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Sorry if I'm mixing you up with someone else, but you've worked security before, right?
If you're willing, I'd be really interested on your thoughts on the murderbot diaries or murderbot as a character with that in mind?
Like did you recognise aspects of your job in murderbots descriptions of security work? Or did they like throw you out of immersion in the story?
Anyway thanks and hope you're having a good day/evening wherever you are!
As a security guard who has read the first two Murderbot books, Murderbot has been the number one most realistic security specialist character I have ever seen in media so far 😭
The third most annoying thing in security in my experience is handling threats. The second most annoying thing is having no threats to handle and being bored. The number one most annoying thing is the client being an idiot
Ihave social anxiety which I am medicated for. When I am in uniform with clear instructions, that anxiety is zero. I have a script and a set of rules and that makes life easy. I’m super good at performing tasks with clear expectations and that’s kinda how I keep getting good offers, it’s super straightforward
Bad clients are clients who give stupid, inefficient, counterproductive, cruel, or flat-out illegal orders. There are ways of shutting that shit down without them losing heir shit, but it’s still a pain in the ass every time
I’m a security specialist. I specialize in security. This is what I am trained for- handling crisis situations and minimizing harm. If you, an off-shift cashier at pet smart, see me deescalating a situation and decide you’re gonna drop your untrained uninformed ass in there with zero context or skills and “help” because I look small and helpless, then all you’re doing is increasing my likelihood of getting hurt while increasing my paperwork load by like two hours, and I’m gonna hate you the entire time. What you have essentially done is promoted me to meat shield while giving the aggressor I’m calming down an obnoxious and aggravating hostage. Good god please do not
Yes, I am sometimes asked to stand perfectly still in a corner for several hours like a mannequin. What do I do to avoid going insane? Think about Star Trek and the very good fanfiction I’ll be reading on my break, mostly
Yes I can assist in evacuating tw location in the event of an environmental disaster. No I cannot tell my waiter that they put cilantro on the wrong order. Yes this makes perfect sense
I love Murderbot. I love how realistic it is. Like obviously I can’t speak for everyone in the industry but yeah I’ve worked for absolute dogshit security companies in the past and yeah a lot of the books so far are super accurate to that experience so A+ so far, honestly
#Murderbot#the Murderbot diaries#teablart#Honestly I would never want to BE a security guard like Murderbot cause it seems really unhappy with it’s position in life#and it’s ‘employers’ understandably#But it seems like a partner I’d really enjoy working with#Feels like annoying chatter would be at a minimum and tasks would still get passably done#It might hate me though#I’m a bit neurotic and tend to care too much about following rules and doing well#I think about the job too much#Murderbot I could see being much happier as an EMT#Or a park ranger#I don’t know if Murderbot would be happiest doing guard work even if it had personhood and a choice#Even me… I think I’m mostly here cause it’s what I know#I think a lot of people live like that#doing what we know#whether or not it makes us happy
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being a mclaren/landoscar fan over the course of this season has tested my emotional capabilities like no other because it started out as "sunshine and giggles and heart eyes and young team with future wdc with so much talent and osc and HEART EYES" and "yay look! p4, p3, p2 we're actually good this year"
and then out of fucking NOWHERE it turned into "championship battle. out for blood. lando and oscar have beef now. aren't supporting one another. rivalry. it's all pr and they hate each other. two young stars with wdc potential are going to kill one another." and "ferrari ass strategies. mclaren keeps fumbling again and again. lando can't start to save his life. papaya rules. FERRARI ass strategies."
like damn what in the lewis hamilton to ferrari switch up was that i was not prepared and almost did not survive
#and then it went back to sunshine and heart eyes and more nicknames?#LIKE MAKE UP YOUR DAMN MINDS MY HEART CAN'T TAKE ANOTHER UNHAPPY 1-2 AND THEN “Oscinha” and “Landito”#these papaya twins are going to give me a heart attack istg#whether its from killing each other on track or fluff overload off of it remains to be seen#landoscar#lando norris#oscar piastri#formula 1#ln4#op81#mclaren#still mad at mclaren#f1#f1 2024
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I was initially clipping this to capture the overwhelmingly accurate, absolutely devastating hilarity of "you went for realistic, and sadly, you nailed it". And then just kept recording because I really fucking love the discussion about how to balance the line between like:
You are trying to tell a story that feels good and gives you the kind of lift you might be looking for in an explicitly fantasy story,
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How to ensure it still feels grounded and rewarding in a way where you can "bring this good feeling back to earth" at the end.
Like they're talking about TTRPG's but they clearly make parallels to other forms of storytelling/worldbuilding mediums, like movies, and. like. Yeah. Yeah.
Like the framing of "you really recreated the feeling of powerlessness..." and wanting the fantasy element to manifest in there being the clearer, straightforward ways to solve complex issues, vs trying to ensure that you can have a victory and it feels feasible and substantial and applicable in some way, and has something you can take out of the fantasy world and hold with you back on "terra firma".
Its tricky! Its a tricky thing to balance, and I don't think there's a single "right" answer nor should there be because it depends. It depends on the story, and the intent, and the setting, and the medium, and etc. Big fan of this framework to explain it.
#dropout#zac oyama#adventuring academy#brennan lee mulligan#reaaaally like- like not even the specific takes as much as the framing of this. its part of why i think sometimes discussions about#good or bad or happy or sad or realistic endings miss the point a bit for me.#like whether an ending is 'good' or 'bad' or 'happy' or 'sad' or 'realistic' are often distinct discussions along w/ being deeply subjectiv#not to say that they're all COMPLETELY disjoint but assuming one EQUALS any of the others often flattens the discussion. to its detriment.#narrative meta#(?)#not cr#look ill be real im thinking about (among other things) some of the c2 ending discourse. not in a 'i cant see why people were unhappy' way#bc I totally understand why and I did have my own gripes. but also.#just like. man. some of those discussions were. happening in the same spheres and threads and all talking totally diff things. and migh#have really benefitted from this framing#anyway I looove adventuring academy. the Lou and aabria adventuring parties are ones I relisten to regularly. connie/jasmine's ones r also#vvvv good. I also typically love contested roll for the absurdity but in this case the specific discussion spawned is so good I don't even#mind the trade of the hilarity#anyway sorry. off my soapbox now. i just loved this discussion
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there are few things sadder to me than wanting things to happen in a story purely out of spite for other fans and not because it makes you genuinely happy on its own. It truly sounds, from the bottom of my hater heart, the most miserable possible way to experience fiction and I am sorry for people who feel this way. However, with that said, as someone who's seen several posts like this directed towards (not exclusively) me I will also add that every single time either the thing they want out of spite that they think would make me rage quit would actually make me unbelievably happy; or its something that actively flies in the face of everything they've previously said; or they are actually largely in agreement with me on the nature of the work and are cutting their nose off to spite their face, or some combination thereof, and can I just say: lmao.
#queue#depending on whether the worst of the fandom has behaved i might give examples if you ask me nicely#but genuinely like. you can never win if your happiness relies on the unhappiness of others.
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chat am i allowed to find a song so perfect for orpheus and irene or am i cooked????? i'm talking lore accurate



#and its hella catchy at that???????#is it bad i want to draw something in connection to this????#to me this song is like. orpheus watching her (the sunflower) shrink and wither from unhappiness for being with him#its honestly up to yall and myself whether he feels sympathy or not for basically “stealing her life” i enjoy interpretations like this :3c#no but really this is so good
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Sébastie Jayde is the foundator of Pigeon Aéropostale, an upstart entreprise trying to establish the first postal airlines.
Sébastie is the mixed-race, illegitimate daughter of the pulp and paper baron Josse Quesqueraux, born of his affair with Adénie Jayde, his secretary. When it became obvious that Adénie was pregnant, Josse, unwilling to end the affair, moved her to the office of one of his mills in Urterre, where Sébastie was born. By Iscean law, when the genitor of the child can be found the putative father of an illegitimate child must provide support for that child. Initially, Josse did only that which he must do, but as Sébastie grew and Josse got to know her on his visite to Urterre, he became increasingly attached to his natural child. Eventually, he had Adénie and Sébastie moved back to Saint-Loegaire, where he enlisted Sébastie in the kind of private school where nobles and bourgeois who are not very rich send their children, and very rich ones send their bastards.
Sébastie grew with the benefits of a full education and her father's name as a boon and a burden, never fully part of the society in which she moved. As she grew older, she became increasingly interested in machinery: the great static ones like the ones at the mill where she grew up, but moreso the moving ones: the steamboats, the trains, these new motorized carts... The first time Sébastie saw a airplane, an ugly lumbering prototype at a technology fair to which her father had brought her, was a revelation of almost divine proportions.
With Judoc's financial support, Sébastie founded a workshop where she began to build her own stuttering, lumbering flying machines, amassing expertise and experience where she could find it. She would eventually earn her name when she became the first pilot to fly an aircraft across the straight seperating Iscea and Urterre. For her, this was the beginning of aeronautics as more than a hobby, and soon after, Pigeon Aéropostale was born.
#characters#pigeon aeropostale#pigeon aéropostale#worldbuilding#sébastie jayde#sebastie jayde#Sébastie is Judoc's favourite child. much to his dismay and to the greater dismay of his wife and legitimate children#iscean law does not permit him to legitimize her however esp since he is already married and has legitimate kids#he tries to do right by his legitimate family but it is a profoundly unhappy marriage of convenience#and his wife and kids hate his guts and moreso sebastie's guts#sébastie is mixed race her father is zeveme and her mother is nabalé. this is looked down on really bad in iscean society#and also means she's infertile#she does not bear the name quesqueraux but everybody who'se somebody sees her and immediately knows she's the quesqueraux bastard#which is bad but she's also got connections through this and her father. which is helpful#it's globally a very nepo-baby + ostracising social situation for her to exist in#she prefers to company of the people in her workshop by and large. who care more about whether they get paid on time#and getting to work on cool projects where their opinions matter#than they do about her being mixed. though that's also bc that's what she selects for#(and one of the reasons so much of her staff is human or yetsié)#zeveme#nabale#art by me
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my hot take on Lizzie: the Musical is that the love story becomes infinitely more compelling the more actors/the production lean into Alice's flaws and selfishness rather than presenting her as some fragile little flower who's the voice of reason (tag novel below)
#lizzie the musical#alice ultimately prioritizes her own feelings and unhappiness over repressing her sexuality over lizzie's mental distress over her abuse#(which in fairness alice isn't really in any position to do anything about)#and she can be very sweet to the people she cares about but that doesn't negate/isn't negated by how she's putting her needs and wants firs#while also willingly being lizzie's refuge because she does love her#then in act 2 her turning on lizzie is. very understandable considering anyone would be scared shitless in her shoes#(whether either of the parents 'had it coming' or not your loved one snapping and committing gory murders is objectively terrifying)#(unless you're mrs. lovett which alice is. very much not though they share a selfishness)#and lizzie trying to use their love/sex to manipulate alice into perjuring for her - thus implicating her - is also obviously upsetting#add to that alice's words during the hearing + her overall proper lady schtick show she's drunk the edwardian patriarchal koolaid#'turn of the tables between me and you' is SO much in a lyric#anyway both of them are acting from a place of real suffering and real love and they're both wronging each other#and THAT is what real toxic yuri is all about#no one in this show is a good person. no one in this show (who is onstage) is an entirely bad person either.#everyone is acting from a place of oppression and pain and anguished love. they are all caged birds!
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#historyposting#henry viii throws the religion of england into doubt -> elizabeth i cements protestantism as the national religion#james i comes to the throne as a protestant -> unhappy english catholics try to blow him up#this starts a tradition of bonfire night -> effigies of guy fawkes become known as guys#guy comes to mean a dude in general in american english -> people start arguing over whether it's gender neutral#simple really
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corruption loves company (published february 2024) + "good luck, babe!" by chappell roan (released april 2024)










#could NOT get this parallel out of my head#i have new things to say about this fic in light of my recently-accepted bisexuality#i think it still holds up very well addressing comphet and religious homophobia#but in a greater sense also just self-restriction and denial of desire#whether by a deity or the self or both#ironically i was trying so hard to criticize the way people deny parts of themselves to adhere to religion and the comfort it brings#while simultaneously fighting violently at the time against my own insecurities related to my desires#because i knew the truth would lead me to unhappiness#and honestly i've been doing that since i was a teenager#just not for religious reasons#i'm going to remaster this fic in past tense soon and it'll be interesting to examine from a new angle#i stand by it#but it's def a 'yes and' situation#my writing
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boyfriend and i have been dating for eight years. he is autistic and i have bpd. he doesn't love me. he never says he loves me unless i say it first, never initiates physical touch or any type of conversation, never asks me out on dates or buys or makes me gifts. I do all of these things for him. i feel like he's only still with me because he's worried i'll kill myself if he leaves, but no matter how much i reassure him that i want him to be happy and if there's *anything* he wants to talk about to not hesitate to ask he won't break up with me. he'll go weeks without remembering to talk to me but he just wont break up with me. every time i leave his house i drive home sobbing. i don't know what to do.
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#i'm not the person to give advice here. so let me know if i missed the mark#but anon if you are unhappy (driving home sobbing) you have the option to take initiative#<- whether that means sitting him down to lay out how you've been feeling. whether that means breaking up with him. etc etc.#have you communicated how youve been feeling? if not that could be a place to start#it could be so many things but you won't know til you try to communicate#i'm sorry :( i hope things go well anon :(
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idk i feel like so much discourse could be easily minimized if people learned to say "i think" instead of "it is"
#like “i think this is a bad game” is way less abrasive/aggressive than “this is a bad game”#do u know where im going w this like#it's literally 2 extra words and it could avoid like 99% of confrontation#ofc there would still be people who are like “omg how can u hate smth i like ur trash” but idk i feel like so much of this discourse u see#on twt especially#is like ? just people being deliberately aggressive abt stuff they dont like to antagonise others and then going “its just my opinion”#and it's hard to read tone online so it's often hard for me (and im sure for others ?? idk actually) to read whether or not sm1 is being#like. just sharing what they think vs them trying to bait out people who will defend smth they like#idk ive been trying to find ffxiv people to follow bc getting back into the game and finally being confident in my art to draw for it also#has me looking for ppl to follow but i wanna avoid the big livetweet first time experiencers and unfortunately that leaves#a lot of people who are afraid of dawntrail/unhappy with the current patch quests#of which i am neither and i also dont want to log on to the internet every day just to see ppl shitting on things u know ?#and i have seen a LOT of like#'x sucked' and 'fandom lacks critical reading skills' and whatnot#but then u see what theyre talking abt and all theyre doing is shitting on the game itself or going 'x expansion was mid'#like . if u stopped phrasing ur opinions as objective fact i feel like maybe ud avoid half those arguments id k???#just words#SORRY im talkative today the truth is i worked on a drawing veyr hard and i do not have the strength to colour it but it will not look good#without colour and i feel like i cant move on without it so i went and replayed shadowbringers instead and cried a lot#and now i have lots of icarus feelings again#WOW loiok at me writing an essay out here i overshare so much im sorry
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What did you think of Americas most eligible? I wish you could be with Ryder 😭😭 I thought all the love Lis were boring af
I liked the concept behind AME, but wasn't crazy about the execution. For one thing, I hated that it was pay to win. I feel like you can get away with not spending diamonds in other books. But from what I remember from AME book 1 (it's another one that I haven't replayed), there was no way for MC to be successful in the end unless you bought a lot of the diamond scenes. And when it was releasing, diamonds were a lot harder to come by.
I also felt that there should've been more drama and MC specifically should've been allowed to be more messy. I mean hello it was a reality show?! I did like that they let us decide how MC was portrayed to a certain extent. (I think the options were sweetheart, flirt, and villain or something like that?) But they still should've played it up more.
Personally though, I didn't have a problem with the LIs or at least the one I chose (Handsome Stranger). I actually really liked him, but I do remember seeing a lot of people who were dissatisfied and wanting to romance some of the other characters, which is why they added Slater and Bianca at literally the last minute lol
#choices ame#choices americas most eligible#choices#choices stories you play#playchoices#I honestly don't remember too much about Ryder#he didn't really stand out to me personally so I didn't understand the appeal when people were asking to romance him#but to be fair if that many people were unhappy with the LI options they should've tried harder to improve in some way and sooner#whether that was giving the available LIs a bit more personality or offering new ones earlier than like the middle of the last book smh#choices app#choices ask
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mrs collins arc in summary
#➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure,miss winters.#➤ arc: mrs. collins. ┊ collinwood will always mean home to me.#half the reason I think things would actually Work Out is that they’re both two terrible marriages/engagements down#‘might as well give it a shot. third time’s the charm’#it’s not so much a matter of … passion or whirlwind romance. so much as it is they’re already close and they want to move On from#prev spouses & unhappiness. adversity better faced in partnership#not that there isn’t romance involved but that’s not why they get married.#v’s experience still pales to roger’s but it does not Work unless they’re both divorced (to me)#Roger doesn’t necessarily have to live up to a youthful naive expectation of marriage and V is not a young toy that he’d buy like a new car#I didn’t even count v and barn’s almost vampire marriage but like. that too#they’ve both all but given up on the idea of marriage bringing happiness by then.#not that rog is ever selfless (never!) but he does have some selfless motives in terms of protecting V; keeping her with the family;#ensuring she’s financially provided for#there’s a line when she’s in Bangor looking for Answers about how she feels her future is tied to the Collinses whether or not her past is.#and. yeah. that’s it baby !!!!!#ok enough waxing about the version of the story that lives exclusively in my head lmao
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cw ed don't read the tags if u don't wanna see that
#ok rambling again but i miss my weight from a few years ago so much literally its not even that i am unhappy w how i look now but then ill#see pics from 2019 and 2020 and yeah i looked happier and so comfortable in my skin#this is bs its the ed speaking but lord what id give to lose 20kg again#good lord whoever reads this pls punch me in the face but i gotta get this out of my head before it starts causing damage#i haven't weighed myself in two years out of fear bc i kept punishing myself whenever id go over 65kg and im pretty sure im at 70 rn#which is healthy and i look good but my brain desires the 50 so much it makes me sick#knowing myself ill likely drop in weight again soon anyway which idk whether thats a good thing#like its not#not considering my history w this stuff#anyway
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the mother i have now and the mother i had as a child are two completely different women.
#the divorce and antidepressants are probably the cause of this.......#just wish she could've done all that before acting like i was the bane of her existence for 15 years.#the best part is i can't tell whether she remembers any of this. lol.#and she's so sweet now and anytime i make a sarcastic reference to being slightly sad she gets this unbearable look of pity#and i'm like THIS IS YOUR FAULT. YOU DID THIS TO ME DON'T FUCKING PITY ME.#anyway. morals of the story treat your mental illness don't stay in an unhappy marriage and for the love of god be kind to children.
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too long for tags so vent under cut lmfao
idk how people can understand how daunting it is to like
sit on the verge of a more and more plausible serious mental illness diagnosis
one that at least a few professionals mentioned without ever like officially saying it and not knowing what to do in the meantime bar be terrified of what it does because cluster Bs in general get downright demonized and god knows me feeling any single emotion is either
1. an exaggeration of my fault and smth i should learn to manage rightfully (which is obv understandable and i try to take accountability)
2. me being fucking normal and daring to be negative and angry in a normal way but having an entire fucking repressed entourage of people (my family <3)
and the thing is i'm still not too great at knowing when it's one or the other
and like it's not just the adhd it's not just the anxiety it's a more sinister aspect of what i am and i want to get rid of it so bad lest it hurts people
like the worst it has done so far is me snapping at people at times
but what if all the harm i do to myself bubbles up even further i just don't like what i'm doing and i don't like how i lost control of that!
i swear im not throwing a pity party im just like reflecting a lot because i just hate being so wired wrong despite things objectively going alright after me doing a somewhat non-consequential fuck-up
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