#why does my brain really like daemon aus?

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I love love love dark stories. I don’t know why but they just itch my brain perfectly. Your stories I swear are thoughts I’ve had (let’s not get into that) and written out in a way I couldn’t fully conceive.

I’ve been practicing some writing just as a hobby and I think for me to write dark stories it feels like I need to fully cross a wall of some sort to out those thoughts on paper. Not sure how to overcome it but I’m trying.

But yeah idk why but the sadder and more brutal a story is the better and I think it’s because on an emotional level I can just connect with it if that makes sense?

Anyways this is just a long winded way of me saying that I love your work and appreciate the effort you put into fleshing out characters and having us connect with them in that way. (I also love sappy moments too but idk with dark stories they feel earned in a way like we worked for it and achieved a short lived reprieve)

Also just a quick little question, how would an interaction between Daemon and Amara go? This is gonna sound terrible but when you mentioned the stepdad au my mind went to him before our Egg boy.

No because...same. I write dark stories and revel in them the way people revel in comfort media. I understand them, and the necessity of finding light amidst the darkness is something I've lived with all my life so familiarity breeds comfort in me. Sometimes I get a little startled because someone will read what I wrote and be like wtf how does this happen? How is it ever allowed to happen? And I'm like yeah...why did that happen to me? Why was it allowed to happen? But then I turn off the switch and dive back into fiction to cope (as I think many people who create art out of trauma will profess to - it's a way of distancing yourself but acknowledging it).

That wall (I know what you mean) will be crossed eventually I think. Just stay aware that it's not a wall you want to cross often or live beyond all the time. It's somewhere to retreat to, but always remember to climb over it and return to the other side otherwise it can get too much.

Thank you so much for this ask though, it makes me feel so seen and appreciated. I often worry that I'm upsetting people with how abjectly miserable my work can get, and force myself to lighten it up so it'll be more palatable. But the AU idea I posted yesterday named 'fuck puppet' is mostly what I write well and consistently (Amara does kill him in the end, so there's no romanticisation there, it's just pure victim vs abuser, beast vs human, and she wins).

And HMMM okay, so if you asked me about Daemon and Amara two years ago, I'd be like ew no. He really irritated me as a character when everyone was defending him, but the defence of him as stopped being as cloying and the writers have dug into the pathetic aspects of his nature more so I'm open to exploring him.

Plus, ironically whenever he interacted with Amara in my fics even when I hated him, there were readers who pointed out that there was sexual tension there (which I didn't even intend!) So clearly, there'd be something there, what with her daddy issues and his ability to appear put together and intelligent in front of a much younger woman.

I think where it takes Aegon longer to identify Amara's childishness and immaturity (because his own outshines hers a lot of the time), Daemon would snap at it in an instant. Eventually, Aegon gets there and is like okay, my turn to take care of you but Daemon reaches the destination immediately and does softer things to figure out whether she sees him in a remotely romantic/sexual way. So maybe a gentle hand on her waist to move her aside, resting it on the small of her back to comfort her (but only for a second) or giving her that odd little smile when she's yapping that has a twinkle of endearment in it. I think she'd fall for it pretty fast, and get a kick out of all her friends being disgusted by the idea of her having sex with an 'old man' (because obviously to them he is). She doesn't see it as exploitation, and she doesn't have to. When she's in his bed for entire weekends and he's using every trick in his extensive book of sexual tricks on her, she barely has time to think never mind wonder if this is right. I think he probably would need Viagra though bc canon Daemon strikes me as the type to wear out pretty fast, but Amara would be the insatiable party and well...there we go.

Anyway, over time, she is a little flighty, and her friends' constant judgement does weigh on her, along with the fact that Daemon's immaturity isn't like her immaturity. He's still ahead of her in experience. He can gaslight her into believing his pettiness is actually adult wisdom. So if he doesn't like her hanging out with boys her own age, he'll cut at her intelligence and make her feel diminished and stupid for thinking those boys could possibly want her for anything more than sex. And she'd fully believe him. She'd probably be reduced to tears after screaming at him for being a dickhead, and then accept his palm caressing her face telling her it's fine, and that he didn't mean it, and has she seen herself? She's so beautiful, anyone would want her. He just loves her and is worried someone will take advantage. And then that of course leads to sex and her feeling relieved Daemon cares so much and giving him everything she's got to make sure he feels the pleasure in return. Thus, the whole cycle starts again.

I can't believe I'm saying this but...Aegon might just have to be the rescuer in this situation LMAO. Daemon would not let her go easily.

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One of my favorite stories is @featherquillpen's (Poetry's) Daemorphing series, a daemon AU retelling of the Animorphs series. It's a wonderful (though often painful) scifi series with a lot of insightful writing about many topics, but especially anti-imperialism.

One of the earlier stories in Daemorphing contains a really lovely simile. I keep rotating it in my head and there is a really remarkable depth of meaning in this one piece of imagery. I wanted to break it down a little as a case study of how meaningful symbolism can be in prose. This feels especially relevant to me at the moment since there's been a bit of discussion on Tumblr recently about visualization during reading - I don't imagine any sights or sounds at all when reading unless I pause and purposefully try, so I really appreciate descriptive writing that has functions beyond communicating a mental image to the reader. (The imagery is purely metaphorical in this case, but imagery is capable of being both metaphorical and literal.)

My favorite simile appears in Seeing in Color, a retelling of Animorphs #19: The Departure. The most prominent antagonists in Animorphs are Yeerks: sluglike aliens that can climb into people's brains, read their minds, and control their bodies. The Yeerk Empire is using these capabilities to mount a secret invasion of Earth. Seeing in Color/The Departure is mostly about one of the Yeerks, Aftran, who believes humans can only be her enemy but is reaching a breaking point with the evil empire she has been raised in. At the climax of the story, the Animorph Cassie defies her teammates and allows Aftran to climb into her brain as a desperate attempt to make peace with at least one Yeerk.

And then this happens:

«Why did you do it?» I demanded as I demorphed. [...]

Cassie didn't even try to hide her emotions from me. She offered them up like a bouquet. «Because I'm sick of hurting people. I just wanted it to stop.»

«Sick of hurting people,» I said, lingering over each emotion: weariness, desperation, empathy for me. «Does that mean I'm a person?»

She offered them up like a bouquet. There is SO much meaning in this.

First, on the simplest level: bouquets are good things! When Aftran's narration uses a word with such positive connotations, it implies she likes the thing she's talking about. Cassie's feelings aren't burdensome or gross or pathetic, they're a nice present.

Thinking about what a bouquet looks like, this also gives me an idea of what Cassie is feeling. Bouquets are complicated and have a lot of different flowers, but they're designed so every element is visible at once and they make a harmonious whole. Cassie's feeling a lot of different things, but they're all part of one coherent picture. She's not conflicted or confused about what she just did or why she did it.

I believe this also gives a hint about Cassie's state of mind when presenting her emotions to Aftran (something Aftran would be fully aware of, at the moment). Gift-giving, especially of something a little special like a bouquet, is generally a relatively deliberate and premeditated action. Cassie isn't thinking things through here, but she's not completely given in to desperation - she's still acting with intention, the part of her brain that's perceptive and even manipulative is still turned on.

The last thing I wanted to touch on - the bouquet simile ties into the main point of Seeing in Color, a critique of imperialism and ableism that is important to Aftran's character and to the Daemorphing story of Yeerks. Poetry writes Yeerk characters as frequently disparaging their own bodies and capabilities with words like "blind", talking like they've been unfairly denied the sensorium of other beings and they're owed the experience (via slavery). But it rapidly becomes obvious in Aftran's story, and in the stories of other sympathetic Yeerks, that sight (and hearing, and smelling, and so on) isn't what Yeerks are really lacking. They're desperate for connection and mutual understanding. They're desperate to enjoy beauty and meaning. Human sight isn't better than Yeerk sonar, but a sighted human on Earth can look at the beloved flora and fauna of their homeworld or the face of a loved one, and a Yeerk on Earth that's not in a host brain can only direct their sonar towards a miserable artificial sludge pit full of fascist narcs.

Aftran comparing Cassie's feelings to a bouquet ties in to this narrative thread. Bouquets are a great pleasure to see, smell, and touch. Cassie's feelings freely given (shocking enough that Aftran takes note of it - "didn't even try to hide" - even after Cassie deliberately let Aftran into her brain) are as precious as anything Aftran could experience through Cassie's senses.

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The Rogue Prince Chapter 6

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Daemon Targaryen x OC (Ellaria Ambrose) 

 Disclaimer:  This is more of an AU. This is nothing at all like the show or book. I am mostly taking the characters and putting them into another situation. This has very little game of thrones lore and I will probably get a wrong or have misinformation. If you don’t like that, don’t read.

 Summary: I was meant to marry the king and become the next queen. That's what I was meant to be doing here. Become queen and bear more heirs, that was it. My whole life planned out by my father wanting to be a united front with the Targaryen's. What no one planned for was Daemon. It is hard to plan for chaos. It’s even harder to plan who you fall in love with? Daemon has a bad reputation. One he has earned and is proud of. That should be enough to make me stay far away from him and in the safety of who I supposed to be wed to. Too bad, I couldn’t help myself. 

 Series Trigger Warnings: Age gap, violence, arranged marriages, cheating, love triangles, lose of virginity, cnc, just all around bad ideas.  

Chapter  Triggers: N/A

Daemon 

What the hell was I doing? I shouldn’t be kissing her. It was the last thing I should be doing. I wanted her to leave with her tail between her legs. Those thoughts were lost as I felt her soft lips against mine. I wrapped my hands on her waist pulling her close. Her small body against my hard one. She felt so small and delicate under my touch. I could destroy her in seconds if I wanted to. I didn’t. I wanted something else from her. I wanted her to be mine. I had kissed tons of whores and other women, but nothing compared to this kiss. It was something I couldn’t describe. Suddenly, I just wanted her in my bed. I wanted to be the one to deflower her. Not my brother. She needed to be mine. 

She pulled away from the kiss, her breath heavy as she did. I looked deep in her eyes as I placed my forehead against hers. 

“I am sorry,” she said weakly. “That wasn’t right of me to do that.” 

I met her eyes, there was a confused look in them. “What do you mean? You enjoyed it. I can tell. There is nothing to be sorry about.” 

“I shouldn’t have. I am to marry your brother. The king. I have been unfaithful.” She said as she put her face in her hands. “I knew I couldn’t do this. I knew I couldn’t stand up to you. What do you want from me? I know you want the crown. I didn’t know you would..” 

I sighed as I looked at her. This really wasn’t my intention. Of course, they talked about how beautiful the lady was. She was young though. That normally wouldn’t bother me, but I knew before I met her, she was naive. She lived with protective older brothers. I could tell it before I met Baelor and Jace. Jace was probably the worst of them all. If he could have taken off my head that night, he would have. They made sure she didn’t know the truth about the real world. I wondered if this was her first kiss. 

“This was never about the crown. Who told you I was after the crown?” I asked. It was a weird thing to bring up. Sure, I would love to have the crown on my head. It was something I always wanted. I knew I could be a better king than  my brother. This wasn’t about that though. I would figure out my own way to the crown. “Why do you think that’s all I care about?” I said as I remembered some of her words. “I got caught up in the moment and kissed you.” 

She shook her head. “You want the crown. That’s why you are trying to ruin this marriage for me and make me run away.” 

I couldn’t help, but laugh. “How does this marriage help me get the crown? Boy, I thought with you reading so much you would have some brains. I guess not. I am not being rude to you because I want the crown. I am being mean to you, because I don’t think my brother should take another wife.” 

“Why don’t you talk to him then? Instead of being mean to me?”  

“You sound like a damn child,” I said before running my hands through my hair. She did sound like a child, but she didn’t kiss like one. Why couldn’t I get that out of my head? It was like I couldn’t think straight. I just wanted to kiss her more just to get her to talk less. 

“I don’t mean to. Look, I am sorry, I am marrying him, but it isn’t something I want either.” 

I stopped. “What? You don’t want the crown? All the riches and greatness of being a queen? You don’t want that? Who wouldn’t want that?” “Me!” She sighed as she pushed past me walking toward the tree to pick up her book. “I don’t want any of this. I want my normal life back. Where I didn’t have to think of this honor and all that. I lived a carefree life as a child. Now, I have all these worries and you up my back, kissing me to ruin me or something.” 

“Then leave. We both get what we want. Go back to the reach. Leave. Take your brothers and that friend and don’t come back. You will get your life back.” 

“No, I won’t. You heard what you told me. My father needs this. If I go back, he will never forgive me.”  She took her book as she started to walk. I tried to grab her back, but she pulled away. “Let me go, Daemon. There is nothing else you can say. Haven’t you already done enough since I just got here?” She asked before she took off running back to the castle. 

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I walked to my brother still unable to get that kiss out of my head. Now, my brother couldn’t marry her. There was no way I would be able to stay away from her. I could barely stay away from her now. I wanted to go back to kissing her. I wanted to feel her soft lips on mine again. I wanted more to. I wanted to explore her body, find things together that she didn’t even know about herself. I want her to cum underneath me for the first time. It was crazy, I know. I just kissed the girl. I barely knew her name, but she had gotten under my skin just now. She had gone from a shy girl to something else. There is a fire in her. A fire that is dying to escape.  

I moved into the throne room. I knew my brother would be there just getting done there with more meetings. More stupid meetings. Ones that I couldn’t even be bothered to come to. Not when he was on the throne. Not when he refused to listen to reason. He needed to listen to it now. He couldn’t marry that girl. He just couldn’t. He had to end it now. 

“You can’t marry her,” I said as I walked inside. I knew my abrupt words would get him. He had been just getting down from the chair when he heard me. My words caused him to sit back down. 

“What do you want, Daemon?” He asked. He looked tired, not that I care, but I could tell he had a long day. “I am here to tell you that you can’t marry her.” 

“Ellaria? Why?” He asked. That was her name. I finally got it. Ellaria. Such a beautiful name. “Because she is too young. She isn’t fit to rule a kingdom. She isn’t ready. You are rushing the poor girl into this.” 

“I don’t think you have a say. Besides, she is of age. She is the right age. She will learn with time how to be queen.” 

“Do you really think that is wise, brother?” I asked. “Push her into a role she isn’t ready for. The public is still wondering if she is fit to be queen. You are putting a lot of pressure on her.” 

“She would be fine, if you would leave her alone.” He snapped at me. “Brother, I think you are making things hard for her. She is nervous enough already and your little outburst at dinner did not help her one bit. She needs to feel welcomed here. If you aren’t going to do that then I advise you to stay away. This wedding is happening.” 

I opened my mouth to say something else, but shook my head as I turned to walk away. This wedding was not happening if I had a say in it.

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Dear Yuletide Author 2023

Shh! Listen—can you hear it? That weird humming sound? That's me, vibrating with joy and anticipation for everything that Yuletide brings, especially what you, dear Yuletide author, have in store for me.

I’m beautifulduckweed on AO3. Below is a list of likes, a short list of DNWs, as well as my requests for Yuletide. I've included prompts, but please know that they are ABSOLUTELY just suggestions and points of inspiration; feel free to deviate from them, or ditch them entirely and write me something else. God knows I can’t write my own dang stories without taking several wild left turns along the way.

Thanks so much for my gift, and I hope you have a blast writing.

💖🥰 Some things I like 🥰💖

Crackfic and mashups. No premise to stupid, no crossover too incongruous. Listen, recently someone in another exchange requested John Wick x Marie Kondo and I have legit lost sleep thinking about that.

Sexytimes. Please note that I absolutely do not require sex! Some of my favorite exchange gifts have featured absolutely zero sex on page. But if the smutty muse strikes—well, far be it for me to stop you. My tolerance is…high. No, higher. No, no, higher than that. Look, I’ve been a denizen of the Internet long enough that I subscribed to porn newsgroups, OK? My constitution is CAST IRON. I especially enjoy service topping, orgasm control (delayed? denied? forced? ruined? YES), femdoms, people coming untouched, multiple orgasms, overstimulation, improbable feats of horny stamina, people losing control while fucking, gangbangs, and threesomes/moresomes/orgies. I also really love first times, and people finally dropping their defenses and allowing themselves to be vulnerable during sex, and the STOP MAKING LOVE TO ME WHEN WE'RE FUCKING trope. I do have a small list of smut no’s in the Do Not Wants section.

Tropes. Some of my fave tropes are idiots to lovers (idiot4idiot4eva), friends to lovers, forced proximity, cramming attractive people into corsets, drag queen AUs, SFF AUs of every stripe (daemon? Pacific Rim? Superhero/supervillain? Vampires? Inception? Yes yes yessss). I absolutely adore the golden retriever/hissy feral cat dynamic. I also like two soft-hearted dinguses doing their best and trying to treat each other right. And ain't nothin' wrong with enemies who are obsessed with each other who OOPS realize their preoccupation may be more than mere antipathy.

I’d also like to note that much as I love a fic that’s like, a trope confetti cannon, I also really love having tropes (and expectations) subverted. Like, take your standard daemon AU. What would happen if the main character and their daemon…didn’t like each other? What if they were, in fact, mortal enemies? It would be so fucked! I would love to read about it!!!

Horror and gore. I love scary stories and horror; I have a really high tolerance for gore. If you want to lean into action sequences, gore, and body horror, I am (with a few exceptions, which I’m gonna list in the DNWs) gonna be totally cool with it. I basically jumped straight from Enid Blyton to Stephen King. My childhood media consumption was very normal why do you ask 😊

And other stuff. If you want to fuck around with the format of the fic, play around with structure, format, voice, POV, all of it, please do. Here for any weird shit you care to toss my way.

I also really love having my sense of what’s real and what’s not messed with. Like, is it ever possible to have a fully reliable narrator? What is the nature of truth and reality anyway? What role does the overall narratorial voice or framing device of the story play in our perception of the story? I regret to inform you that I'm writing this 100% sober; this is just how my brain is all the time.

😭🚫Do Not Wants 🚫😭

Pet death. I am totally fine with, like, random rabbit needs to be killed for dinner while out in the woods, or oh no, we have to defend ourselves from a charging hippo or hostile lizard from outer space.

Animal cruelty. Brief mentions of stuff happening in the past or whatever are fine; seeing an animal tortured on-page is a big no.

Major character death. Random minions, as always, can be sacrificed to the storytelling gods. NOTE: Major character undeath fine.

Kink and smut no’s: I’m not into blood, scat, vomit or piss. Please no noncon/dubcon where a woman is the victim. NOTE: sex pollen scenarios whereby everybody loses their mind simultaneously is totally fine, as is Fuck or Die.

Unhappy/hopeless endings. Bittersweet is fine; endings where it’s clear a cost has been paid and everybody’s changed etc. etc. also fine, but like, please don’t leave the characters absolutely miserable or unrelentingly tormented by their demons (unless the demons are sexy and the torment is also sexy).

Breakups without makeups: If I requested a canon pairing, or if you decide to write a shippy pairing, please leave their relationship intact at the end of the story. It can take a battering! Just don't break them—or my poor little heart—apart. NOTE: If you're writing a missing scene that takes place while or leads up to a period when the characters are canonically on a break, leaving them broken up or the fight unresolved is fine, because I know canon takes care of things.

🍪🧁Treats 🧁🍪

Are very yes. Love me some treats!!!

📝🎅The Requests 🎅📝

Fandom: The Gentle Art of Fortune Hunting - K.J. Charles

Characters: Alice Fenwick, Marianne Loxleigh

Thoughts/Prompts: I am a simple bean, and all I want is Alice and Marianne having adventures. Maybe some lesbian porn. Or platonic lesbian BFF vibes. You can have 'em fall in love, or become platonic life partners, or fuck a lot and never fall in love, or start an elaborate grift or heist together. Like, wouldn’t it be hot if Marnie decided Alice needed some tutoring in the ways of fuckboys, lured one in, and used him to tutor Alice in the ways of satisfying herself while not getting pregnant? I’m seriously down for whatever.

Also, as with all of my fandom requests, please feel free to drag in as many other characters in as necessary. The more, the merrier; I just want Alice and Marnie’s relationship front and center.

Crack Prompts: Hey what about a vampire AU? Marnie as a vampire would be hot—hundreds of years of grifting, and GOD what the hell is up with this entirely-too-nice nerd oh WHOOPS turns out she’s her generation’s foremost vampire hunter. Alice as the vampire would also be amazing—Marnie tries to con Alice and discovers she’s bitten off more than she can chew (ba-dum-tish).

Vampire AU not your cuppa? How about crossovers with literally any other KJC universe? Stick ‘em in Magpies, or have them tangle with the Lilywhite Boys, solve a murder mystery with Pat and Fen, cosh some villains on the head with the Will Darling crew, accidentally fall into an orgy with the Murder, be pulled through time by one of the Green Men. I have read all the KJC books and extras. Go nuts.

Fandom: England Series - K.J. Charles

Characters: Bill Merton, Jimmy Yoxall

Thoughts/Prompts: Look, I love idiots, and these two are SUCH MAGNIFICENT IDIOTS. Jimmy is a giant doofus, and Bill thinks he's smarter, but all evidence points to him being at least as big an idiot when it comes to matters of the heart. I get all feral and heart-eyes over these two nincompoops. I will accept any and everything for these two: fics of the two of them getting to know each other during their university days, falling in love in London, THAT HORRIBLE FIGHT AFTER BEN HUR. Whatever. I ain't picky. I also said one time that they'd be great in Lower Decks and ever since then I may have brainwormed myself a little. They'd be so good in the USS Cerritos! Also down 2 clown with like, incongruous mashups---like John Wick? God, what if Jimmy Yoxall was just really weirdly good at murder, and Bill has to keep his stupid ass alive?

Opt-in for this specific fandom: waiving the breakup without makeup DNW for anything that takes place pre-Proper English events.

Fandom: Fire Island (Movie 2022)

Characters: Noah, Will

Thoughts/Prompts: Goddd, over a year later and it's still my favorite Pride and Prejudice adaptation to date. The found family vibes! Noah explicitly being non-monogamous! The dynamics between ALL the characters, but especially Noah and Howie!!! I am down for whatever for this fandom. Wanna write a big ole sweaty orgy? Have the entire crew go on a giant chaotic family vacation together? (Maybe even…the following year’s trip to Fire Island???). Somebody somehow manages to dare Will into entering a drag contest, and it’s gonna take everyone’s help to make this happen. Noah suddenly finds himself a TikTok sensation and gets into a weird Twitter beef with Taylor Swift.

Crack Prompts: These fools would be incredible in What We Do in the Shadows and Our Flag Means Death.

ALSO, oh my god: since this is a Pride and Prejudice retelling, how about sticking ‘em in a Regency romance novel? I’m inordinately fond of Loretta Chase, and the thought of these four idiots running amuck in the ton is giving me so much glee. Like, think of the Lord of Scoundrels retelling: Will is determined to rescue his idiot friend Charlie from the toils of Noah, a notorious rake, only to find himself reluctantly falling for Noah’s charms. And in the meanwhile, Charlie is falling in love with Howie….

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HAHAHAHAH my grandmas send me them so its just so funny to me HAHAAHH i find the cringyer it is to me, the more they like it AHHAHH

'you didnt send me smth yesterday so i wondered' oh so cute you wait for my love letters sm. today your one was the first thing i've seen. it's always such a good start for the day. and it's always my pleasure to answer you, my love <з

🙄🤬 you calling me cute does smth to me 😌 but i accept, because i AM cute ✨ ofc course i would wait for you duHH!! 😡😡😡😡 i always start my day with your love letters so, its always a pleasure to answer you too

'im glad youre eager to read them' i'm eager to read literally anything you write. take all the time you need, it's totally okay. pls don's feel pressed about it. you owe me literally nothing so.. yeah. everything's fine. you should enjoy writing, after all.

🥺🫶🫶🫶 im glad the people pleaser in me responds to kindness so <3 im honored to have someone like you read my works <3 i dont feel pressed but it sucks when i wanna write smth but i cant T_T

'MENTALLY DEBATING ABOUT ENDING THIS WITH SOMETHING REALLY BAD' OH WOW YOU WANT TO KNOW MY ABSOLUTELY NEW IDEA ABOUT THE HAPPY END?? lol sorry i feel like i needed to

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??????????????? HUH HAHAHHAHH ok ???? HAHAHAHAHAHAH

'imma just tell you' yk where to find me *winking emoji pls* but you promised another 10 parts bestie, rise and shine lol

no i actually dont know where to find you and can only really send you replies if you send me an ask so HAHAHAHAH. and ur so right i did say 10 part ASLHlFASHFLASFhasfaFSAF HAHAHAH idk if i will literally reach 10 part but GOSH DAMN I HAVE SO MANY IDEAS FOR THIS FIC T_T

'your assumptions usually hit the nail on the head' TT OMG I'M HONORED imma make my literature teacher sign up tumblr.com, read this modern!daemon au and read your answers *angry emoji pls* you love me too much TT

HAHAHAHH ok i will wait for your lit teacher HAHAHHAHH also there is so such thing as loving too much. here are your angry emojis 😡😡😡🤬🤬🤬😈😈😈���👿👿👺👺👺👹👹👹

no but WHY i've just had an image of reader telling her bothering ex "i knew we won't stay together for the.. rest of our lives" in a cold voice with a bitch face?? sorry it just happened.

NAH LITERALLY SAME BRAIN CELL HAHAHAHAH HASLIFASHF I MIGHT WRITE IT NOW OMG UR AND ME AND THAT ONE COLLECTIVE BRAINCELL WE SHARE and stop apologizing T_T

can we continue this pun thing TT and i've made the decision to send you love letter with the reaction to part 3 non-anonymously.

YES I LOVE PUNS AND ALSO ???????? NON ANONYMOUS I- HASHASH>HAHDA>DH>A>DAS HIHIHIHIHIHII IM SO EXCITED LASFASFHAHSFHASFHAS NOW I HAVE TO WRITE P3 FR FR AHSHSA:LHDASDHASHH

it really is NOT supposed to like motivate you or anything. just me trying to fight my social awkwardness *star eyes emoji pls TT sorry*

STOP MY ARE YOU READING MY MIND 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩 lETS GO MY LOVE FIGHT THE SOCIAL AWKWARDNESS FIGHT THE POWER

please don't feel pressed. ever. to write anything. take your time, enjoy your life. i'm sure you know it, but i'm here to remind you. you are loved anyway, and if someone needs you to do something for it, i can bite their head off.

but ur so sweet and my people pleaser cells are going crazy i can bite anyone who pressures me myself im luv u

how are you doing in general?

im doing good! im excited to exercise after my classes hahah

how is your study?

lol i have this song i have to study and its so high because im the designated soprano since no one else can be T_T HAHAH its fine

how are the cats? meow meow?

ever since we moved theyve been with my dad in our old house so T_T idk, i think they're still being princes and asking for warm food and waking my dad up during his naps for absolutely no reason T_T cos the moment you give them attention they're like 'OK HANDS FF LOSER ONLY *I* can touch you smh'

but if you eventually are interested in any daemon ideas... let me know.

IM ALWAYS INTERESTED IN YOUR DAEMON IDEAS WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT SEND THEM TO ME RIGHT NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬

have a nice day!! love you!! never do anything you're not really interested in!! take care!!

I LOVE YOU I WONT DO ANYTHING I DONT WANT TAKE CARE AS WELL

xxx

[wordstro]

oh dear. reading the got au felt like watching a car crash in slow motion JGDGJDGJDJFDS like u just know. u just KNOWW this is gonna end horribly and yet u just cannot bring urself to look away??

the loneliness, ohhhh the loneliness. i find it so interesting how u manage to isolate ur mcs from the rest of the world in so many ways and then always dig INTO what that means for a person and how it affects them. it's always so tragic too :((( let me give your mcs a good ol' hug, every single one of them :((((((

and even when they have people around them it does nothing for them, often makes it even worse. like here, yeosang likes to play his games but ultimately does not really care for y/n when it comes down to it, mingi (my BOY <33333 *sobs* i lov him) is sweet and kind and the closest thing to a friend they have but ultimately can't do a whole much for them, can't protect them from the court's games or even really be there for them, and for hongjoong, at least i feel like, this whole thing is just about possession. i don't believe that he loves y/n, i don't even think he likes them very much, but in his eyes they're his after all the time spent together and every time they have challenged him in the past and he WILL make them realize it by having them completely dependent on him.

i think that's what his whole "you will ask for my help" schtick is really about: wanting the mc to be so vulnerable and so helpless and defenseless that they have no other way to go but to him. and marrying san would save them from exactly that: their mother, who would want to elevate their pain as much as she can from how far away she is, would want the best for them suggested him, and even mingi, who seems to be at least a little in love with y/n, has nothing bad to say about him. and it makes it all even sadder imo: knowing so well that marrying san would save them from so much pain, and maybe they could have a better, happier life even. and instead, from the looks of it, they're getting pulled straight into the black hole because hongjoong and his stupid little ego can't stand not being all-powerful💀

ON ANOTHER NOTE: suffering immensely under brainworms planted into me by imagining hongjoong with long white hair. HE'S PRETTY ENOUGH ALREADY WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS!!!!!!!

thank you so so much for the thoughts and also the wormies. cannot wait to see where you're gonna take this!!💕

🍋 anon

omggg hi!! car crash in slow motion is the perfect way to describe the got au I literally feel like I'm writing one omg

every one of my mcs are always so SAD and I try so hard not to make them so sad, but dkjsfnskjn

yeosang's games here are so unfortunate, because the consequences are SO much worse and everyone knows it you know? also mingi is my LOVE so I always write him so sweetly. in the end he can't do anything and it sucks because in another life y/n and mingi could have been friends :(

ohhh i'm 👀regarding what you said about hongjoong. maybe he cares, maybe it's all just a game for him, but either way the man is toxic as hell as targaryen men are lmaooo :(((

ALSO PLEASE IMAGINING HONGJOONG WITH LONG WHITE HAIR IS THE EXACT REASON WHY I STARTED THIS. i thought targaryen hongjoong and was watching house of the dragon and then i was like DAEMON HONGJOONG????????????? and my brain exploded. just imagining him all pretty with white hair and robes and riding dragons 😳

[fowlblue]

fic writer asks!

🥳 Why did you start writing fanfic?

😎 What fics do you prefer on a scale of canon compliant to wildly original?

🔮 Any advice for writers working through burnout or writer’s block?

💌 Is there a favorite trope you like to write?

Alrighty!

🥳) I’ve just always kind-of done it? When I was a kid I watched Lego shows like Ninjago, and played out stories with the actual figures. That transitioned to writing stories in cheap little composition books about them. Then by the time I was a teen I learned that fanfiction was actually a thing that existed, so I wrote some for the hell of it, and once I discovered the Fowldom, I finally worked up the nerve to take it (slightly) more seriously, post it online, and share it!

😎) Ooo okay, that’s tricky… in terms of canon-compliant, I haven’t actually written that much- I’d say my fic “we used to be three, and not just two” about the Fowl Parents’ reaction to Artemis’s sudden death post-TLG. I think it turned out really well and I feel like it was something that was just asking to be written, I hadn’t seen anyone else really touch on it before.

As for wildly original… man, that’s tough. I’d say “and our eyes gleamed mean”. It’s a Daemon AU fic focused on Jon Spiro infiltrating a Fowl party alongside his daemon, a white rattlesnake named Baliss. I have never read His Dark Materials and I don’t really plan to, but this fic was pure self-indulgence and I really like how it turned out! I need to bring Baliss back especially (does that count as an oc?) she was so delightfully mean.

🔮) This one’s tricky too! My best advice is to humor every little bit of an idea you have as long as you can, and drop it like hot coals once you lose interest. Keep them handy for later! In the meantime, embrace other hobbies to give your brain a break, especially if you write a lot for your job or the like. Play a video game! Read some books! Hell, read other’s fanfiction! Make note of any styles or plot lines you find interesting, and return to writing when your brain is good and ready. Sometimes a little rest is all it takes!

💌) There’s lots of tropes I really enjoy, though my most favorites are any sort of creature/animal-centric AU, or “domesticating” a villain. That’s always fun. The more bittersweet the better!

Hope you’re having a good day, Mouse!

[darlingofvalyria]

💞🌿 for the ask games!

Hi, hi, hi!

💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

Oooh! Okay so, if I had to rank it in a way that I write...

The Plot > The Characters > The Figurative Language > The Technical Stuff > The Worldbuilding.

A lot of the times, I don't like the pressure of the world to affect the writing, as most of the times, what I write doesn't necessarily need to be tied to the worldbuilding so I keep the plot + characters at the forefront. Character because... hey, I write x reader fics, we do it for the character and our interpretation of that character because it's fun.

Figurative Language is fun for me because I like writing long winded paragraphs then abruptly. Halting. Words. To really drive in tone. A lot of my writing is just me having fun with ideas and writing structure.

Worldbuilding and technical stuff are important sure, but I like just sprinkling worldbuilding in there to keep the story concise to what I'm trying to interpret, but most of the time I'm just here for a good time lol.

I do love fics who get really deep with the worldbuilding, I appreciate the hard work because I, myself, have a hard time incorporating that ahaha!!

🌿how does creating make you feel?

I write both as a hobby and professionally, but fanfiction really helps with flexing those creative muscles for me. Writing existing characters feels like trying to work a puzzle on how they work with the idea/plot instead of digging your brain that feels like a sandbox and making something out of nothing.

It's wonderful, plus the ability to share it in real time to others who might enjoy that character and/or the plot and seeing what they think is fun!

It's why fandom ecosystems are so fun when the community is engaging but kind 😉. This is why I reblog all, if not 98% most of the comments I get, or respond to them at least. A transactional engagement helps churn the butter of ideas in my brain. It's how I ended up writing an AU within an AU with a recent Daemon piece lol.

[asukaskerian]

☕️would you care to talk about your take on the relationship between Grimmjow and Urahara in Bleach? like, are they friendly by the end, do they trust one another? In your ABO fic, did Grimmjow consider asking Urahara for support at all, and would he have gotten any if he did? (I loved their snark in your daemon AU)

i don't have a HUGE headcanon but i like the idea of ichigo being weirdly put off when Grimmjow, who he sees as a peer, calls his Weird Old Man Teacher by his little name and no honorifics at ALL like they're trusting buddies or some shit.

ichigo like "grimmjow has friends?" "...who are not me??" "(why does he not call me ichigo everybody calls me ichigo who does he keep refusing to call me anything but kurosaki and turn turns around and calls HAT'N'CLOGS ~kisuke~ i didn't even know he had a first name teachers aren't legally allowed to have first names ok)" "grimmjow has SHINIGAMI FRIENDS?" "... AND THEY'RE OLD?"

"... oh fuck he's old" "but totally immature so in ghost years that's like twenty tops, right?" "but agh???"

and then he's weirdly jealous and meanwhile grimmjow has just chosen the name that was the most irritating (for others) and easiest to remember (for him) and moved right along. he thinks kurosaki sounds more badass than ichigo and that's as far as he goes.

i can totally see a weird alliance between grimmjow and urahara though, where they both know exactly under which parameters they can trust each other and no further. kisuke wants intel and weird gizmos and to fuck up aizen and to support ichigo. he doesn't want to risk the humans or his little group of dependents. ok fair, good enough. grimmjow is a battle-brained maniac who can be aimed at the enemy if you can convincingly present them as a threat and will not otherwise bother with weaklings who don't get in his way. useful. also, he's (unknowingly) hilarious, and urahara likes cats. so. he just has to make sure grimmjow never pings on him as someone who could give him a fun fight, and they're good to go.

in my ABO fic he did not even think of urahara for a minute. he trusts him until urahara has to weigh the lives of his dependents versus the lives of a handful of weakling arrancar who got wiped out years ago and probably don't ping him as very different from the random hungry hollows he cleanses offhand every week. it's not even a contest. grimmjow would never expect the guy to throw down against several battalions and a shinigami captain when he seems to be really eager to stay under their radar, he really doesn't think urahara values his help even half that much.

i could totally see them having a one night stand though. X'D ichigo's face, oh god.

[secret-engima]

It's gonna be interesting to see Lucis's reaction to the existence of the second Prince.

OH IS IT EVER.

-Meltdown just about covers it, but not quite. Like- not only is this a second prince, but he’s OLDER than Noctis by a good seven years. Ignoring the media for just a sec (though OH BOY THE MEDIA) the MOOGLENET (or whatever the FFXV version of the internet is) is gonna have a collective heart attack. Some people are gonna be joining on the media boat of questioning Regis for having a son out of wedlock (and if he still has Nox’s mother in hiding somewhere as a mistress) but others are going to be harping on Nox himself. Like- the theories get WILD. How did Regis’s agents not find him until he was 15+? How strong is his magic? Why does he wear long sleeves in every (rare) photo or video and why are his photos and videos so rare? Where was his mother from? Was she even Lucian?

-Top theories on those are that either his mother/mother’s family HID him from Regis’s agents or he was living in another country until recently (considering the only other “countries” right now are all under Niflheim’s thumb, this immediately spawns the theories that he’s a double agent for the Empire or he was tortured by them and escaped, which would explain the long sleeves). Other theories for the long sleeves is he’s hiding tattoos that would shame the royal family (he already has long hair and strange taste in earrings after all). Maybe Regis is hiding him from the public eye because he’s ashamed of his illegitimate child, or maybe there’s something wrong with him (people who go with the “tortured and escaped the Empire theory assume he has mental issues on top of scars). A really popular theory for his mother was that she was from Niflheim, possibly a Nif agent there to get the royal bloodline in Nif hands, until someone dug up a picture of him hanging out with the glaives and someone else (probably a Galahdian tbh) did a breakdown on how the single braid visible in all of Nox’s photos is a Galahdian braid, which immediately makes the theory that his mom was Galadhian way more popular (there’s also a niche theory that he’s the kid of Queen Sylva and Regis and that Slyva had been hiding him in Tenebrae until recently, but few people subscribe to that one).

-And let’s not forget the DRAMA the mooglenet is waiting breathlessly for the moment his existence is known. I mean- think about it. Much older illegitimate prince with possible scars, mental issues or enemy agent mom suddenly gets found and taken into the Citadel and named the second prince? A lessor inheritor even though he’s older than the Crown Prince by seven-ish years? If this was a drama show, then Regis would end up assassinated by the long-lost son he foolishly took in and Noctis would either die or disappear mysteriously and Nox would suddenly be the only LC left to take up the throne (and possibly turn it over to the Empire if you’re one of the theorists on the “was born and raised in Niflheim and is their double agent” boat). Like- you KNOW that is how the plot would go, and so does all of the mooglenet, who await the descent of their kingdom into Game of Thrones intrigue and murder with baited breath and much frantic typing.

-But those are mostly Insomnian mooglenet users. No, the ones who live out in the wilder areas, the small towns and the outposts where Hunters often come through have a different kind of meltdown that mostly comprises of “hgdgfd that guy who saved me from monsters/daemons/nifs was WHO????” or “That’s my regular non-regular. He and his weirdo Uncle stop by my ramen stand whenever they’re in and bicker over the best toppings. ACTUAL ROYALTY likes my ramen WHAT IN THE WORLD-” or, arguably the funniest one, “HGFGFHGFD THE DRIFTER I REGULARLY HIRE TO DO RANDOM CHORES IS THE PRINCE. OF. LUCIS?? THE KIDDO WHO DRESSES LIKE A HOBO AND TAGS ALONG WITH AN EVEN MORE HOBO UNCLE IS ROYALTY???? I SENT ROYALTY TO COLLECT MY BEAN CROPS??????”

-Basically while all of Insomnia is wary and confused by Nox’s existence, the rest of Lucis is collectively losing their minds because, you know, Nox has helped out his people where he can, which means he has ABSOLUTELY done all those random side-quests where you harvest somebody’s crop or look for a lost shipment or go out and fight HORRIBLE MONSTERS so bring back some of their parts that you need for your dinky little weapon’s shop. Like- everybody thought they were the only ones who got helped out by this random drifter kid, but then THIS happens and the mooglenet explodes with stories from ALL OVER FLIPPING LUCIS of this kid dropping everything to like- help a researching find certain colored frogs or something in exchange for trinkets and petty gil and shop discounts and the occasional potion.

-While Insomnia is busy prepping their Game of Thrones style fanfic and the tabloids are speculating on the mental (in)stability and bloodline of the “brooding illegitimate prince, no doubt embittered over his early life and eyeing the little brother keeping him from the throne”, the rest of Lucis are basically melting into puddles of shock, confusion, and adoration for the royalty that would drop everything to help out random citizens. Care packages start showing up from all corners of Lucis to thank their prince, and after they’re cleared by security, Nox opens them all. And writes thank you cards. Personalized thank you cards that often reference some individual event or factoid of the person/people it comes from (thing’s like, “I hope your ankle is doing better”, or “tell your wife thank you for the knitted socks, they’re very warm and she didn’t have to make them for me, I know wool is expensive in your area”, or “sorry I won’t be around to deliver your next batch of spiracorn tails, my father doesn’t want me going on Hunts right now for whatever reason”) and this proof that he REMEMBERS and STILL CARES just makes them love him more.

-Also there’s this music-based drabble thing I’m working on that happens JUST as the mooglenet/media is starting to calm down and THAT sets everything off again with even more screaming and confusion and Insomnians going “I’M SORRY WHAT????” while the rural Lucians just go “ahh. Ah yes that explains it. That’s our little Drifter.”

-Regis is torn between being Responsible About Security and wanting the Hilarity Factor of letting Nox have a social media account. Like- his son hates public appearances of any kind and he respects that (barring the few mandatory noble balls), but Regis can just imagine the utter chaos Nox would unleash if anyone ever let him have a Twitter account and it’s .... tempting. The nobles haven’t been this off balance in years and for all some (a lot) of the tabloids and media commentators are annoying in their harping and gossip, the collective brain-melt Nox keeps triggering in the collective public/nobles/Council/media is HYSTERICAL.

-Nyx, snickering, announces one day that Nox has fanfiction about him. Like- A LOT of it. He is reigns over a thriving chunk of the Real Person fandom, almost all of which is massively OOC and either filled with political intrigue and assassinations (and sordid badly written romance) or just straight up AUs (vampire/werewolf/supernatural Nox is a stunningly popular AU as is the Usuper Dystopia AU). Nox is morbidly curious but refuses to actually read any of it for fear of losing his mind (she doesn’t tell him about the very fierce Shipping Wars that have broken out, or the fact that most of those Shipping Wars are over various popular celebrities Nox has never met, Noble Daughters he’s met and despised, and Aranea Highwind, who is on the list solely because she’s a famous female Nif officer and the Nif!Nox theory is very popular).

-There would be a segment of that fandom dedicated to works from the common folk who’ve actually met him, but for that part of the population it’s more popular to share various stories about how they met the then-unknown prince for real and how he either helped them or was adorably awkward over something (there is a magazine anthology of those stories, released monthly and very popular out in Lucis proper, Cindy has a subscription that Cid refuses to admit he reads).

-The fandom/theorists even stretch into Altissia and Niflheim. If ANYONE asked, Loqi would refuse to admit, on pain of DEATH, that he is the author of That One Fic everyone knows about/favs/follows/fanarts that features a Nox/Aranea ship, the now ex-Chancellor as Nox’s maternal uncle, and a SCARY in-depth knowledge/breakdown of both Niflheim and Lucian politics (in the context of Nox and Aranea navigating them, surprisingly this is the one Super Popular Nox-Nea fic that DOES NOT feature a Double Agent!Nox).

-The only reason Ardyn does not contribute to the rumors/fanfics/theories is because he doesn’t Understand How the Mooglenet Works™. He has, however, gleefully listened to some of the glaives read Loqi’s That One Super Popular Nif-Written Fic and smirked to himself over how it is so OBVIOUS who the author is, and pleased that Loqi the author is actually tasteful in his courtship subplot and shipping habits.

[sky-scribbles]

2019 Writer’s Round-Up

Tagged by: @greyias, tysm!!

Tagging: @sadmagecentral, @visionmarred and @erintoknow, if you guys want to do this!

Word count

It took a loooong time to plug all of the year’s fics into Word and get an answer to this... the final count is 68,288. Please, no one tell my professors who still haven’t got me to produce two decent 7500-word dissertations.

Number of smut scenes

Two... ish???? Softly and Go Easy were Fallen Hero ficlets that dealt with lemon-ish situations but were incredibly vague because my Disaster Ace brain just isn’t interested in going into details :’D (Me: we could try to write smut now? My brain: but have you considered... angst and tenderness? Me: you got me there.)

New things I tried this year

- My self-imposed ‘one fic a week’ challenge (except during exams...) I’m thrilled that I mostly managed to do it, barring a few weeks where I made art instead or was just too tired. It led to me exploring so many different ideas!

- Writing prompts! I’ve always worried that if I took prompts, I’d never be able to come up with ideas and I’d disappoint the askers, but I had plenty of ideas and absolutely loved doing them.

- A few new formats: Transmission Log , Messages to an MIA Operative, Keystone and Delivered (Not Read) were all epistolary, which was really fun to explore. Most of my FH fics were also in second person, which I was nervous about trying but ended up really enjoying.

Favorite thing I wrote this year

Hhh, that’s a hard one...

Irreparable was one of my favourites to write. Much as I love fix-it fics, taking a blunt look at how deeply fraught Theron and Jace’s relationship is, and watching Jace make it worse with everything he said, was a great ride. 

Astrogation, aka my ‘Revan hangs out with the Outlander as a Force Ghost’ fic, was tricky to write but so much fun. Kess and Zeth are such wildly different OCs and I loved giving them a chance to interact (and kicking the Imposwtor out of the window.)

Over in the FH-verse, This Is You is very close to my heart. Tender Chargestep is good for the soul.

And finally, I have a soft spot for the incredibly angsty Flystep fic What The Water Took From Me. There are some lines in there I’m super proud of and the whole scene plays out so vividly in my head whenever I read it.

Favourite fic I read this year

Oh heck, why don’t I have a fic rec tag? I’ll definitely fix that, and in the meantime...

Everything @sadmagecentral​ touches turns to gold, but this look at Dorian’s past, his relationship with the Alexius family, and his healing with the Inquisition  is a work of beauty. The way a decade of growth is so perfectly summarised in a short story... *chef kiss*

A Taste of Your Skin Starts The Healing by @frozenabattoir is gut-wrenching and tender by turns (just like everything about Argentstep...) and so, so gorgeously written.

I love absolutely everything that @erintoknow does, but especially Your Weak Young Heart. Watching Ari’s journey through her Sidestep days is a wonderful emotional rollercoaster and I loved every word.

And this ficlet by @greyias is lovely and bittersweet and generally perfect :’)

Writing goals for 2020

Hmm, continue the Lionel Shepard ficlets (which began with Keystone.) The idea of a Shepard who doesn’t quite come back right after Lazarus has been in my mind for several years and I’d love to see where it leads me (and Lio and Kaidan. They’re gonna... yearn...)

Finish the Fallen Hero Daemon!AU that’s been sitting in my drafts since August.

And the ‘Wren makes contact with Heartbreak and helps them heal’ AU that’s been sitting around for just as long. This could be a longfic, so I’m still working up the courage...

Do more writing prompts!

Go easier on myself. I’m super proud of myself for rising to the fic-a-week challenge, but sometimes I’ve pushed myself a little hard. My brain loves its structures, but it’s gotta learn that taking a break from a self-imposed rule is not going to make anything bad happen...

Prioritise finals and mental health over fic, sadly :’D I’m going to keep writing as much as I can, just maybe a little less than I have this year.

Words of Thanks

Everyone who’s supported me over this past year! Ngl, it’s been rough in places, and I have no idea what 2020 will bring, but having you all here liking the stuff I make, asking me stuff, and gushing about fictional characters with me has meant so much to me :’)

Special thanks to @monty-s-joy, @jaegerjaguar, @sadmagecentral, @aurrieccentrics, @frozenabattoir, @theebonhawke, @gaydragonwizards and anyone else I might have forgotten because I’m incredibly tired, for screaming about fandom stuff with me, letting me bounce (frequently ridiculous) ideas off you, and generally being wonderful people. <3

[teacupfulofstarshine]

magical girl!au shenanigans part one

more shenanigans from my magical girl!au! 

fair warning: this au features sympathetic remus, sympathetic deceit, and cartoon violence. it also features a fair amount of typical remus nonsense, so if that’s not something that you can handle, please don’t force yourself to!! i love you all whether you can read this au or not : )

backstory/character info 

on to the shenanigans 

- generally speaking, there is one braincell in the magical girl squad. logan is in possession of this single brain cell. he possesses the brain cell 99.9% of the time. the .1% of the time he does not have it, either virgil or dolos has it. usually dolos. 

- remus . . . does not possess the braincell 

- unless he is alone.

- an example: remus possesses the braincell when he is at work. he is very, very good at his job - he’s got a very keen eye for detail, he’s good at analysis, and he’s good at theorizing. he works hard, gets his reports done on time, stays late to do analysis, etc. etc. 

- however

- the absolute millisecond that he catches sight of logan (or any of his boyfriends, really, but especially logan), all his Work Smarts (TM) go out the window. the braincell is gone now. 

- the reasons for this are twofold. one: remus knows that logan is a responsible human. if logan’s around, he’ll keep remus from doing anything too stupid, and he’ll get him out of any serious shenanigans he manages to get himself into. 

- two: remus is Big Gay and the braincell shuts down when he sees his boyfriends.

- dolos cannot have spicy foods. they make him very, very ill. he’s incredibly sensitive to spice as well. remus once ate four raw jalapeños (why? who knows anymore) and then kissed dolos two hours later. dolos was incredibly ill for twenty-four hours afterwards. 

- logan did competitive gymnastics in high school. as such, when they go to fight daemons and corrupteds, virgil will frequently create strategically placed hexagons that logan will leap and backspring from like a cat. 

- remus will frequently make comments about logan’s “flexibility” accompanied by wiggling eyebrows. if logan is in the mood, he’ll do a split right in front of remus. if he’s not (which is more frequent), he’ll throw whatever’s at hand at remus and then leave the room. 

- virgil does not enjoy being an IT consultant on a college campus because students come in with very inane stupid questions and he’s like . . . the instructions to do that were literally given to you seven times 

- he and logan take their lunch breaks together. they like to sit in the little gardens and stuff on the university campus and talk about the stupid people they’ve encountered in their jobs that day

- the amount of students who don’t understand how to alphabetize things shocks logan. he despairs for the future of the youth 

[jawnwicks]

1, 3, 7, 20, 23, 28, 31, 43, 51 😉

1. What was the first fandom you got involved in?

LOTR, baby! On Livejournal lmao, those were the days.

3. What is the best fandom you’ve ever been involved in?

Inception was fucking nuts and TRON was very funny. To be honest I think it was TRON because some of the bullshit that came out of that was hysterical. Photobucket and LJ have eaten all the evidence but I rped CLU a ton and basically played him as an extremely ridiculous drunk.

7. List your NoTPs from each fandom you’ve been in.

oh god

Billie/Frank (The Punisher)

Frank/Karen (The Punisher)

Harley/Joker (the various Batman universes)

Arthur/Eames (Inception)

Carter/Reese (Person of Interest)

20. Any ships which you surprised yourself by liking?

Perhaps in contrast to the above, I actually don’t mind a certain kind of OT3 relationship between Harley, Arthur and TDK Joker

Jesse/Saul (Breaking Bad) was definitely a surprise at the time and for every reader whose innocent little brain I broke

Reese/Fusco (Person of Interest) @livenudebigfoot did this to me

23. Name a fic you’ve written that you’re especially fond of & explain why you like it.

I really love Certainty and nobody else does. It’s a short fic about David Lieberman (The Punisher) exploring a what-if scenario of him losing his entire family and if/how Frank would comfort him. I just adore the way it’s written.

Special mentions go to Consummation of the Soul (Walking Dead/Winter Soldier crossover) for just being something incredibly long that I finished, my Punisher soulmate AUs fic for being cute and creative, and Sine Qua Non (Breaking Bad) my unfinished first person Saul/Jesse fic that drove a bunch of people completely crazy for a while. Good times.

28. If someone were to draw a piece of fanart for your story, which story would it be and what would the picture be of?

I will never be over this gorgeous creation for Consummation of the Soul but if someone was to do one now I would love to see….

the boys in the Punisher wingfic AU

the boys and their daemons in the Punisher daemon AU

any fucking art whatsoever of the highschool Joker/Arthur AU

31. What’s the nicest thing someone has ever said about your writing?

Has to be this comment on Consummation of the Soul:

Phillip Blake’s portrayal was brutal, spare. No excuses made, no melodrama, just that explosive blend of selfishness and frailty that makes up human evil. And empathetic! I understand why he chose to do what he did, the needs and passions that drove him, because you did not flinch away from the inner life of this character. His abuse is so foul, so cruel, but still you reach down and show the motivations.

The Asset’s attachment to Phillip was tragic, but believable given the life experiences he had. That his rebellion was inspired simply by respect and decency made his turning on Blake all the more satisfying.

This was an extremely moving portrait of human darkness and the resilience of good.

43. Is there anyone in your fandom who really inspires you?

@ifridiot just endlessly blasts me with fantastic ideas and I hate him for it

YOU are constantly on my dick with raunchy images of Arthur

all the goddamn joker/arthur artists…….

51. Rant or Gush about one thing you love or hate in the world of fanfiction! Go!

I hate the lack of commenting these days. I think it’s because of the way tumblr has changed how people see fic? Comments are what authors LIVE for my dudes. I can’t tell what you thought from a wordless kudos. ;_;

[voidselfshipp]

🌻Sunflower Au🌻

Summary: daemon falls in love with a woman, but he doesnt know how to flirt with her, shenanigans ensue.

《...》

John enters the facility, students come and go,coming in all shapes and sizes, his mother enlisted Him into this artschool, he thought that it would take more time off of him to do graffiti, but then he saw her.

She was with him in character design class,Brown hair, shaved back, green eyes with bags under them,and this big green sweater, and her name was jerico.

He couldnt Keep his eyes off of her, and that costed him the first few clases of the semester.

He needed to wow her,but how?.

Also, needed to add, that not only John was an artist but a vigilante too, pver the course of the years he took various martial arts and programming classes and courses, naming himself "Daemon"

So his brilliant brain came up with this idea.

Wow. Her. With. Your. Alter. Ego.

Altough, his relationshipp with her was going well,they worked togheter a couple of times, went to her place to work on the assigments of their shared class, and they had a pretty good friendship.

-You have a really iconic style john- jerico says as she replaces the water on the glass she used to clean her brushes- I cant quite place it,but there is something that when i see it I go" wow, thats John's work"-

She sits on the table and starts to colour another character.

-Well, yours is really iconic too-John leans back on his chair,finishing one of his sketches- they way you do the face , and the way you aply colors are kind of your trademark-

The woman blushes and shakes her head.

-Quite the Charmer, arent you-both share a chuckle and Keep working.

Hours go by and the sun sets, the moon appears on the horizon, and the stars slowly show themselves on the dark blue Sky.

-Im leaving, its late and my roomate is going to freak out- jeri says, tugging the sleeve of her green sweater.

-You sure?, this place can get dangerous at night, dont you want to stay?-john Asks leaning on the doorframe with on of his forearms, hanging over jerico.

-Please I dont want to bother, ill text you when I get home,okay?-

-You better do so, If not I wont be able to sleep tonight-

-Oh shut up- jeri playfully and softly punches him on his arm and says goodbye.

'I gotta make sure she gets there safe' John thinks , as he grabs his Gear, putting on his Oni mask.

His feet are silent as he runs on the rooftops, with his gaze on jerico, who non-chalantly walks back to her apartment ten blocks away from his.

Suddenly his eyes catch a glimpse of two men following her, he hums and observes,they dont seem dangerous,until one of them tries to steal jerico's backpack, she fights and squirms but the guy seemed to be winning the fight,until he lands on the ground and a set of shurikens pin both of the men to the nearest wall.

Then the grabs the woman and jumps, both run trough the roofs as he grabs her hand.

When the shady men finally stops pursuing them they sit, regaining their breath.

-Thanks for saving me and my bag there- she says, with a kind smile as she scoots closer.

-Uh, youre welcome, im, im--

-Oh I know! You've been in everyones mouth since you stopped those criminals some weeks ago!im so starstruck! I got saved by Daemon, THE daemon-

His cheeks heat up, If she only knew...

Or does she?.....

They sit there and chat a little bit,then daemon feels his body shiver, jerico seems to notice it as she takes off her sweater and hangs It around his back.

-You can give it to me later, ill be good to go, I have a spare one on my backpack,my apartment is just a block away-

-And how do you know I wont steal it?-both stand up.

-Because, you saved me-

They chuckle and say goodbye.

Jerico gets down the small building they were sitting on and walks, thinking of what happened.

When she gets home she finds her roomate sleeping on the couch,covering them jeri goes to her room and falls on her bed, quickly grabbing her cellphone and texting John with "you wont Belive what happened"

He sees the message pop up, as he sits on the windowsill of his house's attic window, were his room was, messaging back with" what happened?".

They Keep talking for hours until they both feel tired.

Tomorrow is saturday luckily, so they wont hate themselves in the morning.

[...]

Sunrays filter trough the blinds, daemon groans , covering his face with his hand as his half naked form walks downstairs , he hears two voices talking, but he is too sleepy to recognize them.

-John, put some clothes on, Jerico is here-his mother says

He suddenly jumps and with half-asleep , face looks at the woman, she is blushing as she contains her laughter.

Daemon bolts to his room, picking up an sleeveless shirt and throwing it on , then going on downstairs.

-its so early- he groans.

-Early?- his mother says-its twelve pm dear, its lunchtime, I invited jerico over, now sit, your friend has already set the table-

He awkwardly sits Next to jeri,muttering a hello.

-You looked cute- the woman besides him whispers- half asleep, messy,I dont get seeing you like that too often-

-Like what?-daemon asks.

-Vulnerable- she says- John, If you are trying to flirt with me,Like you've been trying these past month, Just be straightforward,no messing around-

The Mans face heat up,looking away as his mother serves the food.

-Was I that obvious?-He asks.

-Well child-his mother says- youre not EXACTLY that subtle-

-But its cute,trying to be so smooth, its nice-

They start to eat, and after it, jerico hangs out with John a bit, talking, playing some games, until its afternoon and jeri has to leave to help her roomate with some stuff.

{...}

A soft knock is heard on jerico's Window, she looks over to see her saviour from last night, daemon.

-c'mon, let me take you to a date-he says.

-Im sorry- the woman said looking at him-my heart is after my best friend, I really cant -

-Even if the person asking it is your own best friend?- John says taking off his mask- hurry up!,come on!-

Jeri chuckles and grabs her coat, opening her Window and slipping trough it, walking down the emergency stairs with her friend.

They laugh and jump trough the city and houses,running on the rooftops and climbing them until they arrive to the tallest building around,an abandoned three flored house,on its rooftop its a blanket and some candles.

-Its so corny,I know- daemon says holding jericos hand-you said to be Straight-forward so here I am-

-John I--

-Jerico, since I saw you, something is there, bugging me,pulling me to you like a magnet,I cant help it, eveytime youre near me, I have this urge to hug you, and be close to you, you are my best Friend, and I, I love you, so much...I want to be your boyfriend,but the desicion is yours to make-

-Yes,just yes, shut the fuck up and kiss me, now-

-Like , l like now, right now , now-

-Jo, did I stutter?-

Daemon pulls her on a kiss, walking backwards to the blanket and laying down on it

-took you long enough-jerico said.

-Oh shut up, If you knew that I was daemon,you would already be at my feet-

-Oh but I knew, the design?the voice?they made me realize from the moment I saw you, not even the voice disruptor on your mask can disguise your speech patterns-

-So wait,thats why you lend me your sweater?-

-Uh duh, of course,youre the only one who has my permission to touch it, even go near it-

Johns face burns red as he hides it behind his hands, Rolling on his side-

-Im such a dumbass-

-my dumbass-jeri says, hugging him from behind.

They stay in silence for a bit.

-Youre a sunflower- John mutters with his eyes half lidded.

-I think your love would be too much-

-Oh you'll be left in the dust-

-unless I stuck by ya'-

Youre a sunflower

John chuckles and kisses Jerico's forehead as they sleeply sing to eachother.

Youre a sunflower

~●~

[missbrunettebarbie]

Zhou Ying, Hope Michaelson, Josie Saltzman, Laena Velaryon,

Thank you :DD Esp for asking about Legacies

Zhou Ying

OTP for them: Wu Pin, girl was so in love with him

BROTP for them: her mother-in-law, her dad

Other ships: not really a ship, but I enjoy her interactions with Shen Xingye

What kind of fic I’d write about them: something where her baby lived, but probably it would be a girl in my fix

A favorite canon moment: her utter joy discovering all the new things in the church

Color that reminds me of them: pale blue, for some reason

Song that reminds me of them: the opening song

A headcanon about them: she enjoys spicy food

A random AU I think up on the spot for them: hmm, I would like one where she never met/married Wu Pin, but did meet his mother after his death and tried to help her restore her wealth

Anything else: I kinda think of her as a weird cross between Sybil and Mary from Downton Abbey

Hope Mikaelson

OTP for them: Hope/Landon

BROTP for them: Lizzie and Josie

Other ships: eh, I enjoyed her flirting with Maya, Ethan and even Lizzie

What kind of fic I’d write about them: my brain betrayed me and I had a dream last night about Lizzie as a superhero, so now I can’t help but imagine the whole Legacies cast as a weird Justice League

A favorite canon moment: her moments with Landon in the first 2-3 eps of season 2. Bby girl

Color that reminds me of them: red

Song that reminds me of them: eh, something about wolves, probably

A headcanon about them: her fave flowers are lilies

A random AU I think up on the spot for them: Hayley never told Klaus Hope was his daughter, so she came to the school in her teen years, not knowing she’s a Mikaelson. Damn, this sounds interesting xD

Anything else: I would spoil you

Josie Saltzman

OTP for them: Penelope/Josie

BROTP for them: Lizzie, Caroline, MG

Other ships: hmmm, Rafael?

What kind of fic I’d write about them: one about her childhood, centered around her relationship with Caroline

A favorite canon moment: everytime she sets someone on fire. Apparently I have a fire kink 

Color that reminds me of them: green. Idk why, it just does

Song that reminds me of them: the song that plays during her kiss with Penelope in 1×06

A headcanon about them: she’s a dog person

A random AU I think up on the spot for them: her birth mother survived, but she and Lizzie somehow end up meeting Caroline (and possibly Klaus) anyway

Anything else: I like the way she signs

Laena Velaryon

OTP for them: Daemon and Rhaenyra

BROTP for them: her daughters, her mother, her brother, Vaghar

Other ships: not a ship, but I am somehow intrigued by what would have happened, had she married Viserys I

What kind of fic I’d write about them: one where she and her baby live, damn it, GRRM!

A favorite canon moment: when she tried to ride Vhagar before dying ((

Color that reminds me of them: teal, lilac

Song that reminds me of them: something sad, maybe about flying or the sea

A headcanon about them: she named both the twins. Daemon was useless when it came to names, so she did it herself xD

A random AU I think up on the spot for them: see above, a marriage with Viserys I

Anything else: she was totally bisexual. Don’t tell me otherwise