#whenever shit like this happens with any celeb (but especially the ones you know are online and see stuff)

[regardingjenmish]

Y’all lucky I’m not famous bc id be calling your mom a hoe if you were wildin’ in my dms on a random Saturday

[boyfhee]

10 QUESTIONS FOR U - enhablrinas edition get it bc tumblrina + enhablr

favorite color of themes?

moot with best theme?

you can send a love letter to anyone. fictional/idols/celebs. who?

which moot is most active? which moot do you barely ever run into but LOVE?

most rizzful mutual? do you flirt with ur moots?

favorite petnames/nicknames? giving or recieving?

have you ever had an online crush? (or on a moot GASP)

ever been involved in drama?

do u keep up with tumblr drama?

be honest. how many times have u swapped biases? no judgement here :D

were u here for the insaneness that was lockdown enhablr?

MIA moot u want to comeback?

ur fave fic or smau that gagged u when u read it? seungstarss BET was the end of the fucking world for me I WAS DISTRAUGHT oddeonu too grrrr the ptsd fuckkkk too there was someone m1ngh8o or smtg idk w this jungwon smau and it KILLLED MEEE he was yns roommate and always so fucking rude and his gf was legit cheating on him but he didn't leave her. gf made moves on his bff jake too who liked reader. slowburns where the main lead is an ass rlly annoy me but i also will them the shit up bc i luv angst and toxicity :DDD

are you close w ur moots? do u have any on socials?

what is ur biggest ick to see on tumblr?

words u find urself repeating too much? words u love using?

any enhablr inside jokes ur part of?

ever been featured in a moots fic?

have u ever dreamt of enhypen?

ur favorite enha pc u want rlly badly?

DRINK WATER + YOU ARE LOVED <3 loveeeeeee ur rich boyhoon

tumblrina + enhablr so real that's so cute >< also i love these games, tysm for sending me one yayaya :D hope u have a good day, stay hydrated ^^ and ty for reading my works ><

𝟎𝟏. i love my recent theme colour a lot ! pink and green never goes wrong, but also blue, white— or any pastel shade, actually, works. i've been liking yellow too after my rina theme :O

𝟎𝟐. @okwonyo, @okwons, @tyunni, @atrirose, @isoobie, @yenqa @fleurre— they have the best themes on this app. some new additions would be @dioll and @hoonored since i love their current themes.

𝟎𝟑. JAY !!!!! it doesn't even have to be a love letter bruh i just want to tell him that his smile is the prettiest thing in the entire world ◞⌓◟ and karina from aespa i'm in love with her actually

𝟎𝟒. most active . . . i see @junislqve and @okwonyo a lot on my dash, especially jiah ! i've been seeing @weoris a lot too recently but we never talk TT on the other hand, it's a historical event to catch @isoobie, @okwons and @fleurre on the dash, but we talk a lot ! and i love them, of course ><

𝟎𝟓. freak club rizz ( me, ri, vi, and ji ) is so powerful that whenever someone says i love you, moonstruck plays ( happened three times yesterday ) and yes i flirt a lot with my moots :D

𝟎𝟔. mangocat by jiah stays on top ! bc i love mangoes and i love cats too :3 vi and ri once called me 'meri jaan' so that's a close second, and ri usually calls me 'mi amor' >< i love her sm

𝟎𝟕. i have had an online crush but it was so silly >< i don't even like talking about it, it wasn't even that serious either

𝟎𝟖. i was on animeblr before so i've been involved in a drama once there ! on enhablr, i wouldn't i was involved directly but i did have some part, although not publicly. it's safe to say i've learnt from it and am on good terms with my friends

𝟎𝟗. i do keep up with drama i'm nosey :/ most of the time, i ignore if it doesn't involved a person i / my moots know. although, keeping up is not the most appropriate term because sometimes i'd be going thru a blog and come across a controversial or expose post TT

𝟏𝟎. twice ! i got into enha because of sunghoon so he was my bias for a few weeks, since he was the only member i knew and he's mad fine. but then i became heeseung biased when i got to know the group more. now, i'm a jay girlie through and through :D

𝟏𝟏. oh lord YES enhablr during lockdown was something. . .it was so fun, apart from a discourses that happened every single day TT i made a lot of friends during that time, really close ones. we were all just going crazy together TT

𝟏𝟐. @maiverie & @seungstarss my wives mai and sei please come back i miss u :( we were really close but i lost contact with both of them. i have their socials but they're in active, it makes me super had :< they made locklown bearable i love them sm

𝟏𝟑. BRO anything by @hoonvrs gags me because i love saint's smaus ( i'm planning to read cigarettes trust ) like it's literally just pure comedy and crack but i love it and i love having a good laugh ^_^ another would be @jaeminvore's smaus ESPECIALLY demon roomie .. still not over it. nics has crazy smaus like i've read all her enha smaus and all of them belong to the hall of fame. ALSO, we can't forget @jayflrt >< her smaus give me life idk i've read sugar daddy like ten times alr and reread stoner hee one a few days ago. and yfi786 is definitely the gag of the year i feel it. what r u even doing on enhablr if u haven't read alice's smaus :/

AND i agree, sei's smaus were so so good ! i've read her jungwon one and it left me shook it was so good. i started bet but halfway through and the characters were pissing me off so i gave up TT definitely lives up to the type i can assure !!!! oddeonu uhh i'm sure i've read a few but unforch, i don't remember the names

𝟏𝟒. i'm close to lot of my moots ^_^ i have them on insta, disc and twitter. i have rose's number even though i don't text her there ... i need to and i WILL. @atrirose watch out

𝟏𝟓. i don't have anything specific but not using the read more option is one of them. another would be people who are constantly involved in dramas ... ? like it has nothing to do with them but they involve themselves :/ although, these are not very serious and i've just learnt to ignore. ignorance is bliss godbless 🙏

𝟏𝟔. i repeat a lot of words, especially as / while TT i love using 'intoxicating' and 'vinous,' a lot but those are also my most repeated words, especially the former .. i need to work on this

𝟏𝟕. no, i don't think so TT and if i am then i don't remember lol

𝟏𝟖. OH YES many many times. especially in @ctrlemis and @svnclaired smaus when kira was in his jungwonize era. was a member of a gg twice 😼

𝟏𝟗. oh brother i've had so many enhypen dreams .. none good. jay pushed me off the couch in one, heeseung sacrificing me to demons, aenha supernova concert dream, sunghoon leaving me in a dark alley, enha exorcist version, jay dupe cousin dream ... the freakiest yet

𝟐𝟎. PCS FROM R:U PLEASEEEE I need wonki ones especially ... riki glasses pleaseee idk how i will get my hands on that one but i Will. sunjay pcs from darkblood .. i think the jay one will cure whatever's wrong with me.

[cinefairy]

can i just remind yall that..law of assumption pages are not your subconscious minds and we have our OWN lives, our own minds that we have spent time on, affirmed, did our research etc. we actually took the time to do things OURSELVES, stop babying yourself and start getting your mind together, your life together, we have taught you everything there is to know and yall are so mean especially towards @divineangelbee she helped hundrends of people including me and she said to yall DONT MANIFEST ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIPS OR RELATIONSHIPS WITH A MASSIVE AGE GAP. yall are like 16 wanting to date a 45yr old..why? why not manifest a closer celeb age or a sp that has the same specifcations as your celeb. see how easier it is? you guys are sabotaging yourself, like…do realise, THIS IS YOUR LIFE. YOUR LIFE. not mine, not angels and not the other loa pages you run off too cus you’re too impatient and want the answer quickly. nope this is YOUR LIFE. what happens to you doesnt effect me, whether you dont get what you want it doesn’t effect me cus at the end of the day. it all comes down to you, it really does. my number one tip is to stop overconsuming information it messes you up fr.

yall are so sneaky too like you guys really think we’re dumb or something the amount of times ive had someone give me or any of my loa mutuals the same sob story and send it to us in asks, like ??? why cant you guys just PICK ONE. stick with ONE. and apply the information you were just taught?? its a waste of time for you and for us.

you guys really need to take charge of your own life and what you do with it, because..us law of assumption pages are not always ready 24/7 to give you the answer, we as any human have doubts, insecurities, so you guys to penalise us whenever you disagree with our opinion..is just. no words.

angel only said to not manifest abusive relationships and yall had to twist it to your narrative, change it up and then go onto some random person’s loa page and talk shit about her 😭 ??? yall think thats acceptable…

may i remind you of this:

IF YOU DIDN’T SPEND ALL YOUR TIME: OVER-CONSUMING INFORMATION, RUNNING OFF TO MULTIPLE LOA PAGES FOR THE PERFECT “AFFIRMATION”, PROCASINATING. you would’ve got what you wanted by now. let that settle for a moment.

[bisluthq]

honestly nobody let TTB find out about my parents 💀. she'd definitely exploit their story to try to prove that kaylor is real which I would find really disrespectful. but basically I found out at age 18 that my mom is a lesbian and that my dad is gay and that they're essentially beards. except not really though because their marriage is real and they're actual friends and chose to be parents together. I'm their biological kid. they're just like... platonic spouses, I guess. they don't see anybody else on the side either.

I remember noticing growing up that they'd never kiss, not even on the cheek, barely ever hug each other, hell they don't even sit directly next to each other on the couch. they leave like a noticeable gap, they don't cuddle up to each other or anything.

for the first year or so that they were living in their own house, they even used to sleep in separate beds in separate rooms, but then my mom said other family members found out and kept asking if they were having issues, so they sleep in the same bed now

my mom has never dated a woman in her life which I find really sad. and she always insists she doesn't even have any female celeb crushes or anything, even though I can tell she does. she likes that female personal trainer from that one reality show lol, idk if anyone knows who I'm talking about but she's like middle aged and I think she's married to a woman, but my mom pretends she hates her and will make a big deal talking about how "strange" she finds her.

my dad had a secret boyfriend for years in high school, but he ended up breaking up with him, and he and my mom got married in their early 20s. I just find it sad tbh because you can tell they're not really happy with their lives, especially since I moved out recently

like both of them definitely have bad internalized homophobia, especially my dad. my mom literally changes the channel whenever ellen or any other open lesbian is on TV, even if it's just a fictional character, because it makes her feel uncomfortable (her words). the only exception is that female personal trainer lmao, but she'll account for it by constantly talking about how "unusual" it is that she's married to a woman.

pride parades make her uncomfortable too. she gets really confused about why some people are so open about being gay which I understand because it must seem so strange for her since she was essentially pressured into marrying a man and keeping quiet about her actual identity

my dad has a toxic masculinity problem and refuses to do certain things because "it's gay" (said with disdain). except he literally is gay so... where's the logic. idk. he's always going on about how "it's only okay to be gay if you fight it and don't give in, it's like a battle that only strong men can win" and he prides himself on not "acting on it". they were both raised in conservative families and were taught that being gay is wrong and that it's not okay to act on it :/

anyway there's something ironic about two gay people getting hetero married and having a kid together, and their kid ending up gay too lol... and even more ironically, I haven't told them bc I'm not sure if they'll be accepting or not. they might tell me to do what they did and marry a dude, but I'd hope they wouldn't

side note, I wonder if this is how javanka are lmao

I mean yeah this shit happens that’s always my point it’s just not how TTB and co frame shit. Like yes people have weird complex dynamics and issues.

Javanka are almost definitely some kind of weird platonic marriage right.

Joshlie are not lol they can’t keep their hands off each other. Swiftwyn are not lol she would fall from grace just to help him get off lol.

But yes these things happen.

Your parents clearly love one another in their own way and obviously adore you and I’m hopeful they’ll support you coming out even if not immediately 😘

[szopenhauer]

Would you ever chew gum after someone else already has? noooo, yuk

Earrings or a necklace? necklace

Have you ever wished on 11:11? I do smth else/have different tradition

Have you ever listened to the Goo Goo Dolls? Iris, even recently

Have you ever watched Lost? nah

Do you have pictures of your exes? I think I deleted them

Do you have Ozzy Osbourne on your mp3 player? I don’t listen to him but I liked to watch Osbourne’s family tho

Do you read romance novels? the only one I could count as a romance was Five feet apart

Did you draw pictures for your crushes in preschool? no :o

Have you ever not asked someone out cause you were scared of rejection? yep

Have you ever liked someone just because of their appearance? had some crushes like this, especially celebs lol

Pink or green? green but pink with green looks interesting

A bracelet or a ring? depends

Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter? LOTR

By airplane or bus? bus

What’s the last thing you binge watched? She-ra

Do you watch youtube videos or tv shows more? yt videos

What are you tired of right now? everything

Have you ever gotten rid of something and then regretted it? If so, what?  several things, personal

How does your stomach feel right now? silence before the storm?...

Do you live in an apartment that has inspections? I don’t live in an apartment

Do you hate taking naps during the day? yes and no

Who in your immediate family has the best natural hair? my grandma has, she never got grey hair nor dandruff etc.

Do you know anyone who thinks they’re more talented than they are?   obvi

What is the origin of your last name? polish?

Have you ever been inside a Victorian mansion? I wish

What was the most boring field trip you ever went on? hmm...

What are your favorite types of videos to watch on youtube? music videos, thrift hauls, interiors, fashion, funny stuff...

What’s a DIY craft project you want to try? I’m not into DIY

Are you a hoarder? yep

Do you ever call yourself stupid in your head? often

If you were to start a collection, what would it be? not counting those I already have? for example - znicze

Would you ever give your daughter the middle name Marie? I could, especially if it was a boy :P as it’s legal to call him Maria if it’s the middle name lmfao

Do you have a relationship with God? some sort of it

Have you ever “fired” a doctor? could say so

Who is the prettiest Asian youtuber that you can think of? I don’t watch any Asian youtubers

What was the temperature where you live today? less than 30 Celsius but it felt colder

Is your sleep schedule all messed up? umm...

Did you wear green last St. Patrick’s Day? I don’t celebrate this 

Food: Are you adventurous or do you stick to what you know? stick 

Do you know both of your biological parents? I do

When was the last time you wrote so much your finger ached? last night

Do you store a lot of pictures you’ve taken that no one else has seen? ppl close to me saw them

When did you first start using the internet? regularly or very first time?

Do you prefer tents or staying in hotels? prefer hotels

Do you have any family traditions for certain holidays? Which? personal

Do you enjoy clowns / street performers or are they creepy to you? some I like

Have you ever had a teacher who would just babble about nothing? for example - we had a priest who was always talking about war times or his night dreams :D

Do you ever look at a word and think that it looks odd? hahaha it happens

Did you ever dream about being an animal? plenty

Which vowel occurs most in your whole name? A

What’s your favourite colour on a dog? dunno

Do you prefer Skirts or Dresses? dresses, I can use them as tunics

Have you ever been told you are fake? once :(

Can you do cartwheels? not well

Do you like the name Sara? no longer...

What’s your first name without an r, e, s or l? doesn’t change

What’s your age plus two divided by 4? 7.5

Do you know someone named after a month (April, May, June)? used to know May

Stop typing. What do you hear? someone is mowing grass as every other day ugh...

What was the last book you read that also is a film? Five feet apart

How often do you get a new purse or a new wallet? whenever I feel like it but I thrift them so it’s not like I spend lots of money

What is the most money that you have ever spent on getting your nails done? few PLN for a nail polish and done them myself lol

Does it matter to you if your girlfriend drinks? I wouldn’t date an alcoholic, someone who is drunk a lot and then do stupid stuff, pukes, have hangovers often, spend all their money on alcohol, smells like it, gross!

Has a little kid ever fallen asleep on your lap before? nah, just cat

If you heard your best friend’s significant other was cheating on them, would you tell them? Even if you couldn’t prove it? I’d mention that to them

Do you plan on having both your parents at your wedding? if they want to attend...

Have you ever stayed on a ride at a theme park to ride it again? nope

Where did your mother and father meet for the first time? in front of the church

Would you rather read books or magazines? depends

Have you ever had your cheek pinched? I hate that >.>

Do you own any plaid pants? I have a pair of plaid leggings and pajamas

Do you talk in your sleep? nah

Have you ever fallen off a horse? never been on a horse to fall

Can you pick things up with your toes? I do this often

If you are a girl, do you get bad PMS, or is it not so bad? my PMS were usually worse than my period

Would you rather have your shirt be too long or too short? too long

Are you the type of person who can shake insults off easily, or do they tend to stick around in your brain & bother you? stay forever

Do you like clothes with ruffles on them? usually not

Were you happy when you woke up today? I wasn’t

Have you used the opposite sex’s bathroom in a public place before? had to 

Do you rent movies frequently? I don’t have money for that

Do you quote movies or songs to answer survey questions? very rarely as it’s annoying

What is your name spelled backwards? Annazuz :3

How do you think the world will end? people will destroy it?

An alien ship lands at your house, and they want you. Do you go with them? 

If you were in a horror flick, would you be one of the first ones to die? I think I would survive or die saving someone

What movie has been taken WAY too far, as far as sequels go? most of them but it’s more shows’ thingy

Do you get a fake Christmas tree each year, or a real one? fake, I’m against using real ones

How long would you have to know someone before tying the knot? it’s not about length of time that much

Would you embarass yourself if you met your favorite celebrity? probably :x

If a person had a glass eye, would that scare you? no idea, hope not as I don’t wanna make them feel bad, sorry in advance

Are you a twin? am not

Do you get paranoid that someone’s looking at your through your window? my neighbor sometimes does so...

Mountains, oceans, or forests? forests

When was the last time you “de-haired” your hairbrush? recently?

Are any of your great grandparents still alive? they’re all dead

Where’s your significant other? visiting her dad

How much blankets do you sleep under? 1-2

Is a hair dryer a necessity for you? it is

If you were atop a tall building, would you throw stuff at people below? don’t do that!

Do you believe we really landed on the moon? I don’t give a shit

Name a movie everyone else thought was funny, but you couldn’t stand: majority of comedies tbh

What topping do you HATE on pizzas? same, I’m more into simple food

Got any interesting wigs? bunch

Can you resist temptation? most often

Would a credit card get you into trouble? if I lost it, I would be paranoid about it 24/7, omg I just got scared I’ve lost my ID and bus card 

Truth or dare? truth?

Which is more annoying: sequels or prequels? *shrug*

Do you use rechargeable batteries? when I did they were blowing up, didn’t charge back or smth like this so I prefer normal ones thank you very much

Describe the chair you’re sitting in. Is it comfy? it's so old there’s barely anything left to sit on but I have no cash for a new one nor can get that kind of chair anywhere so... 2 pillows under my butt have to be enough

What would you do if you thought someone was following you? try to lose them

[juulforjisung]

Johnny x Male reader

requestes: yes "Hey! How are you doing???? Could I request some Johnny x male reader please?"

a/n: omg okay I'm sorry for not being active... I was busying on a vacation and I didn't have time... So hopefully you forgive me and enjoy !

Honestly he is EVERYONE'S boyfriend goals

He is a big dork and will always try to make you laugh

"hey, why did the chicken cross the road?"

"Johnny it's 1 in the morning go to sleep."

"because she was afraid someone would Cesar :D"

"Johnny oh my god-"

Lame puns and pick up lines for days™

Makes fun of you for being short but he loves to give you piggy back rides

"you look like a 5th grader." "Johnny that makes you sound like a pedo-" "OH SHIT"

He is needy™ but acts like he isn't

He loves to hold your small figure in his big hands

He runs his fingers through your hair and massages you whenever you're stress

"baabeee... Can I have some cuddles?"

He doesn't really like cuddling since he has such a big body but he will whenever you feel sad

He likes to see you wearing his clothes

His hoodies and your socks are his favorite outfit on you ;)

Will purposely put his clothes in your closet

But you're not complaining

He begs you to get matching couple tattoos

You tell him it's stupid and than he gives you the silent treatment

So you end up agreeing

He also forces you to make cringy couple videos while wearing matching clothes

You love hate it

Once you guys visited his family in Chicago and he tripped you while you were talking to his mom

So you got revenge by pouring salt all over his food

You guys always play pranks on each other

While on the trip you put pink hair dye in "his shampoo"

But it was his dad's shampoo

He was not happy

His family really likes you especially because you aren't towering over them

Johnny made you do aegyo and his mom walked in

"Johnny I know you have an aegyo kink, so next time please lock your door" *leaves*

"mOM" Johnny is sitting there embarrassed while you're rolling on the floor laughing

Anyways,

Johnny likes to treat you to a lot of things

So at one point you had to steal his wallet so he could stop

He still doesn't stop

"y/n, give me my wallet. I need to treat you like the prince you are."

You give it back to him but you ended up treating him

You know he likes to be taken care of

Johnny likes to embarrass you

Once Johnny was doing a vlive and you walked in "Damn is that my boyfriend?" *Shoves the camera in your face* "why you so damn cute for? BIH why? Oh damn look at that ASs"

You made sure to have vlive notifications on

Also after that Johnny wasn't allowed to do solo vlives

Also did I mention Johnny is ass obsessed?

Like he really REALLY loves your ass

He likes to give it pats, rubs, pokes, bites, etc.

The first time he touched your butt was during a Lazy day

You were laying on him when he suddenly places his hands on your butt and started patting it

Ever since then he couldn't keep his hands off of your butt

not to be nsfw but while you guys were cuddling he started rubbing your butt

Your face flushed a deep red and you tried not to make any noises

He looked down at you confused but then realized what was happening and smirked at you

He slapped your ass and you accidentally let out a moan and he laughed at you

"joHNNY for FUcks sake" *you walked away from him embarrassed* (sorry but I couldn't help myself)

Anyways

He takes things too Literally (as a joke)

"Johnny go take a shower, you stink"

"where do you want me to take it?"

Johnny asked you to be his boyfriend at the park

It was raining but you guys stayed underneath the playground

"have you ever thought about kissing in the rain?"

"no, but I thought about kissing you"

After that you guys have been inseparable

He is always spamming you with love memes

Johnny:

Y/n: Johnny why

Once he took a meme video and said "send this to your crush"

so you sent it to Jaehyun as a joke

"y/n, why did you send it to Jaehyun?"

"because he's my celeb crush"

"y/n... I am a celeb... And I am your boyfriend."

"yOUr poInT????"

"Y/N!!"

[thisdiscontentedwinter]

submission

Hello, do you remember me? I’m the anon who asked for help because he’s afraid that he’ll become an SJW. I just want to say thanks for the advice, for Disco, Disco’s followers, and Disco’s anons. If you remember getting an ask from an anon about a gay guy who’s insecure about his appearance, that’s also me. Also a huge thank you for that. I just want to ‘report’ to you about my progress.

I’ve tried to detach myself away from celebrities. I try to avoid looking at pics of my favorite celebs like RDJ, or Tom Holland, because for now, they are quite triggering for me. But I’m getting better, I promise! If I used to get upset for like, hours, after I saw pictures of them, because I imagine them being unfaithful, now I usually forget about it after like overthinking for 15 minutes, and move on.

But today, I cracked. I stumbled upon this blog http://yourfaveisproblematic.tumblr.com/, and from the very first start, I knew that browsing that blog would do me no good, but in the end I still did it. And as expected, it really made (makes) me upset & lose hope, when I see racist, sexist, homophobic celebrities still going strong (some are stronger), and it really makes me more upset when I found out that some of my faves even defended their friends who have/had that behavior. I really feel alone when I’m thinking about this issue because I feel I probably the only one who stupidly gets upset over other people’s behavior. People that I personally don’t know. I feel I’m the only one who takes issues about racism, etc seriously amongst my rl friends. That makes me wonder, am I the only one who takes it seriously? Or am I the only one who takes it TOO seriously?

About the infidelity thing, I think I know why I was sooo upset about people being unfaithful, especially men. I just (over)empathized because my father was one. He slept with lots of girls when he was young, leaving many of the pregnant, and he used to share that story with me & my siblings when we were kids, and he was proud like it was something funny to tell, but deep inside, even until now, I get sick remembering his story. Add that to my personality, who is sensitive by nature, and my tendency to empathize more to the minority since I am one too, makes me oversensitive about infidelity. And with people accepting/don’t care about men being unfaithful because reasons like “he’s a guy, it’s no surprise”, I’m upset because it teaches the younger men to think “well, since I’m a guy, it’s not a big deal if I cheat, every man does it”. And it’s making me feel really upset because I feel there’s no progress in the world. Men keep being shitty & entitled because “boys will be boys”.

But I have to say, the racism & sexism that happen (even on twitter) still upsets me a lot. As a gay Asian man, I feel really angry whenever I see sexist & racist post, but I can ignore homophobia, maybe because I’m still closeted and yet to face real-life homophobia. Like when I saw a twitter video (from your anon actually) about a black couple making fun/mimicking the accent of a Vietnamese salon lady, and the twitter response was torn between offended Asians Vs “It’s not a big deal/black people can’t be racist because we’re minorities” from mostly black people. I was really upset because racism against Asian is still being severely overlooked & made fun of. Like if that video was about an Asian doing blackface etc, or making fun of black people, people will lose their shit. But what made me feel better is there are also lots of black people who also thought that it was not cool.

About my body acceptance, I started to unfollow lots of tumblrs & subreddits that I used to follow, most of them are porn/nsfw blogs about sexy men, which you can guess, most of them are white men. I am following more Asian men blogs, so I can have a more positive and realistic body goals.

For now, I still want to get surgery on my face, but I’m not as depressed as I was. The difference is, I used to think “I’m so ugly, I need surgery, why the fuck I was born like this”, and now I think “If I had money, I’ll fix this and this”. Maybe it’s not much of a big difference, but I guess I don’t think about killing myself that much now.

The dating scene in the gay community sucks, you’re right. Not to mention that racism is also rampant in the gay community. If there’s an Asian guy who rants about being fetishized, people will start calling us crybaby, bitchy, clingy, etc. Or telling us that we should be grateful because at least there are people who want us.

They will never know how it feels to be conditioned to like a certain group of people, yet that certain group of people (are also conditioned, I guess to) find us unattractive.

If we say about wanting a proper gay Asian representation in media, people will say that we ask too much. I feel that’s rich, coming from a community who also wants “proper” representation for LGBT aka white gay dude.

Recently, I’m telling myself “Start from the little things, take baby steps before you can change the world.” Maybe I’m being too impatient and too ambitious, but I feel I’m contributing nothing to the world. If I tell my friends not to be sexist, would they stop being sexist? Probably not, since I have done that a few years ago and my guy friends still have sexist mindset. Then what am I good for? Will I be making a difference to the world in 10 years? Will I even have the chance to be creating a difference to lots of people? If not, then what am I doing? Am I that insignificant? Should I just let go of my cause, and live without any consideration to the others?

Sorry if I sound too dramatic & exaggerating. I hope you don’t mind me getting things off my chest here. Thank you so much Disco. I’m sorry if any of my words offend you or anyone reading this.

DW: 

Thanks for letting me know how you’re going! I’m glad you’re doing better. It might only feel like small steps to you, but I think it’s huge that you’re not being as negative on yourself, and not wanting to kill yourself. (You did say “that much”, which is huge progress, but I hope you can keep working on your self acceptance so that it’s something that you can get past altogether.) I hope that you can keep taking these small steps, and that you see how far you’ve come. 

I think there’s a really important distinction between knowing that people are often shitty, and actually inviting that into your Tumblr feed every day, you know? You don’t need to look at blogs that reinforce the negative things you already know about the world--not if they’re going to trigger you. And I think I’ve told you this before--you need to look after yourself before you can look after anyone else, and there is absolutely nothing wrong with making yourself, and your own mental wellness, your first priority.  

I really wish you the best, and please remember that when you’re thinking those negative thoughts, and the world really does seem overwhelmingly shitty, and people seem overwhelmingly shitty as well, that there are plenty of us out there who want you to be happy.  

[annashipper]

Megapost 25/02/18

Anna:  I’m putting all of these asks together, because I wasn’t online yesterday and don’t want to flood everyone’s dashboards taking around in circles.  These are the last asks I’m putting up on the subject.

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Nonny Nr. 1:   "Benedict has been referred to as arrogant [...[ that he was ‘up his own arse’". Also the rest of the cast of "A:OC" thought he was being arrogant when, instead of staying in the place they rented for the whole cast (to give themselves a feeling of being a family), BC chose to remain, by himself, at a hotel. But, I don't go to team shit because I'm shy. I think most actors are arrogant, some just hide it well, but think of the ego it must take to think the whole world will love you.

Anna:  Yeah, I remember that, although of course Meryl Streep never characterized him as arrogant.  She just mentioned it casually in conversation:

Meryl Streep was actually quite gracious when talking about Ben on another instance:

By the way, I don’t think Ben in particular is one of those actors who assumes the whole world loves him.  Quite the opposite in fact.

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Nonny Nr. 2:  Re Arrogant. He has reportedly "not mixed well" on ONE movie (in all others he's described as nice, friendly, and helpful). In promos Streep said he wouldn't stay in a house w/ the rest of the cast. But it was at the start of the shamwow, he might have been worried about what stunt she might pull in front of mega stars. I wonder how many comments got to her employer. Does anyone know if she still has a job? Also aggravation with someone can seem like arrogance, she could just be a twat.

Anna:  As far as Meryl Streep goes, see above.  

By the way, as far as I’m aware of, Weirdo wasn’t in the picture back then.  I might be wrong cause this all happened before I ever became a fan.

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Nonny Nr. 3:  It is very strange. When somebody write Sophie is arrogant, we say, well she is Weirdo, gold digger, so avant-garde and so on, what do you want from her? But when somebody say Ben is arrogant.. well he is just a human, he has a bad day, it is not professional to say that and so on. This is not the first time when somebody say he is arrogant and think about himself too much. 

Anna:  Nonny, I believe I’ve made it perfectly clear that I take no issue with the journalist’s opinion of Ben.  My issue was with her lack of professionalism.  If anyone has a soapbox to stand on and share their personal opinions with the world, that is journalists.  The fact that she didn’t do it on an article, but chose to do it on social media tells me everything I need to know about her journalistic integrity  ;o)

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Nonny Nr. 4:   I remember one interviewer at the flower show he attended with Wanda saying he was stroppy. But then I found out later she had done a butcher piece on him previously. Yeah I wouldn’t be to nice to someone that wrote something nasty about me previously.

Anna:  I don’t remember that particular instance Nonny, but I’m with you, in that I wouldn’t blame any public figure who’d be cagey when confronted with a journalist who’s done a butcher piece on them in the past.  That’s just human nature.

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Nonny Nr. 5:   I don't mind the hair but oh boy whatever he is doing for his face is working. Looked great in both the high and unfiltered low res pics!

Anna:  I agree Nonny.  I think he looks much more relaxed nowadays and decidedly younger than he did (especially a couple of years ago).

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Izzy:   "What I’d really like to know is this:  at what point did she decide to add tags to her post? "-The 2nd set of tags she made was in the form of a comment and it's at the top so she did that before the Ubers chimed in. And if u look at her other posts she does the same thing whenever she posts a pic of a celeb. She tagged a pix of Dakota Johnson with unrelated people like Emma stone & ScarJo. She seems like a flake and unprofessional but she didnt do anything special against Ben w/the tags

Anna:  Thanks for putting things into perspective Izzy!  It always helps with weeding out an attention seeker  :D

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RAA:  I have finally watched Black Panther, I loved it! I am pleasantly surprised by Martin's character, he was a bit bland in Civil War, in BP he has more than 2 sentences, do some humour and he even get to do some action! It sometime reminded me of the Hobbit, especially with the battles. Loved the story, does anybody knows if it's like the comic? Lupita is fantastic, and we get to see her, unlike when she was in Star Wars.

Anna:  I haven’t read a single Marvel comic in my life RAA, so I have no idea about BP in particular.

With regards to Martin, I have to say I was pleasantly surprised by how much screen time he was allotted.  I wasn’t expecting his role to be as significant.  Then again, that only goes to show that Ryan Coogler wasn’t messing around when writing the script.  There’s a reason none of the characters in the film feel like two dimensional cardboard cutouts.

[ciera-richez]

The GQ article, IMO...straight up ridiculousness, and lies vs. the truth behind them.

Any of you who follow me on Twitter or follow this blog know that I don’t usually post my own original posts very often, but today I feel I need to...also it’s hard to say what I want to say with a 140 character limit (please Twitter, just stop with that LOL).

I wasn’t planning to read this article...I still really haven’t. I have skimmed through it, however, and some things jumped out at me that I wanna point out, and basically express my opinions on these things. Before you ask, I’m not posting the whole thing, because I think the whole thing is ridiculous and the feel of it to me is like it was written by a 12 year old, rather than an adult “journalist.”

Anyway, here we go...

1) For starters, the first several paragraphs... What the actual fuck? To me, it’s ridiculous rambling, filling up space to make the article look bigger. Totally unnecessary.

2) The singer...his “romantic partner.”

Hm...not “fiance?” 😱 How is this possible?

Please...if their version of “romance” is not seeing each other for months, and she’s out there partying and doing lord knows what with other men while he’s working, then I want no part of that.

Give me a break...they’re not together, okay? They never were.

3) Is it just me, or does this “journalist’s” description of The Twilight Saga make her sound like a bit of a hater?

4) The paparazzi descended upon him in a way we hadn’t seen since Ben Affleck and Jennifer Lopez were a thing. (They were once a thing!) Tabloids camped outside his home. “People were like, ‘It’s fine, who cares?’” he says now. “‘They’re just photos or whatever.’ They’ll say, ‘Just live your life.’ But that’s not life for me, if someone’s observing it.”

And this is exactly why he hides his life away from the public eye! Whatever you’re seeing in public is not what’s real. It’s the “public persona” he wants you to see. Same with his wife. This is how they hide.

5) During the height of the Twilight madness, he had each of his friends call Ubers while he traded outfits with them in the restaurant bathroom, so that photographers wouldn’t know which car he got into, and then he sent all the Ubers in different directions, because drop dead. He rode around in the trunks of cars “constantly,” he says, because fuck you. At one point he had five rental cars and kept them, along with a change of clothes, in parking lots around town. If he was being followed, he’d dip into one of the lots, switch his clothing and his car, and leave. One day, coming home from Venice, he realized he was being tailed. He drove around for hours because he didn’t want anyone to know where his new house was. Finally, as the sun came up, he pulled over and got out of the car and approached one of the photographers. “You’ve gotten your pictures,” he said. “Can I please just go home now?” “No,” the guy told him. “My boss says I can’t come back until I know where your new house is. Sorry, man.” Pattinson never tried to negotiate or appeal to their humanity again.

I can totally picture all of this happening...and it’s sad. Paparazzi and tabs are nothing but money-hungry fucking vultures, and they don’t care what they have to do or who they hurt to make the all-mighty dollar. Disgusting!

6) “There are ways to disappear, like, fairly easily,” he tells me. “It just involves effort, and most people can’t be bothered to put the effort in.”

‘Nuff said.

7) I’d just like to point out how many times the “journalist” mentions his “girlfriend” in this article...

It speaks to me. She’s clearly in love with the faux-mance.

Also, she speaks about Kristen by calling her the “ex” and only mentions her by name once, from what I saw (remember, I only skimmed the article), and that was when she spoke about Twilight and Kristen being his co-star.

Get over it, honey...Kristen’s his wife. 😉

8) About the paparazzi: “They’re just losers trying to do their jobs.”

So true! But they could go about things a lot differently than they do, rather than shoving cameras in celeb’s faces 24/7, making up bullshit stories to go along with whatever pictures they do capture (and/or photoshop) and alienating people just to make a buck.

9) In fact, Pattinson tells me, he went to therapy a few years ago during a low time, and the therapist often remarked how good he was at talking without saying anything. Now he applies this skill whenever he’s forced to hang out with people like me. “If I could stay silent,” he says, “I would.”

Exactly...he talks without saying anything. He’s not giving anything away that he doesn’t want out there.

10) Me: “Are you getting married?” Him: “Eh…,” then laughs.

Did she really expect him to answer that?

11) I try again for even one iota of intimate conversation. But he just asks me why he would ever answer. So I think back on all the interviews I’ve done, and I tell him very honestly that I think it’s because people want to be heard. Most of us, even the most famous of us—sometimes especially the most famous of us—want to be understood.

“I don’t,” he says. “I want to be misunderstood. People are always changing, and the more you put something down in print, people form opinions and they’re constantly creating who they think you are. If you do something that contradicts that, or if you do something which goes out of that box, then you can look like a liar or something like that.”

Which is why he says nothing.

I think that’s it of my observations of this ridiculousness of an article. A lot of it (if not all of it) was just bullshit, in my opinion, and could’ve been done a lot better.

But...this isn’t the first time an article with he or Kristen has been shit, and I’m sure it won’t be the last.

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