#will probably delete in the morning

[humblepoet26]

I dyed my hair yesterday but that's probably not the most important thing about this photo. Have a great week you beautiful pervs 😘✨️

[thatbluehairedfem]

Um blah blah, it's midnight, I love big thief so have the worst cover of velvet ring you'll ever hear with the prettiest orchid my friend bought 💖

[noellevanious]

i want somebody to talk to and i want to make them laugh and i want to make them smile bleh.

[emohorseboy]

I want to die so bad but I have a ticket to see julien baker in november so i’ve really put myself in an impossible situation here what is a guy to do?

[coolsunglassesemoji-rotk]

[luckykittysshowerthoughts]

The Michael fanatic? Having both sibling issues and parental issues IRL? Who would’ve thought

[its-actually-minicika]

I've been feeling very discouraged lately tbh

I feel like my writing isn't good enough, since it never gets much attention. Even though I put DAYS into my fics

I am still so so grateful to the people who follow me and shower me with so much positive feedback. However - sometimes I look around, and it's hard not to compare myself to others, and the amount of notes they get per post

Idk what to do, I feel like i'm being so ungrateful for the attention I do get, but at the same time...

[nasirlye]

Some of my personal favorite lines I've written cause I found my songwriting journal again and I'm flipping through them and feel like sharing :3

"Snow on the ground sparkles like glitter/Lights on the Christmas tree, how they shimmer/Photographs couldn't do justice" - (from Little December Things, a Christmas song I wrote while procrastinating on homework back in high school)

"No, I may no longer need you to hold my little hands as I learn to walk/But my bigger hands still need you just as much to help me up if I fall" - (from June 11th, a song about my high school graduation)

"You glanced around and our eyes met/And I swear I could've flown, if even just for that moment" - (from Blue Eyes, a song about love at first sight)

"I think rain clouds understand how I feel/They too get weighed down and drove to tears" - (from Jumble of Words, a song about overthinking and a missing someone important to you)

"Sometimes I want to throw you off a cliff/But I know I'd just rush to the bottom to catch you" - (from Bipolar Love, a song about... well, the title's pretty accurate xD)

"One second I wanna wring your neck/The next, I wanna ring your finger" - (again from Bipolar Love)

"Never want to look back and reminisce cause that means I would have to miss this." - (from Partners in Crime, a song I wrote about my discord friend group :3)

"Golden sunshine gleams through the window/Its beautiful morning debut/I usually wouldn't notice at all/I only see it cause of you" - (from A Beautiful Day, a song I wrote for my best friend for her college graduation ;w;)

"In the forest of my heart/You carved your initials, made your mark/And I never thought twice about the knife in your hand" - (from a song that doesn't have a title yet cause it's technically not done xD)

"Bet they thought that meteor would shrink/But now their bones are all scattered and they're so indistinct" - (from d i n o s a u r, a joke song I wrote at 4am based entirely off of a single line prompt from a Daniel Thrasher tiktok)

"Maybe no prince comes for me cause they think I'm the villain/Sharpen my knife, draw my cat eye, and count my ammunition" - (again from an untitled song cause it's still a work in progress)

[merlinsalt]

this is probably my last post. not in terms of me dying, but i think i’m integrating right now. if i’m not i’ll delete this post in the morning. i want to say thank you to all of those who understood and comforted me during this time, you mean the world to me. and to those who hurt me, choke on a cheese stick and die.

- merlin 💜

[lifesizehysteria]

I don’t talk about it here anymore but I’m reaching a breaking point with my son’s behavior. I keep waiting, keep hoping something will help, that we’ll finally figure him out and things will get better, but it feels like it’s just always getting worse. I don’t know what peace feels like anymore and I am exhausted. When I think about the future, I feel nothing but hopelessness, because this chaos is all there is in front of me. Maybe forever.

[quasar-concept]

Sprained my ankle (but it feels worse than that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ) on sunday after 10hr rehearsal, my hip on ghe same leg is ouchie, and have had two days of pretty bad anxiety.

I feel bad complaining/telling the people around me AGAIN so lol I'm posting about it

[artstuffzdontforgor]

under the basement table because of a tornado warning cheeeeeck

[alienthoughts]

Vent

God I was having such a good night and the film was great and it was so fun and I just wanted to get home and maybe write a personal little review and go to bed but everything just went to shit as soon as I stepped in the door. And now I just feel so. Defeated. Defeated and small and. I don't know. Sick. Sick and weird and empty. And so dissociated. I just can't have 1 fucking good day can I. I can't have a single break??? I don't even want to sleep now. I fight myself so hard to just try and be happy and have good days and it feels like the world is fighting against me on that. Trying to not let my depression get really bad again. As constant as its gotten. I won't let it get bad again. I hate venting on here but I have nowhere and nobody else to turn to. Except my partner. And i hate putting all of this stuff on him constantly. But it really does feel like it's constant. I can't even get one day off from it all. I'll keep fighting and trying to be happy but god I just wish I didn't have to fight for it like this

[gaquarius]

sometimes i miss you, but then i remember really what you put me through. i miss the chaos of it all, i didn't love it when i was in it, but the mundane continues to creep in. during those moments, i would've given anything just to get out, and then i figured it out. it wasn't you, it was the idea of you. the wishing i had what you had, the ease your life had, the simplicity of you could do whatever you wanted, whenever you wanted - no consequences. someone always had your back, and i don't think i've ever felt that. did you even notice how lucky you were? i was so in awe of watching your life fall apart to only be picked up by those around you. time and time again, like clockwork. while the only advice i was ever told was to work harder, do better, do more, be better.

i worked my ass off, only to be ridiculed by you. why? does it matter? i don't think it does anymore.

[honeypot-like-the-ant]

listening to the college radio and hearing the dj who is a good friend of mine and doing their show is describing that the last few months have felt like ‘hamburger moments’, or the days before a dog is put down where people keep giving him hamburgers so he can experience all the love and joy he is able before he goes and. god thats gonna fuck me up for quite a bit

[emohorseboy]

oh my gosh i hate being in pain. yesterday i did two loads of laundry and walked to post something (maximum 5 mins each way) and today i feel like i’ve been run over. i’ve taken the max dose of my prescription pain killers that i can and i’m currently in so much pain i don’t know how i’m going to sleep tonight (i take insomnia meds too).

this is so rubbish! when will it end!