A NEW LEADER INTO THE MIX, AND IT’S ONLY BC I HAVE AN OBSESSION WITH TOM HARDY AS WELL. ‘MAX’ !!not the leader of the faction !! can be whatever you picture him to be, but in my head he’s tom hardy (: . let me live vicariously through my protagonists. Any who, eNjoy!!!!

Chapter 5.

         “Does one of you want to explain or should I just get started on punishment?” He replies dryly.

 “Punishment?” I frown. “For what! He started it,” I groan as Max puts up a hand to silence me.

 “I don’t care what kind of problems you guys have going on. It needs to be solved immediately. Work it out, and do what Jeanine tells you. That’s it. Trust me, you don’t want Jeanine to hear of any of this,” I roll my eyes, and cross my hands over my chest.

 “Get to training; I’ll figure out what punishment is in store later,” Eric hasn’t said a word, but I don’t think Max expected him to. I walk up a few flights of stairs following Eric, until I’m at the roof. There are initiates lined up with ear mufflers, and guns in their hand.

 Four hands me an unloaded gun, and two magazines. He stares at me wearily. Probably questioning if giving me a potentially loaded gun was a good idea. I tilt the gun, and push the magazine in clicking it and aiming straight at the plastic dummies. I take a deep breath, and aim for the main spots. I hit the target spot on in every location, every time. I keep hitting target until my gun clicks, but Four is quick to take it from me before I can reload the next magazine.

 My chest is still rising rapidly as I stare at him through hooded eyes.

 “You’re already top of your class, I don’t think it’s necessary for more physical training,” He pauses, staring over my shoulder at something. “Maybe its best you take a few laps, and call it a day,” He says, as he crosses his arms over his chest.

 “Fine,” I huff, and walk down a few flights till I’m outdoors. I exhale, and briefly wonder to myself if this was all worth it. I contemplate finding a way back home, but decide it’s too risky. Eventually I’d go back home; When, and for how long was debatable.

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    The last few days of physical training weren’t tough as I wasn’t actively taking a part in any of it. I found that consciously telling myself to not try and strangle Eric in his sleep got harder day by day. However, saying that we weren’t actively avoiding each other at all costs was a lie. During the few days of limited training, I had gone over to Erudite, and grabbed as many book, and files on Divergents as possible. They were all cluttered in a corner near Eric’s bookshelf to the far back, and most of them were useless.

 Mindless reading seemed to get worse as every minute passed till I heard the click of the door. There’s faint laughter, and it’s a woman’s voice. I don’t pay much mind, and grab headphones on the counter top near me, and wirelessly play some songs on shuffle. As the music booms in my ear, I feel eyes on me, and I look up to find a woman’s. She had dark brown hair that reaches her mid shoulder, and she’s staring at me with wide eyes. What’s wrong with her? I pull a earbud out, and stare back.

 “Um, my names Kimberly. Kim for short,” She smiles, and I still stare at her wearily.

 “Okay, can I help you?” I ask her.

 “I, uh sorry. You probably don’t know who I am. I’m just waiting for Eric; It’s date night,” I nod, and put my headphones back in.

 Never pegged Eric to be the dating type. Especially with someone so nice, and gentle looking. I shrug the confused feeling off, and continue to read through another volume of divergent info. As I skim through it a name catches my eye.

 COULTER,N. | STATIONARY PATROL | DAUNTLESS FORCES RECRUIT

       ERUDITE BORN | FULL ACCESS TO ALL FACTIONS

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 INDRA SCARLETT VIDAL ; CORO VIDAL : 2ND ERA GENERATION

 INDRA SCARLETT VIDAL

 LOCATION: UNKNOWN

 GENDER : FEMALE

 AGE : 28

 HEIGHT : 5’4

 HAIR COLOR: DARK BROWN

 EYE COLOR: BROWN

 STATUS : DECEASED

 FACTION BORN IN: ERUDITE

 FACTION CHOSEN : DAUNTLESS

 SPOUSE : CORO VIDAL

 OFFSPRING : NONE

     CORO VIDAL

 LOCATION: UNKNOWN

 GENDER : MALE

 AGE : 32

 HEIGHT : 5’10

 HAIR COLOR: BLACK

 EYE COLOR: GREEN

 STATUS : DECEASED

 FACTION BORN IN: DAUNTLESS

 FACTION CHOSEN : DAUNTLESS

 SPOUSE : INDRA SCARLETT VIDAL

 OFFSPRING : NONE

   SUN RISE 4TH WEEK OF THE 4TH ERA : Subjects have been detained, but are not complying with protocols or testing. Immune to shot, and resistant. Female subject may be pregnant with Male’s child.

 SUNSET 6TH WEEK OF 4TH ERA : Both Indra and Coro have fled Erudite testing hall. Subjects were seen on train towards Amity, but no signs of any whereabouts. Dauntless, and Erudite are to patrol fence until found.

 SUNRISE 7TH WEEK OF 4TH ERA : Subjects have still not been found, guarding the fence will begin immediately. Blood faction relatives are alerted, but have no information on whereabouts even after using truth serum created by Candor.

 SUNSET 20TH WEEK OF 4TH ERA : Documentation, and further research on VIDAL’s are terminated. Coulter, N. confirmed elimination, and both subjects upon resist. Vidal Family have been notified. Eldest daughter of Reva and Freyr James has gone missing; Eldest son Tove still stands, and is being prepped for initiation when eligible.

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KEY NOTES : COULTER,N.- UPON TESTING OF FREYR, AND REVA BOTH CHILDREN’S DNA SEEM TO COME UP INCONCLUSIVE. DNA MATCHED BUT NOT BIOLOGICAL PARENTS.

  My blood runs cold, and I stare at the piece of information. I add some event’s up in my head, and realize that around the time of my parents escape my mother was pregnant with me. I try to force myself to understand, and filter the information but I couldn’t. None of it made any sense. My parents weren’t dead, they were alive. They moved outside the wall, and away from the US Government. Our community lived off the grid from both sectors of civilization. I keep skimming over the words, trying to put some information together but I couldn’t remember the events. Possibly because I wasn’t old enough to be aware of my surroundings.

 I remember being in the fields of Amity often, with no trouble. I remember playing with Amity children but I also remember having friends from Erudite too. A small group, but nothing I could forget. I just couldn’t remember who they were. I stared at the open page blankly, trying to take in the information. Why would Jeanine want me to research my own family?

 “Lia,” A deep, demanding voice spoke to me, and I snapped out of my daydream.

 “Huh, oh. Hi,” I look up and see Eric standing a few feet away staring at me oddly.

 “What were you reading?”

 “Document’s on event’s prior to the rebellion,”

 “Did you find anything?”

 “No, Eric. It takes time,”

 “How much time?”

 I stare up at him blankly. He seems annoyed, but I look past him and see the girl that was here prior behind him. Ah, I see. He doesn’t want me here. I nod my head, and grab a bunch of books to take with me. I place my jacket loosely over my shoulders, and push my feet into my sneakers that laid by the door. He watches me intently, but doesn’t say anything as I leave. I bit the sides of my lips as I figure out a place to stay, and study without anyone bothering me. My mind flashes to the roof when we did gun training.

 After walking up a few flights I push open the roof door with my shoulder, and find a corner to sit near. I plop down, and lay my books in a neat pile by the corner. I re-open the books, and skim through more pages hoping for something that could satisfy Jeanine enough to stop thinking Divergents were threats. I don’t know how long I keep reading but my eyes are heavy, and I feel myself drifting off to sleep.

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 I wake to birds chirping, and I feel soft covers over me. I’m shut my eyes to continue sleeping until I realize that the last place I remember being was the roof, and this was not the roof. I sit up, and stare at my surroundings. It’s not Eric’s so it must be another leaders. Fuck. I search around, and spot my books neatly stacked on a nearby counter. I sigh in relief, but still keep my guard up. I push myself out of bed, and sit at the edge.

 “Sleep well?” A thick voice from behind me speaks. I turn my head to the side, and watch as he walks by me concentrating on something he was doing in the kitchen. He’s tall, and built. Alike Eric, but completely opposite in features. He has medium, thick black hair that faded on the sides, and a lightly grown beard. I’ve yet to meet him up until now. I stop analyzing him, and nod silently.

 “You’re Tove’s sister?” He asked, I looked at him curiously. How does he know I’m related to Tove. He laughs slightly as he stuffs a piece of bread in his mouth. “I saw your badge card in your jacket, you both have the same last name,”

 “I’ve yet to meet him. I don’t even think he knows I exist,” I laugh to myself.

 “He speaks of a sister. Is that not you?”

 I shake my head no. “I have an older sister, but I was born after we were separated,” His squints his eyes at me, but drops the subject.

 “I found you sleeping by the roof. So I brought you here, do you not like to sleep with the initiates in the living quarters?”

 “Oh, uh. I have to stay with Eric till initiation for safety. But, he had plans so I didn’t want to be an awkward third wheel. I must’ve dozed off and forgot where I was. I’m sorry about that,” He shakes his head as if it’s no big deal.

 “Ah so you’re the reason why there was blood all over the training room,” I don’t respond, but I continue to watch him. “Well, if a situation like that happens again and you have nowhere to go, you can always come here,” He says, and I’m filled with a light buzzy sensation.

 I nod. “I’ll keep that in mind,” I smile to myself, before straightening myself out.

 “Your shirt was covered in gravel, and dust so I put it with your jacket by the table near the door. You can keep the sweater if you want,” He smirks lightly, and I take notice that I’m wearing his baggy sweater. I fiddle with the sleeves, and smile to myself again. Just take the compliment, and stop blushing. I scold myself.

 “I should go, but thank you again,” I smile up at him as I put my shoes on.

“I’ll walk you down to the pit. There’s no training today ; Ranks go up soon. You’ll see where you stand, and if you move onto to the next stages of training,” I nod.

 “Okay, thank you,” He grabs his jacket, and I grab mine stuffing the old shirt into one of the pockets.

 Our walk down to the pit is silent, but not an awkward silence like it is with Eric. Within a few minutes we’re in the pit, and there’s a swarm of dauntless initiates. I continue to follow him all the way to the front where I see Em, and Zephryine together. They glance at me, and then at the man next to me and wriggle their brows. I roll my eyes at the suggestion, but continue to stick with him till I’m at the front. “I never got your name,” He laughs next to me.

 “Lia,” I outstretch an arm, and smile at him.

 “Max, I’m one of the leaders,” He states, and I take that there are a few other leaders who aren’t participating in the initiation process. As I step forward to see the board, I spot Eric, and almost immediately he spots me. He looks pissed, but then again when is he not pissed. His eyes stare at me, and then flicker over to Max beside me. He glances over both of us a few times, and I can see he’s deep in thought. He clenches his jaw, and turns back towards the board.

 “You see,” I hear Four boom. “This board will be ranked with all of your names by tomorrow morning. To your right, you’ll find clothes for the war games tonight. See that you make it to the train in time. That is all,” He ends his short speech by turning on the board. Empty name slots appear all numbered, and I hear chatter about it behind me. Max pats my lower back, and instinctively wrap my arms lightly around his neck.

 “Thank you, again,” I smile, and he returns the embrace tightly before heading back out of the pit. I follow my fellow initiates towards the pile of clothes, and feel him walk up next to me.

 “Didn’t think when I went looking for you that you would be fucking another leader, but I guess I don’t really know you that well,” I shoot an angered look at Eric.

 “That’s the nicest thing you’ve said to me so far. I guess fucking leaders is my calling,” He clenches his jaw hard, and he turns himself to me as I stop.

 “They only want you for your body, and your looks. Nothing more,” I scoff at the statement.

 “Thanks for the clarification,” I sneer, and walk away from him. I walk over towards where Em, and Zephryine stand. They’re both rummaging through the clothes gathering up sizes.

 “Here, I grabbed you some things in your size,” I smile.

 “Why thank you,”

 “These look terrible, how will I look nice in this,” Zephryine heaves, holding up her pairs of clothes. “I can’t win in this faction,” I laugh at her comment.

 “I don’t think we’ll be dressing like this forever,” I reply.

 “It feels like forever!” She exclaims.

 “So besides the fact that you keep befriending all the hot leaders, we have most of the day off, and need to get tattoos and gossip!” She jumps in excitement.

 “Yeah, you need to tell me where you find them. Maybe they’re all hiding from us until after we’re done,” Em squints her eyes, while nodding her head.

 I roll my eyes, and laugh. “I don’t think it’s like that. Let’s go get some new ink, and we’ll talk about who’s hot and who’s not, then,” They both shake their head, and lead me towards a red lit room. There are a bunch of glass flash tattoo’s all over the room, and a few people with big black patches on them. I stare at it oddly, and continue to watch as one of the female artists pulls up the material, and reveals a fresh piece.

 “That’s so odd,”

 “What’s odd?” Em asks,

 “They patch tattoo’s on. An odd concept,”

 “What do you mean?” Zephryine turns to listen to Em, and I’s conversation.

 “I have a bunch, but they were all made with a machine gun. Or hand poked, but I’ve never seen them patched on before,” I stare at a female artist in the back who keeps her eyes on me.

 “You have tattoo’s? Since when!” Em’s facial expression is surprised, but it soon fades.

 “To be fair, she does look like the type to get tattoo’s, and piercings,” Zephryine adds, and I feign shock. In return, she lightly slaps my arm. Her eyes move to something behind me, and her eyes move back to mine. “It’s like he likes to follow you,” She raises her brows in my direction, motioning to look behind. I turn my head to the side, and see Eric. His attention isn’t on me, but his arms are crossed, and he’s speaking to an artist. He motions to his neck tattoos, and I overhear that he wants his last round of touch ups. I turn back to the female artist in the back, and smile at her. Her face, and stance is stoic, but I’m not afraid to approach her.

 “I’d like to get a small henna style tattoo on my my middle finger,” She stares at me, and nods her head showing me a few styles, and I agree to pick one. I hear a scoff from the end of the room, and see Eric with patches on his neck.

 “Typical,” He says in a lower tone, but I can still make it out.

 “It’ll only take a few minutes because it’s a small tattoo. The bigger the piece the more time it takes,” She explains cleaning the patch, and placing it on my finger.

 “I’d like to get both of my nipples pierced too,” I add, and she looks up at me with raised brows.

 “I’m the piercer, so I can do it while we’re waiting for your patch to finish up,” She nods, and instructs me to take my sweater off. I look up as I pull Max’s sweater over my head, and place it on the side. Em, and Zephryine are staring at me like I have ten heads, but quickly put two, and two together. They both smirk, as they get sized for their own tattoo’s.

 “Are you comfortable with taking everything off here, or do you want to go into another room for this?” She questions me, and I shake my head no.

 “No, here works just fine,” I respond. My eyes slowly meet with Eric’s, and he looks a little tense. Whether it’s from the tattoo or the fact that I’m making him witness my first nipple piercing. I unlatch my bra, and lay it off to the side as I sit down onto the chair behind me.

 “Who did these?” Her eyes roamed some of the tattoo’s I had on my forearm, and some peeking out from my leggings.

 “Um, it was traditionally done. I don’t think you’d know him,” She continues staring at them, but then stares back up at me.

 “There’s only one person I know that does tattoo’s like that,” I look down at her, and assume it’s fine to tell her who put their artwork on me.

 “Tom Cilard,” We both spit out in unison. She stares at me with wide eyes, and realization of where I may have come from hits her. She nods, and continues to sterilize her needle, and clamp.

 “Okay, the clamp will be the least of your pain. The needle pain will only last for a few seconds, but discomfort may last for a few days up to a week. Count to three,” I nod.

 “One, Two,” I pause taking a deep inhale deciding that if I wanted Eric to suffer I might as well stare at him straight in the eyes. “Thr-“ I wince slightly as she had already inserted the needle before three. I pry my eyes away from Eric’s, and look down as she slides the needle out, and the piercing in. “Last one,” She smiles up at me, looks back briefly, and spots Eric. A smirk begins to appear on her face as she tightens the clamp around my nipple.

 “You’re the only one ballsy enough to taunt him like that. I like you,” She laughs, and stares intently at my nipple making sure to get an even level when piercing me. “Same as last time,”

 “One, Two,” Before I can finish two she’s already pushed the last needle through. I sigh a small breath of relief, as I feel her move the piercing in. I bite the side of my lip as she rummages for paperwork.

 “You already have piercings so I’m sure you know the protocol, but in case you forgot here is all the do’s and don’ts. Here is something to clean it with,” She plops a brown spritzer bottle in front of me. “Try not to have any harsh impacts on the breasts, and in the next few days you should be able to go back to a normal routine. However, keep a good eye on it for the next few months. If anything pops up, just stop by here,” She begins to pull off the patch on my finger, and I completely forget that I had gotten a patch art done too. I smile at the small design, and thank her.

 “Elisa, and it was a pleasure,” She smiles, shaking my hand as I get ready to leave.

 I pull the sweater over my head, and stuff my bra into one of the sleeves in my jacket. Em, and Zephryine are done, and gathering their stuff as the artist that’s working on Eric begins to remove his patch on his neck. The color is darker, and more prominent than it normally is. As we all get ready to go, I lean down a bit as I pass Eric.

 “Hope it wasn’t too typical of me,” I shrug, and smirk to myself. He grabs ahold of my bicep, and pulls me closer to him.

 “Be careful who you play with. You won’t like when I play back,” Heat rushes through my body, and I manage to snatch my arm back before there is evidence of my arousal. Em shakes her head, but continues to walk with me.

 “You like to play with fire, girlie. Make sure you don’t get burned,” She warns, but I sense it’s from a sincere, and genuine place so I smile warmly at her.

 “I’ll try not to,” I chuckle, and Zephryine is chuckling in the background.

 I see Caleb running up to us, and we all stop. “War games, 30 mins. Meet near the train,” We all nod in unison, and head off to change.

 Let the War Games Begin.

[707s-headphones]

RFA with MC who blocks people out like Seven does

Bitch same

Yoosung- ^He’s so happy to finally meet you ^You’d been so sweet on the messenger, he didn’t think anything could ever be wrong ^And it wasn’t for a while. You guys were happy, you spent the party together and even got drinks afterward (non alcoholic bc he’s too pure) ^A few weeks later, you stopped responding to the messenger. ^You couldn’t explain why, but you felt like fire, and you couldn’t let him get too close. You couldn’t let him get burned. ^You couldn’t let him get burned ^You couldn’t let him get burned ^He deserved better than you anyway. You always did get people hurt somehow. ^He was too pure to get burned ^Yoosung is worried out of his mind ^“Why isn’t MC online? Is she ok? Is she alive? Seven is she okay where is she why is this happening wHAT DO I DO TO GET GER BACK WHAT IF SHE’S DEAD?!?!?!” ^Eventually Seven gives up and tells Yoosung your address (he got things hooked up at your house so you could leave the apartment and go home) ^hE LEGIT RUNS THERE HE HAS NO TIME TO WAIT FOR ANYTHING ^He forgets to knock and just crashes open the door ^“MC ARE YOU OKAY WHAT’S GOING ON” ^“Go away. I don’t want to hurt you.” ^Um??? What?? ^Didn’t believe you could ever hurt him ^“M-MC? What do you mean” ^“Don’t you see it? I’m fire. I’ll warm you when you’re close, but get too close and you’ll get burned.” ^Baby is so confused ^“You could never hurt me, I doubt you could ever hurt anything.” ^“Don’t say that so easily. You’ve known me a couple weeks, I’ve known me my whole life.” ^He’s kinda spooked cause you haven’t moved anything but your mouth and you’re speaking only monotone ^“I may not have known you long, but you’ve still shown me your heart, and your heart is good. You shine like the sun to me. I’ve never believed for a second you were a bad person, and I don’t now. Please let your heart stay with me. Please don’t let my sun turn cold.” ^Eventually, you get over it. You two just cuddle for the rest of the night and he doesn’t leave for 3 days until you make him go to classes again. ^Like Rika and V, you guys call each other your sun. ^You never let his sun go cold again.

Zen *Hooooly shit *He saves you from Unknown and brings you to his house for protection *He figures you’ll recover from the shock with time *Oh boy is he wrong *You shut down. Completely. *“Jagiya~ can I help you at all” *-silence- *“Ok, if you need your space, I’ll give you that. Tell me when you’re ready.” *He’s so sweet, honestly *It only makes you worse tbh *Because he’s sweet. Because he’s talented. Because people love him. Because the world is a better place with him in it. *Because Unknown is after you. *Zen could’ve been seriously hurt. *He could’ve fucking died. *You couldn’t let that happen. You couldn’t be near him until you were safe, otherwise he wasn’t safe. *One night when he’s asleep, you try to leave. You quickly scratch a note saying “You’re safer this way. Until the hacker is caught, I’m dangerous. Don’t follow me, please. I care for you too much.” *Of course while you’re writing that. Zen wakes up. *“MC? What’s the fuss about? Why are you still awake?” *He comes up behind you and sees what you’re writing. *You want to run, but you can’t bring yourself to. *He doesn’t say anything for a while, just hugs you from behind until you aren’t stiff anymore *After that though, he’s still very sweet *“MC, I fought him off once and I can do it again.” *“That might not be true. He could come back worse. He will come back worse.” *“I’ll fight him off a million times, each worse than the last, as long as you’re by my side, MC. When my heart beats, it beats for you. When I sing, I sing for you now. You’re my muse, MC.” *That convinces you to stay. * Moonlit slow dancing

Jaehee []She’s so stressed all the time []You love her so much []She says you’re a source of comfort from that, but you aren’t sure []Relationships are hard work []Wouldn’t she be better off without your pointless fights about who’s doing the dishes or which Zen CD you’re watching that night? []Wouldn’t she be better off without that stress? []You don’t know where to go yet, so for now, you just shut down. []“Babe, how was your day?” You hear when she gets home []“Fine.” []“How are you?” []“Fine.” []“Why again didn’t you come to the cafe?” []-silence- []“MC? You sure you’re ok?” []“Fine. Don’t worry about me.” []She knew something was up []After all, she was anything but dumb []“MC, please tell me what’s wrong.” She begged, clasping her hands around yours. []You looked away. []“Nothing. Go enjoy yourself. I’ll make dinner. I’ll do the dishes.” []You hated every word. You knew you were worrying her more, but eventually she’d stop caring. Then she’d be ok. []“I can’t enjoy myself with you like this. Forgive me, but you sound like I did when I was trying not to get in the way during Mr. Han’s meetings.” []“That sounds stressful. I’m glad you’re not there anymore.” []“I still would be if not for you, MC. You gave me that courage.” []That catches you. []You gave her the courage to leave. []You break down and tell her your plan []“Oh, MC. You’re the least stressful thing in my whole life, you have been since we met. You built me up when I needed courage, you were by my side when I needed support and you were speaking when I needed kind words.” []You never worry about being stressful for her again

Jumin $Jumin was off on a business trip $He was away for work a lot, you were used to it. You loved him and you trusted that he would always love you. $But the trips became more frequent, and some voice in the back of your mind said $“He’s avoiding you.” $You brushed it off, that would be stupid. $Why would he ever avoid you? $But when he was home, you felt like he was still drowning himself in work. He could’ve easily taken a break, but he didn’t. $Why? $You must not be the same you anymore. He doesn’t confide in you because you’re no longer safe to confide in. $You’re hurting him. $You’re hurting him by remaining in his life. $You tuck yourself in a far corner of the penthouse. $You hope he never finds you. You aren’t sure you’ll be able to leave without guards following you so you need to find an escape route first. $You could get Elizabeth to go missing again, but you couldn’t do that to Jumin. This was all for him, after all. $To your surprise, almost immediately you start to hear him calling for you. $“MC? MC?! Oh god where is she… why isn’t she here… GUARDS! I need all of you looking for MC right now. I don’t care about anything else. Oh god… oh god… oh god…” $Tentatively, you come out of hiding. $The moment Jumin sees you, he rushes over and hugs you for a long time. $“You’re… happy? To find me?” You asked slowly. $“Of course. I panicked when you were not in your usual spot. I may have overreacted a bit, but it brought you back.” $“I was planning to leave. You were so deep in work, I thought you were avoiding me.” $You wondered how panicked he’d been if he was, $“I’m so sorry. Work has been so much harder. I wanted it to be a surprise but… my father is stepping down. I’m going to be company chairman, and I’ve been trying to meet everyone my father worked with before and learn to take his position.” $“I thought you already knew how?” $“I’ve been the director until now. I was slowly learning to be chairman alongside my responsibilities, but my father is retiring sooner than planned because… $“Why?” $“Because he thinks it will pressure me to come up with another company heir…” $You smirk, having regain all your trust in him $“I think we can come up with one.”

Saeyoung~ 7He shut down first 7Which caused you to back off 7Your thought process being that he had enough to worry about. You were only distracting him. You were a challenge he needed to overcome. 7You tried to make overcoming it a lot easier by disappearing. 7He didn’t notice for a while, just glad you were leaving him alone. 7He figured you were safe and happy 7Why wouldn’t you be? 7You were neither of those things. 7You were a thorn bush, and he would bleed if you didn’t disappear. 7You were an ocean, and he’d drown if he didn’t get to shore. 7You wanted to disappear. 7You needed to disappear. 7You would destroy yourself until you disappeared. 7Your mind was a dark whirlpool, pulling you into this crushing, toxic void. 7Seven didn’t notice until he looked up and realized he hadn’t seen you get something to eat in a while. 7He still forced himself to ignore it. Why wouldn’t you be eating? You were safe, he knew that. 7Oh buddy boy was he wrong 7He only started to pay attention when at night when he figured you’d be asleep. 7But he heard breathing besides his own. 7It was raspy. 7You hadn’t gotten water either. 7He checks to see where it’s coming from. 7He finds you curled up in a ball in a different corner. You don’t even look up when you see him, but he watches you tense up even more. 7"What the hell, MC?! What are you doing?!“ 7Not the right time to stay cold, palarino. 7"Don’t… pay attention… to me…” You croaked. “I’m… fine… I will… disappear…” 7It seemed like every word put you in pain. 7Your voice didn’t even sound like yours. 7"What the fuck?“ 7He stops you from speaking again until he gets you water. 7His heart is about to break honestly, he just wanted you to be okay. 7"Okay now answer me: What the hell are you doing?” 7"You need to work. You need to focus. I am an obstacle. I stopped you from doing your agency work, I’ll distract you here. I must disappear so that you can work and be ok. I must not exist so that I don’t get in your way.“ You said it like it was fact, like it had always been true. 7He hates himself so much 7What’s new? 7He glumly thought that he had to take his own advice- don’t judge people by how they are online. 7"MC. Listen to me. Don’t you dare disappear. Don’t. Please.” 7It was like you couldn’t hear him. 7He could hear you quietly start repeating “I must disappear,” over and over. 7What had he done? 7He sat next to you and curled in a ball as well. 7"If you disappear, the world might lose its color. If you disappear, I’m afraid no one might ever laugh again, or smile again. You brought all of that to me, you must bring it to the rest of the world. You are light and you are faith. As long as I know you’re safe, I can do anything.“ 7Now you couldn’t speak a word at all. 7He wasn’t sure if that was better or worse. 7Eventually, he felt you relax, like you couldn’t even hold yourself up anymore. Your arms fell away from your knees, you just kind of went limp. 7He knew that at least was a good sign. 7You just sort of stayed there for a while, next to each other. Seven eventually guides you into resting on his lap, and strokes your hair until you fall asleep. 7He can’t bear to see you like that. 7He never pushes you away again, it seems more dangerous than being with him. 7Soon, he falls asleep with you in his lap. 7You two could’ve stayed like that until the end of time.