#which is obv an ableism issue

[alteredsilicone]

twitter rehashes the "disabled people in fantasy settings" discourse every other week but all i got is that there is a certain level of irony that the same people who complain how everything has become too sanitized and inclusive are also going "UM IF THERE IS MAGIC WHY CAN'T YOU JUST MAGIC AWAY ALL THE DISABILITIES"

i thought you guys liked ~reaļizm~ and that means that sometimes disabilities can't be cured and people have to make do with the cards the world has dealt them

[multimousenette]

Conservative leadership hopeful Kemi Badenoch has faced criticism after a report she endorsed suggested people with autism get “economic advantages and protections” and “better treatment or equipment at school”.

Genuinely evil woman

[itsaspectrumcomic]

man ok idk if youll be able to advise on this or something but like. do you know anything regarding dealing with like internalised ableism?

i live in a rural part of ireland, right? and idk what it is about rural ireland but some of the people are heinous. my school is in a small miserable-ass town and like. God, man. not everyone sucks, of course but like. jesus lol additionally i have a ~mildly ableist~ mother (a "we're all a little bit autistic" and "erm. youre not disabled because youre not in a wheelchair or blind/deaf" etc etc type stuff. + "npd = bad person" which isnt particularly good for me specifically because i have npd (that i both Cant get an official diagnosis for, for various reasons, and im not really Looking for one either because i know what i am and its not like you get support for it because ~ooh scary narcissist~.)

and like. idk if this is Obvious but that can kinda cause a weird-ass relationship with You (being Me in this case, yk how it is with the second person perspective when. ranting) and The Concept Of Being Disabled. like, objectively. im disabled. im autistic, ive definitely got adhd (that im hopefully going to get examined for at some point cause college stuff requires it for the disability forums and stuff. gotta love that. fuckin 80% comorbidity right?), ive got a laughable number of repetative strain injuries, i have a sensory processing disorder, an endocrine disease that effects my Entire cardiovascular system, a spine that felt a lil quirky and bent in too much. so on a so forth

but also like. it feels wrong to call myself disabled. yk, like im doing a disservice to all the other ~actually~ disabled people (being Anyone but me lol) (none of this is At All helped by the fact that my mother refuses to listen to me regarding Jack Shit about my health in Any way. "oh you nearly passed out on top of a hill because of your cardiovascular condition? erm youre just not exercising enough actually" "you dont have depression [said while i was filling out an assigned mood diary after being forcefully brought to camhs for Reasons" like. shut the fuck up and Listen to me please. at least Entertain the idea that i could be right about something for fucking once lmao. cause ive been right about EVERYTHING regarding my mental health so fucking far so. fuck off /nay ofc) (also man. like, even if you ignored the physical issues ive got im still disabled on account of being autistic. like, motor function is fine, despite being a lil clumsy and/or unsteady sometimes but like. my emotional needs are Fucked. think of the response youd get if you asked a. fuckin. 8 year old or something to do algebra. but with a very emotionally stunted and traumatised 17 year old lol. lmao, even /lh)

so like. if youve got. any advice or whatever on any of this thatd be Super cool + no pressure obvs. sorry this is a whole. like. fucking essay's worth of Random Guy Complaining To You On The Internet lol

-🐢 <- just so i can find this again if you respond. i Like Turtles. i am Normal about the tmnt and also turtles The Creatures. i wont talk at length about turtle mutant anatomy (i am deceiving you)

Internalised ableism is a really hard thing to deal with, especially when you're surrounded by people who constantly re-enforce it. I've also spent a lot of time worrying that I'm not disabled 'enough' to deserve certain accommodations, that I'm making an unnecessary fuss. But the truth is, autism IS a disability and if there are accommodations that can help support you, you deserve access to them. You're not taking away from others with disabilities by advocating for yourself.

It's taken me a long time to understand this and I still worry sometimes. What has helped is talking about my experiences with people I know understand, like my therapist or best friend, and learning about the experiences of other autistic people through books, social media, YouTube and even real life.

I'm sorry your mother and others aren't being understanding - remember that's a them problem, not you, and try to spend your time with people who do understand.

🐢🐢🐢 <- the turtles wish you luck

[pansyboybloom]

Wait so I'm confused here so bear with me; That post about the tmra thing, what is your stance on trans men talking about the issues affecting them specifically? I'm genuinely asking, cos it doesn't seem clear where you stand on this or how you view folks talking about trans man/masc issues specifically.

I know that seems weird to ask but I'm now so cautious in online trans space cos I apparently "don't have it as bad as a trans women" whenever I talk about my experience in the health sector dehumanising me and with queer spaces demonising me as a trans man or overall men or attractions to them, which just hurts because we have our unique issues. I'm just trying to understand what you feel.

You're welcome to ignore this if you want. /gen

this got soooo long im so sorry, but i wanted to give you a genuine answer so here we go!

so the person i was vauging about is a proud mra, like. 2014 men's right's activist opinions. obv im not gonna post his URL bc im not about that kind of life, but it's Bad. like, i 'explicitly hate women and im blaming them for the patriarchy hurting me, esp trans women' bad. the dude is a total douche.

now, as for us talking about our issues-- disclaimer here, i'm a white, gay, relatively gnc trans man who lives in the southern USA and passes well and im using that as my jumping-off point. I've been reading into some theory lately (whipping girl is great so far), but this is mostly my own experiences, not theory, based. I've mentioned it before, but i don't believe in misandery, and in that vein, i think that makes the concept of 'transmisndry/androphobia' misguided. in my interpretation of my transness, as someone who's lived as a woman for 19 years and a man for 5, I'm not facing discrimination for gaining manhood, but instead for losing womanhood. I'vd talked about that here and here, in reference to this quote but here are the highlights that are related to my opinion on being punished for leaving womanhood

trans men, on the other hand, are reaching for that 'ideal'[malehood]. we are trying to leave behind the despised and weak [womanhood], and that's so silly, so pathetic, you stupid little girl, you really think you can be the top in society? that's why radfems and similar 'feminists' say we are betraying our sex; they see it as leaving behind safety (women) for the enemy (men). to them, we are leaving them to rot in alone womanhood while we try to become the privileged ones stepping on their necks. this is also why the narrative surrounding trans women is predatory and sexual-- women only have power through sex, so a man would only want to leave manhood for sexual gratification-- while the narrative for us is that we are pathetic and tricked. women are stupid and delusional if they believe they could ever leave behind our oppression for privilege

and

that's why i don't see me being discriminated against as a trans man as something uniquely tied to anti-maleness / misandery/ androphobia / etc, but instead, just a facet of transphobia and misogyny (as well as ableism and such for me personally, but im talking bigger picture). I'm seen as a ruined woman because i betrayed gender roles. to them, im not transitioning because i am, ya know, actually a man, instead, i'm purposefully clawing my way out of the pit and hightailing it to the top, which is threatening. society doesn't like when women (trans men) are suddenly trying to be a class that is protected and privileged. im not transitioning to get access to privilege, but that's what it looks like to a transphobe, be them conservative man or radfem. im scary because im rocking the boat, not because im masculine, and they hate me because im showing their binary and hierarchy are false, not because im masculine. im stupid and delusional and a failure and a silly little girl and a bamboozled idiot tricked by trans women as well as a ruined woman and a rotten woman because of misogynistic binary power structures, not because im a dude. ya know? anyways, what holds me back is the gender binarist, cissexist, transphobic, and misogynistic stew that affects all trans people, just differently on a systemic and individual level

but i dont want people to think that we don't face our own issues. for example-- despite being on t for like 5 fucking years, I've had my period come back multiple times after switching back to gel. i panicked and went to a doc the 1st time, worried i was idk, dying, and she blew me off as not knowing my body and being hysterical. now do i think this was because i was trans? yes. do i think it was because i was a trans man? yes. but not because of the man part, but because of the 'was a woman' part. this doc was not seeing emil, the man, she was seeing emil, the stupid little girl who is playing pretend, and as such she treated me with the same disrespect she would a cis woman, just with different pronouns. I've found that most discrimination i have faced has more to do with people still seeing me as a woman and treating me as such, even when i pass and am very clearly a man.

now, do i think masculinity in the queer community is seen as bad? to an extent, yes, but i think that comes from gender essentialism more than any kind of misandry. butch women are abandoning 'the right kind' of womanhood, so they're bad. masc nb people, gnc people, and masc men are leaving behind the 'palatable' version of queerness that is, for lack of a better word, tied to femininity from a binarist and essenalist viewpoint. this femininity is an insult, wrong, so it is expected of queer people. this femininity is fake, easily dominated, flimsy, and docile in the eyes of a binarist and essentialist society. so queer people, who must be fake, easily dominated, flimsy, and docile to be safe for cishet society, must not be masculine. and like i said, even then it has to be the right kind of femininity. just ask any femme lesbian or trans woman or gnc trans man, like i am. we are punished for being feminine 'wrong' -- i could talk about this for hours, but i won't take up too much of your time haha. basically, i think that masculinity is punished in the queer community not bc of misandry/androphobia but because in the queer community, masculinity is being practiced in a way that breaks the norms we have internalized. it alllll comes back to the binary, gender essentialism, and misogyny.

obviously, my opinion is not the end all be all, and i welcome other takes and thoughts, (esp on this ask haha), but when it comes to other trans men, the insistence that a) misandry/androphobia/male oppression is real b) trans women are the cause of the problem or bad for calling us out when we say something gross and c) we don't need to do any soul searching on our own binarist, essentialist, or (trans)misogynistic thoughts, are when i have a problem. not when trans men want to talk about the oppression they face. i should be able to talk about that doctor's appointment, and you should be able to talk about your life experiences! just be sure not to fall into any internalized bigotry unintentionally in the process.

does that help? pls let me know if it does or doesn't, if it doesn't id love to dm and chat more

[roobylavender]

why r aftg fans so weird abt the idea of kevin being straight ? omg

it's less that they're opposed to him being straight and more that they operate under the misconception that thea groomed him.. there is literally one (1) line that indicates anything of how kevin knew thea in the original series and it's basically to say that he knew of her because he was in the nest before actually being a student at edgar allan. a lot of people ran with this to assume that he and thea knew each other personally when he was a minor and she wasn't even though the obv conclusion was that they ran in different circles because she was on the first team with other uni students and he was not lol. like obv he knew who she was because he would have known who anyone on the first team was even if he did not have personal relationships with them.. the whole reaction to it is very silly. there is also the fact that people interpret thea's minimal characterization and more terse attitude to indicate that she doesn't actually care about kevin and his trauma. which is hilarious coming from these fans frankly because any dedicated kevin fan can tell you that neil and andrew treat kevin like garbage. neil's relentless ableism in particular is one of the most glaring issues with the writing in the original series. and this doesn't even get into the weird tone around complaints about thea considering she is the only canonically black character in the series and people who hate her repeatedly paint her as aggressive based off of three lines of content. the hatred for her is collectively fueled by racism and misogyny

[pondscummy]

so me and roommate L talked on Sunday and I finally like aired some of my grievances and was like hey you really hurt me w how you treated me during my recovery and I realized I actually really don't feel like I can safely communicate with you and I haven't felt like I could for a very long time. and they did apologize and we decided to just be polite roommates and not friends at all and that's a big relief honestly bc now I'm not carrying around this tension the way I was before bc I know there's not expectation from either side but like. it's also freed me up mentally where I'm not thinking about all the immediate stuff anymore and instead I'm like remembering various random things that pissed me off but weren't big enough to focus on before lmao

the one I'm stuck on rn is how insistent they are that I'm on the spectrum. idk they do a lot of explaining myself to me that makes me like. bro shut Up you don't know what my lived experience is like lol you have no concept of anything. which. for context I have a dx and I thought I was on the spectrum for years and years but weirdly enough going to therapy and working through my ptsd made a lot of those symptoms just.... start vanishing. and one of my friends had been undiagnosed for the same reason so it got me thinking about it and talking to my therapist at the time and like. ptsd can present rly similarly. like I was neglected and abused as a child and I literally did not learn social skills, and I was very fearful of other people. as I like worked through the stuff that had instilled that in me and found my stride w stepping out of my comfort zone and getting comfortable being uncomfortable I really don't find it particularly hard to talk to people. I retook the RAADS and I got that I have tendencies but am not anywhere near diagnostic level. I'm literally moving states bc I find the idea of being in a new place and starting from scratch socially rly exciting and I want to like go out to events on my own and meet people both through apps and more organically and I want to get to be in the office with my coworkers like. obv there's more to a dx than just social anxiety but the things that my dx was primarily based in (social anxiety, need for stability/routine, aversion to connection, even sensory issues) are so easily linked back to trauma for me and like. being on the spectrum doesn't go away w therapy?? also I've found it harder and harder to befriend other people on the spectrum; I find I have less in common as time goes on and that my communication style is more focused on like small talk and less directness etc. and I don't tend to get special interests at all anymore like I find it a little difficult to discuss interests w people for long periods of time.

anyway idk my experiences just make me think that it was an incorrect dx but a rly understandable one. I'll probably always have tendencies and get along pretty well w others who do or who are on the spectrum but like I just don't think that I am. and whenever I tried to talk about this with them they'd shut it down and be like um I'm pretty sure you are lmao. and when we talked Sunday I made a comment about making some assumptions about their facial expressions at one point and they were like well we're both on the spectrum so. and I was like my guy I can read facial expressions just fine. if you're saying I can't read yours accurately bc You're on the spectrum then fine. sure. I actually think it's bc you're always so fucking stoned that every muscle in your face is dangling from the frame, personally, but like. i don't have this probably of misreading anyone else dude. like ffs stop armchair diagnosing me and acting like bc you said it then it's law. UGHHHHHHHHHGGGHHHH. it would be one thing if I thought they were saying this stuff bc they think I'm distancing myself out of internalized ableism or something. but it really seems more like they bring it up only to tell me how bad I am at things. which like I'm sorry lmao but. if I'm not giving this vibe to anyone else and I'm not displaying symptoms predominantly in my day to day life and if they're rly seeming to be correlated to my ptsd, maybe you're literally just triggering for me to be around. asshat

[staypuftmarshmallowqueen]

There's an issue here of, as a society we view people without pets as lesser. My personal suspicion is it's related to disability and poverty; the immediate assumption is if you can't handle a small animal you must be incapable in a way which can be judged. And that notion is baked into our assessments of ourselves.

I think this weighs on some people and triggers a desire to remove this judgement any way they can, because unlike other things (rising out of poverty, overcoming disability, etc) getting hold of a random pet is actually quite easy. Except then there's the rest involved, which people forget when they have their eyes on the prize of 'symbol that I am not <undesirable assumption>'.

Yet another reason why ableism and classism are such painful issues in our world.

(Obvs won't apply to everyone, sometimes you just want a little guy to interact with. But sometimes the drive is something else too.)

I have a deep appreciation for every person who posts lists and articles with the theme "Why you shouldn't get X as a pet" where X is everything from exotics to cats and dogs.

Often these articles, especially the ones for cats and dogs, garner terrible comments from people defending their pets as if the article is an insult or threat. The articles aren't for them though.

They're for me. And people like me.

I would be a terrible pet owner. I dislike extra mess (e.g., food tossed about, shed hair, droppings), hassle (e.g., multiple hours required daily interaction, protecting cords and cables from chewing, daily walks) and additional chores (e.g., litter boxes, vomit clean up, aquarium cleaning).

Occasionally, though, I get this little urge saying Wouldn't it be nice to have something else sentient in your apartment....?

And I'll start browsing adoption websites or small breeder sites or upcoming conventions or shelters or however the pet in question is acquired. I'll read through care instructions, make a budget, and think I could do that...

But then, some tiny part of me, too quiet to be heard over the growing momentum of pet pet pet directs my fingers to hunt for the 'why you shouldn't' articles, because there will be one. There's always inevitably one published on a pet store website, hidden in a forum, shared on reddit, hosted by a veterinarian--someone has compiled all the reasons why the pet is a bad idea.

So I find it. And I read it. And then I toss my budget away. And I close all my related tabs. And I let go of the thought entirely. Crisis averted.

Because, occasional impulse aside, I don't want a pet. I just need a reality check from time to time.

[mvunpoll]

TW: ABLEISM, KIND OF A VENT + RANT TOO

i will say firstly that this probably affects me directly. i know for a fact that i struggle a lot every day due to some sort of neurodivergent condition, but i dont know which one(s) because my parents (specifically my mom) dont believe i could ever be neurodivergent. which is real fun

however, based on a lot of conversations about this with a friend that has been diagnosed with ASD, i probaaaably have ASD. i stim A LOT, i have a lot of difficulty communicating and understanding social situations, i have to very consciously/intentionally rehearse behaviors (which also seem forced bc im not good at it T_T) when interacting with allistic people and uhh

tbh ive tried my entire life to be "normal," and i've repeatedly failed, which caused me great distress since a lot of people find me really annoying. i kept blaming myself, and i got so socially isolated that i became codependent on certain people which. im really really sorry to those people im so sorry

from this point forward, im gonna be using (censored) words that might make ppl uncomfortable. im not sure if these specific ones do, but i dont wanna accidentally make anyone feel bad. im also sorry if these words arent an issue and it just looks like im censoring "frick" or "heck" T_T

but the thing that's making me mad rn is some current day edgelords' usage of the word "aco*stic" in place of the word "a*tistic," and it's always in an insulting way.

like maybe it didnt start off as an insult, and people just found it funny in some sort of "bone apple tea" way but

the fact people are using it in an insulting way? the usage of the actual word in a negative way already pisses me off for obv reasons, but using "aco*stic" in its place just feels patronizing. as in

"ermm, i didn't actually use the real term, so why are you getting so worked up over a playful word?" even though it's being used in an identical way to how they used the real word. either way, youre reducing a real condition that people struggle with to just a way to make fun of people, so uhh fuck off

i see/hear it daily though in school and also just people casually using the r slur, so it just

fuck me i hate it. having struggles be reduced to """"silly"""" insults will piss me off to no end

[tea-and-finalfantasy]

cw/tw: outdated terminology for disabled people, ableism

in other news, there was a. is it a slur or just an outdated term. it’s not a great term either way and it was in the first fucking multiple choice question in this test prep book from 1999? new copyright or version or something in 2005?

i literally was reading out the question to the student i’m tutoring and went through each answer, why one was correct/why the others weren’t, and got to option D and was like ????i’m fucking sorry??

like i literally just went uh okay that’s not a good word to use. that’s an outdated term for someone who’s disabled and it’s not used anymore so yeah. i wouldn’t use it. uh. :I

like i went over the definition even and explained that literally in the term/making up the whole word--invalid--is the word “invalid,” as if not valid or good

and i’m no expert on every word in the world or the history of this word in particular but i know enough to be like hey people don’t use it anymore

BUT BUT BUT

even if u used the best fucking word in this context, the sentiment would still be fucking horrible!

the blurb was like tim’s grandfather visited him and did stuff like play catch and playing on the swings. tim and his friends thought it was cool but tim’s mother thought the grandfather was being childish / what does the word childish mean?

and option D was like that tim’s grandfather was acting like an invalid

and i’m like. i’m sorry??? even if u used the most preferred term in this context, the sentiment is still that it’s wrong and embarrassing and incorrect?

could you imagine fucking going “you’re acting disabled right now. you’re acting mentally ill” I’M??? HELLO???

and obv this started an issue w my mom, her being ableist, her not getting the issue/her trying to figure out why both versions of the question + answer are not great, her not remembering calling me a different slur + LITERALLY trying to figure out a correct term to use to insult me (which. it really fucking sucks but i did successfully roast her a lot and feel good abt that lol)

but even just the fact that no one did a reread of this booklet since 1999

OR

the fact that even if it were a fine word to use, it’s not one that people know as well these days, i don’t think? like the population of people using this book (it’s for 6th grade/we’re working in an earlier grade than she is) won’t know what that means? 

so like, something’s in here that makes answering the questions difficult? 

there’s a possible answer that will probably get overlooked--even if it were the correct answer--just based on it being written in unfamiliar language that hasn’t been updated in a while and it’s just. it’s not great lol 

like please gauge if a student can answer the question correctly, not if they can answer the question correctly and have to know unfamiliar words you don’t need to be using for multiple different reasons

learning new vocab is nice (when it’s not words u shouldn’t be using in the first place) but in the multiple choice options is not where i want that to be happening

[the-collector-blog]

a thought about community's ben chang that i've had many times: all the things he goes through are made out to seem ridiculous and absurd. the same goes for the greendale campus, but some of what happens to chang specifically is actually...kinda realistic once you think about it in the context of him being [probably schizophrenic but either way definitely] severely mentally ill. full commentary under the cut.

[disclaimers - this is: informed by my own experiences and by those of ppl in my life // not necessarily the case for everyone // not coming from an expert; i haven't purposefully done much research into soul crushing, hope depleting statistics // not to say he is a good person and only his illness caused him to do horrible things (he is awful regardless lol) // not to say that the show 1) intentionally wrote these things to be realistic, 2) portrayed him in a good way, or 3) was not ableist.]

anyways. homelessness, legal trouble/imprisonment, unemployment, and the struggle to maintain relationships are disproportionately experienced by mentally ill people.

it seems like his life just snowballs into complete absurdity after his wife kicked him out. but like, i feel like it's so hard to get back to normality especially when you're predisposed to mental illness. he got worse as his life became less stable, which makes a lot of sense.

you're doing relatively alright, you have a home and a partner/person- but then that relationship falls apart. you lose that support and some of your resources. where do you even go? you may start to struggle at work (if you're employed) as your life and mental health issues get worse. things are uncertain. (in extreme/unfortunate cases, this can lead to big episodes and/or legal trouble etc. chang's psychosis did.)

these things really can snowball, and often, you don't just find your way again soon and get back on your feet. if things fall apart in your life, and you don't have the support/help you need, you may not come back from that anytime soon. (in some cases:) mental illness + loss of primary support + lack of necessary resources and treatment = sh*t goes downhill.

(obv there's also ableism, racism and other factors that can raise the chances of these things happening. chang is not only neurodivergent but chinese. etc. it all ties together.) (just felt worth noting)

[4x01]

lol ok so i obvs dont know the context in which u said this. and also im not trying to b nitpicky w criticism when the issue thats been going on is so much more nuanced and i dont want to trivialize it i think ur a good person etc. but also like the 'i unfollowed them for babyjack crimes' (indicating like. 'not surprising that theyre being racist smh') like. feels like ur equating the two things? like i enjoy babyjack..not in a demeaning way or whatever this person might have but like. im asian and i like babyjack! and. whatever. anyway love u and pls just ignore if u think im not aiding productive and positive discourse mwah<33

sjdisfn mwah to u too!! the reason it doesn’t surprise me is just because (and i don’t think this applies to every person who enjoys babyjack critically!) a lot of autistic ppl have spoken about how the concept has some very ableist intentions, which a lot of tumblr users just straight up ignore

so like obviously ableism and racism are two separate issues, but it doesn’t surprise me that this user would completely ignore what a marginalized group has said when criticizing a harmful fandom creation given that they’ve done it before😭

[omegawolverine]

Hey you dont have to answer this if you don't want but what has mizkif done besides from housing Carson(which is horrible obvs).I only really know him from hanging with like Ludwigs or Schlatts crowd(?) Anyways thanks in advance if you choose to answer this.

hi!! i dont actually watch mizkif on his own, ive only watched him when he was with other people i already liked (schlatt specifically) and he's not really a cc that people post about when he "fucks up" (bc they arent fuck ups, he is blatantly offensive and most of his viewers watch him bc of that fact) so im not super in the loop about his controversies, if you will. that being said, off the top of my head i know he:

-uses retarded in a derogatory fashion towards others (he can reclaim it, but the way he uses it makes me and a lot of other disabled/nd people uncomfortable as he uses it specifically to hurt others)

-on a side note from that last one, the whole reason karl got innitially accused of ableism is bc miz started calling karl stans in his chat retarded while karl was in call with him and karl gave a nervous laugh in response, miz spent a good 5-10 minutes on this "bit"

-has basically harassed teenagers live on stream for harmless things such as cosplaying, i think he made fun of someone's neos on stream (i might be confusing him for someone else but he's definetly clowned on "pronouns in bio kids", bc that is apparently a thing? that is also somehow funny?) and just. he makes fun of teenagers for being fucking teenagers essentially

- ^ also didnt cover users so mizkif stans spammed them with hate

-defend cmc even before yesterday (i havent watched the video but ive heard from others who have, apparently there was some victim blaming going on, even if there wasnt the defending carson thing is bad enough)

-i may be wrong on this one but ive watched him numerous times in videos and streams with schlatt and there has been multiple instances where it looked like he was making schlatt or other people uncomfortable by trying to force them to talk about topics/join him on making offensive jokes

-basically uses his friends as clickbait cash cows, which isnt really a problem ("its nobodies business except theirs" type beat)...except for the fact that some of the stuff he clickbaited wasn't just petty drama, it was personal issues or serious allegations (for example, again, him talking on the carson situation as if he was actually involved in it and then defending him)

uhmmm yeah. im definitely missing more specific examples of him being offensive in an inexcusable way and probably other stuff that i just dont know about, so if anyone else who has watched him regularly wants to chime in, feel free. i didnt really mind the guy before yesterday (i like offensive humour when it's done right, miz usually misses the mark but im not gonna yell at people who did like him before this bullshit as if i dont watch people who have done worse as far as being outright offensive goes) but like. excusing the actions of a groomer, especially when he has directly harmed your supposed friends, is a big no from me, as it should be from everyone. soz chief 🤷‍♀️

[disaster-bi-shan]

OK THINK I GOT MY IDEA FOR THE CONSULAR CHAPTER 1 REWRITE

Here it comes

DREAD MASTER INVOLVEMENT. bear with me here.

ok So what If. Prior to their imprisonment on belsavis rather than them all being kept in the dark temple, one is left on malachor three where (chapter 1 consular spoilers) the jedi master team comprising yuon, fain, parkanas and co accidentally discover it, and parkanas is the one that has to suppress the effects long enough for everyone else to escape, but not unscathed, unfortunately. The dread masters, though their power is kind of diminished, can still reach him via the phobis device due to imprinting on it long enough, and he ends up becoming a proxy/vassal for them. The mind control and shielding technique stuff is still sort of there, and we get to dig into stuff along with saving the original exploration team before they get possessed and taken over (each jedi correlates to each of the dread council, maybe?)

WE ALSO get to deal with the dread seeds being an issue from the seeker droid story Plus they now come with even more eldritch horror shit bc NIGHTMARES and terrors beyond your comprehension, yea?

maybe the afflicted masters buried them on each chapter 1 planet to build an army for the dread masters and such? Then the final showdown is finally securing the phobis device, taking down parkanas/vivicar by severing his link from it (kill and save options both preserved) and dealing with the fallout with THERAPY.

somewhere along the way we recruit some other jedi to help out and do damage control along with you (although maybe the cast is already pretty big by now, two/three other people including attros finn, duras fains daughter, and tykan's padawan), you being a narrative foil to parkanas, which you get to learn abt in flashbacks since the shield technique makes you fight through their mindscape and delve through their memories to get to the source of the corruption. Theres some way to work in some LS/DS choices but brain is not working

YOU specifically are the only one with enough mental fortitude to go in w/o succumbing yourself, noetikons are still the ones that teach you the technique and such, etc etc but with the aid of your team, some kind of battle meditation shenanigans, they act as anchors for you so you aren't going into it alone.

so this way! this feels a bit more tied into the later children of the emperor stuff (all behind the curtain subterfuge things the emperor has involvement/ties with) bc the dread masters Are a big deal unlike vivicar who is and the villain has a more coherent gameplan instead of... idk.

and less playing into ableism ... maybe ... eh... idk.

I'm not the dread master lore person here tho and it's still a little incoherent so obv room for improvement and tightening up stuff

[singsongraptor]

An essay about non-compliance and being Black and disabled.

I hate the term "noncompliant" as a patient. It strongly implies a willful refusal to heed the advice of HCPs and it's unevenly applied against patients and is frequently weaponized by HCPs. Drs esp refuse to acknowledge any barriers pts may have to compliance

The threat of being labelled noncompliant erodes the trust of patients and is often used to coerce marginalized pts into treatments they can't sustain or that they know will harm them at worst and do nothing at best. It prevents pts from seeking help for problems as well

I've been coerced multiple times into doing tx that I know I can't do or that I know will be harmful or unhelpful. Or I just flat out lie, bcuz either I've tried it before or I know my barriers to access will go ignored and I'll be labeled noncompliant for shit I can't control.

Black ppl are assumed to be untrustworthy, uncaring about our health, lazy, immoral and ignorant, stupid and foolish. You see this whenever studies show that racial bias is a primary reason Black ppl have worse health and here come the "if they didn't eat fast food" ppl

Those ppl victim blaming us refuse to note that fast food places outnumber grocery stores, that those stores lack quality food, esp fresh produce, that ppl working 3 jobs don't have time to cook and that healthy foods are overpriced. The noncompliant label is used similarly.

I don't think drs and other HCPs should label a pt noncompliant without notating every single barrier the pt faces to compliance bcuz drs are predisposed to think marginalized pts are exaggerating or lying about their circumstances and ascribe mal-intent to them

Part of my issue with it is that it reveals how much HCPs start an interaction by disbelieving marginalized patients. The more axes of marginalization the more disbelief.

An example: every neurologist and ER doc I've met asks me if I have diabetes if I mention my nerve pain and paresthesia. They assume the cause is that bcuz I'm fat and Black and most HCPs hold the inaccurate belief that Type2 is caused by fatness and bad diet.

I'm not diabetic, I'm not prediabetic, nobody in my family has diabetes, they ask bcuz they make assumptions about me and my diet based on bias. They don't believe me when I tell them what my diet is like. They over test me for diabetes.

They always prescribe diet change and exercise, bcuz they assume I'm lazy and eat poorly. They persist in it despite my barriers to healthful food and exercise options and mark me noncompliant when I inevitably say I haven't implemented their vague advice bcuz barriers

They don't actually believe my barriers are what I say, that they're just excuses, lies, that there's more I could do, that there's more help and access than actually exists. That I'm an unreliable narrator, so I can't possibly know what works or what may harm me, and so I'm noncompliant instead of facing barriers and distress.

Noncompliant means an HCP thinks I'm a liar. Noncompliant means they don't need to care about me or work with me to find solutions, bcuz obvs the problem is I don't care about myself and aren't trying hard enough and am probably malingering (even tho there's nothing to gain). Noncompliant means I had the audacity to challenge their perception of themselves as an immutable, objective authority, of someone inherently smarter or inherently trustworthy and they're offended when I don't trust them.

And you'd think they'd be more prepped to believe me since I don't ask for pain relief, but HCPs are so primed to believe that Black ppl are drug seeking that they hyperfocus on pain I'm not really concerned about bcuz it's my other symptoms that cause the pain.

of course they never offer meds for pain relief, always exercise and weight loss, aka things that will make my pain worse, and even tell me to ignore agonizing pain, even if I literally can't do it. Aka they're literally telling me to injure myself, otherwise I'll be noncompliant. Or they suggest psychotherapy for pain or psych meds, most of which have pretty intense side effects or aren't actually indicated for pain. But figuring out and treating the symptoms that cause my pain never seems to cross their mind.

This is another reason I get pissed off when white disabled ppl claim ableism is the same or worse than racism, and when they appropriate our hashtags and tell Black ppl to step aside and pipe down about their liberation and make way for white disabled ppl.

Cuz the assumption is always that Black ppl don't actually suffer, that they're unreliable narrators, that they're to blame for their woes, that they don't experience ableism AND racism, that they exaggerate and have more resources or power or liberation than they really do.

HCPs don't really ask or comment when I do talk about my pain, but they don't really ask or comment when I talk about my symptoms and how they affect my daily life or how they are the root cause of my pain either. They latch to pain bcuz they can blow me off with dangerous instructions and because they're primed to be biased against Black pain and are ready to attack it. That's a problem they can "solve" easily bcuz aren't Black people always complaining about pain for nefarious reasons? The easy answer is to give them everything except direct pain relief, any and every other thing they're saying is clearly to support the grift for drugs, cuz that's what it's always about right?

Bcuz in the end they solidly believe that I'm a liar and the source of my own suffering, even if they don't realize that's what they believe. Medical and nursing schools still teach racist medicine, still teach that Black ppl don't care about their health

HCPs still believe that Black ppl are lazy and don't care about their health, that the problem is we're not doing enough and that systemic barriers like poverty and food deserts are weak excuses for being disgusting and irresponsible. "Noncompliant" is a weapon against us

Noncompliant signals to every HCP that sees it that this patient is pointless to help, that a patient is irresponsible, lazy, lying, and looking for an easy fix, maybe even malingering. "Noncompliant" means difficult or annoying, means attention seeking, means disregard this one

So yeah I hate that term with a passion, bcuz HCPs wield it like a club to destroy marginalized pts and force harm upon them, force neglect and gaslighting on them. It lets HCPs off the hook of examining their bias, of acknowledging systemic barriers. It enables lazy medicine.

But I mean lazy medicine is what most HCPs do for marginalized people, especially on multiple axes of oppression. That shit matters.

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[zenosanalytic]

THE SACRED TEXTS!

I’ve been watching the 2008 Clone Wars series lately, mostly cuz I feel like it’s relevant cultural info I ought to have(I avoided it at the time cuz it looked Not Great[and I resented Tartakovsky not being involved after he knocked it out of the park with the CW shorts]), and I gotta say there’s just allot in the first season that annoys me (:T

The few highlights:

Ahsoka’s a good character(though I wish she had a more practical fighting style)

Trespass was a legit good episode, though the twist should have been that the Pantoran Chairman had been waging a secret war of extermination against the Talz for years(espcl in light of them choosing South African accents for the Pantorans, which was a nice touch for suggesting nothing was on the up-and-up), and that getting a clone outpost on the planet was either an attempt to draw the Republic into supporting it, and/or an attempt to recoup from a really bad turn the war had taken for the Pantorans. It would have also been a great way to show the corrupting nature of war if they’d gone further and had the Separatists backing up or arming the Talz in the conflict; that the necessities of war were pushing the Jedi to back the bad guys(so building on the ideas presented in the opening “movie” where they teamed up with Jabba to secure their outer rim supply lines).

The handling of the clonetroopers Slaps, even from the start(though, again, why do they never take cover and constantly shoot from the hip? Why do they fight like idiots?? Why does EVERYONE in this show Fight like an Idiot???)

I like the expansion of Amidala’s character

I like the fleshing out of Anakin’s Whole Deal. The constant combat, the isolation, and clone churn(the repetition of befriending and losing clone troopers) really drives home how the war has simultaneously limited some aspects of his training(emotional control, discipline, empathy), over-emphasized others(combat, using the force as a weapon), and also exacerbated his already present, and understandable, emotional issues. It could be better done, of course, but what’s here is interesting

The implication is already there since there are no non-humans in the Republic fleet or military, but I’d replace more of the clone navy officers with humans, just to make it more obvs that Palpatine’s using the war to shift the Republic in a Human Supremacist direction. Heck even better: at the start of the series, have diverse crew, but as it(and the war) goes on, replace them with more clones and levies/volunteers from Coruscant(you could use the eps featuring attacks of Coruscant as a springboard for this, to draw the parallel with sept 11th more firmly). It’s ok as it is, but having the clones be 99.9% of navy staff(srsl I think Admiral Yularen’s the only non-clone I’ve seen so far) kinda obscures what’s going on, and a kids show needs to be more explicit abt this sort of stuff.

Cad Bane’s a good character, and one of the rare examples of a successfully written “smart” character. I wish his accent/voice was different tho; it’s very “conventional star wars villain”, even down to the mechanical buzz in his voice, and obvsl there’s a vague unexamined ableism to that.

Im not going to make a similar list of the things I dont like about it cuz there’s just A Lot. A few particular bad things tho: I wasn’t surprised by how stilted the writing was, but I was surprised at how spotty the voice-acting could be in the first season(there’s plenty of good stuff, but plenty of bad too). Idk if it’s intentional as a character trait or something but Anakin tends to over-enunciate, espcl stops(ts and ds mostly), and espcl-espcl at the end of words, and it Kind of Drove me Nuts |:| The fights and swordwork obvls. The endless racist caricatures(tho they managed to avoid whole-hog in Storm over Ryloth by not giving the fleet commander the usual ~asian~ r, w, and l pronunciations). Ahsoka’s appropriately a hothead, but I dont think they established well enough that Anakin was influencing her in that direction(in fact, the few eps there were focusing on their teacher-student relationship tended to have him pushing her to be more cautious and disciplined).

Anyway on to season 2! The big thing I will say for it is that, despite it’s many and large problems, Clone Wars has lots of good ideas, characters, and characterization in it. It’s a REALLY good springboard for reimaging or rewriting itself, so I can see why it’s fans generally seem so active and enthusiastic.

[janiedean]

Hey, lately I've seen a lot of people hate on book!Tyrion and talk about what a terrible person he is and wanted to hear your take on that, because I don't really get it. I think that he is a really interesting character in the books, more so than in the second half of the show, if you ask me.

(sorry for replying this late I needed time to get to it and stuff happened haha)

soooo... tldr: I think *tumblr* has a shitload of issues with tyrion that are 90% rooted in the fact that this website thinks hating men is cool/that men are the worst always *and* also only cries ableism when it’s convenient or to call ableist things that are not in fact such (ie ‘omg if you use stupid is ableist’ which... automatically implies that anyone with a disability is *stupid* and the likes), and in tyrion’s case there’s.... an overlap of those specific issues added to the fact that since he’s a general fan favorite regardless of any fault of his then it’s fine to trash on him. going in depth on it:

now, there’s admittedly a difference in between book and show tyrion in the sense that the show version is a lot less gray and has cut on a lot of material in that sense, but like...... it’s d&d who after they decided to chunk the book storyline couldn’t write him properly so I’m not touching that topic because it’s not *his* issue, it’s theirs, and as you said... well obv. he’s more interesting in the books, because he has a lot more layers and he actually does something post-asos instead of rehashing the same three jokes that aren’t even on par with *his* book humor because he’s too smart for d&d to pull off correctly (I mean from S6 to S8 they managed to give him good lines in... the finale? PROBABLY? but they can’t write him, it’s their problem);

when it comes to book!tyrion, he obviously has faults same as 99,9% of the characters in these books, but all of those faults are... absolutely understandable given his background? I mean, so he hates his father and his sister, has fairly unhealthy coping methods and that got worse after asos, but... he comes from a lifetime of parental/familial abuse that crowned with tywin forcing him to rape his then-wife who actually did love him and convincing him he was unlovable, cersei was molesting him in the cradle and the only person who cared about him outside the uncles brigade which wasn’t around all the time was jaime who went off to get traumatized for himself at thirteen, and that just because of how he looks and for his disability, do we ask him to be a perfectly adjusted person? not really, and actually the fact that he tries to be better than 99% of his family all the time and that he actually has a lot of empathy for disadvantaged people and empathy in general says a lot about how he’s a pretty damn decent person, not a terrible one;

now, I think that this fandom on tumblr has ten problems with him because in order, the fact that he’s a man already puts him on a disadvantaged level but that’s common to most guys in this fandom like on tumblr in this fandom if a female character fucks up and a male character fucks up, the latter will be called out upon it way more than than the female character. also, abused male characters don’t get recognition for that 99% of the time. but that also means that his disability gets brushed off/ignored because since **according to tumblr standards** it’s not stopping him from doing most of what he’d like and no one takes it into account, his abuse gets brushed off/ignored because WELL HE’S NOT THE ONLY ONE, the fact that he’s a man means he has male privilege and whatever the fuck else and since he’s technically (in the book at least) Not Standard Attractive then he doesn’t even get the shitload of excuses hot people get in virtue of being hot;

also, there’s a certain attitude I really don’t like at all whatsoever to describe the fact that in his POVs he always goes about how much he hates his father/cersei or WHERE DO THE WHORES GO in adwd as whining/being unable to get over it/dying of self-pity but like.......... that’s..... how he copes with knowing he’s been treated like shit? like, thing is: in a literary genius foil with his brother who has no idea of the crap he was unjustly subjected to if not very subconsciously and whose coping method is *going away* and/or forgetting about things and/or not thinking about them, tyrion’s coping method is never letting himself forget it and honestly.... so he thinks shit about his father and sister all the time? tough luck, they’re his abusers, ofc he does. he can’t get over thinking no one will love him because of his looks? tough luck, he was told that all his life and when he found someone he thought did tywin organized that rouse so he’d think she was with him for money and he forced him to rape her which is also called rape by proxy so he’s also a rape victim and he was thirteen? wow, if I were him ie someone whose first advice to a main character in these books was ‘never forget about your weaknesses and make them your armor so people can’t hurt you with them’ then I also would be thinking about that all the time. he’s an abuse victim and he’s not away from his abusers until the end of asos, what are we expecting, that he’d get over it? actually it’s a way healthier method than jaime’s because at least he knows he’s been wronged all along and he can see both c. and his father for the assholes they are but at least he knows that and he harbors no illusions about them even if he still kind of wants them to love him same as most people would, but like... that’s not whining? that’s stuff that it’s absolutely normal he should be thinking? also, the where do the whores go thing in adwd is....... basically he just learned that his biggest trauma was not what he believed it was and he has to reconcile himself with the fact that a) tysha never not loved him, b) jaime was in on it even if he subconsciously knows that he also was a victim in that ploy (when he dreams about killing him in adwd he’s crying, sooooo) and he has to know because jaime told him out of *guilt* and he damn well knows it, like he’s re-elaborating the entire thing, obviously he’s fixated on it??? I mean the moment I figured out a specific thing that I hadn’t realized about an unhealthy relationship I had with someone I spent a month thinking about it every other moment for a month and it was nowhere near that same level of terrible, and I’m surprised that he thinks about that for all of adwd? like, I find those justifications very iffy and incredibly dismissive of a) his trauma b) his abuse victim status;

also there’s the whole HE KILLED TYWIN thing but..... I honestly am baffled it’s even a thing fandom thinks he should pay for or anything. like, the problem is that he killed *shae* in that context, and that was also out of feeling betrayed after just learning of how it really went with tysha, and that’s why he’s on the downward spiral/his lowest point in adwd, but.... tywin? really? like tywin is an asshole period, he abused him all his life, he traumatized the shit out of him for his entire life and made him grow up thinking he was unlovable and outright told him he wanted to drown him, and not even counting what tywin did to *him*, we’re talking about someone who went and calmly planned the red wedding the moment he realized there was no way he could take out robb without treachery and didn’t feel particularly bothered by it on a moral level, and we’re sad that he died or think that tyrion has to pay for it because he killed his abuser who also never really was a father to him in any sense of the word? like what the fuck does tyrion owe tywin? literally nothing and tbqh it’s tywin narratively reaping the seeds of what he’s sown if tyrion goes and offs him. like, a lot of people re fixed on this thing about OH HE KILLED HIS FATHER HE DOESN’T DESERVE REDEMPTION but the narrative doesn’t ask it of him. he has to make peace and find his own redemption for killing shae at that point, not tywin. tywin had it coming since the moment he showed up. like, saying he’s a horrible person for offing someone who only ever abused the shit out of him doesn’t really fly as far as I’m concerned;

at this point we get to ‘okay but in adwd he does a lot of questionable things’, but..... a) he’s supposed to be at his lowest narrative point and a lot of people have done a lot of questionable things at their lowest narrative point in these books, I mean if I think theon can have a nice life and get better after his WF stint I can think that tyrion can have a nice life and get better after his adwd stint, b) it’s nothing he’ll be proud of when he pulls his shit together (and he already had started by the end of adwd) but I mean... it’s nothing worse than most people who have to pull their shit together in these books have done lately, like honestly writing him off as a horrible person because of his adwd stint reaaaaally reeks to me of double standard which is based on the fact that no one around here wants to recognize that he’s an abuse victim and his reactions are valid and that yes his disability singles him out and is the reason people target him and not his merits or demerits. I mean he even spells it out, he’s been on trial for being a dwarf all his life/everyone already judged him for that regardless of his actual faults, and that’s not him being delusional, it’s the truth. he’s a person who certainly has faults same as anyone else but guess what a lot of people around fandom do what tywin does and exacerbate them if you ask my opinion;

(that also can be seen when it comes to what people think of the guy being shipped around because believe me I wish I hadn’t seen people saying he couldn’t be a good option for sansa because he’s not the beautiful gallant stainless dude she deserves, and I’m saying it as a sansan shipper first but come the fuck on) (other than that tyrion/bronn is ofc the superior ship but nvm me)

also there’s the whole thing where people decided that since tyrion is a general fandom fave in between the w.org/reddit crowd/general audience then obviously if the dudebros (ugh i can’t with that generalization anymore sure af freefolk is less puritan than tumblr from what I see) like him then he has to also incarnate the Worst Type Of Male Fan Of Asoiaf In Existence and like........ now, I don’t doubt that when it comes to the *general audience* there’s a lot of misconceptions going around plus a lot of his character faults get ignored (I mean when I went on w.org the first time the first thread I ran into was like ‘wow sansa is a bitch for not kneeling at once when they married and making him feel like shit’ I mean that’s a situation where you should feel bad for both but calling her a bitch for not wanting to kneel while marrying a guy she was forced to who also belonged to the family that killed her brother and mother and her father too is like......... come on seriously?) but that’s the same with most fandom faves in any fandom, it doesn’t mean that if some of his fans see him with rose-tinted glasses then on this side of the pond we have to decide he sucks when he doesn’t, and as I said time and time again..... do we remember the last time that in any fandom the general audience favorite character who sells the merchandise more than anyone else is a disabled abuse victim who doesn’t shut up about it and tries to be better than anyone else thinks them able to? because I don’t and while tyrion is not top five asoiaf for me I’m very glad that *he* is the general audience favorite. so they don’t get the point or see him with rose-tinted glasses? happens to fandom faves in general, but it doesn’t mean that he’s a terrible person in the text just because the dudebro crowd (if we wanna call it like that but meh) likes him. so what, he is the audience fave? good, I’m beyond fine with him being the audience fave. I honestly don’t think it’s an argument that should even be brought up because ‘that character’s fans are shit so the character is automatically shit because we judged the fans on their supposed gender’ is not an argument. *shrug*

tldr: I think people on here exaggerate his flaws (that everyone has) and are bitchy about the fact that he is the general audience favorite because how dare a guy who’s as far as we know cishet (which is already bad for tumblr standards), not standard hot (crime!!), has a disability (which gets ignored 90% of the time when discussing his privilege or lack thereof), is an abuse victim who won’t let you forget it and you can’t deny/headcanon differently (which is a thing tumblr can’t accept - I mean, men being abuse victims, and with hc differently I mean that people outright deny that idk jaime was one because he doesn’t realize he was so you have to actually read into the text to realize it, but they can decide he’s not because it requires effort to put it together - or deny sandor was one because we don’t have his pov and we only see his destructive coping methods and so on - with tyrion they can’t because he never lets you forget he was and admitting it is apparently hard, also one of his abusers is a woman and We Do Not Admit That Women Can Be Abusers On Tumblr Dot Com) and who has fucked up but not worse than most people in these books be the audience favorite? WE JUST DON’T KNOW. personally I think he’s pretty damn great and an amazingly conceived/written character (I mean in a series where all the characters weren’t so well-rounded and I didn’t have other people I latched on before that he’d have totally been top three material for me he just got unlucky to be in the one series where everyone is well-rounded and there’s people that I resonate personally more with but really he’s an amazing character all around) and I can’t wait for him to pull his shit together in the next book and possibly get the nice ending he deserves along with better dialogue than d&d gave him, but from there to say he’s a horrible person.... geez. my list of horrible persons in these books runs very long and he’s nowhere near it. ofc he has faults but no character in these books is faultless except maybe gilly, and not even people under the age of twelve are faultless in these books come on.