#where yue doesnt die

[icangiveitback]

whoops all moon blessed

[attackfish]

do you have an au where yue saves the moon spirit but she doesnt die?

No, but I do have an AU where the only thing that changes is that Aang wakes up in time to stop Zhao, and at that point, making a new AU would be splitting hairs. Continued from: [Link] and [Link].

1. Yue didn't grow up thinking she would be chief someday. She never imagined what she would do as chief, or even what she would do if she were chief. Her father was the chief, and she was the princess. Someday her husband would be chief, and her job was to be beautiful and kind, and to be loved by everyone. And she was beautiful, and she was kind, and everybody did love her. None of it had seemed so onerous back then.

2. And now that she is to be chief, she has so much catching up to do. She attends every council meeting, and learns all she can, and thinks about what she will do, what she will be able to do when she is chief. Her father was a younger son. His older brother died when his boat capsized. She wonders if he once felt the same way. She wishes she could ask.

3. When she is afraid, that she might not be up to it, that she has no business thinking she could lead anybody, she asks herself if she still thinks she will be better then Hahn, better than Atuk, her father's second choice. The answer is always yes. So she keeps going.

4. She also never thought she would choose her own husband. It had never seemed to matter that she wouldn't. Her father loved her, and he was wise, and would choose someone good. But he didn't. And now she must choose. She settles on one of Pakku's students, Kantuk. He's known for being kind, clever and no one's fool, but easy going and well liked. Beautiful, kind, and loved by everyone. She doesn't love him, but she can see living with him, see him standing at her side. She presents her choice to her father, tentitively, hoping he will approve, that he will see why she made the choice he did. He only huffs at her, amd tells her he doesn't see why it matters what he thinks.

5. It will be a long, long time before Arnook stops being angry, stops feeling as if his daughter humiliated him, and called him a fool. But that day will come. At least Yue hopes it will.

[multishippingtrashfire]

zukka soulmate au opinions/headcanons?

I apologize Anon for how long this has sat in my inbox, but soulmate AU’s are really not my forte, so i had to think long and hard. (no sexy pun intended)

Background information

- Soulmate marks sit on the same place on both parties

- They are there their whole life

- I believe in multiple soulmates, so if one soulmate dies, i think another exists (aka, Hakoda and Kya, and then Hakoda and Bato; Kanna and unnamed Grandpa, and the Kanna and Pakku)

Zuko

- Zuko DREADS the notion of soulmates, only because Zuko believes it is also the universe’s divine order to make his life as sucky as possible. So in Zuko’s mind, he’s like the perfect way for the Universe to punish him further would be one of 3 ways:

1. His soulmate would be the Avatar, because of course he’d be on an impossible quest to literally find and surrender his soulmate for death at Ozai’s hands (also a betrayal to his nation) 

2. His soulmate would be a woman, (because I truly canonically believe that Zuko is a gay)

3. He wouldn’t have a soulmate

Of course none of these guesses are correct, he should’ve looked behind door number 4: His soulmate is from another nation and has had the Fire Nation ferociously take everything they’ve loved (aka Sokka)

Fire Nation tradition also dictates that Soulmates are for common people, not for Prince’s, so his soulmate mark (a glistening black sword), is to be covered at all times anyway. He is thankful that his Soulmate mark is non-nation identifiable, which saves him from Ozai’s wrath if it was obviously Water Tribe or Earth Kingdom. Also sucks, because Zuko isnt even sure where to start looking (not that he would), so he just traces the mark with his fingers as bathes sometimes, wondering if his soulmate is doing the same. 

When Zuko first meets Sokka, he doesnt realize it, he just sorta is like “no point in brutally hurting this person, let me just shift him out my way”, which in my opinion is more restraint than most people get from Zuko at that time. 

Zuko doesnt even know Sokka is his Soulmate until he sees the sword after training Aang at the Western Air Temple, and it all just clicks and Zuko wants to throw himself into the Sun because Sokka has Suki and Zuko just wants him to be happy. 

So really, he was right, he will be alone. 

Meanwhile on Sokka’s side

Sokka’s family have always been very supportive of him and soulmates. Katara’s mark is something that looks like a kite (it’s Aang’s staff but they didnt know that before meeting him) and Katara is wishful for her soulmate. She spends nights dreaming up what it could possibly be or mean.

And tbh, Sokka is against the idea because he’s devoted to the idea of being a warrior, of doing what’s right by his people. And his soulmate mark of a what looks like an exploded burn (the lightning strike Zuko takes protecting Katara) doesnt convince him, because only another selfless person/warrior would understand him in his opinion and he knows those are hard to come by. He doesnt care if his soulmate identifies as a guy or girl or in between. 

Then there was Aang, Katara’s necklace wrapped around his ankle as his mark. And Suddenly, Sokka was confronted with the realization that Aang and helping him become the Avatar was apart of Katara’s fulfillment and that his little sister was growing up and Sokka could see the way Aang and Katara looked at each other. He knew they say lifetimes when they looked into each other’s eyes. 

And then Zuko chases them around the world and Sokka totally acknowledges that Zuko is mental and a dick, but he also gets why Zuko does it. In their travels they heard the story of the banished Fire Nation Prince and his impossible assignment to return home and Sokka understands. He knows what it is to have to feel like you have to prove yourself to your father (Sokka thinks he has to prove himself to Hakoda; Zuko literally has to prove himself to Ozai, per Ozai’s words), what it means to be fighting for your nation as something greater than yourself, and Sokka would never admit to Katara but he empathized with Zuko. 

Sokka wonders if it’s Suki, but Suki tells him honestly that her mark is the mark of the Kyoshi Warriors, because she’s dedicated to this, this is what fulfills her. She loves Sokka and loves romance with him, but she knows Sokka is destined for greater love. And she tells Sokka that companionship is something that he shouldnt miss out, just because he thinks its not the ways of the warrior. Wearing a dress and fighting in fans and makeup wasnt his idea of the ways of a warrior either and he learned how that turned out. 

He thinks it may be Yue, but her mark was always the moon.

And then Zuko abandons Ozai and tries to offer himself up to the Gaang. He’s turnt away, and even burns Toph’s feet before coming back again and tries sacrificing himself to stop combustion man. Sokka is at least a little bit impressed that he would continue to offer himself up to berating judgement of their group because he’s decided what’s right. Then Zuko becomes Aang’s firebending teacher and everyone gets hang out with him and Sokka likes the guy even more, although he’s weird around the sword (he blushes everytime he sees it) 

They never really talk about soulmates, and Sokka’s soulmate mark sits on his thigh, so it’s not exactly easy to see unless he’s undressed. 

Then Zuko takes the bolt for Katara and survives and suddenly Zuko has hung the Sun in Sokka’s sky, because he was so selfless, he was willing to die for Katara. He knows the shape sitting on Zuko’s chest anywhere. Zuko is his soulmate. And then Sokka realizes maybe he was late to this party and that was why Zuko was weird.

When he first sees Firelord Zuko alone afterwards, he asks Zuko how long he knew. And Zuko lets him know that it was long enough that Chit Sang, Hakoda AND Suki knew (which meant by then Toph had probably figured it out too). Basically everyone but Sokka, Katara and Aang had been privy to the information. 

Then they unpack some of that pesky childhood trauma they’d been carting around and talk about how they both thought the soulmate thing wasnt for them, but then again both of them were completely unusual and extraordinary people, so maybe they just had a more unusual extraordinary soulmate story to live out. Sokka promises Zuko a lifetime and Zuko promises Sokka everyday in between now and when the Sun goes out. They can see it in each other’s eyes. 

Sokka says that Zuko’s scars are beautiful, something Zuko has felt made him a monster all this time. Sokka is the first person to acknowledge them truly and he tells him how enthralled he is by the stories they depict of Zuko. How he was selfless and did not fear the burn of flames because it was more important to do the right thing. 

 And Zuko says Sokka would have the world in the palm of his hand with his intelligence and that spirits knew giving him bending too would basically just make him the avatar anyway. Sokka has always felt inadequate and Zuko makes him feel like he could win a hundred battles blindfolded. 

Zuko sends a search for Sokka’s sword (and recovers it) and Sokka uses it to ask Zuko to marry him.  

They get married at Sunrise, because Zuko sets the Sun in Sokka’s sky and they celebrate until Sunset/moonrise, because their union blessed by the moon herself. It casts an iridescent glow over the Fire Nation. 

It’s love. 

[ccsthemovie2]

(I think it's a word over 500, but:)

"Speaking of Tsukishiro, how's he doing?", Eriol asks. Frying pan to fire to volcano.

"He's good," Touya says quickly, before Sakura can say anything. Yukito is not even in the ballpark of "good". Yesterday he called Touya and begged him to bike over and said it was important and when Touya showed up he was asleep, and stayed fast asleep right through to the next morning. He keeps trying to make appointments with doctors, and then falling asleep before he can call, or, when Touya calls for him, before he can make it out the door. Privately, Touya isn't sure how much good a doctor can do for him, but anything has to be better than this, right?

"Really? I'm glad to hear it." Ugh, how much has Sakura told him. Not that she doesn't have a right to talk to her friends, but, come on, would it kill her to least keep it between her and Tomoyo and the funny looking cat.

He's good, that's an obvious lie. Ruby has said Yukito could barely stand upright at school. Every inch of Touya Kinomoto is packed full of magic. Sooner or later, Eriol figures, either Sakura will be powerful enough to sustain him, or Yue will have to get over himself and just eat already. Touya can't actually do anything with his magic, so it's not like Yue, even weak as he is, will have to face much of a struggle to take it. (Aside from competition with Ruby, of course. There's something to that, right, articles and studies about animals being healthier if they need a bit of careful planning to get their food? Yes, so this works out nicely.)

Or maybe- oh, that's probably it. Yue's on to him, isn't he? He's just being stubborn as usual, figuring sooner or later Clow will appear via Eriol and save him. He can imagine how surprised, overjoyed, grateful Yue would be, if Eriol showed up and saved his life. He can imagine Yue's head resting on his neck as clearly as if he had kept Yue well-fed with magic a thousand times in his lifetime. It would be nice, in the short run, but it wouldn't be right, no. Clow is dead, and Yue needs to learn to live with that. If he knows what's good for him, he will take responsibility for his own life, and if he doesn't...

Ahh, well, maybe it's Clow's old sentimentality, maybe Eriol is just warming up to Sakura's moon guardian all on his own, but he can't bring himself around to the idea of letting Yue just die. He'd save him, if it came down to it. But, he tells himself sternly, only as an absolute last resort. He's just worrying because he misses Yue and wants to get to know him better all at once in that past-and-future way- it's worth a visit, soon. Yes, a nice little visit, and Yue will never even have to know it happened. Just to check in.

(sorry the formatting got weird when i copypasted lol!)

hiiii thanks for the ask!!!

if we talk about this convo we need to back up and talk about how it got here. this should give you some idea of how badly this needs to be under a cut for length lol.

so it all starts with the bit about how someone falling and being caught is something that happens a lot in ccs. how with eriol, it's purposeful, and with fujitaka (and i misremembered it but since found out she fell *on* him and not *caught* by him, which lolol i hope he broke a bone, but also its fine the fic's already marked canon divergent, or maybe the story gets misremembered, whatever, in any case), it's an echo of clowriol's intentional artificial-trustbuild-dangersaves but without the magic or purpose to back it up (just like fujitaka himself!), but it's a situation he quickly makes favorable to him, because it may be a blank slate but it's made of the same material.

this whole convo was part of one of the very first chunks written, but everything was going to go in a very different direction at first. (there's a lot of Cut Content from this fic, some that i just didn't like, some that wasn't connectable with the rest of the fic after it took the shape it took but might pop up somewhere else one day idk). in this particular bit i cut the later half of the conversation because i really didn't like what i'd written, but then even though the direction of the story changed the conversation was still going so it had to bounce somewhere else, so it bounced to yukito. here we are answering your ask 2 paragraphs in!

yukito, iirc in the anime, did catch her from a fall, (in the manga, which made way more sense for why she had to change her clothes and rest so much, he saved her from drowning, again iirc because who can trust a memory) and at a point where eriol still has some investment in making yuekito/sakura (ewwwww) happen, he's going to try and draw on that symbolism to nudge her in that direction, right?

so all this said, SPEAKING of yuekito. how are they doing.

bad, obviously. touya's freaking out. i imagine that part of what's stopping yukito from seeing a doctor is yue, though- he knows it wont help, and i dont think yukito has, like, person insides that will stand up to medical tests, and yue would pick up on yukito like, not wanting to be outed to the doctor as a magic construct because he, like, doesnt actually have a real heart that pulses, just a repeating heartbeat sound. doesn't for real have blood etc to test, just records of blood type (for personality reasons).

and also touya's a very like keep-ur-problems-not-everybodys-business type so hes like imagining sakura venting her fears to this weirdo and getting pissed off. but that didnt actually happen, eriol knew all on his own lolol. touya you have to say something nice should happen to sakura to make up for wrongly suspecting her now

and this bit on eriol's end is all wrong information and inaccurate conclusions and i was really worried ppl would take it at face value but i hope nobody did. in ccs we get moments where eriol wants sakura to take power, or to learn that power can be taken- his final battle with her, for example, where the answer to his light and dark puzzle is to use kero and yue's power, except that's not something she would ever Want to do or would even Occur to her to try. the power is gifted to her by kero and yue (and syaoran!) because they love her.

same concept, here- the answer to the 'yue is dying' puzzle is to eat touya's power, and he can't imagine the real reason why he won't just do that, and when he thinks about it too long it goes right to his ego- yue looovvvvesss clow, and by extension me. he wants meeeeeee to save him. he wants to neck kissy MY magic soo sooooo bad. but yue isn't considering any of that at all. he's thinking about yukito and what touya means to yukito and why that would make yukito hesitate to reach out, and that no way in hell will he just ambush his other self's crush down a dark alley and take his magic, even to save both their lives. he's a lot more selfless than clow and eriol ever realize. maybe- this is just a half formed thought right now, i dont know if im like certain about it, but- maybe they feel his devotion to clow was a form of selfishness, that he Wanted Love as a thing he could hold and own, whereas pretty much everybody else who meets him goes like YOU SELFLESS MAN YOU CANT JUST DIE FOR PPL YOU CARE ABOUT YOU GOTTA TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF TOOOO

and there’s also that bit of teacherliness intrinsic to the three of them again: im doing this to teach him a lesson. im letting ruby do her thing without telling her what’s going on to help and encourage yue, etc.

anyway, that (in terms of fic weaving itself into canon) solidifies his decision to do uhmmmm a thing that creeps me out real bad in the anime (knocking yue out to have a moment with him, and oh, ding, there's another 'you fell but i caught you' moment!). eriol loves this manner of hanging out with people, you see it later in this fic, even:

It's important to say what's in your heart to the people you want to say it to, even if you have to make sure the other person never hears it. It's important for your own emotional freedom.

he loves to spend time with people exclusively on his terms, to the point where the other party never even knew he was there, because he knocked them out, or because he was just staring creepily at the outside of sakura's house while she did homework, etc etc etc.

tldr: it's all connected, aaaaaaaaa

[yukippe]

i sold myself on yuekki knowing there was v little content so ig i have to make it myself. heres my take on canon yuekki

so obviously yue lives! for this ill just say she gave back the power she got from the moon spirit and her hair turned black and she ended up w cool spiritbending powers for fun

sokka and yue get together properly 💖yue decides she wants to travel the world and help out with the war however she can and she and sokka have a conversation and theyre like yea we r both young and we dont know whats going to happen so we want to explore this however we can! theyre very soft together and sokka teachers her the basic combat he knows and he gets a lot better at carving because hes constantly making her little things whenever they stop somewhere 

aang and yue do spirit communicating and spirit world trips and bending together and its cool katara practices with them because yue wants to take waterbending influences - katara and yue become really close friends and they tease sokka together whenever they can

in the secret tunnel episode yue thinks the nomads r the funniest thing and shes laughing and having them teach her songs and her voice is HORRIBLE and sokka is just oh dear i love her…

in the swamp sokka and yue both see suki ;)

neither of them mention what they saw bc sokkas like uh? im with yue tho what does this mean is suki okay?? and yue is like oh thats a cute girl wow ! huh :O

yue shows up at the beifongs and goes oh…i am just a princess. nbd! the beifongs are ?!?! okay?? and tell toph to be nice to her. at first toph thinks yue is just a prissy princess but then yue challengers her to a burping contest and tophs opinion does a 180 to first girl crush

they still lose appa : ( yue went into the tower with them bc she wanted to talk to another spirit and when wan shi tong asks her for information shes just like oh lol i was the moon spirit and hes…..um okay that works

yue is the one who gets high off cactus juice 😌 she has a great time and sokka carries her on his back for a bit to make sure shes safe and fusses over her and yue is just bopping his nose and playing with momos tale and earnestly talking about how she thinks she might have to leave sokka for the mermaid (katara who is very flustered) shes flirting with

serpents pass is hijinks and romance at its best :)

suki still kisses sokka and yue sees the girl from the swamp vision kiss sokka and her IMMEDIATE thought is oh new girlfriend i guess and then her brain kicks in and she steps over and goes hey :( my boyfriend :( 

suki: what?? sokka: uh yea, hi suki this is my girlfriend yue. yue this is uh, suki? shes the leader of the kyoshi warriors

basically they sort it out as a haha oops my bad… but then the three of them talk around the campfire and sokka starts to make one of the carvings he always makes for yue and then he makes another and gives it to suki and suki and yue are REALLY getting along and the three of them sit under the moonlight and yue brings up that she saw suki in a vision and sokka goes oh and suki goes really?

they realize they all definitley like each other, but suki has to go back to the rest of the kyoshi warriors and they kiss and yue takes sukis hands and promises her she will find her again and theyll see where the go from there and gives her the carving sokka made for her and suki gives yue the carving sokka made for her and its very much an if we make it out well see where we go from there

azula has no idea who yue is because the nwt princess not being in the nwt is a tiny bit of a secret bc the nwt decided they didnt want it to be known that yue wasnt safe and azula sees her spirit bend and is ???? another avatar?? 

yea the fire nation thinks theres another avatar dw abt it

in ba sing se yues tales of ba sing se episode shes invited to join katara and toph and goes but she also gets her own little story where she gets stuck working a part time job at a pottery store and she so lost dfghj

when theres the confrontation at the end of book 2 azula tries to attack yue and calls her the avatar and zuko is??? no thats the nwt princess!! azula is v stunned and then shes like well. fuck you! and then she turns to aang and proceeds from there

yue pretends to be aangs mom so katara doesnt have too dfghj sokka and yue play up a v cute married couple act and katara keeps pretending to throw up

sokka makes yue a cool meteroite knife while hes making the sword and she loves it and immediatly starts target practice

yue and katara both go with hama in the puppetmaster and its actually a redemption episode and yue shares a message from tui with hama and hama thanks them both and decides to go to the swt 

yue goes on the boiling rock trip and eyes zuko from the other side of the balloon and he asks o uh how are you alive? yue: i gave back the moon spirit and then the moon came back and then i became a vessel for tui and i got spiritbending. sokka: ur so cool

yue spots suki first and nudges sokka and sokka sees her and goes !!. when zuko stands guard he is so extremley awkward abt it bc he doesnt understand why the both of them went in bc he doesnt realize theyre both kinda with suki. inside the three of them are hugging on the ground and outlinging a fast plan

when chit sang goes: hey ur girlfriend is going away, yue crosses her arms and goes: hey thats MY girlfriend chit sang: oh sorry didnt mean to assume

zuko: i thought you were dating sokka? sokka: yue and i are both dating suki because we are all really cool and awesome :D

when hakoda finds out his son has two badass girlfriends and one of them is the leader of an elite group of warriors and the other is the princess of the nwt he goes and takes a nap

you know that scene where suki is trying to sneak into sokka’s tent but zuko interrupts? yue is already in the tent with sokka and hears the stumble and is like zuko?? we didnt invite you but uh? i guess just talk to sokka quickly we have plans

zuko is very intimidated by yue already so hes much more awkward but he goes in and asks his question and then suki and yue go and hangout with sokka and the three of them have a cute date and do each others hair and suki brings out her fans and they fan each other even though suki goes: hey those are weapons! >:( yue, guiding sokka on hiding his face w a fan: yes suki we are so sorry, come fan me with your weapon please

yue dies in the ember island players version of events so suki sneaks yue and sokka backstage so the three of them can roast the actors and playwright and dfghjk yue is like you know what they wrote me out so im taking kataras place and suki and sokka shrug and they convince the katara actress to let yue take over for the next act

yue makes the show 10x better and almost refuses to die when shes supposed to be defeated and suki and sokka are just quietly cheering in the background like THATS OUR GIRLFRIEND

when theyre facing the fleet in the finale im not saying yue throws her meteorite knife and hits ozai but she totally throws her knife and hits ozai

suki sokka and yue kiss at zuko’s coronation bc they all love pda and then they seperate for a while as they go back to their respective homes but they stay in close contact and sneak away to visit each other whenever they can and they manage to make some sort of rotation schedule between homes between the three of them and have three kids :)

[loverofallthingssmart]

gimme everything you got on mailee

ok sruthi ilysm for this and this is decidedly not everything because i love them so much and my brain is too small but this is EXTREMELY LONG so everything is under read more!

firstly in case you didn’t know, i just think that mailee is wonderful, amazing, awesome, and fantastic like

secondly, can we talk about how just compatible the ship is? 

like one its childhood best friends to lovers with always makes me go 🥰 

and two. ty lee being the only one who mai is really vulnerable to and the girl mai is soft for like ?? WOW i love them

mai being the one who knows ty lee’s strength and being the one ty lee doesnt have to pretend to be naive with?? i live for that

and three. these 2 girls being themselves with each other against azula who’s manipulated them and who they have to put on a cover to hide their true feelings with? i just love them..also mai being an abused child who’s had to hide her emotions and her thoughts under a blank and bored facade getting to smile with ty lee whos been part of a matched set her whole life and never gets to express her individuality because she’s insecure and can be who she wants to be knowing mai will understand that she’s her own person?? that?? yeah thats great..that’s the stuff i LIVE for

also ty lee is so lucky she gets a goth gf like mai whos awesome and wonderful and great like maybe i just really love mai who knows

thirdly i am going to talk about “the boiling rock” because that episode really went mailee rights and i love them for it (so did “the chase” so like)

ty lee’s betrayal came out of NOWHERE..it’s a surprise to the audience too and if you look at mai’s surprised face like she didnt even expect that?? mai was ready to die and always thought she would be second-best to azula according to ty lee BUT SHE ISN’T and her realization that maybe ty lee actually loves her in that moment seeing ty lee chi-block azula means everything to me 

(also ty lee and mai in “the chase” with ty lee hugging mai after mai reveals that she was paying attention to ty lee’s exclamations about the clumps of fur means everything to me because like..ty lee is sure she’s talking to herself since azula has already left and here is mai not only listening but contributing to the conversation? because she cares about making ty lee happy and making it known that she cares?? THAT makes me soft like 🥰) 

also, also that reunion is “return to omashu”?? where mai knew ty lee was going to the circus?? can you imagine how ty lee told her?? do you think mai knew the reason ty lee ran away and went to the circus?? the possibilities of their childhood love story are immense and i love that so much

last, i’m going to end it on some fic recs! because these are all so good and deserve recognition like

“promise” by @yues-girlfriend guys its so good and sweet and i love it so much theyre so cute omg..the confession..them as children?? ty lee leaving for the circus and their goodbye?? aAAAH..its just..SO GREAT i love it

“grand entertainment” by rainfall on ao3 (i dont know if the author has a tumblr) but like gd the character study and the emotion?? and then depth ty lee has in this?? its just so good like

“riverside confessions” by @ultralightdumbass this fic is so sweet omg? mai’s thoughts on ty lee is just SO cute and ty lee flirting with mai is everything like i just really love it so much

 “the rosyfingered moon (you and i)” by ariya167 on ao3 like god the writing is literally so gorgeous and the feelings and dialogue?? ugh im in love 

“tujh se main takrayaa (sarphira ho gaya)“ by @bi-kyoshis hi yes this is so amazing and i love this so much hi vidhya if you’re reading this i love this fic so much mai’s thoughts are so great and her and ty lee in this fic make me go GJSHJAKKJ its just so great

“tumhe jo maine dekha, tumhe jo maine jaana” by @loverofallthingssmart (which is me, yes i know this is shameless self-promo but 👀 read it maybe?)

“close your eyes, come with me” by @twinkwu this is SO good like holy omg the date?? ty lee’s circus excuse was SO great i love it and the ending makes me go :)))) so

“the language of flowers (aka- how you get the girl)” by @i-love-your-light​ its so amazing GOD i love the tumblr post it was inspired by and flowers?? amazing mailee?? great now put them together and you’ve got a banger like holy shit i love this

“stories”  by fadedorchids on ao3 (again, don’t know if the author has a tumblr so) y’all this is so amazing?? like the emotion and mai’s thoughts and feeling like ?? WOW

overall, this is very long because i love mai, i love ty lee, and i especially love mailee....just..them <3

[zukkatrash]

atla pirate au

(soley based on me misreading a diff post and now wanting to see mai in a keira knightly getup) (also everything i know abt pirates is based on the pirates of the caribbean, treasure planet and black sails and hasty 2 am googling) (also also big fucking shoutout to @s-suki for helping me with this)

the gaang's ship - aka The Avatar

yue is captain!!! (@s-suki ur brain is huge and i luv u) so from what i know being a captain is a looot abt politics and u know our girl yue is good at that, not to mention how much her crew loves her bc she gives everything for them

sokka is navigator, one look at the stars and he knows where they are instantly, he charts a course in record time, captains have in fact fought over him but he is nothing but loyal to his captain!!!

aang spends at least half his time in the sails, as lookout and keeping knots secure(? idk shit abt sailing haha) he’s also the fastest one they got, no matter if he’s running, swimming or paddling a small boat

suki is the best fighter they have bc of course she is (also theres no misogyny in this bc i said so) grown men shit themselves when they see her / also shes boatswain (the boatswain was in charge of a ship's anchors, cordage, colors, deck crew and the ship's boats, and would also be in charge of the rigging while the ship was in dock)

toph! makes! bombs! also if u give her a gun that u found thats been underwater for three months and u give her like 2 hours, not only is it completely functional afterwards but it somehow works better than before?

katara is quartermaster and shes def like 30% of how yue keeps her crew in line

haru is ship cook (i know this has zero connection to canon but have you considered boi soft and warm like bread)

teo is the ships carpenter (highest ranking if they got more than one)

jet is a fighter obvs, also him and sokka do NOT get along but yue has this real icy stare that makes them both shut up immediately

smellerbee is dating toph and yue is not opposed to their relationship but does make sure theyre not around eachother too much when explosives are also near bc those 2 def get up to some wild shit

longshot is obvs the best shot they have and is the other lookout

appa is a parrot and he spends all of his time being adorable

momo is still a lemur and just steals so much shit

on to the firenation

ozai rules over a whole ass port/island or smth idk but like all the pirates have to deal with his fucking bullshit

zhao is his 2nd in command and yue at some point guts him 😊

azula is of course captain of her ship and she rules with an iron fist

mai is first mate (making any possible future betrayals that much worse)

ty lee is ship medic and just constantly gets underestimated in fights and wins like right away

zukos life motto on azulas ship is 'i hate it here' bc his job is basically everything nobody else wants to do (until! he is no longer on the ship. does he get pushed off the ship to drown? does he leave in the night with all the valuables he can carry and a map of a great prize? idk, YOU DECIDE)

more thoughts on zuko:

i dont think he’d join the gaang right away after he’s no longer with the fire nation but would first like half-die on some island (even if he didn’t get kicked off, i just imagine he’d do smth drastic like think he can sail a ship without getting lost just bc he’s spent a lot of time on a ship but like, honey no, navigation isnt as easy as it looks) bc zuko alone u kno

iroh is still his uncle in this, but zuko doesnt know that, so he thinks he’s just this weird hermit guy that finds him and takes him in

zuko is like "what does he want? what his secret agenda? how will this guy use this against me?" and iroh is just like "boy! eat something but also are u like okay? u want some cryptic advice thats consisting of 60 ocean metaphors?"

iroh does tell him hes his uncle tho and that he left when zuko was really young and he wasnt the only one who ran from that house that day...

URSA IS ALIVE!

she had been banished by ozai and threatened with zukos murder if she had stayed, ozai wouldve killed her but he knew he couldnt take her in a straight fight and if she had been the type you could assassinate they wouldntve ever gotten together anyway

now shes vibing with iroh and lu ten, because yes lu ten is alive (listen if there is any feasable way of my boi to be alive he is!!!)

also they’re def supporting everyone who opposes ozai as asafely as they can on whatever weird remote island theyre at

once zuko joins the crew of the avatar, sokka laughs like straight five minutes abt zuko thinking he could navigate his stolen boat after not even learning how to properly read a map, not to mention everything else that goes into navigating and zuko is like "fuck u" and sokka is like "lets show u how to read a map so this doesnt happen again" still with tears of laughter in his eyes, and maybe later when hes been on the crew for longer and maybe saved sokkas life in a fight, sokka teaches him abt the stars too and cue zuko pining after the way too beautiful guy trying to explain constellations but zuko just keeps getting lost in his eyes and being hyper aware of how close sokkas arm is when he points out specific stars

the reason zuko joins them in the first place is bc the avatar is the only crew that could protect him against azula and ozai and they’re the only ones willing/able to go up against the fire nation

also katara is the first to see zuko after he parted with the fn and she like immediately has a sword to his throat and boi just fucking faints

maybe jee is also a captain in this bc i really like it when the wani shows up in fanfics and maybe they’re not on good terms with ozai but they’re flying under the radar bc its just a small ship and they do bring in their percentage so maybe zuko joins his crew before he goes to find the gaang?

now some general thoughts:

the dai lee is the chinese navy out to get them all

miyuki is one of their highest ranking officers and gives the pirates a run for their money, but weirdly never goes to chase the Avatar

hakoda is also a captain but he’s working under ozai to take the operation down from the inside (also yes of course his husband bato is also there with him ^^)

kue is absolutely some weird hermit guy

once again big thanks to @s-suki for helping me with this check out their blog theyre great! (theyre on break rn tho but dont let that deter u!!)

if anyone wants to add to this PLEASE do!!! also if anyone draws or writes smth for this please please please tag me bc i would love to see it!! (also i will love u forever ♡)

[sukisbxtch]

ok here we go yuekki time

so first of all yue doesn’t die in the north pole

it’s a rapunzel situation where she gives the spiritual energy back to the moon spirit and her hair turns brown again!! so she’s alive

and now she’s seen the damage the fire nation can do

and she sees how sheltered she is and wants to actually do something

after some convincing arguments on yue’s (and sokka’s) part, Chief Arnook allows her to go with the gaang

she and sokka decide to maybe not be in a relationship in the middle of a war??? just because it’s complicated and stuff

but they’re still really good friends because sokka needs someone his age to talk to and they get along super well

so everything happens and  toph joins the gaang and then they’re trying to get to ba sing se

and guess who’s at the ferry place

“suki!!!”

and sokka has to kind of awkwardly explain to yue that he and suki met before the north pole

and then also has to explain to suki that he and yue were a thing but weren’t anymore??

and then suki and yue instantly become friends!! and suki teaches yue how to fight and yue is in general awe of her badassery

and suki just loves how chill and awesome yue is

before suki leaves she and yue almost kiss but they both like sokka as well so they don’t

yue has to go so they can’t actually have a conversation about it so it’s kinda a weird ending

part 2 if this doesnt totally flop?

[aangfanclub]

liveblog s1 ep20: the siege of the north pt 2

liveblog of part 2!! this one is intense and my brother is currently crying hysterically due to ~events~ and emotional support is appreciated

Where is aang’s spirit??? I am uncomfortable when we are not about aang

Zuko pls know i say this with as much love as possible but you’re so stupid. You stole the avatar and he isnt even awake to keep u alive

Bro: steal ur face? Ha. how would u breathe. Checkmate

Zuko has a sister?????

ZUKO HAS A BROTHER????

[then followed a debate in which i swore i heard zuko say he had a brother. My siblings told me i was wrong and i made us go back and watch it again. I was completely wrong. I’m a fool and now we all know this]

WHY IS EVERYONE SO MEAN TO ZUKO!! STOP TRAUMATIZING ZUKO CHALLENGE

Bro: Everytime i see sokka im just like. Man. i wish i had his hair.

Zuko needs a therapist and like one healthy coping mechanism

REMOVE THE MOON?? Ok gru djskfskjd

Yes YEET that fiance

How is aang gonna not emote. Hes so excited all the time! He’s so baby!

BRO THAT THING IS SO CREEPY ITS LIKE IF THE MONSTER FROM INFINITY TRAIN WAS ALSO A CLOWN

Bro: Aang is so strong for being able to keep a straight face. If anything i would laugh

Lotta talk about the moon,,, im feeling like someone’s in danger of losing a gf

Sis: ITS THE POLAR BEAR bro: that is a PANDA are you okay????

whats happening?? Hows he gonna get to his body? Oh he just yeets back jdskfks ok

Bro: Zukos voice sounds like a boy whos going through puberty but he doesnt want his voice to crack so he just whispers

Bro: Sokka and yue are my marichat. Sis: theyre your MARICHAT?? THATS SUCH A WEIRD ONE TO PICK bro: uhhh maridrein?? OH ADRINETTE

THE MOON IS A FISH??

Jsdkfkjs the moon said im outta here yall figure this out on your own

SICKO MODE AANG I MISSED U

Aang HELLO??? Where did you GO YOU CANT JUST GO SICKO MODE AND LEAVE WHAT IS THAT LIZARD THING 

AANG IS THE MOON SPIRIT??? TALK ABOUT FLOWER GLEAM AND GLOW

Sis: NOBODY BETTER EVER MESS WITH AANG EVER EVER AGAIN I SWEAR

Bro: NOOO IM GONNA CRY IF SHE DIES IM GONNA CRY I CANT SHE WAS MY MARINETTE THIS ISNT FAIR

Bro: Did she DIE NOOOOOOOOOOOO

[at this point bro is crying hysterically and punching the couch in anger. We are all yelling]

Bro: I swear i want to kill whatever that commander dude is he killed by GIRL AANG YOU BETTER DELETE HIM

Bro: NOOO SOKKA NOOOOOOO

She IS the fish???? She became the moon???

At least he got to kiss his dead moon gf one last time,,,,,

I swear i hate you sooo much i dont even know your name KILLHIM ZUKO

Begone i dont want you to EXIST

Bro: He killed my girl.... He killed my girl... this is so sad.. She was my marinette

Sis: THIS GIRL WAS IN THIS SHOW FOR LIKE 3 EPISODES CHILL

Bro: I JUST LOVE SOKKA SO MUCH AND SHE WAS HIS EVERYTHING

[bro is crying real tears. His spirit is crushed. He just wants yue back. His voice is cracking a lot]

Let zuko take a nap challenge. Let zuko be loved and cherished challenge

[bro is screaming into a pillow]

Post-episode: sis: should we watch an episode of miraculous ladybug to lift our spirits? Bro: NO. NO ONE ELSE GETS RELATIONSHIPS IF SOKKA DOESNT

Bro: i have two theories and one of these NEEDS to happen or else im canceling the show. Either aang goes into the spirit world and goes ‘bro sokka is destroyed come back please’ OR sokka dies and becomes the water spirit so they can be together forever

[bro has been going on for half an hour about why sokka and yue should’ve gotten married bc they would’ve united the two water tribes. It’s sad boi hours. He and my sister are yelling about the virtues of yue and adrien agreste for reasons i dont understand. Love is dead.]

[gizkasparadise]

wow trying to edit that post was a nightmare. sorry yall. 

anonymous asked how bad “goodbye my princess” was. 

vague badness: enemy lovers that actually have consequences, betrayal/lying, jealousy, murder, suicide, dead family members dead family members everywhere, depression, the male love interest going a lil Unhinged, main character deaths (plural)

detailed spoilers (and legit, SPOILERS) under the cut

so you have to embrace that the male lead/chengyin is an absolute piece of shit. like he’s terrible. and he’s compelling. but he makes so many bad choices in pursuit of power / the throne of the li empire. so so many. now, he loves xiaofeng and it’s legit, but that ultimately brings more pain to her than if he didn’t.

Fucked Up Shit Chengyin Does: A Love (?) Story

-within the first 10 episodes, he + his soldiers have almost completely wiped out xiaofeng’s family + the danchi as a whole. her cousins die. her friends die. tangentially, her mother dies and her father goes insane. chengyin even beheads her beloved grandfather in front of her (he didn’t know she was there. but lmao. still.)

-did i mention that was on their wedding day? it was on their wedding day. said grandfather even gave her away. he went ahead with marrying xiaofeng even though he had no intention of abandoning his mission and thought idk love would fix it? chengyin what what what are you doing

-it’s unclear whether or not chengyin was going to tell her he was the double agent/the reason the li empire was able to wipe out the danchi, but there’s this like Significant pause between when xiaofeng wakes up from traumatically fainting after the danchi are defeated to her recognizing the li empire armor in his quarters where he doesn’t say anything and it is Sketch. definitely the implication that if he could he would hide his role in the defeat of the danchi from her and just Carry On as a Happily Married Couple

-she’s rightfully horrified by him when she makes the connection between him and the armor in his tent and tries to stab him, so he stabs himself harder which isnt awful but just fucked up like this is not a good relationship

-when gu jian (xiaofeng’s teacher/first love) comes to take her out of the li military camp, chengyin stops him and demands that he lets xiaofeng go because, quote, “They’re not over yet.” bro you just massacred damn near her entire family i think that’s a dealbreaker (to his credit he does let her leave but lmao it’s v clear he didn’t want to)

-there’s a semi-time skip and Plot Related Amnesia, so he and xiaofeng don’t remember their traumatic history, and both end up in the li empire b/c of xiaofeng’s marriage contract to one of their princes. one would think without the danchi backstory maybe they could have a better time. they don’t.

-chengyin falls for xiaofeng again, but he knows the politics of court are Fucked Up and if he shows he cares about her they’ll target her. so he makes a girl who’s been in love with him since childhood (se se) his concubine and fake!dotes on her to have all the political schemes fall on her instead of xiaofeng. basically, he exploits the poor girl’s feelings to make her a meat shield. i think he calls her expendable at one point. on the flip side of things, he treats xiaofeng like absolute shit sometimes in order to protect her. which works, but gd what an asshole

-although their memories are gone, chengyin knows basic things about the events in western liang that others in the palace have told him: that he defeated the danchi and killed xiaofeng’s grandfather are among them. he doesn’t tell xiaofeng this, even when they’re officially engaged. she finds out on her own right before the wedding and confronts him. he’s essentially like Look I Didn’t Want You To Know and when that doesn’t do well he’s like Think of The Country and also I Love You and gets general pei to later take her to the memorial he built for her grandfather, complete with his armor set. which is kind of sweet but also kind of imperialist museum? and also he was the one that killed him??

-super jealous. when there’s rumors that general pei and xiaofeng are having an affair (they’re not), he maneuvers to publicly strong-arm pei into a marriage with his sister (aka an imperial princess aka a marriage he can’t turn down). it turned out alright, but the Motives were definitely not alright--emphasized by the stone cold stare down he gives xiaofeng after the announcement (she’s oblivious to it, because she’s not in love with pei, but chengyin doesn’t know that). part of it is a political maneuver, but it’s also p clear that it’s personal

-a doozy. so gu jian, chengyin’s cousin and accomplice in the Take Down the Danchi Fuckery, is in love with xiaofeng. he was also xiaofeng’s first love, but she doesn’t remember him because #amnesia.  throughout the second half of the show, gu jian’s been working as sort of a guardian for xiaofeng as she lives in the palace and trying to make amends for his part in the danchi massacre/trying to assuage his guilty conscience. at one point, he decides enough’s enough and he kidnaps xiaofeng in order to get her free from the palace. during this time, chengyin’s absolutely losing his shit because his beloved wife is gone and he knows gu jian’s the one that took her / has his suspicions about gu jian’s feelings for her.

while gu jian and xiaofeng are on the run, xiaofeng starts to get bits and pieces of her memory back--all of them surround a man named “xiaowu” aka chengyin’s alter-ego when they were together in west liang. because he’s a shit, gu jian says he’s xiaowu, and as a result xiaofeng believes he’s the one she used to be in love with. Complicated. even more complicated when, fleeing chengyin and palace soldiers, xiaofeng hits her head and COMPLETELY remembers everything.

needless to say, she doesn’t want to be around chengyin anymore. it’s super sad and fucked up, because while xiaofeng remembers everything, chengyin doesn’t. so here’s what chengyin knows:

-his wife was open and warm and they were in love even if he couldn’t always show it because #Intrigue

-wife gets kidnapped by his cousin, who he suspects is in love with her

-wife comes back from kidnapping, hating him and saying the only person she ever cared for was xiaowu -- which is NOT HIM

-his cousin claimed to be xiaowu

when gu jian tries to rescue xiaofeng again, he’s surrounded by palace guards and chengyin goes totally unhinged. he forces xiaofeng to watch as he orders his men to shoot the shit out of gu jian. she tries to look away but he won’t let her. he doesnt even care that a’du, xiaofeng’s best friend and the only one she really has left, is at risk of being shot as well. gu jian dies, and while xiaofeng knows he’s not xiaowu she remembers that they grew up together/at one point he was her beloved teacher and she’s devastated. she tries to starve herself but chengyin threatens to take a’du away forever if she does. it’s fucked up.

-xiaofeng tries to escape multiple times, and he won’t let her/re-captures her. it’s just. sad. really sad, esp since she can’t forgive him for what he did to her family

-after all this shit, west liang decides to rebel and chengyin decides to crush them. because killing one side of xiaofeng’s family tree wasn’t enough, apparently

-xiaofeng rides out to the middle of the battlefield--on one side is west liang, under control of her brother. on the other is li empire, under control of her husband. she threatens to kill herself unless chengyin meets two of her conditions: 1) that he’ll leave west liang the fuck alone for as long as he lives--chengyin agrees, and it’s clear he would say yes to anything she asks because he is freaking out. he even says that if she dies he’ll kill himself, too. which leads to wish 2) he has to live well

which feels like a mixture of selfless love and a little bit of a fuck you? she knows that making him survive after she dies is probably going to be what hurts him the most, but he swore to it. then she slits her own throat while he watches, and he runs by her side and is trying to keep her alive (which is fruitless). and then he’s shoved away from her by her brother, who takes her corpse back to west liang. chengyin grows old, and it’s clear the only thing he’s got is his empire and it’s a lonely fucking life. at some point, he abdicates to his nephew (implying he never had his own family) and goes back into the desert to “find xiaofeng” because he’s in denial that she’s dead and the vibe is that he’s definitely going to die alone out there

#fin

characters who die

-danchi: tömür/xiaofeng’s grandfather, he shi (a’du’s brother/xiaofeng’s friend), yi moyan (xiaofeng’s cousin), batu’er, a good freaking chunk

-west liang: consort/princess mingyuang, ashina yun/xiaofeng’s mother, qu wenchang/xiaofeng’s father goes insane

-li empire: zhao sese goes insane, crown prince #1/chengji, crown prince #2/chengye, the empress, the emperor, gao yuming, li yan, gao zhen, gu ruhui, chang’er, chai mu, ming yue

-main: xiaofeng, gu jian, a’du

[helianthusaster]

Ok so I reread the last 3 chapters of the CardCaptor Sakura: Clear Card Manga and rewatched the last 4 episodes of the Anime adaptation and I Have Some Theories

MAJOR SPOILERS (MANGA & ANIME)

It’s stated in the manga (see Volume 11: Chapter 44; ie what was Supposed to happen at the end of Episode 69 sub/Episode 38 dub) that Fujitaka Kinomoto and Eriol are half of Clow Reed’s reincarnation. It is also stated that Sakura has no relatives on her dad’s side of the family, like Tsukishiro Yukito (Yue’s alter form) in the sense that they both have no blood-related family members (aside from Sakura). Amamiya/Kinomoto Nadeshiko, however, does. Which, by the previous logic, means she isn’t a reincarnation. The reason I’m saying this is because it is common in the series for characters with alter egos/true forms to have Grey Hair (ie Yukito) and I want to separate Nadeshiko from that category.

HOLY FUCK I HAD AN EPIPHANY AS I WAS WRITING THIS CAUSE I ACCIDENTALLY SAW SOMETHING I SHOULDNT HAVE AND I FEEL LIKE I KNOW THE MEANING OF LIFE!

KAITO IS TRYING TO BRING BACK AKIHO’S MOM (Nadeshiko’s Friend; I bet you 5 bucks her name is Alice) AND POSSIBLY NADESHIKO (Based on the part in the Clear Card manga Chapter 40 where he tells Xiaolang/Syaoran that “he would be “very, very mad” if he told him what he wanted to do, implying that what he wants to do would injure (erase?) Sakura, the girl he loves) USING THE CARDS SAKURA IS CREATING BECAUSE HE LOVED THEM BUT DIDNT REALIZE IT UNTIL IT WAS TOO LATE CAUSE HE WAS NEVER SHOWN KINDNESS AS A KID AND THEN SUDDENLY TWO PEOPLE LOVED HIM AND HE LOST THEM AND NOW HE CANT DEAL WITH IT BECAUSE HE NEVER LEARNED HOW TO AND HE CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH EVEN WITH HIS TIME MAGIC SO HE TURNS TO THE MOST POWERFUL FUCKING FOURTEEN YEAR OLD IN THE GODDAMN UNIVERSE TO USE FORBIDDEN MAGIC THAT EVEN XIAOLANG/SYAORAN (Second Strongest Fourteen Year Old, Head of the Li Family) DOESNT KNOW ABOUT IN ORDER TO EITHER 1) TURN BACK TIME ON BOTH AKIHO AND SAKURA, ESSENTIALLY TURNING THEM INTO THEIR MOTHERS OR 2) TRAVEL BACK IN/TURN BACK TIME USING THE CLEAR CARD VERSION OF THE RETURN AND/OR TIME CARD (Which makes a lot more sense tbh; my guess it’s it’ll be called “Fate” or “Destiny”) AND REWRITE HISTORY SO THAT HE CAN FINALLY LIVE OUT HIS DAYS WITH HIS LOVED ONES (I suspect that Kaito traveled to the future in order to do all this because ofc that’s what happened—it’s CLAMP! So in the end, after Sakura and Xiaolang/Syaoran finally defeat him and the dazed Akiho (maybe it’ll be a dazed Sakura and Akiho vs Xiaolang/Syaoran and Tomoyo (cause Cardcaptor Tomoyo rights!!!) situation—which would be fucking epic! LET THE OLD CARDCAPTOR RIVALRY RETURN!!!) they end up sending him back in time or sealing him in his stupid fucking pocket watch (cause wouldn’t that be ironic!) or whatever and there’s a big moment where maybe Sakura finally learns that You Can’t Save Everyone and Kaito realizes—probably through Fujitaka and Yue cause they both know best—that People Die And That’s Okay, Just Remember The Good Times You Had With Them. And then Kaito’s time magic catches up with him and he kicks the bucket but it’s okay cause he can be with Nadeshiko and Aliceprobably now! And yeah Akiho will miss him and yeah she no longer had any family at FOURTEEN but hey she can move in with Sakura and Fujitaka, the College Professor/Archeologist, can adopt her and Touya can grow his “little-sister-complex” that his boyfriend teases him about even more! OR—EVEN BETTER—SHE CAN MOVE IN WITH YUKITO SO HE CAN END UP WITH A LITTLE SISTER COMPLEX SO TOUYA CAN TEASE HIM ABOUT IT!

And even if I’m wrong, Yukito and Touya are Canonically Boyfriends and Nothing Can Take That Away From Me!!!

Also I lowkey headcanon Kaito as Poly cause he Doesn’t Get the whole “My one and only” thing, meaning he probably loves more than one person; as a Poly Witch myself I am absolutely projecting onto Purple Tea Watch Man, k thx bye!!!

[is-that-another-soulmate-au]

Part 20 Curly Kyoshi Zuko

I rewrote it entirely because I was mad that it deleted in the first place. Please enjoy this. It took a lot of effort to recreate, and I think I made it better tbh

The morning after the Seige Kurt found himself tangled up under the sheets with Kahno. His back against the larger man's chest and trapped in his arms as if he was a teddy bear. He shifted a little and cuddled closer, not wanting to wake up. He gasped when his hair was ruffled "good morning little flare" Kahno rumbled out before placing a kiss to the back of Kurt's head

Kurt whined "no, not morning"

"Not morning?" Kahno mused while holding back a laugh as he let Kurt turn around and face him "arent firebenders supposed to rise with the sun?"

"Yeah but it doesn't mean we actually get out of bed, its cold and I dont remember where my jacket went after we came back last night" he wrapped his arms around Kahno's waste and pulled him closer "I just want to stay in bed with you a little bit longer, besides Aang doesnt want to head out until noon so I want to spend as much time as possible with you before I leave"

"I uh, I actually was going to come with you.." Kahno said which made Kurt push back against his chest

"No way!" He was smiling "no way! Are you serious?"

"Yeah, Katara convinced me, she knew we'd be miserable apart so she told me as such and it didn't take much after that... she's pretty terrifying."

Kurt laughed "yeah, she acts like an older sister to me.. even though she's younger"

"Yeah, thats because your tiny"

"Im not THAT tiny"

"Oh yeah?" Kahno smirked "not tiny huh?" He shifted so he was hovering over Kurt who now felt like a mouse beneath a tiger

"Okay. Okay, I get it. And that was fun last night but uh, not... not right now" kurts face couldnt get any redder "I uh, I just want to cuddle please"

Kahno laughed "I know, I was only teasing you." He moved them so Kahno was yet again being held like a teddy bear. "You might be tiny but you demolished a firenation warship in one go-"

"It took all of my energy though, so that sucked"

"Yeah, but you still did it. You're more powerful than you think."

"And so are you!" Kurt retorted back

There was a knock on the door "I know you want to sleep in love birds but youre gonna want breakfast before he hit the air!" Katara called from the other side, though it was a bit muffled.

Kurt let out a loud groan "I dont wanna!"

"Get up now before I come in there and give you a cold healing treatment, you know your cheek isn't fully healed yet"

"Yknow, cold healing actually sounds nice Katara!"

"Oh really?" She opened the door with a hand up at the ready and a devilish grin. "Is that so?"

"Ahh! No! No! I was joking! Katara, please no! Kahno stop her! I'll get up! I'll get up! No! No! Kataraaaaa!!!"

After the cold healing it was breakfast time and Kurt was pouting with Kahno between him and Katara. Sokka however sat on the other side of him "so Mr. 'Destroyed a firenation warship for my boyfriend' how was your night?"

Kurt raised a brow "my night was alright, I spent it at Kahno's hut, what about yours? I head your trio invited princess Yue over to help her grieve about her finances death... oh my gods you guys gave her the group cuddle therapy didnt you!" Sokka nodded and Kurt let out a laugh "group cuddles are the best, especially group cuddle therapy. How's she holding up?"

"Actually she talked mostly about you the whole time, it was hard to tell her you're with Kahno while she's moping around. But she knew about it, she just thinks your adorable, and wanted to know if you could teach her to dance after the war... whatever that means"

Kurt flushed "oh, when she asked me to show her some firebending I showed her my practice forms, which are styled both like waterbending and dance."

Sokka gaped "okay, not you have to show me sometime, you know that right? You can't just tell a man about something that cool and just not show him!"

"I figured you would be spying on me and Katara's bending practice"

"Katara's seen you dance bend!?"

"It's- its not dance bending-"

"It is SO dance bending!"

Kurt sighed "alright, we'll call it dance bending. No she hasn't seen me dance bend, she's seen me firebend in the style of waterbending. Theres a difference. When I bend to relax I bend the fire like its water but I do so while dancing. Katara hasn't seen me dance"

"Wait- you dance?" Katara leaned forward to talk around Kahno "thats amazing! You have got to show us sometime, maybe I can pick up some techniques from watching you!"

Kurt shifted in his seat "yeah, I can show you sometime I guess"

"Will you two leave him alone?" Zuko chimed "He doesn't like being the center of attention... well at lease he doesn't like being the center of attention from multiple people" Zuko glanced up at Kahno who just cleared his throat.

After breakfast the group packed up their things and made their way to the ships where Appa was waiting. Kurt took a stance after tossing his items up and did a quick fire boosted flip into the saddle extinguishing the flames as he went so he didnt hurt anyone or catch anything on fire. Aang airbended himself and Katara onto the Saddle, Suki and Zuko just jumped on and Sokka was helped up by Kahno.

With that theu were in the air and on their way to find Aang and earthbending teacher. On the way there Kahno started rummaging through his bags "hey Kurt, I wanted to give you something, it was originally gonna be a 'promise you'll come back to me' sort of gift but now its more a 'promise we'll both stay alive until this is over' sort of gift." He paused as he pulled out a small deep blue band with three uncarved white stones attached to it. "Traditionally its supposed to be a necklace, but in that sense its betrothal, so I made it as a bracelet to form a sort of... promise?"

Katara and Sokka both looked at eachother while Kurt took hold of the small band. The water siblings were the ones who talked him out of making the necklace but they didn't know he had already made the bracelet. "Its... beautiful" Kurt muttere

"So, uh, do you promis-"

"Yes of course I promise you big cheesefish" he snorted "but you better promise me too" he said as he held out his hand and the bracelet.

"yeah yeah, I promise you, my little flare, that I will not die" Kahno couldnt help the smile on his face and the burning in his cheeks as he tied the bracelet on Kurts wrist.

"Little- little flare!? Oh my gods thats the cutest nickname I've ever heard!" Katara beamed "maybe I could call you that to-"

"No! Only Kahno can call me that, and even thats a stretch. If you dare call me that I won't show you my dancebending"

"I told you it'd stick" Sokka chimed in

The group fell into laughter as the flew away from the pole. Now their band of six was a band of seven.

[megitsunade]

January 09, 2019

I reactivated to leave a message just in case something happens.

although,, i doubt nothing will.

also. im on my pc so there will be grammatical errors. 

now. onto what i have to say 

look. its a new yeare

or

well

its suppose to be

but

a new year

means

n othing

to me at least

it doesnt matter

if its a  new day

new week new year new deacde

nothing about my mental health has changed..

no matter how much i try no matter who i cut off no matter how much i am changing aNDF NO MATTER WHAT I DO 

nothign is changing. and it hurts, it hurts to see all the days i wake up praying and hoping and smiling forr a new day just to go back home into my bed and tie the noose again, but i never use it

it hurts to see myself from a third person waking up telling my loves good morning, and thinking that today will be it

the day the turning point

the moment i think i can keep gioing

just 

to

g

o

home

and cut my legs up

every day.

im really sorry man 

i am

id ont know

what i can say

other than

im really sorry

i dont want to go away

but i dont want ot be here any,opre

well

no

i dont want ot die

but id ont want ot be here anymore

i just

want ot 

never

talk again

wake uip again

io dont want to do this antomr

eyou

you makle me feel really suoicidal sometimes

it hurts

everything hurts

who is you

me/

look

i dont want A to know this,

but

alot of nights

i think of suicide

it is because of him

i wont lie

and i konw

youre thinking

“well then why are you still withy hi,m”

he isnt the direct reason for it

yues there have been times where he.. says some really hurt ful stuff

or

does something

that really

kills me on the inside

and

yes

those days do make me want to die 1000x more

but

its more so

the fact that

i dont find happiness 

in us

no its not that he doesnt make me happy

but

this relationsiho

i dont see hjim being happy at all

and thats all i want

i just want him and my family to be happy

and

i 

cant 

do that

for any of them

 icant make them apppyhpapypappyhappahpayppp

at all

i 

YOU CAN TELL ME EVERY DAYTHAT I MAKE YOU HAPPY

BUT YOUR ACTIONS DO NOT REFLECT IT

MOM

IF I MAKE YOU HAPPY

WHY DO YOU CONSTANTLY REMIND ME THAT I DO NOTHING BUT MAKE YOU A MISERBLE MOTHER

DAD 

IF I MAKE YOU HAPPY

THEN WHY DO I FEEL LIKE THE MINUTE I STEP IN THE HOSUE YOU DONT SEE ME AT ALL IM JUST A SHADOW

AND A

if i make you HAPPY

THEN

WHY

DO YOU HURT ME SO MUCH

I KNOW IT ISNT YOUR INTENTION

I KNOW YOU SAY YOURE CHANGING

BUT

LIKE

do you inot

not

feel

any

pain

seeing

the one

you “love”

in tears begging on her knees that you just give her one minuite of your attention

to just

unde3stand

her self.

id ont know

maybe im too high maintaince

and no one can keep up[ witho me

but

i feel like

im doing all i can

to make you happy

A

im doing

everything

im giving you your space

im telling you everyday that i love you and i dont do that things you complain about anymore

or at least i try

because i know you hurt

from what i do

and it hurts me to kmnow taht im hriutng yyou

so why cant you do that same for me

why cant you see that youre hurting me alot

i cant tell you this

becuase if i do

you take it to the heatt

you  will get sad mad and everything

if i said “A you hurt me and sometimes it makes me want to kill myself”

im sure i do the same to you

do you think this relationship is just heading towards an end

that its time for it to be over

either way

it wouldnt matter

man

i need to go home. where is my home

what is home

i dont want to hurt anyone anymore

i just

want ot be understood

is that alot ot ask for

it is

im very

high maintainve

im

very

not a good person to be around

i 

am so sorry

i dont know what to say to the people ive hurt

i just

you giuys

everything in my life is going downhiill and everyone i speak toi makes me wake to kiolll myself

i dont feel happy in thi sowrl

d

is it wrong to say

i wish the people who ended their lives didnt

and i take their place

i dont want ot be here

why ccant i leave

what is making me not want to just

pull the trigger?

To my family: I love you all very much. I do not want any of you to go on without me because that is just selfish of me. Isn’t it? If you’re reading this I’m really sorry. I don’t want you to think that this was something you could stop me from doing. I don’t want you to blame yourself. This was not because of any of the fights we’ve ever had. This was just something I have dealt with for years and now it just feels like it is my time to go. I am sorry.

I just want you to know that none of this was ever your fault. There was nothing  you could do to change my fate. To Sonya: Thanks for being the bestest friend I have ever had. For always listening to me no matter the day or time. For staying up until 4am on a testing night to listen to me talk about trivial things that do not affect you at all. I love you.  Thank you for everything and I wish you the best on your journey. Keep going for me, and keep up the great work. I’ll see you IN A VERY LONG TIME RIGHT? Promise me you’ll grow old and have tiny Sonyas running around. I cannot wait to see you again. I am sorry.  To A: I know that for the three years we have been together it was a wild ride. I know that for 3 years I have always reassured you that you will never lose me this way. This was not the cause of our recent fight or anything that has ever happened between us. You know about my past and you know how affected I still am because of it. I love you. 

 I just was not ready for a new start. I was not ready for a lot of things. But you always held my hand and walked me through the dark and for that I thank you very much. I am sorry. I am sorry to all that I will hurt from my actions, and all that I have hurt in the past. I hope that one day you will find clarity to accept this. I have prayed on my knees every night to God to save me and this was my last resort.  This is it, good bye everyone, thank you for everything.  Click ‘Send’

[dairy-farmer]

binchhhhh have you season season 8 yet??? and if so thoughts?? 🤔

I diddd!!!! and I just finished it!! i tried staying up till 3 to watch it but fell asleep and woke up at 4:30, it’s like 10 am now and honestly???

*SPOILERS FOR VOLTRON SEASON 8 BELOW*

 worth it. no regrets.

overall im like…satisfied? like it got a happy ending for the most part, because the main plot is accomplished the universe can finally begin to heal and voltron has served it’s purpose, which i was expecting but there’s also a part of me that is…like really really sad??

like allura’s gone because she sacrificed herself alongside honerva (which really made a sharp character turn at the end, which is slightly supported by the closer examination done to her character in the episode where they delve into her mind but i still feel could’ve been built up more)  and i really wish she could’ve like lived on (but like what else are fanworks for??) especially given the fact that she and lance were really beginning a promising relationship.

-even though there could be a case built that it’s just a rebound relationship, though i think that its very unfitting for either allura or lance’s characters. i mean the same could be said for klance if it had been canon, that lance saw his chances with allura dissipate and that keith was just next in line. but the way the allurance was portrayed was actually quite soft, like the two became closer friends who shared a romatic love for one another and isn’t that how love’s supposed to be?

(believe me im just as disappointed as all of you that klance didn’t end up being canon because despite my (still present) belief that they belong together, but i…was kinda prepared to find this out? like Dreamworks being the parent company and after shiro was confirmed to be gay and who was a main character i just knew that asking for more than a single LGBT main character was pushing my luck. (ezor and zethrid were present but they hardly had any screen time and theyd been classified as villains even near up to the end)

of course while i did enjoy the season and the entirety of voltron overall i think ill just list of what i liked, what left me confused, and what kinda bothers me:

-keith, embracing and fully accepting the entirety of his galra heritage and even going so far as to use the words ‘us’ and ‘we’ in his speech to the other galra at the end ✔️ pretty good for a boy who started out angry and sad at the world with no idea who he was

-lance’s altean marks!!! all i can say is hell yeah!!! (like i dont think he’s altean because i dont think he can shapeshift or is genetically similar at all but the marks on his cheeks (i interpret them) are like a kissmark from allura, a reminder that she did truly love him  and almost a symbolic way of her having passed on the torch to him. ✔️ (they’re like lance’s moon!!! ya know like how in ATLA how sokka found love and then lost it but was reassured that yue was up there, looking down on him)

-did kova die in the ritual?? is that what happened when honerva set him down in the circle??? she drained the quintessence from an immortal being❔

-that little dialogue exchange from honervas memories of lotor like how zarkon replied to lotor saying “you may be the prince but i am your emperor” and immediately afterwards when lotor said he wanted kova and haggar almost said no and he replied “you may be the high pristess but i am the prince” pretty much mirroring his father and delivering the chilling hint that despite how much lotor may have tried to reject it, small parts of zarkon did make their way into him ✔️

-SHIROS!!!FUCKING!!!ARM!!!WRESTLING!!!COMPETITION!!!✔️✔️✔️✔️ like you can tell being called old got to him, and am totally in the belief that no matter how good he may be at hiding it he’s just as short tempered and fiery as keith was ( i even think that maybe he saw a younger version of himself in keith when he first met him which may be why he was so determined to help him- especially since much of shiro’s own childhood is never adressed. can someone say orphan!shiro?) 

-farmer lance ✔️✔️✔️ like keith’s dad was a predicted to be farmer/firefighter- hes confirmed firefighter but i like to think that maybe he grew tomatoes part time or smthn. and keith a city slicker he doesnt know jack about farming. excellent matierial if you ask me, yall pickin up what im puttin down?

-takashi shirogane got married and we dont even get a name??? scam ❌

-shiros kiss ✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️

-uhhhn the fuckin uhhh slight homicidal tendencies that allura developed after accepting that parasite thingy . like everyone was glancing at each other, clearly aware that she wasn’t acting like herself but no one actually steps in? says enough is enough.?❌

-Merla name drop??? ya know what i can appreciate the little things ✔️

-go!lion throwback with gremlin pidge✔️✔️

-shiros goodbye. “you never have to thank me for anything”. like the sincerity, the implied level of thanks that HE feels towards alllura. binch..i shed a tear i wont lie…✔️

-lance found love✔️✔️✔️ me being a klance/shance lover or not i love my boy lance first and foremost and He.Found.Love. the one thing he’s wanted more than anything else and i for one love that he found his happy ending no matter how short lived it may have been

-lance signing like 1000 blue lions dolls just to get ONE for his boo? hero✔️

-end credit where the lions are flying towards an outline of allura made of stars✔️ while even though she’s gone, shes now part of the galaxy she fought to protect✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️✔️

-voltron ends just as it started, with lance mcclain center stage ✔️✔️

- the scene where baby!lotor is running towards honerva to hug her and then just stops. dead. in. his. tracks. purposeful or not i think it really gives credit towards his natural instincts to sense danger.✔️

-despite lotor having killed hundreds of alteans, and the additional reaffirmation that he above all was desperate to preserve life no matter the cost, that he had a sense of right and wrong that became skewed. that he lost himself. found himself, and lost himself again. makes him a character really suited for deep pensive analysis. like before we even KNEW or met lotor i was writing him as a paris hiltonish party kid who was really just looking for a good time but now i feel like when writing him from here out and maybe for others we can actually give him his due as a complex character who under a different set of circumstances couldve been someone else. someone better? maybe ✔️❌❔

*SEASON 8 SPOILERS END*

well thats all i can think of off the top of my head. is there more pros and more cons? probably but that’s really more up to everyone else’s personal interpretation. 

is voltron perfect? definitly not, there’s a lot that coulve been improved upon, somethings that coulve gotten more in depth work. they had a lot of interesting pieces that if executed better, with longer episodes or possibly even more seasons, or maybe decided on a method of storytelling and stuck with it, i feel like it couldve been something great. 

but i liked it. 

and if if you’re with the opinion that the ending sucked and you hate everything about it well, you can always just drench yourself in fanworks like you’d drench turkey in gravy to make it a little more palatable.

because YOU my good bitch are valid as well!!!

so really theres something for everyone!!!! (also please dont kill me for my lack of fics, my chem final was yesterday (only thing i can remember from it is the thought that i should’ve chosen A. sparkling water rather than C. gold metal for question 19—buuuuut that means im free for break!!! and guess who’s gunna get flooded with all my half finished fics!!! das right allayous

[ccsthemovie2]

YUE!!!! yue yue yue

LETS SEE IF I CAN TRANSFER MY DRAFT TO ASK ON MOBILE W/O MESSING UP FORMATTING HORRIFICALLY WOOOOOO

YUEEEEE AN ASK AFTER MY OWN HEART <33 this is, again, super long AND YET NOT THE FULL EXTENT OF MY YUE THOUGHTS, PROBABLY??? this is a fave from a decade back or so this runs DEEP. Why I like them:

yue has just been a lifelong fave tbh. a beautiful and serious anime boy???? AND he’s the moon????? superficials aside, i am always really drawn to characters who struggle with being overly loyal to a sense of authority and deal with figuring out they’re allowed to have individual wants and needs. yue is incredibly ride or die and nearly everyone’s like....maybe don’t die actually!!! and yue says [there was a manga cap here of touya asking yue to take care of himself and yue going >:///.....alright]

it is also really funny how he immediately goes from I WILL KILL YOU to extremely protective i-am-your-angel-dad, both to watch, and to see new friends get into ccs and hear the hype about yue and go oh i cant wait to see your favori-AAAHHH HE PUNCHED TWO TEN YEAR OLDS WHATTT.

Why I don’t:

gotta say it, his clear card hit-fakeout was kinda weird, good thing i have rewritten that scene and can just refer to my personal-writing-folder discord server when need be,

Favorite episode (scene if movie):

JUDGEMEEENNNTTTT AND ALSO THE STUCK IN BIG FORMS EP AAAAHHHHH . episodes ive watched a billion times. when i was a kid i liked judgement bc i was like HES SO COOOL AND MEEEAN YESSS DEFEAT SAKURA WITH HER OWN MAGIC GO GO and now im like HE IS CARRYING OUT A USELESS CEREMONY AND FIGHTING A FIGHT HE CANNOT WIN TO MAKE EVERYONE FEEL LIKE THEY HAVE A CHOICE WHEN SAKURA’S BEEN CHOSEN FROM THE START WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. and to top it ALL off sakura telling him she wants to be his friend and him not taking her offered hand? OUCHH... ;w; big forms ep is HILLARIOUS bc its soooooo AWKWARD. the awkwardness of being at someone else’s house... trying to talk to your host when the ONLY topics you have in common are “i know a few things about your dead crush” and “my other self is YOUR crush”. sakura telling him that her dad insists love can last through reincarnation and eriol specifically being like “give up on clow because he’s dead” later, and he’s spying on this whole ep so he must be rolling around laughing right then. the fact that neither of these couples is healthy whatsoever but everyone’s working with what they have to try and lessen the awkward, and oh no its worse now. kero picking up on the clowtime pattern of “i have to do all the work around here” but honestly its just that it’s kero’s house and yue’s awkwardly hovering and sakura really really doesnt wanna make her intimidating guest do stuff. WHICH IS UNDERSTANDABLE BC ITS SUPER AWKWARD. yue then cleaning the entire kitchen while sakura is cleaning off kero. 10/10 episode.

Favorite season/movie:

sakura card arc!

Favorite line:

when he shows up at sakura’s house and and sakura’s like :0 and hes like get used to it.

Favorite outfit:

the one from that pic i have in my about where he has this light blue hair wrap aaahhhh

OTP:

YUEKITOUYAAAAAAAAAAAA. yukito and touya dating happily and then yue a few years later like OH. I ALSO LOVE HIM. yukito being super supportive and happy of it. yue and touya both feeling like “whats an amazing guy like him doing with someone like me...”. yue going in thinking oh i know what love is and touya raising the bar constantly. its good!!

Brotp:

him and yukito!! two people waking up in their situation scared and upset and stuck together, making the most of it as only they can. i think a lot of them both being like “noooo i want YOU to be happy and comfortable” and trying to do little things for the other when each is taking their turn being active. yue making yukito tea and getting him out of bed when he neeeds to wake up but just feels sluggish, yukito buying little moon decorations for the house he thinks yue would like....aaahhh yukito getting glow in the dark star stickers omg...realizing that there’s no one they’d rather share a life with like that. i think yukito’s the sort of person who doesn’t like to appear uncertain and takes his time being sure before communicating, and theres a sense of pride on yue’s part that he’s the only person, often not even touya, who gets to hear yukito put his thoughts together and be that sort of sounding board. yukito “growing up” in a big “often”-empty house i think leads to him talking to the air a lot, and now that’s yue!!

him and sakura, too!! slowly taking her up on her offer of friendship!! there’s an amazing bit soon after judgement where just her asking frantically if he’s okay??? if he’s SURE he’s okay???? after getting hurt protecting her makes him stop and stare....the switch flipped he is her dad now. i want him to feel like he can talk to her, especially about the Before Times, weigh the things he thinks are too heavy for a child against the things he wants to be heard, maybe see her face and be like oh boy i got it wrong sometimes. and also the knowledge that this is a friendship they chose for themselves!! that they were Predicted to mean different things to each other, but it would be something inappropriate and draining and a cruelty to carry out. this is an unpaved road!! if i keep going on and on i will go on all day but HIM AND KERO!!! HIM AND THE CARDS!!!! HIM AND LI, AND TOMOYO, AND oh just let him be surrounded by friends!!!!

Head Canon:

extremely touchy. like the first thing he did when he showed up for judgement was grab sakura’s face and i think thats just how he is. i think nobody in the clowsehold had any awareness of personal space and yue got so steeped in it that he is just like that now. big on affectionate hair ruffles esp with the kids and putting-an-arm-around-people that he’s barely aware of. it makes yukito a little sad to know that he and yue can never really connect like that but if he hugs himself yue will feel it so it works out!!

Unpopular opinion:

(gets up on stage) clowyue!! (half the crowd boos half the crowd cheers) was HORRIBLE (the cheering/booing crowd halves switch confusedly) essentially i really like to think about the wreckage and then healing from the sort of toxic imbalanced ambiguously requited never-labeled faux-relationship feelings-yoyo i imagine it to have been. but that means i need to acknowledge it happened. unfortunately most people who make ship content do so because they like it, and most people who dont make ship content do so because they dislike it. can you believe it?

A wish:

go to therapy please

An oh-god-please-dont-ever-happen:

DO NOT SEPARATE THEM

5 words to best describe them:

ok he looks very polite

My nickname for them:

moonboy...

[gweyson]

Yue 3, 14, 28, 35 and 42, and Javi 6, 16, 21, 38 and 45?

3. Did they have a good childhood? What are fond memories they have of it? What’s a bad memory? 

her chlidhood was p average tbh. she hasnt talked to her family much since she came out & moved out 

14. Do they have any specific memories of food/a restaurant/meal?

pasta makes her think of her & javi’s first date where they tried to make spaghetti, almost burned the house down, and spilled sauce all over themselves & the carpet before giving up and ordering [insert takeaway food here]

28. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?

crowds and social interaction. also bees ironically enough

35. What’s their guilty pleasure? What is their totally unguilty pleasure?

her guilty pleasure is soap operas. she gets very invested in them

42. What are their goals? What would they sacrifice anything for? What is their secret ambition?

her goals are Get Life On Track, Also Girl And/Or Boy Friend

6. What were they like at school? Did they enjoy it? Did they finish? What level of higher education did they reach? What subjects did they enjoy? Which did they hate?

he fucking hated school. he got sent to a really prestigious christian college and despised every second so he strated doing a bunch of Non Christian Things like drugs and piercings and swear words. viva la revolution

16. Do they collect anything? What do they do with it? Where do they keep it?

answered this already!

21. Do they have a temper? Are they patient? What are they like when they do lose their temper?

he doesnt really have a huge temper? hes too high chill to care about anything that deeply most of the time

38. What do they admire in others? What talents do they wish they had?

he thinks its cool when ppl are passionate about stuff bc feelings are tight or whatever. he wishes he had a lot of talents but he wont let on bc if anyone finds out how insecure he is he will die

45. How do other people see them? Is it similar to how they see themselves?

other ppl tend to see him as way too laid back and way too confident. thats almost right but hes less like “confident” and more like “arrogant”