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This is probably more of my personal headcanon / how I best like to interpret the characters rather than something canon based but... I have been thinking, at the end of the day most of the relationship bonds Dazai created in the ada span between rough and silently hostile. He doesn't get along with Yosano because of their shared link with Mori, and he doesn't like Ranpo because Ranpo being the only person he can't trick or manipulate probably makes him feel unsafe. It's not like he can exactly get along with the Tanizakis either, he's simply... Too distant from them to actually build anything positive with either Naomi or Jun'ichirou.
I think this explains why Dazai is so obsessed with Kunikida and can't leave him alone one second: because despite everything, I truly believe Kunikida is fond of Dazai (for reasons he himself would never be able to explain), and I feel like due to Kunikida's straightforwardness the tension between Dazai and Yosano and Ranpo would go completely unnoticed to Kunikida (whereas otherwise his seniors' negative opinion of Dazai could have negatively influenced Kunikida's feelings for him). That's why Dazai loves to spend time with and torment Kunikida, because he's the only member that doesn't feel directly hostile / out of reach. Even better, you know Kunikida isn't happy with Dazai; but it's also all very superficial, kind of a game, and the hostility isn't personal. It all makes me reflect on how Dazai feels truly desperate for human connection despite what he makes it look like. It's maybe more of a gut feeling, but I do truly believe Kunikida cares about Dazai and is willing to play their game, because I feel like otherwise he would have already told Dazai off definitely.
That also explains why once he met Atsushi Dazai absolutely latches onto him. It's like he's saying, this is my dude, I brought him to the agency; he's under my wing, and he's on my side. Which is a weird thing to say, there's no sides in the ada, but be it relapsing to old habits, be it a deep insecurity of Dazai, I feel like he's trying really hard to create connections and find allies. And Atsushi is such an ego boost for Dazai, I have no doubt Dazai absolutely loves him. In the end, as crazy as it may sound, I'm convinced that Dazai is way more dependent on Atsushi than Atsushi is on him.
But Atsushi is in good terms with the whole agency. Well, because he's Atsushi, and he's kind and clumsy and just trying to do his best, I feel like everyone warms up to him sooner or later. It's very nice to think in the end it may be Atsushi himself to bring Dazai closer to the rest of the ada, by breaking sides that never existed to begin with and linking them all together.
#osamu dazai#bsd ada#akiko yosano#ranpo edogawa#I don't think Yosano and Ranpo particularly like Dazai either tbh. Yosano for the same reasons Dazai doesn't like her.#Ranpo cause he's total bestie with Yosano so you know...#But I do believe they'd all be able to warm up to each other some time after Atsushi has joined#doppo kunikida#kunikidazai#atsushi nakajima#dazatsu#bsd#bungou stray dogs#mine#q.#23/12/23#Not really counting Kenji and Kyouka in the picture because... They're just kids you know?
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oml IM ONE OF YOUR FAVORITES???
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i was actually going to do this but then forgot all about it. thx mootie :]
lemme see...
[last song] - Valley of Lies by TXT (i also know unsweetened lemonade! a friend showed it to me)
[favorite color] - pastel yellow đ
[last book] - Scarlet: The Lunar Chronicles (only on pg 20 but it's rlly good)
[last movie] - i hardly watch movies, but my family and i watched Kung Fu Panda 4 a little while ago
[last TV show] - again, i literally never watch TV shows (im more of a yt kinda guy), but i think it was the Who Was TV show (my siblings watched it, not me)
[sweet/spicy/savory] - depends, but anything but spicy. absolutely despise spicy (i'd choose sour tbh)
[relationship status] - in an unofficial, very platonic qpr with a friend. its hella platonic since their parents hate me and we can't hang out anywhere else besides our stupid private christian school
[last thing i googled] - 'do all dogs have dewclaws' - i thought my dog Coco didn't have any and got confused
[current obsessions] - The Boys YT, BTS, music, talking to c.ai and spicychat.ai (shortened to s.ai) and rp with them
[looking forward to] - being able to actually hang out with my irl bestie (@apollomarsyt) for the first time ever (gotta wait two years till we're both 18) (that qpr gonna hit different)
[tags] - open bc if i try to tag i'll end up tagging the same two people for the tenth time now (open tags!!!)
Ten people Iâd like to know tag game:
Thanks for the tag @beauty-is-terrror
Last song: Swan Upon Leda by Hozier
Favourite colour(s): dark greens, navy blue, browns
Last book: reread Bacchae and other plays by Euripides
Last movie: Brideshead revisited
Last TV show: I donât watch them
Sweet/spicy/savoury: savoury
Relationship status: cursed
Last thing I googled: name of the newspaper in my country
Current obsession: ovid
Looking forward to: Going to Switzerland next week
Tagging: @shinaaposts @siriuslyobsessedwithfiction @perpulchra @the-etcetera-archive (no pressure and sorry if anyone has been tagged before)
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also another request, no pressure! but maybe a smutty fit with stepbro rafe x naive reader and she just does whatever he says!
A/n: hope you enjoy đ
Warnings: oral (male receiving), dacryphilia, degrading, all 18+
Naive Girl
About two years ago, your mother had married Ward and ever since then youâd lived at Tannyhill. It had become a common habit for you to wait around Rafeâs room since then as heâd convinced you of how âmeanâ everyone else in the family are and how they hide it.
Rafe walks in after his shower, his bottom half only covered by a towel and a smirk across his lips. He liked how dependent you were with him. Rafe had always found kook girls too demanding and he wouldâve never thought of dating a pogue but you were perfect for him. He smirked at the sight of you in a matching pyjama shorts and tank top set, sitting on his bed like a present all wrapped up.
âRay, I need yâhelp.â You say with an innocent smile. Everything about you was so damn innocent and Rafe loved that fact. âPope asked me on a date fâtonight and I donât know what to wear.â
âA pogue asked you out?â Rafeâs gaze darkened almost immediately, he knew was going to have to lay the manipulation on thick if he wanted to keep you as his. âKid, yâknow itâs probably not a good idea to be out so late, especially with a pogue, yânever know what could happen.â
âBut Pope is sweet, he asked me out to this party down on the beach.â You attempt to defend, looking up at Rafe from your place on his bed. No matter how much he tried, youâd never see the bad in anyone. Rafe classed this as a curse and a godsend since youâd never question him.
âA party, kid? Dâya know how dangerous that is?â Rafe mocks cares. He didnât care how dangerous a party with alcohol and all sorts of other substances, he cared about keeping you to himself. âBaby, âm looking out fâya. I donât wanna hear on the news tomorrow that my favourite little sister got drugged and murdered, âkay?â
âIt wouldnât go that far, Ray, I swear. âM old enough to take care of myself.â You whine, standing up to try and gain some level in this argument but it was a fruitless attempt.
âHey, kid! Listen tâme, youâre not going to that party and youâre going to text that pogue that you wonât be seeing him again, understood?â Rafe says sternly, his index finger and thumb gripping at your plush cheeks. âGet your damn phone and text him now.â
You shyly reach for your phone, feeling bad as you go onto messages. Youâd really wanted to go on this date and wished youâd just called one of your friends for outfit advice. âIâm sorry, Pope, I wonât be able to come tonight. I hope you still have fun with your friends tho đâ you send the text.
âGood girl. Now, yâgonna make it up to me after stressing me like this?â He smirks, resting a hand against your waist. Rafe knew youâd do anything to please him, that was your fatal flaw. âCâmon, baby, get on your knees fâme.â
Obediently, you crawl to rest on your knees in front of him. You can now clearly see the dent through the towel that covers his bottom half. You were far too innocent for your own good which gave Rafe the opportunity to use that innocence whenever he pleased. It all began when you told him that youâd never had your first kiss so he âkindlyâ offered to teach you.
You look up at Rafe with big doe eyes and a naive smile as he tugged the towel off, leaving himself bare in front of you. Rafe knew damn well that youâd never be able to take all of him but he could still try and make you.
âGo on, baby, yâknow what to do.â He smirks down at you as you shyly bring your lips around his cock. It all felt so vulgar but you did it nonetheless. You just wanted to make your stepbrother proud. Hesitantly, you begin trying to take a bit more at a time but it was clearly taking too long in Rafeâs opinion.
His fingers lace through your hair, pushing your head down to take more of him with a soft gag. You canât protest due to having your mouthful even as you attempt to pull away slightly. Rafe was in control and he knew that.
âSuch a dumb girl, canât even take my cock without gagging like a little whore.â Rafe mocks with a smirk, beginning to just use your throat, âI thought my little sister was a good girl but I guess not. Bad girl.â
âR- Ray..â you try to mumble around how cock, feeling tears water at his words. Rafe knew you well enough that one way to make you a sobbing mess was a little degradation. He loved the sight of you crying over his cock.
âShut up, this is what you get for thinking you can go on a date with a dirty pogue. You gotta learn your fuckinâ lesson.â Rafe practically growls, continuing to harshly use your throat, all he could hear was your soft gags and whimpers around his cock. He knew this was too much for you but couldnât bring himself to care.
âItâs like you.. youâre asking fâthis. Coming in âere, practically begging me to ruin you. Be happy Iâm not taking your pretty little ass over my lap.â He degrades, keeping a tight grip on your hair. With each rough thrust, he gets closer to coming. He canât help himself as he lets out one more groan and suddenly you are tasting the familiar bitter taste.
âFuckinâ swallow.â He snarls, pulling out of your mouth before you obediently swallow.
With big doe eyes, you look up at Rafe from your place on the ground in front of him. You part your lips as proof youâd swallowed, a little bit of the white liquid remaining on your lips. Your cheeks are stained with tears and your lips all puffy. Rafe canât help himself from grabbing for his phone and getting a picture of the sight.
âYou step out of line again and Iâm sending this to those pogues, got it?â He smirks down at you, expression softening as you shakily nod. âCâmere, kid.â He smile slightly, gesturing for you to cuddle up with him on the bed. That was all it took for you to climb up on the bed with Rafe. You knew the moment he returns to calling you âkidâ then heâs in a good mood.
âGood girl.â
#dark!rafe#rafe cameron prompt#rafe cameron smut#rafe obx#stepbro!rafe cameron#rafe smut#stepbro!rafe
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Welcome to the Prompt List
Hey there!
Below is a list of dialog prompts that can be requested for a blurb or headcanon. I do have a few guidelines:
*please read before requesting*
âIâll be doing each prompt request on a first come first serve basis, as to not get too many repeats (depending on interest)
âIâll allow a maximum of 2-3 prompts together to ensure there are plenty of options (used prompts will be crossed off)
âIf there is anything specific you would like to be included, please mention it with your prompt request.
âJust because a prompt is under a certain theme doesn't mean it has to be, just specify if you'd like something different
Any other questions? Feel free to reach out. Otherwise, request away!
Fluff
âYouâre so cute when you blush.â
âEverything alright?â âI just missed you.â
âRough day? Can I make it better?â
"Have I told you I love you today?" "Yes, but please say it again."
âThere is no better way to start the day than seeing your face.â
Flirting + Teasing
âItâs so cold, you should hold my hand, so it doesnât freeze.â âIâm not that cold, I can give you my gloves if you want.â
âAnnoying you is what Iâm best at.â
âAre you trying to flirt with me?â âYes. Is it working?â
âIt must be hard with your sense of direction, never being able to find your way to a decent pickup line.â
âOh, youâre so jealous. This is great to watch.â
Romance
"You're so red all of a sudden. Did I say something wrong?"
"I've never seen you not happy." "Maybe I've always been in good company when you've seen me."
"I thought you didn't like the show." "Yeah, but you like watching it, and I don't exactly hate it..."
âI need just one date.â âYou think you can woo me with just one date?â âAbsolutely.â
âYou kissed me.â âYou kissed me back.â âAnd Iâm not here to apologize.â
Angst
âJust look at me. Forget everything else.â
âYou donât have to be strong all the time.â
âTell me to stay and I will be here for as long as youâll have me.â
âJust close your eyes. I will still be here when you open them again.â
âIf you donât know where to go, you can always come here.â
Steamy
âDonât act innocent when we both know where your mouth was two minutes ago.â
âThe way your eyes get darker when you get aroused is making me lose my mind.â
âJealousy seems to be a great motivator for you.â
âLetâs go, Iâll buy you dinner. And maybe breakfast.â
âTell me what you would want to do, if you were here right now.â
credit to @creativepromptsforwriting for the dialogue starters
#joe burrow#cincinnati bengals#joe burrow bengals#joe burrow x reader#nfl imagine#joe burrow imagine#nfl#asks open#burrowdarling asks#prompt list#creativewritingprompts
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You guys ever think about Quadron's obsessions with arms? It's his calling card: his entire thing is arms, despite not having any himself.
Then him dwelling in the Evirwinter woods, next to a village of elves who primarily use longbows - a two handed weapon - for everything. Hunting, fighting, defending each other. Sure, Kyborg has a long-sword and shield, but he practically never uses them. That boy is bow-dependent, through and through, probably like the rest of his village.
But Quadron takes arms whenever he can. He fights to kill, and if he can't kill, he maims. He fights these people - who are so dependent on their ability to use both arms - and rips their limbs off. Even if they're already dead, or if he thinks they're going to die in Kyborg's case, he takes them anyway.
Just thinking about this poor, alone child, who's lost his ability to do practically anything he was taught? Thinking his entire culture would die with him? He had no idea he'd find a dying automaton and be able to replace his arm, he had to accommodate to living one handed (he lost his dominant arm as well). He lived out of spite and an absurd amount of luck.
And Quadron shows no canonical remorse for these actions.
He literally does not give a shit. He's so absorbed by himself, and his own jealousy(?) of Kyborg and his family. Maybe reminiscing on his days with Ahem? He could have this internalised abilism of his own lack of arms. Who knows what his motive was, to be honest.
Quadron's such a fascinating villain, for one that probably was created as a joke by Blaine. His character needs a good analysis, probably not by me because I don't fully understand his motives.
Plus, that flashback episode in the dreamery? Fucking brutal man. Probably the goriest the intern's story got. I loved every second of it but damn.
Anyway idk what this was LOL
#tales from the stinky dragon#kyborg#young kyborg#quadron#stinky dragon#tftsd#dr ahem#random thoughts
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My favorite thing about werewolves is when the show/book/movie/etc shows how much happier they are as a werewolf. Theyâre comfortable in their skin, happy with their abilities and their body! Not horrified of what they are or just shown as a monster.
(Is this me talking about being trans subtly? Maybe. Up to you.)
Listen lycanthropy has been a metaphor for so many things over the years. I think it all depends on the way that the wolf is depicted more than the way the human handles it. Is the wolf a sapient creature that is able to think, reason, and communicate on a human level? Or is it a wild animal that one can only hope to impede but never control?
A werewolf that is able to think on a human level even in their fully transformed form is probably going to be fine with being a werewolf. It sucks to transition, there's a lot of work involved, and society may have a hard time accepting them initially, but they aren't hurting anyone and ultimately they're just like everyone else except for the "turning into a wolf" thing. <- Great metaphor for queer-ness.
A werewolf that is unable to control themselves once they transform, unable to be reasoned with on a human level because they're reduced to baser instincts like fuck/fight/flee, running amok and causing havoc no matter where they go and what they do? Potentially purposefully infecting other people in order to grow their numbers and then attempting to live among the general population only to lash out when they're discovered? <- bad metaphor for queer-ness.
But I also think the second one is a great story about the way that good people can be transformed into monsters when given the tools and environment to do so. In the original wolf-man film our titular wolf-man is cursed to become a wolf after killing a Romani man. Despite attempts from the Romani man's mother to help the wolf-man he ultimately rebuked her and ended up dead because no one would take him seriously.
In traditional mythos werewolves could be seen as a way to explore the violence that some people enact without cause. Perhaps it isn't man that is able to kill indiscriminately but a man possessed by a wolf. We might see various ways to "cure" lycanthropy and all the different ways to tell if your loved one has been cursed as attempts to understand sudden mood changes or anti-social disorders. Werewolves aren't my area of expertise, but myths always reflect a fear of the time or become an attempt to explain the unexplained. So. Y'know. Maybe it is that deep.
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Sebastian Sallow Headcanonâs
Sebastian Oliver Sallow (something about his initials being SOS tingles my brain. [also consider, Anne Olivia])
Birthday will change depending on the plot of the story Iâm writing but I heavily consider him a September/October baby
Bisexual (pretty self explanatory)
Bookworm. This boy loves to read anything and everything. He doesnât care what it is and always takes up the opportunity to learn something new.
He is very smart and intelligent when it comes to academics and general knowledge, but is completely oblivious to social cues.
Patronus is a fox. Theyâre mischievous and sly animals that are known to be tricksters. This also applies to animagus form.
Has ADHD. He struggles to sit still and has specific ticks like bouncing his knee, twirling his quill or wand, pacing back and forth or drumming his fingers. Anything to exude excess energy and keep his hands or legs occupied while he thinks.
Has BPD. He experiences his emotions in excess and will lash out by saying hurtful things or doing hurtful actions without realizing in the moment heâs even doing/saying it and after the fallout he becomes very apologetic and remorseful. (I have an entire thesis on this hc that I can go way more in depth as to why I think this based on canon material shown/given that I will gladly share, but for the sake of this list I wonât.)
Has Asthma. Heâs a wheezy boy running through the highlands and swimming in lakes.
Soft tum, round bum. He has defined arm and shoulder muscles from all the dueling and farm work around Feldcroft, but this boy has a little pudgy belly. Also all that running around the highlands and climbing the multiple sets of stairs around the castle exploring, boy has a cake for sure.
HIP DIVOTS HIP DIVOTS HIP DIVOTS
Certified Yapper. He will talk about anything and everything he finds remotely fascinating or annoying. Also certified complainer. He will make sure to let everyone know about how a minor inconvenience made him feel.
Would play quidditch but only because he enjoys a good competition and a way to blow off steam. Would also help him expend all the pent up energy he held in during classes all day. Would be a beater or chaser.
Loyal and protective over those close to him. He would do everything he can to ensure the safety and happiness of his friends and he would always have their back no matter what.
Curse breaker, healer or professor careers are the ones he would excel the most in. Curse breaker because he can put all the knowledge he learned about the dark arts and various curses to use. Healer because he can again, put all that knowledge of curses and maladies to use and help vindicate his inner desire to find a cure, that even if he wasnât able to do it for Anne, he could at least do it for someone else. Professor because he loves to learn new things but enjoys teaching them even more. He would thrive in teaching students how to cast new spells and dueling techniques. I also imagine it would help him feel a little closer to his parents that he secretly misses more than heâd ever admit out loud.
Messy eater. Not for the lack of manners, but because he gets so excited over food and topics of conversation that he forgets his mouth is full or he's holding something when talking with his hands.
Inherited his freckles and curly hair from his mother. He gets his compassion and bookish tendencies from her too, while his ambition and temper are traits from his father.
Troublemaker. He likes to goof around and pull pranks or break the rules, but only for a bit of fun. He would never do anything to intentionally harm someone else.
Petrified of spiders. I mean can you blame him? Those things are twice his size.
After the deep dive into the dark arts he developed a heavy sense of self loathing and deprecation. Often thinking heâs undeserving of kindness or love. He tries his best to be better and move on but always has that doubt looming over him.
His love language is physical touch. He gets super clingy and whiney when his partner tries to leave and will pout about it until he can hold them again. On the flipside, if heâs stressed, angry or upset, then a small act of holding his hand or giving a hug will instantly lift his mood. (He would prefer to cuddle though so he can pull them close and hold them tightly)
Has a fear of abandonment. After facing so much loss and grief as a child, he constantly fears everyone he gets close to will leave him.
Was a hat stall between Ravenclaw and Slytherin. His mother was a Ravenclaw and he would have loved to feel closer to her by sharing a house, but Anne was sorted into Slytherin before him and he didnât want her to be alone. He was still satisfied with the decision because his father was a Slytherin and he still got to feel close to one of his parents.
Hates the smell of whiskey and bourbon because it reminds him of Solomon. (His uncle was an angry drunk)
Would have children but the stress and panic of impending fatherhood would stress him out and worry him due to thinking he wouldnât be a good parent. Circling back to his deep rooted feelings of unworthiness and guilt over past actions and never having a decent father figure to learn from other than fading memories from early childhood. Would probably feel like heâs failing when he canât fix his childâs problems or calm them down during a tantrum.
Has an intense fear of death that if someone close to him was facing it then he would turn the world upside down to find a way to prevent it. This stems from his fear of abandonment.
Self isolates when heâs upset (counter point, takes his anger out on a training dummy by unleashing his frustration through spell casting)
Loves to rile up others for the sake of finding amusement in their frustration. His favorite classmates to pick on are Leander Prewett and Garreth Weasley. Heâs not a bully, just enjoys the banter. âBoys will be boysâ behavior.
Speaking of bullies, he hates them. He would go out of his way to step into a situation where he sees another classmate/friend being picked on in a hostile manner.
Would also step in to protect someone from unwanted advances.
Loves to research and spend his free time in the library, but will procrastinate his homework until a few hours before itâs due.
Would thrive off the feeling from showing off his partner to the world, making everyone know theyâre together. But would prefer to keep their personal lives more private. Everyone knows theyâre together but no one knows what they get up to.
Would go out of his way to plan elaborate dates or trips filled with multiple locations and food.
Is weary of thestrals because they remind him of all the loss heâs faced but finds a strange sort of comfort in them as well
Loves nifflers because theyâre just as mischievous as himself
Does the sniff test on a shirt before wearing it
Has various piles of his belongings strewn about that would look messy or disorganized to someone else but he knows precisely where everything is
Is not a morning person. Heâs pushing the âfive more minutesâ luck until inevitably running late.
Is very punctual to things he wants to attend but drags his time to things heâs dreading so he spends as little time as possible there.
Carries a pocket watch that belonged to his father
Has a ring that belonged to his mother that he would only give to the person heâs absolutely sure about marrying.
18+ HC: because he has to spend most of his life in control of every situation, he would relish in the idea of letting someone else take the reins in the bedroom. Although he would struggle with the thought of letting himself be cared for and would grapple with trying to control that too. (Dom/Sub switch depending on his mood)
#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#I have so many more but this is already getting long#Iâve spent almost two years hyperfixating about Seb#all of these are canon to me#I also have a whole separate list for modern au seb
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It truly saddens me to see people JUSTIFY Rhysand drugging and Sa'ing her, as a Nurse I see so many young women being drugged and assaulted come in everyday and every day I see people saying, well they just touched you nothing else, he just made you take off your clothes, you went to the party on your own, He was trying to protect you, he had to do it for your own good,
My god If something like that happened to your daughter would you ignore it? would you side with a person who did stuff like Rhys?
These people are really vile, god I never knew coming here wouldn't be safe space but people would attack people like that.
Idk why I got this ask since I feel like I've made my interpretation of what happened UTM clear, but no problem, we can address it again.
I feel like when people "justify" Rhys's actions UTM they aren't saying "He was well within his rights to do everything he did UTM" it's more "Yes he did things that aren't really good but they came from a place of saving Feyre from a much much worse fate, and if you hear Feyre's perspective of the events, especially later on in ACOMAF, you can see that she agrees with Rhys that he did what had to be done to keep everyone as safe as possible, and that the things Rhys did UTM did not in any way, shape, or form leave a lasting negative impression on her", which I feel is a little bit obvious if you bother to actually read the books, but I digress.
Also, Rhys wasn't doing all this for his personal enjoyment. He says later on that finding Feyre in Tamlin's manor and later having her UTM had him quite feeling extremely frayed because he wanted to get her away to keep her safe. It's not like he wanted a lap dance so he drugged a defenseless girl to exploit her. I would argue it was the opposite.
Like yes, obviously, drugging someone so they have no memories and have them dance all night is a horrible thing to do, but if the choice is between that and them getting tortured within an inch of their life by someone who has a track record of being extremely cruel and the power to do what they want and genuinely hate the person at risk, you might unfortunately have to go with the lesser evil.
For example, imagine that I am walking on a sidewalk and I randomly push the person in front of me into the road. Obviously that's not a good thing to do. But what if I pushed them on the road because there had been a handyman on the side of the building and he dropped his hammer right where the person was about to pass. Me pushing that person onto the road is still bad, but given that the alternative was a hammer falling on their head and potentially killing them, the situation is a bit more understandable.
Also, it is important to remember that Rhys has spent 50 years wearing the mask of a cruel asshole who give zero fucks about anyone and is in a position where he doesn't really have room to do anything since the safety of the entire NC depends on him being able to keep Amarantha believing he is exactly who he is pretending to be.
So yes, his actions can be seen as morally ambiguous, but really, what else was he supposed to do? Stand beside Amarantha and give her pointers on where to cut Feyre?
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Depending on the mission, the SR-71 nose could be switched out to use a different camera.
âOn one occasion, I needed the âpace chaseâ aircraft to look me over,â recalls Graham in his book SR-71: The Complete Illustrated History of THE BLACKBIRD: The Worldâs Highest, Fastest Plane. âIt was right after takeoff when my RSO, Don Emmons, and I heard a loud âbangâ coming from somewhere in front of the rudder pedals. I was approaching our climb-out speed of 400 knots and thought I might have hit a bird.
Looking out over the nose, I noticed a large piece of the nose section beneath the aircraft had blown open, still attached but flapping in the air stream. I couldnât tell the full extent of the damage because the piece was underneath the nose, and all I could see was one end of it flapping about. Joe Kinego, another SR-71 crew member, remembered the âfunny (then scary)â radio call Don made back to Beale informing everyone of our problem: âThe nose is coming off!â That radio call got everyoneâs attention!â
As we have already explained, the nose section allowed the SR-71 to have radar-imaging capability with the advanced synthetic aperture radar system (ASARS), photographic imagery with the optical bar camera (OBC), or a ballast installedâinly four massive fasteners held on the nose section.
Graham continues:
âThe T-38 chase aircraft [flown by SR-71 pilots David Peters and Tom Alison] joined in formation and told us the extent of our damage as we returned to Beale. It was comforting to know everything else was intact. A one-by-two-foot metal nose section had ripped open while still attached underneath. I always felt fortunate that it happened during daylight. Had it been at night, Iâm positive I wouldnât have been able to see the loose panel and might have discounted the possibility of anything being wrong and continued the mission⌠you just never know. Talking to Lockheed engineers later, they determined there was a good possibility if we had gone supersonic, the entire nose section (which is removable) might have imploded from the supersonic shock wave. That scenario would have probably necessitated an ejection for both of us!â
This story reminds me of another one I read about when Jerry OâMalley and Ed Payne were flying a test mission across the United States, and a piece of the nose (not the whole nose )fell off. The long piece of titanium was found and turned into an Air Force Base. Quickly, the word got around the Air Force that the nose of an SR 71 just fell off. This story reached the Air Force's Chief of Staff.
His name was General Carlton. He radioed through to Jerry OâMalley in the cockpit and ordered him to land immediately! Jerry didnât feel like there was any danger to the airplane, but an order is an order. They landed at the closest Air Force Base, Buckley in Colorado. This Air Force Base was not expecting an SR 71, and the runway was all wet âŚand immediately blew out four tires. I think itâs safe to say that it was never a dull moment flying the SR 71.
Linda Sheffield
@Habubrats71 via X
#sr 71#sr71#sr 71 blackbird#blackbird#aircraft#usaf#lockheed martin#skunkworks#aviation#mach3+#habu#reconnaissance#cold war aircraft
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Hii! I saw your fanfic on Shadow of Wrath with Beast Y/N Cookie! I absolutely loved it! You don't have to do this, but maybe you could do a part 2? You don't need to do it! đŠľđ¤
God- I need to stop letting my sister borrow my laptop- one shadow of wrath continuation coming up, dear butterfly!
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Shadow of wrath part 2 (Beast Y/N cookie)
Simple to say things have changed drastically since Y/N cookie finally snapped. The fight between them and the beasts was short and easy for them, as though they were fighting mere children. But they weren't gonna crumble now, oh no no no. What good would it do if the beasts just get off the hook with a mere death? That wouldn't do you any justice, especially considering they're the ones who ruined your life from the start. So you'll make sure to keep them, alive but not unharmed. Your kingdom was already being repaired in any case, and having seen your new form the cookies were now scared of you. Good. Then maybe they'll be able to do the job right.
You kept the beasts down in a dungeon and weakened their powers by a large amount. In fact it'd be a miracle if they still had any powers left at all, considering you took their soul jams. Not like they'd need it in any case. They'd never leave. Never taste freedom again. Never be able to inflict more pain onto you. Nobody would. Not anymore. They will never hurt you again. And you'd make sure of it. It didn't stop at just imprisoning them, that would be far too easy. A little torment here and there would be delightful. Mental torture was implemented depending on how you felt. It was only fair since you had mental scars from what they put you through.
Shadow Milk cookie was a bit bitter about it all. How did five of them lose to one of YOU?! It was bringing back the whole "getting sealed away" thing. And to think you had the nerve to make fun of him. How audacious. He could easily make you a puppet and crumble you if he wasn't chained to the wall and had his soul jam. Why do you have to be such a diva? Can't you take a simple joke? Hmph, well clearly whatever the joke was hadn't been funny enough to let you spare him. Every moment you were together was filled with mock care, only to switch up the next moment and become someone so cruel even he was worried. He didn't let it break his spirit though. He still believed that he'd get out one day.
"And when that day comes, you'll be nothing more than a little toy caught in the web of deceit."
"Funny you feel that way. Perhaps you truly are so deceitful that you go as far as to lie to yourself."
Mystic flour cookie did try to remain indifferent to you, but you knew more about her than she even realized. You feed into her fears, reminding her of her failure to fix everything. And despite how she's insistent that what happens will make no difference, you know what makes her tick. You go on and on about how her quest to return all to flour was just as stupid as she was, how in the end she inflicted the one thing she was trying to get rid of. Pain. You go into how her solution to the cookies pain was nothing more than a lazy excuse to get out of wish granting. Whilst she still shows no reaction, you can se it in her eyes. She's not as apathetic as she says she is.
"It is futile to believe I'll break to mere taunting, Y/N cookie. In the end we will be return to flour, so why even bother. The suffering will end eventually."
"You truly think that changes anything? How blind are you? Your 'apathy' is nothing more than a pathetic hoax to hide your fear. And I plan to exploit that."
Burning spice cookie was BEYOND infuriated with you. How AUDACIOUS are you to be ripping out his soul jam from his chest, then having EVEN MORE NERVE to taunt him about it?! He'll destroy you! He's faced countless powerful cookies in the past. You're no different! Just fight him! It'd be a good form of entertainment! Silly spice. He's truly not worth the energy. It's more torture when you're just standing there, playing with his soul jam so carelessly, and pretending to drop it. How dare you tease him like that. How dare you be so gentle with him. Where's that beastly fighting spirit you had when you defeated him?! Why were you being so insufferably gentle?! That's just it. That's just what makes him tick. You didn't even have to say anything.
"What is the meaning of this weakness?! Why are you so disgustingly tame?! WHERE'S YOUR INNER BEAST?!?!"
"Hm. I won't give you the pleasure of knowing, mere spice. You're a lot more enduring when you can't cause destruction."
Eternal Sugar cookie was broken pretty quick. Why were you so mean to her?! Why so rough and harsh? Were you really choosing mere cookies over her?! How could you. Why were you feeding into her insecurities so much? Why were you so cruel to her? What happened to that sparkle in your eyes that made her ecstatic? Why did it dull away? Simple. Because you learned to grow up and stop acting like some naive child. Sure, she was pretty, but that's to mask how utterly useless she truly was. Nobody loved her. Nobody could. She was nothing more than a foolish idiot who didn't deserve the right of being beside you.
"You don't mean that. You don't mean any of that!"
"Oh you sweet little fool. The only thing that means nothing is the useless sloth I stand before right now."
Silent salt cookie was resilient, you'll give him that. Never showing any signs of emotion with you, neither verbal nor physical. Nevertheless, you would find a way to get to him. His silent was his weapon, but who's to say you can't exploit that? Besides, what can he do? Say nothing, do nothing, he's nothing.
"..."
"Silent, yet again. Though I'm starting to wonder... Is it because you won't talk... or because you can't."
With the reconstruction of your kingdom and the beasts under your control, you could relax, if only momentarily. Knowing this place, word was gonna reach the other ancients eventually. And when it does, you ought to know how you'll deal with them.
#crk#cookie run kingdom#cr kingdom#cookie run#burning spice cookie#mystic flour cookie#shadow milk cookie#eternal sugar cookie#silent salt cookie
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i dont even knkow what im feeling right now
#it doesnt feel like this will ever get better#how can it#there's nothing i can do#none of these things are under my control#am i doomed to never be able to be the person i want to be?#will i never be able to be dependably good#i dont#i dont know#i dont know anything#im doing everything i possibly can im doing more than can be expected of me#and its not enough#im not getting better and i dont know if i can#(quick note: thats an alarming thing to say but i promise my life is not in danger)#i have to fight this for the rest of my life#i can feel better than i do right now but will i ever be okay?#will i ever fucking live?#fuck. i want to understand. i want to learn. i want to make mistakes and heal from them#but it feels like every bad thing that happens to me will stay with me for the rest of my life#im stuck. im doing the best i can but its not enough to make me feel better.#there's nothing anyone can do to make me feel better#(second quick note: if you're a christian and thinking of saying something lovely and heartfelt like ''god can do anything and i know he#loves you and has a good plan for you'' id like to let you know that the sentiment is appreciated but i have some very very bad#memories connected to messages like that.)#lassie vents#vent#personal
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None of our hands are clean
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#jin guangshan#mianmian#The secret meaning behind one of the jin members scuttling off is:#I couldn't make three people work out in the remaining panels and per my rule of '3 attempts and take a different approach' he had to go.#Sometimes there are meaningful reasons why something happens in the background. And sometimes it is like this.#Let's just say he saw what was about to happen and got out of there before mianmian started throwing hands.#Okay no more delay. The sheer boldness to call WWX a killer in a room full of people who wear their war body count as a badge...#It's about hypocrisy yes - but it is also about how the narrative shifts on the same action depending on the frame.#Because at the end of the day...the blood on our hands is still blood on our hands.#Both the deaths on the battlefield and the deaths of the Jin's abusing the Wen remnants are still deaths caused by another.#They are also deaths that - depending who holds the frame - are noble acts to protect others.#But it isn't supposed to be about who was right and who was wrong.#It is about the need to be seen as the victim to avoid culpability.#Because if you aren't responsible you don't have to be held accountable. You don't have to grow or change.#If someone takes all the blame then there is no need to reflect on your own faults.#We have to protect our fragile ego from the mirror lest it shatter and we have to remake it anew.#Horrifically enough...even if WWX spared the Jin guards or even never ran into Wen Qing#He wouldn't have been able to escape being the scapegoat. He downfall was set into motion a long time ago.#My goodness...What a deliciously tragic story Wei Wuxian's first life was.
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okay anyway. sorry for the repeated eminem posts i got reminded of his existence and he fascinates me to literally no end
#whats his deal. like actually what is wrong with him#not in a blorbo way. like genuinely whats his fucking deal#this guy gets into controversies like his life depends on it. i want to study him#i feel like every couple months i see him doing some bullshit nd every single time i go ''hes still alive?'' like.#how is he. a person#how does eminem Exist#he feels like a fictional character#hes like if you took jesse out of breaking bad genuinely.#what was even his claim to fame#being able to rap really fast? being controversial?#BOTH?#like. i mean his older music is. good. i guess#its certainly catchy for sure. its very much a product of mid-late 90s and early 2000s rap#and he just. never grew out of that?#hes still making music in that style#theres nothing. wrong with that per se. but there is when its EMINEM doing it#im rambling. do you see what this fucking freak does to me. fascinating individual. i cant believe hes Real#speaking.mp4
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COFFEE SHOP AU. COME GET UR COFFEE SHOP AU!!! engie and captain whyenn edition ^__^
more doodles n sketches under the cut !!! i made up the order on the spot FORGIVE ME if it makes no sense or doesnât fit. i donât know anything about coffee drinking
reblogs appreciated as always :3
#mnt arts#i think iâm fully going to give whyenn (or at least captain whyenn) my curse of not being able to drink coffee#bc fun fact abt me im sensitive to high amounts of caffeine! while also having a caffeine dependency lol#it makes me feel rlly sick. and now it does to whyenn too . cause i love giving self inserts both my problems and their own struggles..#suffer <3#queued art#these r. a good few days old by the time this is posted (and while iâm drafting this LOL)#spacey coffee au#<- the name for it btw. assuming i will do anything more than post these few doodles haha#because alas i love aus. i esp love making them and then never doing anything with it. bc i thought of another AU#whyenn mcu#captain whyenn#engineer mark#head engineer mark#in space with markiplier#iswm#iswm engineer mark#iswm mark#iswm captain#iswm fanart#markiplier egos#selfship au#coffee shop au
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Wild that anytime I post an update a lot of people read it and are even excited about it and have their own thoughts and reactions to it that I'll never know.
Comments are only the very tip of the iceberg with it. And I am Very grateful to commenters for letting me in on it. But in the same way that I'll be excited with my friends when a fic we love updates, it's likely that Other people enthuse with Their friends when my fic updates. And it's just so strange. An experience I'll never have access to.
Everyone's relationship with my fic is unique. So many different people with so many different circumstances and preferences... and the number of people that have told me that my fic is one of their favorites, some even saying it's their Favorite favorite... every single one of them have their own relationship with my writing.
It's just interesting to me. I think and think and think on my writing. I have my plans for basically the entire fic, the way I want it to end already thought out, all the major plot beats and the relationship progressions, All of that thought out. I love my writing so very much, but I'm on the inside looking out. This is my mechanical horse, and I'm in here laying out the groundwork and pulling levers and constructing limbs, puttering away making the horse move. Forever and always, my relationship with it will be more intimate than anyone's, and yet more clinical. Because I know it better than the back of my own hand, but I'll never have the experience of reading it fresh. Of reading it without knowing everything that's going to happen from now to the end and beyond. I won't have the thrill of the plot twists I have planned, the delight at seeing things progress, the horror at seeing things go wrong...
This is my mechanical horse, and I'm making it move.
I just always wonder what it must be like to see it from the outside. I hope to others that it's a pretty horse.
#speculation nation#itnl shit#didnt mean to write this much about the concept but i really am so...#jealous almost. id love to be able to read my fic as a reader.#because it's tailor made to my tastes Exactly.#and i know it's good writing. i surprise myself even sometimes with how good things end up.#it's never a doubt in my mind that i'll make things good. even the harder things . while bringing trepitation . i know i'll figure them out.#the relationship a fic writer has with their own fic is so... yeah. intimate. but still somehow emotionally removed.#but thats how it goes with any art piece i think#the creator sees all the bits and pieces that went into it. remembers the thoughts as they made it#they know their work better than Anyone Else. but they'll never be able to experience it like an outsider.#is my fic helping someone through a rough breakup? is it something someone rereads when theyre sad?#is it a fic that people stay up way too late reading? the fic that someone discovers and consumes all within a day?#that voracious love. ive experienced it many times with other fics. but i can never experience it with my own.#but in the end. that's okay. i will just continue to do as i wish with it. and maybe people will continue to like it.#it is my goal to make a fic that people will never forget. what that may mean differs depending on the person.#i want it to be the best fic it can be. and i will make it so with every brick i lay down.#puttering about for days and weeks and months. it's Most of what i think about. it's my impact on the world.#and it's sitting for 3 hours after work in the storage room writing until im shivering but Satisfied with a productive writing session#it's writing some of my most emotional scenes while sitting for an hour on the toilet#no one else knows what the toilet written scenes are. but I Do. such is my relationship with my fic.#(the focus in the Quiet Rooms cannot be underestimated. the bathroom is indeed one of the Quiet Rooms lol)#& man. ive rambled so much now. but i just love my fic so very much#i'll never be an ITNL reader. and that's okay. because i'm its writer. & that's a status that No One Else can boast.#even those people who state that it's their Favorite favorite cant rival the intimacy of my own relationship with it.#I Am Its Writer and that means so very much to me.#i... really do love my fic y'all
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the bittersweet but absolute flood of relief that comes from admitting defeat at living independently, to have to move back in with parents. we tried! we gave it our best shot for almost 3 years! but living like this (being on our own) is just not possible for us at this time of our lives. we've finally proved it to ourselves that we can't do it. it'll be okay to let ourselves rest now
#latimers parents not mine!!!! i am NOT moving back to florida LOL#really hope that the changes will be good for my mental health. this apartment is toxic to us#ive been on the verge of meltdowns Kind Of A Lot lately. imnot doing great#extremely dependent on substances. just to reach a baseline level of functioning. but even that isnt working as much anymore#the only things i do on my phone or tablet these days is like. 2 mobile games. and skirting past my dms to check latimers blog#its too overwhelming to even open discord these days yknow. everything on earth is too much for me right meow#i havent been drawing i havent been social online OR irl i havent been cooking or creating#i havent been keeping up with personal hygiene like at all im particularly ashamed about that one#i've been really bad about doing my T the past few months which is a HUGE shame because im SO fucking hyped to be on it#theres just. too many obstacles in getting it done half the time. and the other half of the time i just forget#anyway. anyway.#our lease ends in july so between now and then we're just gonna try our best to tolerate our living situation enough to get by#there's a light at the end of the tunnel. and its called 'i only have to be in charge of like 2 rooms at most. and not a household!'#we're gonna try to slowly comb through all our things between now and then so the process of moving wont suck as bad#cuz listen. its pretty fucking bad right now#maybe not for other people. but it is for me. and its okay to let myself come to terms with that#im just. so relieved. still very stressed! but theres at least light at the end of the tunnel and its only like 2 months away#ill be able to draw guilt-free again. ill be able to just EXIST guilt-free#i dont think ive felt guilt-free for just existing the way i do since like. turning 20#i know my mom wouldve loved if i stayed home forever. and im sad i cant be there for her#but ever since i had a fight with my dad at 15 or 16 it just really felt like he didnt want me there more and more#maybe as the youngest he was resenting that i was preventing him from becoming an empty nester or something. i dont know#because all the other kids had been moved out and on their own at least once but i had never left home before#i dont know if he'd be heartbroken or not to hear that i feeling like he was resenting me. but thats the energy i was picking up for years#i dunno. i dont know#anyway. back to housing. for now im going to try to relax and store energy for the moving process#the huge pile of things by the kitchen? i dont have to worry about that becoming permanent because we're leaving in 2 months#the general discord of the state of our possessions? we have to go through everything to pack it all anyway. we can move in RIGHT this time#when we moved in here we didnt have a car or license so we were dependent on latimers 3-hr-drive-away parents to help us move#just /across town/. and we had a whole month between leases! but it still had to be done in a weekend
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