#will reblog later but for the anon that asked for first time with Jake

[god-monsters]

Jake Kim x Reader: First Kisses

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Somewhere along the way, the flirtation turned serious. Longing looks and lingering touches joined the cheesy pick up lines, the banter, and the winks.

You and Jake are obvious even if you aren't official. Even if neither of you have yet to put a label on it.

(Collectively, Big Deal is torn between gagging or cooing over yours and Jake's budding relationship. Sure, they're happy for you both but do you really need to rub it in their faces day in day out?)

Ever the gentleman though, Jake did in fact plan to ask you out on a date, ask you to be his girlfriend before a kiss happened.

Except.

There was just one too many times where he felt his heart race, his throat dry up, and your lips frankly looking too irresistible.

And why the hell are you looking at him like that ? How did you expect him to hold back?

.

.

Your first kiss shouldn't have been romantic.

(Jake had watched you laugh with a strange look on his face, then with a delicate grip, pulled you into this alley. He himself acted before thinking, like he was in a trance from just seeing you.)

Nevertheless, Jake Kim with his Jake Kim charms even manages to make a dark and damp alley just behind Big Deal street seem like the perfect setting.

As if everything is elevated with his light. With his confident smile, his faint dimples. With his virtue.

So much so that if Jake asked to kiss you in the dumpster, you probably would hop right in and pucker up. Or at the very least seriously consider it.

"I just couldn't help it..." he murmurs, eyes flickering down, gentle fingers tilting your chin up towards him and thumb grazing over your lips, "I was hoping for somewhere better..."

Jake leans in slowly, hesitantly and stopping just short. Barely even centimetres away.

Enough for your skin to tingle from the closeness and frisson of excitement. For your breaths to mingle together and you can taste his peppermint on your tongue.

Almost but not quite touching.

It's torture.

"Is this ok?" he whispers against your lips, warm brown eyes gazing softly into yours. It's only now that you notice how he is close to panting, hands nearly trembling with restraint.

Is this ok? This has always been ok.

You rock forward, closing the gap and capturing his mouth with yours.

Jake, caught by surprise, lets out a small huff of laughter as his arms circle your waist, then deepens the kiss.

.

.

Your next kiss is a quick smooch after a Big Deal meeting.

The one after that is in his office, late at night when his vision is nearly blurring from reviewing documents.

And then he presses his lips to yours again in a cheap cafe with cracked, peeling wallpaper and sticky floors.

Each time you kiss, Jake realises it could be a lot more romantic. He also realises that he doesn't care about 'somewhere better', the time or the place.

Simply being with you is enough.

[wonryllis]

my world in my arms ⋅ CUDDLING WITH ENHYPEN!

╰ 𝖠𝖫𝖳𝖤𝖱𝖭𝖠𝖳𝖨𝖵𝖤𝖫𝖸, 𝗐𝗁𝖾𝗋𝖾 𝗒𝗈𝗎𝗋 𝖾𝗆𝖻𝗋𝖺𝖼𝖾 𝗂𝗌 𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋𝗒𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀.

THE ATELIER. enhypen in their comfort place, word count 890 requested by anon, CONTAINS— fluff, suggestive in jake's part, fem!reader. unedited. ( ARCHIVE? ) pls reblog!!

𝗟𝗘𝗘 𝗛𝗘𝗘𝗦𝗘𝗨𝗡𝗚

he loves the feel of you in his arms so much, he's quite literally glued to you whenever possible. arms always wrapped around you. you feel warm and you feel home to heeseung. it's like all his worries disappear when he holds you, sometimes when he's too stressed out of his mind, his first instinct is to find you.

to him just being able to have you in his arms is the best thing ever. he doesn't give a fuck about how, he just has to hold you, body against body that's it. sometimes he'll nuzzle into you and fall asleep in minutes, sometimes he'll sing you soft songs, and sometimes he'd straight up leave kisses after kisses all over your exposed skin and lips.

𝗣𝗔𝗥𝗞 𝗝𝗢𝗡𝗚𝗦𝗘𝗢𝗡𝗚

your wish is my command guy number one. his precious baby is his safe haven and he loves just going in for a cuddle anytime you ask or anytime it looks like you want it. he knows you more than you know yourself, always giving you the princess treatment without you having to utter a single word.

he alternates between big and small spoon, equally loving having your hands wrapped around him from the back to having your face nuzzled into his chest. his favorite though would be when he's gaming on the couch and you come over all drowsy and cute and climb into his lap, looping your arms around his waist or neck and falling right back to sleep there.

𝗦𝗜𝗠 𝗝𝗔𝗘𝗬𝗨𝗡

he is open to cuddling all the damn time, on his off days he makes sure to spend at least half the day snuggling with you either on the bed or anywhere in the house. and even on his busiest days he definitely squeezes in the time to have a cuddle session where you both talk about anything and everything.

most of time jake likes to cuddle face to face, he wants to be able to see you, see all the little expressions you do when you speak of different things. look into your eyes, trace your lips, carress your cheeks. and on some days the hands on your waist run around places not so innocent, trying to sneak in a lazy makeout session and maybe even further.

𝗣𝗔𝗥𝗞 𝗦𝗨𝗡𝗚𝗛𝗢𝗢𝗡

his day is not complete without a cuddle with you. it's an essential part of his routine and he absolutely needs it everyday. when he's away from you for any reason, he facetimes you at least twice a day. sometimes even just facetiming to fall asleep with you on call, so tired but wanting to feel you near him,

usually sunghoon likes to be the big spoon, to engulf you in his arms as if he's protecting you from monsters under the bed. oftentimes, he would have one arm under your head as a pillow and the other over you as he holds his phone to show you pictures from his trips or daily life. telling about the stories behind the clicks and telling you how much he missed you there.

𝗞𝗜𝗠 𝗦𝗘𝗢𝗡𝗪𝗢𝗢

two words: free use. y'all jump on each other for cuddles whenever you feel like it even if it's just for a few minutes. sunoo just loves to come home to cuddle and take naps with you. he loves being your personal pillow, rubbing your back and playing with your hair. the apple of his eyes curled up with him. bestest thing.

when he's had a long day, he likes to cuddle facing you telling you about his day and then later change into the small spoon to fall asleep and having a wishful belief that you'll dream of each other. especially on rainy days, he loves putting on your favorite show and cuddling on the couch oftentimes ending up napping halfway through.

𝗬𝗔𝗡𝗚 𝗝𝗨𝗡𝗚𝗪𝗢𝗡

he's ready to cuddle whenever you want. he may not ask for cuddles a lot but he's down for it whenever you wish for it. your wish is my command guy number two. always the happiest when he has you wrapped in his arms, so many smiles and giggles from him like he's in literal heaven, a perfect paradise.

jungwon prefers to be able to see you too, but honestly this guy would do whatever you want. you wanna be the small spoon? he loves it. you wanna be the big spoon? he loves it. you wanna face him? he loves it. any chance he gets he's beyond happy. you see jungwon finds happiness in the little things in life, so just being able to hold you is more than enough, his little world.

𝗡𝗜𝗦𝗛𝗜𝗠𝗨𝗥𝗔 𝗥𝗜𝗞𝗜

cuddles with him are spontaneous and crazy and fun and soft and fuzzy and literally everything in between. you never know which type you're going for and sometimes it changes from sentimental deep talks to tickle fights and pillows slapping against each other and playful wrestling matches all over the bed.

riki loves loves loves having you stuck against his side one arm going from under your waist to over you holding his phone close to play games together in it in multiplayer mode. letting you win on purpose because everytime you do, you're leaving kisses all over his face in excitement, and sometimes placing bets and winning only to ask for kisses again.

taglist ( open. ) @kangseulgithegreat @s00buwu @luvyev @pockyyasii @nctislifue @ashtxrie @miniature-tragedy @jayujus @brachives @thoughtsmeander2tumblingblindly @eeunoia @nxzz-skz

[9w1ft]

You and I exchanged some ideas via anons a while back about a new way of thinking about Getaway Car. Basically Taylor has been calling herself a robber and bandit since reputation. And her Lover was also a robber/bandit. In Cowboy Like Me she talks about finding someone else who is a bandit like her and they unexpectedly fall in love. But then in the infamous line in ITTG, she says basically I’ thought you were a twin from my dreams (cowboy like me), but you were a crook who was caught.’ And the idea was that the problem here is not with her lover being a crook, it the fact that she was caught. And in Getaway Car we have them being Bonnie and Clyde (basically lovers who were also bank robbers) and Taylor takes the money and the getaway car and leaves her lover behind (turned her in), presumably to be arrested or caught. And we can connect this to Afterglow where she put them in jail for something they didn’t do. The suggestion here is that Taylor thought Karlie was a cowboy like her and could beard and swindle the public and get away with these “crimes” too because they were playing the same games. But she didn’t realize until later that Karlie’s situation was not the same. In some way. Your opinion was that this was representing the beginning of love blackout from Glitch. Taylor left the public relationship behind and Karlie was the one to face the consequences.

Today I was thinking about Hits Different, and again Taylor calls her self an outlaw, but it’s not romanticized here. An asshole outlaw. She always skips town like an asshole outlaw, which is basically an exact parallel to her stealing the getaway car, leaving behind her crook partner in crime to be caught. But this time it hit different. This song is about her in the past being able to leave behind her partner in crime when the going got tough, but this time she can’t move on, it’s too devastating. Which could just mean what the straightforward meaning to the song is, that this relationship is so different, she couldn’t just leave when things got tough. But we know that this isn’t really Taylor’s MO throughout her life. Particularly with the love that’s attributed to Jake and Harry, she certainly wasn’t able to just move on. Those supposedly were on and off for a long time with her pining after them and not getting over it for years. It does fit Calvin and Tom of course, but that is just a tiny part of her history. But if we look at it purely through a gay lens, and looking at major themes of her lyrics since Afterglow, with Peace, Coney Island, so many songs from Midnights, she’s apologizing for and regretting putting her image and career first, and specifically apologizing to Karlie for so much that happened because of this attitude.

Whether you think it’s all about a fake feud and love blackout, or you think it’s her regretting breaking up with Karlie and just publicly ignoring her existence while she mourned the loss, it all really fits.

gosh, getaway car is really appreciating like a fine wine, isn’t it?? someday i want to revisit its place in the rep tour setlist and think about it’s function there.

if tumblr ever allows me to find my own damn post i’ll reblog what we talked about before!

aha. here it is. and here’s the original post that prompted you to send the ask

[litgwritersroom]

It's okay to admit you haven't done enough for something, some causes aren't yours to take up and to adopt if you don't know enough about them/aren't really comfortable or proficient in it. Bobby is a somewhat easy character for you to write because you know him well, hence why he made up a predominant amount of the content within the month and I'm not gonna lie, I do get where the anon is coming from to a certain degree, and I think they're hurt because there's so little representation in game and for it to be honed in on a character that isn't even canonically LGBT and makes up a massive chunk of the content as is must sting. There are Canon LGBT characters like Arjun, Elijah, Jake, Elisa, Marisol etc that are often sidelined or go wholly ignored for characters who are only LGBT through headcanon rather than actual content. It could've been a time for you to give them some love but obviously things went in a different direction. There's always a chance to do better and to perhaps rectify these mistakes further down the line, but the routine of ganging up on anybody who has an opinion that differs from yours then getting into this whole echo chamber of self victimisation does nothing and almost comes across as immature. Creative Writing is a medium that begets critique, and although you're all in a space where opinions align, there are people beyond it who see things differently and shouldn't be lambasted for it.

Nor should we be lambasted for writing about characters we like on our own fucking page, but here we are. Another person accusing us of being immature, or not 'comfortable' with writing about LGBT characters, or saying we need to do better, while anonymously asking on our page.

This has actually pissed me the fuck off now.

I'm not admitting shit, I'm not rectifying shit, I'm not apologising for shit, I'm not doing better on shit. Em and Bia can do what they want, but I'm too fucking old to put up with someone telling me which characters I can write about and when.

It's our fucking page, and we're dishing out content as fast as we fucking can. We did Bobby first because we know the most about him, you're right. He's the easiest to write for. The fact it coincided with Pride Month was a coincidence. If we'd started a month earlier, or a month later, no one would fucking care we'd picked him. And we have had a few of our close friends tell us how much they enjoyed the focus on Bobby during this month, while still churning out a stupid number of HC's, asks, and fics, as well as updating our own fanfics separately.

If you gave a shit about actually helping us, or even wanted to SUBMIT YOUR OWN FUCKING POSTS like @tammyisobsessedwith or @banirareiko did, you'd be GENUINELY FUCKING HELPING.

Not a writer? Submit a fucking ask. We're not even doing a character spotlight in July because of how fucking exhausted we all are.

We spotlighted bobby because HE'S THE MOST POPULAR CHARACTER and WE GET THE MOST ASKS FOR HIM. And SOME PEOPLE LIKE TO READ ABOUT HIM IN A M/M RELATIONSHIP

I'm not apologising for not doing enough. We have PRIORITISED LGBT asks during pride month as much as we could. We can't write six fics at once. We're doing far, far more than YOU are, anon.

Where's your fucking submission? Where's the fic you wrote during pride month? You're welcome to link it here. We'll reblog the shit out of it and sing your fucking praises.

Until then, go away.

Side note: I did not run this post past Em or Bia. So you want to come at me, come at me directly.

Em even said in her last post we weren't going to address these asks any more. But I'm fucking raging about this. How fucking dare you.

[honeyfreckled]

we have talked a few times and im sorry for this but you are the most accepting and easiest person to talk to honestly i dont have many people in my life i can tell anything real to. but the thing is ive been thinging about relapsing a lot more since i broke up with my boyfriend and i work with him so it makes work depressing and impossible to get through a day without crying sorry this is anon but i am scared ily dont hate me i am not trying to stress you out

ok wow first lemme just say: I DO NOT HATE U. EVER. 

and don’t be srry i don’t have a lotta ppl irl i can tell my shit to so i get it. pls know u can always ALWAYS ALWAYS come to me, and u dont gotta be scared to come off anon. i get it and it’s ok if u prefer it that way- but pls know i dont keep it on alot bc i get hate and then i turn it off bc i gotta look out for myself and dont post all the hate bc i dont wanna bring yall down or give them the satisfaction of knowing i have given it a read and response. so u can message me or make a sideblog or idk im just saying this so if it’s off later u dont blame yrself or feel scared to come off anon. ok sorelapse is a real thing and it’s fucked and hard and addiction is fucked up and a real life struggle and we dont treat addicts w the real tenderness, respect, kindness, and acceptance they deserve. but u DO deserve it. and there are hotlines, apps, churches, groups, chatrooms/boards, and sites that are more versed in what are the appropriate things to say to u- i say this bc while i’ve been thru it w loved ones i have not myself struggled w addiction w substances. my addictions were to self harm and victimhood so those are the things i searched for help on. but if it’s alright i’d like to give u some tips or things i used and have heard work for addicts of substances

places like i said like churches, groups, chatrooms, sites, apps, hotlines the apps and hotlines are good if u cant travel or want to talk to ppl who wont share their story bc maybe u cant hear it like its not the kinda help ur looking for. hotlines are sometimes tricky bc some of those folks are not educated they are volunteers so judgment leaks thru and in that case u ask to be redirected and report that volunteer so hopefully they dont repeat that kinda mess to other vulnerable folks looking for help

make a list of things, anything. list of foods u like to order, list of things that make u clench yr teeth, what were yr fave gifts you’ve ever got, style icons of urs, hobbies u tried that annoyed u, movies u can always watch, places on yr skin u hate being touched, any list of anything it doesnt have to be the usual thing of “what to live for” bc when yr depressed those kinds of things arent easy to think of. but if u get a list going of like “best things ive ever touched” “sounds that make me laugh” “trends that were stupid af” “popular things that i didnt like n couldnt figure out why they were popular” “weirdest ppl ive met” well those things might get u on a roll of good memories or laughing or seeing that theres more to yr life than what has been occupying yr thoughts

dancing. dance in yr room in the dark. clear some space. put on some headphones. lock yr door. do it in the shower. just dance. i had to start w closing my eyes and picking songs that i was taken by emotionally. songs that made me jump and slamdance tbh and then it’s just gotten more and more something im not as ashamed w. i spent a date night w james just dancing and then we ya know ya know bc the dancing got so wild. now i make playlists of songs that set moods for diff kinds of dancing

watch shows w ppl who arent doing better than u. they dont live in fancy places, they dont do much w their lives, they dont dress better than u, they struggle, they arent eating good food u dont have access to. iasip. freaks and geeks. letterkenny. undeclared. jake and amir. tpb. the state. youtube. tiktok/vine comps. lots of these kinds of vibes on youtube

podcasts. improv comedy podcasts tbh saved my life. comedy bang! bang! has best of’s those are good ones to start w. improv4humans bc matt besser has great guests of some of the best improvisers out there and he has musical guests and they’ll play a song and the improvisers will use it as inspo for a scene

make things. moodboards. pinterest. playlists. fill a shopping cart and tell yrself “i’ll get it when i win the lotto and move away from anyone who knows me so i can be the me i wanna be w/out judgement” make tea. make a meal if u can. make yr bed. clean one thing. clean the sink. hang some clothes or go thru yr drawers and clean them out. throwing things out feels hard at first but then it’s nice bc u feel less bogged down

find something to throw yr obsession at for a bit. something that wont hurt u as bad, being obsessed in general isnt good. everything in moderation irl. too much of something is bad just as much as too less of it can be bad. but yr looking for something lower risk here and if u gotta be obsessed w a celeb or a song or a food that’s ok. yr focusing the energy on something that isnt a substance so be proud of it

give yrself a break. give yrself some credit. everyday isnt gonna be on the “best of your name here’s days” but sometimes u just live to live bc that’s what u do. u wait it out and get thru it and wait for the sun to come back out. and if u cant get outta bed. or if you hate yr job and wanna scream- that’s normal it’s more normal than always being happy ppl just dont like talking abt bc society kinda trains us to hide our fucked upness idk why but thats how it is. they dont wanna tell us to do preventative care until we’re in the pits

all in all- it comes down to (at least for me) not planning w an endgoal in mind. it’s not over til it’s over and rlly we dont know. it’s all fluctuating and not meant to be a finish line we cross and then suddenly we’re done and we dont suffer anymore and the feeling of shit is gone or the risk of relapse is gone and the depression is cleared away never to be seen again. it’s not realistic. bc it isnt real. on the real- risk is always there and the downs and ups mix and run together and depression is not curable (this isnt something to be miserable over tho) depression isnt curable, yeah ok, but it is manageable. it can be quieted down from time to time and if u keep up w yr healthy routines and coping mechanisms- depression will still find its way to u bc the real world is not something u can manage. death in the family, loss of money or job, car breaking down, sickness outta nowhere, depression grows wild when these very real life stressors come into our lives. but all that too eventually gets easier and easier at least from a “ok i have some distance now” standpoint. and then as those days get more and more btwn it u can then be like “oh wow, ive made it thru X amount of days! ive put up w it this long! whats one more day, whats one more week, hell might as well see how much prouder i can feel once ive got a year under my belt!” plus u will be more capable of handling the bullshit if u know u can still find some safe places in yr coping skills or friends or resources.

ok so this is prob a mess but bottomline know this:

I love  you and i will be here the best i can should u ever wanna come spill or if u need me to just send u pics of my dog or boring pics of knickknacks or selfies or memes or links or anything just tell me what u need and i will try my best to show u my love. i hope u can see that u reaching out is just already a HUGE major step in the right direction, give yrself credit! thats amazing! yr already doing it pumpkin look at u! it’s hard ik. but i also know if u are capable of saying u have this problem going on, u are capable of getting thru this. u are a light in the world. u offer goodness and u offer yrself and that’s enough. even if yr fucked up right now- u are contributing to the world by simply being u. there is literally NO ONE ELSE WHO IS YOU. so u are unique by definition. i hope u get something from this post and if not i hope it strikes an idea or thing u can do that will help. i hope u know im here and i hope u see this.

i am sending u all my light and love and good vibes and i can’t wait to see or hear from u again. u are never bothering me, a burden, or stressing me out. tbh it stresses me more that u might be struggling and not telling me or anyone. i dont ever want u to suffer in silence bc u feel guilt or scared or anything. u deserve to have a place to voice yr shit. im here to listen if u do wanna tell me anymore.

everyone else-if this helped or if u can think of anything that might help anon or anyone else- feel free to reblog and get some good NONJUDGMENTAL advice or tips and tricks going, but please please please remember to not come off as judgey or flood it with your drama. keep ur drama out of this post so anon or anyone else doesn’t get triggered by it. 

and dont ignore my rule and do it anyway and then say some shit like “ik u said not to but i think this will help lol sorry” like we need this post to stay on this vibe that i set in motion and not a struggle contest or dick measuring or all sad personal reminiscing. go make yr own post for that this is NOT the space.

[alanakusumas]

re: #wasi is over party (aka my two cents)

okay soooo i’m pretty sure most of us who are active in this fandom have seen the truth about wasi. and if you haven’t, you can find it here.

i was good friends with wasi early last year, until she started to get more suspicious each month that passed by. but it was never enough for a callout post, y’know? i wasn’t 100% sure she was lying, and i don’t want to accused for a...comment dit-on...liar.

after seeing @jakemckenzies essay, i’m confident enough to reveal things that i thought were extremely off-putting about her. sip sip!

the first sus tea is whether or not her boyfriend was real in the first place - and i’ll let you be the judge of that. (also, these screens are super old cause i’ve been suspicious since time. and since she deleted, i can no longer access our conversations)

i really tried to give her the benefit of the doubt, but the fact that she met someone who is studying to be a pilot, calls her princess, got cancer, had brain surgery, pretended to cheat on her, and then died? we know you playin’ wasi save this story for a nicholas sparks novel

(sidenote how the funk do you study to be a pilot)

ok second point now.

i’m pretty sure wasi sends herself anons. some anons she received were deadass things that other people have said about mercedes and i, except when the anon sent it to her, it was directed at her and laura or mari.

here’s an ask meme i sent mercedes. peep question 35

now here’s an anon that wasi got shortly after that

i don’t have proof of this next piece, but i hope you’ll take my word for it. there was also one time lana reblogged a post and added in the tags “the world will explode if you and mercedes ever met”. a few hours later, wasi got an anon saying “the world is not ready for you and mari to meet”.

okay wasi, we see u!!

this next part is about all the anon hate that luci came back after mari’s death.

sidenote: isn’t it kind of weird? how all these names end with an “i”? wasi, mari, luci....ANYWAY

shortly after “mari” allegedly passed away from cancer, “luci” remade a choices tumblr, where her ask box immediately imploded with anons telling her to leave the fandom.

keep in mind that “luci” JUST made this blog, and it’s imploding with hate. i’m not assuming anything - jk, i am - but i’m pretty sure wasi started all of this drama and anon hate directed at luci by herself.

you should know that there’s only a limited number of people who are so invested in this wasi/luci/mari-gate.

okay moving onto the snapchat-gate!

sometime last year, wasi added mercedes and i on snapchat. as mercedes and i talked less with her, she blocked mercedes before her birthday. mercedes asked her why she was blocked, and wasi explained that she deleted her snapchat weeks ago.

funny she said that because a) that’s not what happens when you delete your snapchat b) i saw her snap story on her birthday. if you want proof shoot me or mercedes an ask but again - i hope you’ll take my word for it.

so, i wanted to get to the bottom of this. here’s what i said to her:

she told me she deleted her snap after her birthday, but told mercedes she deleted it before. hmm. sip sip!

also not to be that rat but since we’re here being petty i’m accusing her of copying my bitmoji LMAOO

(i blocked out our usernames)

A few more things to say:

Wasi, if you’re reading this, I didn’t “like Jake less” because Mercedes influenced me. It was actually because of you, and how protective you were over this fictional character. We weren’t allowed to poke a little fun at him without you talking shit behind our backs and claiming that we’re spreading Jake hate. So, the only version of Jake that was valid in this fandom was the oversexualized pilot whose love of his life is this girl named “Wasilah”.

Also, fuck you for stealing my #vivien rambles tag. #wasi rambles my fucking ass

Oh, one more thing:

How does it feel to know that you’ll never have a canon jake mckenzie or michelle nguyen url because they all hate your guts?