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New pfp to go with the new banner :) drawing simple little plants is addictively fun….

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Quick depiction of my home planet I made for my blog header :) I’m not very practised at landscapes, so I kept it simple. I like how it came out, obviously I can’t get it perfectly accurate. But I’m still happy with it

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Thinking of making a new blog theme, might try depict what I can remember of my home planet Kurill. God, it was so beautiful and so colourful! I’m going to give it a shot, see what I can do (plus, I’ve been getting strangely homesick recently, despite the fact my only memories of it come from a predecessor and I never actually saw it firsthand. I can still miss it!)

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It's snowing right now. I assumed it had no hopes of sticking, it'd been raining all morning. But it's still coming down heavy and it's starting to stick. I think the last time we'd seen snow like this, we must've been like... 6 or 7 years old. Its really pretty (though I hope it doesn't get crazy heavy). There's no other point here. Snow pretty. It's kinda hypnotic just watching it

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I have to admit, sometimes even bad source memories can be pretty funny. I am aware it is a common enough word, common enough for me to see it around regularly.... but I do still always jump a little bit whenever I see the word Dominion. It's actually a way more common word than you'd think. Average person with no connections to it don't realise that. I swear every other video game and (bad) movie sequel is called [x title] : Dominion. Would love to know what's so alluring about it specifically

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Painting of my vampire :) actually a redo of an older painting of him, felt like it deserved an update and the fact he is a vampire now is a pretty good reason to update it! I still like the old one (and I think I posted it here?) but I do think the colours are stronger here

(He hasn’t posted much on his blog in a while, just hasn’t been fronting and hasn’t had much to say. He wants to try go back to it though, once he has some ideas. His blog is in my pinned!)

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Satellotype terminology is so cool. I can really understand and visualise the orbiting thing.

Paratype is very broad and I believe satellotype is a good thing as it has the specific of being a secondary type not just any type from type relationship. One that you might not feel without the other present, which in our experience isn't the same as what the broader paratype can mean.

E.g. I am rabbit hearted from being a rabbit, but I believe I would still be rabbit hearted even if I wasn't one. Compared to I don't have anything to do with deer without being a jackalope

I would say we have a few in here although it's hard to pin down because they are quite misty. We may not all label them until they feel like concrete enough.

June feels like a horse when purr is very in donkey-ness, also weirdly enough feels like a centaur. (The centaur thing is weird, I really don't know where it comes from but the desire to be one pops up whenever I shift into a full donkey form. There's this one image I saw of a fully tacked centaur that just pinged for me. Most often I feel quite neutral towards them. -J)

Deer and antelope does inform part of my identity as a jackalope, as they are the two common/fabled things to mix with a rabbit or hare to get one. I really really think antlers would be so nice to interlock with another in sparring. Also...hooves. But that's also part of being a satyr, which has the ram orbiting it.

So cool! Love the term.

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Slightly messy rambling on my own relationship to my species, my natural insticts and behaviours, and being an alien filtered through a human lense. Originally this was a much different post but in the middle of writing I just completely forgot what I was saying, so now I'm just downscaling the concept

For a long time I had a lot of shame tied to natural aspects of my species. Specifically the gaps I often encounter communicating with humans and my desires to be able to communicate the way my species would between each other. This was mainly because, compared to humans, it felt animalistic. Like something I should suppress, because through a human lense it would be closer to animal behaviour than human behaviour. Now, I know, I am an animal the same way a human categorically is. But I hope it comes across what I mean when I use the word animal. It felt dehumanising (again, poor choice of word but I think it's meaning is clear enough with context)

This is at this point of my life, in the past. When alone I do often go along with certain insticts and behaviours this body is able to perform. When in headspace with my partner, I do not attempt to hide anything at all. Getting to that point required a lot of trust though, and idk. That's a little messed up right? Why am I so terrified of acting how is natural to me? Why do I expect ridicule and poor treatment over my natural self? Perhaps through a human lense these are strange behaviours, but they aren't and never will be to me. They're standard. I guess my discomfort with them came from the fact that humans would find them different but not alien.

There was a sense of... overfamiliarity I suppose? At the idea of these traits being connected to earthly animals. That would still be acknowledging them as different to human behaviours, but it's still conceptualising them through a human lense. Because no, even if they are similar, they are not the behaviours of x animal or y animal. They are the behaviours of my species, they are Vorta behaviours

As I mentioned at the start this was going to be very different but I lost my point along the way, so I don't have a good closing statement. Um... well let's get more positive here. I love being an alien, I now love embracing what parts of that I am able to, I just don't enjoy being viewed through a human centric lense

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Completely forgot to post this yesterday, look at this pin my friend got me for my birthday! She was so excited to give it to me lol, I didn't know where to put it and she said I should just attach it to whatever shirt I'm wearing like a lapel. Not a terrible idea...

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It's my birthday today!! Usually we have a really difficult time on our birthday but today I actually feel pretty good! 20... wow. And I'm seeing Nosferatu tomorrow (its opening day here) and I'm sooo excited for that. Praying in advance that I don't get a hangover. Oh, and the new year is happening of course. I suppose that's also kind of important

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Y'all think lycanthropes in Star Trek can get procedures to look like the animal they kin

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Hello, fellow aliens! I hope you're all having a wonderful holidays / end of the year! I'm looking forward to new and great things coming about in the community next year as well as making more friends!

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Any other nonhumans who have never met another one of their species? goddamn it gets so lonely sometimes. feeling related to so many creatures, but not quite there. not quite fitting in. other specific monsterkins and demonkin where y’all at😭😭

Because I am definitely a pack animal, even if I’m not even an animal at all. I very much long for and dream of some type of connection with my own species. Humans constantly say it’s cruel to separate members of the same species, that, “a human could never replace what another ——— could” and we’re unfairly the exception

I feel like I’m lacking social skills. Not social skills when it comes to humans, but social skills when it comes to interacting with my own species😭

Anyways use this post to find more creatures like you if you can!? What are you? What’s your species? I’ll start, i’m personally a type of oni :^)

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As a reptilian alien, I hate the trope of entire races or species being evil. As a scaly, slithery, reptilian thing, I should get to see myself represented as the hero, or at least as a neutral citizen worthy of basic empathy, just like anyone else. Just because most humans would find me creepy and repulsive without my human mask doesn’t mean I deserve to be seen that way.

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I feel like I’ve been drawing myself so much lately, what can I say. Im my own muse… I like drawing myself in outfits I wear while fronting, it brings me comfort. (The hoodie in this one is based on a The Exorcist hoodie I wear constantlyyyyy) One thing I hate about living on earth? The times I’m expected to be awake and asleep! I’m always so tired… we’re just not meant for this schedule

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Lately I've been noticing a lot more animalistic insticts manifesting. Maybe I've always had these and have simply been repressing them, but nonetheless. I'm feeling them a lot now particularly triggered by negative emotions. When I'm angry or annoyed I want to bare my teeth I want to growl and chatter and wrap my tail around myself. When I'm bored the understimulation is absolutely painful. I want to run and jump and climb and other "play" activities (i cant do many of these things due to physical disabilty, but yknow) It feels odd, but I don't think I dislike it. And of course it's not just the negatives, many positive things manifest this way too, I'm just focusing on the negatives because it's more complex. I'll be honest I had a point to make when I started typing this but its completely gone from my head. Well.... insticts! Weird! Not bad though! That's my point

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Sometimes passive influence is hilarious because the other night I absolutely bawled my eyes out watching it's a wonderful life like I was a MESS and I was thinking about it for multiple hours afterwards and then I just. Stopped. And had absolutely no lingering strong feelings about it other than that its a good movie. And then I remembered its someone else's absolute favourite movie ever.... just that feeling of GOD DAMN IT THAT WAS YOU