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lostfracturess · 8 months ago

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nici i’ll have u know i just took two shots of tequila in preparation for this chapter 🤣🤣 and it’s close to 1pm on a tuesday

ALSO I CANT BELIEVE S&C IS OVER 100k NOW THANK U FOR THE NEVER ENDING FEAST QUEEN

“how can u stay so calm?” “drugs, sweetheart. it’s the drugs.”

i cackled so fkn hard 🤣

"Tell me," he whispered, his breath a warm caress against your ear. "Where would you want him to touch you?"

IM CHEWING MY MF KNUCKLES I NEED THIS MAN (or both men) IN MY BED IMMEDIATELY

Geto stripped the rain from his hair, then twisted the dark strands into a fresh bun. His eyes flickered between you and Satoru, a single raised eyebrow his only question. You wouldn't meet his gaze, the floor suddenly fascinating.

stoppppp okay first of all the writing is eating so hard idk how but w every chapter i just fall more n more in love w the way u write 😭 BUT ALSO DON’t GIMME THE IMAGE OF A RAIN SOAKED GETO or else something ELSE is gonna be soaked out here🧍🏻‍♀️

ok i have to stop quoting every other line lmaooo

"Just so we're clear," Satoru's voice suddenly cut through the quiet, "I don't share. Not you."

PLS I KNOW I SAID I WLD STOP QUOTING EVERY OTHER LINE BUT THIS WAS THE NEXT LINE AND IM SCREAMING this is not fun to read while i’m in my fertile window

sighhh the conversation ab the 37 y/o pt passing n how he’s just a statistic now 😭 so heartbreaking yet realistically put

im loving the daddy dom energy satoru is exuding in this chapter i just love when usually flirty/amused men lock tf in when things get serious lol it’s so hot. also so sweet how all he’s concerned ab is her reputation & career ahead

“A familiar ache rose in your chest. You longed to reach out, to bridge the chasm he insisted on maintaining. But his posture, rigid as stone, and his clenched jaw, sent a silent warning. This was his battle, one he'd fight in isolation—as always.”

ughh i feel like this perfectly sums up their dynamic. also if s&c was a paperback book this wld 100% be a quote that readers wld highlight on the page n crop to post on pinterest lmaooo it’s so good

“He was falling apart. But all you could do was watch.”

🥲 pls. stopp im so fragile rn.

NOOOOO NOT SUKUNA BOOO BOOOOOO 🍅 🍅 GIMME FIVE MINS IN A ROOM W HIM RN 💥👊🏼

i have sm anxiety over this ethics hearing my palms r actually sweaty. its like i’m THERE rn.

wait nici can u explain again sukuna’s want for revenge towards gojo n wanting to tear him/reader down 😭 was it like the jealousy that he wasn’t able to become a successful surgeon like gojo n had to settle on educational matters instead? :”) im dumb sry. ik he’s the root of gojo’s addiction but i think i might be missing something here lol. or do we not know yet

ok i still hate sukuna’s guts but there is partial truth to what hes saying🧍🏻‍♀️not saying reader isn’t brilliant n talented in her own right, but for sure, satoru’s attraction to her has given her opportunities that other qualified students were potentially robbed of (we live in a society lol). but idk how exactly she ranks among her peers, so maybe she rly was the best student for the job, but that’s all very subjective

"Because you would do the same," you finally managed, the words scraped raw from your throat. "You would stay. You wouldn't leave me."

ok “why do you even stay?” sent a chill down my spine but THISSS. im gaspeddd :””(( reader loves him sm and if her commitment to not letting him take all the blame isnt evident enough, her sticking w him thru his drug addiction is truly a type of devotion that comes from a purest point of love

“You—you make me feel things I've spent a lifetime avoiding, things I don't know how to handle. It scares the hell out of me."

ouchhhh 😭 ok but i feel him on this. that avoidant attachment be hittin againnn lmao me n him are so same

"You don't need to deserve me, Satoru. Love isn't about deserving. It's about choosing each other, again and again, no matter what. And I choose you.”

CRYINGG YES 😭😭😭💕💕💕 this healed a part of me ngl

"If you don't come down in the next few minutes, you're the one getting folded, first-year."

WHY IS HE ALL OF A SSUDEN MR FUNNY MAN NOW PLSSSKDJDJD their chemistry this chap is off the charts

FFFFFUCKKK MEEE JUNKYARD BOY CHOSO!!!!????? I BET HE SMELLS LIKE GREASE N SWEAT N SOMEONE I WANNA FUCK. omg he called me pretty company 🤭🤭 bye dr gojo im all about them blue collars im sorry 😔🤚🏼

"I love you, first-year. Damn it, I love you. I don't care how complicated this gets, I want you."

god pls 🧎🏻‍♀️ if i’ve done anything good in life, then just give me this man

OMGGG HES GONNA FUCK US OVER THE HOOD OF A CAR ?!??!!?

"You give in too easily." A teasing smile played on his lips. "You don't really want me to fuck you on this hood, right?"

😐😐 this isn’t funny. im not laughing rn. i will not stand this sort of edging. gimme dick NOW

omg🧍🏻‍♀️ive no words to say about that smut. delicious, devious, dampening. he is my every fantasy and i desire him. i desire him so deeply

aaa he hurt her in his sleeeeppp 😭😭 for a man that cares so deeply like him that mustve really fucked w him. also this is so random and must be my daddy issues speaking lmao but satoru (minus his addiction) wld be such a good family man🧍🏻‍♀️the way he loves is sooo providing and stubborn to a fault but almost in a way that’s kind of grounding lol bc i feel like he’s almost always, at the end of the day, right about everything? haha i cld be proven so wrong ab this but i just had to share the thought

mannn im on the second court hearing n im just SO damn curious what is going thru satoru’s head rn 😭 it seems like something switched in there somehow, his demeanor is so different

him actinf so calm rn is scarinf the shit ourta me im ngl🧍🏻‍♀️like bb ur scaring me. PKS IN SO SCARED WHY IS HE SUDDNELY TELLINF US HE LOVES US

ah. and there it is. satoru’s impending fall from grace. i saw it coming from a mile away and that he wld do something like this, but fuck. the way it was written. i thought it would be something that came a place of more heightened emotions from him, something desperate to protect (kinda like in the first hearing). but THIS….so calm, collected, so sure of his love for reading that he’s willing to let go of almost everything that has given him purpose in life up until this point. it aches.

:( im heartbroken rn. amazing chapter 😭💕 thank u sm for writinf it, oh my gosh, jusf amazing

i need more tequila

giiirl!!! not the tequila ahhhhh 😭😭 that brings back bad memories omg.

& yes the story is over 100k already and still no end in sight. i never thought i would write so much lol. but also i'm already so sad when the story will eventually someday end. like i never want to not write about my unhinged neurosurgeon gojo help.

stoppppp okay first of all the writing is eating so hard idk how but w every chapter i just fall more n more in love w the way u write

thank you so so much!! that's such a big compliment coming from a fellow author <3

BUT ALSO DON’t GIMME THE IMAGE OF A RAIN SOAKED GETO or else something ELSE is gonna be soaked out here🧍🏻‍♀️

GIRL 😂 I'M SORRY.

i have sm anxiety over this ethics hearing my palms r actually sweaty. its like i’m THERE rn.

so glad the angst transpires well in this chapter!!!

wait nici can u explain again sukuna’s want for revenge towards gojo n wanting to tear him/reader down

so first: sukuna is an asshole.

second: sukuna is an asshole.

third: SUKUNA IS AN ASSHOLE.

no seriously, how i portray him is like a very power driven man, that thrives on the misery of others. moreover satoru being his lifelong rival and sukuna finally getting a change to push him of his throne is just something he wouldn't let slip through his fingers. so it's really all about power and control on sukuna's side.

also satoru's states in that chapter that he did something stupid in his past that sukuna is still mad about. feel free to speculate, given satoru's past 😂

ok i still hate sukuna’s guts but there is partial truth to what hes saying

yes it is!! satoru really has just eyes for yn and is defensively letting other students down in the process. this just adds to the overall mess their relationship is.

ok “why do you even stay?” sent a chill down my spine but THISSS.

hmmmmmm ahhhhhhh SO HAPPY that these lines landed well <333 love them!! they are so messy and raw ahhhhh

WHY IS HE ALL OF A SSUDEN MR FUNNY MAN NOW PLSSSKDJDJD their chemistry this chap is off the charts

he had a little bit of drugs and was all happy again lol.

FFFFFUCKKK MEEE JUNKYARD BOY CHOSO!!!!????? I BET HE SMELLS LIKE GREASE N SWEAT N SOMEONE I WANNA FUCK.

i was wondering, if i should just do a random character or one of the jjk cast and choso just came into mind at first. idk why but i think it fits ahaha.

omg🧍🏻‍♀️ive no words to say about that smut. delicious, devious, dampening. he is my every fantasy and i desire him. i desire him so deeply

here to serve!! so glad you liked the spicy scene. they are always a pain in the ass to write.

aaa he hurt her in his sleeeeppp 😭😭 for a man that cares so deeply like him that mustve really fucked w him.

YES!!! you're the first to comment on that!!! also thought that this is so so so SO BAD for him. like he would never (physically) hurt her and doing it unintentionally in his sleep??? EVEN WORSE. poor boy must have felt so miserable and angry at himself after.

the way he loves is sooo providing and stubborn to a fault but almost in a way that’s kind of grounding lol

honestly, love your observation about the potential family man side of satoru! his love IS fierce, demanding, and sometimes overbearing, but at its core, it's deeply protective, and i think you're spot on about that being grounding.

but THIS….so calm, collected, so sure of his love for reading that he’s willing to let go of almost everything that has given him purpose in life up until this point. it aches.

so happy satoru's fall from grace hit well!! wanted that choice of his to feel both shocking and inevitable. not a desperate outburst, but this chillingly calculated decision, born out of love. it just hurts so good!

thank you so so much for your lovely reactions to the chapter ellie, as always!! it means the world. also give me some of the tequila lol. sending you kisses and hugs ♡

#symptoms and causes #inbox

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olivianyx · 8 months ago

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HiiIiiiiiiii oliviaa can you please tell me how to manifest a nintendo switch and i kinda understand the law but could you guide me onto how to exactly manifest a nintendo switch..? im not rich that's why it's becoming a lil hard for me to persist anyways ! Thankyou so much i love you 😭😭😭🙏🙏🙏 💋💋💋💋

Hey! Soooo, olivia nyx gonna teach you how you do that! So stay with me till the end, here we gooo

Okay so first off, we're gonna fucking calm down (trust me this step is just soo important) and meditate to avoid anxiety and feeling of lack or desperation. Till we reach the relaxing alpha state (or if you don't mind search up asmr's on yt and listen to it to relax)

Secondly, we're gonna affirm that we have it. Like think of yourself if you already had that. Would you be happy, proud, or be in peace. You don't gotta feel it, if it's possible for you, then you're good to feel those emotions flooding along while affirming. You can put on a music or a sub.

(And babe just stop telling you ain't rich, you already are)

Third of all, this is optional, if you can visualise with any music of your choice. Really picture yourself in there. Doesn't matter what pov, or if its black and white, blah blah blah. Those things don't matter. Just visualise.

After this, we're gonna keep persisting. How? Whenever you think of your desire, you're gonna go 'pfft I already have it wtf, why am I even thinking of it' and move on. Even if negative thoughts come there, say 'yes, and?' Or just invite them for a tea party and sit down and talk with them (lmaoo I do this everytime, and they disappear as soon I invite them 😆) if doubts occur, for example, 'is this even possible?' Say 'yes it is' and move tf on. You don't gotta think about it for hours. Just go about your day, have fun. Don't focus on unfavorable circumstances.

Also, just keep yourself fulfilled by saying that you already have it.

By the end of the day you should be already having it 🥳 cus if you're really fulfilled, you should get it instantly or in less than a day or max 3 days.

Hope this helps :)

- olivia 🫰

#manifestation #law of assumption #neville goddard #reality shifting #loa success #affirmdaily #dream life #frequency #manifestations #manifestyourreality #scripting

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gyubby99 · 1 year ago

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@disneyanddisneyships MORE MAL LORE?!?!?!?!?

So as far as we know this is what she looked like in her past life

So- as we all know.. again

Full name: Mallory Carrington

Age of death: 20 (2010's)

Nationality: 🇯🇵🇺🇸

So.. we're only going to talk about her life. Cast aside the hell part.

No specific year of birth but probably in the early 1990's

Just some background for her parents.. and then leading up to Mal!

No picrews of them yet 😔 (i promise I'll make them)

Her mom was originally named 'Tsubaki', but she had to move to the US wherein people were oddly unaccepting of foreign people like her and she badly needed a job to fend for herself and her family (she came from a non-priveleged family) so she changed her name to "Carmellia" and that's when she got a job as a waitress at a restaurant that pays well, and that's when she met Mal's dad. His name was James Carrington.

He was.. ok. Carmellia was fresh out of college and he was.. barely getting through life in his mid-20's. He works as a pharmacy cashier, lives alone and everything. Seems like a simple guy.

Right?

So, they met when Carmellia was getting some remedy for a cold. He was stunned because he thinks she's the most beautiful woman that's ever graced this country so.. they make a little small talk, and the third time she came there, he asked for her number.

Carmellia was new to love and she didn't know how to handle it so she gave him her number. They called, they got to know each other, James visited her often in the restaurant, they dated, and for a while it was perfect.

No tf it's not. He was an alcoholic. An addict. Always put Carmellia on the spot when she didn't want to. Drew unwated attention on her.. physically hurt her when he got too drunk.. I guess in his head he thought he finally found someone who tolerates his bs. Cause lemme tell you this guy is one of those guys most likely to say "Everyone always leaves me" like they're the problem.

Carmellia stayed for a while, because as much as he kept abusing her like that, he kept coming around and she felt stuck, and it became a cycle.

And hoo boy when they got married, She almost couldn't see her family because of him. James thought he had free reign over her now.

Then he starts hitting her with the "You really think I'd ever love a foreigner like you?"

Carmellia never knew what to do.. she had nothing to go on for.. she almost wanted to pull a Carolyn Brennan until one day she just started feeling sick. She threw up frequently, had cravings, so she went to the doctor, and they suggested she took a pregnancy test.

Then she saw it. Two lines. Positive.

And when she saw that, she finally had a choice. She ran away from her and James' home, went back to ger country to live with her parents. James tried his best to find her, but everytime he reached out she never responded.

Until a month after Carmellia gave birth, he finally found her. She tried telling him off, but it was no use. She let him stay with her for a month, and he swore he would change.

So a month later. Carmellia gave birth (yay) and it was a baby girl. She wanted to pick out a name, and she wanted it to be like her old Japanese name. So she decided she would name her "Hotaru" which meant firefly, because in their culture fireflies are a beloved. A metaphor for love and passion for poetry, or something along the lines of that.

James opposed, and said that it wouldn't be accepted in his country (why is that his concern lmao) and said that he has a hard time pronouncing it (cry harder bitch) and so he decided to name her "Mallory".

At first Carmellia hesitated, and said it would mean a lot for her, but James said it was for the best. And so they went with "Mallory", which meant "unfortune". Now Carmellia is very serious on name studying, and questioned James on this, but James just said "does it actually matter? Why do you make everything a big deal?"

So she just dismissed the thought of her husband calling his own daughter a misfortune. Bad luck.

And soooo few months after Mallory was born, James just kept stressing Carmellia out more, going back to his old ways once again. So carmellia dumped divorce papers onto his face one day and he was livid. He said he didn't do anything wrong and told her that she was just like the others leaving him.

Carmellia had enough of it. And at the end James ended up signing it, and unfortunately Mallory was left under his care. He convinced them she was deranged and that he never actually abused her physically so that he wouldn't get a restraining order.

Still, they had an agreement that she would have her daughter for two or three months, then the rest was with him. And so every summer vacation or christmas vacation she's with her mom. Growing up she learned to be fluent in her mom's language, even taking summer classes for it when she can.

Now.. James as a dad.. is pretty.. eh. He pays more attention on other things that his siblings and relatives had to take care of her more. He still takes care of her somehow.. but he does the bare minimum. His relatives basically RAISED her. But Mallory was clueless about it, and she loved both of her parents equally.

So, growing up, Mallory really liked to sing. And so both her parents sent her to do choir classes. She had a long way to go, and people never really seemed to like her because she was mixed which is weird because they were kids and who even taught them that. Anywho, she never had any friends.. just acquaintances. Even in school.

Well.. not until she met someone by the name of Lillian Carlton. Her and Lilly hit it off immediately and they became the best of friends. Even James and Deborah became sorta friends. Lilly helped with her bullies a lot, and Mallory learned to defend herself and her friend.

So, Mallory.. onto her crushes.. she never really had one. She wasn't big on that. Everyone was mean to her. She likes nice people, and none of them were.

So, I guess Lilly WAS her first crush. At first she was a bit confused because she thought of Lilly like a girl would of a boy she had a crush on.

Confused bb gorl.

She had a crush on the nice girl with cute glasses. But that went away in time.. but ever since she did have that silly lil crush

They remained friends. They were two peas in a pod. They even got their first period at the same time and joked about being in sync all the time. They bonded over music. Fought over who's the hottest one direction member between Zayn and Niall. The most 2000's-2010's teenagers that have ever teenager'ed

So, with her first crush AND bestfriend, she got out of grade school. And here's where the real torture began.

Seventh grade.

She was becoming more open-minded about certain stuff. More curious also.

That's also the age where she would come home to her father drunk off his ass.

One time he went all out on her..

He was like, "you were the reason your mother left! You're why I'm like this. All hell broke loose the moment you were born. You bring nothing but unfortune to my life."

Mallory figured he was just drunk, so her AT THE TENDER AGE OF TWELVE, Took care of her drunk dad, and it ultimately lead to him dying because of all his vices. She was 13 when he did. But those words stuck on her head for a long time.. until it became voices.

So, her uncle and aunt had to take James' place.

Lilly was always there for her, though. When she heard about James passing away, she ran to comfort Mallory. She had no clue of everything that's happened in her life. She trusted Lilly, but she was just scared.

So under her uncle's care.. we all know how that ended up. She was molested at 13. When she turned 15, she ran away from home, something her dad's side of the family never really cared about. So they just pronounced her dead.

But her mom.. she wanted to look for her. She fled Japan and looked for her in every possible place she could think of. She asked Lilly.. Deborah and Charles.. she wanted her baby to be alive.. to be okay.. but she just couldn't find her. Despite her in-laws saying she was dead, she had a feeling she wasn't. There was no body found. She still put up posters, asked random people... anything. Anything for her daughter. Her little firefly.

Carmellia, after a while.. broke down. She went absolutely insane. She went to delusion.. she believed her daughter was still there.. that Mallory was out there.. needing her help.

But Mallory.. where was she? She hid herself from the world. From whoever could recognize her. she was, and have always been a great liar.

No one found her. No one could. She was keeping the bad luck away from everyone. Then she started to get angry.. if she was going to change everyone's life for the worse then so be it. She killed a man at the age of seventeen. Some mafia took her in, taught her things.. basically grooming her in the process.. she had nothing else to live for. She began referring to herself as "Mal."

Not until Lilly came across her somewhere. She tried convincing her, but Mal only lashed out on her for trying to help. She said she didn't need it, and told Lilly to have a family with Jace.. to never ever end up like her. A mess. A monster. She will just change everyone's life for the worst anyway..

So, they drifted apart.. and Carmellia's insanity ended up killing her. It ended up on the news, but Mal only felt spite. Because she thinks her mom never cared when she went missing. Her mom probably thought she was bad luck, just like what her father said.

And she started to really own up to the meaning of her full name. She figured if she was going to make one's life a living hell, then the person must deserve it. So she went to clubs, sold drugs, lured men and rapists to their deaths. Fifty seven of them. Until she got caught, but never got arrested as she got into an accident in the process. She was dead on arrival.

And the rest was history.

So.. she was never bad luck. People are just.. terrible people. James never changed. He never tried. And Carmellia wanted to protect her child in the way that she can. And she felt like she failed to do that.

And in all of that, Mallory never knew.

Mal never knew.

Haha anyways

#mallory #i wanted to write about her past life ok #mallory was actually very likeable #they just racist smh 😔

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danpuff-ao3 · 2 years ago

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ChaosBlue, my Bethy, host of @fanficmaverickpodcast...I wasn't sure I would do this one, as she's not all over Tumblr, but, well...I'd be remiss not to take a chance to talk about such a sweet friend!

I first met dear B after the episode she did with perverse_idyll. The encouragement to reach out about an episode sort of stuck with me. I was so impressed with the work on the Fanfic Maverick podcast, and it seemed super fun...What did I have to lose? So I drafted an email and then promptly hid from the internet for a while, because wow scary! My brain is quite mean and I was thinking such rudeness as "she's going to laugh at you. Like, who tf is this lady and why would anyone wanna talk to her??" I am very anxious and insecure, okay? And I live in fear of rejection.

Only...that didn't happen! She was perfectly sweet and excited and we got to planning! We had to schedule a ways out, which was fine. At least in the moment it was fine, but that much time gave me plenty of time to worry myself to death LOL. And when it came time to record, she was very patient and encouraging. We had all sortsa tech issues to sort out, and then my nerves to settle.

Thus was the beginning of a beautiful friendship.

Sometime before our interview, I believe...(maybe, my recollection of the timeline is a bit fuzzy)...okay, so at some point, I reached out after listening to another FFM episode to explode astrology nerdery all over her. To which she was very receptive! And if you know me, you know I love to talk! The first several times I reached out via email just to chat, I was so worried I was being a bother. We're well past that now! Now I text whatever randomness is on my mind, and if I'm very chatty I return to emails.

Astrology, crystals, numerology, tarot, philosophy, all manner of things! We talk about life, and history, and a shared enthusiasm of terribly human characters.

What you need to know about Bethy is...she is the GOAT, fr. (And not just because she's a Capricorn, though that certainly helps.) She is a KING. She is Daddy. She is badass and amazing. Super professional and personable on the podcast. So creative, and so much enthusiasm for life and for people. She has an endless well of curiosity and compassion.

We've talked a lot about my anxiety and how long and how hard I've fought through it. How much it took for me to reach out to her in the first place. And I'm glad I did. Not only was being on the podcast twice (so far!) a great experience, but more importantly it earned me an incredible friend who I am lucky to have. And it's comforting to know that...facing those fears and trying new things can bring you all sorts of blessings. The most important of which are friends.

Okay no time to cry, gotta leave RECS.

The Fanfic Maverick Podcast

Ep. 3 - #CobraKai - Interview With Fanfiction Writer Storyshark2005 (@talkinfanfic) - I had 0 interest in Cobra Kai but listening to this? Suddenly interest!

Fanfiction History with Talkin' Fanfic PART TWO (@talkinfanfic) and Part 1 on Talkin' Fanfic here.

Ep. 20 - #GameOfThrones - Interview With Fanfiction Writer Priestess_of_Groove

Ep. 21 - #HarryPotter - Interview With Fanfiction Writer SouthronWildling - Drarry a/b/o fic!

Ep. 25 - #HarryPotter - Interview With Fanfiction Writer Perverse_Idyll (@perverse-idyll) - probably my favorite episode so far!

Year-End Recap: Behind The Scenes Chat - 1 year anniversary episode with ChaosBlue and her brother! Very wholesome stories and a sweet sibling vibe! Gave me all the feelings. (Also I too have a brother David so I was weirdly extra excited??)

Ep. 28 - #HP: NextGen & MHA - Interview With Fanfiction Writer MicheleBlack (@micheleblack)

Ep. 29 - #TheTerror - Interview With Fanfiction Writer Snagov (@ripeteeth) - another case of "wow I had no interest in this fandom before, but now...?" Also teeth is amazing!

Ep. 30 - #HP: Tom Riddle - Interview With Fanfiction Writer Phantomato (@phantomato) - oh wow lotsa good stuff in this one! Gave me all the Voldemort feels when I hadn't really had much interest in the character prior. This episode had the biggest impact on my actual reading habits as I started to look more into Voldemort-centric fics than I had before, and I'm quite glad for it!

Ep. 32 - #HP: Snarry - Interview With Fanfiction Writer Danpuff - oh look, it's me!

KC PLanet Comicon Recap With Talkin' Fanfic - ngl I wish I had been there for Comicon last year and this year! Seems so fun!

Ep. 35 - #OurFlagMeansDeath - Interview With Fanfiction Writer Mia_Ugly (@mia-ugly) - I knew mia_ugly from Snarry fic (of course) but now OFMD???? I ran to those fics, let me tell you. (I really do need to read more OFMD fics, fr.)

October Frolic: Controversial Fanfic Ships & Tropes - me again! We do love our controversial stuff!

Ep. 46 - #Supernatural - Interview With Fanfiction Writer Thanks Tacos

Ep. 49 - #Sherlock - Interview With Fanfiction Writer AtlinMerrick

Ep. 51 - #HP: Snarry & Severitus - Interview With Fanfiction Writer SerenaEW - loved this one! I was so excited to see she'd interviewed Serena! What a sweetie (the both of them.)

Truly a great podcast, even if you're not familiar with specific fandoms. They're still cool to hear about and it's always so fascinating to hear from other creators. And through it all lives on ChaosBlue's great love and appreciation for fandom, creation, learning, and people.

I love you, buddy!

for an explanation about Mutuals March, or to figure out why i wrote you a thing, please check out this post.

#mutuals march #chaosblue #fanfic maverick podcast #danni loves her friends so much #i did NOT cry writing this #i didn't #i promise #i very stoically sucked back all the tears #i think #okay maybe one or two escaped #maybe

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weirdcat1213 · 1 year ago

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volume 9 you say....hmm

i fear for my life to be completely honest

anyway HERE WE GO HERE ARE THE THOUGHTS

chap 1:

-geesus no pls no i dont wanna read anymore

-FLASHBACK TIME :D WIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

-3 days of crying is nothing when youre a trigun fan, am i right people :'D

-no im not fucking suffering cuz while all of that is happening the only thing on his mind is young livio NO IM FINE I SWEAR-

-lmao yeah wolfwood call him out >:D

-"you cant understand how i feel" my brother in christ YOURE SURROUNDED BY ORPHANS

-hmmmmmmmmm i mean im not sure if that applies here but who am i to tell him how he feels, sure buddy. happy for you

-geesus man not the dog, like....WHY THE DOG (i think ik why but still)

-tbh i would also go and ask for an explanation

-nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo :c

-ah shit so we're here now oh fuck oh shit okokok cool

-ah yes, sweet bait actually, makes me cry every time

-"once this ark scare is over we'll be living the high life" yeaaaahhhh....about that.....

-YO LEAVE THE ORPHAN ALONE DAMN

-thanks livio :3

chap 2:

-about his age i think hes on his 20s mentally but he looks like hes on his 30s, so hes still an adult but yknow...younger

-oh his eye :0 i love that tiny window between his glasses and his face where you can see his eyes, makes me sad every time

-the coolest mf

-"worse" you say...i wonder who did that to him...

-fuck off, take those fucking tears somewhere else old man

-OOOOOOHHHHH THAT PANEL!!! SO GOOD SO GOOD

-THANKS AGAIN LIVIO (livio's good actions counter: 2 so far) BUT FUCK THAT OLD MAN

chap 3:

-:c

-HES THERE AND HES COMING I PROMISE

-STFU I SWEAR SHUT UP WOLFWOOD PLS JUST ENJOY YOUR STUPID CIGARRETE

-oh ok yeah here we go

-GEESUS MAN, i hope someone kick you ass later

-aw livio noooooo :c

-NAH NO PLS NO BROTHER FIGHT NO NO

-damn

chap 4:

-no that fucking title while theyre bleeding holy crap no stop it nightow stop it

-leave my man alone plsssssssssssssssss

-OH I FUCKING FELT THAT. WOLFWOOD REACHING FOR ANOTHER MAGAZINE AND LIVIO SHOOTING AT THE SAME MOMENT. I FELT THAT

-oh thats...thats kinda hot actually (i say while wolfwood fights for his little life)

-i love nightow taking his fucking time. yes sir i will enjoy a page of the vial dropping from his mouth without any dialogue, thank you sir

-PAIN :D

-SHUT UP OLD MAN

-"please survive"................................im gonna need a million years

chap 5:

-VASH BABY WHERE ARE YOU I NEED YOU

-demon....while hes killing his bro.....i have a limit thats all im saying

-ITS CALLED LOVE BITCH

-HE GIVES A FUCK ABOUT THE HONOR HE JUST WANTED TO PROTECT HIS HOME WTF

-STOP TALKING AND KILL HIM MAN CMONNNN

-oh....he looks so pretty tho. likes he came back to life and is surrounded by his servants....damn that goes hard...

-oh yeah, that arm that had no explanation whatsoever. its ok tho, nightow gets a pass

-ah fuck.....hes here...

-yeap, you could say thats a demon ig

chap 6:

-AH YES SAD FLASHBACK IN MENTAL PALACE MAKES ME GO BRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. ONE OF THE BEST THINGS EVER IM TELLING YA :D

-im sorry

-im jumping through the window idc anymore. poor livio man

-"fortitude".........yeah.....

-yeap that is scary as hell RUN WOLFWOOD GET TF OUTTA THERE

-DONT SMILE LIKE THAT YOU FREAK

-NONONONONONON SHUT UP WOLFWOOD SHUT UP

-STOPPPPPPPPPPPP

-STOPL PLEASEEEEEEEEEEE

-DIOS IM NOT STRONG ENOUGH

-orange if you animate this i will punch you but also kiss you in the lips

-i wonder what he means with that bell thats supposed to be tolling. hmmm. maybe its like a "hey come back to reality" kind of alarm thats not sounding

nightow you amazing bastard

#trigun #trimax #trigunbookclub #i cant #fuck #fuckkk #FUCK #el woowoo :c

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haruchi-slit · 1 year ago

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POLAROIDS

MINORS DNI

Author's note: hi,hi,hello! Hope you enjoy my ff and get ready for the heavy smuts ahead please be cautious while reading this. And if you're not comfortable reading heavy detailed smuts well this is not for you darling and "y/n" is half Pilipino half Japanese so she would be speaking some Tagalog words but don't worry some grammatical errors ahead :3

A ringtone was heard across y/n's condo,she picked up the phone and answered it a cold raspy voice was heard over the other line of the phone.

"Hey y/n come over at the hideout, Sanzu caught some traitors"

"I JUST CAME HOME FROM MY PHOTOSHOOT!"

"We need you here." It turns out it was Mikey

"Putangina oo na!" (fuck fine) y/n said from the exhaustion

Y/n hangs up and rushed to the hideout

When she got there she saw sanzu pointing a gun towards the three men sanzu faced her and smiled at her lovingly and utter flirty words like.

"Heyyy,my lovely darling" and blew a kiss towards her.

"The fuck?" She said and dodged the kiss which made Sanzu disappointed.

"So Mikey their the traitors?" Y/n said

"Yeah" Mikey said while munching his Dorayaki.

"But,why do you need me here? Is it Something important? Y/n said.

"Of course it's "something" important"

Mikey said.

"Tell me" y/n said and yawned.

"Aight we need you to make the traitor spit what's their intentions and who sent them" Mikey said.

"Fine,fine" you walked towards the traitors and stand next to sanzu, you reached out your cocaine in your pocket a bitter and sweet taste stung your touge making you high and turned on. You grabbed a knife and and leaned towards the traitor.

"Who sent you love?" She said as the drug hit her.

"I'm not going to tell you" the traitor said.

"So you want the hard way huh?" You pulled away and grabbed a scalpel and tear the traitors shirt "I'll make your death slowly and painfully so if you wanna live..you should spill your words love"

Dang I wish she can call me love,Sanzu taught in his head

"So who sent you?" She asked again "No." She draws the scalpel to the traitors abdomen and draw a dick

"Ahh you bitch" the traitor shouted

"I know I am love." She said "who sent you?" She asked again this time she's completely getting impatient and again she earned a word "No." So she

Draws the scalpel to the traitors cock

And stabbed it "spill your words sweetie" "AHHGHHK" the traitor shouted in agony and completely in horror "FUCK FUCK OK ILL SPILL THEM" the traitor can barely form a word from the pain "we're cops the three of us,we're cops we're sent to investigate and arrest y'all,we were sent by the chief." Y/n burst out of laughter "what do you mean arrest us? HAHAHAHAHHAHA PUTA KA GAGO MO (YOU ARE A WHORE SILLY) three cops ain't enough,Mikey my jobs done here"

"K" Mikey said

You heard gunshots while you walked away.

(I recommend listening Heaven and back by Chase Atlantic while reading :3)

You left the scene and walked towards your room you flooped your self to the bed and took some cocaine again and saw a man's figure leaning to your door frame you're high so you can't even care and give a shit "I probably shouldn't took cocaine fuck!" You exclaimed "awh don't worry love" the voice echoed across your room and as you guessed it was Sanzu Bontens no.2 "tangina nuginagawa mo Dito hinayupak ka?" (The fuck are you doing here you animal?) "Huh?" Sanzu asked not understanding the words that came out of you mouth "nothing you horny bastard! Now get tf outta my room"

"What if no?" He locked the door and walked towards you... closer and, closer to you until his on top of you

"I can't take this anymore darling I need you, I want you, I crave you." He said as you feel his erection bulging to your entrance "HOI TANGINA MO VIRGIN PA KO GAGO KA" ( HOI FUCK YOU IM STILL A VIRGIN YOU WHORE)

You exclaimed blushing and denying him you tried to push him but you're to high to keep up so there's no escape a mean while you found your self sucking him "ohh yess..fuck your good at this baby" you saw him bitting his bottom lip and you spat on his dick making it more sloppy and lubricated he moaned softly you teased him a little making him more tuned on he saw a camera beside your bed he took a photo of you sucking him "look at the famous model Y/n" he took the polaroid and showed it to you "you still look so gorgeous even tho your a mess right-" you cut him off by kissing him deeply and roughly "manahimik ka"(shut up) "huh" he said "I said shut up" he obeyed you. You guided him to your bed and pushed him you took a cocaine from your drawer making you much high than before "I like the view up here you pathetic manwhore" you said he stared at you blushing wanting more of you he craves you to be honest you lit a cigarette and started puffing smoke you blow a smoke in Sanzu's mouth even tho it hurts he still kissed back when you pulled away he coughed after your done smoking you pressed the lit cigarette on his neck leaving your mark "hmff hgn" he softly muttered you took off his pants and this his erected member you took the camera and took a picture of you and him you posing with a peace while his hard "awhh,look lovee" he tried to get the picture from you but failed cause you touched his dick making him whimper I'm not this sensitive before but what the fuck happened? he said to himself you rubbed his dick back and forth but of course teasing him till he goes crazy "mmhh hngg.. y/n fuckk!" You softly bit his dick "o-ouch" he said "watch your language Haruchiyo and it's not "y/n" call me

My queen" "Y-yes my Queen"

"Now shut up be quiet for your queen we don't want anyone to hear us do you?" you said he nodded in response you continued to suck and tease him and you feel his 9 inches cock is about to cum cause you tastd a pre cum and it's sweet "don't cum until I say so darling" you said "b-but how? Hghh ugh I'm about to ahh" he said "just don't until I say so understand?" You said "Yes mhgh my Queen" you stopped sucking him and opened your legs for him signaling him to give you cunnilingus "come here and give your queen great pleasure" he crawled to you like a puppy and started to lick your pretty pink

Folds he started slow but eventually he pick up a speed making you arched your back and hold his hair tightly you pressed you pussy more towards his face making you squirm in pleasure "OMG YESS FUCK" you moaned loudly "yeah yes that's the spot" he slid his tongue in your pussy and put two fingers in you making you arched your back again "Fuck you're so good at this oh oh my I'm about to ahh shit" you squirted on his face "your so sweet my Queen" you saw his dick being really erected and needy and there's a pre cum dripping from it "now cause your a really goodd servant I'll give you a prize you sat on top of him and spat on your fingers and put it in your pussy making it more wetter you lowered your pussy to his dick "MGHH HGNN" he moaned loudly you slammed your pussy to his dick "OH FUCK IT HURTS" He saw a drip of blood from your pussy "so my lovely Queen is really a virgin" he teasingly said "TANGINA MO" (fuck you) he just chuckled even tho he didn't know what that means you waited for your pussy to adjust cause of the size of his dick "does my Queen needs help?" He teasingly said

"No." You said you pinned his hands on the headboad of the bed and strated fucking him hard your tits bouncing aggressively as you pound your pussy to his massive dick you can hear him whimper softly "your so tight My Queen mhmm hghhh ugh"

You didn't respond you fucked him with no remorse you felt his dick twitched so you know his close you teased him by moving slowly "move faster y/n" he said "I don't accept commands my dear but I do accept pleas" you said "mffmmg My Q-queen please move faster" "hmm that's more ah ughh-ugh like it" you moved a little faster and in a circular motion making his mind go blank cause of the pleasure his getting from you " I'm about to cum darling" you said to him

He nodded in response he was about to cum soon too he came first and you followed he "HHMM UGHH HGHH" he moaned loudly "oh fuck!" You said

"I want more y/n" " do I have to repeat my self? Didn't I said earlier I don't accept commands but I do accept pleas" you put his dick into your pussy he moaned softly again he squirmed underneath you feeling that his about to come again "My Queen mhmm i-im about to ugh come can I cum inside you?" He said with his blue orbs meeting your eyes he looks so hot and a mess right now but oh my you said to your self "yes you can my love I'm close to let's cum together" you said you both reached you climaxed and sanzu passed out and so did you the next morning you two wake up and your completely clues less because of the effects of the drug then sanzu told you what happened and he said you two fuck you didn't believed at first but he gave you the polaroids "here's the proofs love" Sanzu said smiling brightly at you "now your mine and only mine" he added you we're shocked as fuck he hugged you and started to roam his slender fingers around you he puts his two fingers in you making you arched your back again "is my Queen in pleasure?" He teased once again "ughh hghhh ughhh wait ughhh we just fucked last night!" Then your phone started to ring it's your manager from the modeling agency "oh no no no" he gaved yo the phone and you answered it "h-hey hmg mahiko? Why are you calling?" He pounded his dick in you and started to fuck you harder and faster making you squirm you held you moans back because mahiko might hear you moaning "nothing just checking on my best friend of course!" Mahiko said "ohh yeah I'm f-fine ugh Mahiko"

Sanzu teased you more making you shout "UHGG" "OMG Y/N ARE YOU OK?" Mahiko said "Ugh Y-yes I'm ok I'll call you back later" you both climaxed you two showered cause you two stink

After you two shower together you dressed up,once you two get out of the room ran,rindou and kakucho is staring at you two and they look pale as paper "What happed the three of you?" You said "guess" ran said "huh" sanzu said "YOU WERE MOANING SO LOUD LAST NIGHT THAT WE DIDN'T GET ANY SLEEP YOU FUCKERS!"

Rindou shouted at the two of you you two looked at each other and blushed

"What do you mean moaning?" Sanzu gaslight them "WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU LITTLE DRUG ADDICT!"

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The end

Thank you ♡♡

Almost 2000 words BWHAHHA

#sanzu smut #sanzu #bonten sanzu #tr sanzu #tokyorev x reader #tokyo rev

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theworld-accordingtocasey · 1 year ago

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"It means a lot to me to have a home-cooked meal," you counter. "No matter what, I'm sure it will taste delicious."

I’m thinking now have I’ve not eaten anything of substance (as in, not bug stew 😖) other than ramen noodles for a while now, except the morning I tried to jump Ty..

"Our arrangement is less than conventional," he says, clearing his throat. "In some ways we're lucky to have each other, in others . . . well. Like most partnerships outside the Dome's ours is driven by necessity. And . . ."

Yes??? 👀👂🏾

You glance up, catching the bob in his throat as he finishes swallowing whatever he was about to say. "Let's eat, shall we? Hopefully this is edible."

OH CMON DONT JUST LEAVE ME HANGING!! 😩

"Right," he says with a sigh. "But what about being loved?"

🥺 cue my waterworks …

"Why imagine something impossible," you say, finally meeting his gaze.

Poor me :c

"Whether you like it or not, your existence is a potential spark for change. Your genetics aren't an anomaly, I believe they were deliberately developed and implanted within the Imperial bloodline to change the outcome of designated rule."

( ͡☉ ͜ʖ ͡☉ )

"If you followed in the footsteps of your grandmother and produced the next generation of heirs, you would be doing so with the ability to introduce the Nostradomina strain as a baseline for any future offspring,” he explains. “Your mother understood that if the elders found this out, you would be summarily executed.”

(ʘ ͟ʖ ʘ)

So… this is the secret in the summary I reckon •_•

"So that's what you really care about." You pull your hand back. "If you think I have anything to share that I haven't under torture than no, you are right. I do not think this pack is capable of being worthy of me."

Whatever tears you've shed run dry, again. Best not to spend another moment being seduced into complacency by a man with a pretty voice and careful words.

No lie fr I fell for it too and forgot who tf the crackpot unhinged paranoiac conspiracy theorist I am! :( he duped both me’s…..

"I think we need each other for survival," you say. "I am grateful that we can align on mutual interests. But please don't mistake me for someone who believes you would ever put my needs over those of this pack's or Taeyong’s. As long as we understand that, we don't need to pretend.”

The cold shock of how easily I (me-me, not y/n-me) drank the Kool-Aid, even after sending an ask saying how I have a hard time believing they really care, is freezing lol

Like he didn’t even try to convince me that he wasn’t trying to finesse me! Wow…”I’m truly sorry�� ARE YOU??? Snake-rabbit…

Graves in this conflict were euphemistic: when you died there was no one to write home for you or carry your dogtags back, you were just a number on a screen for some scum who paid enough for the Millitech commission and maybe gave you a meal if they shot enough promotional footage to pay for it.

Like a…last meal on death row? 😳

The stories that had come out of his Academy days painted him as unforgiving in hand-to-hand combat, enacting punishments on Alphas who tested him based on his smaller size.

GOOD FOR HIM! 🌹👏🏾

"Private, you can either apologize for attempting to hit a superior officer or be gang-planked well before we reach port."

GANGPLANKED?!!

BITCHHHHHHH 👏🏾👹

"I will throw you off this ship personally if I see your face or those of your compatriots, do you understand me?"

the solution to his problem had been there from the start.

??????👀??????what problem?

". . . Including my own death."

WHAT!???

"Mercy?" Yuta says. "That suicide note is a writ of execution to be carried out by whoever sent her here."

Oh…😮‍💨fuck I thought it was his own note or something…phew— not that me having a suicide note is good either but I’d feel worse if it was Ty, he’s too wholesome…

Chile let me just go back and read that scene from the top now that I know I misinterpreted it lol 😅

🔄

*Ok. Now I see how my eyes somehow skipped the ___ in the name..see fellas, this is why it’s good to read slowly👻

"...𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚕𝚞𝚍𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚖𝚢 𝚘𝚠𝚗 𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑."

Wait so I’m suicidal again?? is this the thing I mentioned at the end of my talk with Doyoung? Or it could also be me trying to get the head honchos off our asses so I can integrate into the pack and they won’t look for me? (Idk if this would stop em but it’d be worth a hypothetical try if that’s what is happening here…)

"Mercy?" Yuta says. "That suicide note is a writ of execution to be carried out by whoever sent her here.”

SHUT UP YUTA

-also yes dy is sooo right, like wtf would I give you any information that could compromise us when you’ve alr massively fucked up before declaring you’re leaving AND aren’t even the least bit sorry about what happened? Boy bye

Tap tap tap. Thunk thunk thunk. Tap tap tap.

Me, ever suspicious: is that L.O.L ? Are they mocking this chaotic mess???

Also me: I should look up Morse code before I say that bUT WHY ELSE WOULD THEY BE LAUGHING

Update: poor attempt at trying to figure out my bad interpretation i thought “s.o.s”? But then that’s not funny so there’s not a reason to laugh at that…am puzzled

a gentle tongue breaketh the bone | 17: chivalry

pairing: fem hybrid fox omega!reader/hybrid Alpha!nct 127

tags: reverse harem, non-traditional omegaverse hybrid! cyberpunk au, pack dynamics, polyamory, slowburn/slowbuild, angst & hurt/comfort, heavy content warnings inc. torture, graphic violence, suicidal ideation, explicit sexual content

summary: the year is 2127. decades of eugenics and warfare have led to the rise of designated populations: the ruler Alphas and their rare, prized omegas sequestered from the Beta population. in the aftermath of the War of the Two Tigers, New Goryeo ushers in an Imperial dynasty determined not by birthright but by the alliance of the Syndicate’s clancorps to choose the best pack of your generation. you are destined to take your place within the Imperial harem as a queen, and–perhaps–Imperatrix herself

but you have a secret, written into your skin and bones–one that could easily kill you, depending on who finds it out

ten years ago you chose your Alpha and their pack in a fateful meeting

now, you must make them choose you

[masterlist & glossary] [read on AO3] [0: prologue] [1: escape, again] [2: lost and found] [3: returned] [4: bound] [5: home] [6: gift] [7: reunion] [8: security] [9: secret] [10: prisoner] [11: gambit] [12: haze] [13: shock] [14: feral] [15: release] [16: acceptance]

wc: 5k

chapter warnings: none except mild xenophobia, racism (one use of an anti-japanese slur)

recommended listening: STREAM FACT CHECK BY 127 (in all seriousness, though, Misty is my favorite of the new b-sides and works well for this)

Doyoung's insistence that you move into his shared executive suite with Taeyong proves to be a challenge. For one, Taeyong’s nest horrifies you–a sentiment seemed to be shared by his mate.

"He spent most of his childhood in a bunker," Doyoung explains. "You don't have to stay in the foxhole."

Taeyong had created the darkest, strangest abode possible: a closed space built into his half of the apartment that you have to almost crawl into. Deep inside it’s lit by a variety of warm lights set off by graffitied walls and a maximalist approach to bedding and adornments. You peer only for a few seconds into the abyss through the smaller entrance, sniffing at the faded musk scents before ducking back up and shaking your head.

"It feels . . . Wrong to intrude," you state quietly. "Doesn't he need it right now?"

Doyoung's sigh is palpable. "He’ll survive. Until you're ready he'll stay with the person who most closely matches your profile."

Of course, you think. Johnny.

"I can be ready," you say. It's not a statement that extends to your heart, not after everything, but you'd been raised to duty.

Doyoung drops your luggage to place his hands against your upper arms, touch featherlight to keep you from feeling caged.

"Absolutely not. Not until Taeil clears you. Until then you are still in recovery. From here on you are not doing anything that isn't your heart's design and by your own will."

You blink up at him, eyes blurring with tears. "I didn't know you were so nice."

"Don't tell my enemies." He laughs softly, gaze a little sad. "It does seem you've been shown a woeful lack of hospitality, in addition to . . . everything else."

You shake your head. "Let's not."

"Right, you need to eat first. And then we'll talk about what comes next."

You expect to be able to help him–almost want to serve him to see how he would respond–but Doyoung forbids you from the huge, open kitchen. He has a bit of an addled and untrained approach to his work that has you feeling a little lighter as you gently offer suggestions with suppressed laughter in your voice.

"Taeyong usually does this," he says, unfazed by your amusement or the way you gently correct him before he can add sugar in place of salt.

"It means a lot to me to have a home-cooked meal," you counter. "No matter what, I'm sure it will taste delicious."

You watch him grow a few inches, long back straightening as he preens under your attention. For a moment you are transported to a different life entirely–one in which you feel like the vagaries of your kind can be ignored.

"Here," he says, pouring you something milky white into a bowl from a bottle. "Just something to dull the day."

"Rice wine?" You ask after taking a sniff.

"We have a building resident who brews with a traditional process. It's not too heady, but take it slow."

"Thank you," you murmur, sipping. The taste is slightly chalky but sparkling with ferment, light and sweet on your tongue. "For everything."

Doyoung relaxes a little, as if already dancing on the same wavelength of your emotion.

"I wanted to spend time with you tonight, if you don't mind."

"I don't mind." You shake your head, drinking deeper.

Doyoung's dark eyes dart away, cheek pulled between his teeth as he thinks.

"I will, of course, let you sleep here on your own–"

"Oh no. Please," you look up at him, frantically. "Please don't leave me alone."

You quell your anxiety attack, rambling a bit. "Even just to sleep, I need someone. You smell . . . You smell very nice to me."

Doyoung's eyes grow wide, frozen in the act of capping the bottle. Remembering your first conversation at the dinner table has you second-guessing your words.

"Not that way. I mean, I won't bite you, I promise. I just appreciate having you here."

He's just as startled by your response as you are to having it, diffusing the awkwardness by pouring you more makgeolli, a smile tugging at the corner of his prim mouth.

"You're very kind to worry," he says. "But I can manage myself. I'm honored by your trust and your willingness to keep me company."

You flush, face heating. "I'm not causing you any problems with Taeyong?"

Although your litany of failures was impressive, coming between a pairbond match was not something you could forgive yourself for. He smells deeply of your new mate, more fox than anyone here for the clinging of musk on his skin.

You glance up, catching the bob in his throat as he finishes swallowing whatever he was about to say. "Let's eat, shall we? Hopefully this is edible."

Thankfully, the tofu stew is perfect, otherwise the drink would easily go to your head. He keeps an eye on your indulgence but your cup is filled consistently. Doyoung sits beside you at the table rather than across, an arrangement that makes you feel safer eating without reservation, nose in your bowl.

The conversation melts away the tension and the occasional splinter of pain in your body, muscles easing with the wine and his company. He seems to have a boundless knowledge of court gossip, even details the years should have swept away, and you find yourself more you–more the person you remembered even if that had been its own kind of artifice.

You avoid talking about anything personal until it can no longer wait, once he's finished with the dishes and brings your things to his beautifully clean and open bedroom. It's clear his aesthetic sensibilities are more aligned with your own–white and gray surfaces broken up only by the occasional houseplant or art piece.

Much more comfortingly, you are saturated in Alpha scent–a marine quality to it that shines through the wafting sweetness of his prey genome.

"I have a favor to ask," you say, sitting on the edge of the oversized bed, holding yourself to keep the tremors fixed inside you.

"Anything," he says, remaining at a distance.

"I would like . . . " you begin, faltering. "If I'm chosen, I need your help. Integrating into this life. As this pack's omega."

The heaviness returns. You're tired, of course, satisfyingly full. But you feel better than you have in days. His response is a counterweight to that feeling.

"Can I ask you something that may be too personal for you to answer?" Doyoung asks.

Your heart sinks, recognizing the beginning of a difficult conversation. You had known there wasn't enough time to protest your inclusion–your acceptance of them did not mean they accepted you. No, that would be up for vote at the tribunal, if the pack even remained.

"As it pleases you," you nod.

Doyoung kneels down in front of you, the wide cant of his shoulders dipping as he takes your hand. Your heartbeat is racing, but not from fear. You fixate on the veins leading to the back of his wrists, and the tenderness of his thumb over your trembling fingers.

"I feel like I know everything about you, but we really haven't had time to talk without pretense," he says softly. "I want you to know that you're safe with me."

"I know," you say, not sure of it even as you speak it.

"Please be honest with yourself, if not for me," he says.

Fear paces up and down your spine but you will your fox to relax, held still.

"___," he says. "If, in another world, another life, we'd been allowed to be the pack you chose instead of the one forced upon you. Do you believe we could have ever been worthy of you?"

Worthy? Your ears flatten back, chin ducking autonomically in half-hearted submission. "I don't know what you mean."

"Imagine there wasn't a disparity between our numbers. You were free to choose any mate you desired. No designation even. Have you ever considered what you would look for in a potential partner? Or partners?"

You remember being a child, told you were something special. One worthy of being selected, and courted long before the ceremonies that preceded mating. Not a person or an equal, perhaps, but a prize to be treasured.

The word worthy continues to prick at you, making you feel cold and more hollow.

"I hadn't considered it." You admit, peering up just far enough to take in his serious expression. "I think even if I had I would accept that whoever chose me would never know if it was . . ."

Just biology. Compulsion. Determined fate.

"What would be the point?" you say, airily. "It's not like any of us have a real choice in this world who we're drawn to."

Or what would tear you apart.

"Right," he says with a sigh. "But what about being loved?"

Love.

That word breaks you in its own way, hearing it spoken aloud. It almost makes you sick.

You'd never imagined being loved. Desired, yes–for what you represented or could offer. A conditional transaction, upheld through mutual courtesy if not mutual respect.

No, being loved–loving someone–is an ugly and messy thing, you think.

"Why imagine something impossible," you say, finally meeting his gaze. His eyes are so dark you'd never noticed the lovely amber quality to them on the edges, the hare bleeding through.

"May I explain?" he asks.

You nod to indicate you're fine with whatever persuasion he's been mulling over, but inside you feel bolstered to defend your position.

"Wouldn't you look for someone who treats you with loving-kindness? Someone who prioritizes your needs over their own?" he asks, tentatively.

You shake your head, lip trembling. "It sounds like a child's fantasy."

"It goes back to the ancient code of chivalry. Even Alphas are taught to protect those perceived as weaker–to give them aid without questioning it, to protect those who cannot protect themselves."

Of course, you think, fighting the urge to roll your eyes. He's a Romantic. Chivalric dury was something you'd been immersed in since your first education in the Academy, but you'd yet to see it in action outside of protecting kin and country. No Alpha was capable of true sacrifice, to you it's just a mask to better humanize the ugly truth of a dominating and self-serving nature.

"You find this droll," he says, understanding your disinterest. "I admit it's just a code of honor that no one really believes in, anymore."

"No," you say, shaking off your prejudices. "I think it has value. But I would rather have honesty."

Doyoung is surprisingly quiet, waiting for you to continue.

"If someone considers me less powerful or something to be helped," you shudder at your own choice of terminology, "I would rather them be honest with their intent than to deign to show me mercy."

"Easier to judge the motivations of those who would do you harm, right?" Doyoung's smile takes on a wry edge. "I was raised in the Palace, too, you know."

"Oh, I know," you say. "I think I was a few years behind yours on instruction but Master Park Jinyoung did a number on us both, didn't he?"

You don't call upon your teaching in ancient history but rather etiquette, no class before yours or after insusceptible to a lesson delivered by a handsome Alpha who looked each of his subjects in the eye when delivering instructions. He’d drilled a great deal into you, much of it related to proper behavior. But especially that of courtship.

He squeezes your fingers, rolling his head to hide his embarrassment.

"Pardon me for preaching to the choir, I think it's easy to lose my point when you . . . well, you smell very nice to me, too."

Honesty, again. You feel a tingling sense of delight, seeing him with his guard down. For some reason you’d assumed he wouldn’t be interested in you, but this is an admission of sorts–an invitation. It’s a shame he immediately reverts to logician.

"But you're operating on a false assumption. The feeling is genuine. Whether it's biological or conditional is a metaphysical argument no one should entertain. What matters is here."

He brings your hand to his chest, but doesn't make you touch him, hands enclosing your own.

"You don't have to accept a match you are forced into by a scarcity of options. You deserve to be loved."

You’re not sure whether to laugh, or cry. For how similar your worlds should be he appears to not even be on the same planet as you are.

"So Alphas think about these kinds of things, too?"

"Human or animal makes no difference. We both die little-by-little, day-by-day, when we're forced into a life we haven't chosen for ourselves."

"I was making a choice when I left for Strictland," you say, voice wry.

"Yes," he exhales. You feel those walls coming back up, watching the gears turn behind those narrow features as he decides how to dispute you.

"If it wasn't Nyctos retrieving you, it would have been another. You don't know the level of attrition the Syndicate would be willing to subject you, or anyone who protected you to, to insure you weren't in the hands of one of the Free packs."

Suspicion makes you wary; this is much too close to an understanding yet unspoken between you. Had they made the contract with you, knowing this?

“Including Nyctos?" you ask, hoping he reads the double meaning in your words.

“We may be exiles, but we’re not Free,” he says, letting it sink in before he continues. “The Syndicate has allowed us to exist because Taeyong has never openly disagreed with the ideology his father enforced, and died for.”

“He’s not like him,” you agree, shuddering.

Such a horrible lineage, millions dying just for one man to prove he could be king over the ruins. Even if the Second Prince had died uncrowned, he'd been the major force behind the worst of the burgeoning efforts of the Syndicate, to make sure the war was won in their favor.

“No. Not at all,” Doyoung agrees, affection transparent in his voice. “Much like you, we are held hostage to our family’s sins.”

“So even if I weren’t bonded to any of you, you think this is the safest place I could be?” you ask. “Didn’t they try to kill you, too?”

Doyoung sits up, waiting for your permission to sit down beside you. Your hand is still captured in his, but you nod, sinking into his warm presence, his thigh pressed to your own.

“There’s something we wanted to talk to you about–there’s a lot really–but something I think you might not know, yet,” he begins, warily. “The reason why there was never any question that you’d enter the Imperial harem. Even with . . . your genetics.”

You swallow, mouth dry.

“Please,” you urge him to continue.

The words are a shock to you, the room suddenly frigid as your mind races to understand the implications beneath the rush of panic. "What?"

"If you go back, you die. No matter what happens, you run."

You nod rather than speak, afraid your voice will betray you.

“It seems that where many are trying to kill you or use you, there are also forces still protecting you."

"My brother?" Your voice is tiny, but he doesn’t seem to notice.

"More likely someone within the palace itself," Doyoung says. He holds, but only long enough to clock that you’re not refuting it. "Do you have any idea who that could be?"

You clench your jaw, remembering the feeling of being shocked over and over again through the last line of interrogation. It keeps you from breaking, so tired of hiding but emboldened to shut this down before you can reveal anything outside the bonds of complete security.

“No,” you say.

Doyoung recognizes your discomfort, if not your lie, stroking your hand.

"It's not important, right now. I'm sorry to overwhelm you."

Whatever tears you've shed run dry, again. Best not to spend another moment being seduced into complacency by a man with a pretty voice and careful words.

It takes him a long time to respond, standing silently by the bed as you crawl into it, tucking your tail around you.

"I'm truly sorry, ___."

You clutch the pillow beneath your head, smelling the melange of the other two who've shared it, a distant third scent making your heart stone. You know you're on your own tonight–you won't beg him to stay beside you. His hesitation is only as good as his retreat, watching you from the doorway.

"I'm ready," you say. "For the tribunal . . . and everything else. Are my terms acceptable?”

You’d had to write it out, unable to make your demands heard if they were in any voice but the one written in your own hand, words preserved with intent and simplicity.

“As you wish,” he says. “I’ll make the preparations.”

Yuta Nakamoto [puma concolor α] - assistant inspector second rank, Neo Seoul Police Response, formerly warrant officer rank junwi, Neo Seoul Military Response

There was a time back in the 2110's when Suh Youngho was just a reserve in the NG Foreign Legion, on the same misfit detail he'd been assigned to. A skinny NUSA kid with a tendency to smile and talk more than anyone was used to.

A tall poppy just waiting to get domed, they'd said. No one who'd been in this shitass war more than five days would have cracked a joke about it–not after watching the newly-formed Syndicate's tendency to put fresh bodies into beachfront graves.

No, the war was already over and the remnants of it had taken them both as far as they could before armistice. Yuta remembers leaving the mess hall as the screens flashed white and the surrender was played, pretending he hadn't seen or understood the message as he carried two rations back to shared quarters.

It would be the first and last blissful journey he made back without having a tray upended, without hearing the spitting invective of another upjumped commissioned officer.

Or so he thought.

"Hey, jjokbari." Lieutenant Choi calls from behind him, a laugh and a whistle accompanying the slur. "That for your Yankee boyfriend? He think he can sleep in today of all days?"

Yuta resists the urge to flip him off, nodding politely in their direction as if he hadn't heard a word. It's not enough–has never been enough–but he continues on with ears pricked towards the sound of movement, hoping they choose the day's flavor of nationalism in the anthem blaring down the hallway instead of tormenting the foreigners risking their lives for them.

"Not gonna celebrate with us, Na?" His second-in-command, Ji taunts. "Enough omega girls to fuck waiting back home?"

Yuta can count the doors back to safety on one hand. Maybe it's a mistake he keeps going.

Maybe.

There's the pounding of footsteps–someone much heavier and less graceful than the commissioned officer. He waits until they try to swing–too wide, too flailing–to duck under it and move back. Whatever response Private Bootlicker was hoping for it's not the subtle step-away that leaves him lurching into the metal deck.

"Did he even touch him?" Another grunt asks, forever denied a response by the voice that speaks next.

"Attention."

Instinct has Yuta turning, saluting, tray balanced in his rest hand.

"At ease, gentlemen."

The man stepping into the corridor is dressed in bright red military regalia fitting only the finest, upjumped officer. At least with this one he can count on some of the medals being earned rather than on account of being Daddy General Lee II's favorite.

Despite the contradictory image of a bioengineered ears and tail and a teenager’s lanky frame, Crown Prince and Captain Lee Taeyong is well-respected within the ranks and twice as deadly as any of the assholes on the carrier. The stories that had come out of his Academy days painted him as unforgiving in hand-to-hand combat, enacting punishments on Alphas who tested him based on his smaller size.

Something is different today; Yuta has never seen him without a full retinue, has barely seen him at all outside of mission briefs. But here he is below deck–accompanied by an Imperial attache in an officer’s field uniform.

"Lieutenant Choi, you're needed for requisition of materiel in Zone 3. Report to Chief Petty Officer Ahn immediately."

"Aye, aye, Captain." The gang recedes, laughter booming off the ceiling even this far away.

"Private, you can either apologize for attempting to hit a superior officer or be gang-planked well before we reach port." The Captain addresses the man currently skulking away, before he can leave sight.

Yuta watches his would-be bully grovel, unable to respond for fear he'll be reported back on to Choi and his like. Even with the war over there would always be the clancorps to rely on for another boot upon his neck.

"Private Kim," Taeyong's attendant says, coughing.

"You're officially free to go back to–" the small man reads through a specific address and name. "Busan. Placed your name on the first transport flight out as crew."

"I will throw you off this ship personally if I see your face or those of your compatriots, do you understand me?"

Taeyong doesn't have to bare his teeth for the threat to be made and understood. Soon they're alone, again, just two breakfasts and the most Yuta has seen of command since joining as a warrant officer.

"Fuck." The Captain says, bending over to the floor. He's shivering all over, scent blockers doing little to hide the cloying cinnamon and musk roiling off of him. Yuta thinks he’s lucky the majority of the remaining crew are Beta recruits or young enough not to know the difference in scents, true designated like themselves having been run through within the first years of the war.

"You didn't see this." The other officer on deck says, bent over a touchpad. Yuta finally notices the universal red cross of a medic along with the hangeul name badge: Moon. "Which way is 119?”

"That's my bunk, sir."

Both of them look up, the Captain’s squinting eyes opened wide.

"Nakamoto Yuta, is your roommate Suh Youngho?"

"Correct, sir."

"Take me to your quarters and you'll never have to call me sir again," the Crown Prince says, on the floor, tail batting to and fro.

"Discreetly, please," Moon adds.

Yuta hadn't given a second thought to the command, still wouldn't years later. If anything they'd saved him the sole duty of escorting Suh in his first rut, 100 leagues from the nearest proxy hotel. No one else had their back until then. A stroke of luck, or fate–it didn't matter.

He’d chosen Nyctos, and the others, for life.

Now he's in another foreign prison under the guise of conscription, resident of cell block C in what should have been his own home, receiving updates in morse code from Jungwoo tapping impatiently on the other side of the wall.

Taeyong is the first to visit, posture bent by almost a week in recovery from whatever you have put him through, sweating through his suit. He waits for the others before speaking his piece over the door comms. Yuta has seen his commander in this state many times since that first encounter, but he can’t help but find it funny–the solution to his problem had been there from the start.

"I take responsibility for everything that happened," Taeyong announces, after a few minutes of uncomfortable silence and no sign of being joined by the others.

Jungwoo's laugh can't be heard through the thick walls but Yuta echoes it, slumping into his cot. They’d made a bet that Taeyong would issue a formal apology on behalf of his mate, a fact that Yuta relied on enough he’d just won. He expects admonishment from Taeyong but instead the pack's omega reads something scrawled on ancient copy paper.

". . . Including my own death."

It's carbon-scored and dotted black with what looks like blood or water-staining, script tight and messy.

"I am a political refugee who sought asylum. I end my journey here. If this message reaches any of those who care for me, I am leaving as a final act of mercy. Please do not punish anyone involved, they did not know who or what I was when they took me in."

Taeyong's voice chokes on that line in his reading. Yuta watches him sit cross-legged on the floor between cells, gripped by bodily torment or emotion–he cannot say.

"Signed Lee ____, last child of Lee Eunji."

The silence hangs over them through the static of the comm, until Yuta laughs again, much more darkly.

"Mercy?" Yuta says. "That suicide note is a writ of execution to be carried out by whoever sent her here."

“She wrote this before we even brought her back,” Taeyong growls, low, standing up to stare him down. "She's not operating against us. Or at least she wasn't until you two began terrorizing her."

The gravity of that statement is wasted on him.

“Pretty clear she was expecting someone to find it, then,” Yuta says. “Smart girl.”

The window slams with Taeyong’s fist, just a streak of red tail visible through the haze of dust. Yuta stands up to join him at the window, stretching against the day spent in solitary and yawning as if he’s more comfortable than stiff.

"Do you have any compassion?" Taeyong asks once he’s done, brows lowered as he looks at him through the barrier. "You took initiative to torture her without a directive or a lead. Left her unsupervised and unsearched. We could have had a dead omega on our hands."

An expensive mistake, Yuta thinks, but he knows better than to provoke the captain by saying it aloud. He shrugs.

"Johnny gave the order to investigate her," Yuta says, too defensively for his own comfort. "It's not my fault he didn't specify a methodology."

"Just how they do things in NSMP, right?" Taeyong asks, crumpling the paper in his anger. "Any means necessary, is it?"

He doesn't speak, denying him an emotional response.

"You haven't asked us what we found," Jungwoo says, his lilting voice distorted by the speaker.

Taeyong's firm expression falters. Got him. As much as he enjoys seeing Taeyong’s attempts to interrogate them via emotional manipulation, it's better to use this opportunity to pluck out whatever card is hidden up the Vulpine’s sleeve. There’s been a woeful lack of transparency within the pack of late, compartmentalization of intelligence constantly invoked where the four in charge were concerned.

If he’s going to be exiled over something as banal as a feral omega with a deathwish, it would be nice to understand why you’re considered more important than the pack itself.

"You already know who’s behind this, don't you?" Yuta says.

He doesn’t mean the events, those were already reported. Taeyong knows exactly what he’s implied, his own slit-eyes breaking away to look at the floor. He’s quiet, smoothing the letter–which Yuta notes is much longer than what was read, text impossible to work out from this vantage.

“It’s need to know,” Taeyong says, “until we have more information.”

Yuta smirks at him. “And why would that be? Someone worth protecting? Family perhaps?”

“The pack,” Taeyong snaps immediately. There’s an ancestral quality to his posture, head stooped and ears flattened, sharp little canines bared. Yuta registers the promised threat in that he finds it intriguing, but his cat ignores it entirely.

Thankfully Doyoung interrupts before the Captain can embarrass himself further with the jimseung-like lack of control, placing a hand on his shoulder.

"We have a suspicion of who it might be after performing the decrypt. Yet another reminder that your little routine was completely unnecessary." Doyoung glances down at his agent with a bored expression. "You can't possibly think we'd share that information with you when you're threatening to leave."

Yuta nods in agreement, keeping his mouth shut.

"The tribunal will be held the day after tomorrow. I hope you reflect on your actions and get your affairs in order before then."

He unlocks the doors to their cells, not waiting for them to join as he leads Taeyong away.

The strategist looks over his shoulder as he escorts the Captain out. “Oh, and if I were you, I’d avoid Suh tonight. No telling what he’ll do in his state.”

Yuta waits until they’re gone to tap a message back to Jungwoo, who he can’t help but notice hasn’t left his cell, either. Knowing the Canid he’s probably already locked the door again, from the inside.

Tap tap tap. Thunk thunk thunk. Tap tap tap.

This time, he can hear the other Alpha laugh quietly at the joke.

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#nct 127 #fanfic #“Private Bootlicker”#sksksksk #🤭#DISMISSED #why are y’all laughing…. Like ok it was a bet but is this the time..like…guys plz ��_ಠ #they don’t sound remorseful at mf ALL.#wait so is letting them out of their cells but jungwoo doesn’t want to go out?#Usually “get affairs in order’ is what I’m used to hearing someone say when writing their wills …ㅇㅅㅇ #(Also Yuta mad disrespectful to someone who saved him…)#(schadenfreude for wrongdoers in all capacities even a tiny bit delights me greatly 😇😌 can y’all tell)

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improbable-outset · 3 years ago

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𝑳𝒆𝒕 𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒆𝒂𝒕 𝒄𝒂𝒌𝒆

TF boys x fem!Reader

Word count: 930. Contains: Mentions of food and cursing (sorry couldn’t help myself there ಥ_ಥ)

Triple Frontier Masterlist || AO3 || Hey Bestie!

Scenario prompt: Character A has a favorite cake they haven’t had since their childhood. Character B spends the entire day before A’s birthday trying to replicate it. ❧By @oc-and-otp-ideas from their birthday prompts.

Dialogue prompts: “It's my birthday guys, please. Don't fight. Not today.” ❤︎ “Hey, I made you this cake! I hope you like it!” ❤︎ “You got her a fruitcake? On her birthday? What is wrong with you guys?” ❧By @inkandpaperxx from their birthday prompts

A/N: Yep finally reaching two decades of my life. Crying and throwing up rn now that I’m 20????😟. So here’s a little birthday fic that I’ve written. 🥳🤍🤍You’re all housemates in this AU and the boys can’t bake to save their lives.

Summary: It’s your first birthday as housemates and the boys went the extra mile to make your day special.

The local supermarket was always busy. It was the only supermarket that was the closest and since there were no other ones nearby, the people near your area had to rely on one for groceries and baked goods. Luckily for Benny and Santi, they both went just an hour before closing time, and thank fuck there was significantly less people, making it easier to get to the items that they needed for your birthday surprise the next day.

Benny placed the last pack of candles from the shelf into the shopping basket alongside a roll of wrapping paper. “I think that’s everything.” Benny sighed, exhausted from rushing and going out at the last minute. “We still need to get her a cake,” Santi reminded. The bakery section was at the back of the store with the fresh fruits and vegetables. You would always go there with one of them to pick up your favourite pecan plaits.

Unfortunately their luck didn’t last long when they noticed that most of the cake display was almost empty. All the best cakes were taken. Figured. “I knew we should’ve come earlier. Shit!” Santi seethed with annoyance.

“So what are we going to do now?” Benny asked, arms folded as they tried to think of a solution.

Earlier the next morning, just after sunrise, the four men were up in the kitchen preparing for your day, while you were still in your room, sound asleep. It wasn’t unusual for them to be up this early, retired from the military, old habits die hard.

“So did you get the cake?” Will asked while filling air into a balloon.

“Yeah… about that.” The room fell silent as Frankie and Will heard what the other two men had to say.

How could they possibly mess something like this up?

“By the time we actually went to the bakery section, they barely had anything good in stock. We only managed to get this.” Benny pulled out a fruit cake out of the plastic bag from yesterday and placed it on the table.

“You got her fruit cake?” Frankie said as he ran his hand over his locks “On her birthday? Pendejo! We can’t give her that. She doesn’t deserve a halfass cake.”

You did deserve better. You were the glue and the peace maker of the household, making sure any heated argument was settled. And after all that, somehow you still managed to tolerate living with them all at the same time. “Fish is right...” Will pipped in “she does deserve better, which is why we're not gonna just buy some cake from the grocery’s bakery” The other three men’s gaze were in Will now, confusion written in their faces.

“I remember her telling me one of her favourite cakes she hasn’t had since her childhood.” he started “If I could find a recipe online, Benny and Santi could quickly pick up the ingredients from the grocery store.”

Will pulled out his phone and went to search up the recipe of the cake that you loved.

“You’re not fucking suggesting that we actually bake a cake, are you?” Benny scoffed at the idea. Neither of them knew how to bake and they knew it.

“Come one hermano, how hard can it be.” Frankie gripped onto Benny’s shoulder as he spoke.

“Yeah, lighten up” Santi’s voice came from behind “if we follow the recipe, how hard can it be.” If they wanted it to go well, they had to be quick. You weren’t going to be asleep forever.

Meanwhile, the morning sunlight bled in your room through the gaps of the blinds. You were still knocked out in bed, sleeping in a little later than usual, and completely oblivious to the predicament downstairs.

You spent the night before with your mother who visited before she left town again. It felt good spending time with her before your birthday, even if it was for a short while.

Eventually, slumber slowly slipped away leaving you to rub your eyes as you allowed yourself to wake up and stretched your arms. You quickly freshened up in the bathroom but noticed the house was quiet. Too quiet. You would at least hear some shuffling or cutleries being arranged, preparing for breakfast. It felt like you were the only one in the house right now.

You made your way downstairs into the kitchen, barefoot on the cold tile floor. You had to hold back a giggle when you saw a few balloons on the floor and your four housemates crowding the dining table.

“Good morning boys-”

“Oh shit!” You heard Benny exclaim before they all turned to you.

You noticed the cake on the table with a thin piping bag in Frankie's hand and your heart swelled at the sight. You stepped a little closer to get a better look and the feeling increased by tenfold when you realised the type of cake it was. “Oh my God… is that-”

“Yeah, that cake you told me about, I found a recipe online and we tried to replicate it. Sorry about the mess.” Will said as he stepped closer to your side. Your name was written in white icing with Frankie’s chicken scratch handwriting, which topped it off beautifully. “It’s beautiful, I can’t believe you’ve really gone out of your way for this, thank you!” You beamed at them.

“And you wanted to give a fruit cake, huh?” Frankie piped up.

“Listen it wasn’t-“

“Please!” you interrupted Ben, holding your hands up to emphasise your stress. “It’s my birthday, no arguing. Not today.”

“Of course, hermosa.”

Tags and people that might be interested: @heythere-mel @queridopascal @queenofthefaceless @salome-c @anaaaispunk @athalien @marvelousmermaid @supernaturalgirl20 @veritable-trash @dinsangelx (let me know if you want to join the tag list)

Dividers by @maysdigitalarts and @firefly-graphics

Please don’t quote me on the title 😭. I’ve written a birthday fic before and it took me a long time to come up with a name then.

Anyways, stay safe and hydrated lovelies (ɔˆ ³(ˆ⌣ˆc)

#birthday fic #triple frontier #triple frontier x reader #frankie ‘catfish’ morales #frankie morales x reader #francisco morales x reader #santiago ‘pope’ garcia #Santiago ‘Pope’ Garcia x reader #santiago garcia x you #santiago garcia x reader #benny miller x you #benny miller x reader #benny miller #william ironhead miller x f! reader #william miller x you #will miller #william miller x reader #Ayrus writes

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amane-by-together · 4 years ago

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Hanafuda || Amane Yugi

(Part 2 of 10)

genre: fluff, school, slice of life, modern au (where all wonders live)

warnings: cursing, grocery puns

summary: amane yugi spends his school days skipping classes until he meets [name] [surname], a student from the other class, who was also skipping classes and eventually the two of them formed a platonic friendship. cutting classes and playing hanafuda together strengthens their friendship but soon unexpected feelings blossom between the two.

[name], for the first time in weeks, finally decided to take just one class for the sake of her attendance. In Amane's case, he almost forgot where he was seated but thankfully he remembered that he sat behind Yashiro Nene.

“Why the hell do I have to go to class, cheese and fucking fries.” [name] grumbled under her breath. “Just one whole class for this day and the rest I'll skip,”

“[surname]-san!” [name] frowned at her guy classmate (or does she even remember him) who was standing in front of the entrance blocking her way. “It's a rare thing for you to come to class.”

“Mind your fucking business you person I don't bother to remember.” [name] wore a distasteful expression to the guy so that he will know that she ain't interested in playing with him. “First thing in the morning and I'm already pissed as hell.”

[name] lazily made her way to her designated desk and sits down. Everyone stared at [name], who was currently confused why they had their eyes on her. She suddenly became uncomfortable. “What?” she said in a cold tone. “The fuck are you all looking at?”

In fear, everyone turned their heads back and continued what they were doing. [name] rolled her eyes, she didn't have any time to deal with their shit.

‘I'm gonna go out after lunch, I hope Amane-kun was there, otherwise it'll be lonely...’ [name] rests her cheek on top of her palm, looking at the board with an unamused expression. ‘I've been hanging out too much with Amane-kun, if only we're both classmates—’

“[surname]-san.” [name]'s thoughts were interrupted by her teacher's voice. She tilted her head waiting for another word. “Someone wanted to see you.”

‘Who tf—?’ The annoyed female stood up from her chair, she let out a small sigh. Who would want to see [name] in the middle of the class? Well maybe that someone would return something to her, the thing is, she didn't lent anything amongst the hundreds of students in the school. Then, who could it be?

“Sir, may I ask who?”

“Yugi from Class A.”

[name] blinked. “P-pardon?”

“He wants to give you something.” [name] swore she saw the teacher smirk at her. The whole class looked at [name] again but this time they were mentally teasing her.

Tsukasa's eyes widened in pure shock, he glanced over to [name] and smiled brightly. “[name]-chi is Amane's girlfriend?”

And soon everyone started to fangirl loudly. [name] facepalmed really hard muttering “Shut the fuck up.” under her breath multiple times. Her ears started to burn because of embarrassment. “You all must be mistaken.” she chuckled nervously. “We're not dating.”

“Hmm, then explain why I always saw you two together during lunch?” Tsukasa asked with a teasing glint in his eyes. [name]'s eye twitched in annoyance now that the younger twin seems to be supporting the idea of she and Amane being together.

“Uh, can I go now?” [name] pointed at the door wincing to escape the situation. “I can't let him wait that long.” She walked out of the classroom and saw Amane waiting for her outside with his hands on his back. Was he hiding something?

“Amane-kun.” The said boy had his head perked up to her direction, [name] went over to him and shot her hand up. “Yo.”

“Why is everyone staring at us?” Amane pointed at his finger towards the group of classmates peeking over to the two teens.

“Don't mind them.” [name] swats her hand. “Anyways, why did you call me?”

Amane gave her a small paper bag. [name] blinked twice and gently grabbed the bag. “What's this?”

The choppy haired boy's cheeks turned red and started talking in pout while looking away. “It's a bracelet...” he murmured. “They're matching bracelets, I'm currently wearing mine.”

“You bought this for me?” [name] resisted the urge to hug Amane, if only her classmates weren't watching her. She smiled, pink dusted upon her cheeks. “Thanks Amane-kun.”

“I-It's no big deal, really, but I'm glad you like it.” Amane sheepishly rubbed the back of his neck while grinning.

[name] placed her hand on his shoulder, stood on the tips of her toes slightly and whispered something on his ear. “By the way do you want to skip classes after lunch?”

“I kinda plan to do that so I guess it's a yes.” Amane whispered back at her.

“Yeah, we're definitely skipping again.”

The two of them broke down in a fit of giggles as they pulled away from each other. “Hey [name], do you have plans later?” he asked.

“Not really, why'd you ask?”

Amane's cheeks started to burn again, he gained a little confidence and looked at [name] in a flustered state. “Well, why don't we go somewhere else after school? Just the two of us?”

“Of course.” [name] answered. Amane let out a sigh of relief and smiled back at his female friend.

“I gotta go back to class.” Amane patted her shoulder before dashing off towards his classroom. “I'll see you later!”

“You too,” [name] had her hand slightly raised up. She let out a small chuckle and looked at the paper bag. “Amane-kun, you really are a wonder...”

She quickly switched back to her aloofness and glared at her classmates. “The fuck are you all looking at?” she asked as her classmates hurriedly went over to their desks. “Honestly, when will they learn not to meddle in a private conversation.” she murmured right before she entered the classroom

“I don't fucking get this projectile motion.” [name] was in a state of existential crisis remembering the physics lesson that they tackled during class. “Did I really skip that much?”

“In my case I only understood Earth and Life Sciences.” Amane changed his school shoes and placed them inside his shoe locker. [name] waited for him, placing her hand on her waist and whistled a little bit. After that the two of them started to walk next to each other. “[name]-san, did you notice that everyone was staring at you?”

“You didn't think it was you who they were staring at?” [name] scratched her head, her silver bracelet was twinkling against the sunset.

“Nope.” Amane answered. “It's definitely you, must be because you're pretty.”

[name] lets out a weird sound of disbelief and shock. Amane stopped on to his tracks as he realized what he had said. “I-I mean, yeah you are pretty, n-not gonna lie t-though.” he stuttered with a blush forming on his visuals.

“S-sorry.” It was [name]'s turn to blush, she looked down on her feet as her bangs were covering her eyes. “I-It's just no o-one h-has ever called me p-pretty before.”

“I-I always f-find you pretty so...” Amane can feel his whole face burning like embers. The two of them made eye contact and it felt like time had stopped between them. “If you like, I'll gladly call you pretty everyday...”

“Amane...” [name] covered her whole face to muffle her words. She felt so flustered and she didn't know what to do. Amane averted his gaze from her and blushed. “Screw you—”

“I'm sorry but I'm not lying.” Amane cleared his throat, an evident blush was still on his cheeks. “Let's go to the mall, do you want to eat some donuts?”

“Yeah dude!” [name] tries to lighten up the mood so that it wouldn't be awkward anymore. To be fair, Amane was on the attractive side in her opinion, she doesn't really find herself pretty but people have different perspectives anyways.

[name] wouldn't deny it though, Amane has nice visuals and...hands, they looked really soft and warm, she sometimes imagine what would it be like if they held hands. Other than that, he is an affectionate and sweet, then he turns into a sadist and a tease sometimes. “I never got to ask you this [name]-san but are you going out with someone?”

“I never had a boyfriend or a girlfriend.” [name] replied. “No one really confesses to me at some point so basically I'm single, must be nice having one though..” she mumbles the last part.

“I guess everyone must be blind...” Amane muttered to himself before walking ahead, leaving [name] clueless, and then she catched up next to the choppy haired boy.

“Amane-kun, I hope you don't mind but I'm gonna buy some groceries along the way.” [name] puts her hands behind her back. “After that, we can get some donuts and roam around.”

“Sounds like a great idea.” Amane reluctantly agrees with her. [name] wrapped an arm around his shoulders and grinned as he uttered an 'oof' from his lips.

“I love your gift by the way.” [name] raised her wrist in front of Amane to show her that she's wearing the bracelet. Her eyes widened in joy and pointed out the matching bracelet around his wrist. “And we're matching~!”

But then [name] flicked his forehead. “Ow!” Amane held his forehead while slightly whimpering. “That hurts.” he pouted. [name] let out a plfft sound from her lips, she reached over to rub his throbbing forehead.

“That's for excusing me out of class and my classmates started to tease me that you're my boyfriend.” she chuckled, then she switches to an annoyed tone. “Then your brother called me Nee-san just to tease me.”

Amane stifled a laugh. [name] puffed her cheeks at him angrily. “Oi! It's not that funny!” she harrumphed. She looked like an angry pouting mochi rather than an angry person.

“Hmm~?” Amane cheekily smirks at the latter, he leaned next to her to continue teasing her. “Nee-san~?”

“Don't call me Nee-san you idiot!” An irk mark appears on the side of [name]'s forehead as she reached over to pinch his cheek. “Honestly, you're such a tease.”

“Only for you~” Amane ruffles her hair making it messier than it is. [name] sighed asking how the hell did she end up being friends with Amane who is one hell of a tease.

After a few minutes of teasing and cheek pinching, the two teens arrived at the mall. [name] and Amane went to get some groceries first. “All of these bananas but you can't even notice my peelings.” [name] faked a sniff while putting the bunch of bananas inside the basket that Amane was holding.

“I don't understand why you needed six cans of sprite, can't you buy 7up instead?” [name] silently wheezed as she smacked his shoulder, earning a laugh from Amane.

“Shut up, I don't have—thyme for that.” [name] puts some spices inside the basket. She grabbed some bread from the bread aisle. “I also knead bread too.”

“I also have a grocery joke but aisle tell it later.” Amane added while laughing. [name] bursted out giggling, clutching on to her stomach. “Okay we better stop, the old couple beside us were giving looks of suspicion.”

“O-kale then.” [name] and Amane entered one of the aisles. “Grate minds think alike.”

“Do you live alone [name]?” Amane asked all of a sudden. He doesn't know any much about [name]'s family or background, heck, he doesn't even know if she had siblings.

“I live with Yako-neesan and my little brother.” [name] places some products inside the basket. “Why?”

“Just asking.”

“You seem curious about my family background.” [name] laughs softly while putting two carton of milk in the basket. “My parents are both abroad, my little brother and I lived in Yako-neesan's apartment, which is our cousin.”

“You're an older sibling?”

“Well yeah,” [name] beckoned Amane to follow her to the next aisle. “Maybe you can come over and play with him, he doesn't mind talking to older guys.”

“Did I mention that he wanted to meet you though?” [name] tilted her head towards his direction with a pack of strawberries on her hand. “You two will definitely get along.”

“What was Tsukasa like in class if I may ask?” Amane asked again, sure, even though the younger twin has a life of his own, he can't help but to be concerned with him.

“How the fuck should I know?” [name] raised her eyebrows and tossed the pack of strawberries in the basket. “I skipped a lot of classes so I didn't really pay attention to Tsukasa-kun.”

“It's like you skipped a lot than I did.” Amane sheepishly chuckles but he deadpanned afterwards. “But I can't get a damn thing about Maths.”

“I think we crossed the whole list.” [name] tells Amane with a thumbs up. The two of them went to the lane with few people. [name] whipped out her wallet when it was her turn to check in. “Omigod. Do I really have to carry them all?”

“I could help you carry them.” Amane suggests. [name]'s heart suddenly skipped a beat, she nodded slowly meaning that she needed his help to carry them.

“There sure were a lot of people in the donut shop.” [name] sighed in a low spirited tone while holding the paper bag filled with donuts. Currently, Amane and [name] were eating donuts with their backs against the wall. “Here's yours Amane-kun.”

Amane took a bite of the plain donut and started munching on it. They were freshly cooked so that's why it tasted good. “So [name], are you going to class tomorrow?”

“I was gonna plan to attend one whole class in one week.” [name] answers while eating her cream-filled donut. Truth to be told, she didn't feel guilty about skipping classes, it was only her escape from pressure and stress in school. “How about you?”

“I guess I'll skip tomorrow.” Amane took out a piece of his donut and showed it to [name]. “Want some?”

“Sure. Thanks.” [name] opened her mouth waiting for Amane to plop the piece of donut inside her mouth. He blushed at the thought of his fingers might brush against her lips. Amane plopped the bite inside her mouth which [name] ate it gratefully. “Here have some of mine in exchange.” she says while handing him the donut.

Amane takes a bite of the cream-filled donut. He glanced over to [name] and saw that there's a bit of cream near her lips. “Hold on,” he pointed at her face. “Um, you got some cream on the side of your lips.”

“Huh? Here?” [name] pointed at her face. Amane shakes his head since she can't see where he was pointing. He sighed and reached over to wipe the cream off her lips using his thumb and quickly licked it.

Amane smirked slyly at her. “The cream does taste good.” he said in a playful way. [name]'s face grew red at the sudden action that he did, he decided to tease her a little bit so he moved his face closer to hers. “You seem a little flustered~ hmm~?”

[name] leaned back and averted her gaze from him. “Well, that looked like an indirect kiss.” she protested while pouting slightly. Amane let out a light chuckle and smiled.

“Sorry, I can't help but to tease because you're so cute.” He said with a slight smirk and he reached over to lightly pinch her cheek. “Your cheeks are red~”

“Ok, that's enough.” [name] pried his hand off her cheek and rubs it a little. Amane stares at her in a lovestruck awe, the way she blushes and pouts made him feel like he just wanna hold her protectively in his arms. “I finished my donut, let's get going now.”

The two of them got out of the mall. The skies were as pink overlayed with an orange color that the sun was setting. Amane stared at [name]'s hand, he blushed at the thought of hold it. “[name]-san...” he came to a halt.

“Yeah?” [name] said.

“Can...I...?” Amane looked down while mumbling incoherently. [name] tilted her head in confusion as he waits for him to speak. Amane must have looked like a strawberry right now. His eyes meet hers as he gains a bit of confidence. “C-Can I hold your hand?!” he asked with a hint of embarrassment.

[name]'s cheeks turned red at the sudden request. She stared at her own hand and then his hands, for some reason his hand looked warm. “T-that was a strange thing to ask, I'm sorry—” Amane swats his hand in denial.

“Sure...”

“I'm sorry, what?” Amane's eyes widened. [name] turned away from him and blushed intensely, he looks at her hand. “You don't mind right? Me holding your hand...?”

“Mhmm...” [name] brushes her hand against his so that Amane would know that it's okay to hold her hand. Amane laced their hands together, tenderly holding her hand. [name] can hear her heartbeat hammering inside her chest. “You really like being coddled, huh?”

‘Her hand feels soft.’ Amane looked at their hands linking with each other. ‘They fit so perfectly with mine...’

“Shall we continue?” Amane asked with a shy smile. [name] hummed in agreement as the choppy haired boy gripped on to her hand softly, grinning at the female. “Let's take you home then~”

The two teens started walking together hand in hand, feeling each others warmth till the tips of their very own fingers. Amane mumbled something under his breath.“I love you,”

“Eh?” [name] didn't quite hear what Amane just mumbled.

“I meant your hands!” Amane blushed that he accidentally slipped that out but thank god she didn't hear it. “I love your hands——They're really cute!”

“Well your hands are pretty much gorgeous than mine, you have long fingers...” [name] raised their intertwined hands together in front of Amane and smiled softly. “See, our hands pretty much fit together.”

“Yeah...” Amane smiled contently, hoping that this moment will never end. If [name] continues to act like this around him,

Then, he would most likely to fall for her even more.

-end of part 2-

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twdmusicboxmystery · 3 years ago

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I don't know how you manage to keep track of all the different threads of symbolism, there is so much! I keep getting lost! At this point do you think Eugene, Carol or someone else is going to meet Beth first in s11, before Daryl finds her in the spin-off? Or am I just totally confused? Lol

Um...both? Lol. It's really hard to tell EXACTLY how it will play out. I believe Eugene has tons of stuff around him because his storyline is the Commonwealth and Beth will come through that story line. But I also think there's a good chance he'll see her at some point, and could be the first member of TF to see her.

On the other hand, it really could be that he doesn't see/recognize her first, but that all the symbolism is because he, more than any other character, is the one who reached out, through Stephanie, to the CW and made that story line possible. And if we're right, and Beth does come through this story line, it will be almost entirely Eugene's doing.

But even if Eugene does run into her first, there's the possibility that he won't recognize her, because he never really knew her. That's where Carol comes in.

I don't know whether she will see Beth first, or Eugene will, or someone else. (I really don't think it will be Daryl, just FYI). But I think of the remaining living characters who knew Beth and lived in the community back with her in early seasons, Carol will be the first to see and recognize her. I think Carol will have a big arc with Beth, trying to bring her back to Daryl but hitting lots of walls.

So, that's why there's so much and it's still so nebulous. There are a lot of threads here, as you say, and while we think we have the gist of it nailed down, it's almost impossible to know how the details will play out...until they do.

So no, it's not just you. You aren't totally confused. You have the same basics we're seeing, but I can't be certain of more than just the broad story lines that are being hinted at. And the fact is, we probably WILL be wrong about how a lot of the details play out. Our theories have changed a lot over the years as we've learned more, because there are just too many variables for anyone to guess 100% right.

But I appreciate that you're attempting to follow it—you probably have a better handle on it than you think you do—and that you appreciate our efforts. Thanks so much! Sit tight. No matter how it plays out, she's on her way! Xoxo! 🌽💝.

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stuckyfingers · 10 months ago

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Steve would cuss tf out of Chris.

The guy who responded to "we're not at war" with "they (Sokovia) are." (acknowledging how the narrative of 'who gets to fight?', is centered around Americans)-- the guy who hates fascism with his core, and knows how imperialistic his country is (I don't like bullies, I don't care where they come from)-- would not give two shits about a famous actor who builds a charming liberal dog-loving persona online while supporting American neocolonialsm.

Chris is attractive and talented to a point but he's nothing like Steve Rogers in practice.

(sorry but given that the US is giving Israel bombs to drop on the Gaza strip- who's to say his signature ain't lying in the rubble of a children's hospital or something. This is the kind of shit that Tony Stark did)

T'Challa on the other hand would be happy to meet Chadwick, because Chad's worked hard within the reaches of his profession to make a change in his industry.

Imagine T'Challa's face when he learns that Chad had to fight for him having an african accent. And not a British one.

Chadwick personally made a difference in people's lives, and though he didn't fight for every cause, he picked his battles and won them silently. That's T'Challa's jam, because guess who else does that? his literal wife.

He'd also ask him why the Coolest Blackest dude in the entire galaxy had a white bread ass name like Chadwick 😂

Here’s a question: if an MCU character met their respective actor, how do you think they’ll react. What will they think of each other? What conversations would they have? What would they do? The list is endless!

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my3amletterstoher · 6 years ago

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Those are nice, especially to have the music on while sleeping 😍, imagine us all cuddled up listening to music 😍😍😍😍, I like those little pill speakers too, those JBL... the ones with the lights 😭they're sound reactiveeee😍, ohhh I forgot to tell youuuuuuu , we're kinda decorating for 2 houses cause about 5-6 months after you get here we gonna be movinggggg 😍😍😍, a bigger spot, we gonna make sure they accept dogs and everything , it's gonna be exciting looking at houses together 😍😍😍, so we gonna decorate this current house and already have stuff in mind for the next one , but I do want the current joint to look nice , all these ideas 😍😍😍(Tumblr messing up)

Are you having anxiety? 😍😘😘

Reach out baby, cause see I'm talking about our plans and stuff and look at evil lurking around , trying to distract and shit , that bitch ass nigga Eric flaring his funky energy up and shit, trying to be around, trying to be in the mix, that's how you know for sure that ppl aren't no good , that they're against you, just trying to get inbetween stuff and fuck shit up, tryna play that friendly role and shit, manipulative , parasite ass ppl, i wish they would leave you, me, us alone and find other ppl to bother/infest , no one is with their bullshit, tryna infest you and me and then tryna be all up in your face and shit , we stick our middle fingers up to them , that nigga is acting JUST like Kristina bc they are one of the same, he's reading what I writing right now , that's fishy af, who gave him the link? Kristina right? And you know how she used to stop and read the stuff to see what was going on to try to manipulate, twist, infest and shit too, they try to get us this information on you via reading this blog and snooping around , then they try to manipulate you, deceive you..etc putting conflict and shit in the air, trying to put insecurity and shit in the air , they try to be "around" these MFers must think you're stupid or something (and you're not) you reached out to me, you only want to talk to and be around me, and when I'm not around you reach out to me even more, idk why these MFers think they can try to drain me , drain you and then try to be around around you and shit, try to lure you and shit, try to play on the emotions that you're feeling , all these mother fuckers try to use you, try to take advantage of you and shit, and im going to make sure all of them pay , you don't want to be around any of those ppl, you know what's up with them , they literally hungry out here for your energy, my energy , trying to fuck with your mental state, how tf does ppl try to put their funky ass energy in the air and then try to corner someone? Who tf does things to infest and then try to prey on them? Who tf tries to basically make you feel down /puts things in the air to try to corrupt shit , then tries to be all up in your face?!?? And see that's how they try to get you bc before when it happen at first you thought they were just around and then you realized they had ulterior motives and they were the ones that made you feel how you felt in the first place and you're not with that bullshit, trying hard af to deter, distract ..etc you , all these ppl trying to swarm you now cause they know that you're so close to your fate, true destiny and everything , these ppl know that you are on the rise, that you have a lot going on, that you are a God , and they are trying to pollute that

Tumblr messing up , the reading also said be wary if Eric tries to take you anywhere (which I know you don't trust him either or want to be around him in any kind of way), we don't give a fuck what they tryna say, they are dead to us, ^ that's stuff we already knew about those mother fuckers

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my3amletterstoher · 6 years ago

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Trying to mess with you too and you weren't having it and you posted "🔮✨" of that picture with your sister , you're not paying attention to or liaising to anyone not me, you don't care about those ppl, you know how they are and you're done with them I know, that's why even when we're under attack, you have anxiety (no matter if it's from the times they infested or general) you reach out to me, you look for me, you be thinking all the while about me , you look for me, you seek me even when I'm not around, it's not about no one else on any level and I know that and I want you to know that I know that and been knew that , and I feel the same about you , in every way and I just want to get us back to what we are missing right now , we are missing tf out of each other right now , and we love just escaping everything , and being in our world, cause that's all that matters to us , we making that up to each other and even moreeeeee determined with everything , cause we don't play around with that at all, I care about you and as I said I feel you, I don't care about nothing else and I know you don't either , what's on your mind baby? 🖤🖤🖤🖤showers you with love 😘💋💋😘💋😍😘💋💋😘💋, I love when you interact with me baby, I love when you emote to me, interrupt me anytime cause I love hearing from you, seeing you..etc 😍 I got you in every way 🖤I take care of you in every way MUAH 😘💋😘💋with your beautiful self 😍mars square Saturn : this aspect also has to do with tempers and the hotness of Mars bc this aspect amplifies it , so tempers as well are, health problems associated with this aspect is broken bones

Now the planets in the signs :

Sun in Gemini:

Tumblr messing up : do you want me go over Sun in Gemini again? (Since we did with PAC ?)

I'll go to moon in Cancer : the moon is emotions and cancer is too , so that's double double , double emotions and everything , so this speaks of sensitivity , being veryyyyy caring , may indicate being a home body , not being superficial, this also indicates being very fun loving and fun to be around , may also have been moody, and erratic at times , very devoted , this placement also shows of being very creativeeee, very tender and warm to be around (Tumblr messing up) , shows that she has a deep appreciation for art , and well as being artistic (that's accurate ..she used to paint and help with clothes in the earlier days of TLC, on her website I think she did or at least had her hand in the graphics for it) may have had interest in philanthropy , might have loved cooking, gardening , may have been a picky eater

Mercury in Taurus : this is an indication of being a visual learner and likes to learn through projects and stuff , takes time when making decisions (tumblr messing up) a very abstract learner , in touch and uses their senses a lot and loves to experience life through it , this placement also may have indicated her being stuck in her ways at times but loved to stay grounded or at least tried to be ,tumblr messing up , I'm right here baby we're in our world, enjoying every second 😍😍😘🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤, ccpuld indicate having a good speaking voice , very soft speaking voice , I'm right here baby 😘😘😘😘😘😘, this aspect can also indicate well defined tastes in things

Claire I'm right here 🖤, Tumblr messing up , mercury in Taurus: may be funny , sarcastic at times , very deliberate in what she did , ppl may have taken her seriously , may have had good memory

Are ppl bothering you again? Tumblr was messing up right bad, you don't want to be bothered by ppl, did that bitch try to mess with you while Tumblr was messing up? I don't know cause I was busy trying to post to you, I know you not for that that bitch bothering you , I was trying hard trying to get Tumblr to work again 😭and it seemed like when I said I was here that's when it messed up again, reach out to me when I'm away, that's what you do, I love that That's the only thing on your mind anyways, you're not a bother please reach out to me every time

Mercury in Taurus : they learn how to adapt to life, loves building things (Tumblr messing up) , may make a good public speaker , may have gave good advice , veryyyy sufficient , im right here baby , we were just enjoying our time together , you were happy and content , I was too, no interruptions, tumblr messing up is something we can't help even though both of us gets mad at it 🖤, I'm right here 🖤😘🔮✨

Why are your numbers going up? You reach out to me , there's nothing wrong with you reaching out to me, that's what you do, that's what you been doing and I know that , I know you don't reach out to no one else , come on man.. we not with the stress , I didn't do anything to you, what thought is stuck in your head? You mad still that I said that warily this morning?if we made up than why is it coming up again? It's squashed, I reassured you, everything was great and we were making things up to each other , wait no .. was that last night that was said? You know what was up then, we got past that that was stuff put in the air, just like the other day so why hold it against me baby? I didn't hold and wasn't holding anything against you , we going through shit together, we in this bullshit together and we fighting against stuff together, so take alllll that anger and throw it at the person that deserves it, let's do more against them, I know you want to , they caused that conflict last night and we don't like that so they are going to pay, on top of paying for everything else they did , we a team, we determined af

Tumblr was messing up and it turned into shit it's not supposed to turn into, now you know that ain't makings of us , you reach out to me, when I'm near , when I'm away , you haven't been sending stuff to no one , only posting to me and only reaching on to me , I know that there's no question in that , or confused or doubt , I don't even know what I said exactly last night that's how much it wasn't us , you mistook what I said , just like the other day, and you realized that that's why you took that picture down that you had posted, you realized that it was conflict in the air and that anger wasn't us or of us , you thought I thought something that I actually didn't think remember? That's the same thing right then , that's why I said it's veryyyyy important for us to clear our minds and I was trying to do that this morning right when I got up remember? Cause I know you appreciate that too , neither of us wants our minds unclear, or energy infested ..etc that's not what we meant , you didn't mean to do that last night and I didn't mean to say that last night either, that wasn't us (and this morning ) , we clear our mind, thoughts and energy of all that and we don't hold it against each other and it makes us even moreeeeee determined than ever , we don't have any problems or anything 🖤Tumblr messing up, submerge me in you baby 😍bliss , what's on your mind? 🖤

😍😍😍

My sexy ass girlfriend/sub/slave/muse 😍🏆💍💎🔐😍, girl you so beautiful 😍, look at that 3/4 /side profile ooooh you make me melt 😩😍🤤rocking my worldddddd 😍😍😍😍😍🐱💦💦💦💦💦, you stunning affff baby 😍😍😍😍, stroking your hair 😍😍😍😍😍😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘, you be killing that side profile baby 😭and that neeeeeck 😍😍😍😘🤤🤤🤤🤤, Beyoncé doesn't stop the world , you do 😍😍😍🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤that jawlineeeee 😍🤤🤤🐱💦,I wanna lick and slob all on it 😍😍🤤🤤😍👅💦💦💦💦💦💦, Tumblr messing up , wanna continue on the aspects baby ? 🖤

Venus in Taurus : another aspect that has to do with the senses , loves to be comfortable, and comfort food , dislikes superficial people , this placement can indicate being very tactile as well , we relaxing baby , enjoying each other 😍, this aspect may show liking to paint , even houses , very devoted , loves security

Mars in Aquarius : this placement is very difficult and may indicate that she was a difficult person , a very ambitious person , loved intellectual subjects , may have been scattered but knows how to pull it together , can come off as not being sentimental at times , strong will power , loves being original and tends to be , loved to stimulate her mind

Jupiter in Sag : another aspect that has to do with being generous , very enthusiasticcccc especially when learning new thingssss , this placement also has to do with growing both intellectually and physically , has a lot of faith in themselves , loves to travel , Jupiter is Sag's natural ruler , this place is very outgoing , they also have a natural love for philosophy and social issues , this placement shows she may have been easy going

Saturn in Taurus: a hard worker , very thrifty, very spontaneous

Im right here, I'm here for you, I'm the only one here for you and you know it, and vice versa , what's on your mind? I know you want to tell me and I really want to know

I'm right here, ppl are going to think that they have access to you/they can converse with you and you're not with it , you're dodging those ppl and are done with them , and been ignoring them, they are trying to talk to you have been trying all day haven't they? They think they're getting over you on , they know damn well you don't want nothing to do with them and don't want to be bothered with them on any kind of way , that you want them from out of their life and have more working hard to do so I know that and they know that too , they tryna take advantage of shit, trying to be opportunists, that's why when I was talking against them yesterday they flared they funky ass energy up and we ignored them though but then I got attacked real bad and it caused that other shit and I'm mad about that shit and what they do? They tried to capitalize right? Kept trying to talk to you and be in your ear, kept trying to infest you, now you're all jumpy and you weren't before , manipulative ass ppl always trying to slither their way into shit they don't belong , and we're not with it? We mean that , they're dead to us , we not with that in our lives , we got next, we powering over everyone , you going through a rough time in your life (partly because of them) and I know you not with them trying to make it worse by trying to infest you , trying to manipulate you ..etc just like when your brother was missing that bitch had the audacity to infest you while I was trying to comfort you, that just shows just again how much ppl don't give a fuck about nothing , I know you were worried, had anxiety..etc from that ordeal with your brother and that bitch tried to make it worse with her disgusting ass energy/self

Just like now/last night you going through stuff , you have a lot on your mind , you don't need that and I don't need that either , we over here trying to relax and stuff , and that bitch trying to add on to the stress of life that we have to deal with, some ppl are such a burden , and she's a true test of that , trying to bring us down, she already fucked up enough we not with her fucking up anything else , your life went downhill when she came back around, she's trying/is trying to infest and fuck up everything , then has the nerve to say you ain't got nothing , has the nerve to say shit like she owes you something when all she's done is manipulate you, infest, try to molest you, try to con you, envious of you because you're better than her inside and out , then tries to guilt you for standing up to her, you do have a lot going for your self and more talented than her, you are winning at life and will win at life , you're pure af , that bitch really tried to poison everything , your home, and everything and you're not for it, and you don't give a fuck what she has to say , you're done with her and not paying attention to her , she doesn't have any say , your life will open up completely once she's gone and I know you can't wait and you're working hard to make that happen I know that , that bitch even infested your aunts house , that's why you're at were you're at right now , I know that , that doesn't feel like a home no more , I know that baby, you were trying to sleep there though and I commend you for that , but that's what I wanted to talk to you about cause I do understand baby , I do understand what you're going through and I know you weren't doing anything against me , I know that, you're trying to escape everything and I'm right by your side baby, you have my support, I see your vision baby 100% , we been espacing together in our own world and I love it so much , and I know you do too , you take me with me and vice versa , we're above life , I'm so sorry about last night 😭 I really am 🖤 gives you a big kiss 😘😘😘😘Tumblr messing up , we drifting and floatinggggg, soaring up in the sky , wanna continue the astrology aspects ? 🖤Taurus in Venus : I think PAC had the same placement , this aspect could indicate that she was very loyal , and stubborn , but enthusiastic (again that's showing up in there) , had a lot of endurance, could be happy with very little

Uranus in Libra is another aspect that they share 😯veryyyyy artistic especially musically ,had a lot of original ideas and wanted to share them , roots for the underdog , loves justice and pushes for justice (like in social issues) , may have experienced many troubles in life and sorrows especially at an early age

Neptune in Sag : a dreamer (but not in a bad way) , can often dream of bad dreams that stick with them for a while and make them depressed , may have been fascinated with the unknown and like conspiracy theories , UFOs, the supernatural and paranormal

Pluto in Virgo : this may indicate that she was always trying to improve things (especially in regards to herself) , could have been good at organizing things , whether it's parties , events, her closet..etc , may have had a love for technology , science, healing , spirituality (we know that to be true) (Tumblr messing up) , this placeent could show that she could have been analytical

Now onto the houses:

Leo in house 1 : tumblr messing up, this placement is a battle , the battle of self (at times ), cause the sun is the ruler of Leo , may be soft around the edges with an edge , tries to make the best out of things , may have had a string physique or potential to have one

Leo in the 2nd house : this placement can do with musicians , models , actors or has potential to , and had potential to make money doing so , she may have have confidence when it came to money (like knowing that she can be creative by making things..etc )

Virgo in house 3: this placement can be very intelligent , mental clarity, may have had health problems , very deep and heavy in faith , may have been not satisfied a lot with life

Libra in house 4 : this placement shows that she could of looked up at her parents , this placement also shows that one of the parents probably her mother was was very calm and loving and taught her the essentials in life

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Scorpio in house 5: with this placements comes with a lot of challenges, when it comes to emotions , it shows deep seeded issues , may have been dark, very sensitive , and very deep , may have loved her ancestors or was curious about them , multi-talented , very mysticalllll

Cap in the 6th house : could have loved to sleep or needed lots of sleep , in order to function properly , may have struggled with substance abuse

Aquarius in the 7th: lots of disappointments , and loses , may have seemed closed off at times , had a spark , needed to stay balanced or had problems doing so

Aquarius also in the 8th: may not have been able to handle stress or had trouble at times with it , may have been unable at times to open up or changed in life may have shocked her especially early in age , may have loved solitude , and craved it , loved memories may have kept a scrapbook

Pisces in the 9th : this placement has to do with missions in life (the ones that was bigger than herself ) and her need to fulfill those things , she may have been prone to stress , may have been very interested in psychology , or maybe even chemistry

Aries in the 10th house : Tumblr messing up, this shows a need to pursue a career , it shows that she was or had potential to be an innovator , there's a lack indication of some stress before she was born, in one of the trimesters that she could of carried with her when she was born , and may have made her feel unworthy

Taurus in the 11th: thus is a nurturing placement , very practicallll and valued everything , shows that she may had have good morals , a deep desire for peace and emotional stability

Cancer in the 12th : (Tumblr messing up) she may have had a lot of burdens in life , and able to see through things , may have been disappointments in regards to family , may have been very empathic

That's it for her , taps chin hmm who else 🖤🖤🖤🖤maybe Kurt Cobain? Jimi Hendrix ? Jim Jones (not the rapper) Ted Bundy? Jeffery Dahmer? That last dude was a cannibal 😭🤢as well as all his other heinous crimes

We'll have a look at him

The basics :

The sun in Gemini and in the 8th house

Moon in Aries and in the 7th house

Mercury in Gemini and in the 8th house

Venus is in Taurus and in the 8th house

(A lot going on in house 8)

Mars in Aries and in house 6

Jupiter is in Cap and in house 3 (retro)

Saturn is in Cap and in house 3 (retro)

Uranus is in Leo and in house 10

Neptune is in Scorpio and in house 1 (retro)

Pluto is in Virgo and in house 11

The houses :

Libra is house 1

Scorpio is in house 2

Sag is in house 3

Cap is in house 4

Aquarius is in house 5

Pisces is in house 6

Aries is in house 7

Taurus is in house 8

Gemini is in house 9

Cancer is house 10

Leo is in house 11

Virgo is in house 12

Aspects :

Sun sextile moon

Sun conjunction Mercury

Sun sextile mars

Moon sextile mercury

Moon conjunction mars

Moon square Jupiter

Moon square Saturn

Mercury sextile mars

Venus trines Jupiter

Venus trine Saturn

Mars square Jupiter

Mars square Saturn

Jupiter conjunction Saturn

Sun sextile Moon: this shows that he may have been charming , and creative , very ambitious

Sun conjunction Mercury: may have loved to express himself , very curious about things/life

That just popped up , Ima check that out baby 🖤

Sun conjunction Mercury also shows he may have been artistic , may have liked to work with machines or like engineering , may have been nervous a lot

Sun sextile mars :may have been aggressive , partook in sports

Moon sextile mercury : may have been outgoing (Tumblr messing up) , may have had a good memory, and been a quick learner , may have had a way with words

Moon conjunction mars : he may have wore his heart on his sleeve , may have been very destructive , very emotional , very rash and hot tempered

Moon square Jupiter : lots of ups and downs , very moody , this placement may also indicate having none or very little self discipline , very scandalous, disloyal , he may have been very arrogant , always flaunting something , "smug" at times

Moon square Saturn : very socially awkward, suffered a lot in his early years , could have been emotionally distant, may have felt rejected as a child , may have felt isolated , not mature emotionally , very troubled as a child , maybe have stole , been violent damnnnn this placement is accurate af 😯😯😯😯I think it's because since the moon has to do with feelings/emotions ..etc but its afflicted with Saturn of all planets so that's a badddd mix , especially if other planets are afflicted too

Mercury sextile Mars: this shows a very sharp tongue, an active person , very quick mentally , he may have been very courageous

Venus trine Jupiter : (Tumblr messing up) , very creative , may have loved celebrations , may have been adventurous, (Tumblr messing up) , may have been creative musically

Venus trine Saturn : (Tumblr messing up) , may have been very conservative , very extravagant, may have been shy

Mars square Jupiter : very high energy , could have been very restless , could act in the spur of the moment in a bad way (like in the sense of dangerous behavior ) , could be embarrassed very easily , could be impulsive

Mars square Saturn : could have a problem expressing himself , feeling of feeling inadequate , another aspect that shies destructive behavior , very frustrated , and uncontrollable at times , may also indicate a lot of set backs , may feel like life is very hard , a lot of temper tantrums , could have experienced criticism from his father and it spread throughout his life, could be very spiteful , may have a lot of repressed emotions , may have had a lack of self awareness

Jupiter conjunction Saturn : this is a rare aspect (well not rare but it happens every 19th years ) and it was born when this happened , its called a "great conjunction " is has a connection to the rises and falls of ppl (especially like presidents , famous ppl) this aspect shows tension , a lot of it , but also well organized , will power and enthusiasmmmmm

That's it for the aspects , that moons square Saturn was the most interesting 😯winding us down for the niiight 🖤🖤🖤🖤I love you so much 😍😍😍😘😘😘😘😘I can't find my headphones right now 😭, we in our red room chillinggg , music playingggg , real mellow tunesssss, incense burning , we go outside towards the water hand in hand , I stare into your eyes and melt from your beauty , we head to the dock and get on this boat , it's a little yacht matter of fact and the moonnnn we see its reflection in the water (Tumblr messing up) , the moon is hugeeeeeeee, we're able to see it in fullll 😯, we in the yacht and its swayinggggggg from side to side ever so slightly , we have our little boom box with us, we dancing in the boat , Tumblr messing up, wining and grindinggggg😍😍😍🤤🤤🤤🤤, having a good time , laughing , our dog is on the boat with us , he's pooped , just laying down to the left in the corner , we continue to dance and we talk as we do , while watching the boat pass by different parts of our land , , there's a "downstairs " to the yacht , we're there's a candlelit dinner , we sit down and eat, feeding each other , and giving each other that lookkkkkk and being romantic , the centerpiece consists of 2 white candles and 1 red one , and a rose in the middleeeee, I grab your hand and kiss it 😘😘😘😘😘🤤😘😘😘MUAH 😘😘😘😘there's windows down here too , we see the skyyyyy and the starsssssss and we gaze at em, Melting inside of each other 😍😍😍😍, we dance around some more to the musiccccc , to the quiet storm hits slow groovinggggggggg and moving to the tones of the music as we seep inside of the melodies, we head back upstairs , catching the waves , and the views , the yacht docks , near our little beach , we get a blanket and lay out on the sanddddd but first we play in it cause it wouldn't be us if we didn't 🤷🏾‍♀️🖤😍, we make a castle , with some cups and stuff to create the modeeee,feeling the soft sand in our hands/skin , using our fingers to sculpt the windows and doors , we take pictures and then we take turn burying each other in the sand (Tumblr messing up) , I do you first , sculpting out your body , and putting exaggerated parts on you like coned shaped boobssssss 😯we laugh and talk as we do so😍😍😍, giggling and every thing , gives you a big kisssssss , getting ready to get in the showerrrrr , Tumblr messing up

Deep breathing in and out , 🐱💦💦💦💦💦💦, kissing you on your neck 😘😘😍😍😍💋💋💋🤤💦🐱💦💦💦💦💦, down your breasts 😘😍😍😍😍🐱💦💦💦💦💦💦, caressing your thighs 😍😘😘😍🐱💦💦💦💦💦, Tumblr messing up, and your hips 🤤😘😘😍😍🐱💦💦😍😍💦, caressing your back 😘🤤🤤🤤😍😍💦💦🐱💦💦💦💦💦, and rubbing on your bootyyyy (Tumblr messing up , kissing your hips 😍😘😘😘🐱💦💦💦💦, squeezing your cheeks, 😘😍😘😘🤤💦💦💦💦💦💦, caressing your hips 😘😍🐱💦💦💦,🐱💦💦💦💦💦💦, biting on your cheeks 😘😍😍😘🤤💦💦💦💦💦💦💦💦, rubbing on your legs 😍😘😘😘🐱💦💦💦💦, 🐱💦💦💦💦💦💦, kissing your cheeks 😍🤤🤤🤤🐱💦💦💦💦,🐱💦💦💦💦😘😘🤤😍😍, rimming you😍😘😘🐱💦💦💦💦, kissing your thighsssss😍😘😍😍😘🐱💦💦💦💦, licking you up and down 👅💦💦💦🐱💦💦💦💦💦sucking on your thighs😍😘😘😍😍🐱💦💦💦💦, 🐱💦💦😍😍💦, gripping your booty😍😍🤤🤤🤤🤤🐱💦💦😍😍😍, caressing your booty 😍🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤😘😘🐱💦💦😍😍😍, getting out the showerrrrr, im right here baby 🖤🖤🖤 , time for us to go to sleep , drifting off into eternal sleep together 😘🤗🖤 our energy is being drained and we not with that, you know what to do baby, post ,continuing reaching out, do what you did the other night , we had a great time together tonight now it's time to go to sleep , we are not with our energy getting drained, post , reach out, I know you wanna be asleep right now, we don't want to stay up with those parasites and shit, OUR ENERGY IS GETTING DRAINED , YOUR ENERGY IS BEING TAMPERED WITH IT ,

deep exhaling gives you a kiss , that song was cool btw , muah muah muah 😘💋😘😘😘we drifting and floating in the sky , into space, red room we floating in it, 🖤🖤🖤, you are the best GF/sub/slave/muse ever baby muah 😘😘😘😘😘😘😘😘🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤, couldn't find my headphones so I had to wait to listen to the song you posted , and I felt when you posted it 🖤 it just wasn't there until it wanted to be on my end 😭, we in our silk beddddd, melting inside each other , drifting off into eternal sleep together 😘🤗🖤🖤🖤🖤🏆💍

Awwwww 😍🖤🖤🖤 y'all slay *snaps fingers twice* 🖤🖤y'all so photogenic 😭y'all the fierce sisters 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤baby why you so sexy ? 😭😭🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤😍😍😍😍😍😍🐱💦💦💦I just wanna gobble you up 😍👅💦licks your face /jawline 😍, lioness 🦁😍😍😍🐱💦💦,🐱💦💦💦💦kissing your sexy ass lips 😍😘😘😘💦😍😍, your eyes 😩😍😍😍you're so dreamyyyyy 😍😍😍😍🤤🤤🤤🤤swoons 😍😍🤤🤤🤤🤤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤, kissing your lips 🐱💦💦💦😍as we drift off into eternal sleep together 😍😍😘🤗🖤

Good morning baby 😘🤗🖤 you are so gorgeous, wish I would've been up 🖤im still drained a little, but yo moving from foster home to foster home is just apart of your story baby and you got one hell of one to tell baby , you got next 🖤 been through a lot/going through a lot but you're preserving , you are strong af 🖤 a lot of obstacles and stuff but don't see it as roadblocks , it's just things to step right over like stepping stones on your rise up , cause you gonna make it and in a big way , in fact you are making it , your life consists of dirty ppl and situations and you learned that you can't trust ppl as much /be too friendly and open to ppl as you were right? And the situations you faced in life made you more determined than ever right? See that's stepping stones and you're growing/that's growth, you are driven, determined, wise, yeah you almost 18 and you have accomplished so much outwardly and inwardly and still rising , remember when you used to say things were too hard? (I'm talking general things) and it made you want to take the easy way out right? And now look at you saying "it might not be easy but it's worth it" pushing through things, a lot of things in life , having that willpower , that strength (which you had of all along with things but I'm saying, it's time 10 now) don't you feel that? I def see and feel that , that clarity as well , and like I said with ppl as well (that was related to ppl too) but I mean your discernment that's even getting x10, you used to be friendly af (which isn't really a bad thing) but you said that you used to try to see the good in people even when they gave you a whole bunch of warning signs, red flags..etc and now you're seeing that you can't be like that , now you're beginning to see beyond the surface with ppl, before you used to at times try to hang on to ppl just for the sake of having them around sometimes, And you now seeing that it's not worth it, now it's easier for you to cut ppl loose/make ways to, I can go on and on about the things you're accomplishing inwardly, and your strength as well to carry your siblings along with you too?!! Along this journey (I'm talking in general) , helping them as well through stuff , getting and buying them things , making sure that they're set, uplifting them, you're a great big sister to them, almost like a mother figure to them and probably like a father figure too , that's that divine feminine right there 👑 a GOD , and you wanna be a healer (I do too that's besides the point though) I'm saying you been through a lot and you know how /are learning how to heal from it , usually a lot of destined to be healers do , things similar to you , similar to the things I said ^ as well , they usually be up in the village with a lot of stories to tell along with their remedies, and you know I said that there's other things that you are as well , a lot of gifts , but yeah along the way, getting faced with/hit with a lot of things and overcoming them, getting ready to get in the shower , just realized what time it is , I gotta make another post cause it's not letting me make another paragraph or upload a picture in this one

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