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thinking about jeremy hitting rock bottom his freshman year, losing so much in one disastrous night, the repercussions of which would continue to haunt him for years. thinking about jeremy spiralling so bad cody said they “really thought we were going to lose him for a while there.” cat saying the right therapist can be “life changing”, using jeremy as an example. thinking about how bad jeremy’s crash out must have been, understandably; thinking about his family continuing to blame him for noah’s death—from the coldness of annalise, to the outright antagonism of bryson, to joshua ignoring him for years. the wilshires doing everything in their power to cover up what happened at the banquet rather than lending an ounce of support to a boy who had lost his brother in terrible circumstances, because jeremy was there, because it was so much easier to blame him for all of it. coldblooded, if you ask me. jeremy needed help, not damage control.
thinking about jeremy having probably the worst year of his life, having the opposite of emotional support from his family, and still somehow coming out of it a better person. thinking of all the work he put in to be better and succeeding—i’d rather die than ever be that person again. believe me. despite the hostility of his family system, despite being blamed for the fallout, despite the guilt and heartbreak that “nearly destroyed him”. still jeremy managed to build a new life for himself out of the wreckage, going so far as to be captain of the trojans, with a team who respect and admire him. still he managed to come out of it with such a capacity for kindness and goodness and lifting the people around him up.
thinking about jeremy continuing to be the human embodiment of sunshine despite living in such a cold home that was never forgiving or warm to him. jeremy knox, you will always be loved by me.
#jeremy knox#the golden raven#the golden raven spoilers#aftg#i have so much to say about this boy. like on the one hand his family's connections def helped & he was protected in many ways#yet at the same time any support in the EMOTIONAL sense which he really would have needed was so deeply lacking#like it wasn't even a neutral thing where they were just neglectful & all obviously grieving. no – they all actively blamed him & still do#and instead of offering any support whatsoever jeremy was sent off to rehab to grieve and get through it by himself#and you can see how he still blames himself for it. he's still doing everything to help his family#while they treat him like a waste of space & yeah it makes so sad and frustrated!!!! but yeah.#cody's line talking to jean stopped me cold like FUCK. i can't even imagine how bad it must've been to warrant that comment#anyway…jeremy knox i love u.#all for the game#tgr spoilers#tgr
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it's hard to be a shipper
what ship is on your mind right now?
#like an idiot I looked unconsciously at my phone screen because I couldn't decide which ship I wanted to read fanfiction about on ao3#I recently fell into a zosan hole and I think I'll stay there a little bit longer#but there are also so many ships that I love with all my heart#and I don't know what to do anymore#so I'm still wasting my time jumping between websites with different ships because I don't know which one I want more now#zosan#shiguang#sakuatsu#tododeku#wolfstar#reonagi#andriel#bachisagi#rinsagi#akiangel#kunigiri#ryufuyu#bajifuyu#kazufuyu#itafushi#sukufushi#shin soukoku#soukoku#ranpoe#suegiku#inuokko#oisuga#daisuga#pynch#ahhhh I could count these ships forever and then I'm surprised that I can't decide on one
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Darkness monsters vs. real world monsters
There's a fundamental difference between Daydream Inc. and the Supernatural Disaster Managemant Bureau that's been niggling at my brain for a while now, and I think it finally clicked for me.
Obviously there's the overt differences: Daydream is a for-profit company where employees are all working for a selfish goal-oriented purpose, while the Bureau is a government sponsored agency whose agents risk life and limb on a daily basis trying to save other people.
It's almost too easy to understand why the Bureau would think of Daydream as a 'cult-like company', one capitalizing on suffering and death of innocent people caught up in ghost stories. And the reverse is also true-- Daydream seeing the Bureau as the ultimate annoyances, trying to destroy the ghost stories that create not only profit but advance strides in-- everything! Daydream has potions that can regenerate half a body! With the dream essence they harvest from ghost stories, they can full on cultivate reality-bending wishes.
Of course, with that kind of power, there are heavy dangers and consequences... I could write a whole TED Talk on that. That part's easy to see.
But with characters of the latest arc meeting (no spoilers), I was thinking about what negates this black and white pattern we've seen between the two sides. Common enemies and all that...
Bureau agents think that the ghost stories are 'Disasters'. They're the worst thing that can happen to a person, and it's the job of an agents to RESCUE people from those disasters, from the monsters and the horrors, to allow civilians to go back to a normal life.
Daydream employees think of ghost stories as 'Darkness', and they're here to explore those Darknesses to harvest from experiences with monsters and curses and the like. Sure, a lot of them die in the process. They're certainly not here to help other people because they understand that it's dangerous enough trying to save themselves. Yet... Daydream field officers persist. In fact, they're practically unafraid of the Darkness.
Because to each and every one of them, the real horrors are out in the real world. The Bureau thinks that monsters exist only in the ghost stories, but everyone who signed up to work at Daydream risking life and limb daily is working toward a purpose-- a wish potion. Something that can change their lives.
People only need to change their lives when there's something terrible they're struggling with, and like Kim Soleum, they are willing to face the Darkness for a chance to change something in their real world.
...In the heart of it all, there really is a commonality there. The Bureau agents want to rescue people from monsters within Disasters, but Daydream employees have monsters that live outside of Darknesses that they're trying to escape.
#괴담출근#got dropped into a ghost story still gotta work#GSGW#it really is the different takeaway from both sides#and from the readers!!#why do we read these stories?#is it to find an escapism from our own lives by reading the fantastical?#or is it coming back from these horror stories and realising that our lives are not that bad#Daydream employees will brave the monsters bc something in their rl went very wrong#whether it's a hospitalized sibling or wanting revenge#whether it's thinking you wasted your youth on something and wanting it back#or plenty of other reasons#the thought of what they've lost is scarier than any Darkness monster they can encounter#in this way Soleum belongs to Daydream more#but his wish involves having a normal world#which is why he fits in so well at the Bureau#...still incoherent but apparently my brain will do ANYTHING but fanfic right now#but i WILL DO IT#i will finish AND POST a gsgw fic before there's over 100 fics on ao3#WEEPS BRAIN LET ME WRITE
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25 grams FRESH yeast
i put in 25 grams dry yeast
i'm going to go cry now :(
#for context each packet is like 7-8 grams#i wasted so many good ingredients today#thankfully i buy my yeast by the jar which is SLIGHTLY better than the packets#but that was still like 1/4 of the entire jar
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Oh, it's just Tinkerbull writing MEOW.
Unlike Rose's lavender cipher, Tavros isn't authoring this sequence in his signature color. Instead, his code is Doc Scratch white - a bad omen, if I ever saw one.
AA: an incomplete fragment consisting of four symbols AA: comprising the first word of a binary refrain
A binary refrain, implying the existence of a TOCK Player. Does each code constitute half of MEOW, or has Doc Scratch's genome been spliced with something else entirely?
AA: a pair of sounds emerging from the belly of a fabled tyrants menace
That would be the crocodile from Peter Pupa Pan.
Come to think of it, The story of Hook's crocodile draws some possibly-unintentional parallels to Homestuck's current arc. In the movie, it constantly circled Hook like a buzzard, the ominous ticking in its belly serving as a constant reminder that he was living on borrowed time.
AA: but you authored only one sound of the pair AA: i would write the other
Breath and Time, T1ck and T0ck.
What have you got cooking, Team Charge?
AA: completing the phrase of legend AA: the persisting sounds said to accompany the ultimate demise of the tyrant less an arm and an eye
These legendary injuries again. Just like in the original story, it seems that Pupa’s Hook also dies to the ticking of a clock.
In the context of the comic, this might actually be a prophecy about the death one of our Hook cosplayers – namely, Slick, Jack and Vriska. Perhaps the real reason these injuries are so common is to ensure we can't tell who this prophecy's actually about. Tyrant currently suits Jack best, but a lot can happen in four thousand pages.
AA: but even these eight characters AA: the scrawlings of charge AA: were still but half the code
Charge provides half the code, and Scourge undoubtedly provides the other. The nascent Doc Scratch is composed of four sequences, supplied by the progenitors of this group's bloodiest conflict.
It seems this code was implanted in three Prospit dreamers, and only one Derse dreamer. Sgurb's mechanics are almost universally balanced by moon, so I find this a little odd.
Immediately after the cueball incident, Vriska subconsciously authors break.
What does Terezi get, then? R3P41R?
‘BR8K H34DS.’
Team Scourge is the story of a rigged coin, and a broken 8-ball.
#homestuck liveblog#full liveblog#act 5.2#3600#s139#we're making antimatter now. I'm finally able to turn off the fission reactor (which was a NIGHTMARE to fuel).#technically we still need its output#but now that i have an antimatter pellet I can feed it to my bees. they can create nuclear waste honey without all the fission rigmarole#so nice being able to un-forceload the chunks i was using to prepare fissile fuel
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hot take but we as a society need to be more comfortable about discussing "icky" parts of history, and even telling the side of the "bad guys"
hear me out
history is written by the victors, and will be heavily biased. The defeated will be painted as evil, deviants and/or like they have always been "the bad guys".
Reducing people to "the bad guys" does a huge disservice to the opportunity of learning from the past, because it creates a distance between the modern reader and the actual events, it creates the comfortable position of "I'm not like the bad guys, so i will never make their mistakes"
I think is important we understand how and why people believed in something, and where did things turn a certain way. Yes. Even "the wrong side". Even the nazis. Even those people you are thinking about, whoever they are.
Because you are not immune to propaganda and it's so so so so important to understand what happened and how did we get to those points before we fall to the same techniques again and again.
"Learning from the past" isn't deleting the ugly parts or cringing when someone brings up war. Thinking otherwise is a huge mistake and precisely what someone who wants to make the same mistakes wants you to think.
#rant#gil talks#not to get too real on main#but this comes from watching a funny haha video about vampire diaries#and the essayist wanted to discuss how the series treated certain parts of US history and sure it was bad#and i agreed with a lot of points#but the whole 'this character was a confederate soldier and eughhhh' cringing hard#honestly i would focus more on the wasted opportunity of discussing the guilt of fighting for the wrong side than eughh they portrayed this#idk man people sometimes chooses the wrong side?#same with twilight#which btw jasper acknowledges is was bad and he was young and impressionable and just wanted to be a soldier#still fandom is like OMG STEPHENIE MEYER HOW COULD YOU#bruh#yes. even your blorbos can be in 'the wrong side' and they are not evil incarnate
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I just realised that the hero society never found out the truth that the files held and lied about.
The world never found out that students did participate in the fight against shigaraki in the first war arc. That was robbed of them, the world never knew the truth and Iam somehow expected to think that mha society changed?!?!?!
#mha manga#mha critical#mha#bnha critical#bnha#bhna critical#horikoshi critical#did it really change if they dont know the truth#like do their parents even know?#i think this is an anime only scene#well the dialouge specifically used#which i still love this narration but dang so much wasted potential in it#hpsc critical#anti hpsc
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similar cinematographic choices to portray the same imagery with insanely different circumstantial contexts
#like being tricked into a room and locked off from the outside world with a pitcher of water‚ a waste bucket‚ and an army cot#as you slowly died while experiencing acute mental distress to the point of having a psychogenic seizure at the same time#that people discussed your fate as if it were a decision they had the authority to make (and they DO. unfortunately for you)#vs being tied to chair during which you're in pretty consistent communication and under the care of the person who put you there#and you're narratively given the opportunity to hunt this person down and you even have scenes with hand to hand combat#in which you're able to properly defend yourself. for the other person the idea of your life being in danger is carefully threaded risk#to be taken rather than (as per the previous circumstance described) a decision you have the authority to make#likeee i remember reblogging this post that ssid 'supernatural doesn't really have a concept of jail' but like absolutely yes it does#sam (and even other characters like mary and rowena) are both put in 'jail' as the direct effect to a fault#wrt the winchester familial dynamic and their role. it's one of the main differences here. sam is put in jail‚ dean is not#sam does not have the authority to put him there. it doesn't help that sam is literally pleading as the victim within his scene#while dean is able to victimise sam even as the monstrous body within the 10.03 scene#and the thing is that their identities are being compartmentalised in similar ways here. dean is attempting to save his sammy#from the encroaching (invariable) monstrous sam that which he spends the next season attempting to forgive for the shortcoming#of dean perceiving sam's efforts at independence as abandonment while sam is attempting to save his dean from the encroaching mark of cain#(chosen to be put there yet is still victimised by) and sam spends the rest of the season forgiving him over and over while even#taking misattributed responsibility and blame that which has to be made up for#4.21#10.03#se referat#edit: also adding onto chii's tags wrt the differences in capacity for consent regarding demon!dean#it's so interesting to compare demon!dean to soulless!sam in that demon!dean didn't have the capacity to reject competent!dean's consent#while both soulless!sam and 5.22!sam did not consent to be resouled in respectively active and precedingly passive ways#like 6.12 sam is clearly happy and grateful to have been resurrected and he doesn't even have any specific qualms#about dean keeping information relating to his ressurection from him but 5.22 explicitly made his consent‚ or lack thereof‚ regarding#ressurection clear unlike dean in early-s10... and the thing is that the last time sam didn't pursue dean's ressurection#he faced negative consequences for that decision! and yet dean is seen as objectively correct for his actions in s6#by both the audience and narrative‚ and much of his responsibility regarding sam's psychosis isn't acknowledged as directly related#to his actions vs the pinning of blame to much of early-s10 onto sam esp relating to the guy he had summon a demon‚ who sold his own soul#despite sam's advice‚ whom demon!dean killed
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ill probably delete this in a minute but ive just been fuckin boggled by what ive seen across tumblr in the last few days in particular. its why i havent really been around. like holy fucking shit, its really like some of yall just dont want a chunk of the trans community to exist. like some of yall are thisclose to saying it verbatum. way too many already have. 'shut up sit down be quiet and smile for us' type shit, gee where have i heard that before. oh yeah my entire life cause i was forcefully gendered as someones daughter. shock horror i know. you might be surprised to remember and/or learn that very few trans folks know theyre trans before we're 5, or even 10, and that that gendered experience stays with all of us in both/either small or large ways. either bc we literally dont have a solid identity yet (bc we're very small children), dont have the words, we're repressing it out of fear from how others will treat us, we're actually enjoying or enjoyed being another gender in our childhood, or we just genuinely didnt fuckin know until shit lined up later in life. weird isnt it that transmascs dont pop out as 6'1 brick shithouse cis men when we're born so yall know for certain that we're confused lost girls/women oops i mean big dangerous scary men. its almost like we're transgender too. none of yall actually know what intersectionality is or means
#my t#transandrophobia#yeah ill tag it why tf not#i just dont understand why transmasculinity is scrutinized and dissected like this within the trans community#when its just not the case for other gendered trans folks amongst themselves more often than not these days#which is a good thing! a really really good thing! but why are we scapegoating transmascs#''we need more weird trans people!!'' yall cant even handle like. a pre-everything trans guy coming out for the first time#yall cant handle a pre-everything tguy wearing a tshirt without tearing him to shreds & calling him shit like afag/theyfab & ukelele boy#im tired of my identity being treated as a debate. i had enough of that in highschool as#very literally. **the only trans kid in my grade** surrounded by cis teachers & peers USING ME AND MY BODY AS A TALKING POINT#i was the only one who wasnt deeply closeted that is. and holy fuck do i still not blame anyone for being closeted in that school#why is it only okay to try to separate trans ppl from our gender when we're not fem/me#why is one celebrated and the other treated like radioactive waste **within our own community**#god i need to find an irl community fuckin badly online trans circles are hell on earth#ill be describing smth that happened to me as a clocky tguy and someone else will say TO MY FACE#that what happened to me wasnt bc i was a clocky guy but purely bc i was trans#like i. what. how. how does that make any kind of fucking sense#i wouldnt be clocky if i wasnt trying to look like my gender. like i. hello?#would u say that to any other trans person or am i just that special?
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"I've never wanted to make an album full of happy songs. I don't think that's ever going to happen."
#love magazine 2009#idk why i'm thinking about this shoot rn but i am. something about it is still soo compelling. 16 fucking years later#i never post pics but i was suddenly like hmmm i want these on my blog#i just love this look#it would actually still be killer today#+ something about seeing baby taylor with straight hair always gets me#it just feels so weird lol#i still remember when my friend showed me the video for our song and told me it was the first time taylor ever straightened her hair lmfao#and i believed her bc it was the first time i'd ever seen her with straight hair lmfao. i mean it was what 2007? 2008?#also i really love this interview lol. it's the one where she's like (paraphrased) 'i don't drink partially because i'm scared of-#being wasted and not knowing what i've said"#which. love. my relatable anxious queen <3#it took me ages to be comfortable drinking bc of that anxiety too
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obviously this smell is ais ("cloaked in the scent of smoke and blood") which many people have already noticed
but do you guys think. ais was there when mc was there. do you think ais already saw mc's hands. that's why he didn't actually care to see them later at the seaspring but brought them up anyway as a means to intimidate mc?? because he already knows??
#i've seen ppl suggest ais was there BEFORE mc since he does help out at the clinic#but i dont think i've seen anyone say he could've helped with mc#his scent must be very strong and linger for a while if he was there BEFORE#which is why i wonder if he was there with mc. so his scent is still fresh#also--kuras says he found mc.#but what is kuras doing out there in the wastes?? kuras runs a very busy clinic#ais is out there in those wastes. ais could've found mc.#touchstarved game#hcs#( A SPARROW SINGS ) * my posts!
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Life on the farm
#gopher art#mortal kombat#subscorp#mk subzero#mk scorpion#kuai liang#hanzo hasashi#mortal kombat legends#been holding onto this one for a bit! finished it more than a month ago lol#i was originally going to save it for subscorp week but then i was like. nah. that wouldnt be entirely fair lol#and besides. ive been wanting to share it for long enough and my resolve has kinda worn down#anyway - snowblind but AU'd! heres my concept of this (which i may use later on for something idk): king kano got his shit wrecked#like way before the events of the movie. by the revenants in fact. i want him torn to shreds. you still have random roving assholes#making trouble across the wastes. but its much less dire. kuai still retires to his farm. kenshi still falls for shang tsung's bullshit#and kuai mentors him. hanzo becomes warlord of netherrealm. BUT. he and kuai keep in contact. its long distance and they make it work#sometimes scorpion vacays to Kuai's farm. as a treat. thats what this drawing is#i cant deny that i literally just want them to be happy ok. thats literally all i want for these gay old ninjas#bonus commentary: at the time of drawing this i was still figuring out how i wanted to draw hanzo. he's so fucking hard to draw#when i draw him without his mask or beard he looks so fucking off. but if i draw him with the beard it feels weird too.#babygirl why are you so hard to draw?? dont you want me to draw you?????
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You know what I've just realized while going down a bit of a rabbit hole about cat genetics? After reading a few of the fun Danny (and sometimes Dani and Dan) get turned into cats fics that are on here?
Dani and Danny probably wouldn't look terribly similar if they were cats.
If we go with the logic of Danny being XY male, and Dani being XX female of course but even then cat patterns don't tend to be identical even among identical twins.
Anyways this is about coloration, and how coloration is decided (in part) by sex when it comes to cats.
Basically Red and Black occupy the same slot on the X chromosome of a cat.
So male cats can only have Red or Black, in combination with white. The only cases of tri-color male cats tend to be some form of interesex most commonly of the Klienfelter's syndrome variety.
Female cats however can be tri-color because each X has a slot for a color, and color isn't specifically dominant or recessive with cats (though there is a dilution aspect which dictates if the color is darker or lighter). Instead while the cat is developing in the womb, each cell that will someday grow a hair follicle, picks which X chromosome gets to be active completely at random.
[Note that this is extremely simplified. I'm just trying to give you the basic rundown of how it works.]
So if we can assume that the only genetic difference between Danny and Dani is that one sex chromosome, and that their general genes are otherwise identical...
Dani would end up a tri-color, while Danny would actually end up some variation of a red and white cat. Not a black cat. As color is dictated by what's on the X chromosome, which he inherited from Maddie, who is a red-head.
So of Danny, Dani, and Jazz, Dani would be the only one to have any amount of black coloring as a cat. Danny and Jazz would both be some amount of red/orange, with varying amounts of white.
#dpxdc#cat!Danny#Danny would be an orange cat#I'm sorry I don't make the rules the punnet square does#In basically ever Danny as a cat fic/AU I've seen people make Danny either a black or white cat#which white could still happen with his genetics#but orange is just far more likely#also the hilarity of someone turning Danny Dani and Jazz into cats#and then the struggle being unable to tell Danny and Jazz apart rather than Danny and Dani#also there's something cute about Danny and Jazz looking really similar as cats instead of Danny and Dani#something about Dani no longer being so similar visually to who she was cloned from#and something about how two siblings who look different enough people probably have asked if they were full siblings or not at some point#looking almost identical as cats#Dan is all ghost so the fact that people don't just make him some kind of blue or green as a cat seems like a waste tbh#why's he always just black or white why isn't he some shade of neon?
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they've updated imdb cast lists for episodes 1-7 and there's a HUGE amount of interesting info in there, yet nothing has excited me more than the prospect of a joint mat-elayne bi awakening in ep6
#i won't get my hopes up TOO high entirely possible mat will just be like 'i'm flattered! but i'm not into men'#(or 'if i wanted a man i could do better' [gazes wistfully off in the direction of rand in the waste] djkfjg)#or hey we know they're going to sing this season so maybe these are just admirers of their singing and not flirty admirers#but still! rafe DID say s3 would have more onscreen queer kisses than ever before...............#and then re: elayne maybe she'd be receptive to her admirer which would establish to show-onlys that she likes men too#would be good for the show to make that clear as soon as they can#because you know everybody will default to assuming gay rather than bi and then be shocked when rand joins in a future season#wot#wot show spoilers#wot book spoilers#(for my tags)
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jaheira please im trying to have a serious conversation
#my girl back there getting wasted#🤣#i FINALLY got to see the epilogue!!!!#but my comp is busted so i had to downgrade to my old pc which means poorer quality screenshots 😭#granted it is on my durge playthrough and she didn’t romance halsin but its still so sweet ❤️#it really felt like a missed connection type of reunion with halsin#like my durge is very happy with astarion but seeing halsin again definitely brought some unresolved feelings to the surface#she may have spent the party flirting and hugging halsin more than anyone else#i wish i had more characters at end game - i desperately need to see a romanced halsin ending with my druid#hopefully i can play more this weekend 🤞#halsin#halsin bg3#bg3#bg3 epilogue#jaheira#jaheira bg3
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i have a lot of thoughts about orym's character arc, seemingly resolved as it is, but most of them are really just my disappointment that the process felt so thoroughly disconnected from anyone in bh, except a little bit dorian at the very end. especially given that grief and self-sacrifice bordering on passive suicidal ideation are major parts of like. the majority of their characters.
#i guess the change could have been motivated by fcg's death and what happened to laudna but its very hard to say#when there's only really circumstantial evidence of that#and orym is still brushing off anyone except dorian and other liam pcs which. lol. lmao.#simply think it is a waste for a character in an ensemble cast to not develop in push and pull with the other characters but in isolation#self-enforced isolation that in turn draws focus from the ensemble#crposting#cr meta
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