#why am i thinking abt this? that prev post but also the fact that today my libre fuckin died during the night and i woke up low
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honestly diabetes would be a great mechanic in survival and horror games but one that i fear wouldn't be fun to most people. maybe me included. but it'd add a whole new level to shit that would be wild to contend with
#wheres the project zomboid diabetes mod is what i mean#6 months later with power off? youre dead on arrival#as soon as the power grid goes down you know your days are counted bc all insulin in the world is about to go bad#why am i thinking abt this? that prev post but also the fact that today my libre fuckin died during the night and i woke up low
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21/f hi, am I bad a person for resenting my bf's past? He's my 1st for everything&we've been going out for 10months. I love him very much but sometimes I get frustrated&bothered by the fact that he's had sex w/ multiple people in the past/has 2 exes. He's loyal kind&understanding even when I get moody. For example, sometimes I would get jealous fits where I'd start thinking abt the sexual experiences & get mad @ him for apparently no reason (to him) I think I'm jealous that he's had [cont.]
experiences before he met me & I donāt know what itās like to also experience it. For some reason it makes me wish I could somehow get those experiences too. Like with his prev. ex they lived together on campus&bonded over photography&nature. I feel so jealous sometimes & even inadequate. He hooked up w/ someone before too (all of this happened b4 he met me) & I donāt know why but Iām getting emotional even as I type this. I guess when it comes down to it I just want to also have had some of these experiences. but i also love him so much? i donāt understand it. iām trying so, so hard to come to terms with his past. It gets bad sometimes where I have to steer clear from thinking abt it or else it just ruins my mood. Weāve talked abt it before&we both agreed thereās nothing he could rlly do abt it bc it was in the past before he met me. Iāve been feeling this way every now&then for the past few months. How can I come to terms w this easier?
I donāt think that youāre a fundamentally bad person or anything? but this is definitely something that you need to move past from. the jealousy and resentment isnāt fair to your boyfriend, and itās only toxic for you to keep getting anxious and upset over something you canāt change.Ā
I guess maybe itās a case ofĀ āfomoā, fear of missing out? I can remember that I once was irrationally angry and jealous over a group of my friends going to a music festival, and I couldnāt come! \: and I spent the entire weekend being angry and jealous over thinking about all the good times they were having, and I wasnāt, it was awful. the resentment you feel is understandable, but not fair. and like your boyfriendās past has nothing to do with you or your current relationship together! his past isnāt bad or morally wrong, itās not something that can changed.Ā
how to deal with anxiety and future panic attacks over this? this post and this post could help you out too. plus!! sometimes saying things aloud can help? people really do underestimate the power of affirmations! so saying out loud āIām not going to let my thoughts get the best of me today, Iām going to stay grounded, Iāve got thisā or something like that really can help ā it makes things feel a lot more real, and a lot more believable, it gives your words power, and gives you the strength to believe in your own convictions. so if thereās days where your thoughts are becoming too loud to cope with? stop whatever youāre doing, take a few deep breaths and say aloud to yourself āIām not going to let my thoughts get the best of me today, Iām going to stay grounded, Iāve got thisā. repeat it like a mantra if that works, whatever helps you.
itās hard to move past something like this, when your emotions feel so powerful? but all you can is keep reminding yourself that your thoughts / feelings arenāt fair -- reminding yourself of that means that you stay aware of the fact that you need to change this feeling, it means that youāre less likely to get caught up with a skewed perception of things. remind yourself that you love your boyfriend and he loves you, that all you can do is focus on the present moment and not the past. take care
- tash
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