#why do you think that cain deleted that post? because there was something wrong with it

[radfae]

this is genuinely upsetting. how much longer are women not only going to be complacent in but actively encourage misogyny?

[spookyscarycreepydollgirl]

I deleted your comment because it made me so mad, but I need to explain why so you don't keep doing this. You shouldn't make queer characters straight, but it's fine to make straight characters queer because they are not a marginalised group. They are not an underrepresented group. HC-ing straight people queer is not the same as HC-ing ace people allosexual. Asexual people are ridiculed and ignored within their own community, so when we get canon representation, that needs to be respected. When the media is as saturated with ace rep as it is straight rep, we can revisit this conversation, but until then if you like the dynamic of two characters there's no reason why you can't take that and make something new with it. You don't need to erase ace characters in the process. Hope this helps

That’s a dumb thing to think, and I think you know it. Characters from marginalised groups requiring protectionist double standards I mean. They’re fictional characters, they exist to entertain. They aren’t real or worth protecting, no matter what their sexual orientation or lack there of is. I literally kill my OCs in the name of fetishisation on my blog. You don’t protect fictional characters, they’re tools, they exist to be used and exploited no matter who they represent.

That’s not even getting into the fact that you aren’t even talking about media representation, you’re talking about fanfiction. A niche close knit form of media that the majority of people will never even see. If you’re trying to influence how others think on a societal or systemic level, fanfiction is a laughable way to do it. You can’t dictate how an audience reacts to a character. You can’t control who people will ship with who or what they write about. Fanfiction is a hobby, it’s done for fun, out of dedication and passion. You should be grateful that people like the same characters you like and the same stories you like enough to want to invent new stories for them, being picky about those stories in an artistic sense is fine, but pretending it’s a question of morality? That’s just self-righteous. It’s just bossing people around and shaming them cause you think you know better.

I ship Gale X Astarion X Tav even though Gale isn’t poly and Astarion has some definite sexual trauma in his past. I ship Yuugi/Atem even though Yuugi is canonically straight. I ship tons of other things that are not even remotely canon. It’s not wrong or evil it’s creative license and it’s fun.

I should clarify that the post they’re so mad about they deleted was me essentially saying: “I ship Yuugi/Yami no Yuugi, even though Yuugi is canonically into pussy, I’m not sparing the straights, so why would I spare the asexuals?” I forget the actual wording, I don’t think I mentioned pussy in so many words. So just think of this version as a slightly more crass and dramatic reenactment.

Anyway I don’t even feel offended by being deleted this time because I’m too taken back by the need of OP to correct my supposed bad behaviour.

I’mma be honest guys, while I told this person I would lance the sacred cow of canonical queerness. I don’t actually have that many fanfiction OTPs I can think of that are straight despite being canonically queer. (Does Pomni X Caine count? An AI could be assumed to be canonically asexual right? But then the Moon is implied to get frisky so…yeah I don’t think I can determine this with just a pilot episode)

So not only am I sex repulsed IRL and thus the last person who needs to be told that life is tough for folk on the ace spectrum but the supposed “horrible” thing this person NEEDS to stop me doing I’m not entirely sure I’ve actually done. (I’ve read ALOT of fanfiction in my life though so I could just be misremembering.)

If anyone’s wondering why I’m so passionate about this though. It’s cause I want to be a proper writer one day and fictional characters as tools to be exploited is an inalienable right for writers. Does this mean I think getting attached to or empathising with characters is bad if you’re a writer? Hell no! But you gotta treat them like Sims characters and drown them in the pool without a second thought. I like my Sims, I empathise with my Sims and I still wouldn’t fucking hesitate to murder them in cold blood. And THAT my friends is the ideal attitude we should all aspire to when writing.

[mlobsters]

supernatural s9e12 sharp teeth (w. adam glass)

not sure i'm in a good mindset for this. their little reunion at the hospital is making me overly upset.

dean gives him a chance to bail (or a hint to leave?) and sam ignores it and asks more about garth while making this face. he doesn't use this expression all that often. it's not something i associate with him being mad, just more stressed-concerned?

and dean's eyes too green, scruff too long. is it like, guilt-beard? (okay coming back to this, mark of cain urge to kill beard?)

(that phrasing? from this kids book called once i ate a pie, took me a solid day to remember what i was thinking of. a poem called puppy. "the world is big / trees too tall / sky too high. all i could remember was the cadence i use when reading it to the kids so it took a hot minute to drag up enough words to figure it out)

sharp left to practically slapstick with sam smacking garth to wake him up. here's me perpetually forgetting that garth completely flaked out on kevin, not that him being around would have made a difference to how it played out.

okay, refreshing my memory to where they left things between them. i was remembering the whole "i'm poison" thing with dean being like boohoo somehow you made yourself the victim when sam's mad that you didn't trust him and took his agency away. so i went to look up the rest of the conversation and:

from s9e10

SAM So what? I was willing to die. And now... Kevin... DEAN No. That is not on you. Kevin's blood is on my hands, and that ain't ever getting clean. I'll burn for that. I will. But I'll find Gadreel. And I will end that son of a bitch. But I'll do it alone. SAM What's that supposed to mean? DEAN Come on, man. Can't you see? I'm... I'm poison, Sam. People get close to me, they get killed...or worse. You know, I tell myself that I-I – I help more people than I hurt. And I tell myself that I'm – I'm doing it all for the right reasons, and I – I believe that. But I can't – I won't... Drag anybody through the muck with me. Not anymore.

dean got distracted with feeling guilty and ignores the actual problem of what he did to sam

SAM Go. I'm not gonna stop you. SAM But don't go thinking that's the problem, 'cause it's not. DEAN What's that supposed to mean? SAM Just go.

i was with dean here and not understanding what he was saying, but i see now. sam saying that it wasn't about who's responsible for kevin, or if he does get everyone around him killed - that it's not this dean self-flagellation/penance; go because of the not trusting and the lying and the taking away agency. i understood that's why sam sent him away, but i didn't understand the conversation specifics.

anyWAY. what i was trying to remember was where sam was emotionally because i was expecting him to be more... visibly mad at dean still. memory refreshed, still surprised he's acting so.. not mad.

unless we're doing the "just keep it professional" which i'd expect to be more strained if sam's doing it. remember last time they had a falling out and reunited on a case? in that weird affirmation restaurant place? was that after stabbing jewel staite? yes, yes it was (s7e7 the mentalists). i believe i deleted from my original post about it but i definitely recall typing up something about being envious of dean being able to act like everything's fine and be casual and comfortable meanwhile (then-sam and) i will sit there seething acting like assholes because can't ignore the feelings

DEAN Anything on Gadreel? SAM Actually, uh, yeah. Turns out he, uh, he left some Grace in me before he bolted. DEAN You know how wrong that sounds, right? SAM Wouldn't worry about it. Cas took care of it. DEAN [Chuckles] Hmm. SAM What? DEAN Nothing. I'm gone for two weeks, and you're like an episode of "Teen Mom."

again with not understanding, i went through sam's face journey but took 10 minutes instead of 2 seconds. so i get the jizz/grace part of the teen mom joke. but if we're going with that analogy, he got an abortion and teen mom would be.. not that? it doesn't matter.

DEAN Crowley and I found him, and he gave me this so that I could eighty-six Abaddon once and for all. SAM You worked a job with Crowley? DEAN The devil you know...

i get that this conveniently is derailed by garth bolting but can you imagine the level of freaking out and demanding of information sam would actually do at dean's casually dropping this mark of cain thing out of nowhere

that's some kind of golden hour kissing his hair situation. so pretty

that's..... a choice.

DEAN I told you we can't hunt together. It's for your own good. SAM I hear you. And after we find Garth and get to the bottom of this, I'm gone. But until then, no more games.

very, "i hear your bullshit story, that's not the point but okay."

this is so not getting finished tonight. tbc

GARTH All right. We've all gotten off on the wrong foot here. So let's do things right. Boys...this is Bess...my beloved. And, Bess, that's Dean. Now, he could start a fight in an empty house, but deep down inside, he's just a big ol' Teddy bear. [DEAN looks annoyed and SAM chuckles] And Sam here -- Sam can be a bit insecure at times, [SAM glares] but for good reason. Bless his heart. DEAN That's sweet. Werewolf?

this episode is a very fucking weird tonal mix. big feelings, dumb jokes.

SAM Right. Uh, minus the part where your wife attacked me. GARTH Yeah, because you two came busting in here like a house on fire. Guns waving, the jawlines and the hair -- it's very intimidating!

okay that made me laugh. easy target

take 3.

long time no see, tom butler. he was back in s1e11 (the orchard episode), did a little hey i know you amended post on him there, he was in the xfiles and the killing so the hiky was for txf originally.

the xfiles s2e16 the colony / the killing s1e4 a soundless echo / spn s1e11 scarecrow

REVEREND JIM My daughter, Bess, was born a lycanthrope. It was one of the proudest days of my life. Which soon turned tragic... when a hunter killed my wife. Believe me when I tell you, I wanted to make someone pay. Then I looked at Bess, and I realized the road to revenge is a dark and lonely one, which you never get off. And that hole in the pit of your stomach, you never fill it -- ever.

-_- veggie vampires, veggie werewolves. lesson of the day for dean about chasing revenge. very cult vibes

every time i see the episode title sharp teeth it makes a song lyric fragment float up even though it doesn't have sharp in it, green light by lorde

Those great whites, they have big teeth Hope they bite you

is the mark making him grumpier? i don't know how it works without the blade. even when he's dubious he's not usually quite this rude, is he?

SAM Okay, Dean, they gave you lunch, they gave you pie. Why are we still here? DEAN Uh, yeah, you're right. Yeah, Garth's good. You want to hit the road, it's square by me. SAM Look, I'm just saying, this wouldn't be the first time we came across a friendly monster. Or a-a family of friendly monsters -- whatever this is.

remember the veggie vampires, dean?? anyway dean again hinting and sam plowing right past it

always enjoy a little nonverbal communication*

ragnarok. ok

did cain tell him what the mark would do? can't remember.

snorted at the book thing dean found with the convenient paw print on the cover. could there be wolfie secrets inside?

untitled 1 and 2 make their triumphant return!!! with quite the desktop background update. that made me really pleased, thank you people doing the onscreen computer stuff

will sam in peril be enough for dean to realize he needs to be there to protect him? ah, the convincing himself via speech to garth about holding on to the good things and family.

DEAN Uh, listen, that night that, uh... You know, we went our -- our separate ways -- SAM You mean the night you split? DEAN Fair enough. I was messed up, man. Kevin was dead, and I...I don't know what I was. SAM Okay. DEAN Hell, maybe I still don't. But, uh... I know I took a piece of you in the process, and for that... Somebody changed the playbook, man, you know? It's like what -- what -- what's right is wrong and what's wrong is more wrong, and... I just know that when... When we rode together... SAM We split the crappiness.

well, good job sort of apologizing and saying you want to be back together. now we can get to the actual issue with sam

SAM But something's broken here, Dean. DEAN I'm not saying that it's not. I... I just think maybe we need to put a couple W's on the board and we get past all this. SAM I don't think so. No, I-I wish, but... We don't...see things the same way anymore -- our roles in this whole thing. Back in that church, talking me out of boarding up hell? Or -- or tricking me into letting Gadreel possess me? I can't trust you -- not the way I thought I could, not the way I should be able to.

does sam regret not finishing the trials/choosing dean now?

DEAN Okay, look. Whatever happened... We are family, okay? SAM You say that like it's some sort of cure-all, like it can change the fact that everything that has ever gone wrong between us has been because we're family.

thank you for that cure-all line, because yes i could scream that

DEAN So, what -- we're not family now? SAM I'm saying, you want to work? Let's work. If you want to be brothers.... Those are my terms.

well 💔 but they'll eventually get their shit straightened out when they're together.

what a strange episode.

*fun little detail in the expanse / leviathan wakes scifi series is the people that live out in space, that work in space and spacesuits, have gestures/sign language used for nonverbal communication while in the suits

interesting little interview with the language creator for the belter creole used in the show that also talks about the gestures briefly (but what's extra funny to me, i learned the tapping your elbow thing from a cuban when i lived in miami, codo [elbow in spanish] for cheap)

and lastly someone made a google doc with a list of gestures/meaning

waffling over tagging this with the expanse, since it's wholly unrelated, but i think about the tags on these moreso as organization on my stuff, but realizing duh it also shows up in the main tag too for those shows. cluttering shit up perpetually.

sorry about being an asshole

[tweakerwolf]

Cain Endings 5 + 10

This one is going to be a really long post since its one of the longer endings to get to in general and the bonus stuff for ending 10 is plentiful! I probably won’t go into full detail with the bonus stuff but of course I have to mention it :)

Cafe:

Go to the fancy café and sit with Cain, the piano player. Get taken in by him. When he asks how he can help you, reply with “Maybe I just wanted to find some interesting people to talk to” and he chuckles, not really believing he fits into that category. You blush instead of answer. Cain easily moves the conversation along and buys you something from the barista. He gets you something called affogato- interesting! You’ve never had it before and maybe he’s playing some sort of prank on you! -Take the spoon- and dig in- omg it’s soooo delicious! You finish it quickly. He’s glad you enjoyed it but now it’s time for him to go… Tell him to “have a good night!” and joke with him a little more before he finally leaves. That’s when you notice a feather on the table... how did that get inside? As soon as you touch it, you feel severely ill (screen pulses) and you rush home. Eventually the awful feeling passes and you drop into you bed.

Cain’s House:

You wake up to the sun warming your face, and it doesn’t take you long to realize that you can’t be at your place... When you open your eyes, you’re in a stranger’s bed and you have no idea how you got there... You see a note saying to go to the living room, and you have no other option but to go and see just what the hell is happening. When you get to the living room, Cain is there- is this Cain’s house?? He makes small talk but quickly drops the act, voice becoming colder and meaner. Then he suddenly shifts, his features changing, morphing... until suddenly a completely different person is standing in front of you- the real Cain. You can’t comprehend how he did that, you don’t really want to know, you just try to run. But something stops you, an invisible wall... before you can even react to that, an invisible hand starts to squeeze your neck! Cain explains that he brought you to his house and he plans on torturing you, playing with you, until you beg for death. So keep him interested and you’ll live longer! The hand is gone from your throat and you ask “why are you doing this?” He just laughs and says because he can, he’s strong- no being on Earth can stand up to him so why shouldn’t he toy with them? Then he goes and sits down. Just what the hell is going on here?! You still have questions dammit, and despite the fact that he has some scary powers, you go over to him, -talk to Cain-. Get mouthy and ask “Is this the part where I get tied up?” to try and show him that you aren’t scared. Cain says that yea, there will be, but not to stop you from escaping. You can’t really escape from him because this is his domain... and anything outside his house will certain kill you. He invites you to leave if you wish, to get torn apart by creatures. 

He leaves you to think about it and goes back to reading his book. You decide against leaving- maybe he’s lying about the creatures... but maybe he’s not. You study Cain, trying to figure out what he might be, because he isn’t human. He tells you that it’s rude to stare... oops. -Back off- and explore the house some more, heading to the -bedroom-. You spy a phone on the bedside table -click on the phone- to pick it up. No sooner is it in your hands then it starts to ring. You answer it, unsure what else to do. Some guy starts yelling at you (well, at Cain, it is Cain’s phone). Quickly tell him “I’m not Cain” and he wants to know who’s answering his phone then. You tell him you have no idea what’s going on and that you’re scared. Thankfully, despite the fact that he appears to be acquaintances with Cain, he’s nicer than him. He introduces himself and tells you to stay calm. He doesn’t seem surprised to hear that Cain kidnapped you... you weren’t the first it would seem. Then he tells you that he wants to help you, he can try tracking the call but... not right this moment since he doesn’t have everything set up- he wasn’t prepared for this. He tells you to stay strong and then you quickly hang up, afraid that Cain will burst through the door at any moment. You barely manage to delete the call from his log before he does just that. Cain asks what you’re doing and you tell him that you’re just... sitting... For some reason, Cain accepts that and leaves you be. You flop down on the bed and pass out from the stress.

When you wake up, it’s night time and you figure you should make some sort of appearance. Being stuck here with him doesn’t sound like fun but dying sounds scary too so... might as well try to keep him ‘interested’... whatever that means. Head to the -balcony- and find Cain out there. He beckons you closer and surprisingly his voice sounds a little... softer. Look around at the scenery with him and notice that... it seems all wrong. Ask him “Where are we?” because this is no place you’ve ever seen before. He says that you’re in a place called Tartarus, an in-between realm where demons and others seek a haven. Oh... well... um... a sunset is a sunset and it is beautiful all the same, so you relax a bit and lean against him. Cain turns and nuzzles your neck, hands touching your sides. Then he lifts you up and holds out out against the railing! He rips off your underwear and tells you to beg for your life. You don’t want to die but you don’t want to beg either (begging technically isn’t an option here via our previous choices, only struggling), so -let the timer run out- and Cain seems okay with your silence. He suddenly, roughly thrusts inside you and you can’t do anything but gasp from the pain. You grab onto the railing to keep yourself from falling over and he slams into you. Eventually he cums and you slide to the floor, on the safe side of the rail at least. Despite that fact that it started off really rough, you have to admit that it felt good. As you struggle to stand, Cain throws his blazer over your shoulders, awwww. Then he helps you to your feet and takes you to bed.

This time when you wake up, it’s morning again and Cain is gone once more. He certainly isn’t too interested in his new toy, he’s only done a few things to you... (and all in all, they weren’t even that bad, hmmm). Head out to the living room to look for him but he isn’t there either... go back and -look in the bedroom- to find the phone. It’s there on the bedside table again!! -Click on the phone- and call Damien. Things haven’t been awful thus far but you know it can’t stay that way for long, better to get out while you can. Damien seems surprised to hear your voice but he scrambles to get everything set up- he’s ready to track the call this time. You make small talk while his tools zero in on your location. You find out that he’s a priest and that he’s actually Cain’s half-brother?? Cain doesn’t seem to care about that though because Damien admits that Cain’s tried to kill him a few times (wait, then why do they have each other’s numbers?? Why does Damien not block him?? XD). Shortly after that he has his companion write down some coordinates- did it work?? He says that they’ll be coming for you. Tomorrow, you just have to hold out until tomorrow... Hopefully you can. You hang up and curl into a ball on the bed. Some time later Cain comes in and talks to you. Looks like he’s ready for some sort of play time... He snaps his fingers and chains appear, latching onto your wrists! Cain tells you that you’re boring- oh no! The chains pin you to the bed and Cain steps down on your chest. He tells you to ask him nicely to let you go.... -ask him to stop- because, should you obey right now?? Maybe...? 50/50 shot, hope it’s the right one. You ask him to stop and he kicks you... then the chains are pulling on your arms with so much force that your joints are creaking and popping from the strain. Apparently he wants you to beg louder. He presses down on your broken ribs with his foot. You yell to be let go and this time he listens. The chains disappear and you pull your arms in close, trying to relieve the pain from having them almost ripped off. He walks away.

The next day you wake up in a bit of a stupor, you don’t feel like doing anything... you just want to sleep... but then remember Damien! -Look for the phone- and wonder if Damien forgot about you... or just isn’t coming... that would be your luck... As you curl up on the bed, you notice that the atmosphere in the room feels... different. Call out and someone opens the door- Damien!! He’s here to get you out! You’re safe now. You start to reach out for him but...

Ending 5:

Cain seems happy with you (he literally just called you boring and tried to rip your arms off! But, okay, sure...) -Call for Cain-, surely that’s the safer option! Hell, he’s tried to kill Damien in the past and now Damien is in the house, you lured him here! Damien gets pissed but Cain doesn’t appear... is he not home?! Damien leaves you, saying that you deserve whatever Cain does to you. Suddenly Cain is behind you, clapping his hands... he says that you should’ve went with him (why didn’t he attack??? D: does he only try to kill Damien for funsies?) Cain charges forward and you feel your arm disconnect from your body... You bleed out quickly as Cain warns you not to touch his things... Died- Cain cut off your arm.

OR

Ending 10:

Decide to get the fuck out of there, screw Cain! -Go with Damien-, grab his hand! His friend from before appears and the three of you make your escape. Next thing you know, you’re in a church, where you’re safe. But you’re only safe as long as you’re /in/ the church. Cain will try to track you down if you leave... So you have to stay there until he gets bored... They assure you that you’ll be safe though and that you can stay as long as it takes. Survived- Damien saved you. Damien and .D walk away but you follow, listening in on the conversation. .D apparently thinks that they get themselves into dangerous situations a lot but I mean, they are priests... Then you hear Damien comment about how it’s funny both of them have demon boyfriends! .D denies it but Damien knows! After that .D storms off. -Talk to Damien-, sit in a pew with him and just -cuddle-, you need it right now. Damien blushes but doesn’t try to push you away at all. After awhile Damien suggests that you should probably get some sleep. You can’t sleep though so after awhile you wander through the church and come to an empty room. -Look around more- because you still aren’t sleepy, and you find Damien’s room. -Wake him up- and as soon as you touch him Damien flips around and pins you to the bed. He wants to know why you’re sneaking up on him. Tell him “Don’t hurt me...” because you didn’t mean to surprise him... didn’t realize he’d have such lightning reflexes... He apologizes and lets you go. You admit that you were lonely and wanted company; he lets you sit on his lap. -Touch him-, commenting about his tattoo, which he reveals is for necromancy. He asks if you just came to talk or for something else. **pick your poison** because no matter what you choose, it leads to sex, but be warned, all of the three of the options lead to different sex scenes, so each of them have different images! After the mind blowing sex, you stay with him the rest of the night. How you choose to wake him is up to you ;) You stayed with Damien

[robronotics]

Post Ep Ponderings April 4

I totally meant to post this yesterday and then the day got away from me. Today’s ponderings will be posted later on.

I can’t get over how sad all the Ashley and Laurel stuff is. I’m still trying to prepare for the actual end, which I think might be today, but I’m staying away from that kind of spoiler right now because I want at least the element of surprise. I think it might be backfiring though because now I’m just worried every time I start playing an episode. The thing is, even after Ashley is gone, there’s going to be so much sadness for so long around the village. It’s already begun really.

I totally understand Gabby’s wariness of bringing Ashley home for his last few days. I mean, I get why they brought him home, but could you imagine watching your beloved father waste away in your home? How that might potentially ruin or taint any happy memories you had in that home? I don’t know about you guys, but after that, every time I remembered something good with that person in that home, it would immediately be overshadowed by watching them die in that same place. On the other hand, I also get wanting him home. It’s a much nicer way to say goodbye, and is potentially nicer for the person dying.

Moving onto Pierce, Rhona and Vanessa, I’m so glad Vanessa didn’t get caught watching Pierce through the window. I’m sure that would’ve sent Pierce into overdrive as not only would he know that Vanessa knew that he didn’t delete the video (and was watching it in front of a big window at the front of the house for anyone who stopped by to see), but it would be more ammunition for him to pull Vanessa and Rhona even further apart. I can see it now, she’s stalking us! Staring creepily through our windows! I still hope Vanessa manages to get Paddy on side. I get why Paddy is being the way he is, meddling before got him nowhere and without any real proof, I’m sure he’s thinking he was wrong about Pierce the whole time. I’m sure this is going to change though, and I bet it will have to do with that video. I’m thinking that Vanessa somehow gets a copy, proving at least to Paddy that Pierce didn’t delete it, but it’s going to be a long slow process of Paddy not wanting to be involved, not wanting to willingly watch the video and then it backfiring spectacularly where Rhona ends up cutting them both off until they can figure out how to prove definitively what Pierce is actually up to.

I was going to say something about how Cain is dealing with Faith and his discovery of her cancer, but I can’t think of what it was now. I’m sure it’ll come up again soon though so maybe in my review of today’s episode later. I do want to say though, that I loved Marlon squaring off against Cain. You don’t really see that often, and I really enjoyed it.

Tracy and her romance novel story line has been a great comic relief to go against Ashley’s impending death. I kind of hope that her books start doing well, much to the shock of the rest of the village. The funny thing is, when she was first writing, with the book club and all that, didn’t most of the residents (or at least the female ones) think it was good fun to read? Seems a little strange that she’s not getting more support. Also, I’m itching to see Tracy and Pearl face-off. That will be highly entertaining, especially if they both start writing their own books.