#why most of the time I’m not a femboy lol

[asmoreous]

Fuck it face reveal, call me pretty and feed me a donut on the way out

[catboybiologist]

Hi! I’m CatboyBiologist.

Formerly a femboy, now a trans woman just starting HRT, and a PhD student in molecular biology. I started using this online persona as a fun, shitposty way to explore gender a few years ago. I post selfies (generally sfw, but somewhat sexy, so minors and ppl who don’t like that have been warned), rambles about science, tutorials and advice from the stuff I’ve learned by being a femboy in the past, nature pictures, stuff about the ocean, my adorable grumpy little tortoise, and unsolicited opinions on random nerdy topics. Any pronouns are fine. I don’t plan to socially transition for a while, and still present as a man most of the time, so I’m used to whatever you wanna use for me (for now, I’ll update this if that changes). Please send me pictures of your pets or other cute animals in your life!

As a scientist, I’m also documenting my transition! This google sheet will be updated at least monthly. I also have additional metrics I’m keeping to myself, and pictures that go with this, but I’m not sharing them publicly yet. Keep in mind that this is just one person’s experience with HRT, and may not represent universal trends!

Adding a little something here, bc I think it was an interesting bit a writing: if you want to see me respond to a transphobe about what "biologically female" means, here's a thing I wrote about it. CW for transphobia and discussion, obviously.

Also, if any of my measurements look weird, its entirely possible I fucked up. Let me know if anything looks off!

Here’s some of my favorite pre-HRT pictures:

If you want to see more of my pre-HRT selfies, browse the “femboy” tag on my blog!

And as of this writing, I’m only 2 days after the start of HRT, so here’s a picture with my tortoise that’s technically post-HRT (but with 0 time for actual changes):

If you want to see my future post-HRT selfies, browse the “trans selfie” tag on my blog!

Also here's another really cute picture and fanart of my tortoise by @whalesharkcat:

I have affectionately given my tortoise the title of The Grumpus.

I also wrote a couple of tutorials and general vibes about being a femboy before I started HRT:

Sometimes I make shitposts of myself, I don’t take myself too seriously:

This includes the way I came out on tumblr:

And here’s an overly serious, long ramble about trans thoughts and things that I wrote shortly afterwards:

Later addition: Someone asked how I take selfies, so I wrote a quick and dirty guide with some tips on how I do so in response to their ask:

Oh yeah and apparently I was a 196 microcelebrity? I never to thought I was popular enough for that but apparently some people do 🤷‍♀️. So uh, hi 196 tags, I'm abusing you for my pinned post LOL

As for terminology, I personally do think of myself as a “man who is becoming a woman” as opposed to having always been a woman. If that doesn’t resonate with your experience, I totally get that! But that’s why I freely call pre-HRT me a femboy, while still calling post-HRT me a trans woman. I’m also keeping the blog name as CatboyBiologist for the forseeable future, because at this point, Catboy just seems like a gender neutral term to me.

I’m also trying to put together a script for a podcast regarding how studying biology influenced my perspective on sex and gender- lmk if there’s any interest in that! It’s probably gonna be way too long and indulgent but oh well.

So uh. Yeah. I don’t end these types of things well. Byeeeeee

[hoejosatoru]

Got Game?

Ranking of Tokyo Revengers men based on how much game they have. Basically does your fave has rizz or nah.

20. Kisaki

Kisaki is dead fucking last I’m sorry. I really can’t picture him being flirty at all. He kinda has bitchless vibes, which is maybe why he is so trifling. 

19. Hakkai

Bro is just too shy. He really struggles to talk to girls, especially the ones he is attracted to. The only reason he is not dead last is because I think it could unintentionally work in his favor in some cases. Like some people may find it cute, but he is not really doing it purposefully, so it doesn’t really count as having game.

18. Takemitchy 

He is just a tad awkward. I think he would try to approach girls to impress his friends but then when he’s actually there in front of you he doesn’t know what to say. I think he could work his way into someone’s heart over time, but does not have a lot fo success trying to pick up someone he just met

17. Shinichiro

Pains me to put him so low but he has canonically been rejected like 20 times sooo. He definitely gets better over time. I think his problem would be he’s not good with his openers (I could see him doing corny pick up lines half ironically), so some people don’t even give him a chance. But if they do, he can be pretty endearing and end up getting numbers. But does strike out quite a bit. 

16. Kazutora

Kinda shy and similar to Hakkai in that talking to people he finds attractive would make him super nervous. However, Tora is a sneaky, smart dude. I think he would be aware that his (let’s be honest femboy lmao) look can really work in his favor. If he finds someone who is into that, he does pretty well, but if not he doesn't alway get them

15. Taiju

He’s low just because he comes off super intimidating. People will avoid him or get nervous around him in a bar or wherever, so he isn’t always able to strike up convo. I feel like he is not self aware enough to know if he toned it down a little he’d have better luck. Definitely gets a decent amount of pussy, though, because the size kink girlies love him.

14. Sanzu

He also loses points for being intimidating. Not for his size, but he just has an unnerving aura about him at time. He is fearless, though, and will walk up to anyone he thinks is hot and is not deterred until he finds someone who is into him. His confidence definitely is what helps him get laid.

13. Koko

He flirts by being mean, which sometimes works really well and sometimes it does not at all. He’s like 50/50 on success rate.

12. Takeomi

Another guy who is like 50/50 on success. I think he likes to play into the older guy thing, which, when he finds the right person, works super well for him. However he is definitely been called a creep on occasion lol. 

11. Izana

Definitely another one who can intimidate people off the bat. He is a lot smoother with his words and can easily talk your walls down if you were nervous about him at first.

10. Mikey

He’s such a flirt oml. He will flirt with people just for fun and the attention. Does pretty well though like if he intends to hook up with someone he almost always can. Only turned down on occasion and it’s usually because they see him flirting with everyone

9. Chifuyu

Chifu is really good at charming people. Also very fun with he is flirting, but is better at directing it than Mikey. He’s the guy you don’t expect much from when he approaches you but by the end of the conversation you’re asking him for his number.

8. Kakucho

He is the shyest guy this far up because I do think he’s nervous around people he’s attracted to. However, he’s so sweet and genuine that it works in his favor almost all the time (plus being fine as hell doesn’t hurt). He’s good at making a joke at how nervous he is, which breaks the tension for both of you.

7. Baji

He also flirts by being a little mean but he is better at it than Koko. He knows how to work up to it and make it like fun banter. He’s very bold and can come on too strong for some, but for the most part he is getting laid as much as he wants.

6. Rindou

He’s really laidback with flirting. I feel like he is the type to buy someone a drink from across the bar and like get you to approach him. Not because he’s shy but because he likes the power trip. Sometimes it doesn’t work but when it does, he almost always goes home with that person that night.

5. Mitsuya

He’s so fucking smooth but in a subtle, natural way. He’s super genuine and is the best at making whoever he’s flirting with feel comfortable. He is a great conversationalist, so there are never any awkward silences. He’s the type of flirt that you don’t even realize he’s flirting with you. Not because he’s bad at it but because he’s so good.

4. Hanma

Hanma has cornered the market on crazy bitches. He knows his brand and the type of people who go for that and can sniff ‘em out anywhere. Because of that he has a super good success rate. He can come on a little strong at times and sometimes has crazy vibes (because look at him), but again he goes for people how are into that so it usually doesn’t hinder him.

3. Draken

Draken is such a good flirt oml. Similar to Mitsuya in that he doesn’t come on strong and it feels like that’s just his natural personality. He is not shy at ALL like if he thinks someone is hot he’ll find a way to approach them. But also makes it seem super nonchalant??? He definitely likes to use teasing a little bit. Not a softie at all (at least not right off the bat). He can come off a little gruff, which on occasion works against him. HOWEVER, most times if he’s chatting up someone he’s into he knows how to work it in his favor.

2. Wakasa

Just look at him. That should tell you why he is number 2. But fr he is super confident and sooo good at the approach. He also likes to play a little hard to get, but knows how to execute it perfectly. Has never struck out once. It’s a gift.

1.Ran

Again, just fucking look at him bro. Could charm the skin off a snake. It’s so easy for him. He’s interesting because I think he could easily come off as sleazy or laying it on too thick but somehow never does?? He’s so good at getting even the most sus people to put their guard down. Will have you blushing and giggling and handing over your number before you even know its happening.

[kaleidoscope-ize]

1. Name: On here I go by Kalei, Kal, or Ize :)

2. Pronouns and Gender: They/Them! I’m nonbinary, with my ideal gender expression being somewhere between a femboy and a tomboy lol

3. Sexuality: Pan I think? I tend to prefer more femme-presenting people but anyone of any gender can fit that bill.

4. Country: USA (and the worst part of it too)

5. Fandoms: Narrowing it down to just a few: I’m fucking rabid about My Chemical Romance, the DC Animated Universe (B:TAS, JLU, etc.), Disco Elysium, Dragon Age, Our Flag Means Death, and Barry. I love a lot of things but I’m not involved in a lot of fandoms.

6. Most forbidden snack: idk why but every time I see marbles I want to put them in my mouth. Idk if that counts.

7. Would you pet a bug: if I was certain i would not smoosh it.

8. Weird fact/Story: my ears can’t pop! So any time we go from a hot season to a cold one, or vice versa, there is a chance that my eardrum will rupture from the pressure change 🙃

9. What does the color blue taste like: blue raspberry! Close second is blueberry waffles.

10. What is the most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen: two answers because I’m a pretentious weirdo: the ocean— every time I get to go to the beach I’m in love; and film in general— I can’t narrow it down to one movie because there are so many times a film has broken my brain with its cinematography 💜💜💜

11: Dumbest thing I’ve ever done: gotten engaged

12: dumbest thing I’ve seen someone else do: When I was a senior in high school, another senior was trying to date (manipulate) a freshman girl who didn’t know any better. This girl had a boyfriend (also a freshman). The senior challenged the freshman to a fight (💀). Day of the fight, senior brings an airsoft gun with the whole thing painted jet black. This was a week before graduation and he was supposed to go into the military right after. Neither of those things happened for him.

13: Hyperfixation song: toss up between “Foundations of Decay” by MCR and “Gravity’s Union” by Coheed & Cambria. Both songs completely unskippable

14: meaning between pfp and name: pfp is a picture I made while establishing my gender identity; name is a reference to both Panic! At the Disco and The Strokes, plus I just like the sound of it

15: Dream career as a child: a rockstar, an actor, and a farmer who raised giant chickens

16: dream career as an adult: film director

17: thoughts on cilantro: good in small amounts but very easy to overdo

18: Ever been banned from a location: nope! I’m a good noodle, and when I’m not, I’m sneaky

19: cursed food combo: When I get high I put mild Taco Bell sauce on my pizza. Does that count?

20: Trans rights: Of course! Also trans lefts! (I’m left-handed)

Y’all’s turn!

@rottingelysium @rmaram19 @socialdoki @lnradford @kira-serialfaggot @viola-canadensis @ahamkaracature

“I just came from r/196” ask game

Saw another post. I think I should invite y'all to one of our longstanding traditions. Answer the questions then tag 10 (or more) people. I'll go first.

Name? Frankie

Pronouns and gender? he/they/it, transmasc

Sexuality? Lesbian

Country? USA

Top 5 fandoms? Bungou Stray Dogs, Cosmere, All for the Game, Fundiesnark (not a series but I'm too deep in it to not consider it a fandom), .....the tornado fandom? (they're my special interest)

What is your Most forbidden snack? The preserved bones at the Atlanta Bodies Exhibition. They looked so crunchy...

Would you pet a bug? If it's big enough, it is pettable.

Share a weird fact/story about yourself with the class. I like to drive around rural areas and photograph old, sometimes abandoned locations in the dead of night. I have been literally chased out of towns by foot and by car on two separate occasions. The second time this happened, "See You Again" by Miley Cyrus came up on shuffle and that's the soundtrack my friend and I tore out of town to. Also every "guy" I've dated except for my most recent ex (who has big egg energy) is a lesbian now.

What does the color blue taste like? Creme brulee

What is the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? The appalachian mountains of Tennessee in the middle of summer. There's kudzu everywhere. On the backroads, there were several old, dilapidated Baptist churches barely hanging to the side of the mountain. I wonder how many of them were still in use.

What is the stupidest thing you've ever done? Short version: my friend's house almost got broken into by this dude who'd been stalking us for months while we were home alone. Instead of calling the cops, we decided to confront him with a bow and arrow (me), a hatchet, and a baseball bat (him). The plan was that if it went badly, we would simply throw his corpse into one of the many lakes in the neighborhood and let the alligators eat his remains (this was Florida). Why? Because we were afraid of having our home-alone privileges revoked. Luckily for us all, the guy fucked off and we never saw him again.

Stupidest thing you've seen/heard someone else do/say? My ex thought that Jackalopes were real. Also, a nurse I was doing rotations with apparently thought that "Witness Protection" was for Jehovah's Witnesses.

Hyperfixation song? Young Enough + Bleach by Charly Bliss

Is there any meaning behind your profile picture and/or username? Profile pic; I'm transmasc and I'm currently obsessed with TriStamp. Username; It was my fake internet name when I was like 13. I won't change it because I want my mutuals to recognize me, and because I do have a viral post associated with this name.

Dream career as a child? Doctor (funnily enough I'm now in nursing school)

Dream career as an adult? Professional Jester. Not a comedian. I just want to be some weird little guy who dresses silly and you can hire me to roast your boss at work parties.

Thoughts on cilantro? Delicious

Have you ever been banned from a location and if so, why? I honestly can't remember? Probably... but in recent memory I've mainly banned people from places.

What is your cursed food combination? Pineapple on a hotdog with grilled onions. It Slaps.

Trans rights? TRANS RIGHTS

Tagging: @rocket-mankoi @mostlymarco @atleast8courics @jazzlike39 @gemsweater72 @limbobilbo @ameliaaltare @redcrane112 @theoneofwhomisblue @twinkenjoyer @theultimatecarp and anyone else who wants to jump on

[roanniom]

The "came for Eddie and stayed for ADCU" is back, and like, really, I legit think I found anotjer lost twin out there because my reaction to Eddie Munson on the first episode was EXACTLY the same, like, "who TF is this dude and why does his face makes me so angry", to me eventually realizing that "shit, he's pretty, and cool, and sweet and I don't like it", to being honest about having the hots for him reading fanfics, like HOW DOES HE DO THAT?

Btw, him, Adam and Poe Dameron are outliers on my list of hot dudes, lost in a sea of pretty and femboy-ish kpop dudes and I don't get my lizard brain logic most of the time and its questionable taste in men.

Lastly, may I call myself blue anon? It looks like the asks will keep on coming, your ADCU fics are FANTASTIC and I love that I've found content to appease my switchy switch nature, thank you for sharing those! I have a long list of Kylo Ren works that are dear to me, but writers will often pick either very, very dom!Kylo, or write him sub-ish, amd it's refreshing seeing the same high-quality work for BOTH

Well hello there, newly minted blue anon 💙. Yeah I feel you. He has some magic in him and it is addictive. I cannot handle it. Also, I love that for you as far as your eclectic taste. I am not crazy well versed in Kpop but I do love BTS and I enjoy KDramas (recently binged The Business Proposal in one sitting basically lol).

And OH MY GOD THANK YOU for pointing out the switch thing. I think the biggest thing fanfic has taught me about myself - aside from several kinks lol - is that I am most certainly a switch and I am most attracted to switches.

It’s the best of both worlds. You get literally all of the sexiness in every direction. You also might notice that my reader characters are usually pretty confident or at least give as good as they get - I kinda use my fics as personal wish fulfillment about how I wish I was lol. May we all be as sassy and pleasure-driven as RC.

Thank you so much for reading and do please continue to send asks. I really appreciate it - makes it feel less like I’m screaming filth into the void lol

[remuswriting]

skirts; s. koushi

Summary: Y/N has a box in his closet that he doesn’t tell anyone about.

Pairing: Sugawara x Male! Reader

Format: Headcanons

Word Count: 925 words

Warnings: suggestive but not much

Notes: Uh, this kind of sucks but content lol.  I am god awful at second person but it just be that way sometimes.

You didn’t like the term femboy

Actually you hated it

You felt like it invalidated trans women, especially after they said it definitely did

You liked the fashion though

Of course, you knew there was a difference between wearing the fashion and the term, so you started to collect clothing pieces

Maybe a skirt from some mall you went to alone

A top from an online store that you just fell in love with.

Black thigh high socks because you thought they matched everything

You also discovered they were incredibly warm.

There were other things like a gold chain choker and shoes but you never wore any of it.

You were too scared to actually wear any of it.

It wasn’t like you’d feel less of a man but it was the fear of it being a real “dirty little secret.”

It wasn’t until you started dating Sugawara that you fully thought about it.

He went through your closet constantly to steal clothes from you.

The clothes you feared him finding were in a box shoved in the farthest corner of your closet.

After a couple months, you were pretty sure he wouldn’t find it until he did.

You were ready for him to break up with you when he pulled the box out of your closet.

“Hey, Y/N, what’s this?” He asked as he opened to look inside.

You were ready to die.

It also didn’t help that you were a terrible liar but you tried not to think of that now.

“Oh, that’s my sister’s. I’m on to it for her,” you lied and he gave you a confused look.

“You don’t have a sister.”

Well he got you there.

“These are cute pieces,” he said as he touched all of them. “When do you wear them?”

“I don’t,” you said as you stared at your hands in your lap. “I’ve never even tried them on.”

Suga was silent, which made you panic.  He was probably debating on breaking up with you, wasn’t he?  This had to be the end of the best relationship you’ve ever had.

“There aren’t any socks,” Suga stated and he looked up to see he had laid the outfit out on the bed.

“Oh, I wear those under my pants in the winter.  They’re black.”

Koushi shook his head as he put his hands on his hips. “You need white socks for this.”

“How would you know?”

“Remember Asahi?” Suga asked and you nodded.  You had met him and Daichi at a bar not long ago. “He’s a fashion designer and ripped my fashion to shreds all throughout high school and college.”

You could faint remember that but you had gotten completely wasted.

Daichi had dared you to a drinking contest for a reason you could not remember and you somehow won.

“You should try this on.” Suga walked over to you and cupped your face. “I’m pretty sure it would look cuter on you.”

After maybe 10 minutes of coaxing, he sent you off to the bathroom.

You stared at the white button down blouse and green and blue plaid tennis skirt.  All you had to do was put it on.

What if you look bad though? Suga would see it and wouldn’t think you were attractive anymore.

You weren’t sure how long it took to put the shirt on before tucking it into the skirt like you had seen in photos before.

Koushi had been right that this wouldn’t be the best with black socks but you would’ve most likely worn them anyways after realizing how cold it was to wear a skirt.

When you finally looked in the mirror, you didn’t know how to feel.

You knew you looked okay but it was just weird for some reason.

Maybe the climax of finally wearing it didn’t meet the suspense leading up to it.

“Y/N, are you done yet?” Suga asked from behind the door and you took in a deep breath.

You didn’t expect Koushi to blush at the sight of you.  His face was bright red and he looked embarrassed about it as he covered his face with his arm.

“What do you think?” You asked after extended silence lingered over you two.

“You look really good,” he said as he took a step forward and straightened your shirt. “Like really good.”

“Really?” You asked and his reaction was more than him just saying you had expected. “Like you really think so?”

He pulled you close to him and you finally felt his erection.

Oh, okay.

It wasn’t the first time he had been turned on by you wear certain clothes.

It had been near impossible to keep him tamed when you wore a suit.  Or the time you wore something your friend had picked out for you.

Both times ended with you fucking him until he cried.

“Too bad this skirt was expensive.”

“You’re so mean, Y/N,” he whined, just like he always did when he didn’t get his way.

“Take a picture for later,” you joked but he whipped out his phone so fast.

“Okay, will you please sit on the bed for the first one?” He started and you laughed  little before you kissed him.

“You’re so annoying.”

You loved him though and you were happy he didn’t think any less than you.

You were also prepared for him to get you more clothes like this.

He did and may have went overboard but you kissed him with a small “thank you.”

Now you weren’t sure why you were so panicked about it to begin with when he was showing you all the outfits he bought for you.

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[cupidsintern]

i was tagged by @withoneheadlight who is one of my fav mutuals of all time so jot that down

1. why did you choose your url?

i have hyperfixated on the concept of love since i was 13. cupid has long since been the personification of that hyperfixation because of two books: Juliet Dove, Queen of Love and The House of Hades (yes the pjo book).

so now im his intern in spreading love and chaos which means i get him coffee every morning and he doesnt pay me.

2. any side-blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

i used to have a phineas and ferb sideblog on my old acc. it was a doof fanblog. i miss it

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

two and a half years

4. do you have a queue tag?

lol no im not that put together

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

to impress a girl. it worked tho

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

picrew of me self explanatory. if u want mullet proof lmk

7. why did you choose your header?

I change it a lot im just big into pinterest and i like picking new Good Images with A Lot Of Gender

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

on my old acc it was Firsts! one of my fav fics ive ever written :)

9. how many mutuals do you have?

idk?

10. how many followers do you have?

idk lol

11. how many people do you follow?

120?

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

yes why is this a question do people have serious blogs???

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

like once before bed lmao

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

yeahhhhhhhh. many times. ive been cancelled before lmao. it's no secret i'll explain: I'm gnc and i called myself a 'femboy' as a joke as i am transmasc (thats the best way to describe it) and like to do drag (to look fem for fun) and i was cancelled for unlawful slur reclamation lmao. also i talked abt how nazis in germany brainwashed children after watching jojo rabbit and how i felt bad for them (the kids) and would want to write abt that and got called a nazi sympathizer.

i just moved accounts lol

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts

hate em. as someone who has OCD for real i hate the stupid guilt driven virtue signaling lol

16. do you like tag games?

YES makes it feel like were all on a lil talk show interviewing each other :)

17. do you like ask games?

yes! same reason

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

i dont know lmao

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

am dating @thehappycrockpot <3

20. tags?

@thehappycrockpot @holdenduckfield @awickedplacethisis @thinger-strang @draculcid idk who has and hasnt done this no pressure <3

[iwaisa]

request. Could we possibly get more femboy hc’s but with iwaizumi, oikawa and osamu ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ (it’s fine if you don’t want to lol) - anon

a/n. hehe yes !! it was actually super fun to write last time so here’s another one !

part 1 | part 2 | part 3

iwaizumi, oikawa, and osamu with a femboy boyfriend

- pairings. iwaizumi, oikawa, and osamu x male reader

- genre. nsfw ! (characters are 18+)

- warnings. nsfw, swearing

► now shuffling…

nsfw below the cut !!

literally almost screamed when he saw you in the kitchen

for a moment he thought you were some intruder or some stalker but then he was like “wait that’s y/n’s hair colour”

you didn’t notice him come in yet but you surely did when he snuck up behind you with a hand on your ass LMAO

“what’s this? a new kink?”

iwa… not everything relates to the bedroom

seriously, hajime iwaizumi (19) (aoba johsai grad) college sophomore (sports science) is horny 24/7 control him

but when he sees you in a skirt and thigh-highs ??? he’s going feral save yourself

“hajime, this is my style,”

he literally had to back up and get an actual good look at you when he noticed your serious tone

“shit, really?”

honestly you began sweatdropping because he looked so…just...blank

“you’re hot,”

you sighed a breath of relief as you watched him come up to you and give you a sweet kiss on the lips

he asked why he hasn’t seen this style and you tell him you’ve been really anxious about telling him and how he would react

he assures you he wouldn’t have seen you any differently and that his love for you is still burning

as is his desire for you 😌

he will actually take you on the kitchen counter don’t test him

so that’s exactly what he does 🤩🤩

honestly as soon as you walked out of your shared bedroom after changing he literally began whooping and hollering at you

“holy shit, you look hot as hell”

he totally knew something was up when he saw a skirt in the bathroom one morning but he chose to let you tell him

obviously his acting wasn’t good as he kept using grand hand gestures and feigning a shocked face

but then he definitely stops acting when he sees you fidgeting

“you really think so?”

he nods exaggeratedly, coming up to you to mess with the tops of your thigh-highs

“i think you look amazing. not to mention i’m totally horny right now”

“tooru,”

“what? can’t i just admire my boyfriend and tell him he’s giving me a painful hard-on at the same time?”

please i know i say this with each guy but c o n t r o l  h i m

he definitely will ask you to dress him up in your style after the two of you have some bomb ass sex

he’ll take so many pictures but will only post them if you want

he already has multiple pictures up on his page of himself but he wants one of you too because you’re so hot ugh

don’t get me wrong, but i think osamu would be the most confused about this

he was probably used to atsumu dressing in skirts as a joke when they were kids but seeing you lounging on the couch in the living space decked out in a crop top, a skirt, and fishnets ??

you didn’t even notice him walk in dude’s stealthy as hell

so when you look up from your phone to see this man towering over you there’s nothing else to do but scream

“why are you screaming out here when you should be screaming in bed?”

I - PLEASE

he’s so flirty and it doesn’t even like, phase him

except it does and he has to walk to the kitchen to put his groceries away to hide his blush and his boner -

so you decide to tease him a lil, yk?

you go up behind him and blow on the back of his neck causing him to literally yelp

he turns around and upon seeing your full body now, he decides maybe he could put the groceries away later

after the two of you literally have the best sex of your life, he comes back to his melted frozen items

he almost starts crying but he’s just glad that he truly knows who you are

he made sure to praise you the whole time, never making it seem like he didn’t like you anymore

[rosetower]

It’s just really .... I don’t know how to explain to others the feeling of growing up and being sorted into “girl” but everybody knows you’re not. Everybody knows you’re not. The ostracization you face because you are viably not “girl” by their standards is incredible. And then there’s the whole “my junk doesn’t even look like anybody else’s does” issue too. Like always being able to look in your pants and for me like... there’s a dangling thing there. I have always known inherently that what I am is not “female”, I have never been treated like someone who fits in the idea of what “female” can be as a whole. It’s that sweet sweet biological essentialism... it’s the core of so much ideology that leads to nothing but pain. 

I don’t understand “womanhood”, and I never will, and I never have been a woman, and I never will be a woman. And frankly I don’t want to understand “womanhood” as some people define it, because it’s painful, and because I know too many women who are excluded by the definitions people give of “womanhood” and that’s too painful for me, too. I hate that more than anything, watching the people I love be excluded from things they have a right to exist in. It’s fine if people kick me out because I’m Rose or whatever but I can’t fucking stand it when my friends are in pain because of it. 

But there is a little catch to this all. I do understand “girlhood”, but only specifically “other”. I don’t know how to explain this in a way that people who don’t have that like untapped schizo shit going on will get. It’s like. Girl (other). Or rather, other (girl). Weird girls, fucked up girls, girls who aren’t real, girls who are real but were manufactured. Girls who are .... psychic glittering death machines. Girls who were made. Girl as a machine? Machine girl? Like "girl” but in transhumanistic senses. Girl but wrong. Tumblr girl. Psych ward girls. Crazy girls. You know? I don’t consider it the main thing that I understand as an identity or experience. And it absolutely isn’t something that’s along the lines of cisgender concepts at all, because it literally is about being other, it literally is about being outside the ranges of what is “acceptable” but still having to be (or wanting to be) (or being) a “Girl”. It’s the broadest abstract ranges of what “girl” can be. For me this kind of girl is made and constructed and given a learning manual that it has to read through. I don’t know lol. This was something I experienced greatly when I was younger and still a child, before I lived as a boy for some time as a teen. And then again when I had to transition back to femininity. 

I identify as Italian (gay). My gender and sexuality are fluid. I identify now as an intersex man. I don’t really necessarily consider myself multigender including this - like, girl (other) isn’t really a Gender I Have, but a Gender I’ve Experienced Deeply And Can Experience Again. I don’t even really consider myself bigender; though I do joke about being a nonbinary man and then like, nothing, non-aligned, null, void. The manhood I have experienced my whole adult life is based off of a standard of manhood that is literally best summed up as what a malewife is. It’s actually shockingly close to butch identity, too. It’s in that fine little niche. Lately sometimes I’ve been getting comfortable referring to myself in butch, but I need to clarify that when I say I’m butch I mean this in the most gender neutral of ways, in the “I’m not a lesbian anymore” way but in the “the femboy in my house that lives there doesn’t want to do any of the house repair work, the gnc gay man who’s my girlfriend and deadbeat husband (jokingly) doesn’t want to do it either, and the straight guy who is also gnc doesn’t want to do it and frankly I don’t care to make him, so I might as well do it anyways”. 

For me the whole malewife thing is serious. My standard of manhood is influenced by my father, who basically did... most of the wife duties except give birth and nurse a child, which my mother did poorly anyways. And my father was not exactly happy about it, but he has a strong sense of responsibility for his family in terms of what their necessities need to have. That’s the kind of manhood I grew up understanding. Cooking, cleaning, taking care of house and home, protecting one’s family, making sure they’re fed, etc. etc. ... and my god, the vanity. My father isn’t the Italian one (lol) but he was vain and he made a point of looking good. The way my father expressed his self as a man is something I grew up admiring deeply. He wasn’t ... fruity, but he was still apparently vain enough that my mother would speculate as to whether he was gay or not while she was busy destroying her own marriage (and life, family, etc.). I appreciated his aesthetics, his sense of responsibility, and his taking care of the home. To combine the breadwinner and housemaker responsibilities into one. I was like, fuck yes! Maximum fucking power! 

So that comes down to me. I was already being raised half as a son by my father, also the wrong kind of “boy” because of how he treated me - calling me a sissy, a faggot, making fun of me for acting like a girl at times (...???) but also never enforcing standards of womanhood on me, whether he understood it or not innately. That was a sort of freedom. He was okay with me being whatever the fuck I was, as long as I didn’t put too many words to it. Of course that’s not to say he’s not transphobic or whatever... but he’s always going to have to live with the fact that I am what I am. And I don’t think he has it in me to completely disown me. 

I can’t really necessarily identify as butch 100% because I still identify as femme. I literally present as femme. I wear skirts and dresses and I enjoy how I look wearing them. I appreciate the feminine figure on myself. I enjoy performing an exquisitve, luxurious, rich femininity that’s beyond anybody’s reach, golden hued and brilliant. But I will do the dirty jobs too so to speak. I’ll go butch if it’s needed. And frankly, part of my femininity that I’ve accepted about myself will always try to be entwined with my masculinity anyways. Like a butchy femme. Or a femme-y butch. I don’t like “futch” though. And I’ll never be able to disentwine it from my intersex experiences. Hence why I am.... intergender

[koukouture]

Ok so Soul Dancers...

If you really think about it from a more anime based perspective, Soul Dancers are pretty overpowered. I mean, they’re Powerful magicians who can bend time and the fabric in between worlds. In the game, sure, they’re nothing more than Support, but, imagine a Soul Dancer in an anime adaptation of Dragon Raja. 

Think about that for a moment. 

They can speed up time, use powerful magic to heal themselves and others, and holy shit they have a GEMINI who NEVER leaves they’re side and can DOUBLE their attack power. Can you imagine what an S ranked Soul Dancer with little control over their powers could do? Imagine the damage of unharnessed magic that can BEND time and space. 

Now, first of all, let’s take a look at each class and how much magic they output. 

Most of the melee Classes output very little magic. I mean, it’s a lot, but, compare it to most of the ranged classes and you really start to wonder. Gunslingers and Blade Masters both output the least, maybe throw fighter class in with them. Gunslingers and Fighters rely on technology rather than magic. Fighter have their gauntlet thingies and their robots, Gunslingers use high tech weaponry like satellites, walking land mines, and machine guns.

Now, the other classes. 

Blade Masters and fighters both rely on physical strength. From what I know and have observed, Blade Masters lean more on physical damage. Fighter classes too since they use martial arts.  

Assasins and Reapers use a combination of both physical and magical damage, with the sacrifices being extremely fragile. They both output tons of magic and they have melee skills too. Sure, in game Reapers aren’t shown to use it, but, Reapers clearly swing their scythe as if to attack someone close to them, sure sickles offer more range than say a sword, but they aren’t purely ranged either. The official game description says that they’re magicians, so their scythe could channel their power like a wand or staff, that could also be used for combat. 

And the two classes with the most use of magic are I think the Puppeteer class that’s coming out soon, and Soul dancers. They carry no weapons and use raw magic to deal damage. 

So, this begs the question: where in the FUCK did Soul dancers come from? 

I have two possible answers, but before I get into those, I feel the need to bring this up. 

Gender and their rarity.

I think that Soul dancers are rather uncommon, but not completely un heard of. Philosophers know about them, so they probably have the same ratio to blind and deaf people. You can go your entire life without meeting someone like that, but they’re not incredibly rare either. But, they could have dwindled over the years, maybe once it was like that, but at one point they disappeared completely and were so rare and so hard to find that most people who claim to be Soul dancers are hoaxes. 

The second thing is Gender. 

I have a reason to believe that Soul Dancers are probably more common in females than males. Why? Well, if you look at all the classes, the Soul dancer shows you the female option. It’s small, but, I also believe that it might be true. Soul dancers are delicate, and even if a Soul Dancer were to be a male, they wouldn’t have much physical prowess. Girls are naturally built smaller, of course, they can be stronger than average guys too, but, girls are usually smaller and usually don’t have the brute strength that men do. This is just my opinion, and with the twirling and everything, I have a reason to think so. 

Male Soul dancers would do great at femboy hooters lol

Now, the two possibilities of the class that I mentioned:

The first that during MC’s time, Soul dancers were in the ‘uncommon, but not completely unheard off’ ratio. Herzog knows this and plucks MC off the streets or whatever, hoping to combine their Soul Dander abilities with dragon blood. And maybe after the bombing, Soul Dancers disappear and are a distant thing of the past. Anjou and the older characters would know about them, but since they aren’t Soul Dancers themselves and probably don’t know anything about them, they can’t offer any information to MC. 

The second, is that Soul Dancers are supper fucking rare and Herzog manages to get his filthy hands on MC, probably hearing through the grape vine that a Soul Dancer had a child somewhere. I personally believe that Herzog killed MC’s parents when they were too young to remember so yeah. Anyways, he brings the little one to Siberia to multiply their potential with dragon blood. 

Side note, I think that Dragon Blood enhances any and all abilities, and since MC was forcibly injected as opposed to being born with it, their talent is unstable. But that’s probably not true so NEXT.

But that really makes me wonder, where did MC learn how to use their powers if it’s so rare? Maybe the Gemeni taught them? They do double the damage so they must know about it. Idk, Soul dancers are just weird in the sense that considering the setting, they wouldn’t even know how to use their powers. I mean, all the classes are like this, so, I’m gonna make more theories on it I guess. 

I’m probably just over any living this but lol that that’s what theorists do. 

[catboybiologist]

I'm trans! Here's a way-too-long ramble on my internal thoughts on that!

My other posts on this:

https://www.tumblr.com/catboybiologist/725852054829023232/im-going-to-document-some-things-about-my?source=share

https://www.tumblr.com/catboybiologist/725851397783011328/the-short-answer-is-no-but-im-gonna-have-a?source=share

So yay I’m trans! Which like, is neither unexpected nor abnormal for the community I’ve fostered here, so I’m guessing most of y’all’s reactions is just a “hey cool”. But, you see the online side of me, not the irl side, so there’s still a lot of thoughts to sort out on my end. So I’m dumping a lot of thoughts here to sort all that out. And hoooly shit, it got very long, and I still feel like I have more to say… but yeah. If you wanna hear some perspectives on my relation to gender, transness, and femboy culture, read on!

I guess the best way I can think to style this is as an interview with an imaginary third person, sooo…. Bold text is questions I can imagine people having LOL

So what’s my own personal relationship with the term femboy, catboy, and gendered terminology in general? Is the name of your accounts gonna change?

Short answer, no. I like the name CatboyBiologist. “Catboy” itself is a term that is completely untethered from gender at this point to me. Tbqh, the “cat” part feels more wrong than the boy part- as time goes on, I’ve generally ditched the cat ears for most of my outfits as I take them a bit more seriously. Maybe that’ll change when my transition actually starts, but for now, CatboyBiologist stays, and the femboy related language stays in all of my own past posts (keyword, past- more on that in a bit).

I’m not gonna be updating my approach to pronouns. Any pronouns do just fine, I’m sending a vibe into the world and pronouns are my feedback as to what other people interpret that vibe is. Default to they/them if you don’t know what to do with that.

I will be updating my pinned post to link all of these posts, but mostly copy/paste the information from before. That might take a moment cuz I’m lazy, tbh.

And let’s get something else out of the way.

I’m not socially transitioning yet, and probably won’t for a while.

Which, I think leads to a lot of follow up:

Well, why not?

I present fully male and masculine on a day to day basis, and look the part too. Part of it is just this looks insecurity. The mask stays on in my pictures for a reason. Beyond just facial hair (which grows aggressively on me and always shows some shadow), my face looks pretty masculine overall. It takes time to look the way I do in my posts. I wanna give my face and body some time to change so I can look more femme in more casual ways before I present it to the world.

Beyond that, I’m also just worried about being “accepted” as femme straight off the bat. Implicitly, I know this will be easier if I already have some small amounts of physical feminization down my belt.

There’s two main environments that worry me: family, and professionally. Family is a weird hot mess grey area that is too personal to talk about here, but the professional atmosphere is certainly going to be a bit… weird. I live in an accepting geographic region, and around people who are very outspokenly trans supportive…. But most of whom are cishet and simply don’t have a lot of experience seeing or working around trans people. I’m more afraid of being seen as “trans first, biologist second” as far as my career is concerned, than I am about outright transphobia. I know this will never fully go away, and given that I’m 6’2”, I’ll probably never “fully” pass- but I’d at least like people to implicitly read my as femme on a gut level before I start changing how I present that way. One thing my irl femboy experience has shown me is that, even if people can “clock” you intellectually, the way their gut instinct reads you affects whether they treat you as masc or femme. I hope that makes sense on some level. Of course its always going to be an awkward shift, but I hope some time on HRT will make it less awkward.

I’ve come out to one person that doesn’t know about this online persona, or the depths of my queerness. They straight up told me they were shocked. They were incredibly supportive, but they told me they didn’t see it coming at all. And they already knew that I “crossdressed occasionally”. So that’s kinda what I’m working with here.

Essentially, I’m not actually truly “transitioning” in a real sense yet. More than that, I feel like I’m getting the ball rolling. If there’s anything I learned in my research, it’s that HRT takes a while, much longer than anyone expects (suppressing my rant about how the media cherrypicks people in early transition for trans representation and the effect that has on public perception). Two years is often cited as the “end” point, but based on both scientific and anecdotal accounts, that is wildly untrue and variable. I also know that the first changes onset quickly (skin and mood, most notably), but that overall body shape changes sometimes take a VERY long time to start and progress. So to be quite honest, I barely feel like I’m transitioning yet, I’m just laying groundwork for the future.

So yeah. I’m gonna be boymoding for a bit. Possibly a year or more. Even for the people who know, I’ve still asked them to address me as he/him or they/them, and use my masculine name for now (haven’t even really decided on a femme name yet, although I have ideas [open to suggestions as well]).

Wait, so why address it online at all?

Put simply, honesty. I’m displaying a lot of selfies and experimentation with my look here, and I want to make it abundantly clear what I’m doing to have an effect on that. People have asked me if I’m on HRT in comments before, and like, I’m not gonna lie about that. Might as well also make a shitpost, a data gathering post, and a too-long ramble about it as well (which you’re reading now!).

There are a LOT of body image issues in femboy spaces (and trans spaces too!), often among very young people. While I have no issue with people on HRT continuing to call themselves a femboy (more on that in a bit), I do think transparency on that matter is helpful for those body image issues.

So to make it abundantly clear: all of my selfies and pictures that I’m labeling and tagging as “femboy” are pre-HRT. In the future, everything I tag with “trans” is post-HRT. I still got 1-2 weeks before actually starting, and I’m still going to use the femboy tag for any outfits I post during that time. The moment an estradiol pill hits my mouth, though, new pics will use trans tags.

Posts that relate to discussion of the interplay of the communities, and how I view myself within them, I’ll tag with both.

Which leads to another follow up question. This one isn’t about me specifically, but it’s my hot take about a certain brand of trans discourse I’ve seen around (mostly on reddit tbh):

Why would someone who knows they’re mtf trans willingly call themselves a femboy and/or request people to “misgender” them?

So this is actually gonna be striking a nerve with me, and I know I’m gonna kinda be strawmanning here by arguing against the ghost of reddit comments past. I’m not gonna try to dig any of them up in the internet archive, but they are sentiments I’ve seen multiple times.

I’ve seen this question almost word for word in the comments of trans subreddits multiple times. Imma be blunt, and it’s maybe gonna sound a little mean. If this thought is going through your head, you’re likely way more sensitive and particular about labels than most people. And that’s okay! Ask people to address you how you want, you deserve that respect! But the real answer to this question is that many people simply don’t mind being called whatever label is most useful or familiar to themselves in various contexts.

The moment that it becomes completely unacceptable is when someone does actually change their pronouns, name, presentation, etc, and people still address them as “male” or “femboy”. That is completely the fuck out of line, and if you don’t agree, fuck off.

Why does this strike a little bit of a nerve with me? Well, the “conclusion” I saw reached in these trans spaces multiple times when the subject was brought up was annoying as hell. That conclusion was that the only or primary reason that people labeled themselves a femboy, even while on HRT… was to sell their onlyfans. My fucking god, seriously? This is just conservative rhetoric. Luckily, on tumblr, it seems that people are a lot more accepting towards people using whatever language they like to describe themselves, which I’ve enjoyed a lot.

I’ve also had a lot of hate towards “fencesitting” directed at me on reddit, from trans people, for calling myself a femboy. I can’t remember it verbatim, but I very distinctly recall getting a DM that went something like “I fucking hate femboys, just transition already. You’re making us (transfemmes) look bad.” So yeah. Bit of a sore spot.

Yadda yadda yadda the personal journey shit

If I can be real for a moment…. In an ideal world, I would still want to be a part time femboy. Even moreso than the sheer utility of it all (eg, enjoy cis male privilege when I want, but still get treated more femme in certain contexts), it feels almost more profound to fuck with gender norms without sitting on one side of the gender line or another. But I can’t really ignore what I’ve described as my “mental resting state”- a baseline crackle of dysphoria that fills the space in my head when there’s nothing else to fill it. It’s easily distracted, but its always there, and I can’t imagine living my life that way anymore.

I’ve pretty much known I was trans since I was about 12, and had a realization that puberty was just starting to hit me, and I hated it. I suppressed it deeply, for many, many reasons that I don’t think I want to share here. But it made a lot of other mental health struggles in my life a lot worse, even if I didn’t consciously acknowledge that’s what was happening. By the time I was willing to consciously acknowledge it, I realized that my dysphoria wasn’t so bad as to dive in right away. But, I made moves to stabilize my life overall, which have been massively beneficial to me in other ways as well.

During the pandemic, I found myself living alone for the first time ever. So during the pandemic, in one last ditch effort to try to convince myself I wasn’t trans, I delved into femboy aesthetics to try and “just be a feminine man”.

That failed.

So yeah, here I am. I have a wonderful queer community both irl and online, a meagre but stable income, health insurance that has great coverage for trans care, and accepting people around me in my life. It’s long overdue. Maybe I’ll beat myself up for waiting so long and masculinizing so much as a result, but I don’t think I really could have done it any other way.

This all said, I don’t actually really consider myself a woman yet. I’m sure many of you are aware of two different ways transfemmes view themselves(and trans people in general, but using a transfemme perspective here):

-Some view themselves as having always been girls or women, but took some time to realize it and make their body more comfortable for themselves with that information.

-Others view themselves as boys or men who made efforts to become women later.

I fall strongly in the second line of thinking for myself. For my own personal experiences, even though I have felt dysphoria for a long time, I don’t really think I’m “actually” a woman yet. I don’t know what my identity as a woman looks like yet. But I deeply want to discover and create who that person is, and there’s no way to do that without transitioning.

B but… BASIC BIOLOGY!!!!!

How many biology degrees do you have? I got a BS and an MS, and I’m working on my PhD. I’m sure you’ve brought a similar level of expertise to this discussion.

But seriously, I could genuinely write an entire fucking essay about how studying biology has influenced my views on this subject, but honestly, that’s an entirely different topic. But tl;dr is that bioessentialism is brainrot, and if someone tries to use essentialist language to “justify” someone’s transness (or gender in general)… well, I think they’re wrong. Plain and simple. We don’t say someone isn’t “really able to see” if they put glasses in front of their eyes.

I’m stopping myself before I write more here, because this warrants another post or even a fucking video essay, to be quite honest. But yeah. Biology based.

Conclusion?

Uhhhh… in conclusion, I’m not particular about language or pronouns you use for me, I’m making posts about it anyways to ensure honesty associated with my selfies, if you’re transphobic jump of the tallest bridge you can find. I think that about covers it.

[yikesharringrove]

Steve and Billy are hanging out at Cherry Lane and Steve goes on Billy's computer while Billy's in the bathroom to look something up and accidentally pulls up the page he had open the night before which is a porn hub search for "brunette twink". Steve contemplates whether or not he should keep it to himself (and whether or not he gets caught by Billy is up to you

No smut, but vague descriptions of porn (I just say the titles of videos but they use a lot of sexual buzzwords lol).

Steve’s computer went dark.

He was sitting on Billy’s bed as they did their homework. Steve was plonking through an essay, Billy taking “breaks” from his math to read it over his shoulder and offer up suggestions.

He slammed random keys, trying to make it not dead.

“Fuck.” Steve looked around, grabbing Billy’s laptop from its place charging on the nightstand. He opened it, squinting as he poked in his password.

He blinked as it opened up to pornhub, specifically gay pornhub. Steve knew Billy was gay, knew he had to be in the closet for his own safety, so that didn’t shock him. He hadn’t told Billy about his own attraction to men, of his attraction to Billy.

What took him aback were the videos, all listed under the search for brunet twink. He stared at the videos, these dark haired guys getting fucking railed.

He pressed the back arrow, kinda, kinda interested in what else Billy looked up.

It switched to a video under the brunet twink search, one entitled Cute Twink Gets Spanked and Fucked. Steve stared with wide eyes, clicking the back button again.

The next video was called Femboy Rimmed Before Taking it Raw. Back. Bratty Bottom Takes Daddy’s Hard Cock. Back. Stud Breeds Skinny Twink.

He kept clicking back through videos. Not only were there a fuckton of them, like Jesus Billy, who watches this much porn in a fucking night, they all featured some beefy guy absolutely pounding into a cute brunet twink. A cute brunet twink that kinda, they all kinda looked like Steve.

Was he a twink? He’d never really thought about it, didn’t know all the classifications outside of twink and bear really. He wasn’t as skinny as these guys, had more lean muscle, broad shoulders. But he did have a small waist, and he always thought his hips were a little feminine, his ass. And of course, compared to Billy, who’s all broad, thick muscle, he supposed maybe, maybe he was a bit of a twink. And their smooth skin did look as pale and soft as Steve’s.

“What’s up, Stevie?” Steve startled, blinking up at Billy, slamming the laptop shut.

“Uh, nothing. My, my computer died so I, I borrowed yours.” Billy picked up the laptop, tugging it out of Steve’s tight grip with one eyebrow raised.

“Well, let me see what you’ve written so far.” He opened it, furrowing his brow at what was on it. “Why were you goin’ through my porn from last night?” Steve shrugged.

“Just, was lookin’. Are they, are they all from last night?” Billy laughed sitting down heavily next to Steve, clicking out of Femboy Bubblebutt with Cumshot.

“Dude, I’m stuck in this shitty hick town, that has no fucking queers in it. I haven’t gotten ass in months.” He put the laptop on Steve’s knees, opened to Google Docs. “Finish your essay.”

He went over to the couch he had squished in his room, kept doing his homework like Steve hadn’t just found out that Billy watches porn with guys that look like Steve.

He couldn’t focus on his essay, kept stealing glances at Billy, kept thinking about the videos he saw, thinking about him and Billy in those situations.

He realized he was actually getting kinda hard, picturing Billy slamming into him, filling him up, covering him in cum.

Billy stood up, stretching his arms above his head, making his shirt come up a little but, exposing the soft trail of hair that lead under his jeans. Steve stared at it.

“You haven’t written a damn thing, Pretty Boy.” Steve blinked, flashes of one of the videos, of Pretty Boy Throat Fuck.

“Sorry I just, you know my brain. Get all. Distracted.” Billy smiled softly at him.

“What, gay porn throwing off your delicate straight boy sensitivities?”

“Just the sheer amount of it. You really watch all those videos in one sitting?” Billy laughed, flopping back on the bed.

“I mean, I’m not like furiously whacking off the whole time. I like to kinda get myself pent up, makes for a good orgasm.” Steve could feel his face going hot. He thought about Billy getting himself pent up, figuring Steve until he cried and made a mess of himself until he felt he was hard enough to get going. He made a little hmmn noise in acknowledgement. Billy kicked him lightly.

“Why you bein’ so weird, Stevie?” Steve shrugged. Billy kicked him again.

“Just, didn’t know you had a type, is all.” It came out way harsher than he meant it, but he, his mind was reeling.

“Jesus. You gonna be so judgy about it, stop fucking asking.” Steve closed the laptop. He sighed heavily.

“I’m not being judgy-”

“No, you are. You knew I’m gay, but this is the first time you’ve actually had to face it head-on. If you’re fucking, disgusted by me or something, then just get the fuck out, because I don’t need that from you-”

“I’m bi.” Billy sat up, staring at Steve.

“Don’t bullshit around with me.” Steve looked down at the floor, knew Billy used bullshit on purpose.

“I’m not. I, I like guys. Too. In addition to liking girls.”

“Yeah, I know what bi means. Why didn’t you tell me?”

“I’ve never told anyone.” He whispered it to his socked feet. “I just, I’m not being judgy. Just didn’t know you had, had such a strong type is all.” Billy was giving him a weird look.

“Seriously, Pretty Boy. What’s going on? Most people have types.”

“You’re type is me.” Billy clenched his jaw. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath.

“You’re actually really not. I don’t, I don’t really have a type. Just kinda fucked around, whoever was down for it. But then, then I came here, and I fucking, I fucking met you, and, and I’m pretty much obsessed with you.” Steve’s stomach was fluttering.

“So you, you watch that kinda stuff, and you picture me.” Billy stood abruptly, pacing in front of the bed.

“Look, I’m sorry. You’re probably totally grossed out, and I get it, so you can, you can punch me in the face if you want and storm outta my life, but-” He didn’t get to finish.

Steve stood up, pulling Billy in by his t-shirt, slamming their mouths together.

It was awkward at first, Billy was rigid against Steve, and just as Steve was about to call it a loss, pull back and apologize, Billy arms came up, wrapping tight around his waist. He moaned into the kiss, started moving his mouth with Steve’s, licked into his mouth, made Steve shiver and whine. He bit Steve’s bottom lip gently before pulling back.

“Shit, Stevie. Been wanting to do that since I saw those pretty lips a’ yours.” He planted a wet kiss to Steve’s cheek. “If all it took was you findin’ out that I jack of to thoughts of you, woulda told you way sooner.” He was grinning, arms still tight around Steve’s waist.

“Yeah, coulda made those thoughts come true a long time ago.” Billy groaned, planting his face into Steve’s shoulder.

“Don’t tempt me like that. I’m about two seconds away from just having my fucking way with you.” Steve pressed a kiss to the side of his head, leaning to breathe into his ear.

“Dare ya.”

[winters-wonderland]

Hello,

I am in need of some help and am searching for from feedback from the source. I've created a character that I adore and I'm not sure if he would be classified as gender fluid or something else. I'm terrible at understanding the labels and terms, so please bear with me. Tumblr community, can you help me figure out what my character is? I'll start with what I know for sure (which isn't much lol) and then provide examples and characterization. Feel free to ask follow-up questions.

Name: Jay

Sex: Male

Gender: Male (ish???)

Sexual orientation: gay

Yeah that's about it. The only physical characteristic that probably matters to the topic here is that he's a natural Twink. Rather short with slim features, he's small and cute. He's 22 but still looks 15ish. Tends to act even younger. Has ADHD and is a tad bit unhinged. Hypersexual due to his professional history doing porn.

He's born a male and identifies as a male.

Uses he/him pronouns

Gay; interested in cis men only. (I'm not sure if he would be interested in a MTF {I pray I'm using these terms right} but he might provided that the individual would still use their given genitalia to fuck him. Basically He likes dick in his ass . I'm sorry.)

Has zero problem wearing clothing such as skirts, dresses, stockings. He doesn't care what he wears or who it's designed for. He likes the looks and the fabrics. The way it feels against his skin. He wears thongs and lace panties from the women's department while wearing board shorts and a tee. Loves skirts, especially ones that are pleated - is a fan of the school girl uniform look. Loves the stockings and skirts.

Has called himself a femboy.

Wears makeup and loves to look pretty. His skill is such that he can wear full makeup and not look like he's wearing anything. Loves praise for being pretty. Loves most adjectives that are usually geared towards females i.e beautiful, cute, pretty, gorgeous etc.

Shaves everything and uses baby oil to stay super soft and smelling good. Loves to be touched and pampered. Nails are manicured without nail polish most of the time. Also: body glitter

Doesn't consider himself a crossdresser or drag queen. He doesn't really think about such things. He will buy something like a girl's booty shorts with a girl's halter (girl's because of his small size, he fits into teenage and pre-teen's clothing. He loves cartoons anyway so it's bonus) top and be just as comfortable and confident wearing it as if he were wearing a men's tee shirt and jeans. To him, he just wears whatever he wants that he likes and doesn't even register what others might think. But he also doesn't think "I'm a boy wearing girls clothing." He thinks, "I'm wearing something pretty and comfy." I don't think he sees gender assignments in clothing or actions or events.

Would use the women's bathroom if it was acceptable. Not for any reason other than it's just a potty and it's available. For him it's a matter of convenience not a fight got identity or rights. He uses the men's room because he knows he's supposed to go in there both socially and legally. He knows he isn't a girl despite his acknowledgment of femme tendencies. Has entered a public bathroom wearing femme clothing and has received backlash. He doesn't understand why but this doesn't deter him from repeating the actions.

As yet developed, I sense he is special needs in some form. His understanding and comprehension tends to be more innocent than what is expected. This allows him to wear and act different without fear. To him it's just normal.

So there you have it. These are the things that are about my OC. He'll be making an appearance in a fic and that is why I need your help. I need to know what to tag.

Thanks!

[johns-prince]

Idk one thing that makes me think that John was bi and definitely more attracted to males is this: Yoko said that John was into beauty and although she's full of shit and awful I believe her on this one. Before you rip me apart I really love Cyn and May, but if you really look at the women and the men in his life it's clear that John had a thing for boys. The guys he was the closest to were absolutely gorgeous ( Stu was stunning, Brian was handsome as fuck and Paul was beyond gorgeous ) /

Like I said I really love them so please don't take it bad but when you look at his women you can't really Say the same thing about them: Cyn and May were really average and Yoko well... Yoko definitely looked like a bloke, I agree with John. Now, if John was really into beauty, he would have find gorgeous women, but nope! Idk if you see what I'm talking about, but to me it's clear that he was into males' beauty, much more than women

Hi, I’ve decided to give a go at this lol I don’t think my response makes any bloody sense but I tried, apologies in advance anyhow.

While Yoko is extremely wishy-washy, fickle with shit she’s decided to say and share in interviews and such, there are certain things she’s said that hold some kernel of truth or we should at least take note of. It’s rather easy to know when she’s spewing literal horseshit from her mouth, while other times, she might be giving us some important insight, though those little tidbits of what we could consider relevant she always tried retracting [often because it doesn’t help her or their image much] 

Though I wouldn’t say I needed Yoko claiming both her and John were into beauty [I mean, we all kind of are, but I digress, I understand] to believe it, because, and let me be weird for like a second, John’s a Libra. They covet beautiful things. Beauty is just, part of their inherent likes, to admire beauty.

That and, being an artist, I’m sure he did have a thing for “beauty.” too.

Of course beauty is in the eye of the beholder, subjective, all that philosophical jazz, but I understand what you mean.

I’m not going to rip you apart, because I hold a rather “controversial” opinion in regards to Paul’s wife Linda-- that is, we’re allowed to see these people contrary to what we assume the ‘bandom’ might push as the ‘’right/acceptable’’ and expected opinions.

We’re individuals, I don’t expect you to hold the same opinions, and I do enjoy hearing what people have to say as long as they’re clearly open, civil, friendly-like is always nice too. So, no, I shan’t rip into you lol 

I see where you’re coming from. 

For me, I find May very pretty, and I think Cynthia was pretty [cor that doesn’t really attest to if they were average pretty or not, I don’t know, but I can see why you see that, I do. I personally find Cynthia incredibly average looking, dare I say plain, when she was much younger, before doing her hair blonde and all that] But then again, compared to Yoko... well.

What Ronnie Hawkins said at the end of this interview, is the nicest way to put how I feel about Yoko in terms of her appearance;

“...what I couldn’t understand that he didn’t have about four or five of the most beautiful women in the world with him, because he could have.”

I know it might come off as insulting but it’s not like we were the one’s to say it first-- John was the one to say Yoko reminded him of a bloke in drag, so. 

I can’t say I’ve ever thought of it this way though, or took noticed like you did.

I think it depends. 

Dude clearly had a thing for drag queens and transvestites, even at an early age. 

I agree, many, most of John’s relatively close male friends were very attractive, very pretty, handsome; though there’s no 100% solid evidence that John felt any strong particular way towards Stu and Brian like he did towards Paul [that is, obviously something sexual happened between John and Brian, but I think that was mainly John experimenting and having the right sort of individual he could do so with, safely, and he might have pitied Brian in a way but, I don’t think he’d meant to hurt Brian or anything. I personally don’t agree it was a powerplay either] John indeed appeared attracted to, or at least drawn to, effeminate, feminine boys.

Not saying all his close male friends were effeminate, femboys [Pete Shotton, Mal Evans...] but I suppose we’re mainly talking about the individuals that, besides being “close”[I also think we could have a discussion of what it meant to be a close friend of John’s, because even if someone might’ve thought themselves close friends with John, they actually weren’t-- not many were; Paul was possibly the closest to close a male friend/relationship John could’ve had, besides Pete] have been rumored he’d had some sort of infatuation or tryst with, like Stu and Brian; Mick Jagger was a very pretty boy, those full lips and relatively soft features accentuated by the longer hairstyles of the 60s and 70s [whether you believe something happened between Mick and John is really up to you, I’m relatively neutral on it I don’t know, but there certainly was a lot going on during this [x] [x] [x] get together between them] and David Bowie is 100% an effeminate boy, and there had been this story, whether it’s true or not I don’t know so take it with absolutely a grain of salt, where a server or whoever caught note of a familiar pair of boots in a stall that belonged to John, David, but another pair of feet which could’ve been anyone, when at a party he’d attended with Yoko. Wish I could find the damn source for it [just another thing I wish I had cataloged better, damn me] 

Side note, I honestly believe John would’ve been rather interested in Tara Browne had it not been for the fact Tara was Paul’s friend, a friend who was very attractive, and artsy and bisexual, and Paul really seemed to dig him [though I do not believe Paul held any deeper feelings for Tara, as much as Tara might’ve had a crush on Paul]-- which had John feeling threatened and his jealousy/possessiveness shot through the bloody rooftops, as we know. Tara was to John as Stu was to Paul. 

I don’t know, you may be right. 

I personally believe John leaned more towards men specifically because he just seemed to enjoy, was happier, and was much more comfortable their company, friendship, the bond, more than women, but despite being gay or in a same-sex relationship wasn’t illegal in the UK anymore in 1967 [oh what a year] it was still easier to be with women than men, openly anyway.

Just because something becomes legal doesn’t mean culture and society are really on track with it, if you get what I mean. 

But anyway, yeah, I could see it, him being more attracted to “male beauty,” more than “female beauty,” if he were to lean more towards men in his bisexuality. I don’t know.

Anyway there’s my answer, it’s non-coherent, I’m sorry lol

Clearly John couldn’t officially be with the person he wanted to be with though, who was a man, because of issues and reasons we can only begin to assume and possibly pinpoint. Nobody can hold a candle to Paul, he is a bloody Adonis, and I’m sure John would’ve agreed, begrudgingly or partly jokingly. That and John’s soulmate.

I’m 100% they fooled about, and like 85%-90% positive they fucked. 

[princettegil]

Ya know, sometimes I wonder if I’m *too* strange? Like, if you looked at all my likes, interests, etc. you’d think I was competing for most special snowflake award! Alone, they’re probably not too weird (minus a few things that definitely are) but combined they really just look like I’m screaming for attention. And it makes me feel uneasy because that’s NOT the reason! I really and truly like all these things and deeply feel this way; there are no ulterior motives or tantrums screaming for attention via those interests and identities but I realize that they probably seem that way to others and I worry that I may be judged as trying too hard to be special or something and I’m really not. But it worries me still ‘cause, like, I mean, look at some of the things I really love/identify as! ●Anime/Manga/Cosplay (one of those not too weird alone things but…) ●Goth culture and fashion (a little strange to most folks, sometimes really strange to some) ●Halloween addict (I do mean extremely, 24/7/365) ●My obsession with cats (crazy cat lady/person, not insanely odd…) ●Acting like a cat, wearing cat ears all the time, meowing a lot, probably being catkin or therian, following kittenplay blogs because of it (definitely weird, esp the deeper you get to know my catty side) ●Being Trans/NB (especially wanting to be a feminine/extremely girly boy and not just a boy) ●Being ace (and demi pan-romantic) ●Ruling over my own micronation (definitely freaky to most people) ●Because of the above, using the gender-neutral title of ‘Princette’ ●I created my own religion (freaky extraordinaire. In my defense it’s mostly just a cat-goddess sort of Paganism but I also came up with a greater God of my own creation…) ●My new, legal name. I thought it was easy but apparently no one knows how to pronounce Gilraen Hime (even after spelling out the pronunciation – Gil-RAY-in He-May) And so many questions over what it means and where I got it. I really just should have went with Gil… orz Like I said, alone a lot of these things aren’t too strange. Being an anime fan irl isn’t too odd to most people on this site but to non-otaku and older folks it’s pretty strange and they can never seem to understand it. Dressing goth in rural KY? Ouch. Talking about Halloween in Spring/Summer/Winter? Somewhat odd but kinda okay-ish to most. Wearing cat ears? Okay, they’re quirky. Meowing and purring and identifying as a cat person? Something must be wrong with them. Being Trans/Ace/etc.? Odd. Being gay or bi would be fine but trans and ace and demi pan-romantic? WTF snowflake!? Especially wanting to be a girly femboy? Okay…why? You’re gonna dress and act the same so why?? Having a micronation? Ruling over my own land with my own laws and government and being a Princess---err Princette? Uhhh… is your head on okay? That’s just some sort of fantasy game right? Like, you’re not for real serious are you?? Creating my own religion? Fucking blaspheming freak. All of these things TOGETHER!? WHAT.THE.HOLY.FUCK.IS.WRONG.WITH.YOU!?!? Are you some sort of eccentric crazy psycho!? Special snowflake syndrome!? They must just want attention! What a freak! Weirdo. Somebody wasn’t hugged enough as a child. They’re definitely crazy! Obviously, they live in some fantasy world. This is the real world, honey. Act more normal okay? But it’s just really what I like! No other reasons! I’ve liked anime since I was 5 and watched Speed Racer and Gatchaman! Cosplaying makes me feel free! I love dressing like characters I feel so close too! And sometimes, the clothes are just so cool looking!! Goth clothes? Same deal! I love the way they look! And they make me feel better, pretty. So what if it’s not the normal definition of pretty! I think it’s beautiful! Unique and dark and ragged edges and flowing gowns and fabric and belts and straps and mesh and - - - lovely! Halloween is something I always liked and eventually won my ‘favorite holiday’ award lol. Fall, October… that crisp air, crunchy leaves, dressing up as anything or anyone you want, telling scary stories and watching horror movies, visiting beautiful cemeteries as the leaves turn to fire, being scared in haunted houses, laughing from the adrenaline, goth décor and clothing for cheap!, hay rides in the cool air, spooky accessories, that odd feel of something otherworldly… what’s not to love!! And as a goth, seriously best time of year to shop! Being catty and wearing cat ears and meowing is just another thing I love! I’ve always felt better and less anxious and more myself around cats, always loved learning about cats, wished I could be a cat, it feels natural to be cat-like. And cat ears are soooo cute!! Do I really have to explain my orientation and gender? It took me a long time to get to this point and accept what I am and it’s only lead to me feeling better about myself. I’ve always dreamed about being a Princess and with a micronation of my own, I can be! Not only that, I can create a place where I and others like me can feel safe and belong. I can create the world I wish for instead of just bemoaning the country I was born in and forced to obey. My religion is also better suited to my interests and beliefs. Sure, I made up a God and mythology but I know it’s just that – mythology and my creation. But is that really so different that most other religions if you look at them scientifically and historically? I still believe in other gods to some extent and to some extent I’m still a bit agnostic but it’s tenants are very Pagan and very much a reflection of the things I believe and revere, tinted with my own interests and things I know a lot about (cats.) It gives me the same hope that more accepted religions give to their adherents. So, I’m strange. Odd. Weird. Different. Eccentric. Quirky. But I’m not doing it for attention, I’m doing it cause I like these things and they make me feel happy. So my interests are a bit strange to most people and there’s a lot of them most would consider weird. So what? I’m me. I’m happy. And that’s all that matters. You’ll get no apologies from me for enjoying my life!

[lexingt0n]

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You monster I had to write all of this

1. Name?

   Wont tell you

2. Gender?

    I’m a guy

3. Birthday?

    Don’t celebrate it

4. Age?

    I’m 23 years young

5. Zodiac Sign?

    Libra

6. Sexuality?

    Bi-ish? i love women but i also like traps and femboys

7. Hobbies?

    Video games, WH40k, wanting to do art, and now gunpla building

8. Aesthetic?

    None really. I post what I like and usually stay away from drama.

9. Dream home?

    A nice two story home i built out of steel beams and adobe. One that can live thourgh it all.

10. OTP?

      I like meihem from overwatch

11. Favorite brand/ music genre?

     It depends on the day

12. Favorite songs?

      Right now its the Yakuza 0 ost. It’s all so good

13. Do you have a favorite book? If so, what book?

      Its the scifi book Cuckoo’s Egg by  C. J. Cherryh. Its about a human boy raised by aliens and follows the perspective of his caretaker.

14. Favorite food?

     Medium rare steak with grilled asparagus and backed yam

15. Favorite TV show?

      Don’t really have one, but Devilman Crybaby was pretty good

16. Favorite Character?

      I got too many to list here ha

17. Favorite animal(s)?

      I love all mammals the most 

18. Favorite color?

      I love green

19. Favorite beverage?

      Cold brew coffee is the best

20. Favorite Holiday?

      Halloween is the best. I need to go to a costume party one year

21. Relationship Status?

      I’m taken, so y’all missed out lol

22. Last text you sent?

      “all woman are queens”

23. Last text you received? 

      “tiddy queen”

24. Last person you told you loved?

      my SO

25. Last time you felt jealous, and why?

       I dont feel envy sooo? 

26. Are you insecure about anything?

      Nah I made peace with myself so now I work on being positive and self-improving

27. Where do you want to be right now?

       in the tub taking a fancy bath and relaxing

28. What are some habits of yours?

      I tend to twirl my hair when it grows long enough

29. Three turn ons?

      Friendly, supportive and open to new things for a personality. for sex its a cute butt, a cute face and i enjoy biting, but not hickies.

30. Three turn offs?

      Being jealous, needy and an asshole to customer service when it comes to personality. Sex wise, its scat, farts and prolapse.