#which is weird because i don't listen to it that much

[earlycuntsets]

06/11/2004 equal music interview with gerard by danielle moskowitz

"When Warner Brothers/Reprise invited me to come talk with Gerard from My Chemical Romance about their new album at their record release show, how could I have refused?

The show was in their home state of NJ, packed with 1300 cheering fans. What made the show even cooler for me was featured artist, Nightmare of You was on the bill too! (NOY is still currently unsigned and have been playing with My Chem. Good for them!) I love when Equal Music bands get together!

Is their latest apart of a trilogy? Front man Gerard explains. He also reveals what why it didn't turn out to be the concept record they had planned it to be and what are they doing in Tokyo with The Beastie Boys? (Original interview from Oct. 31, 2003 follows this latest one from June)

DM: When we spoke last you guys were shopping for a producer. Who did you wind up working with and why?

Gerard: We wound up working with Howard Benson. A big reason was because he contacted us which is always very exciting. He was very enthusiastic about the project. It's not so much that he got what world we came from because he's worked with bands like P.O.D. and Blindside which is a completely different universe but he got what we were trying to do with the music and so we connected on a lot of levels.

DM: How was this experience different from working with Alex (Eyeball Records) and Geoff (Thursday [Island/Def Jam]) front man?

Gerard: That whole experience was hanging with friends and having a really fun time. There wasn't a lot of money or pressure. But then this experience didn't have that much pressure either which was weird. It was very a positive experience that had a really good flow. But yeah it was very different.

DM: You said in October that while you were finishing the first record you knew what you wanted the second one to be called (which is their latest, Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge) and at the time since you knew the name for the second one you had an idea for what you wanted the third record to be called, although there's not going to be a trilogy so how do you know? Where's the connection with that?

Gerard: It's the kind of connection where you kind of always have a sense of what you're band is doing and where it's headed. I think we have a good idea of kind of like what the first record should be.It should be fast and dirty and cheap. Then the second one you really up the ante and really go for it with this one. The third one you try to explore new avenues. We ended up doing a lot of that on this record. We actually ended up being way more experiemantal than we thought we were going to be. It sounded good to us so we said let's keep doing it.

DM: To jump ahead, do you know what the next one's going to be called?

Gerard: From this experience I learned I shouldn't do that anymore because it locks you into something. And this record wound up being half a concept record because so much happened in our lives that when it came time to write lyrics I found out that it was less ficiton and more fact. So it's a very loose concept record. I want to see what happens for the third one and actually not plan anything out. I think that will be interesting because- it's not that we're calculated but we always kind of know where we're headed and kind of vibe on it. For the next one I kind of don't want to have that.

DM: What kind of mood do you feel like the new album has?

Gerard: I just started listening to it as a piece now, not just bits here and there it's really about loss. The first record was more about pain, misery and agression and violence. Although the lyrics can be disturbing at points, it's really about loss. In the end that's what it wound up being more about instead of some story. You can pick it out of at least four or five of the songs. Even the performances that everyone gives too makes it feel like it's really about loss.

DM: Do you feel like it's dark?

Gerard: Yeah. It's already been called that by a lot of people. We got a parental advisory without even having more than one curse in it. I think it's dark but I think it's a lot more positive than the first record.

DM: Yeah, I remember you saying that you felt the ups were going to be more up and the downs more down.

Gerard: Yeah and they really ended up being like that. But, there's definitely more moments of positivity and celebration than on the first record.

DM: What are some of difference of working with an indie and working with a major?

Gerard: This record was really painless so I can't truthfully answer that as a band that's in our position. We are really rare case of-- it was very similar to the first record where we did exactly what we wanted and luckily because they knew who we were when they signed us that's exactly what they wanted. There wasn't much of a difference other than the fact that there was obviously a lot more deadlines and a lot more pressure to get things done on time. That was the big difference but that was actually it.

DM: You're going to Tokyo soon for Summer Sonic Fest. You must be excited.

Gerard:Yeah, it's awesome, we get to play with The Beastie Boys and I've never seen them.

DM: What's going on for you guys for the rest of the year?

Gerard: Pretty much straight touring till the record cycle is over. It's usually about eighteen months from the time you start a record until you're done touring on it and should be starting a new one. There's already stuff I really want to write. I want to start immediately. As soon as we finished this I wanted to just do another. We're very much a live band but at the same time you get in the studio and you remember you're very much all songwriters and we had forgotten that part of us. I'm still in that head fix where I want to write more songs.

DM: Maybe you can still do that while you're on the road.

Gerard: Yeah, we plan to do it on Warped Tour. It will be our first time really on a bus so we're going to have more space and we'll be comfortable. Right ater that we're going back to a van so Warped Tour is really going to be the time that we write.

danielle moskowitz october 31, 2003 (2nd interview below)

Juxtaposing raw vocals and a punk edge against riffs suddenly gone melodic, My Chemical Romance takes you from upbeat drumming in one measure to a moment where you find yourself lost in slow, somber guitars the next. Listen closely as their vocalist Gerard reveals glimpses of himself through his brutally honest lyrics that hold traces of darkness around them.

DM: The bands success seems to have come very quickly. How long were you a band before signing to Eyeball Records?

Gerard: Let’s see—January is when we started playing as a band. We signed around our third or fourth show. It’s been quick since the beginning.

DM: What were you doing with your lives before the band took off?

Gerard: I was doing animation in the city [New York]. I was actually doing toy design in Hoboken [New Jersey], and Frankie was going to school, Mikey was going to school, Otter was a mechanic, and Ray was delivering film I believe and interning and stuff like that for film. We all just weren’t happy doing what we were doing, ya know?

DM: Geoff from the band Thursday and Alex from Eyeball [Records] I know played a big part in the recording of your last CD.

Gerard: Yeah, definitely.

DM: Are they going to be playing any part on your CD that will be coming out?

Gerard: I don’t think so. Sometimes you want to use the same people sometimes you want to see what would happen with other people. I’m sure they’ll hear it and we’ll ask their opinions.

DM: So they’re not going to help produce?

Gerard: Nah.

DM: What made you guys decide that a major was the next best move?

Gerard: It was one of those things where everything else was moving really fast but we had been able to keep up with it, ya know? We had been able to keep up with the shows that we were getting which were like going from playing basements to playing in front of 10,000 people with Jimmy Eat World. So it went from that to that, and it seemed like a very natural progression. And although a lot of people think it seemed quick, all that talk and all that nonsense was happening before our record even came out. It was like, we basically not fought them off, but said hey we’re going to be a band and do that, ya know? And then when we’re ready…Actually it was a lot longer process than most bands that are getting signed today.

DM: What made Reprise the best label for you guys?

Gerard: It was the best company. They were very familiar with us. We had a lot of fans at the company before we had signed. We had a lot of people helping out before we had signed.

DM: And they understand where you guys wanted to go musically, as a band?

Gerard: Yeah, exactly. That was the big thing. They knew where we wanted to go, they knew how we wanted to do things, and they were going to let us do it our way. Very low pressure type thing. Just kind of let us be us and you distribute us.

DM: When is the new album due out?

Gerard: We’re hoping it will come out in about in about spring. We’re going to record in January. We don’t have a producer yet. We’re looking at a few people and they’re looking at us. So it’s kind of that whole game right now.

DM: Do you have a title yet?

Gerard: Yeah, it’s called Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge. And it was a title that… we pretty much known the title for the first record before it was finished and as soon as we were done with that I kind of knew what I wanted the title to be for the second. So it’s kind of in the process where I kind of know what I want the third to be too.

DM: Is it a trilogy type thing?

Gerard: No. This one’s different from the last and it’s more fictitious, but it’s still heartfelt. And it’s more of a concept record than the last one, where the last one was more of an autobiography. But the next one’s more of a concept album about a person; the next one after that I don’t what know what it will be.

DM: While you guys have been on tour you’ve been playing new songs live and they seem to be heavier. Would you say that is the direction you guys are going in?

Gerard: Well, yeah. The heavier stuffs heavier. The heavy stuff we did before is definitely heavier now. Those same elements are there; we’re just spending a little more time on the heavy stuff. But at the same time I think there’s way more melody. Maybe not in the stuff we’re playing out live, but it’s more violently happy. But it’s also very ironically bleak ya know, as far as tone goes.

DM: Track seven on your CD [I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love] is called Skylines and Turnstiles. Is it true that it was inspired by September 11?

Gerard: Yeah, and in fact that event happening was a big thing about why we started the band because, I was on my to a meeting with Cartoon Network and then that happened and I was like what the fuck am I doing with my life.

DM: You saw it happen? You were in the city?

Gerard: Yeah, I was in Hoboken, on the way there. I was right across the river and I was on my way in right around that, very close to that area, but more around Canal, and I was like what the fuck am I doing?

DM: It made you feel like life’s too short and you need to go for what you want?

Gerard: Yeah, yeah exactly. Like obviously life is way too short, you don’t know when your numbers coming and I also felt like I wasn’t making a difference at all, ya know what I mean?

DM: There are a couple theories circulating about your repeated mention of vampires in your lyrics. Can you clear that up?

Gerard: It’s a metaphor for being in your twenties and getting sucked into that singles, alcoholic nightlife culture, ya know what I mean? It’s interesting, because you’ll find that a lot of bands use the supernatural as a gimmick, and that’s really all it is, it’s just like horror punk, and that’s all it is. We’re not really into vampires. I like to wear black, but…

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[melissa-titanium]

i probably look fucking crazy but. "kicked out of the nowhere" ln au .

SERA IF YOU SEE THIS HI MY FRIEND THANKUOU FOR LISTENING TO MY RAMBLE <3

both of them are like. late teenage years in this one. dw im not being weird about it i hate when aus do this shit for the sole purpose of making it romantic/weird. id say 15-16

six ; i think bcos shes taller and shit she couldn't exactly. wear the raincoat anymore. so somewhere along the line she and mono picked it apart and turned it into something else on her outfit -- pants? shirt? i dont know, but that's why her shorts are yellow. she kept her hair short like it is in canon because growing it out is uncomfortable and way too warm for her comfort. also sensory shit from having hair against the back of her neck. after leaving the nowhere she wears a big ass hoodie. it's more efficient than a raincoat because raincoats are LOUD AS HELL.!!!!!!! but still has a similar feeling to her raincoat AND has pockets :) crocs are. well. crocs. if you know me you know. i actually dont think they would be all that efficient when it comes to walking around but . idk. i think she would just carry them around for the purpose of walking around more safely if the ground is hard or something she's just as quiet as she usually is. over the years of living in the nowhere i think six has actually gone on to be the more physically adept of the two. we obviously know she's way faster than him, but his time in canon implies he's got more physical strength in his arms than her. i think this changes over time -- the reason she's so sickly & weak at the start of the game (not even fast enough to catch up to mono really!) is bcos of her lack of confidence and how long she spent in the cabin. the longer she stays with mono honing her skills she goes back to kicking ass. after a while, she can lift hammers with much more ease than mono can and she probably pokes fun at him for it. HOWEVER, he eventually gets that growth spurt which allows him to run faster thsn her (long legs. holy shit hes gangly) and he pokes fun at her for being short.

mono ; longer hair. he's got No Nutrients so his hair grows real slow so hes basically never cut it. he likes it longer bcos . opposite of six! he is Always Cold. like naturally cold but its still uncomfortable. SERA I SAID THIS 2 U ALSO but i think he's a walking relic. his only exposure to people, real people, is people on tvs. considering the sounds and general theme of all the stuff in the pale city/ads and stuff, i think its safe to say he only has reference of the real world from like. western 60's-90's. both him and six i imagine have severely poor language comprehension and grammar but if he DOES talk he probably talks like a kid trying to imitate their businessman father from the 70's. and as such; he dresses like his wardrobe is a time capsule. his outfits r still dark and cover his limbs but he looks like a total dork. fucking overalls and shit LOL. i don't have any ideas for face coverings at the moment but maybe he wears sunglasses & a face mask if he sees it necessary? i very genuinely feel like he'd be fine without face coverings. most people would think he's a cosplayer, seeing as he's kind of sickly looking (basement dweller appearance) with like eye contacts or some shit. idk

also funny thing id like 2 mention. their genders are Strange. when you live in the nowhere, "society" isnt exactly "pushing gender norms" onto you. chat what the fuck is a he/him? i only know Running From Monsters . in my previous notes for what they'd be like in the real world (seen below) i think this would be a very funny thing 2 explore . someone refers to six as maam and she completely ignores them (doesnt know what that means. six internal monologue voice All i am is Six so freaking call me Six) ((they're still little kids at heart i dont think they'd like to swear))

more notes here

[foundfamily-connoisseur]

Perhaps it's an odd question but since you speak the language you'd know a lot more than I do. Does Don Flamenco speak with any particular accent or dialect outside of just general 'Spanish?' I know a lot of languages vary heavily in terms of things like pronunciation and certain word usage. Main reason I ask is because I saw someone discuss elsewhere how despite speaking French that Glass Joe is very obviously voiced by a Francophone Canadian because of the pronunciation and accent. It's something that fascinated me since I don't know the language enough to be able to make that kind of distinction, and now I'm curious if any of the other foreign opponents have that kind of accent that's obvious to an actual speaker but would go over the head of someone who isn't fluent

Took me a bit and had to ask my mom for some input since she's more knowledgeable about dialects than I am.

For sure the biggest thing was the accent. First sentence in and the big thing about Castilian Spanish is how they pronounce their s and z sounds respectively.

Like the phrase "has visto hombre?" In Spain Spanish, there's a bit of a lisp (varies from how noticeable it is, I'd say moreso if you speak Spanish predominantly) that is sounds more like "hash vishto hombre?"

He doesn't speak a lot of varied words where pronunciation distinctions are made, like 'corazon'(which he'd have pronounced as 'corathon'), and I'm not good at explaining i fear 😔

I think aside from the accent, the gotcha moment is for sure "me has pillado!" That's is for sure exclusively Castilian Spanish, as i haven't heard anyone (both family as Mexicans and friends from Panama, Columbia, and Puerto Rico, and Peru) use that word.

Some things aren't exactly exclusively used in one country or another (and we start getting into my personal preference) but more of a "this works, but would probably use a different word instead":

"Has visto, hombre?" This could work for other forms of Spanish, but id probably change it to "has visto, güey?" For Mex Spanish.

"Me llamen Don, Don Flamenco" This also works but I find it so weird to say. I'd just change "llamen" to "dicen", although ma reports either works and comes down to personal preference.

So yeah he's very much a Spaniard if his looks weren't enough, but from what I've seen Don Flamencos va is from Spain and does a lot of Spain Spanish dubs, so they got him down pretty good.

Bonus: 'Don' is a Spanish Title and was usually reserved for nobility, but nowadays is more relaxed and used as a more polite title for someone you aren't exactly in familiar terms with, but are friendly/cordial nonetheless. It's sort of like an honorific similar to Sir or Mam, but used with the forename instead of the surname. I've seen it used more in Mexico(It's used more for older folks who can teeter onto the elderly, so it's funny that Don Flamenco uses it since he's only 23 lmao, but im probably looking at it in a more modern/Mexican American context)

Uhhh yeah I don't think I ended up making sense because it's very much a "he just is man. Listen to that. Lil Spaniard boy. Cmon say "Traición" i won't laugh i promise" but it's as clear as day he's Spanish lol

[beef-brisket]

((Smooth Luci lol))

Lucifer: I'm just saying~.

Adam rolled his eyes as Lucifer walked into the bathroom to freshen up.

Lucifer: You don't have to listen to Charlie. You don't have to give that fucker another chance.

Adam looked down: I know. He has been different... not that I've seen him much. I don't even know why it affected me so badly- I'm fucking Adam! I've done worse shit than that! I've seen worse... why the fuck do I care if he's here?

Lucifer walked out of the bathroom and shut the door.

Lucifer: Well... did you feel happy with him?

Adam: Yeah, I guess... he comforted me whenever we had a fight. He even saved me from a sinner trying to stab me. I just... I don't know...

Lucifer: He looked after you when you were his, know hates you because you aren't. Envy demons are weird like that. Especially the dragon kind.

Adam: Does he hate me, though? He hasn't... done anything. And when I see him, he's almost pleasant.

Lucifer raised an eyebrow: Almost?

Adam: It's hard to explain. His was in the kitchen with me that day you went to talk to Bambi. And he just did his coffee and was going through something on his phone. He asked a question, and I answered, even if it didn't feel like he was asking anyone specifically.

Lucifer: ...maybe bambi's been over working him.

Adam: He doesn't overwork Husk or that psycho bitch.

Lucifer laughed: I guess not. Oh well, let's not worry about them. It's up to you hie to interact with Steve, and if that's not at all, that's fine to.

Adam smiled as Lucifer got under the covers. They gave eachother a quick kiss, which slowly turned into something more.

Craig sat on Steve's bed, looking over his sleeping form. He was still figuring out how to deal with him, but he was in no rush.

Vox hires him for a reason, and it's because he's good at what he does. Who knows, maybe Alastor will work him to the bone before he even gets a chance to do anything to Steve.

He goes to leave, but Steve's arms shoot out and gently grasp Craig's hand.

Steve: Don't leave... please... y-you can sleep here, of you'd like. I just... don't want to be alone.

Craig stared down at him before smiling softly.

Craig: Alright. I'll stay~.

Steve At The Hotel

@beef-brisket

Lucifer smiled at Adam as he rested in bed, hands on his pregnant belly. It was hard to believe that they were going to have twins and just got married.

Finally, they were with their soulmate after all the bull shit they went through.

Finally they can relax.

-

Steve smiled at the radio demon he was so excited to start working for him.

Alastor gave Steve a room key for his room at the hotel.

Steve: Thank you Mr Alastor sir. I won’t let you down.

Alastor smiled: Oh I know you won’t.

[eri-pl]

Do you have any thoughts about the voices of the other Ainur maybe? Because it's fascinating to hear you describe this stuff

Ooooh thank you for this ask!

How do I answer it in a satisfying way without starting to happily ramble about things even more beyond my rambling ability? I'll try.

Varda has a high voice but not shrieking. Her voice is rich, not hollow like Melkor's. While his would be like a trumpet, her would be something clearer, but still I would say a wind instrument. Piercing, but clear, cold but not icy. I'm bad with instruments. Or maybe a violin. If we could imagine something that sounds like a violin but also a bit woodwindy…. Or if a flute could be really loud. With an intense but controlled emotion underneath, until she would release it. Like a very technically good singer-actress.

Arien would be similar, but with the emotions fully present. Just in contrast to other fire spirits it's not rage. Or at least it's a holy kind of rage? Also, her voice is a bit lower. Still a soprano but less insane in scale.

BTW I forgot to include the "their choices were like instruments" part on the previous ask.

Manwë must sound like a wind instrument, obviously, and I would say a woodwind, because they sound less demanding and more kind. Middle pitch, one of those who disappear easily, though in the Second Theme he was one of the main singers, so… what's the woodwind analogue of a cello? Clarinet? But clarinet sounds as if it had a cold. :( Also, birdlike. So, yes, maybe a clarinet.

I do have a bit of a problem with Manwë, because he is the king, but also he is rather … not passive, but how do I say it? Not very attention-grabbing. It would have to be one of the difficult to compose parts where the melody is belowe part of the accompanyment. It's hard to not let it disappear, but it can be done.

OK, if we just assume that it's him and Varda together, it's much easier.

Eonwë would be probably like a kind of trumpet anyway, or a French horn maybe? Something military-like. Relatively high, a tenor to say it in human terms. Very orderly, no chromatic notes (I don't think Manwë did them either).

Ulmo is the ultimate bass. He is the lowest of the lowest, like the deep sea. Not adding to the melody, not easily noticeable but he is the one that tells us which chord are we doing (except inversions). He…. sets the tone, to say it simply.

Aulë is also rather low, but not as low. And I would say he is always in the bechground (especially because Melkor stole a huge part of his spotlight), he is a supporting instrument. In orchestra terms, I would say a timpani, because all the banging sounds of smithing. And I like timpani. And if not this, anyway he would be like a pitched percussion, something metal, tubular bells? (Also, Mairon is totally a metal... glockenspiel? something like this. Or the glass thing? One of those with very clear, somewhat child-like tone, and very pretty.)

Nienna goes between rather high and middle tone, but she generally joins others, harmonizes to others instead of trying to create her own melody. She adds the chromatic tones, but lessens the conflict between melodic lines. In terms of instruments, probably a viola. Very lyrical.

Yavanna… I don't know, I don't like her too much, she of all the Valar has most of the Elvish "I don't like it whe things end" energy. Relatively loud, high but rich, and not as high as Varda. Less like an instrument and more like a wordless voice. A lot of emotion in the voice, primal, protective, pained sometimes.

Námo. I have no idea. Very few parts, mostly silence, but when he sings it's important. Like a piano that only plays at the cadences or half-cadences at least. And just like a piano he is not extra loud, but he is impossible to not notice. In terms of vocal, very controlled, emotionless, with the frustrating clenched throat thing that tells you "yes, if anyone here knows anything about making music this song will have a reprise because this tension has to go somewhere".

Vaíre. (Does she have the accent even?) By visual association, it should be something with strings. So probably cello. Mostly background, but a more interesting kind of background than Aulë got.

Irmo. I need to learn those accents one day… Something swingy, but less obnoxious than a saxophone. Relatively high voice, but not outstandingly high.

Este. Something quiet, for sure. In terms of human voices, an alto. In terms of instruments, something quiet but with a muffling effect on others? More like brown noise than actual instrument, but no, it needs to be a proper instrument. So something with a "dirty" tone but not ugly or ominous? Again in terms of singing, imagine an alto with a sore throat, this effect, how do you call it? The way it changes your voice.

Oromë is medium pitched, and horn-like. Most of his melody is just trying to block Melkor and his lackeys. That's what he does. He's good at it. I'm not sure what this means exactly in terms of music, probably doubling the important (and most in conflict with Melkor) chord tones.

Vána would have a high but not extra high voice, and very birdlike, playful. In terms of instruments imagine as if those clay birds that you pour water into could do a melody. Her song is laughter-like.

Oh, and the more "primitive" four (Oromë, Vána, Nessa and Tulkas) are, I would say, Singing in a pentatonic scale that is a subset of the general key. In lay terms: they are singing in harmony with the others, but simpler. I would probably ass a tangent about scales at the end.

Tulkas is a bass, of course, but not as low as Ulmo. He is loud and simple, but well harmonized with the others. He does maybe get a tad too loud when trying to sing over Melkor. Maybe.

Nessa is very staccato (a lot of short notes), like halfway between singing, laughter and a xylophone. Medium to high tone.

OK, so now about scales.

First we have the pentatonic scale (For example: C, D, F, G, A). It's simple, has only 5 notes and you can't get a dissonance or anything very "ugly" when playing just it. This also means it can't create much tension, you can't have a lot of emotion, or a satysfying climax to a melody. I imagine the First Theme as pentatonic scale. Not necessarily very literarly in terms of real music (Tolkien would say I cannot), but in terms of the general... vibe? I would approximate its nature by the concept of a pentatonic scale.

Then we have the normal major or minor scale. The white keys, basically. Using those it is possible to mess up, because they do have some dissonances between scale tones (B-F, B-C and E-F especially). And for the very same reason, you can have tension. you can have emotion. And you can have a resolution, because you can have a dissonance and then resolve it (move it into a consonance in a way that is satysfying).

Major scale is the scale that goes from C, it's typically considered happy and more powerful. Minor scale starts from A, and is considered more sad. But it's more complex than that.

Also, chords: again we have minor and major (and others)

major chords are chords like CEG, GBD, and FAC (I am using B in the English sense, what in Polish we would call H). They sound more powerful and more triumphant.

minor chords are chords like ACE, DFA, and EGB. they sound more sad, less powerful I would say.

and then we have power chords. They are just empty inside: just CG, or DA, or EB and so on. With a noisy enough instrument (like a distorted electric guitar), due to physics of sound and resonances, they end up sounding like major chords and tbh they sound cool, but from a music theory point of view they look really stupid. Obviously, they are neither minor or major.

maybe let's not get into stuff like suspended chords and jazzy 6-chords, let's just say that they are verious kinds of chords. And the more chromatic the chord (ie the more complex, the less it is like a power chord or just a blatant banging onto an octave) the wider voicing it needs to sound good. A wide voicing means larde gaps between notes when you look at them on the score they are … the score is tall.

And then we can have other scales, and we can have chromatic tones, which means: tones that are theoretically not in the scale but we use them anyway (it's a sad song but we sing it anyway) (because some jerk tried to make a mess for example). They can create a lot of problems and sound ugly when used wrong, but also they allow for intense emotion (think: Chopin).

And again, with the use of chromatic tones, we can have the more interesting chords. We can get into more jazzy sounds, into chords that can't be properly classified as minor or major (and in contrast to power chords I would say the answer is closer to "both" than to "neither"), that theoretically would have internal tension but surprisingly they don't when they are spread enough and with less classical set of chords there are more toold for interesting resolution of dissonances.

I will not apologize, though maybe I shoud have warned you beforehand that I do have a thing about … I don't even know how to call it exactly. Anyway I like talking about absurd questions like "which scales was Ainulindale in" in the same way Medieval philosophers loved to discuss angels on a pin or stuff like this. It does make sense in my head.

If I had time to get into composing again… Which won't happen in at least a year. Not that I ever got too far with it. But I did got a bit somewhere and I have too many things I don't know how to express otherwise.

[cosettegf]

i love the penumbra podcast and i love second citadel and i really enjoyed listening to the finale but i feel. weird about the way this show treats its female characters???

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

NaNo 2024: Victory!!

Hello, world, here's my tidied desk in the aftermath of FINISHING ANOTHER BOOK!!! It took me EXACTLY four (4) pens this year (I was literally writing my wrap-up stats in the back of the notebook when the in on the last one started to go!), on 82 pages across two (2) notebooks, and preliminary* word count is 71,541!! (*subject to change once typed--I count by hand and tweak as I type haha.)

Also featuring: the NaNo Earrings, Volumes 2 and 3 of the Bitch Journal (where I whine about writerly things and also Reflect On My Process--I learned very much this year and got a lot of dopamine from it!!), the tiny watch that kept me company in my tertiary writing space, the earplugs that made working at home Tolerable (mostly), and some of the frantic scribbles on scrap paper (I got a LOT of mileage out of a dead receipt that Panera misprinted for me lol).

Now, onward to TYPING!! I would love for this not to take most of December, so I'll probably have more Unhinged Goals About That (I don't know why I am the way that I am), but! The hard part is done!!

[hamletisintown]

I'm so fucking annoyed at the number of english-speaking hoyoverse players who play with the japanese subtitles

I'm only speaking about like, streamers and youtubers because those are the ones i see playing, obviously (and i'm only talking about genshin impact and honkai star rail bc those are the 2 hoyo games i play but i'm willing to bet the trend is the same in other hoyo games, and possibly in other chinese "anime" games)

The number of times i click on a video and the person speaks english but has their game set to japanese dubbing for no reason, like. Can you guys stop being weebs for just one second please.

[vse-kar-vem]

which joker out members have a deep and unhealthily personal attachment to the noah kahan song the view between villages and which of them are normal

[thethingything]

I'm fatigued, my back hurts, I accidentally spent like 3 hours sat downstairs in a chair that made our back feel worse because our executive dysfunction prevented me getting up and going back upstairs even though I only went down there to get one thing, and now I really need to lay down but if I accidentally fall asleep again I feel like I'll wake up, realise I fell asleep and also that I feel like I wasted a big chunk of the day, and I'll end up feeling even worse again

[foxgirlmoth]

I don't talk about this stuff on here pretty much at all, but a past relationship really broke a ton of bits and pieces of my brain and heart in weird ways (I'm finally thinking about him almost never but the shit he pulled was abusive as hell and still affects me sometimes). Being in love with my current girlfriends for a while felt almost. Painful? Almost like I should be ashamed I can fall so deeply in love with people, and especially how quickly that can happen sometimes too. Thats how it kind of felt. I tend to get overwhelmed with emotions if I'm feeling them very strongly, and that has been extremely embarrassing and also felt almost like I was being a burden to those I love (which love is the main emotion that can 'get dialed up to 11' for me). It IS debilitating in some ways!!! It hasn't gotten bad enough I've been nonverbal in a really really long time but that happened this past week and it was wild to me.

Things are getting better now though! Therapy in the past has helped, and honestly having such patient and understanding partners has made a world of difference ;w;. my wife is someone who was one of my best friends and I had a huge crush on and now I can ask for cuddles and we can nap together and I've fallen so much in love. Her and her presence are literally heaven for me, I don't know if anything has ever made me happier than just laying next to her and feeling her warmth.

Worries of course flare up and I feel like I need to lean on her a lot during those moments, but I don't feel like too much of a burden to her. I love seeing the posts that say stuff like 'Its okay to be a burden' or 'its okay to be annoying' because really truly I think I need to be those things to survive sometimes. I can be 'a lot' and I can be a little bit obsessive and those things aren't inherently bad or evil of me. I just make sure I'm feeling okay during and after and make sure I'm checking in on myself often. I'm a bit of a broken girl, but that doesn't mean I'm not extremely happy and living a life I love. I've written poems and everything about how it feels like it must hurt to love me and my broken jagged edges, but hey, even if it does a little bit, it doesn't mean someone like my girlfriend/wife won't go through a little bit of burden to love me, and I'm more than happy to return all of this and more for her as well if she's ever in need or feels broken ;^;

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm just sitting here mentally telling myself 'I don't have to like him just because I find him attractive, I don't have to like him just because he's hot, I don't have to like him just because I like the character' over and over until I start to believe it

[overbearingstruggles]

I really wanna understand your love for kieran culkin, I loved him in Scott Pilgrim.

Oh my god this is so nice you really don’t have to ask but I love that you did!!!!!!!!

I wish I had a less lizard brain answer to attribute the spark to but sometimes you need someone to do something sexual in order for your brain to unlock that interest in them and the Roman/Gerri phone scene takes the prize. When I rewatched the show I had zero recollection of the emotional scene that happens right after because apparently I blacked out lol. So then I’m watching the rest of the show through new eyes which of course leads to huh, I definitely love this character and am attracted to this being, but do I also love this person? Anon, he’s so lovable! The pro and con of Kieran & Roman is there is A Lot of Kieran in the character. Uh the best parts, we hope. He’s this secure short king with quick wit who talks fast and can require a bit of attention but is humble as heck about how good he is at his job and has this quirky decorated right appendage and isn’t afraid to crack jokes when someone broaches the subject of his irl family or politely shut them down when he thinks they’re off base about something. I love the little bit I know about him and his wife’s relationship and the way they can publicly poke fun at each other. I love that he lived in the same tiny apartment from 19 to 39 until his wife finally said “you’re on a hit TV show.” I love how sweet and diplomatic he is when someone tries to poke him about Jeremy Strong being weird. I swear you can feel interviewers become infatuated with him for being a real and funny, charming person. In conclusion, I think he's neat!

[exoexid]

just realized something and even tho it's something very silly i feel so bad about it 😭

[supercantaloupe]

hiii do you have a fav orchestral oboe solo? I love the one in mahler 2 mvmt 4 :)

this is lexi btw for some reason my asks only go through on anon so I'm going to tag myself @recapitulation

ohh that's such a tough question...i don't think i could choose just one. but tchaik 1 mvt 2 is Speaking to me right now though. those slow lyrical ones from the late romantic era i think are some of the hardest but most rewarding ones to play well, and some of the absolute sweetest to listen to

[imaginary-wanderer]

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