#why did they have so many details about how those randos died in that letter???

[suhmayzooka]

everyone always asks whether taylor pushed henrik down the stairs (overdone question) when the real question we should be asking is.... did taylor murder the elderly couple to steal the jade piece??????

[transmascfrankiero]

um thoughts on hamlet?

i’m sobbing thank you and i’m sorry in advance because this is going to be LONG

so my hottest take on hamlet (i have many, many hot takes on this play) is that ophelia’s suicide was a hoax, and that gertrude, the queen, straight up murdered ophelia instead. why do i believe this? many reasons:

1. throughout the play, gertrude and ophelia have almost no relationship in terms of interaction between them. many, if not most, stagings of the play place ophelia and gertrude on opposite sides of the stage when a scene has both of them in it, and gertrude’s dialogue toward and about ophelia heavily suggests that she doesn’t really care for ophelia at all. at best, she tolerates ophelia, and at worst, she treats ophelia like an interloper in her court, a flighty girl who drives her son to distraction and has as much to offer to gertrude as her father. (gertrude’s famous line, “more matter with less art,” is an annoyed outburst directed at ophelia’s father polonius, whom gertrude outwardly loathes.) in ophelia’s last scene before her death, she appears to have lost her mind to grief in the wake of her father’s murder, and wanders through a royal meeting handing out flowers and singing. however, she gives gertrude fennel and columbines, which represent adultery in flower language, and TELLS GERTRUDE AS MUCH, TO HER FACE. in case you’re unfamiliar with hamlet, one of the big conflicts in the play is that gertrude, hamlet’s mother the queen, married claudius, the king’s brother, approximately thirty seconds after the king died and there’s a rumor floating around court that they were hooking up LONG before hamlet senior fell victim to the classic poison-in-the-ear trick. (later it’s confirmed that claudius himself was the one who murdered the king. whoops!) so ophelia accusing the queen of adultery is of course a HUGE slap in the face, and ophelia only gets away with it because ~~~she’s mad with grieeeeef sob cry~~~ which is GENIUS and i have more theories about that particular action on ophelia’s but that’s another post for another day.

2. ophelia dies offstage. she is never seen or heard from again until her funeral in act V. the only reason we find out about ophelia’s death - and in fact, the only way we know how she died - is because gertrude tells us about it. yes, gertrude, weirdly enough! gertrude gives a monologue which describes in excruciating detail exactly how ophelia died, right down to the kind of plants that were getting caught in her dress as she drowned and what songs she sang as she slipped into her watery grave. the sort of details you would only expect a person who was there to witness the death could provide. sketchy, right? what’s even sketchier is that gertrude makes no mention of having heard this from someone else. she’s not like, “oh, this is the hot village goss, take a sip babes,” she doesn’t offer any explanation at all as to how this information got to her. she just dives straight into her ultra explicit account of the drowning. SUPER weird! and furthermore, why is gertrude of all people the one giving us this information when there is clearly no love lost in their relationship? couldn’t this have come from one of those rando shakespeare characters who show up for one scene, deliver a message, and then vanish again? well, sure, but it didn’t. it came from gertrude. and that was intentional on shakespeare’s part - he wants you to be suspicious of this information, beCAUSE...

3. the play itself tells us that the conditions of ophelia’s death are VERY SUS. the very next scene after gertrude’s macabre monologue is act V scene I, wherein two gravediggers are preparing ophelia’s grave for her burial and discussing between themselves why they’re preparing for a christian burial if she killed herself. (in shakespeare’s time, suicide was a sin, and people who committed suicide weren’t given proper burials because of it.) the dialogue goes like this:

GRAVEDIGGER 1: Is she to be buried in Christian burial when she willfully seeks her own salvation? (translation: Why is she getting a proper burial if she killed herself?) GRAVEDIGGER 2: I tell thee she is. Therefore make her grave straight. The crowner hath sat on her and finds it Christian burial. (After examining her, the coroner said she should get a proper burial.) GRAVEDIGGER 1: How can that be, unless she drowned herself in her own defense? (So what, she drowned in self-defense?) GRAVEDIGGER 2: Why, ��tis found so. (That’s what they said she did.)

the text here indicates loud and clear that something about ophelia’s death is complicated, enough that there’s DOUBT about it being a suicide. and what’s more, there’s so much doubt that her death was a suicide, she gets to be buried for real in the eyes of God. but the text does not explicitly state what, exactly, is so weird about ophelia’s death. it just wants you to know that the whens and wherefores about it are strange, and that characters who are not emotionally involved believe it’s strange, too. it doesn’t stop there, either! the priest who’s going to perform the funeral ceremony says, in as many words, to the royal family, “Her death was doubtful.” interesting!

4.  gertrude has this TOTAL crocodile tears thing going on at ophelia’s funeral. after spending the entire play openly disdaining ophelia as a silly little airhead, here’s what she has to say at her grave:

GERTRUDE: Sweets to the sweet. Farewell! I hoped thou shouldst have been my Hamlet’s wife. I thought thy bride-bed to have decked, sweet maid, and not have strewed thy grave. (I thought I’d be covering your wedding bed in flowers, not your grave.)

kind of a weird, sudden change of heart for her to have about ophelia, right? you could argue that it’s grief-driven, that people gain new perspective after someone dies and maybe she’s just now realizing that ophelia was really a great person all along. but given just how few fucks she gave about ophelia when she was alive, it doesn’t make sense for her to be sad after ophelia’s death, unless she’s being performative about her grief. and yeah, she’s the queen, people are paying attention to how she reacts to shit and therefore on some level everything she does is performative, but it’s in particular how she relates her grief back to ophelia being her son’s girlfriend that gives me pause, beCAUSE...

5. there is, of course, that whole Oedipal reading of hamlet, where the reason hamlet and gertrude’s relationship is fifty shades of fucked up is because they’re sexually attracted to one another. while this reading of hamlet is mostly a freudian analysis that is treated as a sort of embarrassing joke nowadays by scholars and theatre folks alike, when you read the scenes between hamlet and gertrude - in particular the famous closet scene, from which the bulk of this analysis derives - you DEFINITELY get the sense that this relationship is weird and toxic for reasons that have nothing to do with the fact that gertrude married hamlet’s uncle. gertrude is really, really, really wrapped up in her son. but not in a loving, maternal sort of way - instead, it comes across as a narcissistic parent desperate to understand why their child has not turned out exactly the way the parent wanted them to be. gertrude continually accuses hamlet of acting out of pocket specifically to hurt her, and does not consider any other motivation for his actions. when he acts out of turn in court, it embarrasses her. his strange behavior reflects poorly on her as a mother and as the queen, and she doesn’t like it. she has a nervous breakdown over it in the closet scene, where she basically begs hamlet to be normal for her sake.

now with all of this in mind...

i believe gertrude, having gotten fed up with her son acting Weird and making her look bad all the time, decides that in order to exert SOME means of control over the situation, is going to take it upon herself to eliminate anything that could be the cause of his bad behavior. and the most obvious cause, at least to her, is ophelia. why would gertrude believe this? well, in act one, polonius encourages ophelia to break up with hamlet, because he’s worried hamlet’s gonna steal his daughter’s virginity (which, gross, but whatever, we’re not here to talk about that today). because ophelia’s an obedient daughter, she does so. then, in act two, ophelia runs to tell her father polonius about an encounter she had with hamlet in her bedroom, where he did a bunch of weird creepy shit and then left her a letter that expressed how desperately in love with her he was. polonius decides that hamlet’s gone nuts because ophelia dumped him, and the two of them tell the king and queen about their theory. claudius asks gertrude if she thinks the theory holds water, and gertrude responds that it might. later on, in act three scene one (i.e. “to be or not to be”), this theory is apparently confirmed - at least to polonius and gertrude - by the way hamlet treats ophelia.

so, the very first theory posited to gertrude about why her son’s acting weird is that it’s because of ophelia. and we’ve already established that a) gertrude doesn’t like ophelia, and b) gertrude is a narcissist. she’s desperate to make hamlet stop his bad behavior and therefore stop making her look bad. the worse hamlet’s behavior gets, the worse gertrude’s desperation gets to stop it. and everyone else in this play solves their problems with murder, so it tracks that gertrude would solve her problem with murder, too!

gertrude killed ophelia hoping that it would make her son would go back to normal. (and, if for some reason you like the Oedipal reading of hamlet, it could be argued that she was also jealous of ophelia. but i don’t really love the Oedipal reading, so i’m choosing to ignore this argument.) the fact that ophelia was apparently insane at the time just made it easier for her to make up the suicide alibi. that’s why she knows so much about the circumstances surrounding ophelia’s death - because she was THERE and she CAUSED IT. that’s why shakespeare has gertrude delivering the news of her death. that’s why the play tells us, repeatedly, that the circumstances of ophelia’s death are suspicious. because ophelia didn’t drown herself. gertrude totally straight up drowned her!

thanks for coming to my TED talk everyone

[drunklander]

Drunj!Der Yells About Outlander

Thoughts on Ep. 505

ADSOOO!!! AND CLAIRE!!! AND ADSOOOOO!!!

My floofer was not amused when I woke her up to show her the cat on the teevee. Bqhatevwr, boo boo, you’re stuck with me. #TeamSocialDistancing

Oh, I guess the voice overs are back in a big way. Super...

And also like, this whole running bit about God and stuff would work so much better if they’d included Jamie and Claire’s faith a bit more throughout the show. *cough Jamie’s prayer cough*

Do we have to pour one out for science!jizz? This is the book bit where the science!jizz happened, but maybe they’ll do it later? Probs not. Le sigh.

Marsali being all excited with Claire and Claire being all fuck yeah I found it gives me the warm fuzzies. I LOVE THE TWO OF THEM A LOT OK.

This montage makes me dizzy. Not a fan, tbh.

Oh hey, the old Hancock building! With a park that looks nothing like Boston, haha. But I appreciate the effort lol, my main office is like a block from the old Hancock building. Not that I’ll be seeing it any time soon. Living that work from home life until the plague times are over.

But for real, social distance. No joke. Stay the fuck home.

I love 60s Claire if only because damn girl, look at dem legsss.

Hi, I’m Der and I’m very shallow sometimes.

But Claire has objectively great legs.

Omfg, Roger, stop being a butthurt whiner. You suck at being a soldier. You know you suck at being a soldier. And instead of being like yeah, let me learn and get better, you just bitch about it.

Sam is gonna kick his horse in the head at some point. Why the fuck does he dismount like that. It’s literally bugged me since season one.

So they’re pardoning everyone. Probs not Murtz though. Cool that instead of doing a continuous ramp up to the inevitable confrontation, they’re going the book route of lol, jk, all this was kind of a waste of time for now...

Really, Knox, you did something excessive? Cool way to say murdered a dude.

Ok well if Knox is getting the Ardsmuir roll, then he’s def gonna die, right?

Jamie’s 100% gonna intentionally miss Murtz’s face.

Boom, called it.

I do not like spiders. Please move this VO along, Claire.

I’m fucking glad we finally get Doctor!Claire. We should have gotten more Doctor!Claire in season three. Jamie got to have all aspects of his 20 years examined but fucking Claire’s side was literally just about Fred and how shitty he is.

Fuck you, season three. Fuck yeah, Doctor!Claire!

“It’s my married name.” Lulz. And not the married name she wants...

GRAHAM SAYS THE THING JAMIE SAID WHEN CLAIRE WAS STITCHING HIM UP IN SEASON ONE AND I HAVE FEELINGS ABOUT IT OK.

Graham makes me miss when the show was in Scotland like whoa. I miss the Squad. There are so many characters now that are like kind of always around but they’re not part of the Squad. And the main Squad is always separated. So like there’s barely any big group adventures anymore where we actually give a shit about everyone involved.

I JUST WANT THE FOLKS I CARE ABOUT TO HANG OUT MORE, OK!

Needle!jizz 2.0 is gonna be the closest we get to science!jizz, isn’t it. Whomps.

Can the show please just be a period procedural with Claire and Marsali being badass doctors? Thx.

Because for real though, Marsali being like “scalpel” is my favorite thing ever.

I feel you, Jemmy, I’d cry if I were stuck hanging out with Roger too.

I DO NOT LIKE SPIDERS, CLAIRE.

“My lass is more concerned wi’ words and deeds.” Which is why it baffles me that she’s still with you, bro, because your words and deeds fucking suck.

How Bonnet doesn’t accidentally swallow the diamond is beyond me.

Ok so if your wife was violently raped and you know she’s had some PTSD about it, because you’ve seen the drawings and stuff, you should maybe act completely the opposite way from how Roger is acting.

“And you kept it? A gift...from Bonnet.” Yes, you giant fuckwit, your traumatized wife went to hang with her rapist for shits and giggles and accepted a present because she really wants a memento to remember him by. They’re on such good terms and all. ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?! HOW IS HE SUCH A DOUCHECANOE?!

You do not get to judge or question how someone processes their trauma you raging asshat.

He is such a fucking Fred.

Do I think what Bree did was smart? Or a good decision? Hard no. But it’s what she thought she needed to do to move forward with her life. And so she can do whatever the fuck she wants. Yeah, words have consequences and it was a stupid move, but Roger needs to step all the fucking way off.

“You’ve never said as much to me.” “I didn’t think I needed to.” I HATE ROGER SO MUCH. I HATE HIM WITH THE PASSION OF A THOUSAND FIERY SUNS. HOW DO THE WRITERS NOT REALIZE THAT THEY’RE MAKING THE CHARACTER WHO’S SUPPOSED TO BE THE SECOND ROMANTIC MALE LEAD AN IRREDEEMABLE PIECE OF SHIT. OH WAIT BECAUSE THEY HAVE LOTS OF PRACTICE FROM FRED 1.0 THAT FRED 2.0 IS JUST A NATURAL PROGRESSION.

Lol at this “Boston” priest sounding vaguely southern. Is he one of the pedos the archdioceses just kept shuffling around?

(I’m not a fan of organized religion and being forced to grow up Catholic sucked a lot for me. I did some therapy about it.)

Ok so is Claire’s knife on her belt the hand job antler knife? I mean, Jamie doesn’t give it to her until Echo, but I’m gonna pretend like it’s the hand job antler knife. Also, some witches use a white handled knife called a boline to cut herbs and stuff so it’s fitting that Claire constantly-being-witchy-to-her-own-detriment Beauchamp has a white handled knife for collecting herbs.

“Yeah, Frank and I... no, we had a very complicated marriage.” Well that’s one way to put it. *keeps rage bottled up on the inside*

“Frank and I, we still managed to make it work, for Bree’s sake.” Except it didn’t fucking work. He was terrible to you. You basically put up with 20 years of emotional abuse for the sake of your kid and then he used her as a weapon against you. Because he is garbage. Much like Roger.

Claire is always the bigger person. She was with Fred and now with Roger. Like, I’m still pissed that she never got to let out her side of things. She just keeps framing it through rose colored glasses, never speaking ill of Fred when he didn’t do that for her.

WE DO NOT DESERVE CLAIRE BEAUCHAMP AND NEITHER DO MOST OF THE MEN ON THIS SHOW.

Fergus deserves milady.

They’re really going hard with the Roger, Bree and Jemmy have to go back stuff. Are they gonna bump them going back up to the season finale this year? They bring it up basically every fucking episode. I’d be down with moving that along tbh. Except then we’d have to have just the two of them as their own story line and I hate that part from the books.

“We are but humble servants to the law.” Really, Javert Knox. Would you say your duty’s to the law?

“Those who follow the path of the righteous shall have their reward.” Yes, bible and shit, but also a veRY FAMOUS LINE FROM A VERY FAMOUS SONG FROM A VERY FAMOUS MUSICAL.

“Scotland, eh? I never stopped missing it.” HARD SAME, GRAHAM. HARD SAME.

Pledged their oaths to the militia. Not the governor. Miiiinor detail, haha.

“It is a relief, to finally put down the sword and pistol and pick up the axe and shovel.” So, Jamie, you’re saying you’re gonna walk behind the plough-share, you will put away the sword?

Oh hey, it’s Joe! Another person we should have spent more time with in season three.

“Something about Graham Menzies...” Maybe the fact that he could easily have been part of the OG Squad?

I MISS THE OG SQUAD.

“Principally that men like Fitzgibbons never change.” Really, Knox, men like [him] can never change? A man, such as [him]?

“OUR DUTY IS TO THE LAW. WE WILL SEE JUSTICE DONE.” OK BUT THEY’RE LIKE LITERALLY TRYING TO SHOEHORN IN ALL THE LES MIS LYRICS THEY CAN LIKE THE TIME I DID THAT WITH I’M ON A BOAT IN THAT ONE RECAP...

“What kind of deceitful devil wears the guise of honor and talks of justice and mercy?” Valjean Fraser, at last we see each other plain...

“Believe of me what you will,” there’s a duty that he’s sworn to do. Protect his Murtz.

“As god is my witness, I will do what must be done.” You never shall yield? ‘Til you come face to face?

“Damned if I’ll be in league with a traitor.” Would you rather live in the debt of a thief?

“But I will not stand by and watch my kin hunted like a dog.” Like a dog on the run, Jamie?

Called it! Broski needed to die. You’re not gonna make sure the letters are burned all the way, Jamie? Like didn’t that dude who brought in the letters see you there? This seems like it’s gonna backfire *rull* quick.

Also, speaking of dead bodies, is Rando McWhatshisface still in the basement?

Is Adso Gavroche in this scenario?

Jamie Fraser, murder to kitten snuggles in 0.3 seconds.

IF YOU HURT ONE HAIR ON MY LITTLE BEBE’S HEAD, I WILL END YOU, JAMIE.

Slash finally, I thought this episode was turning into Waiting for Gadsot...

(I made myself chuckle a little too hard at that one, tbh.)

“I found him in an alley, couldn’t leave him behind.” AKA how Jamie Fraser adopts all of his children, haha.

“How would you feel about taking a trip to London with me? Your father wanted to bring you there before he died.” You mean, when he threatened to steal your kid from you? It fucking speaks so highly of Claire that she won’t ruin Bree’s impression of Fred. Even though Bree knows by now that he was a terrible person.

“Thank you for my gift.” YOUR GIFT LOVES YOU TOO, CLAIRE!

(And I’m still a sucker for the Claire calling Jamie “soldier” bit.)

[scarletpan-moved]

All the aesthetic asks

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flower crown: when did you last sing to yourself?

... I was in Captain D’s, and Pink came on the radio in there, and I was singing to myself under my breath while waiting on my food.

fairy lights: if a crystal ball could tell you the truth about anything, what would you want to know?

Am I going to be okay? 

It’s a general question, I know, but it’s all I need to know. If I could have the reassurance that, no matter what fucking hell I go through, I’ll be okay? I’d be 100% better off.

daisies: what is the greatest accomplishment of your life?

Living to today. I think, when you’ve had a tough life, you’ve considered doing things that you shouldn’t, that living past that, living in spite of that, that’s a damn good accomplishment. And living to a point where I have days where I am happy? That’s pretty damn good too. 

1975: what is the first happy memory that comes to mind, recent or otherwise?

When I hear happy memory, there is two things that come to mind. 

One: This past summer, going to Michigan, walking around [Town Name Redacted] with my partner. Seeing the water falls, the bears, all of that... 

Two: Theater, back in high school - being back stage and just being so proud, so excited, and so damn happy. I adored that mess. 

matte: if you knew that in one year you would die suddenly, would you change anything about the way you are now living?

If I were to die in a year, I would message people. I would message people I hate, and tell them how they made me feel. I would message past squabbles and try to set aside our differences. I would message family members and tell them how their hypocrisy hurts me. 

But would I change anything? No. I’d just be more honest. 

black nail polish: do you have a bucket list? if so, what are the top three things?

Not a formal list, but there are a few things I would say I want to accomplish before I die. They rearrange occasionally, in my head, but at the moment I would say that my top three are 

- Visit Japan, or another country on my bucket list. - Meet people who have inspired me (beyond those who I admire, or those who’s work I enjoy, there are famous people who have inspired me. That list is smaller.) - Pet a sheep and/ or alpaca

pantone: describe a person close to your life in detail.

A temper disproportionate to their height, but equal to their beauty. Protective, to the point of needing to be calmed, just as their zodiac would suggest. They are fierce, will gut you with their horns if you threaten what is theirs, but at the same time they are nurturing. When you are upset, your thought is them. When you are happy, your thought is them. No matter if it is your greatest joys, or your greatest sorrows, you want to share it with them. 

Now, that fits two people in my life, but they are equally as close, as important, and I couldn’t pick one. 

moodboard: do you feel you had a happy childhood?

I think I had a childhood, which is more than many could say. I also think that childhood ended far too soon. 

I think it was okay, due to my naivety at the time. That being said, looking back on it I do not think it was a ‘good’ childhood by any means. It simply seemed that way at the time. 

stars: when did you last cry in front of another person?

Does over skype count? If so, last night while I was on a call with Rayne, due to something they wrote. If that doesn’t count, then when I found out about Vegas, being I cried in front of my mother. 

plants: pick a person to stargaze with you and explain why you picked them.

Rayne. 

I picked Rayne because they don’t grow too restless with these things. They see the cheesy romance in typical, old fashioned dates. I picked Rayne because their imagination knows no bounds, and because they are likely to see things in the stars that I cannot. I picked Rayne because we could talk for hours about the ins and outs of the universe, and never once grow bored. 

converse: would you ever have a deep conversation with a stranger and open up to them?

It depends on the setting. If a stranger were experiencing something I have in the past? Of course. If it were to help them, I would have no qualms. But just rando #3? No.

lace: when was your last 3 am conversation with someone, and who were they to you?

My partner, Rayne, and I were on skype last night at 3 am. We were talking about our roleplay plot, I do believe it was a plot about her character being in a coma and seeing people in purgatory (think the train station in HP when Harry temporarily died) before coming to.

handwriting: if you were about to die, and you could only say one more sentence to one person, what would you say and to whom?

I would remind my partners I love them. If I could only tell one, I would tell one and have them remind the other of the fact. I don’t know what else I could want to tell anyone. 

cactus: what is your opinion on brown eyes?

I think they are under-romanticized. I think they’re beautiful, and they hold just as much spirit, emotion, and depth as blue or green eyes. I think brown eyes are beautiful.

sunrise: pick a quote and describe what it means to you personally.

“Keep moving forward.” 

This has been my mantra for years, even more so since Mon/ty O/um died. Keep moving forward means the obvious, to keep moving and never give up, but also more than that. It means to always be looking at the next thing. It means not to let something get in your way, and instead move past that. It means not to move backward. It means that, once you’ve moved past something, keep going. And that’s a reminder I need.

oil paints: what would you title the autobiography of your life so far?

“An Eventful Life in Depression and Anxiety”? “Growing Up is for Chumps”? I’m not really sure

overalls: what would you do with one billion dollars?

Hoard the fuck out of it. 

No not really. I would travel, some. I would take Rayne and Kota to cons, and buy cosplays. I would tip double at restaurants, and leave $10 in tip jars. I would buy Sta/rbucks every day. 

I would be happy.

I wouldn’t be in debt.

combat boots: are you a very forgiving person? do you like being this way?

No. No no no, you see I try to be forgiving. And once upon a time I was. Now days? I’m passively bitter. I don’t have the energy to stay mad, so I don’t. But I refuse to forgive people and welcome them back into my life once they’ve hurt me. Fuck that. Fuck them. 

winged eyeliner: write a hundred word letter to your twelve year old self.

Dear 12 y/o Kerri, 

I know things are... off this year, or they will be soon. Just know a few things. If someone loves you, then they show it. Sage may be a dumb ass, but he's right, you should listen to him. Haley has a lot on her plate, you know what's going on with her mom, don't hold her immaturity against her. She's more important than he is anyway. And I know you like Math Team, but maybe you should quit.

Also? Mom isn't trying to ruin your life. I promise, she loves you. Please, don't... be so hard on her, okay?

                            We’ll Be Okay,                                          20 y/o Kerri

pastel: would you describe yourself as more punk or pastel?

Pastel punk?? Like I enjoy both spectrum(s) of fashion, so I’m not sure.. I guess I lean more toward punk in physical style, right now at least.

tattoos: how do you feel about tattoos and piercings? explain.

I love them. There are four tattoos I want, and I would love a few more piercings as well. body mods are a wonderful path for self expression.

piercings: do you wear a lot of makeup? why/why not?

Yes?? I think it’s a normal amount, but on days where I’m feeling up to it I typically wear foundation, powder, contour, eyeliner, and mascara. 

bands: talk about a song/band/lyric that has affected your life in some way.

                    “You've got to make a choice                     If the music drowns you out                          And raise your voice      Every single time they try and shut your mouth” 

M//CR has always been a big influence and help to me throughout my life, but these lyrics always helped me. Honestly, these lyrics started my journey to speaking to be heard, instead of keeping quiet.

messy bun: the world is listening. pick one sentence you would tell them.

Fuck uhm

That’s a lot of pressure.... I guess “We are all the same, stop implementing arbitrary differences, this is what divides us.” 

cry baby: list the concerts you have been to and talk about how they make you feel.

I’ve only really been to a few small ones. I went to B/oys Like G//irls, but that wasn’t my choice, and then I went to Skill//et - that one was amazing. It was my first date with The Boyfriend, and honestly the memory is one of my fondest ones. 

Other than that, I saw Jeff Will//iams in concert at RT/X, and I think that was my best concert experience so far. It was pure magic, and I hope I can see him again.

grunge: who in the world would you most like to receive a letter from and what would you want it to say?

My nana saying she bought me a car and is paying for my college, instead of being a greedy old-- 

Okay no, bad. 

Uhm, honestly? I’m not sure. I suppose getting a letter saying that my college was paid for, I’m... Not sure.

space: do you have a desk/workspace and how is it organised/not organised?

I have a desk, but it’s a fucking mess. I have a shelving thing and some drawers on it, but they’re all a mess, honestly I need to clean it. Also cups. And pens. Cup + Pen city.

white bed sheets: what is your night time routine?

Skype until it’s time to crash, wash my face, brush my teeth, fall down into my pillows.

old books: what’s one thing you don’t want your parents to know?

Hmn... Probably how far away I’m planning on moving. My dad probably expects it, but mom... I think she has this illusion that I’ll stay in-state forever and I really can not do that.

beaches: if you had to dye your hair how would you dye/style it and why?

Mmmm I think I’d go back to purple? Or purple and blonde? Maybe purple with blonde streaks in the bangs? Or pastel purple?

eyes: pick five people to go on an excursion with you. who would you pick and where would you go/what would you do?

Mmmm Kota, Jacob, Rayne... And then probably Kit and Cricket? We’d probably go to the gardens or the zoo, that sounds like something we’d all enjoy!

11:11: name three wishes and why you wish for them.

I wish to be closer (physically) to Rayne, so that we can comfort one another better in times of crises. 

I wish to be better at understanding emotions, so that I can better help those around me. 

I wish for a voice acting opportunity, so that I can follow my true passion. 

painting: what is the best halloween costume you have ever put together? if none, make one up.

Hmm I really liked this one I had a few years ago. It was a witchy-esque dress, it had a hoop in the skirt that I took out, and then I did some soot-y makeup to go with it. 

I need to lose weight so I can wear it again...

lightning: what’s the worst thing you’ve ever done while drunk or high?

Oh uhm

I think falling out of my chair while on skype with Rayne was probably the worst thing I did while high, but I can’t remember much of that night. WAIT I TOOK A TEST WHILE SOMEWHAT HIGH DOES THAT COUNT

thunder: what’s one thing you would never do for one million dollars?

Mmm, I would do a lot for that much. I guess kill / hurt an innocent animal, I’m bad but I’m not that bad.

storms: you on only listen to one song for the rest of your life, or only see one person for the rest of your life. which and why?

Two Faced - Shannon Taylor (it’s suck in my head)... But as for a person, I can’t pick. I gotta have Jacob, Kota, and Rayne. I can’t pick one. 

love: have you ever fallen in love? describe what it feels like to realize you’re in love.

Yes. 

It feels like everything clicks. It feels like conversation flowing like water. It feels like opening up faster than you ever have before. It feels like thinking about them at 3 am when you can’t sleep, but also at 8 am when you wake up, and noon when you’re busy in class. It feels like discomfort when you can’t check on them, and relief when they message. It feels like a warm bubble bath, every time you hear them laugh or see them smile. It feels right.

clouds: if you’re a boy, would you ever rock black nail polish? if you’re a girl, would you ever rock really really short hair?

I have really short hair, bitch.

coffee: what’s your starbucks order, and who would you trust to order for you, if anyone?

Mmmm It depends. Right now I could go for a white chocolate mocha with an extra shot of espresso, oooor a PSL. And Kota could always order for me. 

marble: what is the most important thing to you in your life right now?

My own emotional progression, and my relationships (with Rayne, Jacob, and Kota). Anything else is second fiddle.