#why would someone poat this

[faunandfloraas]

Oughhghghghhh

[okami-zero]

Just saw a post on Twitter whinging about tanks who don't wall-to-wall pull in every single duty on FFXIV. There was no mention of what level of content in the initial poat, though when rebuffed by people mentioning new tanks/ARR duties, they were like 'Yea, okay but in level 90 ypu should always wall-to-wall or you are wasting everyone's time". I found this post because it was QRT'd by another FFXIVer and artist I follow and THEIR take was much better:

"If you load in a dungeon and immediately pull wall to wall without checking if your healer is ok with it, your mom's a hoe

If you're the healer and don't respect your tank's pace, your mom's also a hoe"

Made me chuckle and lookong through the original tweets comments... the OP of the quoted tweet (the one who said wall-to-wall) was very much making fun of anyone expressing logical and reasonable reasons why someone might not do it. And when someone was like, "If it'a too slow, just eat the abandonment timer", and OP was like "Nah, I'll just be annoyed and do the thing".

...then why are you whinging about it? Have to wonder sometimes. Like, if a person is regularly running duties throughout the game (not just MSQ stuff), then they've got time to get comfortable with their toolkit and their own style. I myself tend to be cautious with my pulls, but if a healer says "Feel free to pull more", I will.

Just... Please be careful with that request. I did that one time. Was a mess LOL. I would say if the tank does not have their full toolkit, wall-to-wall might not be a good idea. We get Rampart at level 8 for PLD, and that is our only mitigation until Reprisal at level 22. Then we get Shelltron and Sentinel at levels 35 and 38, respectively.

Just be aware what tools they have available, and if they seem to be having some trouble, give them some pointers! Don't be like WoW PUGs and vote to kick if the tank is having trouble, or being cautious. Speaking from personal experience - first run in a new dungeon with a friend and some randos. It was an issue with an impatient Hunter who kept asspulling everything. I was tryingto pull individual groups and focusing on busting casters and keep the healer (my friend) safe. Which is hard when I am mid-rotation and another mob pack shows up! Not a patrol! Just the Hunter not watching what he was doing and backing into shit. He put up a vote to kick, which my friend told me about and vetoed. Then my friend put a vote to kick him and then we got someone who wasn't a shitheel and finished the run.

Thankfully, my experience on FFXIV has been positive all-around, mostly because of video guides and also giving a heads-up to the group when it's my first run.

Okay, this got away from me (as rants usually do >.<). Just... Be patient and help each other enjoy the game and don't be a dick.

[idontwanttospoiltheparty]

On the alleged note Paul sent J+Y - I remember reading that Fred Seaman posted on forums about how John himself had told him this story and considered it the start of the dissolution of their friendship.

I can’t find the post right now, but if he did say it, I can’t think of why he’d lie about what John told him because I never saw him having any specific agenda that this would help further.

TBH I wouldn't find it hard to believe Seaman would lie about that for clout. That doesn't mean it definitely is a lie, but he doesn't come off as someone without ulterior motives. Was it in his actual book? If not why leave it out there and then poat about it on a forum?

[maceofpentacles]

Heyo, so Mace, my best friend got attacked in the r/pagan subreddit by some people that said that lilith worship isnt closed, and these people went and blacklisted him into the daemonolatry subreddit and belittled him. He also ended up leaving as he was very hurt and he tried to end his life, meanwhile they let people like CrazyTechWizard96, a lunatic who thinks he's being raped by baphomet talk, and he legit was allowed to stay there for MONTHS on end with newer practitioners believing him and looking up to him. He also just poated recently about Baphomet being "Forced to Obey" him and he keeps spewing the same story of Lucifer, Baphomet, Stolas, and Claucneck. I'm sick of people in our community letting someone in who doesn't belong and is spewing lies, and then let someone who tries to defend a minority group get harmed in the process.

Here's theinks and breakdown:

https://www.reddit.com/r/DemonolatryPractices/comments/zuzzsc/is_lilith_worship_a_closed_practice/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=android_app&utm_name=androidcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button

https://www.reddit.com/r/DemonolatryPractices/comments/zq4lwa/what_are_some_bad_experiences_that_youve_had/j13pfex?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share&context=3

Still figuring things out myself, they've pretty much reached out to me.

A lot of them so far, and it makes me more or less even more want to contact them, about who and what I even am.

I've talked to Baphomet yesterday and kind of managed to hear them almost clear, going in and out though, still not on the right frequenz, but working on it.

But I can say for sure, some of the Tests they've thrown at Me are Bizzar, others I might take, like with Baphomet and Lucier as first as a test of Strength, like, if I'd Obey them without a fight, or Fight for being Equal with them.

I prefer to e Equal, and don't like using Titels, I see all of them more or less as Friends and Family.

...

Also, Winter Solstice is Tonight, so, everyone who reads this, have a nice Day & Night. :)

https://www.reddit.com/r/DemonolatryPractices/comments/zq4lwa/what_are_some_bad_experiences_that_youve_had/j0zqpe8?utm_medium=android_app&utm_source=share&context=3

Wow what a read indeed!

I've had some test Me in some very strange ways myself.

But Me being a stubborn and chaotic being, if someone forces Me to do something, I just get mad and do the opposite.

Got some Story including Agelaript, Baphomet and even Lucifer.

And tbh, after those things, they tend to stare even more at Me, like... What I even am.

I can say the same thing, because, I can't believe that was even possible.

I've met Lilith the first time on the 28th October this year and even asked her, about the thing with Lucifer, She broke out laughing, seems like She liked it.

I'm a tiny bit nervous to contact Lucifer and ask him why and how that 'making Me mad as Hell' even started, since I can't recall any memories of that case in particular.

The other thing with Baphomet, they saw that trying to make me Obey and force Me into Submission, only backfires in them getting humiliated.

No worries, Me and Baphy get a long great, love them, for being quite a good and helping Deity. :)

...

Before You ask, the details about that with Agilalerpt aren't nfsw, but the other things with Baphomet and Lucifer, I would post this here, this went just way to wild, haha.

Oh and just as a footnote, never sign anything before You've read the contract.

Can say this about Marketing & the General, and of course the Astral or general Demonic or what ever You can say.

...

Read, see and than if You are sure, sign, You only have 1 Life & 1 Soul, Kiddo.

KEEP PESTS OUT OF THE OCCULT, INCLUDES NAZIS, ANTISEMETES, RACISTS, HOMOPHOBES, AND BIGOTS IN GENERAL!!!!!

this is the exact reason i stay away from reddit like my life depends on it. i’m sure not everyone over there is a fucking freak, but the people like this really shine a terrible light on the whole community.

[generalnoschicken]

(you already know what time it is: me being a simp for the more redeeemable asshole in the redactedverse)

christian first date hcs

(refer to this poat before reading in order for it to make sense)

so, after hitting it off at the coffee shop, chritian finally decides to text his new found 'fling' about meeting up again

'hey'

christian could not help but stare at the phone for about 10 minutes afterbhe sent the message,,"this is stupid thers no way their gonna-"

'heyy i was wondering when you were gonna talk to me again'

'really? if you really wanted to talk to me why didnt you text first?'

he couldnt believe the nerve of them to make him all nervous and blushy and anxious and then never reach out only to say that they wanted him to do it first

'i got nervous ok?! its not often that i like someone like i like you and i dont want to mess it up is all'

oh. christian didnt know how to feel about that one but before he could say anything,,

'theres this drive in movie that i was planning to go see tonight, do you wanna tag along?'

YES ABSOLUTELY YES NOTHING WOULD BE BETTER (hes whipped your honor)

'yeah sure sounds cool. send me your address and ill come pick you up'

ok now on to the actual date (yk the point of this post im sorry this is sooo long)

they go to see this really bad, cringy romantic 'comedy' if you could even call it that, christian sure wouldn't

"this movie sucks"

"oh thank god i thought that i was gonna have to pretend i liked it just incase you did"

'wow' was all christian could think. they would really fake their enjoyment for him? of all people? if he wasnt head over heels before (he was) then he certainly is now

they go on,,

"but yeah it sucks ass like aside from all the bad acting and dry dialouge, i swear i almost throw up in my mouth whenever he calls her one of thise cheesy nicknames. 'sweetness', 'cookie'? please i wouldve broken up with him"

christian is curious by nature, its the wolf in him ofc

"really? i wouldve thought you like those names"

"me? ew, no gross. i mean, regular petnames are fine i guess, 'baby' , 'honey' , even 'darling' is acceptable but when they get overly sweet or like food related, im out"

"thats unfortunate cupcake, youre missing out"

"im not missing out on jack shi- wait. did you just-?"

christian is rather pleased with the blush on their face and he coulve sworn there was a hint of a smile

"what cupcake? flustered?"

"yeah just a bit not gonna lie," they lean in close realll close and chritian couldve sworn he lost the ability to breathe, "but call me cupcake again, and we're gonna have a problem"

'i want a problem GOD do i want a problem'

"understood"

"good now lets get out of here. theres a diner not too far away, best burgers you will ever have in your life im telling you"

(hope you enjoyed cuz i certainly did)

[o-s-adnana]

📜🖋🍂

Once upon a time there was a girl,

She didn't like who she was.

She didn't like the way she looked,

She didn't like the way she behaved,

She didn't like the way she thought.

She was always imperfect for her.

Once upon a time there was a girl,

Who always wanted to be someone else and would have given anything to make this happen,

Because in her skin she felt invisible, unappreciated, unloved.

This may have changed if she had accepted the love of others justly,

But she couldn't,

It was hard for her because she didn't love herself,

And the love from others seemed unfair to her to have.

Once upon a time there was a girl,

Who only had one friend.

She felt at home when she was with her,

But they haven't seen each other in months,

And remote communication was hard to maintain.

When she was alone it was a torment.

At that moment all thoughts rushed creating unreal worries but he could not escape:

"What if you did the wrong thing?"

"You're not good enough."

"The people you passed by earlier started laughing ... they were laughing at you."

"You look horrible!"

All this was like a rising water.

She felt like she was drowning.

Needing to breathe, her subconscious told her to take a deep breath, a thought she struggled with because you couldn't breathe underwater.

She felt trapped, her own prisoner, and there was nothing she could do about it.

Once upon a time there was a girl,

Who forgot how to love,

She forgot the feeling of being in love.

She forgot how to love love.

She was afraid to fall in love,

She was afraid to love.

That's why she kept the world at bay and moved away from everyone.

She felt like she was building a wall between herself and the others.

She didn't feel sad, but she wasn't happy either.

All she felt was security.

She wished she could feel those butterflies in her stomach,

But at the same time, she was terrified of the idea.

She wished she could feel the warmth of someone next to her,

But at the same time she liked the coolness in which she found himself.

She was lost in a maze of her emotions and didn't want to shoot anyone with her,

That's why she drove everyone away.

For her, love was like a new universe, and no matter how much she wanted to explore it, she was too afraid.

Once upon a time there was a girl,

Which wherever she was she did not feel at home.

She wanted to go home,

But she didn't feel at home at home either.

Wherever she was, she felt like a stranger,

A tourist in a space that does not deserve to be, surrounded by critical looks that judged her every move.

She wanted a place for her, but she couldn't find it;

She wanted to feel safe, but she didn't feel;

She wanted a house, but she didn't have one.

The only place that was closest to "home" was the place he saw only in his imagination,

Where she felt safe,

Where she was the person she always wanted to be.

But it hurt.

The feeling she had when she returned to reality hurt;

Sadness, anger, disappointment,

It all overwhelmed her and made her feel like she was drowning again,

Until she took it from the beginning again, imagining.

It was like a drug.

The most beautiful and painful drug the girl could not part with no matter how hard she tried.

And she knows that because she tried,

But she couldn't.

She was always pulled back by the awful feeling of peace, tranquility, security ... at home.

Once upon a time there was a girl,

Who needed help ...

But he didn't know who to ask.

Ok, so, I am sorry if my english is bad. It's my second language, but anyway here is the version written in my language:

A fost odată o fată,

Ei nu îi plăcea cine era.

Nu îi placea cum arăta, nu îi plăcea cum se comporta, nu îi plăcea cum gândea.

Pentru ea a fost mereu imperfectă.

A fost odată o fată,

Care mereu și-a dorit să fie altcineva și ar fi dat orice pentru ca acest lucru să se fi întâmplat,

Pentru că în pielea ei se simțea invizibilă, neapreciată, neiubită.

Acest lucru poate s-ar fi schimbat dacă ar fi acceptat iubea celorlalți din just,

Dar nu putea,

Îi era greu deoarece nu se iubea pe ea insăşi,

Iar dragostea din partea celorlalți I se părea nedrept pentru a o avea.

A fost odată o fată,

Care avea doar o prietenă.

Se simțea acasă când era cu ea,

Dar nu s-au mai văzut de luni întregi,

Iar comunicarea de la distanță era un lucru greu de menținut.

Când era singură era un chin.

În acel moment toate gândurile năvăleau creând griji ireale dar de care nu putea scăpa:

"Dacă ai făcut acel lucru greşit?"

"Nu eşti suficient de bună."

"Persoanele pe lângă care ai trecut mai devreme au început să râdă...râdeau de tine."

"Arăți oribil!"

Toate acestea erau ca o apă în continuă creșterea.

Simțea că se îneacă.

Având nevoie să respire subconştientul ei îi spunea să tragă o gură de aer, gând cu care se lupta deoarece nu poți respira sub apă.

Se simțea blocată, propria prizonieră și nu putea face nimic în legătură cu asta.

A fost odată o fată,

Care a uitat cum se iubeşte,

A uitat sentimentul de a fi indrăgostit.

A uitat cum să iubească iubirea.

Îi era frică a se indrăgosti,

Îi era frică a iubi.

De aceea ținea lumea la distanță și se indepărta de toți.

Simțea ca și cum construia un zid între ea și ceilalți.

Nu se simțea tristă dar nu era nici fericită.

Tot ce simțea era siguranță.

Ea și-ar fi dorit să simtă acei fluturi în stomac,

Dar în același timp era inspăimântată de idee.

Și-ar fi dorit să simtă căldura cuiva lângă ea,

Dar în același timp îi plăcea răcoarea în care se afla.

Era pierdută într-un labirint al emotiilor ei și nu dorea să tragă pe nimeni alături de ea,

De aceea îndeparta pe toată lumea.

Pentru ea iubirea era ca un univers nou și oricât de mult și-ar fi dorit să îl exploreze îi era mult prea teamă.

A fost odată o fată,

Care oriunde se afla nu se simțea acasă.

Dorea să meargă acasă,

Dar nici acasă nu se mai simțea acasă.

În orice loc în care se afla se simțea străină,

Un turist pe un spațiu care nu I se cuvine înconjurat de priviri critice care îi judecau fiecare mişcare.

Își dorea un loc al ei, dar nu îl putea găsi;

Dorea să se simtă în siguranță, dar nu se simțea;

Ar fi vrut o casă, dar nu o avea.

Singurul loc care era cel mai apropiat de "acasă" era locul pe care îl vedea doar în imaginația sa,

Acolo unde se simțea în siguranță,

Acolo unde era persoana care și-ar fi dorit din totdeauna să fie.

Dar durea.

Durea sentimentul pe care îl avea atunci când se întorcea la realitate;

Tristețea, furia, dezamăgirea,

Toate o copleşeau și o făceau din nou să se simtă ca și cum s-ar îneca,

Până când o lua iar de la capăt, imaginându-şi.

Era ca un drog.

Cel mai frumos și dureros drog de care fata nu se putea despărții oricât ar fi încercat.

Și ea știe asta pentru că a încercat,

Dar nu a putut.

Era mereu trasă înapoi de îngrozitorul de frumos sentiment de pace, linişte, siguranță...acasă.

A fost odată o fată,

Care avea nevoie de ajutor...

Dar nu știa cui să il ceară.

[tom--22--felton]

I apologize ahead of time this is long. But it's was weighing on me and I had to say it.

Sorry, but I have to say something. I see people bring down Tom for the stupidest shit. He can't say or do anything without people taking it out of context, twisting it, and making it into something else. Lately it's been all about him collapsing at Ryder. Now it's all about how he is looking. People saying he looks terrible, he looks like death, etc. I get he's a celebrity and that his life will be under a microscope. But why is it that people can't just let it be. It happened weeks ago. He's been taking a break from everything and taking this slow. And bow that he is trying to slow down and rest more.

People are all worried about when he is going live or why hasn't he gone live. But put yourself In his shoes. How would you feel if you got on the internet and saw nothing but posts about your life spread all over the place then on top of that people spreading false information, people saying good I hope you die next time, people saying it's funny that it happened, that you deserve it. People bow looking at everything thing trying to manifest something that isn't there. If you have been a fan for years then you have seen the changes he has gone through. You have seen when he was at his lowest.

I mean even if you been a fan since last year you saw how when he went from being happy, smiling, having that sparkle in his eye to seeing the anxiety, hurt, and pain wash over him

You saw him questioning and over thinking everything when he went live. You wouldn't like getting on social media to see people telling you to kill yourself that you're not worth it and that you're a waist of space and air. Tom himself has said all it takes is seeing one bad comment and he curls into himself.

Yes, it is Okay to discuss things and have an opinion of things. But it's not okay for people to sit here and twist everything and analyze him like he is some lab rat. Idk why people are so into trying to analyze everything. "Oh, his song is about Emma. No its a out R," like who tf cares? Then you have people say he body slammed his ex. No tf he didn't! People really forget that he's British and the word "fitter" means something different. Where herw in the US it refers to people who work out and have an athletic body, over there it means (if I understand correctly and correct me if I'm wrong) but it means prettier. And there is nothing wrong with thinking aomeone is more attractive than someone else. He didn't body shame her. Plus the song is 10+ years old so kindly shut up.

I get being a celebrity comes with no privacy but people can all still have privacy. Tom doesn't need to say if he is in a relationship. That's his business. He's not lying about it. Maybe he is single and they are just a casual thing. Just because she is or was staying with him do want mean they are an offical thing. I mean he's spent time with her and gone on vacations woth her before. But this chick doeant have a real job and doeant have any thing really holding her back from not going and staying for a few months. He likes the girls that he can go back to that will drop everything for him. My opinion she likes him because he has money and is a celebrity but I also don't know her so...

But really stop analyzing everything little thing. You wouldn't like if you woke up one day feeling great and thinking you looled great then you poat a video or picture on social media or even god forbid go outside and someone tell you that you look like shit and unhealthy. Why are all you younger fans so obessed with a 34 year old man? What is it that makes you want to analyze every tiny little detail?

Again sorry.... I'm opinionated and can't keep my mouth shut. Hate me or whatever idc. Tell me I'm trash or whatever y'all judgy people do. 😁 have a lovely day.

This is an old one, but it's still so important. Thank you, Cole

[practicalmagicintuitions]

To clarify, I am not a NV stan, I am not NV, I am not HC, I am pissed with HC for this whole thing, I am pro vaccine, I am vaccinated and not into conspiracy theories. However there are some things that really get to me:

- they broke COVID protocol. No they didn't. I have friends (definitely not wealthy) who have travelled to/from Europe into USA and viceversa and they followed procedure and were careful and did nothing wrong. Of course, wealthier people have more opportunities than others, but that's true across the board, not just in with COVID. And I see other celebs who have done MUCH worse than that.... hopping around yachts and all that. HC stayed cooped up in the English countryside, always wore a mask and still does and she was in LA.

- he went to Florida to party and lied about working. No, he went to Florida to shoot his MT stuff and to meet with her manager DG - she is headquartered there which is also probably why he as a house there. Chances are he went to LA as well in his private jet to do meetings and such. and in his downtime, just like every other human he went out for some coffee and drinks. Florida has lax rules, true, but I am 1000000000% certain he, she and his brother and family are all vaccinated, and therefore very very veeeeery unlikely to get sick or transmit the disease.

- all the photoshop/body double drama: have not heard it in a while thank God, but that's literally delusional to believe that.

- Natalie is actively doing all the work accepting/rejecting tags and even creating fake accounts to abuse her bullies. She surely has a keen eye on the whole thing, but it's his team managing her socials and I am fairly sure they are paying some people to run stan accounts for her + she must have some friends who are helping her out. i know other celebs have been caught anon'ing on lipstick alley and such so i am not saying definitely not, but definitely unlikely, no matter how uncool she is.

- she lied about her job. no she didn't. her linkedin does say she is a vp. not an executive director, but a vp she is (yes there is a rumor she has been suspended because of abusing staff, which would explain a lot). how she advanced in her career is a legitimate question, because of her escort website and her job at weinstein and frankly the fact she grew up in a broken home with a toxic af dad who probably taught her she is not loved and to get ahead you gotta use your body. so really, even if she might be enjoying mr cavill's physical attentions, i do not and will never envy her.

- dany is a demon = #freehenrycavill. henry is no britney spears. dany seems to suck some serious a** at her job and she is a body builder in a cult of bodybuilders and my personal opinion and that of many is that it is a very bad career choice for henry who has so much more going for him than being the next rock/cena/arnie. but he chose that, willingly. he has a strong emotional support system around him with all the brothers and the family etc (as opposed to say a tom cruise). but... he also has a massive eating disorder-like issue and being a bodybuilder only fuels body dysmorphia & co. so yes he is in 'danger' and DG is not good news at all, but he is an adult, a millionaire, a powerful actor and has free will and if anything the only reason why i take the time to write this is in the hope that some of this gets to him via the voices of many many fans and it helps him wake up. chances of that happening: 0.1%.

- random rant: it always creeped me out that henry says he doesn't like to read fiction and non fiction and sticks to fantasy because the other two genres make his heart hurt too much... but then he is also the staunchest lover of everything WAR... like that's a dangerous and contradictory mix dude.

thank you for coming to my ted talk.

1. Not true. I tried to find but tumblr is so weird so I cannot: I had a poat about the official lockdown timeline of the UK. Only essential traveling were allowed at that time when she presumably entered into the UK. And if they haven’t broke protocol why this was the only topic he hadn’t touched in his FO post (it was before blackface). If you are falsely accused of such a thing publicly on forums, mocked because of it and you are mot guilty of it, I think you want to clear the air as soon as you can. But he remained silent. Instead of he bullsh*tted so many things, protected DG, but never adressed this. This makes me obvious they are guilty of it because otherwise we se he has mo problem to speak up if something bothers him.

2. I think the FL thing more like sarcasm but everything he did as work could have been done in the UK or via zoom. And since he emphasized he is there for work I think the mocking understandable especially after point one above.

3. “Once you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, no matter how improbable, must be the truth.”

Agree. Truth is no body double or blackmail or anything. Maybe they were set up, this is not a crime but the trut is they are together whatever is this and there is no 2-3 NV impersonators. Just her and him.

4.I am not sure about that hia team is managing her SM but I can see they are paying stans. Like the one whose ask was accepted at the WitcherCon after NV has accepted tags from her for a month and this someone also friends with GG and the 🤡 No suspicious at all… (I don’t believe in coincidences so must be 💵)

5. I gave up to understand what is her title, work, how she got it and how hasn’t shw fired yet but what I know they pushed her as a WAY more important someone as she is in irl. And I consider this as a lie. Not from her but from his team because those articles were paid by them

6. Agree with his completely

7. fantasy is fiction , but I get the impression he doesn’t really read. I think he should have some non fiction and some classics, from authors who are not writing in english etc, so something that is not fantasy

Your welcome, sorry for the late answer

[eiaie]

maybe i'm really aromantic.

1) i am not comfortable with the idea of being in a relationship. it's okay if it's other people's rs kasi di naman ako involved. i'm just an onlooker admiring what they share from a distance. i did try to imagine myself in one pero it just doesn't sit right. i don't want to be subjected in another person's expectations. akala ko dati ayoko lang mag-isip + gumastos ng gifts sa mahahalagang occasions pero i came to realize na ayoko lang din pag-expectan. i don't know how to comfort, di rin ako marunong magkusa so diba kawawa naman yung jojowain ko. baka maging source of trauma niya pa ako. bare minimum di ko magagawa.

2) for years, i've been wracking my head over this. di kasi sure, ig that's the thing abt sexuality. i can't really tell if i'm aro kasi comfortable naman ako sa general idea ng love. except if involved ako. i would rather watch in the sidelines talaga.

3) also, i like quite a ton of fictional characters (ik they're not real pero may feelings oK haha) and kpop idols (real na real sila so mas naguluhan ako). tapos nung hs nagkacrush naman ako pero looking back, i liked the ideals i've built in my head more. saka siguro at that time, i know nothing's gonna happen anyway. i kept my hunches na lang at the backburner of my mind until i read somewhere na a person who likes those can still be aromantic kasi those characters/idols are unattainable. i had to pAUSE, kasi that was exactly how i told mama. you see we talked abt this stuff one time tapos sabi ko, "ma i don't think i am capable of having a romantic relationship". ofc she asked tapos sabi ko "wala, icky". she proceeded to tell me na okay lang naman ako kiligin sa kpop so why not in real people. i told her na it's different kasi i will never meet them in this lifetime. i don't actually have to talk to them or socialize.

4) i have never really liked someone to the point na iniimagine ko yung sarili ko with them. plus minsan kaya parang nagiging aware lang naman ako sa kanila kasi i admire certain parts of them (i.e., brain, music taste, skills w/ instruments).

5) i recently realized na i seldom read anything written in first person's pov. tolerabe pero uncomfy in general. somehow it requires you to assimilate or ako lang ba yun basta feel q nilalagay ka niya sa sitwasyon. idk how i read twilight pero i was 10 okay i believe di yon counted. it actually feels like a fever dream.

6) ano ang point ng poat na ito, wala i just need to dump these. it kinda feels nice to know more about myself (i have finally connected the dots, bruh). but the epiphany that i might end up alone in life is kinda... so idk. mixed feelings.

[foodbytesback]

I Rated the Highs and Lows of the Chipotle Goods Line

Folks, if you’re anything like me, you’ve spent most of this year either stress-eating or impulse-buying random shit online.  But only one company is brave enough to try to tackle both markets, and that’s Chipotle.  Chipotle Goods launched a… surprisingly extensive line of apparel and accessories a few weeks ago (I would have written about it then, but the Bon Appetit scandal seems to be what keeps people coming back, so…), with some being better than others. So let’s take a look at some of them (but not all- a lot of them are the same designs on a different style shirt or a tote bag, or just the Chipotle logo slapped on something) to see if we can find any hidden gems in this otherwise confusing line of products that no one asked for.

The Custom Order Tee

This is definitely the most on-brand item in the line, and is presumably where the idea for the line came from. It also has the same energy as those streetwear clothing lines that just throw a bunch of random words on a shirt, so it’s pretty trendy looking as long as you don’t read it.  And the customizable aspect is neat, too. However, as someone who has worked a Chipotle-esque service counter before, nothing about the experience pissed me off more than customers expecting me to read their order off of a piece of paper or a text on their phone instead of just telling me what they wanted, so I feel like this kinda falls into the same vein.  Also, I tend to flip flop between the barbacoa and the sofritas, so what, am I supposed to buy 2 shirts? I think NOT. 8/10

The Chipotle Natural Avocado Dye Tee

I know I said I was gonna be avoiding shirts that are just the logo slapped on a shirt, but I feel like the “upcycled avocado pit” dye is, if nothing else, an interesting conversational piece.  That conversation, of course, being, “did they make their workers save all those avocado pits from when they made guac?  How long was that smelly bucket of avocado pits hanging out for?” lmao 6/10

The Burrito Pocket Tee

If you ever wondered what that little cat that hangs out in shirt pockets and is also secretly flipping you off would look like if they were wrapped in foil… why the fuck were you wondering that? Anyway, here’s that I guess. 5/10

The Foil Gym Duffel Bag

I can easily see this draped over the shoulder of some twink hanging around a gym solely for the sake of getting some gym rat dick.  Whether Chipotle intended that or not is irrelevant. 

(Sorry twinks, it’s “coming soon,” but hey, it’s not like the gyms are open anyway). 5/10 

The Extra Sweatshirt

Ok, this kinda looks like something I'd actually wear. The insignia is subtle, and not necessarily Chipotle-themed so you don't have to worry about someone calling you out for becoming a walking billboard. 9/10

The Chih-Poat-Lay Tee

Finally, my mom can stop saying “chih-pol-tee.”  Don’t know how often someone would actually wear it, though. 6/10

The Five-Panel Hat

There's something about the.. panels? of this hat that make me uncomfortable. Is this what the snapback kids are into these days? 2/10

The Burritos Tote Bag

Ok, this got a sensible chuckle out of me.  If it wasn't for the fact that I already have way too many tote bags I'd actually consider it. (btw- cashiers hate having to put your groceries in these kinds of light, flimsy canvas bags that don't stand up on their own.) 7/10

The Avocado Jean Jacket

This is probably where their intentions of being a normal streetwear brand go awry.  Or, rather, they’re doing such a good job of being a streetwear brand they forget they’re Chipotle.  Like, you gotta pull the jacket open and whisper “hey kid, wanna buy an avocado?” for anyone to even realize that it’s not just a regular jean jacket.  On the other hand, it’s a jean jacket, so 10/10

The Foil Phone Case

What the fuck. What the fuck. What the fuck.

Phone case design is my passion  1/10

[fuckblizzardbearlover]

Its freaking amazing to me how ppl who have an unhealthy obsession with fantasy project that on others.

Like frequently i correct hearsey and lies and get insulted for it. Some weirdo on a fansite said a snarky thing about a character being a bad leader but at least she has her husband to come "fix" things for her. I politely corrected them saying the characters been a good leader for a long time and having a husband doesnt make a woman weak (a sentiment i see all the time). It was an open ended statement. I gave a rebuttle that was true and said an open ended frue statement. Giving them the opportunity to go "yes but in recent events she is depicted this way and that which doesnt suit her alleged experience.." or whatever. Like you know a civil talk about a fantasy work we presumably both enjoy.

But instead she accuses me of saying im putting words in her mouth(i can see how if one was dedensive how they could see that...which would prompt a reasonable adult to ask for clarity of what i meant or for them to clarify what they meant" and went to the top of the comments to call me an asshole and jerk and one of their friends poated insulting memes.

What really got me is someone saying "when it comes to ppls favorite characters...ppl can be unreasonable" and like...no? I dont care about this character at all? I wasnt mean or nasty . They said something i correct, i corrected them, they wigged out.

And like the whole sylvannas thing . All ive ever done is remind ppl of what...the character has actually done. Some of this was in defense of other characters ,saying that like no it wouldnt be right to make this charactwrs victims be the bad guys . Thats bad writing. That yes the person who deatroyed 2 cities worth of ppl was evil at the time and was not "ruined" by the writers by doing it a 3rd time.

But that makes me an alliance obsessed fan? No?! I love the horde, and i cant fathom how u could play only 1 faction. But like...the characters arent people.

Its just so meta. Like even if u ignore the fact im just talking about what the characters actually did....not insulting them...even if i was..

They are just characters. Im not obsessed like u. Its just a story. What IS wrong is to insult ppl over it. And that includes the writers

And it just...amazes me that theee ppl out there who have an unhealthy obsession with media that they partially hate...think the rest of us are like them?

And i used warcraft but u see it everywhere. Like what bugged me in star wars was not the existence of reylo or its fans but how id constantly see ppl go "these fucking idiots who dont understand star wars are going to be proven so wrong"

Like why do so many not understand how u can say "i dont like how this part of the story revolved" without insulting the whole thing. Why cant they understand that u can like stuff without disliking other stuff.

I think thats why thr pineapple pizza thing bothers me. Like when i say i like fries im not saying i hate chips. But ppl want to act like its fun to go insulting ppls food and saying ppl who like it are weird when u could just...not do that?

[chaseagainstonision]

Friendly reminder that Onision is a rapist~

I lue of his new video "Something You Should Know..." (direct link, please watch with and adblocker), I wanted to poat this in the tags again just as a refresher for those familiar with the situation and those who are new to this.

If Gerg were telling the truth, he shouldn’t have to sit there and insult someone and say something like “She goes to insinuate that, when we did make love, that I was forcing her into it. That I was pressuring her into it and she didn’t really want to. That’s funny coming from someone who’s slept with over twenty people. That’s really funny.”

Or like “You shouldn’t text a person repeatedly all the sexual things that you want to do with them and tell them on the phone all the things you want to do with them and talk about oral on a road trip, all the way back home, because you’re planing on taking is from one state to another. You shouldn’t be extremely sexual with someone if you don’t plan on being sexual with them and then turn around and be surprised when they have sex with you when they met you like… Two or three hours after, like in person.” (and this is echoed in the very last image in this post).

That’s rape apologetics straight from the videos that are linked further down. That’s essentially him admitting he raped someone because he’s excusing his own actions and pinning it all on AJ, like it was her fault because he thinks she couldn’t have been pressured into sex. Because you apparently can’t rape someone who’s slept with a lot of people. And you apparently can’t rape someone who you’re been sexual with through various forms of communication because you apparently now owe them sex. Because he assumes that pressuring and coercing someone into sex isn’t rape.

But he lied. He wasn’t in the right. His story isn’t fucking consistent at all and he keeps making excuses. And, I mean, rapists are wont to like, just like any other criminal. They are wont to deny their crimes. Because, y'know, he’s an actual fucking rapist an all and realized he dun goof’d when he admitted she was right and tried to back peddle and cover his ass. Unlike AJ, who’s always had the same thing to say about this.

And it’s cute that you lot think she’s lying when it comes to these emails, all because Gerg keeps taking them out of context:

(click through to read)

click through to read

Nowhere in there does she apologize for her letter. She apologizes for the mudslinging that went on after he started trashing her name but that’s it. Actually sit and read the letters and emails that she’s sent instead of taking his word for it. I mean, I have been paying attention to both sides of this argument and Gerg’s just got a lot of holes and inconsistencies while AJ’s been very forthright and doesn’t have any excuses (like Gerg and his “well, I couldn’t have raped her, she slept with over 20, you can’t rape someone that’s slept with over 10 people” excuse) or any variation of what happened.

Gerg’s still lying about raping AJ. Rapists (and criminals in general) are wont to do such. She DID admit, though not initially, to being raped. I mean, if you want her admitting to that, look at this link and you’ll see.

I WOULD NEVER CLAIM THAT SOMEONE IS A RAPIST IF THERE WASN’T PROOF OF THE MISDEED. TO DO SO WOULD MEAN THAT I AM NO BETTER THAN RAPISTS LIKE GERG AND MY FIRST EX BECAUSE IT WOULD MEAN THAT I AM BASELESSLY CLAIMING THAT SOMEONE IS A RAPIST. BUT, THERE IS ALL OF THIS PROOF THAT GERG IS A RAPIST, HENCE WHY WE CALL HIM SUCH.

Okay, so, while his ex, AJ, doesn’t outright say that she was raped in her original letter (which was meant to be a private conversation between the her and a friend, if I recall, and I’m assuming that the other person leaked it), she said no, he continued, and she gave in because he was so persistent, which will be shown below. In legal standards, he absolutely raped her. He even says that at least 90% of what she said was true without refuting it in his really creepy voicemails. He even proceeds to lie and say she had a smelly vag and later retracted it and went ahead and try to slander her character without actually making a rebuttal or trying to come up with a different story of what happened that night. Again, you might want to check out this letter, too, from AJ.

It doesn’t matter if AJ said that she just felt pressured into having sex (which, technically and legally, coercion and persuasion are considered rape since rape isn’t just forcefully having sex with someone against their will. It also means that, if you don’t get a clear, concise, enthusiastic yes, it’s a no and if you continue, guess fucking what? Congrats, it’s rape! You win nothing! Go straight to jail!) because it’s still rape in the eyes of the law.

This is proof that he raped someone. Straight up, the fact that this happened is disgusting:

We drove back to his hotel room, we walk in the door, I set down my bag  and instantaneously he starts making out with me. He immediately starts  taking off articles of my clothing, and we had only been there for not  even 30 seconds. He gets me on the bed, still kissing me and touching me  — between his kisses was me going “nononononono”, and him kissing me  harder to shut me up. I finally pull away long enough to remind him that  he said we were supposed to wait a month, and that maybe we should get  to know each other in person a day or two before we jump into having  sex. He asks me “Why?” as he continues kissing me. Eventually I realized  I was fighting an uphill battle, so I gave up and just went with it.

Because, once you say no, your partner should absolutely stop. No if, ands, or buts about it. The fact that he continues is legally considered rape.

Then he goes on to be really creepy, as the following:

During sex, he’s looking me in the eye, petting my hair, and asking  me if I want him to cum in me. I told him only if we can get Plan B in  the morning. He looks at me with these disappointed and frustrated eyes,  and says “Don’t you want to be pregnant with my child? Come on, let’s  make babies together!”, I told him absolutely not. And he still came in  me anyway. Luckily for me, he’s not that big of a creeper that he  refused to get me Plan B the next morning.

Basically the first 2 days of him being in Austin was him repeatedly  trying to have sex with me, cutting off everything I was saying to ask  me a sexual question or to make a sexual innuendo. It got to the point  that we got into an argument about it, because it was legitimately  starting to hurt my feelings. For some reason or another, he would take  me being frustrated and argumentative as a sexual challenge, and would  pin me to the bed and basically try to fuck me (or, as he says, “make  love”) into submission. It became pointless to try and fight it, so I  let him do whatever he wanted — which resulted in him cumming in me  countless times after the Plan B had worn off. With him citing: “If you  get pregnant, I will immediately marry you and will step up as the role  of the father for our child”. What a turn on.

This was all against her wishes. This was all essentially forced upon her. Tell me that this isn’t proof enough that he forced her to have sex against her will.

And, as an addition, Gerg likes to take all of what AJ said (via their back and forth in emails and some blog posts and things of that nature) out of context and like to twist her words and make it seem like she apologized for everything when that isn’t the case. AJ only apologized for any mud slinging on her part but stands by everything else. Taking only Gerg’s word on this at face value is being intellectually dishonest and being biased, which is, quite honestly, not a good thing.

And here he is, still trying to say that she obviously couldn’t have been raped because they were talking about sex before hand and obviously couldn’t have been raped because of the amount of partners she had prior to their relationship. I mean, it’s common sense that, once you start talking about pervy things, you have to oblige, right? I mean, it’s not like that’s rape, even if they tell you no numerous times… Right?

[kaesaaurelia]

not a threat. was just going through your weird research tag and was referencing a poat from like a year ago. the one with the chicago alderman. i kinda want to ask about your research + writing process but also not? you mentioned going to a lecture. How do you balance wrok writing and research?

Ahahaha okay I know exactly the post you meant, sorry about that, I didn’t think it was really a threat, don’t worry!  I was just super confused.  I actually relistened to the podcast that was from earlier this week!  I had however forgotten the phrase “legislative chainsaw.”

This is going to get a bit long, so I’m putting it under a cut.

Regarding work/writing/research balance... honestly I don’t really balance the work part that well?  I just don’t have a very demanding job.  When it’s stressful it’s more in an interpersonal way (dealing with annoying clients and so on) so that will occasionally make me miss a lecture or tour I had planned to go on after work if I have a really draining day, but usually I tell myself “but it’s for research and you love research,” and I go, and I love research so I enjoy myself.

(Really I miss out on more of these things because they’re in the winter and it’s too cold to leave my apartment after I’ve gotten home from work.)

As far as balancing writing and research, that one is trickier.  I could not for the life of me find internal diagrams of what meatpacking plants were like before I wrote the DT factory sequence, but eventually I just decided I’d make it up, and now at some point I feel like I should go back and rewrite it because I did FINALLY have the chance to tour a former meatpacking plant and it’s totally different from what I had been picturing.  Sometimes you just have to keep writing the thing and hope no experts in whatever field it is will be reading your fic.  (Or that if they do they won’t be too offended.)

I don’t spend a ton of time on in-person research, by the way.  I probably do spend more time on it than most fanfic authors?  But most fanfic authors are not writing something set in their own city and the ones who are probably have busier lives than me.  When I talk about a tour or a lecture it’s because I keep an eye out for local-history-related events, but most of my research is incidental (as in, I google around madly trying to figure out some minor detail) or something I do without any particular targeted facts (like I listen to a local history podcast, and have a lot of relevant books on my to-read list).

In general a lot of the irl things I think of vaguely as research are also often just for inspiration -- I love travel and museums and I am always thinking about the stuff I encounter in the vein of “hey that could make an interesting fic!”  And like I said, it can be a great shortcut past anxiety, or when I’m socially drained.

Overall most of the stuff I cite as research is either things I already knew from these outings or from my general reading, but didn’t necessarily plan to use, or things that I just googled up randomly because I absolutely did not expect to need to know the historical origins of fitted sheets or ketchup packets for a mob AU set in the 1930s.  (Actually I don’t think I ever cited those ones?  There’s a lot of research, also, in the vein of “I want to write this one scene, but did they even have X in the 1930s?  No.  Okay, I won’t be writing that one scene or I’ll be writing it in a very different way.”  And of course, it doesn’t get cited because why would I cite something that isn’t present?)

I think the most research I ever did for one detail was the night I realized I needed to know who the Dreemurr Gang’s allies were and which cities they were in, but unfortunately there wasn’t a ton of data on smuggling routes to Chicago except for liquor coming in from Canada via Detroit.  My google fu ended up being useless that night, so I decided to take it a step back and figure out where liquor was mostly imported from.  Then it turned out that it was from a lot of different places because there’s uh, a lot of different kinds of liquor.  (This seems like it should be obvious, but like... I don’t drink much?)

Anyway, I ended up going through 43 different Prohibition-era cocktail recipes, tallying up what kinds of liquors were being used most, put those on a list along with beer and wine, and then figured out sources for all of them and came up with a short list of cities, then came up with 2-3 monsters in charge of bootlegging in those cities based on local cryptids and mythical creatures from the cultures that immigrated there.  I got zero actual writing done that night but now I have a lot of little details if I want to put them in for flavor, and it’ll be easier if for plot reasons they need to go to another city.  (The downside is I kind of want them to do that whether it’s relevant or not; I’m super fond of some of the characters I came up with.)

I would really not suggest doing anything like the above unless you actually like research and aren’t super worried about getting your writing done; it’s a great example of overthinking it.  If I was a pro writer it’d probably be the kind of thing I might ask an expert/historian/librarian to help me with if I knew it was going to be absolutely vital to writing the thing, but it’d also be perfectly reasonable to write around it or to just Make Shit Up.  But I enjoyed it, honestly, and I did keep writing, because I find that stuff inspiring.

Hopefully that was some kind of answer?  Sorry, I feel very blathery every time someone asks me a question like this.

[rosie-x-rose]

🌟THIS IS AN APPRECIATION POST🌟

Thank you so much for all the time and effort to make PAC and conducting ask games! I hope you will receive a lot of good things and may you be blessed by positive energy. As your follower, I would like to thank you for doing this ask game #3 amidst the multiple ask that I have submitted. You are literally one of my fave blogs here and I hope you grow not only as someone who studies astrology, but also as a whole. You deserve every follower here 😌❤️

Hello! Thank you so much for taking the time to write this. It really means so much. Its always nice to see people appreciating your hard work. I've been trying to do something or the other on this blog. I want to talk to everyone about casual things too but I guess I've not yet reached that point. But yeah that's why I made a astro notes poat too. To give something to you guys😊💞

[depresseddiarywritter]

Dear diary,

Today i found out he's been fucking around again... What was i even expecting? That he'll change? 😂 that's so funny

Idk what to even say anymore. I'm so sick and tired of fighting for the same shit again and again without a change....

Cică n a mai intrat pe instagram 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 ce proastă sunt!

I am şters 2 profile de matrimoniale, şi a mai făcut 4 😂😂😂😂 ce credulă sunt

Sunt o proastă şi o imbecilă şi o handicapată !

De ce dracu mă aşteptam să fie decât cu mine? De parcă sunt vreo bunăciune.... Ce glumă bună !

Păcat că nu poţi vorbi... Probabil mă injurai şi tu... Şi pe bună dreptate... Merit pe deplin...

Vreau să găsesc curaj să mă omor. Să scape de mine. Pt că dacă mor eu, scapă de bebe, leuţ şi freya şi poate să şi facă de cap cât vrea el fără să l fută la icre proasta asta...

I wanna die... I just wanna die. To disappear. So that he can be happy. Cuz obviously he's not happy with me.

Why? What the fuck did I do wrong? Do I fucking need to suck his Dick everyday for him to not stray anymore? Wtf is wrong with meeeee??????

Help me, please! Say something, god damn it! Help me! Give me something, anything! Please. I can't live like this anymore! Help me!

I just wanna know why. That's it. I just want to know. No more lies. But he always lies. Why? Am I that stupid? Am I that useless and meaningless?

WTF DOES HE WANT FROM ME????? TELL MEEE!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I guess I'm gonna go cry again... Maybe after he leaves I'm gonna slith my wrists. That would be nice. Yeah, maybe I'll do that...

[writingforweirdlings]

Unexpected

Summary: Thea’s Trial begins. 

Characters: Reader, Ra’s al Ghul, Nyssa al Ghul, Sarab, Oliver Queen, John Diggle, Malcolm Merlyn, Thea Queen

AN: This is what the baby’s room will look like for anyone who wanted to know, or not, but yea there it is.

I was woken up by Nyssa. I hadn’t seen her in a while. “Hey Nyssa.” I say with a sleep laden voice.

“Hello Y/N. Father would like for you to be at dinner.” She says with a kind smile. I nod and go to the bathroom before finding my shoes and going to the dining room. Nyssa walks with me, “I found out who murdered Sara.” She stops and stands in front of me looking confused. “Malcolm drugged his daughter, Thea, and he used her to kill Sara. And don’t worry, we’ve already sent someone to bring her here.” I put my hand on her shoulder. “We will have justice for what was done.” She nods her head and we continue our walk.

Once we go to the dining room Nyssa turned to leave. “Will you not join us little tiger?”

“No. I would like to be alone tonight.” I nod my head and I go sit at Ra’s left. Oliver being in my seat at his right.

“Evening brother. Husband.” Ra’s takes my hand and leaves a kiss on it.

“Did you rest well?” “Yes. I feel better already.” I smile at him. I turn to Oliver, “I see they’ve cleaned your wounds.”

He blankly stares at us. “I want to negotiate for the life of my sister.” I look at him. Really look at him. He’s willing to do anything to save her. How honorable. But sadly there’s nothing he can do.

“There will be no negotiations. I’ve already sent someone for her.” I say to him, lifting my cup and taking a drink.

“I want to exchange our places. My life for hers.” “You just don’t give up do you. I swore a vow to find the one responsible for Sara’s death and make sure justice is payed. I will not negotiate for your sister’s life.” I say in a tone that leaves no room for argument.

“I challenge you to an agni kai. By the League’s code you cannot deny it.” To this Ra’s speaks up.

“You would challenge a pregnant woman to fight you? Would you kill them both if the time came for it?” He has an infuriated look in his eyes.

“No. I’m not challenging her. I’m challenging you.” Oliver turns to look at Ra’s, who relaxes after the danger to me is no longer.

“It’s been sixty-seven years since someone challenged me.(pause) I accept your challenge. Sarab will leave you with instructions on where it will take place.” After that we eat dinner in silence.

Time Skip

The next morning the assassin I sent out arrives with the package. Thea Merlyn. I tell him to put her in one of the cells. I look for Ra’s right after that.

I enter our room and find him sitting on the bed. “What’s wrong my love?” He looks up at me and says nothing so I walk closer and sit on his lap, leaning my head on his shoulder. “Is it about the agni kai?” He takes hold of my hand. “I do not wish to upset you with his death my wife.” I lift my head and look at him with understanding eyes. “I will not blame you nor will I be upset with you. He brought this all himself. If he dies then he dies. At least he’ll die a warrior's death.” I bring our foreheads together and we sit in silence for some time.

“I would like to start Thea’s trial before we leave. I want Oliver and Merlyn there as well.” I pull back from him slightly.

“Then we will start the trial now. I will gather those needed and meet you in the main room. Bring Nyssa with you.” I nod my head and go look for Nyssa. I find her on one of the balconies.

“Nyssa. We finally have Thea. We’re starting the trial in a few minutes.” I stand beside her and look at the rising sun.

“Why must I be there?” “You are more than a spectator. You will review the evidence and decide her fate. Your word will be final.” I place my hand on her arm. “Be just my tiger.” I leave her there, knowing she’ll come when she’s ready.

I walk to the main room and see Oliver, Merlyn and the man who came with Oliver. In the center of the is Ra’s with Thea kneeling before him. I walk down the room and stand to the right of the Demon Head. Nyssa come in a moment later and stands to my right.

After a moment Ra’s begins. “Thea Merlyn, you stand accused for the murder of Ta-er al-Sahfer. You may present any evidence you have, as will we. By the end of the trial your fate will be decided by Ta-er al-Sahfer intended. Nyssa al Ghul.” I see Oliver with a shocked look on his face. I see Ra’s signaling me forward.

I over to Sarab and take the knife from him and approach Thea. She looks at me as I walk towards her. “Y/N?”

I look at her and say, “poate adevarul the face liber(May the truth set you free).” I cut her across her arm. It was the same poison I used on Merlyn, this one would spread faster.

We wait for about five minutes before I proceed.

“Who are you?”

“Thea Queen”

“Who trained you in our ways?”

“My father.”

“Your father died on a boating accident.”

“My real father. Malcolm Merlyn.”

I allow a pause before continuing.

“Did you know Sara Lance?”

“Yes.”

“How did you know her?”

“She was friends with my brother.”

“With Tommy?”

“Oliver.”

“When was the last time you saw Sara Lance?”

“Before she died.”

“When?”

“When she went on the Queen’s Gambit.”

I start pacing.

“When did you return to Starling City?”

“The day before Sara was killed.”

“Who were you travelling with?”

“My father.”

I stop in front of her.

“Did you kill Sara Lance?”

She struggle a bit. “I don’t know.”

“Is it possible you killed Ms. Lance?”

“Yes.”

“Do you remember killing her?”

“No.”

“Do you remember being on the same roof as her when she died?”

“No.”

“All evidence points toward you Ms. Queen. Did you know you were drugged?”

“No.”

“Would you like to know who drugged you?”

“Yes.”

“It was your father. Malcolm Merlyn.”

“No. He wouldn’t do that.” She turned to look at Malcolm who was looking anywhere but her. Apparently that was all she needed. She turned back around and said in a voice of disbelief. “I killed her. I killed Sara Lance.”

I turn to look at Ra’s. I nod my head, signaling I’ve gathered all I need.

He steps forth. “The fate of Thea Queen is now in the hands of Nyssa al Ghul.” She takes her father’s place.

She looks at Thea. “I’ll let fate decide.” I look at her, offering a small smile, knowing what she intends to do. “I challenge her to an agni kai.” A few gasps are heard around the room.

I turn to look at everyone in the room. “Then it shall take place tomorrow. Before the agniki of Ra’s al Ghul and Oliver Queen.” Ra’s steps up and dismisses the room. All who are left are us and Sarab, Thea, Oliver, Merlyn and the man who’s name I have yet to learn.

I walk to Nyssa and embrace her in a hug. “You did well my tiger.” She hugs me back with the same force as I.

I turn to Thea and Oliver. “Good luck tomorrow. You’ll need it.”

Thea looks at me. “Y/N how could you do this? I thought we were family?!”

“I left my past behind me when I left. The only family I have now is the League.” She looks at me in horror. She tries to lunge at me but is stopped my Oliver. I call in the guards, “Take them back to their cells.”

I turn to around to look at my family. “You two should prepare for tomorrow. Freshen up your training.” Nyssa nods and leaves to the training grounds. Sarab leaves next, allowing Ra’s and I to be alone.

“I will see to people I once loved die tomorrow.” Ra’s pulls me into a hug, kissing my hair.

“Fate will decide who dies and who lives. If it is there time then death will wait for them on that cliff.” I make a sound of agreement. “Come we have other matters to attend to.”

I look up at him. “What matter do we have to attend?”

“The baby’s room.” I look at him and smile.

We spend the rest of the day setting up the room. We’re finish the room after dinner. We stand together in the room’s doorway.

“It looks amazing.” We turn out the lights and leave to our bedroom.

Once we’ve changed our clothes we get into bed. I snuggle up against Ra’s and he puts an arm around me, pulling me closer.

“I will always love you.” I say to him.

“I will always be there for you.” he responds.

“We will always protect one another.” I say closing my eyes.

"And not even death will take us apart." He finishes.

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