#will is soooo hot irl like UGH

[thisisrealbrassbtw]

not kpop but UGH throw back to when i saw one of the pookiest guys in real life wif my bestie it was SOOOO GOOD ugh i wanna see lorna again

[seokjinsonlyone]

most to least likely to want you to make the first move

tae: the thing about taehyung is that he's a coquettte like he 100% loves to be pursued like i swear this happened irl but it always feels like i'm making it up bc i can never find the post but i think in 2020 there was a time period of like a month or two and we missed him soooo bad and then one day he randomly popped up and was like yeah i be browsing through here but i ain't say nothing bc i liked seeing y'all say y'all miss me like 😐 so yeah he loves the thrill of it all he loves the thought of having you wrapped around his finger me thinks gonna tata mic in yo face until you have no choice but to conquer him

jk: we have him on record saying "if you want me, come get me" so there's that but also okay i know jk ain't super shy no more but at the same time social settings still aren't his forte like he still has trouble figuring out when to jump into conversations and you can definitely tell when he ain't got a single thought running through his brain so i feel like you initiating will take the pressure off also this man is literally a perfectionist and a procrastinator like i feel like he been done took so long to ask u out u not even interested no more gotta strike when the iron hot with this one skskkslks

joon: he loves people he loves making connections and he loves reciprocal energy so if he's feeling you and you reach out first i think he'd love that fr like someone bold not tiptoeing around him not afraid to express what they're feeling it's gon do it for him every time

suga: i bet yoon really doesn't mind either way like he's not afraid to go and get what he wants and he appreciates people with a similar mind set

jin: i don't think he's opposed to it it's just that he needs to have you figured out before there's any forward movement and then after he figures you out he needs to figure out how he feels about it and you if it's even worth progressing forward so if you were to interrupt that process by moving before he's ready it would confuse him and he'd be very hesitant bc he doesn't wanna just outright reject you but he doesn't wanna just go for it either LOL he just needs a lil time; if he already knew how he felt about you however you making the first move would be awesome it'd save him some time and energy

hobi: he wouldn't be mad at it right but i feel like he's more traditional with it like ugh i love him so much he's such a gentleman so i feel like he'd wanna do the whole asking out pick you up for your first date at your doorstep bouquet of flowers in tow like he doesn't mind you being bold so if u wanna be an obvious flirt or whatever do yo thang but i do think he wants to take the lead

jimin: don't get me wrong i know jimin likes to be liked he likes to know that you know he knows you like him 100% but i get the feeling he likes the allure of the chase even more like you coming on to him may intrigue him for a good time but if you really want him i get the feeling that you gotta play the long game like very much give and take tease play his game until he has no choice but to give into it

a/n: luh calm post sumn breezy sumn light sksskls crazy thing about this is i've had this idea and ranking in my drafts for like a year and then this morning i scrolled past and was like huh that makes sense and then my brain kicked into gear and told me why LOL sorry i'm slow as molasses but take this snack as apology and i maybe 👀 hopefully 🙏 may have something a little more substantial before the year ends <3

[xxxdragonfucker69xxx]

I'M BEHIND SCHEDULE

HOUR IN BLACK, PART THREE : THE UNDERWORLD

im skimming really fast because CHARMS have already dropped and i need to get there

!! the outline: lethe and the sea of shadows, but now islands jut out from it which are afterlives. some afterlives are ritual afterlives formed by funerary ceremony and ancestor worship, some are primeval afterlives about the manner of your death. big change! it's full of ghosts, who you mostly know. ghosts aren't their full living selves, death takes a lot from them and theyre defined by their passions and grow weirder after death,

soulsteel.....

phantom beasts! vesper-wolves and pyre-maggots.... cool

prehuman ghosts! omg even dragon king ghosts.... yes yes yes

the history of the underworld is so incredible. im usually sort of tepid on these sections, even though i like the idea of having a history, but for whatever reason this one is soooo cool to me

stygian archipelago!!!

"Bereft of stable stars or predictable trade winds, ghostly sailors develop other means of charting  their course, whether following in the wake of phantom leviathans, piloting their ships under the  auspice of oracular trances, or reconciling the movements of the Calendar of Setesh with local  geomancy" BANGIN!!!!

the old laws are so fascinating to e... the little hints have me a little bit obsessed. man imagine playing stories like the fallen london stories about correspondence and discordance but to repair the old laws... mmm

ugh i looove the different aterlives so much

whispers... and the labyrinth

"Specters in the thrall of Thundering Dissolution join their minds  with his in the Symphony of Omnipresence, a psychic whirlpool that shears away the borders  between their consciousnesses" oh y god i have to use this shit somehow

stygia!!! hot damn... extreme politics at the heart of the underworld

i have a soft spot for the calendar of setesh ever since i made The Wheel And Weight of Grinding Time Crushes All Beneath Its Passage, an abyssal obsessed with hijacking the calendar via pirate radio to install a new constellation

"Each district’s boundaries are reinforced on the first day of each year with a ceremonial  procession. The regent must touch each of the district’s ancient boundary-stones, and shifting  those stones as part of the rite allows one district to expand at another’s expense. Whoever  completes the procession is the regent; regents surround themselves with bodyguards to prevent  coups during that vulnerable time. " OH my fucking god. what a heist movie. holy shit

GFKDNGDSG GENTRIFIED BY THE SILVER PRINCE

theres a whole subsection for the sewers. this is worldbuilding.

culture... architecture... a dole of black bread and white cheese...

"Weeds signify  persistence and thriving in the Underworld; a dandelion represents passage into Lethe. Fish  symbolize ghosts, while a fishhook means either love or money, depending on who you ask. And  blood — or, indeed, anything crimson — holds many meanings depending on context, including  power, food, artistic fervor, endings, new beginnings, and Creation itself." why was this made specifically to caer to me

"A few places  specialize in stoking negative emotions, luring perverse customers with discordant choirs,  noisome odors, or the like. Several wineshops on Seawall offer bone-dry hardtack and skunked  beer; the Kudzu Bell’s boarding house specializes in stale bread, mildewed cheese, and  vegetables boiled into a sulfurous mass." oh my god

"Some ghosts hoard coins whose psychic residue resonates with their own feelings; money  changers sort obols by emotion for arbitrage." to me this is what exalted is about. this is what no other game has. lets take a wacky fantasy concept and do irl economics about it

:000 mausoleums! places where prayer distills down and bathes ghosts... sort of like a pseudo manse?

....huh! people heard of stygia as a heaven, expected to go there as a ritual afterlife, and now there are spots in stygia for them

collegia! the ultimate in dark academia. ghosts who keep ancient traditions and skills, and are doing quite a lot of politics about it

and the mansions, which are pimeval afterlives of sudden death. these and the collegia alone give stygia such incredible depth already

"In the Underworld’s first days, the Resplendent Mansion stood  foremost among its peers, comprised of a host of Exalted and other  heroic ghosts who’d died in battle against the world’s makers. But  new members slowed to a trickle, then stopped entirely before the  First Age’s end. Today, their ancient seat atop Shining Hill stands all  but empty, inhabited by a few reclusive timeworn ghosts and a host  of guardian spirits and automata." .... so now that primordials and neverborn are out in the world beefing again someone might suddenly take up that seat huh

oh wow i love the transcendent course as a cult. it feels so, ironically, alive. and the DUAL MONARCHS

"The Incarnadine Path was Stygia’s native religion before the Dual Monarchs. Its creed reveres  the River of Blood as the literal and metaphorical lifeblood of Creation and Underworld alike.  Ghosts of the Mansions find a sense of superiority in their ancient ties to the faith, while the  collegia uphold it in opposition to the Transcendent Course. Its stronghold is the rust-red steeple  of the Cruor, where Incarnadine blood-priests sacrifice animals brought at great difficulty from  the living world to anoint the faithful in gore. Since Stygia’s founding, the Cruor’s priests have  been a law unto themselves, offering sanctuary to fugitives; the Signatories show little respect  for these traditions, but citywide rioting the last time the Legion Sanguinary violated Cruor  sanctuary makes them cautious." MORE CULTS. MORE

and now the stygian pact, with thirteen signatories, wich do not correspond to al deathlords! which i thought was fun. skull pirate aikeret! fathom hermit puppet for the underwater eemi!!! ukhala enlightened-in-blood... i am free on thursday... white thyrsus the youth pastor for a cult to a ghost-eating forest, sesim ruseka the bird bitch. god frankly any of these guys would be fun deathlords as well

WOW namtar is fun

ok im gonna cut myself off before dari of the mists... charms one day i will reach you...

[gurugirl]

Little Flower……

MY GOD I FEEL LIKE BASHING MY HEAD UP AGAINST A WALL RN 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

That’s was SO HOT I CANT! HES INSANE YET I CANT HELP BUT WANT HIM😭 this was soooo perfect like the atmosphere was set so well with the storm and the light being out! Also him showing up to her house is a BOLD MOVE especially if they haven’t developed a relationship outside work related things. But honestly idc because this set the story up so well and he for sure gives off creepy stalker guy vibes and irl I WOULD BE TERRIFIED!

Anyways, the TENSION omg 😵‍💫 but kinda lived for his “confidence” and how he gave of the vibe that he KNEW she would go weak for him🤭 and omg i definitely was not expecting that size kink thrown in there… LIKE IM SUCH A SUCKER FOR A SIZE KINK IT MADE ME DIZZY😵‍💫 and the breeding part too😵‍💫 ugh the smut of course you killed it! Truly could never go wrong! And you know I love dash of possessiveness!

OVERALL THIS IWAS SO GOOD OMG!!!! I didn’t think he would like leave before she woke up but idk I like that it leaves some mystery to it! SO SO SO GOOD!!! I love dark Harry but I especially LOVE when you write!! You always know how to handle it! Ahhh loved so much!!!

AHHH! So happy you enjoyed it! I might have gone overboard with all the kinks in there but size kink and breeding kink I just cannot get enough of so I felt it very necessary as I wrote it 🤭

But his boldness and confidence is more like delusion. He's been stalking her (that is IF any of that even happened 👀) and so even though they didn't know one another well, in Harry's mind they do because he's learned all he can about her.

ANYHOO! I adore your feedback and you. I appreciate you so much 🥰

xoxo

[katasstrophy]

Rivv bbie soooo how are the Tokrev blorbos doin' in there? You see when I was rotting w tokrev irl I haven't got a blog here yet so I really have no one to scream w except my irl friends but after I got here, I saw them tokrev men whoring around on this hellsite spreading legs omg. Tch tch tch these men. Butt I'm so glad u finished it!! Now I see Koko in the pfp but really need to know who's on top of the rank and can we at least get a top 10 fav? If not top 5 will do! 🦢💋

SWAN BBIE!! omg this is so late i meant to answer this waaayy earlier but LMFAOO tokrev men whoring around on the hellsite plsss i’m dead you’re not wrong!!! 💀🤚 i’m so glad i got into it too bc now i’m like. atrociously obsessed with it like it’s not even funny anymore.

you can ABSOLUTELY get my top 10 favs i’m rubbing my hands together greedily i’m soooo ready take a peek of the list under the cut!! 👀

1. MIKEY — this is really a no brainer for me sano manjiro the man that you are… crazy he’s so precious to me i’m always in my feels about him 🥹🥹🥹 he just. went through so much he deserves someone to be head over heels in love with him (it’s me) i’d literally gobble down every version of him he’s that powerful<3

2. SANZU — this off the rails cotton candy mfer dEAR. GOD have mercy. it’s so sexy of him to be this insane i always love a man who devotes himself to twisted loyalty bc in my head that means if you have him hooked he’s locked down for LIFE and i’m. so into that 🫶 let me lick him like a popsicle that’s all i ask!!!!

3. KOKO — my husband ofc!!! ugh he’s so slutty with that tongue of his it’s like he’s asking for me to suck on it smh 🙄 but yeah <3 the sugar daddy is strong in this one he’d take such good care of you i’m literally so in love with him i just know it in my bones that he’s the ideal lover

4. CHIFUYU — OMG MY ANGEL BABY MY PRINCESS WAAAHH :((( he’s just sooooo<3 a cutie a certified simp like if you’re looking for the perfect candidate for idiots to lovers DING DING you’ve found it it’s him. also timeskip fuyu?? with a dark undercut? 😳 legs automatically SPREAD

5. DRAKEN — literally malfunctioning thinking about this man… he’s so big and strong but also so selfless and caring akskisbdbdka i want himmm 🥹🥹 tears in my eyes pls he’s do ANYTHING for you and lord knows he’d rail you into next week (you keep a tally of how many bed frames you’ve broken PLSS i just know he’d make you laugh<3)

6. YUZUHA — *screaming* THAT’S MY WIFE!!!! no literally like i’m obsessed with her i really think she’s one of the strongest characters in tokrev for all she sacrificed and done to protect her brother :(( i support women’s wrongs 10000% stab your big bro in the back queen ur doing amazing!! and she’s sooooo gorgeous omg literally in awe <33

7. THE HAITANIS — okay technically this is cheating lol but COME ON when it comes to brothers in manga/anime… you end up wanting both like it’s the rule. them 🫶 i keep ping ponging between them all the time, depends on the day who i want more no joke but they’re both deeply damaged and so hot for that yummmm. also they’re like so funny their panels we’re batshit i was giggling

8. HANMA — NEED I SAY MORE jfc he’s fucked in the head omg but am i into that?? yes absolutely. classic example of no i can make him worse<333 he has all the (what i consider to be) “hot red flags” lol like he’s possessive as shit but it’s bc he realized he probably can’t live without you now oop

9. MITSUYA — ngl he wasn’t initially on my list but he’s been growing on me 👀 like he’s so hot and confident and FOR WHAT SIR PLS just one chance. plus he’s a fashion designer boy sign me uppp i can be his muse<3 his inspiration<3 we’d look so good together i just know it

10. EMMA — there’s just something about the sano siblings that makes me immediately wanna be in my feels and cherish them forever 🥹🥹 emma’s no different she’s such a sweetheart and a mother hen (and again. GODDAMN BEAUTIFUL PHEEWW) she deserves all the good things ever<333

honorable mentions bc i literally can’t control myself — senju. baji. kakucho. kazutora.

[frankiegirl]

Yeah the just. Vom pooling in their skirt is kinda what got me and oh god your writing😳

I think the emetophobia -> emetophillia pipeline may be. Real

I just….. go off lmao. I used to be super ashamed of like wanting to write and read this kind of thing. But the pipeline is SO real.

Like idk irl vomiting is generally an unpleasant experience. I wouldn’t say I’ve ever been phobic, but it’s still like not something I actively…enjoy experiencing? But I’m chronically ill with stomach issues soooo that’s kind of translated itself into something. Gluten is one hell of a drug lmao.

I’m rambling now but ugh vom pooling hot in that skirt, seeping through the layers of fabric, cooling on their cock AAAAAAA

[burnedbyshoto]

confession time: I hate french kissing with a passion. in fiction kissing with tongue is so fucking hot like I liveeeee for that shit, but irl... ugh I am so not turned on. all the men i’ve ever kissed have the coldest fucking tongues i’ve ever touched in my life. they’re wet, cold, slippery worms in my mouth and that is soooo gross. and then it’s not even like a little tongue... it’s 100% tongue or no kiss. like i’ve literally sat on a mans lap with my lips refusing to budge open because he was tryna fucking spoon my mouth into his mouth via his tongue and I didn’t open my mouth at ALL but it didn’t stop him.

like what am I doing wrong? am I supposed to find a man with a mouth that has a higher temperature than mine? am I supposed to eat ice before I let them into my mouth? am I supposed to chomp their tongue in a mean never to be taken in a sexy way way to get them to learn that plain old kissing is so much hotter than their wet worm tongue???

anyways kaminari kisses with 100% tongue or bust & you can’t change my mind.

[icyhawt]

haikyuu boys as things that men i’ve talked to have done/said

genre: humor? crack? idfk

warnings: men being dumb 🤡, 18+ nsfw themes

hinata:

sends you a video of him eating an ice cream sandwich w the caption, “pov: you are the ice cream sandwich”

bye he probably spent way too long thinking of that caption and thinks he’s soooo funny w it 😭😭- i mean i guess

osamu:

you tell him you don’t know how to ghost properly and he goes “oh yeah? lemme do smoke tricks w ur mouth?”

this is hot, yes samu u can do whatever u like 🥰

tendou:

sends you a hand pic w the caption “these would look good around ur neck”

sends these pics UNPROVOKED, ugh and his hands are so nice too, yes please choke me out—🥵

terushima:

swipes up on your snap selfie and says “so am i sucking on your tiddies or not?” (y’all have never spoken btw)

absolutely no ‘hi’ or nothing like ???? like damn at least ask how my day was first aknskdmfm

oikawa:

texts you “do u say that to all the boys u talk to or am i special :))” after you tell him he’s cute

tbh yes u do but he don’t need to know that!!

nishinoya:

in the middle of y’all flirting he texts you, “grrrr *playful bite* 🤭”

mf WHATSHEHDH- please and he is 100% serious

bokuto:

after about 3 days of talking he texts you like “can we have 5 kids when we get married????”

bye i cant. he hasn’t even seen u irl yet, sir please chill out 🥴

makki:

texts you “tell me why they was just shooting outside and i had to run into your dms” as a convo opener and when you respond w ‘what ????’ he screenshots it and posts it to twt like “cant believe she would let me die like this 🙄”

bye his friends in his replies laughing 😭 block him rn

atsumu:

offers to send a dick pic in portrait mode in exchange for your nudes

he would, he really would.. i mean at least he asked before he sent it 🥴

suna:

on the first date, y’all go to the mall and he drags you into the nike store and ignores you for an hour bc he’s too busy finding shoes on the clearance rack to sell for double the amount on depop or smth

bitch...at that point just leave him there and go shopping by urself bc 😭😭😭

daishou:

invites you out and makes it seem like a group outing but shows up by himself. he pays for absolutely everything for you, tries to get cozy w you while y’all were in the movie theater but fails to mention he has a gf. and when his friends ask if y’all were on a date says, “idk”

‘iDk’ mf i will fight u AND take mika away from u too

kunimi:

after a week of talking he sends you literal paragraphs telling you how much he wants to be with you and then tells you he’s moving across the country the next day

he don’t even like u girl, he’s doing this bc he thinks it’s funny. the mf isn’t even moving anywhere he just says it so everything is more dramatic- pls i HATE HIMMM

kenma:

texts you every single day for a month and is always so soft in his messages (dms are littered w ‘💖😚🥰🥺’) and then blocks you on all socials out of nowhere

bye hes an ASSHOLE for thisndjdjfn, fight him if u ever see him

a/n: yeah these are all very real things that have happened to me idk if i should laugh or cry aksnkdkfk

[vermillioncrown]

okay, but is your friend invested in mr. queen? hahah pls share some reactions if both of you are okay with it

he's (C) fucking gone on mr. queen

C started watching when i was chromecasting ep 3, side-eyeing the show while waiting for the toaster over to pop

and when he got his dinner he just quietly sat next to me, ignoring all my "hahah yeah i know it's ridiculous but kdramas and stuff are like that, it's fun bc it's cringe..."

C, eating and staring at the screen "this is hilarious"

after three episodes in a row and 2am "are you watching more? will you let me know when you watch more?"

when we reached the surit-nal episodes he was metaphorically nail-biting and before the resolution C was enthusiastically postulating who could be behind the events

we roped a third friend (E) in and started over (C and me on ep 17)

C's reactions + supplementary E interaction:

i didn't want to admit that i had a soft spot for kim byeong im, but C hates him. then E was like "he's so cute" and i just... same. but i'm sorry my guy, you gotta move on

"UGH, him again?! move ON!" C on kim byeong im

"I love her," he says with full seriousness on court lady choi. i also love her

"pr-pregante?!?!?!?!" ("am i gregnant???" he loves the pregnant yahoo answers video)

E isn't into cheoljong in the beginning (his drowsy, slow-witted act), but C just gives her Looks of Disdain every time she says that

"the king is soooo much better than that guy" (C talking about cheoljong vs kim byeong im)

he loves how cheoljong's.... everything. but especially the way he laughs. "hah. hah. hah," with full teeth, open mouth, and lips.

(whenever something requires a sarcastic laugh irl, C starts staring at me and laughing like cheoljong. i don't know if it's better or worse than his deliberate frenchy laugh "hon hon hon")

"you called him a... a 'simp'? what does that mean??" > one episode later > "you SIMP"

"NO Dumb Cousin, sTOP" (on kim hwan) "UGH HE's SO DUMB" (i know kim hwan is dumb of ass, but he's good of heart and i love him)

"aaaahh, she's amazing..." whenever court lady choi does anything

he starts bouncing in his seat whenever the music indicating 'shenanigans' starts in the background

"huh. that's what he looks like when he smiles" (on re-watching the early episodes and seeing kim jwa geun+kim byeong im actually express positive emotions)

"OOOOOOOOOO DISRESPECT!" (the kim jwa geun sword thing) "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GET OUTTA HERE"

he picked up a lot of american slang and increased swearing from me (+ my weird diction), which is quite different from his mild quebecois way of speaking "hmmm, 'never show your whole ass', eh?" (letting irrationality and emotional state control your actions, making a mess of things, being a hot mess)

two episodes after... "guy, stop showing your whole ass!!!!"

"oh.h my GOD. consort. consort.... i thought better of you! ... her whole ass is out..." (on jo hwa jin)

seeing all the food in the show and being reminded of how much rice our apartment eats (for 2 white guys + me) "wow we are rice bitches" (< that's it. we can't send him back to canada)

"AAA THEM!!!!" *pointing violently at the screen* when court lady choi + royal cook do their thing

when kim hwan goes through his romantic turmoil "bwaaahahahaa!!! RIP!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!"

"one more episode. i mean, .... if you have time... and i have time.... oh wait let me play overwatch w [my bf] first, will you be awake after?? ok one more episode" (i told him i'll go do my nighttime routine and wait)

[emeraldbabygirl]

OKAY OKAY SO- It was like old times and he was this warrior prince that was my hubby and he was so scary and he was wearing white and he was so much bigger than me and he kept scolding me? (Whenever I dream of Yifan he's always scolding me like a motherfucker for some reason) and I was massaging his shoulders because big hubby works so hard? YEAH BUT he was SOOOO scary I was on the verge of pissing my pants because ugh he was so intimidating and I had fucked shit up but he didn't know because he had just returned from fucking kILLING someone with his big ass sword 😭 like his white clothes were stained with blood all the way around and it was dripping off his hands omg and I obviously couldn't tell him that I fucked up because rip my ass but then on top of that I had masturbated because my core was pulsing for some reason (probably partially bc he was lowkey so HOT) and I had also fucked my ass with my barbie's leg 😭 while he was gone bc I was so needy for him and it was the violation of one of his biggest rules oMG and he called me over to help hubby clean up in his deep ass voice and then I poured water on his hands and checked him for injuries and he scolded me again for saying something then he helped me up and I was shaking in my panties like literally because I was terrified someone was gonna tell on me for touching myself or that fuck up that I couldn't even remember hELP I WOKE UP SOBBING BC I NEED THAT IRL I NEED YIFAN I LOVE HIM SO MUCH PLS GOD 😭

He looked a bit like this but with shorter hair I think

UMMMM

OK BUT YES THE DRESS IN HISTORICAL DRAMAS AND SHIT IS SO FUCKING SEXY UGH GODDAMN AND A SWORD UGH YES YES YES AND YES YES. Wow, I’d cry it I had a dream like that phew 🥵🥵🥵

Like fuck me gently but with a sword instead of a chainsaw uwu

[1386luvr]

Fine okay here

I woke up at 8 am. I started my school work for the day since I don’t have zoom class on fridays.

I had until 12 to finish everything because I had an eye doctor appointment. I didn’t finish on time but oh well it was just art.

After I turned in what I could, and we left to go to the appointment. I read ToA in the waiting room, before being called back to the doctor person that I’ve never seen before.

She asked me about myself and about soccer, karate, etc. she noticed the drawing on my hand and asked if I was right handed. All that awkward stuff

Then after me, my brother, and my dad were done, we left and went to the pet store to look at the fish. I normally look at the cats but they weren’t there. I named a gecko Carl, there was a mad birb, and another bird that was dancing.

After we picked my mother up from my grandmothers house and we went home. When we got home I finished my art and turned it in late.

I spent the remainder of the day reading/staring at the wall

Your turn be descriptive as well yeah?

UGH YAY

stan the dancing birb

i deadass read that as “as staring at your wall” and i got mad confused

moving on

i woke up at like 6:30 to have a shower and wanted to cry, but i did my eyeliner really good and i felt hot asf so it was fine, my dad was in a good mood today so we vibed

i got to school and told my teacher i wasn’t ready for this test bc she rushed me into it and i barely got time to study, so i cried and my two irl best friends comforted me and my mentor made me feel better, got over my sadness, finished the test and realized if i failed, it’s my teachers fault, not mine, got kinda heated over it

then my friend packed me a lunch bc i don’t eat enough and i love her

my friend might be leaving the school bc her parents are selfish and i cried bc i’m gonna miss her sm

but i’ll see her monday bc we have to come in to finish specific work and then if i finish that, then i have two weeks off excluding the monday ofc

irrelevant but we’ll find out on tuesday if she’s leaving the school

went to social, the social teacher made my bsf cry which she never does and question herself bc the teacher was being so ignorant but my mentor made her feel better too

got an email from some people who have been harassing me since like 7th grade???? yeah fan behaviour😳😳😳

got called “chefs kiss” by a very pretty girl in my mentor group

left and went shopping with my mother, we got food and then we went to chapters to get some books, i got the percy jackson series and the red, white, and royal blue book😌😌 then went to get coffee

omg i also got an email from my principal saying how good i’m doing

then i went home and did this harry potter quiz w my alexa, failed the last question but that’s bc i haven’t read that book yet soooo.. AHA moving on

then my mom and i watched the first two episodes of wanda vision and I LOVE IT, now we’re watching avengers endgame and i’m simping over tom holland

got into a mini fight with my dad but we got over it bc he made me a wrap, but it made me sick bc it was more food than i can handle but that’s okay, i’m fine now

also my dad questioned why my principal was using “their” in the email and my mom and i predicted he would question it, and it’s bc he doesn’t know my pronouns so he’s being respectful but my mom stood up for people w different pronouns and shit so we love her and now i am writing this😌😌

[mermaidsirennikita]

HIT MEEEEEEEEE WITH YOUR TOP 10 GAY OTPS

WELLL OOOOOOH WELLLL you know I have no brainspace so I’m listing those that are hitting me right NOW

EDIT: I also realize now that I totally read that as LGBT+ versus gay, so I included two ships here that feature trans people in relationships with people of the opposite gender, my bad!  But I’m editing on two more ships as we speak.

in no particular order lol

--Lito and Hernando in Sense8 (like to be FRANK this is probably #1 because I love that we saw them going thru so much; like actual legitimate relationship struggles that often stemmed from Lito’s issues; but then also dirty bathroom sex; and then 3way with Dani was just like this overflow of love and throuple confirmation lol)

--Nomi and Amanita (another STAAAAAND out for me, I absolutely love them, they were like the steady calm thru the storm couple but with such intense passion for one another)

--Miel and Sam from When The Moon Was Ours by Anna-Marie McLemore.  You probably don’t know this one because it’s a YA magical realism novel, but!  It’s!  One of my favorite!  Romantic arcs!  EVER!  So Miel is a Latina teenager and Sam is her best friend who happens to be a young trans man and the book basically kicks off with them having sex and kind of having to deal with that, plus some magical realism shit based on La Llorona and the fact that there are family things going on and other girls who want Sam (and this is never treated as like.  odd or unusual, Sam is just wanted like any hot teenage boy would be wanted by teenage girls) and it’s ACHINGLY beautiful.  I cried when I read this book.  Also McLemore is just a super great writer and most of her books either deal with Latinx characters and magical realism and LGBT+ issues or both, as she’s a queer Latinx woman irl and her husband is a trans man.  So you can sense the personal nature of this book and it just is BEAUTIFUL.

--Simon and Bram from Love, Simon.  My heart grew 3 sizes when we watched that movie, ugh.

--Callie and Arizona from Grey’s Anatomy.  And I know, TOXIC SHIT HAPPENED but this is such a classic epic TV romance for me.  I grew up on Grey’s and watching Callie discover her bisexuality was like this momentous thing on tv, and then even though she and Arizona had some serious.... bumps... along the road the idea they’re offscreen chilling with their bb Sofia and hopefully at least one new baby is lovely to me.

--Sissy and Vanya from The Umbrella Academy.  Like!!!!!!!!!!  Vanya’s s1 romance was soooo flat and I wanted more from her and then it turns out that she’s getting her Carol from the film Carol on at a FARM?  And the subtext of Vanya giving Sissy’s son her powers, which in a sense makes him Vanya’s superpowered son, so Harlan is Sissy and Vanya’s son, no matter what he literally has two moms, and their final scene had me crying actual tears.

--Agron and Nasir from Spartacus.  I know you haven’t seen this but like, the degree to which I was owned by these two, lol.  But the thing is that in a sense they were almost like?  A couple I didn’t worry about?  Because even though both were warriors and there was one time when someone was trying to COME UP ON AGRON’S MAN and they could die at any moment, they were so like?  Committed?  The most married of Spartacus couples?  Also had v. good sex scenes.

--Lucretia and Ilithyia, also Spartacus and I SOMEWHAT HESITATE TO INCLUDE THEM lol because they never have like.... sex onscreen.  But Lucretia is canonically bisexual and Ilithyia is pretty heavily implied to be into her (like... kisses her on the mouth all the time... professes her love all the time... tbh MOST of the characters on this show are implied to be pansexual).  So they’re like, fully evil characters who never have a pure love for each other, at all, but are obsessed with one another, and have this clearly fatal attraction wherein they both want to kill each other and can’t get enough of each other?  And I’ll own that the person Lucretia loves most is very obviously her husband but that only increases this idea that Ilithyia wants MORE of her?  But then when Lucretia is loyal to Ilithyia she wants to kill her?  They are my toxic wlw ship lol, basically the opposite of Agron and Nasir.

--Angel and Lil Papi from Pose.  Left field lol but due to quarantine, I watch Pose now, and these two snuck up on me???  Like I won’t say that they are like, great influences on each other but rn I’m very into them bc it’s some real authentic YOUNG LOVE shit.  For context Angel is a transgender model and he’s a bi hustler who’s taken in by the same house mother, and so they’re kinda just friends at first but he clear ADOOOOOORES her and slowly she falls in love with him too and they get hooked on drugs together but also he wants the best for her I sweeeear, the show has things I could take or leave but these twoooo.

--Jamie and Lord John, Outlander.  You never said this had to be totally canon but I’m trying to make everything at least one-sided canon or EXTREMELY heavily implied, and John is madly in love with Jamie, so.  I need them to fuck.  I need them to fuck so bad, with or without Claire, this could be the greatest like the levy broke for one night plot arc ever, like I honestly can interpret John as being totally in love with Jamie and Jamie having room in his heart for John even if it’s not like a consistent thing, I WANT IT.

--Darla and Drusilla, Buffyverse.  I’VE ALWAYS LOVED THIS.  Like we know it’s not this consistent relationship and the incestuous dynamic there is like, uh, a lot, but sometimes evil girls have to have fun, and as seen above I do love some evil girl content.

--Sailor Uranus and Sailor Neptune, Sailor Moon.  Lol this is a classic, I have loved them since I was 12 and now my 13 year old sibling loves them and models their overall sense of style after Uranus, I love it.

Is that 10?  Lol that’s where I’ll cut myself off for NOW, I know I’m missing shit we’ve probably discussed lol

[seafoamchild]

i have felt so weird the past few days. i had a bad night on thursday when i kept getting big parties at work and they weren’t tipping me accordingly even though i was giving them great service. like i had a 10 top of medical students and of course the one foreign guy who doesn’t understand our tipping culture comes up and corners me and makes me swipe his card so he can pay for everything without the other people knowing, then he tips me $15 on a $180 bill. i was so fucking mad, like that party was taking up 3 of my 4 tables for HOURS!!! i was so done! i literally went up to the other end of the table and very politely told the guys there that their friend had covered the meal, but he tipped me less than 10 percent and i knew it was only because he didn’t know the tipping culture. and guess what! they gave me an extra $20 in cash. i’m lucky that particular restaurant has like no rules and the managers don’t care, but at my other restaurant or any other corporate-type restaurant i could have easily been fired for doing that. like how fucked up that i have to be THAT aggressive to get the money i am owed and that also servers technically aren’t allowed to like stand up for themselves because “It makes the restaurant look bad” like FUCK that i have bills to pay, i want the money i worked for and deserve! 

well i had another bad night on friday at my other job when stuff kept going wrong over and over again, whatever, but saturday morning i came in and immediately got a 10 top of guys who were trying to drink the restaurant out of tecate, and they succeeded and ordered 100 tecates and a bunch of tequila shots and food and stuff. their bill was $675 and i took care of them for 4 hours, talking to them and chilling and even drinking a few beers with them, i was SURE they were going to give me a massive tip - turns out they split the bill so one guy tipped me on the food bill but the guy who paid for the drinks - A FOUR HUNDRED DOLLAR TAB - left me NOTHING. NOTHING!!! i was like.. so in shock. that should have been at least an $80 tip and honestly more than that considering how much work i did for them. i could not BELIEVE it! i felt like i had been sooooo taken advantage of! i hate feeling like that and i feel like that a lot because i am such a genuinely nice person! it was such a day-ruiner. i did the ultimate no-no and found the guy on facebook and messaged him that i thought there must have been a mistake, and he actually did message me back and said they would venmo me but i’m not keeping my hopes high that they’ll actually do it. whatever UGH. this job is so frustrating sometimes. but the constant drama and high stress keep me on my toes which is what i need, to be quite honest. 

oh and then also today i had this brother and sister at one of my tables and the brother was really fucking hot and he was laughing at all my jokes and like clearly into me and his sister even asked me if i was single and i said Yeah and then she looked at her brother and was like “isn’t that convenient?” and i thought he would leave his number and he DIDN’T!!! god dammit! i guess only creeps leave their numbers on receipts? idk. i would have texted him

but yeah so there were a lot of lows this weekend and i also partied a lot, went to an EDM show on friday night and got sooooo fucked up on vodka red bulls and ran into this guy i used to do summer landscaping with so it was actually really cool catching up with him. i said i wasn’t gonna party again on saturday but i was so mad from the whole getting stiffed on a 400 dollar bill thing that i went out with sarah and we did a bunch of coke and drank tequila and it was a really weird night because the first bar we went to, this girl outside the bar started screaming hysterically like i legit thought a cat was being strangled or something, but it was this girl screaming about how her rapist was there at the bar and fuck everyone for letting him roam free and it was honestly so sad and awful i wished there was something i could have done to help her (other people were helping her though). set a weird tone for the night. we were too coked up and sarah walked home with me and started sobbing and telling me all about her abusive piece of shit ex boyfriend and i didn’t know how to help other than just listen and not judge and be there for her. 

i felt bad the next day from the coke hangover, i was just really sad and down and honestly thought i needed to cry it all out. i went for a walk on the east side by all the nice houses and the lake and it was so misty and chilly, couldn’t even see a block in front of me. it was eerie but nice even though i felt sad. then i drove to my parents house before work to drop off some stuff and i realized as soon as i drove out of milwaukee it suddenly was 65 degrees and sunny and perfect!! i freaked out and realized this was probably the last warm day of the whole fucking year!! i immediately put up my shift and amazingly jason got me covered so i got off work and then we drove together all the way to the illinois border and went on a walk through the woods with his friend brandon. it was so much fun!! i was feeling really manic and i was ON one, telling all these funny stories and being chatty AF. the late afternoon light was so beautiful on all the trees and the meadow. we walked for a long time, then went to an italian restaurant and had pasta and wine and calamari and just laughed and laughed. it was a good ass day, hanging out with jason, going to woodmans and getting a bag of jellybeans and all this fancy water and just having fun. 

yesterday i walked around with behr and got ramen and drank ginger turmeric tea at rochambo and it was nice to talk. i actually said a lot of shit about sam and the stuff he used to do that would bother me soooo much, i guess i just needed to vent irl instead of on here. behr does understand though. she’s a good friend. then we saw ryan the bartender from work who i kind of have a crush on and we all hung out for what turned into a couple hours, showing each other our hilarious childhood pictures and just laughing and talking. i had no makeup on and i looked like shit so i was self conscious but what-fucking-ever honestly. i had a good time. 

i guess i haven’t been with anyone for like 7 or 8 months now and i feel like i definitely want to wait for someone who deserves me but i’m also bored and antsy too. i don’t even know like any straight boys lol. like who will like me for ME? i am very strange and goofy and i’m definitely not like, a Hot girl. i’m weirdly beautiful sometimes and really fuckin funny. but i rarely ever feel attracted to ANYONE. idk man! i have felt weird lately. just kinda lonely and nervous or something. blegh. tomorrow is a new day.

[dayna-scully]

ncis/tiva s6 lb

season 3  |  season 4   |  season 5  |  season 7   |  season 8  |  season 9  |  season 10  |  etc

6x01

je peux pas resister

heeey it’s the Australian again

love child is a really sweet show, but he’s a dick in it

oh I guess Palmer and lee broke up

they’re not your a-team though, gibbs

wow over 4 months

ziva, always getting hurt

math gibberish

oh so pine gap really exists?

stuck with Bad Dad

we miss you, ziver

even, uh, tony

💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

(especially tony)

oh I forgot about rivkin cool cool cool cool cool cool

dudnt

you are a geek, offbrand mcgee

I also always forget that ncis is a jag spin off

gibbs, retrieving his ducklings

I really need to come home, boss

you know I love you guys

miss you too dad

😖😖😖😖💔💔💔💔

oh lee

ziva!!!!! ziva!!!!!!!!!!!

he says Abby’s his favourite but let’s be honest

6x02

the origin of my otp tag for tiva

I wish michael weatherly wasn’t such a piece of shit irl

ziva staring at Tony’s empty desk

“all those who care about him” like you, ziva???

the favourite wants to talk to her boyfriend, dad

taller? hotter?/older

you could have called

she would have answered, dinozzo

totally normal platonic professional work behaviour to have multiple pictures of your work partner in a bikini on your wall in your bunk yep

what are those doing on your wall?

gibbs knows what they’re doing there

you get used to seeing someone everyday, talking to them, relying on them, and suddenly they’re not there

(terrible screen shot since they were moving too much but personal space jeez)

doesn’t make it any easier for mcgee

yes, sure, “mcgee”, you two are alone tony, you can say that you missed seeing her every day to her face

y’know, the face that you missed seeing every day

a dwinkaquink

you’re back in dc, which is what you wanted! Isn’t it?

that’s not what I asked

Michael Rivkin happened in Israel

you’re right, I don’t want to talk about it

lotta things take mcgee seconds

Michael who?

seems like old times

home

she loooves him

and still always has to be beside him

6x03

excuse me????????????????

you are such a control geek

hmm ziva feels really violated by Tony’s nosiness

tony…does not seem to get it

McGee found it with his butt

isn’t that just Jenny’s house redecorated

6x04

the same back alley they use every time, too

and other mouth related activities

who’s this tony?

gibbs’ son and ziva’s boyfriend

oh gibbs

6x05

tony is upset that she’s going back to Israel and also that he didn’t know

I am normal people

she got the bothersome part right

normal

me whenever tony and ziva do what tony and ziva always do

what is it you really want to know, tony?

thought you already mcdid that

or maybe his friends lied to him about a romantic attachment

?????? what tony

you would only care this much if you were jealous

nosy dinozzo

rivkin 😡

my ninja

?????????

god damn tony

he’s promoting me to head monkey

why are you showing me mould porn?

tony has a cruuuush

6x06

tony is going to make so many jokes

you certainly have your moments

he has his moments

lets see who the boss likes better/ziva

I told you she was his favourite

no personal space

wasn’t my type though/really? She was breathing

I have standards, ziva, otherwise I’d be dating you

suuuuuuure tony sure

6x07

ziva’s jealous of the recruit

your weird uncle jethro

a baby agent

ziver

6x08

oh come on seriously

same z

don’t say the word war game

well that did not go as planned

she’d kill all of them with her bare hands to get tony back

we never have to pay for a drink again

OH ELEVATOR

she’d kill to protect him

I’m tired of pretending/so am I

oh ziva

oh. That’s much worse.

tony knows it’s a part of the plan

McGee evidently doesn’t

circling sharks

6x09

tony knows about a very private tattoo 👀👀👀

they really like killing off women

6x10

that dude is 23?

this is less “you’re a lech” and more “please love me”

I always thought cougars like young guys

get dunked dinozzo

eat the rich

I like to have fun in more…adult ways

wanna go on a movie date, ziva?

6x11

oof mcgoo

6x12

her name is Hannah, she’s asked me out to lunch twice

that face says that ziva did accept

6x14

that’s actually pretty cruel

but like…McGee…likes tony

haven’t I taught you anything?

that amount of zoom is literally not possible

you cannot make pixels where there are none

why not just ghost him?

siblingsss

6x15

I miss s4 mature tony

ngl ziva shooting is pretty hot

there is a smurf war

la Bonita

they always have to be within three feet of each other

nice talking to ya Leon

too bad there aren’t little gibblets running around

6x16

😟are you going back to Mexico

we’ve just never heard you say that much at once

tfw you make your dad proud

6x17

don’t trust people who offer help in a case

oooh a hit man

6x18

it’s not likely he was shot by a bird

maybe you should be looking for something a little closer to home

yes, approximately 8 feet from your desk, z

but he’s fucking ancient

“pick the right woman” ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye ye

6x19

what are you up to mcsneaky

little sister can’t tell them what to do

poor trash panda

6x20

damn girl

fuckin cowboy move

you’re the real victim here, aren’t you wall

6x21

all she can think about is tony when he’s not around

6x22

ugh backdoor pilot

Tele-friend from tel Aviv?/you’re jealous

yes, he has a name

why does that bother me so much

cover for me?

go? gone.

ahh, personal, not professional

the duck man is on the right track!!

I’m thinking she’s worried about something

oh tony

how did he not know about what happened?

Special Investigation, top Secret

a real lead? I mean, really, a lead?

angry, scared tony

ziva lied to someone she loved, but this time he found out

6x23

I always forgot that Michael is the one they’re after in 22

you did not think I would identify him

don’t ask that question

like how well you know him?

gibbo is worried about his daughter

6x24

I’m up a tree

oh tony oh dear

she’s so hurt

he would never date a coworker but he’s definitely thinking about it

I think “bad” is an understatement for how that went

6x25

this season is soooo looong

tony done fucked up

don’t lie to your dad ziva

you wanted to protect her

that music is so incongruous

a cruel way to get the truth for ziva, but effective

why do people always put the blame on ziva

it’s never actually her fault

for you

you felt it was you job to protect me?

but I should have been

oh z

I suppose this is ziva being on Jeanne’s side of the situation

and of course when ziva realizes she’s loyal to gibbs, he leaves her behind

LIKE AN ASSHOLE

oof

one short

she asked you to choose so you chose tony

Oh yes giving her time ends up being SUCH a fantastic choice gibbs

like why this assumption that ziva would just…live a normal life in Israel?

[whatscallion]

Sorry for just now getting back to you! ❤ Aunt Flow has been a bitch this month. 😭 We're two years apart AND WE'RE BOTH ARIES?! It's like we were destine to be friends! 😃😃 I haven't read The Wicked + The Divine, but I've heard nothing but good things about it. Adding Doomsday Clock to my list now. Currently I'm reading everything Nat related, Skin&Earth (Dynamite Entertainment), GLOW (IDW Publishing), and rereading Fraction's Hawkeye. I usually read more, but that's all I have time for atm.

well, see- i’m also not so hot at responding LOL. that said, i hope your shark week got better!! AND YOOOOO ARIES4LYFE. i scrolled through one of my discord chats the other day and saw something along the lines of how i claimed i was calm and then “headbutted” someone. not that i’ve done that irl. i have decked someone tho. and omg, The Wicked + The Divine is just incredible. it’s such a solid comic. UGH SO GOOD. and ooo nat-related, eh? i’m a sucker for chris samnee’s nat tbh. he ships buckynat hard so like, he does a lot of commissions and just drawings of them. much like seb, he’s co-captain of that ship, giving us proper content. 

Skin&Earth sounds familiar, but i’ma look it up anyways. GLOW sounds familiar too. a friend of mine got into Saga and wants me to read it soooo i’ll probably do that between semesters. fraction’s hawkeye is like, the only proper hawkeye too lbr. i’m tryna think if there’s any other comics i’ve read…old man hawkeye is really good. i’m also reading old man quill which is turning out pretty good too. i wish i was following war of the realms, but that might be something i do after the arc reaches its climax since it’s such a huge arc. domino’s hotshots has nat in it so ofc i’m reading that one. uhmmmmm pearl is a good one, even tho it’s bendis. 

i can’t think of anymore! i’ve been wanting to read the umbrella academy since i was told it’s pretty different from the series on netflix ( which i loved ). 

i hope you’re doing well!! LUVS.

[kormi]

UGH I had a bit of a weird date and it’s apparently been bugging me the past few days so lemme write a few things (a bit nsfw)

Soooo last time I was in Bratislava, which was like a month ago, I talked to a few guys in Grindr. This guy was no different, greeted me, but was p slow with replies, so we didn’t get to meet while I was there. I left back for Brno but we stayed in touch

It was... p okay. He messaged me every few days, although the messages were very brief but okay. Some people are more talkative irl, but I saw him message me first, so it wasn’t like I always had to start talking. He ensured me he’s much more talkative irl. 

Turns out it was this guy that I found pretty hot and gave a like on another dating site (iBoys), so I got excited. Very rarely does it happen that such hot guys would be interesting in guys like me lmao (not that I wouldn’t have enough self confidence). He’s this bigger bear-ish hairy guy with a big beard, which are usually into the same kind of guys.

Once, he went to sleep at like 10pm, and then woke up at 12:30am with a message that was like “show me how you cum” or whatever. I joked that he thinks about me all the time but naturally, I sent some picture, we exchanged messages for like an hour, about how nice his dick was, how I wanted to hold his ass, how he wanted me to fuck him, that kinda thing. Then we both fell asleep.

After then, I messaged him I will come to Bratislava again, so we set up a date. He begged me to arrive a day sooner and sleep over - so we agreed on that. He asked how long can I stay, to which I replied that I should leave at around 6pm-ish. 

When I arrived he picked me up, we walked over to his place, he made tea, we talked a bit. The way he talked wasn’t really my thing (he reminded me of someone, idk who) but I tried to not think about it too much. He also cooked a lot of food, but I didn’t feel like eating at that point. I showered, and then we went to sleep. 

We lay down, I took off my shirt and he took off his. We first lay on our backs, but I’m like alright that’s a bit weird, so I turned to him and put my hand on his chest, sort of like a cuddle, but not quite there. The thing is, when it comes to sexual things or cuddling, despite how I have no problem with touches from other people most of the time, I sorta need invites for these, I rarely just do them by myself (especially with new people). Even this half-cuddle was “a big step” (especially considering I wasn’t turned on, like, at all). His chest hair was a bit rough, otherwise I might have rubbed his chest and attempted anything.

He made no attempt to do anything. At one point, he turned to me, put his arm vaguely on my waist, didn’t hold it or touch my butt, didn’t kiss me or my forehead... and turned back after a while. Then I turned the other way around, with my butt towards him, hoping he’d maybe at least hug me from the back, but I got nothing. We fell asleep.

In the morning, he got up at 6am or something and I slept till 10am. We had breakfast, tea, and he casually mentioned he has a flatmate (? maybe that was the reason he didn’t attemtp antyhing). then he said “would you mind if we left at 12pm” and I said that’s actually fine. That, however, meant we didn’t really do anything, we didn’t eat the food he cooked, and that his question about how long I can stay was irrelevant (he said he was originally supposed to have the meeting at 3pm and it got rescheduled to 1pm, so that’s fine, but still).

And I’m... baffled? By how much we talked about it or something yet there was no actual attempt at anything? His personality was completely different than what I thought/expected, otherwise I might have hinted a bit more, but... the whole situation just feels really weird to me, I cannot really describe it but it’s maybe... awkwardness? 

I don’t know. I am not sure what the feeling is, maybe it’s a bit of a disappointment, maybe something else, but... it was weird.