#which is so funny bc i was literally just thinking “if there was a wo live action they would cast someone like kit connor’’

[colonelmajorkepler]

today i found out that alice oseman was a wooden overcoats fan?!?!?!?!?

[nomairuins]

bedtime nowww probably ummm today qas not what i wanted it 2 be but its fine. i dont feel negative just a very very very numb day which is almost worse. but only almost 🙏

[ashenberry]

woaw that’s so cool you made mgs3 except now I can see the dirt particles!!! anything else? no?

[lesbiancarat]

i will never forgive junhui for the time he recommended a c-drama that he pitched as a wholesome found family show so i started watching it and it was so good and emotional and i cried like every episode for the first 10 episodes only to find out like 20 episodes in that the found family aspect turned into a psudo-incestous romance drama where both of the brothers fall in love with the sister. like that's 20+ hours of my life I'll never get back i will never forgive him for that 😔

[unexpectedbrickattack]

your pepstavo is literally the best thing in the entire world ur recent post sent me to heaven….I love ur hcs for their intimacy it’s EXACTLY how i see it too!!!

i think peppino struggles extremely with intimacy to the point where he’ll just end up crying before anything can start, which gus never minds and he’s always there for him to hold him and remind him he’ll always wait for him for when he’s ready…😢😢RAGGHH ilovethememmm…..

Thank yuuuu 😭💖💖💖💖 its prob out of the blue bc 98% of all of my hcs are just rotating in my head but i think about them sooo much. Peppino is a scared but ANGRY man and hes fun to work w bc i see him as both incredibly expressive and also extremely emotionally constipated; wants intimacy, cannot understand WHY it sucks so bad when he gets invited to partake in it. He is frustrated and anxious and he has like 400 million thoughts conflicting w each other and it ends up w him being angry and pissy wo knowing WHY hes angry and pissy.

And Gus is a saint but he is also a VERY stubborn little man and is probably the only person in the world stubborn enough to tolerate this messy, messy man. He doesnt treat peppino as a fixer-up; he treats him as someone he KNOWS has hang ups about Everything. The thing is, Gus has been interested in peppino even when he was in the throes of being in his literal Lowest Point of his life; Gus was ride or die from jump and he knew he would have to have the patience to deal w peppino and his attitude.

And its kind of funny (sweet) to Gus bc now he (and rlly everyone now) gets to see what peppino looks like when hes not BEYOND stressed, and Gus sees that hes in fact soft and kind of a silly man ! He likes any and ALL displays of affection, he likes being pampered and he likes being coddled a lil and he likes existing in Gustavos space :) Hes REALLY coy and equally playful and hes a bit (alot) of a brat; it makes Gus wish he got to see Peppino when he was younger (bc peppino will show him pics from when he was young and he mentions that he used to be a BRAT w these older men lmao) like theres more to this (at first glance) grumpy man, but hes like more than happy to have the peppino he knows rn 🧡

[namuneulbo]

week sixty-four

this week. woah. it was......... a lot.

well, to start off... i have a crush on v. i figured this out on monday and since then its gotten so severe lol. monday to friday was spent thinking ab him and also apparently not hiding it very well from l. ill come back to this later but this entire chapter will for sure be ab him and also in sm detail.

ive kind of talked a lot ab him and just my “new friends” in general a lot w l and my mom. i think my mom even has suspicions that i like either d or v (bc i talk ab them the most prob).

i started spamming n, s and t and also i, m and t ab him. i wont be able to cover what i told them all individually but n def received the most detailed info yet only one pic (WHICH WAS A HORRIBLY EMBARRASSING ONE I TOOK ON BEREAL WHEN IT CUT EVERYONE OUT AND THEIR POSES SO IT WAS JUST HIM NOT POSING AAAAA I FEEL LIKE A MOM WHO TAKES PICS OF HER KIDS WO CONSENT TT). i talked A LOT w s ab him too and w t i just spammed quickly on monday/tuesday i think, i cant bother checking. when i told i, m and t they immediately asked for a pic and i was scared theyd bully me lol but they said hes solid WOO! s approved of him too, saying the nail polish and his guitar made him seem very much like my type.

ill give u all who might be reading this a lil description of his pros. i would say a reminder to future me as well but yk maybe we end up together so :* heres what weve got so far:

- hes taller than me.

- has a niiiiiice voice.

- nice sense of style. its like basic as in plain colors (pretty much only black, hell wear white sweaters or super dark colors). it looks so good.

- hes a metalhead (+ we have two bands in common, ghost and polyphia).

- piercingssss!

- hes so talented, like he can play guitar, drums AND piano flawlessly.

- hes funny.

now to his cons: he’s not fully single. so. um. idk if theyre dating or in a situationship or just talking but its something for sureeee.

i dont ever want to like, break them up on purpose or like make moves on him while theyre talking bc im not a fucking douchebag. it is quite sad seeing them together though. i cant help but dislike the girl hes w a bit even though i dont want to, shes really cool and gorgeous and nice im just so O_o

on wednesday we had band class and i was MESMERIZED. he had a concert that same day so he was dressed up in a navy button-up, black jeans cuffed over a black pair of chelsea boots. i had to leave a couple times during practice bc i had to practice harmonies w the singers and i remember literally feeling sad ab not being able to stare at him playing the piano so perfectly.

in the evening i went out to the bar for the weekly music quiz they do. i went w a, c and v at first but later on d and p joined (not dan and phil sadly). i was super awkward lol but it was my first time hanging out w just them and it felt so,,,, new to me. im glad i did it though, ig? i got to see him even if it was awkward. also, i think d has my old backpack that i left to a thrift shop. its a floral pattern w black faux leather details and gold buttons. its quite cute and it fits him really well.

i did eventually warm up a bit but nothing crazy.

i was already comfy around c but after wednesday, i was also comfy around d. he was so nice that i even questioned if i liked him as well but turns out i was probably really desperate TT i tend to never be interested in ANYONE when i like someone and thats really obvious now. even though my chances w v r low, i still deleted all my dating apps and stuff bc i dont have the desire to go on them as of rn.

on friday i had been CRAVING a party to go to all day. i was just waiting for someone to send a message saying “yo, party at vs place!”. we usually party at his place. i literally ranted to my mom ab how bad i was hoping for someone to throw a party and this wasnt even just bc of getting to see v but i was genuinely so socially starved. finally, around 19:30 id say, someone sends a message in the class gc telling everyone ab a party at his place. i immediately message l begging for them to come w me and even saying if they dont, ill go either way bc i want to go so bad. they end up declining and i go to the party myself. i get ready in a few minutes, just fixing my day-old makeup and eating and drinking water and stuff so i wont throw up the second i drink alcohol. i was so quick and i was walking w such speed around the house so i think my mom has probably started to connect the dots now that theres someone i like bc im never that excited ever. i leave along w my mom who took the dog out for a walk. since v lives so nearby she walked w me pretty much the entire way.

id never usually be this confident but i had been talking w s the entire day and she hyped me up SO much. i actually love her sm for that. i arrive there, v throws down his keys from the balcony, i catch them and go up to his apartment. i was a tad bit quiet in the beginning but i really tried to force myself to just relax and look cool and i did after a little while. we blasted metal and one of the first things they did was that everyone of them, c, d and v, went out for a smoke so i joined in even though i dont smoke but i enjoyed the lil passive smoking sesh on the tiny balcony, stuck behind d and v.

(bereal just went off, vs so cute).

anyways, i quite quickly felt more relaxed, i kinda forced myself to sit more,, relaxed and stop fidgeting and i got more included in the convo by queueing songs to play. i first asked v to queue kingslayer by bmth and babymetal and he was super excited ab it so i was so glad he liked it. we listened to it on a party a whileeee ago and i remember being so excited ab the fact that he liked that song too. a had arrived by now and hes v good to have there in that sense that he will make me join in the convo somehow if i havent talked in a while. he made me queue another song and i queued drowning lessons by mcr. i was so caught by surprise and i always get so shit at using tech shit and the internet in front of ppl, idk why, so v started guiding me on what buttons to press TT i hadnt thought of drowning lessons in the first place actually but i just kind of naturally went w mcr for some reason and then ended up choosing my fav song by them. we listened to it and v was like “DID HE JUST VOICE BREAK???” and i was like “oh, maybe? i mean its their first album so the mixing and recording might be a bit shit” and he replayed the part and was like “THERE IS A VOICE BREAK!” and c started explaining to him in distress that its just how u sing punk TT after a while v was like “its still going? how long is it?” and checked and it was right before the outro and i was like “waittt, we havent gotten to the best part yet!” and he leaves it and the breakdown comes and he does a stankface and just looks at me like “oh, a breakdown ending, hell yeah!” and i was so happy haha

last song i queue is taking you out by passcode. as i was typing it v read out what i was typing and kept guessing songs, heh, it was so cute. he asked me ab the band and stuff and then said like “oh, she growls really well for a woman” and the proceeds to elaborate in distress that he didnt mean it in a misogynistic women-cant-growl type of way but in a its-genuinely-harder-for-a-woman-to-do-metal-growls. it was quite cute, he tends to do that a lot, like overexplaining things so ppl dont think hes being a dickhead even though he says very normal things TT its so cute and it really shows that he cares.

i mentioned that i was ab to start learning growling w my vocal teacher and how she also said she wants to get the singer of finntroll to come and teach growling to me (WHICH IS SO COOL???). v was like “oh my god, im also ab to practice growling w my vocal teacher” and then when i told him ab the singer of finntroll thing he got so excited and just “what??? for real??? thats so cool???” and proceeds to be like “omg, when ur w him tell him uve got a friend who wants to have a lesson w him too” and c joins in and says the same. i felt so cool in that moment haha

me, c and d went out to go meet the ppl from school who had been touring all week. before we left i went to pee and literally on the toilet i was smiling sm bc i felt so comfy and happy and all that in that moment like, i was talking to him??? and he was talking back???? and he smiled???? he wanted to talk to me????? i did a lil happy jump sesh after i washed my hands. then otw to school, me, c and d were jumping around and running and yelling. them bc they were drunk, me bc i was so excited abt finally feeling comfy w them + obviously getting to talk to v successfully after crushing so hard on him the past week. i was so happy too bc i finally felt like i kind of belong. i felt for the first time true that like “oh my god, they dont hate me!”. so while meeting the ppl at school i was sooooo happy and like greeting everyone and just smiling and feeling so cool and included and aaaaaaa i was so happy i cant even explain it. c and d r the coolest ppl ever!!!

we went back w s + we left d behind for a bit, sorry d!! now this was when i was truly connecting the dots between s and v. partypooper. i did tag along to the bar w all of them afterwards though. i just went by my place to eat something and get my id.

i arrived to the bar and i sat down next to c at first but later moved next to d so i could sit on the couch. me and c went to buy drinks and then d left to go smoke. there was an awkward space between me and v so i tried to subtly move closer to him and later when d came back he just sat in the spot i sat earlier so i sat between him and v.

more ppl arrived and i ended up becoming squished between d and v. NOW THIS. this changed me as a whole human being. i have been terrified of men all my life and w not specific reason bc the thing is that its not rooted in like, being scared that theyll do something, i just genuinely get more tense around men than women. this moment was so, special to me and not just bc i was squished next to v and our arms and legs were in constant touch but like, i got this kind of realization that, maybe i dont need to be nervous. like, theres nothing to worry ab. i trust d and v. theyre really nice. d i was already comfy w since wednesday and v i just that evening got comfy w. although i am touch deprived i really just,,, felt so happy, safe and relaxed in a group if people, in the middle of two men. i didnt feel the need to fidget out of nervousness and stuff. i was just, calm.

v looks over at me and asks me how drunk im planning to get. he himself says he wants to be so drunk he throws up. i jokingly reply saying i dont want to throw up. he starts showing me a scale w his hands, going down from ten and giving each level its own name so like “this is throw up drunk, this is like this and this is that...” and i end up saying i wanna get slighty above drunk and hes just like “so like a six?” and i nod. he says something along the lines of “thats cool, thats solid”.

later a girl sits next to d and begins talking w her. he starts whispering w v over my lap and i just sit there laughing awkwardly, hoping someone would notice and laugh w me as well. they dont talk for too long but they do this again later and talk for like two minutes straight over my lap and i just use this time to admire vs back and his ear piercings. d apologises and i chuckle and tell him its fine and that i didnt mind (i really did not bc i am truly so touch-starved). d later tells me ab this girl and bc of the music he has to really be close to my ear and talk w me. we talk like that for a while and he says hes glad i understand his situation. long story short, this girl had apparently been trying to flirt w him even though he has a girlfriend. i think he handled the situation really well.

v once again looks over at me, this time as were both kind of resting against the booth, bodies facing each other. he just asked how i was feeling today but it felt so intimate and i was savoring the conversation and eye contact as much as i could. i told him that i was really craving social interaction today so i was really glad i could tag along w them. he acted a bit funnily so i asked him how drunk he was. he said he feels a bit sick. idk why but that convo was so :’) i am TREASURING it.

him and s decided to leave, making almost everyone else leave. i stayed for a bit w a and c and some other unknown ppl but decided to leave after a bit. while me, a and c went out when they went to smoke i saw a bunch of ppl from both elementary and middle school. d, l, n and t. i was kind of hoping one of them wouldve noticed me earlier while i was w v and all the others so they could be like “omg shes sitting next to two guys, i wonder if shes dating anyone of them” or like “omg she has such cool friends now”.

okay, thats all on friday. saturday however, i met up w l for a bit, i tell them ab my crush on v. i sit them down, hold their hands and keep eye contact.

“so on wednesday we had a conversation on tiktok and i talked ab how boy obsessed i am feeling these days, right?”

they continue looking at me, asking me if this is ab e. i dont tell them yet.

“so after i said that, u said ‘well as long as its not d or v bc ik theyre the only friends we have but i assure u there r better alternatives’”

they begin staring at me in shock and yell:

“l! not them, omg! which one is it- no, wait. let me guess... d?”

i look at them for a bit before replying: “its not d.”

“ITS V? L, NO U CANT!” and they kick me as im laughing so hard im falling of the bed.

“IT IS! i have a fucking crush on v!”

we talk ab this for a while and i tell them ab friday and all that and it was sm fun lol

after me and l ahd hung out i went out to a proper party held at school. like dancing-beer-pong-bar kind of party. i met d and some others outside of the enterance and say hi. i then go inside and immediately meet c and c. they bring me to the dance floor and shows me where all the drinks r and everything. i see v playing beer pong. i dont like dancing at all so i join for a bit but leave soon enough. i sit and talk w a for a while. when v sat down on the same couch i was in i told a who was sitting on the other side that she could sit down on the couch properly instead of just sitting on the armrest and so she did and my evil plan worked, i got to move even closer to v. after a while it was finally our turn to play beer pong, we played w just water though. it was my first time playing and i was in the same team as a. she was so good? we played again v and two others. it was so humilating to play against v but my team won thanks to a. she was really awesome. during our last cup, v tried distracting me by hovering his hands over the cup but it literallyt made me aim better bc i could look at his hands TT he only distracted me w his hands and never a.

i left after s arrived to the party bc i got so sad seeing her w v lol but i was overwhelmed by the party anyways lol

sotw: bring me the horizon - alligator blood

[poliodeuces]

instead of making another post abt this song i wanna add in stuff i love abt it to this post instead. bc even though it's really close to sounding like a generic rock song w the melody imo, the way the song is structured is my favourite so it's special to me

under the cut lol also not v organized, just thoughts and vibes

it's divided into 4 distinct melodies which i'll call A, B, C, and D (bc i don't know the proper musical term for it i'll just look @ it like a poem orz), and i'll list the lines when they first appear, and where they end:

A

正解の果てまでノンストップで飛ばしていこう (seikai no hate made nonstop de tobashiteikou)...

最高の終末日和だ (saikou no shuumatsu biyorida)

B (pre-chorus)

打ち捨てられた都市 (uchisuterareta toshi)...

メメントモリ　さあ　笑って (memento mori saa waratte)

C (chorus)

いつかきっと　この素晴らしい世界を (itsuka kitto kono subarashii sekai wo)...

水底へ沈んだ (minasoko he shizunda)

D (bridge? it's a long bridge lol)

夜の回廊の中で (yoru no kairou no naka de)...

失ってしまったんだ？(ushinatte shimattanda?)

memento flows like this: A→B→C (short instrumental break) → D (instrumental break) →B→C, which isn't too out of the ordinary, but the way it builds musically makes me froth at the mouth like there's so much stuff happening wwww. the other thing is the lyrics themselves and their position in the song. the second B melody contains the line 幾度めかのダカーポ　ごらんよ (Countless da capo / take a look). i think it's funny cause it's a literal repeat from the beginning dhjssks

the imagery associated w memento is the day's cycle from sunrise to the next sunrise, which i thought was portrayed really well in the song through the energy of each melody...A being sunrise, even declaring the day having a perfect weather in the lyrics, 日和, for a last car ride at the end times; to the quiet noon of B; and C, the heat of the golden hours, its closing line 水底へ沈んだ (sinking into the seabed,) leading to the darkness of sunset and dusk; melody D, which literally starts w the line 夜の回廊の中で, in the corridor at night. one sick guitar solo later we're back to the calmness of B, like dawn, and the energy of C when the sun rises. I like that melody A has no repetition, like there is no more sure declaration that the next days will be perfect...partly cause of whether the line abt sinking into the ocean is figurative or not...is our protag still alive lol

anyway short version is this song fucks severely and im obsessed w it

saito soma - memento

[miyaniacs]

a joke went too far

gojo x fem!reader one shot

A/n: Based on this post from the incredible @laceymorganwrites​ , which i did request lol. Yes it’s a fem reader bc I originally requested it and my feelings went wild reading the HC and i kinda started writing this for myself but it ended in a pure mess and yes i did cut my hair and its a slightly different color too lol.

Warnings: slight Angst, Gojo being an idiot, Crack and dumb at the end

Characters: Gojo x fem!reader 

Your hand rests on the doorknob.

Are you ready for this? No.

Are there any other options than to deal with what will await you? No.

Except the fact to just leave the country with what you have on yourself right now.

But this isn’t really an option.

How bad could it possibly get?

It’s Gojo we’re talking about. He tells you every day how much he loves you.

A few inches less of your hair shouldn’t change anything, right?

Taking a deep breath, a smile forms on your face.

No. It should not change something.

You feel so much better now with shorter hair.

More confident.

Way hotter too.

He will definitely think the same.

“Babeee, I’m back!” You call out, dropping your bag on the floor, taking off your shoes.

“OHHH LET ME SEE LET ME - Are you for real?” Gojo’s excitement drops the second he lays his eyes on you. Looking at his feet, you slowly place your shoes on the shelf and stand up. His eyes narrow and one of his hands extends towards you. With pointed fingers he takes a stand of your hair in them.

“Uhm... What is this? Didn’t you told me you’d just get your hair colored again?” He raises one of his eyebrows, his lips form into a disgusting smile.

“Yeah, but i talked with my hairdresser, about how unhappy I was with my hair and due to it being already pretty dry and damaged, we decided on a new haircut.” You smile and take a small step back from him.

“But it’s short now.” He stats.

“Well yeah... but I mean, hey I didn’t cut off all my hair, I didn’t do a Britney Spears.” You joke, but quickly your smile drops when you see the look on your boyfriends face.

“Don’t... don’t you like it?” You stutter. Your arms slowly start wrap around your body.

“No. I liked your long hair. And what even is this color?” He asks coldly, while one of his hands moves around pointing at your hair.

“Uhm.. this is just temporarily... it will fade away when I wash it.” You say shyly. Your whole posture sinks, your arms are now tightly wrapped around your body, your eyes fixed on the ground.

“Well you know where the bathroom is. I’ll prepare dinner...” he rolls his eyes and walks away to the kitchen.

Like a kicked puppy you walk towards the bathroom. Your teeth dig into your lower lip, a few more seconds and your sure you’ll be able to taste blood.

Why.

Why did you do that.

Why did you cut your hair shorter.

You knew Gojo’d be the type to like his girlfriend all dolled up, with long soft hair.

Closing the door behind you, you sink down on the floor, pulling your knees towards your chest, arms wrapped around them, you feel the tears slowly roll down your cheeks.

“Hey, I just checked something, getting hair extensions isn’t even that expensive, if you call your hairdresser tomorrow, maybe your back to your beautiful self in two weeks.”

He calls out from the kitchen and you finally reach your breaking point.

The tears stream down your face, your breathing gets as irregular as it can get, your body shakes and your mind keeps racing.

“Baby? Why don’t I hear any water running? Are you actually planning on keeping your hair the way it is now?” He laughs.

Do you keep it that way? Yes. Yes. HELL YES!

On shaking legs you stand up and look into the mirror.

You look good - besides the red already swollen eyes - your hair just compliments your whole facial structure even more now, it makes your skin look healthy. You will keep your hair the way it is.  What would he possibly do. It’s your body after all.

“Yes. Yes I leave it that way.” You say in a shaky voice.

“Well okay, the I’ll be leaving now. I don’t plan to be associate with someone that looks like you now.” He laughs.

Your breath stuck in your throat. He is kidding right. He has to be. He told you he loves you this morning. Clearly this would not change just because of your hair.

With shaking fingers you open the door, “ Very funny, I almost bel-“ You hear the front door slam shut.

No.

No.

No, no no.

Your knees get weak and you sink to the floor, curling into a ball, the tears start to form again.

“Satoru...” you call out softly, before hiding your face in between your knees again.  

He really left you. Why have you been so stupid and agreed on cutting of your hair? You should know that in the saying “ boys like girls with long hair” had to have some tough in it.  Why didn’t you agree to what he said. Why have you been so stupid and actually thought he was messing with you. You know him enough to see that the look in his eyes wasn’t his usual ‘ I’m messing with you�� look.

“Baby?” A soft voice calls out and you feel a large hand on your shoulder.

Glancing up, you see a blurred vision of your boyfriend kneeling in front of you.

“You... You didn’t go?” You stutter in a broken voice.

“I - what no. Baby, I was just joking. I - come here.” He sits down and pulls you into his lap, wrapping his arms around you, pulling you as tight as possible. One of his hands rubs your back while the other gently stokes your head.

“I love you so much, why should I leave you, just because you changed your hair?” He hummus and kisses your head.

“I - You know you could do much better than me.. and I thought that changing my hair wo-“  The hand on your head quickly grabs your chin and his lips gently but firmly press on yours, shutting you off.

“No. I thought we already discussed this.” He looks at you, his blue eyes soft and caring.

“ I - I know, but recently...” you try to explain yourself, but just thinking about all the things going trough your head again, makes you cry again.  In return, your pulled against him again, your face buried in his chest, his head resting on yours.

“ Next time promise me to tell me. I would have never joked about your hair, if I knew your struggling again. “ He wraps himself completely around you, rocking you back and forth, whispering sweet nothings into your hair.

After some time, you finally calmed down again.

“I’m sorry.” You sniff and rub your eyes.

“Nooo - I should be the one apologizing.” He pouts and boops your nose.

“You know how breathtaking you looked when you walked tough the door?! You were literally glowing, I couldn’t believe such a beautiful, gorgeous, incredibly attractive, wonderful, head turning, jaw dropping,-“ He rambles and gets up, lifting you up with him, “- human being is the girl I call my girlfriend.” He smiles down at you and kisses you softly. You start blushing. He’s always so over the top and you don’t even know what you should respond.

“WHAT?!” He gasps, “ YOU STILL DON’T BELIEVE ME?!”

“No, nooo I do!” You laugh.

“Really, I mean it... I - I could ... Oh let me take my razor and cut my hair off!” He says, while pointing a finger into the air, as if he’d just got the best idea ever and runs off into the direction of the bathroom.

“NO- SATORU DONT” you scream and try to catch up with him.

“DO NOT COME NEAR ME! I WILL DO IT!” He says and turns on the razor, holding it near his hair.

“GOJO SATORU DO NOT DO THIS!” You say in between laughs.

“OR WHAT!” He puts the razor nearer to his hair. “ I need to prove to you that I love you!” He whines.

“You know what, yes. Do it.” You say, crossing your arms and smirking at him.

Gojo blinks a few times, but moves the razor nearer and nearer.

As the first few strands of white hair fall too the floor, he turns it off.

“NO I CAN NOT DO IT!” He drops down on his knees and takes the few stands of his hair in his hands. “My hair.. my beautiful hair.” He fake cries.

“You know i love you even though I didn’t cut off my hair?” He looks up at you with puppy eyes.

“ Yes I do.” You lean down and kiss him.

“Good thing you didn’t cut it off.” You laugh and walk back to the kitchen, remembering that it was dinner time.

“What?” He tilts his head and gets up, following you.

“I’d definitely leave you if you did.”

“HEY!”

[genshins1mpact]

okay so i know i mentioned on here before that i have a bunch of dreams when i sleep and how i had that cute one with xiao & mingxiao before right?? 👀

forgot to share it sooner bc life but anyway i had a funny/cute dream with diluc the other day (i'll try to add a read more bc this got a lil long but it doesn't always work on mobile so i'll try & fix it asap if so!) but yeah this kinda turned into a whole fic of its own lol,,

☆ the dream itself is here, under the cut! ☆

basically, to not have to explain all the lore about my oc/self insert and all that again, the tldr of it is that i landed on teyvat similar to traveler but didn't really have anywhere to go so after gaining his trust and becoming close, diluc sort of just takes me in and lets me work at the tavern + lets me stay in a spare room at the winery. so yeah we often walk to/from work together if he's working at angel's share that day, and i guess everyone just assumes we're dating?? ...except for me, that is, who still thought he was in love with jean (bc of the whole stormterror thing).

one night, kaeya's been hanging out in the tavern all night, venti's already left or passed out or smth, and then once things close up, diluc and i get ready to head off, but apparently this is the first time kaeya's seen us head off together/in the same direction, and immediately decides to start teasing. he's all "ooh look at the two lovebirds, you've moved in together already? how'd you ask her out, i didn't know you two were a thing, congrats bro so glad she likes you back" kinda stuff and then i just start laughing and telling him to knock it off, wouldn't want jean to overhear and misunderstand. and they're both just like ......wait what? and i'm all "oh cause diluc likes jean right? i thought the were like an Unspoken Thing yknow??" and both stare at me as if i've grown like 3 heads and started doing a one-(wo)man barber shop quartet. lightbulb goes off in kaeya's head that i don't know jack shit & we're not a thing (yet) and diluc is just thinking like "i can't believe you're literally this oblivious, holy shit". hence kaeya's teasing The Sequel, where he just starts complimenting my uniform and says i look like a cute little maid or whatever and diluc is silently fuming behind me. he mutters something along the lines of "how oblivious can you possibly be?" and all but throws his coat/jacket over me to try and cover me "bc it's cold" (yeah yeah sure, jealous much? haha), then asks me how i never noticed how he felt about me. so i'm there having an earth teyvat-shattering moment of revelation that it WASN'T jean he liked, and that he didn't do all those nice things for me bc i'm friends with her, but because he liked...me????

kaeya smugly walks off with a little "you're welcome", after a his shenanigans, and i'm still trying to process things bc i'd never seen diluc that way, always assuming he'd liked someone else so i never really looked at him that way. we kind of quietly resume our walk back "home" and im clutching his jacket close to me, then we both try to speak at the same time, he tries to ask for my response/reaction and i was trying to ask for some time. he's kind of confused and almost looks hurt, but agrees to give me some time to think, since i explained the whole "not seeing him in that light" and didn't want to answer on a whim. that i didn't want to mistake gratitude for all he's done for me for affection and stuff so he was like hey good point i wouldn't want you to feel like i forced you into this, and no you're not gonna get kicked out/fired if you don't like me back, it's okay. diluc mentions having to be away for 2 weeks cause of a work trip and that i can respond then.

in the meantime, a bunch happened like a trip to liyue with aether & paimon, a whole girls' talk over tea with jean & lisa over the situation, and got my own lil serenitea pot so i potentially had the option of moving out now if i wanted to. i decided to my day off from the tavern to go out on a little adventure, just journey around and test out the teapot home and all that jazz. ran into noelle and we hung out/trained for awhile together and invited her in for for a tea break and stuff, like it was just really cute and fun. but apparently diluc came back a few days early and was freaking out when i was nowhere to be found, no one had any idea where i was, and was just really concerned something might happen to me. then noelle arrives through the gates and overhears him asking lisa stuff and goes all "oh she's over by (idk where i was maybe that bit of land between mond & liyue?) and he thanks her for the info and runs off to find me. he finds the teapot (somehow) on some rock but doesn't see me and i come back out of my lil abode bc someone outside kept saying my name and then i felt the teapot shake (he'd picked it up). cue a dramatic reunion in the rain bc when isn't it pouring and trying to kill me in teyvat in true romcom fashion i guess.

diluc is all "do you have any idea how worried i was about you? all alone out here? any of the abyss mages could have hurt you or taken you away or-" just rambles on and meanwhile im having this sort of Oh You're Back and I Think I'm Feeling Things realization (absence makes the heart grow fonder lol). so there's just this kind of strong, desperate hug moment and everything's quiet, save for the pouring rain and faroff occasional lightning strike. and i whispered something along the lines of "i think i'm in love with you" and his eyes widen before responding smth like "i think i'm in love with you too" with a fond smile, the first genuine huge smile i've ever seen on him (pls picture him like in the manga and not his in game ._. face PLS-🤣). cue another romcom cliche reunion hug + kiss scene in the rain, in which we take shelter from the rain inside the serenitea pot bc of how bad the storm kept getting.

(aether has tubby but i have chummy, kinda looks like the teapot salesman, and i usually just call her chums.) so we're greeted by chums who kind of is like staring daggers at diluc bc i showed up with a guest unannounced, drenched, and we're holding hands. she's overprotective in a very Mom Friend kind of way but she just means well. we change into some baggy share clothes i have and then i scrambled up something to eat (since we can apparently cook & forge in our lil pot i love that so much-) anyway so we decide to get some rest bc it's late and have the Oh No There Was Only One Bed conundrum until we agree to just share and sleep on opposite sides bc nbd right? i turned in my sleep and essentially was hugging his back whilst asleep, and he just turned over at some point and hugged me too, and booooiiii was this fire boy WARM, he felt like a personal heater and after all that rain, i slept like a log. diluc woke up before me cause he's used to an earlier schedule and slips out quietly to speak to chummy, asking if she knew where the supplies were cause he wanted to surprise me with breakfast (and man can he cook! goodbye kfc, hello good hunter). chummy is still kind of not vibing with him, until he apologizes for "intruding" and explains everything that's happened, to which chums kind of softens up and realizes he's sweet and just wants to do something nice, not go around raiding the house. woke up alone and went to look for the source of the smell, and kinda just clung to him, making diluc blush. don't remember too much more after the cooking thing though besides going for a stroll around my teapot layout, meeting all the pets that chill there, and kinda just having a relaxing day off together. the winery staff was probably freaking out wondering where we were, but we were just kinda in our own world (literally?), enjoying the peace before returning to all the chaos that is teyvat. cutest damn dream ❤

[starrysence]

amusement park date hc’s with uhhh any ship you want i can’t choose

i already briefly did this for ralbert so i’m gonna do mike/jojo bc 1.) i love writing hcs for them and 2.) they just like? totally would go on amusement park dates y'know????warnings: ummm mike is an absolute disaster and gets himself hurt a lot so very small blood tw×××

●so y'know how showing affection publicly is a gradual thing for these two?? well the first date mike decides to bring jojo out on once he knows jo is comfortable w/ some pda is an amusement park date▪he REFUSES to tell jojo where theyre going until they get there▪kind of worried abt it bc what if jo hates amusement parks or something???? mikey here is in a lil bit of a panic▪but it goes down the drain the moment mike sees jojo’s face absolutely LIGHT UP when he sees where they are▪"we’re going on an amusement park date?!?!?!?!? ive always wanted to go on one of these dates oHmygosh!!!“▪hes SO EXCITED▪mike cant. he just? cant. he loves his bf so much●jojo is literally on the verge of BURSTING with excitement the entire time after they enter the place and mike loves it ▪he wants to go on all the craziest rides which actually kinda surprises mike??▪hes always thought of jo as the kind of person who would like simpler and slower rides▪but NOPE▪however,,, is mike opposed to this? no. absolutely not.▪"we should try and go on ALL the rollercoasters”▪"HECK YES"●mike is pretty clumsy not gonna lie▪at some point he cut his knee open on the corner of a metal table bc he tripped over a fuckin rock or something and jojo had to rush him to the car to bandage him up▪mike feels bad bc he knows jojo gets kinda queasy at the sight of blood▪but hes so impressed that jo’s being so chill handling this??? his boy is so strong. yes. look at him go▪"im really surprised you haven’t, like, fainted yet, jo"▪"don’t jinx it, i’ve gotten extremely close to passing out on you at least 6 times in the last 5 minutes"▪"youre so brave i love you"▪"i love you too. dont keep worrying me like this, you,,,,, you klutzy dork. please take care of yourself !!“▪'klutzy dork?’ thats the best insult jojo can muster?▪mike cant help but laugh and he Melts when jojo pouts at him for it▪"im sorry but? klutzy dork is the best you can do? youre so cute baby”▪then he like kisses jojo on the nose and jojo cant stay upset. boy starts smiling so wide mike is worried its hurting his cheeks●theyre LIVING for the amusement park food ▪jo gets SO HYPED when he sees that theres churros▪"can i get 3?“▪"babe theres 2 of us”▪"actually i meant 3 for me…. i wasnt sure how many you wanted though"▪"holy crap, jojo"▪hes is almost scared by the speed at which jojo eats the churros (after he offers some to mike, ofc)▪mike, on the other hand, lives for the classic Theme Park Pizza™▪not much to say here tbh▪he could eat several slices of that stuff▪jojo rlly has no place to judge▪he just finds it impressive ▪"9, huh? think thats a new record"▪"WOOOOOOOOO"●so they eat the food after going on all the rides they wanted to go on plus some, so they settle for some of the games!!!!!! jo wins mike a few prizes but mike kinda gets carried away and wins jojo a lot. so many things. they have to get a bag to hold it all its really funny, jojo is giggling the whole time and mike is so in Love▪and by the time theyre done bagging everything its getting dark out and these boys are getting tired▪so mike suggests ending their time there by going on the ferris wheel!!▪jojo is so on board yes ferris wheel w/ his bf LET’S GO▪the sun is setting around the time theyre on it and when theyre at the top jo sees mike in that lighting and???? what can i say. boy cant help himself▪he goes IN for that cheesy top-of-the-ferris-wheel kiss▪LO AND BEHOLD it IS their first kiss▪"wow wow wowow ow wow wosiw wo w weown ejdjfjfjfjjgkkds" -mike’s mind when jo kisses him▪its just???? everything you expect from these boys honestly▪soft. sweet. gentle. extremely loving and pure ▪theyre so wholesome yall my HEART●so mike is exhausted afterwards but he still thinks he should treat his lovely boyfriend to some dessert ▪mike knows theres a stewart’s at a gas station only about 15 minutes on the way to his place from the amusement park▪so they go there!!!▪jo is practically asleep in his seat so mike asks him what flavor he wants and tells him that he’ll get both orders from him▪"what?? no you dont have to do that…!!“▪mike can tell jojo is trying to be resistant but he can also tell jojo is extremely tired so he INSISTS▪jo tells mike his order and mike kisses him on the cheek before going to get their orders▪the ice cream wakes jo up for a little bit and they kinda just sit in the car talking for a lil while ●…….they dont get back home til the next day▪they went to like this REALLY GOOD amusement park several hours away and just got so exhausted at some point on the way back to mike’s place?? and caffeine Does Not work on mike. and jo’s already out cold and mike really doesnt wanna wake him▪so mike pulls up at the next service area and texts ike to let him know whats going on and then he just crashes y'know??▪they wake up the next day feeling EXTREMELY refreshed!! so they grab some breakfast from the service area and take their time eating it before continuing the drive back▪jo starts laughing bc he has like 50 missed calls and 704847385 texts from elmer and buttons (tHeY wErE rOoMmAtEs) and has to text them to tell them hes ok and hes gonna be at mike’s for a little while▪they had a Good Time

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wow i would honestly die for these two????? holy shit. i hope you like these!!!

-sanj 💕

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Spring 2016 anime first thoughts

it’s that time of the year again and I have just finished watching at least the first ep of all the new airing anime of this season!! and i’m rly excited for them. 

opm s2: i actually rly like jc staff but like... for this kinda thing they can’t compare to madhouse and i was super disappointed. like. the animation. the colour. jc has their own style like i get it but they could’ve made it a bit more like the original style. right. saitama looked super tan. and the fight scenes like. so lackluster. shoddy if i am being mean. i was so excited for this so i got super let down like IM sorry jc but MADHOUSE n Their FRICKRn sakuga u can’t compare. im still gonna watch this tho. i love One and i love opm

kimetsu no yaiba: yo this is ufotable so i thought it’d look a little... more like fate... but there was obvious 3d... so i got sad. i think a lot of ppl will compare this to dororo but like... don’t, dororo is rly good. rly good. this is kinda meh but i hope it can get better! 

isekai quartet: ya i wasnt originally going to watch this cuz i havent seen overlord yet (oops) but i decided against it cuz i lovlovlov rezero and konosuba. i actually like the idea around this like- the first ep was amusing. i rly wanna see all of those characters interacting and honestly it would be awesome if subaru and kazuma became friends like? they’re in the same position. they got a harem, killed by a truck, and isekai’d. they’re literally the same person. (also did u notice they use the original bgm for the characters like tanya’s monologue??? that was such an iconic song)

bsd 3: i watched the movie recently to hype myself up and boy i was not prepared bc i fucking love bsd so much like my heart. ugh. and that first ep? iconic. baby chuuya and baby dazai are so fricken adorable and so CUTE and i fuxkigngg ship like oh my god. the animation is so good?! bones my bitch thank you for this

fairy gone: i was surprised by the animation quality so that’s good :=) it seems super interesting and i like the military uniform/ character designs i saw in the op. not too fond of those fairy things- they’re kinda creepy and ugly but like honestly whatever

kenja no mago: ok, i was wrong again, and i was not let down! not a typical shitty isekai! nope! i found it funny and charming! and the mc isn’t an idiot! he’s cool! and hot! i thought it was a cool take how they showed him growing up like not just baby-->seventeen yr old op bitch. it made it more.... realistic? i felt more connected to the kid. and there doesn’t seem to be an awful harem starting yet so i am hopeful. and those two old magic ppl r so nice. i lov them. the take of ‘no common sense’ was different than expected but i don’t hate it. like the fact that he literally doesn’t know anything at all. is . ha

kono yo hate de koi wo utau shoujo yu-no: again, so impressed by this one! not a dumb harem thing like i thought! it’s really funny and i actually love the protag. he’s funny. and i don’t hate the chars either (tho im iffy of that mio kid) this could end up actually being super good. and it’s rly underrated. 

sarazanmai: all i have to say is. WHt ATHATAH FUCK is this? like it’s good? animation is rly good? but like what the fuck? what the actual fuck? i thought the description was weird but what the fuck did i watch?what the fu

mayonaka no occult koumuin: not bad! since i just started a new job it was kinda weird seeing this kid on his first day and all this weird shit happens like if that were me i would pass out like what teh ehcuk did i get myself into? tho id be too shy to be like. hey are y’all on drugs are y’all seeing things. but art style is clean & animation is clean! gj!

runners up: namu amida butsu: this was nice but it seemed too much like touken ranbu, which i love, so i had to say no to too many more bishie boys. gunjou no magmel: i like the mc alot, he’s hot and super powerful but like. the rest of it not too keen on- but for other ppl definitely some ppl would love this. shoumetsu toshi: i dont even remember what i watched i think i stopped halfway cuz it was boring, i expected more yo

aaaand i think that’s it! all that’s left is aot which i am mildly enthused about. i think this season is rly strong and i feel like these new shows could end up being super fuckchicn amazing. and i can’t wait for tate no yuusha and dororo.

[sofhyuck]

Terrace House!AU Mark

Genre: fluff, bullet point scenario

Word Count: 1.69k exactly ayyy

A/N please read the introduction before reading!

so same deal with Yuta’s scenario

you found out on the way to the house that ‘holy shit a member of nct 127 is going to be in the house with me wHaT dO I DO

you get to the house and settle in, meeting the other cast members

and it’s getting,,,really late,,,and everyone else is in the house except for nct boi

you and the other members are getting pretty concerned,,,but also really tired so one by one they all go to bed

except for you because you’re not tired yet plus,,,you’re so nervous to see who the member is you’re not sure you’d be able to go to sleep anyways

but it’s running on 2 in the morning and while you don’t have any work tomorrow,,,you know you should go to bed

and just as you’re shuffling past the front door the doorbell rings

you almost tripped and concussed yourself with how fast you ran to open the door

you opened the door to face a very exhausted looking mark lee

and you’re both so high key sleep deprived you can’t even really say anything

he gave you a soft smile and a little ‘hi’ and boi looked so soft and sle e py

so instead of trying to start a conversation you show him to his room and then,,,go to bed

well at least try to bc your heart is racing bc omfg your bias is literally two doors away from you

the next morning you wake up early bc someone is being hella loud in the kitchen

so you rub your eyes and make yourself a little more presentable before shuffling into the kitchen

and there is mark lee and oh no he found the eggs fuck

he looks up and recognizes you fro the night before and he smiles, which you return,,,but then you smell burning and you’re like “sHiT mARk the EggS”

and he doESn’T kNOw wHaT tO DO

so you rush over and grab the pan from him while he just kind of looks at you,,,in awe,,,bc

a) you know his name so are you a fan??? find out next week

and b) you look really cute in your pajamas while trying to salvage the burning frying pan

once you dispose of the disaster egg you turn to him with an exasperated sigh and low key scold him

“you know you can’t make eggs w h y would you d o that???”

but then you realize you just e x pose d yourself as a fan so you shut up real quick

but he just laughs and is like ‘glad to see we have a fan in the house’ while you blush so m u ch 

feeling a little bad for scolding him you decide to help teach him how to cook eggs lol and together you make a pretty simple breakfast for the other members

soon enough everyone is awake and sitting at the table praising you guys for your hard work while you and mark just look at each other and silently agree to not talk about the earlier egg catastrophe

the other cast members already knew each other from the day before so now all eyes are on mark

you feel bad for the dude bc he looks a lil uncomfy but he slowly warms up to everyone

every time someone asks about the difficulties of being an idol he just brushes it off like ‘eh I get to do what I love while making people happy so it’s all worth it’

eventually conversation lulls and people begin to clean up and now’s your chance to ask the question you’ve been dying to know the answer to

“ok,,,so like,,,despite being a trainee and an idol forever,,,did you ever have time to watch vines?”

and boy just lights up like ‘hELl YEA’ and you’re so relieved like thank god sm didn’t keep him from witnessing a cultural phenomenon 

i’m sorry idk what i’m writing lol

and miraculously boy doesn’t have any practices to go to bc all the units just ended promotions so now they have some time to chill and that’s the only reason he’s even allowed on the show

so the rest of the day goes by watching vine compilations and quoting your faves

you and mark get real close bc you guys are the only ones on the show your age,,,the rest are all in their thirties and like yea that’s not that old but you guys are kids y would you hang out with old people ew gross no offense this is for the purpose of the plot line soz

but then mark’s practices start to stack up again and you’re sad bc a) your closest friend on the show is barely there anymore and b) he left you with all the old people which you’re low key salty about cmon sm :(

but you guys still hang out as much as possible when he’s not at practice and you’re not at work

he tells you about all the shit the dreamies were pulling on kun the poor man and you tell him about funny incidents at work

but behind all the laughter you can see he’s tired but you don’t want to pry, especially since your every move is being recorded

so you try your best to make him happy and smile,,,like real smiles, not the fake ones he gives to other members sometimes

he thinks they can’t tell, but you can

sometimes you even go out to restaurants or even like arcades!

he’s even brought the dreamies a few times but that ended real quick after you almost got a black eye from renjun while playing laser tag don’t ask

so yea now you’re tight with dream (except renjun still feels bad about the laser tag incident)

(also he’s scared mark will skin him alive if he gets within a foot of you, he almost died the night of the incident by mark’s own smol hands)

one night the older guys left for some overnight bonding trip idek they were hella secretive about it you and the announcers are convinced they’re in love with each other but you’re in no place to out them

it’s really late like 3 in the morning but you’ve been struggling to go to sleep bc you’re waiting for mark bc he always tells you goodnight after getting home from practice

you’re just about to fall asleep when you hear the door open and you know it’s mark so you wait,,,but he never comes in

he just shuffles past your door to his room

and you’re really concerned bc he’s been looking extra beat lately and this is just the icing on the cake

so you go to the boy’s room and knock on the door but no response

so you push the door open and don’t see him 

assuming he’s in the bathroom you’re about to leave but then you hear sniffling,,,coming from the bathroom

and you’re just like ‘oh hell no my boy is crying’

the bathroom is the only place without cameras so you know he wants privacy

making sure you don’t have your mic with you, you go over to the bathroom door and knock, softly whispering his name

the sniffling stops and you hear him moving around before moving to the door

barely giving him a chance to open it you slip and close the door behind you, making sure the cameras can’t see him

and there he is, tired as hell, eyes red, cheeks puffy

you both look at each other before he starts sobbing

and you immediately pull him into you, holding him and swaying side from side, letting him get it out of his system before talking to him

when he finally calms down you slowly pull away and he won’t look up to meet your eyes,,,he’s a lil embarrassed shy bub

so you lift his head up to meet your eyes and you just softly scold him

“I’m your friend mark,,,you don’t have to be worried about being embarrassed in front i mean,,,I saw your eggs and those were horrible”

cue mark laughing a little and your heart sOaRinG

“you can tell me anything, i know you don’t want to make me worry but I worry more about finding you her like this,,,so please,,,rant to me,,,relieve your stress”

and, well, without cameras and mics, mark goes off

telling you about all the stress he’s accumulated from being in all the units an being one of the faces of the group, always having to be on different programs ad make the group look good

you guys are sitting on the floor, him leaning against you while you rub his back and listen, sometimes interjecting with your own thoughts on sm treat your idols better i stg smh

eventually he slows down and now you’re both sitting on the bathroom floor, about to fall asleep at any moment

you move to face him and he does the same

you’re about to tell him you two should go to bed

but you can’t stop looking at him bc he is so so f t and he just poured his hear out to you

and he can’t stop staring at you bc you always look so beautiful but also you’re so kind to him but also won’t hesitate to roast him

so he just,,,starts to lean in,,,and you do too,,,

and then your lips meet and wo w his lips are so soft he’s thinking the same thing askjdh

when you both pull away you smile at each other, resting your foreheads together

mark stands up, pulling you with him to his bed, and you sleep in each others arms :’)

the next morning the girls wake up to find you missing and are about to call 119 but then they go into the boys room and are just like ajhkhfflsd this is too soft and pure and you guys are now tHe power couple of the show

also renjun is even more terrified he can’t even look at you mark is ScARy poor baby

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[seasdawave]

Life bleh bleh lol

Man it’s been up and down lately but I have relearned to have fun with myself lol so it’s been great in that part. I am annoyed pretty girl is not giving me any love but oh well her cute owl eyes make up for that. I feel like I’m locked down with this girl lol I can’t really go out because I have to feed her and do many things for her and get no love in return LOL If she would give me just a tiny bit of love, that would make things easier instead of me wanting to give her away lol But I’m responsible for her so I will do my best to take care of her even if she does not love me. I hope she sees the love I give her and slowly starts coming closer to me. BUT I bought this nice fish house for her LOL it’s so funny and cute xD Blends with the aesthetic of my room ^u^ hehehehehehe I can always count that she will be there and that makes me happy. 

I met this awesome person at salsa class the other day! I am super elated! Well two things. He is a big head dancer and we are going to go travel to a jam and kill it. Another is I made so many new friends out of nowhere and I have so many adventures to go to which I’m excited about! I am going to travel with a group of friends through the whole Florida, Tennesse, NC, VA, DC, NYC, New Orleans, and New Jersey. In December, we will all go camping in VA so it will be a great time!  

It’s crazy how things change. It’s crazy how your body goes on survival mode. I believe that even though I fell in love twice in my life. (ex wife and dumpling) It can keep happening. Like when you break up with someone. You just have to move on no matter what and the brain resets itself like a machine. Then you can fall in love again. Like nothing happened. You just enjoy the beautiful memories that were once there and make sure to improve your fails. I always wanted someone I adore that I could share most of my life with. I just hope I can find a person like that soon because I always found it hard to fall in love. I think I was lucky to have found two great people and when I mean great I mean that I was profoundly in love with them. Even though, they both failed.  At the end of the day and at the end of life, I am happy to have met both of them because I would not be the same person I am today without them.

RANT coming x . x

BUT It’s incredible to see how I became such a lier at the end of my big first love. I honestly detested myself a lot. Thinking it thoroughly, I started lying the moment I learned she cheated on me. I became another person. A person full of anger. I lied about what I was doing. I lied about my love for her even sending her loving msgs while I knew it wasn’t true. I knew she was going out with another guy behind my back. I became this awful person who was seeking revenge at every step. Pretending to still be unaware of anything. I started not caring about the weird behaviors she was displaying bc I already knew what was happening. I just made it into a revenge game bc she did this to me and to this day she has been paying for it like literally. I won the game. But am I happy about it? No. Did I suffer bc of this stupid revenge game? oh yeah and I made another person suffer too. If I was to end it all early, I think I would have preferred that as I became the same person I hated. I did the same things as her. Like why? I mean sure I was deeply affected by the cheating. Sure my life felt like it was ruined. Sure all of our plans went to waste but like I just made this revenge such a big part of my life. I really did not deserve that. Pretending at every step to be her lover. Pretending at every step to be part of the relationship. Flying out to her and helping her clean her place like every month. Making sure she thought I was part of the relationship. 

I am sad to have made myself become a person I detested but I am glad I can move on from being such a lier and to being super scared and insecure all the time from my lying and feelings of my partner leaving me at any second. I don’t think anyone would love someone who constantly lied for the purpose of getting revenge and I made sure to act on the revenge until the end. From now on I will hold no evil in my heart but treat everyone with good even when they do not deserve it bc that’s how I always wanted to behave, and people have bad days. I definitely was not ready for a relationship and unfortunately it was bad timing. Things I learned from this: Revenge is not worth it. Be honest about every single detail. Don’t get into something with someone you adore if you are not fully healed and ready to give your best in the relationship. 

[sapphirebluestars]

i wasnt tagged but i want to do this anyway LOL

i saw @seungminty do this and decided to tag myself bc why not, it looked too cute to not do hehe

1. WHO IS YOUR BIAS?

i guess i can pick anyone? so i’m gonna go with my ult MORK TUAAANN

2. WHAT MADE YOU NOTICE THEM?

ummm tbh he wasn’t my first GOT7 bias (i was jinyoung af when they debuted) but then they came back with ‘Hard Carry’ and i jumped ship so fast bc that was definitely Mark’s era, he looked so good and his parts in the actual song made me start biasing him so fast

3. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE THING ABOUT THEM?

HIS LAUGH, and i guess just in general how cute he is? we’ve all seen him when he’s acting like an LA gangster but i live for soft mark who does cute things and makes cute actions despite being the oldest member of GOT7 lol

4. WHO WOULD INITIATE SKINSHIP MORE?

Mark doesn’t seem like the touchy type at all so i think it would definitely be me, i’m naturally a very touchy person too so it’s just the way i am and i’m like this with everyone so why not with mark too heh

5. WHO WOULD HOG BLANKETS MORE?

hmm i think it would be me..i have a habit of rolling around in my blanket so i’m literally like a burrito when i sleep LOL (its ok though mark can just cling onto me and we can burrito ourselves together)

6. WHO WOULD BE MORE CLINGY?

oh definitely me, there’s not much explanation other than my personality but i feel like mark is pretty hands off and will leave me alone most of the time which will cause me to be HELLA clingy

7. WHO WOULD SAY ‘I LOVE YOU’ FIRST?

mark would, i’d be too scared to say it especially if i wasn’t sure if he felt the same way or not :(

8. WHO WOULD BE MORE EASILY FLUSTERED?

both of us? maybe me? if it’s REALLY embarrassing or cute and i can’t contain myself then i’ll be more likely to freak out first and definitely a lot harder too lol

9. WHAT CUDDLING POSITION WOULD YOU TWO HAVE?

I. AM. LITTLE. SPOON. you hear that mork tuan, the love of my life, i am your little spoon.

10. WHICH COLORS REMIND YOU OF THEM AND WHY?

tbh red because i know he likes it and then purple because in the background of one of the scenes in ‘Hard Carry’ the sky is kind of purple and so when i see it i’m like “HARD CARRY MARK”

11. WHICH SEASON WOULD YOU LIKE TO SPEND WITH THEM?

W I N T E R. we’d cuddle all the freaking time and get to experience snow and the holidays together, that’s my ultimate dream in life 

12. WHO WOULD BAKE THE COOKIES AND WHO WOULD STEAL THE BATTER?

batter what batter? i can’t bake for crap so i only buy pre-made cookie dough and pop it on the baking sheet LOL so i guess in that scenario mark would be stealing my cookie dough and i’d be baking

13. WHICH ONE OF YOU WOULD MAKE BAD PUNS AND HOW WOULD THE OTHER REACT?

UM MARK THIS HAS MARK WRITTEN ALL OVER IT, home boy thinks he’s so funny sometimes and tbh i’d just face palm and laugh anyway (bc well i laugh easily) but also sometimes it’s just so dumb that i can’t help but laugh lol

14. WHO WOULD WANT TO ADOPT 50 DOGS AND CATS?

the both of us because he has Coco and I also have a dog, so i think collectively we’ll just want to have a bunch of dogs together

15. WHICH ONE OF YOU WOULD NEARLY BURN DOWN THE KITCHEN TRYING TO MICROWAVE A POP TART AND WHO WOULD COME TO THE RESCUE?

i would nearly burn down the kitchen FOR SURE, mark would come to my rescue waving a magazine around to fan out the smoke lol

16. WHO LIKES TO LEAN OVER TALL RAILINGS AND WHO PULLS THEM BACK?

mark for sure, he likes to do dangerous, life threatening things so i’d have to drag him literally off the edge of a cliff to keep him from jumping into the water below or something

17. WHAT WOULD WATCHING A HORROR FILM WITH THEM BE LIKE?

i think mark would be kind of unphased whereas i’d be curled up next to him hiding myself either with a pillow or with his body LOL

18. WHO WOULD BE THE CHEESY FLIRT AND WHO WOULD BE THE SMOOTH FLIRT?

neither of us would be smooth because i don’t see mark and myself like that, we’d both be SO cheesy and tbh i’m more than okay with it

19. WHO IS MORE COMPETITIVE?

mark, especially because he’s a gamer. i’m pretty passive when it comes to competition especially when i know it’s something i don’t excel at or something i don’t really know. i’ll still put in effort but i won’t go balls to the walls like mark and blaze a trail trying to win everything LOL

20. WHO WOULD HAVE TO BE GIVEN CONSTANT REMINDERS? (REMEMBER TO EAT, DON’T FORGET YOUR KEYS, ETC)

i think both of us on this one, i’m the kind of person who’s always just like “the mother” i’m very maternal so i’d always make sure mark is squared away but in turn i think when i forget things or when i need a little reminder he’ll be there to do the same for me :)

21. WHO SENDS MEMES AND WHO SENDS CUTE ‘I MISS YOU’ TEXTS AT 3AM?

memes would be mark and i think we’d both send the “i miss you” texts, more so me than mark because i’m really sentimental and really sensitive so this is something i’d see myself doing (i mean i do it in real life anyway to friends and family so again it’s kind of just how i am)

now i’m tagging you! @parkhabits @saltee-alice @morkookie @meatmeinthemiddle-mark @3-rachas @babyboyuto @got7-markjinson have fun!

[babyboyuto]

ashley i hate you this is gonna make me so emotional and lonely 

1. WHO IS YOUR BIAS?

I have so many it’s hard to choose but I’ve been in a Yuto-loving mood lately so I’ll do Yuto 

2. WHAT MADE YOU NOTICE THEM?

He’s the only Japanese member in Pentagon so it was easy for me to remember who he was. He’s also not super loud and I’m into the dark and brooding type (even though he’s not dark or brooding he just seems like it). He’s also tall and has a nice skin tone and his smile is super cute so

3. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE THING ABOUT THEM?

Ok so like physically I love his voice, it’s so deep and so full of emotion, also his smile is so cute and pure I literally uwu. and HIS LAUGH BITCH IT’S SO CUTE. But personality-wise, I love that he knows himself and is comfortable with who he is 

4. WHO WOULD INITIATE SKINSHIP MORE?

From what I’ve seen he’s not the skinship-type, but neither am I really. Like I hate PDA so so much but I’m super clingy in private so I guess it’d be me?? 

5. WHO WOULD HOG BLANKETS MORE?

Definitely me, I have a really bad habit of moving a lot when I sleep and I pull the blanket with me whenever I move. But I have a feeling he’d just pull them back

6. WHO WOULD BE MORE CLINGY?

Again, me. Like I said earlier, I hate PDA, it just makes me feel awkward, but I’m also super super clingy. Like in private I’d be inseparable from him. 

7. WHO WOULD SAY ‘I LOVE YOU’ FIRST?

Yuto. Even if I thought I loved him I’d never say it first bc I’d be scared that I’m taking the relationship too seriously. But once he says it, I’d probably say it all the time

8. WHO WOULD BE MORE EASILY FLUSTERED?

I’m honestly not sure about this one. Even if I’ve dated someone for a long time, I still get embarrassed/flustered if they give me a compliment or are really straight-forward. But I also think that Yuto acts calm and tough but if I were to compliment him or be really clingy/cute I think he would basically explode 

9. WHAT CUDDLING POSITION WOULD YOU TWO HAVE?

Idk if this like a weird position but sitting between his legs with my head on his chest, like if we were just chillin on the couch I’d sit like that and just go on my phone or something. But in general I’d be the little spoon bc he's a big guy and I feel like cuddling with him would be super comforting 

10. WHICH COLORS REMIND YOU OF THEM AND WHY?

A dark blue, kind of like right after the sun goes down but the sky isn’t totally black yet, it’s more of a blue y’know?? I don’t know why I correlate this color with him but it’s just a feeling I get. And I know this isn’t a color but I get this vibe from him: like running around a busy city with neon signs late at night and kissing in alleyways. He makes me want to be adventurous 

11. WHICH SEASON WOULD YOU LIKE TO SPEND WITH THEM?

um all, but especially spring. it’s my favorite season and it’s not too hot during the day so we could go on cute picnics and bask in the sun, but at night it still gets kind of cold so we would spend it inside eating pizza and watching anime together

12. WHO WOULD BAKE THE COOKIES AND WHO WOULD STEAL THE BATTER?

Ok it’d probably go like this: Yuto would try to bake cookies but I’d keep eating the batter and he’d just give up and we’d eat all the cookie dough together

13. WHICH ONE OF YOU WOULD MAKE BAD PUNS AND HOW WOULD THE OTHER REACT?

Neither!! I feel like puns don’t match either of our humors. I literally hate puns, I don't think their funny. And he just doesn’t seem like the type to enjoy them

14. WHO WOULD WANT TO ADOPT 50 DOGS AND CATS?

We would both want to adopt 50 cats, which is bad bc we’d end up with tons of them 

15. WHICH ONE OF YOU WOULD NEARLY BURN DOWN THE KITCHEN TRYING TO MICROWAVE A POP TART AND WHO WOULD COME TO THE RESCUE?

He’d be the better cook, but I’d never burn down the kitchen bc I know my abilities. I would just leave all the cooking to him

16. WHO LIKES TO LEAN OVER TALL RAILINGS AND WHO PULLS THEM BACK?

I would be the one leaning, for sure. I’m a bit childish, but he’d like it. He’d for sure be looking out for me 

17. WHAT WOULD WATCHING A HORROR FILM WITH THEM BE LIKE?

Yuto probably likes horror movies, that asshole. And I’d probably watch them with him bc it makes him happy. I think he’s totally unfazed by them, but I would be hiding behind my fingers the whole time and would end up with my head against his chest trying not to watch

18. WHO WOULD BE THE CHEESY FLIRT AND WHO WO

ULD BE THE SMOOTH FLIRT?

I’d be the cheesy one and would always be trying to make him laugh, he’d be super smooth/serious and would make me flustered 

19. WHO IS MORE COMPETITIVE?

I’m not competitive at all just bc I can’t be bothered to put that much energy into something. I don't think he’s very competitive either tho, he’s probably pretty chill 

20. WHO WOULD HAVE TO BE GIVEN CONSTANT REMINDERS? (REMEMBER TO EAT, DON’T FORGET YOUR KEYS, ETC)

Jesus this would be me, I literally eat my first meal at like 1 pm bc I'm still in bed at noon. I always forget important things when I leave the house, like important papers or assignments so he’d have to remind me constantly

21. WHO SENDS MEMES AND WHO SENDS CUTE ‘I MISS YOU’ TEXTS AT 3AM?

I think we both would. Like we’d be sending memes to each other on instagram  and he'd send a text randomly that’s like “I miss you and love you sm” or something like that idk. We would both love memes but also be really serious about our emotions towards each other so yee 

I was tagged by @sapphirebluemt, and now I’m tagging you! 

@geminiilesbian @okmica @jellybeanmulti @igot7-penta-seo

[pwjins]

omg hi!! i saw this on other blogs but who would you associate your mutuals as wanna one? like __ is jihoon or something you feel? I thought it would be cute to ask!

hello!! before i begin this post, i’M SO SORRY IM REALLY BAD AT THESE KINDS OF POSTS HAHAHA I MEAN I HAD FUN MAKING IT BUT IDK HOW ACCURATE THEY ARE 

Jisung - @danielsoftgf @ongjins

dian is like the SWEETEST MOM/DAD on this site i swear omfg she’s so freaking adorable and always checks up on her kids AND UGHH SHE JUST MAKES ME SO SOFT SOMETIMES

hershey is also like another mom SHE ALWAYS LOVS MAKING SURE EVERYONE IS ALRIGHT AND SHE’S SO NICE N KIND LIKE WO W ANGELS DO EXIST

Sungwoon - @alliwannado-w1

idk she gives off this cute and adorable, but deadly vibe?? NOT LIKE SHE’S GONNA MURDER ANYONE BUT I MEAN LIKE she’s super SUPER talented at everything and is SOSOSOSO KIND but could be really scary if she’s mad idk HAHAH

Minhyun - @seunghyuks

she’s beauty, she’s grace, but she can also punch u in the face :^) when i first started talking to her she was super super nice n polite like minhyun and i was like she’s so precious??? but that was before i found out she can also throw a mean roast sometimes :(( but i lov her sm

Seongwoo - @laisgrl

I BARELY STARTED TALKING TO HER BUT JANA ALWAYS MAKES ME LAUGH OFMGOFMG her sense of humor has seongwoo shaking rn like all she has to do is just breathe and i’ll be on the floor possibly in a coma

Jaehwan - @kimjaehwanswife

ogmofmidf lucy reminds me of jaehwan so much just because of all her random but funny as hell shitposts all the time like i luv how she can just keep talking and talking and it’s just like a nice refresher on my dash nd i feel like she could probably outscream jaehwan if she wanted to u know

Daniel - @perkwoojin

she’s so?? well rounded?? good at everything?? OK LITERALLY JAS CAN WRITE, SHE CAN EDIT, SHE CAN GIF, AND SHE’S FUNNY ON TOP OF THAT LIKE WTF SHE’S THE FULL PACKAGE which i kinda relate to daniel bc he’s well rounded too AND I ALWAYS SAY THAT I HATE HIM BC HE’S MY BIAS WRECKER but i mean it w love which is why i’m always mean to jas a lot too luv u 🅱️ish this is the only time i’m saying it 

Jihoon - @porkjeojang

BC SHE’S SUPER FLOWERY AND ADORABLE I JUST LOVE HER she’s also really really freaking pretty like wtf she could probably kill a man if she did aegyo she just really brightens my day and my dash with her personality and WOW i love her so much 

Woojin - @pinksausageduo

AGAIN i used to think she was like an awkward person to talk to BUT LIKE AFTER 0.5 SECONDS SHE JUST BECAME RLY OPEN AND CHATTY LIKE WOW DID NOT EXPECT THAT and her dance moves are absolutely FIRE just like woojins :’) 

Jinyoung - @wannasseu

she used to seem like really quiet ish to me which kinda reminds me of baejin during the first few eps of pd101 when he was unconfident but as i talked to her more, she turned out to be SUPER FLUFFY AND HELLA RELATABLE A LOT LIKE TALKING TO HER IS SO MUCH FUN AND IT’S ADORABLE WHEN I COMPLIMENT HER WRITING WITH MEMES AND SHE GETS SUPER SHY ABOUT IT 

Daehwi - @laignlin

ok i used to think she was all sweet and adorable and stuff on the outside but NO this girl loves to roast me and CAN BE REALLY SASSY A LOT BUT she also makes my day 1000% better w/ how energetic she is or how passionate she is about her hatred for school JUST SO RELATABLE GUGHHG 😩😩😩 and her snapchats keep me alive in the morning i luv u :(((

Guanlin - @woo-jin-young

i mean she likes memes, she dabs, and she’s hot so what more do u need to see her similarities with guanlin (also her sense of humor makes me choke sometimes i’m so in fucking love)

ok looking at this now this is probably not accurate at all but idk i guess its also like a mutual call out post bc i luv u !!! im so sorry this was so bad LMAO