#wish me luck cuz i might just die idk

[perfectlyoongi-main]

i have 4 shows this weekend 🥲 i wont b able to sing by the end of saturday how am i supposed to talk on sunday

[destinyc1020]

My unpopular opinion is that I wanted Austin back with Vanessa, the Hollywood industry is cutthroat, you'd be hard pressed to find someone that cares for you genuinely, during the good times and the bad times, whether that be friends, partners, staff that work for you, and I'm sorry to Kaia and I'm not on no hating shit but I just don't think she'd glance at Austin twice if it wad 5yrs ago and you can argue if he did Vanessa wrong or not but I just don't think he'd be able to find a person that likes him for himself and not what his name brings to the table from now on. I hope the best of luck and happiness to Vanessa, she deserves to move on with her life and get the things she wants from this fickle thing we call life, it sucks its not with Austin but yea I just wish them both to find happiness and peace, it's just weird to see things play out and feel like it's all completely wrong and could blow out on their face 👀👀

Chiiiiiiiillllle...... You should have waited to post this in the "Confession Sunday" time slot cuz I can see you getting a lot of backlash for saying this! 😂

But to be honest?? And this is just #RealTalk and me being 100% honest here.... I actually agree w/you.

Vanessa loved that man to death. It was clear as day. She was his ride-or-die chick lol. 😅 They were like best friends. 🥺 You can see it with just about any picture you see of the two of them. They were also with each other through many hard times and milestones in each of their personal lives. Idk if you quite forget that?? I'm not a huge-huge fan of hers (esp after she's been throwing him shade 👀), but I definitely trusted Austin with Vanessa more than with Kaia. Idk how much I trust that Gerber family. 👀

and I'm sorry to Kaia and I'm not on no hating shit but I just don't think she'd glance at Austin twice if it wad 5yrs ago and you can argue if he did Vanessa wrong or not but I just don't think he'd be able to find a person that likes him for himself and not what his name brings to the table from now on.

THIS. ☝🏾

That's pretty clearly obvious lol. Plus, her family has an obsession with Elvis for some reason lol, so perhaps any actor that was playing the late singer would have been appealing to her? 😅

Look....I'm not going to sit here and pretend like I know what happened in their relationship, but Austin and Vanessa started dating when he was 19 and she was 22/23?? So, sometimes, people just grow and eventually want different things in life. It's clear she wanted to settle down and marry, have kids, etc... and maybe he wanted that too (they were talking about engagement before they split up), but maybe he wasn't in a spot in his life where he felt ready for that? Maybe he was suuuuuper stressed w/Elvis preparation? Who knows? 🤷🏾‍♀️

Just because two people break up, it doesn't automatically mean that something awful was the cause of the breakup.

Since they were together for about 9 years, I would hope that they at least have remained SOMEWHAT friends or on a cordial level. Some fans have said that Austin himself has stated that he and Vanessa are still relatively close. So... go figure? 🤷🏾‍♀️

Either way, I agree with you... Something seems off/all wrong about his current relationship imo. W/RE: to Vanessa... It really should have been him... And I'm sure Vanessa thought it would be too. But hey, sometimes, life throws you curveballs! 😅

As long as Vanessa is happy with Cole, then I'm happy for her. 😊 Vanessa deserves to be happy and move on with her life, and I'm sure Austin realizes that too, even if it might feel a bit weird for him. I'm not sure how long she and Cole will last (mainly due to the age gap👀) but hey....I wish her/them the best!

[cloudcountry]

My sea bunny asked about my favorite franchise????? My wife wants to know about TES????? I get to talk about my special interest without being called names by my brother???????

AAAHAHHAHHAHHA YAAAAYYYYYY

Ok ok ok!! I got this!!!!

I'll talk about the newer games because I know the most about them!

The Elder Scrolls are a series of games made by Bethesda where you explore a fantasy world on a continent called tamriel on Nirn (the mortal plane), also called Mundus for much of its history, it has been divided into the nine provinces of Black Marsh, Cyrodiil, Elsweyr, Hammerfell, High Rock, Morrowind, Skyrim, the Summerset Isles, and Valenwood. Every game has been focused on these provinces, but you also occasionally go to the relms of oblivion. Oblivion are the other collections of relms where daedra reside, daedra are demonic entities (however evil is in the eye of the beholder so let's just call them tricky and bored because they live forever and come back when they die)

The playable races are Altmer, Argonians, Bosmer, Bretons,Dunmer,Imperials, Khajiit , Nords, Orsimer, and Redguards however there are many more nonplayable races.

There are beastfolk, man, and mer.

Beastfolk for playable races are Argonians (who look like lizards and people at the same time) and Khajiit (who look like cats but have many sub races that all look different according to what moon cycle they where born on, there are two moons named Masser and Secunda. Masser is the larger of the two, well over twice as large)

Mer, also known as elves for playable races, are Altmer (high elves), Bosmer (wood elves), Dunmer (dark elves), and Orsimer (they are orcs but still count under elves to most people)

Man (typical humans in our world) are Bretons, Imperials, Nords, and Redguards.

Then there are the Nine Divines

Akatosh – The Dragon God of Time and Chief god of the Pantheon

Arkay – God of the Cycle of Life and Death, and burials and funeral rites

Dibella – Goddess of Beauty and Love

Julianos – God of Wisdom and Logic

Kynareth – Goddess of Air, Wind, Sky, and the Elements

Mara – Goddess of Love and compassion

Stendarr – God of compassion, mercy, justice,charity,luck,and righteous rule by might and merciful forbearance (he and his worshipers don't like daedra)

Talos – Hero-god of Mankind,conqueror God,God of Might, Honor,State, Law, and Man (the Altmer don't like Nords worshiping him and try to stop it during Skyrim)

Zenithar – God of Work and Commerce, Trader God

They are considered the "good" gods and are commonly worshiped by the general public.

The Deadra, however, are thought by most as bad and/or dangerous with the exception of the "good" daedra Azura, Boethiah, and Mephala. Who are worshiped by the Dunmer.

All the daedric princes (gods) are as follows:

Azura - Twilight, Prophecy

Boethiah - Conspiracy, Deceit, Unlawful overthrow of authority

Mephala - Lies, Sex, Secrets, murder

Clavicus vile - The granting of power through pacts and wishes (one of my favorites, he also works with his shape-shifting hound Barbas, who is a part of him)

Hermaeus Mora - Fate, Knowledge, Learning, Memory (another favorite he talks annoyingly slow though)

Hircine - Hunting

Jyggalag - Order (he is confined in Sheogorath because he was too powerful, and the others didn't like [and perhaps even feared] him)

Sheogorath - Madness (also a favorite, so silly!)

Malacath - The Spurned, the Sworn Oath, the Bloody Curse (don't ask me what that means cuz idk he's an orc though and calls them his siblings, not that bad compared to the rest)

Mehrunes Dagon - Destruction, Revolution, Change (I don't like this guy he killed my husband).

Meridia - Living things (hates undead and is incredibly annoying)

Molag Bal - Domination, Enslavement, and no, no touching (I HATE HATE HATE THIS GUY!!!!)

Namira - Darkness, all things repulsive (a cannibal but stays in her lane and doesn't really bother me)

Nocturnal - Night, darkness (worshiped by thieves)

Peryite - Ordering of the lowest orders of Oblivion, Pestilence (considered the weakest but is still really powerful)

Sanguine - Hedonism, Debauchery, Indulgence (drunk uncle vibes)

Vaermina - Dreams, Nightmares,omens

The daedric princes deal with mortals the most.

But also have also tried to take over Nirn out of boredom many times, the games take place during those times (not all of them but a lot of them have)

Dagon tried to in the game Oblivion (he killed my husband Martin :'( )

In Skyrim, however, they didn't try to take over Nirn. Dragons did, though.

My favorite game is online, where Molag Bal tried to, in the dlc's more tried as well.

I'm getting really hungry, so I'm gonna stop here, but I might rant more later if you still want it.

ANGELFIIIIISH THIS SOUNDS SO COOL!!!! THE WORLD BUILDING SOUNDS AMAZING????? the SECOND i get home i'm checking this out OMG.

julianos is the divine that caught my eye, wisdom and logic sound cool as hell WGHDIEHUDJEH

sanguine's drunk uncle vibes have me intrigued, and vaermina sounds SO COOL TOO LIKE NIGHTMARES???? HELLO WHAT!!!!!

imagine taking over the world bc you're bored LMAO they sound so goofy

I WOULD LOVE FOR YOU TO TELL ME MORE PLS <3 make sure you eat a nice meal and drink water too okay?

[napps-resting-forest]

Just an anxiety rant abt my squish at school don't mind this

Holy fucking shit okay SO

Theres this person in my Monday class that I have a squish on and they're really pretty and cool right? I keep ending up glancing over at them and they'd sometimes catch me looking at them which makes me die a bit on the inside and I think they know I wanna talk to them or at least think I'm weird for keep looking at them ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ I could be completely imagining this and I might be delulu but at some point I think I saw them looking at me too in my peripheral vision few times.

One day I happen to find their insta account and I'm like "OFHOJAGOFJAOBOSNOD" cuz they look v attractive in their photos. I saw that my friend follows them and liked one of their posts so I decided to like what my friend liked cuz idk I felt safer that way lmao. Seconds later- I shit u not, SECONDS later they followed me.

I don't use my real name on my socials but I think they might know it's me💀 Either they followed me cuz they know who I am or cuz they like my art (I rlly fucking hope it's the latter)

This all happened last week and it wasnt until today I followed them back 😭 AAAAUUGGHHH I FEEL LIKE A LOSER HOLY FUCK they're gonna think I'm so weird for following them back a week later

Update: apparently they play arknights so maybe I'll try smth with that but idk how well it'll go..wish me luck lmao

[teresa-moyocoyotzin]

short recap of my thoughts on 5x09

okay so i was gonna rewatch the whole episode and do a blow-by-blow reaction post but i’m not sure i’ll have time and i kinda wanna focus on watching my fave scenes from the show before tonight. also, everyone else’s reaction posts p. much sum up my thoughts lol 

nonetheless, i just wanted to give my main takeaways on the episode a week later, in case anyone cares where i’m at going into the finale! gonna go over the things i liked first, anyone who wants to just remain positive and not see any salty takes might wanna just stick to reading the first part b/c i definitely rant a bit at the end lmao. we’re still having a fun time tho 😂

THINGS I LOVED

- i mean... i think we know LOL

- obviously. i loved james and teresa’s i love you scenes, and kisses, and OOF THAT SEX SCENE. if someone had told me we were gonna get that scene back in like 2017??? i probably would have started literally floating. i totally respect that people had very specific ideas of what they wanted out of those scenes and could have different feelings about it but NOT ME BABES I AM ECSTATIC!!! i did go into the episode with a ~feeling~ that we were gonna get at least one ILY in the episode, and i just had a feeling it would be james, or at least that he would say it first. i’ve already explained in my meta about the scenes why i think it makes sense that he said it first and why i love it that he did, so i won’t go into that here. but i went in having really no expectations for it other than that it was gonna happen! i was debating about whether it would happen really casually while they’re talking, or in like a big action scene, or really dramatic or what, and what i would prefer, and i came to the conclusion that i would love it no matter what lol, but i was really into the idea of james just. fucking. saying it. while they’re just talking about something really casually. so therefore i was pretty happy with it when we got sort of a mix! they’re talking about teresa’s insane death trap of a plan so there’s that drama of “i don’t want to lose you esp. not before saying ILY” kinda thing, but it’s also just. so simple and sure! and then teresa’s i love you is like the perfect scene for me where one character is super focused on something else (in this case, trying to protect the woman he loves! agh!) and the other is just like.. i love you!!!! SO GOOD

- let’s see, what the hell else happened in this ep?

- oh okay i really liked james and teresa’s vibes this episode, they were so focused on each other and had this very ride-or-die feeling about them like they knew that each of their plans was increasingly stupid and desperate and might not even get them where they wanna go, but they were IN IT TOGETHER no matter what 😭i wish we had gotten a callback to that line but at this point, i’m p. sure they Know they’re in it together, and we do too. so it’s okay. i love that teresa still asks his input and considers his opinions even if she does her own thing anyways haha 

- oh on that note, i LOVED the moment where their plans to kill Kostya aren’t working and Teresa says something like “If I can meet with him in person, I can kill him myself” and James just has this LOOK that just is the epitome of the “I am in love with a women who is DESIGNED TO STRESS ME OUT” meme lol, it made me giggle, v classic QOTS moment 

- oh and of course, I LOVED that scene with devon and james at the end!!!!!!!! i was also confused about how james was showing all his emotions in that scene esp. since he tries to be stoic about his feelings for Teresa around Devon, but now that i’ve read a few people’s thoughts about, it i’m fully on board w the theory that james and teresa already knew this was coming, b/c they’re smart, and b/c james knows devon wouldn’t have let him walk away to save Teresa at the beginning of the season without motivation (like having him in place to kill her when she’s no longer useful to the CIA) and THEREFORE james was sort of “overacting” to make it believable to devon (and the audience lol) that he didn’t know this was coming, didn’t want to do it, but felt like he had to, rather than the fact that they were already plotting a fake death. that makes a lot of sense to me and makes me really love all the layers to that scene. it does give me a little bit of hope that the finale ~teresa’s not really dead~ reveal will be at least a little well executed and not just shoved in at the very end. we shall see though! 

- alright i think that’s what i loved about the episode, if u don’t wanna hear me bitching about the little things then u should probably stop here!! just have to get out some of my saltiness lol 

THINGS I WAS ANNOYED ABOUT

- i’m just gonna get it out of the way, yes, i too was supremely annoyed at the amount of KA and Pote take suburbia; it was all 1000% predictable down to the raccoon and the cookies, and the point could have been accomplished in exactly 1 scene, maybe 2, certainly not like 10 or however many we got. whatever. ugh. 

- okay. OKAY. chicho. we need to talk about chicho. i for one, am not mad that he called pote, my boy was stressed. I AM HOWEVER, mad at the writers for making pote come back after saying he trusted chicho to take care of teresa now. like. it totally devalued THE WHOLE THING!! imo, pote shoulda stayed his ass at home where we had to watch him settle all episode, and chicho should have gotten THE HERO MOMENT HE DESERVED (esp. cuz he’s on first name basis w teresa now??) which ALSO WOULD HAVE MADE THE SCENE WHERE TERESA GIVES CHICHO THE DISTILLERY AND THE BAR SO! MUCH! MORE! MEANINGFUL!!!!! or just made it make sense at all? like .... i’m just so confused by that whole plotline like what was the point? chicho does nothing but call pote and gets T’s whole legacy in NOLA? 

- and don’t even get me started on how it makes ZERO sense that pote would have had to charge in at the last minute to save teresa when JAMES THE SNIPER W AMAZING AIM WHO IS LITERALLY. IN LOVE WITH HER. is standing outside like. ur telling me james and chicho (who again, is supposed to be her #2 after james now) just stood there like “oh hey pote yeah you go ahead we’ll wait here good luck” like WHAT also.. how did pote get past all the guards that made james stay outside? are we meant to believe pote is that sneaky? y’all. it just. doesn’t make sense. this whole plot situation maddens me more than anythings tbh UGH JUST MAKE IT MAKE SENSE 

- oksana’s daughter..... what’s her name again? idk b/c we only MET HER THIS WEEK....okay this amuses me but i’m also annoyed b/c like. there were so many other women who could have taken that spot in the opening sequence... Lil T, Castel, hell even Isabela??? Like idk how they could have done it but they put so much effort into her plot in the first seasons that i really thought she was gonna end up w/ Teresa in the end.. idk that would have been kind cool, Camila’s two “daughters” eventually working their way out of the life together..again idk how they could have realistically done it but i really do wish it had been someone we met before. if it had to be someone new this season, they could have introduced her earlier instead of one of the seemingly dozens of random guys we knew for 1 episode before they died... like.. give her some depth please. is she even gonna be in the finale? honestly she better be after making us listen to pote welcome her into the family... like the family u were supposed to leave so u could have an actual baby pote? the family that’s literally dispersing as we speak? also.. since when did pote love oksana so much anyways? also...... just.. if teresa’s gonna have some sort of daughter figure or whatever she’s supposed to be, wouldn’t it make sense to have her be the one to give the big welcome to the family speech? idk y’all..... i’m amused but also baffled at the sheer lack of planning behind this. did no one realize they needed someone for the opening scene until like. halfway thru the season? did they plan to have it be castel but they couldn’t get her for filming (hence all the weird castel plots?) INQUIRING MINDS WOULD LIKE TO KNOW. it’s whatever tho lol 

- i just hope that what’s-her-name gets a lil bit of plot in the finale esp. since otherwise it might just be pote running around being pissy (i don’t actually think that haha but i am a lil nervous that teresa won’t come back until the last few mins and i’ll have to spend all episode looking at boaz and devon and pote and KA.. i haven’t looked at any spoilers tho so i’m still hopeful! i will probably make a post about my hopes going into the finale a lil later, both realistic and unrealistic :) 

[dream-girls-evil]

Ratched: Episode 6 Reactions

The Aftermath

The search is on!!! Yeah, they really didn’t think this through.

Dolly is a resourceful cookie tho! It’s kinda funny to see Edmund following her lead through all of this.

Oooh an empty farm, lucky them!

I know Gwen is going to be okay, but this is still stressful to watch. And if I didn’t know that she was going to be okay, I’d think this was the turning point where Mildred becomes heartless and decides Edmund needs to die. Well, she still might decide he needs to die.

I know Mildred was probably just going to confess that she’s a lesbian, but I wish it was like, everything. And that she got the chance.

Aw Gwen is trying to smile 😭

Lmao Dolly is so turned on by this whole thing

Ahhh and the real Edmund comes out. He knew what was happening the entire time.

Dolly you DO NOT POINT A SHOTGUN AT SOMEONE

Dolly scares him?? I mean okay valid, don’t wanna be on the run with a wildcard, but it’s not like he’s super trustworthy either

Edmund’s demeanor changes so fast, I really can’t pin him down

Ah so the priest killer has a soft spot for animals

But Dolly is super chill with it all! She def grew up on a farm

Ooh Mildred got a thing about puppets, and I bet she’s going to try to take Gwen to a marionette show, or try to go to one because Gwen wants to, and it’s going to bring back some terrible memory

“Some kids have all the luck” ummm Gwen I don’t think Mildred did tho

Aw Gwen. She’s so sweet and thinks she’s come up with a lovely date for the two of them. She doesn’t realize that the marionettes weren’t a good memory for Mildred.

Gwen. Gwen. Look at the way Mildred is standing. Arms crossed in front of her, avoiding her eyes...please don’t push her into something she doesn’t want to do.

Gwen THAT’S NOT IT!!! She thinks Mildred’s just afraid of being vulnerable and letting herself enjoy something, but that’s not it. The woman is traumatized.

Also maybe you shouldn’t be discussing all of this so loudly???

The Puppet Show

They’re not even going to sit in the back so they don’t block the kids’ view?? Rude!

Wow OF COURSE it’s a story about children whose parents abandon them. yikes.

Oh hey I was right, they are foster siblings

I know she’s probably hallucinating like, most of this, but it’s still unnerving to hear the kids laugh at the abuse

And we already know that they get separated at some point

Aw no this is starting off so happy and something awful is going to happen. Their “parents” are going to be psychos and treat them like living dolls or something aren’t they?

Oh nope EVEN WORSE

Fuck, so this is what Mildred was talking about when she said she’d never do that with him again

Did Mildred leave without him? Ah, so there’s the guilt

Oh fuck she flipped out. Oh honey.

Mildred you need to explain.

Is she gonna tell Gwen the brother was Edmund tho, is the big question, cuz that would change everything.

Is the middle of a restaurant really the best place for this conversation???

Oh man she did tell her!!!

Really? We’re cutting away now? Don’t get to see Gwen’s reaction?

Caught

Dolly you need to be a little more alarmed by all of this!!!

I feel like either there’s people outside and she’ll get killed trying to protect him or if they do get away, he’s gonna kill her himself because she’s too reckless

This is all nauseatingly dramatic. Did he really imagine a normal life for them somewhere in all of this??

Dolly don’t try anything stupid now

Aaand she’s trying something stupid

RIP Dolly

Wait Mildred is back already?? WHAT HAPPENED WITH GWEN?!

Ooh Mildred is MAD. And I mean, with good reason. He disobeyed her and look at the mess they’re both in now.

Fuck the governor’s here? Gwen didn’t tell him anything, did she? She isn’t going to, is she??

Lmao it’s very satisfying to see Betsy disillusioned with Hanover

I would like to slap the governor please

Lol Mildred’s little smile at Gwen’s comment. Don’t get too excited honey; she’s just stating the facts. It doesn’t mean she’s cool with this.

Fuck fuck fuck this is not going according to Mildred’s plan!!!

And I bet Hanover is going to blame Mildred for this

Fuck he’s pulling the funding for the entire hospital?!

“You’re fired. Sorry you got shot.” ASSHOLE.

Hey, where the heck is Lenore?

Thoughts and Theories

So like, really not a fan of the lowkey implication that Mildred’s a lesbian because she was sexually abused as a child, but it’s Murphy, so this is the least of what I expected when I found out that there were going to be wlw characters. And WOW we finally know the whole story about her and Edmund--and more importantly, Gwen knows the whole story about her and Edmund. I still can’t believe we didn’t get to see her full reaction to that! Did she ask any questions? Did they still enjoy the rest of their mini-vacation? What happened?? 

What we do know is this: Gwen has been against the death penalty from the beginning, so her trying to delay the execution does not necessarily mean she’s trying to help Mildred, but, considering the situation...idk. I feel like Gwen would sympathize and because she cares about Mildred, she doesn’t want her to have to watch her brother die. Also, since there’s only two episodes left, and I know they end the season in a relationship, Gwen clearly hasn’t been too put off by this knowledge about Mildred. But the question remains: did Mildred explain all of what she’s been doing at the asylum? That she wants to free Edmund at all? That it was her trusting him to follow her plan that got Gwen shot? I doubt it.

Edmund is still so hard for me to read, and I don’t know why. He’s clearly not a sociopath, just someone filled with a lot of rage, but still the way he switches so fast from acting very menacing and tough to apparently being a romantic who doesn’t consider himself scary is...weird. It’s a lot like Mildred, too, and I’m not sure I’m a fan of this tendency in either of them. Obviously people are multifaceted, and I love characters who are badass and villainous but secretly super soft with the ones they love, but something about the way these two are written, it just doesn’t quite manage to come off as natural. Anyway, what’s more interesting is how he and Mildred differ, and how it’s clearly going to keep causing problems. Where Mildred is calculated, Edmund is impulsive; when she asserts her control, he rebels. There’s clearly been friction between them since the beginning, but after this whole mess there’s only a few ways it can play out. 

1) Mildred’s going to crack down on controlling him, and Edmund will lash out at her and run off on his own again

2) Mildred will blame him for Gwen getting hurt and decide he’s beyond helping, so she’ll let him go to the chair and he’ll escape and want revenge for her betrayal

3) Edmund will realize that he’ll never succeed on his own and want her to protect him, but their desperation over the execution date will likely lead to him ending up back on the run and being hunted because they don’t have time for a better plan

[marshmellowtea]

hey!! im gonna send you a lot of charas, you can answer them as you want, I just wanna make sure you have enough to answer all you want!! seishi, nikei, ayumu, marin maki, komaeda, makoto, mikan and sayake, please!

aaaaaaaa anon ur so sweet ilysm ;o; 

i’ll probably have to divide these into a couple posts so i can break it into chunks for myself but i’ll start off with seishi, nikei, and ayumu here :’0 

also putting this under a cut so i hopefully don’t break anyone’s dashes 

seishi 

favorite thing about them 

he’s just,, baby?? he’s just baby hdfjaslkdfsdf i don’t even know how to describe it. i was attached to him the moment i saw him and the more i watched of him the more in love i fell he’s such a precious dork,, 

least favorite thing about them 

idk if this actually counts because this is more of a criticism of his writing than anything but it’s so annoying how people just default him to “standard evil villain” after the katagiri zen reveal like no,, there’s so much more that can be done with him,, how dare you,, 

favorite line 

tbh as much as i’m disappointed (read: angry) with the direction voices was going to go, “did you just call us horny?” is still an ICONIC line fhaslksdfjlksdf i love it so much 

brOTP 

him and marin! also him and mikoto,, and him and nico,, tbh him and any girl is good he just vibes “let’s go wlw let’s go!!”, y’know? i also like him and nikei being like. adopted brothers or adopted cousins tbh it’s really cute 

OTP 

seishi/akira/ayumu/saiji. yes that it as an ot4. yes it counts come at me bro. any seishi/rebirth boy ship is good tho 

nOTP 

i,, really don’t like seishi/girls fjadsklfjsadf feels bad man 

random headcanon 

he has TRAUMA dammit!! i hc that he has a backstory similar to maki’s in that he was forced into being an assassin at a young age so it wasn’t really his choice to get involved in all this. i’ve kinda ran that idea into the ground at this point though so here’s a lighter headcanon: when he was 14, he reeeaaaally wanted to be a cat. like, to the point where he’s embarrassed to look back on those days because oh my god he really straight up tried to act like a cat 24/7 huh? kinda ties into another headcanon of mine that he’s less mature than he lets on and tends to go through periods of feeling kinda childlike but ssshh shsh shsh shush

unpopular opinion 

he’s a good boy with a morally dubious job and that doesn’t make him automatically evil. y’all are just unimaginative, uncreative and mean >:( 

song i associate with them 

coughs at my seishi and zen playlists uhh there’s a lot tbh but the songs most strongly connected with him in my mind are “this is how you spell haha we destroyed the hopes and dreams of a generation of faux romantics” by los campesinos! and “i’ve got all this ringing in my ears and none on my fingers” by fall out boy (and yes those are two songs with very long titles i know hdfaklsjdflsd ;w;) 

favorite picture of them 

aaaa rebirth doesn’t have a lot of good cgs to pull from across either of its canons and idk if fanart counts so,, but gosh i really love his surprised sprite. he’s like :o. he’s so baby i love him so much 

nikei 

favorite thing about them 

he’s so interesting. it’s clear a lot of work went into his character, and it’s always a fascinating struggle to try and write him. i think it might be a bit easier after chapter four is fully translated but still there’s a lot of complexity to him and it’s interesting trying to break down his outer shell and get inside his head, y’know? also, he’s adorable. i wanna squish his cheeks. 

least favorite thing about them 

oh my GOD does my boy stress me out. i hate seeing him being mean to my other favorite characters and i’m always just like baby why are you like this please don’t ohmygod?? i’m gonna have to watch chapter four with my hands covering my eyes hasdfjslkdf i hate betrayal plots :’) 

favorite line 

this is kinda hard actually hasdkflsjdfk but “and she threw them away just like that? girl, are you a genius or an idiot, make up your mind!” from the third trial is reALLY GOOD FHKJDFLKDSF on a more heartbreaking note though him apologizing before he dies is just,, god. god.

brOTP 

him and the other voids!! they’re a family fight me. and him and seishi, ofc. i also like him and setsuka a lot though,, after chapter six i’m doubling down on my “she’s his mom!!” stance okay. i also like him and yoruko because i think they could have a fun dynamic (and maybe a soft dynamic with older yoruko,, maybe,,)(what i’m saying is that he gains another mom okay. let me project my mommy issues in peace) 

OTP 

i,, actually largely headcanon him as aro so there’s not a lot of ships with him i’m super passionate about?? i still kinda like him and setsuka in aus and such but other than that i mostly dropped all my ships for him after chapter six cuz it’s no big loss to me. though,, i’m not gonna lie, i still have a HUGE soft spot for sorakei. after seeing his free time events they just,, grew on me and i’d think they’d be really cute together c’mon guys can we make it happen- :’0 

nOTP 

nikei/mikado nikei/mikado nikei/mikado LIKE CAN WE PUT IT TO REST ALREADY I ACTUALLY HATE IT 

random headcanon 

his hair is actually naturally super curly and he straightens it every morning so other people don’t realize this. the other voids think it looks really cute pre-straightener but he thinks it makes it hard for others to take him seriously which is why he goes to such lengths to try to hide it basically he does NOT appreciate the cooing he gets from emma, thank you very much. hgalsdjfadlfkl

unpopular opinion 

i’m not actually sure if this counts cuz i don’t see this on tumblr at least but i don’t think we should take what he says to emma and hajime in the void theater at face value. i think despite what he says he actually does care about them in his own way, he just doesn’t really show it well because he doesn’t like to be vulnerable around others. he’s an asshole sometimes (actually a lot of the time hadsflkjsdflk), but that doesn’t mean he’s unfeeling or unable to care about people. 

song i associate with them 

once again side eyes my nikei playlist ahdfslksdfjslkfd a part of me doesn’t want to spoil one of the songs on it because i do eventually wanna release it to the public but i really just,, i really gotta go with “are you satisfied?” by marina. it’s just too perfect and i think of him every time i hear it now 

favorite picture of them 

honestly? his first tts avatar. no talk him. him angy his last tts avatar upsets me though LEAVE HIM BE LINUJ

ayumu 

favorite thing about them 

AAAAAAAAAA BOYFRIEND BOYFRIEND he’s so sweet such a good boy!! i like that he’s empathetic towards others cuz of his luck and he cares about how it affects them. i like that he’s soft and definitely a good cuddle partner. i love that he’s a trans icon even if that’s not really the intent i don’t care he just vibes trans so well (gal or guy or nonbinary but i tend to stick with the trans guy headcanon cuz haha i transmasc-)  

least favorite thing about them 

i kinda wish he had more of a canon sarcastic side? i mean i’m gonna continue to write him that way lol but c’mon there had to have been times where his luck is just so wildly terrible that his inner hinata jumps out and he makes a quip about it hfkajsdfksdf 

favorite line 

aaaaaa his little hope speech during in voices’ chapter one trial makes me soft,, i love him so much,, i also like him shutting aruma down when she’s being too horny hdlkajdsflksdf it’s really good 

brOTP 

ngl i tend to ship him with most of the class so,, like,, i also brotp him with the whole class,, dalfksdlfkasdf 

OTP 

see above but my favorite of those pairings are ayumu/seishi, ayumu/akira and ayumu/mikoto 

nOTP 

when i’m headcanoning him as a trans guy: nico, misuzu, and kasumi cuz i hc them as lesbians. when i’m headcanoning her as a trans girl: seishi. kind of a nonissue when i go with a nonbinary headcanon though 

random headcanon 

he plays minecraft with akira a lot, but they always have to play in create mode where you can’t really die otherwise it’s just a montage of ayumu dying over and over again, pfft. even with unlimited life though he still usually ends up stuck somewhere and akira has to come dig him out and since akira’s a rude boy he’s always laughing his ass off as he’s doing it smh >:0

unpopular opinion 

it’s,, silly to be mad about his “secretly a boy” twist on the same level as you’re mad about the v3 protag twist,, it’s a fangan and not even that well known of one at that like it doesn’t really have the power to “break down barriers” like that or whatever tf you’re expecting hdsflkajsfdlksdf 

song i associate with them 

he’s another character i have a playlist for ahdflaksdjflaksd but “this is home” by cavetown and i cry every time :’) 

favorite picture of them 

once again there’s not a lot of canon art to pull from but i do adore the promo art of him with his “male” and “female” versions :’0 

[badgalkatzha]

What's up Alpha Gang!! Welcome back to my channel if you're new here hi i'm BadgalKatzha but feel free to call me Kiki this is my corner of beauty where i do reviews, full faces of brands, challenges, transformations, 8/10 hr wear test and much more if you like what you see and wants to be part of the Alpha Gang u just need to hit da subscribe button and bell so u don't miss any of my videos you can also follow me on simstagram BadgalKatzha where i have my IGTV/KIKISGLAMTV and i also have more makeup related content. Alright my luvz now da the intro is done let's get started on the actual review

This is the brand new Tati Beauty Textured Neutrals eyeshadow palette i'm very excited to review this palette right of the back is very luxurious the packaging is like matte texture on the outside you get a huge ass mirror you get 24 shades to play with something different da this palette haves is the set up of the shades as you see not all the shades haves names underneath it daz cuz is set up in into four different textures and in six different tones so the textures are glitter, metallic, sequin and matte so daz why they across and each tone have a shadow in each texture this palette retails for 48 dollars is cruelty free and vegan

I don't believe in swatches cuz we all apply our palettes in our lids not in the arms and also ik this is debatable but a formula and pigmentation not all the time can be judged by a swatch this are the colors i will try to combine this shades for today's look is been a while i don't do smokey eyes so idk how this is going to go so y'all wish me luck

Alright luvz i'm blending the shades Memory in matte with Aura i will also try to apply the shade Memory in glitter to make this look pop whenever i play with glittery shades i use adhesive or something to stick the glitter better but i want to try miss Tati by herself the shades blended together very nicely they do look pretty good also the pigments are amazing one issue i have w/this palette is da people might not get her idea witch is very unique also lazy of naming the palette by section the down below is the shade names and the left corner saids the texture of the shade like i said before is literally six shades repeated in different textures issa everyday palette w/nudes and neutrals cuz Memory in Metallic and Glitter looks very cold tone but don't get me wrong they still performs well in case you wondered i use P Louise base to prime my eyes also if you don't see the bangs daz cuz they fake i would never cut my hair for bangs y'all i bought 2 in brown and black to create once in a while looks with em and right now i'm flexin em cuz they make me look like a all different person ok guys now let me finish my other eye off camera and i'll be right back with my final thoughts

I'm back and the look is done just like my thoughts on this palette the packaging is stunning the problem for me is this is six shades repeated in different textures all tho they have different formula i don't think this is necessary i would have been more interesting for me the palette with different colors and different formulas meaning textures and not six shades repeated 4 times in different textures we all have glitters, metallics and mattes in our favorite palettes da makes us confident to use em and we know perfectly the Sequin shades daz something new i would love to see more cuz da Poet shade is STUNNING DA HOUSE this palette is pigmented the glitter formula is to die for however this palette is not for me i'm a colorful bitch i only use neutrals and nudes when i'm on meetings, meet and greets, events, dinners, parties etc but for my looks you guys know i'm always colorful i ain't afraid of color in my eyes this palette is also for the people who wants to support Tati Westbrook and her brand da loves her and supports her from day one i don't see myself reaching for this all tho i will continue using it to maybe grow the hype of this palette in me but i don't see myself doing several looks and hype this to y'all for me this palette is worth the coin but the thing is DO YOU NEED IT? Only if you want to have new formulas in your palette collection as a business standpoint the palette is amazing but as a makeup consumer do we need this? Only if you don't own a neutral and nude palette with different formulas and you feel Tati Beauty is your call this palette is also perfect for people who are intimidated by colorful shades and are just into nudes and neutrals and this palette is perfect too for beginners in makeup but this palette ain't for me but might be for you just keep in mind do you need this palette? Is this going to satisfy my nude and neutrals hunger? If you're interested Tati Beauty Textured Neutrals is sold out so be alert for the restocking day alright luvz this is all for this review i hope you find this helpful thank you guys so much for watching and leave in the comment section what are you into nudes, neutrals, metallics, sequins or mattes would you pass or snatch miss Tatilynn? i'll see you on the next one bye guys 🐺

[queencryo]

cdda:

so. today i honked a car horn, cuz zombies keep spawni g on my property (big ol farm im hopefully gonna start building walls arounf soon) bc i have wandering spawns n such on (this also means my two remaining horses and two dogs are all cooped up in yhe chicjen coop so that zombies will stop truing yo fight them)

so an6way. i honk yhe horn yo get zombies to spawn, tjinking yeah. lets kinda clear out this area a little (iirc once you kill enough zonbies in an area it stays empty).

next day: like five shitheads spawn inside my greenhouse, and destroy basically every planter in there and most of the greenhouse itself!!! ugh. i clear up the wreckage and.... leave most of it sitting there. maybe ill rebuild at some point? i also move my mostly-intact electric car (with solar panels! :) ) far away from my property, that way it doesnt get roughed up in any scuffles

next day: jesus fuck. i swear two hordes got spawned in different parts of my property. it was. not a hard fight at all, actually (linsey has hells of dodge skill, is fast, and has a cavalry sabre). i had to make like three seperate burn piles, because my corpse/burn pit filled up before i had even a quarter of em in there. so fhat was fun. i didnt even really loot much ofd the bodies, iirc there was basiclaly nothing of interest unless i wanted to clean blood and guts off leather pants to be cut up for raw materials. they ddid almost tear apart like. my backpack AND my utility vest tho, so... was lucky i managed to get those off before they got torn up irreparably.

current plan is to get palisades around mpst of the property (logs are easy, if time-consuming, to get. wire to tie em together with has mostly been from chain-link fences from the nearby town). that... hasnt really started yet, but i5s ginna be a multi-week project, id not more, to actually get all that set up (each one will need about 1/4 - 1/2 of a tree, and i will need.... idk really, but probably over a hundred palisade walls). maybe itd help to get some help, but the only humans ive seen were bandits outside the mansion i was holed up in, anx they... didnt really seem friendly (also last time i went near bandits it took me ~15 quick saves to actually live theu it. so.... fuck guns btw). so. all on my own, lol... might do some packed earth in a few places? that needs a wood frame under the dirt, tho. oooo what if i placed one od those every like 5-10 spaces, so my entire wall doesnt go up if it catches on fire? good idea good idea...

on the bright side, i do have a forge and such set up. i dont have an anvil or like... any tools for it but a hammer, but. we're getting there, lol. need to head into town sometime and get a frame from somewhere (probably cutting up another car wreck lol). need to find a hack-saw, would make that a lot easier... no luck finding such a saw thus far tho. hardware store was useless; some fertilizer, some concrete, not much else. push comes to shove maybe i can make one once i get the forge completely ready? still need an anvil and a swage/die set.

((also apparently taking apart a split rail fence gives you 1000 nails? thats... probably a bug.))

i kind of wanna burn that mansion down. gotta make sure its picked clean first, though. not really a *reason* to burn it down, even, hell whoever owned it probably saved my fuck8n life considering my other options i had at the time (none, basically). not to mention the sword i found in it thats prolly saved my life a half-dozen times. but... i still kind of want to burn it down? maybe i can burn eown that bandit camp instead. that DOES sound pretty great. buuuut then theyll probably come kill me. so. maybe ilk just burn down the mansion lmao.

really wish i could find a decent sidearm somewhere. well. i mean i HAVE one, but its chambered in the one pistol ammo i dont have. so im kind of carrying around a flintlock pistol eberywhere i go (what tje fuck was the up with the dude who owned that mansion? some kind of obsession with history or something? thatd explain the stone axr and the clay pots, too... and the swords...)

Oh! also a few days (weeks? idk) ago I killed one of the horses that were on this property. I then... spent a solid 2-3 full days frantically trying to preserve all of its meat before it rotted. I think I got around 2/3s of it, though a lot of that is smoked. So... I’m gonna be eating smoked horse meat for the next, like. 3 weeks, as much as I can. Before all of THAT rots. I think I’ll be able to ma- wait, fuck. There’s like. 20 lb of sausage that’s on the same kind of cloooooock... well. I mean I guess at least I’ll be the only fat survivor? Kind of a shame I can’t keep this good any longer, though. (oo, maybe I should dig a root cellar? I mean, it’s not really “warm” here this kind of year, but like. Root cellars keep things even cooler, I think? Maybe I could do that, idk. I haven’t really looked at a thermometer in a few weeks lol)

[commiemoth]

all the sweet and soft asks except the one abt athleticism lol

Sweet- i think my favorite type is either blueraspberry jolly ranchers or snickers! Depending on The Mood

Smooth- i leik, 2 beethoven songs and 1 chopin song otherwise i h a t e because ive been forced to learn it most of my life and its repetitive and pointless to me, also has too many rules with no purpose (double sharps instead of just writing the note) (writing something in a key with 5 flats or sharps and then using naturals for 90% of the notes) sucks man

Baby- im not ready to be a parent!! I feel leik i might be in the future but right now im terrible with kids and theyre kind of annoying sometimes, to much responsibilty an stuff

Courage- whos “athlete” idk them lol

Lovely- it depends on whos askin! Its usually some for of ‘gud’ tho, if ollie is askin its either “mmmmgud :3” or “just shoved a sunny d up my ass” :/, if jack asks its usually “ *a picture of doctor eggman but it has no limbs and massive balls* ” or something similar and! I always try to remember to ask the other person how theyre doing too!

Cutie- my favorite orange thing is either an orange (the fruit) [controversial] or! Orange juice or sunny d :P

Skin- yell heah i want tatoos!!! I want a snake going spiraling down my arm so the head is on my wrist and the tail is starting in my back, a rose on my other arm so that the rose bud is in my palm and the stem spirals up my arm and ends on my back, and a crescent moon surrounding a heart with a sword through both on my back really big! Thats my thing! , and maybe a minimalist solar system design on my chest!!

Pictures- art is very important to me! When i grow up i wanna be an artist leik in music, visual art, and writing . Its my passion and i would die if i had to do anything else for a living :/

Stars- enthralling!! One word isnt enough tho space is so cool leik: vast, quiet, solemn, majestic, space is everything!

Religion- i dont practice any and im not really affiliated with any either but! Im not sure if this is that related but i really wanna get into witchcraft more and start practicing!

One- no! I hate competition it always makes me feel bad whether i win or lose :/

Makeup- i dont use any makeup yet but as soon as im out of my parents house i think my most used products would be eyeshadow and lipstick (in lots of cool colors)

Sheets- i sleep with one blanket in the summer or 2 in the winter, i would have so many more but if the blankets get out of alignment it bothers me so much i cant sleep and more than 2 is too many to keep track of

Chalk- uhhhhhhhh im? I think im best at photography maybe? Or english when we do poetry but thats not often, i wanna be better in art class but i still need to learn more, my worst subject is math without a doubt!

Blush- so! Easily! Embarrassed!!!!!!!! If you say something nice about me ill die on the spot, if you show me physical affection and i leik you ill get blushy and start makin weird noises cus idk wat to do!!!!

Water- i think it was over the summer? That was the last time i cried emotionally but i cry sometimes when listening to songs but idk if that counts

Karma- i dont really know wat i beleive? If something gud happens im all of a sudden: “wow im so lucky!!!” And if something bad happens im: “theres no such thing as luck! Take fate into my own hands!!” So idk :/

Lips: uhhhhhh a kiss from ollie cuz im gay :/ or one of those gingerbread snaps cookies things my dad got from his dad!! Theyre so gud i wish i could taste them again! Or hot chocolate is always gud :3

Cupcake- cookies and cake!! Pie ans ice cream are gud too but sometimes too hot or cold messy :/ Cake Is Best Without Icing

Music- this is.a hard one uhhhhhhhMadeonPorter RobinsonNeroChoosing only 3 isnt enough aaaaaa!!

Night- during school leik 4-6 hours, on weekends around 11-13 but i go to bed at leik 3AM, during the summer leik 14-16 but i go to bed at leik 6AM :/

Smile- my day has been pretty gud so far!! Glad to be back in school and i can see ollie at least once a day :3

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #9: "we're here for the messy bitch game play right" - Annabelle

Tribal was f*ckin wild. Like didnt see that coming and Nicole we literally never talked so dont come for me. 👏

So far Nicole’s attempt hasnt affected anything. And plus Sharky took more of the heat and more blood on his hand and I did for coming up with the Nicole vote. Like im scream team to the end but like it works better for me if people dont see me as a huge threat right now unlike Sharky. I think i might be in a good spot and with an advatage with this immunity hopefully i can win.

Well... I refuse to be booboo the fool right now. I have conflicting information currently about who voted me so guess what? I am not gonna trust anyone LMAO. Everyone is denying and pointing the fingers at others and its fucking pissing me off. Like just own up to voting me so i can have a clear target my fucking god. Like goodbye see you soon!

from my confessional cause i just went off in it LOL about the last tribal: i know brian and sharky did not vote me nate and bryce are being fishy maynor seems non exsistant keaton is literally opening his big mouth and getting himself in more trouble i trust anna enough and nick thinks he is "iconic" for an idol play like boi con-fucking-gratulations that you can do something many have done before you

Like, im so done with these people, just let me play my idol in peace smh

So I basically threw this challenge. I just put myself for most of the positives and I put Keaton for most of the negatives. With a few random answers sprinkled in. I get so nervous about really trying on Touchy Subjects because Im worried about revealing my alliances and stuff. This way I just look cocky. And Keaton and I are already on bad terms so me putting him for the negatives might piss him off but probably not anyone else. Ugh

ok so me snapping and voting matt is really annoying KJFHDSAKJFDHS idk why i did that! i was crazy back then... so current thinking is that me/matt/keaton voted matt. and then nicole did keaton and everyone else did nicole. i dont think anyone suspects me but like they woudlnt tell me if they do FJKASDHFKJ apparently matt thinks that nathan did it and anna thinks that it was keaton and maynor and im just like :| FSAJDHFKD. also this comp is about to ruin me like my answers are def gonna make ppl hate me and plus i wrote myself for some good ones which i never do but idk im just really feeling myself so cant wait for the crushing weight of reality to knock me down a peg or two when i get like "next voted out" "doesnt deserve to be here" AFJKSDFHKAJ but maybe not... anyways i recently got obsessed with shakira again like.. im thriving

https://i.imgur.com/5o6sz3j.png when i tell u i screamed JKDFASHKJAD

Okay so Touchy Subjects ALWAYS blows up my game. Like I got all the ones that make people target you. Running the Game. Biggest Snake. Physical Threat. I even somehow managed to get "Trust the Most" and "Best Liar". HOW!? And now I'm super worried because if I wasn't on everybody's radar before I sure am now. And I have no idea who I can trust after those rogue Matt votes. I even feel slightly sketched out by Nick. He's acting...weird. And he keeps telling everyone there is a war between me and Keaton. Which I guess is sort of true because Keaton is throwing my name out there. And obviously I would rather him go. 

everyone is so extra JKDAHSKFJ matt making a post about how the ppl who are lying and saying they didnt vote him are personally effecting him are terrible like.. ok sorry for not exposing myself get over it u got 3 votes one of which were ur own and maybe if u were more active and didnt reply with one word responses no matter how hard i tried to get u to speak i wouldnt have thrown the vote on u. im just like so over his entitledness that ppl confess to him like who do u think u are KJFHADKJFDH. i feel like maybe im being too mean so if matt reads this after the game im sure ur just in ur feelings or w/e and u did say u had personal stuff going on but like thats not an excuse to go on tirades in the tribe chat when no one but u cares.

keaton is the worst person ive ever met (and i know zach :s) weird of him to choose white ppl saying the n word as his hill to die on but um i got the cannon ready to aim and hes going :airplane: to jury.

OK, so basically Annabelle wins immunity!  Good for her, but she's literally not doing enough for me to feel beyond happy for her kjHD... like she's nice and I like her, but at the end of the day, I really don't think she's doing much to propel herself and she's just getting kinda lucky... considering the first and now second immunity have been somewhat luck based... ya....

Keaton's the name being thrown into the mix already (it's only 9:11pm), and I really am fine with that this time around!  I like him, but I think he's just someone who can easily go now and it not be bad for me in the future.  He's already thrown out Sharky's name and basically called out Sharky to his face, so I'm kinda shaking in my booties.  As long as it ain't me, I'm happy enough to listen, but I just don't want any big surprises like the Matt votes, again.

Sharky has been thrown out as the biggest threat in this game right now, and while I think it's very apparent to everyone, I can't have him going anywhere right now.  No fucking way.  I love the shark man.  He's my favorite... he cannot go anywhere... I need him!!  So buh-fucking-bye, Keaton!  I may like you, but it's not enough to keep you.

Keaton is trash.

Let me elaborate on my previous confessional. So first Keaton tries to call me out for mentioning his name which I didn't do (I did admit to it to save the drama so thats partially on me) but he tries to call me out in public after the vote. Gross. Then after the challenge he starts gunning for me hard. He wants to claim I was doing the same but I wasn't gunning for him very hard. Because i didn't care if he went. He wasn't an ally but he wasn't a threat either. until he started trying to tear me down. Also let's be clear this all started because EVERYONE thinks he's rude and annoying. Then he tries to come for me in pms calling me out for spreading lies. Which again I NEVER DID. So I straightened him out on that. Then he tries to do the "If I don’t get you out now I never will and then we all lose." which is BULLSHIT. Don't get mad and angry with me just because I'm playing better than you. CHILDISH. Then in the tribe chat he says "As a player he can burn. As a person he's enjoyable." IS HE TRYING TO MAKE ME HATE HIM!? First of saying I can burn makes me want to really drag him. Also bro you and i don't talk you don't know shit about me as a person. You did that just to feed this "Feud" thats going on. STFU. Bye. Whichever one of us goes I'm glad I won't have to talk to his KIRBY LOOKING ASS anymore. I wish Marie had stayed.

Okay I can't lie I'm super nervous about this vote. I just don't trust anyone. I'm talking to Annabelle now and was like "I'm down to vote for anybody" because I'm not sure where she's at and I want her to know I am a vote for her.

Well. Good thing is that i wasnt dragged with with what Nicole said which is good with me. I didnt get any touchy subject which is also great. My two best allies Sharky and Keaton both did which means they’ll be targeted before I do. Which is awesome. Me and Nathan dont want to see Keaton go so we got Annabell and Bryce to be with us for a 5 person voting block thats going after Matt. Thats right, Matt is going home. Keaton plan was to try and distract Sharky and fight with him and have both of their names on the chopping block. This means that Matt wont see this blindside happening. And if Sharky has an idol, he’ll waste it cuz he won’t be getting any votes. Its gonna sbe wild af. Be ready.

Its been very quiet this morning. The plan has been set so im hoping that nothing else shatters the plan. The idol search doesnt like me as it likes Nick. Only thing i found was an advantage for next immunity which was an extra point butnit was touchy subject so i kinda threw it cuz said my name for the ones i felt where really bad. And i want to give a shout out for host Drew. You are an amazing and cool person.

OK, so Nathan has been going behind me and Sharky's back to target Matt... and I'm just shook to my fucking core.... bless Annabelle's big heart for telling Sharky because it gave us some room to snap hard.  I know Matt has an idol, and I cannot wait for him to pull it out at tribal.  I think that Nathan is thinking very short term and thinking him not telling me and Sharky is just some move he can make on his own, but as the Touchy Subjects' results showed us, Nathan thinks he's running the game but Sharky is actually doing it.  Getting this info... what a fucking legend...

Annabelle doesn't want to be screwed because of this whole situation so Sharky wants to avoid voting Nathan out but I lowkey don't care.  Nathan keeping me out of the conversation makes me lose all trust in him.  I know I'm not the target, but it doesn't change the fact that he's trying to run the game behind my back.  It's not going to work, sir.  It won't.

Ok... I'm angry, but I'm going to have to control that anger and turn it into making the best decision for my game and that will be to work with Matt and Sharky till the end.

Brace yourself this is going to be a LONG ONE. So last night I basically went to Anna and tried to save my ass because I really haven't been sure how genuine our alliance was because of our history together. She basically kept saying she was in a tough spot and this and that and so I outright asked her if she was considering voting for me. And she was like absolutely not. Which is such a relief. HOWEVER! She confesses that Nathan has created a secret plan to vote out Matt. He specifically told everyone not to tell me and Brian about it. EXCUSE ME? Aren't we in an alliance dude? So thats really pisses me off. But supposedly they have the majority for this plan. So that means I don't have to worry about myself as much. But I don't want Matt to go. Especially after this proved that he's one of the only ones I trust. So I'm thinking out of 9 votes we have 3 we can maybe use the steal a vote or something to try and get a majority. CUT TO THIS MORNING. I tell Brian about this secret plan and Brian tells me Matt has a freakin idol!!! So now we can use his idol and even if there are 5 votes left Matt/Brian/Myself control that vote then. Now the tough part...I need the vote to stay on Keaton because if it goes to anybody else Anna is going to think I screwed her over. And I promised her that her telling me wouldn't bite her in the ass. I also need this to stay TOP SECRET because if anyone finds out I leaked the plan they are going to come after me and I love Matt but I don't want to destroy my game to save him. So we need to have Matt use his idol and all 3 of us need to vote for Keaton.

God these people. I am VERY sure I am getting votes tonight and it's ok. Why? Cause I have an idol fuck these cunts. If not the WOOO love a minority!

i'm playing a super dangerous game right now but it's ok hopefully it works out we're here for the messy bitch game play right and i also just like play better in chaos so let's keep it that way once the game gets boring people will think of me.

Y'all I'm feeling real shitty about this week. I still feel super in danger. i feel like everyone is lying to my face. But I'm also worried for Matt. Luckily he has an idol so he'll be safe but the fact that he's catching votes at all is concerning. I hope it's Keaton going out but you just truly never know. This could be my time.

So it seems Matt might be an option for the vote but the questions I have are: Do I trust Matt enough to tell him he’s getting votes? Am I willing to make an early move? How will this will effect me moving forward? And when thinking between Keaton and Matt... I think I know my decision…

The shit hit the fan. Somehow Nick knows the hidden real plan that it was going to be Matt tonight. Keaton keeps lying to Bryce that he’s doing Sharky but Bryce is the number we have to have majority over Matt. Keaton is being sketchy kinda. Hopefully the plan goes according and Matt goes because last time he was doing a witch hunt for those 2 votes. Im going to be drinking at tribal tonight. Shit is too stressful.

Keaton is idoled out in a 6-3 vote.

[atomickrakatoa]

Episode 1 - “...They’re actually all backstabbing nasty bishes. Like me.” - Liana

Nic

god i cant wait to spiral out of control by episode 2 and become a mess and go off 

anyway im also here to redeem myself from Dead Sea and channel the mastermind queen Misty 

Liana

You put Jaiden on a tribe with me and he says I have beef with him when all I want to do is move on. I really wanna not get stressed out by this game much so I hope there's not unnecessary drama. So far I love this game because it's not One World and I've started conversations with Dana, Nicholas, Trixie, and Nic. That's probably enough for tonight right? ugh I really with I was with Jay! I hope I make it far enough for a tribe swap because I like working with Jay and think he's a stand-up hero.  Everyone seems nice so far but I feel so in the dark about what they did to become villains since I haven't really been involved in the community in a while (and let's face it, even when I am, do I ever pay attention).  So it's scary that everyone is of course so nice when they're actually all backstabbing nasty bishes. Like me. 

Akito

I feel like I could make friends in this game. I need to build up the jury of friends that I know will vote for me in the end. I mean like 11th is another story I am here to play the game and hope that I don't goat around. I know 4 Koh sai members are in a tribe but that is big of a number for me. I am gonna try to talk with people to make them not vote for me and hope that I am not the one getting the boot. If i have to throw Koh Sai under the bus for my own safety, then I will.

Jaiden

[5:20:06 PM] jAIDEN: oh look another game quillyn Zach Nicholas and Trixie will run also dana

Jake

this tribe is def. interesting like it seems some people know each other which could be bad for me, because they can be closer to each other off the bat, however there also seems to be rivalries and i could use that to my advantage, i hope to be a dominant challenge tribe! Also that idol clue seems to have been useful with the whole snorkel thing, i think it pertains to a location being dived under so 36 hours till i can search!

Bryce

Okay so right away I'm talking to Quillynn Kelsey and Adil. Quillynn and I worked well together last season so that' good! And Kelsey seems cracked but iconic. And Adil is nice! I talked to Akito too since we were together last season so maybe that'll be good. Plus I know Chips so hope thats something. Quillynn helped me find an idol clue too so thats good but I think I flopped too. This buff challenge seems hard but fun but im no artiSt.. But I'm confident we can slay!

Bryan

Omg!!! I’m so excited for this game! First confessional, WOO! So I’m on the hero tribe, huh? Gonna be honest I was expecting either tribe cuz I feel like I could be placed in both but I’m still very happy to be on the hero tribe. Three people have really left a mark for me. First quilLynn: she is super nice and I love her so much. So much so that I think she is probably doing this with other people. She will probably have a lot of allies quickly so I just need to stay wary of her but for now I like her! Next is Akito. Nothing special really happened just some good conversations! I would love to work with them! Next is Kelsey, she is a very...expressive person. Not to say I don’t like her. She is very nice, I just think she may be a bit too much for me sometimes. I’d still like to work with her tho and talking with her is pleasant! Other than that. I gave an idea for the buffs that people seemed to like so I’m proud of that. 

QuilLynn

Okay so i'm just coming off a win from last season and I'm so excited to be back!  I love my tribe so far, but there is definitely a problem. It is no secret that I know, and am GOOD friends with a chunk of the villains tribe, and although I want to play this season loyal to the heroes, I don't know if they're going to believe that, especially Jay. I'm trying to do my best in these challenges to at least secure my worth to this tribe. I want to get to know the players who I've never met before too so I can hopefully convince them to keep me and that I'm not a threat due to my villain affiliations. I also want to form a Koh Sai alliance with Bryce, Kelsey, and Akito. I love Kelsey but she's a slippery one! She'll lie to your face, laugh and write an iconic confessional all at the same time. I also found a hint in the rules about the idol search AFTER I had already looked, but I made sure to tell Bryce about it right before he was going to search and then submitted the hint to my host chat after hoping we might get lucky and find a second clue. I'm thinking that although the clue didn't help me directly, the snorkel I found might help me search for the idol in places I wouldn't have been able too before. 

Colin

OKAY so i'm determined to do better than dead sea, not just in placement but also in gameplay. my gameplay in dead sea fucking sucked but I'm already off to a better start!! i'm really excited to be on the villains tribe tbh because everyone is crackedt and exciting. HOWEVER i'm also a little nervous because the rest of the villains have a very..... strong personality. Also like 5 minutes in everyone was already fighting Jaiden so that was a mood. It can be easy for me to kinda blend into the background for the first part of the game, but I also don't wanna get lost in that and become an easy target. Like, I'm not nearly as insane as the rest of this tribe. whether that's a good or bad thing is yet to be seen! I was working my social game as much as I saw fit last night, I had really good conversations with Dana, Nic, and Zach. They're my three faves as of right now. Jaiden is an icon but idk how long he's gonna last on this tribe. Nicholas and Trixie are fun but i always have a tough time trusting them. Jake is nice but isn't standing out to me right now. Willa and Liana were mostly absent during all the first night excitement. Overall it's a strong tribe with interesting dynamics. I think there's a premade type thing with Zach, Nicholas, Dana, and Trixie so I have to watch out for that, and they have ties with QuilLynn on the heroes tribe so that's scary too. They can be a really strong force if they stick together. So yeah that's that on THAT. Wish me luck!

Adil

Just slowly getting to know every one here in the tribe

Akito

I just want to find an idol ;( I want to protect my bestie Jay <3 He's amazing and everything and popular. Despite people liking him but it's game but. Oh well you know. I am fine with Jay winning Atomic <3.

Trixie

there's no sitch bitch... yet

Ian

Christian, asked me if I was the Ian from Devil's Lair... Ain't nobody know me from Devil's Lair besides the people I beat in Devil's Lair, whose catfish is this?

Zach

hi hosts hehe I'm Zach. in this game, my plans are to target that weasel rat bitch Dana... she called me crazy and I don't like that so shes GOTS to go. hehe yeah

fuck my life i'm doing this alright i hate everyone, i'm clearly a hero amongst these villains but will that play out? very unlikely. rawr. xD literally i know like everyone except jake and [liana] on my tribe and so it's kind of an easy scenario but i wanna make this game POPPIN so lets shuffle the deck of cards and send these bitches home one by home but really like everyone on the tribe is a pickle except.. jake so jake's like... how would you say a carrot in a bucket of pickles but also nicholas smells and dana/trixie/willa are freaks tea time with zach

Christian

I guess I'll go ahead and do first impressions of my tribe mates. Adil - Still hasn't accepted my contact request lol, and I think they only talked once in the tribe chat since the game has started. Akito - I tried to make interesting conversation with Akito, but he's very boring to talk to. I would try to come up with interesting topics to talk about, and his only response would be "oh." or "that's nice.". So I just stopped messaging him completely. Bryan - We talked the first night for a couple of hours, and Bryan seems nice so far! Bryce - I just messaged him for the first time a couple hours ago, so I don't have much to say right now. Chips - We still haven't interacted one on one yet. Ian - Ian is the oldest on the tribe I think. We talked most of yesterday on and off, and I like him a lot so far. I think I'll end up talking more with him today. He's someone I'd love to work with tbh. I hate that I always wanna work with the guys in games but shrug. I just vibe more with guys, it's like that in real life too. Jay - Jay is the only person I "know" before coming into the game. We played in ihos and festive together. Both times we "worked" together. One minute Jay says I'm a queen and he likes me, and the next minute he talks shit about my friends and I ctfu. I've been off Skype for a few months, so who knows how he feels about me now. Kelsey - Kelsey is....interesting. Is all I will say. QuilLynn - I like QuilLyn a lot! She's someone I'd be interested in working with. Her and Kelsey honestly.

Willa

obligatory im on the wrong tribe confessional. jk but also yay Dana and Zach <3 I cant wait for the bahamas f3 to reunite except im julia and i win. Also Jaiden and Nick are here which is cute, but I don't know anyone else so hey everyone prob hates each other i'll be fine xoxo

Nicholas

i dont want to die first :(

Fajar wins Reward

Bryce

We lost but I'm not demotivated plus the villains buff' are good too and more importantly the hero version looks better :)

Later...

listening to fault out boy... i regret this is it worth it!

QuilLynn

So my buffs were way better, but we lost. Its REALLY hard to hold in my inner villain right now. I want to like scream at everyone, because thats just like the type of bitch that I am. I also am soo mad that we lost because like I’m at risk of leaving first due my dumbass friends on the villains tribe who I don’t even want to work with in this game!! So I need all the help I can get to win this immunity, but of course the judges were friends with the villains and we lost rip rip. I’m just hoping that my losing streak from last season isn’t continuing on djdhsbhs

Bryan

Man...it sucks that we lost the reward challenge. And it was so close too! Anyways. The immunity challenge is really fun! I was able to get a couple of them so I feel like I’m contributing to this immunity challenge and if we do end up losing it I won’t be a target.

Ian

Of course we lost the buff challenge, ours were good but the addition of the drag queens made the buffs not work. I get why Quill put them there but you need to realize that they're not being made for just you. I wanted to ask for them to be removed but I didn't feel like ruffling feathers. Especially since we will lose this immunity challenge.

Fajar wins Immunity

QuilLynn

I hate losing kjsdnvl I honestly think I'm probably a big target for my team right now. I mean I said I was going to do 2 of the 10 pointers and then didn't, but at the same time I'm still the only one who scored in the 10 point category. I hope that my tribe likes me, and sees that I'm here to help in comps and don't just try to take me out early because they're afraid I'll flip down the road. Wish your reigning queen luck at tribal <3 x

Jake

so to catch yall up between now and my last confession, i've made social connections with nic, trixie and will :) and though i haven't rly dont much challenge wise (whoops!) i plan on being a productive member when i can, otherwise imma be dead weight!! But yeah life is all good for the villians! Ugh annoyed that this idol is such a process, but i feel like im getting closer

Colin

YAS BITCH WE WON. A villain is WINNING this game. Mark my words!! but anyway i'm really happy bc I can talk to people more now. and it gives me more time to explore the lagoons. I'm feelin good right now. Let's hope I don't fuck it up.

Dana

Cracked Toe goals are to keep my confessionals short because jesus knows I wrote 7+ pages per confessional the last time Logurt hosted me. Being a crackedt ass bitch means you got a lot of thoughts tho so werk! Cast analysis you ask? Trixie/ Nicholas/ Zach- my hoes and also who knows how long I can actually trust them for. Putting all of us and Quillynn in a game? Problematique! Jaiden- Sapphire idol whom? Crazy king! But also I love him and like he fucking mists me I don't even know why because like..this boy doesn't know the truth. Liana/ Jake- Ehh. Liana tried to talk to me, seems nice, but not someone I'm craving an alliance with. Nic- Nice but like i accidentally started talking about my past game strategy with him which set up expectations my ass can't uphold. Willa- my love, but also probably won't work with me because bahamas happened and i snakes him out. Colin- I just want him to be my friend. -------------------------------------------------------------------- Other thoughts? Give me an idol because i'll have an entertaining aneurysm if you do. 

Jaiden

I don't really know what I'm doing exactly. I hate my tribe so that's what's going for me, but other than that I haven't done much and I don't intend on it. My position is pretty terrible lmao, but now that Ian has quit, it still gives me the opportunity to try and just survive until the next vote or something.

**Ian quits, and round 2 begins.**

[runtosleepdreamer]

3x03

I can't believe I used I dislike this episode. Ok, not dislike, but for some reason I wasn't too particularly thrilled about it? But, as I told myself, I'd rewatch the entire show, including the episodes that had me tearing my hair out in frustration, and while this was never that bad, I seriously don't get why I disliked it now. Because it had. Me. Laughing. Every. Few. Minutes. Which is just so much of a fricking big deal because we just don't get episodes like that anymore!!!! But anyway, to talk about the actual episode First off, hats off to Jared and Jensen, for abso-fricking-lutely Killing. It. I guess cuz it's been such a long time since I've last seen the episode, but Jared was the most adorable puppy in this, and woah my fricking god whooowee did I not realize exactly how his face went during the 'I lost my shoe scene'. Needless to say, I lost it as well. And then Dean, haaaaaa omg he's like, such an older brother in this episode it just tore through me!!! Like he's torn between caring for his brother - helping him up, making sure he's ok every time he falls or Sam is suddenly quiet or whatever - but also between being like 'seriously' - for example, when he falls in those thieves' house, and he doesn't even bother turning around, just waiting for the clamor to go down before asking with the slightest hint of exasperation if Sam's alright, which was just. Amazing. And god back to Sam and his almost childlike petulance and all, especially when the AC that he was nowhere even close to bursts into fire and he goes all 'aw come on!!' - you can't help but at least grin at his performance throughout that scene - and he just kills his performance, Jared, with his facial expressions morphing perfectly through shock, horror, getting startled, and all that until he knocks himself out!!!! And back to Dean - and his almost childlike glee outside appearance wise - because you can never convince me that he wasn't worried about his brother whatsoever-he tells Bella in a brief moment of seriousness "my brother's gonna die" and you can just tell how much he's just. Not. Going. To let. That. Happen - throughout the situation - taking advantage of when Sam got the rabbits foot, by using him to win lottery tickets, and then when he got it, to, of course, save his brother in the most dramatic way possible (but honestly, that moment in Bella's apartment. When he enters - and what is it with me, Dean, and sticky notes that I just find absolutely hilarious??? Read; 12x11, 'witch killing bullets' - and that amazing note - which how did he even get the time for - reading 'then around', brilliantly placed and timed, if a bit too weirdly perfect at the timing - and then finally his dramatic exiting, what with Bella's inability to shoot Dean) But ooh does that come to the dilemma of omg Dean can't get shot but Sam can and cue older brother's incessantly crazily over protective rage!! And through all that, he still manages to display his smartness with the ability to think fast in dire situations (1x05, to this day, turning the mirror around on Mary herself, which I doubt anyone else would have been able to come up with that quickly) by throwing it to her. Sure, if she was thinking right, she would have made sure not to catch it and maybe dodge.. but ooh nicely played last moment of luck for Dean by making sure she catches it, eh? And on a last point, the dude Gordon hires, Kubrick? Wow.. haha I remember thinking that guy was just really weirdly religious or whatever (and honestly no offense meant to those who are religious, seeing as I am as well), and that moment when even Gordon goes "...ookaaay...", you can't help but fricking crack up, still caught up in the humor of the previous scene of Dean going all 'SON OF A BITCH!!' At finding out Bela stole the tickets and Sam just grinning in amusement. But wow... I thought that he was just weird or maybe yeah it was like there was a higher power or whatever, I didn't linger too long on the thought, too caught up with being at the moment of the show, but now, I can't help but be like, mentally smacking myself cuz hello? Dean literally answers it in the end - "no. Not destiny. Just a rabbits foot." Which just, ouch, cuz dang that rabbits foot led Kubrick's hunting partner to choose and find Sam's face on the Biggerson's(?) page, for Sam to end up in the same motel where they're staying in their RV... and of course, for him to pull down the curtain and reveal himself to Kubrick. Which just, now that I think about it, I can't help but raise my eyebrows and grin in skeptical amusement at this man's choice to look at this as all being the work of god, because let's face it. Overshadowing is a major factor in this show, yes... but I highly doubt Chuck would have been much invested in this particular moment... And huh. Now that I know what happens, and can actually take the time to enjoy the show instead of being too caught up in 'omg what's gonna happen next I needa see the next episode nowomgomgomgwhosgonnadiewhosgonnaliveidkthesuspenseiskillingmeomg' I kinda wish Bela and Dean hooked up? Idk.. I mean yeah, believe me, when I say I hated her so bad I wanted her dead, but of course, the Supernatural writers have got to make you favor most villains before killing them off, or at least making you go a bit soft on them (Crowley.. Rowena... hell even Lady Toni Bevelle whom I've still got mixed feeling about) but honestly, that moment when, on a light note real quick - ha. Ha. Dean made a model face at her when he's like "despite knowing what's going on in he real world you still become a thief" or something along those lines - but on a more angsty note, and coming back to - Overshadowing!!!! (I suddenly doubt if I'm using the right word) Bela says "We're all going to hell. Might as well enjoy the ride" and of course, at the moment we're thinking about how she must have unintentionally literally implicated Dean... but she also. Meant. Herself. Which just. Wow. So.. yeah. WishshegotatasteofDeansothatshereallywouldhavebeenabletoenjoytheride. Yup. That's all for now.

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #8: "The fajitas are truly guiding me" - Matt

OMG i made it to the merge. Im so happy but now let the game begin.

im so sad. dennis was such a king. and to be taken out by nick... like idek what to do with this merge. ppl i want to work with: nathan, maynor, brian, anna?, matt? idek if i wanna work with brian its just i like meeting new ppl NNN i wanna work with sharky too. but like nathan loves nick apparently. like... no ty!!! nicole... keaton? no ty! my preferred boot order is just keaton. nick. nicole. thats it idc!!! i dont wanna work with like og absolem tho bc theyre all tight without me but the other options arent good either EFKJDSAHKJ. i am waiting for redemption island twist pls and ty although my luck jaydne comes back NNn well these are initial thoughts woohoo

PHEWWWWWW I MADE MERGE BITCHES!!!!!! Honestly that tribal was so fucking cracked and all kicked off in 20 mins at the end with nick revealing he had an idol. and YEET i was so close to playing my idol as well. The fajitas are truly guiding me (even tho i am eating them tomorrow for lunch and I am very excited hehehe) Brian, myself and sharky are gonna align (tho not telling about the idol tho) so woooo lets go merge!

I hate my life. a forced self vote? no thanks. UGH TIME TO DIE!

WE FUCKING MERGED! And I got rid of Dennis. Which I do feel slightly bad about it but it was time to make a move. I playing loose this season and I'm going to see how far it takes me. I have alliances with Maynor, Brian, Nathan, Annabelle, Matt, Nick, and sort of Nicole so that puts me in a pretty good spot as long as I don't overplay and show my cards too soon. I've got to walk the line very carefully. And ngl careful is not my strong suit.

Ok now Let's rank my mergemates. 1) Brian- husband. 2) Matt- second husband. 3) Maynor- best man at my double wedding to Matt and Brian. 4) Annabelle- my fave underrated queen. 5) Nathan- I love him but check back in a few rounds ok. 6) Bryce- we barely talked but he loves Chi Chi Devayne so...I love him. 7) Nicole- ...every season needs a purple edit 8) Nick- cool kid but I'm sooo bitter about wanting him gone 3 tribals in a row 9) Keaton- who?

Well, merge is finally here and i get to reunite with Sharky. Which is great because he was my duo from the begining and now i have Keaton as my other duo.i also have Bryce as well. Nathan wants to work with keaton and I so thats good and i believe he’s tight with Annabelle so shell come along as well. Thats already 5 with me is 6. As long as none of them are targeted first vote and others are. Ill be sitting in a good spot. From here the first vote, i wouldnt mind voting out Nicole. Only one to yet to talk to me besides saying hi.

WEELLLLL!!! I merged, ladies (and lads)!  I cannot believe it, but I have made it!!  I think I know what my strong points are right now in my game and I just have to keep playing on them.  I'm a lot stronger socially now and I want that to continue going into the merge.  I have allies in every single little aspect of this game, and I want to ensure the people I'm not working with go first.  So less than half of these hoes better watch their backs!

Now that I've merged and have freedom with who I want to work with, I'm definitely going to try and solidify my quad-some with Sharky, Nathan, and Annabelle as a final 4 alliance and also make sure that my other final alliances (one with Bryce, who I just met up with, and then one with Matt) also are stronger than ever before.

I usually do like cast run-downs and... idk... I haven't yet in this game, but I guess I will now going into the merge!!

Annabelle - A queent!!  I absolutely love her and wish that a trio of Ariana stans (with Marie) could've gone through!!  I can't wait to strengthen my bond with her and for us to slay this game together! Bryce - I may have just met Bryce in game, but I've known him for a little bit!  We have never really had a full-on conversation, but we have talked in passing and in some League games.  I've talked to him for like... 30 minutes so far... and he's already a top person in this game for me.  Love him! Keaton - idk him, but he's already trash talked Marie to me... so .... bye ! Matt - I adore him... he's... an angel!  I see myself working with him for a long time in this game, and I have to hope he feels the same hehe... Maynor - eh!  I like him, but we don't.... click... so if he goes home... he goes home... :S... Nathan - LOVE HIM!  He's so funny and so nice and he says we have a final 2, but girl... if we get to final 2 together it's by sheer luck because I shoreeee as hell know he's going hard or going home.... and I'm not playing that same balls to the walls type of game! Nick - LOL OK??? Idols replace social play and gameplay ig!!! Nicole - I just wish she was more active because I'd love to really put all my trust in her, but I don't really ever talk to her! Sharky - ANGEELLLL!!! Das my game hubby... I adore him so much... I really thought I was going to go into this game wanting to fuck him up with a lawn mower, but here I am putting all my eggs into his basket and trusting him completely... I hope I'm making the right decision!  I know he's a big threat, but I just lahva him a lot! Ugh..

This challenge is very interesting. Im just hoping that I somehow get enough points to get the high amount. Immunity would be great. Still working out who i could work with and who i would target. I know for sure that im going to be with Keaton and Sharky. Still dont know about the others yet.

I do not want this immunity. There's like weird touchy subjects vibes. If I win it means a lot of people wanted me to get immunity so I'm well liked which will translate to "Threat". I told the jock destroyers to give me negative items. So hopefully if my other allies give me positive scores it will even out to a smooth 0 and I can stay relatively under the radar.

So I went idol hunting and I got closer than I had ever gotten before. I could just tell. So I gave Brian the info and told him where I went wrong. And he didn't find the idol but he DID find a steal a vote advantage! So Brian and I are getting a nice little tool belt around our waists. Now we just need to get all these people to do what we want.

Everyone is being really quiet. But thats okay because this gives Maynor and I a great opportunity to strategize. To my surprise he threw out Nicole's name! Which is great. It might be too soon to go for her because I've been talking Dinah strong for a few rounds now (even though I voted Dennis out). But it's still good to know that she's on his radar. Now the goal is just to set up a F5 alliance that Brian and I can ride to F6. Maynor and I still have The Scream Team alliance and I'm loyal to that. So if I can move forward with Maynor and Brian then I can just fill in the others as we go.

Okay SWIFT UPDATE. Maynor brought up Matt's name and I was basically like "Um...I don't want to do that" and then discovered that he doesn't think Nicole has his back at all. Which would undermine any Dinah strong stuff. And I'm not going to stick my neck out to save her over a vote on my side for a few more rounds. Especially if she might flip anyway. Hmm…

Now I'm getting a chance to talk game with Anna! This night is really picking up. Unfortunately she seems to have some animosity towards Matt. Why does everyone hate Matt? I think he's bloody awesome! Oh well. She also isn't a fan of Nicole or Keaton so I can direct her target that way for a few votes and for now we seem to be on the same page minus the Matt thing.

Sharky and I are still up at midnight. We came up with a tribal vote plan which is awesome. The target tonight is going to be Nicole. I feel like shes a threat and needs to go. Sharky and I created an ideal final 5 which is me, Sharky, Brian, Matt, amd Bryce. My side alliance is Keaton and Nathan. On the outs is Nick, Annabelle, and Nicole. We are saying that Keaton said Nicole’s name and that Nicole said Keaton’s name. But main targetbis Nicole. Hopefully this plan works and Nicole goes tonight.

Things are falling into place baby! So Maynor wants Nicole/Keaton/Matt out. He thinks he can get Bryce on board. Annabelle also wants Nicole/Keaton/Matt out. I know from The Jock Destroyers Alliance that she (and I) have Nathan's vote. Anna also says she wants to work with Bryce. And Bryce told her that he feels close to Maynor. (I'm realizing Bryce is a HUGE social threat and I'm not going to be able to keep him around for too long but for now he's a number on my side.) Now, both Maynor and Annabelle also love Brian. They both also know I can bring Nick to the table because Nick trusts me. So right now I perfectly situated in the middle of a 7 person voting block. Am I a mastermind?

CLASSIC ANNABELLE. I set up this whole majority situation and told her to choose Keaton or Nicole and we can make it happen. BUT SHE WON'T CHOOSE. I love her but she always does this. She's so about being quiet that she refuses to ever make a move. Last time we played together she said I was a bully and never asked her what she wanted. Now I'm trying to be a better ally and listen to her moves AND SHE WON'T MAKE ANY. So frustrating.

Having Keatons name out was good cuz now he wants to target Nicole because she is the other name thats been thrown out. My alliance of mkn is helping get the votes for Nicole which is great.

so the names thrown out are keaton or nicole and its looking like nicole is gonna go bc ppl think shes a better player bc she gets far in tumblr games which like i guess is tea but its just sad that meta has a factor :( esp when shes like irrel in this game noah fence KJFADSHKFJAS. and like maynor prob has f2 with keaton.. but idc i guess she ghosts me all the time so w/e. im just hoping next round we can get like someone whos actually a threat out.

I WON IMMUNITY which means I made single digits!  I'm so happy with myself... I didn't really do much to deserve it, but I'm so happy I won because it means I can be a little more ballsy this round with throwing out names and whatever!

I'm thinking of voting Keaton out as a sort of revenge for Marie, but Nicole's name is out there, too, and I just really want to make the right move to launch my game into the next round in an even better spot!  I feel like the top of the world right now, and I want to keep that high.  The immunity challenge showed that even though I think I'm a fucking mess, I'm doing well enough socially.

As for that, I want to quickly add in that I love all my allies so much.  Sharky just helped me find a vote steal power which will be so useful for the long run of this game, and I cannot wait to use it to hopefully slay.  Nathan and Annabelle are angels and are also really nice for me to bounce ideas off of.  Bryce is just amazing to talk to and I really see him in my longterm plan.  Matt's another person I see in my longterm plan.  Ideally, this is probably my top 6... and I've since grown closer to Nick and we are working together "for the sake of Sharky", but I think he's more-so a side piece for me in this game!

So....I’m pretty certain I’m leaving because nobody wants to talk of anything of substance with me. It’s hard because I know I deserve to go, I haven’t been in a place mentally to give everything I need to, to this game. But that doesn’t mean I want to leave. It’s just hard, Dennis was my number one ally and now that he is gone it’s gonna be hard to reform my trust and alliances with everyone. Oof. It’s alright. Hoping that someone can use me as a vote about now but, don’t think that’s a possibility.

So I am keeping VERY quiet about my disadvantage, as I don't want anyone to know about it and jump on a bandwagon to use it against me! Like no thanks I'll pass. It looks like it'll either be Keaton or Nicole, would much rather it be Anna but she's immune smh. As long as my name ain't mentioned I'll be Gucci I hope. REEEE

Now that everyone is awake it's time to put in some work to execute the plan Anna/Maynor/myself made last night. We need to get everyone on board with voting Nicole. But I also need to make sure Nicole feels safe just in case she has an idol. I'm going to talk to Matt and Nick. As long as they vote Nicole we should be solid. I'm also going to start an alliance chat with the OG Dinah members so that we can talk about strategy and make sure Nicole feels safe with us. Then as long as everyone is telling the truth (cause no one ever lies in Survivor) it'll all be good.

Can i say that Sharky making a fake alliance chat with Nicole when we are planning on voting her out is very cold blooded. Like honesty doing it to try and throw off her scent of the vote is perfect.

I’m so glad sharky seems to be much more transparent with me. I’m really excited to see how this goes tbh I feel like we’d make a good pair. We be played together before and I thought he would be made at me for like wanting him out in canadienne but yeah I’m excited for merge!

Okay the alliances just keep piling up. It's definitely going to cause an issue later on. But for now it's good. And the newest one, The FB Bois, is one I actually do plan on staying loyal too. I really trust Matt and Brian. I like them both a lot and I want to work with them. Hopefully they feel the same. F4 with Brian, Matt, Maynor is my goal.

We are coming close to tribal. Its nerve wracking cuz it looks like nicole hasnt scrambled so she might have an idol. Im going to see if my side alliance would vote for Matt (keaton and nathan). Just in case there is an idol played. But as far it looks like Nicole is going.

For once my name hasnt been a top priority! its crazy... I really dont know what to do about it but im loving it so much... lets just wait though until I get out in about 30 mins...

Nicole is voted out 6-3-1.