#which means that shift is also a TON more stressful now.

[abrushwithdeath]

((I'm gonna try to be around a little bit today, so let me know if you want me to send memes your way!!!

This goes for people I'm already writing with AND anyone I haven't had a chance to write with yet, by the way <3))

[teabookgremlin]

girls when they’ve been having such a shit time recently and now their regular work schedule that they’ve gotten used to has changed meaning that they might miss something they’ve been really looking forward to

[lukolabrainrot]

Nicola's Easter Eggs from This Weekend/Week (and What it Could All Mean)

First, I am going to list the most important pieces of information (imo) that N posted on her IG grid or stories this weekend/week (and I will put the date it was posted- I'm on PST so some of these MIGHT have been posted on a different date for N):

Posted on N's stories on Friday, 8/9/24

Posted on N's grid on Saturday, 8/10/24

Posted on N's stories on Sunday, 8/11/24

This song was posted on N's stories on Tuesday, 8/13/24

Also, I want to stress I've been DEEP in delulu this weekend/week over all this because it's made me soo excited, but I analyzed the figure in the sunglasses from her milk tshirt pic for such a long time last night, and I swear... I am like 98% certain I see L's VERY distinct tattoo on the person in the sunglasses (and it's totally in the correct placement). I'll put the pic below. It helps if you zoom in a little bit. And after the song that she posted today, I am 99% certain at this point that L took that photo of her in the tshirt 😭😭😭 I could be wrong about the tattoo lol, BUT I still am almost certain that's him based on the arms!

What Could This All Mean??

I feel like we all have seen the theories at this point around all of these posts/stories, and the MANY Easter Eggs they all contain regarding L OR certain people adjacent to L. Therefore, I am not going to talk about all of the Easter Eggs and what they might be implying. This is what I will say:

If all of this content had not been released publicly in such a short period of time, I don't think I would really have paid that much attention to it, or have been THIS excited. However, it is precisely because N (who is VERY intentional on SM) posted ALL OF THIS in such a short period of time, knowing very well how the fandom would be interpreting it and leaving TONS of Easter Eggs that she's with L, that makes me fairly confident that there has been a VERY positive shift between L/N.

Could I be wrong? Yes. However, the song that she posted today (which I have ALWAYS loved btw 😍), clarified to me that everything she has posted since Friday wasn't just random. That song is a BIG statement! We know that N communicates through music, and this song's lyrics don't leave a lot to interpretation. It is a very sweet and happy love song! Now, could this song be about someone else, or could she just have liked the song and wanted to post it? Yes. But after EVERYTHING she posted on IG since Friday, NOBODY can convince me this song isn't about L!

I don't know what this EXACTLY means right now BTS for ALL parties involved in this situation. However, if L was going to officially acknowledge A as his girlfriend in the near future, would N have posted all of this content in such a short period of time that is very obviously related to L in the fandom? Absolutely not. I think (and a LOT all people might not agree with me on this) that this was an official acknowledgment to the fandom, specifically, that her and L are together currently and happily in love 😭😭😭 I still feel like the situation is probably a little complicated BTS, but something in my gut, based on all this public content the last few days from N, makes me feel like something BIG has changed between her and L, and N therefore feels more comfortable and confident with sharing this type of content with the fandom (and the public). I don't believe that we will get a lot of this type of content from L for a while (for LOTS of different reasons that I think are totally understandable), BUT we might get a couple of little crumbs from him (I'm thinking maybeee through songs). I also don't think they are in any place yet to go officially public, but I DO think that N will continue posting content like this if my theories are true 👀 I also feel like they may make a public announcement sooner than we expected based off of everything from the last couple of days. I have said this before, but I believe that both L/N are aware that this relationship would get serious pretty quickly if they were able to get on the same page. And I think they have 😭😍

Does this mean that L/A are done? I think so. Will we still see some material from A related to L? Maybe. I wouldn't rule that out. I get the sense though, and I have been feeling like this for a while, that L/A really haven't been doing that well in their relationship for a long time based on all the evidence that we now have.

A lot of people might not agree with all of my thoughts here, but I feel pretty confident that the song N posted today is a statement to the public, particularly the fandom, about her feelings currently for L. And it just makes my heart really happy 😍😍😍

[looooochie]

𝗯𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗵𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗽𝗮𝗿𝘁𝘆 | lamine yamal

summary: lamine toys around with his girlfriend.

TODAY, WAS YOUR sister's 19th birthday. And as she should, and of course, she invited you to it.

your outfit:

You were doing your makeup, as your partner was preparing to go to practice. He looked at you, and smiled.

Lamine admired your pale blue dress, and the all the accessories such as the butterfly hair clip in it.

As you already know, the Moroccan is a bit mischievous. And you felt a pair of eyes staring at you, and next thing, you slightly jump and the lipstick got misplaced on your face. All Lamine did was smirk as you gently tap his cheek.

"Lamine... now I have to do my makeup all over again.." you say in a tsundere-ish tone. "So what? Aren't I allowed to jumpscare you a little?" he replies slyly.

"No.. Now dont you have training to get to?" you ask. His smile faded almost immediately.

"Shit.. I gotta go!" he says giving you a kiss, and his spit went into that kiss. He wipes it off which smudges your makeup even more. He did it on purpose.

"See you at the party later!" Lamine says, before getting out the door.

Wait what? What did he mean by 'See you at the party later' ? You didn't think much of it, before getting your makeup kit and repairing the smudged parts.

˚˖𓍢ִ໋ ✧˚.༘⋆

After getting out the car, you look at your sister's house, it. Was. Lit. You could even see some people standing outside the house, that's how lit it really was.

You walking in through the front door to see tons of people in there. A lot of ballons, the music was blasting, and vice versa. Then you go to the backyard and yeah, pretty much the same, but with some people in the pool.

Excited, you search around your sister, and you find her, she looked absolutely stunning. She was wearing a tiara, a black dress along with some jewelry and black gloves to finish it off. You go up to her and she sees you.

(I'm just going to use Sira as an example of your sister's name)

Sira runs up to you, enveloping you in a warn, loving hug. "Hey, I'm glad you made hermana!" she says, very happy to see you.

I mean, Sira went out of Barcelona to fulfill her acting dreams and hadn't seen you in about 3 years. So she was. ECSTATIC.

"So, how has acting been for you?" you ask smiling. "Its been good. I'm just excited you're here." Sira replies. She moves her head a bit and sees your partner going in.

"Hey Y/N.. What's your boyfriend here for?" she asks. You turn around and your eyes widen. Lamine comes in and starts talking with the boys there.

"Uhh Sira.. I'm just going to Lamine. Is that okay?" you ask, a bit stressed. "Sure. I don't mind!" Sira replies. You slowly run towards Lamine and luckily, you didn't trip because of your Converses.

When you get to Lamine, you rapidly tap his shoulder. And he turns around. "Amor.. What the fuck are you doing here??"

"Oh, we got off training early and your sister's boyfriend,also known as my teammate, let me come." he smiles and slightly shifts so you could see him.

"Hey, what's good Y/N?" he begins. You smile and look at him closely, then you realize that it was Alejandro Balde, Barça's left back. "Hey, you're Alejandro Balde right?" you question.

"Yep, that's me. And by the way, I'm your sister's boyfriend." Alejandro smiles. "Thats cool dude. How long have you and Sira been dating?"

"Oh, it's been about two weeks. We met on Instagram and we liked eachother ever since." Alejandro replies. Next thing you knew, you found yourself having a conversation between Lamine and Alejandro, your new friend.

Ale looks around and sees the people gathering around. "Oh guys, we're about to go sing happy birthday now." Alejandro says, as he gets up from the sofa and goes in the garden. You and Lamine join him and walk towards the garden, hand in hand.

(I'm lazy asf so skip)

You look at the cake you were eating and you were stewing a little. It did feel a little stuffy in there so you wanted to take a breather. You go outside and sit on the porch, looking at the night sky.

The door opens and Lamine goes outside aswell and sits next to you. "Why did you just walk out like that?" Lamine asks.

"It was a little hard to breathe in there, and it was really chaotic." you reply. In return, Lamine pulls you close and puts an arm around you.

"I get you. It kinda was crowded." "Thanks." you say, and give him a kiss on the cheek. This moment was the best, just you, Lamine, and the, dark, night sky.

"Hey, remember when we got our first tattoos?" you ask, breaking the silence. "Yeah, that was actually pretty cool. I used to think if you get a tattoo, you're putting scribble scrabble on yourself." Lamine laughs.

You look down and your arm, and the ink it has. It was Lamine's debut date for Barcelona, you practically had to get that on you. Meanwhile his tattoo is of your name and birthday, so he had two.

"The tattoo thing was a really good idea Y/N." "I know." you responded as you, shift closer to Lamine and just, be there. For him.

[nonbinarydeity]

Simplifying Manifestation/Shifting

Disclaimer: I don't mind if this isn't how you want to manifest. It's okay to have rules that make it work a certain way for you, it's okay to do things your own way. This is just how I understand manifesting now, and if it doesn't resonate with you, that's fine 🥰

So okay, I've been reading a couple of things from an amino user and I've realized so much more deeply what reality is and how to manifest and just everything. Please please please go read those posts because they explain it really well and I'm not an expert on this (yet!!).

Also I'm going to be focusing on my journey and I'm gonna be deleting the Tumblr app because there are WAY too many limiting beliefs on here. I'll do my best to answer questions about this today and tomorrow, then I'm offline for a while 🥰

The 4D and the 3D

So how I understand it now is different from what a lot of the community believes, but I swear that understanding this makes everything so much more simple and stress free.

The 3D is a reflection of your subconscious mind, which exists on the 4D plane. The biggest thing that people get wrong here is that the subconscious mind needs to be "programmed" a certain way. In reality, the subconscious mind is incredibly smart. It knows more about you and your desires than you do tbh. It's like your best friend, it's always trying to get you what you want, and it follows the rules you give it (more on this in a sec).

All you have to do to manifest/ shift is tell your subconscious mind what you want. That's literally it. You can even just say "I want xyz" and forget about it, and you'll get it.

When you ask for something, the 4D receives it and implements it right away. It gives the signal to the 3D to change, and the 3D does. Sometimes it takes a little while for the 3D to change all the way, but that's okay and normal! All you have to do is just wait and know that it's coming, you don't have to worry about doing anything else.

Rules

So the only thing that can get in the way of your manifestation/ shift is you. See, your subconscious mind follows every rule you give it, and humans have a tendency to put a LOT of rules on things, because that's what we're taught to do.

Say you're manifesting something, and it doesn't show up right away (because the 3D needs a little more time). You, being human, take that as a sign that it's not coming at all, and start assuming that something is wrong, or that you're doing something wrong, and you start putting all these rules in place trying to find an answer (think: I have to affirm more, I have to be in the wish fulfilled more, etc). Your subconscious then takes those rules you gave yourself and implements them, and suddenly it's taking longer to get what you want! This triggers a cycle of this (ask for what you want > don't get it right away > look for reasons why > make more rules/ change your rules > repeat) that can last for an infinite amount of time, until you're exhausted and give up entirely!

The key

From this, I hope you understand what you have to do. Literally, throw out your old mindset entirely and stick to these simple rules:

Ask and you shall receive. (Ask in this term could mean affirm, visualize, command your subconscious, etc)

Be patient. It might take some time but it IS coming to you!

Don't give up or accept that you'll never get it. The 3D could be seconds away from giving you what you want!

Most importantly: don't make a ton of rules for yourself!! Enjoy yourself, enjoy your time, be okay with the 3D for a little while because it IS changing in your favor. Don't force yourself to think about it 24/7, don't make yourself affirm every second of the day, etc!! All of that stuff is pointless! It won't get it to you any faster, if anything it'll make you doubt and spiral, which will lead to that cycle of self sabotage again. Just relax and let it happen 💕

And that's literally it!! Don't overcomplicate this, it's so important that you just relax and let it be for a little while.

I tried this during our walk today, and I had 4/4 successful manifestations (see a yellow car, see a green car, get paczki flavors I wanted [the ordering period was over, but I got the flavors I wanted anyways!!], find money [I started overthinking this, but I reminded myself that it was done, and we found it under a trash can of all things lol]) within my specific parameters (within our 30 minute walk to the store)! Literally all I did was say that's what I wanted and trusted my subconscious to give it to me, nothing else.

Outro

In the end, manifestation is not your job to do. Your job as a human being is literally just to enjoy life and ask for what you want. Everything else is your subconscious' job, and you don't have to worry about it beyond that!

Give yourself time and forgive yourself for overcomplicating it, because everyone does and that's normal and okay. We're human. We overthink. We overcomplicate. That's just what we do, and that's okay 🥰

I'm going to be answering asks about this post specifically for the rest of today and tomorrow, and then I'm going to be deleting the Tumblr app and focusing on my journey. I'll likely be posting again for updates and explanations of this once I understand it more deeply, but for now this is all you need to know!

[shallyne]

The Diary of Feyre Archeron Ch 7

Chapter seven is here! It's getting a little angsty, buckle in. Full fic on AO3.

Words: 1.8k

TW: kidnapping, in a way

December 8th

I've been working for Rhys for two weeks now and I thought I was lucky to not cross ways with him at all during that time but yesterday he went home just as my shift ended, so we both went out at the same time. Yesterday of all days it was raining cats and dogs and because it is Rhys, ever the gentleman, he insisted he'd drive me home. I must admit that I haven't declined as much as I should have, I agreed pretty easily but you try walking home, or even to the next bus stop, in Velaris rain. It doesn't rain often but when it does, it's chaos. 

The drive was pretty quiet for the first half, and tense. At least from my side. I can't decline that Rhys is even more attractive now than he was when we were fifteen. I was a girl and I had a crush on a boy. Now I am a woman and he, well, he is a man. A really big, muscular, manly man. The most beautiful man I have ever seen if I'm being honest but all of this doesn't excuse that he lied to me back then. That I have to live this life because of him. He saved us with this, yes, but I'm sure somehow this all could have been avoided if he told me. We could have found a way, together, but he tried to do it all on his own. 

Well, when we stopped at a red light he broke the silence to ask me how I was doing. It didn't take a genius to know he was genuinely interested but I couldn't really tell him that I am still hurt about something that happened eight years ago because if I would there is a possibility he would ask why and I had to tell him it's not what he did (I mean, yes, that too but it's not the reason why I was that hurt) but that the real reason is that I am was in love with him and my heart broke at the possibility he would ever lie to me that way about something that would ruin my whole family. I trusted him. 

Shit, I'm babbling. I probably don't even make sense? Do I make sense? Probably not.

Anyways, Tamlin picked me up later that day and I spent the night with him. He was in a weird mood again and asked me tons of questions about my sisters for some reason. I don't like answering questions about them, not because we don't have a story we tell people but because I could slip up. Sometimes I still call them by their real names in the comfort of our own four walls, it's a dangerous game, I had to shut him up by distracting him. 

This morning we ate brunch with Lucien, the mood lighter again, which was mostly thanks to Lucien and his questionable jokes. It was funny. I didn't laugh, Tamlin doesn't want me to laugh at other people's jokes. 

After brunch we all went our own ways, Tamlin went home, Lucien went to visit his mom and I walked downtown to work. 

Rhys was in again today, I don't know why but I also don't care, he probably just had to deal with some things because the Lounge just opened. 

December 12th

Today has been stressful. It's christmas season and Mara, Daisy and I tried shopping for a new couch. It was hell. After a guy poured coffee all over Mara’s shirt and a fight almost broke out between them, we gave up and went home. It started snowing like crazy about half way home and Daisy almost walked into a door because we could barely see between the flocks of snow. It was cold and by the minute we got more and more miserable. We decided to wait for the weather to clear up in a Café where we sipped hot chocolate when suddenly Rhys turned up and I tried to hide behind a menu because I didn't want him to see me all disheveled from the day. I think I succeeded because when I looked up he was gone. Mara looked at me weirdly. No, I wouldn't say weird. Knowingly, she knew what's up and I hate that she knows, but luckily, she didn't say anything. But at home she accused me of wearing her shirt, which wasn't even true, we just have similar shirts. We fought but that's okay, when dinner time rolled around we shared the last pizza roll. 

Right after dinner Tamlin called and insisted on coming over to our apartment to spend time there, Mara looked at me like she'd kill him with her bare hands if he came over and even Elain shook her hand. Truth be told, I don't feel comfortable with him coming over. Not because I am ashamed of our apartment, we really tried to make it homely. I like it. But, I don't know, it's just a feeling I can't shake. I don't really want anyone here but us, it's our sanctuary, in a way. I never took anyone to our apartment. Never. 

I had to make up some excuse about having explosive diarrhea and that was enough for Tamlin to leave it. Maybe I should tell him the truth but, honestly, I am scared of his reaction. 

Am I the problem?? 

December 14th

Tamlin and I agreed that i spent my birthday with him. As much as I would like to be with my sisters, I had to agree because he's getting antsy about me not inviting him to my apartment. At least we found a solution for now. 

Also, Rhys saw me in the Café two days ago. I was kind of embarrassed when he told me but, as surprising as it was, we slipped into banter pretty easily, just like 8 years ago. I've missed it so much. Just the banter today felt like a step forward between us. The more we talk, the more I realize I want to forgive him, SO badly. Maybe we should talk it out, maybe I should listen to his side of the story. I never bothered, have I? Maybe I should have listened before blowing up on him. And I did, I really blew up on him and he just let me. I really want to hear his story. 

Am I crazy? 

I don't know. 

I just miss my best friend, a lot. He's here now, against all odds. We find each other in a city thousands of miles away from home, isn't that a sign? 

Letter from Feyre Archeron to Rhysand

December 15th

Dear Rhys, 

I really don't know how to start this letter, I feel like no words in the world could express how I feel, but I'm going to try. 

My plan was to talk to you today but I saw you standing at the bar, talking to Rita, and all the words left my mind. I need to write this down or I'm going to forget half of this, you still have that effect on me. 

I want a new start for us, if you are willing to. 

I've talked to you really harshly years ago, I never gave you a chance to explain yourself. More importantly, I know you wanted to protect me, you always want to protect the people close to you. I should have looked past my fury, I should have given you a chance, and after my mistreatment of you, you still helped my sisters and I, which I will be forever grateful for. If you can't forgive me, I understand but if you are willing to try, you'd make me the happiest woman in the world. 

Since you came back into my life, I realized how much I missed you. There has always been a shadow where you should have been. You were my friend, my best friend, and I was yours. I really wish to become your friend again, to be a person you can trust, a person you feel comfortable around. I can't describe how sorry I am, but I'd like to show you. If you let me. 

We can start new, we can leave the past behind us. You and me. 

Please text me or talk to me or write a letter back or whatever you want to do, if you want this, too. 

Sincerely, 

Yours

Unsent Letter from Rhysand to Feyre Archeron

Dear Feyre

Dear Clare

I miss you

I missed you

There is nothing to forgive

There is no need to apologize

Come home

I would die for you

I'm yours

I love you, 

December 20th

I promised Mara and Daisy we would celebrate my birthday when I'm back from Tamlin’s. With our combined income we can afford a little night out, I'm pretty excited. Especially for Daisy's cake. I'm always open to new flavors so Daisy is trying something different every year for me. Mara is more of a chocolate cake girl, so that's her birthday cake flavor almost every year. For my birthday two years okay Daisy made me a lemon raspberry cake and it was so good, I'm still dreaming about it. 

But I'll only get my birthday cake in a few days. At Tamlin’s it is probably going to be his favorite flavor. I don't mind, I don't want him to go extra lengths for me, it's not important. 

I'm packing right now, because I'm going to spend the night with him. 

I'm excited to see Lucien again, I missed him. He had his own stuff going on with his family these days, hanging out will hopefully be a little reprieve for him. 

I should go to sleep now, it's pretty late. 

I shouldn't be this nervous about a stupid birthday, right? He's my boyfriend. 

Note from Feyre Archerin, slipped to Alis for Rhysand on December 22nd

Hlp

Tamlin 

Neva

Warehuse red

Chat between Rhysand and Azriel on December 22nd

Rhysand: You need to look for Feyre's whereabouts ASAP

Rhysand: Her sister just crashed into my office saying Feyre is missing since her birthday

Rhysand: She thinks something happened to Feyre

Azriel: Elain?

Rhysand: Nesta, but she has Elain in tow

Azriel: On it, I'll call when I find something

Chat between Rhysand and Morrigan on December 22nd 

Morrigan: There is a woman who wants to talk to you about Clare

Morrigan: she says it's important

Morrigan: her name is Alis

Rhysand: coming

Chat between Rhysand, Cassian, Azriel and Morrigan on December 22nd

Rhysand: Tamlin has Feyre. She left a note with a maid of his for me, they are on their way to Neva

Cassian: that can't be, Hybern still has all his men in Dunmere. They think the sister's are dead

Morrigan: not anymore

Morrigan: wait, NEVA? 

Rhysand: Neva. He brings her to Amarantha

Rhysand: Cassian, Azriel and I will drive to Neva. Mor you stay here with Nesta and Elain

Chat between Rhysand and Amren

Rhysand: I need to call in my favor 

Amren: I've been waiting for you to reach out, boy. What do you need? 

Feysand Taglist:

@captain-of-the-gwynriel-ship @starfall-spirit @rhysiedarling @corcracrow @sydney-fae25 @tothestarsandwhateverend @aayo-whatt @dreamlandreader

[bp-zb1fics]

Disney princess + prince ver. headcanons / mini fics? part 1

Ik I said there were no ships but @seok02 is very convincing lol. Here's more headcanons that no one asked for starring the ZB1 members in Disney princess movies. Please don't take any of this seriously.

-> Beast Jiwoong + Haobelle (Beauty & the Beast)

Woong invites Hao to crash his house because there's a storm and even though Hao kinda getting red flags from this Beast's appearance, still seems like a nice dude so ayt

Hao ends up in Jiwoong's garden because one of the Yuehuaz kids (probably Ollie) wanted a rose like why so random, why can't you ask for something normal like chocolate idk

Woong catches him and Hao's like oop I can pay for it, one of my kids is young and rich

Woong's like no stress, no need to pay but do you mind like staying for another few days, been awhile since I've seen new ppl

Hao's worried abt his kids but he hasn't had a vacation in so long so he's like ayt, it's free and he's got his violin w him and there's a massive af library of books that he's been wanting to get at

Him and Jiwoong kinda awkward around each other, but Hao's not scared bc have you tried raising 7 grown kids? now that's scary yo

Eventually he discovers Jiwoong's tru self and he's like ayt, idk why you're into the furry thing but u do u

Hao never ends up going back to his kids because they come looking for him first and end up moving into Woong's house too

-> Prince Haoric + Taeriel (The Little Mermaid)

Taerae likes listening to Hao play

Also that violin thing he's got looks kinda similar to the instrument taerae found in a shipwreck this one time

Taerae also likes to ad lib to Hao's violin

Hao doesn't know who's that having a jam session w him but he'd like to find out

Taerae goes to sea witches Seowon and Woongki and is like i want to go on land and learn how to play this thing (the guitar)

And they're like ayt but magic means u need to give up one thing so we can get u some legs and Woongki is like can I borrow your voice for my annual sea witch drag show pls and thanks

Taerae's a lil hesitant but he also really wants to know how to play this instrument

Scares the crap out of Hao when he washes up on the shore

Finds out Hao is a prince with a shit ton of lil brothers who harass him which is why he goes to the beach to play his violin in peace

Taerae learns how to play the guitar and Woongki gives him back his voice and by the power of music he can now like shift between mer and human

He and Hao have regular jam sessions on the beach and sometimes Hao's kids brothers join in

-> Prince Hanbin + Jiwoongrella (Cinderella)

Jiwoong wants to go to the ball but he's also gotta work, work, work,work,work,work

Man's booked and busy

Seowon and Woongki fairy god mothers to the rescue!

They get him all dolled up and everything

But he gotta be back by midnight because he got another schedule

Like I said booked and busy

Jiwoong goes to the ball and has a ball

Gets friendly with Hanbin

But he's gotta go

And oh no, he forgot his shoe

Hanbin wants to return the shoe bc it be looking expensive but Jiwoong also forgot to leave his number bc he was in a hurry

Hanbin tracks him down because boi knows everybody

Gives his shoe back and they become besties and Hanbin introduces him to Matthew and teaches Woong aegyo

-> Princess Rickmine + Mattheddin (Aladdin)

Matt asks Keita genie to give him a cooler image because everyone just finds him cute

Keita gives him the drip and he tries to rizz up Ricky because Ricky is the coolest

For like street cred idk

Ricky is not impressed like bro wtf

Chen Kuanjui as the magic carpet literally just judging them both

Someone make up a better story for this, I"m running out of juice

-> Prince Taerae + Yujinie (Snow White)

Yes as I said before Yujin's chilling by the well, looking at himself, singing about water and a monami pencil when he gets jumpscared by Taerae and his guitar

But ok this hyung is kinda cool

Yujin taking Taerae home to meet his seven hyungs

Said seven hyungs are not impressed by this newcomers who's trying to steal their maknae

Taerae charms them by the power of his voice and guitar

They agree on regular visitation rights because their house is full and Yujin isn't going anywhere

Now Yujin has eight hyungs

Part 2 coming soon when I have brain cells again!

[ener-chi]

Feeling pushed to make a life update so here we go! TL;DR my Path, and fun school stuff - Taiji, Tuina, etc.

Hmm where to start. This program has changed me so much. Due to everything I have to deal with and go through, I feel like all of my unhealthy coping mechanisms and behaviors came to the surface and ended up being changed into something different and healthier. I mean, they kind of had to be - otherwise I wouldn't be able to handle the program.

But... this is kind of what I've been working on lately, and is pretty recent. I've realized that... I have been running. From myself, and also my Path.

I was running from my Trauma, but also parts of myself that I didn't like. But also... I was running from my Spiritual Path. My Path started to change about 2 years ago. It began to get... bigger, broader scope, more responsibility... I realized recently that I got scared, because I knew that following it would result in me changing big time, and I don't think I was ready for that at that time.

But. You can't run forever lol. I've been doing a lot of work, and I think I am finally ready to accept my Path and get back into my Practice. I've been getting a bunch of upgrades, been working with Reiki ALOT. Also... my gifts have been coming back (I've been kind of suppressing them) and that's been super interesting. I feel like I have soo much to learn, and I get to relearn how to do things, too.

In other news - cool school stuff!!

First, Taiji. The teacher I have is INCREDIBLE. He's an older Chinese man, and he is legitimately like a master you would see in movies. I have learned a form of Taiji before, but what he teaches is WILD.

Like we haventeven learned any form or anything - all we've really been doing is learning how to stand properly in two different stances and shift our weight around. But the Qi fucking MOVES. Sooo much. Like during it my whole body shakes as it's releasing blockages, and throughout the week I like have had a ton of emotional stuff come up. I definitely think that it's been contributing to the change I've been going through, for sure.

I mean we get energy blockages in our channels, and we can have big emotions and stress stored there or in our muscles. When you break up those blockages, those things get released. It's very cool to see it happen in myself.

HmmMMM I've been learning some Tuina - which translates to basically Chinese Medical Massage. It's a massage modality, but it serves a medical purpose, and can be used to treat most things, even like cold or flu. BUT where it excels is in orthopedic problems and pain.

Like our teacher - who is incredible, btw, and got his degree in China, and was the first person to have a doctor's degree in TCM in the USA - he has been showing us so many stories and case studies of people that have had near debilitating pain for years, sometimes 10 or 20, and no surgery or anything can make it better, but after about 10 sessions of Tuina, they walk away pain-free.

Absolutely mind-bending stuff. I honestly genuinely am going to recommend anyone in my life to try Tuina before considering getting big orthopedic surgeries. It's crazy.

Hmm what else. I mean I have just been learning so much stuff lol. Like Chinese Medicine can help accelerate the growth and healing of bones after a break, and can also help treat it even years after it happened. Or like how most heart attacks take place around noon and in the summer, and why that is. Just so much cool stuff!

Anywho. That's probably it for now. Gotta rest up and get back to my studies 😵

Hope everyone has a good day!

Blessings!

[gutwrenchflowerbomb]

This post is just me sort of rambling about the thoughts surrounding my new job so feel free to scroll past.

New workspace. This machine was installed a few weeks ago and a few of use were trained in it but I am the primary operator. They haven’t installed my work table yet so I’ve been using that cart. I’m two months into the drastic change in careers and it’s been strange - not just the obvious difference in what I’m actually doing but the shift as well. I don’t have weird start and ends times that change daily. But my set shift begins at 5am, meaning that I’m waking up at 3:30am. That’s the middle of the witching hour. I keep expecting to sit up and see some kind of demon ghost thing looking shocked like “the fuck you doing awake?”

But I’m less stressed, I think. I miss my clients dearly but now I no longer have to be responsible for the lives of 12 people. I can actually focus on myself. And the fact that I can do this job while wearing headphones has allowed me to catch up on podcasts and shit I’d long abandoned due to lack of time/energy. I’ve even made it a goal to listen to at least one new album a day from an artist I like but only know a song or two. I have 10 hours a day to fill so it’s not that hard to do. (I’m open to suggestions btw so if you have a fav band/album you think more people should hear, let me know! I don’t really *hate* any genre, except 90% of the new bro country shit)

My medical insurance kicks in on July 1st, so I can finally go to the doctor and dentist. They’ve had some overtime available that I’ve taken advantage of, and will continue to do so as long as it’s there. Mostly because I need all the money I can get and also - I don’t mind the work. It feels good to be physically doing stuff. I’m not like, building houses or anything but there I’m for sure getting more movement than I was previously. The ONLY downside so far of this job is that it’s very hard to regulate the temperature. I’ve had to buy my own fan to bring in and honestly I’m about to get a second one so I can have it blowing on my from both sides. Ya girl STAYS hot.

I’ve been staying with my mom and it’s been rough. We don’t have the most loving relationship, she gets on my goddamn nerves but I try not to get to frustrated with her because it will only make things worse. Maybe one day I’ll write some essays about it, as my upbringing with her was anything but “normal” but I digress.

The most challenging thing has been the lack of *silence* in the house. Before, I had my roommates. Ut they were hardly home when I was and then they had their room upstairs. We never really got in each others space. Here, that’s not possible. I’m literally sleeping on a twin bed that’s been set up in the dining room since it’s a tiny 750sq ft one bedroom house. And my mom nor Mo work, so they NEVER LEAVE. And neither of them have much variety in the food they eat so I’ve had to adapt to eating much of the same bland poor southern shit I grew up with. Which is good occasionally but man. I can’t wait to have my own kitchen again and cook some Indian food. Or Mediterranean.

My goal is to have my own place by the first of August. Thats plenty of time to have the money for the first few months plus deposit. The biggest issue is not knowing what’s gonna be on the market. Rent, while not nearly as high as places like Chicago and Austin and huge cities like that, it’s still unreasonable for a single income person. Especially when that income is just under 40k a year, pre tax.

Anyway, my hope is that once I get moved into my own place I can finally have the energy and focus to do more creative shit. I have TONS of ideas written down but with no space to do any of them, it’s been depressing. I’ve got buttons and magnets and silly shit all in my big ass head. And not all of it is wrestling related.

Alright I’m gonna stop now. But yeah if anyone read all this I apologize haha. It’s not my usual shit of making jokes about AEW and posting too many pics of Chuck Taylor and Orange Cassidy.

[absolute-filth-factory]

I was already excited for the 23-24 season for the hawks and all of the new prospects coming up through the system, but the new every shift episode just made me more excited. I was originally kind of skeptical about the whole "taking dev camp off-ice" thing, but now I'm really glad they did it, for a lot of reasons.

Management actually gives a shit about the players!! I know that's like, basic human curtesy, but knowing a huge reason that Kyle Beach went through what he did was because management did not give a single shit about the players and only cared about the cup, it's a huge relief to see Davidson and Richardson being really supportive of the players and making decisions based on what's best for them, not just the hawks overall.

A big purpose of this camp was to allow the prospects to develop off-ice and get to see the city that they're (probably) going to be playing in within a couple years. I mean, they went to a Cubs game, took a boat tour on the Chicago river, took a cooking class, played floor hockey with a local boys and girls club, went to Second City (comedy club), and probably some other stuff I'm forgetting. Management isn't hanging them out to dry in that respect, and I am very glad for that.

Player interactions!! The episode was great in that it showed off so much personality, and it didn't just focus on the first-round draft picks, although of course they did get a bit more attention. We got to see a ton of different players doing things and interacting with one another, and it seems like the goal of team bonding was achieved. As Nazar said in the episode, you've got guys from America, Canada, overseas, and it's good that they're able to talk to each other and develop the kind of relationships and camaraderie that's necessary for a winning team (and also just really fun to watch). Sure, some of the players might have been up against each other in their league or in a tournament or maybe have been on the same team, but that's not really conducive to building team chemistry anyways.

Another two big reasons why they took the camp off-ice this year was to avoid causing or exacerbating injuries and to remove the stress of trying to perform well in a short period of time in front of management. I mean, these guys have already been playing hockey for a really long time, and scouts have already been watching and evaluating them, so why have them play high-stress, mostly meaningless hockey and put them at risk of somehow getting injured or making something worse. Yeah, you probably don't run into that many new injuries at dev camp (except for that kid up in Toronto who got a concussion the other day), but if players are trying to prove something to management, they're gonna be a lot more likely to play through something they should probably be leaving alone. It just seems like a better solution to me, and they're still going to be getting ice time in training camp in September.

Even though the camp was off-ice, the players were still doing a ton of conditioning. They boxed, did regular weight room stuff, probably some other things, and they took a class with Oduya on breathing techniques that can be used in a number of different ways. Richardson was directly involved in the boxing, too, which is great for a number of reasons, especially to help player-coach interactions.

Davidson seems to have a huge focus on culture and character, both in determining who he picks and how the players are expected to conduct themselves. There was a session on inclusion, from what I remember, and at the end of the episode, Davidson specifically brings up Moore talking about how the way Bedard carries himself has already affected him and the way he does things. That kind of thing is huge on any team, but I think it really shows that the hawks under Davidson are trying to create a good environment to play hockey and just be a team in, and it makes me really excited for the future of this team.

[cellsshapedlikestars]

I’m sure you’ve answered this before, but I scrolled through your Tumblr for an embarrassingly long time and wasn’t able to find a post on it so I thought I’d ask you (possibly, again) but please don’t feel any obligation to answer (which goes without saying), but: what is your secret? You’ve written 60 works in your fandom in 3 years — that’s insane! And they are such good quality writing! The prose, the plot, the dialogue, the characterization, everything. How do you do it? How do you find the time, because I assume you’re an adult with a job, etc. (this conclusion, dear reader, being the result of my aforementioned sleuthing) and how do you find the motivation? Sometimes I come back from work, and if I even manage to make it in before 8 pm, I’m still a zombie staring at the wall. Do you plot? Do you outline? If you outline, do you have a specific way of outlining? How long do you spend on a first draft? I’m sorry, I want to know EVERYTHING, because I’m so impressed, not just by your stories or your writing or your storytelling, but your CONSISTENCY — I’ve been writing 30 years and it takes me so so long to produce any type of writing (100 words can take me a whole week) . Having said that, obviously no pressure at all to answer this, in which case, just know that I find your writing magic 🥰

I feel like I've answered all of these in bits and pieces over the years.

answer below the cut cause it's kinda long

yes, I'm adult lmao, but an adult with a job where I'm high up enough that I often have a ton of excess time during the work day, which I'll use to write. Notice how my fics are usually updated on a Tuesday or Thursday? It's because I work from home those days. Now, does my job also have periods of intense stress where I end up not writing for a full week because my brain is too numb? Yes, absolutely.

on the topic of writing quckly, I've explained it like this before: when I'm doing something mundane like driving or showering or work or whatever, I think about my stories constantly, and therefore by the time I sit down to write, I've watched the movie version play out in my head dozens of times and so all I need to do is type it out. Writing is my creative outlet, stress relief, and therapy all in one.

Do I plot? In my head, absolutely. I always know the end of a story when I start it. How I get there may shift and change, but usually not the main plot points, and I've very rarely deviated from my original ending. The only one I can genuinely think of is help me out. The main killer changed about halfway through, as did what Jon chooses to do with his life at the end.

Do I outline? I try. My current outline for saddest summer is just "chapter 5 - festival". Like plotting, I tend to do it all in my head. If I type out an outline, it's a stream of conscious set of words and thoughts and possibly phrasing I want to use. there's no bullet points or anything like that

I'll be honest and say I don't really know what people ever mean by drafts. I just start writing the chapter and I'll usually reread what I've written before continuing to write, so the first part of a chapter is always the most edited. One shots I tend to write in one go, read it over once, then post it.

I've seen other people on here talk about writing like it's some elegant craft, whereas I feel like I throw a bunch of nonsense at the wall and call it art. I feel like my writing is as chaotic and random and last minute as my home renovations are, but somehow both always turn out alright. I'm really just here to have fun and hopefully other people can have fun reading what I write!

Also, you say 60 fics, but remember that 30 of them are one shots I did for events/prompts, and about 10 more are 2/3 chapters only. Also my stories in general tend to average about 10 chapters, which is also how I get so many written. I don't enjoy writing super long fics (though I have no problem reading longer fics?) When I was first starting out, I posted waaaayyyy more frequently, especially with the events here on Tumblr that aren't really a thing anymore. Now I average a chapter a week

[theawakenedstate]

I’m sure by now you may be having the question: what do I do After Kundalini awakening happens to me? I mean this was one of those questions that HAUNTED me for a while. It was a question I always had in the back of my mind. It wasn’t until my daughter was first born in 2015, I really started to have the slap in the face moment, by asking myself:

How can I Apply Spiritual Awakening back to my life?

I remember vividly this time because I was stressed the eff out with a Newborn and a toddler who was potty training. It was one of the least glamorous times in my life because not only was i sleep-deprived but I was also juggling a ton of things at once. I was starting my website/business, freelancing for a friend with not much pay, I was being a mother of two under two and I was definitely having a spiritual identity crisis ( maybe from sleep deprivation..who’s to say.) So I had a lot of what we call, “fuck this shit” moments and one of the most pivotal was when I really got on my knees and asked the Universe “what is the damn point of knowing spiritual enlightenment when my reality is feeling like shit right now?!” That was the real question – when i cooled down, it really translated to “What do I do after spiritual awakening? I understand secrets to the universe, I’ve had ego death, this is great and all but….how does this remotely connect to my physical life?!” Have you ever asked yourself this question? We hear all the live long day about the signs of awakening and the stages of awakening but what about WHAT DO I DO WITH IT?! What comes next?! And It was in those moments of surviving on hot pockets and breastfeeding, I began to realize, in shock, THAT WAS THE WHOLE FUCKING POINT. The whole point of spiritual awakening was to begin applying it back to my life. That was the real evolution i kept searching for…So I started reconnecting to my higher self and asking this question over and over again, until i started to get some clear answers.

AWAKENING IS A JOURNEY

I’m starting to write my Kundalini Awakening book and one of the biggest shifts has been realizing Spiritual Awakening is the Inner Hero’s Journey. If you’ve never heard of this concept before, it’s a theory of storytelling by Joseph Campbell where there are pivotal moments in every story that transform an ordinary person into the transformation of the Hero. This concept is written in almost ALL incredible books, media and cinema as we know it, IF you really pay attention. This is what makes any story into a PAGETURNING JAW-DROPPING MASTERPIECE. It’s the Hero’s journey.

Now I hear your ego pipe up “HERO” – This implies “specialness’ which is the EGO’S JOURNEY. Sit down, let me explain. The core process of Spiritual Awakening as I properly explain in my new Series “The Spiritual awakening roadmap” is that Hero is merely an archetype and there are different archetypes that illustrate properly your journey on the spiritual awakening path. After listening to nearly thousands or more people explain spiritual awakening and their own stories, there are SAME pivotal moments that occur on repeat for people. At this point, it’s safe to say, everyone who has a spiritual awakening experiences a time of being the Soul searcher, who is searching for their path. In the same regard, most people who have kundalini awakening experience Ego death or ego transcendence where their identity shifts and changes. That’s why I wanted to elaborate on each of these core common phases that we each experience. There are core archetypes we experience during spiritual awakening and I created the roadmap to understand them. You can sign up for that series below:

Fast forward from that moment with the baby, I began to realize: every download I received, every message that came to me, every synchronicity that hit me – it was all HELPING ME like silent angelic whispers improve my life. I began to listen to that inner voice(intuition/higher self) and I started to use that to begin creating realignment in my life. It wasn’t always easy but the intuitive nudges started becoming louder the MORE I ignored them, sound familiar? I began to apply spiritual principles back to my life. In yoga, we call this ‘taking the asanas of your yogic practice off the mat’. It means to take the mindfulness, Self-awareness, and enlightenment you possess and begin practicing it in the core elements of your life beyond just your spiritual practice. If you were to take a memory lane trip and read some of my earlier articles you will see JUST THAT. Articles on Applying spiritual awakening, the art of letting go, how to apply a mindful morning ritual into your life and so forth. At the end of the day, it doesn’t matter if you’re a Starseed, from the Orion constellation, or reincarnated Cleopatra….what matters deeply is WHAT ARE YOU DOING WITH IT?! AND ARE YOU LIVING FROM YOUR CORE VALUES?

Are you focused on what matters to you?

Because here’s the sad truth, that spiritual practice means hardly anything if after meditating you didn’t learn from that, period. You didn’t apply what you downloaded, you stayed in inaction or you froze because you received the message to do something wildly different than what you thought you should keep doing – even though you HATE IT and you STILL SETTLE. When I gave up my freelancing VA and graphic design job from my friend, it was HARD but necessary. I realized if I keep just doing work for everyone else I would be ALWAYS putting my dreams, my business, and my desires last. Looking back it was ridiculous, I was creating her facebook graphics, writing her crystal descriptions for her shop and writing up her copy for her social media platforms. Everything I wanted to start to do for my own work?! I got the download to quit. It wasn’t easy, it broke our friendship and I knew it was my aligned path to get me back to where i really wanted to go – making my own online business. It was my stepping stone to commit to my vision. If i didn’t listen to that nudge, you wouldn’t of even saw this blog today…our intuition is so fucking powerful.

Sometimes we don’t always realize that when choose to walk away from what no longer serves us, we might not even comprehend all the magic, abundance, and new opportunities that are on the other side of that.

This is exactly the power that occurs when you begin applying the spiritual principles back to your life, you start creating realignment in your everyday experiences.

Onward to the episode!

What I share in this week’s episode is the top three things you can do immediately after kundalini awakening to help you move forward and begin applying them back to your life.

In my opinion, if you’re not focused on these 3 things, you are missing out on vital steps on your spiritual journey that could DRASTICALLY help you. As I’ve practiced these 3 concepts, they have given me more peace of mind, Self-Acceptance, and more Present Awareness on who I am and even my purpose.

Tune into the Episode for a Full Download:

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so what do you think? Which of the 3 concepts really pulled at your soul? If you’re NOT new to spiritual awakening, what were YOUR OWN Top three things you’ve applied that have drastically helped you? Share with us in the community comments to help support others!

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What to Do After Kundalini Awakening?

I’m sure by now you may be having the question: what do I do After Kundalini awakening happens to me? I mean this was one of those questions that HAUNTED me for a while. It was a question I always had in the back of my mind. It wasn’t until my daughter was first born […]

[ontaworks]

May Update + Demographic Shift

Hello once again!

My name is Eric, and I have made a further update regarding my independent studio known as Gadeton. Let’s begin shall we?

So first and foremost, What is Gadeton exactly?

Unless you have read the “About” page on my website please skip this if you already know it.

If you can tell by the name of my studio, Gadeton is an independent studio made by me as it is considered to be the evolution of my past independent studios such as Quixolite, Kixubug, you name them all (though I really don’t like mentioning my past independent studios names by the way). As you can tell by the slogan for my independent studio, the slogan is “Retrofuturism of Entertainment”, which implies that one of my illustrations as well for my art style is heavily inspired from the art style in the late 90s to the 2000s. I’ve decided for my independent studio to focus more on quality rather than quantity. Since making too many series would be a time-consuming task to create from comics, to anything that would give me quite some stress.

So I have the opportunity of creating something that I could come up with from one of my experiences through my childhood and others that I could think through my mind. I’ve been drawing a ton of illustrations for a decade and boy it was a wild ride to have me experience this.

I’ve been working hard on one of my projects like Nachinko Buckets for example, in which it is planned to be released once I get the pilot of the script done, so I can start animating the pilot episode of the series.

However, there is something that I need to discuss that's been coming through my mind lately.

I was thinking of shifting the demographic of my independent studio to a more older demographic somewhere that is between the preteens (8-12) and the teens/young adult demographic (13-21). For what I have gather I was originally going to make my independent studio to focus more on the action, but I decided to scrap it in favor of a style that would take some influence from companies like 2Spot Studios for example and a ton of Newgrounds animations as well for the illustrations from the 2000s as well as many DeviantArt artist from the 2000s that have a similar style as well.

As a result of the demographic being shifted to a more slightly older audience, there will be some changes to one of my future projects, and here is a list of everything.

Fierwood and my other future project are merged to form The Renenocks!

That’s right, my project Fierwood as well for my other future project featuring my character such as Monelope, Natochi, etc. are being merged back into The Renenocks. Meaning that I reverted my project back to Renetack. The reason why I made this decision is that I find the two of them to be quite similar to one another and the fact that the other future project set to be release in 2024 or later would not reach its quality and I deemed that this project seems to be too similar to Nachinko Buckets and the fact that demographic of my project did not reach its potential standards than I expected to be. So I decided to give myself the opportunity to merge the two together once again, and bring back three characters Boltrice, Innoton (now renamed Isaac), and Omeliot (now renamed Ollie). But this time, I decided to make it quite different as Isaac is now the main protagonist of my series with Boltrice and Ollie being the secondary protagonist as well. I also plan on rewriting most of the personalities and traits to all three of them, while giving Boltrice and Ollie a few traits from an old project back in 2019 known as Synthetic Charms, the project that the two originated from.

Here are the new designs for Boltrice, Isaac, and Ollie, which can be seen down below.

I’m planning on reposting most of my characters that I drew on social media as well as updating their bios on my DeviantArt page. If you want more information about this project, please contact me on my other social media accounts as well as using my email. Let’s go on to the next change.

Further changes to Nachinko Buckets

As a result of me shifting the demographic to my independent studio, Nachinko Buckets will have some minor changes to the project as listed down below:

An unnamed minor French kid antagonist and Crunch are removed from the series I believe that the unnamed French kid antagonist was deemed to be too similar to Nerdy from A Day with Bowser Jr, and as for Crunch, I just don’t find Crunch to be that interesting to me as he feels like a carbon copy to Lorne from Kid vs. Kat.

Valentina Vinci and Heather Cameron will be moved to the role as voicing additional voices for each of the side or background characters in the show as a result of the removal of a minor French kid antagonist and Crunch.

I’m planning to rewrite some of the character’s personalities since I find some of the characters to be either too cliche, stereotypical, or rather too similar to my characters for one of my future projects.

Most of the surreal nature to the series is removed entirely, but parodies and references are still present though. The reason why the surreal nature is removed from the series is because of the changes that I made to the main location of Nadoville, as it doesn’t have any surreal nature to it anymore, though it still keeps the strange nature to it as many of the rules in the city is still strange akin like Wayside School.

Nanopia has been renamed to Nadoville

I think that’s pretty much it for all of the changes that I made for one of my two projects as a result of the demographic shift. To sum that up, I just wanted to try something new in order for me to achieve the quality that many creators out there that have their passion on their project and I could agree with anyone that do support independent creators throughout the world with animation studios such as Glitch Productions and other independent animators around the world, as well as indie game developers like Matt Makes Games and others that have their passion as well. So I want to focus more on the quality of one of my projects and hope it will be a hit for many audiences around here and knowing that it will reach the quality that I would expect to see for my future projects.

So with that out of the way, I hope you understand my decision to shift the demographic to a slightly older audience while keeping all of my projects safe for work. If you have any further questions please contact me via email or one of my social media accounts.

Anyways, I’ll see you then.

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[bonesandthebees]

Bee... help... I'm reading a fic and it turns out it's a lot sadder than I thought. And I'm only on chap 6 out of 18... sad hours open. Do you know any happier ones?? Halp...

On a lighter note, constellations and SoC are wonderful!

I was so excited when I saw that constellations was apart of the Stars Universe (one of my favorites). It was kinda funny seeing Phil go from "he's just a pawn, I can use this" to "huh, he's got guts and some smarts, how interesting" to the beginnings of "if anything happens to him, I will kill everyone in this room". My favorite part of Stars was when after the Breakdown and it suddenly becomes official that Phil's favorite is Wilbur and he shows that I the best ways possible for a king/Ruler, ei a room in the private quarters was the biggest one as well as a seat at Phil's table, unlimited access to his audience, and being able to speak casually with him. The Breakdown and everything afterwards is Phil expressing how much he genuinely cares about Wilbur, which speaks volumes to not just Wilbur and Tommy, but EVERYONE else in the palace. One more thing that I loved was that when Phil moved Wilbur to the private room, he though to keep Jack as Wilburs guard, most likely because he saw or heard from Jack himself that Wilbur was more comfortable with him than anyone else. Stars is definitely a favorite of mine and if you do end up doing more in Phil's or anyone's POV for that matter, I will more than eager to see what you come up with.

I plan on doing another ask soon about SoC soon, but I gtg.

I hope you had a happy Memorial Day!

-AlterEgo

uhh if you want fic recs from me you might need to be a little more specific lol (also I don't read a TON of fics so. not the best person to ask probably oops)

god yeah I love phil's slow development in stars as he shifts from having fun toying with wilbur and scaring the shit out of him, to wanting to mentor him and seeing him as a tool, to growing to fully care and love him as his own son. they make me so aaaaaaa

one of the reasons I was so excited to write the Breakdown was because of how it would shift the phil and wilbur dynamic. I was so ready for phil to just fully claim wilbur as his favorite while wilbur was still losing his mind in the corner bc of his paranoia

jack didn't say shit to phil, but phil was able to figure out that jack and wilbur were very close just through noticing their interactions. I like to think that at some point he overheard jack call him wilbur instead of orpheus and realized there was no way he'd do that unless wilbur gave him permission to use his personal name, which could only mean the two were close. then he decided "alright wilbur gets jack in the brother breakup"

ty alterego tbh I had a stressful memorial day weekend just bc i had a lot of personal stuff to do but we're good now!

[periwinkle-picots]

hello :) I was looking up Rigel Black posts on tumblr and found your ask talking about the story you wanted to write but never did. I can’t stress enough how much I loved it and would 100% read. I love longer, more complex RBC fanfics, specially when they’re angsty. And it diverges from the original story’s plot. So pretty much the one you described lol so I’m just here to say that your idea is incredible and you seem really passionate about it which could only result in an amazing piece. Just here to say I support it <3

Hi fellow angst lover, thanks for your ask! ^_^

I'm happy to to hear that you like the idea for Project PR! It really is an AU that I would like to try writing at some point, I just need to clear a writing slot for it first.

I try to limit myself to only having four active WIPs posted ln my ao3 at a time (I've got three right now, with the fourth slot currently reserved for the sequel to Blood Champion's Vow— which is stuck in the outlining stage at the moment). This is because I don't want to post all the ideas I have (which are so, so many), only to abandon them after a couple of chapters and leave people with a ton of unfinished fics from me. 😔

This doesn't mean I'm only writing for the WIPs I have published right now, though. That would be exercising too much self-control! XD

I've got like, 8 one-shots I'm working on at the moment for the RBC, and 3 more that are only at the idea-stuck-in-my-mind stage, and 4 on the backburner simmering until they decide to be good fics.

On top of those, I've also got 2 long-fics that refused to wait their turn to be written, and so already have a couple of chapters each waiting around for a posting slot to open.

Project PR might just join those two long-fics in stealing away my focus during writing time, though, because I've been in an angst kick recently, and this AU would be simply delightful to work on. (Was I thinking about this AU while at work today? Yes, yes I was.) Besides, figuring out all the ways this AU will diverge from canon could be a great way to ignore the fics I should work on, right? -_^

So, yeah, let's shift Project PR from the thinking-about-writing-eventually stage over to the Box-For-Word-Thieves.

Thanks for your interest in this AU, fellow angst lover! Hopefully it'll turn out to be an enjoyable read! 💖

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Okay, so I wait tables and bartend for a living, and worked New Year’s Eve dinner for the second year at my first real non-corporate, independent neighborhood restaurant and bar.  The holiday season both last year and this year had shitshow experiences with things that we couldn’t control.  Last year, in mid-December, our coffee machine/hot water dispenser broke, meaning we couldn’t make our own coffee or iced tea and whenever people ordered hot tea, which was often, especially for hot toddies, whoever was bartending would have to heat up the water on a Bunsen burner.

This year, I come in at three.  It’s not too bad, except I don’t really know what the game plan is, when we switch to dinner.  We have a lot of covers considering that we’re, again, a pretty small restaurant and can only accommodate so many people at once.  We also have at most four servers on at a time and only one bartender to both take care of the bar guests and do service bartending, and at most one host.  So we have some disgruntled guests angry that we can’t accommodate them as much, especially given that for dinner we have a prix-fixe menu and can make exceptions only for a couple of dishes and for kid’s menu items.  The amount of covers increase to sixty-five as more people start panicking and making last-minute plans, and we start chanting “Four more!  Four more!  Four more!” and then a party of seven makes a reservation over the phone and we have to start playing Tetris with the three restaurant sections.  We correctly assume that the patio won’t be as popular.  I take the front section of the front room, fully prepared to be the closing server.  I will be.

The energy feels almost uncomfortable.  People are seething that we have too many reservations to have walk-ins, bar gets crowded, but it feels more uncomfortable than hectic.  But then it happens.  The shitshow.

Our water line breaks, which completely floods the bar with three inches of water, and floods the front room.  Our host has to abandon post to help clean it up, and the water keeps coming so I take over hosting duties in addition to looking after my section.  Our bar manager is MOD tonight, and he has a high threshold for bullshit but is the most stressed I’ve ever seen him.  He bought a nice new pair of shoes that are now ruined.  Our bartender nearly gets hurt a couple of times.  We have an on-call repairman named Bruce who comes in and stops the water, but clearly something’s wrong with how much water is on the floor.  I’m still waiting on and seating people, who are noticing the issue.  Our bar manager’s girlfriend and her family are one of my tables, and they’re thankfully pretty unfazed/sympathetic.  

My neighbors across the street come in and they probably notice how tense I am and that something’s wrong, and I admit that “there has been a minor technical issue” and I end up waiting on them.  By this point, no more water is seeping in and our host and repair guy, not to mention our bar manager, have helped soak up a fair amount of the flooding.  Our bartender, of course, has been a bit busy making a shit ton of drinks both for the bar and a fully packed restaurant.

It’s a nightmare but we get through it, because in the service industry the only way out of it is through it.  I can kind of see the humor in how we ended the year doing our best managing a crisis.  It’s a little cathartic, honestly.  We’re closed tomorrow and Monday, and on Monday I’m turning thirty, so this is not only our last shift of the year but my last shift there in my twenties.  My co-workers who are in their thirties assure me that things get better in your thirties, and I hope so.  Twenty-nine sucked.  I got a few creative things done but I also know eight people who died this year.  Our kitchen make us a nice family meal out of the extra items on our prix-fixe menu that included prime rib, porchetta, mashed potatoes, stewed cannellini beans, rapini, brussels sprouts, mushrooms, and au jus and we all, back and front of house, toast to a difficult shift we managed to get through and to a new year.  I’ve never had porchetta or prime rib before this, and both are great--I’ve worked at a lot of restaurants where the food is either overrated or just kind of mediocre, but where I work takes pride in their food and as shitty as the evening has been, it’s been a good bonding experience.  As we clean up and close down we all have prosecco and/or tequila and/or Jameson and talk for a bit before we lock up and head home, feeling palpable relief that we were able to get through the night and feeling tougher for it.