#where Mello is in her “I don't even MISS Near I don't need her or care about her��� partying too hard era

[neallo]

utterly unreadable reader-insert idea occurring to me midday. begone I have shit I have got to finish well before that nonsense

[iamnearyourlocation]

•Mammon comes back a few days later, chirping and all, yet slightly grumpy. Once again it holds a letter and a gift: "To Near" "From Koko"•

•Contents of the letter: "Hello, squishy! (Sorry if that nickname bothers you, I get cuteness aggression pretty easily) How've ya been? World's been scary as of late, hasn't it? He still continues to wander this earth, afta' all. Bringin' damnation and hell fire. Even though I don't know you much from Wammy's, I know you're strong, Near. Stronger than him. You'll get through this, don't let him win. Got ya a lil somethin-somethin, and treat yourself before you've set an early grave. PS: Mammon has been bugging me about this, but Mam's is a girl, a lady, a sweet lil crow. Goodbye for now, wishin' you the best!"•

•Mammon nests in Nears hair, a comforting weight as he opens the gift. There's relaxing teas, what seems to be home made cookies, weed (?), and a cute stuffie of Matt to match Mello. There's also a smattering of treats he can give Mammon himself. A note on them reads: "PS, you can keep her a bit longer if ya want :) She likes your company."•

Near was staring at his ceiling blankly, wrapped in a blanket with his childhood bunny plushie and the Mello plushie wrapped with him, when he hears Mammon peck at the window and caw. He sits up, the life that was missing from his expression seeming to return. He flings the window open.

Near takes the mail from Mammon, laughing when she perches on his head, and carefully sits down on the bed as to not disturb Mammon.

As he reads the letter, he tears up slightly, because hearing what he needed to seemed to break him from the state he was in where he felt little of anything at all.

Near then opens the package, passing Mammon a sunflower seed and putting one of the cookies in his mouth. He'll ask Lidner to make him some tea later. He sets the Matt plushie next to Mello with a smile. He's- not entirely sure what to do with the drugs, as he's not very knowledgeable about those subjects at all, but he'll hold onto it nonetheless.

His letter in return reads

"Dear Koko,

Thank you so much for your mail. It was greatly appreciated and definitely helped to cheer me up. I don't mind the nickname, don't worry. It's been sort of difficult the past few days, but I'm feeling a bit better. I'll keep Mammon's pronouns in mind, she's a very sweet and clever bird.

You're quite skilled at baking, I quite like the cookies you gave me. You seem to have a lot of talents, as you've made all sorts of things for these packages. I admire it a lot.

I'll let Mammon stay as long as she pleases, and I look forward to your next letter.

-Near (Squishy)"

[no-one-in-my-fandoms-are-het]

Death note au where the death note effects nthe user mental health. This is focusing on misa and light.

For this light has hallucinations and misa has constant nightmares

For misa's nightmares they get do horrible that she can't sleep at night. She constantly misses hours of sleep because of this and that effects her personality and her carrer as a model.

Eventually it is gets to the point where she falls asleep at random events. Where she started to have horrible mightnares and nobody can wake her up. And when she does she starts to scream bad fight anyone who touches her.

They get worse when L toutchures her. The nightmares amplify and she continues to have them afterwords this time of L. It gets so bad she mostly traps herself in her room so she doesn't have to talk to him.

And Denver I headcannon L ad a insomniac she locks herself gin her room at night so she doesn't accidentally we all into him.

She's giving sleeping pills that only amplify her nightmares and trap her in them. She continues to take them because they keeping them to her but eventually she ends up vomiting up the pill after she takes it refusing to go to sleep.

After they find out they slip it into her drinks and food. After one too many times of taking a sip of water and waking up after feeling like she crawled threw hell without her skin.

She stops eating food given to her. And even when she does she smells it to see I'd it's been altered. So she's locking herself in room stops eating good given to he and only eats the food she makes it buys at the store and can't sleep. I don't need to say this impacts her model career badly.

Light yagami.

His hallucinations start small. Maybe a flower growing out of his hand. Or a girl walking with a woman's. But they slowly turn horrific.

The first horrific one is when he's studying and suddenly spiders start climbing everywhere covering every inch of his walls. And this leads to him stabing his walls trying to get rid of them.untill they climb on him.

He starts to see the corpeses of the people he's killed. Covering the floor and pilling up in the room. The death note makes him feel like he can touch and smell them so he stops touching people scared that he'll feel the corpses skin instead

People also trigger specific hallucinations.

Near his dad it the courpes

Near his sister its children playing

With his mom is a woman sobbing on the floor

With L it's blood flooding everywhere slipping threw cracks and windows and leaking threw computers and it drips on the task force but drenches L covering him in blood

But with his last confronion with near he starts to see blood again

After L's death he starts to hallucinate him. Around other people L just sits or leans against the wall silently watching. But alone he talks to light they have conversation about there days or reason and the natchure of good and evil. Whenever he talks to near L just sits next to the screens starring at light . During there lat confrontation he stands o er near as if saying "look I'm still here." And when light died he laid next to him and whispered "I can't wait to see you again." And that's the last thing he hears

While getting into the car to go to the wherehouse opening the door he sees Mello sitting in the care staring with a blank look on his face not talking.

Sometimes it's wings. Black ones when whenever he thinks of the death note or using it.

For kyomi takada I'm sorry I can't spell lights other girlfriend. I could imagine people talking voices constantly filling her head suronding her never leaving he ralone criticizing her ever action.

Insulting her mocking her degrading her. Everything she does is wroung.

[randomkposts]

Hey, so your post about fem light and her narcissism along with matt was amazing, and awesome!! I reread it multiple times, what about a female Mellow and the relationship she has with her anger, religion, and how the whammy treat and perceive her? Along with the relationship fem near has with her work place and the dynamic she has with her colleagues

K:- Mello does not have a lot of relationships with other kids, and I don't think it changed with gender. Mellos is kind of a lonely person, while not feeling alone. 

Mello looks at the world as competition, Near for one is happy to have the guidelines of that. 

Near baffles a lot of people, and her relationships with her colleagues is no different. Most probably do not interact with her. 

Like, she comes off as a distracted dreamer,up until she starts talking.

E:-Their core personality rarely change just what their surrounding change because of one thing. 

K:-Rester probably gets Near the most,and acts as his Watari, a sort of shield against the world. Halle probably views female Near as a bit more of a friend then male, and talks to her about stuff (this does not impact her loyalties) 

Givanni sometimes tries to teach her life skills.

Mello and anger. 

Hmm, that entirely depends on how you as an author choose to depict it. Anger is something they try to teach girls not to express so strongly, translating especially to Television based Mediums. 

But Mello is also a foil, and in this "always a different gender" variants, that translates

 Potentially, they could change a lot as a different gender, to the point where they never show up in the plot and there's OCs instead. But this is a story, and as such boy or girl, characters are needed to carry narrative beats. 

As a foil, particularly to Light, Mello is able to express anger in a way Light can't. As both gender Lights are in part defined by how well they publically play along with the rules of society, Mello disregards the rules of the conventional. 

So Mello is angry, and all the attempts people made to teach her restraint only made her angrier. She refuses to play by the conventions, be they social, gender, or law (ran off to be a Mafia leader). 

All the above are things Light refrains from acting on publicly, to the point of trapping.

If they had meaningful character interaction, Light would probably be kind of Jealous. 

E:- missed oppertunities.

K:- Mellos take on religion isn't even made clear in the show. 

E:-I say he's casual or just likes the aesthetics

K:-Hmm,I think it would depend on the author, and what they want to do with it. Male Mello is shown/implied to prey (notably during his death scene, via the angle of the rosery)

E:-Mmn then he does believe. But he keeps it apart from his mission. Because he is breaking a lot of commandments here. If he is Catholic. Then a prayer to the Virgin Mary for repentance. 

Mercy.

K:-Mello didn't particularly like to follow the rules. But in times of danger the familiarity of prayer is comforting.

E:- As I don't know much about Mello and his alignment with faith. While he doesn't stay in the line of good morals, he does believe in a higher power. Now I am curious though, was he born in a Catholic household? Or did he find it someway along his journey?

But I can also see Mello cracking a bible open to see what makes people go wild about it. Surprisingly a lot of people do not know the bible is just a book with pieces of other books that have to go through approval for it to be put into a one bible. Mello is someone who isn't satisfied with just the bits of it. 

So down we go through the Catholic books upon books crazy stories that teach morals and all. And you know what is probably an amazing thing to see in the protags of these books or stories?

K:- what?

E:-None of the prophets are ever eager to do their jobs. All of them are flawed human beings. And still they were chosen to do a very important task. As to quote what God said to one of his prophets

"I knew you before you knew me"

God said 'those who claim to speak for me run before even hearing me."

Paraphrasing here. But seriously people do underestimate how many of the prophets or ppl chosen are ever actually eager to do it. Reluctant heroes ahah. Or women really do have a very important parts. Its an eye opener to see or rather read about women in the bible. 

Its an eye opener to see or rather read about women in the bible. Especially in the crucifixion of Christ. They never left him even under threat of death. 

K:- that is an eyeopener Eclipse. It probably varies from bible to bible depending on the parties propaganda too. 

E:-Yes! That's another thing to notice. Other branches of Catholicism or rather Christianity have some.....interesting stories. Some heavily edited pages too. 

I can't remember if it was the Torah or Quran it even points to a man who walked with one of the prophets and blatantly stared at a woman who passed by. Now it was said he stared inappropriately at her 

So the prophet takes his jaw and turns his gaze. It clicked too that even olden times do not take that lightly.Also you noticed which teachings of followers attitude's in their writings. 

And its hilarious but also very human. 

K:-I am inclined to Believe That Mello came from a catholic family. Possibly russian immigrant. 

E:-Oh so he might be an Orthodox Catholic then. Or rather she. The writer never stated if Mello found it during his journey after leaving Whammy's with Matt or Matt went with him or joined up later. Or was Mello already born in a household for one. 

K:-Not much to go on, but Keehl is a popular (not necessarily originating) in Russia, and post soviet collapse a lot of catholics emigrated. 

E:-Religion is a touchy subject and I do worry how some people react to this. However I am happy to chat and learn from other's teachings. 

K:- I'm curious to listen and learn, but prefer to let you take point on religion, Eclipse. 

Interesting question, what if Matt was the Catholic?

E:- oh! That would be interesting. We don't know much about Matt so that would be neat to see. Mello would be curious where he goes if Matt attends Mass. Lol Mello might complain about the smell of myrrh on his clothes ahaha. Its nice smell to me but my brothers aren't a fan lmao. Matt never pushes it but does answer his questions when he asks. 

K:- what if, The Rosary is a gift from Matt? Matts old one? From his childhood. 

E:-oh. Oh that would be so beautiful. Yes. That makes it so meaningful, K. 

"It's been blessed by a priest, so no evil can chase you." Mello wears it all times. It's his shield when in the worst of hail fire from other gangs. 

Okay not you got me emotional here with that K😭😭😭 I would never let that go if someone gifted me their old rosary.

Matt and Mello go to Mass one more time before the whole Mission. I know this was supposed to be for fem Mello. But I think we just built up for Mello's faith and lack of background. 

K:- Eclipse, that just makes it sadder he dies in a church. 

E:- "forgive me" "And I shall release my soul to you."

Look I didn't come here to SOB TEARS. but I totally am. In my church we hold hands with strangers like a link. With the chant I meant. Before going in paz.

 But again I want to point out. Christianity and Catholicism has very few churches in Japan. So they would have to go find one before going all blazes out. It wouldn't be the same in a way, but the smell would be in a way. A confession too. A priest would never turn them away no matter what time it is. 

K:-(For a different read on Mello and Religion check ONLY I CAN DO IT, by lux_mea_lex on LiveJournal. Definitely interesting reads. )

*later that night*

E:- weird thought I had. Technically this makes Light the antichrist. Its like that Omen Movie. Except Light aka Kira is seen as some Divinity. So that just adds more flavor to paranormal investigation of Avenging L, beating Near, and Stopping the AntiChrist Ahahah.

K:-haha, Eclipse that is wild, deff adding that.