#which i now have to go buy in bulk because theres a variant that works and one that doesnt so i need to make sure to get the right one

[pears-trinkets]

Im gonna lose my fucking mind my cats special needs diet is unavailable again and i only found out about it because my subscription for a months worth of food canceled and i have 4 cans left which will last me the weekend only

Best case scenario the food will be available again in september

Worst case scenario it will be unavailable for multiple months like last time.. I was was on the lookout since November and it was only finally available in june... it was literally only available for 2 months how can this be with special diet foods that is supposed to be the only food because the cats life depends on it

Im so done i dont know what to do anymore

[littlewalken]

Oct 20

Still can’t fully rest and enjoy the silence when I feel it’s going to end on Monday because all previous silences like this have never lasted. I’m glad there are people who are eternally optimistic, just come here for awhile and put yourself in my situation with only the resources I have at hand. 

Found out Marc Almond of Soft Cell survived a traumatic brain injury so he’s sort of crowned himself the sassy queen of the cause. 

My doll making brain says the same sculpt could be Marc Almond or Steve Burns from Blues Clues. Only one of them would never wear khakis but I get the feeling they both sing happy little songs about getting letters. 

Dreaming brains want to connect Neil Tennant of the Pet Chop Boys and the devouring of German’s chocolate cakes. Unless I’ve tapped in to the thoughts of Doctor Who’s David Tennant who named himself after Neil when he needed a name for an acting something. Or both of them can’t be trusted around chocolate cake. Who knows. My brain tapped in  to that and hopefully it’s run it’s course. 

Did you have fun? Did you get it out of your system?

Looking forward to Steven Universe returning weekday mornings on Cartoon Network but thinking it’ll start again at the beginning. I have they sell new DVD seasons in the US soon because I am very very tempted to buy the other region ones. 

And I want Shezow on DVD or download because I will pay a reasonable price for that.

Doll wise I took most of a break yesterday. In the afternoon I did some work on the Littlest Pet Shop Boys. Aside from Neil getting his curls done and some touch ups they are just about ready to be painted and used.

Being painted and used still isn’t ready for production. I still need to do a batch where I can refine them, polymer clay or a smooth casting compound both of which I have. 

Looking back on pictures of previous work I was reminded that putting a bunch of heads face down in alginate, letting it set, then pouring a bunch of casting compound positives did give me a bunch of useful face plates. I might go that way again because alginate is an environmentally friendly way to make molds you only intend to use a few times. 

There’s other heads ready to be touched up, Backstreet Boys and a few others rolling around the bin, and I kind of want to wait until I have a decent number to work with but I don’t want to have too many. I’ll only be casting the heads I’ve made. When you make these things you really gain a respect for the other people who do. 

But I still will need some molds I can put polymer clay in to because I want to change the expressions on some of the heads. Their defaults are plain or just a slight smile or what ever immediately comes to mind, like Roland’s pout, but I want variants like his smile, Neil Tennant with his mouth open and teeth showing, Marc Almond’s half smile or Sox (keeping bots at bay) Dwarf scream.

And if someone out there has a Lame-illy Buzzkill it would be great if she could blog about how she can’t mind her fu#king business and has to tell Marc Almond that it’s sox little person.

I would rather think there is a little person somewhere who dresses like Marc Almond, does a bit to Sex Dwarf, and has to beat potential lovers off with a stick not just because that’s part of the bit. If you’re out there please post a video to You Tube. 

I mean, I just sell the dolly heads. It’s not my business what people want to do with them. I can’t even find the right already made black overcoat for one and do you know how hard it is to make tiny cabled sweaters?

Now, if I do get to having a parting of the ways between me and some of my art dolls just know- All deposits are arbitrary and non refundable, there’s a good chance I won’t take commissions (unless you’re an active doll hobby person) so you’ll have to chose from what I already have made up, if you have to ask/plan to bitch about prices no dolly for you, “free” only happens if this is you actual face and that still includes price of materials, I only trade for shit I can’t make or find myself. 

Really, the trade thing, I had to shoot down someone who was earnest and well meaning but just couldn’t get why I didn’t want their store bought bead kit project thing in trade for a reroot with a custom outfit. Or the other one who didn’t understand why a doll I worked on wasn’t cheaper than a new one at the store. 

Clay or some other modeling compound to make the head is at the store, unless you have a 3D printer, the China twink bodies average that or less if you buy in bulk. If you want clothes you’ll spend about as much on theres as yours, unless you have the sewing skills to make them, sweaters need sock yarn, double pointed needles, the skills to make that, unless you cut up real socks. Then there’s the labor. All of it’s done to make a truly unique OOAK doll. 

How much do you think it’s worth? 

And if someone’s never had the experience of hand making something they take pride in can they even answer that?