#whos excited for the csm movie

[riaki]

WHY DONT U LIKE HIMENO X AKI?? i thot theyre kinda cute 😭 better than aki x makima...

i just. i have a deep hatred for her... she literally tried to gr00m denji and she just annoys me. also bc i love aki he's too good for everyone no one deserves him especially not h*meno ik she smells. AND SHE SAID SHE ONLY LIKES HIM FOR HIS FACE EUGH there aint no way she went to heaven like aki said she did

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

MY GODDESS MY EMPEROR ETC

[mulders-too-large-shirt]

s6 episode 1 thoughts

season 6!!!! my goodness, how the time sure has flown!! i started this whole project in may of last year, and now we are in january! so much has changed! but other things have stayed the same. 

i have heard mixed things on s6, so i am a bit nervous. but i am excited to be reunited. 

i am also curious to see where exactly the movie was set after the finale of s5. has it been a while, or only a few days? has our little friend gibson been missing this whole time? what about diana- did she pull through? will we get to know more about her?

we need to microchip gibson so we never lose him again. 

(i felt vindicated when people told me diana isn’t a fandom favorite, LMAO. i’m usually the girl that goes to BAT for overhated female characters, but she just seemed too intentionally antagonistic towards scully)

so… this episode shall deal with our agents going on a hunt. well, they had best be careful! there are a bunch of different aliens and beasts on the loose!

(post-episode thoughts: my fury at mulder is 75% normal juni rage and 25% enhanced by me being sick and emotional, a fact i only put together the morning AFTER i took all of these notes. you have been warned....)

anyway. let us begin!

(previously, on the x files)

(and i STAND by my opinion that CSM has a very soothing voice, okay?!? googling this man so i can see if he narrates any audiobooks)

man, i forgot about mulder pushing spender up against the wall and their feud. ah, spender. i feel bad for him, but that doesn’t mean i LIKE him. 

OH, WE GET TO SEE CLIPS FROM THE MOVIE IN THIS RECAP!! and they are in such high quality in comparison to the DVD i borrowed!! wow. when i watch it again sometime in the future- hopefully not on a DVD from 1998- i cannot wait to see everything so CRISP.

NOT THE KISS BAIT BEING INCLUDED IN THE RECAP LMAOOO

but now let us begin the adventures of s6!

NOOOOO! roush!!! the evil biological company! their truck is out in the desert. and their guys are pissing. 

well. this happens.

sandy is sweating. bro does NOT look good. i know his ass is not making it through the night.

when sandy gets home, he cranks the heat up to 80 in arizona, which is WILD. then he goes to lay on the couch and shiver. 

AUGH!!! his hand is JELLY???? it’s see-through!!! i did not want to look at all of sandy’s veins!!!

is he having an alien baby, too?!?!

his work buddies come to fetch him later. we see a bunch of photos of him in his house wearing a lab coat and doing doctor-y things.

AWW, his coworker called him sandman. don’t make me feel bad for the dude who works at the evil alien biotech company…

BLEURGH. he DID have an alien chest baby virus infection thing. OH, this other guy is SHOCKED!! AND HE HEARS THE ALIEN HISSING AT HIM!!!!!

HE’S GETTING EATEN!!!!! NOOOO!!!! 

RIP this guy :(

YAAAY, the intro!!! felt weird not having it with the movie!!!

and it was shortened, but okay. i’m getting used to that.

ahhh, look at this computer on which mulder is examining something. is he looking at micro film?

OH, the sweet boy, he’s restoring the fragments from the x files!! this makes me sad!! does that mean there isn’t a huge box of floppy disks somewhere containing all of them? because it is the responsible thing to do, making sure you have all your files saved in multiple sources! well, we’re only a few minutes into the episode. there’s still time for one of those to be found

and now he is presenting before a panel. he says the x files were destroyed “several months ago”, which places us on a vague timeline. scully is here!!!!

“i see your renowned arrogance has been left quite intact”, says this dude on the panel, and HEY! mulder literally isn’t even being arrogant at THIS MOMENT, OKAY? plenty of other times he is. but not now, as he is submitting his report on this alien spaceship!!

“i didn’t see men in black” “well it’s a damn good movie” <- LMAO they are BULLYING HIM!!!

scully looks pained. 

NOT THEM GETTING ON HIS ASS FOR THE TRAVEL EXPENSES STOOOOOP BEING MEAN!!!

OHHH NOOOOO!!! he says that scully can prove the whole thing, but she can’t. cut to them fighting in the hallway.

mulder… you’re pissing me off. SHE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT THE VIRUS IS OR HOW IT WOULD MAKE ALIENS!!!!!! maybe you should have brought a camera to the arctic. don’t you BRUSH INTO HER SHOULDER AS YOU WALK AWAY!!! you were going to KISS HER like a few weeks ago!!! i won’t tolerate this disrespect. 

CSM is debriefing the syndicate on the arizona alien deaths, saying he made up a cover story and it’s called “blaming it on Native Americans”. classic CSM, world-renowned great guy /s

so, he thinks the arizona guy who gave birth to an alien chest baby accidentally injected himself with the virus, and now the alien is on the loose!!! 

man, the presence of well-groomed man is missed. RIP. this other guy is here, though. so that’s good. i guess.

CSM says he is managing the situation. will he be sent out to test his sniping skills?? can you snipe an alien?

skinner is coming down to see mulder on the computer… NOOO, he breaks the news that his reassignment on the x files has been denied!!!!! 

mulder's all angry, and skinner tries to clarify he’s not arguing with him, but raises the question: “when will you accept that no amount of pressure or reason will bring to heel a conspiracy whose members walk these halls with absolute impunity?” <- ohhh, a very good point…

so they reopened the x files, then denied his reassignment? are they going to assign them to someone else? or just close them again?? will they keep scully on them?

skinner said that the vote was unanimous… he must have been trying not to blow his cover as mulder’s biggest supporter… but i'm sure this still made mulder very sad

so he gets all his stuff up and starts to leave. BUT SKINNER WANTS TO HELP HIM FIND PROOF??? SO HE CAN PROVE THE OTHERS WRONG??

i told you!!!! that man is my uncle.

he says there’s a file on his desk in the old office……. and sure enough, there is.

is this season much darker in terms of screen brightness?

OH SHIT…. why is spender down here in mulder's old office? WITH DIANA??? “diana, back on your feet. i guess that’s the only way you can stab me in the back” <- damn. he's pissed.

woah, what? okay, i was imagining scully staying on the project and spender taking his place, which would obviously be awful, but diana taking his place is like, worse. so now is it going to be spender and diana? instead of mulder and scully? ew.

jump to CSM lighting up in front of a no smoking sign… he’s just fundamentally a bad boy. he’s walking in where some sort of surgery is taking place!!!

he says he needs the patient bandaged and dressed, even though this might kill them. OH SHIT! IT’S GIBSON!!! and he must be in the middle of surgery!!!!!

EAIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THEY HAVE HIS BRAIN OPEN………….

good lord, i nearly passed out. again, i repeat my grounding mantra: shoutout to the props team.

and he was awake, too………..

poor baby. 

AWWWW, THE AGENTS ARE DOWN IN PHOENIX to investigate the case that skinner left them the files on, and scully WILL remind him that they are violating state laws regarding contamination of a crime scene (she lets out a deep scully sigh, asking “why do i bother?��) yeah. idk either queen.

he sees claw marks on the walls!!! that does not look like it came from some bare hands. scully is not fooled by this claim in the evidence report. 

ooooooo, he finds a claw!!!!!!!!

“is that an animal?” “ain’t rupaul” <- LMAO I’M CRYING????????? 

mulder, i knew you were an ally ✊

(listen, both of those agents are bisexual to me. and maybe ace, too. depends on the day. THAT'S MY OPINION!)

(he hands the claw to scully very carefully <3)

feels wrong to see him in what i think is a polo, but it is hard to tell because the screen is so DARK.

oh yeah, let scully calculate the gestation rate of this hypothetical alien baby. under 12 hours!!! damn!! that is… quick. and also? how could a baby do all this, she wants to know? well. some babies are more equipped for violence than others. i guess. 

oh no! CSM IS HERE!! AND POOR BABY GIBSON, BLEEDING THROUGH HIS BANDAGES!!

please someone lay him down and let him watch spongebob. NOW.

gibson announces that "it" (alien baby) isn’t here. and that he knows CSM wants to kill him if he can’t find the creature. poor sweet little dude. they drive off.

mulder emerges into the daylight, and he does, in fact, have a polo on. but he is asking scully why she won’t believe him. MAYBE IT *WILL* TAKE AN ALIEN BITING HER FOR HER TO BELIEVE, BUDDY!!! DON'T RAISE YOUR GODDAMN VOICE AT HER!!

OHHH, SHE GRABS HIS HAND?? “listen, mulder, you told me that my science kept you honest. that it made you question your assumptions; that by it, i’d made you a whole person”

(okay girl, stay with me here now, but i think he meant YOU made him a whole person, not your science…….. but maybe she had to compartmentalize after nearly kissing him)

“if i change now… it wouldn’t be right, or honest” oh, scully <3 he has never deserved you or your kindness...

he’s being a whiny baby. like, i get it, and i understand. they're taking the x files away! and he needs to prove they are correct about aliens! but “i’m sorry scully, but this time your science is wrong” and walking away… 😒 which problem did that solve?

idk!! i see both of their points!!! this fundamental and ancient conflict is once again playing out, but can we focus less on the hows and whys of the situation and more on the “we need to get our jobs back and be bestest friends forever and ever, and also save that missing little boy and find some answers along the way”? please. consider this viewpoint. for me!

oh, let's go off to a nuclear power plant. again, very dark. noticing a theme here. it’s outside arizona. is that where the alien wants to go?

did they call the guy homer as a simpsons reference…? i see what was done here. well, something in the power plant is off. 

don’t send homer loose into the dark!!! the alien will eat him!!! especially while vague splattering noises are heard!!

CREATURE EATS HOMER……….

agents mulder and scully are on the scene. but so is spender!!!

UGH, he’s so ANNOYING: he basically says “i’m gonna get skinner censured for telling you some guy was murdered, now LEAVE” SPENDER!!! you are PISSING ME OFF!! 

(it made me think of that line from sharkboy and lavagirl: "mr. electric, send him to the principal's office and HAVE HIM EXPELLED!" <- that's what your whiny ass sounds like, spender)

and diana won’t let them in either, saying that it was "just a work accident". oh, so much for caring about the x files, huh? like you claimed in the last episode. you sound REAL invested now /s

scully gets him to come back to the car after he spits some venom at diana (“i hope you know whose errands you’re running”).

however, he says to give him the keys and tells scully to get in the car, and she gives him the most DIABOLICAL side eye LMAO. she is so suspicious of his shenanigans!!!

OH MY GOD, THERE WAS A REASON FOR THAT: SHE FINDS GIBSON IN THE CAR????? he’s out cold and she’s holding his head, calling him “sweetheart” oh my GOD????? 

wait. hold on. i’m emotional. hold on.

they take him to their motel, and she’s trying to smile at him while she trims off his bandages. he IMMEDIATELY READS HER THOUGHTS AND SAYS “frankenstein? really?” and DESPITE KNOWING HE CAN READ HER THOUGHTS, SHE TRIES TO LIE AND MAKE HIM FEEL BETTER.... OHHH, SCULLY

(this is still making me emotional. lying to the kid that can read minds because she doesn't want to hurt his feelings or scare him... knowing that she is the doctor that has to try and make him better, so he cannot know she thinks he looks to be in serious danger...)

he has some infection because they didn’t change his bandages and a fever, ohhhh this poor CHILD

so he ran away when they weren’t thinking about him!!!

scully, do you have antibiotics on you? is that a doctor-ly thing to have in your purse? please fix him. 

OHHH SNAP, HE CALLED HER OUT: “they were using me. because i can communicate with it” “communicate with what?” “you already know. you just don’t want to believe it”

actually such a fascinating narrative choice to have a child psychic call out her own internal lies… he’s too young to blunt his words, so we know they are the truth… getting to see inside what scully truly believes, even if she cannot admit it to herself, through the lens of this sweet angel with his poor infected skull...

(mulder nods his head to the side, indicating to her they must go talk privately)

he wants to take gibson out to find the Creature, but scully says he needs to be in bed under constant medical supervision; he is the evidence for the x files that can prove to the panel that everything they research is real!!

lowkey pissed me off that this boy is suffering in front of them so horribly and mulder wanted to go on an alien hunt.

so, they’re going to sneak him off somewhere. maybe to an alien hunt and then the hospital. but alas, who approaches them in the parking lot?

IT’S DIANA???? she claims to be alone. CAN WE HAVE A BREAKUP LATER???

she tells mulder that she took the assignment to represent his interests, reminds him that THEY found the x files together, and says that they should go find the beast right now. sure. whatever. you go find the beast, let scully doctor the poor boy. whatever. like i care.

he agrees to do just that, which i actually do think is morally wrong, because now scully has to play single mother to this sick boy. what if she gets sleepy and he is stolen from under her, like what happened with diana?

but diana and mulder are off to the nuclear reactor. mulder thinks that maybe the alien baby needs to be warm… maybe to grow?

so scully is with gibson, and he accuses her of only thinking about herself and what she can learn from him. “i’m a very special lab rat”, he says (deep and sad scully sigh)

OHHHH… these two are giving me feelings……….

gibson just wanting to be a normal kid, and scully wanting to take care of this normal kid who is sadly being used for ulterior motives, but also knowing that if she wants to keep her job and prove the x files, that she must test upon him, too... she must have felt so conflicted... and he must have been able to sense that...

meanwhile, mulder and diana are sneaking into a nuclear reactor. i hope they don’t kiss. i don’t wanna see that shit. 

do they have guns? like, good guns? what are they going to hunt the alien with?

he finds a sticky trail… while spooky music plays…. and the wrench from homer (RIP)

bro needs to stop touching mystery fluids.

EUGH he pulls out… guts??? 

but scully calls!!! they found evidence of the virus that she was infected with in gibson’s system!!!

is diana here to just snitch on their progress… with his gut haul…..?

NOOOOO!!! THE DOCTOR APPROACHING GIBSON IS GOING TO HURT HIM??? HE IS KIDNAPPED! AGAIN!!!!!!

SCULLY IS GOING TO YELL AT SOME DOCTORS ABOUT IT!!!!! THREE CHEERS FOR MAMA BEAR SCULLY!!! DON’T TELL HER TO CALM DOWN!!! GO FUCK YOURSELF!!!

the evil guy is taking him away in an ambulance while mulder and diana track the beast. and again, i’d like to know what their game plan is once they find the thing.

gibson is brought to the nuclear power plant as well, being forced around by his kidnapper, who wants to use him to find the alien. and i can barely see what is happening because it is so DARK. 

gibson is being brought into what i think is the nuclear core, where he declares that "it" is here. 

i’m gonna need this gibson fellow to make it through, okay?

mulder is POUNDING ON THE DOOR, telling the evil guy to open it NOW, you SON OF A BITCH!

diana wants to find another way in, maybe, idk, i don’t trust her!!!

AUGH, the alien EATS the evil guy!!! well. deserved, tbh. will the alien please NOT eat gibson, though?

and it seems that diana DID snitch on him??? she pulls her gun on mulder as the cops suddenly arrive??

IT’S TOO DAMN DARK, I CAN’T SEE IF GIBSON WAS EATEN OR NOT!!!

skinner is absent from the hearing in which the agents are being told they must not go near the x files at all, or else they will be immediately dismissed!!! and they are moved to assistant director kersh!!! 

who is this man.....?

i expect mulder to just hand in his resignation papers now.

EW, CSM IS HERE TO SEE SPENDER??? he says he doesn’t want to see him. but CSM congratulates him on handling mulder. and he calls him “son”. 

“simple but extreme solutions” bro is offering to kill him??? no... he says this will not do in such a situation

spender asks if he’s killed men... IJBOL! that is his whole thing, buddy. welcome to this show.

CSM says you cannot kill what a man stands for, unless you kill his spirit. can mulder's spirit be killed?!?!

mulder is back to investigating the scraps of paper from the x files. “it would help if you’d shut the door; it’d make it harder for them to see that i’m totally disregarding everything i was told” <- LMAOOOO

oh scully, always pushed to the side in his mad ahab quest: “everything we were told, mulder” <- YEAH, YOU TELL HIM!!!!!!!!

she thinks that diana is throwing him under the bus (her report makes no mention of gibson!! and lies about the body they found!! also, i think she literally pulled a gun on him when the cops rolled up??), but he INSISTS that she is doing this out of the goodness of her heart 

“and though it may not say it in her report, diana saw it too. and no matter what you think, she’s certainly not going to go around saying that just because science can’t prove it, it isn’t true” 

wait hold on… i’m emotional… that was so mean… why am i genuinely tearing up…?

scully just wants him to trust her…. and he won’t take her files, because he's being stubborn, but they are literally TEST RESULTS that prove his theories to be true……..

the claw matches the DNA from the virus and the DNA from gibson…. 

if it’s true, that means everyone is a little bit of an alien?? oh scully…. look at her…….. sciene geek...

back at the nuclear power plant, it’s GIBSON!!!!! he sees the alien going for a swim in the nuclear water!!!!! yucky. 

it’s hatching………… oh.

the end.

man.

i don’t know if i’m emotional on this fine evening, but i nearly cried at mulder disrespecting scully. how can you say that about someone, that they make you whole, and keep you honest, and then treat them like that? how can you just toss her to the side the minute someone else says what you want to hear?

like. what the fuck! i can’t tell if this is purposeful character development leading up to something or if he is truly being an awful guy. how can he go from trusting her with everything he is- his life and even his death, over and over again- to having a hissy fit because she can't prove the virus was alien? it's not like SHE is the one taking them off of the assignment! she is not the corrupt government! in fact, she knows better than anyone the reality of the corrupt government, considering they 1) KILLED HER SISTER and 2) TRIED TO KILL HER WITH TERMINAL CANCER THAT DAMN NEAR SUCCEEDED?

shakes my fist angrily… i think scully should get to bite him.

she NEVER blows up at him!! even when he deserves it!!! and he has!! a million times over!! but she doesn’t!! it’s his stupid alien nonsense that got her sister killed and nearly killed her!! why does he act like he is the only one who can see some bigger picture?? oh wisest of all men, mulder, enlighten us with your alien theories??? bitch!!! if i was scully, i would have had enough!!! i would need a break from him!!! i would take that reassignment!!!

okay, maybe i’m just really angry tonight. BUT I HAVE A RIGHT TO BE! we were making such good progress in the “telling your best friend you love them” department, that i truly cannot stand this!! you tell him anything he wants to hear and he’ll eat it up!!! sure, sure, this lady that you used to date CONVENIENTLY wants to save the project you just got kicked off of after dedicating your whole life to it. (heavy on the /s) BRO??? LET’S USE A LITTLE BIT OF COMMON SENSE.

grrrr, i’m actually gonna GROWL. i don’t CARE about your inner man angst, you HAVE TO BE NICE TO YOUR FRIENDS!!! she LOVES you and you LOVE HER, so you ought to ACT LIKE IT.

and they took my uncle skinner away from me…

oh, i just know that if i had seen this when it was airing, i would be SPITTING MAD!! i’d be on those discussion forums saying NASTY things!!!

man. i still feel angry.

scully and gibson…. she wants to keep him safe, but also wants to prove her theories, and he suffers because of it… poor baby… how she held his unconscious head, calling him sweetheart; how she screamed at the doctors who ignored her…. god…

see, normally i’d say “give them both a baby”, but right now i’m mad as hell at mulder, and he does not deserve baby privileges.

poor gibson… i hope he makes it out of that nuclear reactor.

also. spender. the most pathetic nepo baby of all time. is he not at all suspicious about why his absent father is suddenly making a reappearance? hello? and the way he just pushes people around with his newfound power? do you think CSM will just use him and then discard him like he does everyone else????

wow. much to contemplate. for now, i must sleep off my rage. stupid mulder in his stupid polo…

spender and diana are literally scully and mulder from shein.

[angeldeviloshi]

Thinking about the soundtrack used in the trailer and the double visual again. And I still like to think of the piano and the cafe visual to be like the movie in Reze's perspective and the actiony parts/CSM visual is what the movie/story is supposed to be for the viewer as a Chainsaw Man story.

Esp when thinking back to the teaser too. The piano track is used there too to show the tender moments between Reze and Denji but also to show Reze herself, the enchanting melancholy behind it.

The premise that Reze presents as a grounded boy meets girl teen romance shared with Denji vs the thrilling fast-paced action drama of the Chainsaw Man fighting his enemies. That Reze isn't even shown to transform into the Bomb Devil keeping her identity as the cafe girl Denji meets and the Bomb Devil he fights separate.

Like just thinking about the opening of the trailer even with Makima at the movie date. And playing with the thought of "Whose love story is this?"

Because Denji is the protagonist, the default perspective is that Denji is caught in a love triangle between two girls he's attracted to, who may be interested in him. The music reflecting the innocence of his adolescent puppy love.

But we can also hear the track as a reflection of Makima's yearning for Pochita encased in Denji. We can hear the track in Reze's hope as she blends into Denji's innocence herself for this setting. The atmosphere of "normal".

Before the ominous drop into the loud, dangerous adrenaline of the explosions and the chainsaws, the acceleration in the tension and excitement that mimics the crescendo of a beating heart in love consumed by the violent imagery representing both hybrids in their conflict.

ITS A GOOD TRAILER.

Also the shot at the start with the coffee pot as Reze poses the country mouse and city mouse question. :)))) The context of bitterness :))))

[fandaniel]

Coming back w another csm question but what arcs/plot points were the most effective for you? Whether just for aki or in general :)

lord its hard to pin point because i think chainsaw man as it is is really effective in its writing to make a strong narrative that i cant really think of a point in the story where i was like yawn. boring. who care. maybe like the first two fights in the manga that were one to two pages long i thought were sorta not that interesting but it still meant something. you know. maybe also just get rid of himenos whole character ANYWAYS.

my favorite arcs in order

1. current arc with the devil hybrids is so fucking cool im sorry maybe its recency bias but DAMN

2. control devil arc is just the most exciting and impactful finale, holy shit. i think about “would your perfect world have no bad movies” “no, it wouldnt” “i guess i have to kill you then” often (not the exact quote but ya know)

3. justice devil arc with the new info in the recent arc also i love teenage girls hanging out and being outcasts together. love you asa.

4. gun devil arc its so short but the way it rips my heart out everytime. the domestic life to a spiral downward….

5. bomb girl arc i cant put it into words but its so…. nature vs nurture and she wants to nurture despite everything.

THANK you. the rest are in different placements i just think these 5 are my favorites and i dont count the first few chapters introducing denji as a arc.

[tfw-no-tennis]

csm 133 thoughtz....

I realized today that I read this every week and i love liveblogging so why not combine those two things. wow

I'm loving the completely objective signs that state factual things such as ‘not human’ and ‘chainsaw devil,’ thank you for those, chainsaw man protestors lol

yoshida let denji out of the yaoi dungeon?! interesting

‘I'm a good boy’ denji ily 

I loooove all of denjis delayed reactions to things lmfao

I feel like denji fr has brain damage from all his head trauma and lobotomies lol its like in the john wick movies how he gets less coherent as they go on bc, imo, he’s gotten so many concussions that by the 4th one he can barely talk

really like the panel of denji and yoshida sitting calmly and all the anti and pro csm people are clashing in the background. 

especially w/denji saying he kinda likes people fighting over him...but none of them realize that denji, sitting right there, is chainsaw man. poetry bro

oooh, getting political. I do (sometimes) love like, anime superpower’d world politics. it can be well done

love how vastly different yoshida and denjis priorities are 

like, yoshida is playing 5D chess and denji just ate a rock he found on the ground. and I don't mean this derisively for denji, its good that his priorities are nayuta et al

‘you no longer have sole control over chainsaw man’ is interesting. denji - chainsaw man - is becoming a figure beyond denji and chainsaw man himself. the IDEA of him is being used almost more than csm himself

oh damnnnnnn 

yoshida literally w/the ‘quit your job’ ‘what’ ‘join my emo band’ bit. except he doesn’t even offer to let denji join his band smh. I KNOW yoshida has an emo band just look at him

denjis facial expressions are the best lmao

YOSHIDA THATS FUCKING DARK GODDAMN 

I'm not shocked tho. he’s so sketchy!!!! I seriously STILL cant pin down what his deal is. whose side is he on!? what's his agenda, personally?!

damn. simplistically put, yoshida is kinda right. denji can live a normal life if he stops being chainsaw man voluntarily 

EXCEPT NO, because the apocalypse would still be happening or whatever, and denji is all fucked up and traumatized, and integrating with the ‘normies’ isn't gonna work as well as hanging out with weirdos and freaks like he’s currently doing

speaking of, WHERE is asa I miss her:( 

lmfao @ yoshida being like ‘ill be your friend if you quit being csm denji!!! I prommy!’

loooove those panels of yoshida describing what denjis ‘normal life’ could look like, over background of protestors fighting

DENJI ILY............

again with the 5D chess vs eating a rock. denji is so great because he’s so straightforward. he wants everyone to pay attention to him and fight over him!!!! he likes the attention, positive and negative, he gets as chainsaw man!!! he’s not too proud or ashamed to admit to that - he’s not the type to even attempt to be modest and pretend that he’s only chainsaw man to help people...if anything, that's a side effect of the rest of the deal

and to denji its simple: he doesn’t want to stop being csm, and he also doesn’t want nayuta to be killed. c’mon yoshida get with it

yoshida telling denji to be selfless, essentially...lmao bro who do you think you’re talking to

denji CAN be selfless but This Is Not The Way To Achieve That

HE CHOOSES BOTH. BOTH OPTIONS. lmao I love him

also I really question public safety’s ability to hold nayuta captive. js. 

denji trying to assemble the protestors to kill yoshida lmaoooooo

oh yep lmao there she is

OH AWWWWW they’re so cute uhghhhh I’m so glad they reunited

love her pose when she’s calling for denji. weirdgirlcore

I will say I’m still wary of nayuta...I feel like the story is purposely vague about her morals - like last chapter with her telling her classmates to give her their desserts - where’s the line between typical amoral tween behavior and like, not valuing human life? im excited to see more of her tho

yoshida w/some HILARIOUS facial expressions

nayuta not swearing lmaooooo

I wonder if yoshida thinks that denji agreed to his terms lol

we haven’t seen basically any of public safety this part...I wanna know how its been going there. is kishibe still involved???? did kobeni rejoin lmaoooo

the fact that they’ve had such little presence makes me think they’re pretty powerless. I wonder if their threat against nayuta really holds any weight

yoshida at the end hahaha ‘did he not understand me?’ dude I’m telling you hes playing -2D checkers MAYBE. this is the guy who recently lobotomized himself rather than face his trauma. plsssss

great chapter and I’m excited to read more as always. I wonder if we’ll catch up with asa next...

[sainnie]

I. About her.

Name: Saira Adelaine Zephyra.

Age: 20+

Pronouns: Any pronouns.

Zodiac: Cancer.

MBTI Cognitive: INFJ-T.

Falls in sexual spectrum: Unlabeled.

Face claims: Danielle NWJNS, Isa STAYC, Giselle AESPA, Yunjin LSRFM, Power CSM, Fischl and Sucrose GENSHIN.

Others: Hanni and Hyein NWJNS, Sumin STAYC, Chaeyoung TWICE, Hutao, Nana, Alice Knox, Lucy Kaneshiro, Fem! Venti.

You might come across a faraway land and find her, sitting by the dock with pencil and drawing book on her hands. A proclaimed artist that loves to paint tranquil scenes or ambience, draw funny/inanimate objects, and many types of art. She is an art student, not a prodigy so she obtains and enhances her skill by devoting herself to an art school and she is currently in her twenties. She enjoys classic movies, iconic memes, and ungodly humor. Doing feminine things is also what she’s good at.

As a lover, the artist named Saira, gets excited over little things that her lover does. She throws daily mundane or not-so theoretical questions because she has a very big will to know everything and anything about her lover, the world, and scapes. Not only an artist, she’s also a wordsmith in which she laces heart-felting for her lover and gives them all the special treatment they need. Plus, she’s always down to do fun stuff you want to do together with her, no hesitances needed when you want to request her to accompany you working/doing something you’re delighted to execute. Then, because she is irresistibly touchy, she loves to give you hugs, head pats, or gentle kisses (there is no in between!). To conclude, she possesses WOA, AOS, and PT as her three main love languages.

She finds herself capable in understanding her lover’s emotions, she’s witty and quick to tell jokes or act funny around her loved ones. Once she’s comfortable with you, she will be a little too shy to express i love you ‘s so she instead speaks in sarcasm although she doesn’t really mean it. Her love has no limit, she’s down to any kind of tropes: may it be love-hate or lovey-dovey. But, she draws the line to toxic relationships.

The animal that describes her best when she spreads affection to her partner is a bunny! Giddy, can’t seat still, fierce, cuddly, and warm. She is a loving person who takes care her lover the best and tries hard to give her lover the love they deserve to receive. Of course, let’s not forget what she loves to receive from her partner. Sai is someone who will cherish and forever keep in heart her lover’s gift (it takes in any kind of form, she doesn’t mind). Love letters, sketches, flowers, and more adorable slash romantic things are remarkable in her view. Next, she loves spending her leisure time with her lover even when they don’t have any plans to do or whatsoever. “It’s lovely how we cherish each other’s presence through silence and nothings. As long as you’re with me, I’ll still be merry,” she quoted. Lastly, because she agrees to the idea of her having a sensitive heart, words would affect her best. Specifically, when it’s moving for her. Henceforth, what she loves to gain from her partner are RG, QT, and WOA.

Her role as a sister or as a warm friend is much more flexible and adjustable. Just like what girls do towards her friends, specifically her closest ones and her loved ones, she will compliment/ hype them a lot. She is not afraid in telling what’s good or bad for her friends (she can be quite blantant) and she loves to give advices too. she doesn’t sugarcoat very much, but if her sister or girl friend needs it conveyed sweet, she will be extra careful to not hurt the other party’s feelings. Of course, what else does a girl like if not to sin? Saira is the type of friend who enjoys gossiping while she picks an outfit for her friends or recommends good store to thrift/buy an outfit for a pal. She is down to smoke, chill while drinking, and perhaps strolling around the city? Thanks to her capability in comforting someone and observant personality, she’s easy to adapt and quick to study a friend’s personality.

She doesn’t mind with cat fights, especially it often occurs between siblings regardless of their gender. Love-hate relationships between siblings is what she is good at, additionally because her natural tendency is to pick on her siblings and act goofy around them. As a friend, she can also do the same but will be more laidback.

[paeonie-s]

genuinely so emo abt the fact that i have friends who want to do stuff w me now omg

[i-just-want-to-destroy]

thoughts on goodbye eri?

This is gonna be an essay.

// Spoilers for Goodbye, Eri and Fire Punch

You know when you can tell that a creator is obsessed with certain themes because they keep showing up in their works?

Fujimoto plays with metaness in his stuff by acknowledging (and even teasing!) the need for catharsis. Not in a gotcha! way, though. His characters talk about story structure playfully—what makes a story satisfying, what makes a story good, what makes a story cathartic—but they aren't making fun of it. They don't look down on it, you know what I mean? Even the shock values and cliches are embraced. It’s clear to see that his characters (and most likely the author himself) genuinely love movies and stories. 

I’ve talked about this before, but one of the recurring themes in Fujimoto’s stuff is perception. The fluidity of identity depending on what other sees—and particularly what other want to see—in you. In Fire Punch and Chainsaw Man, both main characters lack agency in their own identity; they become what others want them to be. 

CSM’s ending is still up in the air since Denji’s story is not yet complete and I’m excited to see how they’re going to resolve that. Fire Punch, on the other hand, ended on a pretty fucked up note with its protagonist losing his sense of self completely. Just like Denji, Agni became Fire Punch; people worshipped him for it, he was a hero for it ... and at some point in the story, he casted the title away and chose to become “himself”. And yet that was ultimately taken from him. 

But I think in Goodbye, Eri Fujimoto got kinder about this. Eri wants to be filmed by Yuta because she likes how Yuta sees other people with his camera. She wants to be filmed by Yuta because she wants herself to be remembered by how Yuta sees her.

She ultimately wants to see what Yuta sees in her, and wants others to see it too. It’s her choice. She has agency in her identity. 

Of course it’s idealistic. There is still some level of unfairness/selfishness there. You don’t get to choose to see how you’re seen and filmed. You don’t get to choose which parts of you get edited out of the cut and which parts of you are kept in the movie. Eri doesn’t get to choose that because she never sees the final movie in the end. What other people see of you—the memories they own of you—is out of your control. That’s just how it is. 

And maybe that’s okay. Maybe we should accept that. After all, isn’t that just love? Choosing to remember your loved ones beautifully even knowing all their ugly parts?

This manga fucked me up, man. In case you can’t tell.

There is also an analysis that could be done about shock value in Fujimoto’s stuff that I’m not smart enough to do. Some of the shock values he does are extreme enough to be in bad taste, or at least in dark humor. This scene in Goodbye, Eri encapsulates that. 

It’s improper to make light of tragedy, such as the death of a loved one. It’s likely that Yuta does this to cope with his mother’s death, but I don’t think there needs to be a justification for that. Shock value is like ... a story strings you along and then the rug is pulled under you and then you’re there facedown on the floor not knowing whether to laugh or cry. Okay. Why not choose to laugh, then? 

People argue that shock value negates the entire story it’s been building up and makes cheap of its audience’s emotions. But I think it makes more sense to see shock value as a part of the package. I mean, sometimes real life make your emotions feel cheap, no? Sometimes it’s not all tidy, and you don’t always get a complete resolution. Consider that the story means to do this. And maybe you will find catharsis in that. 

Still, it isn’t for everybody. There is a montage of Yuta’s audience criticizing his movie for its fucked up, tasteless ending. But then Yuta finds Eri, his one audience who finds catharsis in his film and loves it enough that she wants Yuta to make another one. And isn’t it all worth it, if there is at least one person who can connect with your story like that?

It wouldn’t. But damn it. He really did get into my problems and made me laugh and cry.

[babyjakes]

forever and a day | 42. the big day.

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summary | a story in which america’s favorite captain gives a new life and family to a five-year-old girl who has suffered well beyond her years at the hands of hydra.

characters | dad!steve rogers, girl/willa rogers (original character)

warnings | AU similar enough to OU to include spoilers to many Marvel movies (Age of Ultron and beyond). action and fight scenes with violence and killing. injuries/mild gore. mature themes related to and semi-graphic depictions of child abuse/neglect, past CSA and CSM, and their aftermath (emaciation, wounds, scarring, etc). medical abuse and experimentation. ptsd/trauma symptoms in a child (developmental discrepancies, de-humanized behavior, detachment, extreme fears). medical treatment of CSM and other aftermath of abuse.trauma-informed therapeutic treatment of ECT. minor mentions of disordered eating. themes relating to abuse of power/authority and immoral interrogation tactics including SA (with brief depictions.) evil!Tony Stark.

[Steve]

It’s now been a week since solidifying our moving plans, and the past seven days have been hectic, to say the least. Between various store runs, trips back and forth between the tower and the apartment, painting walls, building furniture, decorating, and all the rest, it sort of feels like I’ve barely had a chance to catch my breath. It’s been good, though. Building a place for Willa and I to truly begin our lives together as a family has been full of excitement and anticipation, and I can’t wait to show her the home I’ve worked so hard to create for the both of us.

“I know I’ve probably said this a thousand times already, but we’re really gonna miss having you here,” Wanda sighs softly to me as I enjoy my last cup of coffee in the tower’s kitchen. Walking up to me, the girl wraps an arm around my shoulder; with almost heavy limbs, I hug her back, a bittersweet feeling rising in my chest.

“We’ll come back and visit plenty, I promise,” I tell her as she pulls away. The teen’s wide eyes look up into mine, and I know my words do little to ease her heartache. “And you can come stay with us, too,” I remind her, “any time you want, kiddo. We’ve got a bed in the spare room for you and Pete, each.”

“I think this is going to be really good for her,” Wanda tells me seriously, shifting the topic of discussion slightly. I nod, relieved to hear that she thinks so. “The transition may take a while, but she deserves a home. A real home, like what you’ve made for her.”

“Hey, glad you didn’t take off before I got the chance to say goodbye,” a new voice calls from the entrance to the hallway. Clint walks over to where Wanda and I are standing, an unusual hint of sadness hidden in his expression.

“Wouldn’t dream of it,” I assure him casually as he gives me a side-hug, patting my back over my shoulder. “Gonna miss you, pal,” I admit sincerely.

“Yeah, well, you and Buck better not party too hard over there,” he jokes back. “You gotta bring all the fun over here when you come visit.”

“Which will be often!” Wanda chimes in, and I smile, nodding at her. The elevator bell rings from across the room and the two metal doors slide open to reveal Natasha, Bruce, and Thor.

“Captain! Your big day has arrived,” Thor’s strong voice booms through his smile as the trio walk over to join the rest of us in the kitchen. “A grand new adventure awaits you and the little one. I must admit, it’s sad to see you go.”

Nat’s eyes catch mine, and in the faint streaks of light shining down on the quiet woman’s face, I think I can see a thin line of tears forming. I set down my coffee mug on the counter, pulling my friend into a hug. She squeezes me tight and whispers in my ear, only for me to hear, “This place is really gonna suck without you.”

“I’ll miss you too, Nat,” I tell her gently. She smiles at me, her happiness for me and Willa shining through her grief. Looking up at the rest of my friends, a question pops into my head. “Where’s Tony?” I ask, noticing he’s the only one missing besides Peter, who I know is playing with Willa in her room.

“Oh- right. Tony, uh… he left, actually. Went out for the day,” Bruce stutters me, catching me by surprise. “Early this morning. I don’t think he could handle the… the goodbye,” he finishes. The news hits surprisingly hard, even though the two of us haven’t talked at all since I announced that Willa and I would be moving. I don’t know what I expected our farewell to look like, but I was at least counting on it happening. “I’m sorry Cap,” Bruce adds, sensing my disappointment.

“That’s alright,” I manage to say after a moment, trying to collect my thoughts. “I get it; goodbyes are tough.”

“I’m sorry, Steve,” Nat shakes her head.

“He should be here,” Wanda adds softly, a look of disappointment falling over her face. An uncomfortable hush falls over the group as I sigh, not sure what to say.

After several more moments of complete silence, Clint clears his throat, offering an attempt to lighten the mood. “Well, I can’t stand the thought of either of you being away for too long, so… how about you join us for dinner sometime next week?” he offers. The others nod and smile at this suggestion in agreement.

“Sure thing,” I chuckle, trying to relax back into the conversation. “I’m sure Willa and Peter will be happy to play again so soon, too.” At the mention of the kids, the looks around the group instantly turn to saddened smiles full of sympathy.

“I honestly think this is gonna be the hardest on Pete,” Bruce admits, and the rest seem to agree with him. “He loves Willa more than anything.”

“She loves him, too. A whole lot. I’ll have to talk to him about planning a slumber party or something soon,” I reply.

“Well, Cap, we should probably let you get things rolling with Willa,” Nat says sadly. I nod, taking a deep breath through my nose. I’ve already discussed with the group that I’d like to leave with the little girl in private, just for the sake of not overwhelming her with goodbyes. That’s why throughout the morning, everyone has taken a moment to go see her and say farewell. What Nat means now is that everyone should retire to their rooms to give us the privacy of departing independently.

“You’re probably right. Thank you guys, for everything,” I nod, looking around and connecting gazes with each member of my wonderful group of friends. “Willa and I both love and appreciate you all very much. And we look forward to seeing you again soon.”

“We love you, Cap,” Wanda whispers softly, a tear rolling down her cheek. And without another word, they all turn and slowly begin to walk away, disappearing into the hallway.

Taking a moment to rest in the quiet, I glance down at my coffee mug, pouring out the rest down the drain before rinsing it and placing it in the dishwasher. As I rise back up from bending over, I catch a glimpse of my reflection in the window, and what I see makes me smile. All of my life, I’ve wondered who I was. What sort of purpose I had. What I was made for. Before, and even after the serum, I would look at myself in mirrors and reflections and not like what I saw. I would see a lost man, forever searching for his identity. I never became that perfect soldier I always dreamt of being, and after that, I wasn’t sure there was a place in the world for me at all.

But now, through the window, I see someone new. Willa’s dad. And in my fleeting moment of reflection, I realize something very important: with a title like that, I couldn’t be more satisfied or proud of what my life has turned out to be.

“You got this,” I whisper to myself, to that man in the reflection. And deep within myself, for maybe the first time in my life, I truly believe it.

After lingering for a few more moments, I finally decide that I’m ready. Exiting the kitchen space, I make my way over to the hallway, taking the familiar walk down the long row of doors until I reach the very last one on the left. At this point, everything has been moved into the apartment. I didn’t want to worry about carrying any bags or boxes at this stage, considering the fact that this could very well be quite a difficult time for Willa. Though she’s excited, I know the change has also sparked some anxiety within her, and I want to be able to give my full attention to making the process as comfortable as possible for her.

Leaning an ear against the door, I expect to catch some laughter or chatter. But to my surprise, I’m only met with silence. Knocking gently against the solid wood, I twist the knob and push the door open; the sight before me shatters my heart into a million pieces.

On top of Willa’s plush yellow comforter, Peter sits quietly, cradling the little girl in his arms. Tears are running down both of their faces, and the child’s hands are clinging to the teen’s grey t-shirt tightly, knuckles white. Upon my entrance, Peter glances up at me, an indescribable amount of pain written all over his face. He turns his head back down to face Willa, brushing her messy brown hair back behind her ear. “I promise, Willa, I-I promise,” the boy tries, desperation dripping from his words. “He’s not bringing you to a lab… it’s an apartment, remember? It’s just like a house… Cap would never bring you b-back to a place like that, ever.”

“Hey, hey- what’s going on, you guys?” I hum in concern, bending down while approaching the two at the side of the bed. At first, when I saw Peter and Willa crying together, I just figured they were having a hard time saying goodbye. But after hearing what Peter’s trying to convince the little girl of, my worries go much beyond simple separation anxiety.

Reaching out a gentle hand, I carefully set it on Willa’s shoulder; in response, the frightened thing cowers under my touch, curling herself into her friend’s arms. While I was expecting a certain level of fear from Willa, I must admit, I wasn’t anticipating this strong of a reaction. Looking back over this morning, I now regret not spending more time with her up until this point. She’s just been clinging to Peter, which I didn’t think anything of. But now I’m starting to see that maybe she was needing more of my attention and care all along.

“Willa, honey, what’s wrong? What’s all this about a lab? There’s no lab, sweetheart. We’re going home today, remember? Today’s the day I’m taking you home,” I coo, hoping to ease the little one’s fears.

“P-please,” she whimpers into Peter’s shirt, her soft voice muffled by the light grey fabric. “No lab, don’t take me back, please.” My heart breaks at her fears; I had no idea she was thinking like this.

“No one’s bringing you back, Willa-bug. You and I are going to go live in our own house, sweetie, that’s all. A nice house all to ourselves, with a kitchen, and a living room, and lots of space to play. There’s no lab, doll,” I try, but my words seem to be doing little to help.

“Y-yeah, it’s just a house, Wil,” Peter adds, running his finger through her hair. “Steve and some of the others spent this whole week working on it. I bet you guys are really gonna like living there,” he encourages. But no matter what the boy and I say, I worry there may be no way to prove anything to Willa. Her fears are just so deep-rooted; proving them wrong might be the only true way to eliminate them.

“Do you wanna see some pictures?” I ask, pulling out my phone. While the original plan was to keep everything a surprise for the grand reveal, clearly the more important issue at hand is convincing the child of her safety. Quickly scanning my thumb, I open up my gallery, tapping on the first photo I see. “Look Willa, here’s the front of it. The building’s a nice light blue color. We have our own front door, and a little balcony, too,” I describe. Willa keeps her head buried into Peter’s chest, but he gently pulls her away, trying to get her to look. At this, she struggles against him, craving the shield of his embrace.

“Look Willa, there’s a flower box and everything. You guys can have a little garden in there,” Peter comments; eventually, the child’s eyes catch a glimpse of the screen, and she pauses in her struggle, peering warily over at the image.

“That’s right, we do have a flower box. We could go to the farmer’s market and look for some flowers this week; how does that sound?” I offer gently. “I know Bucky goes often; we can have him show us around.” Willa doesn’t respond, but her posture has slightly relaxed, which is as good a sign as any. I slide across the screen to the next picture, continuing, “And here’s the living room, right inside the front door. See? We have a nice big couch where we can sit and watch Paw Patrol.” Willa’s eyes remain on the image, and I swipe again. “Here’s the kitchen; we have lots of room to cook and bake. The cabinets used to be dark, but we painted them white. I like them a lot better now; they match the dining table.” The little girl looks up at me, then back down at the screen.

“N-not a lab?” she asks warily.

“No, sweetheart. It’s a home. Our home,” I promise her. Seeming a little bit more comfortable with the idea now, she turns and looks up at Peter.

“And I’ll come see you soon, okay?” he tells her. A new wave of sadness washes over her face at this. “A-and we can video call whenever you want, just like Steve showed you. On our little TV’s; all you gotta do is ask.”

“Clint already invited us over for dinner next week,” I tell the pair with a slight chuckle. “So it won’t be too long before you see each other again.” Willa reaches a tiny hand up and places it on Peter’s cheek, her big green eyes filled with tears.

“Best f'iends forever,” she tells him quietly.

“Best friends forever,” Peter repeats back, placing a hand over hers. “I love you, Wil. Very much. I’ll see you again soon.” Slowly, their hands fall away, and Peter turns back to me, tears built up in his eyes as he holds out the little girl to me. I welcome her into my embrace, and the teen stands up from the bed, taking one last glance at us as he swallows a lump down his throat. “Steve,” his voice comes out low. Connecting my gaze with his, I nod. “Please, t-take care of her for me, okay?”

Heart swelling at his simple request, I nod again, vowing, “I promise, Peter. She’s safe with me.”

Nodding, a tear slips down the precious boy’s cheek as he mumbles a final farewell before turning and heading out the door, dragging his feet beneath him. Willa’s eyes stay lingering where he disappeared long after he’s gone.

Clearing my throat, I attempt to regain the little girl’s attention. “Okay, Willa-bug. Should we get going, then?” I ask, glancing around her old room one last time to make sure she didn’t forget anything. The child settles silently against my chest as I rise to my feet, holding her close. Taking a deep breath, I follow the path of the teen who’s now disappeared, exiting the room and beginning the long trek back down the hallway. Willa shakes slightly against me as we walk through the living space one last time, over to the elevator where I press the button and we wait.

“Walking there?” her little voice asks quietly.

“No, not walking,” I say with a slight laugh. “We’re driving there.” I’m just now realizing it, but this is the first time since the airport that Willa’s been in a car. And, both the airport trip and the trip to the safe-house were made without a car-seat available, meaning this is the first time she’ll be taking a proper car ride.

“Driving?” the small child asks curiously.

“Yep. In a car,” I tell her, just as the elevator arrives and the doors slide open before us. Stepping in, I press the button for B1, and the doors close back up again as we begin to drift downward. The ride is silent, only lasting a few minutes, and before I know it we’ve stepped out into the parking garage, surrounded by vehicles of all shapes and sizes. Still holding Willa warmly against me, I make my way down the long row of cars until I reach one of the last few parking spaces at the end, where my own black car is parked.

“Car,” Willa says, pointing.

“Mhmm. This is my car,” I inform her, hitting the button on my key in my pocket to unlock the doors. Carrying Willa over to the back door on the driver’s side, I open it up to reveal the car-seat readily positioned and secured into place. Just as I’m about to place the little girl down in it, though, she begins to shake feverishly in my arms, big tears starting to roll down her cheeks. “Hey, hey-” I fuss quickly, bouncing her lightly against me. “What’s wrong, sweetheart? What’re the tears for?”

“P-please, no,” she begs, her eyes fixated on the car-seat.

“What- is it the car-seat? It’s okay, Willa, this is just to keep you safe while I’m driving,” I explain to her gently.

“Please, wait- n-no,” she whimpers. Bouncing the girl in my arms, my mind starts to race, the amount of distress she’s showing once again setting off alarms in my brain.

“What is it, sweetie? What’s so scary about it?” I ask patiently.

“Please n-not tie me down, please n-no,” she rambles, and finally all the pieces fall together in my head. At first, I thought the issue was that it was just a strange-looking seat, something she might not recognize, but now that she’s mentioned the restraints, her anxiety makes a lot more sense.

“Hey, it’s okay, sweetheart. These are just seat-belts; they keep us safe while the car’s moving. I wear one, too, while I’m driving,” I tell her as I lift the padded straps on the plastic seat, trying to show her that there’s nothing to fear. “Remember we wore them in the jet with Bucky? No one’s tying you down, doll. You’re okay.”

As I continue to hum and coo comfortingly to her, I reach out and settle her down into the seat, my heart aching as she squirms against me. I slide her arms through the shoulder straps, reaching down and finding the buckle between her legs. “P-please,” Willa continues to sob, “p-please, no- d-don’t hurt me.”

“Shhh sweetheart,” I soothe gently, “you’re okay; I’m not going to hurt you. You’re safe, Willa-bug. Always safe with me.” Finishing up the clips, I finally pull my hands away, giving the little girl a moment to adjust to the seat. Her big green eyes stare fearfully up at mine, still flooded with tears; reaching out, I run a hand over her hair gently. “See? Not scary,” I coo.

But instead of repeating it back, the child only squeezes her eyes shut, whimpering out another frightened “please.” My hand trails down and brushes softly against her cheek, but before I can say anything more to try to comfort her, a familiar red glow begins to rise up across her tear-soaked skin.

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[storekn1fe]

Favorites of 2021

Quick overview of my favorite media I read/watched/played this year!

Witch Hat Atelier ⚠️ TW for: sexual assault and harassment, verbal and emotional abuse ⚠️

Witch Hat Atelier is about a young girl named Coco, who accidentially uses forbidden magic and turns her mother to stone. She is taken it by a witch named Qifrey and begins to learn to use magic. Shirahama Kamome is genuinely such a fantastic author and artist. Literally very page of this series is beautiful. The way she handles serious topics is also done very well, in a way that is often not explored in manga. I really can’t express my love for this series adequately, and if you haven’t, I highly recommend you read it. 

Rest under the read more!

Chainsaw Man ⚠️ TW for: heavy gore and violence, pedophilia, grooming ⚠️

Chainsaw Man is about a boy named Denji, who dies and merges his heart with his devil/dog, Pochita. He becomes a devil-human hybrid, and is asked by a mysterious women named Makima to join the Public Safety Devil Hunters. I tried reading CSM late in 2020, but I dropped it after 30 chapters. Later, once the anime got announced, I decided to give it another try, and it quickly became one of my favorite manga. Something about the way Fujimoto writes characters just feels so human, and there are many moments I’m still thinking about, many months after first reading the series. I also read Fire Punch and the one shot Look Back, which were both emotional rollercosters in completely different ways.

Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure parts 5-8 + Purple Haze Feedback ⚠️ TW for: pretty much everything you can think of ⚠️

Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure is an series following various members of the Joestar family and their adventures, divided into (so far) eight parts, with a ninth in development. This year ended up with me getting back into Jojo! I had read halfway through part 5 several years ago before losing interest, but once I heard part 6 was getting an anime, I decided to dive back in and finish the parts I hadn’t read. I think Jolyne is now one of my favorite characters of all time, and I’m really glad I decided to read part 6. I also ended up reading Purple Haze Feedback, and I’m currently slowly reading Jorge Joestar. I’m not sure if I would really recommend Jojo to anyone, but I certainly enjoyed it, and I’m excited for part 9!

I also read Shadows House, several Junji Ito story collections, as well as Sensor, and some continuing and new Shonen Jump series

Oddtaxi ⚠️ TW for: abuse, violence ⚠️

Oddtaxi is about Odokawa, a walrus taxi diver in Tokyo, and the conversations he has with his passengers. There’s so much more to Oddtaxi then that, but I really reccomend just jumping in and watch it. It’s a really well done mystery, and it had really interesting and fun characters. I really can’t say anything anyone else hasn’t said, so I’ll just tell you to go watch it one more time.

Sonny Boy is about a group of middle school students getting mysteriously transported to a strange, deserted world. Things only get stranger as the students attempt to return home. Sonny Boy is a beautifully done anime, with interesting visuals and fantastic visual design. I also really enjoyed how the series didn’t really have much music: it made the scenes with songs that much more impactful. I did find is sometimes confusing, and I think I should probably rewatch to fully get it.

Ranking of Kings ⚠️ TW for: depictions of abelism ⚠️

Ranking of Kings is about Boji, a deaf and mute prince, struggling to become a king with the help of his first real friend, a shadow assassin named Kage. Ranking of Kings has made me cry several times, and only the first 11 episodes are out! All of the characters are really interesting studies of typical fairy tale characters, turning the viewers expectations on their head. I’m so excited for the rest of the season.

I also really loved Paranoia Agent, Vanitas, VIVY, Iruma-Kun, and the second seasons of Magia Record and Dr. Stone. 

Some movies I enjoyed this year include House (⚠️ TW for: blood, nudity ⚠️), an incredibly delightful and surreal haunted house movie, Angel’s Egg, a movie about a young girl protecting an egg in a dystopian landscape, and Perfect Blue (⚠️ TW for: rape, nudity, unreality, blood, stalking ⚠️), a movie about an idol turned actress and her deteriorating mental health.

Arcane (⚠️ TW for: blood ⚠️) was an amazingly animated and written series. Everything, from the plot to the animation to the sound design to the voice acting was done with such care and attention. I really home more western adult animated series are like this in the future! 

Star Trek Lower Decks + Prodigy + Discovery. This was really a Star Trek year! I really enjoyed Season 2 of Lower Decks, and both Prodigy and Discovery S4 are good so far. I also watched What We Do In The Shadows, Midnight Mass, and Squid Game this year.

The Locked Tomb Series (⚠️ TW for: gore, blood, body horror, suicide ⚠️). The Locked Tomb is literally so fucking good go read it right now. Genuinely I have no notes. There’s lesbians, there’s necromancers, there’s horror, there’s space travel, there’s tragady, literally everything I’ve ever needed in a book.

Discworld. I started to slowly read the entire Discworld series this year. My favorites so far are Wyrd Sisters and Guard, Guards, and I’m currently on Moving Pictures. I also read the Haunting of Hill House, which was both terrifying and hauntingly sad. I also reread The Sandman for the first time in several years to prepare for the tv show.

Deltarune. Normally I don’t play any video games outside of Super Tux and Tetris, but I decided to play this when Chapter 2 came out, and I had so much fun. I’m so excited to the rest of the game to come out!

[fulcrumahsokaamidala]

Fan Fic Catch Up: One-shot

Hello, everyone!!! So this is me thanking awesome fanfic writers for their amazing work and all the time they put into their fics. ♥️ I want to recommend spectacular fanfic stories I’ve read since my last spectacular Saturday post! ♥️ Which was last November!!! Saturday spectacular post will resume this Saturday. Will still be tagged as #saturday spectacular fic rec

This is the second of three catch up posts.

Completed multi-chapter fics

WIP fic

One-shots

cook with love (to make food for the soul) by @inlovewithimpossibillity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: ‘I don’t really cook.’ ‘That makes sense.’

An expansion on the beginning sequence of 8x05 within which Oliver takes it upon himself to try and remedy a gap in Mia’s education. The kitchen.

these faultlines in our guard by @alexiablackbriar13 | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Instead of forcing Mia into doing the initiation bell exercise, the Bratva use more extreme measures to try and extract information from Oliver, using his daughter. Mia is left trying to deal with the physical and emotional aftermath of being tortured in front of her father while he dials his overprotective instincts from 10 up to 11.

Viscount Hood’s Return by @hope-for-olicity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Lady Felicity Smoak attends a Yuletide Ball and is surprised to discover Viscount Hood.

A Perfect Holiday Getaway by @blondeeoneexox | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: This fic is just a whole lot of holiday Olicity fluff.

no I don’t hardly know her (but I think I could love her) by vickovac | Brooklyn Nine-Nine | One-shot

Summary: 'I’m in the library doing extra-credit work and you’re working on a term paper due tomorrow’/'you accidentally took my coffee’ 'you really drink that?’/'I took the flyer for the society you were handing out because you’re so pretty but I have no idea what we actually do’ AU

or Amy Santiago, like any normal college student, has a routine. Naturally, her class rival, Jake Peralta, disrupts it…in the best way possible.

Boyfriends From College by Impossibly_Izzy | Brooklyn Nine-Nine & One Day at a TIme | One-shot

Summary: Jake dated two guys in college, but doesn’t realize until he introduces one of them to Amy.

Into the B99-Verse by ThatOneSmolFangirl | Brooklyn Nine-Nine & Into the Spider-Verse | One-shot

Summary: that title was so bad ANYWHO, our favorite boy, Miles Morales, finds himself in the Brooklyn-99 precinct. Him interacting with everyone and generally having a good time. Based off that one tumblr post

Are You Wearing My Shirt? by @green-arrows-of-karamel | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Felicity has a little accident and borrows Oliver’s shirt.

Not The Last Time by CSM | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Post 804. Mia desperately wants to see her mother and there is no stopping her, so Oliver and William accompany her to Bloomfield to see a surprised Felicity and baby Mia.No association with my other season 8 fic

Big Belly Reprieve by @inlovewithimpossibillity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Bored in the bunker waiting for their parents to finish at the gala, FTA head to Big Belly to introduce Mia to the food of their childhood. [Set in 8x06: Reset]

Merry and Bright by @inlovewithimpossibillity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: The 2013 Queen Consolidated Holiday Office Party sneaks up on CEO, Oliver Queen, but if he’s learnt one thing this year, it’s that anything’s possible when he has Felicity Smoak by his side. (For the 'Olicity Holiday Tropes Challenge’ prompt: Office Party)

The Little Green Secret by @green-arrows-of-karamel | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: This is not how Oliver imagined New Year’s Eve was going to be.

A Heart Full of Love by @inlovewithimpossibillity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: With Christmas upon them now, Felicity has to admit that she’s incredibly excited as well to do something other than eat takeout and watch Disney movies with her baby girl. Sharing the Queen’s traditions with them is just another move towards them becoming a more cohesive family and she’ll always be excited for that. [A Christmas morning fic set within my Single Parents AU 'Welcome to Starling Prep Elementary’ around a year later]

sugar and smoke rings by @inlovewithimpossibillity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: He never would have believed the full story if it hadn’t come directly from the lips of the man he trusts most in the world. The legendary vigilantes Green Arrow and Overwatch had a daughter no one knew about?[How Connor meets Mia, pre-s7 flashforwards]

kissing death and losing my breath by fbismoak (midwestwind) | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: “In the grand scheme of things, she figures she’s probably due for a mental break anyway.“Picks up immediately after the end of 2x07.

A Late Christmas Present by @alanna-the-lionheart | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: When Oliver and Felicity’s friends send their wedding gift back to them, the two of them feel quite differently about it. Oliver tamps down his frustrations in an effort to make Felicity feel better, and together, the two of them turn an unpleasant situation on its head.

a father should be great by @inlovewithimpossibillity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Two conversations, thirty years apart. A seven-year-old Felicity and a nine-year-old Mia. Both two scared girls wondering why their fathers are no longer with them. Both seeking the comfort of their mothers.

Everything by WinnieTherPooh | Agents of SHIELD | One-shot

Summary: Jemma tries to reconcile the Doctor of the Framework with her Fitz. Set immediately post-Framework (in a world where the space adventure doesn’t happen, or at least doesn’t begin right away).

hot chocolate conversations by riverwoodhills | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Walter stumbles upon a distraught Oliver being consoled by his Executive Assistant in his office, a hot chocolate being passed subconsciously between them.

open up the door for you by @inlovewithimpossibillity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: A random evening with a little too much whiskey leads to Mia opening up to Connor about where she comes from and a little bit more.

gentle lady, your knight is here ready  by @alexiablackbriar13 | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Set in S2. A collection of missing scenes. The five times Oliver took care of Felicity and the one time she took care of him.

(drop everything) meet me in the moonlight by @inlovewithimpossibillity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Oliver is working late one summer’s night in the mayoral office when a text from Felicity alerts him that everything is not alright with his beautiful, blonde ex-fiancée partner. (or post-s4, Felicity’s trying desperately to deal with the guilt of Havenrock and reaches out to Oliver one night when it’s all a little too much.)

we do, but friends don’t by @inlovewithimpossibillity | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Detective Billy Malone learns many things early on in his relationship with Felicity Smoak but his most important finding is just how close she seems to be with her ex-fiancé, newly appointed Mayor Queen.[a (semi-)outside perspective on olicity, just before the start of s5]

Life was Full of Surprises - and Oliver Queen was the Best One byaponderingcharming | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Set sometime in Season 2. After a rough night, Oliver gets drunk and Felicity is left to take care of him. After some fluff and a heartwarming moment of honesty, Felicity notes a shift in their relationship.

kneel by 101places | Agents of SHIELD | One-shot

Summary: Simmons has a bad reaction to an episode of Doctor Who.

a dance or two to escape the gloom by @alexiablackbriar13 | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Queen Incorporated’s Oliver Queen and Felicity Smoak of Smoak Technologies, rival CEOs, dance with each other at a holiday gala to avoid their exes.

New Year’s Eve by @alexiablackbriar13 | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: William pulls a 5x20 on Connor and Mia, locking them inside the bunker on New Year’s Eve with Indian food and wine. Of course, things escalate.  

Regret by Altum_Videtur  | Star Wars: The Clone Wars | One-shot

Summary: In the aftermath of the Battle of Ryloth, Ahsoka comes to terms with being responsible for other people’s lives. Set right after Storm Over Ryloth.

The Subtleties of Fashion by FrostOnGalway | Star Wars: The Clone Wars | One-shot Summary: Can we all agree that Ahsoka’s first outfit with the tube-top and mini-skirt is terrible for so many reasons? Anakin thinks so, and he’s gonna take a stand against stupid costume designers. The only problem is, how does he do that without hurting Ahsoka? When faced with a crisis of fashion (or most crises, really) the obvious solution is to go to Padmé for help. AKA The story of how Ahsoka gets her new outfit in Season 3. AKA The Fashion and the Arts (of Subtlety) Remix

you put your arms around me (and i’m home) by @inlovewithimpossibillity​ | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: The bunker is filled with people, Mia had been right about that, and there are many faces she recognizes staring back at her in shock but Mia is only interested in one of them.[An 8x10 spec-fic based off of the promo stills wherein Adult Mia meets 2020 Felicity]

no one will win this time by @alexiablackbriar13​ | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Canon divergent from COIE Part 5.Instead of targeting the Paragons, the pissed-off Anti-Monitor sends shadow demons after Oliver’s loved ones. Realizing two of the people Oliver loves most are vulnerable currently out in Bloomfield, dealing with the archer’s death, Sara rushes to protect Felicity and baby Mia, and bring them back to Star City so they can keep them safe.

The Next Right Thing by @inlovewithimpossibillity​ | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: A cabin. A wife. A teenager. A baby. Felicity Smoak is shaken to her core after the events of Crisis but she must come together for her son and daughter now. For Oliver, and for the true reason he sacrificed so much.

Take Your Daughter Into Battle Day by @alexiablackbriar13​ | Arrow | One-shot

Summary: Oliver and Mia are trying to keep her identity secret from the other superheroes as Crisis begins, saying that she’s a Green Arrow from E-20 called Maya. But after their first huge team battle, Barry and Kara quickly notice something is up between them - and the truth unfolds.

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With all the excitement going around over the ten year anniversary of IWTB (and the memes and the gag reel shots and the screencaps, etc.) I kinda wish someone (other than me) would point out that the film’s plot, while an interesting monster-of-the-week episode and a chance to spend a couple more hours with Mulder and Scully was, at best, a misrepresentation of the transgender community or, at worst, blatantly transphobic and homophobic.

The story perpetuates the “his touch made me gay” myth, the old (and disproved) notion that boys who endure sexual abuse by men invariably grow up to be gay. It also infers that trans people will “do anything” to become the opposite gender, including do harm to others, another myth. 

Now before you raise your pitchforks and torches, I am a HUGE fan of The X-Files. I saw this film five times in theaters because I desperately wanted it to make enough money to green-light a third movie (and get a much needed Scully-fix too). But as a gay woman, I was shocked the first time I saw the ending. It felt like such a slap in the face to the LGBT+ community. But I wanted to give it the benefit of the doubt. I told myself that I was the one in the wrong; that I had to be overreacting! My precious X-Files couldn’t be so myopic!

Sadly, it didn’t get better on subsequent viewings and I could find no redemption anywhere in the story. As the film churned toward its inevitable conclusion I would cringe in my seat, knowing what was coming, powerless to course-correct.

This is not to say that gay people or trans people are incapable of murder. The ability to commit a criminal act is not the point, the overused stereotypes are. And this is Chris Carter we’re talking about - the man whose bumbling misogyny resulted in the systematic torture of his female protagonist and culminated in a ham-handed attempt to justify rape by claiming CSM made Scully “pregnant with science.” He may just have been clueless about this subject as well; it wouldn’t be the first time.

Maybe it’s because I grew up with movies like Cruising and Basic Instinct but IWTB hit a nerve back then, and as much as I love Mulder and Scully, the nerve still stings.

[nostalgicphile]

You are right that we can never be sure about anything in The X-Files. That was one of my favorite parts of the series for the first five seasons but after a while it became ridiculous and it led to many problems from a storytelling point of view (there are aliens, there aren't aliens, there are aliens, there aren't aliens and so on). That's why I believe the original mythology should end in FTF/s6 and then they should begin a new, independent chapter where they could start from scratch.

There are very few shows that can maintain freshness for more than six seasons - especially when they are full 21-22 episode seasons. Do you ever consider that Requiem was Episode number 161? Then, there were still two more seasons and a movie AFTER that? I mean, compare that with Breaking Bad, that had a total of 62 episodes. So that fun, keep-the-audience-off-kilter, unpredictable formula worked at first, but tired after so many seasons. The teasing became tired. Scully as skeptic became tired. The X-Files went on too long without changing or evolving in order to maintain freshness.

Of course, the long run doesn’t excuse the bad storytelling. As I’ve said before, Chris focuses on the audience reaction when writing and running the show at the sacrifice of the characters; yet, we the audience are deeply invested in the characters. I don’t think he ever for a second truly considers the impact of Scully’s violation by the CSM or Mulder’s torture when he was tied naked to a chair. He has a clear detachment from Mulder and Scully, regarding them more as characters in a soap opera than people who would do and say things in real life. It’s such a contrast to the way Morgan and Wong write them; they attempt to weave in their personal history, their relationship, their personality quirks, their past circumstances. Chris, however, drops the characters into whatever exciting plot twist he has in mind next - whether it is canonically consistent or not.

[tabulae]

pt 2, the tt anthology

HIHI MISS YUKI I AM HAPPY TO ANNOUNCE THAT I GOT A 98 ON THAT 15PG LAB REPORT AHHHHH ((,: it was v difficult churning That Much microbiology but i’m vvv happy to be on my last week of the sem! i’m gonna finally start reading all the mangas i’ve been interested in (csm, aot, spy x family, horimiya, blue period) and just have time to RELAX ;; BUT ALSO AGAIN CONGRATS ON YOUR ADMISSION IM SO PROUD ((,: here is a celebratory cat video hehe

speaking of jjk. what da HELL was ch147 like???? WHAT WAS THE REASONNNN😭 istg akutami just pulls names out of a hat & is just like “them. that is who will die next” 😭😭 but GOD WHEN THE HIDDEN INVENTORY ARC GETS ADAPTED IM GONNA LOSEEEE MY MIND like is it so hard for there to be happiness in the jjk world💔 i just wanted SSS to be happy 😞

AND AHHHHHH THE KNY MOVIE!!! update i actually saw it again in theaters and man ;-; i cried more than the first time ;-; i literally wish i could talk about everything i loved in the movie but i don’t wanna spoil anyone sodnkd maybe i’ll send in another ask separately lol but THE SOUND DESIGN WAS SOOOOO GOOD i got such intense chills listening to the soundtrack! and AKAZAAAAAA AND RENGOKU💔 please i was on the edge of my seat for the last 30mins… and the flashback with his mom 😭 it was one of the pivotal moments to rengoku’s character & it was done sosoos beautifully in the movie. i literally could just gush about this movie! BUT DID YOU ALSO READ TANJIRO’S STATUS REPORT?? IM JUST CRYING SO MUCH RN LMAO -TT

tt !!! A 98 OMG IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!! CONGRATS!!!! you absolutely deserve the break, please read manga to your heart’s content :”> (BLUE PERIOD IS SO GOOD. SO GOOD. GOD I CRIED AT THE FIRST CHAPTER AND IT TOOK MONTHS TO PICK IT UP AFTER BC IM SO FRAGILE BUT I FINISHED IT) and thank you!!! the cat video is so cute OTL i really want a cat :((((

147 . (and well, 148 now too) is just . i want all the establishment people gone (higher ups, old zenin men + naoya) dfjkvhsdf i apologize for the person i will be when hidden inventory gets animated dsfjk

FR YOU SAID IT??? THERES SO MUCH TO UNPACK WITH THAT MOVIE BUT LITERALLY EVERYTHING WAS STELLAR SKJDVHGSD and yes i read it like . a couple of months ago i think? i cant remember when but i still remember the content JKSDHCS THEYRE SO CUTE OTL

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hihi yuki i literally have nothing important to say besides the fact that i just got my atsumu nendoroid and my Serotonin Levels rn...... 📈📈📈 IS GOING THRU THE ROOF RNNNN HES SO CUTE <//3333 n e ways i hope you are doing well my love, pls take care of urself !!! 

OOOOO YOUR NENDO OMG THATS SO CUTE . atsumu’s so cute . :((( i think at this point of sending (iirc) i was . kinda okay JKDCHS so thank you!! thankfully time off tumblr = more time being productive w other things n i think i already finished 2 books at this point in time

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HIHI YUKI IM FINALLY DONE WITH MY LAST FINAL AND HW ASSIGNMENT ((((,,,: I AM FREEEE!!! (that is until i take my physics 2 class) BUT AHHHHH IM SO HAPPYYYY i hope things are going well for you rn! i miss seeing you on my dashboard! take care my dear💖

HI HI CONGRATS TT !!! you absolutely deserve to rest :”D

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hihi yuki so glad to see that you’ll be posting again soon! i hope things are going well for you~ mini update: i just finished reading horimiya & will be starting csm v soon! kinda scared but i’m hoping for the best 🧍🏻‍♀️ i also picked up some new books including pachinko! i typically read YA so i’m excited to venture out! i remember you recommending the alchemist to me so i would like to read that during my summer break too! i also get my wisdom teeth removed this friday and uh i’m not too excited about that …… at least i’ll have a lot of downtime during my healing process lol & i’m dying to know where you are at violet evergarden lolodjdkdj take your time though!! can’t wait to hear from you soon!!! 💖🥰

thank you! it’s nice to be back, but idt i’ll be as active for my own sanity too KSDJCH my screen time restrictions are all in place to keep me from spiraling and i’m trying (earnestly this time) to build healthier habits for tumblr :”> OOOOOO CSM OMG I WISH YOU LUCK IM STILL SO FRAGILE ABOUT IT . literally binged the whole thing and may need to reread to really ✨feel it✨ but itS SO GOOD

and omg we share the same braincell bc pachinko is on my to-read list dslkfjvhsdf it’s already added to cart n the only reason i havent bought it is bc i ran out of money buying other books SDKJHSD ,, and hhhhh i hope it won’t hurt a whole much :((( manifesting a speedy recovery for you!!!

i’m . slow as can be SDKJCSD i’m at the ep of them w the comet!! there are like 1-2 familiar seiyuu each ep i’m so happy for it HAHA