#why is it that whenever i make a really good persona design it's always a cowboy
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Randomly decided to make myself a Phantom Thief-sona and made a fucking amazing design for my Persona, Butch Cassidy
His belt buckle has the initials of his real name, Robert LeRoy Parker, his mustache is a train grille, and his hat is a train smokestack. I'll probably have him use earth or gravity skills.
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#why is it that whenever i make a really good persona design it's always a cowboy#first billy the kid and now butch cassidy#persona oc#waffles art#oc tag#katsuro sanada#adjustment au
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ā ššļø The ethereal yet odd prefect of Ramshackle.
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This version is old! Updated intro is here!~
āHow did I get here? Why, I wished upon a star, of course!ā
Nicknames: Prefect / Prefect of Ramshackle, Henchman (Grim), Trickster (Rook), Little Shrimpy / Sea Angel (Floyd), Kid (Leona), Child of Man (Malleus), Lacy, Ra-ra (Cater)
Grade/Class: Freshman/Class A
Birthday: May 5
Age: 16
Height: 170.18 cm (5ā7 ft) ( 175.26/5ā9 with her heels!)
Dominant Hand: Right
Homeland: ???
Club: None yet !
Best Subject: Animal Languages
Hobbies: Designing and making clothes
Pet Peeves: Indecisiveness and living routinely
Favourite Food: Burgers !
Least Favorite Food: Steamed fish and liver
Talent: Making clothes out of just about anything!
Likes : Fashion, Cute things, Mythology, Folklore, Fairytales, Flower language, āAdventureā, Anything considered āArtā, Ribbons nā frills, Pranks nā mischief, Amusement parks, adrenaline rushes, Cute sweets and cafe hopping!!!
Dislikes : āBoring thingsā, Normalcy/Living life routinely, pessimism, indecisiveness, lack of freedom, strong smells, studying, silence, humid weather, being looked down on.
Gender & Sexuality: cis girl, demisexual + demiromantic
Voice Claim(s):
ENG: Briana White (Aerith from Final Fantasy)
JP: ??? (None yet!)
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ā āĖā¹ The mysterious prefect from another world, Kyra Lovelace exudes an ethereal aura that draws in people and animals alike.
Easy to approach, its easy to let your guard down around her without even realizing it! Well, mostly because she doesnāt seem like a threat at all.
It almost feels like she was pulled straight out of a fairy tale! The way critters big and small flock to herā they say that they even helped her clean up the Campus when she was still a janitor!
(Strangely enough, this also extends to beastmen and merfolk. Such a strange thing, isnāt she?)
With how kind she is, it feels like she really is an angel sent from above! Ever so eager to help whenever she can without ever asking for a thing back, even if they never even asked her.
Of course, people arenāt always as they seem.
Kyra is an uncontrollable force of impulsivity and chaos! Wherever she goes, trouble is sure to follow! With an insatiable desire for adventure and an almost childish curiosity and wonder of everythingā Kyra is much more mischevious than youād think!
Incredibly chatty and foul-mouthed (and fluent in brainrot) with absolutely zero filter, Kyra says whatever is on her mind, and does whatever she wants, whenever she wants!
So dont be surprised if she randomly dissappears out of nowhere, only to come back with trouble burning hot on her heels, and eyes full of wonder! Shes an odd one, thats for sure. You never know whats going to come out of her mouth!
Despite how rambunctious and uncontrollable she isā youāll find that sheās wormed herself into your heart, and its already too late! Because once she sees you as a friend? Hah, good luck getting rid of her!
An amazing friend in all seriousness, but be ready to face whatever trouble she brings with her! The definition of ride or die, if you canāt handle it then donāt bother sticking around, cuzā the fun (and chaos) never stops when Kyra is around!
Its undeniable that Kyra leaves an impression! Shes the kind of person youāll remember even years after a little interaction, she leaves a mark on everyone she meets and her larger-than-life persona is sure to be remembered by all! If youāve met her, youāll never forget her. Thats for sure!
Even if she seems rather naive and simple minded at times, shes actually very thoughtful. She has an admirable view of life, and honestly? The best way to describe her is love itself.
She loves so, so very much. Shes so full of it, and it overflows onto the people she interacts with. Shes very emotionally intelligent, and knows just the right things to say to people. A lover in spirit, she can tell when someoneās hurting. After all, shes been there, too.
Perhaps its a little foolish, she can be too trusting of others, choosing to see the best in everyone regardless of who they are. But sheād rather love too much than not at all.
She loves living, she loves every little thing. She has no room for shame nor hesitation because she loves living so very much, she refuses to waste time standing at the sidelines (Not anymore). She lives without regrets, with no restraint, nor fear. She lives as she pleases because that is what living should truly be, shameless and raw. To be who you truly are unashamed, to let yourself shine brighter than the stars! ā”
Sadness is nothing to be ashamed of. Feeling overwhelmed? Stop on by at Ramshackle, and the little mischevious angel of a prefect is sure to sit down with you and listen. Because, she loves you, too!
āWhats done is done, nothinā we can do about it now other than laugh about it and move forward! Whats the point in feelinā bad anyways? No point in waiting for the world to stop spinning, yeah?ā
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āāĖā¹ Funfacts nā Trivia !
(+ some doodles~)
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(the quality is so bad plsā¦)
š Kyra is not twisted / based on a specific character, but she is just the embodiment of the kind of person i aspire to be! Free, positive, and full of love! Basically a ball of blazing chaos and love, with a lust for life.
š I gave her some typical Disney Princess characteristics (the talking to animals, ethereal beauty, ykyk) just because i thought itād be funny paired with her personality!
š Kyraās name means āShinyā in Japanese, but it can mean āLordā, āPrincessā or āLadyā in other languages!
š Kyraās last name, āLovelaceā, originates from the word āLawlessā or āOutlawā! Which honestly fits her and her attitude perfectly, as well as how cute it sounds despite its meaning lol
š Uses her affinity with animals for her ālittle shitā shennanigans. Has sent an army of rats to Octavinelle during Book 3 out of pure spite, and always wins Croquet with Heartslabyul because the hedgehogs roll into the goals even though she clearly missed (shes actually really bad at croquet.
š ^^ Her natural ability to draw in animals doesnāt stop thereā but it seems beastmen and merfolk alike are also drawn towards Kyra! Although much more subtly. Though, donāt be surprised if a beastman comes sniffing around her without warning! (She doesnāt mind, she finds it cute!)
š With waaay too much energy, Kyra just cant stay still for a minute! Always off on some random side quest, working a part-time job at Samās just for the fun of it to partying it up with Scarabia, she just canāt stick to one thing for too long! Sheāll dissappear for a minute and come back with something completely random. You really never know with her.
(Parents got confused and picked Side Quest Daughter)
š She has a concerningly high pain tolerance. Could be stabbed and be bleeding out but wont notice until someone points it out.
š A total klutz. Shes so clumsy its actually unbelievable how clumsy she is. She could be walking so gracefully then suddenly trip on air. Bumps into literally everything. (The truth about her high pain toleranceļæ½ļæ½ its because shes so clumsy shes so used to getting hurt by random things)
š She adores fashion and hopes to one day be a fashion designer! Her personal style is himekaji.
š She customized her uniform herself, and has always been fond of making her own clothes out of spare cloths and fabrics ever since she was a child! Her first ever dress she made was from the fabric of a curtain.
š Despite how rambunctious she can beā Kyra can also be incredibly gentle. This comes out whenever taking care of her friends, even if she finds it funny to (playfully) bully them, she doesnāt mind letting them lay in her lap and quietly singing to them until they fall asleep.
š She has a scarily good inuition!
š Hoards things like a goblin. Whatever random object she finds she just keeps it, regardless if its worth anything. Her āhoardā consists of trinkets that vary from ācool shaped rock on the side of the roadā to āa literal gemstone mined from the depths of Briar Valley my friend Hornton gave me!ā.
š shes an adrenaline junkie.
āāĖā¹ Fatal Flaw(s) :
š (Self) Toxic Positivity : Anyone who knows Kyra knows just how positive she is. But, what they donāt know is how deeply imbedded it is in herself. Although Kyra always speaks about how important it is to allow yourself to express your emotions, be it anger or sadness, she encourages others to express themselves.
But that does not go for herself. For some reason, she refuses to ever show any sign of ānegativeā emotions in herself.
Toxic positivity is a "pressure to stay upbeat no matter how dire one's circumstance is", which may prevent emotional coping by feeling otherwise natural emotions. Toxic positivity happens when people believe that negative thoughts about anything should be avoided. Even in response to events which normally would evoke sadness, such as loss or hardships, positivity is encouraged as a means to cope, but tends to overlook and dismiss true expression.
Instead of properly coping when faced with overwhelming, negative emotions, she instead chooses to ignore it entirely. She jokes about it, and pretends it doesnāt exist. All of these pent up emotions keep on layering on eachother, yet she continues to bottle it all up until she explodes.
š Impulsivity, with zero regard for safety : Infamously known for her reckless behavior, but her impulsiveness constantly puts her in danger. It doesnāt matter how many times she gets hurt, she just keeps on doing itā constantly running head first into danger again and again with zero regard for her own safety and health.
š Calmā to the point of being uncaring : Kyra is coolheaded. As chill as mount Everest, and goes with the flow just like water following a stream. This calm mindset is both a blessing and a curse, even if she is good at staying calm even under crushing pressure, she can struggle to see the urgency in situations until its too late.
Often brushing off clear warnings, reassuring herself and everyone else that itāll be finee! (It wont.)
She lacks that sense of danger needed for survivalā but not all hope is lost. After all, theres always room for growth!
āIf you keep waiting until youāre ready, youāll be waiting for your entire life. People will always judge you no matter the time of day, so just go on and be yourself!ā
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āāĖā¹ Notable Relationships !
ā Kyra x Floyd !! (AngEel)
(Yeah they have the dumbest ship name ever but i think that makes it fit even more theyre so STUPID !!! IM GONNA BITE RHEM !!!!!!)
SLOWBURN IDIOTS TO LOVERS !!! SLOWBURN IDIOTS TO LOVERS SLOWBURN IDIOTS TO LOVER SLOWBURNIDIOTSTOLOVERS THEYRE SO AAAA
The cutiest patooties EVER !!! If you like a dramatic, angsty ship, unfortunately they arenāt for you !!! The only thing youāll get from Floyd nā Kyra is tooth rotting, diabetes inducing FLUFF and a major headache while watching them obviously be basically a coupleā but refuse to acknowledge it.
Ever since they both caught a glimpse of eachother, there was always this strange feeling of familiarity. As if theyāve met before, somewhereā¦ Perhaps once upon a dream? (Nah, jk. Opening scene ref!!! She took his hand teehee)
Theyāre canonically soulmates. Eachothers compliment, theres no one on land nor under the sea that could ever be as in sync with Floyd as Kyra is. They justā¦ Click. Their hearts beat in the same pattern, and theyāre always on the same page. Well, even when they arenāt and they argue, they can never stay mad at eachother for too long.
Remember what I said about Kyra being naturally very touchy? Yeah, this is a whole new level. Kyra has no problems showering Floyd in kisses and affection, both physically and verbally, even if they are in public. She doesnāt see how it could be seen wrong, after all they are just the best of friends !! Shes just really comfortable with him, thats all.
In fact, she gets cuteness aggression from him! Thinks that hes the cutest thing ever, and she just cant help but swoon and coo at him, squish his cheeks and pepper his face with kisses!
Floyd doesnāt mind at all! And returns the favor! Of course, there are times where he isnāt in the mood, and Kyra is more than understanding. But no matter how upset or angry Floyd gets, he could never be at Kyra. Heāll come to her grumbling about whatever hes annoyed about and melt into her arms, and sheāll listen while carressing his hair and humming along.
Its hard not to assume the two are dating, when Kyra runs into his arms at match speed once hes in view, and he picks her up nā spins her around like they didnāt just see eachother earlier in the morning. Hard not to assume theyāre dating when Kyra tells him āI love you!ā So shamelessly in public.
Hard not to assume things when Floyd is so obviously, ridiculously soft around her. Absolutely smitten, you can practically see his heart eyes, paired with that lopsided, dopey grin. Not to mention the way his mood seems to do a total 180 and cheering right up when Kyra is around! He could never get bored with her, even when theyāre doing nothing but laying in bed together in silence. Everything they do, in his opinion, as long as theyre together, then its fun.
Are they really that obliviousā¦? Theres no wayā¦ But, it seems as time passes, the realization is beginning to dawn on both of them! Its about time! (No, seriously. Everyone is sick of them. Especially Ace. Gags whenever he sees them being all ālovey doveyā, pun intended.)
ā Kyra & Leona !!
After Book 2 Kyra basically looked at Leona and said āyeah, thats gonna be my big bro!ļæ½ļæ½ And ever since she just refuses to leave him alone. Literally.
Kyra sees the good in Leona, she knows deep down he does care for the people around him even if he says he doesnt. And she finds it so endearing!! She loves him dearly as her big brother, and wants to help him get his motivation back!!! (Has absolutely tricked him into doing his own homework by pretending it was hers.)
Though he wonāt admit it, he sees her as a little sister and somehow takes pride in knowing she knows she can depend on him.
ā Kyra & Malleus !!
The best of friends ! Late night walks where Malleusā or, Hornton, talks about gargoyles and Kyra listens, and talks about whatever comes to mind. Kyra always invites Hornton to Ramshackle for a little hangout, and she enjoys playfully bullying and bantering with him. Malleus finds it amusing how ābraveā she is, and plays along. What a funny little human!
Who could be a better friend than Kyra? She was practically meant for this! Platonic soulmates?? I think yes!!!!!!
They exchange random little facts, Malleus talking about gargoyles nā architecture while Kyra talks about mythology from her world! (āHeā¦ Ate his own childrenā¦?ā āHaha, yeah.ā)
Kyra absolutely teaches Malleus brainrot. She has no regrets.
ā Kyra & Adeuce Duo !!
Her day ones, and also victims of her Found Family Beam. (Seriously, shes just out here building a family like this shit is Toca Life šš)
She especially has a soft spot for Ace! Even though she bullies him the most and they banter (and fight) like siblings, she cares for him more than sheād ever admit.
She finds Deuce adorable! His biggest supporter, even if she doesnāt like studying, she tries to help him whenever she can! (Jokes that Deuce is her favorite and sheād āthrow Ace in the trashā.)
Adores the two with all her heart. Will always be looking out of them in both big and small ways, she trusts them entirely, fully! Would trust them with her life, but not with the food she was saving for herself.
ā Kyra & Grim !!
She always found Grim so very cute! As an animal lover, she couldnāt bring herself to ever dislike Grim. Of course, they got even closer as time passed, and she cares for him like a son! Views him as such, and loves to cradle him in her arms. (In private, of course. The Great Grim has a reputation to keep up!!)
ā Kyra & Divius Crewel !!
Same thing that happened with Leona, she kind of just looked at him and went āMmm yes, father figure time!!!ā
Although she doesnāt like to open up much, she often finds herself doing just that when talking to Crewel one on one. She feels as if she can rely on him.
Admires him a lot! Especially with his designs, she begged him to teach her some of his tricks that he picked up. Her biggest inspiration to pursue fashion designing as a career! Shes so thankful for him, as a role model and as a father figure.
āThe world is so much more beautiful than most realize. Life is a gift. Donāt worry, you can rest. Iāll be right here until the sun rises again, and we can face tomorrow together.ā
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#ššļø! Kyra#š! Oc#twst wonderland#twst oc#disney twst#twst yuu#twisted wonderland#oc#oc art#oc x canon#oc x cc#yuusona#twst#floyd leech x oc#floyd leech x yuusona
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If youre still doing the ask game Ivan and Sua!
I LOVE THESE TWO
Ivan:
1. Why I like them
i love ivan because he's unsolvable. there is literally no way for anyone to truly grasp how he thinks and feels. even the writers have admitted to not truly knowing what goes on in his head, and i find that so insane. to create a character so complex that it alludes the CREATOR HERSELF??? genius. i love it so much. there will never be enough thought put into his character because no one will ever reach a conclusion that will concisely and accurately describe Ivan. not even Ivan himself.
I also love the way he displays how people can develop when they really just have No One. throughout his entire life, ivan has always been alone. never an available support system, never a parental figure, never a place for him to vent his emotions. this lead to an absurd personality, and an insatiable desire for attention. when ivan loves someone, he craves their attention so desperately that he doesn't care whether it's gentle or violent. it's just so. GHHRHRHEHH
2 . Why I don't
probably for the same reason that i DO like him. because there's no true way to understand him, i always feel like im mischaracterizing him in some way whenever i talk about him or make content about him.
i also think it's very tragic how despite all the complex layers he has, ivan remains static in terms of development. he starts off with the same ideas and behaviors that he dies with, and he dies in a colorful burst of his own bottled up emotions, aggression and softness intermingling; mourning, rage, sadness, wanting, and joy all becoming one singular drive to do the things he did.
3. Favorite lyric
"you can break me apart"
4. Favorite frame/screenshot
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the tears in his eyes, the drool on his lips, the sweat, the way he's hugging himself looking dazed. he's lost all of his composure. he's in shambles.
honorable mention to this one:
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fake ass idgafer i SAW you yearning
5. Favorite outfit
probably his black sorrow one, simply because i really like the sparkly gloves
6. Favorite official art
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his skin being a feverish and saturated hue to emphasize his mess of emotions, the way it looks like he's trying to hold himself together but the cracks just keep spreading... YEAH. I LOVE THESE PHOTOCARD ARTS BTW
7. Favorite canon fact
he views sua as a little sister ā¹ļø
he's so desperate for a connection it hurts
8. Favorite straight-up-not-canon headcanon
ivan's favorite class is music interpretation and theory because he wants to better understand the music till makes.
9. Favorite song/cover
it used to be cure but black sorrow has been growing on me as of late. that PIANO.
10. Song I want them to cover
ivan and sua blink gone cover would go INSANE. if not that, ruler of my heart and ivan would sound so good.
Sua:
1. Why I like them
i like how distrustful she is. how she completely contradicts everything everyone believes about her--but solely when she's with mizi. to everyone else who isn't more observant towards her, she's just an ornament. a doll. closed off and pretty, meant to be looked at but never to love, never to be loved. and then mizi completely shatters that side of her, reaches in and grasps the emotional, fun-loving side of her, and suddenly she's bursting with life, as human and happy as it gets.
i also like how sensitive she is, despite trying her best to hide it. she cries easily. she gets mad easily. she gets insecure easily. she feels, she feels so much, and it's barely hidden beneath her disinterested persona.
2. Why I don't
theres nothing that i can think of that i don't like about sua. from her impact on the story to her personality to her design, it's all so cool. so for this part im just gonna name a fault in her morality that i love.
she hid from the truth by ensuring mizi never found out about it. she couldn't see a way out, so she found a way to ignore everything at the expense of mizi's happiness. she went into alnst knowing full well what it would do to her lover, even after ivan called her out for it, and died the happiest she could have been.
3. Favorite lyric
"you hug me tight as if nothing happened"
4. Favorite frame/screenshot
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the way Nigeh had complete control of her before she met mizi. SUA MY GIRLLLLL
5. Favorite outfit
probably her doll-like dress she wore as a kid. no regard for her comfort or convenience, only the aesthetics matter. (reminds me of till's metal shoes in round 6)
6. Favorite official art
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the dullness in her eyes i actually cant
honorable mention to this one:
angel baby ā¹ļøā¹ļøā¹ļø
7. Favorite canon fact
she used a flower that mizi gave her as a bookmark and she was so fond of it and and and
8. Favorite straight-up-not-canon headcanon
she doesn't ACTUALLY hate till and ivan, she simply doesn't want to get closer to them because she knows they'd remind her of how bad the real world is. she'll see it in ivans false smile and cynical observations, in the purple bruises and green patches on tills body. she wants nothing to do with it.
9. Favorite song/cover
MIZISUA CURE LITERALLY GIVES ME CHILLS. KILLS ME SO BAD EVERY TIME I LISTEN TO IT. the love in sua's voice is just so. oh my god.
10. Song I want them to cover
the aforementioned ivan and sua blink gone cover will be real guys TRUST š£ļøš£ļø
#these two take over my brain#alnst ivan#alnst sua#alien stage sua#ivan alien stage#alien stage#alnst
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My interpretations of people in the Life Series, as someone who is a very casual viewer and has no emotional investment in the series and barely knows any of the fandom knowledge below surface level.
Jimmy - stupid. so stupid. he barely has two braincells to rub together. but unfortunately for me i find it adorable. hes also blonde and young and pretty and im a basic idiot who likes young pretty twinks. he also has a really pretty smile. but hes so stupid. he sucks at minecraft. he dies all the time. his editing is also mid.
Joel - my second favourite after Jimmy. did I mention Jimmy's my favourite? no I didn't. im not basic. shut up. Joel is really cool. he's very funny and i love the overly-aggressive persona he puts on, he's one of the people who gets the most into roleplaying (it's basically his default for whenever he's on camera, he has a very defined cc persona that he never breaks out of), so it's easy to get immersed watching him. his editing is also seamless and brilliant. and he has good music taste. just a cool guy. i like the green streak in his mc skin.
Lizzie - usually when people call women quirky, they're being cringe incels who want a manic pixie dream girl. but i swear i mean it in the most sincere, old-fashioned use of the word way when i say Lizzie is quirky and i fucking love it. her aesthetic is cutesy pink kawaii, but the more you watch her the more you realise there's something delightfully strange about her. she's also incredibly fucking funny. the way she delivers lines just cracks me up. the way she speaks and phrases things and approaches the situations she finds herself in in general is awesome. despite her cutesy aesthetic, she's surprisingly tough as well. her editing is also a seamless, immersive delight.
Scott - master manipulator who gets violently mischaracterised by the entire fandom. he's definitely one of the smartest members of the Life Series SMP, he's always planning everything out, he always has a backup plan, he always seems to be three steps ahead. And again, a master of maximising his income of social capital. He's an expert at utilising his connections with the people around him, and always seems to be able to use his relationships to manouvre himself into an advantageous position. i don't understand why people make soft flower husbands art because Scott just seemed like he was taking advantage of Jimmy to me. in fact I dont understand why yall make scott soft in general, he's one of the most ruthless players from what I've seen. bit weird to mischaracterise "the gay one" as the soft guy, no? also why do you draw him as thin when he is chubby. why is his intro so fucking loud.
Bdubs - i have never watched this guy's POV because his editing is bad but he's always appearing in the corner of other player's POVs being adorable. he's like a little bug. he's always yelling and it's so incredibly unthreatening. why is his face all beat up like that what happened to the little guy.
Etho - he's friends with Bdubs and he's Canadian and he lives in the woods and fights moose and he's good at redstone and also some sort of cryptid. i have heard this. i have, however, not watched this because i have ADHD and the way he edits (or rather doesnt edit) his videos is so boring that i cannot watch them for longer than five minutes. which annoyed me because i really like his chill badass vibe and would like to see more of him, but alas. get better at editing etho. i also love the fan designs people make for him very much, especially when they make him into some sort of wolf or beast. makes sense since he's hunting all those moose.
Grian - HOT TAKE HERE. I'm not the biggest fan of Grian. His POVs are not very interesting. I guess people like him so much because he has a mad killer instinct and watching him hunt people down and get kills is fun. And this is true! I also like watching this! However, before it gets to the killing spree part, he's very self-contained and doesn't take much interest in what the people around him are doing (unless he is managing / leading them), which is boring for me because i'm interested in people's interactions with each other. Grian is actually far more interesting from other people's POVs, because from there you can see how his self-contained nature, tendancy to lead and thirst for blood and chaos affect everything around him, something which he himself seems to not notice because he is too focused on only dealing with the stuff that's immediately relevant to him.
Scar - what a charming man. oh my god. holy shit. sir. sir. what the fuck. he's also so funny. and has a little bit of the nature of a wet cat surrounding him. why does he love roleplaying being some form of scam artist so much that he choses to do it literally every single season. its like he cant stop himself. he has a scam artist disease. he also likes Starwars also one time he mentioned that he can't stand on twitter and everyone yelled his name. actually he does stuff that makes people yell his name in shock/exasperation a lot and its like a greek chorus. i also love the way he speaks in his voiceovers, his voice is very smooth.
Pearl - she has wolves apparently. this is a thing that i have heard about that has happened at some point. yes.
Cleo - they speak in a mocking tone and it makes me feel like i am being bullied in secondary school so i do not like them.
Impulse - this person does, in fact, exist, and may have done things at some point.
Geminitay - people draw her with antlers and that is cool
BigB - i have never seen this guy a single time in anyone's POV but apparently he is there! he keeps to the shadows.
Ren - there is a larper in this SMP. which is not a bad thing at all! I love hardcore minecraft roleplay! i am a Dream SMP fan, incidentally. which is related to nothing. The way he roleplays so intensely and in such a distinct style is a bit of a weird clash with the almost zero roleplay from everyone else, though. You have to all be into the roleplay and outputting the same amount of commitment to the bit, or it doesn't work and i just get secondhand embarassment watching. But I appreciate it nonetheless!
Other people who i've forgotten because i dont care about them - they sure do exist and are doing cool things yep
Thank you for reading my useless list, from a "fan" who isn't really invested enough to be a proper fan. I love minecraft men kissing. peace.
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In Animaestro, Adrien said, "Well, I'm more of a dog person myself."
He could be lying to protect his identity... but I like this theory too.
Since the Ladybug and Black Cat miraculouses are meant to represent yin and yang, I believe the same thing applies to Marinette and Adrien.
So, Marinette is a cat person and Adrien is a dog person! :D
Other things/headcanons:
- Adrien is an early bird; Marinette is a night owl
- Adrien is always described as sunshine or the summer sky; Marinette is described as moonshine or the ocean
- Adrien is very tidy and organized; Marinette is chaotic and disorganized
- Adrien is more quiet, a listening type; Marinette is the type to overshare and give lots of advice
- Adrien prefers classical music; Marinette is more into contemporary- though they both like Jagged Stone
- Adrien is very calm and thinks about his words before he says them; Marinette thinks at a mile per minute and doesn't have much of a filter
- Adrien is a very internal thinker, meaning he processes things internally which is why he's able to develop a persona like Chat Noir very easily; Marinette is more of an external thinker, she processes things by talking to people and asking questions and needs to be surrounded by activity to process better
- Adrien is very unsure about his future and place in the world; Marinette has a lot of ideas about what she wants to do in her future
- Adrien might take a more calm and relaxed approach to life as he grows older; Marinette is more goal-oriented and ambitious
- Adrien may be good at being creative, but he draws inspiration from other artists and people; Marinette always has a unique flair in every one of her designs
- Adrien avoids confrontation whenever he can even when someone tries to encourage him; Marinette will stand up for herself and others, especially when she's given encouragement
- Adrien might not always want to talk about his feelings or talk about his issues, used to process things on his own; Marinette might want everyone to talk it out, the type who wants everything out in the open
- Adrien is extremely forgiving when he is wronged, to the point that it could be harmful to him; Marinette is more stubborn, it takes her more time to see herself in another persons shoes if she doesn't relate to them- she doesn't forgive or forget easily
- Adrien is more of the type to get sad and depressed; Marinette is the type to get anxious and worried
- Adrien is more of a follower, go-with-the-flow type of person; Marinette likes taking the lead and charge when no one else seems to
- Adrien is optimistic, and always tries to think about the best-case scenarios; Marinette is a bit pessimistic, always thinking about the worst-case scenarios and catastrophizing
- Adrien has very few, close friends and prefers it this way; Marinette always ends up making friends with a lot of people
- Adrien prefers to focus on the practical matters and issues on hand; Marinette prefers to dig deeper and understand the bigger picture
- Adrien is more comfortable with an unplanned, spontaneous approach to life; Marinette wants plans, schedules, and well-defined procedures in place
- Adrien's very graceful and can move with ease; Marinette is clumsy and lacks a good hand-eye-coordination
- Adrien finds happiness and freedom in being Chat Noir; Marinette finds it stifling and constricting at times
- Adrien refrains from making judgments about people too quickly; Marinette jumps into conclusions too quickly
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There's more, but I can't think anymore, and it's like 3am haha. I donāt mean to say that they are opposites of one another, they're actually really similar in nature and have similar values, they just might come at it differently. I just wanted to write down the differences I could think of, the contrast between the two.
"Creation and destruction are the two ends of the same moment." "Without order, nothing can exist. Without chaos, nothing can evolve."
They're a beautiful balance of each other, two sides of the same coin
#miraculous ladybug#yin and yang#analysis#sorry if there are typos#miraculous analysis#mlb#adrien agreste#marinette dupain cheng#ladybug#chat noir#ladybug and chat noir#mircaulous ladybug#animaestro
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Persona Teams Dynamics
This began as a way to determine what the second-in-command in each Persona team said about the team's priorities, but I ended up ranting about team dynamics in each game instead.
Warning: This ended up longer than expected.
P1 - Class 4
P1 felt less like an organization with a leader and more like "group project where the members were chosen at random by the teacher but luckily you got some friends with you. For some reason the teacher keeps handing you the info to give to the rest of the team and calling it 'Team Y/N'". I don't know if that was a good description, but its 2 AM and that's the best way I could describe it. I read the manga since I don't have a way to play the game, but it didn't feel like Naoya was the designated leader. More like they were all equals in the team but he was the one who already knew everyone and had more knowledge about the subject the teacher assigned them to do (what with Maki, Kazuya, and Philemon all revolving around him), so he ended up introducing them during the presentation.
You got all kinds of people in your team. The drama waiting to happen (Mark and Nate), the weirdgirl (Elly), the love decahedron (Naoya, Maki, Mark, Elly, Yuka), the kid who you have to forcefully drag to do his part but turns out to be good at it (Reiji), the ones who never comment on the groupchat nor attend team meetings but always manage to do their part in time (Yukki, Yuka, and Reiji), and the literal class clown (Brown). The kind of team project where you ended up either as "good acquaintances" or "close friends" in the end. Would choose them again if the teacher let them choose teammates for future projects. This makes the team really flexible to leadership changes. If Naoya isn't available (and he literally isn't in P2), then Nate, Elly, or Yukki step in, quickly followed by Maki, Reiji or Mark. In fact, some of them might go off to do their own thing without informing the others and no one will get mad.
P2:IS - OG Masked Circle
It was a series of circumstances that led to Tatsuya being the leader. Putting aside the subconscious "Red Hawk has always been the leader" thing, Lisa is bound to follow him because of her crush and because the note from the Kasu guys that caused all this was directed to him. Michel seems to already have had some degree of admiration for the "cool Sevens kid", nevermind that he awoke to his Persona way after Michel. Both Lisa and Michel realized Joker was focused on Tatsuya and began to defer to him. By the time Maya and Yukki joined, the team dynamics were already established, though the two newcomers didn't follow it as throughly as the others. Why should they? Tatsuya is literally a kid. That's why now and then it might seem like Maya or Yukki call the shots on something or the other. He's a leader the way the soccer team you formed over recess is the leader.
And so, it ends up with Tatsuya being the one who they allow to unofficially represent them, with Maya and Yukki being the ones they go to for actual advice. As the game progresses and Yukki becomes less and less involved in the general plot and backstory, Maya loses some of that leadership owed to her as one of the two adults. She doesn't have Yukki's supernatural knowledge, helpful contacts nor level-headness. And so, Tatsuya fully becomes the leader. Jun, who admires Tacchi, only helps to reinforce this dynamic. With their rediscovered memories Maya could shake up the dynamic a bit, fully reclaiming her role as the Big Sis who looks after the kids, but she's happy to let someone else take the lead. It's important to notice that at this point whenever she proposes or comes up with a plan, it's almost always guaranteed to be followed through. Maybe Tatsuya does feel like she should be the leader. Like he's expecting recess to end at any moment and the teacher to take over again.
And this directly leads us to...
P2:EP - Maya's Team
Honestly, the closest thing I can compare them to is the Crew of Light from Dracula. Everyone in the team agrees she's good and pure and want to protect her, despite her being one of the keys to stopping the Big Bad. She also has a timer that everyone is racing against (vampirification vs the Oracle of Maia). The entire team revolves around her, while having enough agency to go off and do side-quests on their own.
Now that I think about it, a Dracula AU for P2:EP sounds like a good idea...
Aside from that, there's no clear leader. At first it has the vibes of going on a magical adventure with your coworkers (only two of them are friends š), though by the end they are one of the teams with the deeper understanding of each other (really helps that they are already adults). They each take the lead depending on their area of expertise. Yes, this includes Tatsuya. If they had to choose a leader, it would be Maya, then Katsuya and Baofu would be tied, then Tatsuya with Ulala at the end. Tatsuya would be higher if he wasn't a teenager and it shows. Everyone asks him questions about this or that and he's got the NG+ stats, but at the same time you can't buy him alcohol š. Hard to take the lead when your big brother is on the same team.
P3 - SEES & Shadow Ops
Everyone give SEES a golden star for verbally assigning team roles. This is a strike team on a mission. Mitsuru is the team leader while Minato is the field leader. Answer to them depending on the situation, and if the usual one isn't available, go to their team/field counterpart. They were also the first ones to assign someone specific the role of navigator and support and play on their strengths outside of the player's preferences. As a more formalized team, their relationships in and out of the battlefield are the most different. This rigid dynamic would naturally give way to seniority in the case Minato AND Mitsuru were missing.
Yukari: Oh, no! What should we do?
Everyone: (Looks at Aki)
Akihiko: Why are you staring?
Bless Aki's heart. If we're talking about the timeframe where Ikutsuki was still the adviser, then he would have been the one to step in. Despite being an adviser, it's clear that he was an unofficial leader, mostly due to being there from the very beginning. RIP, one more adult gone from their lives.
In any case, the Answer really changed SEES' rules. The role of field leader may have started as the one who seemed to have their shit together the most during battle, but it evolved into being synonymous with Minato. So when he Doored, it was Minato's Power that made everyone subconsiously decide Aigis was the new field leader. During their Shadow Ops days, the role of field leader is probably shared between her and Mitsuru. And with Akihiko coming and going between world training and school, the next ones to take charge would be Yukari (rule of seniority) and Fuuka (the navigator with all the knowledge).
P4 - Investigation Team
We're back to tomfoolery, but this time its organized tomfoolery... more or less. Yu became the leader as soon as he awakened to his Persona. At first it was because he was the only one with the power, but then he saved Yosuke who probably went "hey, this guy's the leader" to anyone who joined. Yu is the quiet kid who everyone assumes to be super smart and capable because he's very good at this one thing while internally he has as little a clue of what's going on as the rest of them. Unlike Tatsuya, Yu accepts the title and makes the most of it: he calls the shots on when they're going to the TV World, he buys all the weapons, they meet only at his house, etc. After some time they also began to follow Yu due to his kindness and help in their personal lifes. He's also hyper-competent at some things, which adds to the "capable, quiet kid" reputation, even after they get to know the dork underneath.
For anything Yu misses as the leader, Yosuke covers him. After all, he's his best friend, the second one to awaken to a Persona, the one who "owns" their only other HQ (Junes), the one who organizes most of their outings and the one who speaks what Yu can't put into words. They assume that (when the investigation is concerned) Yosuke speaks with Yu's voice. That's also why it was so powerful when Yu went against Yosuke on whether they should throw Namatame into the TV.
Aside from those two, the IT doesn't care for seniority much. Naoto is a strong contender for the next leader, followed by Chie and Teddie (trust me, bro), then Rise and finally Kanji and Yukiko. Depending on what stage of his character arc Teddie is, he might take on more responsibilities. It's hard to argue about the Expanse against a literal shadow. In general, the IT is the most friends to ever friend.
P5 - Phantom Thieves
These guys looked at the villain teams and rogue groups from TV and movies and said "I want to be like that". Their dynamics are also different both inside and outside the field. They are theatre kids doing their best Evil PokƩmon Team impression, even playing into their stereotypes. But outside they are casual friends who diss people in their group chat. Same with Yu, Akira initially became the leader on account of being the first one with the power (and being human-shaped) and later became a true leader due to his charisma.
Being in the PTs would be a lot of fun, because they let be each other be as unhinged as they want in battle, else someone would have called Haru out way earlier. Like all Morally-Grey-Teams from TV, they assign vague roles to each member: Joker is the leader, Mona is the mascot and exposition guy, Skull is the brawn, Panther is the femme fatale, Fox is the cool one who does the skill cards, Queen is the tactician, Oracle is the support and Noir is the trigger-happy one. Roles vague enough to be flexible that also don't cover all they really do for the team, but it certainly makes them feel more official, so they keep it that way. The first rule of Phantom Thievery is to have fun and be yourself. The second rule is to help the weak and dethrone the mighty.
By those self-imposed roles, Makoto would be the one they would follow if Akira wasn't around, though Morgana would be the best option. After them, they would follow Futaba (perks of being the hacker), and then go for the two others who were there when the PTs were founded, with Yusuke and Haru at the end.
#persona 1#persona 2#persona 3#persona 4#persona 5#i have connected the dots#hit me with a stick everytime i start tatsuya yu or yosukeposting
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Zakari's Thoughts on Division Leaders
Ichiro Yamada
"I don't know much about Ichiro-kun, surprisingly. I mean, we've talked a few times, but nothing really major or big. I know he used to be in one of the most killer rap groups of all time, though. And he's the older brother of his younger bros, Jiro and Saburo, both of whom are pretty good friends of mine. But both mom and dad says he's a good guy, so he must be. I mean, considering he's taking care of both of his bros, he's got to be, right?"
Samatoki Aohitsugi
"My mom warned me that if I ever venture in Yokohama to be wary of this man. Truthfully, she didn't have too. Lucille has told me that Sakura-san and the Kito-gumi have had a few minor run-ins with Samatoki and the Katen family. As lucky as I am, even I'm not dumb enough to get in the middle of a feud between Yakuza families, even if they are in peace right now."
Ramuda Amemura
"Like Ichiro, I don't know much about Ramuda either. I only really hang out with him when I'm with Dice in Shibuya. I'll admit though, the guy makes some killer clothing. I saw a bunch of clothes that he had just finished designing, and I blew through my entire cash buying all of them. Boy, my parents were pissed that day when they saw the bill in the mail the following week! But I have no regrets. Those clothes were too good to pass up!"
Jakurai Jinguji
"Jakurai-sensei... I'll admit, he's a pretty good doctor. I went with my mom to get my yearly checkup, but the doctor we normally go to was unavailable. One of the nurses recommended Jakurai-sensei in Shinjuku, so we went. Despite his looks, he was surprisingly gentle and kind. I wouldn't mind him being my permanent physician from now on."
Sasara Nurude
"I love Sasara! His comedy routine is always fun to listen to! Whenever he's doing a show, I always make sure to head to Osaka to go watch him perform. It's a shame my mom is so busy with the nightclub that she isn't able to come with me. And my dad... I think God or whoever must have forgot to give him a 'funny bone' or something..."
Kuko Harai
"Kuko is one of my best friends! I don't go to Nagoya often, but I always make sure to stop in and see him when I do visit. He's a rambunctious guy who knows how to have fun, even if he is a monk. Honestly, I don't know why people give him so much grief about his attitude and persona. I mean, the guy's only 18! It's not like he'll be a monk forever! Truthfully, I was talking with him, and I told him it's a shame he's not a rock star or something like his friend, Jyushi. I mean, he's already got the look and attitude for it. All he needs is a band, some instruments and he could be the newest musician to show up on the rock scene!"
#hypmic#hypmic oc#hypnosis mic#hypnosis mic oc#hypnosis microphone#zakari hiroya#private party#roppongi division#ichiro yamada#samatoki aohitsugi#ramuda amemura#jakurai jinguji#sasara nurude#kuko harai
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love love love that the gamecube n64 and snes/sfc all use the same video cable :) like cause of tht i can switch what console super easily casually af too. i kinda wanna play n64 rn but also have to drive my sister to work tomorrow too so i shouldnt stay up too late :P really hoping i can find a nice coffee table soon cause my room looks so messy w/ consoles on the floor -_- now that i think abt it one w/ two tables would be nice like the one i saw i mean like u kno a top table and then a lil shelf below it of identical size. cause like i think colecovision and famicom are always gonna be out so itd be nice to have one that can have both of them while also having space for like one or two more somewhere else. so maybe one actually bigger than the one i saw yesterday. idk why but have been in a v idk wanting to play thru video games n stuff mood lately. hoping i actually do play thru the games im playing and dont like drop them. like i had started wind waker a few years ago and was making good progress then just forgot lol and now if i do play it again im gonna restart it cause its been too long and i forgot rly what i was doing u_u rn im playing dark cloud, and pikmin. but i wanna start ocarina of time and maybe paper mario 64 and also maybe twilight princess tbh. also playing animal crossing too ofc as long as i always will whenever thee gc is hooked up. and i also wanna start another ps2 game too so im not just playing dark cloud on it tho idk what. i have a few layin around but only ico and persona 3 are the only like long length video games i have on it rn . am also borrowing mgs2 from my friend but not gonna play that til i play mgs1 so ya. tho honestly might just play dark cloud since like a big rpg type game is good to invest all ur time in on one console. oor might try ico again cause i heard it waas short and like u kno v interesting. fuuuuck i also wanna job so i can get pc engine games thats a console i wanna have hooked up always too but i only have like three games on it rn but theyre all great pac land outrun and bikkuriman world. the first two are two of my all time favs. buuuuuut ya i love games and am super tempted to hook up my famicom and play but i also wanna kinda stay away from it and try to make more of an effort to play long games like the ones im playing rn which i seldom do. tbh its so easy and liberating too to get into a famicom fever just playing super short games marveling at great game design lol. tho i need long games to live too!
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Persona 4 is my favourite persona game by a lot, but yeah the gameplay is dogshit lol. Itās why I hope for a remake, so the gameplay of 5 and reload can be brought to my favourite game persona game.
But there are 2 things I want to rebuke about this:
The first one is about the multiple endings, and how easy it is to stray from the correct path. Thatāsā¦ the point. Of the game. Finding the truth is hard. Itās difficult. In some cases itās impossible. Itās so easy to miss adachi as the killer (or at least it is before his social link. I still need to do it lol), itās so easy to miss izanami. The bad and even āgoodā endings feel unsatisfying because thereās still that lingering itch. That āwhat am I missing?ā That the whole game is teaching you to trust. Persona 4 was released in a time where the internet wasnāt as omnipresent so it was intentional that you would probably miss both adachi and izanami on your first try. Iāll be honest I missed both. And while you donāt have to like it, it can definitely be annoying as a first time player, saying that having the multiple hurdles and hoops is āflawed game designā is missing the whole point the game is trying to make. You shouldnāt turn off your brain and have the game leisurely guide you to the answers and to the truth, because the entire thesis of the game is about how you have to put in work to reach the truth yourself. Once again, you can say you donāt like it or you prefer the way 5 does it, but it isnāt flawed design, it is flawlessly designed for the message that 4 is trying to carry across.
Sorry I got heated there. People constantly complain about the izanami twist and how easy it is to drop the true route but like thatās part of what makes it so so so cool to me. Anyway moving on:
Altus, as a whole, is simultaneously the most and least progressive Japanese game studio. And that mainly comes down to management Iād imagine. The writers want to write queer characters (see the scrapped yosuke romance), but they arenāt allowed to explicitly (SEE THE SCRAPPED YOSUKE ROMANCE). Probably because of the director, hashino, who, on the topic of why the romances in the original p3 werenāt optional, said (or at least Iāve heard he said) āwhy would a boy and girl want to be just friendsā (or something to that effect). I think part of why we got so much RenxAkechi in Royal was because he was stepping away. But anyway, thatās why the persona series has INCREDIBLE queer coding (yosuke, kanjiās bisexuality, Ren and Akechi), but whenever there are explicit queer people, itās always stereotyping and derogatory.
You may notice I missed an example when it comes to Altusā queer coding.
You are absolutely allowed to headcanon things, and Iād see why you would, but I think that insisting Naoto is trans isā¦ missing the entire point of her character. OKAY LET ME EXPLAIN
So why do I say that Kanji is queer coded and bisexual, whereas I say that Naoto is a cis, gender nonconforming woman? Well it has to do with their character arcs, especially their dungeons. Kanji has feminine interests, and thus is labelled as weak, feminine, and gay. Which doesnāt have to be true. Just because a guy likes cute things doesnāt mean heās gay. Just because a girl likes cool, masculine things doesnāt mean sheās gay (or trans, but weāll get to that). Butā¦ Kanji is attracted to Naoto. Both before and after sheās revealed to be a girl. Youād think theyād play it off like āhe could tell she was a girl the whole timeā butā¦ they really donāt? Like he was just as surprised as everyone else, and just as flustered by her presence before and after. It has a lot of parallels to Yukikoās arc. A lot of people point to her deciding to stay with the inn as a character flaw or even a plot hole, but her whole story is about how she wants it to be her choice. She wasnāt happy when she felt she was forced to work at the inn, but she wouldnāt have been happy running away for the sake of running away. Similarly, kanji doesnāt want to be labelled gay just because he likes cutesy things and enjoys textiles. If he is gay, or bisexual, or straight, or whatever, he wants it to be on his own terms. Similarly to Naoto, she isnāt happy when belittled and ignored for being a woman, but she isnāt happy when pretending to be a man. She wants to be given the respect that she deserves as herself. She also just happens to enjoy more masculine interests, but like kanji liking feminine interests doesnāt make him less of a man, her liking masculine interests doesnāt make her less of a woman. Itās why she doesnāt keep up the pretenses around the investigation team, because they respect her and see her strengths for what they are, so she doesnāt feel the need to act like a man and enjoys being a woman. Later on she even stops binding and starts dressing way more feminine (the latter of which I do think is a bit too much of an over correction, Iām not a big fan of a lot of the golden ending redesigns (kanjiās hair AHHHH MY EYES /j), but still. Sheās just as happy as the rest of the team). At no point does Naoto ever say that she is pretending to be a man because she wants to, itās always through the lens of trying to make people respect her in a patriarchal society and in a male dominated career. Even her shadow (her true self, her unfiltered thoughts and feelings) trying to perform surgery on her frames it as ātheyāll respect/listen to you more if youāre a manā over āyouāll be happier as a manā. You can absolutely headcanon her as trans or have a fanon version of her thatās trans like people do with various other characters (dipper from gravity falls is a big one), but they are just as non canon as Naoto being trans is. Once again, youāre allowed to not like it, just as with the multiple endings, but it isnāt something the game is doing wrong, because the game is never trying to write her as a trans character.
Anyway sorry about that but this is one of my top 5 favourite games of all time and I hear those two points A LOT. Like persona games absolutely are bigoted at points, look at how removing the romance from yosuke makes his internalised homophobia just homophobia, or the whole āgay people assault ryujiā thing from 5, but saying that Naoto is denied being a trans man is justā¦ wrong. Like she was kind ofā¦ given the option to be a guy and she said no. Thatās what her dungeon is.
And while neither the ending or final stretch of the game are my favourite anymore thanks to 3 and third semester, the way 4 incorporates the themes of āfinding the truth is hardā is to cool just for it be dismissed as āflawed game designā.
Iām glad you enjoyed persona 4 so much despite your gripes though! Like I said, I agree, itās an incredibly flawed game and (imo) desperately in need of a remake. I didnāt even mention how the localisation completely butchered teddieās character or how infinitely more fun it would be to have palaces instead of corridors for dungeons (except the last one keep that a corridor it fits so well). But itās still my favourite!
i finished persona 4 golden !!!
MAJOR SPOILERS FOR PERSONA 4 GOLDEN AHEAD
Itās lowkey insane that they made the final villain a gas station employee, but it was super cool. I really love the story, almost as much as P5R, although the gameplay was definitely worse for me.
Obviously there are differences because of the release dates, but there were a lot of quality of life issues and inconsistencies. The last 5 dungeons or so felt comically easy, none of them took me more than 2 hours, especially with Marie and Izanamiās dungeons which took me less than an hour each, even with exploring every floor to the max.
The lack of Safe Rooms really hurts the level design here. You basically have to do every palace in one session (at least I did because I donāt like Goho-Mās). Being able to have save points before different sections in each P5 Palace was a stroke of genius, and returning to P4 where every floor is basically identical is just boring. I like how each floor is randomly generated, but it also really takes away from the individuality of each dungeon. Pretty much every dungeon has the same random layout, the only differences are the visuals and occasional conditions like with Adachi not allowing you to fight shadows in one of his floors. Compared to P5, the lack of puzzles and insight into the characters really hurts. In P5, the design of each palace gave you insight into its rulers psyche. In P4, you really only get the occasional confrontation with the character and some dialogue at the start of each floor.
There were also WAY too many chances to mess up your ending. There isnāt anything really wrong with having a lot of endings, but having so many points where you can accidentally get a bad ending because you picked an option that wasnāt obviously wrong was ridiculous. I had heard there were a lot of chances to get a bad ending if you arenāt careful, so I used a spoiler free guide. Having to pick like 7 of the right answers in a row to get a good ending is insane.
If I wasnāt spoiled on Adachi before playing, I never would have guessed it. That is good for the story, but having to deduce it yourself is a bit too much to ask of the player. I think P5 did good with prompting you to save your game before game changing events happen. A mix of that and confirming with the player when they are going off-course from the true ending makes the game relatively simple to play through with no guide. with P4, you basically have to look up a guide for the true ending. Having to say ānoā when prompted to leave Inaba to get the true ending is insane, if I didnāt know beforehand I would have messed up my entire playthrough. It makes no sense unless you know the story beforehand, especially when no other Persona game asks you to do something like that.
The game is also shockingly bigoted, which goes entirely against the themes of the Persona series and the game itself. Ironically, in a game about pursuing the truth, the made Naoto deny his truth of being trans. They wrote such good queer characters and then came to entirely the wrong conclusion and ruined it all. I still think if you can look past the homophobia and transphobia, the game has phenomenal writing, but it gets really uncomfortable at times.
The nostalgic feeling Inaba gives off and the PS2 graphics really help the vibe of this game. It feels so much warmer than P5, and I am ALWAYS a sucker for a murder mystery. The fog is such a good visual element to the game, and I have a strange obsession with electrical poles, so having those be a frequent set piece is awesome.
The characters are so wonderful, I really wish I had more time to max out all of the social links here, but I think I would have had to skip out on helping Nanako with her homework and I would never do that to her. Nanako and Kanji are both some of my all time favorite Persona characters, they are both so sweet and I would do anything for them. Marie is also one of my favorites, I have no idea why anybody could hate her. Yukiko is amazing, Chie is a lot of fun, and Yosuke is hilarious. Teddie is a freak but I love him but I HATE his blue eyes, Rise is super nice, and Naoto is so cool. The Investigation Team is debatably better than the Phantom Thieves as a main cast, but they are so close for me. The main characters are all just great.
As for social links, I think P5 still has it beat here. The social link cast in P4 is still good, but there arenāt any benefits like in P5 and some of the characters here I REALLY donāt like. Sayoko is an outright pedophile. With Kawakami at least if you donāt choose to romance her in-game she isnāt as much of a creep, while Sayoko actively sexually harasses a high schooler. I also did not like Eri, I didnāt get to spend much time with her but she really could have treated her kid better. I know sheās struggling but she would lash out leave her kid at daycare because he was having more fun there than at home. Naoki was cool, I barely got to spend any time with him but from what I did see he was nice and seeing the grieving process of one of Adachiās victims was super interesting. For the club social links, I chose Kou and Ayane. Kou was great, one of my favorites but I ended up prioritizing party members and couldnāt max him out. Ayane was nice, I like her arc but her voice acting really ruined a lot of the social link for me. Ai was also nice, but I couldnāt spend too much time with her and I didnāt like her romance subplot. I actually liked Shu a surprising amount, he was one of the few I maxed out because I had extra time in the evenings and I really liked how his arc ended. Hisano was one I really missed out on, I only got to rank 3 with her and from what I saw she was one of the most interesting in the game. Dojima is one of the best social links in all of Persona. He is very similar to Sojiro, but heās a lot darker. Thereās a lot more drama with him than with Sojiro, both of them are amazing, and Dojimaās relationship with Nanako is so sweet. Nanako as well might be my favorite Persona character. She is the sweetest thing ever, and I would do anything for her. Marieās social link was also great, but I really didnāt like Margaretās. I donāt like any Persona social link that requires you to go on quests. I didnāt like the Strength confidant in P5, and I donāt like Margaret or the Fox in P4. The fox is better by default because heās a fox, but neither are super interesting to me.
The music is phenomenal because itās a Persona game, but the P4 OST might be my single favorite Persona soundtrack. Pursuing My True Self, Signs of Love, Heartbeat Heartbreak, Heaven, Alone, Your Affection, Like a Dream Come True, Youthful Lunch, Reach Out to the Truth, Time to Make History, and Omen are some of my favorites. The only Persona game soundtrack to compare with P4 is P5, Whims of Fate, Beneath the Mask, Alleycat, Our Light, When Mother Was There, Price, and Butterfly Kiss are also up there. P4 is more nostalgic for me, so I think it might take the edge for me.
The story of P4 is also much more complex and interesting than P5. If it werenāt for Marukiās palace being so good, I would say that P4 definitively has the better story. Adachi being the antagonist was such a phenomenal twist, and I loved him so much up to that point that it hurt even more. His social link is a phenomenal addition, I canāt imagine the game without it. Having so many endings is partially a result of flawed game design, but also the depth in the story. It really feels like an investigation team solving a mystery. Pushing further and further towards the truth throughout every suspect, from Kubo to Namatame to Adachi, and even Izanami if that counts, the game really accomplishes its goal. I havenāt done the accomplice ending, but I might do another playthrough to get it after I finish P3R.
P4G is a really great game, I think itās a bit more flawed than P5R, but itās still phenomenal and itās not like P5 has no flaws either. P4 really excels with the story and I think the primary issues with it are just a byproduct of being over 10 years old at this point.
#long post#I hope you understand what Iām saying#Naoto is a bad example of writing a trans man because it isnāt trying to write her as a trans man#is the tldr#it reminds me of how people will point to a guy wearing a skirt or even just liking feminine things and going āeggā#like no that isnāt the win you think it is#masculine = boy feminine = girl isnāt a good thing to enforce#same with people criticising trans girls for being masculine and trans boys for being feminine#anyway Iāll stop
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Hi ! I love your blog and your idea to make a bakery is just awesome ^-^ anyway how are you ? I hope you have a good day :) I'm here to request a female mc who love drawing. And i wonder if you can make brothers react to mc who draw them when they're sleeping, eating or i don't know like you want. If you can of vourse it's not an obligation :3
I wish you a good day \(^-^)/
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Thank you so much! I really enjoy the location-themed blogs here like Cafes and such so I'm happy you think the same! I'm doing good! And also, YESS!! I love Artist MCs/Y/Ns because I'm an artist myself! I hope you enjoy these!
The Brothers with an F! MC who draws
Lucifer
He already knew you love to draw and didn't mind that, at least that's one good hobby someone has on his list compared to gambling and parties
If there is something Lucifer appreciates about humans, it's their art and cultures, he might take you to art museums for inspiration and have a date in a cafe and talk to you about the paintings you both saw
If art museums are not your thing, he would be a little disappointed but then again, some artists like more modern artworks and some that are shown online so he understands
And frankly, having you draw him makes him immensely proud of himself for having a talented girlfriend like you, he doesn't ask that you draw him but he secretly wants to
Lucifer occasionally buys art supplies for you but only if you've been good
"So you joined Mammon on going to the casino to draw the people there?"
"Pretty much...."
"Hmm.. I guess you aren't going to get some Copics from me anytime soon."
"WHAT-"
Lucifer is also observant and knows when and who you're drawing immediately
"I can see you staring at me."
His eyes looked up at yours as you looked away, pencil in hand.
"No, I'm not."
He's seen you glance at him several times before looking down at your sketchbook.
It was breakfast and you were sat between a sleeping Belphie and a distracted Beel so you took the time to draw the eldest when no one's looking.
Lucifer hummed and told Beel not to eat so messily as you continued to draw him.
Lucifer has seen many sketches of him and the brothers and when you give him some as a gift, he keeps it well-protected somewhere that Mammon can't steal in his bedroom.
Mammon
He absolutely cherishes every drawing you have, the boy keeps a doodle of him and you as a good luck charm too <3
He might ask that you do commissions and he gets some of it (for giving the idea and managing the commissions-) but one glare and he'll shut up with a nervous chuckle and an "H-hey! It's just a joke!"
When Mammon sees you staring at some art supplies, he checks it again when he's alone and dies inside because of the price and buys it immediately, he doesn't care if he loses a lot of money only a little bit, all he wants is to see your face when he gives it to you
"You better be grateful that The Great Mammon even thought of giving this to you!... Do-don't look at me like that! It was on sale!!"
While Mammon was napping on his couch, you hastily opened your sketchbook and started sketching him and the boy never realized
By the time he woke up, you were already finished doing 5 sketches of him and taking pictures of him for reference
"Oi! What are you doing? Gimme that!"
His heart completely melts because??? you drew him so good??? his girlfriend drew him???? for free??? and out of love????
He also draws you but it's just a stickman with a messy face but you still love it all the same
Leviathan
Finally...another Artist...AND HIS GIRLFRIEND NO LESS!!
He's so happy and giddy to show off his art supplies but he's hesitant when it comes to showing off his art because he thinks it's horrible compared to yours
You encourage him and usually learn together with him whenever he feels awful about his art
He's the Avatar of Envy so there are many times where he's compared himself to other artists so you had to be there to keep him grounded
Art Date, anyone??
It doesn't matter whether you buy art supplies or just take a break from school, it was always nice being around Leviathan
You took the chance to draw him while he was across from you and excitedly showed it to him
He had drawn himself (albeit, in a persona) in many games and animes but your drawing was more special than anything he's ever done
He looked away, avoiding eye contact as he gave you his own drawing which was you in your favorite video game
From now on, whenever the both of you wanted to give small gifts, you draw each other!! <3
Satan
A demon who enjoys impressionism art, there's something about the dreamy landscapes and colors that really makes him calm aside from reading
I think he would paint for a change of pace but gets frustrated because of how difficult it is so he goes back to reading
So watching you draw makes him impressed, drawing takes so much time to master
He doesn't mind whatever art style you have, aside from the impressionism style, he would have yours as his favorite
He understands the pain of art block so he often invites you in his room, one where the others wouldn't bother you, just don't touch anything or else you'll turn into some random animal for a few hours
He also encourages that you read with him when you're uninspired! Reading helps the imagination and the mind, and he'd be happy to recommend some for you!
You trust him with your sketchbooks and he trusts you with his books! The both of you knew the other wouldn't do anything which is why he only lets you inside his room
While Satan makes a drink for you, humming an old song in his DDD, you drew him in overalls and glasses
When you were bored, you would always draw your boyfriend in random outfits and would often show it to him (which he all loves)
"Overalls and Glasses, huh? I might wear it tomorrow." Satan grins, peeking at your sketchbook as he puts down the drinks.
Don't get your hopes too high, he isn't going to wear a maid outfit........yet-
Asmodeus
Oh? You draw? Wellll, if you need a model, he's happy to be your own personal model, but it comes with a price ;)
He loves that you draw! And would ask you to draw him
There's many artworks he likes but yours he enjoys the most, even if you aren't his girlfriend
Might ask you if you can design outfits and draw him in certain outfits so he can try them out!
Of course, drawing is not an easy feat so he'll pay you handsomely~
If you do commissions, he gets one just so he can support you
He knows that art doesn't pay much yet it is so overlooked by others
"Everywhere is art, darling, I'm surprised some humans don't know that! Of course, I'm the most beautiful art there is but I'll have you as second~"
He might blush if you draw him without him asking, he think he's desirable enough to draw without a price! After hearing that you just love him might make him blush harder! Aww, you!
He'll give you several pecks as he laughs after seeing your drawing of him! One where he was posing in one of the photos you had of him during your dates
Anatomy is hard so if you want a nude model, he'll volunteer on the spot, sure he has thoughts but if you're fully intent on getting better, he's happy to help!
Beelzebub
He's not the type to focus on art so he doesn't understand it much, that doesn't mean he isn't impressed though!
He has heard of Food Art and Food Illustrations though...Based by the Arty Event, he seems to be good at drawing food! He wanted to try it more but Lucifer forbid him in case he would eat the paper and get chemical poisoning or something-
However, if you could also draw food, he would be so delighted!!! He won't eat it, he promises!
It's fine if you don't, though, he expects that you might not understand working out and sports like he doesn't understand art
Might be clueless if ever you feel bad about your drawings, he thinks it looks really good! But upon hearing how frustrated you are, he would give you hugs to comfort you!
While Beel is a oblivious sweetheart, he fully supports your hobbies and would invite you to diners and restaurants so you can draw while he eats! He might even join you while he's eating
As he eats a huge cheeseburger, you drew him, smiling at how happy he looked
When you gave it to him, he told you how spot on you drew him when he eats and keeps it around him, he avoids it getting dirty at any cost
Belphie suggested that gets a photo frame so he bought one! Now your drawing of him lays on his bedrest safely~
Belphegor
He used to love art as much as Satan and Lucifer does but he doesn't anymore, not until you showed him your drawings
You rekindled a small flame in him that he never thought would come back
He doesn't draw because it's way too much work but he enjoys hearing you draw, the sound the pencil makes when it moves around the paper, and the smell of lead and paper makes him sleepy
He secretly likes those papers that have a nice smell in them so you buy some whenever you go out to get some art supplies
"That's way too many sketchbooks, MC."
"Nothing is way too much-"
Because he always sleeps around you, he doesn't entirely realize that you have a bunch of drawings of him in your sketchbook
It makes him warm when he sees your drawings of him
He wishes he could do more to support you even if you tell him he doesn't have to so like Beel, he keeps your drawings near his bed and looks at it before he sleeps
#writer's block hhnnngh#drawing all 7 brothers was a task HAHAHA#I didn't expect it to be that difficult#all of them are shorter than i like it to be but i hope it suffices#obey me#obey me x reader#obey me x mc#obey me lucifer x reader#obey me mammon x reader#obey me leviathan x reader#obey me satan x reader#obey me asmodeus x reader#obey me beelzebub x reader#obey me belphegor x reader#obey me headcanons#obey me imagines#obey me scenarios#anon request#anon ask#lucifer#mammon#leviathan#satan#asmodeus#beelzebub#belphegor#lucifer x reader#mammon x reader#leviathan x reader#satan x reader
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Opaline Moon (m)
āThe Moon can never breathe, but it can take our breath away with the beauty of its cold, arid orb.ā - Munia Khan
āŗ Banner: @hobiandspriteā š
āŗ Pairing: Seokjin x Female Reader
āŗ Trope: Friends to Lovers, Idol!AU
āŗ Genre: Angst, Smut, Fluff
āŗ Rating: 18+
āŗ Word Count: 11.2k
āŗ Summary: You are ingrained to love Jin, right upto the blood that courses through your veins. Confessing, however, is a whole other game. So itās a good thing youāre bad at keeping your hands to yourself, because happenstance can handle the rest.Ā
āŗ Warnings: talks about dance floor fucking, making out in the bar bathroom, fingering, pussy slapping, passing out drunk, daydreams about thigh riding, reader masturbates, they make out A LOT, neck kissing, a hickey, nipple play, some biting, cum eating (kind of, youāll see), blowjob, protected sex!, reader and jin are corny, the hurt is real but the sex is real-er
āŗ Authorās Note: My lovely, lovely moots - @taegularitiesā, @kithtaehyungā and @baepsaetanā, thank you so much for betaing this and hyping it up, your comments made this fic a hundred times better! As I mentioned on the teaser, this fic took a lot out of me, but I thoroughly enjoyed writing the angst and will write more whenever the story aligns! I hope you enjoy reading this as much as I did writing, and I hope this lovable Jin reaches your heart! (ngl, in usual fashion, I will come back and edit it again, so if you see a spelling mistake, your eyes are lying to you)Ā Do let me know what you think, your asks and comments make my day!
This is the second part of my Dress Down series, find more at itās masterlist!
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Sweltering heat. Blaring traffic. Little to no sleep. Through all things wrong, one manās thoughts wrapped around you like a cooling breeze, a shield to protect you from the vicissitudes of reality, to draw you back into all of him. Unfortunately, your reality may never see that day come to light.
Kim Seokjin.
Kim Seokjin, the man who cooked you up a greasy break-up meal at three in the morning with not a sight of discomfort, putting your needs above all.
Kim Seokjin, whose puns make you roll your eyes heavenward, half awed at how he manages to pull one out of his collection at a moment's notice, and half irked by the untimely laugh it brings out of you.
Kim Seokjin, the man who will never be yours, and you have no one to blame but yourself.Ā
One could argue that the miscommunication that had caused this present condition was two-way. If you had stopped him, corrected him, let him know the truthā¦ you wouldnāt have to resort to the extreme measures youāre currently entangled in. One would also say, you are trying to redeem your mistake by trying too hard. Surely, everyone and their mothers could see through your ruse.Ā
This is the fourth time youāre visiting Jin for his BE shoot - a shoot taking place two hours away from the city, disguised under various layers of secrecy to prevent any leakage of the album concept, or Jin in general. Of course, you had been made privy to such exclusive information, because you and Jin were ābest friendsā.Ā
Best. Friends.
Nothing more, nothing less.
Best friends. The term you coined for (and forced upon) the bond you had. The bond that was too close to sprouting into something new, something fresh, something that was filled with glimmering allure and dragged you in like quicksand. But also, it reeked of commitment, of shadows, of newness that you hadnāt felt in the longest time, and fear of already being far too deep in without even taking the first step.Ā
The loud thrum of some internet kidās new hit pulses through the air of the club as bundles of couples occupy the dance floor, laughing and gyrating to a song that, in your opinion, most definitely does not suit gyrating. But with enough of the weekend happy hours intake combined with hormone-riddled minds, one could very well throw it back to a church choir.Ā
You weave through the drunken bodies, trying not to spill the precariously held three drinks in your hands, making your way to your inner circle, the only people to blame for dragging you to this slosh-fest.
āY/N!āĀ
Somehow Hoseokās voice can echo across the club, but you didnāt even need his addressal because Jinās laughter is loud enough to navigate anyone to your table. Seeing you struggle with the glasses (and mostly the crowd, with some of them living their exhibitionist dreams), Hoseok gets up to assist you.
āI swear, if I see one more couple pretending to be dancing as they rub one off of each otherās thighs, the black market will have my eyes.ā
āOh yeah?ā Jinās breathy voice interjects your black-market dreams, still bursting in short laughs from whatever sent him rolling before your arrival. āWhy donāt you go join them?ā
āAnd whose thigh is she taking, yours?ā Yeji snorts out, one hand holding her nebula blue drink, the other wrapped around Hoseok, urging him to come closer. Jinās features scrunch into a cringe, and youāre thankful for the dim lighting because the disappointment in your features does not reach them.
āThe only action these leather pants are getting is in the damned laundromat,ā he points to his shiny trousers, āsome jerk dropped his drink on it.ā
āYou could be the first person to give some chick an orgasm and a yeast infection.ā Hoseok giddily adds, his fifth shot clearly making a mess of his brain cells.Ā
Jin claps and gets up to move away from the group. āBetter than a pregnancy!ā he yells, before zigzagging through the crowd, possibly to the restroom. He is on his third cocktail, and youād think cocktails are lighter drinks. But in this bar, their taps just seem to flow with tequila, and it is very evident in the way Jin is currently walking.
His absence hits you harder than you think, but it might be the alcohol talking. Jin has always been the mood-maker of the group, the one who brings everyone together. Of late though, his magnetic persona has been an irritant in your life. Any outing you two take, any chance you have to come clean about the burgeoning crush you have on him, is effectively disrupted by one of his posse. And today, Hoseok and Yeji took that trophy.Ā
āEarth to Y/N. Has the cocktail finally broken you?ā
You flutter your eyes in a manic fashion, to disperse the daydream you were indulging yourself in, and bring your attention back to the couple calling for you. Surprisingly, they have stood up, Yeji emptying the last of her neon drink.Ā
āWhat happened?ā
āWe are going to the club nearby, they have better stuff. And thatās code for āthey actually add water to the drink and the surround sound doesnāt shatter your ear drumā.āāĀ
She isnāt wrong. The cocktails and music here are a 19-year-old frat party dream, not something the working class can digest. But youāre tired at this point, and donāt want to be smothered by someone elseās love life when your own is down the dumps.
āYou guys carry on! Iāll tell Jin where you are and heāll meet you there!ā
You watch as Hoseok and Yeji lead each other to the exit, hands circling their partnerās waist. They giggle on and on, about nothing and everything, and it only hardens the emptiness you feel inside you.Ā
Why canāt you gather the balls to spit your feelings out? What could possibly go wrong? Yes, you may lose one of your closest friends, but is this friendship really worth the agony? The bitterness you feel when you see any couple enjoying themselves? The anger you harbor whenever Jin tells you about his dates? The heartache, when he hugs you and tells you that youāre the best thing thatās happened to himā¦ as a friend? Is it? Your plastered brain tells you to not make any rash decisions, so you donāt, instead choosing to get up and search for your best friend.Ā
The corridor leading to the washrooms is dimly lit, throwing a merlot filter over your eyesight, making you squint in search of your friend. You being shitfaced does not help, and while relishing in your floating wooziness, you see Jin come out, and feelings youāve held at bay for so long slither through your currently porous defenses.Ā
He has always been good-looking. He himself has said so a dozen times.
But wow.
His hair lays messily atop his beautiful face, unkempt, like a breeze of beauty swept across his mighty looks and displaced every strand, causing disarray, but even the disarray only frames his superior looks and adds to its potent charm. The black, patchy sweater hanging loose off his broad shoulders makes you feel things you shouldnāt feel as a friend. That stupid gut of yours is currently screaming, yelling for all hands on deck, trying to block all the feelings from gushing in and sending you into overdrive.
By the time you can gather yourself to stop from giving in to those dangerous thoughts, Jin has crossed the distance between you, coming close, too close. Chocolate-brown eyes peer into your soul, searching for whichever fantasy you chose to lose yourself in. His eyes flit down to notice your rumpled dress that has found its way a couple of inches above its designated spot. His gaze returns to yours, but not without a newfound hardness, an almost steely glaze over the kindness that you usually find in the chocolate pools, accentuated under the garnet lighting.Ā
āHey, ummā¦ā You beg for a reprieve, from your thoughts, from your filthy mind, from the way he is eyeing your cleavage, or just for the burning between your legs. Youāre about to make some serious mistakes, you can feel it down to your bone.
Youāre far too overdressed.Ā
You knew it when you were in the process of getting dressed, but right now, you feel it much more - you look like a shiny disco ball orbiting amidst the plethora of loose tees, leggings and flannels. Everything screams comfort, because the amount of work theyāre putting into this begs for it.Ā
The strappy lace sundress you wear is extremely out of place, the halter-neck tie behind your neck fastened a little looser than necessary, giving your breasts the exposure they deserve, a nice valley view. Your dress skirt, adorned with pretty frills and dainty flowers, cut across your thigh to frame your petite hips. You are one floppy sun hat away from an extravagant Greek cruise - and in the moment you wish you had one to hide your face in shame.Ā
Youāre just out here, trying to escape the zone.Ā
āOh, would you look at the time, itās tits out Tuesday already?ā
Your eyes roll before Sanghoon even finishes his sentence, because you wouldnāt expect anything else from him. On the team of the set design, he is carrying a whole drapery worth of plush, mauve curtains, struggling with the slipping fabric. But apparently not struggling enough to stop him from getting his nose into your business, it seems.
āLiterally not even a time you just mentioned. Canāt get one thing right.ā You canāt stop yourself from stretching a hand out to feel the curtain fabric, the satiny sheets begging to be touched. Before you can though, Sanghoon moves away, not allowing you to shift the focus of the conversation.
āDonāt steer away from the facts. Your tits.ā
āThatās the fact?ā
āTheyāre out.ā He bucks up, trying to point with the hand stuffed underneath all the cloth. āThatās the fact.ā
āUgh, canāt a girl dress up once in a while?ā The pointed attention makes you uncomfortable, because everything heās insinuating is true. With every passing staff member, you count a new shade of grey, interspersed with occasional blacks and greens, a stark contrast to your floral overtones. Amidst the thousand footsteps taken in your vicinity, only yours are pointed heels, echoing across the studio with every clack. But youāre a stubborn one, refusing to give in to his totally valid argument. āI just woke up early.ā
āGirl.ā Like light through frosted glass, he sees through your bullshit, but only partially. āYou put an alarm to dress up? I have nightmares of the boss brandishing her whip and telling me to get into position, and even that doesnāt wake me up.āĀ
āHave you ever consideredā¦ not announcing your kinks to everyone and their sisters?ā
āEhh,ā he simply shrugs, ānothing is new when youāve serenaded your boss drunk in a karaoke bar and still managed to keep your job. Wait. Is that highlighter?ā
āStop staring into my tits!ā You canāt believe you got caught, but also, who can you blame? After testing this outfit out from the crack of dawn, you decided your cleavage needed some extra help. Three YouTube tutorials and one TikTok lady - who make it look far easier than it is - down, the contouring brought out the swell of your breasts, and against the light fabric of your dress, it does look too good to be true.
Memories of that night in the bar come in billows and waves, of how enamored Jin was with the way your boobs looked at that time. Even under the dingy lighting, in the cramped space, under heavily inebriated scrutiny, you couldnāt miss the flicker of heat in his gaze every time it passed your chest.Ā
One thing led to another, and it was a cascade none of you could stop. The heat of attraction between you two does not help your wandering mind, and the fever drowns the knowledge that what youāre feeling is, beyond a shadow of a doubt, crossing some lines that can never be mended back again. With the proximity, his musky scent invades whatever defenses you were trying to patch, piercing through all your inhibitions and you pull him into you, claiming his lips to be yours.Ā
With his wobbly knees and your wobbly heels, you somehow find your way to the washroom - mostly he does, you give in halfway to wrap your legs around his lean waist, his sturdy legs balancing your weight on them as your back hits the wall, and his lips tear down your walls.Ā
āYou look so fucking sexy today,ā between bated breaths and indulgent sighs you confess, ājust driving me nuts.ā Letting your hands drag along his abdomen, feeling the ups and downs of his abs, you attempt to rid him of the sweater thatās been on your hit list all night. But to your dismay, your endeavor is blocked, when Jin gathers your wrists in his palm, turning you around to bend you over on the countertop, the smooth marble chill hitting your braless chest, perking your nipples under the cold.Ā
āAnd you?ā Jin bends to give your earlobe a languid lick, progressing very slow, a complete contrast to the movement of his hips as he ruts against your ass, your already short dress bunching up with every move. āYou think itās smart to have your tits torment me like this?ā Grabbing a handful from behind, he tests the weight of each fleshy mound, and by now you are certain your perked nubs can pierce his palm.Ā
His free hand, not yet torturing you, decides to get in on the action and disappears under the counter, swiftly crossing the bunched fabric of your dress, gaining easy access to your pussy. The cold touch of his pads sears against the heat of your core, finding your pleasure button and languidly fiddling with it, with no intention to cross you over the brink in sight. The only pleasure you can indulge in is the reflection of him abusing your nipples, pinching and tugging them down, whispering filthy words into your ear as he takes in your fucked out countenance.Ā
You feel lacking, weak hands balancing your dizzy self, finding purchase to keep you upright - but youāre both drunk on alcohol and hypnotized by his beauty to do much more than stare at his mirrored counterpart. āFor fuckās sake, kiss me.āĀ
How he understood your slurred words, you donāt know, but you are glad he did. In a moment youāve been displaced, the hurried motion sending your neurons into a flurry. Once your back meets the hard marble, and your eyes have the privilege to see his, you pull him in closer, the force enough to hold you against the wall while your legs wrap around his lean waist.Ā
Originally not a fan of drunken misadventures, that side of yours is strangely mute to the going current onslaught. Well, you donāt have much breath left to say anything, because Jin is efficiently stealing it all, his teeth clashing with yours as you engage in the messiest kiss ever known to mankind (or at least, to you). He changes pace often, dragging his tongue leisurely against your lower lip, conveying tacit words, just to switch it up with a sharp bite and reel you in.Ā
One corner of your senses can feel his fingers messing around your cunt, and playing with the wetness your thong can barely contain. It makes you shudder, the damage that his fingers can cause solely circling around your hole.Ā
āFuck me.āĀ
In your drunken stupor, you donāt know if the words leave you right, but you get confirmation when his long fingers finally penetrate your cunt, giving your walls something to clench on - although nothing could possibly compare to what you imagine you can get from his dick.
āGod, you feel that grip,ā he grunts, with two of his fingers in you, and Jinās smile is the most sinister youāve ever seen. āI think we should take this home,ā is what his lips utter, but his fingers delve deeper, searching for the spot that crumbles you. The base of his palm grinds against your throbbing clit, and you are forced to bite down on this sweater, lest an embarrassingly loud moan escapes you and cues outsiders into your filthy doings.Ā
āNow,ā you half-hiss, half-growl as you grab the cusp of his legs to feel his half-hard erection grow under the pressure of your hand. Your palm sliters up just to go down again, this time without the blockade of his pants, but you are stopped short of success when Jinās fingers slip out of you to give you a sharp swat.Ā
āStubborn, arenāt we? Canāt fucking wait,ā he whispers into your ear, and as he envelops your lobe with his cushiony lips, he continues, āI donāt want to hurt you.ā
No, no, no.Ā
Your brain rejects logic, chews and spits it out before any of the rationale seeps into you. You have wanted this for far too long. The need inside you for a meaningful relationship materializes in the form of recklessness, desperately looking for surface-level relief for the moment. A night of sewing sutures to your battle-worn heart, stitches that may come off at the slightest strain - but right now, that will do.Ā
āPlease, Jin,ā your tantalizing tone riles up his cock again, eagerly waiting for your next words, ācanāt you feel me dripping? Come on, I can take you.ā
āFuck, hear that wetness.ā He lets his palm slap against your sopping entrance, not stopping with one. With every slap, droplets of your arousal splash out, the insides of your thighs coated in the sticky sweetness, but your body is an endless reservoir producing plentiful more for Jin to play with. āHave you been sitting with this all this time?ā
Two long fingers invade your channel again, leaving you with no response other than a gasp. They scissor incessantly, preparing you for what could be the railing of your lifetime. One curl inside and his fingertips hit the spot he was looking for, making you warp your body to take the pleasure coursing through your veins. His tongue seems to mimic the actions, looping around your earlobe as he sucks it inside, both ends of your body engulfed in all the attention he could provide.Ā
Your cunt is weeping against the assault of this manās hands, tears of your cum flowing down your legs with every pump of his arm. You are getting there, the sweet swell of release inching closer and closer.
But something doesnāt feel right.
The tightness in your belly, that is to a point caused by Jin, is harboring other sensations that are not entirely pleasant. Maybe youāre anxious about the happenings. Maybe you havenāt had a good orgasm in a while and have just forgotten how this thing works.
Or maybe, the bar should have the water tap actually give out water.
Either your eyes close, or your brain does, but suddenly all you can see is darkness.
Ā Again, you are just trying to escape the zone.
āStep under those studio lights,ā pointing at the too-bright stage lights being set up at the moment, Sanghoon continues, breaking your daydream, āI bet you could signal to aliens with the booby-reflection. Call them to Netflix and chill.ā
āIn about five seconds, my heel will be puncturing your eye. Donāt say I didnāt warn you!āĀ
Sanghoonās drivel was cut short, and so were your murder plans, with his entry. āOh look, heās on set. Gotta go!āĀ
Itās like the lights, earlier threatening to burn away your skin, dim down in reverence of the glow of his face. The twinkle of his eyes when they meet yours. The shine of his smile when he throws you one. The vibrance of his tone when he calls out your name. Everything he does now threatens to burn you whole and itās a wonder youāre not scalding, but the singe hurts you deep inside.
āY/N! How do I look?ā Itās a bathrobe. Like satin, or silk. Fucking hell, your brain could explode with the adjectives coming up, a whole chunk of them very much inappropriate to utter out in the current scene. Your arms want to rise, engulf him into you, and you have to physically halt the muscles from doing anything stupid. Brain, quick! Say something snarky and spicy, as best friends do!
āWhatās the theme, unicorn puke?ā The safest way to deflect is to attack. So you do just that. āYou look like you dressed out of Hannah Montanaās closet. Which if it's true, I really need to see it. Thereās a top that Iāve been eyeing for decades!ā
āDonāt say decades.ā Jinās eyes crinkle in humor. āMakes me feel so old. Your dress is pretty cool too!āĀ
Cool.
You find out how difficult life can be when you count every single minute of yours. So far, you have counted 4,310 minutes. That is two days, twenty-three hours, and fifty minutes. Ten more minutes and it will be three whole days since you and Jin spoke.Ā
Yet again, you canāt blame him. When you came to the next day, you were in your bed, clad in the same shimmering silver bodycon that you had donned last night. The same one that had been privy to the colorful deeds you had committed in what was a dreary, colorless setting.Ā
One ibuProfen and ginger ale, downed with some severe recollections of the previous night, and you had been ready to throw it all up again.Ā
I donāt want to hurt you.
Words couldnāt describe what you were going through, and numbers werenāt invented to count the endless thoughts racing in your brain. You donāt know what is more upsetting. The fact that you actually had a chance to open your heart and you totally let your pussy think instead? Or that he was the one coherent enough to stop you from getting too far, and you let your desperation get the best of you? Everything about that night was wrong. And all the wrongs lie on your side.Ā
I donāt want to hurt you.
In the moment, it was physical, he had to have meant that. But there was a tremor in his voice, you can remember clear as day, a slightly shaken side of him had emerged through the intoxication, and the words he had breathed were not shallow. There was a gravity to them, that youād stupidly ignored in the heat of the moment.
And now, here you are. Counting up till the last minute, after which you can effectively call the friendship ruined. Stirring your tea mindlessly, you try to focus on the show on TV, the variety show comedy not striking the usual funny bones that they could 4,311 minutes ago.Ā
The programmed ding of your phone bursts your thought bubble, a sound you have missed the past 72 hours. The ring you dedicated to Jin, that always had you running to receive because anything he sends brightens your day. But unlike those happier times, this ring has your gut fall into a pit of despair, struggling to choose between dispersing the suspense or remaining blissfully unaware of the damage you caused.
Jin: Free tmrw? We could grab coffee Jin: And talk
Talk. How? You barely remember what went down, save for fleeting moments that you recollected with great difficulty. Your fingers type back, trying to mimic the nonchalance in his text, that is very much absent in your actual demeanor.
Y/N: Sure. Paikās at 1? Jin: Yup. See ya
Three texts, zero laughs. Of course, youāre not expecting him to land his jokes in this situation, even someone as talented as he canāt flip this tension. Youāre just going to have to wait for tomorrow, when he decides whether you have a place in his life or not.Ā
The painstakingly worn outfit, accessorizing the whole look, the straps of your heels digging into your toes, the specks of makeup dust lying stale on your collar bones, the shine faints at that word. Cool. A perfectly normal phrase for a normal friendship. You are left maimed, while he absent-mindedly tends to the rope of his robe, blissfully unaware of the cyclonic emotions churning inside you. All you can possibly do is gulp it down.Ā
He runs his hands through his hair, beautiful locks coming out of place, and from one corner of the set, a groan of anguish emerges.Ā
āOppa! Donāt play with your hair and face.ā A masked lady runs forward waving combs that look like artillery, āWe just got done setting it!ā
Some finger guns, a happy apology, and some silly jokes later, all the stylists merrily round up to undo his doing, and Jin signals to you to catch up later. And as he walks away, the strings tugging at your heart reappear, as they do every time you come to meet him.
You have a masochistic streak in you, putting yourself through this every day, when he had made it clear, that you two never stood a chance.Ā
As if things arenāt already difficult, he looks like a dream.Ā
Soft, snowy skin gleaming like it has personal lighting wherever it goes, you get flashes of the rarely witnessed sweat on his skin, from the ferocity of last night. Heās blowing away the foam of his cappuccino, and tiny bubbles float into the air before falling flat on the table, like an animated shine that follows him along. God has His favorites, and God makes sure all the lighting in the world is perfect for these favorites.Ā
In no hurry, you wait at the counter to get your latte. After receiving it though, you canāt linger any longer and drag yourself to the table of doom.
āHey.ā
If the rasp in your voice is evident, he doesnāt show any recognition on his face. But youāve learned to never trust an acting major.Ā
āHi. How are you doing?ā
Inadvertently, a snicker escapes your lips. āAre you interviewing me for a job?ā you joke, trying to disperse the heavy air, filled with unspoken words. āIf so, at least know that Iām very expensive.ā
The familiar windshield wiper laugh does not greet you. Dead silence does. The half-smirk he painfully gives you is heavy, and the furrowed brows havenāt an inkling of joy. It shoots daggers in your heart, to know that you are the reason for this jolly manās despondency.Ā
āListen, I donāt think we should skirt around the issue too much. It happened, these things happen. You think Hoseok and Yeji didnāt have sex before making it official?ā
His matter-of-fact nature isnāt new to you. Jin has always been a very practical man. Regardless of his inane sense of humor, his logical point of view has always been flawless.Ā
But right now, at this very moment, logic isnāt what you are looking for. You are looking for answers, but as far withdrawn from logic as possible, to take the edge off of the tension-laden air that surrounds your table.
āYeah, but evenā¦ unofficiallyā¦ we arenāt a thing, right?āĀ
Your abrupt question takes Jin unaware, almond eyes widening, like a toddler caught in an act.Ā
āNo, no! Of course not! I would never!āĀ
His confession slips out with an ease that hurts you, digs deep to carve out the part of you that dreamt of anything more. Your eyes fall to your knees to avoid his perceptive gaze, the sting clear as the sky on a summer day.Ā
You force a smile and continue. āThen thereās no issue. Anyway,ā you gulp your coffee down, burning your throat, but it's a distraction from the burning inside, āI need to get to work. Anything else?ā
Heās still searching you, for what, you canāt possibly fathom. From the looks of it, he should be happy with this homeostasis; he doesnāt even know what this means for you. To still stay suspended in limbo, not being able to move up or down, to continue having thorns digging into your beating soul as you watch him like nothing bothers your already frail feelings. Scene by scene, you can visualize the future, him distancing himself from you as he finds the one he calls his, with you left in the shadows. Your knees tremble in fear of the impending future.
Seeing you in a tizzy, he calls out, the voice too loud for the cafe and your mindās prison cage.Ā
āWeāre still best friends, right?ā If you knew better, youād say his expression is that of sadness, of regret. But your judgment is clouded with your own bothers, and you interpret it as a look of pity. Like a lovesick puppy, kicked to the streets, with nowhere to call home.Ā
āYeah! Always.ā You give it as much enthusiasm as you can muster.Ā
Best friends.
Ropes wind around your heart, tugging and causing the deep ache that sets in as you walk back into your dreary building. Each string pulls you into a different dimension where you could move on, where you could be okay with the setting you had just agreed to. Where you would keep up your end of the promise and truly remain friends with him.
But no matter how strong the tug, your heart never yields, never lets go of the castle of dreams you built, staying steadfast in its own misery, choosing to hope, choosing to live the life of unrequited love.
āAnd thatās a wrap! Good job everyone!ā
Applause and hurrays echo across the set to bring you back to the present. The shoot has officially concluded, which means it's time for your most favorite and least favorite part of the day - Jin and you doing best friend things, like grabbing lunch, gossiping about obnoxious coworkers, threatening to disembowel each other (in Mortal Kombat, of course) and other friendly activities.Ā
Ever so respectful, Jin takes his time thanking every member of the set, regardless of whether they moved a cushion or held the reflector screen for hours. All the women gush over his beauty, reminding him of how, even amidst the glowing ornaments, his face was the brightest. His responses vary, from quiet little giggles, to complimenting the crew for making it happen, to straight up owning his charisma like a boss. Thatās your man.Ā
Well, not quite. Not one bit.
After exhausting the handshakes and hugs to be received, Jin walks to you, hands pushing his robe back to give it a cape like effect. Youāre just glad that the manās child persona still stays with him, no matter the situation.Ā He guides you to his green room, cracking his bones on the way, (very sexily, might you add).
āHolding a pose for that long gives me cramps! Youād think dancing breaks my back, and youād be wrong.ā
Youāre desperately avoiding looking at his fingers, and keep your eyes below them - shoot! His ceaseless stretching gives you a glimpse under his shirt - it is dragging your memories back to the last time you saw them, and youād rather not. It is hurting you in more ways than one.Ā
Eye contact is your safest bet. Looking up, you give him a lopsided grin. āYour grandfatherly days are approaching, Jinnie.āĀ
āHey!āĀ
The rest of the conversation was less speaking, more yelling and chasing after each other to the green room, Jin taking mock-offence at your jab at his age, and his fingers reaching out to flick your forehead in retort. In your noisy, messy fashion, you both finally enter the room, dim gold light bulbs and shiny mirrors meeting your huffing self.Ā
One hand on your knee, you hold on to Jinās arm with your other, gasping for breath.Ā
āYour grandmotherly days are already here, Y/N,ā he snorts, and earns a kick on the shin, but that doesnāt stop him from bursting into snickers.
āWow, why does one man need 4 mirrors?ā You gape at his current green room, mouth wide open. It looks better than your entire apartment, with the counter carrying top-of-the-line makeup products. Only the best for this man. āSo you can admire yourself from 4 different angles?ā
Jin has disappeared into one of the inner rooms, but you can hear him snort at your comment. āCome on, Iām not that conceited. When the whole crew shoots together, the extra mirrors help.ā The last part of that sentence is muffled, and that cues you into an important fact.Ā
Jin is currently changing into something more comfortable.
A process that includes him getting naked.
Well maybe he doesnāt get fully naked, top on, top off, bottom on, bottom of-
Still. Youāre sweating like a whore in church.Ā
And things only get tougher when he finally comes out.Ā
The ocean blue sweater he dons is tucked in. Who tucks in sweaters? Kim Seokjin. Why does he tuck sweaters? Oh, because heās got an amazing waistline that he should most definitely show off, and the heat between your thighs becoming increasingly potent is a testament to that. You pretend to adjust your heels, giving the right expressions to show youāre in pain, but in actuality you are bringing your legs closer to get you some relief, just any relief.Ā
Ripped jeans too. You get a peek of the thighs you were denied access to the night of the fuckening. Ridged and beautiful, not a speck in sight to mar his perfection. You are glad the facial expressions for pain and pleasure are not far apart, because your thighs, albeit very lacking, are helping the imagery in your head. Just Jin, seated on one of these leather chairs, and you straddling his thigh, clit aching against the strands of the rips in his denim, the fabric soaking up the wetness, with every push forwa-
āNow that you mention it, I do look dashing.ā
And there goes that dream.Ā
You pinch his cheeks in adoration, the vulgarity of your thoughts getting whitewashed by his silliness and blooming heart-shaped flowers in their stance. You feel your own pinch in you, wondering if this scene would be the same had you blurted your feelings out that day at the cafe.
It's times like these when you remind yourself why you choose to quieten that side. This dynamic cannot reincarnate in any other form. Any imbalance to this equilibrium could cause a serious case of best-friends-turn-awkward-acquaintances, and you donāt know if thatāll hurt you more than you currently do. You donāt plan on finding out.
But on God, he tests that resolution every single day.
Jin doesnāt even hint that he knows of the turmoil blasting behind your eyes. He nonchalantly fixes his hair, gives you a one-over as you are mentally undressing him, nonchalantly as well. Then he moves to grab his cologne, and two spurts disintegrates all the whitewashing and takes you back into the obscenities you were unfolding.Ā
āSo Iāll just go over the shoot photos, and then we can leave! Youāre cool waiting here?ā
āHmmn, yeah!ā You donāt let your mouth run any longer, fearing what might slip out.Ā
He gives you a wide, innocent smile. āGreat! See you in a bit.ā Poor guy. If only he knew how debase plans you were conjuring just from the aroma of his cologne.Ā
It is musky, like cedar or pine, perfectly suiting him. It is the same scent you remember inhaling, face stuffed in his sweater when he was fingering you to the tenth circle of hell. As he walks away, the fragrance diminishes, save for the slightest hint of lingering. You search for the source, and find the culprit strewn across the sofa.
The outfit Jin wore for the shoot held remnants of the perfume, and when you bring the shirt close and take a long, deep whiff, you transport yourself to the land of your dreams. You relish the fever smell of his cologne, mixed with his own natural scent, deciding that this is what you wish to smell like every waking morning.
Your longing for him has crossed way beyond physical boundaries. You longed for his love, longed for his attention. Longed to be the one that brings the light to his face. From morning rays to the darkness of the night, you wanted to experience it all by his side. To be his lone star, shining bright beside the moon.Ā
Your hands are moving without your control, disrobing you of your thirst trap of a dress and putting on Jinās shirt instead. One look at the mirror and you let out a silent groan - it fits you just right. Just enough to cover your ass cheeks, loose enough to let the air conditioning hit your heated pussy. While well-fitting shirts have never been the cornerstone of a successful relationship, your delusional mind takes whatever wins it gets.
Adding layers to your pipe dream, you don the robe that gave you a tough time throughout the shoot. When you press the tails of the robe to your cheek, the softness of the material is soothing. Soft, like Jinās eyes, like his hugs, like his smile. Like him.
Leaning against the counter, you steady yourself, mind split in titillation. Your fingers find their own path, drawing circles on your breasts over his shirt, imagining Jinās long fingers in place. While teasing your nipple to pointed peaks, you slip your other hand under your panties, trying very hard to mimic his digits, twiddling your clit between your fingers. Alas, the effect isnāt achievable, because Jin seems to know how to play you better than yourself.Ā
The scent is getting stronger, without any provoking, and it is doing wonders for your immersion. You let out a loud moan when your fingers press inside, and youāre just glad no one can witness this.
āY-Y/N?ā
Fuck.
You are pulled away from your dreamland that was so impenetrable that you didnāt hear Jin step into the room. All the blood gushing to your nether regions has made a U-turn to flood your brain to think of a plausible explanation for this position. Instead it makes you giddy, and when you try to stand you wobble in your heels, to be rescued by what you think is a very scandalized Jin.Ā
Time stands still when your eyes meet, and what you see are blown out pupils trembling, many questions fluttering between you two. Jin crosses a tenth of the distance between you, lips flutter as they try to make a decision - do they want to part and give way to the voice of question? The voice of reason? The voice that will break this hush, burst this bubble where he has the one chance to give in to his longing?
You bring your lips closer, and cause immense disquiet in his dome, the way of his heart gathering speed against rationale. Your eyes dance between matching his gaze and finding his lips, every fraction of an inch you cross sending tremors through you. You can feel the shockwaves traverse through your body, making a pitstop at your lips, tingling them awake. They move downwards, passing your heart, beating it wildly against its cage, and then to the pit of your stomach to tighten in anticipation; finally reaching the tip of your toes, where you stand right now, a nanoscopic distance between you. Each one of you is afraid to cross the bridge, unaware of the otherās desires.Ā
Finally, Jin acqueises and meets you on your side.Ā
Atomic explosions ring through your head, clearing out every single thought that is not about Jinās lips on yours. The ropes that held your heart from beating to the tune of your want, theyāve loosened their knots to give you the leeway to love freely. As your lips exchange positions, his teeth lightly drag across your plush petal, and it brings back the most important part of that night that you couldnāt recollect - the one where his lips sang wordless songs of adoration against yours. Blind as a bat, you were.
You dig your fingers into his hair, not minding your residual arousal coating his locks, and you feel his hands doing the same to you. With your eyes closed, you feel a rough edge to his cushiony soft lips, but Jin fixes that mistake - one stray strand of hair trapped in the middle of your indulgence - he pulls it away to give you all of the kiss. The hand tucked in your tresses pushes in, silently demanding more access, and youāre nothing but ready to give it.Ā Ā
His tongue sneaks in to play a game with yours - when you seek it, it goes into hiding, finding perfect pleasure in soft, sweet kisses, but when you stay, it comes back in, awakening your tongue to deepen again. Everything he is doing is too much and not enough in one go, and you whine into his mouth in desperation, seeking some well-earned relief after months of holding back.
Amidst the flurry of your lips, your back hits the vanity countertop, and Jin pushes away everything on top to make space for you, not caring what expensive item flies down the counter to accommodate your ass.
As if youāve made up for the months of holding back, the softness of the kisses erodes, teeth coming into play more and more, reminiscent of the night that went by in a blur. He swallows every mewl you give in return, blissed out beyond repair, your neediness making his cock strain against the denim.Ā
His hand snakes down, spreading his fingers to get a hold of your back to push you towards him, covering any gap that dared to intervene. Now unworried about the shoot, your hands have effectively ruined his perfectly placed locks and messed them up to resemble the craze he let you spin in.
Before he can glide his tongue back in, you break the kiss, lest you lose yourself in it to the point where you forget to breathe. With attached foreheads, you take deep drags of air, letting the oxygen flow to your brain before you make some ill-advised, unclarified decisions.
āI- I was jus-ā
āShhh. Wait,ā he breathes out, wanting to take a second and fully savor the moment. You nod in return, making his head move along with yours.
After sufficient air fills his lungs, Jin starts. āY/N, we should stop.ā
Last time this had happened, you had tried to force your way through his barrier, without giving his feelings a second of consideration. So this time, you donāt repeat your mistakes. āTell me why.ā
āBecause, I donāt know what youāre looking for, but Iām way deeper in this than you think.ā
āJin, I-ā
āLet me finish.ā He stops you before you can explain how much you reflect his emotions, possibly more. He doesnāt seem to want to listen now. āLet me finish, or else Iāll chicken out, for the millionth time.ā
Youāre dumbfounded. Millionth time? When was the first? Acting majors, by God.Ā
āI love you, Y/N.ā
No, now you are dumbfounded. Your hands, holding his precious locks, drop down in shock, at sheer disbelief that all this time, he has been ready and waiting to return you the favor. Jin though, misinterprets it as a look of disdain.Ā
āI-I know I do, and Iām sorry that I do. I know you donāt feel the same way. You can hate me all you want, but this is the truth.ā
āAnd yes,ā he continues, refusing to halt for even half a second, afraid that the courage he mustered to confess would dissipate the moment he does, āIām attracted to you, and I donāt know what went down here --ā flicking his wrist to mention your (his) outfit, ā--but Iām looking, okay? And Iām hard as fuck. But thatās not all there is to it.ā
āI need all of you.ā He takes an audible gulp, trying to stymy his emotions from overpowering him. āI want to take you out, I want to hold you hand, I want to bring you to all the places I love. I want to introduce you to people, not as my best friend, but so much more than that. It hurts me,ā bringing his hand to his chest, he emphasizes the point of pain by clutching over his heart, āhurts to call you that because Iām lying through my fucking teeth.ā
You break eye contact, because there are tears smarting your eyes at his heartfelt revelation. You canāt believe the idiot that you have been all this while. The man of your dreams stands in front of you, baring his soul, and you canāt even do him the decency of telling him what you felt yourself before jumping his bones.
And you love him, too. Maybe you havenāt said so, even to yourself, but youāve known all this while.
You love him.
āIf you are just looking for a fuck, or want any sort of a ābenefitsā situation, we should stop. I canāt lie to myself anymore.ā
āJin, my God,ā you half-sigh, half-laugh, feeling a burden lift off of you after months of pining.
āYou donāt have to pacify me, itās okay, Iāll be fine.ā Even in this moment, he is looking out for you. His lips are curved upward to show you that heās okay, but his pupils are shaky and restless, not in sync with his smile. You hope your next words can fix that for him.
āPacify you? Hate you?ā You shoot him an incredulous look, one you will explain to him very soon. āYou are a much better person than I am, Jinnie. For months now, Iāve loved you, but even at this point, I didnāt stop to tell you.ā The guilt of letting your hormones cloud your judgement for the second time lays heavily on your conscience. āIām sorry for not making this clear earlier, but let me now. I love you, Kim Seokjin. I have for way too long. I want you, I need you. You have me, in every possible way.ā
It feels unparalleled to get that off your chest. The leaden weight of your emotions immediately disappears - or the fact that it's shared, makes it much, much lighter. But then you look at Jin, and he still seems to have not put two and two together. You patiently wait for him to process all the information.Ā
When he finally recoups, he yells, āWhat?!ā
You let out a loud guffaw, the first one with no inhibitions in the longest time. āWhat?ā
āWhy didnāt you say anything that day at the cafe?!āĀ
āYou said youād never date me, asshole!ā You punch his chest softly, before slipping your hands behind him and pulling him closer. āI might not look like it, but I have some dignity.ā
āI said that?ā Jin brings one hand to pinch his nose in annoyance. āWhat an idiot. I think I was just inverting everything to make sure I donāt accidentally slip up.ā
You lift your head to meet his eyes again, letting him see the tears you were hiding. You find a couple in his eyes, too. But the smile on your face is genuine, and that is all that matters. āI was blind too, so donāt beat yourself up about it.āĀ
Flitting your eyes down to find the contour of his cock against his jeans, you ask him innocently, āHow about we make up for lost time?ā
āFuck, yes, please.ā And with that, your lips are engulfed again.
When you have all your guards down, the kiss tastes sweeter than before. Mere moments ago, while thoroughly enjoying the kiss, a sense of reticence had clouded your pleasure, holding you back from luxuriating in the headiness. A series of what-ifs had plagued your subconscious without your realization, but with all that cleared, you wholly submit to the kiss, emptying your mind until nothing but his name remains.
āFuck, Y/N,ā Jin gasps out, when you bite into his pillowy lower lip, āI thought you looked the prettiest in the dress earlier but,ā after pulling away, he drinks your current attire in, āyou look the most beautiful in this.ā
You snicker. āEven more than World Wide Handsome?ā
His eyes bore into yours, no hint of the joking lilt he always carries in them.Ā
āSo much more.ā
Your hands find their place amidst his shaggy hair again, and you lodge his face into your neck - a command Jin acquiesces to with great pleasure. After a long, wet lick to your collarbone, he lays feather-soft kisses on the trail he left, starting from your shoulder and working inward, until he brushes against the back of your ear. You grasp at his sweater, because his lips feel so good. Your breaths are short, sucking in every time he allows your skin the luxury of a soft peck.Ā Once he lays a kiss on your forehead, he brings his gaze down to one of the main reasons that causes his cock to stir.
āFuck, look at your nipples under my shirt.ā
Gazing down, you can see the two pointed peaks that caught Jinās eyes.Ā
āThat tends to happen when Iām thinking of you.āĀ
He twists a nipple over the shirt, hardening it further, and you throw your head back in the satisfying pain. āYeah, I remember.ā
You are unraveling every second, the ache swishing amongst the bliss his fingers are bringing in you. Heās switched over to drawing circles around your nipple, until he snaps and tugs your shirt up, finally revealing the palmfulls of flesh awaiting his hands.Ā
āAh that night, I didnāt get to do this. Take this off.ā But then, he makes you put on his robe again. You throw him a questioning look, to which he responds with a sheepish smile, āJust so, you knowā¦ you donāt feel coldā¦ or something.ā
āJust say you like me in your clothes and move on.ā
āI love you in my clothes,ā he admits in a heartbeat, his expression that of anguish, ācan we move on?ā
āGod, gladly.ā
Unexpectedly, he bites the side of your boob - not hard at all, but feeling his teeth against your skin sends your head reeling backward. Your involuntary response is to wrap your legs around his waist, grinding your core against him. His teeth continue to nip you lightly across the expanse of your breasts, the trail of saliva he leaves cooling parts of your flushed body. Finally, finally, he latches onto your left nipple and gives it a long, pleasurable suck.
āAhh, Jin - youāre too - God damn it - youāre too good at this.āĀ
Without stopping the onslaught he is unleashing on your breasts, his fingers begin to move - but soon, they stop, hesitation rippling off of their tips. His pace falters, and his mind is fighting on the next course of action.
āCan I-ā
āFinish what you started that night?ā you complete for him, already prepared with your answer. āYes, please.ā
All forms of uncertainty shoot out of his touch, and he confidently trudges forward. Playing with the band of your panties, he gives you a well-intended chuckle, murmuring, āAs far as I remember, I was so good you passed out.ā
āBoy,ā You groan, intended in jest, but his teeth slide against your jaw and it mostly comes out more wanton than jovial, ālet me see you have tequila for dinner and remember much the next day.ā
āFair fair,ā he gives in, shifting to buss the valley of your cleavage, feeling your heart thud against your ribs holding it in place. āWell today,ā he starts without moving his face, his nimble fingers moving past the barrier of your underwear, pressing two fingertips directly on your clit, and hissing like it's him at the receiving end, āIāll give you enough to remember.ā
You pull his sweater off and chuck it away, not wanting to be reminded of any blockades that kept you apart, and your hands roam the expanse of his back remembering the touch of his skin from the night at the bar. His body isnāt new to you, but the circumstances make it feel different.Ā
Finally, his fingers find their way inside you.Ā
Yes, this. This was what was missing from your drunken tryst. With your heads in place, your ardor intensifies, and you move his lips back to yours needing to release your animalistic desire into his mouth. Pleasure surges through both of you as you threaten to swallow him whole.
You can feel him being more present, and considering the merciless finger-fucking you had earned that night, this is taking it to a whole other degree.Ā
The night at the bar, his fingers did their best to ravish you, but now, Jin is paying attention, close attention to the way you respond. Every muscle movement is recorded in him as you struggle to accommodate three of his lengthy digits. Leaning close, he gives your peaked nipple the lightest feather lick - the suddenness sends shockwaves through you as he continues to tweeze the other, talented pianist hands performing his musical piece on both ends of you.
His fingers pump into you with determination, finding new depths to explore that he missed out on, and with a curl of his pointer, you blank out, screaming in the orgasm that is washing over you. Every skincell of your body feels the quiver of lust spreading, your cunt squeezing for an eternity, milking the orgasm out to the extent that you can.Ā
When you look down, your metaphorical orgasmic flood manifestes as a deluge of your arousal leaking on the table. And when you look back up, you can see the salacious ideas making their rounds in Jinās head as he looks at the inundation you released.Ā
Hurried hands still convulsing from the intensity of your orgasm, you undo his belt, followed by his jeans and finally - getting the pleasure you were heartlessly denied of - his cock is out, in all its glory, twitching as the cool air hits its naked skin. Jinās plans donāt go hand in hand with yours though.
āAre we just - holy fucking shit - just, umm, leave that to waste?ā he lustfully looks down to your leaking core, and someway, through your hold on his dick, he tries to steer you into his plans.
āI donāt know about that,ā you cheekily reply. You have the right idea to satisfy both of you, and get down to the task.
With the flat of your palm, you swipe across the droplets of cum you released, gathering them to transfer them onto his thick length. Jin thrusts into your hand, the wetness jolting him into attention, and he places an arm on your shoulder to steady himself.Ā
āYouāre going to taste yourself?ā he asks as you continue your vacillating motion, twisting at the base of his head with the wetness you graciously provided yourself. You give him a nonchalant look, something he is trying to do to you as well.Ā
āWho said Iām gonna suck you off?ā
His look changes, and the one you get in return is cocky, arrogant, downright rude if you were honest. You expected him to play on with your banter, but one raised eyebrow and the lazy smirk he gives, to what he probably thinks is a joke - Zeus could land on earth and not be able to stop you from gobbling his meat.Ā
Your mouth is filled with his dick even before your knees hit the ground. Jin staggers back, but your suction on his dick is funnily strong enough to pull him back before falling.Ā You switch positions, having him balance himself against the counter, all while you refuse to leave his cock out. His giggle of endearment has you pouting, but it swells your heart and makes you want to give more, more of anything and everything. With your renewed vigor, you push yourself in until his pubes tickle your nose, and his tip tickles your throat.Ā
āYour-ā, āI-ā, āuhh-āĀ
Every new sentence Jin starts crumbles to your actions. You furrow your brows both in concentration on your blowing skills and trying to decode what he is trying to say.Ā
Jin takes a large gulp, adamant on making this one a coherent sentence. āYou know, I used to imagine this, and in my dreams I used to be very sexy and suave, talking my way throug-oof-ā You run your tongue over the tip of his leaking dick, emphasizing the point he is coming to, āNow I canāt even complete sentences here.ā
āYou being you is super sexy in itself.ā And you curve your tongue to match the arch of his cock, letting the incoming saliva pool on it before letting it run down his shaft, dripping down from his balls. Strings of his precum connect to your lips, and you swipe your tongue through them, relishing the salty goodness before going back in for more.Ā
āY/N, shit, did you just moan?ā
How couldnāt you? The fact that he is horny for you, so much so that rivulets of precum donāt stop drizzling down your throat, has you preening. You hum your assent in response, not willing to let go even for a moment, but Jin pulls you off before you can get a chokehold on the base of his cock again.Ā
āNever had a woman moan while sucking me off. Itās sexy as fuck,ā Jin breathes into your lips as he dives in for a kiss.
Your chest is heaving, catching the breaths you lost when you were down. āThen whyād you stop me?ā
āAre you kidding me? I was about to lose it right there.ā
āJinnie, come on,ā you break the fragmentary kiss you were sharing, looking into his glassy eyes, ālet me feel you come on my tongue.ā To emphasize your conviction, you lick his lips, persuading him of the sinful deeds your tongue is capable of doing if heād just let you.
āOh man, stop. Whatās worse than busting a nut in your mouth? Busting it while youāre kissing me. Making me feel like a teenager.ā You erupt into a loud laugh, soon followed by Jin as well. It is so him to joke about this.Ā
āAnd babe,ā all hints of embarrassment vanishing from his tone, āIām only going to come inside you.ā
āFuck, fuck, yes. You got a condom on you?ā
āYeah, let me grab my wallet.ā The instant he moves away, you feel naked, shivering from the comfort stolen away from you. But then you hear Jin grumble, āI hope I donāt have the bacon-flavored one.ā And the absurdity of it all puts you at ease again.
āEw, stop, even you canāt make that sexy. My lady boner is dying.ā
He envelops you again, and you can feel the laughter echoing in his lungs before making it out to your ears. He brings your attention to the familiar rustle of foil wrapper. āThankfully, we got chocolate.ā
āMmmh, gotta love chocolate.ā
You take the condom out of his hands, and roll it onto his stiff length, flattered that heās holding his erection for so long.Ā
āOkay, stick it in me!ā And you smack your ass in readiness, and a very flabbergasted Jin breaks out chortling.
āY/N, stop being my best friend for like, five minutes!ā His brows are furrowed in pretense exasperation, but you can see his lips holding back a genuine smile through the grimace, just happy that your dynamics havenāt changed the slightest, even though everything else has shifted.
āOkay okay,ā you try and suppress your own laughter, before continuing, āhow do you want me, baby?ā
āBend over on the vanity. And keep your eyes on the mirror.ā And as you move into position, his palms grab your ass and squeeze it hard, feeling your glutes push back against his grip, and he pushes you forward till you're on the tips of your toes. You watch him through the mirror, watch him admire the way your ass curves over the table edge, how your toes struggle to keep you up, and how the dimples of your back are deepened by the arch, peeking under the bunched up robe tails, just waiting for him.
āJin.ā Your hushed whisper puts him in action.
Pushing the head in is anguish and relief at the same time. His bulbous head stretches your entrance; even with your preparation, you feel it sting. The searing gets better and better with every inch slipping in, and when he finally lodges inside, you let out a heavy breath, still panting and keeping yourself from screaming bloody murder in pleasure. Jin bends forward to paint the back of your neck, sucking the flesh till the circular bruise comes to surface.Ā
āCan you- can you-fuck, no, wait-ā Your brain is at war with itself, battling between adjusting to his girth and having him pump you into adjustment.Ā
You can feel Jinās snicker from behind you, and he finally makes the decision for you. āIāll wait, I have things to do here,ā he says before playing around the patch of skin, spreading from the base of your hair to the expanse of your back, his teasing licks relaxing your walls and accommodating his girth. The pain is almost gone, expect for the lingering ache that only helps you.
āYou can move now, babe.ā
āOkay, okay.ā Your words snap him out of the painterās dream he was in, and he twitches inside you. Something about the ease at which you both have adopted nicknames for each other softens his heart and hardens his cock.Ā
Pulling out till only the head rests inside, Jin himself struggles against the third degree grip your pussy has on him. As he is thrusting inside again, your walls tense up, making it harder and harder for him to hold back.Ā
āY/N, sweetie, relax. I got you.ā
āJin, Iām-ā You have tears running down your eyes, the pleasure and unsurmountable happiness rolling out in fat hot drops. āFuck me harder. I wonāt last.ā
āShit. Okay, hold on then.ā
To what? Is what youāre going to ask before Jin unleashes his carnality onto you. Your breasts, dripping in sweat and saliva, are plastered to the countertop, which in itself is jiggling to the beat of Jinās thrusts. His dick is curving inside to hit you repeatedly, and you have to gather the satin fabric to wipe your eyes to keep your gaze fixed on him.Ā
He looks majestic. Forehead embellished with beads of sweat, his hair coiffed up, lips sanguine red after your vicious kisses - you swipe your tongue along your own lips to find them battered in response. His honey chest is heaving with every push, and a particular one hits you just right.Ā
You let out a guttural groan, and Jin takes note of it immediately.Ā
āUp,ā he commands, and loops an arm under your belly to you pull you up and closer and now every thrust hits deeper into that spot he has found in you, your back connected to his chest as the two of you move in tandem; this is the most together youāve ever felt with anyone. This moment is to be etched in your memories forever.
You scream into your fist to muffle the sounds, the edge of the table digging into your hip bone as you feel yourself getting closer to the brink. One swipe to the clit is all you have left to bring you to your release.Ā
And from some telepathic force, or from the clutch your pussy has on him, Jin beats you to it. His fingers come down and carefully find your swollen nub, pinching it between his fingers. If he thought youād shown him your hardest clench, he was wrong, because right now your dam has broken, and the iron-clad grip you give his cock sends him reeling, too.
You are gushing on his dick, the rubber dripping with your wetness. Jin too releases into the condom in stuttered gasps, his thrusts becoming shorter and shallower as he comes down from his high.Ā
Petal-like kisses fall on your back as the two of you regain your breaths. The mirror that served you two well is covered in a fog of hot breath and perspiration, blearing your vision of yourself, but somehow, it sparkles with Jinās reflection. His nobility-esque visuals use the haze as a valance for his appearance, framing them to make him look like youāre among the clouds. And in some way, you actually are.
āAh, let me go.ā You jiggle your shoulders back to make the man above you move. āFuck, can you check if my spine is in place? I think you dislodged it.ā
āShut up and come hug me, Iāll squeeze it back in place.ā
Now this is something you could get used to.
As he ties and throws away the used condom, you flip over to face him and fall back into his embrace, broad shoulders promising to protect you, making you feel safe in his care. Jin on the other hand is simply ecstatic to feel you on him, feeling your thumping heart beat for him, after months of pining and pondering whether anything would become of the seed of your tumultuous friendship. Now, it has blossomed to a garden of prospect and promise, every petal of every flower here reading a new opportunity to tell you how much he adores you, cherishes you, treasures you. How much he loves you.Ā An opportunity he doesnāt wait to use.Ā
āI love you.ā
The pink tinge of your cheeks either comes from the sex, or from his comment, but either way, he is glad its from him.Ā
āI love you too, Jin. So, so very much.ā
If your heart could leap out of your chest, it would do so, to find its way to his and fuse into one. But for now, your entwined bodies give you all you want.Ā
You hear Jin stifle a laugh, and pull back in question. He points to something odd on the countertop.
āWhat is that?ā
The cream white surface of the table, that was maligned by your ignoble deeds, now sports two glistening, wheatish semi circles that look very similar to the sizes of one person who was splayed on top of it just moments ago.Ā
āIs thatā¦ā Jin is trying to contort his lips and halt the looming snicker, and he brings his eyes down to your chest (trying not to get hard again), āDid you have makeup on your chest?ā
āShut up.ā All you can do is fall closer into his arms, hopefully masking the tint of embarrassment highlighting the apples of your cheeks. āI wanted to make them look extra good for you.ā
Heās given up on holding back, the full-bellied laugh that resonated from him echoing across the room. But it dwindles down fast, coming to small chuckles of tenderness, and he slips his digits beneath your chin to have you meet his gaze.
āThey always look good,ā he whispers, his admittance setting your chest aflame, ātrust me, Iād know.ā
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Hi Goldy, JK was bold in the past, around 2017-2019 (to me, gcf & rosebowl can be considered as ācoming outā). But it seems he now prefers to stay closeted? E.g. he snatched JMās hand in the Xylitol x BTS shoot, then looked at the camera. Holding hands is normal among membersā¦ a lot of his interactions with Jin, V and other members are more intimate than holding handsā¦ his reaction makes me feel like he wants me to pretend I didnāt knowā¦?
Sorry I've been a bit AWOL lately...
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I'm busy being the man of my woman's dreams in a cis het anti black capitalist world
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Fun times.
I saw that bit, uWu-ed and kept it pushing.
It's nothing new really. I think a few months back when I was out here screaming Jikook are toning down, acting super professional around the cameras yadda yadda people out here were looking at me like I'd lost my two delulu heads- but this segues into that theme for me and since I've exhausted the topic I don't know what else to add.
I've said before they've both been very conscious of the cameras within certain periods post October- again nothing new, they be like that every now and then every season every phase and the whys will always be up for debate in these ship streets- on that subject, I've read a lot of opinions yet I think like mine better and will stick to it. Thanks Kimberly of Delulu precinct. Walk along now. Lol.
Jimin was like that during the Coway behind the scene shoot too when he noticed the cameras and quickly elbowed Jk to draw him away from the gaze of the cameras.
I don't think it's because they stopped being 'bold' or want to pretend. It takes a lot of courage to even pretend or even perform the gay in front of the world and your peers. I think they are just awfully aware and conscious of the people they work with as well as corporation's growing awareness, intentions and interests in them. You just never know which saessang is moonlighting as a brand PA or marketing director for a company they are working with. You just never know who is watching especially whenever they have to work with these 'outsiders.'
Think of Dispatch. Were they not allies or business partners, they'd be careful around them too if they worked with them. Know what I mean?
Toning down and exercising caution is necessary sometimes. I don't know why some people think that's absurd or Tuktukkerish when I say stuff like that. Especially with the kind of reputation they have as a ship and just how commercially attractive that image is. It's common sense at this point if you ask me.
Jikook sells. Argue with the analytics. I don't know who thinks they don't. Must be the clowns and penguins. They sell period. BigHit knows this, BTS knows this, companies know this. We don't scream Jikook is a brand within a brand for no reason.
And a lot of the toning down in recent times has perhaps inadvertently mitigated that growing power and demand of them as a marketing resource- who knows, that could have as well been by design, intentionally instigated for obvious reasons which I argue is the case but don't mind me. I'm delusional, gay and apparently the man of my woman's dreams uWu. Gotta wear that pants in my relationship. Ayaya Hwaiting.
When you say he prefers to stay closested- I thought they are both closested already?? They both have never been fully out in our opinion. Yes our opinion because I feel we are like minded. Let's be delulu mates.
On the topic of closets, I want to save that for a separate post. What I can say though is they are both growing and maturing and learning and unlearning. Jungkook's desire to 'come out' or act reckless with his glass closet in my opinion stemmed from him placing more value on his personal happiness over other values perhaps because he was young and hadn't fully grasped the full and complex nature of happiness or understand the privilege he has as part of BTS.
We make decisions based on our values most times. It's how I make sense of their actions really. I'm more likely to assume things that are consistent with the values they each have expressed openly and tend to reject any theory that contradicts or is inconsistent with those values. A guy who values his career is less likely to act in a way that puts that career at risk. And I'm well aware their values evolve over time.
These days he has never quit as one of his mottos next to rather dead than cool- do you see the contradictions in those values? Rather dead means quitting life. Yet now he says never quit. Don't mind me. I'm in a grumpy mood.
But what I'm saying is, the desire to want to show the world who this person means to him is not fixed or a priority all the time. Now i think he values his career a lot more than before which means he is more likely to compromise and less likely to do things that may put that career in jeopardy.
Transferring that to his relationship, I don't expect him to be breaching the glass closet anytime soon. And if he do, it might be incidental and may carry with it consequences which I believe he is well aware and concious of now. Will that change? You bet. Again it depends a lot on what his values in a given moment are and which ones he prioritizes.
It's their relationship. They chose which aspects of it they want to share with the cameras. Some of it get written off as fanservice. Fair enough. But the nonfanservice passing moments has always been questionable- although I must say, I find all Jikook moments and interactions questionable lol.
It's just skinship. Holding hands I mean. Why would he be conscious of that right? II'vetalked about consequences and repercussions of their actions. Sometimes I think it's the off screen scolding that gets to him. The ones silently whispered at his back. I mean we saw his reaction when Jimin was getting scolded by the hyungs for sleeping late. He's talked about skipping sleep too if I recall correctly. Jimin is hyung and I know the hyungs expect him to know better and do better. I'd Imagine Jimin would equally scold JK if his actions reflected poorly on him too.
So why the hell would he not say anything to Jungkook for posting on his birthday when he hadn't posted at all for any hyung's??? Sigh.
It's sad his guards are back up- but it's for good reason I believe given the context of the situation.
I don't think dramatizing his dynamic with Jimin makes him bold. Nor does Jimin's propensity to over express himself with Jungkook mean he loves Jungkook more than. Both are extreme takes for me.
Nevertheless, I contrast that moment with a Tae Kook moment which is one of my favorite tuktukk moments. In this moment, JK is staring at Jimin, his whole body turned towards him. Tae notices the cameras and draws JK's attention to it. I think there are two such moments like that from the recent contents? I don't know I have to cross check.
Tae in that moment reminded me a lot of Jimin. Jimin does this too- play out their relationship infront of the cameras to the point one might say he likes to show off their bond- which is such a BTS thing to do too so no big deal. I mean they like to show off their bond and chemistry as Tae said a while back.
It's one thing for JK to hesitate to act with a member because of the cameras, it's another for him to act self conscious only after the fact.
And JK has always been him like this with Jimin as Jimin used to say- JK acts different with me off cameras than he is on camera. He had a history of suppressing himself around Jimin owing in part to his personality
He's talked about putting on a mask around people and in a recent interview Jimin have talked about pretending and acting one way when he's not- I mean I've ever talked about the boy being in love with the Maknae being a facade- one of many.
They have public personas which, from what BTS themselves say, looks slightly different or similar to what we see on screens- or that they've grown to be more like what we see on screens.
I guess what I'm getting at is that 'pretending' isn't exactly a new thing or out of the ordinary. Personally I'd say he's being conscious of his surroundings like Jimin was and not that he is 'pretending.' If you know what I mean.
If he's pretending he has good reason to I believe and we can only speculate on that- we can't know for sure why.
If Jikook is fanservice then there's no need for either of them to worry about the cameras picking up on their interactions or who's watching them.
What goes on in Tae's head? I wanna know.
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I don't know where to direct this post because you didn't really ask a question.
I'm fine thanks for asking. I'm really fine. I'm thinking of joining Jimin in the gym at 3am to bench press and build some biceps to match my role in my relationshipš
And no I don't need any advice. Keep it.
This is going to be my attitude until we switch backš
I'm gonna be a boyfriend from hell and a blogger from satan's ass.
Also I think I overshareš
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the birthday dinner
pairing: hawks x gn!reader
words: 1.5k
summary: hawks receives a text from you inviting him to a birthday dinner. even if initially he wants nothing but to avoid such a meeting, he complies, not realizing he has a surprise ahead of himself.
tags/warnings: feel-good fic, pea-sized angst, soft hawks and all the happiness for him because he deserves it ~
notes: happy birthday to my favourite birdman! <3
Like every other morning, the first thing Keigo did when he woke up was check his work phone. He scrunched his eyebrows as he realized it was turned off. Was it malfunctioning? He should ask the commission for a new one. As he waited for the phone to turn on, he grabbed his personal phone, wondering if there were any missed messages during the night. There was only one unopened message with your name attached on it. He tapped on it curiously.
He didnāt realize he had been smiling until it disappeared in an instant.
āhappy birthday baby!!!!!! <3 i love you so much. i know youāre working today but please please please come by my place around 9. i have something planned for both of us and i think youāre gonna like it. mwah, love you, have a great day!ā
Keigo ran his fingers across his scalp, his mouth twisted in a line. He loved you, he did but there was nothing he wanted less than to celebrate it. His work phone started beeping non-stop as the birthday messages came by and he let out a loud sigh. He would take care of those later, he promised himself as he hopped off of the bed and onto the shower.
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Number Two Hero, Hawks, had perfected the art of fake smiles years ago. It was meant to calm down the public, to accompany his flirt persona and to hide what he was truly feeling or thinking. Thatās why as soon as he entered his office, he feigned surprise when his agency jumped from behind their desks to wish him a happy birthday, the closest thing he had ever had to a birthday surprise party. They did it every year, yet Hawks would always open his mouth in surprise and put a hand on his chest, thanking everyone for the surprise and humming contently as he had a bite of the cake. After laughing with the rest of the agency, he would excuse himself, lying about paperwork or a meeting with another hero. He was such a good actor that everyone truly believed he was distraught about missing the rest of his birthday celebration.
That morning it was like every other year before. The surprise, the laughs, the cake. The online meeting he couldnāt miss. He went to his office and locked himself, his smile fading the instant he was alone. He let himself fall ungraciously on his chair and then took out his personal phone. He looked at your text again and realized he had never replied to it.
āsounds great dove. see ya <3ā
The uninterested and slightly bothered look on his face didnāt match the text but he sent it anyway. Putting the phone away, he then took notice of his work phone and started going through the messages. He loathed the idea of thanking the Commission and other top heroes for their birthday wishes but he knew it had to be done. He wrote four different thank you messages on his notes app and then proceeded to randomly copy and paste them in the different messages, taking short breaks to eat the slice of matcha cake the office had given him.
He hated matcha cake.
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Hawks had scheduled a lunch meeting with Endeavor, but an hour before they were supposed to meet, his assistant called saying he had another urgent meeting. Having heard the news, the rest of the heroes in his agency had begged him for him to let them take him to lunch. Doing one of his best performances yet, Hawks had told them the Commission had asked him to lunch. Being a top hero got him special attention after all. He tried his best to ignore the other heroes' disappointed faces and wondered if they really felt bad at all.
An hour later, he sat on the rooftop of his agency, eating a fried chicken takeout with his hands. He sucked on his fingertips as he watched his phone screen, a reaction video of a movie he didnāt have the time to watch in its entirety. The idea of calling you crossed his mind for a brief second before he pushed it away completely.
You didnāt need to see him like this.
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Takami Keigo reached your place five minutes after nine oāclock. He had barely had time to take a shower before arriving and he already felt like his social battery was drained. When he knocked on your apartment door, he heard your voice telling him to come inside. You were still in the shower, apparently. He stepped inside, leaving his shoes on the side and looked around your apartment. There was no sign of a birthday dinner or unwanted guests, so at least he could relax about seeing other people. You came out of the bedroom wrapped up in a towel and gave him a big smile.
āHey birthday boy,ā you greeted him. āGive me five minutes and Iāll be ready. You do need to change though. I grabbed something for you, itās on the coffee table,ā you added, before disappearing in your bedroom.
Keigo looked down at his outfit. He had chosen a black fancy shirt and some designer jeans, knowing you had something planned out. Was that not enough? He couldnāt suppress the grimace appearing on his face. Did you have something really elegant planned out? He really didnāt want any other birthday celebrations. He had had enough of generic gifts and pretending to enjoy a date that only brought him sour memories about the disappointment of being a child whose parents would always forget about his birthdays.
He should say something to you, he thought, but the idea that you were already changing and that you had even gotten him fancy clothes to go with your idea made his chest hurt. Letting out a long sigh, he walked to the coffee table, where a big paper bag was waiting for him. He carried it to the sofa and emptied its containers.
Keigo didnāt understand when he saw a pair of sweatpants and a cotton t-shirt fall from the bag. With his eyebrows furrowed, he took the clothes to inspect them closer. They were new and incredibly soft. What kind of cotton was it? And why would he need to change into sweatpants for the birthday date you had planned?
As if you had listened to his questions, you appeared next to him, wearing your pajama shorts and an oversized t-shirt. You had a big smile on your face as you circled your arms around his waist and pressed a kiss on his shoulder.
āWhatās this?ā Keigo asked, turning his head to you with an amused smile.
āI know youļæ½ļæ½ļæ½re not really excited about your birthday, so--ā
āHow do you know that?ā he interrupted with a cheeky smile. He turned on his heel and placed your arms around his neck, so he could hold your waist and pull you closer.
āI did ask you what did you want for your birthday a couple of weeks ago and you gave me the most unenthusiastic answer,ā you chuckled. āWhatever you want, dove. Iām good,ā you imitated him, exaggerating his dull voice to then let out a small laugh.
āHey, I am pretty convincing,ā he defended himself, tickling your sides and making you laugh even more.
āYou are!ā you assured him. āBut now with me. I know all your tell-tales, Keigo,ā you smiled, leaning your head to kiss his cheek.
He quickly moved his head so you ended up kissing his lips. Chuckling, you kissed him over and over on his pink lips, loving how he holds you even closer to him. You pulled away from him and held his face tenderly.
āI donāt know why you donāt like your birthday and I wonāt ask. You can tell me, or not, whenever youāre ready. But I wanted us to have a relaxing night. Just the two of us, no fancy dinners, no expectations, not even the smallest reason you have to pretend to be okay. I donāt want you to pretend. Not when youāre with me, at least,ā you shrugged with a sheepish smile.
Keigo looked down at you. There were so many words he wanted to tell you, all twisted and tangled on his mind, so he chose to the one truth he was always sure of.
āI love you,ā he whispered, loving how his words drew a big smile on your face.
āLove you too,ā you replied, pulling him closer and hugging him tightly.
Not even two seconds later, your doorbell rang. You pushed him away gently with an excited grin.
āThe chicken is here! Let me get my wallet while you go change,ā you said, before running to your bedroom barefoot, a content hum as you go through your drawers.
Keigo unbuttoned his shirt quickly. As soon as he put the t-shirt on, his body immediately relaxed. Not only was the fabric soft, but it smelt like you. He started thinking maybe you had put some of your perfume on them and he couldnāt be happier about that.
Maybe this was going to be a good birthday after all.
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Atlantis AU - Character Designs
This was waaaaaay too much fun! I guess thereās something about Kingdom Hearts characters that translates really well into the aesthetic of Atlantis. Story setup and character bioās are below the cut!
In the year 1920 world renowned archaeologist Professor A. Wise discovers a book known as The Shepherdās Journal, which he believes may hold the location of the Lost City of Atlantis. With the help of his two best students, Professor Wise makes sort work of decoding the ancient Atlantean language, unlocking the bookās long held secrets. He presents his findings to the famous adventure Yen Sid in hopes of receiving financial backing from him for an expedition to the Lost City. While Yen Sid himself is now much too old to venture out on such an arduous journey, he enthusiastically agrees to financially support the venture. All that remained was for Professor Wise to assemble the talented crew required to see the expedition through.
Kairi: Kairi is a University student studying history and linguistics. She is one of Professor Wiseās top students and helped him in the decoding The Shepherdās Journal. When presented with the opportunity to join him on the Atlantis expedition she excitedly agrees the moment he asks her. On the outside Kairi appears to have a very positive outlook on life and a rather happy go lucky attitude. However, this persona is a mask Kairi uses to hide a deep pain she has carried all her life. Born out of wedlock to the disgrace of both her parents, Kairi has always been seen as an outcast in her family. Her wish to be educated at a University far away was only agreed to by her wealthy family so they may finally be rid of her for good. With the exception of her friend Roxas, Kairi feels she has never been truly loved by anyone. That all begins to change, however, when upon reaching the city of Atlantis she meetās a mysterious Atlantean man with the most charming smile sheās ever seen.
Roxas: Roxas attends the same University as Kairi, studying history and archaeology. He and Kairi met in their first history class together and became fast friends. Upon learning of Kairiās family and troubled past Roxas promised that he could be her new family, and that they would always be friends no matter what. He was the second student who helped Professor Wise decode The Shepherdās Journal. Unlike Kairi, however, Roxas was less eager on the idea of actually travelling to the Lost City, fearing the journey there would be fraught with danger. Kairi comforts him and tells him that so long as he wonāt regret it some day, then he shouldnāt force himself to go on the journey. After thinking on her words and knowing deep down that not seeing Atlantis would haunt him for the rest of his life, Roxas agrees to join the expedition. After all, who knows what sort of other worldly treasure he may find? Or perhaps whom he may find.
Terra: A commander who served in the first World War, Terra is recruited for the expedition along with a number of other ex-soldiers for their military know how and leadership skills. While cool and stoic on the outside, on the inside Terra has become a troubled man, scared by the horrors he faced during the War. Having seen hell with his own eyes, he is now desperate to see āthe other worldā wherever it may be.
Xion: Adoptive sister of Axel and mechanical engineering wiz kid! Xion, along with her older brother, were both personally recommended by Yen Sid for the expedition. Thereās no engine she canāt fix. Xion makes no secret of the fact that she and her brother are only in this for the money so they can keep financially supporting their family. But despite that mentality she has a kind heart, and finds herself easily making friends with Kairi and Roxas.
Axel: Like his sister, explosive expert Axel is in this for the money, plain and simple. He was also recommended by Yen Sid, and has well over a decade of experience with explosives. Axel likes to make friends with everyone, whether they like it or not. Roxas and Kairi were doomed to be his new best friends from the start.
Sora: Growing up Sora always appreciated how lucky he was. Despite having no parents and no royal title to speak of he was somehow accepted as a ward of the Atlantean Emperor. He grew up within the palace walls and became best friends with the Prince. He had to be the luckiest orphan around! Sora thought that he had everything he could ever want, that was until he came across a mysterious girl with impossibly red hair on the outskirts of the city, who claimed to have come from the world above. Sora knew from the moment he met her that he was a goner. He just hoped the Prince wouldnāt be too madā¦and why are all the rumours that Sora may actually posses Royal blood after all suddenly re-emerging?
Riku: The Prince and heir to the thrown of Atlantis. Riku understands his duty well, but that doesnāt mean he always sticks to the rules. Much the the distain of his head guard, more often then not Riku can be found sneaking out of the Palace with Sora to go hunting, or explore more of their mysterious home. The boys both know that once Riku becomes Emperor their time together will no longer be free. They swear to one another that until that day comes they will spend every moment they can together. It is during one of his many expeditions with Sora that they come across the party of explorers from the world above. Riku notices that Sora seems instantly taken by the girl with strange red hair, and even he must admit that there is something about her...
Aqua: The Princeās head guard and and attempted voice of reason, Aqua is a woman who will do anything to protect her Prince even if that means protecting him from himself. While she does her best to maintain a stern exterior appropriate for her position in society, on the inside she has an incredibly warm and loving heart. She will just as soon scold Riku, Sora and Ven for their inappropriate actions, as she will offer them heartfelt advice and comfort whenever they need it. When the Explorers first appear Aqua does not trust them. While some of the newcomers seem friendly enough, others among the group appear to have darker motivations. And then thereās the tall man in the group, with brown hair and a haunted look in his eyes. Thereās something about him Aqua canāt seem to figure out, but she determined to find the answer. For the sake of the Princeās safety of courseā¦
Namine: There was once a time in Namineās life when everything was normal. Her days would pass and nothing strange or out of the ordinary would happen. She could read and draw to her heartās content. Then one day, through no fault of her own, she somehow got mixed up in one the the Princeās crazy adventures and by the end of the madness had seemingly become friends with the Prince and his best friend, Sora. Ever since then Namineās life has become one ridiculous adventure after another, so it wasnāt really much of a surprise when Sora came crashing through her front door one day exclaiming that strange people from the world above had somehow appeared in Atlantis. What did take her by surprise was when she finally laid eyes on the Explorers she found that she couldnāt seem to take her eyes off one of them in particular. A young man with blond hair and a lyrical voice she just canāt get out of her head.
Ven: When Ven first signed up to be trained as a Royal Guard he had expected a tough training process that would teach him to be both strong and disciplined. What he had not expected was for the Prince and Sora to take such a strong liking to him that they would insist he join them on their expeditions at every opportunity. Caught between his duty of obeying the Princeās request but also to follow Aquaās commands, Ven often finds himself receiving an earful from the head guard. But once the lectures are done Aqua always admits that, while Ven shouldnāt leave his post, at least the Prince had taken some form of protection with him. When the Explorers arrive Ven is initially excited, but like Aqua he quickly becomes suspicious. Thereās just something in particular about the Explorer with messy jet black black hair that sends an involuntary shiver down Venās spine.
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Kumon Hyodo Relationship HCS
Request: āDo you do hcs for act 2 characters? If you do can you dating hcs for kumon pls. It's okay if you can't ā¤ļøā¤ļølove your blog ^_^ā from anonie
A/N: omg of course^^ thanks for requesting !! iām literally in love with the act 2 rookies especially kumon heās so cute iām !! heās literally so cute and nice and ahh.... i love him iād literally die for him ( iām writing this listening to a lindsey lohan career recap (?) so sorry if this doesnāt make sense lol yeah )
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- Realistically, youāre probably his first S/O ever. Heād always been so busy with baseball and Juza, and thatās not even mentioning all the times heād get sick.
- Kumon never had been able to really look for a s/o, heād always wanted one - just the thought of being able to have someone next to him all the time he can talk to and love and whoāll praise him gets him all pumped up.
- So when he meets you, he gets a little puppy crush on you. He didnāt think heād manage to actually date you, heād just joined the Summer Troupe and he felt the need to prove himself as an actor and member of the company, plus heād never been lucky with romance.
- He gets shocked when you start reaching out to him and before he realizes you two start hanging out more and more, in a way heās kind of dense - in his head his feelings for you were one sided and heād never actually get a chance to act on them - and he never really realizes you might return his feelings until Banri of all people mention it.
- Once he does realize, oh boy - heās so scared but after encouragement from the rest of the Summer troupe + Azami (who lectured him on what was and wasnāt allowed during dating) he decides heās gonna give it a shot.
- The day he confessed to you he was blushing furiously to the point you almost called Juza worried he had gotten a fever, but Kumon quickly reassures you everything is fine and that heās just kind of nervous - something that had immediately caught your interest.
- His hands are all clammy and he thinks heās never been this nervous and excited ever, but as he sees you staring at him - wondering why heād called you so suddenly - he decides itās now or never.
- ā[Name]... I- weāve known each other for some time and I was- I was wondering if youād like to, uh, go on a date with me?ā His normally confident persona seems to have shrunk significantly as he tried finding the rights words to say to you, he could feel his heat bearing out of his rib cage.
- Of course, seeing a guy like him - normally loud and proud - all shy and nervous was endearing, and you couldnāt quite deny the fact you had a crush on him; and so you two start dating.
- āIād like that a lot too, Kumon!ā
- Kumon is just a very physical guy, he likes hugs and cheek kisses, holding pinkies while walking back home after school. Heās just a PDA type of guy, what can he say.
- Whenever he gets down or worried he likes having you there around to hug, to him itās a reminder that youāre there and youāre not leaving. You donāt even have to say much, just the physical affirmation that youāre there is enough to help him.
- Heās also kind of emotional, he gets carried away easily and heās not afraid to let you know how he feels about you or things in general.
- He wonāt force you into playing baseball, but he loves the idea of you taking an interest in the sport. You donāt have to know much but asking him about it, what certain terms mean, about players and teams you saw on TV; knowing that youāre just trying to engage in something so special to him has him wide eyes with a bright red flush as he explains the basics of a move you saw on yesterdayās match.
- Since heās like a total health junkie once you two start dating heās becoming your coach, heās always asking you about whatās youād eaten or how much you slept, if youād gone out for a walk or maybe a run, if you do a sport heād ask you about your practice or how youāre doing in general in regards to it.
- Itās his way of showing he cares as subtly as a guy like Kumon can.
- Fights or arguments arenāt common, since Kumon tends to be a very good communicator and heās naturally very empathetic towards those around him - he isnāt weak though and if he deems it something important to him (like acting or Juza) he wonāt back down - he thinks finding a compromise is more important than either his or your pride.
- Dates with him feel young and fun, theyāre never too complicated like the ones someone like Azuma or Homare might take you out on but theyāre just as thoughtful.
- He remembers things you like very well, so if you mention being into something like gardening or art heād take you to a park with some cool plants he heard about from Tsumugi or a museum with an exhibition Kazunari recommended him.
- To him, once youāre in his life, you become one of the most important people to him alongside Juza. He really values both of your opinions, even on small things like getting a jacket over another.
- Itās kind of essential if youāre dating Kumon to get along with Juza, heād get really torn if he found out both of you didnāt get along and itād definitely take a toll on his mental health and it would kinda break his spirit.
- (You getting along with Azami would be a nice plus too, if heās honest - he cares about those two a lot and seeing three people he loves getting along makes him smile and want to run a few laps around the courtyard.)
- Kumon doesnāt care much about gifts but heās also the kind to work really hard in figuring out what heās gonna give you for a birthday or special occasion. Heād probably settle for something like a baseball jacket with the number 9 on it and a matching one for him too, heād probably ask Yuki and Kazunari to help him design it.
- Oh boy, if anyone says anything negative about youād heād go to war.
- He does have his moments of insecurities, he can feel like heās too much of a pain for others or fear that he might be wasting your time on a guy like him; so while hugs and physical affection can help him, in those moments telling him you love him and that things will be okay tend to work the best.
- āKumonā¦ youāre doing your best and itās okay! No one is blaming you, youāre doing more than enough just now, so please - take it easy today, Juza, Azami, and Iā¦ not just us, but the troupe too, we all care for you so much,ā you could feel smile as you hugged his head to your chest, āitās okay, Kumonā¦ā
- In return heād pull away with teary eyes and a blush, from both your words and the worries that had plagued his mind, and smile at you; āThank you, [Name].ā
- Heād probably also be the type to send you text you during the most awkward times, it could be at like 10PM during a school-night asking for help on a chemistry problem or 4AM on a weekend because he had a dream about you.
- Kumon would rather call you over the phone over texting, probably because he likes rambling at you ā like, heād start talking about baseball and the Summer troupe and suddenly heād start talking about a shop he visited with Azami and then heād remember an article heād read about spinach and tomatoes and heād remember heād helped Taichi dye his hair red kinda like a tomato.
- Overall, Hyodo Kumon is a puppy in love who loves sharing his passions with you and would literally fight Banri and Sakyo for your honor.
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Class S: Love letters
This is the Class S+ Cecil love letters!!Ā
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TOKIYA ICHINOSEĀ
From Riri:
Maybe it was his midnight-blue hair, or perhaps it was his ocean eyes, but the very moment I laid my eyes upon him my mind immediately thought, āWow, heās very good lookingā¦ charming... I really like his vibe.ā That was the first reason why he piqued my interest, rather, the initial reason why I fancied him. My eyes were drawn to him and the fact that Kay bombarded me with a truckload of his pictures didnāt help at all, I just fell deeper into the hole. But as if that wasnāt enough, she started spamming me with utapri songs and I fell in love immediately. They are all such good singers but thereās one of them who sticks out to me the most, as expected, itās Tokiya. His voice has this intricate and refined softness that seemed to caress my ears and touch my soul. He has such a sweet (and might I add a handsome) voice, kudos to Miyano Mamoru for that.
So I started watching the anime and through that, I got to know him better. At first, he seems cold with an air of loneliness and uneasiness dawning on him. But as the series progresses, I discovered that heās a good-natured, warm, and dedicated person who loves singing and music with all his heart and all. Heās hardworking, dedicating everything to his craft. He has pride in it, so when he was told that his singing has no āheartā it affected him a lot. That caused a lot of distress in his system, and the fact that his company is pushing him to pursue other things than being a singer added to that. His passion for his craft is burning, a fire that no one could put out. Thatās one of the things that I love about him. Heās dedicated to everything he does. Heās a perfectionist but heās also a caring person who cares a lot about the starish members. Heās genuinely a good person but that doesnāt mean heās perfect. He strives for improvement and development all the time. He helps the members whenever they need. Most importantly, his attitude towards his passion is respectable and admirable.
I mightāve said a lot of things but I guess that only means I love a lot of things about him. Heās such a beautiful soul that inspires me to be more dedicated to my passion, to make my dreams come true no matter what it takes. His path towards his dream was rough, it wasnāt all sunshine and rainbows but thatās life, isnāt it? Despite that, he kept walking towards his dream. Heās admirable, respectable, and irresistibly loveable. That being said, I love all the things that made his character; that made Tokiya Ichinose be the kind of character that he is right now.
PS. Miyano Mamoru played a big part too. His insane talent gave life to Tokiyaās character.
From @poorlydrawnutapri:
When I first watched the Utapri anime like 6 years ago, having a best boy didn't cross my mind. At first, I was just most interested in Tokiya out of all the boys because I just thought he looked cool. I liked how mysterious he seemed and also, his hair, probably just because it was blue tbh. Either way, good design.
However, what really got me attached to him wasn't his looks. I then liked Tokiya's serious personality. I like how he starts off cold and stoic but how throughout the games and anime, he slowly softens up. I didn't just like his personality, I could also relate to his perfectionism and hard-working side, even when he exhausts himself, which is something I admit I also have. I continue to relate to him now after all this time, and that's why he's such a good character to me.
Besides that, his songs are nice to listen to and he has just a very pleasant voice. It's nice just to go listen to his voice after a long day. In a way, liking Tokiya also got me into the whole Utapri franchise: made some friends, made a couple of good memes, all that kinda stuff.
Also, I feel like it's a crime not to mention this so: he thicc. Like, dang, no wonder the guy only eats salads because all the fats he eats goes straight to that ass of his. (I am sorry that you had to read that.)
Overall, I just think he's neat. To me, he's relatable and has a nice character development. Tokiya is and will continue to be my best boy. :)
REN JINGUJIĀ
From @incorrect-jinguji-ren:
Ren Jinguji, the 5th member of Starish is without any shame my favorite character of the Uta no prince sama series. Though often disregarded Ren is and always will be my most favorite and I firmly believe that he has one of the most, if not the most depth in his character. I love Ren a lot however because of his surface charismatic attitude he is usually labeled as a āplayboyā or a ālotharioā. This is not correct and it should never define him, as he actually is one of the most gentle and compassionate characters of the series. Ren has a very deep surface characterization and personality that is never usually recognized unless you truly take the time to understand WHY Ren acts the way he does, and WHY he makes the choices that he makes. My favorite part about loving characters is being able to accept them for their demons and embrace what others would see as the āimperfectionsā in them. That Is the best way to truly love them. I love Ren because of his motives, choices, and most of all his passionate loving heart. Although the pain he hides and the personality of who he really is, is hidden under a mask of charisma, he never loses himself deep within.
Heās misunderstood, but heās beautiful. Heās so deep, from the everlasting devotion to loving his passed on mother, to always cherishing memories and the past bond he had with his childhood best friend Masato, to going against what his brother wants of him because he wants to fight to have a choice and to be passionate about something that he wants to love, because HE wants to love it. Ren didnāt have the love that a lot of people had at such a young age, he made a path for himself and along the way succumbed to the human faults that we all falter from within the hardest times in our life or even dicult events. He almost gave up, just as I know many of us had almost done before, as I know and can relate to, and still do now.
But he dusted himself o and picked up where he left o, making himself happy from once the feeling of being a hollow shell with no reason why he even existed to realizing that the most important thing in the world to him was cherishing the people who made him see the world in colors and seeking the choices that had been stripped from him at such a young age. He broke free from the chains of his family, his past, and his regrets to spread a beautiful pair of rose wings, his own wings to fly. And I hope he always flies. I will always love him, and wish nothing but the best for him whatever that be.
From @chips-and-vodka:
Ren Jinguji- the sexy, charming and flirty member of the STARISH boys. The youngest of the Jinguji family, a troubled child who grew up without a mother. A person who possesses many charms and is blessed with the gift of beauty. A red rose he was, beautiful yet his thorns are to be avoided. Beneath his passionate and seductive mannerisms there is a boy that craves genuine affection, from the one he truly adores and cherishes.
Ren Jinguji to me initially was one with a beautiful, attractive deep baritone, who is voiced by none other than the legend- Suwabe Junichi himself. The voice is an accurate fit of how this stereotype of a charming bishie should be, youthful and sensitive, and at times warm and seductive. His portrayal brings out the appeal of the character, the emotions and thoughts a troubled young adult such as the āuseless third sonā lived through. Many would see him as a romantic one, one who showers those around him with attention and passion. Within however lives a rebellious soul who distrusts many, but still somehow desires that ray of sunshine that brightens his lonely soul.
Ren Jinguji is one that deserves real love, someone who appreciates him for who he is.
SYO KURUSU
From Jules:
Why do I like Syo, huh? Well, there are a lot of reasons! Some of them are more personal ones. First of all, Syo has always been my best boy, since UtaPri (the anime) exists. So ten long years now.
His fashion style is the first thing I noticed and it immediately intrigued me. I remember that my first thought, after seeing him in season one, was āWoah, he looks really cool!ā even though Syo was just in his school uniform! I think what also made me interested in him was his energetic persona. The way he looked up to Ryuya Hyuga and wanted to follow in his footsteps was really sweet to me as well. Syoās enthusiasm and positive attitude actually encouraged me to become stronger in a way too, if Iām being honest. I, personally, have always found his songs motivating and they made me feel better. I really came to love Syo in his episode in season one. When he talked about his childhood and how weak he was, I really felt with him. From that moment on I cheered him on and Syo definitely became my favorite character. My interest never wavered over the next seasons either.
I also have personal reasons why I love him so much. I just feel very connected and relate to him a lot, yāknow? We have quite a few things in common. Syo and I have the same eye color, we have both played the violin since we were little, and were born weak and with pretty much the same health and heart issues. I like to say that Syo āsavedā me, which is true. There is also the fact that the blonde and I are both on the shorter side (and regularly get teased for it), too! Though, Iām even a little shorter than him.
But to be more positive again, there is just so much more to him than meets the eye at first! Syo is more than just the stereotypical short sporty character. He really cares for his friends and wants the best for them. Syoās friendship with every STARISH member is different but still close. Heās also protective of the ones around him. Syo really cares about his little twin brother too, which can be seen in the games and the few times he talked about him in the anime. Syoās big heart easily balances out his, sometimes, tsundere behavior and I love him for that. This blonde idol is just a great guy and deserves all the love heās getting and more.
Seriously, stan Syo Kurusu, guys!
From Vic:
Syo Kurusu is my favourite idol within the utapri games and any other form of media pertaining to the franchise. He is my favourite idol because of several factors, one of which being that his voice actor is Hiro Shimono, who voices Zenitsu from Demon slayer and Lucifer from āDevil is a part timerā. Syo is a very outgoing character and is talented in many aspects athletically. Born with a heart disease, he continues to persevere throughout the myriads of lifeās problems in front of him.
Heās extremely outgoing and is proficient in the martial art of Karate and desires to strengthen his body more than what it is currently. He is best friends with Natsuki and can communicate with each other proficiently. Syo is my favourite character within the franchise because of his resolve, perseverance and great chemistry with Natsuki and his teammates. Hiro Shimono did the character justice by making his voice one of young, adventurous and energetic. With that said, Syo is a character I truly enjoy within the franchise and wish to see more of him.
CECIL AIJIMAĀ
From Anon:
Greetings, princes and princesses, and welcome to a world of princes, questionably talking cats, and magic! Iām of course talking about Cecil Aijima, our foreign prince of UtaPri! So, why do I like Cecil Aijima? Itās borderline ridiculous, but itās because of Cecilās birthday. More specifically, Cecilās Birthday Cruise card. But, I should start at the beginning.
Back when I first watched the anime, I thought Cecil was a little bit of a brat towards literally everyone, and one of my least favorites at the time. After watching through the rest of the anime though, I started to like him a lot more than I did before. To me, he had matured a lot after season 2, and never turned back to that bratty self. And so, when playing SL, he might not have been my favorite, but I didnāt hate him. Then, that one fateful day, I decided to pull in his birthday gacha. To my surprise, I had gotten the card in my first pull! Then the story dragged me into the Cecil Appreciation Group. I thought the story was incredibly cute. Then I got more Cecil cards so I could read more stories. Then the cycle repeated itself again. And now, well, if Iām writing this, I think you know what happened to me afterwards. Iāll be here, doing my best for him.
From Eden:Ā
The boy with childish like demeanor but continues to have a heart of gold for his friends and wonderful composer.
I remember first watching Utapri in middle school and questioning. "Well shit- this is my life now..." and I didn't really have a favorite character at the time. I was always bouncing between characters like Syo, Otoya, even the teachers. However it was season 2 that made me realize who my true favorite was. Despite his at first cocky nature when he was first introduced, Cecil to me was amazing! His singing was magical, his origins even more fascinating. You wouldn't think Utapri would turn that down the magic route but it somehow did.
As the seasons went on, and as I got more into the series, he just became more of a love to me. His kindness and child-like nature and curiosity, he felt different than the other characters.
I love the other characters, yes but him?
Something about him just felt right! He not only seems to be a protector for those he cares about but also feels like he would be the best person to be around. Always wanting to do anything new and exciting just to peak his curiosity and to learn more. Ever since then, he has always been my favorite. The one and only Annapolis Prince, Aijima Cecil.
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