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[chitownwolf]

Prompt: Touch Starved Carlos…that’s it. but seriously! I’ve read only a handful of touch starved TK fics, but I don’t recall ANY for Carlos. Imagine this: when TK holds Carlos hand, he gets very tense and skittish and withdrawn. TK tries to touch him but every time is met with hesitation and even anxiety. Since TK can’t touch him-

Oooh this sounds so interesting to do! Now that I think about it, I don’t think I’ve read any Touch-Starved!Carlos either, so I’m excited to write this one!

Y’all know the drill, send in ideas!

[anon911andbuddie]

Why is the google document for prompts the way it is with such random writing by an alleged 17 year old?

No idea but I’ll see if I can fix it!

If not I’ll just do a new one!

-Wolva 🐺

[chitownwolf]

Any new stories coming up?

I’m working on a short one rn, just to try to get back in the swing of things. It’s a Tarlos short story

And I’m high key using it to cope and work through my grief from my grandma.

[chitownwolf]

I miss your fic updates 😭 😭 😭 I hope you are okay

Thank you so much

It’s been a very turbulent year

I graduated college

I’m working a full time job

And many good things

But I recently lost my grandma

I’ve lost interest in a lot of things

Including writing

But I’ve been getting back into it

I promise I’ll never stop trying

[chitownwolf]

Got any Buddie fic lined up for the future?

WORKING ON ONE RIGHT NOW! HERE'S A PREVIEW!

Title: All the time (I go back to December)

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“I don’t what to say anymore” Buck says and Eddie nods sadly. “I have to go”

“Im sorry…about that day. On Christmas I mean. Im sorry for dropping that bomb on everyone, I wished I did it differently, but I can’t. I’m sorry I ruined Christmas for you” Buck doesn’t say anything, merely nods and sighs.

“Its…not ok. But what can you do?” Buck says resigned.

“Buck…” Eddie practically whines out in sadness. He reaches out and grips Buck’s hands. “Please I-“ Buck gently pulls his hands out of the grip. To Eddie, it feels like he was smacked.

“Eddie…I don’t know what you want from me”

“I-I want my best friend back. I want us back”

“We haven’t been best friends in a while Eddie. Even before Christmas, there hasn’t been an us in a long time. And I get you had to take a step back, I do understand why you did it. But I just…I wish you let me have your back with this.”

“Buck-“

“Eddie…please. I-I need to leave. I can’t be here with you right now”

“Then when? I need to see you, I need to…to make things right with you Buck. I miss you…and that’s the truth. I miss you, even when we were apart, I missed you” Buck looks like he wants to say something, anything. But he just…can’t.

“I don’t know”

“Then can we at least meet later?”

“I don’t know! I don’t know anything anymore. All I know is that seeing you right now? It hurts Eddie, a lot ok? Going from seeing you everyday, working together then not talking as much then to you completely ghosting me? It’s too much for me right now”

“I…understand” Eddie has no one but to blame for the past three months but himself. He says nothing as Buck adjusts the strap of his bag on his shoulder and leaving. Eddie doesn’t look up until he hears a car door close. He watches Buck disappear up the street and swears he feels his eyes on the rearview mirror.

[chitownwolf]

This might be out of left field, but am I the only one that thinks Buck and Carlos would make the ABSOLUTE most amazing couple? As much as I love Buddie and Tarlos, I can see Buck treating Carlos like a king and vice versa. We haven’t seen any fanfics with them and I really would like to see that.

I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE?!?!

I'M NOT ALONE!!

But in all seriousness, I would GIVE ANYTHING to see this! I haven't seen this ship in ANY fanfics, so a little sad about that...

- Buck and Carlos would treat each other like KINGS!

- Buck would be there and listen to everything that Carlos has to say.

- I feel like Buck can cook, he just doesn't know a lot and Carlos can be the one to teach him!

- Carlos cooking veggie/vegan meals for him?!

- Buck...OF ALL PEOPLE WOULD UNDERSTAND PROBLEMS WITH PARENTS?!

- GROWING UP AND FEELING INVISIBLE BECAUSE OF WHO YOU WERE

- It may be a little different because Carlos doesn't have any siblings (as far as we know), and he grew up alone, no-one understanding him because he was so different from the rest of his family.

- They would cuddle THE SHIT out of each other (Rafa is presumably 5'10-11 and Stark is 6'2)

- Carlos would SWIM in his clothes

- Buck likes the slightly tighter clothes cause it makes him feel safe

- IDK why but I get touch-starved vibes from Carlos and WE KNOW that Buck is very physically affectionate. Carlos would LOVE EVERY SECOND OF IT

- WHAT WOULD THEIR SHIP NAME BE?!?!

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I HAVE SO MANY MORE HEADCANONS THAT I WOULD LOVE TO EXPLORE IN A FUTURE FIC.

Plus I've always wanted to use the song Happier by Olivia Rodrigo in a fic ever since I heard it!

[chitownwolf]

Chapters: ½ Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: Mature Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings, No Archive Warnings Apply Summary: “I’m leaving the 118”
That was three months ago, and Eddie is at a loss. His son is happy, but Eddie can see that it’s fake. He doesn’t like his job at dispatch, and he misses Buck more than anyone. Especially when he knows that he and Buck haven’t talked…at all. Not for a while…not since Christmas. When Eddie dropped that bomb on everyone, when thinking back to December, he wished he could do things differently, but not at the same time.
But now, three months later, he’s desperate to talk to Buck again, mend their broken relationship, and to gain back the trust they lost. And he’s desperate to get his son to open to him.
Or:
Three months after Eddie left, he realizes that he unintentionally left some important people behind. He helps them and himself. He just hopes it’s not too late for them. Especially when Buck’s mental health is on the decline
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[chitownwolf]

You know the episodes of Mom where Christy gets addicted to gambling? Love to see a story where TK needs to feel something (after mom) but he refuses to get drugs or alcohol so he resorts to gambling. Starts off harmless but spirals. He ends up needing money so he sells something from Tarlos’ house. Ends up being something very important to Carlos, he has to get it back. U or someone else can write if comfortable.

My heart!!!

I may write this?

Anyone else feel free to take/write/improve and change.

[chitownwolf]

Can I get a snippet of a story? Sad Tarlos breakup with Olivia R.’s Traitor?

You betrayed me And I know that you'll never feel sorry For the way I hurt, yeah You'd talk to her When we were together Loved you at your worst But that didn't matter

It took you two weeks To go off and date her Guess you didn't cheat But you're still a traitor

It happened after the farmer's market. TK stormed into their home, packed up some things, and left without hearing Carlos out. Carlos called, texted, and even tried to contact Owen, but no response.

TK found himself in LA.

He found Buck.

They went out to have fun.

TK didn’t relapse.

He took a picture with Buck and posted it to Instagram.

In a lapse in judgment, he captioned the post “To New Relationships ❤️”. Without double-checking the spelling he posted it.

He spent the night with Buck, on the couch, they didn’t have sex. They didn’t kiss, they didn’t even hold hands.

TK woke up to many missed calls and messages from the 126, his dad, and even Carlos. Just one text message and it brought his whole world down.

Not even a week and you’re moving on? You didn’t even tell me we were done.

TK is rushing out the door of Buck’s place. Not even bothering to say goodbye. He’s on a plane back to Austin, all his calls and messages to Carlos are ignored. His foot bounced up and down in anticipation. He doesn’t want to break up with Carlos.

It was just a misunderstanding.

He felt insecure about Carlos’ parents. Thinking they weren’t solid, but now? There may be nothing to go home to.

He knocks on the door and almost breaks when he sees Carlos’ red-rimmed face with tears. He says nothing as more tears well up and spills down his face.

“Carlos-” TK steps forward but Carlos takes a step back before shutting the door.

He tried again later.

“What do you want?” Carlos asks, voice thick of tears.

“We’re just friends”

“Sure as hell doesn’t look like it. Not even a week TK?. How long have you been talking?”

“It’s not like that. Carlos, I swear! I-”

“I thought it was a joke…but I guess not. But it’s funny isn’t it?”

“…what is?” TK asks, sniffing.

"I thought...there's no way that TK would do that to me. Not the man I fell in love with. But I guess I was wrong. I thought there's no damn way that you could be with somebody that quickly..."

"I didn't cheat-"

"But you're still a traitor...god. I wish that I thought this through before I fell in love with you"

"I love you" TK says quietly.

"You gave me your word that he meant nothing...guess that doesn't mean shit now"

"Can we fix this?" TK asks, numbness spreading over his body.

"I don't think so...and the reason I didn't tell my parents is because of them...not you. But I know you're not sorry for what you did." Carlos reaches out and silently asks for his key back. TK hands it over without fuss.

"I love you Carlos"

"Goodbye TK" Carlos says before quietly shutting the door.

TK knows he'll never forget the way he betrayed the man he loves.

God, I wish that you had thought this through Before I went and fell in love with you (Ah-ah-ah) When she's sleeping in the bed we made Don't you dare forget about the way

You betrayed me 'Cause I know that you'll never feel sorry For the way I hurt, yeah

[chitownwolf]

1/2: Can I have a fic where because of maddie leaving, Chim falls into a deep state of depression where he is unable to care for Jee Yun since he stopped taking care of himself. Another person he loved has left him. JY goes into Buck's custody, who feels betrayed but is resigned to maddie leaving again. He does he absolute best to raise JY but tries to get through to chim, but is unable to since he's too far gone. Maddie comes back years later, but is shocked to know that JY isn't with Chim but-

AHHHHHHHHHHHH

Why you hurt me like this?! But also this is like Clannad After Story?!

I know chim would never do that to his daughter, but we know that depression can affect people in many different ways. We do not stand Maddie slander in this house...

But I want to write this so bad...

I'll do it but people need to send me ideas.

[chitownwolf]

Can I ask? I saw ur Tarlos!AU after meeting the parents. Can I ask how it’s going? And can I maybe ask ur takes on it?

Sure you can ask!! So full disclosure, I haven’t actually written anything yet cause I’m so busy with work! I work from 8-5 then more time on computer checking over all my students! But I already have so many ideas! And more are welcome!

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-TK lets his insecurities take over after Carlos introduced him to his parents as his friend instead of boyfriend. Instead of talking it out, he runs. He books a flight to LA where he stays with Buddie for a while. Buck manages to talk to him.

- Buck is flabbergasted at the way TK treated the situation. He then tells TK (trying not to yell) that not everything is about him. TK is surprised at the fact that Buck is not on his side. Buck then points out that TK never stuck around to hear his side of the story.  that instead of listening to his boyfriend, like partners are supposed to do, he assumed and then he just left.

- while buck can acknowledge how the situation may TK feel, he points out that it’s not fair to Carlos either. Eddie then steps in and gives TK another perspective.

- Eddie points out that though he (Carlos) may be out to his parents, his parents may not accept him.  this throws TK for a loop because he never considered the cultural aspect of coming out as a minority. Buck politely but firmly points out that though it’s different for everybody TK, as someone who is not a minority has to acknowledge that it’s difficult for other people to come out. 

- Eddie then asks TK if he’s ever had this conversation with Carlos, and TK can feel the disappointment coming out of buck and Eddie when he shakes his head no. Eddie storms out of the room while saying that “it’s not always about you” to TK before leaving the house. 

- TK wonders if he did something to upset him and Buck reassured him that it’s just the situation. Because he’s had this conversation with Eddie several times and that’s why they work so well together. 

-  before TK has a chance to process everything that just happened, he gets a call from a Texas hospital saying that Carlos is in the ICU. 

-  when TK gets home, the hospital tells him that Carlos tried to commit suicide and Michelle was the one that found him. 

- Michelle verbally lashes out at TK, demanding to know where he’s been and what he possibly could have done to cause Carlos to do this.

I can’t reveal too much, but sometime in the aftermath:

- TK is terrified for so many reasons. He’s afraid of what happened to his boyfriend when he was gone, he’s mad at himself for leaving when he shouldn’t have in the first place, and he’s  devastated when Carlos doesn’t want to see him while he’s in the psych ward. 

-  but most of all, he’s terrified that he lost and ruined the greatest thing that’s ever happened to him.

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So while this is the Carlos centric story, I am going to be focusing on TK’s emotions in the aftermath. If anyone has more ideas on this and you please send it my way and I hope to actually start writing it soon! It’s hard being an orientation leader for over 15,000 new students! 

[chitownwolf]

It’s the first day of August and I’m sitting in bed crying at the fact that TK didn’t even stay to let Carlos explain why he introduced him as his friend.

And even when Carlos said that not everyone is as supportive as TK’s parents…HE STILL LEFT

“The self-centered caucacity of this bitch…don’t you think as a gay man, he would have understood why he was introduced as a friend instead of boyfriend?”

-bestie in bed next to me

*finds out Alex (TK’s ex) is black”

“😦AND HE STILL WALKED AWAY!?”

*I tell her about The Big Heat*

“So we just ok with physical violence?”

*learns that there are people defending TK’s actions in that episode*

“WTF!? THEY JUST OK WITH DOMESTIC ABUSE!? Hozier would not approve. THAT’S NOT THE POINT OF CHERRY WINE!”

*we both relate to Carlos more than TK as queer Latinx people w/parents who don’t talk about things like being queer. And we feel safer not coming out rn*

[chitownwolf]

Can we get a preview of your LS coda?

Sure! Here’s what I have for one part

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“How could you?”

“How could I what TK?”

“How can you still want to be with someone like me? I hurt you...I’ve been hurting you so much in our relationship. When we first got together, after the farmers market, and now I’ve put my hands on you. I shoved you. I’ve hurt you emotionally and now I’ve hurt you physically...and you’re still here. How can you still be with me after everything I’ve done to you?” TK asks, out of breath, hands shaking and his eyes bright with tears.

“You want the honest answer?” Carlos asks, looking up to TK, who nods.

“I don’t know...maybe there’s something wrong with me. That I can forgive you so easily. I know you hurt me, you didn’t let me explain anything about my parents before you just left...You said you weren’t sorry about how you reacted, it made me think that you weren’t sorry about hurting me. For saying something so hurtful. I thought we can move past it, but that along with you shoving me? I would have left a long time ago...but I can’t. Because I still care about you, because I still love you...no matter how much you’ve hurt me in the past” Carlos gets up from the chair and leans on the balcony, his back turned to TK.

“You shouldn’t be with me Carlos-”

“I know I shouldn’t...I can’t help but keep coming back to you, I know you didn’t mean to shove so hard, but I’m still here. You’re one of the best relationships I’ve had in a long time TK. I still want to be with you...maybe it’s because it’ll hurt more to lose you than to keep hurting me.” TK hesitantly stands up and goes to stand next to Carlos, looking out at the distant skyline of the city.

“Carlos...I’m so sorry for how I acted at the firehouse...I promise that-”

“Don’t!” Carlos exclaims suddenly, taking a step back from TK. “Do-you cannot promise that you won’t hurt me again”

“W-why not?” TK asks desperately.

“Because that’s what they all say. They promise not to hurt you again until it does happen again. Then it’s I didn’t mean to hurt you, I didn’t mean to shove you, I didn’t mean to break your arm...I didn’t mean to hit you! Y-you can’t promise something like that to me...I can’t go through broken promises again.”

“W-what do you mean again?” TK asks in quiet alarm.

Carlos can’t meet his gaze.

[chitownwolf]

CHAPTER 2 IS FINALLY UP!

(Don't mind me but I got a little political in here on social justice issues regarding women and POC)

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[chitownwolf]

Chapters: 1/2 Fandom: 9-1-1: Lone Star (TV 2020) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Carlos Reyes/TK Strand, Buttercup & Carlos Reyes (9-1-1 Lone Star), Buttercup & TK Strand, Firehouse 126 Crew & Carlos Reyes (9-1-1 Lone Star)

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I know this won't be popular as my other stories, but I do hope you enjoy it. As it's a chance for you to know another part of my story.I ask that you please be considerate on your comments. They mean a lot to me, but I do not think I'm in the right mental state to receive hate or bash on my past trauma. This story was very hard to write, and I think it took a toll on my mental health, so I hope for recovery before continuing. Now for my story, my cousin was not physically abusive, more mentally and emotionally abusive. He hated the fact that I was pan, but I finally cut him off after years, and I live with my dad for now (he accepts me).

Give me some time before I upload the next chapter plz. ❤️

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[chitownwolf]

Now that we’ve seen Buck Begins, does any of his backstory fit into Through it all??

ACTUALLY ALL OF IT CAN BE FIT INTO IT!!! I can’t really say how because that would be spoilers but I’m already halfway done through the current chapter and I do apologize that it’s taking so long