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fag and dyke does not mean man and woman. transmasc and transfem does not mean man and woman. guy and girl dont even mean man and woman to me anymore
#the thing is. until we fully decouple gender from cultural presumptions#which I think possibly may never happen#there are going to be archetypes that are associated with a certain gender#and some of the most fun you can have with those archetypes#is putting them on different genders than the one they stereotypically invoke#for example. I joke that Nan (one of my characters; an adult woman)#has Grill Dad energy#because she does#does this make her male? no. but she fills this archetype that we 'think of' as a male role#and I think this illuminates the way that people can be anything and are#even people who aren't trans or genderqueer can have a little gendered archetype as a treat#a man can be a princess. not in a 'ha ha babygirl make you smaller' way#but in like. a demure elegant young man who people look up to and are inspired by; who is well-spoken and sought after#similarly imagine a male empress; a male witch#there's nothing new under the sun arguably but we can always play with the blocks in ways they weren't 'meant' to go
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you guys ever think about how sparda and eva were probably prepared for eva to die before sparda not the other way around. coming to terms with death and having to leave loved ones behind is par for the course when you settle down with an immortal being, but they never thought about the possibility of sparda being the first to die until he doesnt return.
#giggles#they make me irrationally sad for two characters that we truly know so little about#reigning champs of haunting the narrative#i have so much hw to do and im thinking about my blorbos instead#this is the life#dmc eva#dmc sparda#dmc#devil may cry#kinda like a kid who never realizes they can get hurt until something terrible happens#sparda was able to defeat mundus and sever hell from the overworld! what could possibly take him out now?#then a week passes and doubt sets in#also they fact that dante and vergil were so young when it happened //#// which adds the extra stressor of โhow do i explain death to two childrenโ and then follow it up with โthats what happened to your fatherโ#shut up cj
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sorry to ffxivlovepost always anyway Man the way the devs & game did so good in making an mc that is Basically a blank-slate for the players, and there's so many opportunities to make your oc However you like but. the game itself adds so much story and character to that blank-slate guy. amazing
#โฏ ๊ฐแ starry thoughts เป๊ฑ *ยทห#โฏ ๊ฐแ ffxiv เป๊ฑ *ยทห#i think abt this a lot. and also a lot of other ffxiv stuff LMFAO#it's amazing ..... drk is a huge example of this i think#bcs it plays into the guilt and whatnot the wol feels and all that. spectacular#endwalker !!!!! shadowbringers!!! the way the game uses the concept of hope is just always so beautiful and fascinating to me#and yeah bunch of games may have like. mc you create & design but not always can you like. ehvejfhsjf idk how to explain LOL#it is 4 pm i woke up 2 hours ago but priorly woke at 7 am after havingn a rlly. weird sleep.#to which my twin told me 'i wont tell u what time it is' as we went to sleep so it def was Really late#bcs we were going thru re2 and she was also playing games on steam i've been telling her to play#(to which i got her fav characters right and knew fr how'd she'd like the game LMFAO. twins amiright.)#actually that is also smth so fascinating to me bcs. i always have had someone w me in my life. i am literally never alone.#to which what i'm getting at here is Wow... it's like having a sleepover every single day. and i was a kid always sad never to have#sleepovers bcs my parents were strict (they r cool tho!) but i was a kid who wanted to experience all the kid things#but i didn't rlly but that's fine :P i am a grateful person LOL anyway back on track back on black#ffxiv... the game that u are.....#it's the 1st game that rlly actually made me invested in the ocs of others and also make a fully fledged oc that wasn't just originally mine#but for a fandom or something. and also it got me back into writing and Into making poetry and prose so. yeah.#it's amazing how much. oc x canon ???? yeah. ffxiv is so Wow#like eveyrhhting w themis or graha and how u can AAGGGHHH shit w your oc . so many possibilities#and that character. those possibilities. are already in game but also expanded by the player and the fanbade and#idk it's so beautiful to me WHAGHSGDJDH. and yes me saying themis or graha up there is self-indukgent bcs#both of them are so Insane it's so. insane!!!!! i will never forget what happened in abyssos in particular that Broke me#and anabaseios... :)) i cried so much it is almost embarrassing. and wow. asphodelos. wverything w themis just. yeah#anyway graha... self-explanatory if u know..... idk he's the character of all time to me. simply said. but themis is crazy bcs going thru ab#yssos made me think for a bit 'hey themis might be my fav character in ffxiv now' but No but also Wow. wow#kinda cute bcs me and my twin have a thing where she has a certain type of chara she likes and me too#so sometimes. most times. all times. we have our own characters we like anyway but sometimes they overlap but either the case we kinda#lowkey 'segregate???' idk if that is a good word but we do that w our fav characters. so like emet is her fav elidibus is mine.#and that was all the way in arrr alr and we barely knew spoilers so that's kinda crazy! anyway
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AUGH. was planning a trip to a big city memorial museum i've never been to before bc all my school field trips and countless later visits were to the main art and history museum. i just looked up the memorial museum, and not only do they have a REALLY cool exhibit coming up concerning a topic i'm interested in, not only do they also have a really extensive archive that available to both academics and the public upon appointment, but volunteer opportunities are available for several positions in the museum including archival assistance!!!
it's administrative duties rather than archival management (which good, people need qualifications for that) but that's literally what i'm considering getting a degree in!!! so it's not only something i'd be passionate about if my application was accepted, but if i decide to commit and enroll this fall, then that would be getting experience in the field!
#also living history applications are available to ppl who have volunteered enough but i doubt i'd pass muster considering i look like a 13#year old boy if i pass lmao. and i'm not doing a living history role as a woman no matter how bad they might need it. so i'll pribably have#to pass on that but i'm still stupidly excited about the possibility of other volunteer work!!#i need to visit the museum and decide if i like it first before i even think about that and also factor in driving in big city traffic and#godawful streets (terrifying) or using our public transport system which i've never done before and have no idea how much it would be#just checked the price and yeah if i decide to do this i'm one million percent riding the bus idc if the route will take 45 mins to 2 hrs#i would happily spend two hours in a bus over 35 in a car having to fear for my life on the ride there. also NO PARKING POG!!!!#i may or may not post pics of my upcoming visit. oh who am i kidding i'm probably gonna post some and absolutely spam my friends with the#rest (anna this means u. i still adore ur museum pics). i also might get so entranced i forget to take any pictures which has happened#before when i get sucked into museums before lmao. we shall see#len speaks
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i finally wrote an xword that i think might be nyt-submittable...i originally wrote it for the local paper though so i now have to go back through and rework the clues to take out the specific local ones and make some of the others harder. i know exactly which day of the week this would run in the nyt (if it gets accepted) because this type of theme always runs on the same day, so at least i know which clue difficulty to aim for, but i'm still finding it difficult to hit that precise level! i'm used to just making the clues as easy as possible because my local paper's audience is mostly people who aren't xword aficionados. i already reworked this puzzle a couple times based on feedback from friends and family but that was all still when i thought i'd be running it in my local paper. i kinda just want to be done with it but i've never had a theme and fill i thought were completely nyt-worthy before!
#i've been thinking that i would write a puzzle that was intended for the nyt from the beginning#but i never prioritize it because the local paper is actually expecting something from me and i have deadlines with them#so this might be the only way it ever actually happens#i feel kinda bad for the local paper that they don't even get my best work haha but also this theme would probably be too hard#for most of their audience (though let's face it probably all of my puzzles are too hard for various reasons)#aw shoot though i just reread the submission guidelines and they're specifically looking for themes OTHER THAN this type#hmmm#cruciverbs#i also wouldn't mind submitting this in collaboration with a more experienced constructor who could help me with the clues#and i imagine such people are always looking for greenhorn collaborators because it allows them to have >3 submissions#in the queue...but i don't even know how one goes about finding such people#if i submit it and they reject it no harm no foul EXCEPT that i don't know how long it would take them to get back to me#and if this isn't going to run in the nyt then i'd still like to run it in the local paper#but also maybe if they reject it they'll be like 'we don't want this but you seem to have promise so here's the email address of#one of our veteran constructors who would be willing to work with you on other ideas you may have'#i just made that up idk if they would actually do that haha but it seems plausible. and wouldn't it be nice?#i do have another nyt-specific idea that i've been spinning my wheels on for like two years#hmm hmm hmm. i think my best bet is still to rework these clues and submit it and see what happens#worst case scenario is they never get back to me. which is a distinct possibility given what happened with my#american xword puzzle tournament previous year solved puzzles (ie they never got back to me >:( )#but that was will shortz. this is will shortz plus like 5 other people. he probably doesn't even see new submissions
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alright iโm not gonna lie to ur face being hot and autistic does kinda blow.
#personal#hereโs some social cues unless the other person finds you attractive than they may change#and i never want to assume but than im thrown for a loop bc theyโre working on a different idea or UGH!!!#anyway this was complaining about the weed shop bc i already fucked up one part of the interaction and then a few more things happened i#was like going over where or what i fucked up and am trying to find my footing and get oriented#which like. autism is fun till itโs Actually A Disability or Could Possibly Be#anyway so iโm like :) and im already weird with eye contact but this guy was weirder about it#and iโm pretty sure its that guy who rhymed to me one time and then we talked about blake for a minute#anyway he was weird about eye contact and talked about some topics and stuff and itโs not his fault but it was very hard to follow at the#moment especially with flirting i think and it was awkward a bit on my side#we got through it everyone at the weed shop forgive me for being weird but also i shouldnโt have like 3 memebers on ur team i know wanna#bone ๐ญ#and i left and some guy flashed his lights and waved at me and itโs like i need hang up my skin on a rack just to get lessons on being n#normal like duh everyone gets sexually harassed but i just wish my brain processed it not#normally
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one in a million when i watch smthing in the horror genre and don't end up disappointed to/and/or pissed off about it so like "also yeah i liked it. ooo" is like relative to that an off the charts rave review of media of the millennium. also i did think about mh a lot along the way so would recommend its affect/effect if you like mh's horror too
#i didn't realize at first that's the director/creator tim's qrting. thought a rando went ''i love mh'' & he went ''& i love smthing else''#saw this a few weeks ago while also like writing or drawing or smthing like oh good plot's beside the point? b/c i'm splitting this focus#even checking in w/recaps was both like oh ok i missed that / didn't realize xyz could be a Thread or something but each of the like three#or four recaps i went over Also saw points differently in terms of even like; who was there or said what lmfao. or noting sm detail at all.#i went ''oh worm?'' at some early shot that may or may not have even gone mentioned by any of them. depending lol. doesn't matter#anyways we don't have time for tags media analysis except that i'll count this as: once again horror for children wins. even tho it's...#not rated? well anyways you know. probably generally not advisable for children as a direct audience lmao. however#like yes as per the premise as a child we've all experienced this [the media] anyways. perturbing summons dreams we've all had em#anyhow fr i'd even struggle to think of horror movies i'd say i mostly liked / would or did rewatch but still wasn't like. i disliked major#elements / choices to the point of being pissed off abt it. so many movies i can't be bothered to watch b/c i already know specifics like#i don't like or respect any of you people. or choices or elements or premises or executions or effects. not even interested fr like lord...#but often what has better odds are mediums that Aren't straightforwardly tv / film. like i'd compare mh to a series of several movies and#that's also imo largely a more apt categorization than saying it's an ARG or smthing but anyways like i'd recommend it to someone sure....#rare to be like yeah a movie was enjoyable. & if you already liked mh then that's a useful reference point here#which like usually i'd use mh as a categorical tag but idk i guess actually it's actively popular nowadays lmfao i really don't know#posting is already exhausting like whew but this one's for whosoever happens to follow me i guess#which is possible? nonzero ppl arrived for mh but unlikely lmfao. but also ppl see it on their own anyways coincidentally.#and you never know who observes the posts like hell yeah for an anon enjoying niche akd theatreposting who is to me ambiently out there#really odd the other day seeing an mh reblog like ''??? huh. i made that eons ago; then'' & people in the tags talking abt some repost like#on the one hand that Original Source post is two layers of deactivated blogs so a repost could be archival. but if they don't say as much#i.e. that it's even from a different source then that's not exactly it then is it. but also that even finding an original document For OP#is like. oh yeah that's me actually. but then knowing & technically saying as much doesn't / didn't actually affect me as that op lol#just kind of archival on both ends then. vs someone else in the tags saying they saw it on fb 9 yrs ago? definitely didn't post it there#my true op experience: keeping it nicheposting & just kind of saying sm shit & maybe some people are out there nodding thoughtfully#oh also in case fyi. that's tim as in actor playing [also tim] in mh. & did some writing for mh & other such behind the scenes efforts also#every time i look at the text in this post i notice a new typo of mine. get it tgoether (organic typo there. so; lol)
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โguilty pleasureโ | 8.6k
worst!logan howlett x f!reader
SUMMARY: After saving Earth-10005 from impending disaster, Wade convinces Logan, the alcoholic and easily irritated mutant, to stick around for a while. Heโs convinced that nothing good can come out of this experience, until he meets you: the charming bartender with a soft spot for swearing that matches his own. Suddenly, sticking around doesnโt seem so bad after all.
WARNINGS/TAGS: mdni - smut 18+ fluff. drinking. dirty talk. slow-burnish. grumpy!logan x sunshine!reader. reader is really kind but cracks a lot of jokes. age gap (25 vs 200 - theyโre basically the same age). oral sex (f receiving). fingering. finger sucking. soft dom!logan. wade being the funniest asshole. logan calls reader "kiddo/kidโ.
A/N: HI! first of all, i'd like to thank you for all the support you showed me on my recent post. let me just tell you that iโm LOVING writing for logan. but none of this would be possible without YOU, so yeah, i fucking love yโall.
** regarding this story, i was planning on making it even longer, but writing these two has been so much fun, and i didnโt want it to end just like that (i have attachment issues as you may infer from this note). therefore, iโve made the decision to write a second part to this fic, which will contain fluff and other stuff (you already know the drill). i donโt know when iโll be posting it, but iโm sure it wonโt take me that long.
*** iโm also working on other one shots (purely fluff/domesticity because i want this man to cradle me in his arms). anyway, i donโt know if anyoneโs going to read this, but still, all I have to say is THANK YOU FOR READING MY WORKS! i hope you really like this silly story i made up :)
**** english is not my first language so if you come across any mistakes donโt hesitate to tell me :)
special recognition to @zloshy who allowed me to rant about my own fic ๐ญ the sweetest human ever
The bar is far from packed, but then again, it never truly is.
Studying your regulars has become your favorite hobby. Soon you end up knowing their names, the drinks they like, and what time they come through the door. Itโs what happens when standing on your own two feet and refilling glasses lose all their charm. A part of you thinks you also do it to make them feel safe. No matter how much you try to deny it, you truly care about their well-being.
Is this your dream job? Nope. Definitely not. Youโre pretty sure that holding some strangerโs hair while they empty their insides wasnโt on your bingo card for this year. But sadly money doesnโt grow on trees, and university isnโt going to pay itself. Plus, this was the only job in which your resume was not immediately rejected. It should also be stressed that the drunks happen to love you.ย
Perhaps this isnโt the life you had always imagined for yourself, but you were getting closer to it. Youโd often talk to Adam, a retired psychologist in his seventies. He was without a doubt one of the most loyal clients youโd ever encountered. In the past, heโd even given you free advice on some of your failed hookups. You once told him that in less than two years, youโd be just like him when you got your degree in Psychology. To your surprise, he replied: โYouโll be much better than me, doll. Iโm a mess, canโt you see it? You donโt wanna be like me,โ his voice was hardly above a whisper as he continued. ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝI should be at my daughterโs birthday right now, but I didnโt get an invitation this year. Believe me, you donโt want to end up like this old man.โย
Like Adam, most of the men who frequented the bar day-to-day saw it as an opportunity to hide within the shadows. In comparison to the other pubs in the area, the one you work at doesnโt receive that much attention from the general public. A dimly lit place where only music from the 80s is allowed. Youโre certain that if a health inspector ever came down here, youโd be in serious problems. But hey, you know what they say: do not worry about tomorrow; instead, live in the now.
The atmosphere of the bar shifts dramatically as the main door slams shut with a resounding thud, pulling you abruptly out of your daydreaming. You turn to see whoโs arrived, but as soon as your eyes meet his, youโre compelled to look away. Nevertheless, the brief glance you catch of the strangerโs features is enough for you to unlock your phone and send a quick text to your best friend.ย
You:
cutie patootie alert
thereโs this really handsome guy at the bar
i donโt think iโve ever seen him before
i think iโm in love with him
my night just got a 100% better
Allison:
age
what does he look like
is he bald?
You:
he looks like he could be in his early fifties??? itโs hard to tell UGH i wish you were here
brown hair, beard, 6โ2 if iโm not wrongย
i didnโt stare at him for too long
otherwise that wouldโve been very weird
and no heโs not fucking bald
that happened only once and i was not aware of that gentlemanโs lack of hairย
Allison:
so youโre dating retired now
get it grandma!
You:
oh fuck you allisonย
Allison:ย
itโs okay girl we all have our flaws
just make sure itโs nobodyโs father
wait itโs not mine right?
You:
nah your dadโs way hotter donโt you worry about it
Allison:
bitchย
Even with the music blasting through the speakers that are attached to the ceiling, you can still hear the low murmur and the whispers. The mysterious stranger seems to have attracted the attention of the other patrons, some of whom have even raised their phones to take photos. Your eyebrows draw together. Why would they do something like this, approaching the man as if he were a celebrity? Since curiosity never fails to kill the cat, you decide to get involved.
โDo I have somethinโ on my face?โ you hear him ask the crowd, his raspy voice making your knees wobbly. He sounds enraged. You step on your tiptoes, trying to see what all the fuss is about, albeit itโs pretty hard considering how these men are caging him with their bodies.
The glow of a phoneโs flashlight catches your attention, and suddenly, a chair is dragged without much elegance. โEnough of that, yโhear me?โ
Enter you now. โOkay, gentlemen, Iโm sorry. Iโm gonna need you to make some space for me, alright?โ you mumble as you gently push them aside. โThank you, thank you. Yโall can be real sweethearts when you put your minds to it.โ
Then you spot him, and it becomes clear why everyone is making such a fuss.ย
Gary, your worst client ever, steps forward. His nasty breath clouds your senses as he rests one of his sweaty hands on your shoulder. โDoll, itโs the fucking Wolverine. Donโt ask him for a picture, though. He doesnโt seem to be in the mood for that.โ
The last thing you needed to see today was a fight (despite your knowledge of who would be the winner). You locate yourself amidst them, shaking your head like a disappointed mother, so as to add a tiny bit of drama to the situation.
โGuys, what youโre doing here is completely inappropriate. I thought Iโd taught you better. Imagine if I were to pull this crap on you. You wouldnโt have it.โ
Adam presses his lips together, flushing a bit. โShe does have a point.โย
โThank you, peanut. Youโre still my favorite,โ you flash him an honest smile. Scrutinizing the rest of the men, you continue with your speech. โYou can still make up for it and fill my tip jar all the way to the top. Deal?โ they all scoff, barking their disagreement. โOh, you donโt like the sound of that? Then leave him alone, okay? Class dismissed! Back to your places,โ you clap your hands repeatedly, signaling them to go away. โChop chop. All this alcohol wonโt be drinking itself.โ
Just like that, everything goes back to normal in the blink of an eye. Wolverine sits back down in his chair, leaning closer to the table and resting both elbows on it. He examines you, lifting his chin while his brown eyes take in every inch of you.
โThank you,โ he utters, his eyes still trained on your features.ย
โNo need to. Itโs what Iโm here for,โ you point to your work clothes, which consist of an antiqued apron and a silly sticker that has your name written on it. โCan I get you anything to drink? Itโs also Burger Night. You can get one for half the usual price.โ
(No. Itโs not fucking Burger Night. You just happen to find yourself deeply attracted to him.)
He doesnโt seem too eager to hear you talk. โNot hungry at the moment. But I could use some whiskey.โ
โYou sure?โ
โYeah, kid. Very sure.โ Well, now he does look annoyed.
โGreat. Iโll be back in a minute,โ you move as if you were in a race, returning to him after a hot minute. Setting his glass down on the table, you fill it with some old whiskey you donโt even know the name of. Still, he omits that detail, gulping down two-fingers of whiskey as if it were water. โI see youโre thirsty.โ
โCould you leave the bottle here?โ those brown puppy eyes are begging you to do as he says, and although youโd be happy to oblige, rules are rules.ย
โActually, I canโt. The bottle stays on the counter. But you can always join me at the front,โ your proposal doesnโt appear to have the desired effect on him. โI wonโt talk to you if thatโs what you want.โ
โIโll take your word for it,โ he rubs his neck, drawing a long breath as he stands up.ย
You can feel many pairs of eyes searing into your soul. The others ask you for more drinks and you pour them, pricking up your ears when you hear them talking about him.
โWhat a weirdo. Didnโt you see it on TV? Heโs not even from this universe,โ Gary explains, looking for accomplices to hate on Wolverine. โLet me tell yโall something: he shouldnโt even be here. Heโs fucking dead on this earth.โ
Yeahโฆ that you knew.
It had been all over the news for weeks. Some would even swear that he was back from the dead, but that was until the representatives from the TVA spoke their truth. If someone wouldโve told you a month ago that multiple universes were a thing, you wouldโve laughed in their face.
As if that werenโt already difficult to process, your mind does the job of reminding you that thereโs a man with metal claws sitting a few meters away from you. Despite that, you canโt seem to be scared of him. Thereโs something magnetic about his personality and that donโt-come-near-me-or-there-will-be-consequences expression that he has. Why had you promised not to speak to him? Dammit.
โI can hear your thoughts,โ a muscle in his jaw twitches after knocking back another glass of whiskey. He squeezes his eyes shut before tapping the table with two fingers, silently asking for a refill.
โI thought you didnโt want me to talk,โ you raise one of your eyebrows, and you behold how the corners of his mouth turn up for an instant. โI can assure you your liver hates you.โ
โAlcohol wonโt kill me, so donโt be afraid. Keep โem coming.โ
For nearly twenty minutes, he does nothing but drink. He attempts to light a cigar at some point, and you stop him. โYou canโt smoke in here.โ
โNo special treatment?โ he inquires, placing the cigar between his parted lips and tilting his head back. Heโs soโฆ dreamy. He has to know it.
โI saved your ass today. The least you can do is not cause me any trouble.โ
His eyes widen at your words, blinking owlishly. โYou saved my what?โ
โYour goddamn ass. You were about to start a fight.โ
โBlame the idiots you have for clients,โ he says, jerking his thumb toward your direction. โI was just mindinโ my own business. They came for me, not the other way around.โ
โLook, Wolvie. Iโโ
โWolvie?โ giving a bitter laugh, he rams a hand through his hair. โThatโs the worst nickname Iโve heard in a long time,โ he looks at you through his lashes, getting rid of his leather jacket. โItโs Logan.โ
โWow. Your name is very boybandish.โ
You succeed in making him laugh once again. Itโs the perfect opportunity for you to observe his face without feeling like you were just about to get caught. He has deep creases and worry lines etched between his eyebrows, a brown beard that perfectly frames his jaw, and a few white hairs scattered in his sideburns. Pearly teeth that go hand in hand with one of the most impeccable smiles youโve ever seen, and a pair of brown eyes that make you feel weak in the knees. You know for a fact that heโs a lot older than you; his exact age remains a mystery, but his appearance is enough for you to start fantasizing.
Shit, you want him. You should feel sickened by the mere thought of being with him. He was born God knows when, has lived hundreds of years. Still, the idea of tracing his cheekbones with your fingers while lying on his chest doesnโt leave you. This is fucked up. You are fucked up. A fucked up Psychology student. The joke is pretty much self-explanatory.
โSo this is where youโve been hiding, you preening slut. Canโt even bother to answer my calls now?โ
The tension between you shatters like a glass dropped onto the floor. He doesnโt dare to look in the direction of the owner of that voice, not even as the seat next to him gets taken. He pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration. โWade, what the hell are you doinโ here?โ
โIt hasnโt been exactly easy, raising our kid on my own. I donโt even have money to hire a babysitter, Lo. I spent nine months carrying your child, and for what? You end up going after a bartender,โ the masked man turns to you, giving a sly wink. โNo offense, baby. You must be a real sweetheart. In fact, do you want my number? The nameโs Wade, but you can call me whatever you like.โ
โYou dumb fuck. Are you flirtinโ with her?โ
โNo shit, smartass. Youโre the future of this country.โ
A soft giggle escapes you despite your attempt to hold it back. You take a step back, admiring the two men. โWell, arenโt you two a beautiful couple?โ
โYou should see our little munchkin. Heโs got my eyes and Loganโs hair. His first word was gubernatorial.โ
โWould you like to have a drink while youโre here?โ
โA beer would be great. Thank you, sugarbear. Youโre the cutest,โ Wade sinks back into his chair, resting his chin on his palm. He jerks his head in Loganโs direction, bumping his shoulder. โSheโs the cutest. Are you two together?โ
Logan rubs his forehead, speaking through gritted teeth. โHow did you find me?โ
โIt's the power of love, baby. I had Itโs All Coming Back To Me Now on repeat for hours. Couldnโt stop thinking about you.โ
Handing Wade a cold beer, your eyes scan Loganโs face. โI didnโt know patience was your strongest suit.โ
โMe neither.โ
โEnough of that! I canโt stand not being included in a conversation,โ Wade throws his hands in the air, and you look at him. โThere you are. So, what about you? Are you even allowed to be here? Did bars change their policies?โ
You canโt help but snort. โIโm 25.โ
Wade looms closer, lowering his voice. โNow that I think about it, you could totally be Loganโs caretaker. Heโs been having some issues recently, given his age. Do youโฆ know anything about adult diapers?โ
But then Loganโs face contorts, turning crimson. He rises from his seat, grabbing Wadeโs arm. โThatโs it. Weโre leavinโ,โ his eyes lock on you for a moment. โHow much do I owe you?โ
โDonโt worry about it. Itโs on the house.โ
The things youโre willing to do for a man, right? You should be ashamed of yourself.
(But you arenโt.)
His mouth hangs open in disbelief. โKiddo, are youโโ
โCompletely sure,โ you finish his sentence for him, bowing your head and clasping your arms behind your body. A tight-lipped smile takes over you. โJust donโt tell my boss.โ
Wade shifts his gaze back and forth between Logan and you. โI usually donโt mind third-wheeling, but I sort of feel left out.โ
โIโm gonna sew your mouth shut, Wade.โ
โOh, come on! I was just making small talk,โ the masked man tries to excuse himself while Logan pushes him towards the door. โIt was a pleasure meeting you, sunshine. Iโm free on Thursdays. Hit me up if his whiskey dick fails to impress you! Mineโs way more agile and young!โ
As you watch them leave the bar, you remain frozen in your place amidst the clamor of ongoing chatter and clinking glasses.
What the fuck had just happened?
โPatrickโs normally the first one to get wasted during weekends,โ you explain to the blonde woman sitting in front of you, and she writes that information down in her notebook. โHe can usually handle himself, but at some point, heโll try to call his ex-wife, and thatโs when you know you need to stop serving him.โ
She clicks her tongue, the color draining out of her face. โThis isโฆ definitely a lot to remember. I think I already forgot half of what you said.โ
You shake your head, shoving your hands in your pockets. โYouโll get used to it, believe me. Iโll be with you at all times, so if you have any doubts, just ask me.โ
After a whole year of working solo at the bar, you finally get to have a coworker: Gwen, a mother of two teenagers in her forties. You had met her at the grocery store, and in the process of helping her find a specific brand of cookies, you found out that she had recently lost her job. One thing led to another, and now sheโs your trainee.
Your savior complex strikes again!
It has been four days since your first encounter with Logan. The thought that he could show up at any moment makes your heart race and your hands sweat. Allison had received countless voice messages where you narrated the entire experience in full detail.ย
Touching your arm softly, Gwenโs face lights up. โAnother man came in. Is he a regular? I donโt think you told me about him.โ
Fuck, itโs him. Manifesting does work wonders. He locks eyes with you and raises a hand in greeting.
โLeave this one to me,โ you tell her as your feet take you to where Loganโs sitting, contemplating the way in which his leather jacket hugs his wide frame. โLong time no see.โ
โHey, kid,โ he grins. โWhatโs up?โ
โNothing much. Nobody has puked yet, so thatโs a good thing,โ you crinkle your nose, shifting your weight from one foot to the other. โWhiskey?โ
โYou know me so well,โ a smirk takes place in his lips, and he smiles cockily. โThough this time, I wonโt be leavinโ without payinโ.โ
โWeโll see about that,โ you go back to your usual spot behind the counter, looking for a glass. Your cheeks kind of hurt from smiling so hard. Next to you, Gwen studies your reaction to seeing Logan. โIs that your boyfriend?โ
You almost drop the whiskey bottle. โGod, no. Heโs not my boyfriend. Barely know the guy.โ
โItโs funny,โ she says, raising her eyebrows with a knowing look, as if she knows something you donโt. โHe hasnโt stopped looking at you since he arrived.โ
โItโs probably because of this,โ you reply, lifting the bottle in her direction before pouring a small amount into a glass. Just as youโre about to walk over to him, a girl slides into the sit beside him, her long blonde hair swept up in a ponytail. Sheโs wearing a stunning red dress and black heels. You wonder if sheโs a model, because she certainly looks like one.
Her hand creeps up his arm, fingernails scraping against the worn leather. Although Loganโs expression is hard to read, he doesnโt even flinch.
โYou know what? Hereโs his drinkโ You take care of it. Iโll stay here,โ you donโt give Gwen a chance to talk back, instead staying behind the bar, engaging in small talk with other clients.ย
โDoll, are you okay?โ Adam asks you after noticing you struggling to open a beer bottle. He takes it from your hands and opens it with ease. โThere you go.โ
โThank you, Adam. Iโm fine, never been better. Why you ask?
โYou sure?โ
โAffirmative.โ
โYou mixed up our drinks,โ he explains in his most psychologist-like voice. โThis never happens to you. Michael has my wine, and Iโve got his martini.โ
โFuck! Iโm so sorry. I justโ I donโt know whatโs wrong with me,โ you chew on your bottom lip, rubbing your temples. โI feel stupid.โ
โOh, please. Donโt say that. Youโre far from being stupid,โ he sits up straight, reaching for your fingers and giving them an apologetic squeeze. โIf you ask me, I think youโve got your mind on someone else,โ he must notice how you visibly get tense because he adds: โRemember: I know when youโre lying. You didnโt charge him the other day, which means that you must really like him,โ taking a tentative sip of the martini he didnโt even ordered, Adam shrugs. โIโm a great observer. Thatโs all.โ
Out of the corner of your eye, you see the blonde girl from before returning to where her friends are chatting. Logan is left alone, and you watch him grab his glass and head towards the counter.
โAs I said, your mindโs somewhere else,โ Adam sighs, a tiny smirk tugging at his lips. โGo get your man. Iโll survive.โ
โNot my man. But thanks, older-and-wiser-version-of-cupid.โ
Pretending not to have seen Logan, you continue with your work. He remains silent for some minutes before finally saying: โHi.โ
Hi? It sounds so out of character for him.
โHey, claws,โ you force a smile, still avoiding to meet his gaze. โDo you need anything?โ
Logan points to his empty glass, like a toddler asking for more cereal. โI also wanted to talk to you.โ
โI thought you were busy over there,โ you say, surprisingly managing to sound nonchalant, despite the jealousy bubbling underneath your friendly tone. โDid you get her number?โ
โWhat? No.โ
โWhy not? Sheโs cute.โ
Yeah, maybe you donโt sound as collected as you think.
Whether Logan notices it or not, he chooses not to mention it. He folds his arms over his chest, fixing his brown eyes on you. โIโm not interested.โ
โAnd what is it that interests you, champ?โ your question elicits a low chuckle from him. Just as he opens his mouth to seemingly reply, Gwen appears out of nowhere to ask you about the price of a certain drink. Your gaze shifts between her and Logan, who remains focused on you while sipping his drink.
After that, Gwen leaves. The man in front of you goes poker-faced, pursing his lips, and his abrupt change in demeanor alarms you. โWade wants to have dinner tomorrow at his apartmentโ well, our apartment. I live with him now. Itโs complicated,โ he adds with a dismissive wave of his hand, and you laugh. โAnyway, he asked me to tell you that youโre invited. I know we donโt know each other that much, butโฆ he said you seem like someone worth havinโ around,โ he mumbles awkwardly, eyes downcast. โI think the same as well.โ
You could die at peace.
โYouโre a lucky fucker because I donโt work on Sundays,โ you quip, smiling. โIโd be more than happy to attend your feast.โ
โGreat. I thought you would turn down the invitation.โ
โNow why would you think that?โ
โโCause you barely know meโ us,โ he corrects himself rapidly. โPlus, Wadeโs annoying as hell when he puts his mind to it. Youโll see.โ
โMarital problems?โ he actually in response. โIโll take that as a โyesโ. Oh, Iโll bring the dessert.โ
โYou donโt have to.โ
โBut I do want to,โ you tilt your head in an effort to hide your longing for him.
โJust want to get under my skin, huh? I can see why Wade likes you,โ Logan beams, reaching out to tuck a $100 bill into the pocket of your apron. โThe tipโs included.โ
โI donโt know how things work in your universe, but youโre giving me way more money than youโre supposed to. I can't accept this.โ
โOh, but you will,โ his gravelly voice fucks your system up, and youโre glad he canโt see how you squeeze your legs together behind the bar.
He writes down Wadeโs address on a random napkin, holding his breath as he stands up. โI should get goinโ. See you tomorrow then.โ
Before he walks out the door, you stop him. โLogan? You didnโt answer my other question.โ
His back shakes momentarily with laughter. Turning around to face you, his stare leaves you even more confused. โGood night, doll.โ
This is becoming a habit: every time he goes away, you feel as though youโve just run a marathon with no water available. Your mouth is completely dry, your fingers are numb and thereโs a knot in your stomach thatโs becoming all too familiar.
โWould you mind telling me where you got him?โ Gwenโs voice makes you almost jump out of your skin.
โHeโs not from around here. I think heโs Canadian.โ
Youโve got this. Youโve got this. Youโve got this.
Knocking softly on Wadeโs door, you step back, the container holding the tiramisu cold to your touch. Itโs your first time trying out this recipe, so youโre expecting it to at least not taste like shit.
Wade answers the apartment door, acting surprised when you remain silent. โWell, look what the wind blew in: if it isnโt my husbandโs lover. How dare you? Weโre still going to couples therapy.โ
You show him the container, and he squints at it. โTiramisu. You want it or not?โ
โI hate twenty-somethings,โ he says with a defeated sigh, stepping aside to let you into the apartment.ย
Leaving your purse on the nearest surface, you scan the living room, wondering where Logan might be. Thereโs a small mirror beneath the couch, and you check yourself for the hundredth time tonight. โDonโt get too excited. Heโs still showering,โ Wadeโs voice rings in your ears, and you turn to look at him, your eyebrows knitted. โYeah. I noticed. Youโre already drooling over that big piece of metal between his legs.โ
โKeep quiet!โ you cover his mouth with your palm, noticing the scarred state of his skin up close. โWade, you fucking dog. Are you licking my hand?โ
โCouldnโt help it. You taste like mascarpone cheese and espresso.โ
Then Logan emerges from the bathroom, with only a white towel draped around his waist. Droplets of water fall from his wet hair, tracing the muscle of his abs, ending somewhere beneath his happy trail. Your eyes keep flickering between him and his torso until he clears his throat. โI thought you were cominโ later.โ
โMe too, but Iโฆ,โ you trail off, your brain struggling to catch up, โI didnโt know what else to do at my place.โ
โItโs fine. Justโ let me put on some clothes.โ
โPlease donโt,โ Wade murmurs next to you, but Logan only scoffs. โI was just being honest. Communication is key.โ
When Wade and you are alone again, he lets out a harsh breath. โThat was probably the hottest thing Iโve ever seen. My pants are really tight right now.โ
โThin walls, buddy!โ Logan shouts from his bedroom, earning a laugh from you.ย
Like A Prayer starts playing. Wade moves his hips to the beat, getting lost in the melody. โIs that your phone?โ
โYeah, but I always take a few seconds to dance to it. Such a banger!โ he says, then picks up his phone, accepting the call. โHey, Ness! Whatยดs up?โ Wade covers the speaker before telling you: โItโs Vanessa. My ex-girlfriend. We fuck once a week, sometimes even twice.โ
From behind, Logan nudges your arm with his, looking at you. โHey, kid.โ
โNo, Iโm not busy at all,โ Wade exclaims, grabbing his crotch and thrusting into the air. โIโll be there in ten, cupcake. See you,โ he spreads his arms wide and whistles. โSomeoneโs getting laid tonight!โ
โYou made me come all the way hereโฆ and now youโre leaving?โ
โWhat? My friend Wolverine wanted to invite you over. I just had to provide the apartment,โ in one quick movement, he presses a kiss to your cheek, then does the same to Logan. โShave yourself, will you?โ
โGo fuck yourself, will you?โ
โLove you too, honey. Hope you two lovebirds have a good night, because I know I will!โ
Wade throws a wink over his shoulder before heading out, the apartment going dead silent. Logan and you stand frozen, staring at each other, although he quickly drops his gaze, unable to maintain eye contact. A giggle threatens to escape you: he wanted to see you. Could he possibly enjoy your company as much as you enjoy his?
Logan watches the spot where Wave had just been. The absence of his chaotic energy makes the room feel strangely empty now. He coughs lightly, the sound awkwardly loud in the quiet room.
โSo... I, uh, bought pizza,โ he says, his voice a little too casual, as if trying to cover up his nervousness. Averting his eyes, he focuses on the pizza boxes on the table.
You catch the hesitation in his tone, your curiosity piqued by his discomfort. Tilting your head, a teasing smile forms on your lips. โPizza, huh? You sure know how to impress a girl.โ
Logan chuckles, the sound strained, as he scratches the back of his neck. โYeah, well, I figured it was a safe choice. Didnโt want to ruin it, yโknow?โ
You move closer to the table, the warmth from the pizza boxes radiating against your hands as you open one of them. The rich smell of melted cheese and pepperoni fills the air, a comforting scent that makes your stomach growl softly. โThank you. Iโm a big fan of pizza.โ
He sits in the chair across from you, taking a bite of his slice. You watch him quietly, your own thoughts churning. The truth of his origins had been a shock at first, but now, it just made you want to know more about the man. What was his life like in the other universe? Did he miss it? Was he happier here, or was he longing to return?
โLoganโฆ,โ you begin, your tone gentle but probing, โCan I ask you something?โ
He glances up at you, eyes widening. Thereโs something in your eyes โan understanding, maybeโ that makes him feel like you could see right through him.ย
โSure,โ he replies, trying to sound more at ease than he really feels. โAsk away.โ
You hesitate for a moment, not wanting to push too hard. โI was wondering... would it be okay if I asked you some questions? About, you know, your life. Where you're from.โ
The bite of pizza suddenly feels heavy in his mouth. He hadnโt talked much about his world, not even with Wade. Partly because it was too painful, and partly because he wasnโt sure how to explain how things turned out for him. He nods slowly, setting his slice down. โYeah, it's okay. Iโll answer what I can.โ
โI just... I want to understand you better.โ
โWell, first and foremost, Iโm no hero. You should know that by now.โ
โI beg to differ.โ
โKid, Iโm the worst Logan. A complete failure. Of all the variants out there, Wade just had to pick the one despised by every living soul on his earth,โ Logan looks away, his voice low and heavy. Youโre wondering if doing this was a good idea. โI need a drink.โ
He gets up and you follow him into the kitchen. He rummages through the fridge, in search of a cold beer. Meanwhile, you attempt to find the right words. โI donโt thinkโโ
With a sharp flick of his wrist, three metal claws sprout from between his knuckles. A gasp catches in your throat as he uses his claws to pierce the beer can, drinking from the punctured holes. Once heโs done, he goes back to staring at you. Your gaze, on the other hand, is still glued to the now-empty beer can. โWhat?โ he asks, exhaling slowly.
โThat was completely unnecessary,โ you mutter, and he lets out a bitter chuckle, tossing the can into the trash. โBut, back to what you said beforeโ I donโt think youโre the worst Logan.โ
โYou didnโt know me back then, darlinโ. I fucked it up,โ he leans against the counter, arms crossed defensively over his chest. โLike the Logan from this universe, I once belonged to the X-Men too. I remember that Scott used to beg me to wear my suit. So did Jean, Storm, Beastโ All of them,โ his gaze grows more distant, and you can tell that memories are flooding his mind. โWanted me to be part of the team, but I wouldnโt do it. Told them they looked fucking ridiculous.โ
The pizzaโs long forgotten. You take the risk and get a bit closer to him, your eyes never leaving his.ย
Loganโs silence stretches for a moment before he speaks again. โOne day, while I was off on my own, the humans came. They went mutant hunting.โ
Your heart clenches at the pain in his voice. He still remembers everything as if it had happened yesterday. โI can guess the rest. You donโt have toโโ
But he cuts you off. โNo, let me say it. I need to say it,โ he takes a deep breath, lowering his head. โBy the time I stumbled home, shit-faced from the bar, it was too late. They were dead. They called after me and I walked away.โ
Reaching out, your hand gently brushes against his. He doesnโt pull away, but instead searches for your eyes. โMy suit's all I've got to remind me of who they were. What I did. I found them and they wereโฆ dead. I started killing, and I couldnโt stop. I didnโt want to stop. I turned the whole world against the X-Men.โ
You tighten your grip on his hand, knowing thereโs nothing you can do to change how he feels. โYouโre not a bad person, Logan,โ he shakes his head, mumbling something you canโt quite catch. โI mean it. What happened back then doesnโt define you. You took the blame for their deaths upon yourself. I can tell you loved them deeply, and Iโll never fully understand the pain you feel. I wish I could. I wish I could take it away, make you forget somehow, but I canโt. Thatโs not how life works. But you got your second chance: you saved this world. My world,โ gently cupping his face in your hands, you allow your fingers to caress his cheeks. He leans into your touch, watching you with half-lidded eyes. โYouโre my hero. Iโm your biggest fanโ after Wade, obviously, which is a lot to say.โ
He grins, letting out a laugh. โEasy there, bub.โ
โShould I give you some space?โ
Thatโs the last thing he wants from you right now. You already know that as he looks you up and down, placing his hands on the small of your back, his thumbs drawing small circles on your skin. Thereโs no turning backโ The warmth between you feels almost like a fever dream. โFor a long time, all I wanted was to disappear. I couldnโt stand waking up every morning, knowing that another day awaited me.โ
โAnd what happened?โ your breath mingles with his, his closeness becoming nearly intoxicating. โWhat changed?โ
โI met a pretty girl at a pub, thatโs what happened,โ he murmurs, his dilated pupils flicking up to meet your gaze. โIโm gonna kiss you now.โ
โDo all your kisses come with a warning?โ
โGod, do you ever shut up?โ
You donโt have time to respond because he kisses you there and then. His stubble scrapes your skin as your mouths meet again and again, needy hands that hold you as if you were prone to breaking. Logan licks into your mouth, sliding his tongue against yours and swallowing every one of your whimpers.
โSo this is what it takes to shut you up, huh?โ he murmurs against your lips. You can feel him smiling, and it makes your heart skip a beat.ย
โKeep talking and you wonโt get a single bite of my tiramisu,โ you tease him, kissing him again, the taste of beer numbing your senses. โI really like kissing you.โ
โThe feelingโs mutual, but now that youโve mentioned that tiramisuโฆโ
โAm I that easily replaced?โ
โNo. Youโre just a pain in the ass.โ
Jokes aside, youโre as happy as a clam.
Since that night you and Logan kissed, youโve been living your best life. Like a freaking schoolgirl with a crush. Some things never seem to change.
He hasnโt been to the bar in three days. Yes, youโre counting them. No, you havenโt lost your mind. You want to see him, but thereโs something about making the first move that gives you the chills. What would his reaction be if you showed outside of apartment?
Itโs been a long time since youโve been with anybody. On top of that, all the guys youโve dated were your age. Being with someone that older than you certainly wasnโt no your plans. Youโd be lying if you said that the mere idea of being with him in that way didnโt excite you.
Oh boy, you miss him. You miss his scruffy voice, his gorgeous hair. And you two arenโt even official yet. To be honest, you donโt even know what he wants from you. Is he even the type to be in a relationship?
โNighty night, gentlemen,โ you say to Gary and his friends as you find yourself in front of them, smoothing your apron. Gwen had called in sick tonight, so itโs just you at the bar babysitting a bunch of grown-men.
โWhatโs up, doll? Youโve forgotten about us. We miss you coming in here to chat,โ Garyโs eating his burger at the same time he speaks, something you find repulsive, but youโve seen worse. โYโknow, Iโd love to take you out someday. I have a place youโd like.โ
The other men laugh and punch him in the back, just boosting his ego. Pathetic.ย
โIโll let you know when Iโm free,โ you reply with the most polite smile you can offer, intending to go on. โWhat are you having tonight?โ
โYou always pull that shit, baby. I donโt think youโre so busy that you canโt accept a date.โ
You hate the way heโs looking at you, as if you were wrong for not being interested. As if you didnโt know any better.
โYouโre reading minds now? Shocking, Gary.โ
โOh, doll. That attitude of yours shows youโve never been with a real man like me, thatโs all,โ he leans back in his chair, resting one of his arms on the table and the other one near his crotch, manspreading. โItโs alright. I like you bratty.โ
โIโll be back when you finally have something to order,โ you attempt to turn around but he grabs your wrist, pulling you closer. Your eyes lock, and he seems to enjoy this: being in control. Like a predator hunting his prey. โCome on, Gary. I donโt want to have to kick you out.โ
โItโs not that you don't like me, right? Youโve already got your mouth full.โ
โCareful.โ
โWhat? Donโt tell me youโre not fucking that useless mutant. I see you like โem older. Pretty little things like you drive me wild.โ
You laugh in his face, showing him your teeth. โIt was never about your age, Gary. Youโre right: I do like them older. Iโm just not into bald, vertically-challenged pricks.โ
His entourage of idiots goes silent after that. He looks up at you, eyes burning with hatred. His grip on your wrist tightens, probably leaving a mark. โFucking bitch.โ
โGet your hands off her.โ
Loganโs voice forces the two of you to look in his direction. It seems that heโs just arrived at the pub, his jacket still on.ย
โYou joining us? Weโre just getting started here, big boy.โ
โDid you not hear me?โ Logan lunges forward, his nose almost touching Garyโs. โThe fuck is wrong with you?โ
โEasy there, cowboy. Iโm just having a chat with your girl. Sheโs one of the good ones, Iโll give you that,โ arching a sly brow, his forehead puckers. โYou donโt like sharing? We can even take turns.โ
Logan clenches his jaw, lips set in a grim line. โSay one more word, and Iโll fucking kill you.โ
โIโll give you a full sentence instead: can you even get it up?โย
The tension in the air is thick, every second stretching out as Logan's anger simmers dangerously close to the surface. Garyโs smug grin only makes it worse, pushing him to the edge. Before you can react, Loganโs fist swings forward, connecting with Garyโs jaw with a sickening crack. Gary staggers back, realising your wrist. Blood seeps from his nose, his white shirt becoming stained with it. โYou fucker! You broke my nose!โ
โWeโre just getting started here, big boy,โ Logan mocks him, repeating his previous words.
โStop!โ you shout, moving quickly to grab his arm, trying to pull him back. But heโs beyond hearing, his rage blinding him to everything else. He shakes you off, and with a fierce growl, drives another punch into Garyโs stomach. The latter doubles over, gasping for air, the wind knocked out of him. He then falls to the floor, curling into a ball. People start to gather around you, and soon your beloved bar becomes a box ring.
โThatโs enough, Logan! Heโs barely conscious,โ you murmur under your breath, stepping between them, hands up in a desperate attempt to create some space. Logan pauses, chest heaving, fists still clenched, as he finally looks at you. The wildness in his eyes starts to fade, replaced by a dawning realization of what heโs done.
โHe deserved it,โ he nods vigorously to himself, as if trying to explain his point. โHe was hurting you.โ
โIf you keep that up, youโre going to kill him. My bar is not a fucking cemetery,โ your voice trembles a little bit, expecting to talk some sense into him. โI wonโt let you do this.โ
The room is quiet now, the only sound being Loganโs heavy breathing as he stands there, still tense, still processing. You turn to Garyโs friends, cold fury in your eyes. โGet him out of here,โ you watch as they haul him up, practically dragging him to the door. The other clients continue to stare at Logan, their mouths hanging open. โEverybody out, right now! Go home. Weโre closing earlier tonight.โ
Adam is the last person to leave, slamming the door behind him. You rush to the counter, searching for a mop to clean the fresh blood off the floor. Still agitated, the images of Logan hitting Gary flash in your mind. He approaches you from behind, his fingers circling your forearm. โBubโโ
โDonโt. Now is not the time.โ
โI was protecting you.โ
โI told you to stop, and you didnโt. You just shook me off,โ you snap, glancing at his knuckles which are not even bruised. Slamming your eyes shut, you get to your feet and wash your hands in the sink, the remaining water becoming reddish for a moment.
Logan moves closer, resting his chin on your shoulder. He wraps his arms lazily around your middle section. โIโm sorry.โ
You turn in his arms, your back flushed against the sink and your nose in the air. โWhy didnโt you call me?โ
โI donโt have a phone.โ
โButโ Jesus, Logan. You couldโve come sooner. I thought you regretted what happened the other day,โ you say and the muscles in his face twitch, his body stiffening at your words. โThought you no longer wanted me.โ
โNo, bub. Iโ I still want you. I want all of you, trust me,โ he murmurs, and you allow him to press his body against yours, the scent of the cigar he must have smoked recently enveloping your senses. โI justโฆ donโt know how to do this. I have a habit of ruining things, and Iโm trying to figure out the best way to be with you without hurting you.โ
โPushing me away also hurts,โ your eyes flick up to meet his gaze again, and he whispers under his breath. โI canโt read your mind. You need to tell me whatโs going on in that ancient skull of yours.โ
His face falters, flashing you a mischievous look. His hand creeps under the fabric of your shirt, fingernails scrapping against your spine. โIโm sorry, princess. I truly am.โ
โYou canโt just say โsorryโ with that voice and expect me toโโ
Youโre cut off by his lips crashing down onto yours. You melt into the kiss, unable to deny what your body has been craving for the past days.ย
โI thought your kisses came with a warning,โ you say, detaching your mouth from his, a smile spreading uncontrollably in your face as you see his toothy grin.
โShut up and kiss me, will you?โ
In a clash of tongues and teeth, your mouths meet once again. Tugging the hair at his nape, you feel him growl against your lips. His strong hands trace every curve of your body, kneading the flesh of your hips and undoing the knot at the back of your apron. Youโre becoming one with the sink, but in a moment like this, you couldnโt care less. Loganโs hard on nudges your lower stomach, and he ruts against you like an animal.
โYou said you wanted to know whatโs on my mind, right?โ his teeth nibble on the skin of your neck, syrupy voice going straight to your core. โWell, Iโd love nothing more than to touch you right now.โ
โRight here? On the counter?โ
โYeah, on the fucking counter,โ he grabs you by your thighs, hosting you up and placing your body on top of the cold bar. He nudges your knees apart, his bulge meeting your clothed cunt deliciously. โWill you let me, baby? Can I make you come in here?โ
โPlease. Iโm glad we have such a low budget. Camera installment is tโtoo expensive these days.โ
โDo you always talk this much?โ he slowly unbuttons your pants, and you help him to remove them.
โYes. Next question,โ your breath hitches in your throat as you feel the pad of his thumb circling your clit through your panties. Your eyelids drop, your head lolling back. โFuck, that feels good.โ
Logan hums, mesmerized with the way your hips roll into his hand, your whimpers sounding like music to his ears. โYou have any idea how I felt when I saw him touching you? Wanted to rip his hands off you,โ his eyes drift to your chest, how it rises and falls with impatience. โBut itโs me who gets to have you like this. He can fantasize about you all he wants: Iโm the only one who touches you, ainโt I right?โ you sigh with content as his fingers graze your slit, aimlessly bucking your hips. He doesnโt go any further, and you tug at the collar of his flannel, needing more of his callousand hands on you. โNuh-uh. You want something, you gotta use your words. Got it?โ
โI wโwant your fingers inside me,โ you donโt even recognize your own voice at this point. The few guys you had slept with had never been very talkative during sex. But Logan isnโt like them. This is just the beginning and youโre already starting to realize that he has a dirty mouth, that expectant look on his face as he waits to see your reaction to his words. โPlease, Logan. I want you so bad.โ
โOh, I know, bub. Thereโs something about me I donโt think you know,โ he inserts one of his fingers in your cunt, your slick coating the palm of his hand. โThese claws I haveโฆ they didnโt come on their own. Letโs just say my sense of smell isโฆ pretty good,โ Logan can almost see the gears turning in your head as you try to think coherently. He moves his middle finger in and out of you, stretching your walls. โAnd youโฆ have been wet ever since the first time you saw me. Always nice to everybody, making sure they feel at ease,โ you feel like youโre being stretched even further, another one of his fingers sinking into your warm pussy. โBut youโre so needy, too. How long has it been since someone touched you like this?โ
โToo long, fโfuck. Too long,โ youโre squirming, a totally whiny mess. He retratcs his wet fingers and instead goes back to flicking your clit, this time with much less delicacy. His left hand squeezes your tits, and you hate the fact that youโre still wearing clothes. โShit, Logan. I need you to fuck me. Please. Need your cock.โ
His face comes to rest at your neck, and you feel lingering kisses and bites that keep you grounded to earth. โNot here. I need a bed to fuck you properly. Youโre only getting my fingers now,โ he positions them inches away from your entrance, testing your patience. โTell me who owns this pussy.โ
โL-loganโโ
โTell me and Iโll make you come,โ his husky voice is making you dizzy, tears shimmering in your eyes. โCome on. Know you want it as much as I do.โ
You succumb to the tentation, like divinity turned to sin. He kisses you roughly, and you struggle to find the correct words. โItโs you, Logan. You own my pussy. Itโs f-fucking yours.โ
With that, he goes back to nudging that spot that makes you see starts, that filthy squelching sound getting mixed up with your moans. The knot in your belly keeps growing tighter the more he pumps his fingers in and out of you.ย
โI said you were only getting my fingers for now, but fuckโฆ I need to gest a taste of this sweet cunt.โ
Heโs on his knees in an instant, urging your legs apart to make room for his body. Your thighs tighten around his face as he licks a hot stripe up your folds, tracing a heated path on your cunt, not wishing to waste a single second. Pleasure builds quickly, your breath hitching as your hands find their way into his hair, pulling him closer when your body begins to tremble.ย
โIโm close,โ you pant, breathing hard, grinding your hips against his face. โIโm so close.โ
โThatโs it. Come in my mouth like the good girl you are.โ
Who had given him a damn script for this?
The release is explosive. Like the peak of a roller coaster: you go up up up, ascending higher. You think you almost see Jesus, but at some point, you also have to crash down with force. Your shoulders slump, your entire body cramping up; yet he doesnโt let you go that easily, his fingers still working, scissoring within you while you ride out the final waves of your high, drawing out every last moment of ecstasy.
Once you finally manage to open your eyes, there he is, staring down at you. He taps your lower lip with his fingers, and then mutters: โOpen.โ
And you do, because youโre just as messed up as he is. Your mouth parts, and he slides his fingers between your lips, dragging them smoothly across your tongue. His knuckles brush the back of your throat, and you gag around the intrusion, tasting yourself. He pulls his fingers out of your mouth, clearly satisfied with the way youโve cleaned them off.
โI think we should really pay a visit to your apartment,โ he suggests, groaning in defeat, and you feel his bulge poking your hip. He must be painfully hard. โI meant what I said earlier. I need a bed if weโre going to fuck. My backโs hurting.โ
You raise an eyebrow, the corner of your mouth curving into a smirk. โWhy not go to yours?โ
โWadeโs in there. I wouldnโt be able to concentrate.โ
You canโt help but laugh, pausing a moment to collect your thoughts, heat rising to your cheeks. โSo weโre going rodeo?โ
Aiming to silence up, Logan kisses you, pinching your chin between his thumb and forefinger. โOnly if you can handle it.โ
part 2: โGIVE ME THE FIRST TASTEโ
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keep thinking of kel logs. ough
#ะฑะฐะปะฐะฑะพะปะธะผ#whatever awaits new dr. kel now...#early may they say. oof.#honestly i don't have many words to say about them. like. i guess because i've spent all my emotions being in anticipation-#-so now while i really do REALLY wanna know what's ahead of this new kel... no words head no work :(#yknow what i do keep thinking about though?) HIS POSSIBLE DEATH. THAT'LL HAPPEN AGAIN#like ouuugh. wouldn't it be funny? if another unfortunate thing happened to a fictional character? ON MY BDAY#OOF#some of yall know the day but i never specified it. and i WON'T. but it's in may. and it'll be SO FUNNY if something liek that happens AGAIN#also - oh man do i love the voiceacting. i really like voiceacting in general and OH boy is it good there. REALLY GOOD#i usually don't like comic dubs and podcasts and etc. for that exact reason (i'm way too neatpicky. sigh)#but this? this activated my mind animating machine (the machine that makes animatics in my head) and that's a Sign#oof. early may...#...let's see what will happen in late may...)))#oh also. wanna tag this someway that's not the name of the logs...#man that one person has a great tag. hm.#kel thoughts#void records#let's see which one sticks...
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You're a reasonably informed person on the internet. You've experienced things like no longer being able to get files off an old storage device, media you've downloaded suddenly going poof, sites and forums with troves full of people's thoughts and ideas vanishing forever. You've heard of cybercrime. You've read articles about lost media. You have at least a basic understanding that digital data is vulnerable, is what I'm saying. I'm guessing that you're also aware that history is, you know... important? And that it's an ongoing study, requiring ... data about how people live? And that it's not just about stanning celebrities that happen to be dead? Congratulations, you are significantly better-informed than the British government! So they're currently like "Oh hai can we destroy all these historical documents pls? To save money? Because we'll digitise them first so it's fine! That'll be easy, cheap and reliable -- right? These wills from the 1850s will totally be fine for another 170 years as a PNG or whatever, yeah? We didn't need to do an impact assesment about this because it's clearly win-win! We'd keep the physical wills of Famous Peopleโข though because Famous Peopleโข actually matter, unlike you plebs. We don't think there are any equalities implications about this, either! Also the only examples of Famous Peopleโข we can think of are all white and rich, only one is a woman and she got famous because of the guy she married. Kisses!"
Yes, this is the same Government that's like "Oh no removing a statue of slave trader is erasing history :(" You have, however, until 23 February 2024 to politely inquire of them what the fuck they are smoking. And they will have to publish a summary of the responses they receive. And it will look kind of bad if the feedback is well-argued, informative and overwhelmingly negative and they go ahead and do it anyway. I currently edit documents including responses to consultations like (but significantly less insane) than this one. Responses do actually matter. I would particularly encourage British people/people based in the UK to do this, but as far as I can see it doesn't say you have to be either. If you are, say, a historian or an archivist, or someone who specialises in digital data do say so and draw on your expertise in your answers. This isn't a question of filling out a form. You have to manually compose an email answering the 12 questions in the consultation paper at the link above. I'll put my own answers under the fold. Note -- I never know if I'm being too rude in these sorts of things. You probably shouldn't be ruder than I have been.
Please do not copy and paste any of this: that would defeat the purpose. This isn't a petition, they need to see a range of individual responses. But it may give you a jumping-off point.
Question 1: Should the current law providing for the inspection of wills be preserved?
Yes. Our ability to understand our shared past is a fundamental aspect of our heritage. It is not possible for any authority to know in advance what future insights they are supporting or impeding by their treatment of material evidence. Safeguarding the historical record for future generations should be considered an extremely important duty.
Question 2: Are there any reforms you would suggest to the current law enabling wills to be inspected?
No.
Question 3: Are there any reasons why the High Court should store original paper will documents on a permanent basis, as opposed to just retaining a digitised copy of that material?
Yes. I am amazed that the recent cyber attack on the British Library, which has effectively paralysed it completely, not been sufficient to answer this question for you.ย I also refer you to the fate of the Domesday Project. Digital storage is useful and can help more people access information; however, it is also inherently fragile. Malice, accident, or eventual inevitable obsolescence not merely might occur, but absolutely should be expected. It is ludicrously naive and reflects a truly unpardonable ignorance to assume that information preserved only in digital form is somehow inviolable and safe, or that a physical document once digitised, never need be digitised again..At absolute minimum, it should be understood as certain that at least some of any digital-only archive will eventually be permanently lost. It is not remotely implausible that all of it would be. Preserving the physical documents provides a crucial failsafe. It also allows any errors in reproduction -- also inevitable-- to be, eventually, seen and corrected. Note that maintaining, upgrading and replacing digital infrastructure is not free, easy or reliable. Over the long term, risks to the data concerned can only accumulate.
"Unlike the methods for preserving analog documents that have been honed over millennia, there is no deep precedence to look to regarding the management of digital records. As such, the processing, long-term storage, and distribution potential of archival digital data are highly unresolved issues. [..] the more digital data is migrated, translated, and re-compressed into new formats, the more room there is for information to be lost, be it at the microbit-level of preservation. Any failure to contend with the instability of digital storage mediums, hardware obsolescence, and software obsolescence thus meets a terminal endโthe definitive loss of information. The common belief that digital data is safe so long as it is backed up according to the 3-2-1 rule (3 copies on 2 different formats with 1 copy saved off site) belies the fact that it is fundamentally unclear how long digital information can or will remain intact. What is certain is that its unique vulnerabilities do become more pertinent with age."ย -- James Boyda,ย On Loss in the 21st Century: Digital Decay and the Archive, Introduction.
Question 4: Do you agree that after a certain time original paper documents (from 1858 onwards) may be destroyed (other than for famous individuals)? Are there any alternatives, involving the public or private sector, you can suggest to their being destroyed?
Absolutely not. And I would have hoped we were past the "great man" theory of history. Firstly, you do not know which figures will still be considered "famous" in the future and which currently obscure individuals may deserve and eventually receive greater attention. I note that of the three figures you mention here as notable enough to have their wills preserved, all are white, the majority are male (the one woman having achieved fame through marriage) and all were wealthy at the time of their death. Any such approach will certainly cull evidence of the lives of women, people of colour and the poor from the historical record, and send a clear message about whose lives you consider worth remembering.
Secondly, the famous and successsful are only a small part of our history. Understanding the realities that shaped our past and continue to mould our present requires evidence of the lives of so-called "ordinary people"!
Did you even speak to any historians before coming up with this idea?
Entrusting the documents to the private sector would be similarly disastrous. What happens when a private company goes bust or decides that preserving this material is no longer profitable? What reasonable person, confronted with our crumbling privatised water infrastructure, would willingly consign any part of our heritage to a similar fate?
Question 5: Do you agree that there is equivalence between paper and digital copies of wills so that the ECA 2000 can be used?
No. And it raises serious questions about the skill and knowledge base within HMCTS and the government that the very basic concepts of data loss and the digital dark age appear to be unknown to you. I also refer you to the Domesday Project.
Question 6: Are there any other matters directly related to the retention of digital or paper wills that are not covered by the proposed exercise of the powers in the ECA 2000 that you consider are necessary?
Destroying the physical documents will always be an unforgivable dereliction of legal and moral duty.
Question 7: If the Government pursues preserving permanently only a digital copy of aย will document, should it seek to reform the primary legislation by introducing a Bill orย do so under the ECA 2000?
Destroying the physical documents will always be an unforgivable dereliction of legal and moral duty.
Question 8: If the Government moves to digital only copies of original will documents, what do you think the retention period for the original paper wills should be? Please give reasons and state what you believe the minimum retention period should be and whether you consider the Governmentโs suggestion of 25 years to be reasonable.
There is no good version of this plan. The physical documents should be preserved.
Question 9: Do you agree with the principle that wills of famous people should be preserved in the original paper form for historic interest?
This question betrays deep ignorance of what "historic interest" actually is. The study of history is not simply glorified celebrity gossip. If anything, the physical wills of currently famous people could be considered more expendable as it is likely that their contents are so widely diffused as to be relatively "safe", whereas the wills of so-called "ordinary people" will, especially in aggregate, provide insights that have not yet been explored.
Question 10: Do you have any initial suggestions on the criteria which should be adopted for identifying famous/historic figures whose original paper will document should be preserved permanently?
Abandon this entire lamentable plan. As previously discussed, you do not and cannot know who will be considered "famous" in the future, and fame is a profoundly flawed criterion of historical significance.
Question 11: Do you agree that the Probate Registries should only permanently retain wills and codicils from the documents submitted in support of a probate application? Please explain, if setting out the case for retention of any other documents.
No, all the documents should be preserved indefinitely.
Question 12: Do you agree that we have correctly identified the range and extent of the equalities impacts under each of these proposals set out in this consultation? Please give reasons and supply evidence of further equalities impacts as appropriate.
No. You appear to have neglected equalities impacts entirely. As discussed, in your drive to prioritise "famous people", your plan will certainly prioritise the white, wealthy and mostly the male, as your "Charles Dickens, Charles Darwin and Princess Diana" examples amply indicate. This plan will create a two-tier system where evidence of the lives of the privileged is carefully preserved while information regarding people of colour, women, the working class and other disadvantaged groups is disproportionately abandoned to digital decay and eventual loss. Current and future historians from, or specialising in the history of minority groups will be especially impoverished by this. ย
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After watching Cinderella (the original animated movie, which was my favorite as a child), it strikes me how it solves many common problems people have with this fairy tale. Like:
Why did they try to identify the mystery girl using her shoe size? Because the bullheaded king's only clue to her identity was the shoe the Grand Duke picked up off the steps.
Why didn't the prince recognize her by her face? Because his father wouldn't involve him in the process at all, and wasn't the one going around trying to find her.
Why did the prince want to marry a lady he only met that night? Because his father was going to force him to marry someone, and he genuinely liked this woman.
Why did Cinderella want to marry a man she only met that night? Because marriage was her best and most secure way to freedom. Fucked up, but you can't say it's unrealistic for the setting of a fairy tale. She also genuinely liked him.
If they're using the slipper to find her, wouldn't it be more sensible to search for the person with the other slipper? Yes. The King is purposefully nonsensical and the Duke is purposefully terrified enough of him to carry out his orders to the letter. Furthermore, they end up doing that in the end anyway, because the Duke's glass slipper is shattered, and Cinderella brings out the one she has to prove her identity.
Why didn't the stepmother and stepsisters recognize Cinderella at the ball? Because they were dancing too far away, and then left the party to dance in private, which was possible because the King wanted very badly for his son to hit it off with someone and tried to arrange the best conditions for that to happen.
Why didn't Cinderella save herself? Because in real life, abuse victims should not have to shoulder that responsibility, and usually can't. In real life, you need and deserve an external support system. Asking for help, in this kind of situation, is very important. She is saved by others because she is loved. Because she is not alone. Because she has friends who love her, and want her to be happy and safe and free. Because in real life, people who want to help someone who is suffering are like the mice. We can't pull out miracle solutions, but we can provide companionship and if we're in the right place at the right time, we can help the person find a better life.
Why didn't the fairy godmother save Cinderella from her abusive household, or try to help her sooner? Because she's magic, and magic can't solve your problems. Quote: "Like all dreams, well, I'm afraid it can't last forever." This (and Cinderella's dream of going to the ball) is a metaphor for pleasurable things in bad circumstances. An ice cream won't get rid of your depression, but it will provide you with momentary happiness to bolster you, as well as the reminder that happiness in general is still possible for you. Cinderella doesn't want to go to the ball so she can get away from her stepmother and stepsisters, or so she can meet someone to marry and leave with. She wants to go to the ball to remind herself that she can still have things she wants. That her desires matter. This is important because the movie does a very good job of illustrating Lady Tremaine's subtle abuse tactics, all of which invisibly press the message that Cinderella doesn't matter. While going to the ball and fulfilling her dreams may not be a victory in the material sense, it is still a victory against Lady Tremaine's efforts.
Why is Cinderella's choice to be kind and obedient framed as a good thing, when you are not obligated to be kind to your abuser? This one walks a very fine line, but I think the movie still makes it make sense. Lady Tremaine never acknowledges her cruelty. She always frames her punishments of Cinderella as Cinderella's fault. Cinderella is interrupting, Cinderella is shirking her duties, Cinderella is playing vicious practical jokes. Cinderella is still a member of the family, of course she can go to the ball, provided she meet these impossible conditions. Lady Tremaine's tactics are designed to make Cinderella feel like she must always be in the wrong and her stepmother must always be in the right. If Cinderella calls her stepmother out on her cruelty, or attempts to fight back, Lady Tremaine can frame that as Cinderella being ungrateful, cruel, broken, evil, etc. If Cinderella responds to her stepmother's cruelty defiantly (in the way she's justified to), she's not taking control out of Lady Tremaine's hands. Disobedience can be spun back into her stepmother's control. She wants Cinderella to be angry and sad and show how much she's hurting. So since Cinderella is adapting to her situation, she chooses to be kind. Not only because she naturally wants to be and it's part of her personality, but because it is a form of defiance in its own way, and it allows her to keep a reminder of her agency and value. Her choice to be kind is her chance to keep her own narrative alive: she is not obeying because her stepmother wants her to and she has to do what her stepmother does, but because she wants to. It's a small distinction, but one that makes all the difference in terms of keeping her hope and identity. (Fuck, I wrote a whole paragraph about how this doesn't mean you can't be angry at people who hurt you or that you need to be kind to deserve help, and then deleted it by accident. Uh. Try again.) Expressing anger and pain is an important part of regaining autonomy and healing. Although it is commendable to be kind while you are suffering, it is NOT required for you to get help or be worthy of help. If Cinderella's recovery was explored beyond "happily ever after" she would need to let herself be angry and sad to heal. Cinderella is not only kind because it comes naturally to her, but because it's her defense against the abuse she's suffering. Everyone's story and experiences are different, and one does not invalidate the other.
Bonus round for answers that aren't part of the movie:
Why didn't Cinderella run away? Where would she go? Genuinely, in hundreds-of-years-ago France, where would she go if she snuck out of the window with a change of clothes? With her step-family, she's miserable and abused, but she's fed, clothed, and in no danger of dying or being taken advantage of by anyone other than her stepmother and stepsisters. Even if she escapes and manages to find financial security, her stepmother might be able to find her and get her back.
Why didn't Cinderella burn the house down with them inside it/slit their throats in the night/poison their food/etc.? Because that's a revenge fantasy, and this story is a fantasy about being saved. There's nothing wrong with making Cinderella into a revenge fantasy. That's perfectly fine, as long as you acknowledge that the other type of fantasy is also a valid interpretation. (I mean, the original fairy tale features the stepsisters getting their feet mutilated and all three of them getting their eyes pecked out, so go for it.)
Why isn't Cinderella more proactive in general? Because she's a child who has been abused for the back half of her life, who has had to be focused on survival because. you know. she's an abused kid.
How did she dance in glass slippers? Gotta agree with you there man, that's weird.
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แถป ๐ ๐ฐ .แ The Seven x Deadpool!Reader
t/w: loooots of dark humour/jokes, reader is insensitive and an asshole since they're also a supe working at vought, your powers are the exact same as Deadpool (even the skin condition), mention about killing, death, gore, r-pe, n@zis?!?!, alcohol, some intimacy (?). Also reader is gn!!
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here's a version with the boys <3
HOMELANDER
This man hates you so fking much
Has tried to kill you multiple times, he tried lasering you, tearing you in half and even throwing you into the sky but you just always manage to come back like the damn plague
Eventually he gives up trying to kill you and just had to deal with the fact you'll be kept alive... just temporarily though... he's still looking for ways to kill you
However, your powers gave you dozens of advantages when around Homelander.
He can be having a meeting about something serious and everyone would be listening to him due to their fear towards him, then there's you who'd be doing your own thing and just shout out unrelated things like "Donald Trump just blocked me on Twitter!! HAH!! SUCK IT CORNFLACKS!!"
Everyone turning to you with startled expressions while Homelander simply rolls his eyes before continuing his presentation.
You are a complete nightmare to the PR team, that's why for interviews or any events, you'll always be paired up with Homelander so he can keep you under control and stop you from saying weird shit that could ruin the company's image.
"So Deadpool, how does it feel being in the Seven working alongside Homelander? You've been working together for almost 3 years now" A reporter would ask as you two are surrounded by screaming fans.
"Like I'm in the twilight series, not because of the fantasy but because I'm still waiting for the part where he impregnates meโ"
"O-kay! That's enough, just silly ol' Deadpool with those inside jokes"
"You can tell in this eyes that he wants to fuck me right now. HE'S GONNA FUCK ME!!" You shouted as you're being dragged away by him.
Obviously when you had found out about his relationship with Stormfront, especially her background, you had to say some shit about it. Not giving the slightest care about the fact he could be grieving over her death.
He'll be in his room standing in front of the window and you'd just storm in, being as loud as possible.
"I can't believe you dated a N@zi!! Is it because I'm Jewish?!" Which may or may not be true, nobody knows your origin.
He may hate your guts but if he ever needs someone to help him do some dirty work, you're the person for the job, you never ask why or how, which could be the only thing he likes about you.
"Y'know, maybe if you didn't have such a big mouth, you'd be tolerable"
"All the people I've slept with have said otherwise"
Compatibility? 50%
STARLIGHT
Before she joined the Seven, she had an image of what kind of person you were, she just didn't know it was this worse.
When you found out she used to work at this Sunday School Church, you just haaaaad to say something about it.
"So like, you say that prayer always works, but every night I pray for my hair to grow and it never does. Do you think God has me blocked? How do I get unblock?"
"Uh..."
You two surprisingly get along without one wanting to slice the other's throat, except sometimes the things you say can really piss her off. Which is why when the company assigned her a new costume, she was trying her hardest to avoid you, but you found out anyways.
"Holy shit Starlight! Nice costume, is this your Miley Cyrus breakthrough? Girl power!"
Insert her groaning out of annoyance.
Again, the second you discovered she was dating a guy behind the death of Translucent, you were heartbroken :(
"Of course this happens right when my therapist gives up on me!"
Despite your behaviour, you pitied her when it was revealed that she was taken advantage of by The Deep, so like any good friend, you took revenge by cooking his friend octopus and eating it happily in front of him.
"Revenge does taste sweet" You'd say happily while Starlight just watches by the side, both grateful and horrified at your actions.
In my opinion, you would definitely be the person she goes to once she starts working with the boys, you'll always be providing whatever information that happens in the company for her to use.
It helps her worry less about getting anyone killed 'cause you literally can't die.
Compatibility? 60%
QUEEN MAEVE
You're half the reason why she rethinks about her life choices when she wakes up in the morning
Not because you're a handful (which you are) but because you're always paired together on missions
"Deadpool! The hostages!"
"OKAY! God... you act just like my drunk uncle"
Which is a joke/nickname you like to address her by because of her alcoholism (yikes)
Whenever the company needs you for something, half of the time she's the one assigned to search for you.
There was this one time she caught you trying to have Anika track down Kanye West's location, nobody knows what shenanigans you were up to.
Another thing to mention was that you two were chosen by the company to sing a Christmas song for the year's Christmas ceremony.
Just imagine during the bridge of the song, she's singing normally while you're completely going off, your high note so high you were sure you had Mariah Carey a run for her money.
Even though she finds you a lot to deal with, you're actually her buddy to train with.
Since you're very skilled with Katanas, she likes to practice her swordsmanship with you.
You like to tease or make fun of her everytime she fails to strike you which is good motivation for her to get better. Maybe you guys bring out the best of each other?
Last thing I'd like to add is when she was found out by the public that she was a lesbian (She's bi but you get the running joke), you had gifted her a t-shirt that says, 'Biggest Dick in Town'
Compatibility? 80%
THE DEEP
Your human punching bag
If Vought was a high school instead of a company, you'd be the bully and he'd be the nerd getting stuffed inside the locker room.
For example, Homelander could be confronting Starlight about her relationship with Hughie and everyone would just start raising their voices til you come in yelling "SHUT UP!" to the Deep who had not said a single thing during the entire time.
Just imagine him staring at you like ๐
To be honest you also ate his friend octopus so you guys are actually never getting the chance to make up.
"Look dude, I don't appreciate your tone"
"I don't appreciate your haircut either but we can't all get what we want"
You may be a crazy person but you weren't going to be okay with the fact he violates every woman he sees, so not only did you cook the octopus but you also called in a male stripper disguised as a woman just for him to celebrate on his birthday.
Just imagine him all happy when you tell him the news and later that night he'll run inside your room, completely pissed off at your act after finding out but you just laughed and said.
"Happy April Fools ๐!"
"That's next month dipshit!"
Also, you never understood his weird fantasies. He has a thing for sea animals??You've caught him multiple times either flirting or getting off to one. It was concerning even for you.
"From how many animals you've fucked, you might just turn from the ocean's 'Seaman' to 'Semen'." You joked which he did not find funny.
Maybe you messing with him could just be your way of getting along with him since you're the same with everybody else, it's just he has more flaws to poke fun of and he's sensitive about them.
Compatibility? 5%
A-Train
He thinks you're fucked up in the head.
Half of the shit that comes out of your mouth just has him reacting like in the GIF
Buuuuuut you're the one he always brings to the club because you always know ways to give the party life.
You've somehow even got on the wall of fame, a lovely portrait of you with your hands making out a heart.
Also, you know about his business with Compound V waaaaay before anyone else did. He's still grateful you didn't tell anyone.
Just like everyone else, you also enjoy messing with him except he's fast and constantly avoiding you.
"Hey A-Train, how much do you wanna bet that I can die faster than you?"
"Dude... seriously?"
You guys rarely get sent on missions together because you're always slowing him down, not basing off the fact he's fast but because you get easily sidetracked with other things.
"Alright, we're here now, how much C4 do we use?"
"Fuck math! Let's use all of 'em!"
You ended up detonating all of the C4 on you before he could object the idea, he was able to run out in time, your action nearly getting him killed while you ended up dead.
But it's fine you'll just grow back.
You know that race he has against Shockwave? You'd be at the VIP section standing near where Homelander and Queen Maeve is, waving your huge banner that has a picture of A-Train's face and yours pasted over a figure carrying the other in bridal style.
Compatibility? 55%
TRANSLUCENT
He makes people paranoid but you make him disgusted.
There was this one time he was bored so he snuck in your room to see what you were doing.
At first he was confused why you had so many cute plushies but then the more he explored your room, he realised your room is basically every collector's dream.
You even had a huge teddy bear in the corner of your dressing room.
The reason why he doesn't like to spy on you is because the last time he did, he saw you putting your hand in the blender, then proceeding to put your private part into it.
Never again, he thought, never again.
He doesn't need to witness you carry out your intrusive thoughts.
Surprising enough, you're close with his son, I'd like to think that after his death, you practically became the kid's godparent. Though you can be sort of a bad influence, leading up to how he is in Gen V.
You always tell him you hate kids but he thinks otherwise.
After all, he can read people well.
You guys like to pull pranks on each other since you guys like competing on who's more sneaky
There was this one time, you woke up to find your suit gone so you ended up walking around the building, completely naked and unfazed by people's stares.
It was when you walked around the corner that you found your suit worn by someone else, turns out it was Translucent under it.
"Why is it so fucking tight dude? How do you stay in this shit all day?"
"You get used to it"
Compatibility? 85%
BLACK NOIR
Lovers.
He doesn't mind your attitude because he actually can't say anything about it.
No seriously... he can't talk.
But hey he's got a good shoulder to cry on.
"I just... hffgh... I can't believe my album didn't surpass lady gaga's... She doesn't even know how to use Katanas like I do!" You'd let out a loud sob while he just stares at you for a while before placing a hand on your shoulder, patting you gently.
You know the scene where he's playing the piano for one of the company's party? You'll be laying down on top of it and singing in your usual overdramatic high pitched voice.
He finds your humour amusing so he always does this little head tilt like in the GIF when you say some weird shit while waiting for his response.
Since both of you are the only members of the Seven that wears a full body suit, obviously you had to try on his but since it was impossible to achieve that, you just had the company make a copy for you.
He'll be walking down the hallway doing his normal routine until he notises another person in his suit, the moment you speak and he realises its just you is when he let's his guard down.
"I just got some transplants done to my ass, that's why I look different"
You both are never sent on missions together 'cause you guys don't work well, pretty much nobody works well with him since he's the silent type.
Example, you two were hiding behind some crates ready to jump on the bad guys who were snucking in illegal drugs. He gestured for you to wait as he went to check again, only to turn back to see you gone.
"Marry Christmas motherfuckers!"
He heard your voice shout and he found you standing on top of the stacked crates, machine gun in hand and began shooting aimlessly.
He didn't even do anything but just watch until you ran out of bullets. However, multiple survived and began shooting at you so you ended running towards where he's hiding at.
"Yankee yankee!" You yelped.
You know the video of the two girls taking off their wigs to reveal that they're bald and they start bonding over it? I'd like to imagine that's you and Black Noir with the skin condition under the suits.
One more scenario I wanna add, you guys could be having a meeting but since you were bored and you always hated meetings, you'd draw a big heart on a piece of paper and show it to Black Noir from across the table. Surprisingly he'd draw a heart back to you.
You were overjoyed so you began to draw you and him doing it, doggy style. He stares at your doodle for a while before choosing to just focus on the meeting instead.
Compatibility? 90%
(This took a while cause I was on vacation)
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Vox and alastor with an undeserving to be in hell reader!
Warnings!:non!
Fandom!: Hazbin hotel!
Author note!;I THINK TUMBLER ACTUALLY HATES ME (๏พ๏น๏พ)(๏ฝกโขฬ๏ธฟโขฬ๏ฝก)it keeps not letting me edit my drafts, itโs happened like 3 times already this week alone!,โฆBUT ANYWAY I LOVE THIS IDEA I REALLY HOPE YOY ENJOY!!!!โกยด๏ฝฅแด๏ฝฅ`โก
Summary!: alastor and Vox x reader WHOs I. Hell for a minor sin/crime
โค๏ธWritten by silkythewriter do not steal or repost any other platform please! <3โค๏ธ
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When you first admitted what you did that counted as a โsinโ he was flabbergasted! He thought they mustโve made a mistake. All be it one that was in favor since he got to be damned with you. But still!
Out of every monster known to man kind one whoโve committed acts that are despicable. You, one who can barely hurt a damn fly get sent with them?
At first he thought you were genuinely just joking. And he actually laughed! Like audible chuckled before waiting for the actual reason, which never came, and he soon realized you were being serious!
He always questioned why you use to refuse to kill, or at least scare people into respect. But then you explained how you refused to be like the rest of the sinners.
He utterly dumb founded you made it this far without spilling a bit of blood, at least for survival!
He becomes more overprotective as if he wasnโt before, good luck with that!
Cause now he knows your rules, he knows you wonโt budge. Nothing would get you to change your mind. So he made sure to keep eyes on you 24/7, you may be nice, but the other sinners in this damned place definitely arenโt. And he knows that from experience
Would neither confirm or deny he put a small tracker in an item you carry every where.
This man has enemyโs as youโve seen, demons, overlords, rival companyโs, itโs a headache an a half for him. Not that he hates protecting you and your values! No never!, but the nerve of the people who think they even have a chance to lay a hand on you.
Gives you the lastest phone from his series, and yes he will text you and blow up ur phone up if he can see you through cameras around the city.
Even if you put it on silent he wouldnโt put behind himself to over load it and just show up on your phone screen.
Sometimes heโs just so confused how you can be so nice, or at worst passive to those who are poking at you. He thinks your a saint, even if you arenโt, an maybe you have a short temper still the way you hold yourself form blowing up is astonishing!
Sometimes he jokes about how if you were to go to Charlie you would be redeemed in a day. And at night sometimes he thinks about it and it scares him to know thereโs a possibility for you to go where he will probably never be able to follow you too
He loves you to the depths and the crooks of hell, and heโll be damned again if he lets anyone hurt you. He sees you as a small soft light in the red cover world, and he will do anything before anyone can put out that light.
He makes sure to keep a good distance between you and Val, a BIG distance.
Heโs always on the edge about people around you, how canโt he? He canโt trust all these โdisgusting and repulsiveโ sinners in hell around you. The thought alone cringes him out and stresses him.
He knows to some degree he isnโt exactly better then them sin wise, but he makes sure to do his best for you while infornt of you, he cares about his image, and wouldnโt be afraid to scare someone into discipline. BUT he will tone it down, just for you โฅ(โธโธยด๊ณ`โธโธ)โฅ
He has you under wraps, from the public eye in this case. As much as heโs one to show off his earnings, he loves you a little to much and knows well people will use you as a advantage. He loves to show off but you something just for him behind close doors for now before he can work something out
NOW if the public were to already know, he show off by showing how untouchable you were, demons knew better to approach you seeing as how fast he is to get rid of those stupid enough to try something.
Overall he respects your morals of not wanting to stoop as low as other sinners. But it dose make him more protective of you, your like a rare gem. Thereโs only a handful of people like you, and even then the numbers decrees daily, so he dose his most to make sure you safe and happy <3
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Like Vix he humors it at first! Playing around with it before Laughing with his usual staticky voice as he stared at you with his unnerving smile. You guys quite literally stared at each other for a hot minute waiting for the other to say something.
It took you clearing your throat for him to realize you werenโt just trying to get a chuckle outta him.
And for the first time since you met him you caught a hint of confusion, making you explain that it was genuinely what you did.
He quite literally burst out laughing, you, someone who probably did something everyone did once is in this horrid place stuck with the horrid monsters ever! Just for that single act alone.
He will admit he found it a bit amusing how you refused to kill or lay a hand on anyone. Refusing to stoop to other peopleโs levels. Now that for him is pure gold of entreatment! Heโs seen people like you, say the same exact thing then crumble when backed I to a Corner.
But for the first time, for all the decades heโs been damned here, heโs seen you stick to what youโve stated. You were very much quite a spectacle!
Now finding new amusement, he decided to protect you, cause someone like you were sure to be a one time experience. Aside from loving you of course
Now with your name being accosted with him alone is a shield in if its self. Barely any one approached you, aside from those playing with their afterlives of course.
If you ever feel a looming shadow or presence itโs most likely one of his shadows. Like Vox he is gonna have his eyes on you almost always
Although he loves you he will play around to get a reaction out of you. All for the fun of it!, he knows you cringe when he talks about his cannibalism tendencies he just loves seeing your cute little face scrunch up!
Even though with all of that he is a gentleman and will make sure no one is to bother you.
Heโs quite impressed you made it this far without getting killed, I mean of course you have him but if you arrived to hell and didnโt met him immediately heโd be quite impressed and surprised one you both do meet
He indulges himself in the horrible aspects of hell, with no remorse or shame what so ever either. So although he dose respect your wishes he wonโt stop or calm down his tendencies.. ๏ผ๏ผใธ๏ผ๏ผbut on the bright side heโll make sure your far away or he goes off to other part of the city and do whatever he wishes. But your likely to see on the news either wayโฆ (๏ฟฃโฝ๏ฟฃ๐ง
He dose enjoy the more civil and nice talks he has with you though! He finds it nice to take a break from all the crude talk on the street from other sinners and have a nice conversation!
Great listener let me tell you, heโll happily sit there as you explain your day away! He honestly enjoys hearing you genuinely happy!, although his a chatter box himself but he enjoys listening to you more then anyone or anything else!
Watches you be nice to the most repulsive, and rude demon like itโs nothing. Even when disrespected you find a way to calm down the situation and nicely at that. Of course the demon doesnโt live long once their out of your sight, but still! Heโs pleasantly surprised.
He finds it rather weird that your nice just for the sake of being nice but still itโs definitely a nice refresher from all the horrible people down in hell!
You catch his eye rather quickly with how you stick out from others (in a good way! แ( แ )แ) and his eyes end up on you, you mainly have all his attention almost always if he isnโt off doing something!, your his light just live Vox heโll make sure youโll shine bright as ever and wonโt go out.
Not everyone can catch it but in some rare moments heโll be seen just staring at you as you happily talk away to Charlie. And for the smallest second you can see his unnerving smile turn into a soft smirk, eyes only on you and his mind filled with only you. This happens on the regular, itโs just heโs quick to cover up so no one sees!
Overall he loves you, even with some differences between your views heโll still do his best to make you comfortable. Aside from teasing you here and there! But other then that heโll protect you, your one of kind. And he loves having things no one else can.
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AHHHH HELLOOOOO OH GORSH I MADE IT JUST IN TIME THIS TOOK SO LOBG TO DO CAUSE I KEPT HAVING TO DELETE AND REWRITE ON A NEW DRAFT AUGHHH I HOPE TUMBLR FIXES THIS BUG, BUT ANYWAY TYSM FOR REQUESTING PLEASE COME AGAIN!!!\(^ใฎ^)/โ
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In your eyes
Pairing: Zuko x Firebender!reader
Summary: When Zuko falls for a member of the gaang, he fears that his mistakes may ruin his chances with them.
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A/n~ I think this is gender neutral? I don't remember putting any specific pronouns, but correct me if i'm wrong. Enjoy!
Funnily enough, the first time you met Zuko was at the northern water tribe. Two fire benders surrounded by waterbenders during a full moon. Not exactly an ideal situation for any firebender, but you were welcome, whereas Zuko was not.
You were running as fast as you could, your legs carrying you in a speed you didn't know was even possible. Katara was in trouble and the moon was slowly disappearing from the sky, fire nation soldiers were everywhere, the water benders were struggling with the loss of the moon and you were terrified.
"Katara!" You yell to her as you get closer to the girl. She was fighting a boy you had never seen before.
You jump on the boy's back and hold your hand to his throat, heating your palm up slowly.
"I would choose my next move carefully if I were you." You say as Katara puts her own hands to her neck and moves them around trying to mimic an explosion.
Suddenly, the boy moves his hands to your face and you feel a burning swipe across your eyebrow. You let go of him and move your hands to your face, a searing pain on your eyebrow almost making you drop to your knees. Katara rushes to your side in a panic,
You see the boy grab Aang and run off before you could do anything.
"Who was that?" You ask Katara angrily.
"Zuko."
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Zuko followed you and the gaang around for weeks, those weeks turning into months. And the more he saw you, the more he wanted to see you again.
Unfortunately for him, the more you saw him, the more you wanted to smash his head through a window. But every couple has their problems.
You held a very strong grudge towards him, seeing as your eyebrow had scarred and you now had a line going through your eyebrow and over your eye. It made you angry every time you looked in the mirror.
Unbeknownst to you, Zuko felt absolutely terrible for what he had done. He didn't mean to scar you, he would never wish his fate on anyone. Not even his greatest enemy, which lamentably, happened to be you at the moment.
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The next memorable time that you saw Zuko was in the crystal cave. You had both been thrown in there as a punishment and you were freaking out. Aang, Katara, and Sokka needed you.
You started hitting the walls, throwing as much fire power at it as possible, you even broke a crystal into one big sharp shard and slammed it against the door repeatedly, but it was no use.
"There's no point in doing that." Zuko says, looking at you with his blazing golden eyes. "We aren't getting out until they want us out."
You just scoff in response, unsure of why he was even talking to you in the first place.
He looks at you when he hears your scoff, "You don't have to be rude."
"Oh, I'm sorry. Did I hurt your feelings by being mean?" You mock him in a baby voice, causing him to roll his eyes.
"What's your problem?" Zuko asks, looking you up and down with pinched eyebrows.
"What is my problem? You're my problem, Zuko. You've been hunting my friends and I for months, you've hurt us -or attempted to- more times than I can count, you gave me this," You point to your scar, making him flinch, "And you have the nerve to ask me what my problem is?" You let out another scoff and turn around, giving him your back.
Zuko looks down at his hands, not knowing what to say. He watches as you light each one of your fingers up like a candle to keep yourself distracted.
He walks over and sits next to you, doing the same with his fingers.
You look at him and roll your eyes.
He smiles softly to himself. You haven't moved away from him, yet.
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If there had ever been even a sliver of you that had liked him in that cave, it was completely gone now. He had betrayed you that night in the cave and it hurt you.
It was the day of the eclipse and you were running through the underground tunnels, looking for Sokka. As you were running you bumped into something, falling hard to the ground.
"Ow!" A familiar voice huffed as the other person made contact with the ground.
"Zuko?"
He looks up, his hair falling into his eyes. You notice his eyes widen and light up, but just as he goes to say something you lunge at him.
With your hands around his neck, you yell at him through gritted teeth. "I trusted you!"
"I know, I'm sorry." He barely gets the words out, gasping and clawing at your hands.
You let go of him and slam him into the ground hard.
"I swear to the spirits, if you ever try to hurt my friends again I will kill you with my own two hands. No bending, no help, just me and you." You say and walk away to go find Sokka.
Zuko sits there for a moment replaying what you said in his head over again. A small smile spreads across his face and he jumps up, running after you.
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"You have got to be kidding me!" You yell at your friends. They were letting Zuko, the guy that had tried to kill you and capture Aang on more occasions than you could count, into the group.
"Everyone deserves a second.....or 100th chance, Y/n." Aang says, placing a hand on your shoulder as Zuko takes a step towards you.
You clench your fist defensively, making him put his hands up in defense as he takes another step forward.
"I get why you wouldn't trust me, but I've changed." He says, taking one of your hands in his. You pull away with a hollow laugh and walk away.
"Fine, let this psycho join us. I don't care." You say as you disappear behind a wall.
Zuko looks down with a sigh. "Challenge accepted..." He says under his breath as he thinks of ways to win you over.
***
Two days after Zuko joined the gaang, you were attacked. A pack of firebenders found you, attacking the group. You all paired together, Sokka with Toph, Katara with Aang, and you with Zuko. You had begged Toph to pair with you but Sokka stole her, leaving you with the one person you did not want.
You were back to back, fighting off the soldiers when another fleet arrived. The gaang chose to run, not wanting to be captured. You stayed behind to fight off the rest of the soldiers so the others could get away.
"Y/n come on! Hurry!" Sokka yelled for you as you were running after Appa. A soldier dived at you and their hand grabbed at your ankle, making you tumble to the ground.
"Go!" You yell and Aang pulls Appa out of there. You kick your foot back at the soldier, successfully kicking them in the face. You run off into the forest, You can hear the soldiers running after you as you twist through the trees.
You feel something grab your arm and pull you toward them. Looking up, you see Zuko. He's not looking at you, instead looking at the soldiers running around looking for you. You notice that he pulled you into a clearing hidden by trees and bushes. He places his hand over you mouth as you go to say something.
His adams apple bobs as he swallows harshly, listening and watching for any signs that the soldiers might be headed towards the two of you. After no signs, he looks down at you, finally making eye contact.
His golden eyes shine as he looks at you and he smiles softly.
"Thank you." You say quietly, not wanting to be too loud.
He nods.
"Do you still hate me?" He asks with a barely there smirk.
You shake your head. "I don't think I ever really hated you." He smiles at you. "I just strongly disliked you. It was a very strong dislike. Very strong."
"Okay, I get it."
You laugh softly at his dismissiveness of the subject.
"Do you think I'm still a bad guy?" His voice is quiet. Barely a whisper, but you hear it.
You look at him, he's looking down at the grass, his fingers are playing with each other out of habit, his hair is fallen over his face and covering his eyes. You never quite realized how pretty he was.
"Of course not-" You begin to tell him your answer, but your words are interrupted by yelling.
The two of you turn your heads in the direction of the noises and see your friends running to you.
"There they are!" Katara calls to the others as she makes eye contact with you.
Zuko lets out a frustrated breath at the interruption, but he gets up and dusts off his clothes, offering you his hand.
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The days after that moment in the woods would replay in your mind every night before you would sleep, every morning when you'd awake, every meal, every training session with Aang and Zuko, every group meeting, every day all day.
You had started watching Zuko more than you would care to admit. The way he tried to make up for all of his past mistakes always seemed to put a smile on your face. He helped Katara in the kitchen when he could, he always made time to talk about weapons with Sokka, he always played games with Toph and Aang, and he was especially trying to make it up to you. Though you didn't notice that part.
He always pulled your chairs out for you, he helped teach you how to control the lightning within you, he even got you flowers one time. Unfortunately the flowers backfired and Appa ended up eating them, sneezing petals for a week.
You were currently training Aang on the beach with Zuko. The sun was blazing down on your back and your cotton shirt was absorbing all of the heat, making you sweat more than you would normally.
You walk over to where Katara, Toph, Sokka, and Suki are sitting, sipping their little coconut drinks as they watch you and Zuko beat the arrows off of Aang.
You take both ends of your shirt and pull it over your head, leaving you in your shorts and bathing suit top. When you walk back over to the boys you notice how red Zuko's face is.
"You alright over there, Z?" You ask, worried that he might be overworking himself in the heat.
His head snaps to look you in the eyes, his face going an even deeper red.
"Y-yeah, heh. Why wouldn't I be?" He looks around, avoiding looking at you with everything in him.
You decide to ignore his weird reaction to your words and go back to teaching Aang.
"This one is a partner move. So, I'll demonstrate with Zuko and then when you understand how to do it, you can try with him." You explain as you walk over to the spluttering and red as a beet, boy.
You move his hand to your waist and his other in yours, your own face heating up a bit at this position. You then kick his own foot out from underneath him and flip him over your shoulder. You light your hand ablaze and put it near Zuko's neck like one would a sword.
"I thought you said this was a partner move," Zuko groans out.
"Yeah, good guy and bad guy. Partners." You say with a smirk.
"You can do that, right Aang?"
Aang nods his head excitedly.
After another hour or two of flipping Zuko over your shoulders, you all sit down around a camp fire on the beach for dinner. You and Zuko offer to collect the plates and take them back up to the house.
"You did good in training today." He says as he takes the plates from your hands and places them on the counter.
You let out a small laugh.
"Well I would assume I did considering the amount of times I was able to flip you."
He rolls his eyes and you take this moment to admire him.
His hair falls in perfect strands across his forehead, his golden eyes reflect the light of the setting sun peeping through the window, his skin is soft as you place your hand on his.
He looks at you confused when he feels your touch.
"You did good, too." You say softly.
He smiles at this, looking down at your hand that was still on his.
"How do you see me?" He asks, breaking the peaceful silence.
"What do you mean?"
"What am I in your eyes?"
You think for a moment, pondering how your answer.
"You're a person who has made many mistakes." You begin, making his shoulders droop a little bit. "But you are also a person trying to make up for all of those mistakes. You're a kid, a kid who has been through a lot. Yet, you're still sweet and funny and kind and loyal. You try to hide how you feel, but I can still see every emotion you have in your actions. You're trying. And for that, I think you are amazing. That is who you are in my eyes."
He doesn't say anything for a moment, making you feel nervous about how he would react.
With a million thoughts racing through his mind, he decides not to say anything. You said that his actions meant more, so he spoke with an action.
He gently placed his hand on your cheek and leaned in slowly, giving you time to pull away at any second. But you don't.
His lips meet yours in a soft kiss, his hair tickling your cheek. You smile into his kiss making him smile as well. Your arms wrap around his neck and you pull him closer as he pulls away from the kiss. You rest you foreheads against each other, catching your breath.
"I think I like you." He says, making you laugh.
"Oh shut up." You say and lean in for another kiss.
#prince zuko#zuko#avatar the last airbender#zuko x reader#zuko x y/n#zuko x you#x reader#atla#zuko atla#fire lord zuko#aang#avatar aang#katara#sokka#toph#suki
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Ruler of the 1st house in the houses
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
Throughout their lives, these natives experience experiences that make them very clear that they themselves must be their own priority, that they should never put other people's needs first if that means putting their own needs aside. They are focused on knowing themselves better, increasing their knowledge of themselves and always keeping their priorities in mind so as not to stray. They stand out for being very independent people who may even be uncomfortable having to ask for help from others, in fact, it is likely that they have learned to be independent from a very early age. Many of them have a great ability to lead groups or at least inspire others to empower themselves and do things their way. They never hesitate to say what they think, but they can be more reserved when it comes to opening up emotionally to others, as they have very high walls between themselves and others. They do not like to interfere in the lives of others and hate when others feel they have the right to tell them how to live their lives or how to act, and they won't hesitate defending their points of view fiercely. It bothers them when other people don't take them seriously or when their boundaries are ignored, and believe me, they won't allow themselves to be trampled on by someone, because they stand out for their courage and strong sense of self. Their immediate environment sees them as people with a strong, almost unbreakable self-esteem, they exude power, strength and can give the impression of being invincible, even being able to easily intimidate other people. They do not like to feel or appear weak. They constantly seek to improve either in the skills they have or as people. They have initiative and do not sit back and wait for things to happen, some can be impatient when it comes to seeing the fruits of their work. They don't like to feel unproductive. They are people who will always prefer to be authentic rather than hypocritical in order to fit in or be surrounded by people, and since I mentioned it, many of them can be rather ambiverts. They are very selective with the people they surround themselves with and being alone is not a fear for them.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ง๐ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
These natives prioritize finding stability in their lives, in every possible sense, from economic stability to mental and emotional stability. Throughout their lives they embark on a path of self-worth, working on their self-esteem and learning to recognize their positive sides. They are focused on making their lives something they can enjoy and do things that they consider valuable to invest their time and energy. They are very attractive people, they can be seen as naturally elegant. They aspire to have a quiet life in which they have everything they need and did not need when they were younger, they know what they deserve and do not settle for crumbs or little. These natives stand out for being calm and rational, they don't like to rush into things, but they know how to give their all once they make a decision. They highly value their authenticity and independence, however, they do not hesitate to support their closest circle. It is very likely that from a young age they have been a strong support, whether for a parent, other family members or even friends. They give the impression of being very stable, of having things in order in their lives and of being almost unbreakable, they project a strength that is rather approachable and people can feel safe with them, even drawn at them. For them, tangibility is crucial, that is, actions before words, from showing their love and affection with actions or gifts (as well as enjoying being shown affection in this way), to not promising things that they know they cannot. achieve. They are people who work hard and progressively in everything they consider important, whether in the workplace, personal or love sphere. They believe that small details are always important, small efforts that are constant and significant. There are little things about these natives that are considered attractive, often things that are not under their control such as mannerisms or their voice. They take care of their appearance and like to dress in clothes that they feel comfortable in, they prioritize their own comfort when it comes to this. They may easily attract money into their lives or be naturally good at managing finances.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ซ๐ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
For these natives speaking their minds is the most important thing, they like to be clear with what they think, want and even feel. If they have something to say they will not hesitate to do so. They stand out for being very rational people, capable of seeing things from different perspectives. Their minds can be restless and that can lead them to be people with a tendency to multitask and even have many diverse and different interests among them. Speaking of which, these people love to learn new things, the idea of โโknowing everything they can about a topic that catches their attention fascinates them, although sometimes once this task is finished they can get bored. They need constant mental stimulation and to stay busy. Many of them have a strong tendency to overthink things and be somewhat anxious, worrying about the future. Despite this, these people know how to adapt very well to changes and constantly seek to make small changes, whether in their rhythms of life, activities or even in their appearances. These people can read well the environment in which they find themselves and easily adapt to it as well as to the people who are there. Your relationship with your siblings or cousins โโcan be very influential, or they can even be a great influence on your siblings or other younger members of your family. These natives are quite cunning and intelligent and give the impression of being not easily fooled and very cultured. People tend to listen to what they say more easily, because they have a lot of charm. For them, communication is key in any relationship, especially those that they consider important to them, and they could not be with someone who does not have a topic of conversation or who does not let them talk/does not listen to them. They like to maintain a calm and bearable environment, jokers, witty and very funny, they love to entertain themselves and amuse others with their stories and occurrences. There is a playful and slightly mischievous appeal to them, and it should be added that as the years go by, they seem to look younger. It is easy for them to follow a conversation since, as I mentioned, they adapt very quickly to people, no matter how different they are from them. They stand out as good communicators, whether orally or in writing, and also for their creativity. They like to learn how to do many things and it is no surprise that many of them have a wide variety of skills.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
Throughout their lives, these natives experience experiences that lead them to always seek their own emotional comfort, to worry and take care of their emotional needs, but above all their inner peace. They are naturally perceptive and caring people when it comes to other people's emotions, they seem to read them very well and never try to make others uncomfortable. They are internally very sensitive people, although they create a shell that protects them from getting hurt or from others taking advantage of this emotionality and their hearts. The family gave great lessons to the native and their relationship with them is quite important to them, whether because of how close they are and how well they get along, or because of the scars they may have left. These natives do not forget easily, and may find themselves constantly thinking about the past. They do not hesitate to go deep inside themselves and analyze themselves, they are quite self-aware, but it will always be a process that they prefer to do on their own. Many of them may have this bad tendency to repress their feelings, always wanting to appear strong or simply preferring to break down when they are alone. They are very supportive and warm people with those they love, always respectful of their emotions and boundaries. They have a strong protective instinct towards all those with whom they form strong emotional bonds. For them it is crucial to feel safe and secure, there is nothing they want more than to keep their inner child happy, avoiding repeating situations from the past that previously hurt them. There is something about them that makes people feel naturally comfortable, people can open up to them more easily and tell them very private things. They may feel a strong interest in the past of the people they care about, from family or friends. It is likely that these natives are very similar, either in physical appearance or behavior to ancestors or older people in their families. Home for them is a place where they feel like they can be themselves, where they don't have to have their barriers up and where they feel protected and comfortable. They may find comfort in being with themselves, although at times the loneliness can become overwhelming. What is clear is that they value quality in their emotional ties with people, which is why they prefer to be on their own rather than calling the wrong person family or friend.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
Over the course of their lives, these natives embark on a path toward self-love and self-acceptance. They are people who can place many expectations on themselves and can be very demanding, although very few people see it and realize it. This happens because people tend to see them as very confident, charismatic and incredibly attractive people, since these natives have the ability to attract the attention of others with ease. A mix of attractiveness and sensuality. Throughout their lives, they learn to love and appreciate each other, to never let disrespect pass or be with people who do not love and respect them as they deserve. These people have a very intense way of loving, for them it is all or nothing, they are not people who commit halfway, and despite their flirtatious yet independent appearance, when they find someone with whom they want to be in a relationship, they do not hesitate. They really like romance, details and they love the idea of โโhaving a relationship in which love and passion abound. They like emotional intensity in their relationships, someone who adores them and loves them madly, who is crazy about them and shows the same degree of devotion as them. These people know what they want in a relationship, and they would rather be alone than be with someone who doesn't meet the requirements. They are usually lucky enough to be liked back by their crushes and can attract many hidden admirers. These people like to show themselves as strong, confident and empowered, as people who do not depend on anyone or the opinions of other people, because the experiences they have lived have taught them to be authentic and true to themselves.These people may excel deeply in some skill or talent, and may be seen as great at this. They are really passionate about their interests, beyond romance, if they have hobbies they can put their heart entirely into them. They have the ability to charm the people they interact with. They are very honest and open people with what they want, they do not hold back their opinions and can have a lethal bluntness on many occasions. Deep down, they are very expressive, emotional and loving individuals, never leaving any room for doubt about the love or appreciation they feel.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
Throughout their lives, these natives experience the constant belief that to be worthy of something they have to work hard, although this leads them to be dedicated and responsible people with everything they consider important in their lives, it also influences the way they relate to their environment, believing that they have to be something specific or achieve things in order to feel good about themselves. These natives have a strong need to be productive, to do something constantly, and they can feel bad about themselves when they are not being efficient. They are demanding of themselves, they stand out for their intelligence and observation skills. Their independence is one of their strongest characteristics and despite being very capable individually, they know how to work as a team and are quite efficient and collaborative. They like to feel like they are doing things with purpose, meaningful things, and they think very carefully about what they want to use their energy for, making sure not to waste time on things they consider meaningless. They are very helpful and empathetic people from a rather practical approach, from giving advice to being easy to solve issues of any kind. They can be very nervous people, they have a tendency to worry a lot about things, from their own performance to possible outcomes. For them it is important to have a job for which they feel passion, a job that allows them to have a certain individuality and that allows them to grow and continue learning, this placement makes it likely that they will work in something that they really like, even from a very young age. They are people who respect all living beings, whether people, plants, animals, they can have a strong bond with their pets and manage to connect with animals in a unique and wholesome way. Even if they like fun and variety, these people prefer to have a rather stable life, putting their mental and emotional peace before anything else. They are people very focused on their well-being in all areas, taking care of themselves and doing things that give them a sense of fulfillment. They stand out for their high level of devotion and loyalty in everything they consider important in their lives. They have a great work ethic that allows them to grow quickly in the workplace.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
One of the most prominent lessons in the lives of these natives is about relationships, learning that it is better to be alone than in bad company. Many of these natives develop this balance in learning to be on their own, but also in learning to relate to other people. These natives greatly seek quality in their relationships and put a lot of their energy into making them positive and equitable for both parties. They are people who are very easy to understand and read other people, their attitudes, feelings and needs. People find them very alluring, graceful and people who are generally pleasant to be with, because they are not judgmental of others and when they accept someone into their lives they accept them genuinely. Despite this, they are people who are very clear about what they do not want to deal with in relationships and tend to be quite assertive in them. These people appear polite and approachable to other people, they have a certain charisma that others quickly perceive and it is precisely this subtle charm that attracts others. They will never stay in relationships in which they feel that they give more than they receive, because that search for stability and balance that they have applies in all areas but specifically in their relationships. This placement assures us that the natives will be able to feel that they can be themselves in the presence of their partner, feeling more authentic than when they are with other people. They are very romantic, dedicated and passionate people in their relationships, and they can attract a future spouse like that. Marriage will bring you a lot of self-discovery and can be very beneficial for your lives, giving you not only happiness but fulfillment. They can more easily gain the support of other people and in addition to knowing how to work very well as a team, they manage to connect and really make others feel heard and understood. It is likely that when they were young they gave a lot of importance to what others thought of them, and this is precisely one of the issues that they learn to deal with as time goes by. These people do not hesitate to take the first step in love, they are driven and very direct. Their personality in them may be dominant, however, they may be attracted to equally dominant people.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
Here we meet natives with a certain aura of mystery around them. They do not usually reveal much about themselves so easily, they choose to keep to themselves everything they consider important or very personal, they are observers, and will always deeply analyze whether someone is trustworthy or not, trusting their instincts and being right most of the time. They seek something more than the reality to which they are accustomed, they seek to break the barriers of the predictable, mundane and superficial, entering the core of things and people. They look for the genuine, the raw and the authentic. These people are aware of the beautiful sides of life, but also the most tense and that is precisely why they remain alert, attentive and careful not to get hurt again. They hate feeling too vulnerable, showing their weaknesses, their sadness or points that others can use to hurt them. They are people surrounded by a lot of enigma and magnetism, many people recognize in them a survivor, someone whose strength and reserve makes them feel strangely drawn to them. They may find themselves attracting attention even when they want to go unnoticed. Loyal by nature, these people stand firm to their words, although they are not usually too open with what they feel, they feel intensely, they are quite intense in fact, and capable of giving themselves completely. It is difficult for them to trust other people, many times having trusted and been betrayed at their earliest ages, they have learned to rely on themselves and it can be a difficult task for them to let others in. The world is a complex place for them, full of bittersweet memories, some that they would like to return to and others that they would like to erase, yet their strength makes them reborn stronger and wiser. They do not hesitate to provide support and guidance, but it is difficult for them to accept when someone wants to do the same for them. They long to know themselves completely, even if it makes them face things about themselves that are difficult to accept, they are not afraid to know themselves completely, which makes them want to know others with such depth.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
Gifted with great curiosity, these natives have a way of seeing life that is quite out of the box, not settling for everything they are used to seeing in their daily lives. They have the need to find themselves and their authenticity in a huge world full of possibilities. They are not conformist people, and they are constantly in search of information, knowledge and experiences that bring them positive sensations or that are enough to satisfy that desire to discover. Discovering goes beyond the earthly plane such as traveling or interacting with people from other countries (which may be possible), but rather also encompasses the spiritual, emotional and/or internal terrain. They have a high intrapersonal intelligence, which gives the impression of being rational, self-aware and wise people, and also allows them to get to know others in a more personal way. They stand out for their open mentality and their ability to delve into seeing things from different points of view. Many of them possess a certain charm and natural charm, there is something about them and their nature that makes them attract others and rewarding experiences throughout their lives. They always prefer to live a life with passion and purpose, and they are in constant search for theirs, to do something important or at least satisfactory in their stay in this life, they do not like to do things just for the sake of it, they long to give it life, give it a meaning to things. They do not allow themselves to be prejudiced and prefer not to have them in the first place, they appreciate the beauty in differences and do not like to make others feel uncomfortable with who they are. They are people who have a mindset of not worrying but rather taking care of themselves, they do not seek control over what they know they cannot control and on many occasions they know that it is better to let go and let go, having it easier than other people to do this. They may have interests that people consider unconventional or that are very different from those of the people around them. They are people who take pride in being different but don't feel the need to flaunt it. They have an interest in other cultures and may have plans in their dreams to visit different places in the world to which they feel connected in one way or another.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
These natives are perfectly clear about what is important to them, what they want to achieve and who they are. From a young age they know that they have to work hard to get what they want, and from a young age they show themselves to be responsible and dedicated. This is an indicator of a person who had to mature since they were children, carrying issues or responsibilities both personal and from others, and in some cases, from people older than them. They tend to easily attract the admiration, respect and attention of people, likewise many of them can be successful in jobs in which they either have a position of authority or in which they are in constant contact with people. They can easily gain recognition simply by being themselves or pursuing one of their passions or talents. Their image matters a lot to them, so they do not hesitate to defend themselves and fight to maintain everything they have achieved throughout their lives. They have a strong need to feel proud of themselves, they often place high expectations on themselves, and it may be a behavior they have learned from a very young age. There is nothing they want more than to make their inner child proud, and be the adult they would have liked to have by their side. They believe that only they themselves can solve their problems, that no one will come to save them and that they have to make things happen, however, deep down, they wish they could have guidance and support. Many of them are not very open with other people, but what is certain is that having them in your life guarantees you a partner, friend or partner who will always be blunt, supportive and shared with you, never making you feel vulnerable or unprotected. It can be easy for these people to relate fluidly with bosses or authority figures, and it should be added that they can be quite good bosses themselves thanks to their decision and practical and fair vision of things. They like to surround themselves with productive, hard-working people who motivate them, these people being partners, friends or family. People who make excuses, who take advantage of others, and who are hypocritical earn their disdain. They are people who, although open and direct with what they think and want, are difficult to get to know deeply.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
These natives are in a constant search for belonging, they are likely to feel that they hardly fit in with their peers, that they have problems connecting on a deep level with others or forming bonds of friendship. Although it is difficult for them to call anyone a friend, once they give that title, these natives stand out for being very supportive, encouraging and honest people. Precisely because it is difficult for them to form friendships, when they have one that they consider genuine they attach great importance to loyalty to that bond. These natives are interested in deeper and more personal ties, they feel that to form a good friendship, both need to be themselves and adore each other in that way, authenticity and openness are things they look for. They are independent people, very firm in what they believe and what they consider fair, they have their own criteria and do not feel the need to follow the masses or act according to what others believe or expect. Many of them have great charisma, and it seems to grow the older they get, they have a knack for inspiring other people, often motivating them to be themselves and go towards everything they aspire to. Since I mention it, they stand out for being not only creative people, but great dreamers even from a very young age. They stand out for their intelligence, cunning and for being able to learn many different things regardless of how different each topic is from the other. They like to remain rational and act logically and without causing so much drama. They do not like to live in the past, do what everyone else does or feel like one of the crowd. These natives seek to do what seems important to them, but above all in their own way. Sometimes they can think too much about the future, facing tendencies to overthink or worries about what is going to happen. Some are somewhat nervous and thinking about the future either excites them too much or causes them some anxiety. These natives can have great economic stability if they decide to pursue that career that attracts their attention. Many of them may enjoy spending a lot of time on social networks and may become influential, popular or well-known on them. People can admire them quite a bit and even come to appreciate them.
๐๐ฎ๐ฅ๐๐ซ ๐จ๐ ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐ฌ๐ญ ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐ ๐ข๐ง ๐ญ๐ก๐ ๐๐๐ญ๐ก ๐ก๐จ๐ฎ๐ฌ๐
Here we find people who, due to life circumstances, have learned not to reveal much about themselves, including very personal aspects. These people may have experienced a lot of stress or difficult events to process at a young age, causing them to mature prematurely. They have great intuition that makes them realize what others go unnoticed, they sense people's moods, their emotions at the moment and even whether they are trustworthy people or not. They can seem mysterious and very reserved to the people they interact with, they decide what to show and what not to show. They are very empathetic people and sensitive to the moods of the people around them, they are capable of putting themselves in someone else's shoes. They are understanding, sensitive and much more emotional than they show at first glance. These people long to find either a place where they feel like they belong or a group of people that makes them feel understood, since many of them have the ability to make others feel accepted, supported and loved, even when they throughout in their lives they may feel that they do not connect so easily with others. They may have abilities to inspire, care, heal or make others feel better, and people can trust them more easily. These people look for a deep meaning not only in life, but in general behind everything that surrounds them, they prefer depth, that which has a true significance, one that marks them and contributes something to their lives. Many of them may have a strong tendency to doubt their intention, often fearing that their fears will get in the way and cloud their judgment. They are people with a very beautiful and resilient soul, often carrying wounds that people are not aware of, and that is precisely what makes them want to really see inside people, make them feel as seen as they would like to feel. Throughout their lives they experience identity crises, or long periods in which they are searching for themselves, often alone. Many of them seem to be in their own world, because they do not seek to get involved in other people's lives. Things hardly remain hidden for these natives, they have the peculiarity that information always reaches them, even if they do not look for it.
#astrology#ruler of the 1st in the houses#1st house ruler#ruler of the 1st house#1st house#birth chart#natal chart
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i hope that in the wake of predstrogen/predesterone's back-to-back deletion we don't forget about the ongoing building wave of seemingly organic transmisogyny from the userbase leading up to it, some of which may or may not have been the result of terf psyops but all of which certainly wouldn't have been possible without the eager participation of a significant proportion of users, including but probably not limited to:
the entire concept of transandrophobia (if this offends you, think long and hard about why you want so badly for it to be real)
the ongoing backlash against the terms tme and tma (if they offend you, think long and hard about why they might have practical value to trans women and people with similar social positionality)
the ongoing trend of trans women's blogs getting flagged on the flimsiest of pretenses and generally receiving far more scrutiny for "adult content" than anyone else's
the seeming unironic revival of "baeddel" as a slur for outspoken trans women, on the basis of a long-dead clique that, ironically enough, self-applied the long-dead (and tbf, etymologically questionable) slur from the middle ages to reclaim it
the entire "trans women should be fucking trans men instead of complaining about transmisogyny" genre of post
the backlash when tgirls finally started calling out the aforementioned bullshit
the copypasted anons sent to several trans women (many of whom were lesbians) sexually harassing them and threatening corrective rape for calling out the aforementioned bullshit
the backlash when tgirls called the aforementioned bullshit sexual harassment
the expansion of flexible queer label use (which to be clear, i am generally all for) to include "afab trans women", muddying the waters and making transmisogyny harder to articulate
the backlash when tgirls started calling out the aforementioned bullshit
the aita incident in which a trans woman described a cis woman claiming to be a trans woman in a group chat and giving other trans women terrible medical advice based on no actual qualifications or experience, and got a huge backlash for warning them about the aforementioned bullshit despite the stakes of, you know, following terrible medical advice
everything from the sixth point onward happened within the past... week? two weeks? my sense of time is a bit fuzzy. who knows what the rest of this week has in store?
people on this website are so incredibly hostile to trans women even being able to name our own oppression, let alone resist it in any concrete way. and i know it's not just this website. don't you get tired of the crab bucket bullshit? holy fucking shit.
like, i've been lucky, i've overwhelmingly managed to dodge it (probably on account of frankly being a pretty boring and inconsistent poster). this time last year, i was actually bored that i didn't have anons in my inbox to argue with. but i've seen it happen to so many other women now, it's absurd. even if it never hits you personally, you can never shake the awareness that it's happening to so many of the cool girls on here, people you like and whose posts you laugh at and who you look up to. they just kinda seem to drop like flies over time. don't you get tired?
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