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sakiblack · 2 years ago

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THE STAR IN THE NIGHT SKY

PART 9

aonung x sully reader:

reader is named Riti if you wish to have another name pretend its your selected name when someone will say Riti.

(Txampaysye are the things that help you breath under water.Kiri,Tuk and Neytiri are seen using them when they are going out of the ship near the end of the awow)

(Words writen likeThis are spoken in na'vi)

( Mawey = calm or calm down SKXAWNG= idiot)

It has been some weeks now since we came to the island.Looking back at when i first got hire i am really starting to feel like this is my home.Its so strange just a few weeks ago i was missing the forest but now im starting to get used to this place.The days seem to go by fast now that im having fun.Learning the way of water and the way of the metkayina people.Just last night half of the village went in to the sea and collected some shells.The glowing corals and the animals it really was breath taking.Tsireya even showed us Txampaysye.When you make the bond with it it helps you breath under the water longer.They were glowing as well and i could tell Tuk loved them.The whole time we were collecting shells i was close to Tsireya and Tuk.I wanted to be with Aonung but he was nowhere to be found.I did not really see him the whole day and when i asked Tsireya where he was she said he was probably with his stupid friends.The night went by fast and as a new day started dad asked me and Neteyam to go grab some things.Loak went along with us as Tsireya was busy.We went to the forest to pick up some fruit.

-I dont like you being with him.

Said Loak picking up some fruit.

-What?

I asked looking over at him.

-I dont like you being so close to Aonung.He is a dick head and i dont want you to be hurt.

-Loak please im older then you i can handle a guy.Plus he was never mean to me.

-He was not?

Asked Neteyam as he joined our conversation.

-No he is really nice to me.

I repied.

-That is not good he is probably ganna do something to you that will hurt you.Ri being friends with him is not good.I dont think he will hurt you i know he will its how he is!

Said Loak as he stoped picking up the fruit.

-Loak Mawey He is a good guy i trust him.

I said looking at Loak.

-Riti Loak is right Aonung is not good for you.

Said Neteyam.

-Why are you talking like im in love with him?!

I said a little angry.Neteyam steped closer to me so Loak could not hear him and said.

-Ri you might be good at hiding it from others but not from me.I can see it on your face.The way yor face softens when you see him, the was you smile every time he looks at you , the was you look more happy and calm when he is close to you.I know you Ri i know what you see in him and your wrong about him.

-Neteyam stop.I do not want to hear it.

I said looking at my brother.

-Fine.

He replied angry as he turned back and started to walk away.

-What did he say?

Asked Loak as he came to me.

-Nothing.Lets just go.

-Okay what ever you say.But im not done with our ta…

-Shut it Loak!

-Okay okay.

Said Loak as we both went after Neteyam.After some time we finaly saw him siting on a rock.As we got close to him he looked at us with hurt in his eyes but im guessing Loak did not see that.

-Bro i think we got everything dad asked for can we take it home?

Asked Loak.

-What so you can go to your girlfriend?

I asked teasing to witch he hissed.

-We can go.

Said Neteyam as Loak started to walk back to the village.I was walking with Neteyam as Loak was in front of us.

-Net look im sorry , i know you care for me but i cant change the way i see him.

I said as i looked at my brother.

-……

-Net please.

I said as he took a deep breath.

-Ri i know you cant help it im not mad at you , its just.He does not deserve you,not your love,not your smile nothing.If he was worthy of you i would not have a problem.

-Neteyam.

-Ri i dont want you to get hurt im sure he can change but right now he is a dick head.

Said Neteyam as i gived him a small smile at that moment i heard some voices.As i looked back to where Loak was just a second ago i could no longer see him.The only thing i did saw was his tail going in some bushes towards the beach.I looked at Neteyam as he did the same.

-Lest go.

He said as we both started to walk towards the voices.

-Hey!Back of fishlips!

I could hear Loak say angry.

-Oh another four-fingered freak.

Was that?No i cant be him.

-Look at his baby tail!

-Dont touch me!

Neteyam and i were getting closer .

-OHHH baby tail!

-Leave us alone!

Said Kiri as Neteyam and i were now walking towards Kiri and Loak being surrounded by 3 other navi boys and Aonung?They did not see us until Neteyam pushed Aonung to witch he looked at my brother with a smirk and as his eyes moved to me the smirk disappeared.

-What is this!?

I said with an angry voice looking at the boys.Noone said anything.I grabed Loak and pulled him behind me.

-You heard what Kiri said.Leave them alone.

Said Neteyam with a low voice.

-Ohh big siblings come to..

Started one of the guys but was stoped by Aonungs hand as he looked away from me and started to look at Neteyam.

-Back off.Now.

Said Neteyam.There was a long pause as Aonung looked back at me and raised his hands up as a sign that he will stop.

-Smart choice.And from now on i need you to respect my sister.

Said Neteyam looking at the boys and as he looked back to Aonung the boy next to him hissed.That made me hiss back at him as i took a step forward.The guy looked suprised as he stepped back.

-Did you hear what he said or do you want me to say it again?

I asked looking at the boy with a stare that could kill.Noone said anything.

-Lets go.

Said Neteyam as we all turned around and started to walk.I gived an angry look to Aonung, showed them my middle finger to the boys and stuck out my tongue as i grabed Loaks hand and went after Neteyam.

-Look at them, they are all freaks.

I could hear one of the guys say.That made me and Loak stop.Loak was the first one to turn around and started to walk back.

-Loak.

Said Neteyam not wanting Loak to do anything stupid as i puled my hand out to stop Neteyam from talking.

-I got this bro.

Replied Loak.

-I know this hand if funny.Look im a freak an alien.But it can do something really cool.Watch.

Said Loak as the boys were looking at his hand.

-First i ball it up real tight like this.Okay? And then.

He said as he punched Aonungs face and then again and again as Aonung fell to the ground.

-Its called a punch bitch!Dont ever touch my sister again!

He said as Aonung ren to him and nocked him down.

-YES Aonung show him!

Cheered his friends.I hated this as much as i hate Aonung at this moment but i still did not want him hurt.

As tehe other boys joined the fight Neteyam looked me with a smirk and then he too joined the fight.

-You are all so stupid!

Yelled Kiri as she started laughing.They were now all fighting and yelling.I could not watch this any longer.

-Stop it !

I yelled but non of them stoped , im not even sure if they heared me.

-YOU SKXAWNGS STOP THIS!

I yelled louder as my brothers and Aonung looked at me.The other goys did not look at me and did not even stop.Idiots all of them are idiots.I made my way to the one on top of Loak and pulled him by his ears and dig my nails in.He yelled in pain as he leted go of Loak.

-You stop now.I can use more then my nails next time.

I said still not letting go of his ear.Now they all stoped and were looking at me.

-Get of of him.

I said to Aonung on top of Neteyam.

-GET OFF OF HIM!

I yelled as Aonung stood up looking at me .

-Ri im sorr..

He started but could not finish it as i interrupt him.

-Do not we are done hire.

I said as i started to walk away.Loak Stood up and ren after me as Kiri did the same.

-Good luck with her.

I could hear Neteyam say probably to Aonung.

We got home Without saying a word.I know Loak and Kiri were shocked they have never seen me like this.I was known for being kind and calm not loud and angry.

-Kiri dont come with us.

Said Neteyam to Kiri.He did not want her to get into trouble with dad.She stoped walking as me Loak and Neteyam made our way into the merui.Dad was outside and as he saw my brothers hurt he knew what happened.

-What was the one thing i asked?The one thing!

Asked dad anger in his voice.

-Stay out of trouble.

Said Loak.

-Stay out of trouble that is right.

-It was my fault.

Said Neteyam.

-I dont think so.You need to stop heat fort his knucklehead.

Said dad looking at Loak.

-Look dad Aonung was making fun of Kiri.He called her a freak.

Said Loak as dads anger went away.

-Go apologize to Aonung.

Said dad.

-What?

Asked Loak.

-He is the chiefs son.Do you understand?I dont care how you do it just go make peace.Just go.

Said dad as Loak went out ot the merui.Neteyam started to walk out as well but dad stoped him.

-Hey.So what did the other guys look like?

Asked dad.

-Worse.

Replied Neteyam.

-That is good.

Said dad.Neteyam smiled and said.

-A lot worse.

-Get out of hire.

Said dad with a small smile.As Neteyam went out he looked at me thinking if i will come with him.I looked at him and gestured him to go ahead of me.

-You okay baby girl?

Dad asked me as he looked at me.

-Yeah.

I said looking at the ground.

-Dad dont be mad at Loak i should have not let them get in that fight.

-Baby girl you did nothing wrong.You cant look after them for ever.

-I know but ahh its hard.

-I know Kiddo but dont think so much of that.You did everything well.You stoped them from fighting longer.Now go so they dont get into more trouble.

Said dad as i walked out of the merui.Neteyam was waiting for me right outside.

-You good?

He asked.

-I dont know Net i really dont know.

I sadi walking to the beach.

-Ri i know your sad , i told you he is not good for you.

I stoped as he said that.I could feel tears run down my cheeks.

-Net.

I said his name as my voice cracked.

-Oh Ri.My little flower dont cry he is not worth your tears.

He said huging me.

-Your okay everything is okay.Shhhhh dont cry we dont want you to vaste them , use your tears for something worth of them.

He said as i smiled a little.He said that everytime i cried.He was the onyl one that saw me cry for over a year and every time i did he said that.It made me smile every time.

-You know what?

-What?

-Do you wanna eat something?.I can even make something for you if you would like plus we left the fruit back at the beach so we need to get it.

-I would love that Net.

I said as we started to walk away.

But unknown to us someone was watching us.Tears in his eyes as he watched us leave.

-Im sorry......I never wanted to hurt you.Im sorry.

Said Aonung standing still watching as Neteyams and my figure disappeared into the village.

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gayspock · 1 month ago

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i dontknow i feel like fucking sincerely just this fucking bone deep fucking exhaustion i fucking feel so fucking out of options over and over again ive fucking tried to sign back up the fucking weeks long waiting lists aheadof me again and i justfucking cant take it because i cant ufcking take it what do you want me to fucking say likeeeeeeee.

seriouslyfucking constantly the fucking "you dont try, you just accept it" isjust want to curl up and fucking die because i fucking cant do it any more the fucking "just gethelp" fuckingfuck me in thhead i cant do it any more nobody caresits just another fucking breakdown and jsut i dont

i dontknow what am i saiyng. yeah fine im just. i dontreally think htheres anything thats ever going to help or make it amtter and im taking iy out on this but also i jsut. i dont know i fucking hate it i hate beingalive i hate that when youre so fucking alone the only thing there is is this shti i dont

i mean it . i mean it when youyre alone. i mean it . do you fucking know what i mean. i feel fucking crazy i feel fucking isnane i dont know what t odo and the only thing peopleever say to isd go get help and i cant fucking doit any more i fodnt want to go through it all again i cant fucking tell you how much worse it makes it togo through the fucking ONLINE CBT COURSES! again and again and againt hatjust make you worse , to then get discharged haldfway through the limited run because youre too much forthem and then put on anothe ryears long waiting list to rotelsewhere theresno support theresno help theres no one who actually like caresoyu just . listen to the fucking robotic voice reaidng of a script and then you disengage and go cvry alone because what does it mattel and the only thng people ever tellyou after all of it again and again anad again is tou dint try it you didnt do it good renough you didnt fucking commit . to fuckingwhat. becauser apparently to all these fuckign people wjo apparently are so fucking clued up its a fucking crazy msytery to them that actuallyhte fuckin g mental healthcare or whatever is fucking dogshit garbage but ifyou try to say that to them youre fucking crazy anf ucfkign insane i

a round of cbt you dont respond well thats your fault discharge 3 month waiting list preliminary 15 minute appointment assessment ok fine waiting list for 3 months ok lets do cbt again why not ok do it again any way no actually this isnt working youre not doing it well enough what do you mean youdont like it this is the only thing we do discharge 3 year waiting list for specialised services move away get booted off new area 15 minute appointment weeks later weeks later cvbt again babe? 15 minute appointment cbt again babe this time its whats

wheres the email again

sorry computerised yes . cbt its on te omputer . if you dont like it um we have the cbt with the ai phone. remember that? do you not likethis DISCHARGE. TRY AGAIN. NUH UH. go to your gp the gp directs you back here youreso alone you cant even getout of bed nobodyf ucking cares nobody fuckingtalks to you youre slo alone fevery day you shiuld be fucking thankful your free healthcare you ofnt fucking try youre so alone discharge you again put yuou back through this and thato ver and over again it goes nowehre you get worsr its your fault you self-victimisingcunt i jsut want something to matter its so difficult already to talk to try and whenyou do they jsut stare you down and make you feel so small then you already where nobody sees you nobody touches you nobody likes you allthere theres ntihing but this constant fucking back and forth again spiral and jsut cosntant fucking rejection and loneliness and haitng youraelf andwhat areyou even trying for man i dotn know i dont know i dont know any moreeee i LOVE MY SPIRAL

and its all for ntojhing anyway because at the end of the day what you wa\nt is for someone to like you for osmeone to care and its neevr going to happen its never going ot mean anything and they cant dfizx that no one can because theres nothing there but just fucking wanting to die now i cant talk normal i cant talk right i keep fucking spiralling i cant htink of anyhting to say but fucking tanking everything i go out i got robbed i come home i cry by myself i dont know why i tried i dont know why i keep trying ti means nothing but you dont and they think less of you but whats less than ntohing noobody is even thinking of you at all they all jsut forgetyou until its time to fucking pity you and pretendlike it means anyhting i wish i could be a part of something jsut for once fucking pretend like i was meant to be her e i dton know what to do i just dont know what im going to fuckingdo or how to do it proeprly i jsut dont want tio do this again and again and again and ikeep thinkign about it how easy it would be to die how long would it take how many weeks off work can i take do it right at the beginning no quit work quit eveyrthing go on holiday disappear overseasbecause no one would even follow you to the end of thr estreet nevermind there just go leave thrw yourslef into the water and nobody will ever find you or remember you it never happened it never means anything IS ANYONE CRAZY RN

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