#whitehead on lip

[cripplecryptid]

Man, turns out u should really listen to ur piercers advice.

[wfhandwatchingtv]

I have a crush on Fionn Whitehead. I wonder how long it’ll last x

[calamarr]

lip line acne is proof god hates us

[meazalykov]

whiteheads

lena oberdorf x esthetician!reader

summary: with an esthetician girlfriend, she can spot anything on your face.

warnings: one suggestive mention

you sit in your cozy esthetician studio, the low hum of the diffuser filling the space with the soft scent of lavender and eucalyptus. 

your eyes flick to the clock, a gentle smile tugging at your lips as you think about your next client—your favorite client, really. 

lena had been so caught up in her recovery from the ACL injury and all the intense training sessions that came with it, that she'd fallen off her usual skincare routine. her skin was still gorgeous, of course—she was lena, after all—but you noticed the subtle changes. the stress, the long hours of practice, the constant travel. all of it was taking its toll in ways that she hadn’t paid attention to, but you had.

so, naturally, when she mentioned feeling like her skin hadn’t been looking its best, you immediately scheduled an appointment for her in your studio. 

"my favorite client needs a bit of pampering," you'd texted her with a wink emoji when she was at bayern’s training ground last week

she responded with an eye roll, followed by a simple, “i’ll be there.”

you hear the soft creak of the door, followed by her familiar voice. 

"is it too late to back out?" obi teases, stepping into the room with that easy, confident smile that still makes your heart skip a beat, even after all these years.

you turn, grinning. "too late. i’m already prepping your skin in my mind."

she chuckles, moving toward you, her hands slipping into her pockets. "i can’t believe you’re making me do this," she says, mock-complaining. however, you can see the glint in her eyes, the way she’s more than happy to let you work your magic on her.

you gesture to the treatment bed. "you’re going to thank me when we’re done, trust me."

after you say that, you reach into the small closet and hand lena a soft, pink, plush robe to change into, one that you've had ready just for her. 

she raises an eyebrow as she takes it, a teasing smirk playing on her lips. "really? a robe? you’re going all out, aren’t you?"

"of course, all of the clients wear a robe because i don’t want their outside clothes on the bed– even though I do wash the sheets after each client," you reply with a playful grin. 

"however.. all of the clients use all of those blue robes that are hanging in the other closet. the pink one I gave you is my personal one– nothing but the best for you."

obi shakes her head but doesn’t argue. she’s used to you doting on her at this point, and honestly, you know she enjoys it. 

without much hesitation, she begins to strip off her t-shirt, revealing the toned muscles of her back and shoulders that you’ve traced with your fingers countless times before. you’d step out the room before this point for every other one of your clients– but with lena there's no need for you to step out or give her privacy—you’ve been together for three years, and this level of comfort is something you've earned together. 

you’ve seen much more of her than this, in much more intimate settings.

as she tosses her clothes aside and pulls on the robe, you can’t help but admire her for a moment. despite the months of recovery, despite the grueling rehab sessions, she still carries herself with that confident grace you love so much. 

she ties the robe loosely around her waist, glancing at you with a small smirk when she catches you watching her. 

"like what you see?"

you shrug playfully, trying to keep your tone casual even though your heart skips a beat. 

"always."

lena chuckles softly, stepping over to the treatment bed, moving with a slight limp that reminds you of all she’s been through with her ACL recovery. she carefully settles onto the bed, stretching out with her leg propped up on the pillow you’ve set for her. 

you lean over, adjusting the blanket around her, making sure she’s completely comfortable before you get started.

“ready?” you ask, your voice soft as you hover over her with your rolling chair.

lena grins, her eyes sparkling with a mix of amusement and affection. “as ready as i’ll ever be.”

with that, the session begins, and you slip into your professional yet tender mode, knowing that this is just as much about relaxing her body as it is about taking care of her skin.

"this feels so weird," she admits with a laugh. 

"i’m used to seeing hannah, not... this."

hannah is the physio at bayern.

"well," you say, stepping closer and brushing a stray piece of hair behind her ear, "this is a different kind of healing."

her eyes soften at your words, and for a moment, neither of you speaks. there’s an unspoken understanding between you—she knows how much you care about her, how you notice the little things even when she doesn’t.

you break the silence first, giving her a playful smirk. "now, lay back, relax, and let me work."

lena raises an eyebrow as she leans back, settling into the bed. "you’re getting bossy."

"only when i need to be," you shoot back, grabbing your first cleanser and starting to work on her skin. 

you begin with the first cleanse, your fingers moving gently over her face, massaging the cleanser in slow circles. "just taking off the surface stuff," you explain as you work, your voice soft but steady.

lena closes her eyes, sighing softly. "this feels... really good."

"good," you whisper, your hands never pausing. 

as you wipe the first cleanser away with a warm towel, you glance at her face—her features are relaxed, her breathing steady. the tension that usually lines her forehead and jaw, remnants of her intense focus on the pitch, has already begun to melt away.

"so, this is what you do every day?" she asks, cracking one eye open, a teasing tone in her voice. 

"you get paid a lot of money just to... touch people’s faces? i could retire from football now and go to school for this."

you laugh softly, moving on to the second cleanse, this one deeper and more targeted. 

"there’s a bit more to it than that, lena."

"uh-huh," she murmurs, clearly enjoying the sensation of your fingers gliding over her skin. "i could get used to this."

"you should," you say, leaning a little closer, your voice dropping a touch. "i mean, i don’t work on my off-days for anyone except for you."

her lips curve into a smile, her eyes still closed. "oh yeah? i feel special."

"you are special." you let the words hang there, simple but true. and for a moment, it feels like the world outside your studio doesn’t exist—just you, her, and the soft intimacy of the moment.

you finish the second cleanse, wiping her face gently with another warm towel. 

"how’s your leg?" you ask as you reach for your next tool.

"better," she says, her voice a little quieter now, a little softer. "you already know that. i’m getting stronger every day."

"i know," you say, your tone filled with pride. "i can see it."

as you prepare for the next step—extractions—you hold up the small metal tool. 

"okay, so... next up are extractions. how are you feeling about that?"

lena’s eyes flick open, and she looks at the tool in your hand, her brow furrowing slightly. "what exactly are extractions?"

"basically, i use this tool to gently press around your pores to get rid of any blackheads, whiteheads, clogged pores... you know, stuff like that."

"and this is... necessary?"

you nod, smiling reassuringly. 

"it’ll make a difference, trust me. but if it’s too uncomfortable, we can skip it and go straight to the enzyme mask and LED light."

lena squints at you, the skepticism clear on her face. 

"how uncomfortable are we talking?"

you tilt your head, considering how to phrase it. 

"it can sting a little, but i’ll be as gentle as possible. and remember, if it’s too much, we can stop."

she eyes the tool again, then finally nods. 

"okay. i’m tough. i can handle it."

you smile, loving her determination. 

"i know you can."

starting with her nose, you gently press the tool against her skin, carefully working around the small blackheads that have appeared. lena winces almost immediately, a small hiss escaping her lips.

you pause, looking at her with concern. 

"you okay?"

she opens one eye, giving you a lopsided grin. 

"yeah, just... didn’t expect it to sting like that."

"we can stop if you want," you offer, setting the sterile tool down momentarily.

lena shakes her head, her competitive nature shining through. 

"no way. i’m not tapping out. finish what you started."

you laugh softly, admiring her grit. 

"all right, tough girl. let’s keep going."

you continue the extractions, moving slowly and carefully, making sure not to cause too much discomfort. fortunately, lena’s skin doesn’t have too many issues—just some whiteheads that you quickly take care of. 

when you’re done, you set the tool aside and wipe her face down with another warm towel.

"all done," you say, smiling at her as you clean up. 

"how was that?"

lena lets out a dramatic sigh of relief. 

"i thought you said you were going to be gentle."

"i was!" you protest, laughing. "you’re just sensitive."

"or maybe you’re secretly trying to torture me," she teases, her lips curving into a playful smile.

"i’d never," you say, leaning down to kiss her forehead. "besides, you survived."

"barely," she mutters, but the smile stays on her face.

now that the extractions are done, you move on to the enzyme mask, smoothing the cool, creamy, raspberry scented, formula over her skin. 

"this part’s the easy part," you tell her. 

"it’ll just sit for a bit while it works its magic."

"finally," lena says, her voice taking on a teasing tone again. 

"something that doesn’t involve pain."

you laugh softly, finishing up with the mask and setting the timer. "well– it will make your skin tingle but here's a fan to blow on your face," you say, stepping back to admire your work. 

“by ‘tingle’ do you mean an actual tingle– or burning?” 

“a small tingle. if your skin starts to burn please say something.”

“oh– i will.” lena whispers with her eyes closed.

as the enzyme mask settles onto lena’s skin, you take a moment to glance at her, admiring how peaceful she looks lying there. her eyes are closed as the fan blows cool air onto her skin.

obi is breathing steady, and she seems to have completely relaxed under your care. the soft, warm light from the lamp above casts a gentle glow over her features.

you set the timer for the mask and move behind her again, placing your hands gently on her shoulders. lena tenses slightly at first, but as your fingers begin to knead into the muscles, you feel the tension start to melt away. you apply just the right amount of pressure, working in slow circles over her shoulder blades, feeling the tight knots that have built up from months of intense training and rehab. 

your thumbs press into the spots just above her shoulder blades, and a soft sigh escapes her lips. you smile to yourself, continuing to massage her, knowing that lena never fully admits how sore or tired she gets, but you can feel it in her muscles—the tightness, the strain. 

you take your time, moving down toward her neck, your fingers expertly working over the base of her skull and into her hairline. with each stroke, you can feel her sink deeper into the bed, her body completely giving in to the relaxation.

“you okay?” you murmur softly, more out of habit than necessity, since you know she is.

lena doesn’t respond, but the soft rise and fall of her chest tells you everything you need to know.

you smile to yourself, convinced that she's on the verge of sleep. continuing your gentle ministrations, you move your hands into her hair, lightly massaging her scalp in slow, circular motions. 

obi loves when you run your fingers through her hair, and you know this will send her over the edge into pure bliss. her head tilts slightly to the side, completely relaxed under your touch.

as you move your hands back down to her neck and shoulders, working out the last bit of tension, you glance down at her face. the breathing in her body has deepened, her lips slightly parted. 

yep, she's asleep. you chuckle softly to yourself, careful not to make any sudden movements that might wake her.

for the rest of the time, you keep your touch light, alternating between massaging her shoulders and running your fingers through her hair. the timer finally goes off, signaling the end of the mask’s set time, but you’re in no rush to wake her. 

she looks so peaceful, so content, that you almost hate the idea of disturbing her. 

eventually, though, you clean the mask off of her face with a soft warm towel. afterwards you press a soft kiss to her temple, and whisper, “babe, time to wake up.”

lena stirs slightly, her eyelids fluttering as she slowly comes back to the present. 

“was i... did i fall asleep?”

you laugh quietly, running your fingers through her hair. 

“yeah, you did. i think i’ve got some magic hands.”

she chuckles softly, still half-asleep, her voice drowsy. “you really do.”

"you look amazing already." you admire her glowy skin.

"i always look amazing," she quips, but there’s a playful gleam in her eyes as she glances at you.

you grin, rolling your eyes. "humble as ever."

"i learned from the best," she shoots back, smirking.

you prep the LED light therapy, getting everything ready for the final step. after you set the timer on the LED, you gently put safety eye covers on obi’s eyes before guiding her head beneath the LED light. 

the soft red glow fills lena’s vision through the safety eye cover, and you sit behind her, running your fingers gently through her hair as she relaxes under the light.

"this is my favorite part," lena murmurs after a moment, her eyes still closed.

"oh yeah?" you ask, smiling softly.

"yeah," she says, her voice low and content. "you. taking care of me."

your heart swells at her words, and you lean down to press a soft kiss on the top of her head that isn’t underneath the light. 

"always."

as the LED therapy wraps up, you remove the light and finish with a light serum and moisturizer, massaging the products into her skin with gentle, soothing strokes. 

when you’re done, you help her sit up, and lena stretches, touching her face lightly.

"i feel like a new woman," she says, examining her reflection in the mirror you hand her.

"you look like one too," you tease, stepping back to admire the glow of her skin.

lena turns to you, pulling you by the waist and into a warm embrace, her hands resting on your waist. 

"thank you," she murmurs, pressing her lips softly to yours.

“for everything."

you smile against her lips, feeling the familiar warmth of her body against yours. "anytime," you whisper, pulling back slightly to meet her gaze. 

"but next time, no slacking on the skincare, okay?"

lena chuckles, nodding. "deal. but only if i get to come back here for more of your special treatment."

"oh, you’ll be back," you say with a playful grin. "whether you like it or not."

she smirks, leaning in to kiss you again. "i think i’ll like it."

masterlist

[storm-angel989]

Yo I love your work.. anyway can I request Val x Fem Reader when Reader is on their period and the rest is up to you (I’ll cry if you actually notice)

Hi Friend,

Thank you for sending in your request! I always notice and read a request- sometimes it just takes time for my brain to buzz.

Now I have written this before. The link is here:

Valentino x Reader (Period Pains)

That being said….

Here is another version! Think OTO reader and Val after they’re married. 

<3 Mandy

The bright red stains on my favorite pajama pants began the start of that cursed day. It was going to be one of those mornings that lasted all day. 

It didn’t help that I woke up alone, my husband off to do whatever it was he did in his studio. Vox and Velvette were working and me? I was by myself. Which, as I poured myself a cup of coffee and stirred in my creamer, I figured was better that way. 

I lifted the mug to my lips and took the first sip of what should have been a heavenly experience. Instead, I was met with the bitter taste of peppermint.  I spat it into the sink and went to set my mug down. Somehow I missed the counter and shards of ceramic splatted the floor. 

“Fuck!” I yelled across the empty flat. I grabbed a roll of paper towels and cleaned up the mess as quickly as I could, tossing the shards into the garbage. Housekeeping would be up later, but with how the day was already turning out, I didn’t want to risk stepping on a rouge shard. 

“Who the fuck puts peppermint into their coffee without mocha?” I growled aloud as I shoved the creamer back in the fridge. 

Of course, I knew the answer was Vox. As much as he pretended he only drank black coffee, those of us who lived with him knew his guilty pleasure. Random flavored coffee creamers that appeared in the fridge each time it was restocked. It was just my bad luck that I had grabbed the wrong one this morning. 

Shoving the thought of making another cup of coffee to the side, I jumped into the shower, willing the hot water to take away the cramps that slowly awakened with each movement of the day. Fuck, there were some days I hated being a girl. 

But, like all women, being on our period wasn’t an excuse to miss work. Going to see Velvette in her studio was always an option, but just the thought of being touched by another being made me annoyed. I gingerly dressed myself and pulled my hair up into a bun. Staring at my reflection in the mirror, I grumbled as I tried to hide the tiny whiteheads that appeared overnight with a strong dose of foundation. 

“Okay, I can do this,” I said to my reflection as I swallowed down several advil. “I got this.” 

Ten hours, eighteen phone calls and one ruined pair of underpants later, I stormed back upstairs to our apartment. 

“Babygirl, you’re home late,” Valentino’s voice rang out.

“I know, fuck,” I snapped without thought. The cramps, masked by the Advil I had taken this morning, left me both nauseous and crabby.  Every part of my body ached, and I could feel a headache starting to brew. I slammed the door behind me as I stripped off my outfit for the day. 

The bright red bloodstain on the back of my dress. I stared at it and without really knowing why, I burst into tears in the middle of my room. 

“Bebita?” Valentino’s voice came quietly from behind me. 

I felt him tug the dress from my hand and he wrapped his arms around me. I didn’t have to say a thing and instead laid my head on his chest as I sobbed. 

“Nothing a little stain remover can’t take out,” he said soothingly. “It’s alright. Why don’t you get in the shower? I’ll get your pjs and…”

“My two favorite ones are wrecked,” I choked out softly. “I bled all over the ones this morning, and my backups have a hole in them and…”

He pressed a finger to my lip and kissed my forehead. “Just let me figure it out while you go shower, okay?” 

There was something about he way he said it that left me with a feeling of comfort. I disappeared into the shower and by the time I came out, he was leaning against the bathroom sink, waiting. He handed me a towel and watched as I wrapped it around myself. 

“I have a heating pad and a cup of tea ready for you in bed. Toast, if you’re hungry. Advil if you want it. And if you’re in the mood to cuddle, I’m here. If not, I can stay with you or give you space. Remote is yours either way.” He pointed to a pile of clothes. “Period underpants. Vel sent them up. And…wear my pjs tonight. They’ll be looser than anything you own.” 

“Thanks, Val,” I said softly. “I’m sorry I was such a bitch when I came in.”

He cracked a smile. “Mi amore, I don’t think you know the true meaning of that word. Come on out when you’re ready.” 

I watched the door close behind me and got dressed in the outfit he left for me. I settled into bed next to him and sipped the warm tea. 

“I love you Val,” I said after a few moments. 

“I love you too, bebita. Even when you’re cranky,” he replied lightly. “And I always will.”

[beesmygod]

painful whitehead zit right above my lip, presumably the result of some kind of curse or hex or evil object i've acquired

[thenarwhalgal]

I am so excited for Gwenpool to get more moments in the spotlight, but I really just wanted to put this out there as well cause I think it’s also important.

Look there, in the background next to the pride flag at the pride event in a sneak peak of Marvel’s Pride issue. Is that Doreen Green and Nancy Whitehead? Look at them skating together at the festival for queer people.

Now them being in a relationship has never been directly stated as far as I know. In fact, I think it’s only ever been implied that either aren’t straight. This is a big deal for both of them.

While it’s still not… canon technically, this is once more almost the strongest possible implication of a character being queer without directly stating it.

I know Speedball didn’t mind lips that tasted like chestnut so we can only hope Nancy doesn’t either is all I’m saying.

[4methystt]

Glow up this 2024 (affirmations)

Subliminal is linked here:

Beauty:

I have a radiating beauty

My beauty is alluring

Everyone thinks im attractive

I have my ideal face

My face is so perfect

I surpass every beauty standards

I'm naturally beautiful

I have my ideal face shape

I have the most angel like skull

My forehead is my ideal size

I have the most beautiful side profile in existence

I have the perfect jaw line

I have the most perfect chin, forehead, and cheeckbones

My face looks perfect in any angle

My eyes are alluring

My eyes are mesmerizing

People love starring at my eyes

My eyes perfectly suits my face

I have a positive canthal tilt

I have my ideal eye shape

My eyes are symmetrical

My eyelashes are naturally long

My eyelashes are thick

My eyelashes looks like i have mascara on even tho i don't

My eyelashes are curled up naturally

I have my ideal eyelashes

I have my ideal eyebrows

I have a perfect brow bone

My eyebrows suits my face shape perfectly

My nose is very tiny

My nose suits my face perfectly

I look like i had rhinoplasty

My nose hump doesn't exist anymore

I have a visible, tiny nose bridge

I have a small narrow alar base

I love my small nostrils

I love my upturned nose

I have my ideal nose shape

My lips always looks moisturized

My lips are very plump

All the wrinkles on my lips are disappearing every second

I have the perfect cupids bow

I have an upturned lip corners

My lips look sexy and cute at the same time

I love my rosey pink lips

My lips perfectly suits me

I love my kissable lips

I have healthy pink gums

I have perfectly straight teeth

My teeth always looks brushed

My teeth are the perfect size

I never needed braces

People always tells me that my teeth looks white like the snow

I have very fresh breath

My tounge is pink and smooth

My skin is very smooth

My skin is hydrated

My skin is always glowing

My pores are very small

I have the most youthful skin in the world

I have my ideal skin tone

My skin tone is respected

All my pimples, blemishes, black/whiteheads, and discoloration will disappear in a second

My wrinkles are disappearing right this moment

My eye bags are disappearing

I have the ideal korean glass skin

I have the most luxurious hair

I have long, smooth and silky hair

My hair is always bouncy

I have my ideal hair type

My hair looks naturally stunning

My hair looks perfect with my face

Body/height:

My body scent smells good

My waist are very snatched

My abs are visible

I love my toned muscles

My breast are my ideal size

My but is my ideal size

My arms are very toned

People compliment me for my healthy body

I have a very fast metabolism

I digest food very fast

I eat more healthy food than junk foods

I restrict myself from eating unhealthy foods

My growth plates are opened

I have my ideal height

I am taller than yesterday

I am taller than before

People think i am a model because of my height

My legs are very long

Confidence, Talents, Intelligence, :

I love myself first before others

I respect my self

I follow my passion

I focus on my dreams and hopes

I believe that studying/working hard leads to success

I radiate positive energy

I have a lot of true, kind, and honest friends

I have a magnetic aura

I am a very talented person

I am very good at sports

My voice sounds angelic when i speak or sing

I have excellent hand and eye coordination

I have perfect reaction time

I think before i act

I have the perfect speed

I can balance perfectly

I excel on my PE class

I can dance perfectly

I dance gracefully in a way

People say I'm very talented

I memorize things very quickly

I am naturally a genius

I can pass every test without studying

I always ace my subjects

I find studying fun and exciting

Learning new things makes me happy

I have photographic memory

All the teachers love me because of my intelligence and good manners

My handwriting is clean and neat

I have a wide vocabulary

I am always teated with respect by my classmates/workmates

Photogenic, Videogenic:

I look perfect in every angle

I have the perfect side profile

I look great on every picture and video

I look effortlessly stunning

Physical health, happiness/mental health, wealth:

I am packed with vitam A, B, C, and D

I am immune to any sickness

I have natural resistance to bacterias

I sleep atleast 8 hours everyday

I have a good sleeping schedule

I only think positive thoughts

I have a fresh mindset

My mind is full if positivity

I don't let bad thoughts take over me

I appreciate my self

I have a good relationship with my family

I attract money

I get money every day

I handle money well

I never overspend

My parents are very rich and attract more money

[chiveburger]

2022′s favorite skincare, make-up and fragrances tagged by my longtime fave @nito-onna. here is the link is her much more articulate post! 

starting with skincare... 

rohto mentholatum - acnes anti-bacteria spot dressing patch. I’ve tried two acne patches in the last couple months and this one is by far the better one. It’s very thin and unnoticable, it comes in two sizes per sheet and has helped me quicken the process of popped pimples and whiteheads

lush - catastrophe cosmetic. this clay mask is probably one of the best lush fresh masks I’ve used, and I’m planning to repurchase it with my recyclables. It’s more moisturizing than it seems, and after it dries it flakes off and makes for a very easy cleaning process (compared to every other lush fresh mask). 

laneige - water bank blue hyaluronic eye cream. I’m not a consistent user of eye cream, even though I should be but I’ve stuck with using the one from laneige for the last couple months. It’s straightforwardly packaged, supple and gel-like which makes it very light on the under eyes. It also lasts for a long time

fresh nation - b5 hydropower lip care. one of my go-to lip balms during these last winter months. I also slather it on as an overnight lip mask. It’s not heavy, scentless but moisturizes well. It was also like $14 for 3...

bush balm - bermuda dark spot exfoliating scrub and oil combination. probably one of my most favorite finds of 2022. I’ve been using this religiously on my underarms and I do see a very gradual fading of my dark spots. the sugar scrub is very gentle, and the oil is not excessively greasy. this is my only ongoing subscription on amazon

going to make-up...

wet n wild - megaglo makeup stick in sand. one of the BEST concealers I’ve used in years, and the only con about this is that it kinda stinks. this shade is perfect for my skintone, it’s not very heavy, extremely cheap and does a really good job on my eye bags. I haven’t found a concealer in this suitable of a shade ever

glossier - cloud paint in beam. a forever favorite item for me regardless of the year. I’ve had one tube of this bush for the last 3 years so it really goes a long way, and I do not leave the house on a day out without using this. the cream texture is light and versatile and you can build the strength of the blush according to your preference. 

dejavu - fiberwig ultra long mascara in pure black. again, an item I’ve used for a couple years and still love and is always apart of my make-up routine. It’s the one mascara I’ve used that doesn’t clump and elongates my lashes without making spider legs. I haven’t experimented with any other mascara after finding this one.

lastly I only have one fragrance and its...

giorgio armani - sì eau de parfum. all I can say is that this is my scent. If you ever meet me in person I’ll smell like this. I’ve gone back and forth from different perfumes but I always end up coming back to sì. I’m not a big fan of floral scents, so this one is more musky. I have used this since high school and have not found a scent I like as much as this. 

thanks for reading if you’ve gotten this far. I tag @033h, @vensulove, @calpicowater, @idleminds, @julieterbang and everyone who likes pentagon to do this tag!

[saphlore-blog]

no one asked but here's my skincare routine xx 🌚 (including pictures of all the products !)

i'm a teen with acne-prone slightly sensitive skin that gets oily by the end of the day🧖‍♀️

(i'm 99% sure i'm allergic to salicylic acid bc it didn't help with my breakouts/caused them so i avoid it in my routine❕)

as a makeup remover i use the elf holy hydration makeup melting balm 🚿

& a makeup eraser cloth 🧽

for stubborn waterproof eye makeup i use garnier skin active micellar cleaning water all-in-1 waterproof (aka the blue one) i have a huge bottle of it :)💧

(i want to start using reusable cotton rounds so pls lmk of any good brands !)

i just ran out but if i haven't worn makeup but my pores feel especially clogged i use the burt's bees oil cleanser 🥥 (you do have to double cleanse with a water based cleanser afterwards !)

for a daily water-based facial cleanser i use two different ones

the cerave foaming facial cleanser 🧼 "oil control" on the bottle is no joke ! i don't get oily in the day anymore bc of the niacinamide in this :)

but it can be a little drying/strong so i mix it with the cetaphil gentle skin cleanser 🛁

i use this really cheap & generic silicone face scrubber for my nostrils/chin/sideburn-hairline area 🧽

once a week i use this scrub pixi peel and polish its a mask with physical and chemical exfoliants

it smells like lemon cucumber water🥒 and can also be used for body acne on the chest, back, & arms !!

once a week i use an AHA chemical exfoliant it's elf supertone toner 🌝 it has glycolic acid and is has a little bit of a lemony scent

what i use as a daily toner is thayer's rose-scented witch hazel spray 💌 it calms down any redness i have instantly !

i used to use the cerave daily moisturizing lotion but it was a little oily and it was impossible to apply makeup on 🧘 so now i use it on my hands before doing my facial moisturizer

and for that i use a mix of elf holy hydration gel-yeah moisturizer and elf holy hydration face cream 💦 it's pretty self-explanatory but the former is a clear gel and the latter is a white cream, i adjust the proportions for my moisture needs :) ⛲️

in the winter or if my face feels dry or in need of healing i use clinique moisture surge overnight face mask 🦪

"mask" is a little misleading as you just apply it with your moisturizer like any other lotion 🧴 it's super hydrating, it's a little expensive but i got it as a gift and a little goes a long way ! :)

after a breakout has healed completely i use a little bio oil on top of my moisturizer to fade any dark spots/scars 🐚

after i shower and exfoliate my lips i use this random lip mask from bath and body works that's watermelon scented 🍉 it's thick (a little goes a long way) and yummy

i also use smith's rosebud salve in this tin 🌹 it's like a nice scented vaseline

i don't use it all the time bc it's expensive but i love the mario badescu caffeine eye cream💆it's so good for my sunken dark circles ! but avoid getting it in your eye and keeping it in the bathroom bc it curdles if it gets too hot from shower steam

for active acne spots i use might patch pimple patches 🩹regular for whiteheads and micropoint ones for swollen spots under the skin

those are pretty expensive so for smaller spots i use mario badescu drying lotion overnight 🫧

i'm pretty bad at remembering sunscreen in the morning but i just got the glow recipe dew balm with spf 45 and niacinamide 🌸 i love the glow and the light fruity scent :)

i do want mention that my life-saver game-changer for stopping cystic acne (those painful lumps deep in the skin) and just acne in general has been hormonal birth control pills ! after i started BC for pcos/hormonal reason all of my breakouts decreased significantly🪽

tysm for reading !! 🕊️ xx

[kkatastrophic]

Yo wsg I'm feeling venty rn gang!!! >:) (anywayssss)

Oh, this is my honest reaction btw:

Anyway-

My parents get mad at me when I don't tell them what I'm listening to (music-wise), and then whenever my song comes up on the playlist in the car I get judged.

Or they ask what I'm writing (fanfiction) and they automatically assume because I don't want to tell them about it, that it's bad. NO I'M NOT WRITING SMUT MUM, I JUST HAVE CRINGE INTERESTS!!!

But as soon as I tell them I'm writing something, they get all on my back and as soon as they get home it's "10 minutes" or "sleep in 30" or "stop writing you've been on that all day!" (<- I got home 10 minutes ago people.)

Or it's like 3 degrees and I'm in bed writing because it's cold and they ask me to "come out of my room for once" because "we never see you" (I literally talk to them all the time, we have dinner together EVERY night, we watch movies and stuff together on weekends) then they EXPECT me to come out of my room when they just got mad at me for saying no to leaving my nice private area???

Wait, did I say private?

My mum walks in when I'm changing, and she's like "oh sorry" and then finishes putting my clothes on my bed? Like I get she's trying to be helpful and stuff but I'm sick of it. Please just put them by my door in the morning, because I'd rather you not walk in while me (a lovely teen girl who would like some decent privacy pretty please!) is changing.

She scared the shit out of me this morning, and my friends notice how jumpy I can be BECAUSE I constantly have to hide my phone (I'm not doing anything wrong, I'm just USING it) or grab a towel or blanket or even just... crouch down uncomfortably so that she doesn't see me undressed...

Like I get it... you have stuff you need to do, but privacy is important. Not to mention if I forget to lock the door my mum walks in while I'm in the SHOWER.

At least my dad knocks before coming into my bedroom.

And like I love them but oh my god I'm sick of it. I don't have it bad and I'm just complaining and whatever but like... bro...

OH AND MY FRIENDS SOMETIMES TOO! Don't get me wrong, I love my girls so much, they're lovely and really nice and kind, and I don't know where I'd be without them in my life.

BUT!!!

Let me listen to music without you going "what're you listening to" and then looking at me like I'm listening to alien noises (I was listening to Mitski)

Stop asking me what I'm drawing, and then judging me for it. (I just want to draw characters from my hyperfixation in peace-)

Stop looking at me like I'm a weirdo and judging me for having interests in some video game from 2010. Stop acting like me being on tumblr is so weird.

I love my friends and they're great and awesome and supportive, but sometimes they just don't get it, because I'm "the weird anime kid" (I don't watch anime anymore, I just like Danganronpa.) and they're... "normal".

Like my friend asked me a week ago "you realise you have a big pimple above your lip, right?"

...

...

Mate.

SHE DIDN'T MEAN IT BADLY, SHE WAS JUST POINTING IT OUT WE'RE KIDS IT'S FINE SHE APOLOGISED AFTER-

Yes I know. I have acne, it's been in my life since I was 11. I have a million different products, but can never keep using them long enough to work.

I've had skin rashes, acne, whiteheads, blackheads. They're small, but there's so many, and they're all over my face. So I look red all the time.

"Oh, why don't you wear makeup?" that's like saying "If you have glasses and are insecure about how you look with them, just take them off" <- it makes their eyesight worse. They can't see without them. They don't feel comfortable putting contacts on. etc. etc.

SAME FOR ACNE, MAKEUP DOESNT MAKE THEM GO AWAY IT JUST COVERS THEM AND MAKES THEM WORSE IN THE LONG RUN!!!

And like... just don't point out peoples insecurities in general. Please guys.. it makes them feel self concious and way worse about themselves. Just don't do it.

I love the people in my life, if you guys somehow find this (dad why are you on Tumblr...? Go back to Facebook man-) I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, but these things just irk me and I was feeling particularly irritated when writing this.

Okay vent done I got that out of my system, not my usual post but people need to learn boundaries. :3

[campgender]

[ID: the poem “Not Everything Is Sex” by Lauren Whitehead. the poem is originally arranged in two-line stanzas with minimal punctuation. the text reads: Okay. Tell that to the palm of this Black man’s hand ever so slightly cupped and carrying in its bend the finger tips of another Black man, both of them arms stretching upward toward the sky, measuring their reach against one another on a basketball court in Brooklyn, in spring.

Okay. Spring. And when I say spring, I mean bee-buzzing-near-a-pink-bud-almost-bursting spring, tantric spring, everyone-outside-in-three-quarter-sleeves-despite-the-virus-buzzing-near-our-tongues spring. So you can’t tell me it’s not sex, Cause it’s not not sex, The risk of all this tenderness, all this giving of ourselves, all this inside on the outside, open, vulnerable—I know sex when I see it and I see it everywhere: lips on the nipple of a soft serve, an arm fist deep in a grocery store shelf, digging for the last can of garbanzo beans.

It’s not not a ménage à trois, these three men snuggled in the front seat of a moving van, singing bachata dancing from the hips up in the window, open throats open, their whole necks to the wind, reckless—reckless, I tell you, full on abandon. So say what you will about transmission, about fluid, skin to skin, about the necessary things that make the deed the deed; I don’t care cause it’s spring and I’ve never seen anything so intimate as this touch still taken in the face of an apocalypse. end ID.]

[nat-20s]

I think Nancy Whitehead and Doreen Green should at least TRY kissing on the lips

[nb-microdosing-testosterone]

Hello. First dose! Yay!

As per title, I am micro-dosing testosterone.

.5ml, intramuscular, one dose per two weeks. ~23 years old at first dose.

(Also partially in the closet, so I will also keep tabs on how long I can get away with this before people start realizing something’s up.)

The shot:

Originally, I imagined I’d use the patch or gel. Then, the doctor told me those options were $600.

Needle it is.

First dose was much harder than I thought it’d be. I kept aggressively tapping the syringe because I was scared of air bubbles. Although the doctors prepared me and gave me a pamphlet, I found a video tutorial helpful. I sat there for at least 20 minutes holding the ready syringe trying to encourage myself to do it. The needle was much longer than I expected. It was very intimidating. I really considered backing out. In that moment, I wished I had an ally to do this for me. I felt like I couldn’t do it. It was so scary. In the end, I told myself that this medicine was too hard to get, and I couldn’t let it go to waste. Good thing my family isn’t observant, because someone could probably hear me panicking through the door if they listened.

Working up the courage was the hardest part. The shot itself turned out to be not so bad. In my opinion, it did not feel as bad as getting a vaccine. It was so simple it made all the apprehension feel silly. I took off my gloves and realized how nervous I really was when I saw the insides covered in sweat. I’m not even someone who gets sweaty hands. I should really be proud of myself for powering through that. I think the next shot will be easier.

Effects:

The next day I noticed a breakout of hormonal acne around my jaw, and….earlobes??? I expected testosterone to give me acne, but not so quick. I am very acne-prone. My skin care routine is immaculate. I found whiteheads around my jaw and saw more as the day progressed. You could argue that this breakout was caused by other factors, like stress, but I feel it was at least aided by testosterone as whiteheads are not a type of acne I usually get (Also, I didn’t get acne on my earlobes what the fu-.)

I battled- that’s an understatement- was at war with acne during my teens. I saw various skin professionals and used various medications. I expect this “transition journey” to be accompanied with revisiting this old nemesis.

Edit: 20 hours after posting this. Noticed new acne on my upper lip.

[deartreadmill]

sick.

I have a terrible cold. Not COVID, but a cold. I’ve been sleeping on the couch for 4 nights now because I need to sleep in an upright-ish position or I cough all night long. I can’t taste anything, which made me retest for COVID (still not COVID). I also can’t smell. Which has been a godsend, both yesterday when the manthing cooked a fish the Bubs caught this summer and according to the Girl stunk up the house (I couldn’t tell) and then tonight, when we had mysteriously free in our grocery order deli beef in beef dip sandwiches for dinner (turned out to he corned beef. grosso) I have a lingering remnant of clove in my mouth from the corned beef.  I wish I could taste something else.

I’ve blown my nose so much over the last 4 days that I’ve used 1.5 rolls of ‘double length’ toilet paper and now have whiteheads cropping up all around my nose and lip.

Sick is so glamorous.

Oh, and my period started. So that’s fun. Every fucking time I cough it’s like...

[weabooweedwitch]

St Ives scrub is like the single most hated skincare product in the skincare community!!!! That will probably be causing a lot of your issues, also the toner has witch hazel which is irritating for a lot of people myself included. Agree with other anon that dr. dray is goated for actual evidence based and budget friendly skincare info, literally the only skincare youtuber I trust (other than labmuffin and dr. davin lim who are great too), I usually watch her on 1.25-1.5x speed though because she talks a bit slowly. Also sunscreen is so important!!! (as dr dray will tell you over and over lol)

Oh no St Ives is that bad? I also have a lip sugar scrub from them :( I guess it's a good thing I bought the tiny travel size and not the big sized one. I just thought a skin scrub might help in case my cleanser and toner weren't strong enough exfoliaters. But also the skin scrub is new and the cleanser/toner whichever one was making my face burn before I got this so that's definitely not, 100% responsible, but yeah i can stop using it if that's the case

I'll be sure to check our Dr Dray! I just haven't been sure what products to use because I have oily skin and sometimes even when I use products/makeup for oily skin they don't always help? Like I have a foundation thats supposed to help oily skin and one time I was wearing it during one of my overnight shifts and halfway through it seemed like I was, oiling it off? But I also know you need to touch up stuff every so many hours so maybe that is normal? A makeup artists I like, Robert Walsh (who's twin brother James is a dermatologist, they both have YouTube channels) says that certain kinds of problems that are encountered with makeup not working that are usually covered up by using more products can be solved by proper skincare, so. Idk

Either way thanks for the help guys haha, guess I better keep doing research. I'd hate to wind up destroying my skin when the whole reason I started this was because I wanted to try and shrink my enlarged pores. I have this one spot on my cheek where one specific huge pore keeps filling back up and giving me whiteheads I can't stop picking on :( I technically have a diagnosed skin picking disorder but it isn't super severe but I was hoping I could kind of win one over on the skin picking by just, having good skincare and getting rid of my acne altogether